MY PERSONAL DIARY OF 2005

1 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Today is the first day of English New Year 2005. I observed people welcoming it with colourful designs at the entrances of their houses. The zeal and spirit of this occasion was evident everywhere. I bought a copy of my favorite Telugu daily Eenadu and scanned it for half an hour. Bought a monthly Metro Express bus pass for 450 rupees at the office of e-seva in New Nallakunta by 9:30. My cousin Ravindra and I started to Secunderabad by 10:30. We bought two T-shirts for 100 rupees at the Fantoosh retail outlet in Secunderabad by Rethifile bus stand. Then both of us had our breakfast in Star of India hotel. Then we walked toward Alfa Hotel area opposite Secunderabad railway station. There I bought ten casual wear T-shirts for 650 rupees. Ravindra bought one T-shirt and one wristwatch in this highly crowded area of roadside sellers. We returned to the hostel by 1:00. Went to Dilsukh Nagar by 3:00 to enquire about the failure of my cousin Ravindra’s job with A to Z Consumer Services at Chaitanyapuri. Bought one advance booking Easy Movies ticket at the e-seva office in New Nallakunta by 5:00. Moved to cinema Devi at RTC crossroads by 5:45. There were many viewers around these three cinemas. Watched the recently released Telugu film “Mass” from 6:00 to 9:00. Had my supper by 9:30. May gods and goddesses bless me. Went to sleep by 10:00.

2 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Scanned Eenadu for half an hour. My cousin Shiva and I took a bus at the Osmania University gate and reached Kothi by 9:00. He wanted to buy a few items to take home. We bought two sweaters for 400 rupees. Most of these shops were kept closed today due to the holiday effect. We went to Ameerpet by 10:00. Shops were kept closed even there. Shiva decided to go back to our hostel. Took a bus and proceeded to the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu by 11:30. I asked him to paint my photo taken in my childhood in Tirupati along with my parents, brothers and my uncle Rama Raju. He agreed to do it in some six months’ time. Our friend Trinadh came there by 12:30. All of us had lunch by 1:30. Trinadh and I went to his rented abode in Yousufguda by 2:15. He recently married and brought his wife to a small room on the terrace of a big house. Both of us walked to the nearby Cherma’s Bus Stop by 3:00. We kept on waiting for the arrival of Saroja, a classical dancer, to see whom we went there on the request of Veeranjaneyulu. Trinadh’s friend also joined us by 3:30. Three of us walked to a nearby place where she practices her classical dance regularly. We waited for her from 4:00 to 5:00. We knew that she would not come for dance practice today. They moved on their ways. Came back to our hostel by 6:00. Today I talked with some folks about the job for Ravindra. Washed a pair of clothes and my hair by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:00. Talked with my hostel mates for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30.

3 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Went to a pushcart by Himalaya Book World and had my breakfast by 8:30. Took my seat of work by 8:45. My colleague Soumi Acharya returned to the office today finishing her short tour to her hometown Kolkata. She brought a few sweets and distributed them in our office. Today I typed out eight pages of annual review on my one-year association with ICFAI University Press as a Sub Editor. This afternoon I was partially involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior. This afternoon I received a Money Order of 350 rupees from my friend Kuracha Srinivasa Rao at Kendriya Vidyalaya in Nizam Sagar. It was toward the application cost which I bought and sent him recently. By 4:00 got a call from an executive of IMI Software at Somajiguda. She asked me to come to their office by 5:30 tomorrow. Went to Cherma’s retail outlet in Ameerpet by 5:30. Bought two wristwatches for the relatives of my cousin Shiva on his request. Then I bought one pair of clothes for him in Kumar Shirts showroom there. It is for coming Sankranti. Returned to the hostel by 7:00. Had my supper by 8:00. Talked with my hostel mates for some time. Went to sleep by 9:30.

4 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Went out and had my breakfast at a pushcart near Himalaya Book World by 8:30. Entered my personal cabin by 8:45. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. This afternoon I knew that our coordinator Annies leaves this organization in two weeks’ time. She got a good job with another company in Hyderabad. She has been like a backbone to ICFAI University Press for the last three years. Leaving her to some other company will certainly be considerable loss to this press. I don’t understand why the management failed to retain her. She is a symbol of professional talent and personal charm. I felt disturbed to know that she resolved to leave this organization. Punched my attendance card by 5:00 and took a bus opposite the NIMS bus stop by 5:10. Reached the office of IMI Software Limited in the second floor of Kautilya Building at Somajiguda. This place is very near to Erramanzil bus stop. The folks of this company want me for a position with them. One of the staff members said that the important people supposed to interview me had gone out to attend an urgent meeting. They will call me later. Had my supper by 8:00. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

5 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Today I found one suitable job for me. A Dubai-based publishing house advertised for various positions for its English daily to be launched soon. Had my breakfast by 8:30 at the pushcart by Himalaya Book World. Entered my personal cabin by 8:50. The first thing I did after starting the computer was applying to the Dubai-based publishing house, by email, for the position of Sub Editor or Feature Writer. I sent two versions of my curriculum vitae in black and white and color formats. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one research journal. My cousin Ravindra came to our office by 2:30. I took two-hour permission from 3:00 to 5:00. Ravindra and I reached Musheerabad by 4:00. We talked with a fellow of Best Group of Services, a local consultancy dealing with regional jobs, about a job with the American Biscuit Company at village Rudraram near Patan Cheru. Thereafter I booked a parcel of 12 casual T-shirts at the branch office of Navata Road Transport in Vidya Nagar to be sent to my brother Sambha at Adduroad. Night talked with Dr Sivaram of Uniqare Hospital about the surgery to scar on my chin. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my classic dreams.

6 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart near Himalaya Book World by 8:30. Entered my personal cabin by 9:00. Today I was partially involved in the editing of two journals, The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics and The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. This afternoon I knew that my cousin Ravindra Varma was not allowed to work as an employee in the pet food manufacturing factory because he is not above 19 years of age. Recently Lipton Company’s tea and coffee vending machine was set up in our office. It offers tea, coffee, lemon tea and hot water. The tea is very tasty. I am being tempted to have it once or twice a day. Returned to the hostel by 6:00. I advised Ravindra to take it easy and join some other job offered by that consultancy. Met Dr Sivaram by 7:15 in Uniqare Hospital. He checked the scar on my chin. He clarified that a thin mark of scar remains on my chin even after the planned surgery. The related plastic surgery will be done on the 8^th of this month in the morning hours. Had my supper of noodles by 9:30 along with my cousin Ravindra down Shivam Road. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

7 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Called up my folks at home by 7:20. My father and mother talked with me. They told me about a marriage alliance for me. A well-educated girl is on offer to be my bride. I told my parents not to mind their financial status if the girl is very beautiful. All I want in my life partner is exceptional beauty and excellent education. May God bless me such wife. Got the office opened as an authorized signatory by 7:45. Scanned today’s dailies till 8:15. Had my breakfast at the pushcart by 8:30. Entered my personal cabin by 8:50. Released The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior to the printing press by 1:00. Completed editing the material of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics and kept its pre-final copy ready by 5:00. My route buses were thickly packed by 5:30. Somehow I ventured and returned to the hostel by 7:00, standing up throughout. Had my supper by 8:00. My cousin Ravindra called me up and said that he would join his duty soon. He got a job with a plastic chair manufacturing unit in Jeedi Metla through the local consultancy we consulted. May God bless him. Night talked with my hostel mates for some time. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.

8 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went to the nearby Andhra Bank’s ATM Centre by 7:45 and withdrew 2000 rupees. Reached Uniqare Hospital in Durgabai Deshmukh Colony by 8:20. Dr Sivaram came to hospital by 9:20. He did an injection on my hand to see if it reddens that spot. Then I took a tablet. I wore a green patient dress by 9:45. Dr Sivaram had already put on his operation dress. I was on a cot in a mini operation theatre by 10:00. The doctor injected a local anesthetic around the scar on my chin. This operation went on for one hour and the plastic surgery for the removal of scar ended successfully. This scar settled on my chin in the month of April in 1992. I met with a road accident while travelling in an auto rickshaw when the driver applied a sudden brake to save a girl rushing across the road. This plastic surgery cost me 1770 rupees. The doctor did not take his service charges as part of our casual contract during my previous payment for the rhinoplasty. There is weakness in the face due to loss of a little blood during the surgery. Swelling developed on my chin due to stitches. Returned to our hostel soon after this surgery. Spent rest of the day in the hostel. Night had some rice with a spoon with difficulty. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

9 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 8:00. Got off the bus at Yousufguda Check post by 8:40 and took an auto rickshaw up to Journalist colony junction. Reached the abode of Veeranjaneyulu by 9:15. He was rendering final touches to a painting of Lord Venkateshwara brought by his friend from Vijayawada. I categorized the soft copies of his paintings into three sections; Tanjore, Reproductions and Own Works from 10:00 to 12:00 on his computer system. Then copied some images from my compact disc into three sections; Female Beauty, Natural Beauty and Living Beauty. The mother of the artist prepared Upma with wheat flour on my request. I had it with a spoon for my lunch. Veeranjaneyulu, Hari and I reached Birla Temple by 4:30 in an auto rickshaw from Journalist Colony. We saw Saroja, the supposed classical dancer, interested in marrying Veeru. She got 40 marks for 100 in my assessment. Veeranjaneyulu cannot marry such woman. Returned to the hostel by 5:45 by bus. Immediately went to the nearby Uniqare Hospital. A nurse cleaned the operated part on my chin and dressed it up again. I paid 25 rupees for it as service charge. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

10 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart by 8:15. Entered my personal cabin by 8:30. Morning I was involved in editing the material of The ICFAI Journal of Science and Technology. I sent The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics for final check by its consulting editor by 3:00. Afternoon I knew that my cousin Ravindra is not interested in joining the job shown by the consultancy, for which we paid 700 rupees as service charge. Today my face looked weak due to the effect of plastic surgery on my chin. My familiar folks expressed a little interest in the abnormality on my face. Afternoon Sriram came to our office and said that 70% of typing of my personal diary of 1995 is over. He showed me a book, the size of which can be used for printing my ten personal diaries. Came back to the hostel by 6:00. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought ten rupees of eatables for me along with his parcel of supper. I am unable to chew rice and so avoiding it. Recently I bought two sets of Duracell batteries. Telugu film songs have been a source of inspiration and means of psychic healing for me for long. Night listened to Telugu cine songs to heal the wound of my plastic surgery. Night it was a little cold outside. Went to sleep by 9:30.

11 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Went out and had my breakfast at a pushcart by 8:30. Entered my personal cabin by 8:45. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. Evening the consulting editor of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance came to me and handed the material of her February issue. I knew that she studied in the University of Hyderabad. Her face is very attractive. I don’t understand why some people look so. Her name is Alivelu. God creates some people in a peculiar design. Heart moves into fascination at the very first glance. Her voice is also entrancing. May God bless her with bright smiles so that esthetes like me can live meaningfully for some time. Came back to the hostel by 6:30. My cousin Ravindra went home for celebrating Sankranti with his folks. He told me about his intention to go home this afternoon. I did not ask him to stay back. Perverted blokes of the world cannot be brought into a right path by sensitive fellows like me. Had a few potato snacks by 7:20 for my supper. Temperatures are increasing due to the effect of recent Tsunami. Listened to Telugu cine songs till 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

12 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Went out and had my breakfast by 8:45. Entered my personal cabin by 9:00. By 11:00 I knew that our colleague and Senior Sub Editor Annies K E leaves our office this evening itself. Went out and bought a Royal Executive Bond paper. Got my typed out letter printed out on it to give her as a representation of my love and respect for her. Meanwhile the representative of a Begumpet based job consultancy called me up and asked me if I am interested to leave the present job. She informed me to send my curriculum vitae by email. I did it by 11:30. She said that she would delete the “Checklist to the Employer” section in my CV before sending it to the folks of Cadsys. I agreed for it. Her name is Uma. The sub editors of our floor met in a room in the ground floor by 3:30 to formally bid farewell to Annies by our responses on individual basis. We talked among ourselves casually for half an hour. Annies was offered a small pearl set by us as a parting gift. She tried to resist her tears of pain against the mood of this occasion. I already gave my letter to her. Returned to the hostel by 6:30. My cousin Kiran and I saw the recently released Telugu film “Balu” in cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet from 9:00 to 11:30. Went to sleep by 12:00 for peace.

13 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today is eve of Sankranti and day of bonfire. Freshened up myself and listened to Telugu cine songs from 7:15 to 8:15. Then started to the nearby Uniqare Hospital.  Waited for Dr Sivaram from 8:30 to 9:30. He came by 9:40 to attend me. He undid the stitches of plastic surgery on my chin to the scar in 10 minutes. He said that the healing is well. He applied an ointment on the operated part of my chin and pasted a plaster. Advised me to avoid movements by my lower lip for some days. Informed me to meet him after one week’s time. I am happy with his treatment. I was charged 53 rupees for the service of their staff in this regard. Went to my familiar hair salon for consulting my favorite barber there and be attended by him. I told him to shave my light beard very carefully, especially around the operated part of my chin. Then he cut my hair also. He advised me to remove the plaster on my chin. I too felt it. This plaster is attracting somewhat pitiable or partly inquisitive glances of passers by toward me. I have been feeling uncomfortable to face it for the last five days. Bought three big potato samosas for my lunch and evening snacks. Took head bath and felt relieved. Kept the recovering chin open and applied ointment thickly on it. Spent rest of the day within the hostel. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

14 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Walked down Shivam Road by 9:00 along with my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju. Many shops were kept closed due to Sankranti. We had breakfast by 9:30. Then we moved to cinema Sri Ramana for the morning show. Famous south Indian choreographer Prabhu Deva directed a Telugu film for the first time. M S Raju produced it. Anji bought tickets by 10:15. This film would be shown from 11:15. We returned to our hostel and spent there for half an hour. The film was started by the scheduled time. I enjoyed watching this film from the start to the end. It is a sensitive love story. The son of a London based millionaire falls in love with a village girl in India. His love for her blossoms in a marriage occasion. He sacrifices his rich and comfortable life for earning the love of his beloved in the village. He leaves London and lives in that village for one year like a hard-working farmer. His sweetheart suffers a lot, daily seeing her lover in hardships, to prove the reliability of his love for her. Eventually this dedicated and disciplined lover wins the race. Climax presents these two sincere lovers as married and joyful creatures. I admire the beautiful facial expressions of this heroine Trisha. She is a good actress endowed with natural beauty. Thus I nominally celebrated Sankranti, watching a film of sensitive love story. The name of this film is “Nuvvosthaanante Nenoddhantaana”. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

15 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Today there was not a single newspaper to read. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart by Himalaya Book World near filling station. Entered my personal cabin by 9:00. Today there was no Internet supply to our office till 5:00. I spent all the day devotedly editing The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. Anvesha Ganguly, the Research Associate of Accounting World magazine, sat in the cabin on my right. She looks beautiful and suits the requirements I am expecting in a bride for me. If my parents can’t pick up a beautiful bride for me, I will propose to her. I think she rejects me. She is a Brahmin girl from Kolkata. The shadows of many beauties have been passing off my lovesick eyes for many years. May God bless these beautiful girls and women in this world. The essence of my existence is based on their flourishing beauty. Our office looked gloomy today because there was no Annies. May God bless her with smiles of success and bliss. Returned to the hostel by 6:30. Anjaneya Raju and I went down Shivam Road by 7:30. I bought potato mixed snacks for 10 rupees for my supper. Listened to Telugu cine songs till 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

16 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Took Uppal-Jubilee Hills Check post bus and got off it at its destination by 8:40. Walked rest of the distance for physical exercise. Reached the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu by 9:00. He had just finished his morning walk. Went to the nearby Internet café in Film Nagar by 11:15. I checked www.pellisandadi.com website for the profiles of beautiful brides for Veeranjaneyulu. There was hardly any profile of beauty to be considered. Came back to his rented abode by 12:30. The relatives of Veeranjaneyulu prepared tasty Vegetable Biryani and Chicken Curry for our lunch. All of us had it by 2:00. Watched the Telugu feature film “Boys” on the computer of Veeru from 1:00 to 4:00. Today Veeru told me to search for a beautiful girl in orphanages for him to marry. Now beautiful and educated girls are after software engineers, doctors, engineers, film stars, millionaires and industrialists. It is pity to know that an artist with inbuilt virtues, strong cultural base and a great sense of admiration for exceptional female beauty is unable to find a poor and beautiful girl to marry simply and selflessly. Indians became too wise to understand. Every girl is dreaming to marry an NRI. Came back to the hostel by 7:00. Had my supper by 8:00. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

17 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. This morning daylight broke out a bit late. It was slightly dark when I took the bus by 6:50. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Had my breakfast by 8:30 in a small hotel near Shirdi Sai Baba Temple. Entered my personal cabin by 8:50. Today I was partially involved in the editing of two journals. This morning I talked with our Administrative Manager K V Rao about the intention of my friend Veeranjaneyulu to marry any beautiful Hindu girl from any orphanage in the state of Andhra Pradesh. He advised me to go to Raghavendra Swamy Mutt at Barkatpura and see if there are registered profiles of brides with them. This afternoon I sent a letter to the member secretary of National Commission for Women to help me find a beautiful girl for my friend Veeranjaneyulu to marry. I don’t know if she replies to my email. Got off the bus by over bridge near Barkatpura. Walked a little ahead and entered Raghavendra Swamy Temple. I saw an ordinary book there carrying details of some brides. Ninety five percent of these girls are Madhwa Brahmins. They want software engineers and NRIs only to marry them. Came back to the hostel by 7:00. Had my supper by 8:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 to forget this vicious world.

18 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned the events of the world in words for one hour in the newspapers. Went to Hotel Manikya Foods near Shirdi Sai Baba Temple and had my breakfast by 8:45. Entered my personal cabin by 9:00. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of two journals. Today I found the bounced email in my Yahoo Mail, which I sent to the National Commission for Women searching for a bride for my friend Veeranjaneyulu. Took a bus opposite NIMS Hospital and reached Dilsukh Nagar by 7:00. Walked toward Chaitanyapuri and reached the consultancy to which I paid 1000 rupees as security deposit for a job for my cousin Ravindra. He earlier told me to come after 21 days to collect the money as my cousin stopped working with them. He gave me that money. I felt happy. Returned to the hostel by 7:40 along with the parcel of supper from the hotel by Shivam Road. Today I read in a local daily that a fellow has been conducting prostitution in the city with the girls brought from New Delhi. Girls want money. Rich boys in cities crave for exciting bodily pleasure. Limitless liberty of rich girls leads them into perversion. Boys with morals and girls with virtues look like fools now. Bad times never allow good creatures to live happily. Went to sleep by 10:30 to heal my solitary and disturbed psyche in my dreams.

19 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:10. Got the office opened on behalf of the Administrative Officer Manjunath Bhat by 7:35. Had my breakfast at Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance. This morning got a call from Jyothi of Globarena asking me to attend a written test this evening in their office. Afternoon there was another call from another employer asking me if I am interested to move from the present organization. Afternoon sent an email to Deepthi of MBA Review magazine. Took permission for one hour and left the office by 4:00. Took an auto rickshaw and reached Jubilee Hills Check post. From there took another auto rickshaw and reached Film Nagar. Walked for 15 minutes and reached the office of Globarena by 5:00 by Road No. 78 in Jubilee Hills. Did the written test satisfactorily for one hour. There was much delay in getting my desired buses in time and so reached our hostel by 10:00. My cousin Ravindra returned from Peda Gummuluru this morning. He brought homemade sweets for me from my home. Had my supper by 10:15. Washed a pair of clothes. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

20 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Went out and had my breakfast at Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:45. Entered my personal cabin by 9:00. Today I sent two electronic mails to two Russian brides. One is 36 and the other is 28. Both of them are beautiful. I proposed to the older one to marry my friend Veeranjaneyulu. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. Afternoon, Jyothi of Globarena, from Jubilee Hills, called me up and informed me to attend an interview in their office. Took an auto rickshaw by 5:10 at Punjagutta Crossroads for Film Nagar. From there took another auto rickshaw and reached the office of Globarena by Road No. 78. Human Resource Manager Ajay Chandra talked with me from 5:30 to 6:00. He told me to join their training batch of Instructional Designing. They pay me 10,000 rupees a month for six months during this training period. Then there will be 20% pay hike. Thereafter the increase in my salary depends on my performance. He asked me to sign a legal bond to work for two years with them at a return compensatory payment of 1, 50,000 rupees. Returned to the hostel by 7:30. Went to Uniqare Hospital by 8:00 to talk with Dr Sivaram. Had my supper by 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

21 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:15. Got our office opened as an authorized signatory by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Had my breakfast at Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:45. Entered my personal cabin by 9:00. First sent an email to Ajay Chandra of Globarena stating that I am not interested to join them. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. Today a girl called Swathi sent me an email asking me to send my curriculum vitae. There is a job with a famous BPO company. I sent my CV to her email address. Came back to the hostel by 6:30. Went to Uniqare Hospital by 7:30 to meet Dr Sivaram. He checked the healing status of plastic surgery on my chin. He said that light marks of the scar get faded away in some days mixing in my skin color. He prescribed a costly cream for me to buy and daily apply on the marks of scar. He also told me to buy silicon tape to paste on the marks of scar for an early and better cure. These two things cost me not less than 1000 rupees. I gave him a few milk sweets sent by my mother from home. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

22 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30 and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:15. Scanned today’s dailies till 8:00. Then went to Hotel Manikya Foods and had my breakfast. Entered my personal cabin by 8:30. This morning I sent my application for the position of Quality Control Analyst at Transdyne in Dwarakapuri Colony by email. They recently advertised for these positions in local English daily. They want candidates to be very good at English. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing two journals. Afternoon Sriram came to me on my request to discuss the progress of typing of my personal diaries. I showed him a small novel, the size of which has to be followed for my diaries. Went to the office of Le Magnus University at Nagarjuna Hills by 5:20. Sriram is working in it as Chief Graphic Designer. It is part of ICFAI network of entities. Sriram and I took a bus opposite NIMS bus stop by 5:45. We reached Dilsukh Nagar by 7:00. He took me to his rented abode. I checked the typing quality of the word file of my diary of 1995. I told him to use Lucida Sans Unicode font. The font size must be nine. We also finalized the format of PageMaker for all my ten diaries to be printed soon. Returned to hostel by 9:30. I did not have my supper this night because Kiran failed to keep his promise made in this regard. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

23 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu by 8:00. I started editing the word file of my diary of 1995. It was typed up by my friend Sriram recently. I edited it for about seven hours continuously. I could complete editing January part of it only. I am correcting grammatical errors and making some changes in the text also, without distorting the spirit of original content, to keep up the purity of my diary. Today I edited that part which chronicles my schooling in three places. Took leave of Veeranjaneyulu by 5:00. Took a bus at Yousufguda Check post by 6:00 and reached our hostel by 7:00. I fell asleep in the bus when it was traveling on Telugu Thalli Flyover. It was inaugurated yesterday. It was cloudy outside. Breezes blowing into the bus made me drowsy. My cousin Ravindra brought the parcel of supper by 7:30 from Shirdi Sai Baba Hotel. My cousin Kiran and I had it by 8:00. Washed one pair of clothes by 9:20. Today I felt very disturbed when editing the typed content of my diary of 1995. It was living my childhood again. It is difficult to bear the burden of sweet memories. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my sweet dreams to find solace.

24 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went to Hotel Manikya Foods and had my breakfast by 8:15. Got the office opened by 8:30 on behalf of our Librarian Prakash. He came late today. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of one journal. Internet supply was stopped to our office from 10:00 by our Internet Service Provider. Our office fellows forgot to pay their dues for the last two months. Afternoon the representatives of ICICI Bank caught me at our office and requested me to take their credit card. They said that there won’t be any charges because I am a salaried employee of a reputed company now. I know that I don’t need a credit card at my present level of financial status. It can be a savior in critical conditions when we need money immediately to attend an urgent task at hand. I filled in that form and signed it. Came out of the office by 5:00. The latest news of murder of Paritala Ravi, a noted political figure from Anantapur district, by his enemies, in his hometown, in a bomb blast, spread throughout the city within seconds. All employees are hurrying up to bus stops to reach their homes early. Dakshayani, Afshan, my colleagues and I hired an auto rickshaw to rush to our places, which are in one route. Tension is on throughout the region. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

25 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. There are no buses today because Telugu Desam Party called for a state-wide strike today protesting against the murder of their party fellow Paritala Ravi. I took an MMTS train from Vidya Nagar station by 6:45. It went to Secunderabad. I discovered that it won’t go to Khairatabad which I expected. Got off it and took a sharing auto rickshaw up to Punjagutta Crossroads. Reached our office by 8:00. Today there is only 30% of attendance of our office staff. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. By 4:30 it rained and spread cooling effect all around. Muddy water occupied roads. By evening, APSRTC buses are allowed to ply. Took a bus opposite the NIMS Hospital and reached Kothi by 6:00. There took another bus and reached the hostel by 7:00. My cousin Kiran told me that Ravindra stole the cellular phone of my hostel mate Murali. Luckily that piece was discovered. I talked with him from 9:30 to 11:00 about the consequences. I advised him to go back to his home and work in their coconut farm. I angrily ordered him to leave the hostel and save me from the disturbances of this kind. He said that he would work in a hotel as a server. He is such idiot in our circle of families. I knew that he borrowed money from my hostel mates also. He proved a liar. Went to bed by 11:00 to forget the nuisance created by this bloke.

26 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Shiva brought breakfast by 7:30. Went out by 9:00 looking for a job in a hotel for Ravindra. I knew that there is a server job with Annapurna Mess down Shivam Road. Came back to the hostel and told my cousin to get ready to join this mess. Talked with my hostel mates for some time. Ravindra told me that he wants to go back to home. I felt happy at his decision. Went to the abode of Veeranjaneyulu in Jubilee Hills and got the recently edited text of my diary copied into a CD. He is preparing well for conducting his solo exhibition of paintings in some two months. Returned to the hostel by 1:30. Ravindra closed his door and doing something inside. I bought a well-ripen papaya. It was tasty and filled the need of my lunch. Ravindra took 200 rupees from the supervisor of our hostel because it is the balance amount of money to be paid back to him as he is leaving this hostel. I gave the supervisor this money toward the rent of next month for me. He said that he would go alone to Nampally railway station. I advised him on the bus route to be followed. He takes Godavari Express this night. Evening it rained for half an hour. It lent coolness to atmosphere. Power cut occurred for some time during these showers. Mosquitoes rose from their interior abodes and bit us terribly for some time. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 7:30. Had my supper by 8:30. Talked with Anjaneya Raju for one hour about various topics. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

27 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Got the office opened by 7:30 on behalf of another employee. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went to Hotel Manikya Foods and had my breakfast by 8:30. Entered my personal cabin by 8:45. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. Our operations manager said that there is need of two more proofreaders in our office in a week’s time. I told him about my friend Anjaneya Raju. He asked me to bring his CV. Afternoon I bought a book for Veeranjaneyulu in Himalaya Book World. He wants to write his personal diary now and then. Being very busy in his art work, he could hardly follow that norm. He wants a white paper book for this purpose. I bought it for 40 rupees. Took a bus by 5:15 and reached the abode of Veeranjaneyulu by 5:45. He went out to attend the opening ceremony of life size portrait of a Supreme Court Judge at the High Court of Andhra Pradesh. He did this portrait for 25,000 rupees. I gave the book to his brother. By mistake I went toward Madhapur taking a wrong bus. Came back to hostel by 9:00. Anjaneya Raju already brought the parcel of supper from the hotel. Had it by 9:30. Kiran brought 200 rupees using my HDFC Bank’s ATM card for my expenses. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

28 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:15. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:50. Reached our office by 7:20. Called up my folks at home and knew that my cousin Ravindra safely reached home. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went to Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:30 and had my breakfast. Entered my personal cabin by 8:45. Today I was seriously involved in the editing of one journal. Came to the bus stop opposite NIMS Hospital and found that every bus was heavily filled with passengers. Took a bus toward Dilsukh Nagar because it offered a seat for me to sit. From Dilsukh Nagar I took another bus and reached our hostel by 6:30. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I went down Shivam road to browse Internet. We found them all filled. Came back to an Internet café by Osmania University Road by 7:30. I helped him update his resume. We took about two hours to finish this work. Then he went down Shivam Road and brought the parcel of supper to our hostel by 9:30. Shiva, Kiran, Anjaneya Raju and I had it by 10:00. Mosquitoes are biting us regularly. We are keeping our ceiling fans at the maximum to drive them away. Winter is sending breezes into our rooms if the fan is at high speed. These lovesick hostel folks are thus coexisting with the creatures of soil and elements of environment. Bachelorhood is an irritating phase of human life. Went to sleep by 11:15 for my dreams.

29 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s dailies for 40 minutes. Went to the pushcart by Himalaya Book World and had my breakfast by 8:15. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. Sriram called me up by 10:00 and said that he needs 200 rupees this afternoon. I don’t carry much money with me nor keep my ATM card with me due to fear of loss or theft of them. My colleague and good friend Vijay Krishna lent me this money. The marketing executives of ICICI Bank came to me by 11:00 for a bank statement of my present account to issue their credit card to me. I prepared a letter for them to show in the office of Andhra Bank and get the statement on their own. Gave the required money to Sriram by 2:30 when he came to our office. Went to the abode of Veeranjaneyulu in Journalist Colony ‘A’ by 6:00 to give him the two books I bought for him in Himalaya Book World this afternoon. From there went to the rented room of our DTP operator and my friend Rama Rao by railway godown road in Moosapet. I wanted to edit the soft copy of my diary of 1995 on his computer. The floppy I carried did not run well. So, I could do a little editing only. He offered me delicious supper. Went to sleep there by 12:00 for my dreams.

30 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00 in the room of Rama Rao and came out from there by 6:45. Took two buses and reached our hostel by 7:45. Brushed my teeth by 8:00. Took an auto rickshaw by 8:10 and reached Dilsukh Nagar by 8:45. Had a Dosa at a pushcart by road. Bought 250 grams of milk sweets for 23 rupees and walked toward the rented abode of my friend Sriram. I was confused and so found his portion of residence with a little additional effort. I knocked at their door. Sriram woke up from bed to open it. Milk packets were placed at the entrance. He took them inside. He started his computer and allowed me to carry out the editing work of my diary of 1995. The floppy in which I stored the word file created problem even here to open. I took the original word file from his computer system and carried out editing from 10:00 to 4:00. My life of school education and entry into college part of the diary of 1995 was edited today. Meanwhile his relatives in the city came to see him. Anyhow I was already exhausted with mentally tiresome activity of editing. Took a bus and returned to our hostel by 5:40. Napped for half an hour to relax a little. Washed a pair of clothes and took a bath by 7:50. Shiva brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 8:00. Had it along with him by 8:30. I asked Kiran to bring his computer from Jaggampeta for me. He said he would bring it soon. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

31 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 7:45. Reached our office by 8:10. Had two buns for my breakfast. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Entered my personal cabin by 9:10. Today I edited one article of seven pages. Afternoon lunch was offered to the staff working in plot numbers 8 and 11 at ICFAI Faculty Recreation Centre in Nagarjuna Hills by 1:00. Went there by 1:30. There was a meeting of consulting editors with N J Yasaswy. They extended their formal lunch to us also. The food items were tasty. I enjoyed it. I found gathering of people and related ambience there interesting. Returned to our office (Plot No. 11 in Dwarakapuri Colony) by 3:00. I spent browsing Internet till 5:00. Came back to hostel by 6:00. Went to Sai Lakshmi Mess down Shivam Road by 7:00 and brought the parcel of supper by 7:30. Had it by 8:00. I am facing problem to get a computer system to edit the typed copies of my ten years of personal diaries, which I like to get printed. I can neither buy a computer nor go out from this hostel. Both are costly affairs at my present financial position. Our hostel supervisor said that computers won’t be allowed into this hostel. I curse my state of existence. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 8:30 to 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

1 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:15. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 7:15. Reached NIMS bus stop by 7:45. Withdrew 1800 rupees from the Andhra Bank ATM Center there. Went to our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for 20 minutes. Went to Hotel Manikya Foods and had my breakfast by 8:30. Entered my personal cabin by 9:00. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. Went to Plot No. 34 at Nagarjuna Hills by 12:45. Met Sriram in the office of Le Magnus University. I gave him 1800 rupees toward typing charges of my two personal diaries. He was busy with his office work. After my office hours in the evening, again went to him by 5:15. I sat with him for half an hour in his office. Both of us went to the abode of his brother-in-law at Ameerpet in the long lane starting from Cherma’s bus stop. We went there to look for a rented room for my cousin Kiran. We knew that there are no rooms for bachelors. They offered us tasty eatables and delicious coffee. Took a bus back to hostel by 7:30. Withdrew 5600 rupees from the nearby Andhra Bank ATM Centre by 8:30. Deposited 1600 rupees at our nearby HDFC ATM Centre by 9:00 to give life to my account with them. Bought a full meal parcel mess card for 750 rupees in Sai Lakshmi Hotel for Kiran, Shiva and me. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.

2 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 6:00 to 6:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Today I found a job for which I can send my application. Had my breakfast at Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:30. Entered my personal cabin by 8:45. I prepared two-page covering letter to apply for the position of Air Force Service Assistant in Srilankan Airways. In this letter, I made mockery of the concept of providing reference addresses to an employer. I clarified them that anybody with virtues and professional worth never likes to beg somebody to tell about him or her to an employer. I really don’t expect these folks to respond to my application. Today I was very partially involved in the editing of one journal. Afternoon I knew that Anindita Ganguly, our colleague from Kolkata and her close friend Anvesha Ganguly, the Research Associate of Accounting World magazine, would leave this organization soon. These two girls are beautiful and impressive. I heard that these two turned homesick for their motherland where Bengali language resounds all around. Came back to hostel by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on Hyderabad FM radio from 6:15 to 7:00. Brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 7:15 and had it by 7:45. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:15. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

3 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Before that, called up my folks at home. My mother said that brides coming for me are not much educated, poor and not very beautiful. I told her not to hurry or worry about my marriage. She said that our mango and cashew crop is not going to be good this year. My brother Srinivas is playing cards and actively participating in village cock fights. It is the news circulated by our relatives in Gollalagunta. My nephew Sujan, who is 10 years old, is said to be worried about his father’s behavior. He also remarked that he is not old enough to question his father in this regard. I wondered to know about it from my mother. Today I was very partially involved in the editing of one article. Afternoon had my lunch at Hotel Manikya Foods. Today I came out of the office exactly by 5:00. Got a seat in a Metro Express bus and reached hostel by 5:50. Brought the parcel of supper from Sai Lakshmi Hotel by 7:15. Had it alone by 7:45. Cold is severe outside due to the recent showers. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 8:30 to 9:30 on my Sony Walkman. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

4 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Got the office opened by 7:30 as the authorized employee for this morning. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart by Himalaya Book World by 8:20. Entered my cabin by 8:30. Emailed an application for the position of Customer Service Executive in the office of Reliance Infocom at Chennai or Mumbai. I know that these folks can’t venture to recruit me after understanding the revolutionary statements provided in my CV. I like to play with as many employers as possible. They treat fresh candidates as dolls in market. After getting experience, the strategic employees play with these idiots in the same way. Employment industry is in dilemma today not knowing about the ways to attract and retain highly talented staff. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Business Strategy. Today it was cloudy and cool in the city. My colleague Vijay Krishna bought a two-wheeler recently and so distributed sweets in our office today to celebrate it. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on Hyderabad FM radio from 6:15 to 7:00. Brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 7:20. Had it by 8:00. Night talked with my hostel mates for some time. Went to sleep by 9:30.

5 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart by Himalaya Book World. Entered my cabin by 8:45. Today I was fully involved in the editing of one journal. Today everybody in our office looked passive to work. I don’t like such tendency in any employee working with a company. When each day is completely counted for salary, each working hour must be attended seriously. Afternoon received a letter from one of my familiar ones in Ramayyapatnam. He is 18. He completed his tenth standard. He thinks he is an unfortunate fellow in this village. All his friends got some or other job. He requested me to save him from such pitiable state of life. He wants to get out of this village to escape from the unbearable pity of the villagers for him. He wants me to find a job for him. I decided to bring him here for it. There are many jobs for hard-working people here. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Watched television from 6:30 to 7:00 in Sai Lakshmi Hotel. Brought the parcel of supper to our hostel by 7:15. Had it by 7:45. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

6 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 7:00. Walked down Shivam Road and bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Bought a Britannia Tiger biscuit pack for nine rupees. Took an auto rickshaw and moved toward Moosaram Bagh. There bought a dozen bananas and moved to the rented portion of my friend Sriram. His abode is actually in Malakpet which I previously took as the area of Dilsukh Nagar. I knocked at their door. They woke up from bed to open it. They scanned Eenadu for a while. He started his computer system and allowed me to sit and edit my word file of diary of 1995. My floppy could not be opened. There was difference in the windows configuration of my floppy and his computer system. Then we copied the word file of it from my CD to his computer. He put on Telugu film songs on his computer system. I started editing the typed version of my personal diary of 1995 by 8:00. They served me delicious homemade lunch by 1:30. Shyam, the younger brother of Sriram, is also typing up my diaries. They are doing it fast. I could edit only April part of this diary by 4:30. I understood that I need a computer system to edit my diaries daily. Returned to hostel by 6:30. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 7:30. Had my supper by 8:00. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

7 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:20. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Called up my folks at home. My brother Sambha picked it up. I told him to inform the fellow of Ramayyapatnam to get ready to come to Hyderabad soon. He was the boy that wrote a letter recently to me asking me to look for a job for him. I told my brother not to worry about my marriage this year. Had my breakfast by 8:00 at Hotel Manikya Foods. This morning I sent an email to Deepthi of MBA Review magazine asking her to comment on my film review of “Aaraadhana” of Chiranjeevi. I gave it to her some two months ago. I complimented about her beautiful appearance recently in a fine set of clothes. She replied that she does not like to be commented on her personal life. She sent me a harsh reply. I was hurt getting such reply from her. I emailed her to forgive me and assured that I will not send her emails hereafter. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. This evening I posted a letter to the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi at New Nallakunta requesting them to allow me to bring a computer into my hostel room. Had my supper by 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

8 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went to the pushcart by Himalaya Book World and had my breakfast by 8:15. Entered my cabin by 8:45. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. Afternoon, Vishnu Prakash Raju, head of Kshatriya Marriage Information Centre at Kukatpally Housing Board Colony in Hyderabad, called me up and informed me to meet him. He likes to find a bride for me through his marriage bureau. By 3:30, the Consulting Editor of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology came to our press. My colleague Vijay Krishna and I interacted with her for one hour. This issue of the journal requires many improvements and corrections because it is inaugural issue. They are suggesting various changes. We are recording them in our minds. Went to House No. 666 at LIG in KPHB Colony by 6:00 by bus. The head of this marriage bureau asked me to fill my personal details in a form. Parties of bride want it. He wanted the exact time of my birth for calculating my astrological factors. He compares them with those of brides suitable for me. Returned to hostel by 8:00. Called up my folks at home. My mother said that she tries to recollect the exact time of my birth by tomorrow morning. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

9 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Called up home by 7:30 and asked my mother if she could recollect the exact time of my birth. She said she forgot it. My father said that it was a full moon day. I turned angry at my maternal grandfather Subba Raju. He did not note down the details of time of my arrival into this beautiful world, except day and date. Had my breakfast at Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. Took two-hour permission from our office by 3:00. Took a bus at Ameerpet for KPHB Colony. Met Vishnu Prakash Raju of Kshatriya Marriage Information Centre by fifth road at LIG in House No. 666. He assessed my characteristics in relation to my date of birth available and arrived to the conclusion that I was born at 2:40 p.m. IST on 8 September, 1976. I met the managers of Suryavamsi Marriage Bureau and another Kshatriya marriage bureau also here. These three fellows are planning to work together hereafter for good results in uniting Kshatriya girls and boys. I already gave my two color photos and CV to Prakash Raju. Returned to hostel by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:00. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:40. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

10 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached Punjagutta Crossroads by 7:30. Had my breakfast at the pushcart by Himalaya Book World and reached our office by 7:45. Got the office opened as authorized signatory on behalf of another employee. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Entered my cabin by 8:45. Today I was deeply involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Infrastructure. Afternoon had my lunch at Hotel Manikya Foods. My colleagues Ravi Kumar and Rama Rao also accompanied me. This evening Rama Rao leaves for his hometown Srikakulam. He would come back after his marriage along with his wife. I wished him all the best while leaving the office to catch his train. Today I stayed back in the office till 5:45 to finish the editing of a book review. When I was waiting for a bus opposite NIMS Hospital, my colleague Dakshayani said that our former colleague Annies advised our authorities to send me and my colleague out of this organization as part of her performance appraisal about us. I was shocked to hear it from my friend Dakshayani. I could not digest this fact. Jealousy in females can be so. Dakshayani and I are hard-working and committed sub editors with considerable talent to carry out our duties. Annies must have developed dislike against us for this reason. Had my supper by 9:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

11 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Got the office opened as an authorized signatory by 7:45. Scanned today’s dailies till 8:15. Went to the pushcart by Himalaya Book World and had my breakfast by 8:45. Entered my cabin by 9:00. Today I was deeply involved in the editing of a journal. Our former colleague Annies came to our office by 11:00. She talked with me for ten minutes about her present job. She talked with a smiling face throughout. She has been a lovely creature to work with. I did not feel badly about her because I recently knew that she recommended my removal from this office. Human beings are bound to have some qualities like jealousy and ego. Yet we must love them to feel that we belong to the society around us. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles by 8:30 for my supper. My friend Veeranjaneyulu did not call me during the last 10 days. He must be busy with the paintings for his solo exhibition soon. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I went to Dilsukh Nagar by 9:00 in a sharing auto rickshaw. We watched the Telugu film “Evadi Gola Vaadidhe” in cinema Konark from 10:00 to 12:30. It is a comedy. We came back to the hostel by 1:00 in an auto rickshaw. It was cold outside. Went to sleep by 1:30.

12 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 7:00. Freshened up myself by 8:00. My hostel mate brought me breakfast by 8:30. Went down Shivam Road by 9:45 to get a small part of my pants stitched. By 10:00 went down to cinema Sri Ramana to buy tickets for watching the Telugu film “Dhairyam”. It is released today to cinemas. There were many folks in the queue. I understood the scene and went to the office of E-seva in Nallakunta to book an Easy Movies ticket. They said the related network was out of order. Spent in my hostel room from 11:00 to 1:00. Then my friend Anjaneya Raju and I went to Chikkadpally to watch the Telugu film “7/G Brindavan Colony”. We watched it from 2:20 to 5:00 in cinema Sri Mayuri. Today is the 100^th day of show of this film. It is one of the best films I saw. The story involves love between an ordinary boy and an educated and beautiful girl. The internal struggle of a boy, to be loved by a girl, can be understood watching this film. The heroine is an amazing beauty. Sonia Agarwal acted this role very well. The heroine dies of an accident toward the end of this film. The hero becomes virtually mad to live in this world after her death. The ghost of the heroine meets the hero frequently to encourage him to live in this world and carry out his left out duties. I cried watching this part of the film. I believe in telepathic communication between a living lover and his dead beloved. This film has its impact upon me and signifies that lovers are tragic victims of fate in this mysterious world. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

                                                                                  13 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. My cousin Shiva brought breakfast and today’s newspaper by 8:30 for me. Spent in my hostel room till 12:15. I decided not to do anything other than lazily lying down on my mat. Dreams played in my mind. They are not as sweet as the ones I witness in my sleep at night. It was partial sleep. I like to call it inertia. Shiva brought the parcel of lunch from Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 12:40. Took a bath and got dressed up by then. Had my lunch along with Shiva by 1:00. I thought I was wasting the day. Went out, took a sharing auto rickshaw and proceeded to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. I easily bought a ticket for 25 rupees. I sat in Seat No. G-32 and watched the Telugu film “Dhairyam” from 2:00 to 4:45. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. It is an energetic love story. A poor and brave boy wins the love of a rich and beautiful girl with commitment and struggle. Returned to hostel by 5:00. Spent talking with my hostel mates till 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 6:00 to 7:30. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju also listened to these songs keeping one wire of the piece in his ear resting beside me. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 8:00. Shiva brought the parcel of supper by 9:00. Both of us had it by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.

