MY PERSONAL DIARY OF 2013

                                                                                                 1 January (Tuesday)

By 12:10 Surya Kumari cut and distributed pieces of cake to Srijana and me welcoming the New Year. Her two sons Abhinav and Bhargav and my son Anand also welcomed it this way. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy got up by 1:10 and started to Thaandava Cooperative Sugar Factory to attend his duty there by 2:00. Slept by 1:30 and got up by 6:30. By 8:00 typed up and edited the content of 31 December from my diary of 2012 on my computer. Tried to post it on my blog site dcraju.blogspot.in but I could not do it before 9:00 due to some problem with my broadband connection or the Blogger of Google. There was power cut from 9:00 to 12:00. Posted the edited version of my personal diary of 2012 on my blog site by 12:25. I wanted to post it on the first day of 2013. I typed it up and edited it with this spirit in 2012. I achieved it. I am very happy about it. There are about 89,000 words in it. I took about 108 hours’ time to type and edit it on different days. By 3:30 went to the ATM Centre at the Axis Bank by P Lakshmi Puram and withdrew 5,000 rupees from the SBI account of Srijana. Paid 3,500 rupees to Surya Kumari by 4:00 towards rent for our two-bedroomed portion in the ground floor of their house. Paid 520 rupees to our milk seller Raju by 4:20 for the 13 litres of buffalo milk we bought from him last month. I like to clear my dues of this kind on the first day of every month. Spent my time at the Kirana shop of Dora from 4:30 to 5:30. By 7:30 my in-laws came to our abode from D Yerra Varam on a bike. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

2 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father-in-law left for D Yerra Varam by 4:30. His master D S N Raju provided him with a bike to use while working in his farmland as a supervisor. Today Srijana and her mother dusted parts of our rented abode with short and long brooms. There is dust everywhere. Spiders are forming webs frequently. Our abode is very close to National Highway 16. Smoke and dust reach our abode easily through air. Srijana changed the positions of many items to give our abode a beautiful look. Her mother assisted her throughout. By 10:30 wrote 10 short lines in Telugu to use in the birthday memento for Srijana. My friend Sri Rama Raju came to our abode by 1:00 from his house in Vaibhav Township at Naama Varam. We spent talking for one hour. We went to a photo studio in Tuni by 2:30 on his bike. He asked for 550 rupees for preparing a framed memento with my letters and photos. I understood that he is a professional cheat. We spent at two building constructions from 3:00 to 4:45. Sri Rama Raju is the planning consultant for the owners of these two constructions. By 5:00 my mother-in-law and I started to village Penugollu Dharma Varam by NH-16. We took a bus at Y Junction and got off it at Adduroad Junction by 5:50. Thence we took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Dharma Varam by 6:30. We walked to the house of Satyavathi, the second paternal aunt of Srijana. Venkata Ramana Raju is staying here now. He is sick and weak. My mother-in-law came here to nurse him along with Satyavathi. Had my supper here by 7:25. Returned home by 8:10. Slept by 9:30.

3 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to Tuni railway station by 11:50 on my scooty to receive my father. Visakhapatnam-Vijayawada passenger train arrived by 12:00. My father took it at Marripalem Halt. Brought him home by 12:15. His throat infection got intensified. He came here to consult our familiar doctor. He gave 1,000 rupees to me on the occasion of Sankranti to come soon. He asked us to buy something with this money for this festival. He gave 1,000 rupees to each of my two brothers also on this occasion. He had lunch by 1:00 and rested on a cot till 3:30. Took him to the plot of Sambha in Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar by 4:00 on foot. Meanwhile my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came here from Tetagunta. We three walked back to my abode by 4:15. We discussed the issue of Vimala and her two sons. They are wife and children of this uncle. They are thinking and behaving like enemies towards him every day. He decided to leave this abode soon. Thereafter his wife and children have to live on their own. Then only they can understand their status in society beyond the presence of him with them. We should morally weaken our enemies to resolve our problems with them in cases of this order. Now they are depending on him for food and shelter. They are worthless idiots on their own. He is building a thatched hut in his mango farm at Tetagunta for him and his old, frail, dependent and helpless parents. He left for Tetagunta by 6:30. Doctor Rama Krishnam Raju checked the throat of my father with an endoscope by 7:00 in his clinic. He prescribed tablets and tonic for him. Slept by 10:00.

4 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. It is the birthday of my mother-in-law and Padma today. Padma is wife of my cousin Hari of Durgada. I did not wish them over phone because I am not in regular communication process with them. I felt happy knowing about their birthdays. I enjoyed this feeling. By 2:00, Jagadish, Bhargav and I reached cinema Sai Mahal in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. We bought three tickets for 75 rupees. Jagadish is a tuition student of Srijana. Bhargav is the younger son of Surya Kumari, my house owner. We saw the Telugu film “Mithunam” in it from 2:30 to 4:40. Thanikella Bharani directed this feature film. S P Bala Subrahmanyam and Lakshmi acted in this film. There are no other characters. It is the love story of an old married couple, leading sad and forsaken lives, away from their five children, who are working in the USA. This film portrays the pitiable and vulnerable lives of old parents in India in the context of globalization. Many children are going to distant places within and beyond India in search of jobs and business opportunities. The old and helpless parents are the victims of this modern Indian culture. Bharani’s classic dialogues and direction are a tribute to the essential Indian culture, believed and practiced by many conservative Indians now. Enjoyed watching it throughout. It is a good feature film. From 6:00 to 7:30 got my 10 Telugu lines and related photos typed, aligned and designed in an Internet café near government high school in Payakaraopeta. Gave him 100 rupees for it. Meanwhile my MA English classmate Shiva Kumar (formerly called Narsaiah) joined me. We two went to Sai Surya Digital Lab in Tuni to get this memento copy printed out on photo paper. They charged 50 rupees for it. Slept by 9:30.

5 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Morning spent casually at my abode. By 2:30 my friend Kolukuluri Venkatapathi Raju (K V P Raju of village Gurrajupeta) and I went to Madhura Milk cash collection work in Tuni and Payakaraopeta on his bike. I gave the 12x10 memento copy to a frame maker at Feeder Road in Tuni by 3:15. I selected a frame for it. Today K V P Raju collected money from six points. I often go along with him to check society and enjoy my time this way. Mangamma is one of the bulk Madhura milk pack buyers. She is a thin woman. She is living in an ordinary house near a temple in Tuni along with her sisters and cousins. She may be 50 now. She belongs to Vysya community. She is earning money every day selling milk packs, coconuts and such other items to her familiar folks in her native place. Her relatives do some work every day in their home to earn money. I found Mangamma as one of the brave and admirable women of India. She is earning money morally and legally. She is living honestly and peacefully. I saw many employees living like helpless rogues and shameless idiots in many private schools, colleges and firms. They sacrifice their self-respect and individuality as employees. They are victims of false prestige and bad habits. India became a filthy place because of such nasty employees and shallow citizens. Mangamma is a better Indian than them. By 5:15 collected the framed memento from the photo maker in Tuni, paying him 160 rupees. My father-in-law came to my abode by 8:30 from village Dharma Varam. Slept by 10:00.

6 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father-in-law left for D Yerra Varam by 4:30. This early morning my brother Srinivas took a train at Visakhapatnam to go to Vijayawada. Thence he took another train for Chennai. He is going there to get trained as an officer in the regional office of UCO Bank along with some other employees of this bank. They stay there for five days as part of this internal training. UCO Bank is likely to be merged into some other nationalized bank soon. My brother may be promoted to the position of an officer in this process of change related to this bank. By 7:30 my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani took a bus at NAD Kotha Road in Visakhapatnam for Peda Gummuluru. Srijana and Anand started to Peda Gummuluru by 9:00 on our scooty. Spent most of my time reading Telugu daily Eenadu and the Sunday supplement. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 4:30 at Y Junction for Peda Gummuluru. The fare is 17 rupees. Reached our house by 5:15. From 10:00 to 6:30, today, my sisters-in-law Sandhya Rani, Kranti and Srijana were involved in preparing Mithaayi for us. They made 220 items of this sweet. My parents funded this festive domestic cooking program. They used edible oil, Bengal gram flour and jaggery to prepare these sweet rounds. My mother distributed these homemade sweets to the families of her three sons and my father. Srinivas got 70 sweets. Sambha and I got 50 sweets each. My father got 50 sweets. These are homemade sweets for us on the occasion of Sankranti. My mother coordinated and supervised this cooking process. She felt happy seeing her three daughters-in-law doing this cooking collectively for us. Night we spent talking for some time. Slept by 9:30.

7 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 7:30 my mother and I started to village Raja Venkata Nagaram on my scooty. The husband of our distant relative died recently in Peda Gummuluru. She belongs to R V Nagaram. My brother Sambha and sister-in-law Kranti too came here to see her. We should see a widow, after the death of her husband, on an auspicious day only. We four saw this widow by 8:15 in the house of her younger daughter. She cried many times before us remembering her difficult and happy days with her husband. He died of a heart attack. He worked as a veterinary assistant for about 30 years. He is a pensioner of the state government. His only bad habit is smoking. He could not refrain from smoking despite advice by doctor. They have two daughters and grandchildren. The common traditional belief in our region is that parents should not depend on the families of their daughters. This woman is disturbed and distressed thinking about her future in this scenario. She always enjoyed the presence of her husband. She sadly said that her dear husband left her back alone. This is the plight of many widows in India now. Conservative and sensitive widows suffer from the pain of solitude and helplessness. We returned home by 9:15. Srijana, Kranti and Sandhya Rani prepared Janthikalu in our house from 9:30 to 1:30. These homemade snacks are for my father. By 2:30 my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani left for Visakhapatnam by bus. By 4:00 Srijana and I visited Venkata Ramana Raju in village Dharma Varam. Srijana and I returned to Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 5:45 on our scooty. Night my in-laws slept in our rented abode. Went to sleep by 10:00.

8 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My in-laws left for D Yerra Varam by 4:30 on a bike. My parents went to Gollalagunta by 1:00 to see our folks there. They spend there for one or two days. By 1:15, Srijana, Anand and I went to the TV repair store of our familiar fellow Shiva near cinema Gautham. My father-in-law already reached there. He came here in a vehicle to buy plastic pipes and such other items to use in the agricultural farm of his employer D S N Raju. He is looking for a used colour television to use in their abode at D Yerra Varam. Shiva showed a piece worth about 3,000 rupees. My father-in-law did not like its picture quality. They went to my abode by 2:00 for lunch. I saw Telugu film “Sevakudu” in cinema Gautham from 2:40 to 5:20. Samudra directed it. This film discusses current scenario of politics, systems of public rule and corruption in India. Both rulers and people are corrupt now. The police and legal systems are also corrupt and unreliable. The director showed how these disorders can be solved in India. It can be done by ideal billionaires and honest individuals. Srikanth played the role of an angry and energetic social reformer in this film. He highlights the need of urgent punishments to criminals and rewriting the constitution of India to solve the present problems. It is a great film for the patriots and thinkers of India. Reached home by 5:45 on foot. My father-in-law took my used ONIDA colour television to his abode in D Yerra Varam. I have to yet pay to my friend Kanumuri Rajani Kumar Raju (of Jeelugumilli) for it. Today Srijana bought Punjabi dress pieces for 395 rupees for her at J K Shopping Mall in Tuni. Slept by 10:00.

9 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. The soft copy of 2013 birthday memento, which I got prepared for Srijana, was posted on my blog site virahini.blogspot.in by 8:00, this morning. Earlier I scheduled it to be automatically published by this time. It is the 23^rd birthday of Srijana today. She is entering the 24^th year of her life today. She did not celebrate it specially. She did not express interest in taking my memento made for her. I hanged it to the wall in my computer room. She did not read it. She must be disturbed about my present earning status and lifestyle. She went to village Dharma Varam by 11:30 in an auto rickshaw of her familiar fellow. Her eldest paternal aunt Lakshmi and her paternal uncle Jagannadha Raju are also there taking care of their father Venkata Ramana Raju. They took him to the abode of my in-laws in D Yerra Varam in this auto rickshaw by 1:30. He is very sick and weak now. He became thin. He is scared of his illness. He is not consuming hard food well. Jagannadha Raju and Srijana returned to my abode by 3:00 in the auto rickshaw. Jagannadha Raju and I walked to the site of my brother Sambha by 4:00. We spent there talking for 30 minutes. The construction of his house came to an end in Hyderabad. It is 70 square yards of land near Sai Gita Ashram. He recently entered it formally. We had supper by 7:00 in our abode. Took him to NH-16 in Tuni by 7:30 on my scooty. He took a private travel bus by 7:50 for Hyderabad. Night a SUN DIRECT DTH connection was given to the television of my in-laws in D Yerra Varam. My father-in-law spent 2,700 rupees for it. Slept by 10:00.

10 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana washed the floor in all the rooms of our rented abode from 8:00 to 9:45. I helped her carrying water with bucket. Much dirt flew out with water. I fell down outside while carrying a bucket of water. I slipped. The old plastic bucket got broken due to it. I did not get hurt in this accident. I balanced myself with my right hand. I sensed a little pain in my right hand, left thigh and left of the head due to the pressure I got on them soon after falling down. I often criticize those that slip on slippery hard surfaces. I tell them it happens because of their careless walk. Today I sensed it personally. Lord Krishna showed me how it happens. Srijana and I reached Viswanadhapuram by 10:45 on our scooty. Today she helped her maternal grandmother cook Ariselu and Paakundalu from 11:00 to 6:30. Her maternal grandmother prepares many items on the occasion of Sankranti for her two daughters, son and grandchildren. Spent talking with A S N Raju in his house from 11:00 to 1:00. Spent in the roadside agricultural farm of Sai Rama Raju from 3:00 to 5:00. He is rearing six high breed cocks for cock fights in this Sankranti season. He is growing watermelon, corn and green grass in this farm now. I watered his watermelon farm for 90 minutes for pleasure. Srijana and I returned home by 8:30 on our scooty. Srijana, her schoolmate Nanaji and I saw Telugu film “Naayak” in cinema Gautham from 9:40 to 12:30. V V Vinayak made it into a very exciting film blending the elements of modest story, gripping narration, thrilling songs, stunts, music and locations. Slept by 1:00.

11 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Nanaji, the friend of Srijana, left for K O Mallavaram by 7:00. Srijana started to Viswanadhapuram by 8:30 on our scooty. She went there to help her maternal grandmother cook festive dishes. By 10:30 my brother Sambha came to my abode on his bike from Peda Gummuluru along with his friend Rama Raju. We three spent talking for one hour in our abode. We went to Siri Shopping Mall in Payakaraopeta by 12:00. Rama Raju bought two pants and one shirt for 1,500 rupees. He took a sharing auto rickshaw for Adduroad by 12:30. Sambha and I went to Hotel Mubaraq in Tuni by 1:00 on his bike. We had two plates of Chicken Biryani in this hotel by 1:30. Each plate of it cost us 60 rupees. It’s tasty. Sambha brought me to this hotel considering it as a special hotel for Biryani. He remarked that it is not tasty now as it was earlier. He bought two shirts and one pant in two cloth stores spending 1,500 rupees. He bought a pair of shoes for 400 rupees to wear while walking for exercise and biking. I bought a pair of POMA flip-flops for my casual wear at home. We returned to my abode by 2:30. I put my clothes, shaving kit and a few similar items in a bag minding my short festive stay in Peda Gummuluru. We reached Peda Gummuluru by 3:30 on bike. I went to Adduroad by 4:00 to spend talking with my familiar folks. Corporal Vijay Kumar told me about corruption and disorders in Indian Air Force. Many officers do it. Slept by 9:00.

      12 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a bus by 8:00 and reached the bus station in Narsipatnam by 9:00. Thence took a Tuni bound bus and reached Dondapeta Yerra Varam by 9:30. Walked a little from the main road and reached the abode of my in-laws by 9:45. Srijana, her maternal grandmother and Dileep came here by 10:00 from Viswanadhapuram. We all came here to see the sick and frail Venkata Ramana Raju, the paternal grandfather of Srijana. He is not consuming hard foods. He enjoyed our presence. Spent talking with him for two hours. I bought a bottle of Horlicks powder in Narsipatnam for 80 rupees for him. Took a bus and reached bus station in Narsipatnam by 2:30. Kept waiting for Adduroad bound bus. A bus arrived by 3:30. It left by 3:35 with heavy load of passengers. Another bus arrived by 4:40. Got into it and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 5:30. Srijana and Anand are in D Yerra Varam. Jagannadha Raju, the paternal uncle of Srijana, reached D Yerra Varam by 8:00. This morning he took Janmabhoomi Express in Secunderabad. Srijana called me up by 10:57 when I was asleep. Got it. She informed me that Mantena Venkata Ramana Raju passed away by 9:30 this night. I felt deeply depressed hearing this news. I could not control my thoughts about the sorrow and tragedy associated with death. We cannot bring a departed soul back into a dead body. It is impossible for mortals. I thought that he would recover soon from his illness and live happily for some more years. His soul ended its Karmic mortal journey against my wish. His two sons are with him during his last moments as a mortal. He is about 85 now. I experienced the futility of life for long in my mind. Slept around 12:00.

13 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My brother Sambha, his baby boy Anjaneya Raju and I started to our mango garden at hills by 8:30 on the bike of the prior. We spent at the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy till 10:00. My cousin Ashwini, her husband Naresh Raju and Ashok are here now. We spent talking with them. We returned home by 10:30. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my nephews Sujan and Suhas and Sravya came to our house by 9:00. My brother Srinivas came to our house by 11:00. He came from Chennai completing his weeklong training at the regional office of UCO Bank. My parents got a cock killed by a familiar underdog for chicken. My folks prepared Chicken Biryani for today on the occasion of Bhogi. We all had lunch by 2:00 and spent talking among ourselves. My parents enjoyed our presence. From 3:45 to 4:00 the occasion of “Bhogi Pallu Poyadam” took place in the house of my brother Sambha for his son Anjaneya Raju in the presence of all our familiar creatures. By 5:00 Sujan, Suhas, Sravya and I took a bus at Adduroad and reached Payakaraopeta by 5:45. Sravya is the daughter of Sowjanya, the sister of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani. Sujan and Suhas saw the Telugu film “Naayak” in cinema Gautham from 6:30 to 9:30. Sravya and I saw the Telugu film “Seethamma Vaakitlo Sirimalle Chettu” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir from 6:20 to 9:10. I give 50 marks for this film for 100. We four reached my abode by 9:40. My house owner K S N Raju slept in his portion. We slept in ours by 10:30. This morning the cremation of lifeless body of Venkata Ramana Raju took place in a graveyard at D Yerra Varam. The children of Ramana Raju attended it sadly.

14 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night K S N Raju and I slept in our respective portions fearing the attacks of thieves on empty houses. They survey houses and loot those, in which there are no people at all. Festivals and holidays are convenient times for thieves and burglars. By 7:30 Sujan, Suhas and Sravya left for Peda Gummuluru. I stayed back to carry out some works. Yesterday Srijana informed me to select some photos of her paternal grandfather and get them printed. I checked about 20 DVDs from 5:30 to 9:30 and found about 10 photos of Mantena Venkata Ramana Raju. I shot them earlier in K O Mallavaram with my Sony digital camera. Went to Surya Digital Colour Lab in Tuni by 1:30. They changed the backgrounds of two photos. One is for A 4 size print with the details of his birth and death. One is for five prints of 6x8 size. The three daughters and two sons of Ramana Raju take each of them and keep with them as a visible memory of their father. Paid 345 rupees to them for the editing work and prints. Collected the five small prints. They charged 120 rupees for them. They told me to come tomorrow for the big laminated photo. Its cost is 225 rupees. Took a sharing auto rickshaw at Y Junction by 3:45 and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 4:20. Went into a mango garden near Peda Gummuluru by 4:50 along with my cousin Ravindra and brother Sambha. I played at a desk of six dice for 20 minutes and lost 180 rupees. I bet 10 rupees each time. Some were watching the cock fights here. I heard that they are all paying 20,000 rupees to the sub inspector of Nakkapalli police station as bribe for permitting these acts of gambling illegally. Slept by 9:00.

15 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Rama Raju and I spent talking about starting some business unit. I proposed the idea of starting a coconut coir processing unit near village Koruprolu. He said that there is scarcity of labour in this industry now. We talked about some other business ideas also. I am not interested in working as an English teacher or lecturer in some shallow school or college for salary about 10,000 rupees a month. It would be the life of a shameless buffoon. The managements of these schools and colleges don’t respect their teaching faculty. They are running their educational institutions immorally and illegally. By 1:00 my friend Krishna Varma and I went to Tuni in a sharing auto rickshaw from Adduroad. We walked to Surya Digital Colour Lab and Studio and collected the laminated and framed photo of Ramana Raju. We spent in my abode for five minutes. We took a bus by 2:30 and returned to Peda Gummuluru by 3:10. My brother Sambha dropped Krishna Varma and me in Ramayyapatnam by 3:30 on his bike. It is Kanuma today. It is the day of annual fair in this village today. There are no desks of dice or dramas in this village today. Police banned them considering them as illegal activities. Smoking, consumption of alcohol and prostitution are legal in this state but not desks of dice and social plays involving female characters. The Congress government made police into pimps, criminals and sinners in this state. I hate them. This fair lost beauty and vivacity because there are dolls only everywhere for children to buy and play. There is no scope for adults to enjoy playing or doing something publicly. Spent talking with my familiar folks till 8:30 at the Kirana shop of Rajesh. Slept by 10:00.

16 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father and I took an ordinary bus in Peda Gummuluru by 9:00 and reached the bus station in Narsipatnam by 10:10. Thence we took a Tuni bound bus and got off it at D Yerra Varam by 10:45. We reached the abode of my in-laws by 10:55. My father came here to formally see my father-in-law after the death of father of the latter. It’s part of Indian tradition. It should happen at an auspicious time. Many fears are associated with dead bodies and deaths in India. I don’t like these ceremonies and formalities practiced by shallow Indians after the death of a person in their family or community. We should love and respect live people instead of doing many things for the departed souls of our creatures. We spent talking about Ramana Raju for some time. He lived happily and died peacefully in the hands of his two sons. He did not live the life of a helpless and frail parasite suffering inwardly and bothering others. My father left for Peda Gummuluru by 1:00. Gave the photos of Ramana Raju to his sons. Srijana and Anand stay here for some more days. I don’t like living in such places, where shallow materialists are acting roles formally to satisfy departed souls. Reached the house of K S N Raju in Bheemavarapu Kota by 2:30. It is a casual visit. I found his house and its surroundings clean and beautiful. I took video and photos here with my Sony digital camera. He took me to his agricultural farm on his bike. There too captured the beauty of it with my camera. He brought me to main road by 5:30 on his bike. Reached my abode in Devi Nagar by 6:20. Slept by 10:30.

17 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 7:30 washed a pair of my clothes. Srijana washes my clothes once a year or so. She does it if I am unbearably busy or sick. It rarely happens in my life. I like washing and ironing my clothes. My mother says that I should not wash my clothes and our used dishes. It must be the duty of Srijana, my traditional wife. Indian tradition made woman into a domestic slave and helpless parasite. Many women are coming out of this vicious web now. I am happy about it. I want Srijana to live like a free bird with self-respect enjoying the spirit of her liberty in my company and guidance. By 11:30 went to Radhe Shyam Honda outlet in Payakaraopeta. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy wants to buy a Honda Activa or Aviator scooty for him. He came here by 11:45 from Tetagunta. We checked some scooties here and compared and contrasted the features of them. He decided to buy one on an auspicious day in this February according to Telugu calendar. He is going to own and use a scooty for the first time in his life. We two came to my rented abode by 12:30. My uncle Chanti Babu and his son Hari came here by 1:00 on a bike from Durgada. They paid the balance and got the registration document of their site from Ravi Raju. They left for Durgada by 1:30. Narasimha Murthy and I spent talking about our domestic affairs till 4:30. He is searching for a place to move his old parents, leaving his stupid wife and two sons to their lot. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana and her paternal aunt Lakshmi came to my abode by 10:00 on my scooty from Dondapeta Yerra Varam. They went to Tuni to buy a few dishes for distribution on the 10^th day ceremony related to the death of Ramana Raju. They returned here by 1:00. They bought about 100 steel dishes spending about 1,500 rupees. They started back to D Yerra Varam by 1:10 on my scooty. My friend Krishna Varma came to my abode by 2:30 from village Ramayyapatnam. Now he is working as a casual labourer with a unit of Vijai Electricals at Rudraram near Hyderabad. He can earn about 10,000 rupees every month doing this job. He is sending 2,000 rupees to his parents every month for their living. He did ITI course in electrical section. He did not do trade related apprenticeship in any industrial unit. He did not try to get a government job like me. Girls are not interested to marry him considering his low salary. He has no assets. His parents are disturbed about his remaining unmarried. Wife is the savior, guide and supporter of life of husband. It has been the belief of many traditional Indian parents for ages. They suffer a lot if their sons remain unmarried forever. Srijana saved me from this plight marrying me innocently in 2008. Krishna Varma and I spent in my abode till 5:10. He bought two tickets for 160 rupees in black at cinema Gautham by 5:45. We two saw Telugu film “Naayak” in it from 6:10 to 9:00. I saw it for the second time for the sake of my friend. My policy is to see one film once only in a cinema. Slept by 10:30.

19 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. My friend Krishna Varma left for Ramayyapatnam by 9:30. By 10:30 cooked brown rice for me and boiled milk to make curd. Gave some sweet potatoes and onions to the wife of my friend K V P Raju by 11:00 in their rented abode. She prepared potato fry for me with them. I am not good at cooking curries and soups. I depend on my familiar women for these needs now and then. From 2:00 to 6:00 spent with K V P Raju. We two went into Payakaraopeta and Tuni on his bike to collect money from bulk Madhura milk pack buyers. Night spent talking with my house owner K S N Raju for one hour. My familiar creature Ramanamma did not connect me with Lakshmi till now. She said that she can do it within days but weeks lapsed since she gave me a word about it. Recently Lakshmi came to the house of her parents in Ramayyapatnam on the occasion of Sankranti. I don’t know whether Ramanamma met her or not. I call her up frequently to know about the progress in this regard. She never calls me up. She left her husband years ago. She became a prostitute in course of time. She cannot understand the sensitivity, pain and suffering of platonic friends and vulnerable admirers like Lakshmi and me. I don’t know where Lakshmi is living in Narsipatnam now. She is a married creature with some responsibilities. I cannot meet her directly. She often appears me in my dreams. I feel blissful witnessing her classic presence in those heavenly dreams. May Lord Krishna facilitate our visit. She is my goddess. Slept by 10:00.

20 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night Lakshmi appeared me in my dream. My goddess blessed me with her presence in my blissful dream. When do I meet her? When can I talk with her? I have been waiting to meet her since 13 July, 1993. She loved me before her marriage. She started admiring me after her marriage. Then we remained as platonic lovers due to our innocence. Now we are living as platonic admirers. Dreams are filling this void in both of us. Telepathy is our communication channel. We cannot meet without the intervention of God. This is the tragedy of many lovers and admirers in this world. Outsiders may find it as a sphere of stupid and absurd creatures. By 11:00 applied the paste of Classic herbal powder on my head and moustache to blacken those few white strands of hair. Yesterday Srijana told me to do it on my own to beautify it. I could do it well using a mirror and old toothbrush. By 1:30 created my profile on qyuki.com. Sekhar Kapoor and A R Rehman created this online platform to invite creative creatures and exhibit their creativity in different forms. This morning I read about it in Eenadu Sunday supplement. Took a bath by 2:00. My hair and moustache turned black. Took a bus by 2:50 at Y Junction and reached Adduroad by 3:40. Walked to our house in Peda Gummuluru. My mother and father are much worried about my present financial condition. I told them to avoid it. Lord Krishna is directing me always. We should not expect our life to be happy always. I know it. Slept by 9:00.

21 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. There are many mosquitoes in and around our house in Peda Gummuluru. They are attacking us more during evening hours. My brother Sambha and I started to D Yerra Varam by 8:30 from our house in Peda Gummuluru on his bike. We reached there by 10:00 travelling via Narsipatnam. Today the 10^th day ceremony related to the death of Venkata Ramana Raju is taking place in the rented abode of my in-laws in this village. My brother and I spent talking with our familiar folks till 11:30. The traditional lunch took place from 11:45 to 3:15. About 150 invitees attended this ceremony. This celebration is to satisfy the departed soul of Ramana Raju. It is a collective farewell ceremony to that soul. Took a bus by 4:15 at D Yerra Varam for Tuni. Got off it at Narsipatnam Road point in Payakaraopeta by 6:20. Reached my rented abode by 6:40 walking on the over bridge. Had a bath by 7:00 and took out my belongings from the bag. I did not find my purse in it. It must have fallen down in the bus from my open jute bag due to jerks during journey. My important cards and sixteen 10-rupee notes are there in it. Rushed to Tuni Bus Depot on the bike of K S N Raju. I was trying to get contact details of folks of Narsipatnam Bus Depot to inform them about it. By 7:57 my friend Ramnadh called me up and told me to contact his friend Barla Ravi Kumar. He gave me the cellphone number of Thipparala Nageswara Rao in village Mangavaram. We went there by 8:30 and collected my purse. His wife Sirisha found it in that bus. Slept by 10:30.

22 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. I am happy about getting my purse back yesterday night. I don’t keep my purse in my shirt or pant pocket because it is thick and heavy with many items. Yesterday I could not reward them appreciating their goodness. I gave them my cellphone number telling them that I am a writer. I want to give them something in near future expressing my sense of gratitude and affection for them. They reacted fast about it understanding the stress and pain of the loser. Professional thieves and pickpockets are cruel and unethical in most of the cases. They take the money and throw the remaining items away. Sirisha is an ordinary girl of Scheduled Caste community. She took my thick purse home and reached it to me fast empathizing with my state of mind in that context. This is what we call humanity. I would have suffered a lot if I had lost that purse forever. Many of my important identity cards are there in it. Lord Krishna taught me a good lesson this way. I should be careful with my belongings always. Spent talking with my friend K V P Raju at his abode from 1:30 to 3:30. Spent talking with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and his associate Paparao from 4:00 to 5:00 at my abode. We discussed the plan of action necessary to reform his wife Vimala and two sons. They left for Tetagunta by 5:10. By 6:30 called up my MA English classmate Shiva Kumar and told him to come to my abode to sleep here this night. He came here by 9:30. We spent talking for one hour. Slept by 11:00.

23 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually at home. Srijana and Anand returned from D Yerra Varam by 5:00 on our scooty. She helped her parents in all the formal activities related to the death of her paternal grandfather Mantena Venkata Ramana Raju. It was all over by today. Hereafter he remains as a memory in our psyches. He was a good storyteller. He belonged to a good generation of Indians, who lived with respect and affection for others rather than passion and struggle for money and assets always. I promised to buy and present a radio to him on one occasion. I could not fulfill it in time. He enjoyed my presence always. He was happy about my marrying his granddaughter Srijana out of love for her. His sons and daughters waited for his early natural death ever since he became bedridden sick person. Very few children have time, interest and patience to look after their old, frail and bed-ridden parents now. Ramana Raju could not refrain from smoking despite advice by doctor. I think this bad habit hastened his death. I think that death is a challenge to humanity in every age. Those haunting memories sustain a sense of loss and pain in us. We have deep psychological attachments with many persons and things in our little sphere of relationships and belongings. We cannot express or exhibit those pains for others to understand them. We suffer silently. Human life is a result of sins committed by souls as life forms. Pain is inevitable. Birth is magic. Death is tragic. Life is a picnic. Slept by 10:00.

24 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. When reading the Telugu daily Eenadu, short news infuriated me. The folks of human rights commission of Andhra Pradesh condemned an act of CCMB. They conducted DNA tests for the blood samples of the wife and baby of Ramesh on his request. The idiots of HRC stated that CCMB should not do such tests without the permission and referral of authorities. It may lead to breakdown of families. Typed out a blog titled “DNA Tests” and posted it on my blog site by 9:15. I strongly criticized the status and activities of human rights commissions in India. They are like dead agencies in India. Very few Indians know about their existence. Worthless legal folks are dumped into these offices for formality sake. Indians are unable to live as human beings in India because the governments and administration are so here. Drinking, smoking, prostitution, corruption and irregularities are prevalent in this nation. In this dirty scenario of selfish politicians and manipulative businessmen, HRCs are appearing like dilapidated houses filled with buffoons and corpses. They should not interfere in matters related to the liberty of individuals. Indians are not interested in the nominal acts of HRCs now and then. My blog is a savage satire on HRCs and the current state of India. My house owner K S N Raju and I went to Annavaram by 4:45 on his bike. He checked his plots in Devi Nagar layout. We bought 10 packs of Prasaadham and returned home by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I reached Viswanadhapuram by 7:30 on our scooty. Slept by 10:00.

25 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana, her mother and her maternal grandmother started preparing a kind of sweets by 10:00. They are for the parents of Srijana. They came here from D Yerra Varam to spend for three days. It is a Hindu custom followed by many traditional folks. A family should go to the house of their closest relatives after death of a person in that family. The parents of Srijana came to this house after death of her paternal grandfather Ramana Raju for the formality of it. Today my father-in-law and Srijana talked with a priest about the expenses and arrangements to be made for a religious purification ceremony (Udhaka Shuddhi) to be held soon by a group of priests. The death of Ramana Raju took place on a bad day according to Telugu calendar. That rented house got contaminated due to this death. Priests conduct a ceremony chanting related Vedic mantras collectively as part of this purification process. Many orthodox Hindus believe that a departing soul takes some other souls also along with it if these religious customs and practices are not followed perfectly by the folks left behind after the death of a person. I wonder thinking about these fears and doubts felt by many people after deaths and suicides in their families and localities. Reached my rented abode by 2:30 on my scooty. Spent talking with my uncle Datla Rama Raju of Gollapalem from 4:00 to 5:30 at my abode. My brother-in-law Vamsy brought Srijana and Anand to my abode by 5:00 on a bike from Viswanadhapuram. Slept by 10:00.

26 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. My uncle Datla Rama Raju came to my abode by 9:00. He is interested in working as an associate on a truck. I talked with my friend Datla Rama Krishnam Raju in Kakinada about this job for Rama Raju on one of his long trucks. He readily agreed for it. Rama Raju asked me to come along with him to Kakinada to talk with D R K Raju about this job. Got ready by 10:15. Both of us reached Golla Appa Rao Centre in Tuni by 10:30. We took a vehicle bound to go to Kakinada. It started off by 10:40. We travelled via Kathipudi, Gollaprolu, Pithapuram and reached Kakinada by 12:45. The fare is 40 rupees for each of us. They allow about 12 passengers into their vehicle of four wheels in each trip. They may earn about 200 rupees in each trip. These are all small private travel vehicles. We walked to House No. 16-23-27/1 in Ayodhya Nagar by 1:20. We spent talking with D R K Raju till 3:15 in his abode. Rama Raju got a job as a truck associate for his survival. He travels long on the trucks of D R K Raju along with those drivers as an associate (the widely used word is ‘cleaner’ in our region for this casual job). Rama Raju and I reached the rented abode of my cousin Bala (Kolukuluri Krishnam Raju) in Venkat Nagar by 3:30. Bala came by 5:00. Rama Raju left for Golla Palem by 5:20. Bala and I saw the Telugu film “Dhandu Paallyam” in cinema Mayuri from 6:30 to 8:45. It is the story of a gang of notorious criminals, who used to loot houses after killing and raping the residents according to their plans. This series of shocking incidents took place in Bengaluru between 1995 and 2000. Srinivasa Raju portrayed the terror and brutality of this truth well. It is an educative and insightful film. He wants to shoot and release the second part of this film also. Slept by 10:00.

27 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My cousin Bala dropped me at the bus station in Kakinada by 7:30. Took a Visakhapatnam bound Express bus by 7:40 and reached the bus station in Tuni by 9:30. Srijana and Anand came here on our scooty to receive me. We reached our abode at Devi Nagar by 9:45. My father came to my rented abode by 1:00 from Peda Gummuluru. He brought two papayas, some aubergines and homemade snacks for us from our house. He gave 1,000 rupees to Srijana to clear dues. He does not like us to spend money for him now for any reason considering our present financial condition. I wonder about his sensitivity and concern for us. He does not feel relieved and balanced until I start earning money for our survival. His throat pain is not yet completely cured. He came here to consult ENT surgeon Dr Rama Krishnam Raju in his clinic at Tuni. He is attending his ENT service schedule in this clinic on every Sunday and Thursday. He is working with King George Hospital in Visakhapatnam on other days. My father and I reached the clinic of this doctor in Park Street by 1:30 on my scooty. He prescribed some tablets for my father and told him that there is nothing to worry about this minor throat disorder. He took a bus from bus stand in Payakaraopeta by 3:00 for Peda Gummuluru. My friend Sri Rama Raju and I saw the Telugu film “Viswa Roopam” of Kamal Hassan in cinema Surya Mahal from 6:30 to 9:00. It is an exciting and insightful film. Slept by 9:30.

28 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Put some of my belongings in a bag. Started to Annavaram by 10:00. Took a private vehicle and got off it at RTA check post near Annavaram by 11:00. Recently the folks of Sri Sathya Sai Vidhya Vihar gave a short ad in the Visakhapatnam district edition of Eenadu stating that they are looking for an English teacher to work in their English medium school here. They pay 15,000 rupees or more to highly experienced teachers. This amount of salary attracted me towards coming for interview in this school for this position. G Hari Prasad, the secretary and correspondent of this school, talked with me for 15 minutes. He explained me the terms and conditions of this job. I told him that I would inform him in two days’ time whether I am interested or not to join them. Took a bus in Annavaram by 1:00 and reached Jaggampeta by 2:00. Met Datla Krishna Varma in his office at Sahithi Public School by 2:15. We spent talking for one hour. He took me to his agricultural farm at village Ramavaram by 4:15 on his bike. He is developing parts of his farm into tourist interest points. The related construction and beautification works are going on now. He showed me the progress of this work. I appreciated his innovative thoughts in this direction. Went to the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju in Teachers Colony by 5:20. His eldest son Raghupati is here now. Recently he came from the USA on long leave. Spent talking with him for two hours about many things. By 9:30 my uncle joined us. Went to sleep by 10:45.

29 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I slept in the upper portion of the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju. He too slept in this room on a bed. He built two rooms in this portion. They are comfortable abodes for their guests and relatives to stay. My uncle brought four idlies for me from a hotel. Had them by 7:30. Spent talking with Raghupati and my uncle from 8:30 to 9:30. Reached Sahithi Public School by 10:00. I came to Jaggampeta on the advice of Krishna Varma. There is a resort near Maredumilli. It’s called Bird’s Nest. Krishna Varma and a close friend of him are interested to lease and run it. They want to make me the resident manager of this resort. They decided to show it to me. By 1:00 went to Hotel Sri Lekha in Jaggampeta for my lunch. Paid 25 rupees for a plate of Vegetable Biryani. When I was having it, I saw a dead plant pest in it. They boiled and killed it. I showed it to a fellow of this hotel. He regretted it and ordered change of plate of food served to me. I said it’s not necessary. I did not talk angrily with them about it. All pests are not poisonous. All types of poisons cannot kill me. My soul took this human body with a purpose. I don’t die until this body fulfills all its responsibilities. Krishna Varma did not get time even today to go to the resort. I spent in the office of his school till 5:30. Went to the abode of my folks in Gollalagunta by 7:00 on the bike of my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju. Slept by 10:00.

30 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju dropped me at the house of Krishna Varma in village Gurram Palem by 5:45 on his bike at my request. Krishna Varma and I started to Jaggampeta by 6:10 in his Hyundai i 20 white car. His friend and dentist Sai Kumar also got ready by 6:30. There are three folks in his car and three folks in the car of Krishna Varma. We eight creatures started to Bird’s Nest resort by 7:00 in these two cars. We reached Rampa Chodavaram by 8:00. We had breakfast in Hotel Bhagya Lakshmi by 8:30. We reached Bird’s Nest resort by 8:45 travelling via Bhupatipalem reservoir. We all spent in this resort till 10:00. There are three cottages in it. There are some other buildings also for resident staff and other purposes. There is a brook by a side of it. It’s among hills. This resort does not have an orderly and professional look. Visitors are coming to this resort on Saturdays and Sundays only now. I told Krishna Varma that it cannot be a profitable venture for us. It is beside main road between Rampa Chodavaram and Maredumilli. It is a good place for passionate lovers looking for privacy and nature lovers admiring the beauty of solitude among a multitude of issues causing stress and strain. Took photos and video of it with my Sony digital camera. We returned to Jaggampeta by 11:00. Took a bus by 1:00 and reached the Bus Depot in Tuni by 2:10. Thence walked and reached my rented abode by 2:35. Srijana and Anand returned from D Yerra Varam by 5:00 on our scooty. Went to sleep by 10:00.

31 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Washed my clothes and got ready by 10:30. Took two private vehicles and reached Sathya Sai Vidhya Vihar at RTA check post near Annavaram by 11:30. Met G Hari Prasad and informed him that I am not interested in joining this school as an English teacher. Collected my book Stories of Love and Beauty from him. He said that he already recruited an English teacher. I have to teach from standard 6 to 10 every day if I join this school. The working hours of the school are from 8:30 to 5:30. I have to teach on Sundays also. I have to commute daily between Payakaraopeta and Annavaram on my scooty to do this job. It causes stress and strain every day to me. I have many things to do. I don’t like to die early with a heart attack caused by such daily stressful work schedule. My friend Sri Rama Raju reached Devi Nagar layout in Annavaram by 1:30 on his bike. I too reached there on foot. I showed him the plots of my house owner K S N Raju and his friends in Devi Nagar layout. Sri Rama Raju got some prospective buyers for these plots. We reached my rented abode by 2:30 on his bike. We two spent talking with K S N Raju till 4:30. K S N Raju and I spent at the Indira Sagar canal work beside the railway track for some time. Today Srijana cried and spent moodily because I did not join the school in Annavaram. I could not console her. Slept by 10:00.

1 February (Friday) 

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana took Anand to Canossa School by 9:00. He cried a lot to go to school. I cannot force him. Srijana wants him to go to school. I start focusing on him when he likes school and learning. His mother is committing a crime sending him to school. I am a helpless victim in this scenario. I am disturbed about it. By 10:30 my father-in-law came to my abode from D Yerra Varam on the bike provided by his employer D S N Raju. He told me to come to Gollalagunta along with him on the bike. I readily agreed for it. We two started to Jaggampeta by 11:15 and reached there by 12:45. The force of open air affected my ears during this road journey. Bought an ear protector for 10 rupees at a shop. My father-in-law got the bike washed with water in a store by 1:30. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju came here by 1:40. We three went to a prospective buyer of the paddy farmland of my father-in-law. He and his brother Jagannadha Raju decided to sell their 2.5 acres of paddy farmland at Chembudu Cheruvu near Gollalagunta. This potential buyer asked each acre of this land for an amount of money below 7 lakh rupees. My father-in-law did not like this rate. My uncle stayed back in Jaggampeta to talk with Jyothula Nehru about some political issues in this locality. My father-in-law and I reached Gollalagunta by 2:30 on the bike. We stayed and dined in the house of my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju and aunt Raja Kumari. Enjoyed talking with our folks. Slept by 10:00.

2 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I slept in the house of my maternal aunt Satyavathi. It was cozy and comfortable. I could sleep well. My father-in-law and I started back to Payakaraopeta by 7:15 on bike. He told his familiar folks about the sale of their farmland at Chembudu Cheruvu. He is looking for many prospective buyers of their farmland. If there is competition among many for a piece of property, its value increases naturally. He is following this strategy. We reached Annavaram by 8:15. He bought 10 packs of Prasaadham for 100 rupees for his familiar folks. We reached my rented abode by 9:00. Srijana had just taken Anand to Canossa School. She said that he cried vigorously this morning at the thought of going to school. Neighbours heard his noise and thought as if something disastrous happened in our abode. He created such a scene of nuisance in my absence. My father-in-law left for D Yerra Varam by 1:30. Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Ongolu Gittha” in cinema Surya Mahal from 2:15 to 5:00. It is an interesting and exciting film throughout. Ram and Kriti Karbanda acted well in this film. Enjoyed watching it. Night created an account for me on PayPal. I am interested in earning money doing freelance writing and editing works. Created my profile on freelancer.com. I bid for some writing and editing projects on it. Earlier also I searched and tried to get freelance works but in vain. Many freelance professionals bid for these works. It is a difficult domain. Went to sleep by 11:00.

3 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning saw a classified ad in Telugu daily Eenadu related to data entry. I wanted to do it. Called her up. They are at Pothula Mallayya Palem in Visakhapatnam. We should have computer and Internet connection. It’s typing job, which can be done at home. They pay 45 rupees for typing 1,000 words. We should pay 500 rupees initially to get into this work. They give software to install on our computer. They pay once a week for our finished work. I got attracted towards this work considering my present critical financial condition. Morning Srijana and Surya Kumari joined a Yoga class session in Tuni. They did it from 10:30 to 11:30. He runs it for a month. The fee is 300 rupees for this course. Srijana has about 15 kilograms of excessive fat. She must lose it through physical exercise and meditation. She took a good decision today. Took an ordinary bus at Y Junction by 4:10 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 4:45. Spent talking, over phone, with my well-wisher Tirumalaraju Chiranjeevi Raju from 8:15 to 8:45 about his views and experience about data entry jobs. He advised me not to go to Visakhapatnam to pay 500 rupees and get into that data entry job. He had bad experience in this field. They cheat poor and innocent people through these classified ads. They collect money from many enthusiasts. It’s a fraudulent business venture. I decided not to go to Visakhapatnam tomorrow. Chiranjeevi is an intelligent and reliable person. Slept by 9:00.

4 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. My father, my brother Sambha and I went to the Government High School in Koruprolu by 9:15 on bikes. Today election is taking place in this school to elect 13 members for the Primary Agricultural Cooperative Society of Koruprolu. Sambha told me to vote for Velaga Suri. I think he/she is representing YSRCP. Sambha must be working for the party of Y S Jagan after the death of Y S Raja Sekhara Reddy. We call it the concept of sympathy in shallow Indian politics. I love and respect my brother Sambha for what he is doing for his familiar society. My vote cannot change India. Today Sambha became very busy due to this election. He likes Jagan. Had my lunch in our house by 12:00. Took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 12:40 and reached Payakaraopeta by 1:30. The clip of my clipboard rusted and broke recently. When I tried to remove this clip, part of the clipboard got broken. My brother Srinivas made this clipboard about 10 years ago with fiber glass. I use it daily while writing my personal diary. It is a precious clipboard for me. Went to Tuni and bought a clip for 10 rupees. A carpenter cut the broken part of this clipboard and fitted this clip to it. Gave him 20 rupees for this work. By 5:00 called up my friend Bojja Shankara Rao in Ramayyapatnam and asked him to lend me 10,000 rupees. He readily agreed for it. Night applied for some projects through freelancer.com. Since many folks apply for the same project, it is difficult to get a project. It involves online bidding process. Slept by 10:00.

5 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I felt like sending my entry for a competition being conducted by the folks of Telugu Velugu monthly. Ramoji Rao started this monthly a few months ago with the objective of promoting Telugu language among those whose mother tongue is Telugu. Many Telugu people are not speaking or writing Telugu now. They moved to use of English widely. Parents are sending their children to English medium schools and colleges only. Telugu Velugu strives to awake, educate and inspire Telugu people towards understanding the beauty and importance of Telugu and the need of using it in their personal and professional lives. I regularly buy and read this Telugu monthly. They are inviting love letters in Telugu to publish in this monthly. I wrote one from 10:30 to 11:00. It is addressed to Lakshmi. There are about 520 words in it. Went to S S Commercials unit at Post Office Street in Tuni. He typed up my manuscript and made it into a PageMaker file. Also got a letter of ownership of content and permission prepared to be sent to the publisher along with this entry. Signed it and got it scanned. Emailed my entry, permission letter and two of my colour photos to teluguvelugu@eenadu.net by 4:53. I spent 85 rupees for this work. I will be happy if this love letter gets selected and published in it. The title of this entry is “Nireekshana”. By 6:30 Srijana and I took Anand to Kiran Eye Hospital in Tuni. His right eye turned reddish in a corner. His classmate hurt him recently. Slept by 10:00.

6 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana dropped me at Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta by 6:58 on our scooty. Took a Narsipatnam bound bus by 7:00 and got off it at Thaandava Junction by 7:40. My father-in-law sent 20,000 rupees with a fellow from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju to this place. Took this money from him at a hotel. This money is to be deposited into the bank account of Jagannadha Raju, the brother of my father-in-law. The construction of house of Jagannadha Raju is at final stage in Hyderabad now. He is in need of money. My father-in-law is arranging it for him from his sources. Took a bus by 7:45 and returned to Payakaraopeta by 8:30. Srijana came here on our scooty to take me home. It’s difficult to get a transport facility from Narsipatnam Road Junction to Y Junction in Payakaraopeta. I often walk on this way instead of waiting for a bike to ask for a lift. Srijana took Anand to Canossa School by 9:00. He is crying every day before being taken to school. He wants to stay and play at home only. Srijana is sending him to school by force. I don’t like it. She has 50% rights upon him as his mother. I should allow her to enjoy her natural rights. Anand likes the company of his mother while going to school. He is not interested in me at all. Srijana attended her Yoga classes in Tuni from 10:00 to 11:30 along with Surya Kumari. She deposited the money into the bank account of her paternal uncle Jagannadha Raju by 12:00. Today I spent my time with my house owner K S N Raju. Slept by 9:30.