14 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:15. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 7:15. Reached our office by 7:45. Went to the pushcart by Himalaya Book World and had my breakfast by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my cabin by 9:00. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of a journal. I was hell-bent to finish it by this evening. I succeeded in it and handed the final copy of this journal to the concerning Research Associate by 4:30. Afternoon got a call from the office of Deloitte in Mumbai. She told me to email my latest CV to her. I did it. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Went down Shivam Road and brought the parcel of supper by 7:15. En route bought sweets for 40 rupees for me. Today it is Valentine’s Day. I am a staunch believer and follower of concept of love. I felt like celebrating it. So, I bought sweets to satisfy my taste buds on this occasion. Before that, called up to the Reliance cellular phone of my brother Srinivas. Recently a cellular tower was installed in the vicinity of Gollalagunta. My brother is thus empowered to hear me from his village setting of stay. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani also talked with me. Had my supper by 8:00. Wrote a five-page letter to my brother till 10:30. It discusses my future plans and the issue of my marriage. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

15 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 6:00 to 6:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:20. Got the office opened as the authorized signatory by 7:30 on behalf of another employee. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart by Himalaya Book World by 8:15. Entered my cabin by 8:30. This morning there was a meeting with our copyright cell to discuss the issue of copyrights while dealing with various works from multiple sources. I presented my agenda on it. Had my lunch in Abhiruchi Hotel by 1:30. Went to post office at Erramanzil and posted the letter to my brother Srinivas in Gollalagunta. Afternoon Unnathi called me from the office of Deloitte in Mumbai and asked me if I can be contacted after 5:00 this evening. By 5:05 another woman talked with me from the office of Deloitte in Hyderabad. She asked something. I answered it well. My friend Sriram and I went to the office of Big Apple in Secunderabad near Paradise Circle to check used computers and buy. A good one costs about 8000 rupees. Had my supper by 9:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs till 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

16 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:15. Reached our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went to the pushcart by Himalaya Book World and had my breakfast by 8:45. Entered my cabin by 9:00. Morning applied for the position of Editor with the Orient Longman Limited in Hyderabad. Today I did only 10% of my office related work. Rest of the time, I downloaded my word files from my Yahoo Briefcase account. I want to get my miscellaneous writings printed soon. I pray Lord Krishna to help and guide me in this regard. To see my 10 years of diaries in print itself is a herculean task for me. I can’t face these challenges unless God blesses me. I deeply feel my allegiance and reverence for Mother Saraswati for equipping me with a few words to write. I stayed back till 6:00 in the office being deeply involved in formatting all my available writings in soft copy form. Our Administrative Officer K V Rao offered me to accompany him in auto rickshaw up to Vidya Nagar because he did not bring his two-wheeler to the office today. Both of us reached Vidya Nagar by 6:45. I brought the parcel of supper from the hotel and had it by 7:45. Arranged all my available writings, on paper, in order, till 9:30. Washed a pair of clothes by 10:00. Already I was thoroughly exhausted. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

17 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 6:00 to 7:00. Went to the bus stop by 7:25. Reached our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for 20 minutes. Went to Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:30 along with my colleague Jerry Thomas and had my breakfast. Entered my cabin by 8:50. Today I was partially involved in the editing of a journal. Recently temperature increased in the twin cities during daytime. There was much temperature when I came out of the office for my lunch. Winter has not left us completely. Weather is forecast to be very hot in the coming days due to adjustments in the crusts of earth. Difficulties or attractions associated with earth can be felt by common people in the world. They live freely and openly with nature. Came back to hostel by 5:55. Listened to Telugu film songs from 6:00 to 7:00. Took late evening bed rest from 7:00 to 8:15. Cool air and pleasant night voluntarily pervaded the surroundings by 9:00. Shiva brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 9:30. Both of us had it by 10:00. Kiran returned this morning from Mumbai. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

18 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Got the office opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies till 8:30. Went to Hotel Manikya Foods and had my breakfast by 8:45. Entered my cabin by 9:00. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. This morning talked with my brother Sambha over telephone. He said that there are two brides suitable for me. One is from village Tetagunta in Tuni mandal. She studied up to tenth standard. Her parents are willing to offer me three acres of agricultural land as dowry. The other girl did MBA. She is presently doing a job in Hyderabad at a monthly salary of 8000 rupees. She lost her parents. Both these girls are said to be beautiful. The first match was brought by my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy. The second one was suggested by my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju. I told my brother to get the photo of second girl. Came back to hostel by 5:00 taking one-hour permission from the office. Withdrew 600 rupees from the nearby Andhra Bank ATM Centre. Went to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 5:30. I wanted to see the Telugu film “Youth” in which my friend Lahari acted. This film is not on show in this cinema. Watched the Telugu film “Sankranti” of Venkatesh. Had my supper by 9:40. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

19 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for 20 minutes. Went to a nearby telephone booth and called up my folks at home by 8:00. My brother Srinivas picked up the phone as expected and scheduled. I told him to send the photos of the brides for Veeranjaneyulu and me. He said that he does not like moving to Hyderabad for his job. I told my father to proceed toward the bride who studied MBA and presently doing a job in Hyderabad. Had my breakfast at Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:30. Entered my cabin by 8:45. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of one journal. The books from our library are being shifted into the new premises in Stellar Spinx building by Road No. 1 in Banjara Hills. Came back to hostel by 6:00. Went down Shivam Road and bought neem toothpaste in a medical store. On the way back, my cousin Shiva went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess to bring our parcel of supper. Both of us had it by 8:00. We could not find even one film worthy of watching in the twin cities now. The dim moonlight outside was mocking at our flavorless lives of bachelors. We are burning our youth. I found the beautiful night laughing at my solitude. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams of solace.

20 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:15. One of our Kshatriya folks, who is staying as a guest in our hostel in the ground floor, was leaving for Secunderabad railway station along with his old mother and a considerable amount of luggage. He asked me to help him on this journey. Three of us reached Secunderabad railway station by 7:20 in two hired auto rickshaws. When I was keeping watch of their luggage, very beautiful girls were coming out of the station. I found that they are the participants in the National Youth Festival to be held in the Osmania University campus for three days from tomorrow. I wondered if Lord Krishna can ever bless me a beautiful wife like one of these girls. I saw off my friend at East Coast Express by 8:10. Came back to hostel by 9:00. Scanned today’s newspapers for half an hour. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I reached Maganti Colony in Film Nagar by 12:00. We found a single room. Monthly rent for it is 1100 rupees. This room is in the interior of the locality. There are no buses frequently from here to my office. We returned to our hostel by 2:40. Spent rest of the time within the hostel. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 7:30. Had my supper by 8:00 along with Shiva. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

21 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:15. Reached our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Went out and had my breakfast at Hotel Manikya Foods by 8:45. Entered my cabin by 9:00. Today I was seriously involved in the processing of three journals. Took a bus by 5:20 opposite NIMS Hospital. Got off it at RTC Crossroads and rushed to see the Telugu film “Shankar Dada MBBS” of Chiranjeevi. Walked briskly to cinema Mini Odeon. When I asked the fellow at ticket counter, he said that the film was started three minutes ago. I don’t like watching a film in a cinema if the titles are over. I don’t feel satisfied seeing a film if it was started before my arrival. I thought first show begins by 6:15 here. But it was started by 6:00 only. Took a bus and reached our hostel by 6:40. Anjaneya Raju brought our parcel of supper by 7:30. We bought chicken curry also for 10 rupees. I ate much part of it. I just wanted a little change in my supper. I found the chicken curry sufficient and tasty for me. Cool moon was shining in the sky. I kept my windows open to invite his special effects at late night. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

22 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:20. Reached NIMS bus stop by 7:00. Went to Friendly Boys Hostel opposite Model House building on the other side of the road. This hostel is in the third floor of an old building. There are six cots in a room. Monthly hostel rent is 1500 rupees including food and stay charges. I did not like it. There is another men’s hostel just by that side. I went inside and enquired about it. There are about 10 cots in a large room. They charge 2500 rupees a month as room rent. There is neither privacy nor space to keep a computer system. I felt exhausted due to this search for a room. Had my breakfast at the pushcart near Himalaya Book World and reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my cabin by 8:30. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of one journal. This morning our operations manager rebuked me severely. I forgot to keep the full record of an author’s correspondence with us regarding an article. He mentioned some other things of my professional life here and told me to consult a psychiatrist. I was deeply hurt by his relentless remarks against me. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Had my supper by 7:40. Talked with my hostel mates for one hour about the difficulty of finding accommodation in the city. Went to sleep by 10:30.

                                                                                                                         

23 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. My cousin Sekhar (son of my uncle Chanti in Peda Gummuluru) and I started to the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi at New Nallakunta by 8:15. We had our breakfast on the way. We reached this office by 9:00. I introduced him as my relative to them and asked for sharing accommodation in a hostel room. He telephoned to our hostel and told the supervisor to allot a room for this boy. I told my cousin to go back to hostel.  Took a bus and reached our office by 10:00. Many of our office staff went to the nearby Stellar Spinx building to attend the formal worship of Hindu deities in its second, third and fourth floors. We will soon move into this building from here. I stayed back in our present office and spent talking with our office boys. My two-hour permission time was over by 11:00. Then I entered my cabin. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one journal. This evening I stayed back in the office till 6:15. Our operations manager told us to go to Kompally and attend a little work related to a science journal. Our team leader told me to go to ICFAI Tech at Kompally tomorrow morning. Returned to hostel by 7:00. Had my supper by 8:30. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:15. Moon was bright outside. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

24 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Took a bus by 7:30 and reached Secunderabad by 8:00. Had my breakfast at Hotel Light of India opposite Rethifile bus stand. Then went to Gurudwara bus stop and took a bus for ICFAI Tech. Got off it at Kompally. Then I knew that ICFAI Tech already passed me. Took a bus back and got off it at ICFAI Tech of Jeedi Metla. Sat at the reception counter in the Administrative Block. Professor Alka Mahajan came by 9:30. Both of us went to her room. She suggested various corrections to be carried out in her inaugural issue of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. This discussion ended by 11:30. She is an exceptional beauty. She talked with me very well. Took leave of her and reached our office with professional work burden in my mind. Our office staff was getting ready for the lunch. Had my lunch by 1:30 at Hotel Manikya Foods. I was seriously involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology till 5:00. Came back to hostel by 6:00. Brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 7:30. Had it by 8:00 along with Anjaneya Raju. Today I was heavily burdened with my office work. I realized that our office blokes can’t grow up applying innovation and intellect. They want nuts with hypocrisy and blind conformity to whatever they say. May God bless me with a good alternative job. The monthly parcel card I bought recently ends soon. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

25 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:30. Reached our office by 7:20. Went to a three-storied house in the lane at the back of Punjagutta police station to check a room in it. The owner of this roadside house is a Muslim. He said that I have to pay 3000 rupees as advance and monthly rent is 1500 rupees. I went up to the terrace and checked the room meant for rent. It is manageable. I like to move into it immediately. Got our office opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Today I was thoroughly involved in the final corrections of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. I wondered to know that my journeys related to office work can be encashed. Returned to hostel by 6:30 along with my friend Sriram. I gave all my writings on paper to him to be processed by him for publishing. He left our hostel by 8:00 after our comprehensive discussion about this work. Had my supper along with Anjaneya Raju and Shiva by 9:00. This evening I strongly felt like eating grapes. My hostel mate Murali brought grapes for me from outside. They are very sweet. I enjoyed this feast to my senses. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

26 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Wrote a letter to my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju from 6:00 to 7:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Reached our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for 20 minutes. Entered my cabin by 8:45. Today I was partially involved in the final processing of one journal. This morning I claimed 100 rupees toward my conveyance charges to ICFAI Tech recently. I claimed it for the first time in my life as the employee of a company. By 1:00 Internet and electricity supply were disabled. It was time for our computer systems and other material in the first floor to be shifted into Stellar Spinx building by Road No. 1 in Banjara Hills. Had my lunch by 1:30. Spent talking with my colleagues for one hour. By 2:30 started to our new office. Today is my last working day in the first floor of Plot No. 11 in Dwarakapuri Colony. Checked our place in our new office. It is centrally air-conditioned. Floor, interior decoration and arrangement of chairs are attractive. Collected 100 rupees, my claimed conveyance charges, in our old office by 3:00. Went to the office of Margadarshini Marriage Bureau in Ameerpet and saw the photos of newly registered Kshatriya brides with them. I did not find the beauty expected by me in those photos. Watched the Telugu film “Manasu Maata Vinadhu” in cinema Usha Mayuri from 6:00 to 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:30.

27 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went out and called up my brother Srinivas by 7:30. My brother Sambha, my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my uncle Varma and one relative talked with me. My brother Sambha said that the MBA girl got married. They are considering one match from Elamanchili now for me. My cousin Sekhar and I went to Dilsukh Nagar by 10:00. We met the folks in the office of Deccan Defense and Group of Services near the gate of bus depot.  They allotted the position of Store Supervisor to my cousin. He came here from Peda Gummuluru searching for a job. We paid them 1000 rupees as advance and service charge. We bought one kilo grapes for 20 rupees. Came back to hostel by 12:00. Scanned today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Today I neither had my breakfast nor lunch. I filled this void with 500 grams of grapes. Rested till 4:00. Spent talking with my hostel mates Murali and Anjaneya Raju till 7:00. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 8:00. Had my supper along with Anjaneya Raju by 8:30. Today I wanted to go to see a film. I did not find even one film good to see in the twin cities. Night it turned cool outside. My heart was disturbed inside due to the delay in editing my personal diaries. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

28 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:30. Got off it at NIMS bus stop by 7:15. Walked upwards and reached our office area by 7:20 via Punjagutta Crossroads. Had my breakfast at the pushcart by Himalaya Book World. Everything related to ICFAI University Press was already shifted into the second, third and fourth floors of Stellar Spinx building. Himalaya Book World is in the ground floor of this building. I entered the second floor by 8:00. The lift was out of order. Walked up the stairs. The polish of the floor was so smooth that one with fashionable footwear or stylish gait may slip off at any time on it. The office is centrally air conditioned. Furnishings and arrangement of wooden furniture are striking. I liked this new place and the ambience in it. Today I was thoroughly involved in the pre-final and final processing of two journals. Each row has two Sub Editors, one Proofreader and one DTP Operator. On my right are Praveena, the Proofreader of our team and Rajendra, the DTP Operator. I felt a little new in this ambience today. It is natural. Came back to hostel by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on Hyderabad FM radio from 6:15 to 7:00. Brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 7:20. Had my part of it by 7:40. Listened to radio for some time. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

1 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Withdrew 4000 rupees from the Andhra Bank ATM Center by NIMS area by 7:30. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by 7:40. Scanned today’s dailies till 8:00. Entered my space of work by 8:20. Went to Plot No. 34 at Nagarjuna Hills by 8:30 in which the office of Le Magnus University is housed. Waited for Sriram till 9:10 loitering about there. He came by 9:15. Paid him 4000 rupees toward the typing charges of my diaries. Came back and attended my editing work by 9:30. Today I released one journal and got the pre-finals ready for another journal. Moved here and there without peace or rest to my mind or body. Afternoon had my lunch along with my colleague Jerry Thomas. When returning to hostel, withdrew 2000 rupees from the Andhra Bank ATM Center near NIMS Hospital. Reached the hostel by 6:45. Went down Shivam Road and bought an Eveready battery charger for 300 rupees. It is to charge my dull life with the energy of Telugu film songs. Brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 7:45. Put on battery charger by 8:00. Had my supper alone by 8:10. Listened to radio for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.

2 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:30. Had four bananas by 8:00 for my breakfast. Updated myself on world affairs scanning today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my space of work by 9:00. Today I was thoroughly involved in the final level processing of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. Evening one of our art department staff members polished my childhood photo shot in Tirupati along with my parents, brothers and my uncle Rama Raju. It is the one and only pictorial record of my poor and innocent childhood. I deeply love my innocent look in this photo. Artist Jaya Ram separated my photo from group photo on his computer. He added clarity to this photo. Both of us left the office by 7:00. He dropped me at Cherma’s Shop in Ameerpet. I got my childhood photo printed at Surya Sai Janata Digital Lab by 7:40. Black and white and partly colored versions of the photo came in one print of 10x8 size. Paid 30 rupees for it. Photo is good in quality. Returned to hostel by 9:00. Had my supper by 9:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 11:00.

3 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Washed a pair of clothes and took a bath by 7:00. Listened to melodious Telugu cine songs till 8:15. Walked down Shivam Road and reached the office of E-seva in Nallakunta by 9:00. Bought a monthly Metro Express bus pass for 450 rupees. Bought one Britannia Gold biscuit pack for my breakfast. Took a thickly packed bus by 9:20 opposite Bagh Amberpet branch of State Bank of India. I got a seat in the rear end row of the bus in five minutes. I undid the biscuit pack and started chewing sweet and creamy biscuits. One of the passengers beside me felt uncomfortable with me eating biscuits. I continued my pursuit and ended it in ten minutes. Took my seat of work in the office by 10:30. My two-hour permission was over by 11:00. Edited the content of The ICFAI Journal of Audit Practice. Evening released the material of South Asian Journal of Management to the printing press. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Listened to songs on Hyderabad FM radio for some time. Brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 7:20. Had it alone by 7:45. Summer is dominant outside during daytime. Coolness visits our hostel during late night hours. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 8:15 to 10:00. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

4 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Listened to Telugu film songs for half an hour. Went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:15. Had my breakfast at a pushcart. Got our office opened as an authorized signatory by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my space of work by 8:30. Today there were no emails for me. Morning I was involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Audit Practice. Afternoon had my lunch in Sai Ganapathi Hotel beside Abhiruchi Hotel. This hotel was recently started here in the place of an old one. The food items are tasty and suit my budget. I shifted my loyalty to this new hotel after moving into our new office. The air-conditioning in our office was so powerful that cold attacked me this afternoon. I frequently used my handkerchief to keep my wet nostrils acceptable to others. I wonder if destiny of man ever allows him to be happy. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Listened to Hyderabad FM radio for some time. My cousin Sekhar is still unable to get a job. That consultant cheated us. He is trying to take that money back. Had my parcel food by 8:30. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju bought a monthly full meal mess card for 750 rupees from Shirdi Sai Baba Hotel down Shivam road. My cousin Shiva and I are the other two partners with him for this card. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

5 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:15. I observed police at the pushcart where I daily take my breakfast. They ordered this poor fellow to move his pushcart away from the main road. I knew that these scoundrels are asking him to give them 25 plates of breakfast every day freely. Since he could not do so, they are ordering him to go away from the edge of the main road. Their concern is their free breakfast, not convenience for road users. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Audit Practice. Afternoon gave 10 rupees to a woman. She said that she had no money to go to her hometown Kurnool. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Talked with my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani over telephone by 7:00. Had my supper by 8:00. Then my cousin Shiva and I took two buses and reached cinema Sai Raja at Musheerabad. Both of us watched the recently released Telugu film “Youth” from 9:00 to 11:00. I went to see this film because Lahari acted in it. It is one of the worst films I have seen. We walked for half an hour via short cut through Ram Nagar and reached our hostel by 11:40. Went to sleep by 12:00 for my gifted dreams.

6 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 7:30 to 8:30. Freshened up myself by 9:00 and went to the bus stop by 9:10. Reached our office by 10:30. Had three samosas in a nearby hotel. Entered the second floor of our office by 10:45. Our Systems Administrator Ravi Kumar assigned me one computer system and started it. Today I went to office to carry out special work along with six of my colleagues. Recently ICFAI University and SEBI organized a three-day conference in Mumbai to discuss “Security Markets and Challenges”. About 40 professionals spoke there on this occasion. Folks of ICFAI University failed to collect those papers of speakers to publish them later in their related publications. Somehow they collected the video records of their speeches. Today we were assigned the task of transcribing their speeches into word files. They gave us headphones for this purpose. The pronunciation skills of these speakers in English are horrible. I broke my head to comprehend their spoken English. Afternoon we seven sub editors had our lunch in Shanbhag Veg near Punjagutta Crossroads. The bill amounted to about 600 rupees. They told us to claim it later from the office. Completed this boring work by 7:00. Returned to hostel by 8:00. Listened to Telugu film songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30.

7 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu film songs from 5:30 to 6:15. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 8:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and entered our office by 8:10. Scanned today’s dailies for 20 minutes in the library. Political scenario in Bihar got further worsened. Not a single party got required majority to form the government. Cruel and cunning heads of different political parties are struggling hard to acquire power resorting to disgusting alliances. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of one article of The ICFAI Journal of Audit Practice. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Talked with my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my cousin Anantha Lakshmi and my brother Srinivas over phone. They are planning to proceed in the direction of the bride from village Tetagunta. I told my sister-in-law and cousin to see the girl in person first and then send her photo to me. She studied up to tenth standard. I pray God to guide me well in the matter of my marriage. I don’t marry unless I get a beautiful girl. Anjaneya Raju brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 8:00. Both of us had it by 8:20. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman till 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

8 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 7:30 to 8:30. Took a bus by 9:00 and reached the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu at Jubilee Hills by 10:00. He was busy with his art work. Watched television from 11:00 to 1:00. Had my lunch there by 1:30. Went to a nearby Internet café in Film Nagar, along with Ramesh, a cousin of Veeru. Veeranjaneyulu wants to do a few female nude paintings soon. I took up this voluntary task of collecting a few images of female nude models from the Internet. I collected about 40 nude female images. They are professional models in different countries. I was deeply impressed by the marvelous beauty of some of these nude models. Their skin color is very fair, their facial features are commanding and the structure of their bodies is mesmerizing. I can’t dream to marry such exceptional beauties of the world. Their presence can make me write poetry. God seldom blesses an extraordinary beauty to an admirer of beauty in his mysterious creation of the world. Exceptional female beauty, portrayed in nudity, is feast to the eyes of an esthete like me. By 8:30 bought three pairs of readymade clothes in a Kumar Shirts showroom at Ameerpet for 800 rupees to celebrate Maha Shiva Raathri and International Women’s Day. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

9 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at the pushcart near our office. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Entered my space of work by 8:15. I did not carry out editing work till afternoon. Morning I took my compact disc of female nude images to our librarian Prakash. He felt very happy seeing excellent beauty of the European female nude models. Afternoon our systems administrator Ravi Kumar and artist Jaya Ram also copied these images of extraordinary beauties into their computers. Basic instincts of these three folks signified me that one sex intensely craves to melt itself in the gender related temptation of opposite sex. Afternoon sent an email to Deepthi of MBA Review magazine apologizing to her regarding my previous email to her. She is a cute and sensitive girl. I don’t like to hurt her in any sense. May God bless her happy and memorable life. Afternoon I was involved in the final level processing of two journals. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Went down Shivam Road and bought three white vests for me in a cloth store for 120 rupees. Night washed a pair of clothes. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

10 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. This morning I wore one set of new readymade clothes from the three I recently bought from Kumar Shirts showroom. Trousers are a bit longer. I folded them. Reached our office by 7:15. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and entered our office by 7:30. I got the three floors opened as the authorized signatory on behalf of another employee. Today I did nothing in the office except releasing a journal to the printing press in the evening. This evening I prepared a farewell letter to Dakshayani, my senior in MA English course and my colleague in this office. She resigned from her job with this office. She leaves it very soon. Today I found Deepthi with a smiling face. My email could reach her my exact set of feelings. Today I left the office one hour early. Returned to hostel by 5:00. Went down Shivam Road and met a tailor to shorten my trousers. Paid him 30 rupees and got my three readymade pants shortened. By evening it turned cloudy and cool. Enjoyed this fascinating setting of nature. It started raining by 8:00. Invited it cordially. Lord Krishna directed this rain for me. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for 90 minutes. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

11 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs for 20 minutes. Went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached our office by 7:15. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and entered our office by 7:30. Got it opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my space of work by 8:30. Handed the farewell letter to my colleague Dakshayani by 10:30. Later she said that she liked it. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju came to our office by 10:30. He took a written test for the position of Proofreader in our office. Today Deepthi put on a nice dress. She wore a beautiful white shirt with a small design and black trousers. This morning a newly appointed research associate brought the content of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. Today I edited two short articles for the Analyst magazine. Left the office by 4:30. Reached our hostel by 6:00. Had my supper by 7:30. Anjaneya Raju and I went to a nearby Internet café and spent there from 8:30 to 10:30 browsing pornography websites. It was to satisfy basic instincts in us as bachelors to see and enjoy the beauty of nudity of girls and women related to that category of human race. Went to sleep by 11:00 to welcome a holiday.

12 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went out and bought today’s copy of Telugu daily Eenadu and breakfast for me. Scanned it for 30 minutes. Moved to Shivam Road by 9:00. Walked down the road and reached a DTDC courier point. Called up my brother Srinivas and noted down the number of receipt of the envelope he recently booked at a DTDC point in Jaggampeta. I asked this fellow of DTDC by Shivam Road about the non-receipt of the envelope sent by my brother to me. He checked on his computer and said that the envelope did not move from the place where it was booked one week ago. Went to the nearby Avinash Audio and Video Centre and ordered recording of 40 select Telugu cine songs into two 90-minute empty audio cassettes of T-series. Reached the abode of Veeranjaneyulu at Jubilee Hills by 12:00. Typed out two complaint letters, each containing two pages, on his computer. One was addressed to the postmaster of Jaggampeta and another one to the fellow of DTDC point in Jaggampeta. Postman cut and opened an envelope, sent by me recently to my brother Srinivas in Gollalagunta, before delivery. These two letters frighten and alert these two idiots. Posted them at post office in Erramanzil by 4:30. Called up my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and my brother Sambha and enquired them about the well-being of our familiar folks there. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30.

13 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Knitted the loosely arranged buttons of my recently purchased readymade shirts from 8:00 to 10:00. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. In today’s English daily The Hindu I found the details of a suitable bride for me in the cosmopolitan column of its matrimonial section. She is 26. She completed her post-graduation. She is looking for any bridegroom that belongs to ISKCON. I found it interesting. I prepared a three-page letter to this girl. I put three photos of Meera Jasmin and my photo in an envelope. I advised her to send her photo and details to my email or postal address if she looks somewhat similar to the photo of Meera Jasmin. Posted it in a nearby postbox by 3:00. Evening called up my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju in Jaggampeta and enquired about Kiran. Evening talked with my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju for one hour. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 7:30. My cousin Shiva brought the parcel of supper by 8:00. We three partners had it by 8:30. I regret delay in editing the typed copies of my personal diaries. I don’t have a computer to start this work. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.

14 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Today I wore the second set of new readymade clothes from the three I bought recently. Took a bus by 7:30 and reached our office by 8:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and entered my office space of work by 8:30. Morning one author called up from Rajasthan and said that the name of one author is missing in one of the articles published in the October issue of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior. Jaya Israni was the Research Associate for that issue of the journal. She would have forgotten to provide the information of second author of this article. I was engaged in talking with this man and dealing with this issue for about three hours this morning. Afternoon edited one article of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. Evening received the photos, sent by my brother Srinivas, by courier. Took these photos to the abode of Veeru by 5:30. I did not like the photo of the bride meant for Veeranjaneyulu. She belongs to a tribe in India. They are living in hamlet Oddu Cheruvu near Ramula Devapuram. Her facial features are not impressive. The photo of the bride meant for me, brought from Tetagunta, is impressive. She studied up to tenth standard only. I felt very irritated when coming back to our hostel. Walked for six kilometers without finding buses to take. Had my supper by 9:45. Listened to songs. Went to sleep by 11:00.

15 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and reached our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Morning I lost my handkerchief in our office. I lost it forever. It was a mystery for me. Today I edited the material of one journal. Afternoon gave the negatives of my camera film roll at Bali Studio in Dwarakapuri Colony for print. These photos are needed to send to my prospective brides after scanning matrimonial ads. In our office, Deepthi is the suitable girl for me to marry. Negative factors are her richness, distance from me and my fate. I am living in dreams when it comes to marriage. I don’t know if a beauty was born or not anywhere in this world to marry me. Returned to our hostel by 6:30. Went down Shivam Road and collected my audio cassettes with recorded Telugu cine songs. Paid him remaining 30 rupees. Came back to hostel with the parcel of supper by 8:00. Had it by 8:30. It was cold outside at night. Enjoyed it listening to Telugu cine songs inside. Went to sleep by 10:30.

16 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and entered our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s dailies till 8:00. Applied for the position of Copy Writer in a Bahrain-based entity by email. Morning I was involved in the pre-final check of The ICFAI Journal of Audit Practice. Afternoon I knew that K B S Kumar, an Associate Consultant at ICFAI University Press is leaving this organization soon to join a job with a company in Bangalore. He is from Kasimkota in Visakhapatnam district. It is about 30 kilometers from our village. He is a handsome guy. He always greets me with a smiling face. I was touched knowing about his departure from here soon. May God bless him with success and happiness always. He took photos of our journal team to keep them as a token of his association with this organization. I realized that life is all about shadows. We develop love and affection for many but we can’t retain them with us forever. Afternoon I edited the material of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Had my supper by 8:15. I am falling asleep when listening to Telugu cine songs from my Walkman due to the strain and stress caused by my office work. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

17 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:45 to 6:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and entered our office by 7:30. Got the office opened as authorized signatory by 8:00 on behalf of Vijay Kumar on his request. Scanned today’s dailies from 8:00 to 8:30. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. Afternoon typed out a letter addressing Vijaya Kalyani, the research associate of this journal appreciating her writing skills in this journal. Evening went to see the room of a Muslim by Punjagutta Crossroads along with an employee of our organization. Both of us decided to move into this room around the 1^st of next month. It helps me save and utilize my wasted time in daily journeys to and from our office. I have to complete editing the typed versions of my diaries as well to get them printed soon. Returned to hostel by 6:30. Deepthi was a bit serious today. She came to our floor twice. I enjoy seeing her cute face. Had my supper by 8:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:15 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and entered our office by 7:30. Got the office opened as an authorized signatory for this morning. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Today I was mostly involved in the editing of one article of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. This article has 25 pages and discusses the issue of sexual harassment against women by men in workplaces. Two Australian authors wrote this article. They debated on this issue like two lawyers in a court of law from historical and contemporary perspectives. This morning Deepthi came to our floor in an attractive dress. I could not clearly see her impressive beauty. Office environment and common human inhibitions often prevent one from being expressive toward one’s favorite creatures. This morning Sriram came and said that he is much ahead in his task of typing up my old diaries to print. This afternoon I released the first issue of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology to our printing press. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on Hyderabad FM radio from 6:15 to 7:00. Had my supper along with Anjaneya Raju by 8:15. Listened to Telugu cine songs for 90 minutes. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my precious dreams.

19 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. When I looked for the pushcart by Stellar Spinx building, it was not there to have my breakfast. Later I knew that the owner of this building told them to vacate that place. Many common people like me are having their breakfast over there daily. These folks prepare delicious items of breakfast. I regret the plight of those pushcart folks and hope that they would return soon. Bought two small breads in a nearby eatery and finished my morning need of it. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Entered my space of work by 8:30. Today I was involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior. Today Deepthi wore a white shirt and blue jeans. She looked very beautiful in that set. She once rushed into our floor for some art department work and went back like a dynamic little star. This evening my colleague and I paid 3000 rupees to the owner of the house as two-month advance for a room in his house on rent. Reached the campus of University of Hyderabad by 6:30 changing bus after bus. There is entry ticket of 100 rupees for attending the events of their annual Sukoon festival. I did not like to pay and see it in my position of its alumnus. Took three buses and reached our hostel by 10:00. Went to sleep by 11:00.

20 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went out and bought a copy of Eenadu. Had my breakfast by 8:00. Spent reading the daily for two hours. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju proposed the idea of going to see a Telugu film on show in our nearby cinema. My cousin and hostel mate Shiva also readily expressed his interest to join us when I told him about it. I rushed out immediately because there was only ten minutes’ time for the film to start on screen in cinema Sri Ramana Digital at Bagh Amberpet. I took a sharing auto rickshaw. Shiva too joined me. The fellow who encouraged me toward this pursuit remained behind and failed to catch us. Shiva and I watched the Telugu film “Raghavendra” from 11:30 to 2:00. I missed the first song in this film. I regretted it. I found this film very interesting from the start to end. I could see a good film in a cinema. Anjaneya Raju joined us in the cinema after some ten minutes. There were very few viewers in this cinema. Three of us had our lunch by 2:30 in our hostel. I sat in another room for half an hour after eating food because it is good for health. Took a siesta from 3:30 to 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 7:30. Had my supper by 8:45. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my vital dreams.

21 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30 and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Bought a Britannia Tiger biscuits packet for three rupees and bread for four rupees in a nearby shop. It was my breakfast for this morning. Our librarian took today’s newspapers into library. I could not scan them. Entered my cabin by 8:00. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior. Today I put some of my writings in the sharing folder on my computer to allow others in the network to read them if they like. Today Deepthi came to the office. She did not stir out of her MBA Review section. I could not see even her face today. My little darling must be busy with something. Morning I talked with our Systems Administrator Ravi Kumar about his buying a computer system for me. He told me to be ready with 9000 rupees to buy a good computer. I agreed to pay him 5000 rupees initially. Afternoon there was an exhibition of books of Sage Publications in our floor. Not a single book was sold as far as I know. Returned to hostel by 6:00. Rested on my mat for some time. Had my supper by 8:30. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

22 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Buses are very crowded due to examinations to students. I could venture into a somewhat lighter bus by 7:30. Bought two buns at a shop by main road and walked to our office via Punjagutta police station. Entered our office by 8:10. Today I updated on the recent happenings in my life typing it out on my office computer system till 1:00. Afternoon edited one article of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior. This morning I gave 5000 rupees to our systems administrator toward advance payment for a computer system. He said that he would bring me the supposed computer system in three or four days. This evening I saw Deepthi when she was punching her attendance card at time machine. She looked somewhat dull in her face. My colleague and I went to our rented room by Punjagutta Crossroads to check the progress of cleaning in and around the room on the terrace. The room and its surroundings were neatly arranged. I liked the punctuality of those Muslim owners. Came back to hostel by 6:00. My hostel mate Murali Krishnam Raju, his friend and I went down Shivam Road for a stroll. Talked with my mother over telephone and updated myself on the latest happenings there. Had my supper by 8:30. I felt very tired today. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my sweet dreams.

23 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:00 to 6:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. I could get a bit lighter bus by 7:30. Bought a Britannia Tiger biscuits packet for four rupees at a shop near our office for my breakfast today. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Applied for the position of Sub Editor with a publishing company in Middle East by email. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior. Today Deepthi put on an elegant dress. She spent much of her time in our floor (third) today. She was in a happy mood today. Came back to hostel by 6:00. I felt very tired and so simply laid down myself on the somewhat cool floor in my hostel room. Went out and called up my brother Sambha by 7:15. I told him not to think about my marriage in this year. My plan is that I would find a beautiful girl during this time on my own. I also told him to send the brother of my high school friend at Darlapudi to Hyderabad. I will join him a small job temporarily. My mother also talked with me. She said that she would send homemade sweets to me along with this boy. Had my supper by 8:00. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

24 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 4:30 to 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. The pushcart where I used to have my breakfast previously was shifted to the other side of the road by Nagarjuna Hills. The flow of fast vehicles already increased (by 7:30). I somehow crossed this road and had my breakfast at that pushcart. Entered our office by 7:45. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of one journal. Today Deepthi spent much of her time in our floor only. She is dealing with ICFAI Reader magazine also. I developed a little attachment with her recently. The very knowledge that she is in my vicinity makes me happier. The void in my psyche craving for love from some girl is making me desperately depend on her. I am suffering with the dangerous disease of lovesickness. Deepthi is like a little doctor to my sick psyche. Came back to hostel by 6:00. Went down Shivam Road by 7:30 and tried to buy tickets for a Telugu film scheduled to be released tomorrow. Easy Movies online network is out of order at the E-seva centre in Nallakunta. Talked with my mother and my brother Sambha in Peda Gummuluru by 8:00 over phone from a telephone booth. Had my supper by 8:30. I am spending my last days in this hostel. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00.

25 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:45 and went to the bus stop. Had my breakfast by 7:15 and entered our office by 7:30. Got the office opened as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Today I came across Deepthi thrice. She behaved like a person that never saw me earlier. I could not know whether she scanned or not the pure admiration for her in my lovesick eyes. My heart and mind are after her. Nobody knows after whom she is but I felt happy seeing her in a good dress today. This afternoon my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju attended an interview by our Executive Editor Ch Rajeswar. I found him happier after this interview. One girl also attended this interview today for the position of proofreader. This morning I attended the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior. Deepthi spent much of her time in our floor dealing with ICFAI Reader magazine. Left the office by 3:30. Anjaneya Raju and I reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 4:30 by bus. We stood in a long queue to buy 30-rupee tickets for the Telugu film “Chakram” of Prabhas. It is released to cinemas today. Tickets were over by 5:15. Had my supper by 7:30. Talked with my hostel mates for one hour. My cousin Kiran also joined this group. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my heavenly dreams.

26 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Took a bus and reached Secunderabad by 7:30. Bought a platform ticket and entered the railway station. I knew that Godavari Express arrived to Platform No. 10. The brother of my friend from Ramayyapatnam is coming to Hyderabad in this train. He earlier requested me to find a job for him here. I provided him with instructions on how to come here. I told this fellow to wait on the same platform to where the train arrives till I meet him. I searched for him for 30 minutes everywhere. Then called up home and enquired them about the waiting space of this nut. They said he waits at the ticket counter. Went back into the station and searched at those places. When I was coming back to Rethifile bus stand, I felt giddy suddenly. The immediately available spot to sit down and rest was Ganesh Temple. I sat there where devotees leave their footwear. I sweated heavily. The world was revolving around me. I asked a temple visitor to get me some drinking water. He kindly did it. Closed my eyes, held my head with my hands and remained there for 20 minutes. When I walked a little, feeling a bit relieved of giddiness, vomit occurred at a drainage way. Felt relieved knowing that nobody scolds me for disfiguring that place. Took a bus and reached hostel by 9:00. This fellow came later with much difficulty. Joined him Shirdi Sai Baba Hotel as server. Today I felt weak and so spent within hostel. Many are playing outside with colors celebrating Holi. Went to sleep by 10:00.

27 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Scanned Eenadu for 30 minutes. Read Case Folio magazine of ICFAI University Press from 9:00 to 12:00. I could not find out considerable language errors in it. Thus I completed the Error Report work of this month successfully. By 12:30 went down Shivam Road and brought the parcel of lunch along with my cousin Shiva. We had it along with Sekhar by 1:00. Then three of us moved to Osmania University to take a city bus to Kothi. We waited there for half an hour. Two lovebirds were talking there. I envied their love and related bliss. We reached Nampally by bus by 3:00. Three of us had one glass of sugarcane juice each to face the hot sun out there in the sky. Shiva and I bought nine kilos of grapes in a nearby store. One kilo grapes cost 20 rupees. This parcel of grapes is to be taken to the houses of our folks in Peda Gummuluru. My cousin Sekhar is going back today. We waited on Platform No. 6 in Nampally railway station for about 90 minutes. Shiva and I left the station by 4:30. Reached hostel by 5:30. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 8:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:30.

28 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Half an hour’s journey dropped me at NIMS bus stop. Called up my folks at home and talked with my brother Sambha and sister-in-law Kranti. Told them to eat the grapes after washing them well. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and entered our office by 7:45. Scanned today’s dailies for 40 minutes. Today I got The ICFAI Journal of Audit Practice ready for release. Deepthi was busy getting ICFAI Reader magazine ready for release. She came across me now and then. She was expressionless toward me. I could not understand her mysterious behavior toward me. She left the office by 1:30. This afternoon I felt dizzy and so avoided my lunch. Had one glass of cool almond flavored fruit juice and a few biscuits instead. Deepthi left the office early today. I felt forsaken internally. Her presence is vitality now for me. When coming back from the office after 5:00, I felt giddy suddenly near the building of Model House. Luckily there was a lemon juice hawker by road. Had one glass of it. Stood there for 15 minutes supporting myself against a roadside auto rickshaw. Carefully crossed the road and took a heavily loaded city bus. The hell continued in this sultry bus journey. Evening my hostel mate brought me supper. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

29 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:00. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and entered our office by 7:45. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Today I had very little work in the office. The material of a pending journal did not arrive yet. Edited the content of two book reviews of South Asian Journal of Management. Then carried out corrections suggested by the consulting editor of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. Today, Deepthi, my goddess of beauty, silently sat in her chair in the section of MBA Review magazine. She did not come to our floor today. Her MBA Review and Study at ICFAI were released to the printing press. Went to their floor on the pretext of talking with some research associates sitting there. She was there in her seat without getting disturbed by the presence of vagabonds like me. I felt happy spending in her vicinity for some time. I am her platonic lover now. I am yearning for love from some girl. Deepthi is that angel now blessing me with her presence without her knowledge. Today also I felt slightly giddy and weak throughout the day. Came back to hostel by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Brought the parcel of supper and had it by 8:30. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

30 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30 and went to the bus stop. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and went to our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. There are a few suitable job vacancies for me. I did not like to apply for any one of them because I am seriously involved in polishing and getting my writings published. I want stability of job until this project is over. Entered my cabin by 7:45. Today I was partially involved in getting the final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior ready for check by its consulting editor. Today my dear Deepthi quietly sat in her chair doing some work. I could not see her. I was hurt at it. She is my goddess. Took two-hour permission and reached our hostel by 4:00. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi near Vegetable Market in New Nallakunta. I informed the concerning staff there that I would vacate the hostel on the 1^st of next month. Signed a form for 200 rupees which they pay back when one leaves the hostel. Then came back to hostel and rested for a while. Went to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet and watched the recently released Telugu film “Chakram” of Prabhas from 6:00 to 8:45. Washed a pair of clothes. Had my supper by 9:30. I was already exhausted. Went to sleep by 11:30.

31 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 3:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 3:30 to 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:45 and went to the bus stop. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and entered our office by 7:30. Got the office opened as the authorized signatory on behalf of Vijay Kumar. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Today Deepthi wore a beautiful dress. A white shirt and blue jeans presented her attractively to viewers. She was actively talking with somebody this afternoon over her cellular phone in the ground floor when I was coming back after my lunch. Today I released two journals to the printing press. This evening I felt giddy slightly when coming back from the office. Went to our rented room by Punjagutta Crossroads and locked it formally as its authorized tenant. Luckily got a seat in a Metro Express bus and returned to hostel happily by 6:00. I thought that God blessed me with happy journey on my last trip to our hostel from the office. Had my supper by 8:30. It started raining by 9:00. I felt happy at it. Lord Krishna is bidding me farewell from this hostel formally. He knows that I like showers in summer. This night is my last one in this hostel. I am touched to leave it. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my celestial dreams.

1 April (Friday)

Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself and went out to hire an auto rickshaw by 5:45. Vacated F1 room in the KSS Hostel and got my luggage stuffed into this little vehicle. Got off it at House No. 6-3-408 behind Punjagutta police station. The auto rickshaw driver helped me move my luggage to the uppermost single room in this house. Paid him 85 rupees. Arranged my stuff in the room perfectly. Got our office opened as an authorized signatory by 7:45. Today I did not have any work in the office. My Deepthi darling put on a good dress today. Our office environment prevented me from looking at her face also satisfactorily. I regretted the pain in my heart centered on this plight. My hostel mate Anji came to our office with a disappointed heart to talk with the authorities about his failure in getting selected for the position of proofreader. Nobody liked to talk with him. Left the office by 3:45. I felt I was leaving my Deepthi alone in the office. Went to the KSS Hostel by Shivam Road by 5:00. I wanted to watch the Telugu film “Soggaadu” in cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. Tickets were already over. My cousin Sekhar and I watched the Hindi film “Laila” in cinema Sri Ramana Digital from 6:00 to 8:30. Had my simple supper for 12 rupees in a roadside hotel there. Bought a bucket, water bottle, mug and steel plate in a shop for my needs in the new room. Returned to my room and went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

2 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and listened to Telugu cine songs on my Sony Walkman for one hour. Put on my clothes and stepped out by 9:30. On the way, down the steps, paid 1500 rupees to the Muslim owner of this house as monthly rent for the uppermost room I am staying in. Went to post office at Erramanzil and posted the envelope to my folks at home. It contains 1000 rupees meant for my mother and one-page letter addressing my folks. There was a beautiful girl in the post office. She came there to post her I-CET application. I am looking for such girl to marry. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel and spent there from 11:00 to 1:00. Then took a city bus and came to Himayat Nagar to attend an interview. There I had my lunch for 12 rupees in a roadside hotel. Reached the office of CENPAP HR by Street No. 1 in Himayat Nagar. They talked with me for a while and finally told me to meet the folks at Matrusri Educational Society at Nallakunta during afternoon hours tomorrow for final interview for the position of editor with them. Came back to my room by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Then attended the Error Report task of the April issue of ICFAI Reader magazine. Had Dal Rice for 11 rupees in a hotel near our office. Listened to songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

3 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for two hours. Avoided my breakfast this morning not liking to go out for it. Deepthi is haunting me like anything these days. She occupied my heart and soul. She is present everywhere in this world. I often cry for her in my intensity of love for her. She is guiding me everywhere. Her thoughts are vitalizing my existence on this earth. In reality she looks like an inaccessible goddess of beauty to me. I have been carrying this pain of heart on a daily basis. From 11:30 to 1:00 carried out the task of Error Report of the April issue of ICFAI Reader magazine. Left my room by 1:00 and reached Nallakunta by bus by 2:00. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani in Shanti Deluxe Hotel and walked to the office of Matrusri Educational Society in Nallakunta. Attended an interview by K S Arvind for the position of Language Editor with them. Returned to Punjagutta by 6:00. Got parcel of one plate of Chapati at Abhiruchi Hotel and came to my room by 6:30. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 7:30. Had the dry chapatis and cool curry to satisfy the need of my supper. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. I wonder to know what my Deepthi darling would be doing now. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

4 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30 and started listening to my favorite Telugu cine songs on Walkman. Went out by 8:00 and had my breakfast at the pushcart. Entered our office by 8:15. Checked the attendance punch card of my Deepthi darling. She did not come to the office last Saturday. Today I edited one article of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. Checked at the reception counter by 11:00 and found that my Deepthi did not report about her arrival or leave to the office today. She did not come to the office even in the afternoon. I thought she was thoroughly sleeping in the office. I did not like to go to the second floor when my goddess Deepthi was not there. Thus I spent a dull day today without my Deepthi. Went to Plot No. 34 in Nagarjuna Hills by 4:15 to meet my friend Sriram in the office of Le Magnus. He showed me a few innovative cover pages which he designed for the books of this ICFAI firm. I liked those cover pages and his zeal to prove his talent to the firm. I brought him to my room and then moved to the nearby Andhra Bank ATM Center to withdraw and give him 2000 rupees. My cousin Shiva came by 9:00. I helped him buy a good English learning book for him. Had my supper in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 9:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

5 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs till 8:00. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart by 8:15. Entered our office by 8:30. When I was scanning today’s dailies at the reception counter in the second floor, Deepthi entered it by 8:55. She silently went into her space of work. I did not look at her place. Came to my place of work in the third floor by 9:05 and attended my work. Looked at the popup messenger on a computer. The presence of Deepthi was visible there in the form of her name. My goddess was there till 2:00 and then left the office to attend some important assignment of her personal life. I was left alone in the office among many working staff members. Today I edited only one article of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. I was almost workless from 2:00 onwards. I walked here and there to while away my time. I waited in the office till 6:30 for a computer system to be arranged for me by our systems administrator Ravi Kumar. He said he can’t do it today. I was disappointed at it. I have to type out a historical love letter to Deepthi on my computer. Had a plate of Parota in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 8:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my precious dreams.

6 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30 and listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and walked to our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for 10 minutes. Entered my space of work by 7:45. Today I was not assigned any work in the office. I started typing out my love letter to Deepthi by 8:00. It is an engaging love story centered on her and amounted to some eight pages by 5:00 in the evening. Then I edited it. Moved out of the office by 6:30. Went to a computer centre opposite NIMS Hospital and got this eight-page letter printed on photo papers in blue color. It cost me about 320 rupees. I did not like the quality of print on photo paper. Returned to my room by 7:30. Then I wrote a piece of poetry in Telugu admiring Deepthi and got it printed out at a computer center. It was already 9:30. I was feeling hungry. Rushed to a nearby eatery and bought a few samosas for my supper. Intensity of love for one person in this world makes one go mad for a few hours. I was in this mood today. It was all Deepthi in my heart. I put my heart in writing that letter to her. My mind was filled with her thoughts throughout the day. Only she was present around me everywhere. This letter to her carries an absorbing account of my love for her. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my heavenly dreams.

7 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went for my breakfast to the pushcart by 7:30. Entered our office by 8:00. Finished rest of the work related to my letter to Deepthi by 9:00. I put the soft copy of my letter to her in 24 formats of black and white and color features. I took the printout of her office address on a color paper. I got the soft copies of the letters copied to a compact disc. Went to post office at Erramanzil by 10:15 and booked the envelope in Speed Post system. This envelope carries my love letter to her, soft copies of letter and four of my photos. I spent 20 rupees for the Speed Post. I prayed God to ensure that this envelope reaches Deepthi in our office tomorrow safely. I hope Lord Krishna attends his duties in this regard perfectly. Came back to the office by 10:30. Spent rest of the time editing the content of inaugural issue of quarterly magazine IT World. Came back to my rented room by 5:30. My cousin Kiran came to my room by 6:00. He wanted to read the letter I wrote to Deepthi. I read out the letter to him for one hour infusing the feelings of my heart into it. He liked it. I did not go out for my supper. When in deep love with somebody, food remains unwanted element. Went to sleep by 10:30.