7 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of January, from 1 to 20, from my diary of 2013, on my computer. Went to the house of Chiranjeevi Raju in village Penugollu Dharma Varam by 11:00. My father-in-law asked me to go there and collect 50,000 rupees from him. Took this money and returned to my abode by 12:15. Srijana deposited part of this money into the bank account of her paternal uncle Jagannadha Raju. I am a facilitator in this process. By 12:30 my friend and well-wisher Bojja Shankar Rao came to my abode from village Ramayyapatnam on his bike. He lent me 10,000 rupees. He loves and respects me as a gentleman. I borrowed money from him to keep up my self-respect. We cannot borrow money from everybody known to us if we have individuality. Shankar is running a Heritage daily milk collection point in village Etikoppaka now. He has a child. His body is affected with a neurological disorder. They daily bring him to a physiotherapy centre in Tuni. Srijana brought her third paternal aunt Venkata Ramanamma to our rented abode by 2:15 from Tuni railway station. Morning she took Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger train at Peda Brahmadevam halt. She got knee joint pain, acidity and high blood pressure. She wants to go for body checkup. I assist her. We reached NAD Kotha Road by 9:15 in the car of ENT doctor D R K Raju, a cousin of Srijana. Thence we took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached the abode of my brother Srinivas at Sujatha Nagar by 9:40. Slept by 10:15.

8 February (Friday)

Woke up by 6:15. My brother Srinivas criticized me severely from 6:30 to 7:00 about my present financial condition. He talked about my drawbacks and demerits as an earner. He proved that I became and remained as a worthless guy in the aspects of planning for my career and building up my life as a financial entity. He perfectly analyzed my existence and failure as an earner till now. It is his constructive criticism aimed at improving my status as an earner. It is his sense of love and concern for me. Venkata Ramanamma and I took a 128 K city bus at Sujatha Nagar by 7:15 and reached Collectorate area by 8:00. Thence we moved to Manipal Super Speciality Hospital at Century Club in Maharani Peta. Recently D M R Jagannadha Raju joined this hospital as an interventional cardiologist and head of the cardiology department. Today Venkata Ramanamma underwent some medical tests in the two Manipal hospitals situated at Gokhale Road and Jagadamba centre under their ‘Healthy Woman’ package of tests. Jagannadha Raju, Doctor Soudhamini and a dentist are the consultants for her. It is a process of preventive care. These doctors prescribed some medicines for her for her minor health disorders and advised for suitable diet and physical exercise. It was all over by 7:40. She spent about 4,000 rupees for these medical tests, medicines and travel expenses. I guided her. We hired an auto rickshaw and rushed to Dwaraka Bus Station by 8:00. We got into a Vijayawada bound Super Luxury bus. It started off by 8:25. We reached Payakaraopeta by 10:55. Bus fare is 106 rupees for each of us. Slept by 11:30.

9 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana took her paternal aunt Venkata Ramanamma to Golla Appa Rao Centre in Tuni by 8:30 on our scooty. She left for Peda Brahmadevam. She felt happy about my helping her in the process of medical tests meant for her health and preventive care. My in-laws and Anand left for D Yerra Varam by 4:00 on bike. Anand enjoys the presence of his maternal grandparents. They love him. They don’t teach him anything. Children like their lovers more than their teachers. I am a rigid and harsh teacher for him. All Indians are not sensitive. Anand must be able to understand and witness the language and attitudes of harsh people also. By 4:30 Srijana and Surya Kumari left for village Gudivada near Revu Polavaram. The parents of Surya Kumari are living in Gudivada. She is the eldest daughter-in-law of my house owner Kokkerlapati Satya Narayana Raju. They stay in Gudivada this night. Tomorrow morning they bathe in the seashore at Revu Polavaram. Tomorrow is a special day for this observation at sea. By 5:00 joined my friend K V P Raju and went to Tuni along with him on his bike. It’s my pleasure tour. We reached his rented abode in Devi Nagar by 6:00. We two spent talking till 7:30 feeling the winds of winter. Night read three short stories and a piece of poetry in Telugu monthly Telugu Velugu edition of February. Called up the authors of these pieces and appreciated them. Many readers don’t consult writers to share their remarks and comments with them. All genuine creative persons like appreciation and constructive criticism from others. Slept by 10:00.

10 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu and its Sunday supplement for two hours. Mahesh and I saw the Telugu film “Mirchi” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir from 11:00 to 2:00. It is an interesting and exciting film. Enjoyed watching it. Mahesh is a tuition student of Srijana. He is the son of Padmavati, a sister-in-law of K S N Raju. Now he is pursuing second year Intermediate course at Sri Prakash Junior College in Payakaraopeta. Srijana clarifies his doubts in mathematics subject. He comes to our abode every morning. Their house is a few steps away from our rented abode in Devi Nagar. He considers me as an angry and disciplined fellow. He observes my behavior with Srijana and Anand in our abode. He formed such opinion about me after observing me for some days. He is a sensitive and disciplined boy. I enjoy his presence. Srijana and Surya Kumari returned from Gudivada by 3:00. Morning they took holy ablutions in the seashore at village Revu Polavaram. Evening spent with my house owner K S N Raju from 4:30 to 7:00. We went to Tuni and spent talking with one of his friends for one hour. He worked as an executive engineer in Public Works Department of Government of Andhra Pradesh for about 30 years. He decided to move to Gudivada in Krishna district from Tuni forever. It is his native place. He has many well-wishers and friends in Tuni area. He said that he is feeling impulsive to live there, where most of his relatives are living now. I wonder about the lives of old people. They feel lonely and forsaken. They crave for love and care from others. Slept by 10:00.

11 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning spent with K S N Raju. By 2:30 gave my CV to the folks of TVS showroom in Tuni. Yesterday they placed an ad in Eenadu for some positions in their showroom here. He asked me about my expected salary. I wrote 10,000 rupees on my CV and submitted it. I developed aversion for the position of English teacher and lecturer in private schools and colleges. The managements of these private educational institutions made the life of a teacher into that of a voiceless and restless creature. They are paying low salaries. By 3:45 I joined K V P Raju and went into Payakaraopeta and Tuni along with him on his bike. He recently sold his old Hero Honda bike and bought a new Dream Yuga bike of Honda. He collected money from three bulk Madhura Milk pack buyers. I selected and took 10, 20 and 50 rupee notes for 3,500 rupees. I like keeping new currency notes of different denominations with me. I know they move away from me soon. Nothing remains with us. Even my soul deserts this body one day. I never see my soul. It makes life mysterious. We returned home by 6:00. K S N Raju and I went to police station in Payakaraopeta by 7:00. The eldest daughter of Tirumalaraju Narasimha Raju (Avathaaram Raju) loved a Brahmin boy. She complained in this police station against her parents. She decided to marry this boy. The parents of the boy are in favour of their love marriage. They took this girl away in a vehicle. They marry soon somewhere. We consoled Narasimha Raju. He felt shocked and depressed about it. Slept by 10:45.

12 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of January, from 21 to 31, from my diary of 2013, on my computer. Saw the Telugu film “A B C D” in cinema Surya Mahal from 2:30 to 5:00. It is an interesting, exciting and insightful film. Remo D Souza portrayed the strength and beauty of dance in this film. Prabhu Deva played the role of a poor and dedicated choreographer. The essence of title of this film is that ‘Any Body Can Dance’. I believe that everybody cannot dance. Dancers need passion to learn and physical strength to perform. It is an excellent art form demanding balance of body and mind from the performer. I don’t like all kinds of dance. I like such dance, which entertains me inspiring my aesthetic and sublime sensibilities. I believe that modern dance excites viewers. Classical dance awakes divinity hidden in us and makes our thoughts and feelings sublime. Materialists seek pleasure from gripping physical movements. Dreamers derive happiness from inspiring and soothing movements and expressions of classical dancers. I enjoy watching modern dance in films. Everybody cannot dance like Prabhu Deva. He turned his body into an obedient and flexible machine over the years. I admire his dance and direction skills. He is a sensitive, ideal and admirable artist. He danced very well for a song in this film. I watched many parts of this film with deep involvement and excitement because dance and dancers have such power of charm and spell in them. Music and dance are like soul and body. I believe that music is more powerful than dance. Music can inspire us on its own. Can dance do it without music? Slept by 10:00.

13 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 10:20 went to Radhe Shyam Honda unit in Payakaraopeta on my scooty along with Srijana. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy Raju already reached here from Tetagunta. Today he starts using his new Honda Activa scooty bought from this unit. By 10:40 those folks kept his grey colour scooty ready. My uncle kept a small pack of milk and a dozen bananas in his new scooty for formality sake. He paid 60,000 rupees for it. I rode it for the first time when he sat behind me. I rode it towards east on his advice. He felt very happy for buying and owning this scooty today. I rode it to cinema Sri Rama in Tuni by 11:00. My teacher uncle Kolukuluri Venkata Rama Raju was waiting here for us. We three went to the abode of our relative in Bank Colony. Srijana and I went to bus depot in Tuni by 12:00 on our scooty. Collected the parcel containing five packs of Shakthi Malt powder sent by Radha Krishnam Raju in Eluru. They cost me 800 rupees. They are for our domestic consumption. Brought K V Rama Raju to my abode by 2:45 from Y Junction. He spent here for one hour. We two took a bus by 3:40 and reached the bus station in Anakapalle by 6:00. Thence we walked and reached Sri Srinivasa Function Hall in Sharada Nagar by 6:30. The marriage of Usha is taking place here this night. She is the younger daughter of Saroja, the younger daughter of my second paternal grandfather Dharma Raju. Saw many of my folks here on this occasion. Had dinner by 9:00. My uncle Vaamana (Kolukuluri Krishnam Raju) and I took two trucks and reached my abode by 11:50. Slept by 12:15.

14 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took my uncle Vaamana to the abode of his cousin at Sai Nagar in Tuni by 8:00 on my scooty. He came here to attend the occasion of “Gruha Pravesham” of his cousin Vaani. By 1:00 started walking to Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta from our abode. It may be about one kilometre via the over bridge. I walked for the sake of physical exercise in the sun. Luckily got a cab going to Narsipatnam. Got off it at the temple of Lord Rama in Bali Ghattam by 2:07. My HCU contemporary Kuracha Srinivasa Rao took me to their house. I saw him after a long time. I came here to attend the marriage of his first younger brother. I came here proactively. Srinivasa Rao does not talk with his friends proactively. It is his habit but not a bad quality. He loves and respects his friends honestly. I like his presence and character. We went into Narsipatnam by 3:30 to buy some items necessary for the occasion of marriage of his brother. I decided to see some Telugu film to spend my time at night. Saw Telugu film “Okkadine” on the screen 2 of Kanya Cinema Complex from 6:15 to 8:30. I enjoyed the ambience in this cinema more than the plot of this film. It is an ordinary feature film with a typical Telugu film story. I give 50 marks for 100 for this film. Had dinner by 9:30 on the terrace of the house of Kuracha Demudu. K S Rao was busy doing marriage related works. Spent some time feeling the spirit of this celebration. By 11:50 Reddy Ramana took me to his house in Subbarayudu Palem. He is the second brother-in-law of K S Rao. Slept by 12:15.

15 February (Friday)

Woke up by 3:30. Reddy Ramana and I reached the house of Kuracha Demudu in Bali Ghattam by 4:00 on bike. Watched the marriage of the brother of my friend K S Rao till 6:30. Went to bus station in Narsipatnam by 7:00. Took an Adduroad bound bus and reached Peda Gummuluru by 8:15. My father and I cut a few plantains from a tree in my residential plot of land opposite our house. My mother put two papayas, two dozen bananas, some aubergines and these plantains in a bag. I came here for them. They are grown in our land in and around our house. Spent talking with my brother Sambha in his house for one hour. Took a taxi in Adduroad by 9:10 and reached my rented abode in Payakaraopeta by 9:30. Rested on a cot for two hours. Went to Tuni by 3:30 on my scooty. Met the operator of S S Commercials at Post Office Street in Tuni. Explained him the work to be done by him. It is Telugu typing work. He has to listen to audio files posted on the website of Thridhandi China Jeeyar Swami and type up those words. Recently I got this freelance work from the freelancer.com portal. Raghu asked me to send a sample work to him initially. I assigned this typing work to this fellow. Spent talking with my friend Ramnadh in his abode by Court Street from 5:00 to 6:00. Returned home by 6:30. My mother-in-law and Anand came to my abode by 4:30 from D Yerra Varam. My father-in-law sent our old ONIDA colour television also in an auto rickshaw along with them. My HCU friend Samanta Sahu talked with me for 26 minutes from 9:42 over phone from Ita Nagar. Slept by 10:30.

16 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of January from my diary of 2013 on my computer. My friend Ramnadh came to my abode by 2:00 from Tuni on his bike. Filled up my details through the form given on the portal of Amway and joined it as a business owner under the sponsorship of Ramnadh. Amway products are good for health. They are selling about 175 products under different categories in India now. I like their health supplements more than other kinds of products. Almost every Indian is suffering from one or other health problem now. Their bad habits, attitudes and lifestyles made them so. Many Indians get into smoking, drinking and psychological disorder of cricket. They don’t think much about their health until a disaster of it takes them to a government or private hospital. Then they spend a lot of money for those medical tests and treatments. Indians don’t follow methods and measures of preventive care based on the advice of their doctors and well-wishers. Amway health related supplements are wonderful contributors to the system of preventive care. Amway brought a revolution in Indian health sector. Many Indian firms and their entrepreneurs are scared of its presence and growth in India. The prices of Amway products might look unbearable to many ordinary Indians. They can buy these products if they stop smoking, drinking and prostitution. If they want to live long with good health and happiness, they must use these herbal supplements. My Amway registered number is 10294014. I consider Amway folks as good social servants. Slept by 10:00.

17 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. From 8:00 to 10:00 Srijana performed five kinds of Nomu in Viswanadhapuram under the guidance of her mother and maternal grandmother. Their names are ‘Chithra Gupthudu’, ‘Gummadi Gowri’, ‘Thoudu Gowri’, ‘Challa Chukka’ and ‘Uppu Gowri’. Many Telugu women do it for prosperity and happiness in their lives. There are many other kinds of Nomu. She just got into this series today. Revathi and Srijana went to Kakinada by 1:00. Today their cousin Mantena Rama Raju held a reception in their rented abode celebrating the spirit of his marriage. He married a girl of Madhya Pradesh on the 15^th of this month in Chennai according to the procedure of Shri Ram Chandra Mission. Revathi and Srijana returned home by 7:30. Today my uncle Rama Raju of Golla Palem proposed me the idea of buying a lorry jointly for earning money for our survival. I have to invest about two lakh rupees into this venture. My folks may not agree for it because Rama Raju and I are financially very down now. We cannot bear risks. Today the fellow of S S Commercials told me that he does not have time to transcribe the audio version spiritual discourses of Thridhandi China Jeeyar Swami into word files, listening to them and typing them up on a computer. Very few folks are typing in Telugu now. I have to find somebody else to do this typing work. Otherwise I don’t get this freelance work from them. Saw the Telugu film “Pizza” in cinema Gautham from 2:40 to 5:00. It’s an interesting and exciting film. Slept by 10:00.

18 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu and its Sunday supplement. Srijana dropped me in Tuni by 1:30 on our scooty. I wanted to do some works in Tuni walking from place to place. Many shop owners close their units in Tuni in the afternoon for lunch and rest. I wonder about the potential of their business units and their lifestyles. How many employees can live like them in India? They are living in their native places like kings and queens with their relatives and self-respect. I spent in Indira Book House for one hour checking the titles of different books. I bought a small book of Emesco Publishers for 30 rupees. It is a Telugu-English-Hindi dictionary for learners. Bommakanti Srinivasacharyulu worked for it. Spent in the office of franchisee of Airtel for one hour. He likes Srijana and me as his customers. I am unable to send messages from my Airtel cellphone now. He talked with the folks of customer service. They said it would be resolved soon. I don’t text much but I need this facility on it. Consulted two Telugu typists and asked them if they can transcribe audio files into word files. They said they don’t do it. One fellow advised me to meet noted Telugu typist Vijaya. Met her by 5:00. She said she is very busy till the end of this month. Their family is moving from one abode to another in Tuni. Told her to do this work when she can. Went to Tuni railway station by 5:30. Stood in queue at reservation counter. Got a seat reserved for my uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada for Janmabhoomi Express for the 24^th of this month from Tuni to Secunderabad. He depends on me for such works. I enjoy his presence. Slept by 10:00.

19 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 10:00 on his Honda Activa scooty. We spent talking for 30 minutes. By 10:22 my friend Kapavarapu Venkata Raju called me up. He told me about a prospective Kshatriya bride for my friend Veeranjaneyulu. A fellow talked with me about this bride. I would email the photo and matrimonial profile of Veeru to them once they get back to me. They said she is an exceptional beauty. By 10:45 my uncle and I started to Peda Gummuluru on his scooty. We spent talking with my parents at our house from 11:15 to 11:40. Then we moved to the house of my paternal aunt Subhadra. My uncle asked his sister if she can accommodate her old and frail parents for some days in her house along with them. She said that her husband does not agree for it. We had lunch in our house by 1:30. We went to the coconut farm of my uncle by 2:00 on his scooty via village Gurrajupeta. He showed me his cashew trees. They looked green and beautiful with budding crop everywhere. This year he sold the seasonal crop to a familiar fellow in Gurrajupeta. He plucked seven coconuts from two trees in his farm. I had water of a coconut. His farm associate had one coconut. I put five coconuts in a bag for my parents. We gave them to my mother at our house by 4:00. Talked with my brother Sambha for a while. We started back by 4:30. Got off the scooty by 5:00 on NH-16 near my abode. My uncle proceeded to Tetagunta on his scooty. My father-in-law spent with us from 8:00 to 9:00. Slept by 10:00.

20 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Ironed my clothes from 7:00 to 8:30. My mother-in-law started to D Yerra Varam by 9:00 in the auto rickshaw of our familiar fellow. Anand wanted to go there along with her. His psychological attachment became so deep with his maternal grandparents that he is refusing to come back to us after spending there with them for some days. Recently he kept crying throughout the journey when coming back from there in an auto rickshaw along with his mother. Morning he started crying for his maternal grandfather soon after waking up. I decided not to send him to the abode of his maternal grandparents. He should live with his parents. He must enjoy our presence. We have to bring him up in that fashion. It is our moral responsibility. By 1:45 Srijana, Anand and I started to bus depot in Tuni on our scooty. Parked it under a mango tree. We took a Srisailam bound Express bus by 2:00 and reached Kathipudi by 2:45. The bus fare is 24 rupees for each of Srijana and me. Thence we took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached village Durgada by 3:15. We came to the house of my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma. Yesterday night my cousin Hari came here from Tuticorin. He is taking his mother, his wife Padma and his baby boy Bhupathi Varma to Tuticorin on the 22^nd of this month. We came here to see the baby boy. He is doing well. My aunt prepared fish soup for us. We all spent talking happily for some time. My uncle developed his house into a beautiful abode during the last four years. Went to sleep by 10:00.

21 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Srijana, Anand and I got ready by 5:20. My cousin Hari and we three reached Durgada Gate halt by 5:45. Srijana bought two tickets for 10 rupees to Tuni for her and me. Kakinada-Visakhapatnam passenger train arrived by 6:30. Hari took leave of us. We got into a thickly packed coach. We kept standing throughout. We got off it at Tuni by 7:30. We should go to bus station in Tuni to take our scooty. A rickshaw puller asked for 30 rupees to take us there from railway station. Another auto rickshaw puller asked for 40 rupees. We avoided both of them and took to walking. It may be half a kilometre. Paid 15 rupees for parking my scooty for about 18 hours in the scooter stand. They are charging 20 rupees for parking a two-wheeler for 24 hours. Srijana and Anand went to our abode on our scooty. Took a Narsipatnam bound bus by 8:00 and got off it at Thaandava Junction by 8:40. Collected 12,000 rupees from an hotelier here. My father-in-law told me to collect this money from this point. My in-laws are in the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near village Marripalem now. Yesterday evening they moved to this place from the rented abode in D Yerra Varam on the advice of D S N Raju. Took a bus by 8:50 and returned to Payakaraopeta by 9:30. Gave this money to Srijana. She is clearing a gold loan today. Her father arranged some money for it. Spent talking with K V P Raju in his abode from 2:00 to 4:00. Night read Telugu Velugu for two hours. It was cloudy, cool and pleasant today. Went to sleep by 9:30.

22 February (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually. I could not collect money from the folks of Sunshine International till now. Sai Kumar, the friend of my cousin Datla Krishna Varma, got a rich and influential friend in New Delhi. He said that he would resolve this issue. Recently he got affected with spondylitis. He is getting treated in Hyderabad. He attends my case once he goes to Delhi. I want to kill R P Shah and all associated with Sunshine International. They are fraudsters. They are playing with the lives of poor and innocent Indians. I complained to the Secretariat of Rashtrapati Bhavan, police in Delhi and the office of prime minister about it. They did not respond to me. Nobody is bothered about this issue except me. Cheats and criminals are living happily in India. Police, lawyers and politicians are in favour of them. Every Indian cannot get a job. Self-employment is a choice for livelihood for many. We cannot do business with our familiar people only always. If governments are corrupt in a democratic state, ordinary people suffer a lot. This case is an example for this set of things in India now. The folks of Sunshine International are not afraid of people in India. They are cheating them publicly. I became one of those victims now. I am looking for somebody else to help me. If I am a millionaire, I get R P Shah killed and their business unit burnt off. I have no money and a gang of professional killers to kill this unit of fraudsters. They are cheating one after one. I am deeply disturbed about these criminals and sinners in India. I remained as a silent observer of it. Slept by 10:30.

23 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana, Anand and I went to a nearby temple in Payakaraopeta by 7:30. Sai Mounika also came along with us. It is Shani Thrayodhashi today. Many Hindus specially worship planet Shani today to get rid of bad luck in their lives. Srijana subjected me to this special worship. We took flowers, black sesame seeds and raw sesame oil to this temple. There are the statues of nine planets in a corner of this temple by road. A priest made four of us worship planet Shani for about 15 minutes. Srijana paid about 240 rupees to this priest for conducting this special worship. I told Srijana not to subject me to such worship hereafter. Took a head bath before and after this worship. I should not consume any kind of oil today. Srijana and Anand also follow norms of this kind today. I believe that stars and planets cannot influence my life. I am subject to my Karma. Lord Krishna guides me in this process. Srijana and Anand left for China Kapavaram by 10:00 in the car of A S N Raju of Viswanadhapuram. The naming ceremony of a baby is there tomorrow. Srijana is going there as a relative. Went to Tuni railway station by 2:30 on my scooty. My uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada got off Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger. Brought him to my abode. We spent talking about many things. Night my house owner K S N Raju, Chanti Babu and I spent talking about many things from 8:00 to 10:30. My uncle told us about humanity, virtues and tradition. He said that our history decides our present. Slept by 11:00.

24 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:30. My uncle Chanti Babu and I got ready by 6:00. Surya Kumari prepared Upma for us. We two reached a rice store in Payakaraopeta by 6:15 on my scooty. My uncle bought 50 kilograms of rice for 1,500 rupees to take for his daughter Sirisha in Hyderabad. They packed 25 kilograms of rice in each of two sacks. My uncle got a bag with him. We reached Tuni railway station by 6:30 along with these three items of luggage. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:30. My uncle got into reservation coach D-1 of it. His seat number is 47 in it. I packed drinking water, curd rice and Upma for him. He spends in Hyderabad for some days. His daughter Sirisha and son-in-law Anantha Varma enjoy his presence there. Returned home by 8:00. Spent all the day at home reading today’s newspapers. Morning the naming ceremony of male baby took place in China Kapavaram. I knew that they named him Aakish. Srijana and Anand enjoyed it. Afternoon they went to the lake at Kolleru along with their relatives. They saw thousands of beautiful birds there. They went boating on the lake. Srijana captured the beauty of this place with our Sony digital camera. They started back in car by 6:30. Srijana and Anand reached our abode by 11:30 at night. This night Maagha Pournami fair takes place on the beach at village Revu Polavaram. Called up my familiar folks and asked them if they come there to celebrate this moonlit night on the sands of it in the company of people. Nobody expressed interest in this pursuit. I wondered about the attitudes of these idiots. I have passion for moonlit nights on beach. Slept by 11:45.

25 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Many enthusiasts bath with seawater today in the beaches on the occasion of Maagha Pournami. This year I did not go to the beach at Revu Polavaram to take a holy bath there. Somehow I felt aversion for the people of India. They are interested in smoking, drinking and debauchery but not in fairs at villages at night. How many ordinary Indians are passionate about moonlit nights, beauty of nature and beaches now? They are ruining their lives with bad habits. They are craving for false prestige. They are not encouraging honest politicians. They are not questioning the irregularities in society. I need not bath along with such Indians today. I can bath in a beach on any day. By 10:00 took my son Anand to primary health centre near Y Junction in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. A nurse administered two polio drops to him. Yesterday Srijana did not get it done being busy doing other things. By 11:00 my friend Ramnadh came to my abode along with his wife and child. He showed the power of four Amway products, in comparison to similar products, made by Indian companies, available in the market now. He gave Amway cards to Srijana and me. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 2:45 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 3:15. My brother Sambha and I spent talking with Daraboina Ramu in Ramayyapatnam from 3:40 to 4:00. Now he is working abroad as a pipe fitter. I asked him to guide me in this direction. Sambha and I spent in our mango garden at hills from 4:10 to 5:10. Took a bus in Adduroad by 5:30 and reached my abode by 6:00. Slept by 11:00. 

26 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day at home. Afternoon spent with my friend K V P Raju for three hours going to Payakaraopeta and Tuni along with him on his bike for Madhura Milk cash collection. Today Pavan Kumar Bansal presented the Railway Budget in Lok Sabha for the financial year 2013-14. He is a cabinet minister. In this context, I have a few observations and remarks about Indian Railways. The average speed of trains is 80 kilometres per hour. They serve low quality food to passengers in reservation coaches. Vendors exploit ordinary passengers in the same manner in general coaches and railway stations. Buying tickets at stations and booking them online is difficult. There are many corrupt, inefficient and careless employees in key positions. They are not interested in safe and secure management of trains, stations and departments at various levels. Goods trains have no enough tracks to run continuously. They move giving way to passenger trains always. Very few lines and stations are developed in India after independence. Indians owe a lot to the British rulers for what they did to Indian Railways before 1947. Indian railway ministers have no patriotism and national outlook. They always focus on the development of their respective regions and states only but not India as a whole. Rich passengers are somewhat happy with the services of Indian Railways. Illiterate and poor Indians are travelling in third class coaches with low standard facilities. Many TTEs and squads are worse than beggars. They earn money like prostitutes. Indian Railways reflect the corruption of Indian rulers for years after independence and the bad luck of Indians for years to come. Slept by 10:00.

27 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Surya Kumari and Srijana went to Tuni by 9:45 to attend their Yoga classes. These classes end soon. Srijana did not take Anand along with them today because he is making noise in that silent atmosphere. He cried about it. He is going to these Yoga classes every day along with them on our scooty. He did not like to stay back with me but could not avoid it. Took him to our nearby railway track for familiar outdoor enjoyment. We sat under a mango tree beside the track. We were talking with an old man here. He bought the crop of this mango tree for this season from its owner. Meanwhile a young fellow came to us walking along the track and stopped at us. He was speaking Hindi. I asked him from where he came. I could not understand his Hindi well. I thought that he got off some train at Tuni railway station. He said that he belongs to a tribe in Jharkhand. He was hungry. He was looking for food. I gave him 20 rupees and advised him to go back to railway station. Recently a few children got abducted in this locality. Thieves and robbers are disturbing peace in the society through frequent thefts, robberies and murders. In this context, people are not allowing unfamiliar persons into their homes and localities. They may take him as a dangerous fellow. Who offers him food and shelter in this scenario? He looked poor and innocent. He may not be a thief or terrorist. How can he prove that he is an honest and innocent Indian? Where does he go? How does he get money and food until he reaches his native place? India is becoming unsafe and insecure day by day. From 6:30 to 9:00 saw Telugu film “Shathruvu” in cinema Sai Mahal along with my friend Sri Rama Raju. It is an interesting and exciting film. Aksha is an impressive beauty. Enjoyed watching this film throughout. Slept by 10:00.

28 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:30. Got ready by 5:30. Srijana dropped me at Tuni railway station by 6:20 on our scooty. Bought a ticket for 20 rupees to Visakhapatnam. Kakinada-Visakhapatnam passenger train arrived by 7:10. Got into the third coach of this train from the rear end of it. This train reached Narsipatnam Road railway station by 7:45. My familiar fellow Daraboina Ramu of Ramayyapatnam got into this coach according to our plan. This train reached Duvvada station by 8:45. We got off it here. We took a sharing auto rickshaw and moved to old Gajuwaka. Ramu took me to the mechanical shed of Sri Hari by main road. He is training youngsters as fitters, electricians, welders and sending them to many places in the Middle East as contract labourers. Ramu went abroad four years ago through this private agent. He is working as a pipe fitter with a firm in Abu Dhabi now. He came here on long leave. He told Sri Hari that I am interested to go to some country as a contract labourer. Sri Hari told me to get my passport renewed. It turned invalid in 2011. Reached the abode of my brother Srinivas at Sujatha Nagar by 12:00. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani offered me lunch with chicken curry. My nephew Sujan is preparing for his second year Intermediate annual exams. Took a Narsipatnam bound Express bus at NAD Kotha Road by 1:30 and reached Narsipatnam by 3:00. The bus fare is 60 rupees. Took a Tuni bound ordinary bus and got off it at Thaandava Junction by 3:30. My father-in-law sent his familiar fellow Dhonga Babu to receive me. Reached the agricultural farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem by 4:10. Slept by 10:00.

1 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night I could sleep well. It was cold in this agricultural farm. It is away from air and sound pollution. Recently they planted teak saplings in this farm. They are supplying water through drip irrigation system. Dandu Surya Narayana Raju and his younger son Venkata Raju are spending much time in this farm supervising this plantation and irrigation work. They belong to village Ardhavaram in West Godavari district. They are living in Bhima Varam now. They are getting a two-storied building constructed in this farm now. One portion is for their farm supervisor and one portion is for the owner of the farm. They brought a Jersey cow from Bhima Varam. They bought a colour television for my in-laws, who are staying in this farm. This farmland is near village Marripalem. My in-laws are comfortable and happy in this farm. I like this pleasant and soothing atmosphere among hills. Moonlit nights are beautiful and inspiring here. D S N Raju and Venkata Raju spent here from 8:30 to 9:30. They saw my CV and took a copy of it. They want to help me find a suitable job. They left for Bhima Varam by 9:45 in their car. My father-in-law dropped Srijana, Anand and me at Thaandava Junction by 2:30 on his bike. We took a bus and reached our abode in Payakaraopeta by 4:00. Paid 3,500 rupees to Surya Kumari by 4:30 towards rent for our two-bedroomed portion for the last month. Night applied for a passport, online, for me. I will try to go to some foreign country if there is considerable remuneration for the work I do. I need a good job. Went to sleep by 11:00.

2 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana, Anand and I took a bus at Y Junction by 8:00 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 8:45. Srijana brought five litres of Jersey cow milk from our abode to prepare cakes of Kova for Anand. This milk belongs to the Jersey cow of D S N Raju of Bhima Varam. Srijana prepared about 140 cakes of Kova with this milk in the front yard of house of my brother Sambha. Janaki helped her in this work. Had lunch by 12:30. I am interested to make my parents use a few Amway products to improve their health. They are not interested in using them. They are using English medicines prescribed by a doctor at INS Kalyani Hospital at Scindia in Visakhapatnam. They are getting them freely. They don’t like spending money for their health but gold and other assets minding the future of their sons and grandchildren. This is typical mentality of majority of Indians born before 1960. They work and live for their children. My father gave me 10,000 rupees by 1:00. He wanted to buy a long-term insurance policy with this money for Anand. He withdrew from this idea as I opposed to it strongly. Now I am using this money for my expenses. Every month I need about 10,000 rupees to keep going with Srijana and Anand. I have been living like a parasite for long. Lord Krishna is making me experience the life of a parasite. Collected a papaya and some plantains from the trees in my residential plot. Srijana, Anand and I took a bus at Adduroad by 5:30 and reached our abode by 6:10. Moonlight was on around us. Slept by 10:00.

3 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. I am trying to collect money from the folks of Sunshine International. I am sending emails to police and legal agencies. There is no reply from them. They have no time and interest to check criminals and resolve issues of this order. The folks of Secretariat of Rashtrapati Bhawan, the office of Prime Minister or Delhi police did not get back to me. They would not have read my documents of complaint. They write a lot on their websites about their services. They don’t do anything in reality based on our phone calls and emails. Can I kill these police and lawyers? They are authorized custodians and interpreters of law and order in this nation. The corruption, negligence and cruelty of police and lawyers are creating many criminals and fraudsters in India. Ordinary people cannot depend on police and lawyers in India. They further torture sensitive and helpless victims. I am one of them now. I am suffering now because of the corrupt and inefficient systems of governance. My uncle Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju (father of Murali and Bala) and I took an ordinary bus at Golla Apparao Centre in Tuni by 2:35 and reached Kakinada by 5:00. We met Bala, Narendra Varma (my cousin) and Krishnam Raju at SRCM point. We all persuaded Bala to marry Lavanya of Gollalagunta. She is the third daughter of Subba Lakshmi. He does not like to marry Lavanya. He wants to marry a beautiful, educated and unfamiliar girl. His parents, relatives and well-wishers want him to marry Lavanya. Bala is disturbed about it. Had supper in his abode by 8:00. Slept by 9:30.

4 March (Monday)

Woke up by 4:00. Bala dropped his father and me at Kakinada Town railway station by 4:30 on his bike. Kakinada-Visakhapatnam passenger train arrived by 4:45. We two got off it at Tuni railway station by 6:52. My uncle K S N Raju left for the industrial unit of Deccan Fine Chemicals Limited near Kesavaram. I reached home by 7:20 walking across over bridge. Datla Krishna Varma stopped taking my phone calls intentionally. He is unable to help me in settling the case of Sunshine International through the involvement of his friend. By 10:30 got the documents ready to meet a lawyer. By 12:30 paid 1,124 rupees to the folks of Opulentus. Ashwini talked with me about my eligibility to go to Denmark. They are charging 1,000 rupees for Denmark Evaluation Report. By 2:30 K V P Raju took his SUN DIRECT dish material to his abode from ours. Our television stopped functioning. We have to buy a new dish. By 5:00 tried for an appointment online through the portal of Ministry of External Affairs of Government of India. My passport office is in Visakhapatnam. Within 30 seconds, all the slots got booked. I did not get one though I tried for a slot during these 30 seconds only. The syndicate of private agents and the passport officer are committing this fraud every day at passport office in Visakhapatnam. We have to pay them and get passport through them. It is a network of criminals. By 5:30 met senior advocate M V Surya Narayana Raju in his house at Kothapeta in Tuni and submitted documents and proofs related to the case of Sunshine International. My cousin Narendra Varma came to our abode by 6:00. Slept by 10:30.

5 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to Thaandava Cooperative Sugar Factory in Payakaraopeta by 9:45 on my scooty along with my cousin Narendra Varma. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy collected and kept sugarcanes for me because he knows that I like them. Collected them from him by 10:15. Srijana, Anand, Naren and I took a bus at Tuni bus depot by 11:00 and reached Thaandava Junction by 12:00. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw and reached the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near Marripalem by 12:15. We had lunch by 12:45. Naren and I walked through this farm for 30 minutes and saw the beauty of this place. Somebody is growing mango plants in the farm beside this. He is rearing about 100 Emu birds in a corner of this farm. We enjoyed this walk on fertile land surrounded by trees and hills. We had watermelon in the abode of my in-laws on this farm. A fellow brought Naren and me to Thaandava Junction by 2:20 on his bike. We took a bus and reached Tuni bus depot by 3:20. Naren took a Rajahmundry bound Express bus by 3:25 for Jaggampeta. Thence he goes to Gollalagunta. Took our scooty from the parking stand and reached my abode by 3:45. Even today I tried to book an appointment for the physical submission of my passport application at Visakhapatnam. All the online slots got booked within 30 seconds from 5:00. Spent talking with my M.A. English classmate Shiva Kumar from 5:30 to 6:30 in his room at Rajugari Beedu. We had supper in Babu Mess by 8:30. He sponsored it for me. We two came to my abode by 8:50. We had sugarcanes. We spent talking. Slept by 10:00.

6 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Shiva Kumar left for his room by 6:05. I enjoyed his presence. We talked about our HCU folks. By 9:00 went to a nearby salon and had a haircut. Saw the Telugu film “Mr. Pelli Koduku” in cinema Sai Mahal from 2:30 to 5:00. My friend Bojja Shankara Rao of Ramayyapatnam also watched it sitting beside me. It is an interesting film. Sunil must have struggled a lot to get six pack body for this film. He danced very well in this film for all the songs. I wonder thinking about the hard work and efforts of technicians and artistes to make a film excellent. In fact, most of the viewers in India are rogues and idiots. They don’t encourage great filmmakers in India. By 5:15 went to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni. Paid 1,000 rupees towards interest for the 80,000 rupees, which we borrowed from them earlier. They charged 125 paise of interest for 100 rupees for the last month. Today they changed it into a one-rupee monthly interest plan. I have to pay 800 rupees for 80,000 rupees per month according to this scheme. Spent talking with my friend Ramanadha Vasan for one hour. A fellow in Kathipudi is able to buy government jobs for eligible enthusiasts. They collect 3 to 10 lakh rupees from a candidate for a state or central government job. He is a secret private agent of Damodara Raja Narasimha in this region. His cellphone number is 9676971848. Brought Srijana and Anand home by 7:45 on my scooty. They took a bus at Thaandava Junction. Srijana brought Jersey cow milk and curd from the abode of her parents. Slept by 10:00.

7 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. From 9:00 to 12:00 typed out a blog titled “Syndicate” on my computer. Meanwhile power cut occurred. I wrote this blog being infuriated with the experiences I had in getting an appointment slot online to meet the folks of passport office in Visakhapatnam. The concerning passport officer, office staff and private agents formed into a syndicate. They don’t allow outsiders to get appoint slots online. We have to meet members of this syndicate to get a passport. There are many such syndicates in India now. The state and central government employees are partners in these syndicates. They share profits on percentage basis. The president, prime minister of India and all ministers know about these networks of fraudsters in India. They are indirect promoters of these syndicates. Many state and central government ministers get their share of profit from these syndicates regularly. This is a kind of public-private partnership system of regional and national networks. Ordinary Indians are the victims of this culture in India. They cannot understand the intensity of this corruption observing the policies and schemes of the state and central governments at surface level. They restored power supply by 6:00. Posted this blog on my blog site by 7:00. Spent all the day worrying about the state of affairs in India now. Power cuts got intensified in Andhra Pradesh. They range from 2 to 12 hours in cities, towns and villages. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

8 March (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning spent at home reading Telugu daily Eenadu and Telugu monthly Telugu Velugu. Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Gundello Godhaari” in cinema Gautham from 2:30 to 5:00. It is the story of a girl and a boy, who marry after a series of painful events in their personal lives. The background score of Ilayaraja is extraordinary in this film. He sang a song. Music suppressed the words of lyrics. Lakshmi Prasanna, my platonic friend, appeared and acted well in this film. I found her performance, smiles, expressions and dresses impressive in some scenes. Tapsy looks very beautiful in this film. Boys don’t forget her romantic appearance in some scenes. I somehow got pity for her character in this film. Many conservative and lovesick girls think and behave like her in their real lives in many parts of the world. Nagendra Kumar made it into an interesting film. He captured the beauty of River Godavari and actress Tapsy well in this film. However, every scene does not excite us towards anxiously waiting for the following scene. Today I got an email from Wilson Anderson. He attached a one-page document to his email. He wrote that he is a native of Scotland. He is looking for a resident manager to take care of his house and two children in Warwickshire. He and his wife work elsewhere. He pays £ 3,500 per month for this position. I replied to him positively. I forwarded this email to my friend Krishna Kishore in London to seek his advice in this regard. I need a passport immediately. Slept by 10:00.

9 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 8:00 searched online for the details of private passport agents based in Visakhapatnam. Contacted Mohammed Siraj over phone. He asked for 5,000 rupees to get a passport for me within one week through Tatkal scheme. I agreed to it. Got all my documents photocopied for this purpose and emailed them to Siraj by 11:00. I felt like getting my passport immediately to get the job offered by Wilson Anderson. Night checked online about the trustworthiness of this email. Discovered that it’s a scam email. Today Ashwini Chavadi of Opulentus called me up from their office in Hyderabad. She told me that I am not eligible to go to Denmark as a skilled labourer. I spent 1,124 rupees of my cousin Vasu to get this Denmark Evaluation Report. Ashwini behaved carelessly in considering me as a suitable candidate to go to Denmark. She should not have suggested me this option and make me pay this evaluation fee. I regret it. She said that I may be eligible to go to Canada. She would inform me about those particulars by the end of this month. Now I am obsessed with the idea of getting a passport and going to some country for a job. I won’t be respected and paid well in India as a content writer, editor or teacher. I like to go abroad for some job. I want money but not respect or pride as an employee abroad. Many Indians treat their employees as automated machines and helpless slaves. They don’t follow labour laws in many private firms. Slept by 10:00.

10 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. There are power cuts during nights also. Many are buying inverters to get rid of this problem. I cannot buy it in the present financial crisis. I am unable to sleep well at night due to these power cuts. It is Maha Shiva Raathri today. It is a special day for Lord Shiva and His devotees. I did not do anything special on this occasion. Srijana did it. Srijana, Anand and I started to Tuni by 8:00 on our scooty. I met advocate M V Surya Narayana Raju in his office. Srijana and Anand went to a nearby temple of Lord Shiva from Bank Colony on scooty to specially worship Lord Shiva. I gave two more proof documents to this advocate. They are an ICICI Bank receipt showing that I paid 64,000 rupees into the current account of Sunshine International and their classified ad in Telugu daily Eenadu in June 2012. He did not read my reports till now. He is a busy and noted lawyer in Tuni. He told me to meet him by 5:15, tomorrow evening, to further discuss this case. Srijana, Anand and I spent in the rented abode of Sekhar for 30 minutes. Saw Telugu film “Mahankaali” in cinema Surya Mahal from 2:30 to 5:00. Raja Sekhar acted well in it. It is an interesting, exciting and educative film. It portrays the current trend of law and order in India. Many police are working like devoted servants to politicians, gangsters and billionaires. Honest police are victims of this corrupt and unethical system. Jeevitha directed it well. Srijana and Anand left for Viswanadhapuram by 7:30. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. My house owner K S N Raju and I started to the seashore at village Pentakota by 9:00 on his bike. We reached there by 9:30. He parked his bike half a kilometre away from the sea. We walked on the sandy path from here. Many enthusiasts were taking holy baths in the seashore on the occasion of Maha Shiva Raathri. We too bathed with seawater by 10:30. It’s a pleasant experience for me. Took video of this celebration with my digital camera. I think Indians are more interested in fairs, celebrations and celebrities than their health and standards. They participate in such events and activities, which don’t make them think and question. We cannot educate and change Indians. Thinkers, idealists and scientists appear like buffoons to most of ordinary Indians. They like hypocrites and actors. They are craving for money, comforts and material attractions but not virtues. I wonder about the selfishness of Indians. India may be a holy land but Indians are not holy now. Most of them are thinking and behaving like sinners and criminals now. We returned home by 11:30. Met advocate M V Surya Narayana Raju in his office (house) at Bank Colony in Tuni by 5:15. He scanned my reports and proofs related to the case of Sunshine International. He advised me to consult a lawyer in Elamanchili because this case falls under the jurisdiction of that court. He said that one should not depend on police, lawyers, judges and courts in India for justice. They further torture and humiliate victims. Slept by 9:30.

12 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to State Bank of India in Payakaraopeta by 10:20. Deposited 1,500 rupees into the SBI account of Mohammed Siraj. His account number is 31920736318. His bank account is at Labbipet in Vijayawada. I think he is living in Visakhapatnam now. I got his details through online search. He is a private passport agent. I am depending on him to get a passport for me through Tatkal scheme. I already emailed the scanned copies of my proof documents to him. By 11:00 emailed the scanned copy of my HP domestic LPG gas document to him for the proof of my present residence. I paid the initial amount of service charge to him today this way. What if he cheats me? I cannot subject him to law. This is how we do many things in India. We have to believe in others. We search for proofs when others cheat us. We cannot do everything taking preparatory precautions from a legal perspective. Srijana and Anand returned from Viswanadhapuram by 2:00. Srijana brought papayas, coconuts and homemade snacks from there. By 3:30 the parents of Srijana came to our abode. They brought grapes. I am like a pregnant woman now. Everybody brings something for me to eat or drink. I stay at home most of the time. Typed out a blog titled “Interview with Manmohan” from 6:00 to 9:30. It is a work of fiction. I made Manmohan express his real self. He cannot speak so before media. He is acting a role now. I discussed the state of India and Indians in this blog. Slept by 10:30.

13 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:30. Srijana and her father started to Gollalagunta by 5:00 on a bike. Recently they sold their two acres of paddy farmland to a fellow. It is under the irrigation area of Chembudu Cheruvu near Gollalagunta. Jagannadha Raju, the brother of my father-in-law, also came to Gollalagunta, this morning, from Hyderabad. My maternal uncle Varma wrote an agreement this afternoon in Gollalagunta specifying the details of sale of this land to the buyer and seller. The buyer paid some amount of money today to my folks towards advance. They get this land registered in their name paying the remaining amount of money in May. This land belongs to Mantena Venkata Ramana Raju, who passed away recently. Srijana and her father returned to our abode in Payakaraopeta by 4:00. My in-laws left for the agricultural farm near Marripalem by 4:30 on bike. Today I spent most of my time getting photocopies of my proof documents required to be submitted along with my passport application. By 6:15 got an affidavit (legal document stating about my present residence in Payakaraopeta) prepared and signed by a notary in Tuni. Paid 200 rupees to him for this service. My passport agent Mohammed Siraj told me to go to passport office in Visakhapatnam tomorrow morning and so these hasty arrangements for it. Took a private vehicle at Y Junction by 6:35 and reached NAD Kotha Road by 8:30. He took 80 rupees. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached the abode of my brother Srinivas at Sujatha Nagar by 8:50. Slept by 11:00.

14 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 2:30. Thereafter I could not sleep despite my efforts. This is how my brain gets scheduled a night if there is some important assignment the following morning. I am disappointed with its excessive sense of punctuality and discipline. My eyes turned weak due to very low sleep. Took two auto rickshaws and reached the passport office at Murali Nagar by 7:40. Stood in the short Tatkal Scheme queue outside this building. They allowed us in by 8:50. They refused my Tatkal passport application because I have no certificate from the Commissioner of Police. A fellow advised me to rush to passport office at Marripalem and request for a slot today. Rushed to this place in a sharing auto rickshaw. My A P R School (Bhoopathipalem) contemporary B V Subbi Reddy appeared me here. I know that he is working here. We met after 20 years. He received me cordially and took me to his space of work in this office. He wrote a little on my normal passport application and got it signed by the passport officer here. I presented my book Stories of Love and Beauty to this passport officer when he asked for it. Returned to passport office at Murali Nagar by 11:30. They allowed me in. They took my photo and fingerprints by 3:30. Paid 1,500 rupees to them towards passport fee. They checked my original documents. They cancelled my old passport issued in 2001 at Hyderabad when I was a student in the University of Hyderabad. Filled up feedback form by 4:10 and left this office. Mohammed Siraj did nothing for me in this process. He earned 1,500 rupees this way immorally. Such is the broker system in India. Took a Vijayawada bound bus at NAD Kotha Road Junction by 4:20 and reached home by 6:30. Slept by 10:30.

15 March (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning updated my one-page CV adding one more page of content to it. I am trying for jobs abroad through online search. Morning my brother Sambha collected the white ration card of Srijana and me from the ration depot in Peda Gummuluru. Srijana, Anand and I are the family unit for it. We can use it as a proof of our permanent residence. From 2:30 to 5:00 saw Telugu film “Ruy Ruy” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir along with my friend Sri Rama Raju. My familiar Kshatriya fellow of Peda Gummuluru appeared for a few seconds in a scene of this film. We enjoyed watching it. This film portrays the bad culture of youth in the present Indian society. They are using low standard abusive language in their daily oral communication. We don’t hear most of those abusive dialogues in this film. I generally don’t like going to see films with such shallow titles. When most of the films have such ridiculous titles, I have to see them. I observed bad passport agents around the passport office at Murali Nagar in Visakhapatnam. They are taking 100 rupees for a printout also. They are like dangerous leeches in a poisonous pond. We can witness the cruel mentalities of Indians in this region. They are criminals and sinners of India. Mohammed Siraj cheated me taking 1,500 rupees from me. Getting a passport became a big issue in this region for us. Passport agents became a strong and cruel syndicate in this locality. Slept by 10:00.

16 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. From 10:00 to 12:30 applied for some jobs in Canada through online job portals. Most of them are food counter attendant positions. Most of world population is spending much money for food, drinks and sex now. There are very few jobs in writing and editing field. Most of these jobs cause a lot of stress and strain to editors and writers. Now I am interested in physical work. My mind is filled with many thoughts. I am not peaceful internally due to the external conditions around me. I am not qualified and experienced as an English teacher though I can teach. I should not create fake certificates because I am an idealist. I cannot earn much in India as an English teacher or lecturer. I should go abroad for some suitable or unsuitable job. I should earn money to come out of my present financial crisis. Getting a job abroad is not that easy. There are tests to pass, regulations to follow and visa to obtain after a series of events of struggle and wait in this process. I need money to get into a process of earning money. I cannot cheat or scare others as a fraudster or gangster to earn money. I can write two books every year but publishers are commercial agents now. They are asking for money to publish works of newcomers. Markets are being flooded with many books every year. There are no corresponding number of passionate readers in India now. Indians don’t want knowledge, wisdom and books but shallow interests and pursuits. I am failing as an earner in this complex set of things in India. Slept by 10:00.