8 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00 and went out for my breakfast. Entered our office by 7:30 and got it opened as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Got into the chair near my computer by 8:00. My heartbeat Deepthi started her computer system, in her place, by 09:04:11. I felt relieved in my heart. The attractive love letter, which I posted yesterday to her office address, is supposed to be delivered to her today because I booked it under Speed Post system. I was tense sensing time running ahead. I sat in my place observing popup messenger to know about her presence. From 10:30 she was absent in her seat for about 20 minutes. I observed that our authorities were also absent during that time in their respective seats. I felt scared visualizing that Deepthi showed my letter to the authorities and that they were discussing what disciplinary action must be taken against me. But nothing of that sort happened till the evening. On the other hand, I was doubtful if the postal idiots have delivered that letter to her today. I enquired some fellows in the office about it. They said that postman did not come to our office today. I cried internally. I left the office by 4:45 with tragic feelings in my heart. I only thought that if my love for her is true, Lord Krishna would have reached that letter to her. I was deeply hurt by evening. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

9 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. I did not like to bathe or move out of my room. I remained in my room listening to Telugu cine songs. All my thoughts were centered on one entity in this world. Deepthi is a beautiful girl. She looks like a little goddess to my eyes in the office. She talks and smiles like an innocent child. If she walks on steps without using lift, I too do it. She has all the qualities I am looking for in a bride for me. I am a little boy. She is a little girl. Both of us make up a good match. I will be very happy if she replies to me positively. I will foster her like a little rose in my heart. I will look after her like my little sweetheart. I will live the role of best lover to her forever. I pray Lord Krishna to bless me with her love. It is his duty to unite us somehow. We are ignorant in everything except in falling in love with each other. Who can help us except God in this terribly commercial and vicious world? My life gains sweetness and vitality with her love and association. My lovesick and desperate life starts blossoming and flourishing in the garden of her sweet words and fascinating smiles. What do I want more than that in this world? May all gods and goddesses bless me to get my sweetheart. I hope my Deepthi is happy in her abode of living. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams of solace.

10 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs till 7:30. Then went out and bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Took a bus by 10:00 opposite NIMS Hospital and reached Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel by 10:45. Had a little Ugadi pickle offered by one of the hostel mates. I found that the pickle was already at the verge of getting stale. Went to my favorite hair salon in Ram Nagar and had my haircut by 12:00. Went back to the KSS Hostel and took a head bath by 12:30. I knew that my cousin Sekhar got a job facilitated by a good friend of my friend Murali. My cousin Shiva and I reached cinema Sandhya at RTC Crossroads by 1:00 in an auto rickshaw. We stood in the queue of 45-rupees tickets. We bought two tickets by 1:30. We watched the recently released Telugu film “Aunannaa Kaadhannaa” from 2:00 to 4:45. It is an interesting film. The credit goes to the young and creative director Teja. Took a bus and returned to my room by 6:00. On the way, withdrew 200 rupees from the Andhra Bank ATM Centre near NIMS Hospital and bought 500 grams of grapes. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 6:00 to 7:00. Had my breakfast in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 8:00. Evening the sky turned cloudy. I thought that my Deepthi would reach me good news tomorrow. Went to sleep by 9:45 for my holy dreams.

11 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart by 7:30. Entered our office by 7:45. Got the office opened by 8:15. The responsible fellow did not come to the office in time and so I took the charge of opening the office. Entered my cabin by 8:30. Today I edited two articles of IT World magazine. My Deepthi came to the third floor once. My colleague Satish told me that my darling Deepthi looked pleasant today. I was tense within. I could not know whether she received my letter or not. I was looking at the popup messenger. My goddess of beauty was there only in her chair. I felt very happy to know that. Both of us sat in our respective chairs looking at each other in the popup messenger. I scanned beautiful spots of the world in the Internet on my computer from 2:00 onwards. I could not wait till 5:00 to leave the office. Went down to the second floor by 4:40. I asked the security boy if the postman came today to our office. He said that he handed a Speed Post envelope to my goddess Deepthi this morning around 9:00. I thought Lord Krishna blessed me like this. By evening it turned cloudy. I imagined that wonders happen in my lovesick life soon. Night celebrated my time listening to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.

12 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs till 5:00. I was thinking that my Deepthi would reach me good news today. I was filled with bliss. I celebrated it listening to my favorite Telugu cine songs describing pure and passionate love between young couples. Took a bath and dressed up well by 6:45. I applied a thick dose of Fairever facial fairness cream to make my face look somewhat acceptable to my goddess of heart. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and entered our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Deepthi came to the office by 8:45. I entered my space of work by 9:00. I was editing the content of South Asian Journal of Management. My darling Deepthi came to me and said that she had a word to share with me (in a low voice). I felt down in my heart. She took me to the open space in our floor (third). She talked with me for about one minute. Her flow of English was so refined and elegant that I was surprised. I could somehow tell her to set fire to that envelope and contents in it. She wore yellow Punjabi dress and looked like a beautiful and kind goddess gently counseling her ignorant, innocent and hopeless devotee. She said that she leaves our office in some two weeks’ time. I somehow spent my time in the office till 5:00 and then rushed to my room. I cried like a child knowing that Deepthi leaves the office soon. I prayed God to kill me. I regretted that I can’t commit suicide. The world looked like hell. Went to sleep by 9:00 crying alone for my Deepthi.

13 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went out and had my breakfast at the pushcart by 7:15. Entered our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Entered my space of work by 8:30. Today I was involved in the preparation of final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. Today my Deepthi spent much of her time in our floor only. I could not venture to look at her eyes but felt happy sensing that she was spending in our floor only. It is pain in my heart to know that she would leave our office soon. Daily I see her presence in the popup messenger of our internal computer network. Today our names appeared one after one on it. I felt happy knowing that my Deepthi was beside me. Daily I used to see her car parked in the cellar. Now I stopped seeing her after 5:00 when leaving the office. She leaves me soon in this desert of office. I must orient myself towards living without much attachment with her belongings. Once I loved everything associated with her. I must convince myself that Deepthi is like the shadow of a temple. Holy things in this world leave us soon because we are profane and unqualified to reach and possess them. God created many creatures on this earth to see their tragic phases of lives as permanent sources of enjoyment to Him. Went to sleep by 9:00.

14 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Washed a pair of clothes by 6:00. Took a bath by 7:30. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and reached our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my space of work by 8:30. I looked at popup messenger to check if my Deepthi had arrived. She started her computer system around 9:35. I felt relieved knowing that my goddess came to bless me with her presence in the office. She spent much of her time in our floor from 11:00. She was busy getting the MBA Review magazine ready for release. It has postal dispatch deadline. DTP Operator Rama Lakshmi and Proofreader Manjula assisted her in their best possible ways. She was talking with them like a cute kid. She was walking to and from the second and third floors. She wore red Punjabi dress today. I was editing my journal sitting in my chair like a saint. The reality is that my goddess Deepthi is still spending her time in our floor now and then. Yet I should not look at her. Because she leaves me soon, I should regulate myself from being deeply attached with her psychologically. Her physical presence near me should not drag me into the pitfall of illusion that she is mine. I know I am crying in my heart witnessing this bitter truth but I should learn to live with it. Human life starts and ends with tragedy. I am experiencing it now. Went to sleep by 10:00 to witness my short death during the night.

15 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Rested for one hour again. Moved out by 7:15. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and proceeded to our office. Got it opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Entered my space of work by 8:20. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of two journals. There is shortage of sub editors and proofreaders in our office. Heavy work burden is being placed on our heads. Today my darling Deepthi was heavily burdened with the processing work related to release of the MBA Review magazine. She did not even start her computer system till the afternoon. She wore a white shirt and black pants today. I know she is a very rich girl and does not marry me. Yet I developed deep admiration for her. I may not be enough handsome to match her. But Lord Krishna somehow made me run after her. I feel her presence in our floor to seek solace in my heart. She is a gift of God for me. I pray God to kill me in my sleep and thus avoid me from going to our office after she leaves it. Evening called up my brother Sambha and enquired him about their well-being. Avoided my supper and had some snacks. Evening it drizzled for a while. God wanted to console me with it. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

16 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and reached our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my space of work by 8:20. Today my Deepthi did not come to the office. I was looking at the popup messenger. Her name appeared there for two hours from 11:00. Somebody would have started the computer system of my goddess. I felt as if she was there. Today I carried out the task of Error Report of the April issue of Professional Banker magazine. It turned cloudy in the afternoon. It rained a little by 4:00. The setting of clouds in the sky and coolness in the atmosphere inspired me to imagine myself in the affectionate presence of my sweetheart Deepthi. I sleep at her feet in a forest and ask her to kill me after the rain is over. Let her leave my body there. My soul, which will be sanctified at her feet before death, happily flies into heaven and waits there for her without birth for 80 years. I felt very lonely after the office hours and so moved to the rented abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu at Jubilee Hills by 6:30 taking two auto rickshaws. I tried to escape from the turbulent thoughts of my Deepthi in his affectionate presence. I had my supper alone with them by 9:00. I was thoroughly tired in my heart. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

17 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took two auto rickshaws and came back to my rented room by 6:30. Read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Rested for one hour. Moved out by 9:00 to have my breakfast. When I was having my breakfast in a roadside hotel, a completely naked woman came that way. She must be 30. She was dark in appearance. She stood there expecting something to be offered by the fellows of the hotel. A server in the hotel took a glass of water and threw it at her. She was begging for something and moving ahead being scared of harsh treatment by the blokes of hotel. I thought I would have married her had I been a naked and mad man like her on road. I am ineligible to marry her. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel by 10:30 by bus and spent there till 1:00. Watched the recently released Telugu film “Chandramukhi” in cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet sitting in Seat No. A-18 of 30 rupees from 2:00 to 5:45. A beautiful girl sat before me. She must be 12. She came along with her friends. She is like one of the beautiful goddess I dream to marry. She is some 16 years younger than me. She distanced herself from my heart of admiration after the film. I thought an era ended in my life. This film is excellent like that beautiful girl. Night washed my clothes and took a head bath. Went to sleep by 9:45 for my dreams.

18 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out for my breakfast by 7:00. Bought a Britannia Tiger biscuits pack for four rupees. Entered our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my space of work by 8:00. Today I did not carry out my editing work. I visited some websites for knowledge and information. Today Deepthi did not move from her seat. She sat there from 9:00 to 5:00 with a lunch break of half an hour from 12:30. Evening I got positive reply from Chilli Breeze in Bangalore. Roopa informed me that there are some topics to be written on and a few works to be edited. I emailed her the soft copy of my review of Telugu feature film “Shiva Puthrudu” to allow her to assess my level of creative writing. I requested her to send me a sample copy for editing initially. Evening I went to NIMS Hospital along with my colleague Vijay Krishna. There he bought some medicines for his father. We talked about various sensitive issues of human life. He said that he knew that Deepthi leaves our office by the end of this month. Our systems administrator Ravi Kumar brought a temporary computer system into my rented room by 8:00. He talked with me for one hour. He said that Deepthi is leaving our firm to work in their family business entities. I thought that life is like a shadow. Its existence is misleading and unreliable. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams of consolation.

19 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to devotional music on Hyderabad radio from 6:00 to 7:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:20. Had my breakfast in the roadside hotel and reached our office by 7:40. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Talked with our Administrative Assistant Vinod for half an hour. It was all to believe that I belong to this human world. Entered my space of work by 8:45. My Deepthi came to her seat by 9:08 and started her computer system. I was feeling her gracious presence observing her name in the popup messenger on my computer screen. I did very little editing work today. When I sat by the space of proofreader Manjula, filing the documents of copyright statements related to works published previously in our journals, my goddess Deepthi came there around 2:30. I could not look at her face but slightly could sense that she was sad to know that she would leave me alone in this office soon. I cannot ask her to stay back in the office. Lord Krishna created my life to search for joy in the tragedy of admiration for beauty and sensitivity. I pray Him to protect my sweetheart like His little creature with innocence. She is a child. Let her live happily. Evening she left the office quite early. I cried inside for my Deepthi. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

20 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:15. Had my breakfast at the pushcart and entered our office by 7:40. Scanned today’s dailies for 40 minutes. There are a few suitable jobs for me to be applied. I applied for the position of Copy Editor at Eenadu television channel. Today too I had hardly any editing work. Morning I saw my Deepthi in the second floor at the reception counter. She wore a beautiful set of pants and shirt. Today she decorated her hair also well. Her face was like a little moon. She was having a cup of tea at the reception counter like a royal creature. She looked into my eyes. My heart melted inside. I found love and pity in her face toward me. I wanted to die in her affectionate hands. I wanted to tell her with my voice that I sincerely loved her. My heart is crying within every day. Who can keep my Deepthi with me for some days to express my heartstrings to her by seashore or in a deep forest? Why is Lord Krishna playing with me distancing my sweetheart from me? What sins did I commit to undergo this pain in my heart now for her? I am living without beauty in my life. My goddess Deepthi is shining like a star in my life of despair. The fact is stars seldom stay in our access. We can feel them but we can’t possess them. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams of tragedy.

21 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 6:45. Had my breakfast and went to our office by 7:15. Scanned today’s dailies till 8:00. Entered my space of work by 8:10. Today I was thoroughly involved in getting the final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Managerial Economics ready. Today my Deepthi started her computer system by 9:11. She did not come to our floor even for once. She did not stir from her seat except for 20 minutes during the lunch hour. I imagined all this observing her name in the popup messenger on my computer screen. I stopped going to her floor these days. When I did not know about her leaving our office soon, I felt happy feeling her presence in that floor. I used to create an occasion to go to the second floor. When I knew that she leaves this sanctified space by the end of this month, I started feeling deserted there. A temple without its presiding deity is like a deep valley. The more one stays away from it, the more the beauty and mystery of it when perceived by a beholder. My goddess of beauty curses that space soon, leaving it like a derelict abode. Devils frighten me if I step into that space beyond the presence of my deity. Thus I am spending my office hours with desolate psyche. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

22 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00 and went out. Bought a Britannia Tiger biscuits packet and bread in a shop near our office for my breakfast. Entered our office by 7:15 and got it opened as an authorized signatory by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing the material of The ICFAI Journal of Management Research. I stayed back in the office till 6:30 to finish it. Today my Deepthi did not come to the office. When one is slave to the love of a girl, one naturally invites tragedy into one’s life one day. When the heart of a fellow is too much after a girl, he can cry within him, hiding the disease of pain. I underwent such pain today. When my goddess Deepthi is there, I hesitate to approach her being scared of the office environment. When my Deepthi is not there, I suffer internally feeling the tragedy of her absence. This is how humanity loses desire and thrill to live happily every day. Even if my Deepthi was sitting away from me in the office, her presence could energize me to be happy sensing that sweet pain inside. I could not know why my darling did not come to the office today. Perhaps she is touched to know that one creature in her familiarity is daily suffering for her. She wanted to escape from that burden in her heart today. I suffered like a child missing her divine presence today. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

23 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00 and went out. Had my breakfast in the roadside hotel and went to our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Entered my space of work by 8:30. Today I was thoroughly involved in two important things. I could release the material of The ICFAI Journal of Managerial Economics to the printing press by 4:30. I could send the final version of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance for the scrutiny of its consulting editor by 5:15. I spent busy day like this. My Deepthi did not come to the office even today. She wanted to curse me like that. I could not ask Lord Krishna to send my Deepthi to the office. He had always been selfish in his own way. He was very handsome. So, He could attract beautiful girls in Brindavan very easily. He did not provide me with such handsomeness or intelligence to make my Deepthi understand that I am desperately begging for her love keeping my heart at her feet. Why does not she kill me? I don’t want to live in this world. I lived enough of my pitiable lovesick life. It is good to die in her hands. Thus my departure gets sanctified. My soul leaves me peacefully. My Deepthi is extending my life of tragedy and pain. She likes to be neutral in dealing with this chaos of my heart. Went to sleep by 10:00.

24 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went out and bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Scanned interesting items in it till 9:30. Had a little amount of cold rice along with my Orissa roommate Sukanta Sandha by 9:45. We kept this rice in water after our supper last night. This rice (called Chaddhannam in Telugu) was not enough to be shared equally. There was no salt to add in it. We had it with a bit of pickle bought from a nearby shop. From 10:00 to 6:00, I was thoroughly involved in the Error Report task of the March issue of The Chartered Financial Analyst magazine. I could identify some 24 errors in the text of this published magazine perusing it for some eight hours continuously. Afternoon also I could not go out due to this tedious office work. My roommate brought me half a kilo of grapes on my request, on his way back from the hotel after lunch by 2:00. These grapes were sweet. I had them happily for my lunch. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 8:00. We had our supper by 8:30. Today it was all cloudy outside. I thought it was the revelation of God toward me about his sorrow to see me without Deepthi. I felt sad knowing that God is also sad at my plight of desperate heart. Night also the sky was masked with clouds. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

25 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. My roommate Sukanta also accompanied me. Went to the Andhra Bank ATM Center by NIMS Hospital and withdrew 400 rupees. Called up home by 7:10 and talked with my brother Sambha. Thereafter talked with my maternal aunt Raja Kumari, my uncle Rama Raju and my cousin Narendra Varma. Felt happy talking with these dear ones. Had my breakfast in Hotel Manikya Foods by 7:45 and moved to our office. Today I edited two articles of one journal and released one journal by 5:00 to the printing press. My sweetheart Deepthi came to the office by 9:06. She came to our floor thrice. She wore a beautiful Punjabi dress today. She maintained smiling face whenever I saw her. I crossed over her by 5:00 when she was waiting at the entrance of the second floor to punch her attendance card. She looked at me with a deep feeling for me in her heart. Fragrance spreads across the surroundings when she passes by me in our floor. Today her face shone like a glistening rose in a flower garden in the early morning. She infused enthusiasm and vigor into my spirit today in the office. She flew off in her beautiful white car by 5:10. My heart sank in the dusk of gloom once she left the place. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my classic dreams.

26 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Rested again from 6:00 to 6:30 to recover myself from the effect of my dreamland. Had my breakfast in the roadside hotel and moved to our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for 40 minutes. Entered my space of work by 8:45. Today I was involved in the editing of two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Infrastructure. Morning I observed the name of Deepthi in popup messenger by 9:06. It disappeared within a few minutes. I thought she went back from the office. She came to our floor around 2:30. I wondered at this development. Her car was not there when I observed in the cellar going for my lunch. She was greeting somebody in our floor near me. She was in smiles. She spent in the art room for two minutes. When I stood at the entrance of the second floor, to punch my attendance card once it gets 5:00, Deepthi also came there to do it. She went up and came down briskly. Addressing Research Associate Kalai Selvan, who was beside me punching his card, she remarked, “Kalai, you are so disturbed with many distractions in you that you are forgetting your card number also”. I understood that perhaps she delivered that dialogue bearing me in mind. She could understand that I am deeply disturbed with love for her. Why does not Lord Krishna make her kill or love me? Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

27 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:30. Listened to Telugu film songs from 5:00 to 7:00. Freshened up myself, went out and had my breakfast in the hotel by road. Entered our office by 7:45. Scanned today’s dailies for 40 minutes. Entered my space of work by 8:50. Today I edited two articles for the June issue of The ICFAI Journal of Infrastructure. Morning Deepthi started her computer system by 9:21. She came to our floor twice or thrice. She wore a beautiful pink shirt and black pants today. She held her flow of hair twisted in a rubber band. She was going into the art room by my side. I was editing an article on my computer. I wanted to see her. I failed to do it. She is in my heart. My mind is filled with her thoughts. Still my conscience desperately craved to see her. I controlled myself. She distances herself from me soon. I must feel intense pain visualizing this office without her presence later. She leaves this poor boy soon. I could sense pain in her heart for me. She is also suffering within foreseeing my plight in this office in a few days. She is my goddess. She blesses me to live with tragedy of my pain for her. I pray Lord Krishna to reach my admiration for her through dreams. May God guide her. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

28 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:15. Bought a Britannia Tiger biscuits packet and two bananas for my breakfast and entered our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for one hour. Entered my space of work by 8:30. Today I was hell-bent on finishing the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Infrastructure and handing its final version to its research associate for scrutiny. I could complete this work by 4:30. Gave it to Deepak Kumar in time. Today my Deepthi did not come to the office. I knew that she leaves this office very soon. But I never imagined that she takes leaves in this short period of her association with ICFAI University Press. I started treating her like a kid ever since I observed that she talks and smiles like an innocent baby. Our office looked deserted today without her presence. She used to run like a mischievous boy in our floor along with our office boy John. The thought of her presence in our office keeps me assured that the functioning of machine of this world is well. I know that this is the spell of my intimate admiration for her. The reality of bad circumstances around us often compels us to trouble ourselves more collecting substance from the dreamland of tragedy and pain we build for ourselves hopelessly. I am celebrating this dilemma of perception and destruction. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my classic dreams.

29 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Again rested from 5:30 to 6:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in the hotel by road and entered our office by 7:20. Got it opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. Morning cold caught my nose. Today I had three cups of tea from the vending machine to arrest this flow of mess from my nose. Scanned today’s dailies from 7:30 to 8:30. Entered my space of work by 8:50. Today I edited two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Business Strategy. Our systems administrator Ravi Kumar installed much-awaited used computer in my room by 7:30. Today also my Deepthi did not come to the office. She has been behaving like a saint for the last one week. She comes to the office at such hours as to make others believe that she has many other important works than the ones in this office. She maintains enigmatic behavior in this office whereby one cannot understand whether she is happy or sad. I must be the reason for it. My letter to her must have hurt her as a sensitive human being. She is unable to decide how her lover can be consoled against her helplessness to do anything expected by him. These may be purely my imaginations also. Life is a fragile entity built on hopes, dreams and lies. Such life is beyond logic and order. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

30 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Again rested from 5:30 to 6:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:15. Had my breakfast in the hotel by road and entered our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Entered my space of work by 8:20. Today I edited two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Business Strategy. Today also my Deepthi did not come to the office. Life poses many problems to every individual to make it more complex and challenging. The lives of girls and women are more vulnerable to the societal factors and taboos of contemporary times. My dear Deepthi must be facing internal crisis. It must have certainly been created and intensified by me. My love letter to her makes her ponder over hard realities of human life in India. Many are distancing themselves from others on the basis of mysterious misconceptions, stupid arguments, cruel customs and blind beliefs. Deepthi must be undergoing such dilemma and unrest now. It may also be her pity for me which leads her into suffering for leaving me alone in this office with her thoughts. She carries pain visualizing me desperately looking for her in my heart and our office. I missed her precious presence today in the office. May God bless His child. Went to sleep by 10:00 with a disturbed psyche in her thoughts.

1 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 7:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:30. Had my breakfast in the hotel by road. Had two bananas also at a pushcart. Our Administrative Executive Vijay Kumar, Administrative Assistant Vinod and I took an auto rickshaw by 7:45 and went to ICFAI Business School at Banjara Hills. Today there is a test for the recruitment of Sub Editors, Research Associates and Team Leaders. The examination was conducted in five rooms from 10:00 to 1:00. There was only 50% attendance of the candidates. Some other important competitive examination has to be taken by many candidates today. I was an invigilator along with my six colleagues. These candidates are to be recruited for various positions in ICFAI University Press. It was joy for me to be an invigilator. Came back to my room by 2:30. Scanned today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Went to a China Bazar outlet near NIMS Hospital and bought a plastic chair for 185 rupees to use in my room. Night I felt lonely and sick. I did not feel like going out. Edited the May part of my typed version diary of 1995. It is day of workers today. They are the hot blood of body of any nation. They mostly remain as victims in the hands of unscrupulous industrialists. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

2 May (Monday)

Woke up by 4:45. Edited a small part of my diary of 1995 from 5:30 to 8:30. Then freshened up myself fast and rushed out by 8:40. Had my breakfast in the hotel by road and moved to our office by 8:55. Today I was fully involved in the editing of two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Business Strategy. Today I paid 2500 rupees to our Systems Administrator Ravi Kumar toward the second installment payment for the used computer he bought for me. Evening gave 2000 rupees to Sriram in part payment for his typing of my 10 personal diaries. Evening it rained by 6:30. My Lord Krishna blessed it for me. Morning my goddess Deepthi came to the office by 9:08. She started her computer system by 09:10:12. She came to our floor thrice or four times to attend her work related to Study at ICFAI magazine. I did not see her today. I sat in my chair carrying out my editing work. She cursed me to live without her. A devotee cannot see the face of his goddess when he is much disturbed internally. My goddess would have suffered observing me like a silent fellow. I wanted to fall on her feet and tell her that this world looks more beautiful to me in her presence. She spent her time mechanically in our office. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my invaluable dreams.

3 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Carried out the editing work of my 1995 diary from 5:30 to 8:30. Had my breakfast and moved to our office by 9:00. It was cloudy and drizzly. Today I did not carry out my editing work of journals. I edited some pages in the typed copy of my 1995 diary. Today my goddess Deepthi came to the office. She came to our third floor only once. My colleague V V M Satish Reddy told me about it. He said that she wore a blue shirt today. I too put on a blue shirt today. My dear Deepthi followed my dress code today. Went out for my lunch by 1:00 and returned by 1:30. She went out for her lunch by 1:30 and returned by 2:00. Somehow we are trying to keep away from one another. I believe that she has love for me in her heart. I am ready to sacrifice my life also if she wants it. In this dilemma of two lovers, only God can help. My heart wants her to be my life till my death. If my destiny can’t accommodate her in my life, it is very bad luck for me. She is a little goddess with sweet temperament. I can’t help suffering for her if she kicks me away from her. I have to get on as a human being. She suffers if I resort to any wrong act out of pain being distanced from her. Time is the doctor to treat the disorder of my psyche. I pray God to love my Deepthi. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

4 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and sat for the editing work of my 1995 diary on my computer. Went out by 8:00 and had my breakfast by 8:15. Entered our office and started editing the typed version of my 1995 diary. Throughout the office hours, I carried out this work. Morning my Deepthi started her computer system by 9:14. She wore a beautiful T-shirt and black jeans today. She came to our floor thrice or four times today. She spent some time in the art department in front of me. I heard from my colleague Satish Reddy that she was having her lunch in a corner of her office space in the second floor. I felt like going there and ask her to offer me some part of her food. I partially knew that perhaps today may be her last working day as an employee of this firm. She is sharing parting words with her familiar ones in the office. Evening she talked with our Proofreader Manjula and DTP Operator Rama Lakshmi around 4:40. Her conversation hinted that perhaps she may not come to this office from tomorrow. I came out of the office from the ground floor looking at her parked car in the cellar for the last time. I could not control myself from crying. I covered my eyes with handkerchief to hide the tragedy of my face from others. My colleague Satish Reddy consoled me telling me to control myself. Deepthi is my goddess. She cursed me to live in doom. Went to sleep by 10:00.

5 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:30. Had my breakfast in the hotel by road and moved to our office by 8:00. Today I edited for the sake of my job. My heart was filled with sorrow confirming itself about the prevailing reality before eyes that Deepthi does not come to our office any more. Somebody started her computer system in the second floor. Her name appeared on the popup messenger on my computer. I tried to cheat my heart. I told it that Deepthi was there before her computer. It reminded me the news Kalai Selvan reached me this morning. My goddess Deepthi bade farewell to her colleagues yesterday evening in the second floor distributing biscuits to them. She punched her attendance card by 5:06 yesterday evening. Her car was not there in the cellar. Hers is Maruti Suzuki-Zen car. It is white, long and spacious. It bears number AP 9 AU 9182. Her attendance card was not punched today. Her name also disappeared from the popup messenger by afternoon. I saw her name there for ten or so times to soothe my childish heart and stop it from exposing itself with tears in my eyes. The sky was mostly cloudy today. It is the condolence message of nature to my psychological funeral. Gods remained silent without commenting on the issue of my tragedy. I was cornered from every side by gloom. Went to sleep by 10:00 for seeing my Deepthi in my dreams.

6 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:15. Had my breakfast in the small hotel by main road. Went to our office and got it opened by 7:35 as an authorized signatory. Punched my attendance card. Its number is 69. My Deepthi’s card number is 72. There is card number 71 between hers and mine. That number represents the tragedy and pain that separated me from my Deepthi. I had a glass of cool water from the refrigerator by the entrance door in the second floor which allows one to see the place where my Deepthi used to sit before her black IBM computer. The intensity of pain in my heart frightened me informing me not to stay there for long. I stopped going to that side in the second floor where my Deepthi used to sit from the 1^st of last month. My Deepthi sanctified that place with her presence for some 100 days. I am a sinner in this world born to be separated from her one day. Evil pervades that holy space if I step into it. The sticker indicating the computer space of my Deepthi was shining there on the wooden structure with her name. Its brilliance shot its fire against me and stopped me outside. The office space and time were haunting me in the absence of my goddess Deepthi. She did not kill me before leaving the office. I was dragging the burden of my body in our office as a sub editor. The creator cursed me like a dictator without love for me. Went to sleep by 10:00 praying God to show me Deepthi in my dreams.

7 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in the hotel by main road and went to our office by 7:45. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Had a glass of water from the refrigerator in the second floor where my Deepthi used to move by from her place. I looked at her computer. It was crying for its beloved little goddess. Somebody started her computer. Her name Deepthi appeared on the popup messenger. My heart reacted with tears remembering the fact that she is not coming to the office any more. I went into her shared folder on computer in the network and stole her resignation letter. I stored it in my Yahoo Briefcase account. Evening I became busy releasing one journal to the printing press at the eleventh hour. After that I was typing out an email to send to my Deepthi. By the time I finished 80% of it, my colleague Jerry Thomas came to me and said that Internet Server in our office was already switched off. I was on the verge of tears. Went to the Internet café opposite Abhiruchi Hotel and typed out my email for Deepthi for about three hours. It was over by 10:15. This email narrates my pain after being distanced from her in the office. I requested her to allow my emails into her mailbox. She need not read or respond to them. It is for my satisfaction and to believe that still I am in her presence. Cried typing this email. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

8 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Had my breakfast in a nearby hotel by 8:00. Today I ate about ten sweet mango fruit. My brother Sambha sent a parcel of 90 mangoes recently to me from Peda Gummuluru by a lorry of our familiar ones coming to Hyderabad. I gave some fruit to my friend Veeranjaneyulu at Jubilee Hills. Remaining ones are to be consumed by me. I regret that I am unable to offer some of them to my Deepthi. She is somewhere in this city in a big building beyond my reach. By this afternoon I could complete the online editing of the typed version of my 1995 diary till August. Took a siesta from 3:00 to 4:00. When I started my computer to continue editing my diary, the mouse failed. I cursed our systems administrator Ravi Kumar. Every minute is invaluable for me now. I regretted it. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Sony Walkman for two hours. Went out and had my supper in Sai Ganapathi Hotel at Dwarakapuri Colony by 8:30. Washed a pair of clothes, took a head bath and enjoyed the tragedy of night till 9:30. It was very hot today. By evening a few clouds gathered in a corner of the sky. They must be whispering about my emotional state after the event of my Deepthi’s departure from our office. As darkness advanced, the intensity of my solitude in this busy and huge world further increased. I thought about my goddess Deepthi. She blesses me from distance in this city. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

9 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:30. Had my breakfast and moved to our office by 8:30. I did not like to read newspapers. Looked at my Deepthi’s attendance card. I suffered knowing that my Deepthi does not come to office to punch that card. Had a glass of water from the refrigerator in the second floor in the vicinity of which my Deepthi used to sit. By drinking this water, I get the blessings of my goddess Deepthi. Today I edited two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Services Marketing. Today I did not see the name of my Deepthi in popup messenger also. Anybody did not start her computer system today. I did not receive email from her today into my Yahoo Mail. I felt sad facing this situation till the evening. I could not know whether she checked her email or not. She would not have liked to reply to me. It is the only way by which I can imagine that still I am in her presence. I don’t know why Lord Krishna is testing me like this. I admired my Deepthi as He admired the gopikas in Brindavan. How can He expect His devotees to live without their deeply loved ones? My God must make my Deepthi understand my suffering for her. Any word from her can console me. I am her slave now. I want to feel her presence. I want to see her in my dreams. Went to sleep by 9:30 with a depressed heart for Deepthi.

10 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Rested again from 5:30 to 7:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:30. Had my breakfast of four idlies for six rupees at the pushcart by road. Entered our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Today I hardly did any office related work. Evening I was involved in releasing the material of South Asian Journal of Management to printing press. It could not be done because the office hours were already over. I did not receive email from my Deepthi even today. I don’t think that she did not check her email for all these days. She did not like to reply to me for some reasons. Today I started my computer system crying for her. Her very thought made me cry. The primacy of admiration lies in the intensity of one’s silent suffering for the other. When human heart cries for the call of the beloved, the world closes its eyes to avoid the observation of tragic events. The same world laments the death of a lover when he fails to reach his beloved. Suicides committed by sensitive and sincere lovers in this world must be dedicated to the cruel forces of society and culture and eccentricity and stupidity of people there. My Deepthi also belongs to this victimized section of human societies. She can love humanity. She can’t live in humanity which loves her more than she does. It is fear of the unknown. It is the disease of modernity. It hates true form of sincerity. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. I did not like to do anything for some time. Closed the windows of my room and kept the sunshine outside. Slept for some more time. Freshened up myself by 7:30 and went out. Had my breakfast of biscuits. Scanned today’s dailies for five minutes. When I started my computer system, Deepthi’s name appeared on the popup messenger. Only my goddess Deepthi and I were there by 8:10 in the office on the popup messenger at least. Lord Krishna blessed me showing my Deepthi on my computer. Morning I had one glass of water from the refrigerator where my Deepthi used to move around. My Deepthi was there on the computer till this evening. Today I was gloomy in the office. The absence of my Deepthi in the office is like hell for me. I saw the May issue of MBA Review magazine today in the space of Proofreader Manjula. My Deepthi worked for this magazine. It is a product of her work. I was hurt looking at it. Evening also heavy office work chased me. I had hardly time to send enough email to my Deepthi. Somehow I struggled at the eleventh hour and sent an email to her. I wrote that I am spending like a dead body in the office without her. I don’t know whether she is reading my email or not. God reads it at least. It is the pain of my heart. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

12 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Had my breakfast and went to our office by 7:30. Had a glass of water from the refrigerator which was blessed by the presence of my Deepthi for some days. Sent an email to my Deepthi by 10:00. Today I was chased by the final work of The ICFAI Journal of Business Strategy. Today our Proofreader Manjula and Librarian Prakash celebrated their birthdays. Today I saw the name of my Deepthi on popup messenger throughout the day. Evening entered the space of second floor under the compulsion of Kalai Selvan. There my Deepthi used to sit. I was haunted by the atmosphere in that space. Evening talked with our Administrative Officer K V Rao for some time after the office hours. He informed me that I got my income tax related form 16 ‘A’ from the human resource department. When I went to the desk of Manjunath Bhat to collect it, I found Deepthi’s also there. I wondered at the blessings of Lord Krishna. Interestingly, her name is given after mine in the list prepared by our office folks. God wants to console me like this. I felt like stealing my Deepthi’s letter but office folks misunderstand me. I felt the pain of absence of my Deepthi in the office today. My Deepthi must be happy somewhere in this city. Her breath blends with the air in this city. I too breathe it. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

13 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast and entered our office by 7:15. Got it opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. I did not like to read newspapers. My heart is suffering for my Deepthi. I have no energy or patience to witness the suffering of humanity in this world. Today our proofreader Praveena celebrated her birthday distributing sweets to the office staff. She looked very beautiful today. She sits beside me as part of my editorial team. May God bless her long and happy life. Today I was heavily stuffed with office work. I did not mind the pressure of office work when my Deepthi worked in our office. She filled my heart with vigor and zeal to live and work like a machine. The fragrance of her smiles is some miles away from me now. The sweetness of her voice is buried deep in my heart. I can’t hear it now. Lord Krishna forgot caring for me. He is jealous of my admiration for Deepthi. He distanced her from me to teach me the lessons of suffering in human relationships. He created humanity on earth to seek joy from the game of their daily strain and pain. Went to sleep by 10:30 to get rid of this pain.

14 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today is second Saturday and so a holiday to our office. Edited part of the typed version of my diary of 1995 from 6:30 to 9:30. Then went out and took a bus for Shivam Road from the bus stop opposite NIMS Hospital. Reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 10:10. Stood in the long queue to buy a ticket of 30 rupees. Luckily I got a ticket for me. Went out and had bread for my breakfast. Then had a glass of cool mango juice at the summer outlet by the entrance of this cinema. I was disturbed looking at the unclean appearance of glasses when they were being cleaned in highly used and dirty water there. This is how infections spread from one to one. My employer is paying me 8000 rupees a month as salary. If I am bound to drink this juice for four rupees as I can’t afford costlier drinks, what about my poor Indians. How can they think about or practice hygiene in their lives in such state of affairs around them? I did not know what to do! I know that it is mango flavored juice, not mango juice. The taste and quality of this juice is not good. Watched the Telugu film “Bhadhra” of Meera Jasmin and Ravi Teja from 11:00 to 1:30. I enjoyed watching it. Went to KSS Hostel in DD Colony to meet my familiar folks there and from there to the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi at New Nallakunta to sign something. Returned to my room by 4:30. Felt exhausted. Edited my 1995 diary on computer for some time. Had my supper by 9:00. The heat of this month tortured me today. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

15 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I did not move out of the room except for breakfast in the morning and supper in the evening. Temperature was high outside. My rented room baked me inside. I was thoroughly involved in editing my diary of 1995 today. I almost completed editing its English part. Deepthi stopped coming to our office ten days ago. I wonder at oddness of life. It is not always the concern of love and marriage between a boy and girl. It is about the formation of bonds among human beings on quite negligible grounds and failure of those attachments in a matter of seconds. If I question myself about why I admired Deepthi that deeply, the answer sounds quite irrational, stupid and illogical but I am suffering a lot for this girl. The taste of human life lies in being pure in thoughts and actions. I wanted Deepthi in the manner a tree desires its shade to be with it during the day. Half of the life of the tree is wasted in darkness only. Even during the daytime, its shade won’t be there unless the sun is there in the sky. Such attachment between a tree and its shade is very negligible for other entities in this world. The agony of the tree is a matter of stupidity and ignorance to other people in the world. Even that shade does not mind the interests or pains of that tree. Went to sleep by 10:00.

16 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in my editing work. Today one of my colleagues said that he too tried to love Deepthi. He did a little research before considering that pursuit. He discovered that she had a lover already. I wondered to know about this funny aspect of love between a girl and a boy. One should know whether the other creature’s heart is vacant or not to be loved. Every human being falls in love with some creature of the opposite sex at some stage of one’s life. Love is related to one’s personal life. There is no rule that one’s love should be known to others. If one falls in love with another one, without knowing about that creature much, such love can be intense and pure but the other person may not accept this creature’s sincere love because he or she may be already in love with somebody else. Love that develops between a boy and a girl in teenage mostly fails because they lack the financial independence and strategy required to get their fascination formally standardized. Love among independent adults is guided by rationality and vision. They lack honest and pure admiration for one another. In this mess of definitions and imaginations related to love, I don’t know where I should position myself in relation to Deepthi. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

17 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 6:00 to 6:45. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:15. Got a plate of puris packed in a hotel and moved to our office by 7:30. Got it opened on behalf of another employee of our firm because he was unable to come that early. Today I was thoroughly involved in the processing of two journals. My Deepthi appeared in the popup messenger for much time today. When she was there in her chair, I often used to check it to know whether she liked me to see it there or not. I was in deep worship of her presence in our office. When she went out in her car, I simply thought that she went to her house for lunch. I thoroughly observed her movements in our office. She had been my goddess in every sense. The more the purity and attachment of one’s heart with the other one, the less one can do to reach one’s beloved. I was deeply involved in admiration for her and so I always remained away from her in our office. I lacked tears to wash her feet with reverence. She blessed me with her smiles from distance. She gave me energy with her kind looks at me. I was a lucky fellow to bravely tell her that I admired her. Went to sleep by 9:45 for my dreams.

18 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:30. I was feeling drowsy due to the effect of cool early morning. It is the only time I feel comfortable with to sleep for some more time in this sultry room in summer. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:15. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:45. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing the article of a journal and getting the final version of a journal ready. I took the attendance card of my Deepthi and caressed it. It is a sweet and valuable reminder of my dear Deepthi’s association with this office. My goddess Deepthi came to our office today. She spent in our office from 11:00 to 2:00 according to my rough guess. She talked with my colleague Chirag Mohanty in the magazines section for a while. She came to our floor around 11:45 and talked with our DTP Operator Rama Lakshmi and Proofreader Manjula. She left our floor of the journals team by 11:58. I observed her form on my computer screen when she was entering corridor from the exit of our floor. She delighted us with her presence for some three hours. She had her lunch in our office getting it brought by her dear fellow in our office John. She blessed me in our office today with her physical presence. I could not venture to move out of my floor or chair to see her. The devotee of a goddess can never see her face-to-face. May my goddess be happy. Went to sleep by 10:00.

19 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 6:00 to 6:45. Had my breakfast and moved to our office by 7:30. Took out the attendance card of my goddess Deepthi and kissed it with affection and reverence. Today I was involved in releasing one journal and editing one article of a journal. Lord Krishna decided to teach me the essence of love for a girl. He slowly pushed me into the web of love with a girl. She responded to me nominally in many instances. When I went to fall on her feet, she simply moved to a corner. I kissed the place where she stood for a while. She shed eight tears for me. She can neither allow me to cry for her nor control herself from crying for me when I am away from her. This is the psychic bond of two lovers who can’t be assessed or understood in physical terms. The secret moderator for this program of my admiration for Deepthi is my cunning Lord Krishna. He perfectly knows where to introduce two creatures to love and when to separate those two in order to make them correctly understand what it is all about love. The pot of hot tears is there in the foreheads of sensitive and honest lovers. When heart cries with pain within, the pot releases its ointment of tears to heal the sick psyche of the sufferer. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

20 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu film songs from 6:15 to 7:00. Bought a biscuits packet for four rupees at a shop and went to our office by 7:30. Carried out our official duty of getting the office opened along with the security staff. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing a long article of The ICFAI Journal of Audit Practice and sending the pre-final version of this journal for the consideration of its consulting editor. Morning took the attendance card of my goddess Deepthi and kissed it with reverence for it. For the last 16 days, it has been the representative of my Deepthi in our office. I touch it like a kid and feel the presence of its owner. This invaluable asset of my miserable life leaves its abode of rest soon. It is the substance of human life. It develops a network of solid relationships with abstract entities in this visible world. By the time it recognizes that the shadows around which it wove solid dreams are getting away from it, it begins to see the real nature of abstract things as they are. Deepthi moved like a shadow of reality for some months before my eyes. I am still unable to come out of that trance of felt reality. The attendance card of my darling also distances itself soon from me teaching me one more lesson of fantasy. There is no difference between dream and life. They are twins. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

21 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:45. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:15. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one article of South Asian Journal of Management. The attendance card of my goddess Deepthi was not there in the rack when I checked it this morning. My heart developed possessiveness about everything that belonged to her when it clearly knew that she would leave the office soon. Her car bearing number AP 9 AU 9182 stopped coming into the ground floor of our office from the 5^th of this month. When we can’t talk with people, we fill that void developing intimacy with their belongings and beloved ones. Her car had been source of solace for me for many days. She used to come out of that car like a princess. I saw her in that position very few times. She appeared talking with her friends sometimes. My mind became a slave to her. A master may leave one house to go to another house from where he never comes back and to where he never takes his former slave. An obedient slave observes every asset of the master like a dog does. My master Deepthi left me keeping me in this dilapidated abode of haunting memories. Now I am trying to be distanced from her left out assets in this office. Went to sleep by 10:30.

22 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Went out by 7:30 and had my breakfast. From 8:00 to 8:00 there was no electricity supply to our street today. I spent in my room all the time. It was sultry inside. I struggled to face it. Morning my cousin Shiva came here from Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel. He is planning to move to a nearby area to his office at Banjara Hills. He checked a room in a house behind Punjagutta police station along with his friend. They did not like the water and bathroom facilities in that room. They started to Banjara Hills by 9:30. I am supposed to carry out the editing work of my diary of 1997 today. It could not be done because there was no electricity. It was hot outside. I reclined on my mat and kept moving this side and that side being unable to sleep or do anything else. By 1:30 stepped out to eat something. I did not feel like eating any hard food due to the effect of summer heat. Had one glass of watermelon juice and one glass of sugarcane juice. Also bought five mango fruit from a hawker in our street for ten rupees. Evening bought a parcel of rice for 24 rupees. Had some rice and kept rest of it in water for tomorrow morning to eat it as cold rice (called Chaddhannam in Telugu). Evening talked with my parents at home over phone. Electricity was restored by 8:30. Today I did not do anything worthwhile. Went to sleep by 9:30.

23 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself, had my breakfast of cold rice and went out by 7:30. It rained well this early morning. Some rain drops fell in my cold rice also. My cold rice was thus blessed by God’s buttermilk for me. I added a little salt to it and had it tasting a little pickle along with it. I felt cool in my stomach. I got our office opened by 8:00 as the authorized signatory on behalf of our Librarian Prakash. He went to Kolkata to attend an official duty. Today I was involved in getting the final copy of a journal ready for release. The name of my Deepthi darling was there on popup messenger throughout the day. She was looking at me and crying for me. I consoled her. She is living somewhere in this city only. She smiles for me there. I receive them with my heart. I pray Lord Krishna to look after her as His beloved child. She sleeps early. The naughty moon in the sky comes down to kiss her on cheeks. She thinks that a fly would have played on her face. I will go to her like an invisible spirit and narrate a story until she sleeps again. Thereafter the creatures of night sing songs to make her sleep without being disturbed by other sounds in the city. She is growing like a jasmine in the garden of my God. He knows how to keep her happy. Went to sleep by 10:30 to see my kid Deepthi in my dreams.

24 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs for 40 minutes. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:20. Got it opened as an authorized signatory for this morning. Today I did very little editing work. My goddess Deepthi came to our office in the afternoon. I observed her white car bearing number AP 9 AU 9182. I was touched looking at the car. It looks my Deepthi daily. It is like her servant who carries her on his shoulders affectionately. I rushed out for my lunch. I felt scared thinking that she came to our office to scold me. By the time I came back after my lunch, the vehicle of my goddess was not there. I took the outside staff register at the security staff counter and looked for her name in it. Her name was there in the seventh line. She signed at the end. She specified there that she came to the office for meeting her former colleague Suraiya. She wrote 12:25 as her time of arrival and 1:05 as her time of departure. I wanted to see how my Deepthi was but I can’t see her if she comes across me. She is my goddess. She has to bless me with her divine energy to enable me to do it. I would have been happy if she had spent some more time in our office. I would have been happy thinking that she was moving here and there in my vicinity. May Lord Krishna bless her with comfort and happiness always. Went to sleep by 9:30.