17 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home. Today also I applied for some jobs abroad online. Many countries have a distinct accent of English. We cannot understand those accents easily. Many countries want different certificates and levels of experience for every job. Getting a visa is a complex and long process for newcomers. If we consult visa service agents and agencies, they collect a lot of money from us towards service charges. I am trying for a foreign job with all these limitations and drawbacks as an enthusiast. I get jobs in cities like Hyderabad, Mumbai, Delhi and Bengaluru. I don’t like to live and work as an employee in any city of India. I tired observing the culture and lifestyles of entrepreneurs and employees in Hyderabad. I want to live as a farmer among hills doing something for my livelihood. I have no land or money to do it right now. I cannot live like a saint because I am a married creature. I am responsible to take care of my wife and child. I want to be in touch with my parents. I came to my native place with this notion. I am unable to help them financially but I am happy seeing them frequently in our house at Peda Gummuluru. I am disturbed about my present financial and psychological state of life. How and when can I come out of this crisis and distress? We remember God when we are hopeless and helpless. I love Lord Krishna. I am a speck in His cosmos. I hope He guides me kindly. I wait for solutions and peace. Slept by 10:00.

18 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. My in-laws came to my abode by 8:00 from the agricultural farm near Marripalem. They have to attend an adjournment session at the court in Tuni today. The family members of a police threw stones on their house in K O Mallavaram about eight years ago. This court is taking this much time to resolve this issue. Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju, the father of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, came to my abode by 1:30 from Durgada. They found a suitable bridegroom in Payakaraopeta, for their cousin Swati. His cousin Rajesh brought the photo of bride, his sister, to my abode by 2:00, from their house in Visakhapatnam. I took Rajesh to Prakash educational institution beside NH-16 by 2:30. He saw Pusapati Gajapathi Raju, the prospective bridegroom of his sister Swati. He felt happy scanning the look of this boy. Satya Narayana Raju and I went to the abode of Pusapati Venkata Ramana Raju in Rajugari Beedu by 3:00. Swati is the daughter of the younger sister of Satya Narayana Raju. Recently they initiated discussion with P V R Raju about this match. His son Gajapathi Raju is a handsome and disciplined boy. The party of Swati found this boy suitable for their interests and expectations. We gave the photo of Swati to P V R Raju. He told us about their assets. He asked for one lakh rupees for his daughter for the sake of regional tradition. Both the parties are interested in each other. By 3:30 Srijana, her maternal grandmother and Anand started to Rambilli on our scooty. It is a casual visit. Slept by 10:00.

19 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night I could not sleep for more than an hour. Satya Narayana Raju and I slept in one of our two bedrooms by the front of our portion in the ground floor. There are two cots in this bedroom. We slept on both of these cots. There are many mosquitoes in this room. I kept killing them with an electronic bat once for every hour. I did it like an imposed and inescapable duty throughout the night. It was like an organized battle between mosquitoes and me. They did not allow us to sleep despite dying one after one in each phase of this battle. I killed about 100 mosquitoes in this battle. They hid behind many items in this room. They started biting us when we were getting ready to sleep. I wondered about their spirit of unity and bravery in this battle. Satya Narayana Raju left for Elamanchili by 2:00 by a train from Tuni. He took the photos of Gajapathi Raju to show to his sister and finalize this match for his cousin Swati. My uncle Chanti Babu came to our abode by 2:00 by train from Durgada. Srijana and Anand returned from Rambilli by this time. Her maternal grandmother enjoyed this trip to Rambilli on our scooty along with Srijana. Our familiar Kshatriya fellow Ravi Raju showed a few residential plots of land to Chanti Babu and me in Seshadri Nagar layout near Tuni by 4:30. My uncle wants to buy a plot for his daughter Sirisha. Night K S N Raju, Chanti Babu and I spent talking for two hours. Slept by 10:30.

20 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana went to the rented abode of her maternal uncle Sekhar in Tuni by 8:00. Last night her maternal grandfather Dantuluri Jagannadha Raju walked away from the rented abode of Sekhar when all others were asleep. He is affected with dementia. He lost much of his memory. They searched for him for two hours. They found him at a filling station by NH-16 near Tuni. By 8:30 my house owner K S N Raju, my uncle Chanti Babu, local real estate agent Dhivaanam and I went to Seshadri Nagar layout on two bikes. Meanwhile Bakkanna Raju came here. My uncle expressed interest in a plot of land measuring 166 square yards in this layout. The cost of each square yard of this land is 3,200 rupees. My uncle wants to buy it for his daughter Sirisha. He left for Durgada by 10:30. Srijana, her mother and Anand left for Viswanadhapuram by 2:00. Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju, the father of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, came to my abode by 8:30 at night. He said that his younger sister cannot give one lakh rupees to the sister of the prospective bridegroom Gajapathi Raju. Her husband is a drunkard. He got suspended thrice from police service. He is likely to die soon. Her son is working as a home guard in police department. He is getting 6,000 rupees a month from this job. They have no considerable assets. I have to talk with P V R Raju about the vulnerability of the parents of Swati in this regard. Satya Narayana Raju found my rented abode spacious and comfortable for my guests to stay. He came here from Peda Gummuluru exclusively for the comfort of sleeping here. Felt happy about it. Slept by 10:30.

21 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night Satya Narayana Raju and I slept on our big iron cot under the shield of mosquito net. We could sleep well. He felt happy about it. He left for Parimi Tadika by 8:00. Went to the house of Mantrala Raju by 2:00. Pusapati Venkata Ramana Raju came here by 2:30. I told him that the parents of Swati cannot give one lakh rupees to his daughter according to traditional expectation (called Aada Paduchu Katnam in Telugu). He insisted on it. Called up Satya Narayana Raju and told him to somehow arrange this amount of money. Advised them to sell one acre of their paddy farmland at village Ramula Deva Puram for this purpose. Gajapathi Raju and Swati would be a good couple. I am trying to get their marriage materialized. My friend Ramnadh came to the abode of Mantrala Raju by 3:00. P V R Raju told us some tales from Indian mythology. We listened to him very attentively. We wondered about his knowledge and his storytelling skills. Brought Ramnadh to my abode by 5:00. Bought a pack of Persona soaps and a 500 ml bottle of ‘home’ liquid. This liquid is useful for washing clothes. These are Amway products. Paid 507 rupees to him for these products. Srijana came from Viswanadhapuram by 6:30. She brought papayas, sapodillas and mangoes from there. Now she is busy helping her father clear some dues of a bank and moneylender. My M.A. English classmate Shiva Kumar came to my abode by 9:30. Offered him supper with chicken curry, curd and bananas. Slept by 11:00.

22 March (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Shiva Kumar left for his room at Rajugari Beedu by 6:10. Srijana started to Viswanadhapuram by 7:00. By 9:30 Datla Surapa Raju and I started to Nakkapalli on his scooter. We reached the office of Sub Registrar by 9:45. Surapa Raju is the husband of Padmavati, a sister-in-law of my house owner K S N Raju. They are living in Devi Nagar. Their house is very near to our rented abode. Today the registration of a residential plot of land is taking place here. They are relatives of Surapa Raju. We two came here to sign the registration documents as witnesses. It was over by 11:00. Went to our house in Peda Gummuluru by 11:20. Had lunch by 11:45. Spent talking with my parents for 15 minutes. Collected my white ration card from them. Recently the ration depot dealer issued it in our village. Spent talking with my brother Sambha in Adduroad for 20 minutes. He is drinking honey added lemon water only daily to reduce his excessive fat. He avoided consuming hard foods altogether. Took a bus and returned home by 2:00. Went to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni by 3:00. Borrowed 39,000 rupees from them pledging a gold chain of my mother-in-law. My father-in-law uses this money to clear his dues. Spent with my friend Madhav of Ramayyapatnam from 5:30 to 6:15 in my rented abode. He said that he would help me get two lakh rupees from the folks of Sunshine International in New Delhi and talk with Lakshmi. Shiva Kumar and I had supper by 8:00 in our abode. Slept by 10:00 for my dreams.

23 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Shiva Kumar left for his rented room in Rajugari Beedu by 6:05. Srijana and Anand came here by 9:00 from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem. It is the marriage day of Srijana and me today. Five years lapsed since we married in 2008. I think one can keep one’s life partner comfortable and happy providing him or her with a lot of freedom and fewer imposed responsibilities. Women are more sensitive and vulnerable than men in their lives and professions. We should appreciate their virtues. Women suffer in a society if men think and behave like businessmen and sadists towards them. Women and girls don’t become prostitutes without men. Every woman can live like a goddess if there are gods only around them. I love the beauty of girls and women because I can see and feel it immediately. I need a lot of time to like or dislike a female assessing her character. I cannot study the characters of all females I come across. Admiration is more sublime and lasting than love. Imaginations and dreams are more beautiful and inspiring than realities. Saw the Telugu film “Bad Boy” in cinema Gautham from 2:30 to 5:00. It is interesting. Evening Srijana prepared and offered Vegetable Biryani and ice cream to the families of Surya Kumari and Padmavati to celebrate the spirit of our marriage anniversary. From 9:40 to 11:45 the family of Surya Kumari, Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Priyathamaa Neevachata Kushalamaa” in cinema Sri Ramakrishna Chitra Mandir. It is interesting. Slept by 12:20.

24 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Got ready by 9:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Tuni bus depot by 9:30. Thence took an ordinary bus bound to Kakinada and got off it at Pithapuram by 11:00. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Peddapuram by 11:30. Recently my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju met Bangarraju in Tuni on an occasion. He is working with a unit of Sri Prakash educational institutions. My folks told him that I am looking for the position of an English teacher. He told them that interviews take place in Sri Prakash Synergy School at Ramaraopeta in Peddapuram today for these positions. I came here for this purpose to respect the advice of my folks. By 1:30 met M V V S Murthy in this school. I asked him if there are teaching faculty vacancies in their engineering or degree colleges at Payakaraopeta or Tuni. He said that there are vacancies in their schools only now. I am not interested in it. I have to work like a machine and get remuneration like a beggar in these private schools. By 4:00 reached Kakinada. By 4:48 a police called me up from Adduroad. He told me to come to Adduroad tomorrow morning for enquiry for my passport purpose. Had supper in the abode of my cousin Bala in Venkat Nagar by 6:45. He dropped me at Rotary Club near cinema Kalpana by 6:50 on his bike. Amway meeting took place in this place from 7:00 to 8:40. My sponsor Ramnadh and I took a bus at bus station by 9:00. We reached Tuni by 11:00. Went to sleep by 11:20 for my dreams.

25 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Got ready by 9:00. Took a bus at Y Junction by 9:15 and reached Adduroad by 9:45. My brother Sambha, his familiar folks and I sat at a furniture store in Devi Plaza building for one hour. Called up Nagireddy Viswanadha Rao, the head constable of Visakhapatnam Special Branch Police, based at Elamanchili. He is the police supposed to verify the details of my candidature in the process of issuance of a new passport to me. They call it pre verification. He said that he would come to Adduroad in the afternoon. Went to our house in Peda Gummuluru along with my brother on his bike. Viswanadha Rao came to Adduroad by 2:00 on his bike from Elamanchili. He collected the photocopies of my proof documents at Devi Plaza. He got five letters written and signed by me, my brother Sambha and three persons familiar to us in this locality. These letters, in Telugu, specify that I belong to Peda Gummuluru and Payakaraopeta as a permanent and present resident now. It was all over by 3:30. He did not ask me for money. I gave 200 rupees to him out of courtesy for his service. Many passport applicants give 500 to 1000 rupees to these verification police during this process. I gave this money to him to satisfy his internalized professional psychology. Otherwise he may delay my passport process. He did not come to my present or permanent residence to verify realities physically. He has no enough time to do it. Returned home by 6:00 by bus. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a bus by 10:00 in Payakaraopeta and got off it at Thaandava Junction by 10:45. My father-in-law sent a boy with a bike. Reached the agricultural farm of Dandu Surya Narayana Raju near village Marripalem by 11:10 on his bike. Had my lunch by 1:30. My mother-in-law prepared fish soup for me. Spent most of the day with Dandu Venkata Raju. He is the younger son of D S N Raju. Now he is supervising the teak plantation, drip irrigation, house construction and similar works in this farmland personally. They recently planted about 10 varieties of fruit plants near the house construction and nearby parts of this farm. Venkata Raju is employing about 20 workers every day for various works on this farm now. I spent talking and walking with him throughout the day in this farm. I asked him to check if there is an opportunity for me to work as an English lecturer in any engineering college of his familiar folks. He told me to email my CV to him. I don’t get considerable salary as an English teacher at schools. They are not paying well at junior and degree colleges also. I think they pay comparatively better at engineering colleges. I am considering the option of going abroad also. Venkata Raju talked softly and affectionately with me. We spent in the sun for about six hours. This is a place of natural beauty and tranquility. Venkata Raju dropped me at Thaandava Junction by 7:15 in his car (on his way to a lodge in Narsipatnam, where he sleeps every night). Took a bus by 7:30 and reached my abode by 8:30. Slept by 9:30.

27 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning applied for some jobs in the UK through the job portal of Guardian. There is no positive reply from any one of those employers till now. They may not be interested in foreign candidates, who need visas to work there. Many firms don’t have time and interest to obtain visas for foreign workers. Candidates with technical skills have more job opportunities in every country than those related to English, Philosophy and Theology. People are more interested in foods, products and parties than wisdom, intelligence and standards. I wonder observing the boundaries and restrictions each country has towards the people of another country. Every part of this world belongs to God. He creates many creatures and allows them to play in His cosmic playground. All these creatures are like children of God. They forget God and think that everything belongs to them. They take beautiful lies as absolute truths. Passports and visas restrict people from moving freely place to place. Tourists are being treated as sources of income but not as human beings with passion to see different people and places in their earth planet. Can we imagine a world where there is no need of passports and visas to move from one place to another? Many migratory birds are enjoying this status of existence and movement now. Man does not believe in goodness of another man. Srijana, Anand and I reached the agricultural farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem by 6:10. Slept by 9:30.

28 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana, her mother and Anand started to Kota Uratla by 10:00 on my scooty. My father-in-law borrowed about one lakh rupees from a local moneylender about two years ago at high monthly interest rate. He pledged part of his lime farm in Viswanadhapuram for this loan. This land is in the name of Saraswati, my mother-in-law. Her parents gave it to her as a gift after her marriage. This is the only asset of my in-laws now. My father-in-law gets about three lakh rupees from the sale of paddy farmland, which he and his brother Jagannadha Raju sold collectively in Gollalagunta recently. My father-in-law got some money from this sale. Today Srijana paid 1, 80,000 rupees to that moneylender in Kota Uratla and cleared this debt. The necessary changes were made in the passbook of their farmland at the office of Sub Registrar in Kota Uratla to this effect today. The familiar folks of my father-in-law came to Kota Uratla from K O Mallavaram to assist Srijana in this process. Srijana, her mother and Anand returned to the agricultural farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem by 3:30 on my scooty. Today I spent all the time in the farmland of D S N Raju. Today about 15 workers laid concrete roof for the first floor of the house under construction in this farm. Today Dandu Venkata Raju spent his time in this farm supervising the weed removal work around the little teak plants and plantation of some fruit plants. Srijana, Anand and I started by 6:30 from this farm on our scooty and reached our rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 8:00. Slept by 10:00.

29 March (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 8:30 on our scooty. We reached there by 9:15. My brother Srinivas came here yesterday night. He bought and brought black gram from Devarapalli thinking that they are of high quality and low price compared to those available in other places and at retail stores in this region. My mother discovered that they are of low quality and high price. My brother has been working with the UCO Bank at Devarapalli for the last three years or so. He got cheated by those, whom he took to be good fellows. Now we are living cheating others partly or fully. Today my mother and Srijana sieved the black gram brought by Srinivas. My brother Sambha is feeling giddy. Gas developed in his stomach excessively because of drinking honey added lemon water continuously for 10 days as part of his crash diet regimen, devised and imposed by himself. Srinivas left for Visakhapatnam by 11:30 by bus. Sambha and I went to village Upamaaka via Nakkapalli by 4:30 on my scooty. We bought spices and other cooking items spending about 2,000 rupees in the annual fair here. These are for the family units of me and my in-laws. We use them for one year. Sambha bought cut pieces of fish in the weekly market at Nakkapalli for 50 rupees. Srijana prepared fish soup with them. Bought half a litre of butter scotch ice cream pack in Adduroad by 6:30 for 120 rupees. We all had it by 7:30. Srijana, Anand and I went to the house of Sambha by 7:40. We spent talking with them for 45 minutes. Slept by 9:15.

30 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night we slept in the house of my brother Sambha. The bedroom turned very cool and refreshing during night due to cool air that blew in through windows. Last night a pregnant pig damaged the plants and haystack in my plot beside the house of Sambha. Our dog attacked and scared it to some extent. It is ready to deliver piglets soon. It made suitable arrangements in my residential plot of land for its normal delivery and piglets. It bit a margosa, a banana and a curry leaf plant in this plot. It made up a comfortable and cozy structure with hay and the broken twigs of these plants for its delivery. Morning it appeared under the haystack. Our dog chased it away. My father turned furious thinking about the owner of this pig. It turned a beautiful piece of land into a dustbin being compelled by its tense mood before delivery. A fierce pregnant pig attacks anybody or anything with intense anger and energy. We should stay away from such pigs and piglets. My father is rearing a young buffalo now. He bought hay for it. My mother and father stopped using the Pureit water filter, which I gave them a few months ago. They said that they cannot spend about 400 rupees once for two months or so to buy a battery for it. I wondered about their limited sources of income and frugality in their lifestyle. Srijana, Anand and I started by 8:30 from our house in Peda Gummuluru and reached our rented abode in Payakaraopeta by 9:00. Spent rest of the day casually at home. Slept by 9:30.

31 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Brought my mother-in-law to my abode by 8:30 from Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. She took a bus at Thaandava Junction. Srijana took her mother to the clinic of her cousin Dr D Rama Krishnam Raju in Tuni by 10:30 on our scooty. Saraswati has been suffering from hearing inability for the last 25 years or so. She cannot hear sounds clearly. She understands many words observing the lip movements of the speaker near her. They did not concentrate on getting her treated till now. Today Dr D R K Raju got her checked by his familiar doctor. He prescribed a hearing aid for her. Srijana paid some amount of money for this device. They returned home by 2:30. We checked her hearing ability while wearing this device at her ear. She could not hear us. The doctor said that she needs some time to accustom herself to this system of hearing. We are experiencing most of this world through our ears and eyes. We don’t understand the importance of parts of our body as long as they serve us freely. We value those, which we buy using money. We should realize that we cannot buy many things with money. My mother-in-law left for her abode at Marripalem by 4:00 by bus. From 2:30 to 4:30 Ravi Raju and Kakarlapudi Narasimha Raju spent talking at our abode. Ravi has a cousin to get married. Narasimha Raju has two daughters to get married. I brought them together through my initiative. I like uniting people. Slept by 10:00.

1 April (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. I decided to go to New Delhi to resolve the issue with the folks of Sunshine International. Recently my friend Madhav of Ramayyapatnam introduced me to the proprietor of Jai Chintamani Cranes in New Delhi over phone. He has many trucks and cranes. I need an influential, rich and brave person to settle this matter. Madhav said that this entrepreneur is a person of that stature. He has been living in Delhi for the last 15 years or so. Now fraudsters in India are scared of rich and cruel people but not sensitive and virtuous individuals. R P Shah of Sunshine International is a dirty rogue of India. Muskan is his subordinate bitch. I need a lion to reform these beasts. My 9:42 my cousin Vasu reserved a sleeper class berth for me in Swarna Jayanthi Express from Samalkot to New Delhi for the 8^th of this month. I can travel up to Hazrat Nizamuddin only in this train. Vasu did it online from his office of Vedanta firm at Jharsuguda. He often helps me this way. I owe about 15,000 rupees to him till now. I am living like a shameless and helpless parasite now. The fare of this train is 635 rupees for this scheduled distance of journey. Today Srijana dusted some parts of our rented abode and made them tidy and beautiful in view of Ugaadhi. I helped her dusting and cleaning windows. Today Srijana put spices on terrace to get them dried up under hot sun of summer. We put our large mattress also in the sun. By 7:30 paid 3,500 rupees to Surya Kumari towards rent for our two-bedroomed ground floor portion for the last month. Slept by 10:00.

2 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night Anand suffered due to pain in his right ear. Srijana remained awake most of the night and nursed him. They slept around 4:00. By 9:15 took him to the house of Manthraala Raju beside NH-16. He checked his ear with torchlight and said that there is nothing unwanted in it. He gave me a small amount of lotion. He advised me to add some amount of pure coconut oil to it and pour a little of it in both of his ears. I gave 10 rupees to him for it for my satisfaction. He did not ask me for it. Consider the difference if I take him to an experienced ENT doctor. I have to spend about 300 rupees for consultation and medicines. Manthraala Raju attends his patients in a thatched hut beside NH-16 road. Private hospitals are spending huge amounts of money to beautify their offices and buildings. Going to a private hospital means financial collapse for many ordinary Indians now. Many qualified English doctors criticize the medicines and methods of treatment being practiced by Ayurveda, Homeopathy, Naturopathy and Unani practitioners. Ordinary people go to a doctor based on their trust in him or her developed over years. Educated and rich people go to a doctor based on his or her qualifications and the show of place he or she is working in. I wonder observing the kind of deep passion everybody has for one’s body. They decorate their bodies wearing costly clothes and bright ornaments. They don’t improve their inner self. Went to sleep by 10:00.

3 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Typed up the content of February from my diary of 2013 on my computer. I took about six hours’ time to do it. Yesterday afternoon I got a bunch of bananas cut from a banana tree in the plot, which is to the east of the house I am living in. Two bananas turned ripe and yellow in this bunch. So, I took this initiative in the absence of my house owner K S N Raju. This plot of land belongs to one of his cousins. There are some other plants and trees also in this plot of land. Morning K S N Raju came back from his native place Bheemavarapu Kota. He talked angrily with his daughter-in-law Surya Kumari about it. He did not like my initiative. He wanted to cut it one or two days before Ugaadhi, the Telugu New Year Day, which falls within a week from now. He wanted to distribute those ripe and sweet bananas to his relatives and well-wishers during that time. Though he scolded Surya Kumari about it, I am morally responsible for it. Srijana told me about the reprimand of K S N Raju to Surya Kumari. This reality disturbed and hurt me. We often fail to trace and follow boundaries of freedom provided by our dear creatures. I did it out of affection for him but he understood it differently in this context. Cases of this order are beyond our control. We should not regret about them. His anger and emotion lasted for a few minutes only about it. We should empathize with their state of mind. We should love them. Slept by 9:30.

4 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I got a message to my cellphone by 10:57:52 from the creatures of passport office in Visakhapatnam. They informed me that they had sent my passport by Speed Post. The number of this new passport is K 2283218. Felt happy reading this message. They are using technology well to satisfy their customers. Today I typed up the content of March from my diary of 2013 on my computer. I did it for six hours between 6:00 and 2:00. By 4:30 Srijana and Anand took a bus at Y Junction. They got off it at Nakkapalli. My brother Sambha takes them to village Upamaaka from there. Srijana found that three kinds of spices, which Sambha and I bought recently in the annual fair there, are of low quality. Sambha knows that seller well. Srijana exchanges them there under the guidance of Sambha. My brother uses abusive language to caution and correct a wrongdoer. Many get scared to talk with him directly. He can do many things more bravely and strategically than me. My father believes in his qualities only. He considers my eldest brother Srinivas and me as innocent and inefficient blokes in many respects. I agree with it. We frequently depend on him for many things. Srijana and Anand stay in the house of my brother Sambha this night. My parents are in the house of my brother Srinivas at Visakhapatnam now. They went there for getting periodical medical tests and medicines at INS Kalyani Hospital. By 4:40 went to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni. Paid 801 rupees towards monthly interest for the 80,000 rupees we borrowed from them. Slept by 10:30.

5 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:15 went to post office in Payakaraopeta to ask them about the arrival of my passport from Visakhapatnam. They checked online and told me that it had arrived. Waited there for some time with the hope that they might give it to me in the post office itself. The concerning postman clarified me that he would deliver it at my abode this afternoon. Went to Y Junction by 9:45. Srijana and Anand got off here from an auto rickshaw. They came from Peda Gummuluru. Srijana brought quality spices from Upamaaka. They returned the low quality items. I remained at home exclusively waiting for the arrival of the postman. I know about cases in which passports are not delivered fast due to the negligence of postman or the absence of addressee at the given postal address. Applying for and getting a passport is a big issue in India. They neither allow Indians to be happy in India nor permit them to go to other countries easily. Postman Babu Rao delivered my second passport to me by 2:10 at my rented abode. He asked me for 50 rupees. He said that everybody gives 50 rupees to him after receiving a passport. I gave it. Passport officer Y Vijaya Phani signed and authorized my passport. The date of issue of this passport is 28 March, 2013. There are two 8s in the number of this passport. The total of all digits in it is 8. This number loves and chases me. Took Visakhapatnam-Kakinada passenger train by 7:30 at Tuni and reached Durgada by 8:15. Slept by 10:00.

6 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00 in the house of my uncle Chanti Babu in village Durgada. I came here for groundnuts. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came here by 6:50 from Tetagunta on his Honda Activa scooty. We two went to the house of Narayana Raju by 7:00. He is the father-in-law of my cousin Naren, the second son of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju. This uncle came here yesterday night. His third son Kiran, Sindhu and their baby boy are in Jaggampeta now. K V Rama Raju gave about 50 packs of sweets and other items to Narasimha Murthy Raju. He has to distribute them to our relatives in Peda Gummuluru, Gurrajupeta and Raja Venkata Nagaram on behalf of K V Rama Raju. These are traditional gift packs from the in-laws of Kiran. They do it when a baby boy or girl is in seventh month in their family. I took two packs. One is for me and one is for my friend K V P Raju in Devi Nagar. Chanti Babu bought 22 kilograms of groundnuts for 800 rupees for me from his familiar peasant farmer in Durgada. They are of a recent yield. I love groundnuts. The mother of Chanti Babu offered me lunch by 12:15. My maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma is in Tuticorin now with her son Hari, Padma and grandson. Took Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger train by 1:00 at Durgada Gate halt. My uncle brought the sack of groundnuts to this halt on his bicycle. Reached Tuni by 1:45. Srijana came to station on our scooty to receive me. By 2:30 paid 562 rupees to the folks of Opulentus online using the HDFC credit card of my cousin Vasu for Australia PR Evaluation. Ashwini Chavadi guided me. Slept by 9:30.

7 April (Sunday)

Last night I would have slept for about one hour only. Power cut occurred around 10:00. They did not restore it throughout the night. Srijana too remained awake throughout the night. Anand slept sweating. I have no money to buy an inverter. Srijana regretted it. Got ready by 5:30. Walked to Y Junction by 5:50. Got into the vehicle hired by P V R Raju by 6:00. Today he is taking his familiar folks to Visakhapatnam to see prospective bride Swaathi, suitable for his son Gajapathi Raju. We were eight creatures in this vehicle, excluding driver. P V R Raju invited me to this occasion affectionately. We reached police quarters near Kailasa Giri by 8:30. We all spent in the abode of the bride till 9:40. The bridegroom party decides soon on this matter. We returned to Payakaraopeta by 12:00. Went to Thaandava Junction by 2:00 by bus. Collected 5,000 rupees from my familiar hotelier here. My father-in-law provided it minding the inevitable expenses of Srijana and me. Morning Srijana fell down in the front of our rented abode due to giddiness. Her right ankle got twisted partly. Pain and swelling developed. Sekhar took her to a doctor in Tuni. He applied a cloth tightly on the affected part of the ankle. He advised her not to exert pressure on this ankle until the swelling and pain get alleviated. Revathi nursed her throughout the day in her abode. By 8:00 Srijana and Anand left for Viswanadhapuram on a bike of their relative. By evening P V R Raju told me that he is not interested in getting his son married to Swaathi. I understood that he is not happy with the dowry and other offers being made by the party of the bride. He is a miser. His son has no individuality of his own. They lost a golden opportunity discarding this beautiful and innocent girl. Gajapathi Raju cannot find such bride for him later. Slept by 10:00.

8 April (Monday)

Woke up by 4:30. Got ready by 6:30. The eldest son of my house owner K S N Raju dropped me at Tuni railway station by 7:00 on his bike. I have two items of luggage with me. I put three pairs of my clothes, the documents related to the issue of Sunshine International, my diary of 2013 and clipboard, a towel, a blanket, two pairs of casual wear, my shaving kit, two packs of Marie Gold biscuits, a pack of sweet groundnut kernel rounds and 16 Sunnundalu in a big bag. I put two bottles of drinking water and one bottle of jaggery added water in a small bag. Bought a ticket for 45 rupees to Samalkot by 7:05. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:30. Took it and got off it at Samalkot by 8:30. Went out by 9:00 and had a plate of idlies in a hotel for 15 rupees. Took 12803 Visakhapatnam-Hazrat Nizamuddin Swarna Jayanthi Express by 10:38. My berth is 72 in sleeper coach S-9 of it. I am going to New Delhi to collect two lakh rupees from the rogues of Sunshine International. By 1:30 had a plate of meal prepared by the folks of pantry car in this train. This meal is good for those who eat very little of it. These items are not much tasty but are good for health. Paid 50 rupees for it. They get 25 rupees as profit from this amount of money. Had three snacks by 7:30 for my supper. Spent all the day sitting in my window seat and looking out of it. The day was sunny and bright. This train entered the state of Maharashtra by 8:30. Went to sleep by 9:30 on my berth.

9 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:20. This train was travelling through the hilly region of Madhya Pradesh. Yesterday, by 9:51, in the morning, Ashwini Chavadi of Opulentus called me up from Hyderabad. She informed me that I am eligible to go to Australia and get a job there. I have to spend about 60,000 rupees for it. Felt happy about this prospect. Yesterday my friend Madhav talked with Lakshmi in Narsipatnam over phone. He told her about my sense of admiration for her and my desire to talk with her once. She did not express interest in taking my cellphone number and talking with me. She said that our imaginary relationship is a thing of past and no use of working over it now. I felt deeply disturbed thinking about her attitude. Lakshmi is still thinking about me frequently. She is sad recollecting our separation. I am witnessing her pain and suffering through my dreams. I am trying to fill this void in her psyche through my material initiative to meet and talk with her. It is like a sinner discarding the boon of God. She suffers a lot in future if she takes me as a shallow creature. Madhav said that he recorded her talk, with him, over phone, for me. This train reached Hazrat Nizamuddin station by 5:42. Took a 794 route bus by 6:00 and got off it at Kirbi Place point in Delhi Cantonment area by 7:25. M Shiva Rama Krishnam Raju took me to his quarters bearing identity number 138/5 in CVD Line. He is a Nayak in Indian Military Intelligence department here. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

10 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I could sleep well in this cool and clean environment of Delhi Cantonment. Shiva Rama Krishnam Raju is the husband of Sagiraju Durga Devika. She is the eldest daughter of the younger paternal uncle of my cousins Vasu and Narendra Varma. His native place is village Ranga Puram in East Godavari district. By 11:00 S R K Raju and I started to meet Kundala Satya Narayana, the proprietor of Jai Chintamani Cranes, at Samalka, near Gurgaon. He did not receive my calls at all despite many attempts from me. We decided to go to his office or house depending on the information provided by my friend Madhav of Ramayyapatnam over phone. We went to Veer Public School in Samalka. We could not locate the office of Jai Chintamani Cranes in this area. Madhav advised us to go to the house of Kundala but in vain. Madhav gave us wrong address. I felt furious about the attitude of Kundala. I came to Delhi depending on the assurance of Kundala to deal with the folks of Sunshine International at Dabri. He stopped responding to me when I am in Delhi. We returned to quarters 5 in Block 138 in CVD Line of Delhi Cantonment by 2:00. S R K Raju rode his green military bike observing the GPS in his cellphone. He is good at using Internet and GPS to simplify his life. Lord Krishna connected me with S R K Raju in Delhi. Otherwise I have to live like a fish out of water here. Slept by 10:00.

11 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. It is Telugu New Year Day Ugaadhi today. Today is the first day of Vijaya Naama. Eeswari, the mother of S R K Raju, prepared festive pickle on this occasion. She prepared Lemon Rice also. She follows the cult of Prajaapitha Brahma Kumaris. By 9:05 my friend Madhav gave me the cellphone number of Lakshmi. I sent the following text to her by 9:23 “May God bless you with happiness, prosperity and success in this Vijaya Naama Samvathsaram”. Added my full name to this message. I am communicating with her this way after about 20 years. I admire her. I want to see and talk with her. I know that she never talks with me proactively. I took this initiative for this reason. She is a sensitive and cowardly girl. I am witnessing her psychic attachment with me in my dreams frequently. Souls reach messages of pain to related material bodies through dreams. Even today I could not talk with Kundala Satya Narayana of Jai Chintamani Cranes. He avoided taking my calls. He is a filthy pig of Delhi. Madhav regretted about the attitude of this rogue. He told me that he would provide me with the details of another influential, cruel and reliable person in Delhi. R P Shah of Sunshine International is a criminal and sinner. I want a gangster to deal with him. My brother Sambha asked me, over phone, about my state of existence in Delhi. Today I spent all the day watching television. Slept by 10:00.

12 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. S R K Raju advised me to go to the unit of Sunshine International at Dabri and check it physically. Took an RL 77 route bus and got off it at Dada Dev Hospital in Dabri by 2:00. Went to Plot 306 in Street 3 and tried to locate the unit of these folks. It’s not here. The native folks said that recently a police came to this place and took one of them away. Their unit is not here now. Walked to the nearby Dabri police station by 2:15. A police called up Santosh from my cellphone. Rakesh Singh and another fellow came to this station by 4:00 on a bike. Rakesh Singh is Santosh actually. He gave me wrong identity when he came to my abode earlier in Payakaraopeta along with Pintu Singh. The police told both of us to come back to station by 5:00 to resolve this issue amicably under the guidance of SHO. Met circle inspector Naresh Kumar by 5:40 in his room in this station. He talked with me rudely. He said that it is a matter of civil offence and so to go to a court of law. He is a dirty dog of Delhi with police uniform. He responded to me like a psychopath when I was talking with him like an educated gentleman. He must be hanged publicly for his offence. Santosh and his well-wisher came to this police station by 5:45. A police, who earlier investigated this case, told us to resolve this issue through mutual discussion. Santosh argued with me and said that he would give me 64,000 rupees only if I return their machine and three bundles of raw material. I did not agree to it. He said that we can discuss it tomorrow again. Returned to Delhi Cantonment by 7:30. Slept by 10:30.

13 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at the quarters of S R K Raju in Delhi Cantonment. Today Santosh of Sunshine International did not call me up as decided yesterday. He kept his cellphone switched off most of the day. Morning Kundala Satya Narayana of Jai Chintamani Cranes talked with me over phone. He told me the address of his office at Samalka and advised me to meet him tomorrow morning to discuss the issue of Sunshine International. Recently he got educated reading an SMS I sent to his cellphone. In that message I wrote to him that God punishes him if he does not help me because I came to Delhi depending on him. A mishap took place in his family after reading my SMS. God alerted and hinted him to help me. Today I scanned the Australian PR evaluation report of me emailed by Ashwini Chavadi of Opulentus at Hyderabad. I scored 60 marks for 135 in this evaluation. By 8:30 p.m., on the 12^th of this month, my cousin Vasu booked a sleeper class berth for me in Sampark Kranthi Express from Hazrat Nizamuddin to Secunderabad for the 17^th of this month. I meet the folks of Opulentus there. I would be happy if I can get a good job in Australia through these folks and go there. It may be possible if Lord Krishna decides so. Evening winds blew powerfully in CVD Line. The sky turned cloudy. It was pleasant. I am in financial crisis now. I am feeling depressive every day. I am broken. Slept by 10:45.

14 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 12:00 S R K Raju and I reached the office of Jai Chintamani Cranes near Kapasera Crossing in Samalka. Kundala Satya Narayana, who is popularly known as Golden here, came to this place by 1:00 from his abode at Dwarka. I showed my reports and documents to him and told him that I lost two lakh rupees because of the fraudulent business activities of Sunshine International. He jumped into action. He took S R K Raju and me to Dabri by 2:30 in his car. He checked the old office space of Sunshine in Street 3 at Plot 306. He enquired the local folks about the present address of these criminals. They said that they don’t know. Thence we moved to Dabri police station. We met K B Jha, the additional SHO, who investigated this case earlier. He said that he cannot help us in this regard. S R K Raju left for Delhi Cantonment by 4:00. We went to the district court at Dwarka by 6:30. Golden talked with an Intelligence Bureau police officer here till 8:30 about my issue. Today Santosh avoided taking my calls. He exhibited his real self today. I felt like beating him with an iron rod and throwing his dead body into a canal. Today he played with me ultimately. Today Golden searched for him like a don. The sinner is alert. Golden dropped me at Saadhar Bazaar near Delhi Cantonment by 10:30 in his car. S R K Raju came here on his electric bike. I enter my 36^th year of life today according to my educational certificates. Slept by 11:30.

                                                                                  15 April (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within the quarters of S R K Raju. Santosh of Sunshine International stopped taking my calls. He thinks that I cannot do anything against him. Golden and I could not trace R P Shah till now. They removed their fraudulent business unit from Dabri. They must be doing it from some other nearby place. K B Jha must have taken bribe from these rogues to save them from this case. He talked in favour of them when we met him. He did not reveal the present address of these fraudsters. I believe that Golden can catch them soon through his sources. Today I called him up once only but he did not take it. When a don is engaged in the task of catching a criminal, others should not disturb him with questions and doubts. I pray Lord Krishna to empower and enable Golden to catch them. One needs a lot of courage, determination, money and political influence to catch fraudsters of this order now. These idiots started this unit without license from the Government of Delhi. It is an illegal entity. Corrupt Delhi police like K B Jha are supporting such criminals and sinners. They place short classified ads in regional dailies like Eenadu and attract poor, helpless and innocent Indians towards their fraudulent business ventures. Ramoji Rao wants money from these rogues also. He writes about standards and values in this daily. He is an unethical businessman. I can compare him to R P Shah. I got into this business depending on a classified ad in the Visakhapatnam district edition of Eenadu. Slept by 10:00.

16 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within the abode of S R K Raju at CVD Line in Delhi Cantonment. I wonder about my weeklong stay in Delhi and my desperate attempt to collect money from the sinners of Sunshine International. They played with me like a doll. S R K Raju saved me from this complex situation. He provided me with food and shelter for one week. I came to Delhi with 2,000 rupees with the idea of staying at the abode of Golden until my issue is resolved through him. He did not help me as I desired. When I was feeling like a fish out of water, S R K Raju put me in a cool and deep pond. He guided me like a kind philosopher in the jungle of cruel beasts. Beauty is what I love in bodies and minds but I sensed ugliness in Delhi police also. K B Jha advised the fraudsters of Sunshine on how to escape from me. He insulted and hurt me this way. I am like a worthless entity in Delhi. I am not a prostitute, politician, celebrity or gangster. In Delhi, cheats and criminals can live better than persons like me. A dog has more identity and value in Delhi than me. It can frighten others barking at them. I have no such influence also in Delhi. Santosh made me into a worthless dog in Delhi under the guidance of his godfather K B Jha. S R K Raju, his wife Durga Devika and his mother Eeswari made me into a human being with their affection and service for me during all these days. Golden treated me like a king for one day searching for Santosh intensely. Evening moderate earthquake occurred in parts of North India. Earth expressed my wrath like this. Slept by 10:00.

17 April (Wednesday)

Last night I did not sleep even for a minute. Mosquitoes kept attacking me throughout the night. I too kept killing them with an electronic bat. This battle went on throughout the night between mosquitoes and me. The other nights I somehow managed with these mosquitoes but last night I faced them bravely and killed them mercilessly. Got up by 4:00. Got ready by 4:45. Durga Devika prepared Lemon Rice for me. She put a bottle of buttermilk also for me in my small bag with four water bottles. S R K Raju brought me to the bus stop at Supply Depot in Delhi Cantonment by 5:20 on his electric bike. We waited for a Nizamuddin bound city bus from Mangalpuri for 20 minutes but it did not turn up. Hired an auto rickshaw by 5:40 and reached Hazrat Nizamuddin railway station by 6:20. The owner of this auto rickshaw is Charanjeet Singh. He must be about 60 but he drove his vehicle like a ferocious warrior. He lives at A-20, Street 3, Amritpuri, New Delhi. His cellphone number is 9899684214. Paid 140 rupees to him based on the data of the metre. Hazrat Nizamuddin-Tirupati Sampark Kranthi Express was put on platform 7 by 6:35. Got into it. Mine is berth 39 in sleeper coach S-4 of it. It is a window seat and berth. Vasu reserved it so based on my advice. This train started off by 7:25. Kept watching out from the window when this train was passing through the states of Haryana, Uttar Pradesh, Rajasthan and Madhya Pradesh. Slept by 10:00 on my berth.

18 April (Thursday)

This train reached Secunderabad railway station by 9:25. Walked to platform 1 from the other end of the station. Took a 47 L route ordinary bus near the station by 10:15 and reached the Apollo bus stop in Film Nagar by 11:00. Prasad, a cousin of my friend and artist Mattaparthi Veeranjaneyulu, came here to take me to the art abode of Veeru at MLA Colony in Banjara Hills. Took a bath by 11:40 and felt refreshed. I looked dim and weak. Had my lunch by 1:30. By 2:45 Prasad dropped me beside road near Peddamma Temple. Entered the office of Opulentus by 3:00. Ashwini Chavadi explained me the process of visa to go to Australia as a permanent resident in the quota of skilled labourers. I may be employed there as an editor. Initially I have to pay them 73,034 rupees for registration and some other services. They take six to eight months’ time to send me to Australia with a PR visa. I have to get a suitable job there before or after going there. They help me in this process. I have to spend about three lakh rupees for all of it. I have to show them about five lakh rupees in my bank account before moving to Australia. I have to get suitable score in IELTS. Left this office by 3:42. Informed my brother Sambha to get 73,000 rupees ready by tomorrow. Moved back to the art abode of Veeru. My friend Kanumuri Rajani Kumar Raju came here by 6:30 on his bike. We spent talking about frauds and fraudsters in every part of India now. We had supper here by 10:00. We reached his rented abode in Banjara Hills by 10:30. Slept by 11:20.

19 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day in the rented abode of K R K Raju. It is in Sai Enclave, beside Road No. 12 in Banjara Hills. The house number is 8-2-704/B/2. It is a spacious house. Today Ashwini Chavadi of Opulentus called me up for about three times and asked me to come to their office to pay the initial service fee of 73,034 rupees. I asked many but nobody could lend me this much money. It is understandable. I am not a rich man. I am in financial crisis now. I am a shameless parasite now. Ashwini chased me like a police, over phone, asking me for this initial payment. I ran away like a timid goat. By 2:30 met my friend and well-wisher Pakalapati Kalyana Varma in the office of Cisco Systems in building named Reliance Humsafar by Road No. 11 in Banjara Hills. He is a business development manager with Cisco Systems here. His business region includes Andhra Pradesh, Chhattisgarh and Jharkhand as part of this job. He moves from place to place rigorously almost every week. He took breaks from his telephonic conferences time to time and spent talking with me for about 45 minutes. He discouraged me from the idea of going abroad for a job. I said I decided firmly on it. I have been a big failure till now as an earner. I must do something extraordinary to get rid of this crisis. We left this place by 8:10. Rajani and I attended a celebration of Sri Ram Navami in MLA Colony from 8:30 to 9:30. The folks of ISKCON conducted it. Slept by 11:30.

20 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning Ashwini Chavadi of Opulentus called me up and asked me if I can pay the registration fee to them today. I replied in the negative. She told me to pay it as early as possible. Morning sent a short message to Lakshmi wishing her on the occasion of her wedding anniversary today. She replied to me with the following text after two hours “who is dis”. I sent about five messages to her during the last 10 days. I mentioned my name and some details in one of those messages. I think she did not take any of those messages seriously. My dreams, during the last 15 years, showed me that she is suffering intensely thinking about her separation from me years ago. I am trying to fill that void in her through this initiative to meet her in reality. She is reacting to me like a worthless idiot. She suffers a lot in future if I avoid my psychic attachment with her. She is thinking like a stupid and nasty creature. I want to leave her to her lot. We cannot save sinners from the effects of their Karma. They block all the paths of peace and solutions provided by God for them kindly. My cousin Murali and I reached the ashram of Shri Ram Chandra Mission at Thumukunta by 3:00 by bus from Secunderabad. His wife Ramya and baby son Suraj are in Delhi now with his in-laws. From 6:00 to 6:30 we observed the beauty of scenery and buildings in Alankrita Resort and Spa here. By 8:30 we had farewell dinner offered by two members of this ashram. They are going out from here soon. Went to sleep by 10:30.

21 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. I am staying at rented abode of my cousin Murali in the spiritual centre of SRCM at Thumukunta now. The number of this house is 4-34/3 (II/55). Murali is paying 3,800 rupees for it per month towards rent. This is a pleasant, peaceful and enriching place of spiritual ambience and residences to live. Beauty and power of nature are still present here. Recently Murali bought a plot of land in this special space of residences spending about 11, 00,000 rupees. He wants to get a house constructed in this plot in near future. By 10:30 had lunch in this ashram along with those followers of this cult. Many come to this place every Sunday to do meditation collectively in the morning and evening. By 12:30 Murali and I went into a nearby vineyard in his car with the idea of buying fresh and sweet grapes for us. This farm belongs to a Kshatriya fellow. Today they are collecting grapes from this farm. A merchant bought part of this seasonal crop to take to Tadepalli Gudem. The owner of this farm is here today. We bought seven kilograms of grapes for 210 rupees from him. He is an old, sensitive and kind man. We returned to ashram by 1:15 via Domus block of houses. Evening spent talking with Amaravadi Venu Madhav for some time in his rented abode. He is working with Harsco now. He is the brother-in-law of Murali. We had supper in this abode by 8:30. Night Murali and I talked about some things affecting human life. Slept by 10:30.

22 April (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took some photos of Murali with my Sony digital camera by 7:30. We started out by 8:00. A familiar fellow of Murali dropped me at Jubilee Bus Stand by 8:20 on his bike on his way to Tarnaka. Thence took a Mehdipatnam bound bus and got off it at the bus stop of Pension Office. Walked a little and reached the rented abode of Rajani Kumar Raju by 9:00. Spent reading Eenadu dailies for one hour. Had a mango fruit by 11:00. A guy of Kadapa bought it. Now he is staying here. This residential abode of Rajani is like a guesthouse to his friends, relatives and well-wishers. By 12:30 bought some amount of rice for 25 rupees and red dal from a retail food store opposite Sai Enclave. Had it by 1:00. Kalyana Varma and I started to the office of Opulentus at Jubilee Hills by 5:45 in his car from Road No. 12 in Banjara Hills. We spent talking with Ashwini Chavadi from 6:00 to 6:30 about their five-year visa processing service related to Australia. Kalyan requested her to reduce some amount of money from the registration fee they specified earlier, considering my present critical financial condition. We left this office by 6:35. We reached the rented abode of my cousin Sirisha in Shirdi Sai Colony by 7:00. Kalyan talked with Sirisha for a few minutes and left for his abode at Bachupally. Anantha Varma came home by 9:30 from a unit of Biological E Limited at Patan Cheru. My cousin Kavita (Krishna Kumari) came here recently from Gollalagunta. Slept by 11:45.

23 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Anantha Varma left for his job at Patan Cheru by 8:00. Took some photos of baby girl Shiva Sahithi by 8:30. My cousin Kavitha and I stepped out of the rented abode of Anantha Varma by 8:45. We took a sharing auto rickshaw by Beeram Guda bus stop and got off it at Ashok Nagar bus stop within two minutes. The fare is 10 rupees for both of us. We walked a little from the main road and reached the rented abode of Madhavi, the maternal aunt of Srijana. Her husband Mandapati Subba Raju was here. Their children Sushma and Sunil went out. Madhavi offered breakfast items to both of us. We had it again for courtesy sake. We took a 222 bus at Ashok Nagar bus stop by 9:30 and got off it at Pension Office bus stop near Road No. 12 in Banjara Hills by 10:30. We two walked to the rented abode of Rajani Kumar Raju in Sai Enclave. By 1:30 bought some amount of rice for 25 rupees and two curries for 24 rupees from a retail food store opposite Sai Enclave. Kavitha and I had it by 2:00. We had bananas also. Afternoon watched television for some time. Evening it rained for 10 minutes and made it cool and refreshing. I am wondering looking at the cars, rich people and buildings in twin cities. I am failing regularly in my pursuit of earning money. I am broken now psychologically and financially. I am experiencing a critical and disturbed state of life now. I have no money. I have to clear debts. I don’t cry to prove to others that I am sad. Slept by 10:00.

24 April (Wednesday)

Last night, Kavitha and I moved to the abode of Veeru at the eleventh hour. Kavitha saw Veeru and his paintings. I took video of this place with my Sony digital camera. Kavitha slept in the rented abode of Veeru at Journalist Colony ‘A’ in Plot no. 19. I slept in the art abode of Veeru at MLA Colony. It was a cool and pleasant summer night. Woke up by 4:00. Got ready by 4:20. Veeru and I reached the rented abode of prior by 4:50. Kavitha already got ready. Veeru dropped us at Punjagutta Junction by 5:30 in his Gypsy jeep. We took a SETWIN bus and reached Secunderabad railway station by 6:00. Bought a dozen bananas for 30 rupees. Stood in the queue of general tickets and bought two tickets for 330 rupees for Kavitha and me to Tuni. We two got into a general coach of Janmabhoomi Express by 6:10 on platform 2. Kavitha sat on an upper luggage rack. This train started off by 7:10. We had bananas and avoided having breakfast items in train or stations considering those high prices and small amounts of food. This train reached Tenali station by 1:00. Bought a pack of Vegetable Biryani for 45 rupees for Kavitha. Bought a pack of cream biscuits for 12 rupees for my lunch. We had three bottles of drinking water with us. We could manage to resist temptation to buy something from the exploitative vendors in this train and the railway stations. This train reached Tuni by 7:00. Today I kept standing up throughout this journey. Srijana came to station on our scooty. We reached home by 7:20. It was cool and pleasant. Slept by 10:30.