25 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 6:45. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of one article of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. Lovers are like earth and sky. They look very distant from one another but if they open their eyes, they can look each other day and night. My admiration for Deepthi has also been like this. She spent all her time away from me. Nobody ever knew that I had love for her in my heart because we seldom talked with one another. I only could understand that she had love for me in her heart. If I asked her to do something for me, she always kept on postponing it. She must have thought that I would be distanced from her if she completes my work. She always talked with me with a smile on her face. She wanted to fill my life with happiness blessing me with her cheerful face. These are the feelings of my heart when I recollect the nature of her association with me once. Sky and earth stay face-to-face in all ages but they never talk with one another. Their love is not filled with words but imaginations. Nobody can imagine the sky without the association of earth. Earth does not look complete without the sky above. My Deepthi’s love for me is also like this. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was very busy with five journals which are at various levels of editorial processing. Afternoon went to Deepthi’s floor and collected material from a research associate there. I observed some girls around me. They are also research associates. They have the same external appearance of common females like my Deepthi. Still I experienced void in that space. It was from Deepthi’s appearance that my heart derived happiness. She used to look at me differently. I sensed love in her eyes for me. Is it because I felt so toward her that I used to see the same feelings in her eyes? Is her love for me is real or my imagination made her appear to me like that? The truth I felt today was that my Deepthi was not sitting there. I saw her alone in her car. I found her very reserved in her behavior also. Did I interpret that solitary nature of her behavior as a symbol of pity which I can fill with my admiration for her? Do I pity myself or others to love myself or to be loved by others? Why does human heart always like to love only one person at a time? It is selfish. It can’t remember truths. It can’t forget lies just because they don’t materialize. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

27 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar by road and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I did not do even a little bit of editing work related to my designation. My Deepthi rarely visited me in my dreams when she worked in our press. She entered my dreams very frequently after she left our office. I felt happy seeing my Deepthi in my dreams at least. I think she has pity for me. Her soul came to me to spend with me when I am asleep. When she is asleep, her real feelings for me take the form of pictorial messages and reach me traveling across the air. When intense admiration is there between two creatures, their feelings certainly meet somehow due to the blessings of God. I clearly noticed many times Deepthi looking at me with affection and attachment of indefinable nature. God brings two helpless and virtuous creatures together to make them understand that He loves to see them as close associates. Later He separates them to make them realize that there is pain only in attachments and detachments. It is game of God. Admirers and the admired are mere players in that mysterious game. Once this game is over, they have to desert the playground of God. I thank God for His love for these games. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

28 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 7:30. Today office work chased me throughout the day. During the last days of her association with our office, my Deepthi became very silent and slow in her behavior. Her two close friends had already left this office. She turned solitary in her psyche as far as her duties are concerned in this office. She is a rich girl. She does not need the little money these people give her in the form of salary. She wanted to enjoy her job here in a casual way. The subordinate staff working with her moved out. Then she depended on the staff in our floor. She must have lost enthusiasm to work in such disturbed environment. Our office might have looked like an abode of tension and chaos to her. Meanwhile she sensed that I might be a disturbing fellow in her path of somewhat bearable nature. She quit her job impulsively. My goddess thus left me alone in this office. I don’t know if she has personal problems at home which compelled her to leave this job. Her walk by me has been like my peaceful sitting in an avenue in an evening. She filled me with admiration for her. She cast magic upon me. She lived in comfortable ambience. I don’t think she ever came across a crazy fellow like me. May God bless my darling. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

29 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. The cooling effect of nature made me so drowsy this morning that I did not feel like waking up at all. Recently my father and brother Sambha sent me a good number of mangoes in a parcel along with our familiar fellow whose lorry came to Hyderabad with a load. I brought this parcel from Auto Nagar near Vanasthalipuram. Today I did not go out till 8:30. I was thoroughly involved in editing the typed version of my 1997 diary. Morning I had three mango fruit for my breakfast. Afternoon I had two mango fruit for my lunch. Laid down my weary body and spirit on my mat from 1:30 to 2:30. Had my supper at Abhiruchi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony by 9:00. I knew that my body badly fails if I don’t put some solid food in it in the night at least. My face already turned pale. It was very hot outside during daytime. By evening, thick clouds gathered in the empty sky. When I was going to hotel to have my supper, a whirlwind chased me throughout. Elements on roads started flying up into air. Gales directed the scene. I thought my Lord Krishna was playing a silly game with me. Night I did not wash my clothes as scheduled. Took head bath because my hair demanded it. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

30 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was thoroughly involved with the processing work of two journals. My Deepthi’s name appeared on popup messenger throughout the day. My heart does not accept if I say it that my Deepthi is there in her chair. Reality tortures lover’s heart. When there are a number of girls in this world, why should it ask for Deepthi? It knows that all these girls are inaccessible and unfamiliar to it. It helplessly admires the accessible ones and cries when they too go away from it. My Deepthi showered affection upon me when she was in our office. She hardly talked with me and seldom looked at me. Yet I could sense that she had a soft corner for me. Everybody can’t express everything to one’s beloved. Affection can’t make one go and talk with the beloved. Psychological controls and environmental factors often suppress one’s psyche. Real feelings thus fail to reach the beloved in tangible form. The communication of souls can be decoded and comprehended only by the two creatures involved in intense admiration. Such sensitive love relationships fail to get materialized in this complex world. Deepthi would not have loved me deeply but she suffered a lot to go away from my disturbed heart due to her. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

31 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:20. Got it opened as an authorized signatory by 7:30. Today I was deeply involved in my editing work. My darling Deepthi used to smile now and then at some folks in our office. It resembled that of kids. Her mentality and behavior had been childlike in many of my observations. God created her to please her familiar ones simply with her presence. Acts of innocent kids would be lovable and enjoyable to all. All our office folks treated her like a goddess. She behaved casually with all of them. I could not venture to talk with her. My heart felt scared to stand in her presence. It cries when she goes away but it hesitates to meet her when she is there around. She made me abnormal with her different behavior toward me. She is my goddess. I daily talk with her, play with her and entertain her. God brought my goddess into my heart. Nobody can separate her from me. I know that she also thinks about me every day and night. She is omnipresent. She is visiting me in my dreams very frequently. Her soul is flying around me and mine around her. We are inaccessible to one another in the physical considerations only. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

1 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Morning my colleague Vijay Krishna joined back to the office after 15 days of his marriage leave. He recently married a Telugu speaking girl in Visakhapatnam. He is a little upset by knowing that none of our office folks attended it. He said that everything went on well. He distributed sweets to all the folks in our office on this occasion. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing the articles of The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior. Afternoon had my lunch in Sai Ganapathi Hotel along with my colleague Jerry Thomas. Evening Vijay Krishna and I went to the ATM Center of Andhra Bank in the premises of NIMS Hospital and withdrew our money. I paid the monthly rent of 1500 rupees to the owner of my rented room by 6:00. Went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel and had my supper by 8:40. Came back to my room by 9:00. Today I ate about five mango fruit sent by my folks at home. It turned cloudy by evening. Morning it rained considerably before sunrise. My room became a garbage can because I left everything as it is despite their uselessness to me. I am son of Lord Shiva in this respect. He lives in graveyards. I live in a dustbin. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

2 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:45. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:20. Got it opened by 7:30 as the authorized signatory on behalf of our staff member. Today I was partially involved in the editing of a journal. Afternoon I felt very disturbed because our operations manager rebuked me very badly. Left the office by 4:30. I did not like spending alone in my room. I decided to meet my cousin Kiran in Kachiguda at any cost. Took a bus opposite NIMS Hospital and reached my destination by 5:45. Reached Room No. 12 in Manjeera Boys Hostel by Kachiguda Station Road by 6:00. Spent talking with Amitesh, a roommate of my cousin Kiran. He is from Nepal. He is preparing here to take tests and become a chartered accountant. We talked about many things for about two hours. Kiran came to the room by 8:30. Both of us had our supper in this hostel. We came to my room in Punjagutta by 9:30 on his bike. I offered him three mango fruit. We talked for much time. By 10:30 I could feel that I was a bit relieved. My office became a mess recently. I must work there because my destiny ordered me to do it. My society wants to see me as a jobholder. I can find solace in the company of my best friends only. My cousin Kiran is such fellow. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

3 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing the content of a journal. Our Operations Manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa reprimanded me seriously this morning and evening. He found a mistake in the decoration of the inaugural issue of a magazine I attended. He talked very badly to hurt me in any way. At a stage I fought back the tears and decided to quit this job. I consoled myself. I stayed back till 6:30 to finish pending work. I was already thoroughly disappointed with my life and work. Came back to my room and listened to my favorite Telugu cine songs for one hour. I cried for Deepthi in my heart. She is living somewhere in this city. I am living like a dead body in her thoughts. She is entering my dreams almost every night these days. Lord Krishna is kind enough to me to that extent. Deepthi must be feeling sad about me in this room. When she sleeps at night, her soul comes to me carrying the burdens of her heart for me. This is how I am living these days. She is around me wherever I go. Night had my supper at Sai Ganapathi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony by 8:45. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

4 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing work. Recently our operations manager was severely reprimanded by his superior for his failure of supervision in getting the journals and magazines released to the printing press in time. It made him crazy. So, he started chasing us. He sets deadlines for the release of journals. He stays in the office to frighten everybody and get these things done. He sits on our heads to ensure that we have brains in them. He became such headache to all of us. He identifies a few errors in the works I attend and then criticizes me like anything. He said that I am not concentrating my mind on the works at hand. I am involved in a hundred things as a sub editor. I too commit mistakes now and then out of pressure of work. He uses that opportunity to blast me. I am working under much stress and strain due to this fellow’s aggressive behavior toward me. Came back to my room by 5:10. I thought I needed relief from this solitude of the room and the stress of my office work. Closed door of my room keeping its darkness in it. Reached the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu in Jubilee Hills by 7:00. The black boulders around his rented portion look fascinating to me. Went to sleep by 11:30.

5 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. The cool atmosphere around me encouraged me to sleep for two more hours. The assignment on my head now other than the office work is the editing work of my ten years of diaries. I am currently involved in that work only beyond my office hours. Today I spent about ten hours carrying out this work. It went on well. I did it happily listening to melodious cine songs from the speakers of computer system of my friend Veeranjaneyulu. Evening spent talking with him from 6:00 to 7:30. He is disturbed about his life as an artist. He is spending many of his days offering tuitions to some art enthusiasts and doing the reproductions of other great artists. He wants to work on his creative works to establish himself as an artist of originality and individual worth. He can’t attend it unless he stops doing reproductions. It stops flow of money from his clients. It disturbs the maintenance of his daily expenses. His mother is very upset about his still remaining unmarried. He is not getting an exceptional beauty to marry. Returned to my room by 8:30. Ate two mango fruit for my supper. I did not have time to go out and eat something. Washed my clothes and took a head bath by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

6 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and moved out by 6:50. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 7:30. Morning our operations manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa shouted at me for my mistake of not giving the cover pages of the inaugural issue of IT World magazine. Our team leader Vijay Krishna was supposed to check it. It was on his table. He could not shout at him because he is a vital asset in this press now as the only team leader to the journals section. I just thought that a mad dog barked at me. Today I was involved in editing the content of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. Returned to my room by 5:10. Did my diary editing work till 8:20. Then went to Hotel Sai Ganapathi for my supper. It rained from 6:30 to 6:45. It lent a little coolness to the hot weather. Rang up home and talked with my brother Sambha for five minutes. He said that he would send me mangoes through Navata Road Transport soon. The season of mangoes is almost over in this year. He said that it rained there also for a few minutes before my phone call to him. He said that he would come here soon by a lorry of our familiar fellow. Came back to my room by 9:00. It was cool outside. My ceiling fan circulated cool air inside. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

7 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and moved out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of the content of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. The magazines team is overburdened with work. So, our team leader Vijay Krishna asked the sub editors of journals section to help them. I edited a little content of a magazine which falls in the category of magazines being supervised by team leader Jerry Thomas. Afternoon Jerry Thomas and I went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel and had our lunch. Today our operations manager did not contact me at all for anything. I felt happy at it. I told our systems administrator Ravi Kumar to come and check my personal computer once. He is a famous actor in our office. I regret that I could not find other fellows to buy a computer for me. Came back to my room by 5:10. Did the diary editing work till 8:20. Then went out for my supper. Called up my folks at home and talked with my mother and father. They said that my brother Sambha sent me a parcel of mangoes through Navata Road Transport this morning. My father told me that he wants to get me married soon. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

8 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:15. Got it opened by security staff by 7:20 as the authorized signatory on behalf of our administrative officer Manjunath Bhat. Today he was on leave. So, he asked me to open the office. Today I was mostly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. By evening I could release The ICFAI Journal of Organizational Behavior to the printing press. Our operations manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa left the office by 3:00. I found everybody in our floor happy. People moved here and there socializing themselves. They felt relieved in his absence. Returned to my room by 5:40. Called up the folks at the office of Navata Road Transport in Ameerpet and knew that the parcel of mangoes booked at Adduroad reached here. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved from Punjagutta Crossroads to the office of Navata in Ameerpet. Returned to my room with the two cardboard boxes of mangoes by 7:00. Some mangoes already ripened. Took ten fruit and moved to the abode of Veeranjaneyulu in Jubilee Hills. Had my supper there and returned to my room by 8:40. Today I had slight stomachache. Night it turned cloudy. Washed a pair of clothes by 10:00. Now I am living alone in my room. I like this solitude. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.

9 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and moved out by 7:00. Had my breakfast and reached our office by 7:20. Got it opened on behalf of Vijay Kumar, our administrative assistant. Today I could find our office a little peaceful because there was no our operations manager. Completed editing the material of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics by 3:30. Today I deleted unwanted emails from my Yahoo Mail account. Today our team leader Vijay Krishna sent me a few word files of parables. They guide one perfectly in organizational environment. I read and found them very interesting. I thought, after reading them, that though one works hard, one may not be recognized or rewarded. It happens because the performance appraisal carried out by superiors contains stuff of their biased or illogical perspectives developed toward some employees. Hypocrites and criminals would be respected in the present society. Employers are small entitles compared to societies. Came back to my room by 5:10. Mangoes sent by my brother are ripening fast due to hot weather. I can’t eat all of them at a time like an animal. Went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 8:30 and had my supper. Night it was cloudy and cool. I was alone. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

10 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in editing work. I have been working like a machine for the last few days under the oppressive observation of our operations manager. Nobody knows when he presents himself before our eyes and rebukes us for something. This morning my friend Sriram came to our office and handed the 2004 diary of my life and the soft copy of its typed version of text on computer. Returned to my room by 6:00. Within a few minutes, our systems administrator Ravi Kumar came and uploaded some software into my computer system. I gave him four mango fruit. Both of us went to the ATM Center of Andhra Bank near NIMS Hospital. Withdrew 2500 rupees and gave him. One thousand rupees is toward the remaining payment for the price of used computer I bought from him recently. He asked me to lend him 1500 rupees. I experienced much with him regarding his lies and delay in fulfilling his obligations toward others. Yet I lent him believing in his promise to repay in two days. Took some mango fruit into a bag and moved to the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu by 7:30. His mother asked me to take him to some marriage bureau and find a bride for him. We two have hardly time now to attend such things of life. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

11 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took an auto rickshaw up to Jubilee Hills Check post and another from there up to Punjagutta. Reached my room by 7:00. I was still feeling much sleepy. Slept for one hour. Today I avoided both breakfast and lunch. Ate four mango fruit. Spent most of my time editing the typed version of my diary of 1996. It was hot outside and horribly sultry inside. I have to use my invaluable time of this second Saturday. So, I carried out my editing work. My darling Deepthi is visiting me in dreams frequently. By the time I wake up, I am unable to remember the sequence or essence of the dream I experienced a little time ago. I have been facing these disturbances for the last few days. My concern with my dreams is that I have been a strict believer and admirer of them for the last five years or so. They present highly valuable assets of my personal life in the past and present. They make me forget the stories in them frequently once I turn conscious. My darling Deepthi quit her job. So, she does not come to our office. She is coming into my dreamland to console my lovesick psyche for her. What can she do if I can’t remember her presence in my dreams once I wake up? Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

12 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. It was cool. I could not control myself from sleeping till 11:00. My mind was so drowsy that it suppressed the words of my conscience. Today I was supposed to edit my diary of 1996 without wasting time. I think my little darling Deepthi made me sleep like this. One aspect of her soul must have come into my room and cast a spell upon me. She came into my dream. She continued that magic even after I woke up. I don’t know how this naughty girl enjoyed this Sunday. I thought my Deepthi wanted me to enjoy this holiday. So, I did not edit my diary today. Moved out by 11:30 and took a bus to Shivam Road opposite NIMS Hospital. Reached Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel in DD Colony by 12:30. Talked with my friends Murali and Anjaneya Raju for some time. Had my lunch along with them. Anjaneya Raju and I went to Narayana Guda by 2:00 by bus and proceeded to cinema Srinivasa. We saw the Telugu film “Nuvve Naa Praanam” of Prashant and Sneha from 2:15 to 4:45. I enjoyed watching it. Both of us went back to the hostel by 5:45. Bade farewell to my friends there and went to my favorite salon. Had my haircut and came back to Punjagutta. Bought and brought ten rupees of rice and ten rupees of curd for my supper to my room. Washed my clothes and took a head bath. Swept my room cleanly with a broom before taking my bath. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

13 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Today I did not have breakfast outside. Kept the rice of yesterday in cold water during night and had it this morning. It keeps stomach cool in summer. One should not forget adding a little salt to it for making it acceptable to mouth. Today I spent all my time reading a magazine and getting ready with its Error Report. Our operations manager did not come to me even once. I spent happily. Two or three new research associates and sub editors joined our press today. Returned to my room by 5:20 along with Rama Rao. He is a DTP operator in our office and a good friend to me. He spent here for one hour. I offered him four mango fruit. He married one month ago. His wife went home for doing her B.Ed. course in her hometown. He said that he has been facing hell ever since she left for attending her education. I understood that newly married couples can’t withstand even shorter periods of separation. It is the strong bond of married life in traditional human societies. Went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony and had my supper by 9:00. Night it was very cloudy and cool. My room turned pleasant and comfortable for me to rest. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

14 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office. It rained well last night and so it turned cool. When I was walking, it drizzled and brought breezes along. Enjoyed this cool and refreshing morning. Got our office opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. Today I spent most of my office time carrying out the Error Report task of a magazine. Afternoon attended the final check of South Asian Journal of Management. By 4:30 my friend Sriram came to our office and gave me the wedding card of his brother’s marriage. It will be held on the 26^th of this month in Machilipatnam. Even today our operations manager remained away from me. I felt completely relieved throughout my office hours. Afternoon our systems administrator Ravi Kumar repaid me 1000 rupees on my request. I told him to give me the remaining 500 rupees in two days. Came back to my room by 5:30. Edited my diary of 1996 till 8:30. Went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony and had my supper by 9:00. It turned cloudy and classic for nature lovers like me. I enjoyed reading about my childhood in the room. The mango fruit of this season, sent by my folks recently, almost came to an end. A beautiful night spread outside ridiculing my solitude inside. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

15 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and moved out by 7:00. Had my breakfast and reached our office by 7:30. Morning carried out the Error Report work of a magazine. Afternoon I was engaged in releasing the material of South Asian Journal of Management to the printing press. Today about four sub editors joined our press. Since they are new to this profession, they were asked to sit in the library and read something. Afternoon I asked our systems administrator Ravi Kumar about the 500 rupees I have to get from him. He said that he would repay it next Saturday. He added that our relationship would be permanent as long as both of us work in this press. By this, he means that he borrows money from me every month. He thinks that I save my money in bank only because I don’t know how to use it in other ways. By lending him money every month, I can serve the society in a way because he is part of it. I hated this mentality of the fellow. I am living alone in this city. I need some money for safety and security sake. I did not like to bother him explaining these things to him clearly. Returned to my room by 5:30. Ate two mango fruit. Had my supper in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 9:00. Washed a pair of clothes. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.

16 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. Recently, Shalini, one of our colleagues, got married. She came back to our office today after ten days of leave for her marriage. When I went to the magazines section, I threw a glance at her. Her face indicated that she did not sleep well last night. It is common to newly married creatures. They need to sleep well during daytime to make their nights enjoyable and memorable. This poor creature is working in a publishing firm. So, she can’t expect many leaves in one go. Came back to my room by 5:20. A boy was waiting there for my arrival. He got some luggage with him. He mistook my room address as his friend’s. He said he is from Bihar. He came here from Nalgonda district. He felt a little guilty looking at me after knowing that I am not his friend. He took his bag and walked down. He must be 20. He is handsome. He should have gone to a girl’s room instead. Girls greet him with sweet words because he looks attractive to them. His wait for me led him to disheartenment. He could not find me friendly. Went to Abhiruchi Hotel and had my supper by 9:00. Night it turned cool. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

17 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. When I was keeping my key on electric switch board outside my room, I noticed a fellow from a nearby building looking toward me. I suspected his character and attributed some qualities of a thief to him. Somehow I had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar. I was worried about the safety of my key put in open place. Came back to my room and opened it. Kept the important keys of my luggage carriers in a secret place inside. Took the key of the room with me to our office. Today also new folks joined our press. Today I was partially involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics. Evening our Administrative Officer K V Rao told me to show a few lodging facilities in this area for newly recruited male sub editors from Kolkata. They are two fellows. I took them to S.D. Men’s Hostel near our old place of the press. They liked that hostel helplessly. I took them to my room and asked one of them to join me in the next month if interested. He surveyed my room and said that he wants some time to decide to come here or not. Went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel and had my supper by 9:30. My little darling Deepthi is visiting me frequently in my dreams. My Lord Krishna is bringing her into my dreamland. Went to sleep by 10:30.

18 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today our operations manager left the office within minutes after coming in the morning. He found his blood pressure high and so rushed out. The staff in our press is scared to work under his meticulous supervision. They felt relieved today. Our colleague Nithila resigned from her job recently. Our folks organized a small farewell party to her in the small conference hall in our third floor in the magazines section. I spoke one or two words only. She lost her husband sometime ago. She is presently living her solitary life with her little son. She always appeared happily and smilingly to me. I was hurt knowing that she does not come to our office hereafter. I know that human life is a shadow. Nobody can find reality or permanence in it. She is also an image. May God bless her happy life. Came out of the office by 7:10. I felt that I need entertainment this weekend. Moved to Manjeera Boys Hostel by Kachiguda Station Road. My cousin Kiran came to his room watching a film. We spent talking for some time. We had our supper there and went to cinema Odeon at RTC Crossroads on his bike. We saw the Telugu film “Manmadha” from 9:15 to 12:30. Jyothika’s role is engaging in it. Went to sleep by 1:00 in their hostel for my dreams.

19 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Awoke Kiran and bade him farewell. Walked down from the hostel and waited at the nearby bus stop for a bus to Punjagutta. Not a bus turned up for half an hour. Bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu and started reading it sitting under a tree there. By 7:00 a bus turned up with heavy load of passengers. Somehow ventured into it and stood on the footboard along with other adventurous folks. I found it difficult to hold the newspaper with my hands. Asked a fellow in a seat to hold it for some time. Got off it at NIMS bus stop and felt myself relieved of a long journey. Got some breakfast items packed at a roadside pushcart and came to my room. I did not feel like taking my bath. I felt sleepy. Rested on my mat for 20 minutes. The herculean task on my head now is the editing work of my diaries. Rose and sat before my computer editing it till 2:30. I had neither time nor interest to go out and have my lunch. Took a break from my work for one hour. From 4:00 to 8:30 carried out my editing work again. Had my supper at Abhiruchi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony by 9:00. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 10:00. My darling Deepthi is visiting me daily in my dreams. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

20 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had some breakfast by the road near the Andhra Bank’s ATM Center at NIMS Hospital bus stop. Then withdrew 1500 rupees from that ATM Center and moved to our office. Today I was involved in the editing work of The ICFAI Journal of Management Research. Proofreader Praveena’s behavior became unbearable for me. She often goes out and spends talking over her cellular phone. She looks beautiful. I generally don’t like to scold and hurt them. They think that all boys should treat them well. They can’t bear if we get angry with them. Our systems administrator Ravi Kumar also became a nuisance to me. He is supposed to come to my room and repair a little problem in my computer system. He has been postponing his precious visit to my room for the last ten days. He said that he would repay me the 500 rupees in two days’ time. Came back to my room by 5:30 and edited my diary for some time. Went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel and had my supper by 9:00. This morning I knew from the owner of my rented room that a postcard, which came to my address here, recently, was torn off by her little grandchildren. I could not know who wrote that letter to me. I can’t blame those little rascals who tore my letter into pieces out of their ignorance. I never like to miss even a postcard that comes to my address. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

21 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and moved out by 7:00. Bought a 12-rupee biscuits packet for my breakfast and entered our office by 7:15. Got it opened immediately as an authorized signatory for this morning. Today I was involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Management Research. These days Praveena is spending her time in our office as if she is in her house. I don’t know how to reform this girl. Came back to my room by 5:20. My friend Sriram came to my room by 5:30. We spent talking about various things for one hour. He advised me to marry soon and be happy. I told him that I will not marry unless some girl tells me one day that she would die if I don’t marry her. Why did God send me into this world if some girl is not there willing to marry me on her own? I want to see the end of my life on this firm stand only. I gave him 2000 rupees toward his typing charges of my diaries. He attends the marriage of his younger brother on the 26^th of this month. I told him that I can’t attend it due to my busy schedule. Evening the son of owner of my rented room gave me the postcard which I thought missed recently. Had my supper in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 9:15. Wrote a letter to my cousin Naren. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.

22 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 7:30. Today our Administrative Officer Manjunath Bhat was supposed to get the office opened as an authorized signatory. He did not turn up even by 8:00. I got it opened on his behalf. This morning I released the material of The ICFAI Journal of Environmental Economics to the printing press. Rest of the day I edited the content of The Icfaian Journal of Management Research. Came back to my room by 5:30. Edited my old diary till 8:00 on my computer. Went out and rang up my folks at home. My father picked up the phone. He said that my brother Srinivas recently moved to Jaggampeta from Gollalagunta along with his family. It is for the sake of convenient and quality education to their two children. Then my mother talked with me. She wants to send me mango jelly soon if anybody comes here from there. My cousin Narendra Varma goes to Kakinada soon for his third year course of polytechnic. I felt happy knowing that everybody is happy there. I could not talk with my brother Sambha. He went to meet a friend in Kothuru. Now I am finding myself very busy. My life is revolving around the concept of editing. My cute darling Deepthi made my life desperate leaving our office. She does not visit me in my dreams some nights. She is present around me every day. She is in the city only and yet away from me. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

                                                                                                             23 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I got the pre-final copy of The Icfaian Journal of Management Research ready and gave it to Deepak Kumar. Evening took charge of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance. Came back to my room by 5:30. Evening replied to the email of my friend Yoganand. He wrote that beautiful brides can’t be found for our friend Veeranjaneyulu. I replied to him that there are goddesses of beauty everywhere in India. Unless one of them gets ready to marry him, he remains a bachelor forever. Admirers of beauty must marry beauties only. Otherwise they regret their married lives till their deaths. Yogi asked me to make him some suggestions to improve his English. I advised him to read Repidex English Speaking Course book. Recently I asked my cousin Kiran to help me file my income tax returns for the last financial year. He said that he would collect those details and get back to me soon. He is busy in his articleship duties with Bhaskara Rao K V & Company in Hyderabad. I have to claim 5000 rupees from the state government. It was deducted by my employer and credited to its account. Evening the sky turned cloudy. I enjoyed it. I like my privacy now and then. My Lord Krishna knows how to keep me happy. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

24 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and moved out by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance. Recently my maternal aunt Raja Kumari asked me to find a temporary job of two months for her son Narendra Varma. I told her that I would try but my efforts did not prove fruitful. She thinks that he can earn 5000 rupees at least which can be useful for his studies. On the other hand, my father told me recently to find a job for a fellow in our village. He is 30 and a postgraduate. He is looking for a job which brings him 4000 rupees at least a month. It must be a permanent job. I told many of my acquaintances about it. Nobody could help me. These days it is very difficult for candidates with rural backgrounds and traditional degrees to get a job. Computer age does not accept people with the knowledge of social sciences. Unless they have command of English, present employers don’t see their faces also. Luckily I got a good job. Otherwise my situation too would have been the same. Highly educated and beautiful girls are posing a challenge to boys in all the fields of employment. In this complex scenario of job market, many students from government colleges with poor competitive skills remain as victims. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

25 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and reached our office by 7:30. I was told by the security staff that our systems administrator Ravi Kumar wanted me to open the office this morning on his behalf. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance. Evening, when I was about to leave our office by 5:10, I met our colleague Kalai Selvan. I asked him if he got any news about Deepthi. He is her good friend. He would be in touch with her over the phone. He said that she is not looking for a job now. She told him that she would reach good news to him soon. He guessed that it may be about her marriage. May God bless her. My colleague (DTP operator) Rajendra Kumar and I reached cinema Gokul at Erragadda by 5:40 on his scooty. I stood in the queue for ten minutes. Tickets were over. We bought the ticket of 33 rupees for 50 rupees in black. The film starts by 6:45. He took me to A G Quarters. He lives there along with his parents. I stood by road there for some time. We came back to the cinema by 6:30. We watched the Telugu film “Aparichithudu” in the first show. Had my supper by 10:30 at Abhiruchi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

26 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Felt sleepy and so continued that pursuit from 6:00 to 7:40. Then walked down to a retail store in our vicinity and bought two biscuit packets. One is a big one and has about 60 creamy biscuits in it. Its price is 14 rupees. Another pack has six creamy biscuits. Its price is 12 rupees. I have to put on my pants and shirt to go out and have my breakfast. It kills my invaluable time of Sunday. I use these biscuits for my breakfast and lunch today. I was involved in editing my diary of 1996 from 8:00 to 2:00. Rested on my mat for two hours. Then edited my diary from 4:00 to 8:30. I know that I am wasting my invaluable time resting for two hours. Today it was fascinatingly cloudy and cool outside. I turned weary inside and rested for much time. Our systems administrator Ravi Kumar told me yesterday that he would upload 20 GB hard disk into my computer system today in the afternoon. He again proved that he is one of the most unreliable folks I came across in my life. He can’t face me if I show him my aspect of anger. Went out and had my supper at Abhiruchi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony by 9:00. It was very enjoyable outside. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 9:45. Today I became weak as I worked for long without eating good food. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

27 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance. Returned to my room by 5:15. Edited my diary of 1996 from 5:30 to 8:30. Went to a telephone booth in Dwarakapuri Colony and called up my folks at home in Peda Gummuluru. First my mother talked with me. She enquired me about my well-being. She said that it rained there today. Then my brother Sambha talked with me and said that he would come here to see me by the end of next month. He buys two acres of agricultural land soon in village Tangedu. He sells his one acre of rice farm in Gollalagunta for it. He said that the rates of agricultural lands are increasing rapidly in that region. He asked me if I saved money to buy land for me. I told him that all my money is being spent on my diaries only. My father talked with me at the end. I told him not to think about my marriage until next year. Dysentery attacked me today because I ate bad biscuits yesterday. I took two tablets to get rid of it after my supper at Sai Ganapathi Hotel. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

28 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Bought a Britannia biscuits packet for 12 rupees and entered our office by 7:20. Got it opened by 7:30 by security staff as an authorized signatory. Today I did not edit even a bit of any journal. By evening got the final copy of The Icfaian Journal of Management Research ready for release. Afternoon I was involved in the Error Report work of Advertising Express magazine. Came back to my room by 5:30. Edited my diary of 1996 till 8:30. It rained heavily from 7:20 to 8:00. The ceiling of my room shook to face this rain. Rainwater entered my room. I liked it. It is holy water sent by God. I see His blessings in it. It turned cool and refreshing. I felt very happy at it. I think my Deepthi hides in their big house in the city being scared of this downpour. There is no lightning in the sky. So, she would have balanced herself to witness this heavy rain. May God bless my darling. I could not venture to go to Dwarakapuri Colony to have my supper at Sai Ganapathi Hotel. Went to Hotel Banjara Durbar and had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 35 rupees. I could not eat all the rice. There were only a little curry and buttermilk to add to rice. I did not like them. My room became very cool. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

                                                                                                         29 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road. Entered our office by 7:30. Today I was involved in the Error Report work of a magazine. By evening, I could release The Icfaian Journal of Management Research to the printing press. Came back to my room by 5:10. Today it rained heavily in the evening. Edited my diary of 1996 from 5:30 to 8:30. Went out and had my supper in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 9:00. I noticed fruit stalls in many places till recently. As the rainy season started, all the temporary business people of fruit juices stopped their duties and closed their outlets. I was very thirsty and often felt like dipping my head in a big vessel of fruit juice to satisfy my lingering desire for cooling myself down internally. Now I am not interested in them. The special effects of nature thus influence human nature differently in different seasons. Now I am feeling cold at night. I enjoy my room being hot now. I did not like high temperatures in this summer. Now I want the sun to shine in my room. The moon is also hiding behind the clouds. My Lord Krishna is bringing my darling Deepthi into my dreams to make her talk with me and avoid my lovesickness. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams created by God.

30 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast by 7:15 beside the road and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the Error Report work of a magazine. Evening it rained heavily by 5:20. Edited my diary of 1996 from 5:30 to 8:30. Went to the ATM Centre of Andhra Bank by NIMS Hospital bus stop and checked the balance in my account. I found that my salary is not yet credited to my account. Moved to Sai Ganapathi Hotel and had my supper by 9:00. I have been eating my lunch also here for the last four months or so. I rarely eat rice in the afternoon. He charges 20 rupees for plate meal in the afternoon and evening. At lunchtime, one moves with a bowl of hot and tasty ghee also. There would be delicious curries. It is because many come to this hotel in the afternoon from the nearby offices. He needs to attract them. In the evenings, only some fellows like me go there for their supper. Then there won’t be ghee or delicious curries. I am not finding fault with them. All folks running business units aim at profits. It compels them to use many tactics. Sometimes these blokes heat up stale food items and serve them as fresh ones. It is a sin. Came back to my room by 9:10. The sky was cloudy. It was cool. I remained solitary in my room. Went to sleep by 9:45 for my dreams.

1 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart beside main road. Entered our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance. Came back to my room by 5:30. Went to Hotel Sai Ganapathi by 8:15. I paid 20 rupees for a meal and took a coupon. Rice was not yet prepared. I was supposed to wait for some time. I did not like to wait wasting my time there. Rushed out of that hotel and went into the adjacent Abhiruchi Hotel. I told the fellow that I wanted rice immediately and I would not like to wait there. He took on this challenge. Food was served within seconds. I was not much hungry in fact. I wish God avoided my habits or weaknesses of hunger, thirst and sleep. I am wasting much of my time in these daily pursuits only. I don’t know why God made man a victim like this to all these limitations. Came back to my room by 9:00. I observed that some fruit stalls are still there beside the road. They are still adding ice to them. I don’t know whether customers make these fellows like that or what. They keep very small content of the main fruit. Sugar, water and ice occupy much part of a glass. The sky was cloudy. It was cool. What should be my Deepthi doing now? Playing with kids at her home. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.

2 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and edited my diary of 1996 from 6:00 to 8:30. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 9:05. Today I got the pre-final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Public Finance ready and sent it to its consulting editor for scrutiny. She checked and returned it to our press by 5:00. This afternoon I spent browsing Internet. Came back to my room by 5:30. Edited my diary for some time. Went to Hotel Sai Ganapathi and had my supper by 9:00. I have absolutely distanced myself these days from acts of spiritualism. I do not go to temples nor listen to devotional music or spiritual discourses. Lord Krishna has been kind to me. He could keep me away from marriage. He provided me with a stable job. He kept my friend Veeranjaneyulu near me in this city. He observed that I am suffering from lovesickness. He made cute girl Deepthi fall in my eyes of admiration. I know that she is also deeply involved in my admiration. She is daily coming into my dreams. It is a great solace for me. I pray my Lord Krishna to safeguard her always. She is my life. My life comes to me one day. Only my God has to attend those things. Her smiles are the goals to be reached by me. May my Lord Krishna direct me toward that bliss in my life. Night listened to Hindi cine songs on my computer for some time. I am enjoying my solitude. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my heavenly dreams blessed by God.

3 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary. Went out by 9:00 and had my breakfast. Today I discovered that I am affected with diarrhoea. I bought a tablet from a medical store. Returned to my room and resumed editing my diary. Today I bought two packs of curd also for getting rid of my minor health disorder. The problem continued. Afternoon I did not have my lunch. Rested on my mat for some time from 2:30. Went out and had my supper in Abhiruchi Hotel by 9:15. On the way, went to a medical store and bought two tablets to face my health problem. Came back to my room by 9:40. I recently cleaned my room. It is looking a bit neat now. The window looks weak. I mostly keep it closed. The door gets too tight to shut if it rains a bit. The hard walls of the room do not accept nails into them despite our best efforts. I put my clothes here and there. There is nobody to sweep the room and clean the bathroom. I sweep my room once a month and no sanitary inspector questions me. The only considerable friend in my room is my personal computer. Many Indians are living like this. I don’t pity my lifestyle of this order. I am able to live on my own. It is important. God gave me good health and an enquiring mind. I am happy for it and grateful to Him. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

4 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out for fresh air by 8:00. Had my breakfast of three bananas and entered our office by 8:30. Today new sub editors joined our press. They are three girls and were introduced to all in the office by one of my colleagues. Today I did not edit any journal because I am up-to-date in my work. I kept myself out of the office mood and entered my personal life editing the last part of my 1996 diary. It was completed by 5:00. I felt very happy at it. Our operations manager observed me typing out this and that now and then. He is perhaps planning to catch me one day and reprimand me severely. I know he can never do it. He can’t dare come to me and ask for anything. I am training him like that. I don’t have hatred for him because he is an efficient and dedicated employee in our office. He tries to fool others hiding his mistakes now and then. He has serious ego problems related to his position here. Employees in our office are getting scared to go to him and ask him even for two-hour permission. He will face consequences unless he changes his attitude soon. Today I turned weak due to the effect of diarrhoea which attacked me yesterday because of weather change. Had my supper at Hotel Sai Ganapathi in Dwarakapuri Colony by 9:00. This morning my colleagues experienced difficulties in coming to the office due to APSRTC Bus Strike. Night it was cool and cloudy. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

5 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 8:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 8:30. Today I attended the material receipt activity of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. This afternoon I talked with our Administrative Manager K V Rao about the point of refund of my income tax returns of last financial year. I have to get 1400 rupees. The cancer patients of income tax department are unable to send it to me till now. They will lose their limbs in road accidents. Their bodies will be boiled in hot dishes of the hell after they die. I was told that I should personally go and meet those scoundrels to get my income tax refund soon. I have to offer them bribe to get my hard-earned money back from their clutches. I feel like killing these idiots. Money is very important for me now. They are playing with me. I was much disturbed about this issue today. Why was I born as a human being among these sinners and criminals of India? I can’t kill myself because my Deepthi will cry for me. She is my kid. She can’t live without me. Had my supper in Hotel Sai Ganapathi by 9:15. This evening I started editing my diary of 1998. I was very disturbed at night also about my money refund issue. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

6 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Edited my diary of 1998 from 6:00 to 8:30. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 8:45. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 9:00. Today a proofreader came into my team from the other. Raja Gopal came in the place of Praveena. This change of structure of team members was done by our team leader. He did it with a good idea. I can’t get angry with Praveena or Rajendra Kumar to get things done fast. It allows them to be lazy in doing their work. When I was sipping tea this morning, Praveena came to me and made a sad face. I never hurt her in my position of superiority. She was hurt for being moved into another team from mine. May God bless her. This morning I gave my Form 16 A related to income tax returns to our Administrative Manager K V Rao. He helps me in getting my returns claimed through a private tax consultant. I will not take this issue of refund of money seriously any more. I don’t like to madden myself in that useless thing of my valuable life. Today it was cloudy and rainy. Came back to my room by 5:30. Edited my diary from 5:30 to 8:30. Went out and had my supper in Hotel Sai Ganapathi by 9:00. There was free offer of egg curry today. I liked its taste. Night washed a pair of clothes. My darling Deepthi is going to marry me soon. This is the message I received from my dreams blessed by my Lord Krishna. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

7 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 8:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 8:30. Today our operations manager called me into his room and rebuked me harshly. I was much disturbed by his offensive remarks and so told him that I would leave this press soon if he does not like to see me in the office. Then he changed his course of conversation. Today I prepared a serious letter to send to the income tax scoundrels regarding the issue of the refund of my money related to last financial year. Before going out for my lunch, I showed that letter to our Administrative Manager K V Rao. He advised me not to send it to them. Nobody can change those thick-skinned pigs of bureaucracy in India. My letter has very angry tone. I liked his affectionate advice and withdrew from posting it. Many ordinary human beings are suffering a lot because of these filthy dogs and bitches in the Indian society. I am also one of those victims. I want to forget it. Came back to my room by 5:30. Meanwhile my friend Sriram came. We spent talking for half an hour. Edited my diary of 1998 on my computer till 8:30. Went out and had my supper at Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 9:20. Listened to Telugu cine songs for half an hour. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.

8 July (Friday)

Got up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:20. Got it opened by 7:30 as the authorized signatory on behalf of my colleague Vinod. Today I was involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. For the last two months, I have been sending long emails to the email address of my goddess Deepthi. I am very happy thinking that Deepthi is still in contact with me. I don’t know whether she is reading my emails or not. She is frequently visiting me in my dreams. My Lord Krishna is kind to me in this regard. This evening I felt deeply hurt knowing that she is not responding to my emails at all. Today I informed her that I will not send emails to her from today onwards. I was hurt sending such email to her. I want to see her, talk with her and marry her soon. She remained silent. I wrote her that I will not commit suicide even if she does not love me. I admired her. I can’t ask her to love me because I loved her. I wrote her that I can be a good husband to her if she pities and marries me. May God help her decide on her own. Came back to my room by 5:15. Today I was upset and so did not like to edit my diary in that mood. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

9 July (Saturday)

Got up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 1998 from 6:30. It was raining heavily outside due to the effect of cyclone. Rainwater entered my room from all the spaces in the ceiling and walls. I could not dare go out for my breakfast for long. I noticed that the rain would not stop and allow me to go out for eating something. I took a polythene cover and put it on my head as an umbrella to save myself from the rain. When I was walking down the steps to buy something from a nearby shop to eat, the son of the owner of this house came across me. He stopped the supply of water into my bathroom because there is some mechanical problem with the water pipes in the ground floor of this house. He humbly explained it to me when I was not serious about that issue at all. I told him that I had already bathed this morning and stored a bucket of water for future use. I told him that I did not want water for the day. He said that the water pipe would be repaired in a few hours. I bought a few sweets and a pack of curd from a shop in our lane. They constituted my breakfast and lunch for today. I kept on editing my diary till 8:30 without interval. It was continuously raining outside. Somehow went to Abhiruchi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony and had my supper by 9:00. I shivered even when having my supper sitting in the hotel. Went to sleep by 10:00, in the cold, for my dreams.