25 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 1:00 at Y Junction and reached Adduroad by 1:30. The fare is 17 rupees. Took 12 kilograms of dry groundnuts in a sack for my brother Sambha. Recently I brought these groundnuts from Durgada. Earlier Sambha gave me 500 rupees for these groundnuts. Sambha and I spent talking for one hour. Meanwhile my father joined us at the house of Sambha. He knows about my intention to go to Australia to do a job through the consultancy Opulentus. I need about eight lakh rupees to materialize this idea. I have to wait for about eight months to get this five-year PR visa. I may or may not get the position of an editor before or after going to Australia based on this visa. I have to leave my wife and son back in India. I have been financially down during the last six years. There are many risks in this plan of action. My father rejected this plan because of all these negative factors. I too withdrew myself from this idea. By 3:00 my father, Sambha and I went to the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy in the mango garden at hills on bike. My paternal grandparents are here now. We went there to see them. Thammi Raju is very weak now. We regretted his health condition. When we were coming back, my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy appeared us at the level crossing near Ramayyapatnam. We went back to the mango garden. Returned home by 9:45 on the scooty of this uncle. Went to sleep by 10:30.

26 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana told me that she is pregnant now. Felt happy about it. It happened beyond our plan. Every soul makes necessary arrangements for its birth as a material entity. We have to obey the commands of souls. I am grateful to Lord Krishna. He blessed Srijana, Anand and me this way. Took a bus by 7:00 and reached Thaandava Junction by 7:50. My father-in-law brought two jack fruit, a sack with 25 kilos of rice, cow milk and curd from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem. These are for our domestic consumption. Had breakfast in the hotel here by 8:10. Took a bus at this point by 8:15 and returned to Payakaraopeta by 9:00. Srijana and I brought these items home on our scooty. By 6:00 Srijana, Anand, Kavitha and I reached cinema Gautham in Payakaraopeta on our scooty. We saw Telugu film “Baadhshah” in it from 6:30 to 9:15. It is an interesting, exciting and informative film. However, the story seems to be complex. The narration does not progress in a linear order. Ordinary viewers may find it as a fast and complicated film because many scenes connect among themselves with much speed. Idiots and fools are commenting about films like born critics now. They are major threat to the present film industry. I regret it. Today the Government of Andhra Pradesh released the results of second year Intermediate course. My nephew Sujan got 410 marks for 470. His total marks are 886 for 1000 in his two-year Intermediate course. I am happy about it. Slept by 10:00.

27 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:30. Took Srijana to Leela Nursing Home by 10:00 on our scooty. It is very near to our rented abode. We avoided going to Talli Pillala Hospital in Tuni considering its distance from our abode. The doctor is A Smitha Sri here. Consultation fee is 50 rupees. Earlier Srijana did pregnancy confirmation test on her own using a medical device. She showed it to this doctor. She too confirmed it seeing the result on this device. She prescribed the following tablets for her. LIMCEE, MIPROGEN and GOODMORN PLUS. We spent 300 rupees for these tablets. We did not reveal the news of pregnancy of Srijana to our folks till now. We have many marriages to attend in the coming 35 days. Pregnant women are not allowed to such functions according to our tradition. She wants to attend some of them at least. By 2:30 my uncle Chanti Babu came here from Durgada. By 4:30 my house owner K S N Raju, Chanti Babu and I went to the place of office of Sub Registrar in Tuni. My uncle paid 70,000 rupees to the local real estate agent Somanna Dhora towards advance for the plot of land he bought from him in Seshadri Nagar layout near Tuni for his daughter Sirisha. It is 166 square yards of plot. We got a document of agreement typed out and signed mutually to this effect. By 5:00 a fellow brought my father-in-law to my abode from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem. He is suffering from fever, cough and phlegm. By 5:45 Dr. Smitha Sri prescribed three kinds of tablets for him. Slept by 8:30.

28 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. I am sensing a little pain in my waist. I think it is related to my spine or kidneys. I cannot go to a doctor considering the costs involved in it. May time and God heal it. I have about eight kilos of excessive weight now because of unnecessary fat across my abdomen. I have been consuming much curd every day for long. It generated a lot of fat in my body. I am not doing physical exercises every day though I am feeling the need of it. I should reduce my weight as early as possible. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 11:45 at Y Junction and reached Adduroad by 12:15. Spent talking with my parents and brother Sambha for two hours. They advised me to join some job soon and make my living. I am interested in organic farming. I want to live among hills, far away from all these selfish and manipulative people. I have neither money nor land to get into pursuit of farming. I wanted to live like an independent individual with self-respect and idealism. I am living like a shameless parasite. This is a stage of my life. Nobody can escape from the effects of Karma. I am subject to it. Sambha brought 200 Suvarna Rekha mangoes from our mango garden at hills by 4:00 on his bike. Kurandasu Appa Rao came with him. Took 100 mangoes from them. Sambha brought me to the bus stop in Adduroad on his bike by 4:30. Took a bus and reached Payakaraopeta by 5:30. Put these mangoes in a cardboard box to ripen slowly. Slept by 10:00 in the portion of K S N Raju.

29 April (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. My cousin Anantha Lakshmi came to my abode by 8:40 from Visakhapatnam. She spent at the abode of my brother Srinivas there for some days. By 12:30 Srijana, Anantha Lakshmi and Kavitha started to Kota Uratla on our scooty. The ration depot dealer of China Boddepalli unit informed Srijana to collect our white ration card from the office of MRO (Mandal Revenue Officer) in Kota Uratla. Srijana went there to collect it. The number of this household card is RAP033702802016. They did not type our names correctly on this card. They met saint Rama Brahmam in Kota Uratla. They went to Viswanadhapuram on their way back to Payakaraopeta. They returned home by 5:30. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to our abode by 4:30. K S N Raju, he and I spent talking for three hours. Recently he sent my paternal grandparents to the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy in the mango garden at hills. He did not look after them for six months according to the schedule. He said that it is not possible for him because of the negative attitudes of his wife and two sons. Narayana Murthy is very angry about it. Narasimha Murthy is disturbed about this set of critical conditions around the lives of his old and frail parents. Today my brother Sambha proposed the idea of going to Sri Kala Hasthi to have the Dharshan of Lord Shiva. I agreed to it. We should not reject the invitation of God. Slept by 10:15.

30 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 7:30 my brother Sambha came to my abode on his bike from Peda Gummuluru. By 8:00 casually talked about folks that misuse filtered drinking water at homes. Yesterday evening my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy misused a glass of water cleaning his mouth polluted with a Khaini powder. Morning my father-in-law left much water disused in a glass of filtered water. I said that such creatures should use muddy water from a pond instead of misusing purified water. I commented generally. He thought that I criticized him particularly. He said that I should not insult people talking so. He yelled frantically and stated that he would never come to my abode hereafter. I never apologize to idiots. I never console rogues. He and my mother-in-law left for their farmhouse at Marripalem soon after this incident. Sambha silently witnessed this development. I never express my fury towards ordinary people. Extraordinary people never get enraged and irritated about ordinary things. Good people should not feel or express anger. My father-in-law is suffering from low self-esteem. He is a victim of bad habits and false prestige. By 10:00 Sambha left for Peda Gummuluru. By 1:00 took my cousin Anantha Lakshmi and her daughter Kavitha to bus station in Tuni on my scooty. They took a Bhadrachalam bound Express bus for Jaggampeta. Srijana, Anand and I saw Telugu film “Shadow” in cinema Surya Mahal from 6:40 to 9:00. It’s an interesting and exciting film. Slept by 10:30.

1 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I had two mango fruit. By 11:00 started ironing my clothes. My Crompton Greaves iron developed a little sound in it twice and stopped functioning. Something failed in it. Stopped ironing my clothes. I have to get it repaired. I think I bought it in August 2009 at Vanasthalipuram in Hyderabad. I am very happy about its quality. Minor repairs are necessary for everything in course of its existence. Our scooty too wanted a little repair today. Air went out completely from its rear tube. Called up our familiar bike mechanic Rajesh and got it repaired at another place. It all cost me 60 rupees. Got ready and had my lunch by 1:10. Rajesh dropped me at the bus station in Tuni by 1:20 on his bike. Srijana and I turned absolutely penniless by this time. I had 57 rupees on me. Srijana did not have even this much money on her. I already borrowed money from every reliable person. Called up my cousin Vasu and asked him to deposit 500 rupees each into the SBI account of Srijana and my ICICI Bank account. Took a Rajahmundry bound Express bus by 1:30 and reached Jaggampeta by 3:00. The bus fare is 57 rupees. Vasu deposited 500 rupees into my account by 2:30. Srijana and Anand reached Viswanadhapuram by 4:00 on our scooty using the little petrol in it. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju brought me to Gollalagunta by this time on his bike. Night spent talking with my folks here for three hours. Slept by 10:30.

2 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Got ready by 7:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 7:15 in Gollalagunta and reached Jaggampeta by 7:30. The fare is eight rupees. Went to Sahithi Public School. Datla Krishna Varma came here by 8:20. Spent talking with him till 8:50. Took 02 route bus of Aditya Engineering College by 9:00 with the help of Gangadhar, a former colleague of my cousin Narendra Varma. We reached this college by 9:30. Recently Naren told me that the folks of this college are looking for candidates with proficiency in English to fill some vacancies. Today I came here to attend this recruitment process. V Srinivasa Rao, the head of department of mechanical engineering, directed me to the Cotton Bhavan, through an office boy. By 10:00 filled up my details in a form for the recruitment process to the position of soft skills trainer. M Kiran Kumar conducted a written test titled ‘CRT English’ in the first floor of this building from 10:30 to 11:30. I did it. They gave free food canteen tokens by 1:15 to candidates. Had my lunch in the main canteen at Polytechnic College by 1:45. They started ‘demonstration class’ stage of the process by 3:45. I am not an efficient public speaker. I did not like this slow recruitment process either. Took 02 route bus by 5:30 and reached Jaggampeta by 6:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Gollalagunta by 7:15. Today our familiar priest finalized the dates of Upanayanam and marriage of Vasu in Gollalagunta. Slept by 9:30.

3 May (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Got ready by 8:30. Took leave of my folks in Gollalagunta. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Jaggampeta by 9:00. Spent talking with Datla Krishna Varma in the office of his school till 9:20. He said that he is in a financial crisis now. He is very disturbed and restless due to multi-tasking. Moved to bus stand by 9:25. Took an ordinary bus by 9:30 and reached Tuni by 11:00 travelling via Kathipudi and Annavaram. Reached my rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 11:20. Spent rest of the day at home casually. Recently I read the Telugu book Naa Ishtam. It is about Ram Gopal Varma. There are some biographical notes in it. There are some other features also. I read it passionately throughout. Reading this book, we can understand Ram partly. His thoughts are realistic and radical. His analytical skills are more powerful than his creative abilities. He talks about bitter realities in his life and society. He is passionate about films. He does not submit himself to any tradition, religion or ideology. He wants to live according to his interests and fancies. He is an honest and brave artist. He is a self-made individual. I enjoyed reading this book. Ram appears as an intelligent and creative person. He is like a reckless fish in a turbulent sea. We get disturbed seeing his risky journey but he loves and enjoys it. Slept by 10:00.

4 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Got ready by 6:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 6:10 and reached Nakkapalli by 6:35. When I was waiting for a medium of transport to go to Upamaaka, my friend P V S S K Varma and his folks came here in an auto rickshaw. They were going to Upamaaka from Ramayyapatnam hiring the auto rickshaw of their familiar fellow. I too got into it. We had breakfast in a hotel in Upamaaka by 7:30. The temple of Lord Venkateshwara in this village is a noted centre of religious interest for many Hindus. The Upanayanam of my friend Krishna Varma took place in this temple from 8:00 to 10:45. Their family priest, from Peda Gummuluru, conducted it. I took photos and videos of this occasion with my Sony digital camera. My brother Sambha, Kumar Raja and some other creatures attended this occasion. It was over by 11:00. We moved to hotel Sri Rama, beside NH-16, in Nakkapalli, by 11:30 in the auto rickshaw hired by them. We had formal lunch in this hotel by 12:00. Went to our house in Peda Gummuluru by 12:15 in this auto rickshaw. My brother Sambha and I reached the house of the in-laws of the prior in village Tangedu by 2:00 on his bike. A young saint has been living in this house for the last 15 days. The name of his body is Penmetsa Shiva Rama Krishnam Raju. He is on his rigorous spiritual journey now. He told me about life, Karma and souls. He gave me a Telugu book to read. Returned to Payakaraopeta by 6:00 by bus. Slept by 10:00. 

5 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 8:30 my house owner K S N Raju and I started the work of cleaning our common water tank on the terrace of this house. I entered the tank. There was a thick layer of bleaching powder at the bottom of this cement tank. We left the muddy water and powder out. Then I cleaned this tank with a piece of cloth and broom. It was all over by 9:30. Srijana and Anand returned home by 9:00 on our scooty from Viswanadhapuram. By 10:00 my friend P V S S K Varma came to my abode from Ramayyapatnam. Edited 200 photos of his Upanayanam occasion on my computer from 12:00 to 1:50. There are six videos. Copied them all to a Sony DVD and gave it to him. We had lunch by 2:15. He left for Ramayyapatnam by 3:15. Gave five mango fruit to him to take home. I advised him to leave Hyderabad and find a suitable job for him in this region. Read a Telugu book on the life and salvation of Jetsun Milarepa from 3:30 to 7:00. Milarepa is one of the Tibet’s most famous yogis and poets. He lived from 1052 to 1135. This book is a translated version into Telugu from its original English edition, written by Walter Yeeling Evans-Wentz. He lived from February 2, 1878 to July 17, 1965. A devotee of Saint Ramana translated it into Telugu extraordinarily. Saint P S R K Raju gave it to me to read. It is a great book. It is an authentic guide for those desiring to attain salvation through meditation. It is a highly useful book for practicing yogis. Slept by 10:00.

6 May (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. My brother Sambha told me that the young saint, who lived in the house of his in-laws in village Tangedu, for a few days, left it yesterday night. Initially his plan was to take Janmabhoomi Express from Tuni to Tadepalligudem. I decided to return his book to him in the railway station but he did not come here as scheduled earlier. I have to send it to him by post. He treats it as a precious book. He is going to his favourite spot in the forests of Uttharakhand for meditation. He is a great yogi. He said that we should shun our passion and attachment towards woman, money and fame to improve ourselves spiritually. Lord Indra rigorously obstructs the spiritual growth of all practitioners. Every creature is completely subject to its Karma. It takes a series of births in various forms of life due to its Karma. Such souls, misguided by the forces of nature and Maaya, can attain salvation through intense meditation under the guidance of a capable master. From 2:30 to 5:00 Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Greeku Veerudu” of Nagarjuna and Nayan Tara in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir. It is an interesting film. The dialogues in this film are inspiring and insightful. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. The story evolves with interesting twists and turns. By 5:45 Srijana and Anand left for Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. She helps her maternal grandmother prepare mango pickles. Spent in the abode of K V P Raju talking with them from 6:15 to 8:00. Slept by 9:30.

7 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning prepared text to be used in the making of the wedding card of my cousin Vasu. He is working as an associate officer in the taxation department in the Vedanta firm at Jharsuguda. He wants his wedding card to be in English also to show to his superiors and colleagues. I typed out this matter. Got ready by 9:30. Went to the unit of Ganni Printers in Tuni by 10:15. He showed a few wedding cards. I selected one. They charge eight rupees for each of these cards for print. He told me to come about 5:00 for typing and designing the text in Telugu and English for this wedding card. I decided to spend my time in this area only till then. Spent talking with Hari in the office of Sai Computers till 1:40. I know him. When walking to cinema Veerraju, Gorla Appa Rao, my classmate at government high school (in Darlapudi, where I studied for a few weeks in my eighth standard going there on bicycle) came across me. Talked with him for some time. Saw the Telugu film “Gunde Jaari Gallanthayyindhe” in cinema Veerraju from 2:30 to 5:00. It is an excellent film portraying the beauty and intensity of platonic love of a girl for a boy. It is a kind of hide-and-seek love game between a girl and boy. The beauty and role of Nitya Menon is mesmerizing in this film. I fell in love with her cuteness and acting skills. I was deeply touched watching every scene of this film. It was a feast to my eyes, ears and mind. It’s a magic on me. I give 90 marks for 100 for this film. By 7:30 the fellow of Ganni Printers typed out text in Telugu and English for the wedding card of Vasu. Slept by 9:30.

8 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I edited the content of February and March from my diary of 2013 on my computer. I did it for about 150 minutes. Recently I got an email from Jireh InGod of Partridge India. She is a publishing consultant with this self-publishing firm. She informed me that they are interested in publishing my second work titled ‘A Dreamer’s Love Story’. I felt happy about it. There are different publishing packages. They range from 20,000 rupees to 1, 50,000 rupees. They are charging separately for editing of the copy. There are about 1, 30,000 words in this work. I have to spend about 1, 40,000 rupees for editing service only. I have to spend about 3, 00,000 rupees to get it published in their best publishing package. I want to give this book such royal treatment. I am in financial crisis now. I should go for external funding to get this work published. I wrote to Jireh that I have to depend on others to get it published. I wonder about the importance accorded to money in this world. Many are struggling hard to earn more and more money. I could not save even one rupee during the last 10 years though I worked with some firms as an employee for some years. I allowed my life to flow liberally and ideally. I did not plan for it. I am wondering looking at those that are earning money very well doing something. They are cheating and looting others directly or indirectly. I don’t have those skills. What a pity? When and how can I earn a lot of money? Went to sleep by 10:45.

9 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 10:00 typed out and posted a blog on my blog site. I asked for suggestions from my blog readers about the way of finding sponsors for the publication of my second work. Got ready by 11:00. Took an auto rickshaw by 11:15 and reached Viswanadhapuram by 12:00. Today the collective worship of Challamaamba took place in this hamlet. She is their village goddess. Srijana, Anand and all the residents of this village participated in it. They do it once a year. There are many village goddesses in India. They are all different forms of Goddess Paarvathi. The people of these villages believe that these village goddesses save them from evil forces. Many villagers kill birds and animals during these festivals and fairs. I don’t like this evil culture of Hindus. Had my lunch by 12:30. Went to the farmhouse of Alluru Satya Narayana Raju by 2:30 on his bike along with him. We talked about various ventures of self-employment. He said that one should not change businesses frequently. Many factors cause loss or profit in a business. We should focus a lot on what we are doing. We should not depend on others completely in matters of business. I asked him to allow me to work with him if he starts any business. He said that I should move to Viswanadhapuram to work with him. Night it was sultry in this village. All are depending on artificial air to sleep. Slept by 10:00.

10 May (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning Srijana sliced about 40 mangoes. Her maternal grandmother prepares special pickle with them. Her maternal grandfather is leading a passive life now. He is suffering from loss of memory. He is taking medicines every day. He is like an innocent child now. He is spending all the time at home. Srijana’s grandmother keeps working always. She always thinks about her children and grandchildren. Hers is a life of continuous struggle and sacrifice for others. She worships God every morning. I like Srijana helping her now and then at least. Srijana, Anand and I started to Payakaraopeta by 11:30 on our scooty. The rear brake system of this scooty failed recently. The dome turned loose due to frequent rides on bumpy roads. The back tyre and tube must be changed. We reached our rented abode by 12:00. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy spent here from 11:30 to 1:15 on his way to Gurrajupeta. He said that he is suffering from knee joint pains. By 1:00 went to the unit of Ganni Printers in Tuni and collected the 100 wedding cards of my cousin Vasu. He charged 800 rupees for the design and print of these cards. By 1:10 booked 15 of these cards at a nearby DTDC point. This parcel of cards was addressed to Vasu at the firm of Vedanta at Jharsuguda in Odisha. From 2:30 to 3:30 Srijana and I folded these cards and put them in those envelopes. Srijana applied a little turmeric paste on all the cards. Turmeric is an auspicious substance for Hindus. Slept by 10:00.

11 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to the shed of bike mechanic Rajesh at Lingala Colony in Payakaraopeta by 9:30 on my scooty. I like him. He said that two bearings of the rear wheel of this scooty got worn off. He changed them. It all cost me 290 rupees. By 11:15 Satish came here. He is the assistant sales officer of Eenadu. Krishna, the present agent of Eenadu for Payakaraopeta, is leaving this position. The folks of Eenadu are looking for another fellow to fill this vacancy. Earlier casually I expressed interest in this position. Today Satish met me in this context. He told me about the particulars related to this position. Now there are about 650 subscribers to daily Eenadu in Payakaraopeta. I have to deposit about 1, 50,000 rupees into the bank account of folks of Eenadu towards security deposit. They pay interest on it. I can earn about 15,000 rupees as an agent of Eenadu every month here. I have to distribute their periodicals also. I earn commission on fees related to ads given by local folks in Eenadu. I told him that I would think on it and let him know about my willingness to join their team. Reached home by 12:15. Srijana, Anand, my friend Sri Rama Raju, his wife, his child and I saw the Telugu film “Thadaakhaa” in cinema Gautham from 6:30 to 9:00. It is an interesting and exciting film. Naga Chaitanya and Sunil presented impressive show. Today I emailed parts of my second work to the folks of literary agency Writer’s Side for consideration. Slept by 10:00.

12 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Got ready by 7:30. Started to Peda Gummuluru by 7:45 on my scooty. Reached there by 8:15. My brother Srinivas came to our house by 10:00 from Visakhapatnam. By 11:00 my parents, my brothers and I reached our mango garden at hills on three bikes. We saw our paternal grandparents. My paternal grandfather Thammi Raju is very weak. He is not consuming hard foods. His soul is ready to leave this body. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and paternal aunt Subhadra are staying here to take care of their parents. My father plucked 200 Suvarna Rekha mangoes from three trees in our garden by 11:30. We put them under the trees to dry up for some time. We all started back by 12:00. My mother served food for Srinivas and me by 12:15. She prepared chicken curry for us. We spent talking for some time. By 2:50 my brother Srinivas took a bus for Visakhapatnam. My father and I brought two items of luggage up to Adduroad for him. They are 100 mangoes and steel can with fresh mango pickle prepared by my mother. These two items weigh about 70 kilograms. Started back to Payakaraopeta by 3:00 on my scooty with 100 mangoes. It started raining by the time I was two kilometres away from my abode. It chased me. I got wet. Enjoyed this short ride in rain. It is a game of nature with me. I like it. Afternoon Srijana’s maternal grandmother came to our abode. She is feeling weak and giddy. A doctor checked her. Slept by 10:00.

13 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana’s maternal aunt Madhavi and her cousin Sunil got off a bus on NH-16 by 5:30. They came from Hyderabad. Anand likes Sunil a lot. He eagerly waited for the arrival of Sunil. By 7:00 Srijana, her maternal grandmother, Madhavi, Sunil, Anand and I started to Annavaram in an auto rickshaw hired by us. We reached the old Centenary Complex of rooms on Ratnagiri Hill by 7:45. The folks of Revathi hired room 10 in the ground floor of this building. The Upanayanam of Shivaji took place near this room from 8:00 to 11:00. He is the brother of Revathi. I took photos and videos of this occasion with my digital camera. We all had lunch in the donation food complex by 1:00. Gunturu Prasada Raju and I reached his rented abode in Tuni by 2:30. In a few minutes, I knew that my paternal grandfather Thammi Raju passed away this afternoon in the mango garden at hills. Prasada Raju dropped me at my abode by 3:15. Started to the mango garden by 3:30 on my scooty. Reached there by 4:10. Thammi Raju died about 2:30 this afternoon because of his old age and related weakness. The arrangements were made quickly by 5:20. His cremation took place by 5:45 in a part of Kotha Raju Gaari Podu. My father, the eldest son of Thammi Raju, set fire to the funeral pyre. Many of his relatives came here within minutes after his death. My father and mother stayed back at the thatched hut of my uncle Narayana Murthy. Others left this place by 7:30. Reached Payakaraopeta by 9:00 on my scooty. Slept by 10:00.