10 July (Sunday)

Got up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 1998. Today it stopped raining though the cyclonic effect was still there. Went out by 9:00 to have my breakfast. It was drizzling. I thought rain was chasing me. Many houseflies were playing in all the places of Hotel Banjara Durbar. I spotted the Telugu daily Eenadu at a fellow in this hotel. I sat beside him and read the three parts of this newspaper one after one in 15 minutes. The headlines stated that the low-lying areas in the twin cities of Hyderabad and Secunderabad are inundated due to heavy rain that fell yesterday. The water levels in ponds are at alarming stages. People living in slums are being evacuated. Came back to my room after eating useless stuff of breakfast. By 1:30 went out and withdrew 400 rupees from the ATM Center of Andhra Bank near NIMS Hospital bus stop. Had my lunch in Hotel Sai Ganapathi. Carried out my editing work from 2:30 to 8:30. This afternoon two fellows came and asked me if my room is vacant. I educated them about the difficulty in finding affordable rooms in this costly area of Punjagutta. Had my supper by 9:20 in Abhiruchi Hotel. Night I had to wash a pair of clothes but for the cold and cloudy weather outside. Today I spent a good day. My darling Deepthi is with me. So, I am happy. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

11 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 8:30. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and walked to our office. I ate two bananas on the way at a pushcart. Today I was involved in editing two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology. There were many equations. I scanned them carefully line to line. Today, DTP Operator Rajendra Kumar, my team member, was informed by our superiors to leave this press by the end of this month. He has been careless of his work for long. He pulled a sad face after knowing this bitter truth. Came back to my room by 5:15. Edited a small portion of my diary of 1998 till 8:45. Then went to Hotel Sai Ganapathi in Dwarakapuri Colony and had my supper paying 20 rupees. When coming back to my room, I felt like buying grapes at a roadside pushcart. When I enquired about the price, it showed beyond commonplace. He said bargaining (in India it is pervasive when it comes to buying things) won’t be entertained. I gave him 12 rupees for 250 grams of grapes. He gave me a small bunch of grapes without weighing it in the balance at him. When I questioned him about it, he said that he can know weight of grapes by observing their size. I knew that he is a lunatic and so left him. There were seeds in them which I don’t like. Washed a pair of clothes. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

12 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a roadside pushcart and moved to our office by 7:20. Got it opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. Today I was deeply involved in the editing of an article of The ICFAI Journal of Science & Technology till 3:30. Today it was mostly cloudy. It rained in the evening. Came back to my room by 5:15. I was supposed to edit my diary of 1998. I felt depressed and so could not carry out that important work. It was my past life. My present life did not allow me to edit it. Ninety days ago my goddess Deepthi met me in the third floor of our office. During this course of time, I could make her realize that she was born to marry me in this birth. Now she must be admiring me deeply. According to my dreams, she reveals her love for me very soon. My Lord Krishna helped me a lot in making my cute darling Radha understand me. I wholeheartedly like to marry her very soon once she formally expresses her desire of same nature. She can be my dear wife forever. I will look after her as my sweet and cute kid. I will pray my nature to behave like a kid with her. I know that God is taking care of her now. He knows how to make two creatures fall in love. Had my supper at Hotel Sai Ganapathi by 9:15. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

13 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Actually I did not sleep from 3:00 onwards. My goddess Deepthi came into my dream. I could not sleep thereafter. My dream showed me how deeply she is associated with me now. She can’t live without me. She is unable to sleep till late night due to my thoughts. I am her world now. She can’t spend even ten minutes without my thoughts. She is spending every second in her life like an hour of wait to talk with me. Her relatives are involved in the program of organizing a big function very soon to announce the great news of her love for me and our eventual marriage. She is not sleeping well in her home. My soul is not allowing me to sleep here in my room. If she is not happy there, I can’t spend peacefully over here. I spent about three hours without sleep in her thoughts. I pray my Lord Krishna to see that my little goddess sleeps well this night. I can’t sleep here unless my life is happily sleeping there. I should bravely marry her very soon. I will make her life a heaven on earth with my admiration and affection for her. Lord Krishna sent me one of his dear creatures as Deepthi for me. My eventual duty is to serve her like a slave. May heaven bless her with happy sleep this night. I should console her going into her dream. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

14 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and moved to our office. Today I edited two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Business Strategy. Came back to my room by 5:30 and edited my diary of 1998 till 8:30. Then went to Dwarakapuri Colony. First talked with my parents over public telephone. Then talked with my brother Srinivas and my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani in Jaggampeta. They moved to Jaggampeta on the 18^th of last month from Gollalagunta for the sake of quality education for their children Sujan and Suhas. I informed my sister-in-law that I am going to marry my darling Deepthi very soon. I requested her to pray God to see that our love gets formalized through marriage soon. According to the dreams blessed by my Lord Krishna and the estimates of my sixth sense, my goddess Deepthi reveals her love for me on the 16^th of this month in a formal setting and manner. There is only one day in between. The 16^th of this month is going to be a historical day in my life. I pray my Lord Krishna to supervise this blissful occasion in my life affectionately. I can be one of the luckiest fellows on this earth planet to live my life for 100 years in the company of my blessed wife Deepthi. May Lord Ganesh unite us carefully. May Mother Saraswati bless us. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

15 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and moved out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I did not do even a little bit of editing work. All the day I spent in the thoughts of my goddess Deepthi. I know that she is going to propose her love for me tomorrow in our office. This morning I prepared a little text for her at the bottom of which the telephone number of my brother Srinivas is given. I will ask her to talk with my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and inform the happiest news of our marriage soon. God has become very kind to me through blessing my darling Deepthi to me. I will look after her like my cute and naughty kid. She does not know even how to eat food. I should feed her with my hands. She attracts all with her sweet voice and smiles. She is my jasmine. She is blessed by God to save my life of years of solitude and lovesickness. I will prove as the best husband to her. She has little hands. They are very beautiful. She suffered a lot being away from me for all these days. Hereafter I will take care of her life wholeheartedly. I pray my Lord Krishna to make her and her relatives sleep happily this night. Now they are under stress. Tomorrow I will see my goddess Deepthi after the void of 72 days. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

16 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I hardly did any editing work. I thought that my goddess Deepthi would announce her love for me in our office today in a surprising manner. I spent all the time in her thoughts only. I stopped sending emails to her one week ago. I underwent torture to spend one week like this. This evening I sent her email. It consoled me a lot. She is part and parcel of my body and soul now. She is making me mad. I begged her once again in my email to save me from this agony. I don’t know what is stopping her from reaching me early. I lost control of myself. Only my Lord Krishna can mobilize her to save me soon from this distress. I can’t tell anybody that I am suffering like this. Only my goddess has to announce that happy news of our love and marriage to everybody. I recently created my blog site in the free space provided by folks of the Google. I already posted five blogs on it. The fifth one which I posted this morning is about my Deepthi. The title of this blog is “My Passion for Deep Tea”. I explained my love and attachment for her in this blog. Returned to my room by 5:40. I could not edit my diary. I hopelessly rested on my mat to cool down myself. Drowsiness enveloped me. I could wake up by 9:00. Somehow went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel and had my supper. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams of Deepthi.

17 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and sat before my computer by 7:00. I could edit two or three pages only. My mind is presently filled with Deepthi. So, I could not edit the language related to my past life. Went out and had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar. My Deepthi suffers if I remain hungry. This is her body. I should keep it healthy for her sake. Returned to my room and rested on mat. I am out of control. I can’t do anything to save myself from this agony until I see my Deepthi. My life is in her hands now. Afternoon went out and withdrew 400 rupees for my weeklong expenses. The ATM Center of Andhra Bank near NIMS Hospital looked at me sadly understanding my pitiable and lovesick life for my darling Deepthi. On the way, had my lunch at Sai Ganapathi Hotel. I did not know how to spend my time in my room alone. I bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu and a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara. I read them for a while and slept again. I was unable to sleep. I was being carried away in the sweet thoughts of my goddess Deepthi. I should marry her soon to save myself from this feeling of insecurity. I solemnly implore my Lord Krishna to unite me with my Deepthi. I want it to happen within days. I am spending every day carrying heavy grief in my heart to meet my Deepthi. I can’t survive for long like this. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

18 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:15. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I edited the content of The ICFAI Journal of Infrastructure. I thought that my darling Deepthi would propose her love for me today in our office. I spent every hour waiting for that moment. It did not happen. I was severely disappointed. Came back to my room by 5:20. I could not edit my diary of 1998. I laid down myself and cried thinking about my Deepthi. I could not understand why she is delaying to propose her love for me. Went out and checked my Yahoo Address Book for her telephone numbers. I rang up to her cellular phone first. An automated response came from that end stating that the number is invalid. I could not dare call up to their house number. They think that some mad fellow is calling them without a purpose. I did not like to face that humiliation from them. Came back to my room and rested in a sad mood for some time. Went out and had my supper in Abhiruchi Hotel by 9:00. I did not like to question myself on why I am eating food and for whom I am living like this. Came back to my room and ventured to sleep. The thoughts of Deepthi kept haunting me. My dreams signify that she was born for me but the reality is not nearing me to her. I can’t continue for long in this office if this dilemma persists. Only God has to unite us soon. I don’t remember when I fell asleep.

19 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. This morning I sent an email to Deepthi informing her about my resignation from the present job. I have been deeply involved in her admiration for the last 80 days or so. I must go away from this press to forget her. I gave my resignation letter to our Administrative Manager K V Rao. He advised me to reconsider my idea of resignation. I explained him the personal problem of my admiration and attachment for Deepthi. I shed tears before him narrating my story of pain for Deepthi. He said that he would relieve me from this job on the 23^rd of this month as I requested for in my resignation letter. This evening my colleague Vijay Krishna and I went to the temple of Shirdi Sai Baba in Dwarakapuri Colony. We spent there for some time. I went there just to accompany him but not out of reverence for Baba. Thence we proceeded to Journalist Colony on his bike. He dropped me at the abode of my artist friend Veeranjaneyulu. I told him that I decided to resign from my job. I told him the story of my admiration for Deepthi. He could not console me. God knows how to play with my sensitivity and helplessness. Tears are my assets now. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

20 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Jubilee Hills Check Post. Thence took another auto rickshaw and reached Punjagutta Crossroads by 7:00. Came to my room and rested till 8:00. Freshened up myself and moved out by 8:15. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 8:30. Today our operations manager called me into his room and talked with me for half an hour. He told me much about the irrationality of my admiration for Deepthi. I wanted to die for her. Today I am leaving this press being unable to forget her attachment with it. He advised me to seek leave for three months and rejoin it after I come out of my madness for Deepthi. I liked that idea and so prepared my resignation letter accordingly. Edited the content of a research journal till 5:00. My friend Sriram and I talked for two hours in my room. He advised me to forget Deepthi and come to terms with my real life. From today onwards I am supposed to forget my goddess Deepthi. She did not kill me. I should not die on my own. I hate this life. Yet I should live it till my natural death because it is the schedule of God set for me. God is unkind to me. I can’t curse Him as He does toward me mercilessly. Went out and had my supper in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 8:40. Washed a pair of clothes. I am living alone in my room. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

21 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and again slept till 8:00. Went out and had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar. Entered our office by 8:30. Our operations manager told me to get a medical certificate stating that I need rest for three months for medical reasons. Today I edited the content of The ICFAI Journal of Infrastructure. Came back to my room by 5:30. I did not like to do anything except sleeping. My cousin Kiran told me this morning that he would come to meet me this evening. He did not turn up till 8:00. I moved to Dwarakapuri Colony and called up my brother Srinivas. I informed him that I took three-month leave from our press to carry out the editing of my personal diaries. I told my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani to pray God to give me enough psychological strength to forget my goddess Deepthi. I told her that my dreams cheated me very badly. She said that it is her bad luck to miss my love. Then I talked with my parents in Peda Gummuluru. They said they are well. They told me not to believe in anybody in the city. I did not tell them that I am very hurt due to the silence of my goddess Deepthi. Lord Krishna is very unkind to me. He did not bring Deepthi to me to be seen by me. I want to see her. Had my supper in Sai Ganapathi Hotel. My room remained solitary. Went to sleep by 9:45 for my dreams.

22 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was involved in editing the content of The ICFAI Journal of Infrastructure, the last journal before my long leave, being dealt with by Deepak Kumar. By 10:30 went out and met Dr D V Raju of Sudha Eye Clinic beside the post office in Erramanzil to get a medical certificate. He said that he is an eye specialist and so he cannot give a medical certificate to me recommending long leave. He advised me to meet Murthy at Poly Clinic in a nearby lane. I spotted another clinic on the way and entered it. It was Dr K V Rao, a general physician. He readily agreed to give me a medical certificate. He wrote stating that I am suffering from abdominal pain for the treatment of which I need two-month rest on bed at home. He took 80 rupees on my request though he asked me for 100 rupees. I gave that medical certificate to our Administrative Manager K V Rao and rewrote my resignation letter accordingly. Came back to my room by 5:00. Rested on my mat for some time. I understood that I cannot spend alone in my room with the haunting presence of Deepthi around me. Went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 7:00 and spent there this night. I could feel balanced and secure because there are students all around. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

23 July (Saturday)

Came back to my room by 7:00 taking a bus from Kachiguda. Rested on my mat for one hour. Freshened up myself and went out by 8:30. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 8:45. Today I was partially involved in journal work. I thought my goddess Deepthi would come today at least and tell me something. She did not come. She is coming into my dreams only. Came out of the office by 5:10. The superiors in our press took mine as a special case and so granted me long leave of two or three months. All this credit goes to my goddess Deepthi. She knew how to make me mad for her and send me out of this press. I wanted to see her today. God is not kind to me. Almost everybody in our third floor knew that I am leaving the press only to forget Deepthi whom I admired deeply. I felt as if I left my Deepthi in our office coming out of it with long leave at my disposal. I could not stay in my solitary room for long. Went out and took a bus to Shivam Road by 6:00. Reached Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel by 7:15. I informed the hostel supervisor that I would join the hostel on the 1^st of next month. I felt happy and secure being among my familiar ones after a long time. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

24 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Paid 50 rupees to the hostel supervisor for my stay as a guest for one night in the hostel. Took leave of the hostel folks and came back to my room in Punjagutta by 9:30. It has been raining for the last 48 hours due to cyclone. My room turned wet and cold. I don’t stay here for more than a week. So, I should bear with it. Today I spent much of my time in my room editing my diary of 1998. I wonder to find the spell Deepthi cast on me. She did not send me even one email. It pained me a lot. There is no meaning to one’s life when one’s beloved behaves like this. She need not love or marry me because I got ready to die for her. She can advise me at least seriously telling me to mind my business. I admired her like a goddess. My Lord Krishna daily brings her into my dreams. There she behaves as if she is very deep in love with me. My earthly goddess Deepthi and my Lord Krishna have been playing like this with me for long. I can neither end this life nor lead it peacefully. Nobody can save me from this chaos except Deepthi or my God. Deepthi does not come to save me. May God bless me strength to forget her. Had my supper by 9:00 in Abhiruchi Hotel. It was cloudy and drizzly outside symbolizing the state of my mind now. Death is better than this life. God never kills those, who don’t like to live. He is a criminal. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

25 July (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 1998. It was drizzling outside. I ventured into it by 9:30. Took a bus opposite NIMS Hospital and reached Ram Nagar by 10:15. Hired an auto rickshaw from there and proceeded to the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi near vegetable market in New Nallakunta. I talked with the clerk in this office about my intention to join Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel on the 1^st of next month. He told me to write an application addressing the secretary. I did it and came out of this office by 11:00. There is no certainty of my getting accommodation in this hostel. Had some breakfast in a hotel there and hired an auto rickshaw to Shivam Road. I gave my HDFC ATM card to my friend Murali Krishnam Raju because he wants to use it for some days. Had my lunch in this hostel. Moved to the nearby cinema Sri Ramana and watched the recently released Telugu film “Super” of Nagarjuna. I enjoyed watching it though it does not have good story. Came back to the KSS Hostel and spent there from 5:00 to 7:30. The hostel supervisor said that he would allot me the room in which Chaitanya is staying now. Returned to Punjagutta by 8:00 by bus. Had my supper in Abhiruchi Hotel by 8:45. Entered my solitary room by 9:00. The walls turned damp. Rainwater entered the room. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

26 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 9:30. Last night my goddess Deepthi came into my dream. This dream signified that she is deeply involved in love with me. She must be spending every night very worriedly thinking about me. She became much possessive and passionate toward me. She wants to talk with me soon. She wants to marry me at the earliest. I felt very happy seeing my darling Deepthi in my dream. Her soul is coming to communicate with me when her body is in sleepy state in their house somewhere in Hyderabad. I pray my Lord Krishna to reach my message to my Deepthi that I love her forever and that I am not going to marry anybody else if she is interested to marry me. I can’t understand the mystery of these dreams. God is hinting me through dreams that Deepthi is mine. I am disturbed thinking about her. I can only pray God to take care of her until she gets a chance to meet me. I am leading depressed life now being unable to meet my Deepthi in any way. Only God has to unite us if we are destined to live together. I am a helpless creature now. Today also it was very cloudy. This morning I washed some clothes. Today I spent most of my time editing my diary of 1998. Afternoon avoided my lunch being busy with my editing work. Had my supper at Sai Ganapathi Hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony by 8:40. Night it turned cool in my room. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

27 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and went out to have my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar. Today I spent all my time editing my diary of 1998. Afternoon ate something buying from a nearby shop. It was cloudy today due to cyclone. Today two fellows came to check my room. They want to enter this room as tenants after I vacate it on the 1^st of next month. I told them that this owner is a good fellow. I explained them the drawbacks of this room. Night had my supper at Hotel Sai Ganapathi in Dwarakapuri Colony. My sweetheart Deepthi came into my dream last night also. She is beautifying herself to look attractively to my aesthetic eyes. She is spending every minute with the burden of passion and attachment for me. She is feeling very thrilled for getting me as her husband. She got me after much effort from her side which I could not notice initially. She is praying God to finish days as minutes. She is completely engaged in my thoughts. She lost control of her senses in relation to me. She dedicated her body and soul to me. She surrendered herself for my love and admiration for her. I am the most important person to her in this world now. I was deeply touched in my dream sensing her suffering for not being able to see me immediately. May God unite us soon. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

28 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 1998. Went out and had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar. Today I spent all my time editing my diary of 1998. This morning my cousin Sekhar came to my room. He recently went to our village Peda Gummuluru. His uncle was brutally murdered recently by unknown persons when coming with his lorry load of petrol to Hyderabad. The cleaner of the lorry could somehow escape from this danger. I was shocked hearing about this event recently because my conscience was already affected by the atrocities of cruel blokes toward innocent ones. He brought homemade sweets and mango jelly, given by my mother for me. He is doing a small private job now in Hyderabad. Afternoon my friend Sriram came to my room. We talked about our book related work for one hour. This afternoon I avoided my lunch for lack of time. The editing of the English part of my diary of 1998 was over by 8:30 today. My mind was very disturbed by then because I was engaged in this editing work throughout the day. Physically also I turned pale and weak. My darling Deepthi is visiting me daily in my dreams. She is unable to live without me. I wholeheartedly decided to marry her. She suits me well in all respects. I want to enjoy my life with her. I am disturbed knowing that she is suffering daily being unable to live away from me. She is very possessive of me. Only God should unite us soon to end this agony at both ends. Went to sleep by 11:30.

29 July (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself, went out by 9:00 and had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar. Today I spent all my time editing my diary of 1999. This afternoon I called up folks in the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi and enquired them about the allotment of hostel accommodation for me. They told me to contact them tomorrow. I turned furious with these nuts of our community. Called up systems administrator Ravi Kumar. There was no response from his cellular phone. This dirty pig has been torturing me like a villain for about five months. He has to upload 20 GB hard disk capacity into my computer system. God never blesses him with a peaceful life because he is playing with the sensitive lives of others. Such rogues disturb the lives of innocent people like me. This evening my colleagues Raja Gopal and Rama Rao came to my room. I offered them the homemade eatables sent by my mother. Three of us spent talking happily for about one hour. Went out and had my supper at Hotel Sai Ganapathi in Dwarakapuri Colony by 9:00. I am spending every day waiting for the day to meet my goddess Deepthi. My Lord Krishna is signaling me that Deepthi is mine. He knows when to unite us formally. He likes to tease us like this for some time. It has been very troublesome for the last ten days. I pray Lord Krishna to take care of my Deepthi. Went to sleep by 10:20 for my dreams.

30 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 1999. Went out by 9:30 and called up the Administrative Manager K V Rao of ICFAI University Press. I asked him to send the systems administrator Ravi Kumar to my room today for uploading software into my computer system. Ravi Kumar came to my room by 10:00 and said that he would upload the software into my computer system by 3:00 this afternoon. I agreed for it. Then I called up the folks in the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi at New Nallakunta and enquired them about the allotment of hostel accommodation for me. They told me to call them up this evening after 4:00. Had my lunch in Abhiruchi Hotel by 2:30 and returned to my room by 3:00. Ravi Kumar came to my room by 3:15. He was uploading 20 GB memory into my computer system. Our common friend Sriram came to my room by 4:00. He knew that only a pay hike of 500 rupees was given to him as part of the recent performance appraisal by superiors in our organization. He is much disturbed about it. Ravi Kumar left my room by 6:30. Sriram and I discussed our book printing related work for some time. He handed me the soft copies of typed versions of my personal diaries very fast. My editing of those diaries is pending. Both of us went to Hotel Sai Ganapathi in Dwarakapuri Colony. Had my supper there and returned to my room by 9:00. My best wishes to my goddess Deepthi. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

31 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and went out for my breakfast by 8:00. Had it at a pushcart by main road and bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Came back to my room and scanned it for ten minutes. Today I spent much of my time editing my diary of 1999. By 1:30 went out and withdrew 1500 rupees from the ATM Center of Andhra Bank near NIMS Hospital. Had my lunch in Sai Ganapathi Hotel and returned to my room by 2:00. Packed all my belongings in this room by 4:00. Sriram and his brother came to my room by 4:30. Sriram gave me the laid out version of Deepthi’s work. I want to bring out the emails I sent to my goddess Deepthi so far in the form of a book. We talked about our respective facets and phases of work for some time. They left me by 5:30. Today is the last day I am spending in this room. Tomorrow morning I will move to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel at Durgabai Deshmukh Colony. I lived in this room for 120 days. I spent many days and nights alone in this room. I felt very convenient and comfortable to go to our nearby office from here. I could get peace of mind avoiding the tiresome bus journeys. I created good writings in this room. I could send extraordinary emails to my Deepthi staying in this room with enough privacy. Deepthi became mine through my dreams. She will be mine in reality also soon by the grace of God. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

1 August (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I could not sleep well. My goddess Deepthi entered my dream. This dream signified that she is spending every day and night suffering for me. I occupied her body and soul. She is part of my life in every sense. We have to formally meet soon. Hired an auto rickshaw by 6:45 and started to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel by Shivam Road. I paid 120 rupees to the auto rickshaw driver. This morning I prepared an application for the cancellation of my HDFC Credit card. I have not even signed this card but they are debiting 200 rupees every month from my account. I cut this credit card diagonally into two pieces and deposited it in the related box in the ATM Centre of HDFC Bank near Shivam Temple. Afternoon went to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet and watched Telugu film “Bhadhra” for the second time. Withdrew 1000 rupees from the ATM Center of Andhra Bank by 5:30 and bought a computer table at a furniture shop by Shivam Road to keep my computer. I found its cost very affordable and justifiable. I liked it a lot. Brought it into my hostel room and put my computer on it. My computer system got a good look after putting on this cabinet. Today it rained well during the day. Had my supper by 9:30 along with my hostel mates. We brought this parcel of food from a mess down Shivam Road. My goddess Deepthi is living at Banjara hills and I at Shivam Road. God unites us soon. We were born for each other. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

2 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 7:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 1999. Today I could edit the content of two months in this year. This morning our hostel supervisor said that the electricity bill of the hostel is increasing because of the computers being used by fellows in this hostel. He further clarified that tube light and ceiling fan, which keep on working in a room, when one is using computer, result in more consumption of electricity. I found it as a rational and justifiable argument. Today I ate many pieces of sweet mango jelly sent by my mother recently. This morning I avoided my breakfast not finding time to go out and have it. This afternoon my hostel mates brought lunch for me from a hotel. Had it along with them by 2:00. Today it was cloudy and cool outside. Now I am staying in the room of Chaitanya. He is pursuing a course of architecture in Hyderabad. He seldom stays in this room. He is undisciplined. He makes and keeps the room untidy and messy. He has special regard and affection for me. This evening he spent about half an hour cleaning this room and keeping scattered things in it in an order. I liked his discipline and behavior today. He is the only honest and innocent fellow in this hostel as far as his dealings with his friends are concerned. By 8:30 my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I went to a mess down Shivam Road and brought a parcel of plate meal. We had it in my room by 9:30. Today it was cool and refreshing outside. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

3 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:00. Last night I had a dream in which the circumstances and atmosphere which surrounded my goddess Deepthi now appeared me in a touching way. The events in this dream suggest me that Deepthi and I are going to meet soon. We will marry soon by the grace of my Lord Krishna. My Deepthi is spending every minute with pain for being unable to see me. I am also desperately waiting to see my darling soon. I felt blissful witnessing this dream. My sweetheart Deepthi already introduced me to all her relatives. I am eagerly waiting for those historical moments when I meet my dear Deepthi. Today I stayed within the hostel and spent all my time editing my diary of 1999. Morning my friend Anjaneya Raju brought parcel of breakfast for me. Afternoon I could not have my lunch. My hostel mates forgot to tell me when they were going out for bringing their parcels of lunch from the hotel. Today I ate many pieces of sweet mango jelly which was sent by my mother recently. I am worried knowing that my darling Deepthi would ask me for it if I finish it up without keeping it for her. I will ask my mother to see if something is there in our house to offer her. She is my kid. I should feed her with nuts and fruits. Evening went to hotel and brought parcel of supper along with my hostel mates. May God unite my Deepthi and me soon. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

4 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 1999. I am editing English text of two months a day. Morning Anjaneya Raju brought me parcel of breakfast from outside. Afternoon had my lunch in our hostel along with my hostel mates. Went out by 8:30 along with my cousin Shiva and brought parcel of supper from Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess down Shivam Road. Evening called up home and talked with my mother. She said that there are no rains in our village. Our well almost got dried up due to it. I told her that it has been raining heavily in Hyderabad for the last one month. Last night I had a nightmare. Danger of floods chased me. Another dream revealed that my goddess Deepthi is slowly recovering now from her insecurity complex centered on my safety in the city. She is counting every hour to meet me soon. She is suffering a lot for me. She is finding me around her everywhere. She is leading depressed life caused by her distance from me for long. This dream signified that we are going to meet very soon. Evening spent talking with our hostel supervisor Narasimha Raju for some time. He said that the electricity bill of last month showed that we students are using more electricity now after bringing computers into the hostel. He told me how he has been struggling for long to reduce the expenditure of this hostel maintenance. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

5 August (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I spent most of my time editing my diary of 1999. Morning my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast from outside. Today he did not go to his office. Now I am depending on my hostel mates to get breakfast from outside because I am unable to go out being very busy with my diary editing work. Afternoon Anji simply slipped into a nap listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman. He said that he wants to go to a hotel today for having a heavy dose of lunch because he was very hungry today. I rushed out by 1:30 and bought two papayas for 15 rupees at a pushcart by Shivam Road. I had all the flesh of a big fruit and felt heavy. The fruit was not sweet but I minded its quantity only to fill the empty space in my stomach. I felt uneasy after eating too much of papaya. By 8:30 went out along with my cousin Shiva and brought a parcel of supper from Sai Lakshmi Hotel down Shivam Road. Both of us had it in our hostel by 9:00. Today it was cool and drizzly. My goddess Deepthi came into my dream last night. This dream signified that she is spending suffering for me. She is feeling insecure about my safety in the city. She is unable to be peaceful, always worrying about my poor living in this city. She wants to meet me soon and end this pain for one another. Went to sleep by 10:30.

6 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 4:00. Last night my goddess Deepthi came into my dream. She was recollecting her behavior with me in our office. I always tried to reach her somehow. She kept me away from her. She loved me. She thought that I would trouble myself if she expresses her love for me. She knows that our society does not easily approve a marriage between a girl and boy of different communities. After she left our office, I expressed my deep admiration for her by my emails. She also deeply fell in love with me. Her attachment with me could be clearly understood by me through my dreams blessed by God. She is my life. She is living in this city only being away from me. I suffered a lot observing her depressed life in my dream last night. May my Lord Krishna take care of her safety and happiness. Morning completed editing my diary of 1999. Went out and had my breakfast at a pushcart by 11:00. Spent three hours checking my emails in an Internet café. By 2:30 went to Punjagutta to meet the owner of my rented room in which I lived till the end of last month. He has to give me 3000 rupees. I paid it to him as two-month advance for this rented room. He told me to come after a few days. Rain chased me when I was coming back from this place. Today also it was cloudy and rainy. Evening I had my haircut in my favorite hair salon. Had my supper by 9:00 in our hostel. Listened to Telugu cine songs. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

7 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2000. This morning my cousin Shiva brought me breakfast. Had it by 9:30. Afternoon gave him my share of 250 rupees to him. He bought a parcel mess card at Sai Lakshmi Hotel down Shivam Road. We get 30 parcels of plate meal with this card. Two fellows can share one plate meal and satisfactorily fill their hungry stomachs. Afternoon and night he brought the parcels of lunch and supper from that hotel. Today I finished eating the sweet mango jelly sent by my mother recently. When I called my mother recently, she told me not to eat much mango jelly on any day because it produces a lot of heat in one’s body. She sent me about four kilos of mango jelly which has to be consumed slowly over a period of two months or so by one person. I finished it in ten days only. I wanted to offer a little of it to my goddess Deepthi if she would meet me soon by the grace of God. I could not keep even a small bit of it for her. She is daily coming into my dreams and disturbing me a lot. I don’t like to see her with a sad face even in my dreams. She must be happy wherever she is. I know that I cannot come out of her admiration that early. She became a part of my life. God only did so. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

8 August (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. All the day stayed within the hostel and spent editing my diary of 2000. Morning avoided my breakfast. My cousin Kiran came here by 11:00. I spent talking with him for one hour. Afternoon our hostel mate Balaram brought the parcel of lunch from a hotel. We had it by 1:30. I am editing my diary in a very dedicated manner. Today I could finish the scheduled portion of editing by 10:00. I turn very exhausted by the time I complete editing the content of two months in a diary. I did not get time to bathe today. My cousin Shiva brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 8:30. We had it by 9:00. Today my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju bought a used cellular phone from Chaitanya, my roommate. The price of this piece is 1200 rupees. This morning Anjaneya Raju did not help me bringing breakfast for me from outside. Evening I severely rebuked him when he came into our room. I told him to learn how to be helpful to others when they are expecting something from him. I did not wash a pair of clothes today because it was cold and rainy outside. Such atmosphere makes one dull when one’s sweetheart is away from one. My goddess Deepthi is away from me now. She is living in this city thinking and worrying about me. This night I could not see her in my dream. I could not identify her from many other events and images in the dream. I pray my Lord Krishna to take care of her. She is innocent and sensitive. Went to sleep by 11:30 for my dreams.

9 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2000 from 6:00. Had my breakfast by 10:00. Afternoon our hostel mate brought chicken curry worth 15 rupees from the hotel along with our parcel of lunch. I found it delicious. I am spending most of my time sitting in a chair. So, eating much amount of rice is not good for my health. Evening my roommate Chaitanya also brought a computer into our hostel. Our hostel supervisor is worried about the entry of more computers into the hostel because electricity bill is increasing due to it. He put his computer in another room because my computer is there in our room now. He is playing some architecture related video games on his computer system. Other hostel mates are interestingly watching it. My cousin Kiran came to our hostel by 8:40. He cleverly escaped from the duties of his articleship with the auditing firm this afternoon. He leaves for his home in Jaggampeta in the evening hours tomorrow. He wants to prepare well for his CA Final exams staying at home. He asked me if I like to give something for my brother or relatives at Gollalagunta. I have no time to go out and buy something for them. He came here to take his old iron box of sentiment presented by his father. He got some luggage in it. Today it was cloudy and rainy. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my valuable dreams blessed by God.

10 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2000. Today I deliberately avoided my breakfast. Now I am leading a comfortable life as far as my body is concerned. There is nobody to question me about what I am doing or not doing. One of my hostel mates is currently pursuing foundation course as part of his chartered accountancy course. He has a monthly mess card in a hotel down Shivam Road. He returns from his coaching classes around 12:30. He brings his parcel of lunch from the hotel. Both of us share it. My cousin Shiva brings our parcel of supper from the hotel in time. Thus God is helping me in the herculean task of editing of my diaries. My cousin Kiran came to our hostel by 2:30. I talked with him for ten minutes. This evening he leaves for Jaggampeta from Lakdi Ka Pool in Hyderabad by a private travel bus. My brother Srinivas, my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and my nephews Sujan and Suhas are living in a rented abode in Jaggampeta now. I wanted to buy something for them and send it through this fellow. I am not moving out of our hostel after seriously getting involved in my diary editing work. It prevented me from sending something to my dear creatures in Jaggampeta. My friend Sriram came to our hostel by 6:30. He completed typing up Hindi text in my diaries. He now attends the work of laying out the text of the word files for My Formative Utopian World. I am happy with the quality and speed of his work. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

11 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. All the day spent within the hostel and involved myself in editing my diary of 2000. My hostel mates helped me have my lunch and supper in time in our hostel. By 2:30 I felt very tired due to continuous editing of my diary on computer from the morning. I was forced myself to rest on my mat for some time. Got up from this slumber and started editing my diary from 4:00. The most disturbing element of my present life is my goddess Deepthi. She is visiting me in my dreams. I don’t know why she is keeping herself away from me in reality. I am accessible to her in every sense. I clearly explained her that she is my sweetheart. I am ready to hear anything from her. I don’t understand why God is playing like this with me. I pray my Lord Krishna to safeguard her carefully. I developed a great deal of admiration and attachment for her. My dreams signify that she is also deeply in love with me. I believe that dreams represent realities. They are part of my life. They have to guide my life. They are great assets of my life blessed by my Lord Krishna. I know that my sweet kid Deepthi is physically comfortable at her abode in this city. I am not sure about her psychological happiness. She is suffering for me. Let God decide and direct my life. I am helpless. I am at His mercy. Let time resolve this issue. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

12 August (Friday)

Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2000 from 5:00. The editing of the English part of my diary of 2000 was over by 2:30. I avoided bathing during the last five days being busy with my diary editing work. Today I washed a pair of clothes and took a bath by 3:00. It was raining outside. Had my lunch by 3:30 sponsored by my hostel mate. Went out by 4:00 and uploaded the soft copy of my edited diary of 2000 into my Yahoo Briefcase in Global View Internet café by Shivam Road. A beautiful girl came there and sat in the seat very near to mine. I looked at her face like an innocent and decent thief. Her face was very attractive. By 5:30 I moved to Punjagutta to collect my balance from the owner of the house in whose room I lived once as a tenant. The wife of the owner of this house gave me 2200 rupees only. They have to actually repay me 3000 rupees which I paid them as advance. They said that they are charging 800 rupees toward repairs and lost rent after I left their room. I told them that it is unjustifiable in every sense. I did not like to argue with them for this money. Waited for a bit light bus. It took two hours. Returned to our hostel by 9:00. My cousin Shiva did not go to the mess to bring our parcel of super. He thought I would go there. We had fried rice by 10:00. He brought it from a nearby eatery. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.

13 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2001. I felt very bored of this editing work by 5:30. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju did not go to his office today. He spent most of his afternoon time in my room resting on a cot. This morning we decided to go out and see a good film. By 5:45 both of us went out and hired an auto rickshaw for RTC Crossroads. We went to cinema Sudarshan and saw the Telugu film “A Film by Aravind”. I did not have good impression about this film before entering the cinema. It is an excellent suspense thriller. I enjoyed watching it a lot. We decided on the spot to go to see another film. Both of us rushed to the nearby cinema Odeon Deluxe and saw the Telugu film “Premikulu”. I enjoyed watching this film also. We could not think about our supper in our hurry to come back to our hostel. We hired an auto rickshaw and reached Shivam Road by 12:00. When we were walking toward our hostel, we spotted a small cat on the main road. Somebody hit it and drove away. It was struggling to breathe. I took it into my hands and brought it into our hostel. Anjaneya Raju jumped over our hostel gate and gave me about six glasses of water from the tap. I kept water at its mouth. It could not drink it. Its head was hit. So, its brain was affected. We kept it in a silent corner of our hostel. Went to sleep by 12:30. Nightmares chased me in my subconscious state of mind.

14 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:45. Recently I got wet in a drizzle. So, my hair was matted. Itch developed on my scalp. So, I took a head bath. I borrowed a bit of shampoo from one of my hostel mates and carried out that joyful act centered on my body. I glanced at the place where I put the misery cat last night. There was no sign of life in its body. Some ants already made it their abode of abundant food. It was a carcass. Somehow I did not feel like touching its dead body. Eternal light of life already left it. I poured some water also on its body last night thinking that it would activate its affected heart. Today I was unable to touch it. Our hostel supervisor got its dead body moved into some dustbin in the city by somebody. It has no relatives to lament its death. There is nobody to take its photo and keep it as a memory of its earthly existence for some months. I too will forget it soon. It is how life ends on earth. Nobody is related to anybody once the death occupies its reserved berth. I pitied the suffering and death of this cat in my familiarity. That was what I could do for it once I knew that it died. May God bless its soul. Today I spent all my time editing my diary of 2001. I had my breakfast, lunch and supper to support my life. I am supposed to be selfish. I should distance myself from death and love my life. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my regular dreams.

15 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2001. Today it is the Independence Day of India. Today I spent all my daytime editing my diary. By 6:00 my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I hired an auto rickshaw and started to RTC Crossroads. This evening we saw the Telugu film “Major Rana Pratap” in cinema Sandhya. Before entering this cinema, I rang up to my friend Veeranjaneyulu at Jubilee Hills. I knew that he is doing well and busy with his work. We came out of the cinema by 9:00. We enjoyed watching this film. It is a dubbed film from its Tamil original. We took a bus and returned to our hostel by 9:15. Today it was cool and drizzly. Last night my goddess Deepthi visited me in my dream. She appeared reading something. It must be something written by me. There are the photos of Lord Venkateshwara and Lord Ganesh in our hostel room. They are managing my dreamland. When my Deepthi is spending always thinking about me and frequently suffering for being away from me, I would be the receiving end for her soul’s message. My soul interprets her code language and presents it in the form of images and sounds in my dreams. It does not happen unless there is participation of some divine forces. Sometimes it is difficult to live in reality when our dreams are very sweet and energizing. I am devoted to my Deepthi now. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

                                                                                                       

16 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. It was enticing outside. I was supposed to start my diary editing work by 6:00. I slept for one more hour. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2001 from 7:10. Morning I had 10 Parle G biscuits for my breakfast. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju went out for his breakfast and brought two ripe bananas for me for two rupees. Afternoon one of our hostel mates rushed out to attend an important work. He left half of his parcel of lunch for me to eat. Afternoon our hostel supervisor told me to pay an extra fee of 50 rupees toward electricity charges (for using computer) for the hostel. I agreed for it. By 4:00 I felt exhausted due to highly engaged editing of my past life. I moved out and bought a toasted corn cob for five rupees. The hawker perfectly heated it on fire. Came back to our hostel and had it happily. I felt heavy after all the corn entered my stomach. I visualized stomachache. The editing of the scheduled portion of my diary ended by 8:45. My cousin Shiva is preparing for his examinations now. He told me to bring the parcel of food from the hotel till his exams end. I put on my shirt and rushed to the nearby hotel by Shivam Road in the drizzle. Returned to the hostel within minutes. Both of us had our supper by 9:30. Last night my darling Deepthi visited me in my dream and talked something seriously with me. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

17 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2001. This morning I had some biscuits for my breakfast. By 8:30 went to our hostel supervisor and paid him 50 rupees toward the additional charges for my computer use. For courtesy sake, I talked a bit about his personal life. He started narrating me various things related to his life. Recently he got a small house constructed for his daughter in Hayath Nagar. She left her husband because he proved a drunkard and worthless bloke. They don’t think that he changes in future. She is living with her small children. I pitied her life. She is lucky in one way. She has her good father. He is taking care of her. Somehow I escaped from him and came to my room to resume my editing work. Today I could finish my scheduled part of editing by 6:00. Listened to Telugu film songs on my Walkman for some time. Took a bath by 7:30. Dressed up myself and went out for bringing our parcel of supper from Sai Lakshmi Hotel down Shivam Road. Today it was cloudy and drizzly. I could sense the pulse of a beautiful day observing the cloudy sky above. Evening my cousin Shiva went out to see a Telugu film. Last night my darling mysteriously appeared me in my dream. This dream suggested that she has an admirer, who is somewhat familiar to her in her daily life. He is trying to contact her. My darling Deepthi is avoiding him. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

18 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2001 by 4:30. Today I avoided my breakfast and lunch being very busy with my editing work. The editing of my diary of 2001 came to an end by 3:30. I felt relieved. I shaved my beard and had a bath happily. These days I am not finding time even to bathe. I became weak for lack of good food in time. Dressed up myself and walked to an Internet café down Shivam Road. Checked my Yahoo Mail and deleted all the unwanted emails from those boxes. By 5:15 went to a fruit stall further down Shivam Road and had a glass of banana juice for seven rupees. All the other juices are over ten rupees. Took a city bus and proceeded to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. The bus conductor did not appear me until my halt came. I did not buy ticket. There was no rush of audience at the cinema. Walked a little along the road to kill some time. I found that my life is presently sweet. Went to a nearby sweet stall and bought a few sweets for 25 rupees. It is how one can sweeten one’s life. Entered the cinema by 5:45. Saw the Telugu film “Athadu” of Mahesh Babu and Trisha. I found it very interesting. I could not eat all the sweets in the cinema. Brought remaining sweets to our hostel to sweeten my life later. Last night my goddess Deepthi visited me in my dream. She looked very possessive of me. It also suggested that she is suffering for me internally. Had my parcel supper by 9:45 in our hostel. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

19 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002. By 8:30 my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought a parcel of breakfast for me. Had my lunch and supper in time in the hostel. Today I could edit the content of one month only in this year working on it for about ten hours. I completed editing the English part of seven diaries. I could complete editing the content of one diary in six days’ time. The remaining three diaries seem to be rather longer for editing. Personal life must be dealt with by the person concerned only. A personal diary is the written record of one’s life. Others can read it if it is interesting. Some think that one’s personal diary should not be read by others. Nobody knows when one dies. It is better to understand a person when he is alive. We can’t help a poor man because we are rich. We should not kill a rich man because we are poor. The existential struggle of humanity has beauty in it. My diaries present the simple life of a man. There are millions of people in this world. Many of them don’t maintain their personal diaries in a serious way. I took the pursuit of diary writing in a dedicated manner. I recorded the realistic journey of my life carefully on a daily basis. One cannot edit one’s work unless it is very interesting. My life is looking very interesting to me. Last night my sweetheart Deepthi visited me in my dream. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

20 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 from 7:00. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought the parcel of supper for me by 8:30. Today I could edit the content of one month only in my diary. Evening my cousin Shiva told me that girls are more debauched in the cities than boys. I disagreed with him. Just because some girls are wearing fashionable clothes, we should not think that the race of girls is degenerate in cities. An Indian girl does not go, on her own, to a boy and ask him to sleep with him. It is men that exploit the vulnerability of women. Every bloke desires to spend with a prostitute but does not propose marriage to all those he loves. When we start considering women as depraved ones, we hate them. When we think of why they are getting depraved, we start falling in love with them. Women entered mainstream society recently. Some of them are celebrating their liberty wildly. There are prostitutes to satisfy the wild desires of males. There are domestics to serve in the households. They are victims in both ways. Women live happily and righteously in every society when men love them honestly and behave with them graciously always. As long as man sees a woman as a symbol of sex, she tries to present herself as a beauty doll only to attract and live with such men somehow. Every man readily criticizes a woman. Rumors easily spread around the life of a beautiful girl or woman. A good and handsome man can remain as a bachelor for long but it is very difficult for a sensitive and beautiful Indian girl or woman to remain unharmed for long. Boys and men seem to be criminals by nature. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

21 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 8:30. Had my lunch by 3:00. My cousin Shiva brought it. Today it was cloudy. It drizzled in the evening. Had my supper by 9:30. My cousin Shiva brought it. Today a new student joined our hostel. He came from Atreyapuram in East Godavari district. He said that he never stayed in a hostel earlier. He brought a bottle of mango pickle from his house. He came here to pursue his MCA course in a minority engineering college. He asked me to help him learn English. I asked him if he brought homemade sweets from home. I felt like eating something. He gave me a piece of Mysore Pak. I felt very satisfied with its sweetness. This afternoon I asked my roommate Chaitanya to bring me something to eat from outside. He brought a ten-rupee pack of toasted groundnuts for me. There were very few groundnuts inside the pack but it looked very big to see. It is the technique of present businessmen. Evening I heard a few drum beats in the DD Colony. Somebody must be celebrating something. I am celebrating my solitude in my room. Last night I had a delightful dream. I could not see my Deepthi clearly. She must have hidden herself somewhere. She blushes to face me. She is filled with admiration for me. I don’t know how she is enjoying herself in this cold weather. She must be feeling lonely like me. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

22 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 6:00. Anjaneya Raju brought me a parcel of puris by 9:00. My cousin Shiva did not go to his office today on the pretext of taking an examination. He is finding his exams difficult because he did not prepare well for them. Today cold caught me. It disturbed me a little when carrying out my editing work. Had my lunch by 1:30. My cousin Shiva brought it. I took a piece of sweet from the container of the student who joined our hostel recently. His parents sent him to the city with a good load of homemade sweets. Their taste tempted me. Had a bath by 7:30 and felt relieved. A rich guest came to our hostel today. He too pays 50 rupees only per day for his stay. He came in a costly car from his hometown. Our hostel supervisor is bringing food for them from a hotel outside. I went down to bring a bottle of water from the pot there meant for us students. I remarked at him saying that everybody serves the rich. He felt a bit uneasy to reply me. He is a strict fellow as far as his supervision of our hostel is concerned. Evening read an old Telugu newspaper for some time. Had my supper by 9:00 along with two of my hostel mates. Anjaneya Raju and I mostly speak in a witty fashion. Our satirical conversation carries alliterations of Telugu words. This evening we did such special talk and laughed wholeheartedly. Last night I had a delightful dream. I remember that a train journey is involved in it. My goddess Deepthi would have hidden herself somewhere. Went to sleep by 10:30.

23 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought me a parcel of breakfast from outside by 9:00. When I was having it in my hostel room, my roommate Chaitanya remarked at me. He said that I am looking like a puppy when I am eating my breakfast. I sat on the floor moving my legs. I said that the movement of my legs can be compared with the casual wagging of tail by a dog. These days I am not getting time even to have my breakfast peacefully. I hurried myself in swallowing the chewed substance of breakfast into my stomach. I really looked like a dog. I enjoyed the rational comedy created by him and sustained by me. Afternoon I avoided my lunch because there was nobody to get it for me from outside. I felt very happy for it. If somebody calls me for lunch, I would be tempted by it. Its absence saved my invaluable daytime. Afternoon I stole a piece of homemade sweet from the container of a hostel mate. The problem is that if other hostel mates observe from where I got it, they empty out that container within minutes. My gluttony should not lead to a felony of that kind. Had my parcel supper by 9:00 along with my cousin Shiva in his room. Last night I witnessed a dream of dilemma in which my darling Deepthi was the victim. She is unable to deal with me and her other lover. She is careful in her moves. Went to sleep by 10:30.

24 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 6:00. This morning my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju did not bring a parcel of breakfast for me from outside. Afternoon my hostel mate Balaram was going out to bring his parcel of lunch from the hotel. I asked him to get me rice for five rupees and curd for five rupees. Had my lunch by 1:00 along with them in their room. Took a bath by 7:30 and listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman till 8:00. My cousin Shiva told me to go to the hotel and bring the parcel of supper for us. I walked down Shivam Road and brought it from Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess. We had it by 9:00. Today power cut occurred thrice during the daytime. They restored it within minutes. It disturbed the flow of my intense editing work and wasted my time. My hostel mate Anji came to talk with me by 9:30. I narrated him why and how I fell in admiration with my darling Deepthi. He said that my account is interesting. I explained him that she also fell in love with me for that reason only. After that, my roommate told a little about the industry of toilet soaps. Last night the Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi visited me in my dream. I spent very closely with him. I went into a garden and failed to return from there. Children were playing there. My goddess Deepthi was busy with some other things. I felt her presence. She absolutely believes that I am her fellow. I know that I can’t live without her. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

25 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002. This morning Anjaneya Raju went out and brought breakfast for his roommate. His roommate already left for his office. He loses ten rupees if that breakfast gets wasted. He gave it to me. I paid him ten rupees. He felt a bit upset when I explained him the rationale in his offering me that breakfast. It is not a big issue but an example for typical human behavior in such conditions. Afternoon there was nobody to bring lunch for me. Then I understood why God offered me such heavy amount of breakfast to me this morning. Afternoon a hawker loudly announced the name of some fruit near our hostel. I took it for papayas and rushed out to call him. He put a basket of oranges at the back of his bicycle. He was almost on the main road and looked back at me. I signed him that I did not intend to call him. I came back into my room thinking that he had gone away. My hostel mate Balaram noticed that he came to our hostel. Both of us bought a dozen oranges from him. I liked that mischievous hawker. Today I could finish editing the scheduled part of my diary (content of one month) by 6:00. I was already exhausted. I had five oranges one after one. By 8:00 I could refresh myself listening to songs on my Walkman and resting for a while on my mat. Had my supper. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

26 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing the diary of 2002 of my life. Afternoon avoided my lunch. I asked my roommate to bring me curd for five rupees from the mess. I added some sugar to it and prepared a sweet beverage. My editing work was over by 6:30. Took a bath and felt relieved. Went out and called up my folks at home. My brother Sambha said that there are no rains at all in that region. Wells got dried up. People are suffering without drinking water. There is no considerable business at his tent house in Adduroad. My mother is disturbed about my present state of being jobless. Walked down Shivam Road and bought a ballpoint pen, two refills, one bottle of coconut oil and half a kilo of sugar. I spotted a pushcart with attractive apples coming my way. I bought three apples for ten rupees. Proceeded to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess and got our parcel of supper. Walked back to our hostel eating the apples on the road. They were not tasty. I wondered if my tongue got affected. Had my supper alone in the hostel room of my cousin Shiva. Some are celebrating the festival of Krishnaasthami today. My brother Sambha said that they would celebrate it in the temple of Lord Krishna in Ramayyapatnam. These days I am not celebrating Hindu festivals. I think my Lord Krishna does not get angry with me because I am not minding His birthday also. Today it was partly cloudy. My darling Deepthi is regularly visiting me in my dreams. She plays hide-and-seek with me. She appears me in a disguised way to attract me. Listened to songs on my Walkman for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.

27 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002. I heard that the birthday of my Lord Krishna would be celebrated even today in some parts of India. This morning I could not have my breakfast because nobody helped me in that direction from my hostel mates. This morning my roommate Chaitanya asked me to lend him 200 rupees. He is suffering from fever. I don’t like his food habits. I lent him that money because he has to see a doctor. I went down by 10:30 and added some sugar to water in a bottle. I prepared sugar water shaking that bottle thoroughly. I asked our hostel supervisor to give me another steel glass. There is a glass on the water pot outside. I took the cloth put on the pot and filtered my sugar water. It was the only energetic beverage which could save me then. Afternoon I could not have my lunch because nobody told me when going out to bring parcel of meal. I am avoiding going out because it kills my valuable time meant for editing my diaries. Balaram brought a pack of Britannia Good Day biscuits for me for 10 rupees from our nearby supermarket by 3:00. I felt a bit relieved after having them. Meanwhile my cousin Shiva came from his office. He brought samosas by 5:00. I completed the scheduled part of editing of my diary by 6:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Had my supper by 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

28 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 from 6:00. Had my breakfast by 8:30. My cousin Shiva brought it. Read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for ten minutes. Had my lunch by 1:30. My cousin Shiva brought it. By 4:30 our former hostel mate Hemanth came to see us from Jeedi Metla. He is presently working with Gland Pharma Company. He has been working there for the last eight months. I asked him if beautiful colleagues are there in his office. He replied in the affirmative. I advised him to fall in love with some girl there and marry her. He said that he would marry a girl chosen by his parents. He recently got a good job offer from a company in Bangalore. He wants to continue with this job for some more months to get one year’s experience at least with one company. I asked him a little about the process of preparation of drugs. He explained it for 20 minutes. He said that his present company is earning huge profits every year. They manufacture costly injections for cure of fatal diseases and export them to foreign countries. He said that the chairman of his company uses eight Benz cars. I felt happy hearing about the attractive lifestyles of these folks. I felt a bit disturbed after hearing much from him about medicines. I took about half an hour to relieve myself from that effect. My scheduled part of editing was over by 8:00. Scanned today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for some time. Had my supper by 8:30. My cousin Shiva brought it. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour to refresh myself. My Deepthi is with me. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

29 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:15. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought breakfast for me from outside. I had two bananas also. Afternoon one of our hostel mates brought four bananas for me for my lunch. I completed my scheduled part of editing by 4:30. Took a bath and moved out by 5:00. Walked down Shivam Road and had a glass of grape juice at a fruit stall. It cost me 12 rupees but there was very little content useful for the body. Walked a bit down and waited there for a city bus. They looked awful with heavy load of passengers. Recently seven-seater auto rickshaws disappeared from this road. I continued my walk down Shivam Road. Reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. Bought a 30-rupee ticket and waited for the folks to allow us inside. Entered the cinema by 5:45. There were about 100 viewers in total. Atmosphere was calm inside. Saw the Telugu film “Anukokundaa Oka Roju” from 6:00 to 8:45. I enjoyed watching this film cent percent. I regretted the poor attendance of audience. It was drizzling outside. Hired an auto rickshaw for 10 rupees. I liked the goodness of this auto rickshaw driver. I gave him 15 rupees. My cousin Shiva brought our parcel of supper. Both of us had it by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.

30 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 5:30. Had my breakfast by 10:00. My hostel mate Balaram brought it for me. Afternoon had five bananas for my lunch. The English part of my diary of 2002 is considerably large. I could complete its editing after rigorously working for 12 days on it. I felt relieved by 4:30. Took a bath by 5:00 and went out. Went to Global View Internet café down Shivam Road and uploaded the word file of edited diary of 2002 into my Yahoo Briefcase. Deleted unwanted emails, which got heaped up in those boxes. Took our parcel of supper from Sai Lakshmi Hotel and returned to hostel by 8:00. My cousin Shiva felt happy finding me as a good boy because I brought the parcel of our supper this evening. Today I became weak because of avoiding good food in the morning and afternoon. Human body is a mysterious system. Fruits and drinks don’t give it energy instantly if it is accustomed to other food items for it for long. My body is comfortable with rice. Today it was cloudy. It drizzled for some time. Last night my darling Deepthi visited me in my dream. She appeared doing something for me. The essence of heavenly dreams can be sensed by one in sleep. It looks odd and unbelievable when we try to put it in words. My Deepthi did not look disturbed in my dream. It pleased me. She knew that I am well in this city. She is attending her normal course of works to be balanced. I know that my Lord Krishna is transmitting our admiration from one to another to soothe us. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

31 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2003 by 6:00. Balaram brought breakfast for me by 10:00 from outside. Afternoon avoided my lunch for lack of time to have it. My cousin Sekhar came to our hostel by 3:30. He is presently working in the city with a private company at a salary of 3000 rupees a month. He attended an interview today at Dilsukh Nagar. I told him not to join that job. It involves daily journey of a candidate to the houses of registered customers with that fellow to repair gas stoves. There won’t be growth in career or even minimum recognition in our familiar society. I told him to get a papaya for me from Shivam Road. He bought a good one for ten rupees. He is a guest to me here now. I did not treat him like that. I had ninety percent of the pieces of this papaya. It was my lunch today. I could not spend with him even for ten minutes. I told him to come here by the end of this month by when I may free myself from the highly involved editing work of my writings. He left our hostel by 5:00. The scheduled part of editing of my diary for today was over by 8:00. Took a bath and refreshed myself. My cousin Shiva made a reluctant face to go and bring the parcel of our supper from the hotel. I dressed up myself and rushed out within seconds. Had my supper by 9:15. Last night a nightmare frightened me. Went to sleep by 10:15.

1 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2003. Balaram brought me breakfast from outside by 10:00. Afternoon had two papayas for my lunch worth 20 rupees. I could complete my scheduled part of editing for today by 5:30. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I got ready soon and moved out. We hired an auto rickshaw and rushed to RTC Crossroads. Thence we walked a little and reached cinema Saptagiri. We saw the Telugu film “Nuvvante Naakistam” from 6:20 to 8:50. We missed a bit of it in the beginning. We took a city bus and returned to our hostel by 9:10. I thought that my cousin Shiva brought the parcel of our supper from the hotel. He did not come to hostel from his office. Waited for about 40 minutes thinking that he would bring the food from the hotel. He did not turn up. Shared the plate meal of two of my hostel mates. There was no adequate amount of rice. We managed with it. My roommate Chaitanya told me that Shiva would not come to the hostel this night. Felt happy for having shared some food at least with my friends. The heavy consumption of papayas brought cold to me. I am suffering from it. This morning I paid 300 rupees to the supervisor of our hostel toward my room and computer use rent. Today it was cloudy. It drizzled in the afternoon. I hope my Lord Krishna is taking care of my darling Deepthi. She is visiting me in my dreams. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

2 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2003. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju left his present job with an insurance company. He is looking for a new job. He brought me breakfast by 10:00. Afternoon avoided my lunch for lack of time. My scheduled part of editing ended by 6:45. Took a bath and refreshed myself. Today it was cloudy and rained considerably. Got ready by 7:30 to go to the hotel down Shivam Road and bring our parcel of supper. It was raining. Two of my hostel mates were going out to watch cricket on television. They could not keep themselves out of rain with the small umbrella they had. They came back and gave me that umbrella. Walked to Sai Lakshmi Hotel and got our parcel. Scanned today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for 10 minutes there. By today our monthly mess card came to an end. My cousin Shiva is suffering from fever. He had rice with curd. Morning our hostel supervisor looked tense. The telephone in our hostel is out of order from yesterday. He knew that his superiors turned angry at him because he could not be reached by them when they rang up to our hostel. He came to the students in this hostel and asked if they got their monthly rents ready. All of them postponed their days of room rent payment. Morning my roommate Chaitanya brought his personal computer into our room. He put it beside mine. Our room got an ugly look. His clothes are everywhere. He is responsible for it. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

3 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:50. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2003. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast from outside by 10:00. Had my lunch by 2:00. Evening our hostel supervisor spotted four of our hostel mates playing cards. He warned them against it. He does not hesitate to take this issue for the consideration of his superiors. He does not like people with bad habits. The life of his daughter became a burden to him because his son-in-law is a drunkard. He showed me those playing cards when taking them away from the hands of the accused. I have to be the eye witness to the misconduct of these blokes. My scheduled editing ended by 7:00. Had a bath and refreshed myself. Spent talking with my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju. I told him that I would marry my darling Deepthi soon if God approves it. Both of us walked down Shivam Road and got a plate meal packed. We bought chicken curry for 15 rupees. We had it together in our hostel in his room. Morning somebody called me up from a consultancy and asked me if I am interested in the position of Ad Words Representative with the Google. I informed him that I already took that written test and failed in it. He said that he would contact me after one month’s time. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

4 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2003. Went down by 8:30 and prepared one glass of sugar water. It is meant for restoring the energy levels in my body because I am following unbalanced food consumption patterns these days. My roommate Chaitanya made our room a bit tidy today. Balaram brought a parcel of plate meal by 2:00 from our nearby Devi Mess. We had it by 2:30. Morning our hostel supervisor went to Punjagutta. He consulted a Kshatriya doctor there about his eyesight. He advised him to wear glasses. He spent all his money for the construction of a small house for his helpless daughter. He does not like to depend on his son. He said that he would have avoided the treatment altogether if the doctor had prescribed costly operation to him. Evening a fellow came to our hostel and enquired about a fellow in our hostel. Our hostel mates suspected that he was a thief. We alerted ourselves and decided to be careful about our individual rooms. My scheduled editing ended by 5:30. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I freshened up ourselves within seconds and rushed out. We took a city bus and reached RTC Crossroads by 5:50. We saw almost every film released recently from the Telugu film industry. We rushed to cinema Mayuri and saw the Telugu film “Muddhula Koduku” of Ravi Krishna and Gopika in the first show. The story is weak. I enjoyed watching it. We took a bus and returned to our hostel by 9:00. We brought a parcel of plate meal from our nearby Devi Mess. Today it was cloudy. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

5 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Washed a pair of clothes, took a head bath and started editing my diary of 2003. Had a glass of sugar water by 9:30. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 10:00. Had my lunch by 2:30 along with Anji brought from Devi Mess by Balaram. My scheduled part of editing ended by 6:10. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 6:15 to 7:00 on Hyderabad FM radio. My hostel mates were talking about the interests of folks in cockfighting in Indian villages. Enthusiasts spend a lot of money and time for buying and rearing ferocious and energetic cocks. Rich ones bet lakhs of rupees. Thereafter their talk moved on to the topic of snakes. I enjoyed their exciting discussion on this topic. Today it is Teachers Day in India. I am neither a teacher nor in the company of teachers now. I felt happy remembering the importance of this day. Had my supper by 9:30. Last night my goddess Deepthi visited me in my dream. She sat in the corner of a house looking at me like a thief. She must be feeling shy to look at me directly. I felt very happy witnessing her presence in the dream. She likes me a lot. She knows that I am deeply in love with her. She is ready to marry me soon. She is very happy to get me as her fellow. She is spending every minute in my thoughts. She is praying God to reach me her message of love through dreams. I am also doing the same. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

6 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2003 by 5:30. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought me a parcel of breakfast by 9:30. Afternoon Balaram offered me the remaining part of his lunch. Ants already occupied the contents of that parcel of food. My scheduled part of editing came to an end by 5:30. Listened to Hyderabad radio for half an hour. Spent talking with my hostel mates for some time. Took a bath by 8:00. Anji went out to bring a parcel of supper from our nearby Devi Mess. He delayed for half an hour. He said that he watched cricket on television there. Had a glass of sugar water by 8:15. Both of us had our supper by 9:00 in his room. Last night a series of pleasant and serious dreams occurred. My darling Deepthi did not appear me in this set of dreams. They signified that I won her love courageously. Winning love symbolizes commitment and purity of heart. It delights one greatly. I won her love following her like a warrior. An intelligent girl never falls in love with an ordinary boy unless she firmly believes that he is honest in his love or admiration for her. One should struggle hard to make a girl understand that he can look after her well. In this case, God played an important role in reaching our hearts to one another through dreams. This belief looks stupid to rational observers. My dreams signify that Deepthi wants me to be her fellow. Only time has to disclose truth soon. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

7 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:20. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2003 from 6:00. Today is the last day in my 29^th year of life. I am grateful to my Lord Krishna and my mother Saraswati for blessing me with such happy and peaceful life. Today it is Vinayaka Chavithi. Morning I did not take a formal bath on this occasion. I request Lord Ganesh to forgive me for it. There are only four fellows in our hostel now. My roommate Chaitanya put the photos of Lord Vigneswara and Lord Venkateshwara in one room and made it an auspicious space for formal worship. I too read out a few mantras from a book, including the related story of the occasion. We formally put the related holy yellow rice on our heads after the completion of this formal worship to Lord Vinayaka. Had my breakfast by 10:00, brought by our hostel mate. Afternoon I avoided my lunch. Today I felt dizzy in the morning and afternoon. Somehow I could manage to complete the editing of content of month of August in my diary of 2003 by 7:30. Took a bath by 8:00. Our hostel mate brought the parcel of supper by 8:30. We had it by 9:00. Today it rained heavily. I felt happy sensing the passage of my 29^th year of life through such spell of nature. I pray my Lord Krishna to unite me with Deepthi soon if we are destined to marry. I pray Lord Vigneswara to make the life of my darling Deepthi blissful at the earliest. He is guiding me well. I am happy at it. My best wishes to my sweetheart Deepthi. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

8 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2003. Today I edited the content of month of September in my diary from 5:40 to 4:40. Morning I could not have my breakfast because there was nobody to bring it for me from outside. Took 100 grams of jaggery from the room of my hostel mate. It was brought to be kept at the photo of Lord Vigneswara during the worship that took place yesterday morning. It was thus blessed by God. Afternoon my hostel mate brought me ten rupees of rice, five rupees of curd and five rupees of red dal from Sai Lakshmi Mess down Shivam Road. Had it by 2:00. Freshened up myself and stepped out by 5:00. Handed a little amount of rice to an old man by main road. Took a city bus and reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 5:30. Saw the Telugu film “Okkade” of Sri Hari in the first show. Walked back and reached Shanti Deluxe Hotel by Shivam Road. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 15 rupees. On the way, bought two small apples for ten rupees. Today it is the first day in my 30^th year of life. I bought these two apples for me on behalf of my goddess Deepthi. They are her birthday gift for me. I know that my darling Deepthi is disturbed for being unable to celebrate my birthday being beside me. She wants me to complete the editing of my writings at the earliest. Three months ago she specially told me in my dream to finish my work of editing first and get them published soon. I totally belong to my Deepthi. May God bless us. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

9 September (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2003 from 6:20. This morning I felt dizzy. My hostel mates forgot to remind me when they were going out to have their breakfast. My roommate brought me a biscuits packet from Sai Supermarket opposite our hostel. They were stuffed with orange flavored cream. This morning my cousin Shiva returned from his home. Afternoon Balaram brought me a parcel of five rupees of rice and five rupees of curd. Had it by 2:00 and felt relieved. This evening it rained heavily. So, power cut occurred for half an hour. They restored it by 7:00 but the voltage was low. Today our hostel supervisor talked rudely with me because I am editing my diaries on my computer keeping a tube light always on. I could finish my scheduled part of editing by 8:45. My cousin Shiva brought half a kilo of sweets for me buying them for 17 rupees from his village Boorugupudi near Rajahmundry. I asked him to bring them for me because their place is famous for those sweets. The taste of these Kaajaas was not as great as expected by me. When I was having my supper in the other room, our hostel folks were badly talking about Meera Jasmin. They said that her vulgar photos are posted on the Internet. I was hurt hearing such things about this beautiful film actress. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

10 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2003 from 6:00. My roommate Chaitanya brought me breakfast by 9:00. Balaram brought me lunch by 1:30. I had five rupees of rice and five rupees of curd. I shared the other items of lunch with my hostel mates. By 3:30 I felt very sleepy. My brain dictated me to move out of my chair and rest on my mat for some time. My conscience firmly warned me against doing it and kept me in the chair. I could finish the scheduled part of editing by 7:25. Chaitanya brought a parcel of plate meal from the nearby Devi Mess by 8:30. Today I had about eight sweets brought by my cousin Shiva. If there are sweets around me, it is difficult for me to control myself from touching them. They are not tasty. They affect my health temporarily. They victimized me today. I sensed their evil effect in my stomach. I felt a little dizzy. If my cute Deepthi was with me, she would have thrown these sweets away from me. The sky has been cloudy for many days. I interpret my life depending on the poses and spells of nature. These clouds signify that my darling Deepthi is suffering for me. She is living near me in this city. She wants me to complete my editing work first. If she meets me before completing this important work in my life, I may get distracted. She likes my writings. She is spending every day in my thoughts. Her mind wants to meet me but her conscience is advising her to keep herself away from me until this project is over. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing the content of month of December in my diary of 2003 from 5:00. Morning avoided my breakfast because nobody brought it for me. Had my lunch by 12:30. The editing of my diary of 2003 ended by 4:45. Had a bath fast and rushed out by 5:00. Went to Global View Internet café and uploaded the soft copy of word file of my edited diary of 2003 into my Yahoo Briefcase. Deleted unwanted emails from my Yahoo Mail. It was 5:30. Hired an auto rickshaw for ten rupees and moved to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. Bought a ticket for 35 rupees. Moved out and had a glass of grape juice for 12 rupees. Saw the Hindi film “Maine Pyar Kiya Kyon” of Salman Khan, Katrina Kaif and Susmita Sen. I enjoyed the comedy in this film from 6:10 to 8:30. Came out from this cinema and started walking toward Shivam Road. Had a plate meal for ten rupees in Rajasri Restaurant by main road. I wondered at the quality of rice they served. It was very good for that price. Bought three small apples for ten rupees. I found them good. Returned to our hostel by 9:30. My cousin Shiva gave me two oranges. He brought them from home. He collected them from his orange garden there. Last night I slept in the room of Anjaneya Raju on iron cot. A sweet dream played in my mind. A beautiful female dancer spent with me. It was an extraordinary dream. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

12 September (Monday)

Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing the content of month of December in my diary of 2004 by 5:10. By the time I could complete the editing of ten pages in it, giddiness attacked me. I could not concentrate on my computer. It was 8:30. This morning I had two apples. I wondered if they had affected my health. I clearly knew that I cannot go ahead with my editing work anymore. I shut down my computer and rested on my mat. Some dreams visited me. My hostel mate Balaram brought five rupees of rice and five rupees of curd for me from Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess down Shivam Road along with his parcel meal by 1:00. Had it by 1:30. Took a head bath by 2:00. Weakness was on in me but dizziness was not there. Dressed up myself and stepped out by 2:05. Walked down Shivam Road and bought two tablets at a medical store for five rupees to face my weakness. Took a tablet with a cool drink of Coca Cola because I did not find drinking water there. Hired an auto rickshaw for ten rupees and rushed to cinema Sri Ramana Digital at Bagh Amberpet by 2:30. Saw the Telugu film “Amma Meedha Ottu” of R Narayana Murthy and Lahari from 2:45 to 5:30. I liked it. I pitied its producer scanning the poor presence of audience in the cinema. R Narayana Murthy is a great man and revolutionary in the Telugu film industry. Returned to our hostel by 6:15. Got a call from the HDFC Bank. That girl told me that they are issuing a lifetime free international credit card. I told her to send their folks to our hostel. Had my supper along with Chaitanya by 8:30. The weakness was on in me. Went to sleep by 9:30.

13 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 7:00. Morning it was cloudy and cool. I was much tempted by this soothing effect of nature. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 by 7:16. I felt very uneasy by 11:00. Stopped editing and rested on my mat. Balaram brought the parcel of lunch by 1:00. Had it along with them by 1:15. I could finish the editing of January part of 2004 by 8:00. By 6:00 the girl from HDFC Bank called me up. She asked me if I would be available at the hostel. She would send their marketing executive to me in half an hour. She sounded like an innocent kid in her voice. Their marketing executive came to our hostel by 6:30. He showed me the assurance letter from the HDFC Bank. It stated that any fee won’t be collected from the bearer of this credit card as service charge for possessing and using it. I told him that I did not get any problem with the HDFC Bank in terms of its services. I signed on that form. He said that I would receive my credit card within ten days. Had my parcel meal along with my hostel mates by 9:15. Today I felt disturbed due to the deviation from my editing work for two hours in the morning. Last night I could not sleep early. I regretted my wasting time due to dizziness. I can’t bear if my schedule of editing gets affected like this. I think my darling Deepthi is doing well in her dreamland at home. She is guiding me in my editing work. Went to sleep by 10:30.

14 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:40. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 from 5:00. Had a few biscuits and my breakfast of Upma by 10:00. There was no supply of electricity from the substation from 10:30 to 11:00. I made use of this time taking a rest on my mat. A dream visited me during this time. My hostel mates forgot me when they were going out to bring their parcels of lunch from the hotel. I could not have my lunch for this reason. Balaram has a soft corner for me. Recently I told him how one can be useful to others without worrying much on one’s part. It comes from the inherent tendency or cultivated habit of a person. He came to me by 3:00 and asked me if I wanted anything from outside to eat. I gave him ten rupees and asked him to bring a papaya for me. He returned in 20 minutes with a papaya of eight rupees. That roadside hawker cut it into pieces neatly there itself. The cool flesh of this fruit quenched the thirst of my stomach. The editing of February part of my diary of 2004 could be finished by 7:00. My mind turned weary. Spent talking with my hostel mates for half an hour enthusiastically. Had a bath and felt more relieved. Today I received the quarterly financial statement of my international credit card of HDFC Bank from Chennai. There is nothing to care about specially. I did not use it even for once. Earlier they charged me some fees. This time they could not charge me anything because I recently returned that card to them. They will send me a new card soon. They love me as a good customer. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

15 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 from 6:45. Balaram brought me breakfast by 9:30. I had two bananas also. Afternoon my hostel mates forgot to bring lunch for me. Balaram said that there was a little rice for me to eat. Had it by 3:30. It was 6:45. The editing of 23 days in March only was over. My practice has been to complete one month’s part a day at least. There were eight days ahead to be finished and complete the editing of the month of March. My mind was already very tired. I left it there itself. Shut down my computer system and moved into the rooms of my hostel mates. I felt very uneasy. Looked up at the sky. There were clouds. They were reaching me the message of my goddess Deepthi. She is counting every day observing my work of editing over here. She is praying God to enable me to carry out my editing work successfully. She is trying to find joy in this world keeping her depression aside. She is obsessed with my thoughts. She is greater than me in self-control. I am happy knowing that my Lord Krishna is helping her be balanced. I am waiting for the day to meet my sweetheart. I hope time resolves this issue soon. Had my supper by 8:40 along with my hostel mates. The moon hid himself behind clouds to show me the moody face of my kid Deepthi in this city. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

16 September (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 from 6:30. Morning avoided my breakfast. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju returned from his hometown Tanuku this morning. Went to him by 9:30 and asked him if he brought anything from home to eat. He said that he brought two kinds of eatables. I pulled those things out and ate a few. Balaram brought two papayas for ten rupees by 1:30. Cut one of them carefully and had it by 2:00. I felt cool in my stomach. By 5:00 I felt a bit dizzy due to excessive consumption of papaya. I gave the pieces of second one to my hostel mates. I felt happy at it. Stopped editing my diary by 6:45. I could not edit more than 20 pages today. I decided to edit it for 12 hours every day. Took a bath by 7:15. Anjaneya Raju and I walked down Shivam Road and got our parcel of supper from Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Hotel. I scanned Telugu daily Eenadu for ten minutes in this hotel. We returned to our hostel by 8:00. On the way, I rang up to my home. Nobody picked it up at the other end.  Had my supper by 9:00 along with my two parcel meal partners. Night the sky turned bright due to the brilliant moon. Naughty clouds were playing with the nervous moon. They were moving from one corner to another. My sweetheart Deepthi must be watching their game from her abode in this city. She must be spending her time playing with kids. She is in me always. She is visiting me in my dreams as well. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

17 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought breakfast for me by 9:00. I could carry out my editing work till 12:15. My mind followed the commands of devil thereafter. I shut down my computer and went into the room of Anjaneya Raju to rest for a while. Balaram brought the parcel of lunch for me by 1:30. Had it along with my hostel mates by 2:00. Took a bath by 2:30. Put on my shirt and pants. Decorated myself well. Wore my pair of shoes and stepped out by 3:00. Scanned Eenadu for ten minutes at a tea stall by Shivam Road. Called up my folks at home by 3:30. Nobody picked it up at the other end. Called up Jaggampeta and talked with my cousin Kiran. He informed me that everything is going on well over there. Then went to Thriveni Hostel in the Osmania University campus to meet my friends of the HCU. I found that they left it. Moved to RTC Crossroads by 5:30 by bus. Saw the Telugu film “Naayakudu” of Rajasekhar from 6:00 to 8:30 in cinema Odeon. I waited for a mini meal of 16 rupees for half an hour at Sri Sudha Tiffins and Meals Stall. There were no all the supposed things of this menu item. So, he gave me some stuff. Had it helplessly and returned to the hostel by 9:30. Today the clay idols of Lord Vigneswara are being immersed in the Hussain Sagar Lake in Hyderabad. Went to sleep by 10:30.

18 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 9:30. Afternoon Balaram brought the parcel of lunch for me by 1:00. By 5:30 Anjaneya Raju motivated me to go out for seeing a film along with him. Both of us hired an auto rickshaw and rushed to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. Anand, one of our hostel mates, was already there. Three of us saw the Telugu film “Allari Bullodu” of Nitin, Trisha and Rathi from 6:00 to 8:40. I enjoyed watching this film. We hired an auto rickshaw and came up to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess. Bought a parcel of full meal and reached our hostel by 9:15. Three of us had it by 9:45. Night clouds looked busy in the sky playing around the moon. Last night I struggled for two hours to sleep. I could keep my body on iron cot. I could close my eyes. Strong current of thoughts ran across my mind. I became a little slow in editing my diary of 2004. I don’t know how my darling Deepthi is spending her time at her house in the city. My dreams are suggesting that she is very deep in my admiration. It creates pain due to her distance from me. I am suffering here being away from her. She must be undergoing similar pain of love for me. I am waiting eagerly to see my little goddess. She is all for me. I am in a platonic relationship with her through telepathy. I pray my Lord Krishna to take me to my Deepthi at the earliest. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

19 September (Monday)

Woke up by 7:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 by 7:30. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 9:30. His roommate Anand was going out to see a film. So, he too decided to go along with him. He asked me to accompany him. Three of us rushed to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet on a bike taking a short cut through DD Colony. We went there by 12:15. Telugu film “James” was not on show in the morning. We were disappointed. We returned to our hostel by 12:30. Our hostel supervisor took us into a room meant for guests in the ground floor. He opened it and showed us untidiness in it. Empty water bottles and cigarette ends were there. A friend of my roommate Chaitanya stayed in it for some days and vacated it without paying the dues. Our hostel supervisor discovered the absence of that worthless bloke late. He took us there to explain the drawbacks of the guest introduced by Chaitanya. He likes to use us as eye witnesses to such events in future if anybody questions his competence as a supervisor of this hostel. I wondered at his detective mentality. Afternoon avoided my lunch. Completed editing the content of month of May in my diary of 2004 by 7:30. Anjaneya Raju and I went down Shivam Road and brought the parcel of supper from a hotel. We had it by 9:00. Today it was drizzly. My darling Deepthi must be enjoying this climate. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by my Lord Krishna.

20 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 by 7:10. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 9:30. Afternoon avoided my lunch. The content of 20 days, in the month of May, in my diary of 2004, could be completed by 7:15. Dressed up myself and stepped out with the umbrella of my hostel mate by 7:30. Scanned Eenadu for 20 minutes in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess. Knew that heavy rainfall was recorded in the districts of coastal Andhra Pradesh. Rainwater flooded many regions. A depression over the Bay of Bengal created this mess in these districts. Took the two parcels of supper and returned to our hostel by 8:00. One parcel was for one of my hostel mates and the other one was for my cousin Shiva and me. On my way back to the hostel, called up my folks at home. Nobody picked it up at the other end. There were heavy winds in those areas due to the effect of severe cyclone. The network of telecommunications must have failed there due to it. It rained significantly even in the twin cities. I found the environment cool and comfortable in our hostel room. Had my supper by 8:30. One of our hostel mates asked me whom I would marry. I told him that I would marry my sweetheart Deepthi. He asked me if both of us are in regular contact now. I told him that Deepthi is waiting for her elder sister’s marriage to be held first. After that, we would marry with the blessings of my Lord Krishna. Future has to prove it. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

21 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 by 7:15. Balaram brought me a parcel of four puris by 9:00. He asked me what I wanted when he was going out to bring his parcel of lunch. It was drizzling. I did not feel like eating rice. He said that it is not good to eat bananas in rainy weather. I liked to get apples. He said that one big apple costs about nine rupees. The allotted budget for my lunch is ten rupees. I asked him to get groundnut sweets for me for ten rupees. They are prepared with roasted groundnuts and jaggery. They are good for health. He brought ten pieces by 2:00. They were not good but I managed with them. Completed editing the content of 20 days in my diary by 7:30. Had a bath by 8:30 and felt relieved. It was very cold outside. Cool water was tickling my body. Had my supper along with Anjaneya Raju and Anand by 9:30. Morning I gave 50 rupees to my roommate Ramachandra Raju and told him to get me one kilo of dates when he returns to the hostel in the evening. He forgot to get it for me. There is no urgency of it for me. So, I did not regret it. The sweetness of dates attracts me. They are affordable and make me happy easily. I become a glutton when I find them adequately with me. Cyclone is on. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

22 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 by 6:00. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 10:30. One of our hostel mates was going out to get his parcel of lunch from the hotel by 12:30. I told him to bring me five rupees of bananas. He bought four bananas. Had them for my lunch by 1:30. By 7:00 I could complete 21 days of editing in my diary. I reached the month of August. Anjaneya Raju brought the parcel of supper from Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road by 8:15. He wanted to have it a bit late. I had my part of it by 8:30. Read the Telugu film weekly Sitara for 15 minutes. Morning a milk boy called me and sold me a pack of milk of 500 milliliters. He took eight rupees for it. Balaram woke up from his sleep by 9:00. I went to him to know if he can heat up my share of milk also along with theirs. They bought a portable gas stove and some cooking utensils recently. They frequently cook in a room allotted to them on the terrace of this hostel for this purpose. He told me that the milk boy would have given their scheduled pack of milk to me by mistake. They have been regularly buying it from him for a few weeks. I gave them my milk packet. He said that he would buy additional pack of milk for me tomorrow morning. Last night Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi visited me in my dream. He slept beside me on a mat for some time. He was pulling my bed sheet to cover and protect him from biting cold around. He wants to be my close friend. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

23 September (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004. Last night my roommate Ramachandra Raju brought me half a kilo of dates for 20 rupees. I used to buy them at pushcarts on roads and at stalls in annual fairs in villages. I liked the quality of these dates with seed. It was packed by the folks or machines of Lion brand. Morning avoided my breakfast and had these dates. Anjaneya Raju proposed buying milk. I readily agreed. I gave him 20 rupees. Ten rupees should be spent for buying milk and sugar. The remaining ten rupees must be spent for buying the parcel of supper from the hotel this evening. He brought a packet of half a liter of milk and half a kilo of sugar by 11:30. Both of us went up to the terrace and heated up this milk on the gas store there. We felt happy drinking sweet milk. Thus I could have energetic and tasty food today. Afternoon ate a little amount of rice offered by my hostel mates. I could edit up to 20 August in my diary of 2004 by 7:30. Washed my clothes and had a bath by 8:30. Put my washed clothes on the terrace to dry up in the open. Anjaneya Raju brought our parcel of plate meal from Devi Mess by 9:00. We had it in his room by 9:30. The sky turned cloudy suddenly. It started drizzling. Brought my clothes down from the terrace. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

24 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2004 by 6:00. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 9:30. Today it was cool and cloudy. Afternoon avoided my lunch. My friend Sriram came by 4:00. He brought the PageMaker files of my work titled My Formative Utopian World. He said that he was recently promoted to the position of Graphic Designer in the office of Le Magnus University of ICFAI. Now his monthly salary is 5000 rupees. He is not happy at it. His hard work deserves more salary. He said that Ajit Kumar of MBA Review magazine of ICFAI University Press recently died due to heart failure. I regretted it. Death is a compulsory uniform to be worn by everybody at some time. The alive lament the lifeless. The dead remain beyond material attachments, passions and emotions. I used to often see him in our office. I cannot see him hereafter. Anji brought a roasted corn cob buying from a hawker on road for three rupees by 4:30. It looked great. I had it happily. Afternoon I encountered a disorder in the format of a paragraph in the word file of my diary of 2004. I felt disgusted at it. Even Sriram could not correct it. Today I could complete the editing of my diary up to 10 September. Anji brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 8:00. We had it by 8:30. We took a bus and reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 8:45. We saw Telugu film “Adhirindhayyaa … Chandhram” from 9:00 to 11:30. There was poor attendance of audience. It can be considered ‘Below Average’. We returned to our hostel in an auto rickshaw. Went to sleep by 12:30.

25 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 by 6:20. Early morning it rained considerably. I prepared a glass of sugar water for me by 7:30. Morning Anji did not ask me about my choice of breakfast before going out for having his breakfast at the pushcart by Osmania University gate. He brought a plate of idlies for me. I did not like them. They cost five rupees. My cousin Shiva readily bought them from him. By 4:00 I had a bit of rice along with Anji. It was offered by our hostel mates. Meanwhile our former hostel mate Hemanth came. He said that he got a place in a university in London. He gets a scholarship. His parents have to bear remaining money. It all amounts to five lakh rupees. He is preparing for his IELTS exam now. He asked me to help him in this regard. I told him that I am not that competent in English. He said that he does not expect more than what I know from me. He added that he would come soon. I assured him of my possible help. The editing of the content of month of September was over by 5:20. Read today’s Eenadu for half an hour in the room of my cousin Shiva. My darling Deepthi visited me twice in my dreams recently. She is reading my personal diaries available in my Yahoo Briefcase. She is waiting for my edited diary of 2004 to be uploaded into it soon. She is curious to know about what I wrote in it. She is deeply engaged in my thoughts. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

26 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2004 by 6:30. Had a glass of sugar water. Anjaneya Raju brought a parcel of breakfast and two bananas for me by 9:30. I found it satisfactory. Afternoon avoided my lunch. By 6:30 I could complete editing of 20 days and reached 21 October. Had a bath by 7:30. Anjaneya Raju and Chaitanya brought our parcel of supper from the hotel by 8:30. Had it along with Chaitanya by 9:00. Today it was cloudy and rainy. Recently our hostel supervisor bought glasses to improve his poor eyesight. He is unable to see things from distance. He got artificial teeth recently spending good amount of money for it. He became financially weak after the project of construction of a house for his daughter. He looked very secure when he had some money for him. He spent everything for this house. Now his wife is staying in the abode of her daughter. He is living alone here. He is cooking for him. If any fellow in our hostel is patient enough to listen to him, he can narrate various events of his life for hours together. I often feel very irritated to listen to him when he prolongs it on and on. Every life has a story. Every story is interesting. One can hardly find time to listen to all these stories. Some like watching films. Many like talking with creatures of opposite gender. Some like to spend alone. Such diversity and mystery in the interests and pursuits of the people around one looks more exciting and delightful to one. Night listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

27 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2004 by 5:15. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast and two bananas by 10:00. Had a bit of rice offered by my hostel mates by 3:00. Editing of 20 days was over by 4:30. Today I edited up to 10 November. Had a bath by 5:00. Went out and withdrew 900 rupees from the Andhra Bank’s ATM Center by Shivam Road. Anjaneya Raju and I walked a bit ahead along the main road in Vidya Nagar. I bought two samosas for seven rupees at a roadside stall. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw and reached RTC Crossroads by 5:30. I saw the Telugu film “Andhrudu” of Gopichand in cinema Sandhya from 6:15 to 9:00. I found it interesting. Bought roasted groundnuts for four rupees at a pushcart by main road and waited for my route bus. I found many buses thickly packed. Took an auto rickshaw and reached Ram Nagar. Bought curd for six rupees at a sweet stall. I felt tired and so hired an auto rickshaw. He took eight rupees and dropped me by Shivam Road. Reached our hostel by 9:40. Last night my goddess Deepthi visited me in my dream. It was office environment. Both of us sat very closely like colleagues. She waited for my love to be expressed to her. Eventually I expressed my love to her. She felt happy. I saw her very clearly. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

28 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2004 by 5:15. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 10:30. I had it by 11:00. I added two bananas to it. Had a bit of rice offered by my hostel mates by 3:00. Today’s scheduled editing was over by 3:45. The editing of content of month of November was over. Spent talking with Anji for half an hour. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 4:30 to 5:30. Anji and I walked down Shivam Road and went into Karur Vysya Bank by 6:00. He has an account in it. He deposited a cheque there. I took 10 ten-rupee notes for 100 rupees. The teller there told me not to ask for change for 100 rupees. All are very busy now. We walked back toward our hostel. I called up my folks at home from a telephone booth. There is a problem with our telephone at home. I can hear the ring but they can’t. We bought two roasted corn cobs for six rupees at a handcart by road. We sat by road and started having them. We enjoyed ourselves watching the traffic on road. We returned to our hostel by 7:00. The sky was cloudy. It suggested that the mind of my darling Deepthi was tense. She is waiting to read my edited diary of 2004. I am unable to upload the soft copy of it into my Yahoo Briefcase because I did not complete editing it till now. May God console her. I had a dream last night. It signified that Deepthi is very tense now thinking about me. Only time can prove some truths related to human life. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

29 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2004 by 5:15. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 10:30. Had it by 11:00. Afternoon avoided my lunch. Anji brought a papaya by 2:30. Had it by 3:00. Completed my scheduled part of editing by 4:00. Only the last 11 pages are yet to be edited. Anji and I hired an auto rickshaw and reached RTC Crossroads by 5:30. We bought two 35-rupee tickets and entered cinema Saptagiri. We saw the Telugu film “Judgment” of Arjun and Lara Dutta. There were not many audience in this cinema. This film is very interesting. I could not understand why the producers of this film put Lara Dutta as the heroine. I heard that she earlier won the title of Miss Universe. She might be intelligent. She lacks beauty. I could not bear her presence in this film. We took a bus near cinema Sandhya by 9:20. It was thickly packed. I sat on the iron rod by footboard. We reached our hostel by 9:40. We brought a parcel of full meal from a hotel and had it by 10:00. By 11:00 this morning receptionist Jaya Lakshmi called me up from ICFAI University Press. She affectionately enquired me about my well-being. I told her that I am doing well. Our Team Leader Vijay Krishna asked me when I would rejoin the press. I told him that I would rejoin it by the first week of this November. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

30 September (Friday)

Woke up by 3:20. Freshened up myself soon and started editing my diary of 2004 by 3:30. Finished editing the last 11 pages in this diary by 11:00. My darling Deepthi has been a constant source of inspiration to me for editing my ten years of personal diaries. So, I added an acknowledgement statement to this effect at the end of this diary. I also pasted the photos of Meera Jasmin and me side by side at the end. My Deepthi looks like her and so pasted her photos there. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road and spent there from 11:45 to 12:45. Uploaded the soft copy of my edited diary of 2004 into my Yahoo Briefcase. Deleted unwanted emails from my four accounts. Today is a great day in my life. I finished editing the content of ten years of my personal diaries in a short period of time maintaining appreciable discipline and determination on my part. It is a great achievement. Had my lunch in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe by 12:30. Bought a dozen bananas for 16 rupees for taking to my friend Veeru. Took a bus and an auto rickshaw and reached the abode of Veeru at Journalist Colony ‘A’ by 4:30. Two of his cousins, his eldest brother and two of his friends are there now. He recently bought a used bike. He met with a minor accident when driving it to learn. He is growing his beard. I advised him to remove it. Left them by 7:30. Reached a computer center at the Quarantine Junction by 9:00 by bus. Enquired a fellow there about the editing of the Hindi part of my personal diaries. Had my supper by 9:45. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

1 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Washed a pair of clothes and took a bath by 7:30. Went to the Central Institute of Hindi in DD Colony by 9:30. It was closed due to holiday today. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached Kachiguda by 10:00. There somebody told me to go to Narayana Guda. Had a plate of puris by road and walked toward my destination. There somebody advised me to go to Gowliguda near Kothi. A Sikh at Gurudwara there advised me to go to Modern Typewriting House. I have to get the Hindi part in my nine years of diaries edited by somebody. I wrote poor Hindi on Sundays in my diaries from 1995 to 2003. It amounted to about 65 pages in print. Hyderabad is known for impure Hindi. Dharmender Raj Jaiswal charges 800 rupees for this editing work. His brother Rupendra Raj Jaiswal helped him in editing. They wanted all my diaries. Returned to our hostel by 3:00 to take them. Talked with Pradeep Kumar Ramappa of ICFAI University Press by 3:30 and informed him that I would rejoin it by the 2^nd of next month. Started back to Gowliguda by 4:00. Walked from 5:00 to 6:00 from Gurudwara area via High Court, Moazzam Jahi Market and Gurudwara to reach the venue of my work. By 7:30 they edited the Hindi part in five years of my diaries. Came back to hostel by 9:00 pursuing a tedious journey. I faced a hellish day altogether. I found that they are neither competent in editing Hindi nor interested in my work. Had my parcel supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30.

2 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went out by 7:30. Took an auto rickshaw and moved toward Dilsukh Nagar. Had my breakfast at a roadside eatery. Bought half a kilo of sweets to take to the rented abode of my friend Sriram. Reached there by 8:15. We started editing the Hindi part in my diary of 1995. It was taking much time to carry out those changes. I felt disgusted at it within a few minutes. We are not good at Hindi. The fellows of Gowliguda did not edit it properly. We could not carry out this editing work for more than ten minutes. We realized that we cannot go ahead with it. Had my lunch along with them by 1:00. Returned to our hostel by 2:00. I told Sriram to consult his uncle Sri Rama Krishna and know if he can edit the Hindi part in my diaries. I am disturbed about this issue. I am unable to find a competent person to edit the Hindi part in my diaries. Rested for two hours in my hostel room. Went to the E-Seva Center in New Nallakunta to buy a ticket and see some film. It was closed by 4:00 itself. Moved to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 5:00. I went there to see the Telugu film “Chathrapathi” of Prabhas. Tickets were already over. Had a glass of fruit salad for 10 rupees. Took a bus and reached Ameerpet by 6:00. Thence took an auto rickshaw and reached the abode of Veeranjaneyulu by 7:30. It was pleasant. The friends of Veeru and his relatives are staying with him. He is busy with his paintings. His friend Murali is also staying with them. Night watched the Telugu feature film “Abhilaasha” of Chiranjeevi on his computer. Went to sleep by 12:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

3 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and stepped out by 6:30. Took an auto rickshaw and a bus and reached our hostel by 8:30. Freshened up myself by 9:00. Put my diaries in a bag. Took a bus and reached Secretariat by 10:00. Walked back to an ATM Center of Andhra Bank and withdrew 800 rupees. Thence walked to the office of Income Tax Department and knew that I should go to the one situated by Tilak Road in Ram Koti. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached there by 11:00. Walked into the eighth floor in the office of Income Tax Department there. Met the concerning blokes there and knew that the envelope carrying my IT returns of last year was sent to my provided address on the 7^th of last July. Then I was staying in a rented room at Punjagutta. The postman would have returned it to the General Post Office at Abids, not finding me at Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel. I asked them to enquire about it. Thence hired an auto rickshaw and reached NIMS Hospital area by 1:00. Met Dr K V Rao in his clinic and got a medical certificate for 80 rupees. It is meant for supporting my application for the extension of my leave for one more month in our office. Then posted the related envelope at the post office in Erramanzil. Returned to the abode of Veeru by 3:30. Night Veeru advised me to translate the Hindi part in my diaries into English. I liked this bright idea. I am grateful to my Lord Krishna for guiding me in this regard. Went to sleep by 12:30.

4 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself and started the translation work of the Hindi part in my diaries by 5:00. I was translating the Hindi part in my diaries into English and typing it up simultaneously on the computer system of Veeru. It was a thrilling experience. Muktavarapu Anil (Mens’ Wear Designer Anil Muktavar in Hyderabad) helped me in this work for some time. He is an M.A. English from the Osmania University. He was associated with modeling field for some time. He got striking European and North Indian features in his look. He grows locks of hair fashionably. He looks very modern. Internally he is a man of standards and values. I know him for quite some time. He is a talented Copywriter in English. He is good at Hindi and Telugu as well. He is 32 now. He is looking for a suitable girl to marry. He is a good Hindu. He is staying with his parents at Secunderabad now. He is humble and impressive as a professional and sensitive and honest as an individual. He is an admirable person. Had my lunch by 2:30 along with others. The eldest brother of Veeru prepared delicious curry for all of us. I enjoyed it. By this evening, I could complete the translation of the Hindi part in my diaries of 1995, 1996 and 1997. I am very happy for finishing up much amount of work today. I found this translation work very interesting. I wasted my time and 1000 rupees searching for a competent editor. I could not find even one person to do it. The only way out is translating the Hindi part into English. I found a good solution. Today it was cloudy. My darling Deepthi is visiting me in my dreams. Went to sleep by 11:30 for my dreams.

5 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. My friend Anil Muktavar and I started to Gowliguda near Kothi by 9:45 on the bike of Veeru. We started early in the morning according to our imaginations. The roads were bright. There was heavy traffic. The sun was angry in the sky. It was like afternoon. We reached Modern Typewriting House by 10:30. That fellow said that he was yet to edit the Hindi part in my diaries of 2002 and 2003. I told him that I don’t need his editing service anymore. Took my four personal diaries from him. We returned to the abode of Veeru by 11:10. I liked the driving skills of Anil. Bike riders on roads were interestingly watching the locks of hair of Anil. Called up my friend Sriram at the Le Magnus and told him that he need not worry about the Hindi part in my diaries. He felt very happy hearing this from me. I think finding folks typing and editing Hindi is very difficult in South India. From 12:15 to 4:00 I was involved in the translation work of the Hindi part in my diaries of 1998 and 1999. I felt very satisfactory for my hard work in this regard today. I have yet four diaries to edit. Evening the eldest brother of Veeru expressed his opinions and concerns about his brother. I told him that Veeru is a sensitive and shy artist. The modern society hardly understands his admirable qualities. Night Veeru offered chicken curry to his guests. We were some ten folks in total. Went to sleep by 11:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

6 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Veeranjaneyulu and I stepped out by 6:30. He was on his way for jogging. I told him to be careful in the management of his personal budget and time. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Yousufguda Check Post. Thence took a bus and reached our hostel by 8:15. Freshened up myself and started the translation work of the Hindi part in my diary of 2000. It went on from 9:30 to 5:30. I felt happy for having finished it today itself. Went to my favorite hair salon by 6:30 and had my haircut by 7:15. I gave him 20 rupees. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 8:00. Anjaneya Raju brought the parcel of a plate meal from Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road by 9:30. Both of us had it by 10:00. Night it was cloudy. Yesterday, Murali (devotee of Meher Baba), a friend of Veeru, bought a kilo of dates for me in a market on my request. It cost me 80 rupees. He said that they are quality dates. I never saw such dates in the past with that much quality and beauty. They are melting on my tongue. I liked them a lot. He said that many dates available in ordinary shops and on pushcarts by roads are not ripe ones. This morning and afternoon I ate them happily. Last night my supreme goddess Polisetty Penta Lakshmi visited me in my dream. She spent very affectionately with me. I virtually lived in a heaven. Recently cold caught me. Evening spent talking with my hostel mates for one hour.  I became a bit weak today. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

7 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and started the translation and typing of the Hindi part in my diary of 2001 by 7:15. Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 9:30. Had it by 10:00. Today also I had dates. The scheduled work of my diary ended by 4:00. I felt very bored with that work. I asked Anji if he can help me in this regard. I told him that I would pay him 100 rupees for typing out one diary of mine when I dictate it to him. He liked my offer. We started the work. I found that he is not fast in typing. I am also not feeling comfortable with it. We withdrew ourselves from that plan. I had a bath by 4:30. We hired an auto rickshaw and reached RTC Crossroads by 4:50. There was already a long queue. We too joined them. Tickets were over by 5:15. We bought two 30-rupee tickets for 110 rupees in the black. I sponsored the ticket of Anji. We watched the Telugu film “Chathrapathi” of Prabhas and Shreya in cinema Sandhya from 6:00 to 8:30. This cinema was completely packed with audience. It is a very interesting film. We hired an auto rickshaw and reached Shivam Road by 9:15. We had our parcel meal by 9:50. Night I got rid of cold. This morning I suffered much from this. Deepthi and Jaya Israni visited me in my dream last night. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

8 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started the translation of the Hindi part in my diary of 2002. I could do it from 7:30 to 9:30. Thereafter my mind disobeyed the orders of my conscience. Had my breakfast by 10:30 brought by Anjaneya Raju. Then I did the work of adding the translated version of the Hindi part in my diaries to Sundays. By 2:30 I could complete this work related to seven diaries. I did not use Hindi in my diary of 2004. So, still I have to attend my diaries of 2002 and 2003. I decided to do it at my home. Took a bus by 3:30 and reached the rented abode of my friend Veeru by 4:30. Recently I lent him 500 rupees. I went there to take it from him. He could not repay it. I told him that I can manage. His friend Hari of Vijayawada was also there. He said that my friend Vijaya Krishna is not running his hotel now in Vijayawada. Took leave of them and reached our hostel by 7:00. Copied the soft copies of my latest versions of diaries into six floppies from my computer system. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 7:30. Uploaded the word files of my diaries into my Yahoo Briefcase. Thereafter I typed out an interesting letter and emailed it to my Yahoo Mail address from another Yahoo Mail account of mine. This letter cautions my darling Deepthi about her negligence toward me. I advised her to meet me soon if she is also in love with me. I know that she checks my emails frequently. May God help her in this regard. Returned to our hostel by 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:15 for my dreams.

9 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went to the nearby ATM Centre of Andhra Bank and withdrew 3200 rupees. Had my breakfast by 9:00 at the pushcart by Osmania University gate. Thence walked down Shivam Road and enquired at an APSRTC bus reservation counter about the availability of reservation ticket for an APSRTC Hitech bus to Visakhapatnam from Hyderabad. She said that there were no seats at all. Thence walked down to a nearby shop and got the Hindi part in my diaries of 2002 and 2003 photocopied. Returned to our hostel by 11:30. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station (MGBS) by 12:50. Bought a ticket for 140 rupees. Our bus started off by 1:15. Reached Vijayawada Bus Station by 7:45. Bought one kilo of sweets for 120 rupees at Revathi Ghee Sweets there. Had a glass of grape juice for ten rupees. Took a bus by 8:30. Bought a ticket for 143 rupees for Adduroad. The seats in this Luxury Express bus were not much comfortable. By 9:00 this bus was completely filled with passengers. The festival of Dasara is being celebrated grandly in Vijayawada. Our bus started off by 9:15. The road was free. Our bus was running fast. The winds of winter were entering it. The four-line roads are really beautiful and comfortable for bus drivers and passengers. Meanwhile cold caught me. I was trying to sleep. The pleasant journey in this bus encouraged me to keep awake. By 12:00, it was nearing Rajahmundry.

10 October (Monday)

Got off the bus by 3:20 at Adduroad Junction. Reached our house by 3:25. The compound wall gate of our house was locked. I put my bag on the wall and jumped to the other side. Called my mother. She opened the door. Tried to rest for some time. Woke up by 6:00. My brother Sambha and my sister-in-law Kranti left for Visakhapatnam by 7:00. They are consulting a doctor there for children. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came by 8:00. Spent talking with him for one hour. He said that he bought a plot of land in Payakaraopeta recently. I felt happy at it. Meanwhile my paternal aunt Subhadra came. She asked me about the condition of Ravindra in Hyderabad. I told her that he is doing some job in some private company. Rested for one hour. Went to the house of my uncle Srinu by 11:30. I knew that he went out on a lorry. Spent talking with my aunt Lakshmi and my cousin Surendra for some time. Surendra is about eight now. He is presently in his second standard. I tested his learning skills. I found him intelligent. He is very good at English, Hindi and Telugu. May Goddess Saraswati bless him with a bright future. Came back to our house by 1:30. It started raining and continued for half an hour. My cousins Vasu and Naren came from village Peda Teenarla by 3:00. Spent talking with them for three hours. Naren is in the final year of his course of Diploma in Mechanical Engineering. I felt happy at his achievement of marks. I advised him to get 65% of marks at least in the aggregate. He leaves for Kakinada very soon. My father returned from the Etikoppaka Cooperative Sugar Factory at Darlapudi by 6:00. My cousin Hari of village Ramula Devapuram is studying here. Night spent talking with my folks for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

11 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Started translating the Hindi part in my diary of 2002 by 8:00. Took a break by 12:00 and rested on cot for one hour. Had my lunch by 1:30. Started my translation work from 1:45. By 7:30 half of this diary was over. I felt happy at this achievement. Evening my cousin Naren spent talking with me for half an hour. Recently it rained heavily. Ponds are filled with rainwater. The dilapidated well near our house was filled with soil. Somebody bought the land opposite our house recently. He is planning to sell it in the form of residential plots soon. The National Highway 5, passing through Adduroad, was elevated during the recent four-line project work. Now we can see vehicles on this road from our house. I am happy to see them every day from our abode. Recently my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju moved to village Peda Teenarla from village Raja Venkata Nagaram. He recently quit his position of supervisor in the coconut garden of Datla Subba Raju over there. In the present place also he is working as a supervisor in a coconut garden. This morning my cousin Hari left for Ramula Devapuram. The rates of paddy fields have dramatically increased in our vicinity recently. The drinking water in our well is at a satisfactory level due to the heavy rains that fell recently. Our coconut plant beside our compound wall grew up considerably. It is beautiful now. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

12 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today it is Dasara. The nine-day long celebration of this Hindu festival comes to an end by today. I did not celebrate this festival. This morning my uncle Appala Raju talked with me for half an hour. He does not like to come to our house when my father is there. He asked me about his son Ravindra Varma in Hyderabad. I told him that he is doing well in the city. He regretted the careless behavior of his only son toward him so far. This morning my father left for Gollalagunta. The first death anniversary of my eldest maternal grandfather Kolukuluri Appala Raju takes place there tomorrow. My teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju informed my father to attend this event. By this evening I could complete the translation work of Hindi part in my diary of 2002 into English. I spent about six hours on this work. This morning my friend Yesu Babu came from Ramayyapatnam to see me. Spent talking happily with him for half an hour. I felt happy knowing that he had a son recently. He waited for children for long. Evening our mango garden associate Kurandasu Appa Rao (elder brother of Yesu Babu) came. He talked with me for one hour. His eldest son is currently pursuing Intermediate course in Elamanchili. He asked me to find a job for him in Hyderabad. I told him that I would certainly help him when he completes his studies. Thereafter Naga Raju came. Spent talking with him for one hour. Today my mother prepared special dishes on the occasion of Dasara. Night talked with my folks at home for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

13 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today it was cloudy and cool. Freshened up myself and went to Adduroad by 8:30. Spent talking with my friend Appala Raju for two hours. They are not running their hotel anymore. They rented out that portion of their house to a fellow. His brother completed his training as an airman in the Indian Air Force. Now he is at Pathankot in Punjab. Appala Raju is waiting to become a government teacher soon. They are running a kirana shop now. They are good people. God is kind to them. Meanwhile our common friend Ramesh joined us. He is presently working as a Mathematics Teacher at a monthly salary of 2500 rupees at Viswa Shanti Convent School in Adduroad. My B.A. classmate Ganga Raju met us in the meantime. Presently he is pursuing B.Ed. course in Payakaraopeta. He asked me to help him in his English subject. I replied in the affirmative. The brakes of my bicycle are out of order. Got them repaired at a bicycle repair shop. Returned home by 11:00. Today I completed the translation work of the Hindi part up to June in my diary of 2003. I carried out this work for about six hours. I felt happy at today’s work. Today it drizzled intermittently due to the cyclonic effect. Breezes made me pleasant and delightful. I thank my Lord Krishna for it. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

14 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. It was raining heavily due to cyclone. Went to Adduroad by 9:00 on my bicycle. Bought one kilo of cooking oil, one kilo of salt, five rupees of shampoo and three detergent soaps. I bought and brought them for my sister-in-law Kranti by 10:30. I bought them at the shop of my friend Appala Raju. Rested on a cot from 11:00 to 12:00. Had my lunch by 12:30. Took my bicycle and moved to Adduroad by 1:30. Thence took a bus and reached Elamanchili by 2:30. Met the father of my B.A. classmate Apparao and spent talking with him for 20 minutes. He talked about various things related to his family. Thereafter met my friend Apparao. He married a girl four months ago. He said that he got a beautiful and good-hearted wife. Bought half a kilo of sweets at a sweet stall for 40 rupees. Moved to a lane in Court Peta and searched for the rented portion of my brother-in-law Datla Ramesh. I enquired many about it. They did not know about them. I spent about 40 minutes in this pursuit. Came back and met my friend Apparao by 4:30. Both of us went to his house at Dharmavaram (a colony in Elamanchili). He updated me on the status of our government degree college friends and the development of Elamanchili. He showed me his marriage photos and the recently constructed portions in their house. His wife is beautiful and young. I felt happy at his luck. Took a bus and reached Adduroad by 6:30. Had my supper by 7:15. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

15 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Had my breakfast and a glass of hot buffalo milk by 7:30. Took my bicycle and left for Adduroad by 8:00. Sat at the kirana shop of my friend Appala Raju. My B.A. classmate Ganga Raju came there by 8:40. Both of us spent there till 2:30. I helped him in preparing four lesson plans in English subject for his B.Ed. course. It is difficult work. Appala Raju helped us a little. Ganga Raju spent 20 rupees and bought a few sweets for his friend Chiranjeevi. This morning it rained considerably. Returned home by 2:45. Had my lunch by 3:00. My brother Sambha, my sister-in-law Kranti and I took an auto rickshaw by 3:20 at Adduroad. We reached the nearby village Upamaka by 3:45. We met a famous astrologer in this village. He said that the stars in the sky are not in favor of me. I must worship Lord Venkateshwara, Lord Hanuman and Lord Shaniswara on nine Saturdays, nine Tuesdays and nine Thursdays. He also said that I don’t have love marriage. I am destined to marry a girl chosen by my parents. That girl is living in a region lying to the east of our place. She possesses beautiful eyes, slim body, moderate fairness and compatible height. I will get married in the first half of next year. He told us about the future of my folks also. Had my supper by 7:20. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

16 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had my breakfast and a glass of hot milk. Moved to Adduroad Junction by 7:45. My father brought my bag on his bicycle. A Visakhapatnam-Rajahmundry Express bus arrived by 8:15. Got into it and bought a ticket for 36 rupees. Reached Jaggampeta by 10:30. Bought apples and oranges for 40 rupees at a fruit stall by main road. Hired a rickshaw and reached the rented abode of my brother Srinivas by 11:00. He has been living here for the last three months along with his wife and two children. He came to this place from Gollalagunta for the sake of education for his children. My nephew Sujan is in his fifth standard now. He takes the entrance examination for Navodaya Vidyalaya soon. Suhas is in his second standard now. He is a bit poor in education now compared to his brother Sujan. Had my lunch by 12:30. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani prepared chicken curry today. By 2:00 left for the house of my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju in Teachers Colony. My cousin Kiran was there. We spent talking for three hours. My uncle went to Amalapuram to participate in a function of walkers club. He is also a member in it. Kiran and I decided to leave for Hyderabad on the 28^th of this month. My uncle came by 6:00. We spent talking for 30 minutes. Meanwhile my brother Srinivas came there. My uncle expressed his concern about the standards of English being used by many now in India. He hates the habits of present people. I agreed with him. My brother and I returned home by 7:30. His present rented house portion is spacious and comfortable for them. Its monthly rent is 750 rupees. Had my supper by 8:00. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

17 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 9:30 to 2:30 I was involved in the translation work of the Hindi part in my diary of 2003. Today I completed three months. Still there are three months to be completed. My cousin Narendra Varma came by 10:30. He is going to Kakinada today to attend the classes of his polytechnic course. I gave him 1000 rupees. I would have given him more but for my present involvement in getting my writings published. He is in need of money for his inevitable expenses related to his education. His parents are struggling hard to educate him. His mother Raja Kumari was returning to village Peda Teenarla. Went to the house of my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju by 3:00. My cousin Kiran and I have to reserve sleeper class tickets for Godavari Express. We went to the reservation counter. She told us to come tomorrow. Today it is the day of weekly market in Jaggampeta. Afternoon met my maternal uncle Krishnam Raju and my cousin Anantha Lakshmi. They came to the abode of my brother Srinivas from Gollalagunta. By 7:30 my uncle Satyanarayana Raju and my aunt Lakshmi came from Elamanchili. They went there to see their daughter Sowjanya and son-in-law Ramesh. I heard that a lunar eclipse occurred this evening. Today I watched television for some time. I told my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani about my admiration for Deepthi. Today it was considerably hot. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

18 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Spent all the day within the abode of my brother Srinivas. One of the line walkers, working under the supervision of my brother Srinivas, with the HPCL pipeline security service, brought buffalo milk from village Kandregula. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and her mother Lakshmi prepared cheese for me by 10:30. It was tasty. I liked it a lot. My cousin Kiran came by 11:00. He gave me my railway reservation ticket. Both of us would take Godavari Express on the 28^th of this month. He takes it at Samalkot Junction and I at Narsipatnam Road railway station. Our common destination is Hyderabad. Today my uncle Satyanarayana Raju also spent here. Today it was cloudy. It started raining by 4:00. This rain symbolizes the suffering of my darling Deepthi in Hyderabad. I have been witnessing symbolic dreams ever since I left Hyderabad. The soul of Deepthi is facing a little difficulty in communicating with me through dreams. Though earlier I decided to forget her, I could not do it. She is in touch with me through dreams. My parents and relatives are searching for a girl to get me married. My Lord Krishna is showing that I have a bond with Deepthi. My present life is looking very complicated. I hope that time resolves these issues soon. Today I enjoyed my time watching television and talking with my drear ones. I did not watch any film or serial completely. Human life is not complete. Better if one always sees it as a mystery. The cool weather delighted me very much. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

19 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Morning spent watching television. Morning my brother Srinivas brought chicken from Kandregula. My aunt Lakshmi and my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani prepared biryani with it. By 12:30 took an auto rickshaw for Gollalagunta. Bought two packs of Horlicks biscuits for 30 rupees. Reached the house of my maternal uncle Varma by 1:00. My cousin Anantha Lakshmi and her son Vinay were there. My uncle Varma went to Rajahmundry to attend a meeting of the line walkers of HPCL Pipeline. It started raining heavily by 4:30. I enjoyed it a lot. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju came by 6:30. Spent talking with him for one hour. He explained me the nature of present politics and politicians in India. I wondered at his understanding of the contemporary society. My uncle Varma returned from Rajahmundry by 8:30. Both of us spent talking for one hour. Now he is working as a security guard at the substation of HPCL Oil Pipeline near village Kandregula. This year paddy crop failed for lack of adequate rainfall in the initial stages of this crop season. I did not meet anybody in this village. I could not go to our rice farms for lack of time. I did not go to the government high school. I felt as if I lost something. The ponds are full of water. The roads are looking a little bad. My cousin Anantha Lakshmi bought a color television recently for 10000 rupees. Went to sleep by 10:00.

20 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. My brother Srinivas came from Jaggampeta by 8:00. He went to the substation of HPCL Oil Pipeline near Kandregula. My uncle Varma was grazing his buffalo in the empty agricultural farm opposite their house. I took a rest for 30 minutes. The sun was bright in the sky. Clouds were waiting on the other side for their time to move forward. My brother Srinivas came by 10:00 on his bike. We reached his rented abode in Jaggampeta by 10:30. He left for his duty along with an associate by 10:45. I actually wanted to go to Molleru Mallavaram and Ramula Devapuram. My uncle Satyanarayana Raju and my aunt Lakshmi left for Molleru Mallavaram by 12:30.  I cancelled my scheduled visits to Mallavaram and Ramula Devapuram. The road to Ramula Devapuram is said to be very bad due to this rainy season. My aunt Venu (of Ramula Devapuram) came by 1:30. She left for her village by 3:00. My brother Srinivas dropped me at the bus stand by 3:45. A Visakhapatnam bound Express bus arrived by 5:00. Got into it and bought a ticket for 27 rupees. Got off it by 7:00 at the bus stand in Tuni. Thence took another Express bus for Adduroad. The fare is 15 rupees. A passenger sitting beside me said that he was suffering without adequate money to go to his place of work in Visakhapatnam after getting off this bus at the bus complex there. I gave him 15 rupees. Reached home by 7:50. Went to sleep by 9:30.

21 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had my breakfast and a glass of hot milk by 8:30. Went to Adduroad by 9:00 and bought 250 grams of red gram. My mother decided to carry out special worship to Hindu gods and goddesses as suggested by an astrologist recently. She prays them on behalf of me and requests them to get me married soon. I will see how the stars in the sky make me a married fellow. I like to marry Deepthi. I can helplessly request my Lord Krishna to get me married with my sweetheart Deepthi. My dreams are clearly signifying that my darling Deepthi is also in love with me deeply. I will be very happy if she becomes my life partner. Let Him decide my life in this regard. By 10:30 went to State Bank of India at Etikoppaka in an auto rickshaw. This bank was recently moved to another location in this village. Withdrew 600 rupees from my savings account. This bank is also computerized now. They assigned me a new account number due to it. My bank balance is 494 rupees after this withdrawal. From 1:30 to 5:00 spent at the abode of my maternal aunt Raja Kumari in village Peda Teenarla. My uncle Rama Raju went to a coconut garden in village Panduru. So, I could not meet him. Returned home by 6:30. It was cold at night. Went to sleep by 9:30.

22 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had my breakfast and a glass of hot milk by 8:00. Watched television for one hour. It was raining. Stepped out by 9:30. Took a bus at Adduroad Junction and reached Elamanchili by 10:15. Went to Gurajada Apparao Government Degree College by 10:30. P Prabhakara Rao, our economics lecturer, when I studied my B.A. here, is the principal of this college now. Our political science lecturer Rama Rao was also there. He came here to attend a work. I felt happy to see him incidentally. Spent talking with the principal for three hours. We discussed various things related to the contemporary Indian society. Went to the rented abode of my sister-in-law Sowjanya in Kothapeta by 12:30. Bought a pack of chocolates for her daughter Sravya. Her husband Ramesh was not available at home. Had my lunch there by 1:30. Talked with Sowjanya for much time. Left their abode by 4:15. Came across my B.A. classmate Ashok. He took me to their commercial building by main road. On the way, met my B.A. classmate Chandra Sekhar. We spent talking for 20 minutes. He said that there is an intelligent and beautiful Kshatriya girl for me to consider and marry. Then met my B.A. classmate Narasinga Rao of Venkateshwara Lodge (he works there). He also asked me if I am interested in that Kshatriya girl (she is studying in a private degree college there now. There Chandra Sekhar is teaching economics to students). Took a bus and returned home by 6:30. Met my friends Dara Konda and Ganga Raju on the way. Had my supper by 7:30. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

23 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had my breakfast and a glass of buttermilk by 8:00. Went to the kirana shop of my friend Appala Raju in Adduroad by 8:30. I sat there till 4:30 with my friend Ganga Raju. He is pursuing his B.Ed. course at a private college in Payakaraopeta now. He is from Telugu medium background of studies like me. Nobody is there to help him in his subject of English. I helped him prepare nine lesson plans in English subject. I felt very happy at it. By 5:30 left for Elamanchili by bus. Went to Venkateshwara Lodge to meet my friend Narasinga Rao. Then he was not there. I gave an envelope to his father there at their small kirana shop. I kept two of my photos in it. I put a sheet of white paper also in it carrying my matrimonial details. It is meant to be given to the relatives of that beautiful Kshatriya girl whom I found interesting based on the observations of my two B.A. classmates. Since she is in her first year B.Sc. course now, perhaps she may not like to marry at this stage of her education. As an admirer of beauty and an observer of the contemporary society, I want to examine the trends of society now. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. My mother prepared fish curry for supper. It was very tasty. Also had good amount of curd. Night it was rainy and refreshing. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

24 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Had my breakfast and a glass of hot milk by 8:00. My sister-in-law Kranti and I left for village Tangedu by 8:30 by bus. We reached the house of her parents by 9:30. Her mother Janaki received us warmly. I watched television for some time. Had a rest for 30 minutes. Janaki prepared chicken curry and biryani for me. Meanwhile their relatives came from a nearby village. She started preparing lunch for them. It was drizzling. Took leave of them and got into a bus by 1:00. Reached our house by 2:00. Rested for half an hour. Moved to Adduroad by 3:00 on my bicycle. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came by 3:30. He told me to come to Tetagunta along with him. I readily agreed. My cousin Hari returned from Tank Bead this morning. He brought milk from there. His mother Satyavathi sent it for me. My mother prepared delicious cheese with it. Left for Tuni by 5:00 along with my uncle Narasimha Murthy. He did a little shopping at a shop there. Thence we moved to Tagore High School. His two sons are studying there. We talked with the headmaster of this school for some time. I bought sweets for 20 rupees to take to the abode of this uncle. We reached their abode by 8:00. My aunt Vimala felt very happy at my visit to their house after a long time. Spent talking with their two sons for some time. They are not doing well in their studies. My uncle and aunt are worried about it. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

25 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 3:00. I could not manage to sleep thereafter. Had my breakfast and a glass of hot cow milk by 8:00. My uncle Narasimha Murthy brought me to NH-5 by 9:30 on his bicycle. He took my address on the way. He said that he has been searching for a bride for me for long. He is currently considering a bride for me. He said that he would send her details to me soon if they are interested in me. I took a lorry by 10:30. He charged ten rupees for Adduroad. Reached home by 11:30. Rested for half an hour. Meanwhile my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came. Went to Adduroad on my bicycle and bought bananas for 20 rupees for my paternal grandparents. Both of us reached Ramayyapatnam by 1:30. Spent talking with my grandparents for 15 minutes. Thammi Raju is a little weak. He said that he must be about 80 now. My grandmother is also a bit weak. May God bless them. We reached the thatched hut of this uncle at hills by 2:30. Walked through our mango garden from 3:00 to 3:45. My brother Sambha kept it very beautiful and clean. Returned to the hut of my uncle by 4:00. Gave 15 rupees to Ghantasala (his wife left him long ago. He looks very thin and weak. He is an honest man. He must be 50 or so but looks younger. I love his look and innocent words. He belongs to yadava community in village Ramayyapatnam. He survives working in the farms of others for a little money). Had a glass of sugar water offered by my aunt Kumari. Started back by 5:00. Talked with my cousins Ashwani and Ashok and their cousin (they were returning home on their short bicycles from Viswa Shanthi Convent School in Adduroad) on the way. Reached home by 7:00. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

26 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had my breakfast and a glass of hot milk by 8:00. Took my bicycle and went to the house of my aunt Padma (wife of my uncle Srinivas, the eldest son of my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju) by 8:10. Their son (they begot him after about 20 years after their marriage) is in upper kindergarten now. He is very cute. He is five. They are planning to join him a good private school for quality education. I told them that I would also enquire in that direction after going to Hyderabad. They talked with me affectionately. My aunt Padma offered me a glass of hot cow milk. Thence moved to the house of my uncle Chanti. Spent talking with my aunt Bhaskaram (the eldest daughter of my younger paternal grandfather Dharma Raju) for ten minutes. Thence proceeded to the house of my paternal aunt Subhadra. She starts to Hyderabad this evening in a general compartment of Godavari express to see her son Ravindra Varma working there. Spent talking with her for 15 minutes. Went to Sri Prajna Junior College in Adduroad by 10:30. Spent talking with its principal for ten minutes. Spent talking with my friend and priest Viswanadha Sharma for one hour. He may go to the United States of America soon. He got a job there at a Hindu temple as a priest. May God send him there at the earliest. Had my lunch by 1:30. Went back to Adduroad by 3:00. Spent talking with my familiar folks there for some time. By 3:30 went to the government high school in Adduroad. Spent talking with my friend Appala Raju for one hour. I liked the ambience here. Night my sister-in-law Kranti offered me supper with mutton curry. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

27 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Spent all the day at home. It was raining due to the cyclonic effect. My uncle Srinu spent talking with us in the afternoon. Watched television for some time. My cousin Vasu spent with us for some time. Recently my father got our telephone removed from our house. He could not face the problem of monthly telephone bills. I gave 1000 rupees to my mother. I felt happy at it. My father advised me not to misuse my monthly salary. My brother Sambha and sister-in-law Kranti are taking medicines for children. They are spending a lot of money on it. My aunt Satyavathi sent milk sweets and Mysore Pak for me. My aunt Lakshmi sends me rice flour sweets (Ariselu) for me from Molleru Mallavaram. My aunt Janaki prepared groundnut sweets for me. My mother prepared two kinds of eatables for me. Bought a jute bag for 30 rupees in Adduroad and kept all these packs of homemade eatables in it by 3:00. Gave two shirts and one pant of mine to my cousin Vasu. My uncle Rama Raju came here to see me recently. I was in Elamanchili at that time. I tried to find a bride for my friend Veeranjaneyulu in our village. My father showed his photo to the relatives of a girl in Adduroad. Later they said that she got another match. My brother Sambha is in close association with Yejarla Sudharshana Raju (popularly known as Potti Babu in this locality), a politically influential person in Peda Gummuluru and the surrounding areas. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

28 October (Friday)

Woke up by 4:00. Last night I slept in the front yard of our house. I wanted to enjoy the breezes created by cyclone. I could not sleep well due to their powerful effect. Evening I would leave for Hyderabad by Godavari Express from Narsipatnam Road railway station. My mother looked depressed due to it. I also felt sad internally. My mother prepared sesame pickle for me. She asked me if I got enough money to spend in Hyderabad until I receive my monthly salary of November from ICFAI University Press. I told her that I have 5000 rupees in my bank account. May God bless her with good health. She is not taking medicines properly for her high blood pressure. My father is a little disturbed in view of his retirement from Etikoppaka Cooperative Sugar Factory soon as a Boiler Attender. My maternal aunt Raja Kumari came from Peda Teenarla by 11:30 to see me. She spent in our house till 4:30. She became thinner compared to the past. I advised her to maintain it to be healthy. It was drizzling. My father returned from the sugar factory by 5:20. My brother Sambha brought an auto rickshaw from Adduroad by 5:30. Yesu Babu also accompanied us up to NRPM railway station. Rama Swamy, a beggar, partly a sage, talked with us for one hour about various things of human life. Godavari Express arrived by 7:15, 55 minutes late. My cousin Kiran joined me by 8:30 at Samalkot Junction. We spent talking till 12:00.

29 October (Saturday)

Godavari Express reached Secunderabad railway station by 7:10. I got off my Berth No. 50 from the Coach No. S₅. Kiran detrains at Nampally railway station. He takes the final exams of his Chartered Accountancy course from the 5^th of next month. He wants to stay along with his friends in Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda until they are over. It was drizzling. I rushed to Rethifile Bus Stand with my light luggage. I saw a beautiful girl on the way. She wore a shirt and trousers. She is a suitable bride for me. Got into an APSRTC ordinary bus by 7:20. The fare is four rupees up to Shivam Road. Reached the KSS Hostel by 7:50. My journey went on well. I am grateful to my Lord Krishna. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I saw the Telugu film “Danger” in cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet in the morning show. Krishna Vamsy directed it. It is an interesting film. Had a plate of rice for ten rupees in a roadside hotel by Shivam Road. Returned to our hostel by 3:00 on foot. Fever caught me by 3:30. I started shivering being affected by the winds of winter. Distributed all the milk sweets to my hostel mates by 5:00. One of my hostel mates advised me to take Cifran 500 and Nise tablets to face my fever. Went to sleep by 10:00.

30 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:00. Had a head bath by 7:15. Started typing up the translated version of the Hindi part in my diary of 2002 from 8:00. It was over by 4:00. I felt happy at this achievement. My fever got cured by 12:30 last night. The powerful tablets prescribed by my hostel mate worked well. Afternoon our former hostel mate Hemanth came to our hostel. He said that powerful tablets should not be taken for quick relief from minor health disorders. In future, ordinary tablets cannot deal with the same disorders due to it. By 5:30 my hostel mates Anand, Anjaneya Raju and I left for cinema Shanti at Narayana Guda on the bike of the prior. We saw the Telugu film “Modhati Cinema” in the first show. Hero Navdeep and heroine Poonam Bajwa are somewhat new to the Telugu film industry. There are so many twists in this film that one can’t identify the main story. There were only 20% audience in this cinema. It is the first film for the director Kuchipudi Venkat. It is a good film. Ordinary audience cannot appreciate it. My Seat No. was 32 in the circle of 25-rupee tickets. We returned to our hostel by 9:00. We had our parcel supper by 10:00. By evening the hidden weakness in my body raged. I felt feverish. Perhaps my Deepthi is also feverish. She must have got wet in the rain. Went to sleep by 11:30 for my weak dreams.

31 October (Monday)

Woke up by 7:30. Started typing up the translated version of the Hindi part in my diary of 2003 from 8:00. My hostel mate Anjaneya Raju brought me breakfast by 10:00. I had it and took tablets to avoid fever and cold. Last night I could not sleep even for five minutes. This morning cold attacked me. I applied Mentho Plus balm on my nose. It could not deal with it. My typing work on my computer was over by 4:00. Took a bath by 5:00. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 6:00. Uploaded the latest word files of my personal diaries into my Yahoo Briefcase. Deleted unwanted emails from my accounts. Left it by 8:00. My familiar washerman offered me hot water. Since I am suffering from fever and cold, using hot water helps me a lot. He poured some hot water in my empty bottle. Anjaneya Raju brought the parcel of supper from the hotel by 8:45. We had it by 9:15. Then I took tablets with hot water. I became weak due to fever and severe cold. It started drizzling in the evening. This morning a receptionist called me up from Margadarshini Marriage Bureau in Ameerpet. She told me to come to their office to see the photos of newly registered brides with them. I wondered at their concern for me. Night slept in the room of Anji. His roommate was not there. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

1 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Stepped out by 8:00. Went to the E-seva center at Bagh Amberpet and found it closed. I wanted to buy a monthly bus pass. Had a plate of idlies at a pushcart over there. Meanwhile my eyesight became dim. Rushed to the nearby Navodaya Nursing Home. The doctor checked my blood pressure and temperature. He said that my blood pressure was a bit low. He prescribed six Calpol tablets and two packs of oral dehydration salts for me. Took a tablet with coconut water. Took a bus and reached the abode of Veeru at Jubilee Hills by 11:00. Had one liter of ORS mixed water within three hours. Still I did not feel like urinating. I tried my best. About 100 milliliters of urine flew out. It was very yellowish. I thought my body retained rest of the water. Took leave of them by 3:30. Reached Ameerpet by 4:15 in an auto rickshaw. Bought three shirts and one pair of trousers for 570 rupees in the Kumar Shirts showroom there. Bought a pair of black cut shoes for 325 rupees in the Sheetal Footwear showroom there. They bore the name Blitz. Also bought a pair of black socks for 30 rupees. Returned to our hostel by 5:00 by bus. Bought a few things for 223 rupees in Sai Supermarket opposite our hostel. Walked down Shivam Road and bought a few cloth pieces for 150 rupees in a cloth store by main road. Today it is Deepavali. My Deepthi is not beside me now. I will celebrate it well if I win her love. May God bless us together. Went to sleep by 11:20.

2 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I could not sleep even for half an hour. Cold attacked me. I did not feel well in my stomach. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Went to the medical store in NIMS Hospital and bought three tablets for the cure of my weakness. Took a tablet with a glass of orange juice. Entered our office by 8:20. Everybody entered it by 9:15. I wished my familiar ones. I found that many of the old staff left this office. I saw some new faces in our editorial teams. There is a beautiful Sub Editor. I knew that her name is Swagata. May God bless her with comfort and happiness. Today I partially dealt with The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. I edited it previously. Today they issued me a new attendance punch card. Its number is 32. This morning I gave the sample of my urine for diagnosis at Dr Anil’s Gastro Center. I received that report by 5:15. It showed that it was acidic. Dr Anil Kumar Cherukuri checked me. He prescribed some tablets for me. He told me to consult him after five days. Returned to our hostel by 6:30. Went to the nearby ATM Center of Andhra Bank and withdrew 1600 rupees. I have gastric problem. I spent 250 rupees on it. Bought a monthly Metro Express bus pass for 460 rupees. Evening had two glasses of sugar water, two tablets and a homemade sweet. Avoided supper, feeling gaseous in my stomach. Went to sleep by 10:30.

3 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I would have slept for one hour only. I felt uneasy in my stomach. Even God was not kind to me. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:20. Reached Punjagutta by 7:50. Had my breakfast in Hotel Manikya Foods at Dwarakapuri Colony by 8:10. Entered our office by 8:20. Today I edited an article of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. This work is not going fast. Afternoon had a plate of rice in Sai Ganapathi Hotel for 20 rupees. By 5:10 our DTP operator Rama Rao and I started walking toward Ameerpet. We reached the office of Margadarshini Marriage Bureau by 5:30. I checked the photos of some Kshatriya brides. I did not find any one of them beautiful. He left for his abode. I took a bus going toward Yousufguda Check Post. Returned to the hostel by 7:30. I enjoyed this bus journey. Night I did not feel like having my supper. I don’t have money to get my blood tested in the expensive diagnostic centers in the twin cities. I am not afraid of death. I am waiting for it. I am taking tablets to avoid acidity. Night had two glasses of sugar water. I hope that Deepthi is doing well in Banjara Hills. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

4 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:10. Took a bus by 7:15 and reached the NIMS bus stop by 7:45. Had my breakfast in Sai Ganapathi Hotel and reached our office by 7:55. Stood in front of the Stellar Sphinx building and watched traffic on the road for five minutes. Punched my attendance card by 8:10. Scanned today’s newspapers for 20 minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:55. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. Afternoon had a plate of rice for 20 rupees in Sai Ganapathi Hotel. Today, Swagata, the beauty queen in our third floor, wore a pink Punjabi dress. She looked very beautiful. Her face is fascinatingly cute and mesmerizing. She is a wonder of earthly beauty. May God bless her with smiles and happiness. I heard that she is from Kolkata. My salutes to this Bengali beauty. Took a bus by 5:20 and reached Shivam Road by 6:00. An old man and his wife were selling custard apples by main road keeping them in small baskets. They looked lovable. I bought ten fruit for ten rupees. These villagers come to the twin cities in this season in bullock carts. They are poor and ignorant. The simplicity and virtues of Indian villagers can be seen in them. I regretted that I could not help them in any way. Night avoided my supper. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Went to sleep by 9:30.

5 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:20. Reached the NIMS bus stop by 7:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar for seven rupees by 8:00. Took a tablet with a cup of tea. Entered our office by 8:20. Scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. Took my seat by 8:40. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. Today Swagata Gupta came across me twice or thrice. She maintained a smiling face whenever she appeared me. She likes me as a person. To be liked by such marvel of beauty is a matter of bliss for me. Got two-hour permission from the office and left it by 3:10. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached Tilak Road, Ram Koti, Hyderabad, by 4:00. The charge of this vehicle amounted to 25 rupees. Reached the eighth floor in the big building standing over there. The income tax office of range 4 is housed in it. Vithal told me to come there to collect my envelope. I earlier failed to receive it when it was sent to my personal and official addresses in DD Colony and Dwarakapuri Colony. It is the cheque related to my IT returns of assessment year 2004-05. It amounted to 1604 rupees, including interest. Returned to our hostel by 7:00. Had my supper by 8:30. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

6 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a head bath by 7:00. Went to Life Hospital in DD Colony by 8:00. Until recently it was called Uniqare Hospital. Now it is being managed by the folks of Care Hospital and so this change of name of hospital. I observed that my urine was very yellowish on the day I came to Hyderabad. I thought it was a fever and so took tablets. Later I got my urine diagnosed. They said I was affected with acidity. Since then, I have been using tablets for it. The doubt that I am affected with jaundice remained in me. It is a dangerous health disorder. Paid 150 rupees and gave them the sample of my blood for the investigation of jaundice. They call it Serum Bilirubin test. They told me to come and collect the report within one hour. Went to the pushcart near Osmania University gate and had a plate of Upma for five rupees. Bought a copy of Eenadu and read it for some time. Collected my medical report from the hospital by 10:30. Signs of jaundice are not reported in it. A receptionist at the counter was very beautiful. I am looking for such girl to marry. Spent rest of the day within the KSS Hostel. Afternoon avoided my lunch and had a papaya instead. My tongue turned bitter. My body is suffering from some disorder. Today it was mostly cool. I could not enjoy it. Spent my time resting on my mat, listening to songs on my Walkman and reading the Telugu daily Eenadu. Washed a pair of clothes by 7:00. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

7 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and left for the bus stop by 7:00. Reached the NIMS bus stop by 7:40. Entered our office by 8:00. Our Administrative Associate Vinod asked me to open the office this morning on his behalf. I found that our Administrative Manager K V Rao already got it opened. Went to Hotel Banjara Durbar and had a plate of puris for seven rupees. Took my seat by 8:30. There was no Internet supply. Checked my Yahoo Mail by 10:00. There was an email from Kanyaka Parameswari. I replied to her. Thereafter I changed the passwords of my Email and Yahoo Briefcase accounts. My sweetheart Deepthi cannot read my emails anymore. I am distancing myself from her. I am slowly forgetting her. By 10:40 deposited my cheque of 1604 rupees in the nearby branch of Andhra Bank. Today I edited two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. Afternoon received the material of The ICFAI Journal of Banking Law. Returned to our hostel by 6:30. Typed out a two-page letter on my computer addressing my colleague Swagata Gupta. I proposed my love and intention of marriage to her in it. Got it laser printed on yellow pages at a nearby computer center. She is a suitable bride for me. Had my supper along with Balaram by 9:10. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

8 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 7:00. Reached our office by 7:40. Actually I am supposed to open our office this morning but our administrative associate Vinod already opened it. Checked my email by 8:30. There was an email from Kanya. I sent a reply to her. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. Its Research Associate Syed Iqbal sat with me and got some corrections carried out in it. This afternoon I posted my envelope to my colleague Swagata Gupta. It has a two-page letter and two color photos of mine. I requested her to marry me if she is not constrained by other factors. She is from West Bengal. I will be very happy if she agrees to marry me. She is very beautiful and considerably intelligent. May my Lord Krishna guide it. She receives my letter in our office. Evening I heard her voice in the lift. It is fantastic. This evening our Administrative Manager K V Rao and I travelled in one bus up to Vidya Nagar. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 6:15 to 8:30. Had my supper along with Balaram by 9:30. This evening I found that Mysore Pak sweets prepared by my aunt Satyavathi for me got spoilt because I put them in my box. I threw them into our dustbin. She affectionately prepared them for me. I regretted their getting spoilt. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

9 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 6:00 to 7:00 on my Walkman. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had my breakfast in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 8:10. Entered our office by 8:15. Scanned today’s dailies for 15 minutes. Took my seat by 8:30. There was an email from Kanya. I sent a reply to her. She is an interesting and intelligent girl. Our emails are mostly argumentative. We discuss issues of life and society. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology and The ICFAI Journal of Banking Law. Today Swagata Gupta put on a T-shirt and pants. She looked amazing in that dress. Recently I observed her eating an apple during lunchtime. Only fruits and milk suit her body well. She looks at me innocently. Today our Administrative Manager K V Rao told me about the availability of a single bed room portion in Hindi Nagar. He gave me a phone number and told me to contact him for knowing more details about it. Returned to our hostel by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman till 7:15. Had it alone by 7:45. Washed a pair of clothes by 8:40. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams presented by God.

10 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 5:00 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of Upma at Hotel Manikya Foods and reached our office by 7:30. Got it opened by 7:40 on behalf of our Administrative Associate Vijay Kumar. Took my seat by 7:45. There was an email from Kanya. I sent a long reply to her. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Banking Law. Had a plate of rice in Sai Ganapathi Hotel for 22 rupees by 1:30. This evening I asked our front desk executive if any postal mail came to our office staff today. She said that Swagata Gupta also got a letter today. That was the detail I wanted to know from her. I felt very happy knowing that she received my letter. May God bless her. This evening our administrative officer handed an envelope to me. It came from the HR section of ICFAI. They put me on three-year contract work. This contract period starts from 1 July, 2005. The total monthly emoluments amount to 9853 rupees. After the formal tax deductions, my take-home pay would be about 8000 rupees. I am happy with this hike in my salary. I felt happy reading the terms and conditions specified in the offer letter. Came back to our hostel by 6:30. Had my supper by 8:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

11 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 6:00 to 7:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had my breakfast and went to our office by 8:00. Today there was no email from Kanya. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Banking Law. Had my lunch in Sai Ganapathi Hotel by 1:30. This evening my colleague Vijay Krishna told me that Swagata Gupta informed to our Operations Manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa about my letter sent to her. He said that I should not have done so. He opined that one should not send a letter, discussing such important issue of life, to another one, when there is no much familiarity between the two. I told him that I would resign from my job. I wanted to know if she can find me as a suitable guy to marry. It is related to her personal life. By giving that letter to an authority in this firm, she made this issue an official and public one. Since I hurt her through my letter, I should leave this firm due to moral considerations. I understood that she is a little immature girl. I learnt a lesson from this that understanding human beings is very difficult. We must be able to love a person as she is. She is a good girl. I should not blame her for it. Had my supper by 9:00. It was cold outside. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

12 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went out and bought two dailies. I searched for suitable job vacancies for me in them. There was none. By 9:00 went to the bus stop near cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. Every bus going toward Mehdipatnam looked heavily packed. I clearly knew that I can’t travel hanging on footboard. So, took an ESI bound bus and reached the NIMS bus stop by 10:00. Thence walked toward Road No. 1 in Banjara Hills via Punjagutta Crossroads. Thence hired an auto rickshaw and reached Mehdipatnam by 10:30. Called up my colleague Raja Gopal. He said that he had already reached the venue of marriage. Took an auto rickshaw and reached Attapur by 10:40. The marriage of our Proofreader Manjula went on well in Golconda Function Hall. Considerable number of our office staff attended it. We had lunch by 11:45. Raja Gopal dropped me at Mehdipatnam in his car by 12:20. Took a bus and reached our hostel by 2:00. Rested on my mat for three hours. Went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 5:20 by bus. I told my cousin Kiran about my writing a letter to Swagata Gupta and her reaction. We watched the Telugu film “Bhageeradha” of Ravi Teja and Shreya in cinema Odeon at RTC Crossroads in the first show. Had my supper in Kiran’s hostel. We spent talking for half an hour. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams blessed by God.

13 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00 in the Room No. 12 of Manjeera Boys Hostel. Took leave of my cousin Kiran and stepped out by 6:15. Bought a copy of Eenadu and took a bus. Reached our hostel by 7:00. Had a head bath by 7:30. Read the newspaper for half an hour. Our hostel mate Murali came from Bangalore. Now he is searching for a software job staying over there. Spent talking with him for some time. By 10:00 left for cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet along with my hostel mate on his bike. On the way, I bought four custard apples for ten rupees. Both of us had them sitting at this cinema. I lent him 200 rupees observing his present financial state. We saw the Telugu film “Gajini” in the morning show. We returned to our hostel by 2:00. A friend of Murali dropped me at cinema Ganga in Dilsukh Nagar by 2:50 on his bike on his way back home. I saw the Telugu film “Premisthe” in the first show. It is based on a real love story which took place in Madurai. I was deeply touched to feel the reality of conservative Indian society. Every sensitive human being can enjoy watching it. Returned to our hostel by 6:45 by bus. Washed a pair of clothes by 8:00. Had my supper by 9:00. The winter is effective in the twin cities. I remained lovesick as usual. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

14 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Listened to Telugu film songs from 6:00 to 7:00. Took a bus by 7:30. Had a plate of puris for seven rupees at Hotel Banjara Durbar by 8:10. Entered our office by 8:21. Checked my email by 9:00. There was an email from Kanya. I sent a short reply to her. I asked her to email her photo. Checked the blogs posted by her on the blogging site managed by the Google. She uses colloquial and stylish English. I found one girl at least by now who can competently deal with me in correspondence. I posted a comment on her blog site. Today I was partially involved in the editing work. By 3:00 our Operations Manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa called me into his room. He showed me the letter and the photos I sent to Swagata Gupta. He talked with me for about one hour. He seriously rebuked me finding fault with me in this regard. He remarked that I am an abnormal fellow and that I should consult a psychiatrist. I was hurt hearing all those words from him. I regretted the innocence of Swagata Gupta. She did not know how to deal with that letter. She innocently looks at me whenever I come across her. I am trying to avoid looking at her. She is a temple of beauty. Returned to our hostel by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for some time. Had my supper by 8:15. Listened to Telugu cine songs for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

15 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened by 7:40 as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. Today I was partially involved in the work of two journals. This afternoon I got my passport size photo taken in Bali Photo Studio. After the plastic surgery on my nose, this is the first photo I am getting taken for me. They are charging 70 rupees for eight photos. After that, had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 13 rupees in Abhiruchi Hotel. My colleague Jerry Thomas rebuked me for having written a letter to Swagata Gupta. He commented that such incidents look abnormal in an office environment. I told him that I do not repeat such nonsensical things in the office. Reached Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 6:00 by bus. My cousin Kiran returned from his office by 6:30. Both of us came to the KSS Hostel on his bike by 7:30. He read out the letter I wrote to Swagata Gupta. Today I sent two emails (replies) to Kanya. I am very happy to read her emails and reply to her. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

16 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 5:30 to 7:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 8:10. Today there was no email from Kanya. I felt depressed. Her words delight me a lot. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Banking Law. Aparna Naidu is the research associate of this journal. She kept on laughing in my presence. I enjoyed her innocent smiles. She advised me to join the film industry. I liked her sweet words for me. I told her that I would prove as a writer very soon getting my works published. Afternoon had a plate of Vegetable Biryani in Abhiruchi Hotel for 13 rupees. Thereafter posted an envelope containing my CV for the position of Copy Editor with The Times of India in Hyderabad. Went to Plot No. 73 at Nagarjuna Hills by 5:15. The office of Digital Nirvana is housed in the second floor of SMR House. Did a written test for one hour. They want a language editor. After this test, they told me to listen to the speech of an American speaker from a laptop and edit the related text in one page. I told them that I am not at all comfortable with perfect American accent. When coming toward the bus stop, my friend Sriram met me. Washed a pair of clothes by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:15. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

17 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 7:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had a plate of puris at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 8:15. There was no email (reply) from Kanya. She must be busy with her project work. Today I was involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. Also carried out the Error Report work of Best Books magazine for some time. This morning our office boy John gave me my new ICFAI identity card. It is looking attractive with an elastic strip and my photo. We are supposed to wear it around our necks to show our distinct professional identity to others. Somehow I don’t like this practice. This afternoon I collected my passport size color photos from Bali Photo Studio. I noticed much difference in the shape of my nose after the plastic surgery compared to the past. There is still swelling on my nose. It may get a good look if it contracts. Came back to the hostel by 6:00. Did up buttons on my new shirt for half an hour. The appointed tailors involved in stitching ready-made clothes can’t/don’t spend much time on these things. Night ate much amount of mango jelly brought from my home, prepared by my mother. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

18 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of Onion Dosa for 11 rupees in Abhiruchi Hotel and moved to our office. This morning our administrative associate Vijay Kumar was supposed to open our office. He did not come in time. I got it opened by 8:10 on his behalf. Today I was involved in the Error Report work of Best Books magazine till the afternoon. There were many errors in it. I put only ten out of them on record. Afternoon had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 12 rupees in the small hotel beside the filling station. There were houseflies all around. I thought I am a common man. I did not find it problematic from this standpoint. This evening I released the material of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology to the printing press. Came to the bus stop by 5:15. My route buses looked thickly packed. Went to Mehdipatnam and thence took a bus to Shivam Road. Brought the parcel of supper from Sai Lakshmi Mess on my way back to our hostel. Had it along with my hostel mates by 8:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 9:00 to 10:00. There was no email from Kanya even today. I waited for it. This morning I posted my letter to Swagata Gupta on my blog site, adding a short note before it. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.

19 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 5:30 to 7:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 8:00. There was no email from Kanya. Today I was mostly involved in the Error Report work of Professional Banker magazine. By afternoon I got the pre-final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Banking Law ready. By 1:30 had a plate of Mixed Rice in Hotel Manikya Foods. There were four kinds of rice and nothing else. I clearly knew that it did not give me energy. By evening my face became weak. This evening I posted a blog titled “Tenses make me Tense” on my blog site of Google. Left the office by 5:20. Took two auto rickshaws and reached the abode of my friend Veeru at Jubilee Hills by 5:45. Spent talking with him for 45 minutes. He wants to take Internet connection soon. Took an auto rickshaw, two city buses and reached our hostel by 8:00. A cricket match is going on somewhere in the world. Some of our hostel mates stuck themselves to the television of our hostel supervisor on the terrace in his little abode. I felt disturbed visualizing the future of these guys. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

20 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Walked into the nearby Osmania University campus and took a bus for Kachiguda. Met my cousin Kiran in Manjeera Boys Hostel by 8:00. He said that he has to attend his audit work in a company’s office at Nagarjuna Hills. I went down and had a plate of puris for six rupees in a hotel. Bought a copy of Eenadu. Read it for one hour. Kiran and I started on his bike by 9:30 from his hostel. He dropped me at NIMS Hospital. Took a bus and reached Miyapur by 10:45. Walked a little along the Bollarum Road and took right turn. They call it Naren Gardens. It is a bit inside opposite Chaitanya Girls College. Today a garden party is being organized over there for the Kshatriyas of Andhra Pradesh. I reached this venue by 11:00. It is a formal get-together of our folks, held every year in Kaartheeka Maasam. About 5000 people attended this annual function. They conducted some cultural programs and contests. I did not participate in any one of them. Had my lunch by 1:00. I left this place by 4:00. I enjoyed this party a lot. Reached our hostel by 5:10. On the way, bought a dozen custard apples for 12 rupees from a poor seller with their bullock cart behind. Washed a pair of clothes by 7:00. Had a head bath by 7:15. The cold water is biting my skin. It may be enjoyable when I am beside my sweetheart. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

21 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:45 to 6:45. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had a plate of idlies at Hotel Banjara Durbar and entered our office by 8:10. Today I did not carry out even a little editing work. This morning I gave a letter to our Executive Editor Ch Rajeswar. I presented my views in it supporting one level editing of the content of research journals. He said that he would forward it to be reviewed by P K Ramappa, our operations manager. Had my lunch in Hotel Manikya Foods by 1:30. My allotted budget is 12 rupees for my lunch but a plate of rice in this hotel costs 18 rupees. Our operations manager called me into his room by 3:00. He said that two-level editing is being followed in the publishing houses in India. Jerry Thomas and Vijay Krishna, the team leaders of the magazine and journal sections, also supported his view. I told them that I would also follow it. Blind conformity to organizational norms is the order of the day. Returned to our hostel by 6:30. This evening I posted a blog titled “Perspective” on my blog site of Google. With this, the total number of blogs posted on this site by me amounted to eight. Had my supper by 8:00. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

22 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:00 to 6:00 on my Walkman. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of Onion Dosa at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s English dailies for 20 minutes. Got the office opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. There was no email from Kanya in the USA. Checked the visual beauty of various entities on Google for about 80 minutes. By 1:00, I could send the final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Banking Law to its consulting editor for his scrutiny and approval. Had a plate of rice for 12 rupees in the small hotel near our office building. This hotel is meant for poor fellows. I liked the quality and quantity of the food being provided here at that price. They are providing an egg also. I wondered at the noble service of this hotelier. This afternoon I received the worksheet of tax deduction for the financial year 2005-06 prepared by the HRD section of ICFAI. I consulted K V Rao, our administrative manager, to understand it. He advised me to acknowledge their email. I did it immediately. They won’t deduct tax from my salary hereafter as it had been earlier. Came back to our hostel by 6:00. This evening our hostel mate Murali left for Bangalore. My cousin Kiran came by 7:30 and spent talking with me for some time. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

23 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:00 to 6:00 on my Walkman. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:50. Had a plate of puris at Akson Cafeteria for seven rupees. Also bought two bananas for four rupees. Reached our office by 8:10. Today I did not find suitable job vacancies for me in the newspapers. There was no email from Kanya. This afternoon I posted a blog titled “I am a Sheep” on my blog site of Google. Had a plate of rice for 11 rupees in the small hotel near our office building. It is providing me with adequate energy. This afternoon I was involved in the editing of one article of The ICFAI Journal of Accounting Research. Came back to our hostel by 7:30 after having my supper for 20 rupees in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road. There I read Eenadu for 30 minutes. I knew that Lalu Prasad Yadav lost his power in the elections held recently in Bihar. I am very happy at this development. Every sensible and sensitive Indian must celebrate this great event. I appreciate the voters of Bihar for trying to change their destiny this way. The celebrations of the 80^th birthday of Satya Sai Baba are going on at Shivam Temple near our hostel. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

24 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 5:00 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. This morning I read an email sent by my friend Colin Leslie Kelman from Bangalore. Now he is working as an English teacher in an international school there. His wife Gudrun Seth is also working as an English teacher. It was about one year ago that he sent me an email. I felt very happy knowing about their well-being. There was no email from Kanya. This morning I edited one article of The ICFAI Journal of Accounting Research. This afternoon I posted a blog titled “How can I always be Happy!” on my blog site of Google. This afternoon I got a phone call from a marriage consultant in Kukatpally. He has a marriage bureau in Visakhapatnam. He deals with Kshatriya matches only. He collected some details from me. Took a bus and reached Mehdipatnam by 6:00. Thence took a bus and reached Six Number Road by 7:00. Reached our hostel by 7:30 on foot. On the way, bought half a kilo of curd for 13 rupees and three apples for 15 rupees for my supper. My cousin Kiran met me and took my HDFC ATM card for his use for a few days. We decided to move into a rented room in the first week of next month. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

25 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of Upma in Hotel Manikya Foods and went to the office of ICFAI University Press by 7:30. Had two bananas for seven rupees on the way. Our staff member supposed to open it this morning did not turn up till 8:00. I got it opened. This morning I found an email from the recruitment consultants Cybernet Software Solutions in Chennai. They are looking for a Copy Writer. They have to recruit one immediately. I sent them a detailed reply. I informed them that I won’t relocate to Chennai unless they pay me a monthly salary of 24000 rupees. Afternoon had a plate of Vegetable Biryani in the small hotel near our office building. Today I have very little work to do. An article of The ICFAI Journal of Accounting Research has many formulae and footnotes in it. The proofreader spent eight hours to finish it up. Today also there was no email from Kanya in the USA. She wrote that she returns to India in the first week of next month. Perhaps she must be very busy winding up her project assigned by her company in Hyderabad. Had my supper by 8:50. Spent talking with my hostel mates for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

26 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached the NIMS bus stop by 7:20. Bought two breads for seven rupees at a small hotel there and reached our office by 7:30. Our systems administrator was supposed to open our office today. He did not turn up in time. So, I got it opened by 8:00. This morning I compiled the emails sent to me by Kanyaka Parameswari and the emails I sent to her in an orderly manner. I enjoyed reading her emails. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of one article of The ICFAI Journal of Accounting Research. This afternoon I knew from our DTP operator Rama Rao that Swagata Gupta joined the present job soon after finishing her post-graduation in Kolkata. Her mother admitted her into a girls hostel here. I pitied her innocence after getting this information. Had she been a little mature in her outlook on the world, she would not have handed my letter to our operations manager. Returned to our hostel by 6:30. My cousin Kiran came by 7:00. Both of us had our supper in Hotel Shanti Deluxe by Shivam Road by 7:30. We reached cinema Usha Mayuri by 8:00 on his bike. We watched the Telugu film “Vennela” in the second show. It has very weak story. Yet I did not find it boring. I slept in the Room No. 12 of Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 12:00.

27 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took leave of my cousin Kiran and stepped out by 6:10. Bought a copy of Eenadu at a stall by main road. Took a bus and reached our hostel by 7:00. Freshened up myself and read the newspaper for some time. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:00. My cousin Kiran came to our hostel by 9:45. Both of us went to Vidya Nagar on his bike. He parked his bike in a place there. We started searching for rooms available to bachelors for rent. We could not find even one in New Nallakunta or Vidya Nagar. Then we moved to Nallakunta area. We could find a good portion by 11:30. The daughter of the owner of this house gave us the key of the room and allowed us to check it. The present tenant of this room vacates it in the first week of next month. There are a kitchen room and attached bathroom also. We found it suitable for us. She said that the monthly rent is 2000 rupees for it. We agreed for it. I paid 200 rupees to confirm our interest in this portion. She is a cute girl. We found her words affectionate. We liked her behavior toward us. Afternoon I saw the Telugu film “Majaa” in cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. By 6:30 we again went there and confirmed our interest in that room talking with that girl. My father talked with me over telephone by 7:30 from Adduroad. Went to sleep by 10:00.

28 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:50. Had my breakfast in Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:15. Scanned today’s dailies for 20 minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:10. There was no email from Kanyaka Parameswari. She must be getting ready to come to India from the United States of America. Today I spent most of my time editing the content of The ICFAI Journal of Accounting Research. Afternoon had a plate of Egg Fried Rice in the small hotel near our office building. This evening I released the material of The ICFAI Journal of Banking Law to the printing press. Even today my colleagues Vijay Krishna and Jerry Thomas touched the matter of the mistake of my writing letter to Swagata Gupta. I could understand how narrow they are in their outlook. They consider me as an abnormal fellow. Took a bus by 5:30. Entered Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 6:10. I spent there till 9:20. First I posted my blog titled “I and the other” on my blog site of Google. Thereafter I typed out another blog titled “The Aftermath”. The prior discusses my association with Kanya by email and the latter my situation in the aftermath of the disaster of my letter to Swagata Gupta. Had a plate of rice for 20 rupees in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess on my way back to the hostel. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

29 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris for seven rupees at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. This morning I typed out a letter to send to Kanyaka Parameswari by email. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Accounting Research. By 11:30, an executive of The Times of India called me up and informed me to attend a written test by 12:30 tomorrow afternoon in their office. Within a few minutes, the girl of the house at Nallakunta, into which we move soon, called me up. She allowed her mother to talk with me. She informed me to bring some money and pay as advance for that room. Afternoon had three samosas in the small hotel near our office building because there was no rice. This afternoon I applied for half-day leave tomorrow. Returned to our hostel by 5:40. Went to the nearby ATM Center of Andhra Bank and withdrew 1900 rupees. Hired an auto rickshaw and went to the house in Street No. 8 in Nallakunta. Paid 1800 rupees to the owner of that house. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 7:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00.

30 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 5:30 to 6:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of Set Dosa for 14 rupees in Abhiruchi Hotel and went to our office by 7:45. Scanned today’s English dailies for 20 minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:20. I was involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Accounting Research till 11:30. Read the latest news on rediff.com for one hour. This morning Swagata Gupta came one hour late to the office. I left our office by 1:00. Took an auto rickshaw and reached the office of The Times of India by Road No. 3 in Banjara Hills by 1:08. Their front desk executive sent me to Krishna Mohan in the HR section along with an office boy. He gave me a question paper and told me to answer it within one hour. He scribbled 1:05 on question paper as test starting time. I walked into a nearby room, on his advice. There were only five candidates. They asked me to write an account of 500 words on the recent event of the Tamil film actress Khushboo being legally tried in the aftermath of her public announcement on premarital sex. They also asked me to rewrite two erroneous news stories and correct five sentences. This test was tough. There was no enough time to do it peacefully. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

1 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:00 to 6:00 on my Walkman. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached the NIMS bus stop by 7:10. Withdrew 400 rupees from my savings bank account at the Andhra Bank ATM. Had my breakfast at a roadside pushcart and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened on behalf of Vijay Kumar, our administrative associate. Morning sent an email to Kanya. Perhaps she reads it after coming to India. I wish her happy return to India. Today I was partially involved in the pre-final check of The ICFAI Journal of Accounting Research. Returned to Shivam Road by 6:00. Called up the owner of the house at Nallakunta and enquired about the readiness of the portion for me and my cousin Kiran to move into it soon. She said that we can enter it on next Sunday. Spent in the Global View Internet café from 6:15 to 7:30. I sent a greeting in the form of a poem to Kanyaka Parameswari. It certainly impresses her. Had a plate of rice for 20 rupees in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess. Came back to our hostel by 8:00. Paid 100 rupees to our hostel supervisor toward the monthly rent for using my computer in this hostel. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00.

2 December (Friday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 5:00 to 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened by 7:40 on behalf of Vinod, our administrative associate. Morning I faced a little problem in entering my Yahoo Mail account. I was typing my exact password but the automated error statement was showing that it was not a valid one. I thought that perhaps Deepthi would have changed it. Today I was partially involved in the plagiarism check of three articles being edited by my colleague. It is not satisfactory work. Toward the evening, carried out the second level editing of an article being processed by my team member Sub Editor Satish Reddy. Today Swagata Gupta came across me twice. She maintains two hairstyles. Either she binds it with a rubber band or makes it bob. She looks very attractive in the bob style. She wore a solemn look on her face when passing by me. On the other hand, there was no email from Kanya. I found a notice in my Yahoo Mail which stated that the online greeting I scheduled to be dispatched to Kanya today was forwarded to her from 123 Greetings. Afternoon I knew that there was a problem with Yahoo Mail server. I pitied Deepthi, my little goddess. Had my supper by 9:30 along with my hostel mates. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

3 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:00 to 6:00 on my Walkman. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Risk & Insurance. Afternoon posted a blog titled “Trust Lost” on my blog site of Google. Afternoon somebody called me up from Begumpet and informed me to attend an interview. Left our office by 5:00. Waited for a light bus for about half an hour. I could not find even one bus with a little space to accommodate me. Hired an auto rickshaw and proceeded toward Shoppers’ Stop at Begumpet in Secunderabad. I stood by main road for about 20 minutes being unable to cross the road escaping from the heavy flow of traffic. Pedestrians are the worst victims in the twin cities. I pitied my position in this regard. Met an employee of S P Soft by 6:00. He enquired me about my abilities as a writer and my expected salary if I am posted as a content writer in their firm. I told him that I want 20000 rupees per month. I gave him the address of my blog site to allow him to understand my writing abilities a little. He said that they would get back to me soon. Went to sleep by 10:30.

4 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Packed all my belongings by 8:30 and kept them outside our hostel room. Went out to have my breakfast at the pushcart by the gate of Osmania University. Meanwhile my cousin Kiran came there on his bike. Both of us went to the house in Nallakunta and checked the readiness of the portion for us to move. It was getting whitewashed by workers. I paid 3600 rupees to the owner of the house toward advance payment (two-month rent). They told us that we may enter our portion by this evening. We went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda. We spent there for some time reading Eenadu. We reached cinema Shanti at Narayana Guda by 10:30. We saw the Telugu film “Mahaa Nandhi” in the matinee show. It is an interesting film. We enjoyed watching it a lot. The cleanliness and the beauty of this cinema are also appreciable. We had our lunch in a small hotel on our way back to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel. We hired an auto rickshaw and moved our luggage to our rented portion by 4:00. Our portion is in the second floor of House No. 2-1-516/C, owned by R Narender Reddy, in Street No. 8 of Nallakunta, near Amar Maternity Center. The owner of this house has a cute daughter. Her voice is sweet. She likes my cousin Kiran, a very handsome, cultured and sensitive boy. Evening Kiran also brought his luggage. Had my haircut in my favorite hair salon by 7:00. We had our supper in Shanti Deluxe Hotel by Shivam Road by 9:00.  Went to sleep by 10:30.

5 December (Monday)

Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs from 5:30 to 6:30 on my Walkman. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 8:10. Today I was nominally involved in the editing of a journal. Spent most of my time typing out a blog titled “Ordering Priorities” and posted it on my blog site of Google by 3:20. Came back to our rented portion by 7:00. I moved into this abode for the sake of privacy and silence to attend the editing work of my writings to be published. Kiran and I are very happy with the space and neatness of the portion we found. We get municipal drinking water once for two days. Evening I fixed the items of my computer system into the electrical board. Read out the emails sent to me by Kanyaka Parameswari. Kiran found them interesting. By 8:30 both of us went to Shivam Road on his bike. He bought a steel plate. I bought four bath soaps and one detergent cake. Thence we moved to a nearby outlet and bought a mattress and a pillow for 300 rupees. I sat at the back of his bike holding these items. A boy from the nearby ladies hostel brought supper for us in a steel carrier. We found the rice more than necessary for us. Now there is no ceiling fan in our room. It is cool. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

6 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:50. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Today I was thoroughly involved in the Error Report work of Portfolio Organizer magazine. I took only five hours to finish it up. I think I am a fast reader. Afternoon had a plate of Vegetable Biryani in Anu’s Hotel. Afternoon our team of sub editors presented a gift to our proofreader Manjula on the occasion of her recently held marriage. I too contributed 100 rupees towards it. She is an admirable woman as a person and professional. She deserves a little gift from us. I felt happy because we could do it. Returned to my rented abode by 6:30. Kiran and I went to Shivam Road on his bike and did a little shopping there. I bought a mouse pad for 30 rupees. Then we moved down the road. I bought a pair of BATA flip-flops for me for 60 rupees. Thereafter we bought a locally made ceiling fan for 450 rupees, a water storage plastic tin for 45 rupees, dustbin for 30 rupees and a tube light for 107 rupees. We brought an electrician to fix the fan and tube light. He took 50 rupees as service charge. Morning cold caught me because snow entered our room last night. Went to sleep by 10:40 for my dreams.

7 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and entered our office by 8:10. Abhimanyu Acharya, a writer and editor associated with The Hindu, wrote a good article on how to communicate with an employer by email when searching for a job. He discussed interesting points regarding the writing styles of the present guys and girls due to the impact of American English. Took my seat of work by 9:00. Today Swagata Gupta wore a pink Punjabi dress. She looked attractive in it. Morning I was involved in the editing of an article of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Afternoon had a plate of chapati in Anu’s Hotel. Afternoon got an email from the folks of a software company in Hyderabad. They are looking for a content writer. I informed them that I would join them if they can pay me 20000 rupees a month. Afternoon I detected plagiarism in the article I edited this morning. An academic writer from Nigeria copied verbatim from the online works of great writers. Stayed back in the office till 5:30 to finish up this report on plagiarism. Met my friend Veeranjaneyulu in Journalist Colony ‘A’ by 6:30. He repaid me 500 rupees. Returned to my abode by 9:15. Had my supper by 9:45. Went to sleep by 10:30.

8 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and entered our office by 7:30. Morning I was thoroughly involved in the provision of proofs of copying by a Nigeria-based lecturer in banking and finance. I took the printouts of original sources on websites from which he copied content verbatim. This work consumed about eight hours’ time. It shows that one has to spend a lot of time to track a wrongdoer and then to collect evidences to prove his or her crime than to appreciate good ones. Afternoon had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 14 rupees in Anu’s Hotel. Afternoon I knew that our Executive Editor Ch Rajeswar leaves this press soon because he got a well-paid job with some other publishing firm. He has been associated with ICFAI University Press for about six years now. He is a competent professional. He commendably managed this press so far. This press loses his valuable guidance hereafter. Afternoon edited an article of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Carried out the second level editing of my diary of 1995 for about 90 minutes on my computer. My eyes got affected. So, I could not extend that work. Had my supper by 9:30. Morning my cousin Kiran went to Nalgonda district to attend his audit work in a company there. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:50. Took a bus by 8:10 and reached the NIMS bus stop by 8:30. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and entered our office by 8:45. Called up my brother Srinivas from a nearby telephone booth by 9:00. My nephew Sujan is specially being trained by teachers to take the entrance test of Navodaya Vidyalaya. Our operations manager called me into his room by 9:15 and severely rebuked me for my mistake. I did not present him a copyright violation report in the given format. After a little discussion with his counterpart Sutapa Patnaik, my team leader Vijay Krishna told me to push ahead the article in which 20% of plagiarized content was found. He cut and pasted paragraphs from the articles of famous writers. It was done under the title of Literature Review. I accepted this article though I did not like their opinion in this regard. One should not present the opinions of others as they are unless they are formulae, judgments or codes of law, which cannot or should not be rewritten by others. Returned to my abode by 6:00. Morning I gave the key of our room to the owner (woman) of the house to allow her to fill water for us in our absence. She neatly arranged our belongings in shelves keeping old newspapers under them. Carried out second level editing of my diary of 1995 for two hours. Went to sleep by 10:30.

10 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:45. Washed a few clothes from 8:30 to 9:00. Had my breakfast of four puris brought by a boy from the nearby ladies hostel. Carried out second level editing of my diary of 1995 for four hours. Had my supplied lunch by 12:30. My cousin Kiran returned from Nalgonda district, finishing his scheduled audit work there, by 1:00. Both of us went to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 1:30 on his bike. We saw the Telugu film “Aaru” of Surya and Trisha from 2:00 to 5:00. It is an interesting film. We enjoyed watching it. On the way back to our abode, I bought the sixth edition of Oxford Advanced Learner’s English Dictionary in a bookstore for 310 rupees, at a discount of 10%. It has 1540 pages and undoubtedly a great resource for me to improve my skills in English. Now I am engaged in the pursuit of editing my personal diaries. It helps me a lot in this respect. Went through it from 7:00 to 9:00 out of love for English language. Kiran and I had our supper by 9:30. It was exactly on this date that I joined ICFAI University Press, two years ago, as a Sub Editor. I got professional identity through this and I introduced many appreciable changes into my personal life as well. Recollecting that I have worked for two years with a firm delights me a lot. I owe to my Lord Krishna for making my life happy in these two years. May He guide me toward further milestones of achievements. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had my breakfast of Upma, brought from the nearby ladies hostel, along with Kiran, by 9:00. Today I remained within my abode all the day but carried out the second level editing of my diary of 1995 for about two hours only. I wanted to utilize the maximum of available time for this task but failed. When I look up in the English dictionary for the meaning of a difficult or confusing word, extensive information related to that particular word would be provided there. When we find the standard usage of some words in a dictionary, we tend to doubt the accuracy of the usage of many other words also in our piece of writing. When we desire to attract the eyes of erudite readers, we must be very careful and choosy on our part in using different words and phrases accurately. The more one familiarizes oneself with the established and evolutionary aspects of a language, the less one can be liberal and brave in using a language. The differences between American English and British English make the job of an ordinary writer more tense and complicated. The young guys and girls of modern times prefer easiness, fashion and novelty to difficulty, sophistication and standards in terms of usage of English in their spoken and written processes of communication. The learned like British manners and English. Satisfying both is a herculean task for a young writer. Today I spent much time with the English dictionary scanning resources of language in it. Went to sleep by 10:45.

12 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:55. Before that, bought 10 Alpenliebe chocolates for five rupees in a medical store. I was pressing them in my mouth waiting for my bus. I helplessly took a heavily packed bus by 8:30 minding my office time. Got off it at the NIMS bus stop by 9:00. Had a plate of puris hurriedly at Hotel Banjara Durbar and rushed to our office by 9:10. Today I was partially involved in the editing of an article. Morning the executive of a company called me up from Banjara Hills and informed me to come to their office to attend an interview for the position of Content Writer. Today Swagata Gupta wore a new Punjabi dress and looked fascinating in it. Afternoon I ended up with three samosas for lack of time. By 5:00 hired an auto rickshaw and moved toward Road No. 14 in Banjara Hills. The name of the company is Relevante Consulting (India) Private Limited, situated at 8-2-316/A/6, by Road No. 14. Kiran Zachariah, the India head of this subsidiary, interacted with me for a few minutes. I told him that I want a monthly salary of 24,000 rupees. I typed out a little on a computer there for one hour to allow him to understand how I write. Came back to the Himalaya Book World at Punjagutta in an auto rickshaw and bought a Lifco English-Telugu dictionary for 90 rupees. Returned to my abode by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:15. Went to sleep by 10:30.

13 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 7:25. Got it opened as an authorized signatory by 7:30. Today I did not edit text of any journal. Morning, Aparna Naidu, one of the research associates of our law journals, formally told me that she is leaving for another job. I wished her all the best. Today I typed out and posted a blog titled “Crossing the Road” on my blog site of Google. Today I tried twice to talk with my brother Sambha through the telephone of our familiar one in Adduroad. He was not available. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Carried out the second level editing of my diary of 1995 for two hours. Had my supper along with Kiran by 9:00. He explained me how and why the people of income tax raid the houses and offices of rich folks when they suspect that there is something wrong with the tax paying pattern of those individuals concerned. He also briefed me on excise taxes in India. Our informal discussion showed that the government approaches the affluent to collect income tax but it remains silent and paralyzed when many suffer and die on streets due to penury and helplessness. Public money is not being spent judiciously and righteously by governments in India now. The honest and ideal ones are the victims of such tax system. Night it turned cold. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

14 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:30. Today I was partially involved in the editing of an article assigned by my team leader Vijay Krishna. Today I contacted an America based online firm dealing with content writing. They offer attractive fees for freelance writing based on the number of pages, quality of work generated and the conformity to their proposed rules and regulations. I filled in the given online form, attached my curriculum vitae and three sample writings. Afternoon I received an email from Kanya. She took two weeks off from her mobile and email communication after returning from the USA. I replied her promptly expressing my happiness at her presence in Hyderabad. From yesterday, we started using plastic swipe cards in our office to record the timings of our arrivals and departures to and from our office. Today I did not find suitable job vacancies for me in The Hindu or The Times of India. Returned to Nallakunta by 6:00. Called up my brother Sambha in Adduroad from a telephone booth. We exchanged casual news of folks on both sides being well. Edited my diary of 1995 for two hours. Had my supper by 9:30. Spent talking with my cousin Kiran for some time. Washed a pair of clothes by 10:20. Went to sleep by 10:40 for my divine dreams.

15 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:45 finishing six-hour-long sleep. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Before that, had two bananas also for four rupees. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of an article of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Stayed back till 6:00 in the office to finish up this article. Came to the bus stop and started waiting for a bus. I could not find even one of my route buses a little free till 7:30. My fellow passengers were somehow pushing themselves forward into the bus. The swelling that developed on my nose after the plastic surgery did not contract itself completely till now. I cannot imagine somebody hitting it in the thick crowd of a bus. Came back to my abode by 8:15. Morning received an email (reply) from Krishna Reddy, one of the students of A P R School at Bhoopathipalem. He is in Israel now as part of his business trip. Evening I filled in the ICFAI Group Mediclaim Form for the option of floater sum of one lakh rupees. They made it compulsory. I could not escape from it. I want to receive my complete monthly salary without any deductions but it is a dream only in the present times. Today my eyes turned red due to continuous contact with computer screen. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

16 December (Friday)

Woke up by 4:45. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:20. Scanned today’s English dailies for 20 minutes. Morning I found an email (reply) from the folks of www.academia-research.com. They deal with academic writing, acting as coordinators between freelance writers and their clients looking for different kinds of content. The name of the human resources manager that sent me this email is Victoria. She sent me an application form to be filled in and a topic to write on as part of the test. Today I spent much of my time filling in this form. The questions in this form elicit the level of language efficiency and self-confidence as a creative writer from an applicant. I filled in it with an authoritative and challenging spirit. Today I attended the pre-final check of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Afternoon I knew that my team leader Vijay Krishna leaves this press soon to join a job with the Corporation Bank in Mangalore. It will be a great loss to this press. He has been an experienced sub editor in dealing with copyright details and the overall supervision and guidance of his journal team members. However, he has not yet got a job offer letter from that employer. Came back to my abode by 6:00. My eyes already turned red. I could not edit my diary due to it. Had my supper by 8:30. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

17 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:45. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Bought two buns at a small hotel near NIMS bus stop and went to our office by 7:20. Got it opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. Today I was thoroughly involved in reading content related to the important factors of history which partly contributed to the phenomenon of globalization. The folks of www.academia-research.com suggested me that I should base the development of my essay on the word files of information they recommended. I spent about five hours reading that material and 30 minutes writing a two-page essay on globalization. I could not include even one example or quote in that text from any sources they provided. I don’t like to quote the ideas of others in my writings but academic writing requires one to thoroughly research and sufficiently cite the works and words of others. From 4:30 to 5:15 spent giving final touches to the filled in application form and the essay. Emailed those two attachments to the folks of www.academia-research.com by 5:30. From 2:30 to 4:30 a meeting of sub editors of the journals section took place in the conference room to discuss editorial issues. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Kiran and I saw the Telugu film “Sree” in cinema Rajadhani Deluxe in the second show at Dilsukh Nagar. Went to sleep by 1:30.

18 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:30. Spent all the day within my abode. Had my breakfast by 9:00 along with Kiran, brought from the nearby ladies hostel. Today I edited my diary of 1995 for about four hours. Had my lunch and supper in time along with Kiran, brought from the nearby ladies hostel. Lack of time to edit my diaries became a problem for me now. I should attend my job daily to earn money and live on my own. Nobody in this world gives me some two lakh rupees and allows me to peacefully and comfortably sit and edit my writings on my computer. One needs encouraging environment to produce great works. My parents and brothers don’t understand and help me grow up as a writer. On the other hand, my age is marching ahead making me older. The only plus point is that I don’t look as older as my real age sounds. I want to eat many eatables and see beautiful places within my reach. I can’t achieve them with my present financial condition. Beautiful girls don’t like ordinary blokes like me. They expect a cellular phone, a fashionable bike and some other masculine qualities from guys to consider them a little. Much of my time is getting wasted in waiting for and travelling by buses. I am not happy with the present conditions around me nor can I change them. Only time can resolve these issues. Night washed two pairs of clothes and took a head bath. Read Eenadu for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.

19 December (Monday)

Woke up by 4:45. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:30. Scanned the latest English weeklies for one hour. Took my seat of work by 8:30. There was an email from Victoria of academic-research.com in the USA. She wrote that my test paper on globalization is quite good. She added that there are no in-text citations in my essay. She informed me to revise my test paper and send it back. Today I did not carry out even a little editing work. Spent all the day writing a blog titled “Academic Writing” and posted it on my blog site of Google by the evening. Before leaving the office, sent an email to Victoria. I informed her that I am busy now attending the editing of my personal diaries. I also wrote her to email her photos to me for checking her beauty because she has the name of a Queen of the UK. Came back to my abode by 6:00. I did not feel like editing my diary of 1995 though there was two hours’ time at my disposal. I am disturbed by the circumstances around me. I have many things to do but a little time to attend them. I am helplessly passing my time. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Talked with my cousin Kiran about cement companies for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

20 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Did not get time to have my breakfast and so bought a pack of biscuits for 12 rupees. Got our office opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies for 20 minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:10. Scanned some images on Google for 15 minutes. Today I spent most of my office time dealing with The ICFAI Journal of Marketing Management. The content of this journal would be sent from Bangalore and so frequently updating them on the progress of this journal is important. Evening casually visited some websites. I am a member on americansingles.com. I found a girl from Delhi beautiful. I wanted to contact her by email. This website did not allow me to do it because I am not a paid member on it. When I was checking my Rediff Mail, I found the email id of a girl. She works with Hungama TV. She acts in fun-centered programs. I sent an email to her. I filled in a contest form of Reader’s Digest magazine. I typed out a slogan and participated in a contest being conducted by Asian Paints. I participated in another contest being conducted by Ranbaxy. Also sent an email to Kanya questioning her why she did not email me for long. Came back to my abode by 6:10. Edited my diary of 1995 for two hours. Had my supper by 9:15. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

21 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. The bus I took was suffering from a mechanical disorder and so that driver was unable to drive it fast. One of the passengers was sharing angry words with that driver, criticizing the slowness of the vehicle. Had a plate of idlies and reached our office by 8:10. Scanned today’s dailies for 10 minutes. There was not even a single suitable job for me. Morning I created my profile on Perfect Match website of the USA. It is one of the best marriage websites I came across. They gave many forms to be filled in and submitted to become a member on it. I took about one hour to complete this work. Afternoon they sent me an email informing me that I suit the characteristics of a girl from Mumbai. I searched for that profile and found her details. Her photo was not there. I sent an email to her asking her to send her photo to me. Her name is Sweta. She is 23. I emailed my photo to her. Today I edited two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Marketing Management. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Edited my diary of 1995 for two hours. Had my supper by 8:30. Kiran went to Prasads Multiplex to see the Telugu film “Jai Chiranjeeva” which was released to cinemas today. Washed a pair of clothes. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

22 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:00. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 8:00. Scanned today’s dailies for 20 minutes. Today there were hardly any emails for me. Today I edited three articles of The ICFAI Journal of Marketing Management. Today my friend Dantuluri Shiva Varma called me up from Darlapudi. He is in love with a Kshatriya girl. She is working with Maa television channel as an anchor now. He asked me to collect her residential address. He said that he wants to meet her soon. I wondered at his innocence and the psychic attachment he developed with this girl. An anchor, presently working with a television channel, became his centre of attraction. He wants me to help him in this regard. I assured him that I would do my best. I did not like to disappoint him explaining him the bitter realities of the present society. Returned to my abode by 6:00. I took my washed clothes to a nearby washerwoman. She was not there. I waited for her for ten minutes. I did not like wasting my time like this. So, my mood failed. I did not like to edit my diary of 1995. Instead I started typing out a blog titled “Exceptional Female Beauty” to post on my blog site soon. Kiran and I spent talking for about 90 minutes. He highlighted some facts to show that all beautiful girls are admirable ones. I told him that I admire even a beautiful prostitute. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

23 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road. Also had two bananas for three rupees. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of three articles of The ICFAI Journal of Marketing Management. Evening an executive of ICICI Bank called me up. She informed me that I can get many benefits if I take a credit card from their bank. She said that I need not pay annual fees to them for it. I wondered knowing that I would have an insurance coverage also for a big sum of money. They are delighted to issue me this credit card considering me as a valuable employee of ICFAI University Press. I told her to send their representatives to our office tomorrow evening. Returned to my abode by 6:00. Kiran returned from his tuition class by 8:40. We had our supper together by 9:00. Thereafter he explained me how bank cheques get processed before being paid. He told me about the tax system of Indian government. If one has excessive money, income tax people raid one and grab all that money from one. If one dies due to hunger or pain in a city, municipality staff burns his useless dead body somewhere. I hate tax systems of present cruel governments. Cold winds are entering our abode through windows. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

24 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and left for the bus stop by 6:30. Bought two breads for eight rupees at a small hotel by NIMS bus stop and proceeded to our office. The security guard went away without opening the locked gate of the building. I waited outside until somebody brought those keys and opened it. Got our office opened by 8:30 as the authorized signatory of the day. Took my seat of work by 8:40. Completed editing an article of The ICFAI Journal of Management Research by 9:30. Morning, Rama Lakshmi, the DTP operator of our team, brought eight pieces of homemade sweets for me. I recently asked her if she can prepare some kind of sweets for us taking money for it. She remembered it and prepared these sweets for us. They are very tasty and so kept four to take to my abode. Today I spent rest of my office time concluding and editing my blog titled “Exceptional Female Beauty”. I posted it on my blog site of Google. Afternoon went into Himalaya Book World to buy a 2006 diary of Eagle Company. They did not stock it. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Rested for two hours. Had my supper by 8:30. Afternoon my father called me up from Adduroad. He said that he bought 576 square yards of land opposite our house for 3, 60,000 rupees. Spent talking with Kiran for two hours. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

25 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Washed my clothes and had a head bath by 8:30. Meanwhile a boy from the nearby ladies hostel brought us breakfast of Upma in a tiffin box. Kiran and I had it by 9:00. Then we started reading the Telugu daily Eenadu. I was firmly scheduled to edit my diary of 1995 but my mood did not allow me to do it. I wanted to spend this day without doing any tough work. I rested for some time. The boy from the ladies hostel brought lunch for us by 1:30. Kiran and I had it by 2:00. I somehow compelled myself and sat before my computer to edit my diary of 1995. I could edit it only for ten minutes. Kiran started talking with me. Shut down my computer and joined that talk. Read Eenadu for two hours. Then took my washed clothes to the nearby washerwoman for getting them ironed. When I was there, the daughter of the owner of our rented abode brought an item there for ironing. I sat calmly when she was near me. I observed her face when she was going back. She painted a smile on her face. I regretted not even looking at her face. I thought she feels shy. She is a cute girl. Boys enjoy her pleasant presence. Today Rainbow FM Radio Channel was inaugurated in Hyderabad. I listened to their live broadcast of this event on my Walkman for two hours. Had my supper by 8:30. Listened to cine songs. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and entered our office by 7:30. Morning got four of my photos scanned with the help of our systems administrator and uploaded them into my Blogger profile of Google. My blogs turned beautiful after adding these photos. Today I spent most of my time attending the pre-final check of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Today I contributed 50 rupees to buy a common gift to present in the farewell party to our outgoing Executive Editor Ch Rajeswar. Evening Rama Krishnam Raju came to meet me in our office. He came there on behalf of his brother-in-law. He asked me some details to check the suitability of my candidature as a bridegroom. This girl belongs to village Giduthuru in Visakhapatnam district. She is pursuing her third year B.Sc. in a college at Narsipatnam now. She is 19. I am 29. I cautioned him to be aware of the age difference between us. I also told him that I am expecting exceptional beauty and challenging intelligence on part of a girl to marry. Both of us came to Shivam Road by 8:00 by bus. There I saw him off for Uppal at a bus stop. Bought curd and some sweets at a shop and came to my abode by 8:15. Had my supper by 8:40. Meanwhile Kiran came and initiated my desired casual talk for relief. It went on for two hours. We clearly knew that we were wasting our time. Went to sleep by 11:15 for my dreams.

27 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 4:45. I was feeling giddy. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Reached the NIMS bus stop by 7:15. Went into this hospital and asked a pharmacist at the medical store for any tablets to avoid phlegm in my body. He said that medicines won’t be given without prescription by doctor. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and also two bananas for three rupees. Entered our office by 7:30 and got it opened as an authorized signatory. Morning added the photos of Meera Jasmin and some others to my blogs on my blog site. They added beauty to it. I was involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management till afternoon. Afternoon the representatives of ICICI Bank came to our office and got some forms filled in by me for issuing a credit card to me soon. After my lunch, typed out a two-page letter addressing our present Executive Editor Ch Rajeswar to give him soon on the occasion of his departure from our office. I got much involved in the preparation of this letter. Returned to my abode by 6:30. When coming back, bought a pack of tablets for energizing my body. Had my supper by 9:00. Spent talking with Kiran for two hours. Evening also I felt dizzy. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

28 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:45. Cold winds are somehow entering our room of sleep through closed windows and door. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by road and entered our office by 7:30. Today I knew that my team leader Vijay Krishna got a confirmation letter from the folks of Corporation Bank in Mangalore informing him to join them as a Publicity Officer within one month’s time. He formally leaves this firm in 20 days. Today I was partially involved in the editing work of a journal. Today Swagata Gupta came across me five or six times in our office. I enjoyed these accidental occurrences. She looked innocent and lovely. I pray my Lord Krishna to look after her carefully. Returned to my abode by 6:00. Amitesh Kumar Das, the Nepalese friend of my cousin Kiran, and I took the bike of latter and started out to buy a diary for me. I wanted to buy a tourist guide diary of Eagle Company. Not a single bloke stocked it in the bookstores at Kothi. We moved through these places for about half an hour. Somebody advised us to go to Abids. We, at last, got it in the showroom of Deccan Pen Stores at Abids. I felt very happy. I already bought one kilo of sweet grapes for 20 rupees at Kothi. We returned to my abode by 8:10. I offered some grapes to Amitesh. Kiran and I had our supper by 8:40. I felt exhausted. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

29 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:30. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 8:10. Morning I found an email sent by the folks of Margadarshini Marriage Bureau in Bangalore. They sent me the photo of a Kshatriya girl and asked me to respond if I am interested to marry her. I found her below my expectations of beauty and so replied them that I am not interested in her. From 12:30 to 2:15, a meeting of us sub editors took place with the outgoing Executive Editor Ch Rajeswar and the incoming Executive Editor G R K Murthy. Evening I released the material of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management to the printing press. Stayed back till 6:45 in our office to finish up typing out and posting a blog titled “Young Admirers Association” on my blog site of Google. Came to the bus stop by 7:00. Waited for a light bus till 8:30. Then helplessly hired an auto rickshaw and reached Nallakunta by 8:50 paying him 57 rupees. Today Swagata Gupta took half day leave and came to the office by 12:40. She put on a blue top on jeans today. She looked gorgeous in that dress. Had my supper by 9:30 along with Kiran. Cold winds are torturing us in this room. I regret that I could not edit my diary of 1995 for some days. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

30 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Washed a pair of clothes and took a bath by 7:00. Went to the bus stop by 7:15. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by NIMS bus stop and reached our office by 8:15. There were no considerable emails in my Yahoo Mail box. Today Swagata Gupta came in the afternoon wearing a very beautiful dress. I went to Lakdi Ka Pool and got my formal farewell letter printed in color on special paper to give to Ch Rajeswar. Our DTP operator Aravind helped me in this regard using his bike. The farewell meeting was started by 3:15 and went on till 5:00. About 80 staff members of our press attended it. About 15 members spoke on this occasion addressing the event. I too delivered my speech for 10 minutes reading out the paper I prepared this morning for this purpose. Sub Editor Swagata Gupta silently sat in her chair at the back until the end of this program. I handed my two-page farewell letter to Ch Rajeswar after this meeting. Today I was involved completely in the emotional atmosphere surrounding the farewell to Rajeswar. I could not concentrate on anything else. When coming back in a bus after the office hours, I got off it by Shivam Road, instead of Vidya Nagar. I bought a copy of Eenadu on the way to read it in my abode and pull myself out from the pain of farewell meeting observations and emotions. Had my supper by 8:30. Last night Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream for the first time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

31 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office. Got it opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. Today I partially carried out editing work in the office. By 1:40 I could post my blog titled “He is innocent” on my blog site of Google. It is the 20^th and last blog I posted in the year 2005. Evening some of my office staff sent me New Year greetings through popup messenger. I casually wished them all happiness. Returned to my abode by 6:15. Just then Kiran and Amitesh were going out to celebrate this event. Went back and bought a copy of today’s Eenadu. Read it till 8:00. Had my supper by 8:30. Then walked up to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet and saw the Telugu film “Gautham S.S.C.” in the second show. It is a good film but the presence of audience was very low. I regretted it. Hired an auto rickshaw and returned to my abode by 11:45. This year laid foundation for me as a writer. Falling in love deeply with Deepthi and finishing 60% of editing of my 12 books, to be published soon, are my two notable achievements in this year. I am grateful to my Lord Krishna for making this year very memorable in my life. I sadly left this year behind, going to sleep by 12:30 for my dreams.

© 2011 Datla Chiranjeevi Raju