14 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana and Anand are in Viswanadhapuram. Madhavi and Sunil are also there. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 9:30 on his scooty from Tetagunta. We two went to Tuni by 10:00 on his scooty. We bought different items at three stores for the religious occasion to be held tomorrow in the mango garden at hills. A priest conducts this program to satisfy the departed soul of Thammi Raju. My father and his two younger brothers participate in this religious program. A barber tonsures their heads on this occasion. This uncle left for the mango garden by 11:00 on his scooty to make other arrangements for this occasion. Today I spent all the day at home casually. It was cloudy, cool and refreshing today. Evening it rained a little for two minutes. My paternal grandfather Datla Thammi Raju lived the life of an ordinary Indian. He struggled for his nominal existence. He was selfish, hard-working and visionary. His wife Lakshmi Narasayyamma changed him into a selfish and narrow-minded person in course of time after their marriage. He lived in the mango garden of the Kshatriyas of village Tangedu by hills near Ramayyapatnam for about 60 years with his family. I always enjoyed his presence. I often desire to go back to those days and continue living there only. Thammi Raju sent the family of my father out within weeks after the marriage of the latter. He failed as a good father in this respect. He had been a great husband. His death is like the end of a touching story in our lives. We all love him. Slept by 10:00.

15 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to a nearby salon by 9:50 and had a haircut. He charges 30 rupees for it. Took a bath by 10:30. Went to bus stand in Payakaraopeta by 10:40 on my scooty. Srijana’s folks took a bus for Elamanchili. Thence they go to Rambilli. There is the marriage of their cousin on the 17^th of this month. They wanted to take Srijana, Anand and me to also to this marriage but the death of my paternal grandfather Thammi Raju disturbed that plan. The closest relatives of a dead person have to observe Myla for 10 days. They should not touch many things in their house during this time. They should not participate in religious functions and auspicious celebrations. The death of a person in a family creates such critical atmosphere in that unit of close relatives. Brought Srijana and Anand to our abode by 11:00 on our scooty. I instructed Srijana not to observe Myla in our abode. I don’t like religious beliefs and observations practiced after the death of a person. Human beings are treating their fellow creatures like untouchable ones when they are alive. They have no humanity. Such sinners have no moral and spiritual authority to regret and celebrate the death of a person in this fashion. They are killing people and then regretting about it. Indians are hypocrites. They play great roles to impress us. They tell many lies if they want to benefit from us. Slept by 10:00.

16 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. I think I need not expect money from the folks of Sunshine International at Dabri in New Delhi. I have their photos with me. I like to deal with them in future. They brought such chaos, loss, pain and unrest into the lives of Srijana, Anand and me. They cheated many poor and innocent people in Andhra Pradesh. How can I recover from the adverse impact of this issue even if God punishes them severely? Even their death is not a solution to my problem. This is why many Indians are committing suicides in India now. Nobody is bothered about their issues and pains. I am one of such victims. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 2:45 on his scooty from Peda Gummuluru. I searched for some good photos of Thammi Raju in some of my DVDs but in vain. I took his photos and videos when he became very old and weak. This uncle brought some photos. We two went to Sai Digital Lab in Tuni by 3:30 on his scooty. We got two prints laminated by 6:30. These photos are not clear. My uncle paid 500 rupees for these two laminated photos. We don’t know the birth date of Thammi Raju. So, we got his name only printed on these photos. Many search for photos after the death of a person. It means we don’t care for somebody when he or she is alive. My uncle left for mango garden at hills by 7:00. Today I subscribed for Telugu periodicals Chathura and Vipula. I have to yet pay money for them. Satish gave two plastic containers as gifts. Slept by 10:00.

17 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night there were power cuts. We could not sleep well. Today I typed up the content of April from my diary of 2013 on my computer. I did it for six hours. By 12:00 my cousin Krishna Kumari called me up from Gollalagunta and informed me that she got 8.8 grade in the 10^th standard exams, which she took recently. She must have got about 530 marks for 600. It is a considerable achievement by her. She achieved it out of her hard work and determination. She studied at the government high school in Gollalagunta. By 4:00 my friend K V P Raju came to my abode from his rented abode in Devi Nagar. He vacates the portion of D S N Raju on or before 30^th of this month. He is moving into a rented abode at Adduroad. His son comes to Sri Prakash School at Payakaraopeta by that school bus regularly hereafter. He can daily go to his coconut farm in Gurrajupeta. He is slowly recovering from the pain of death of his daughter. I enjoyed his presence and company for all these days. I miss them here. Today Alluru Satya Narayana Raju called me up from Viswanadhapuram. He is developing a piece of forest into fertile land for cultivation near Viswanadhapuram. He invited me to join this project. I enjoy working with him. I have to discuss it with him soon. By 8:45 my cousin Bala came to my abode from Annavaram. He had dinner there in a marriage function along with Raghupati and other familiar folks. Slept by 10:15.

18 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. My cousin Bala got ready by 8:00. He started to Kakinada by 8:30. Recently he joined Aditya Junior College at Surampalem as a teaching faculty member. He teaches botany and zoology to those CBSE students. He takes two classes only every day. He commutes in a car provided by the management of the school every day. They pay him 25,000 rupees a month. I wondered knowing that many North Indian students joined these colleges. The infrastructure of Aditya schools and colleges is good. There are several buses for students to commute daily, beautiful buildings, libraries filled with many books, hostels, spacious campuses and such other facilities. It is a mediocre set of educational institutions as far as their teaching faculty and students are concerned. They cannot attract and retain extraordinary students and teachers. They promote the image of their schools and colleges inviting shallow celebrities frequently. Three monarchs are managing this paradise of fools now. Bala is looking for an educated and beautiful girl to marry. Now girls in Kshatriya community are searching for financially sound boys and families. This is the mentality of prostitutes. Their parents are the pimps in this sphere of traders. Prostitutes look for rich clients. These girls want comforts and luxuries in the company of their husbands. Bala is a good boy. He has to struggle hard to find a good girl for him. Slept by 10:30.

19 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. The maternal grandparents, maternal aunt, mother of Srijana and Sunil came to our abode by 9:00 from Rambilli. They went there to attend the marriage ceremony of the elder son of the youngest maternal grandfather of Srijana. They brought many marriage related sweets and gifts from there. By 11:30 went to Tuni railway station on my scooty. My brother-in-law Vamsy got off Prashanti Express by 11:40. He took it at Hindupur. Now he is working there as a quality inspector with a unit of Wipro Infrastructure Engineering. We don’t talk over phone. We behave like aliens. He is trying for some other jobs. Brought him home by 11:50. The family unit of Sekhar and Revathi came to our abode by 12:00 from Tuni. Srijana prepared Vegetable Biryani for all of us. Our abode looked beautiful today with all these familiar creatures. Yogis live away from all kinds of people. Materialists live for their people. By 5:00 my father-in-law came from Marripalem. His first sister Lakshmi and second sister Satyavathi came here by this time from Kasireddi Palem and Penugollu Dharma Varam respectively. We watched the photos and videos, related to the Upanayanam of Shivaji, the brother of Revathi, on my computer, for some time. The maternal grandparents of Srijana, Madhavi, Sunil, Revathi, Sekhar, Ashish and Aditya left for Viswanadhapuram by 7:00 in an auto rickshaw hired by them. Vamsy and I decided to sleep on the terrace of this house to get natural air. Slept there by 10:00.

20 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night we slept well on the terrace of this house. The open air was cool and refreshing. Vamsy and I took Satyavathi and Lakshmi to the bus station in Tuni by 7:30 on two bikes. Shortly Srijana, Anand and my father-in-law too reached here. Lakshmi, Satyavathi, Srijana and Anand took a Rajahmundry bound bus for Jaggampeta. My father-in-law and Vamsy started here on a bike. Today there is registration of land at the office of Sub Registrar in Jaggampeta. My father-in-law and his brother Jagannada Raju are selling their 2 acres and 5 cents of paddy farmland to four buyers in Gollalagunta. This piece of land is near Chembudu Cheruvu. The names of these buyers are Pondru Ramudu, Pondru Pottiyya, Edala Krishna and Balabhadra Raju. Each of them bought half an acre of land approximately. The cost of one acre of land is 6, 90,000 rupees. The three sisters of my father-in-law, his brother Jagannada Raju, Vamsy and Srijana signed the sale documents. This process of registration took place from 11:00 to 2:30. Mantena Venkata Ramana Raju and his brothers moved to Gollalagunta about 40 years ago from village Nyayampudi near Nakkapalli selling their farmlands in this region. The rates of these lands increased tremendously over the years as they are near National Highway 16. The rates of farmlands in Gollalagunta did not increase to this extent. With the sale of this land, my father-in-law and his siblings lost relationship with the land of this village. I regret it. Slept by 10:00 on the terrace of this house.

21 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father-in-law left for Marripalem by 6:00 on his bike. Jagannada Raju, the paternal uncle of Srijana, came to our abode by 7:30 from Penugollu Dharmavaram. We spent talking for some time. Took my mother-in-law and Jagannada Raju to Tuni railway station by 8:15 on my scooty. They are going to Peda Brahmadevam. By 10:30 my uncle Datla Rama Raju and his wife came to our abode from Gollapalem near Kakinada. They spent talking with us for some time. We had lunch by 11:45. Took them to Y junction by 11:50. They left for Gurrajupeta. The poor and helpless mother of this uncle is living in Gurrajupeta now. They went there to see her. By the time I came back, I saw Srijana sleeping on a cot. These days she is feeling tired by afternoon and so sleeping for one or two hours regularly. Washed our used dishes in the sink. There are soaked clothes to be washed by her. The sun is hot outside. It was sultry. I realized that she cannot wash all these clothes in this situation. Washed them in half an hour. Generally I wash my clothes only. Today I helped Srijana this way. By 4:00 went to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni. Paid 80,534 rupees to them and collected the gold ornaments of Srijana. This is the money of her father. Srijana and Anand left for Viswanadhapuram by 4:30 on our scooty. Took a bus by 5:30 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 6:00. Slept by 12:00.

22 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night my cousin Ravindra talked with me for about two hours. He is the son of my paternal aunt Subhadra. He told me about his difficult state of life now. His father became a villain to him. He is leading a hellish life now. I felt deeply disturbed listening to his sad and complex story of life. He is feeling insecure and unhappy about himself. Got ready by 6:30. Went to the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy in the mango garden at hills by 7:30. Today it is the 10^th day ceremony, related to the mortal departure of my paternal grandfather Datla Thammi Raju. Today we offered formal lunch to our invited guests on this occasion. About 100 creatures attended it. My folks presented steel glasses to guests after lunch as gifts in memory of Thammi Raju. These visitors bade farewell to the physical life of this gentleman. This program took place from 10:00 to 3:00. It is a sad and tragic day for me. I could not do anything for him when he was suffering. Now I am suffering thinking about his death and his permanent physical separation from our material network of bonds. I love his life. I miss him deeply in my psyche. Took a bus by 5:15 in Adduroad and reached Payakaraopeta by 6:00. Srijana and Anand returned here by 5:00 from Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. Today it was hot and sultry. Night Srijana got ready for our journey to Peda Brahmadevam tomorrow. Slept by 10:20.

23 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Last night a relative of Srijana and Vamsy came to our rented abode by 1:00. They slept on the terrace beside me. We all got ready by 5:50. Srijana and Anand sat on the bike of their relative. Vamsy sat on my scooty. We five started to Peda Brahmadevam by 6:00. We travelled via Annavaram, Kathipudi, Pithapuram, Samarla Kota and reached this village by 8:00. The Upanayanam of Srinivasa Raju, the son of Venkata Ramanamma, the youngest paternal aunt of Srijana, took place in their house from 7:00 to 10:30. We had lunch by 11:30. We rested in a house till 4:00. Reached the temple of Lord Surya Narayana in Gollala Mamidada by 6:00 in the decorated car along with the bridegroom Srinivasa Raju. The marriage of Srinivas and Vara Lakshmi took place from 7:30 to 11:30 in a part of this temple. There was power cut from 8:15 to 11:00. The bridegroom party did not arrange a power generator for this occasion. The hired folks could not take photos and videos of this occasion well for this reason during these hours of power cut. I played the role of the associate of bridegroom in this marriage. We all returned to Peda Brahmadevam by 12:30. Today my cousin Narendra Varma joined an 80 MW power generation unit of OPG Power Ventures Plc. at Gummidi Poondi as a graduate trainee engineer. Slept by 2:00.

24 May (Friday)

Woke up by 4:00. Datla Lakshmi Narasimha Raju, the father of my friend Srinivasa Raju of Kasireddi Palem, and I started to Payakaraopeta by 5:00 from Peda Brahmadevam on my scooty. Srijana and Anand stay here for some more days. We started early in the morning considering power of high temperature during daytime. Many innocent and helpless people are dying now due to this scorching summer heat. We reached Payakaraopeta by 7:00 travelling via Samarla Kota, Pithapuram, Kathipudi and Annavaram. I took two hours’ time to finish travelling a distance of 80 kilometres on my scooty. The roads have dangerous shapes and edges in many areas. Most of the road users are undisciplined and crazy idiots. They run their vehicles carelessly on roads. They don’t follow traffic rules. I see many such rogues on roads every day. Today I rode my scooty carefully minding these truths related to nasty Indian road users. The rear tyre of my scooty should be changed immediately. It got worn out completely. Lakshmi Narasimha Raju took a bus by 7:20 for Narsipatnam. Thence he goes to their village Kasireddi Palem. He is the husband of Lakshmi, the eldest paternal aunt of Srijana. He is a peasant farmer. I like him a lot. Evening bought three black Cello Gripper ballpoint pens from Indira bookstore in Tuni for 21 rupees. I write my personal diary with this pen. I like its thin writing. It’s hot today. Went to sleep by 10:00 on the terrace.

25 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home casually. Today it was very hot throughout the day. Hot winds blew even at night for some time. Today my cousin Vasu started in Jharsuguda in his car to Visakhapatnam. He hired a driver to drive his car along with him. They started there early morning and reached Visakhapatnam by 10:30 at night. They travelled for about 700 kilometres in the hot sun. Srijana is unable to write her small personal diary in Telugu regularly. She often writes in many pages looking into my diary. It is a difficult assignment. I don’t know about what I write on any given day. Many think that writing a diary is an ordinary job. It is an extraordinary task to write a diary every day. We may not be healthy and happy every day but we must write it. Nobody compels us to write our personal diary. We should think that it is very important in our life. It is a written record of events and experiences in our life. Our life is different from that of others. Our thoughts and imaginations are important for us. It is our honest endeavor to write and narrate our story to others. It presents our life in an orderly manner. We cannot understand one looking at the body of one. Personal diaries are valuable records of history. We must write diaries honestly always. Slept by 10:00.

26 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30 on the terrace. Last night Lakshmi appeared me in my dream. It is a classic dream. She is thinking deeply about me. I have to meet her. Went to the bus station in Tuni by 8:00. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju got off an Express bus. He took it in Jaggampeta. We reached Raja Venkata Nagaram by 8:50 on my scooty. My uncle invited all his familiar folks in this village to the occasions of Upanayanam and marriage of his elder son Srinivasa Raju. We reached Peda Theenaarla by 10:30 via Gurrajupeta. My uncle invited his familiar folks in this village. It was very hot today. Hot winds blew when my uncle and I were travelling through these villages. I wore black glasses to protect my eyes from this high temperature. Yet my eyes turned reddish. My brother Sambha gave me 500 rupees to me for my inevitable casual expenses. I had no money on me. Returned to my abode in Payakaraopeta by 4:00 on my scooty. Scanned Eenadu for 30 minutes. Sent my CV to the folks of Muthoot by email for the position of customer service executive. They advertised some vacancies related to East Godavari and Visakhapatnam districts. I am looking for a job. Got into the car of my cousin Vasu by 5:30 on the NH-16 near my rented abode. His father Rama Raju took it in Peda Gummuluru. We reached Gollalagunta by 6:45. Slept by 9:30.

27 May (Monday)

This early morning it rained well about 3:30. It turned cool and refreshing. It is a great relief for those that are suffering from the high temperatures of this summer. Morning Vasu and I planned about some things to be done today. My father and my mother came to the house of my maternal uncle Varma in Gollalagunta by 11:30. They came here formally after the death of my paternal grandfather Thammi Raju. By 12:15 my cousin Vasu, his father, my cousin Vinay and I started to Rajahmundry in the car of the prior. We don’t know about the location of cloth stores in this place. Vasu bought a pair of black shoes for 1,200 rupees in Step One store. He got a small front light changed at a mechanic store in Auto Nagar. He got four wheel caps fitted at Sindhu Automobiles. He got left door mirror also changed. He spent about 1,500 rupees for these repair and beautification works of his car. We returned to Jaggampeta by 5:30. We bought vegetables, clothes and some other items in Jaggampeta till 8:00. We reached Gollalagunta by 8:30. It was cool and refreshing today throughout the day. Enjoyed my outdoor tour in the car of my cousin Sagiraju Srinivasa Raju. By 12:00 Srijana, Anand and some of her relatives reached our rented abode in Payakaraopeta. She enjoyed her time in Peda Brahmadevam along with her paternal aunts and other folks. She likes going to places and spending with her dear creatures. Slept by 10:00.

28 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju and I started to Jaggampeta by 8:00 on his bike. We ordered 30 kilos of curd for the 30^th of this month at the point of Visakha Dairy. We went to Yerra Varam by 8:40. My uncle bought 10 kilos of jaggery for 400 rupees here. Then he bought three bunches of bananas for 500 rupees. We tied these four items of luggage to this bike. I too sat behind my uncle. We reached Gollalagunta by 11:30. We had lunch by 12:30. We two started to Ramula Deva Puram by 1:15 on bike. We reached there by 2:15 travelling via Mallisala, Mallavaram and Molleru. The forest along this road is green and beautiful. The road through this forest is well up to Mallavaram. This is considerable development in this region. Earlier this road was in a bad shape. The road leading to Bhoopathipalem is still in a bad condition. I like to go to the A P R School here sometime soon. We spent at the house of Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju, the father-in-law of my cousin Vasu, for one hour. We told our two familiar Kshatriya women to come to Gollalagunta by tomorrow evening. They supervise the formal cooking as considerable experts in this field. We returned to Jaggampeta by 5:20. My uncle knows some Kshatriya fellows here. He invited all the folks in this place to Upanayanam and marriage of his son Vasu. We returned to Gollalagunta by 7:30. Morning my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma came here from Durgada. Went to sleep by 10:00.

29 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Spent talking with my parents at the house of my maternal uncle Varma for one hour. They spent here formally for two days after the death of my paternal grandfather Thammi Raju. Hereafter they can go to any auspicious occasion normally. Vasu and I took my parents to the bus station in Jaggampeta by 5:15 in the car of the prior. They took a Visakhapatnam bound Express bus by 6:00 for Adduroad. Vasu and I waited for Narendra Varma near cinema Krishna Veni for one hour. He got off a bus by 7:15 on NH-16. Yesterday night he took it at Nellore. We reached Gollalagunta by 7:40. My brother Sambha, Kranthi and baby boy Anjaneya Raju came to the house of my maternal aunt Raja Kumari by 11:30. They came from Peda Gummuluru. My brother Srinivas, Sandhya Rani, Sujan and Suhas came here by 3:30. They came in the car of Ramesh and Sowjanya. My mother also came in this car along with these folks from Peda Gummuluru. My father did not come. By 4:30 my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju got his hair coloured black. His hair turned white completely. He blackened it for the first time to look well on the occasion of the marriage of his son Srinivas. Whenever I look at him (S Rama Raju), I remember film actor Chiranjeevi. There is similarity between these two creatures in some format. Only my senses could trace it. I liked both alike once but now I lost sincere love for this film actor after observing his clumsy and unwanted role in politics. By night many relatives of Vasu reached here for the occasion of his Upanayanam tomorrow. Night my cousin Narendra Varma and I went to Jaggampeta and Boorugupudi (near Veera Varam) to do marriage related works. Went to sleep by 11:15.

30 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 3:00. It rained for some time between 6:30 and 8:30. The Upanayanam of my cousin Sagiraju Srinivasa Raju took place in their house from 7:00 to 9:30. My uncle did not hire a power generator. Power cut occurred in the beginning of this occasion. The hired cameraman could not take the video of this occasion during this time. He took photos only. They restored power supply soon. This cameraman and I took photos and videos of this occasion actively during this time. We started offering formal lunch to guests from 11:00. It went on till 3:00. Most of the guests left the venue of Upanayanam by this time. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju and I collected the scattered plastic glasses and plates from the venue of lunch between 3:30 and 4:00. Most of shallow Indians consume food like stray dogs and pigs. They drop food items everywhere. They eat food moving in such dirty place created by their collective effort casually. They expect their hosts to clean that place later. They assign this work to their familiar low level community members. My uncle did this work patiently. I helped him a little. We set fire to this heap of collected garbage by 4:15. Evening Narendra Varma gave a soft drink party to all the available folks celebrating the occasion of his getting a job with the OPG Power Ventures recently. He conducted Tambola game to some young guests. He gave away cash prizes to winners in these games. I participated in this game for some time. My cousin Bala and I slept by 10:00 at the house of the maternal grandparents of the prior in Gollalagunta.

31 May (Friday)

Woke up by 3:00. About 100 relatives of our family are at the house of my maternal aunt Raja Kumari now. A small ceremony was held in the morning. A barber formally cut the nails of bridegroom Vasu. The lunch program took place from 10:30 to 2:00. The car of Vasu was decorated with flowers and ribbons by 2:30. The bridegroom and three others started to the venue of marriage by 2:50. Two school buses arrived by 3:00. One is of Datla Krishna Varma and one is of Vivekananda School in Jaggampeta. Our folks got 20 litres of diesel filled into each of these vehicles. Women got into a bus and men into another bus. Srijana and Anand got into the bus of women. They came here this morning. These buses pulled off by 4:00. We reached Ramula Deva Puram by 5:30. Part of our bus got damaged at the back due to a bumpy point on the road near Molleru. Even other vehicles got damaged at this bad point of the road. They gave the house of Raja Kumari to the bridegroom and the party for formal stay (called Vididhi in Telugu) and the ceremony before marriage. They started offering dinner to guests at the government school by 7:30. Vasu wore formal suit by 8:50 and started to the venue of marriage by 9:00 in his decorated white car brought from Odisha. The marriage of Sagiraju Srinivasa Raju and Kolukuluri Hema took place from 9:15 to 12:15 at the house of the paternal grandparents of the bride. Reached Mallavaram by 11:30 along with my folks. Slept by 11:50.

1 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00 at the house of the maternal grandparents of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani in village Molleru Mallavaram. I slept in the open under a coconut tree. The leaves of the tree stopped dew from falling upon me. Coconuts did not fall on me either. My brother Srinivas and his folks are here now. Ramesh, Sowjanya and Sravya are also here now. Ramesh, Srijana, Anand and I started to Jaggampeta by 7:30 in an auto rickshaw. The car of Ramesh got dented yesterday when going to Ramula Deva Puram from Mallavaram. He came here to get it repaired. Srijana, Anand and I took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Gollalagunta by 8:30. My maternal aunt Raja Kumari told me to take sweets I like from those brought from the house of the bride. I am not consuming sweets much these days considering the negative effect they have on human health system. I took a small pack of sweets only. My mother, Srijana and Anand decided to stay back. My cousin Sagiraju Narendra Varma brought me to the bus stand in Jaggampeta by 11:40 on his bike. Took a Visakhapatnam bound Express bus by 12:00 and reached the bus depot in Tuni by 1:20. Walked up to Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta. A fellow dropped me near my abode on NH-16. I felt sleepy and dim. Rested on a cot till 5:00. Meanwhile it turned cloudy and cool. Took a bath and felt relieved. Today I could not pay my house portion rent, to owner, according to my norms. Slept by 8:30.

2 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. I could not see any Telugu film during the last week being busy with the activities related to the marriage of my cousin Vasu. I enjoy the pursuit of watching feature films. Many Indians are cheating others now. I think I am not getting cheated watching films in cinemas. I like to see a film like an innocent child. I am not a scholar or critic. I watch films to entertain and educate myself. Films are like dreams. They are made with the material of creativity and imaginations. Human life is a shadow of soul. Life is a long film. What we are watching on television and cinema screens is a short film. Films attract me deeply. They are making my life pleasant and ideal. I love those struggling to make films. They are working hard day and night to please me. I should be grateful to them watching those films regularly. The titles of many films are strange and shallow now. Film stories are also so now. It is inevitable in every field of creativity and fiction. We all think and live almost alike. Novelty and uniqueness are very difficult concepts to present in our lives and pieces of art. Took a bus by 12:45 at Y Junction and reached Peda Gummuluru by 1:30. My brother Srinivas and other folks reached Adduroad by 4:30 in the car of Ramesh. They came from Molleru Mallavaram. My father and I brought mango parcels from our house for Srinivas. They took a bus for Visakhapatnam. My mother and Srijana came from Gollalagunta by 5:30. Slept by 10:00.

3 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 10:30 my father went to Andhra Pradesh Grameena Vikas Bank at Adduroad to take out a gold loan from it for me pledging the gold ornaments of Srijana. They gave 81,000 rupees depending on the present value of four gold ornaments of Srijana. The interest is 70 paise per 100 rupees per month. I have to pay the principal and interest soon after the completion of a period of six months for it to take the ornaments back. Then I can take out a loan again. They want to clear every loan once for six months. I have to give 80,000 rupees to my father-in-law. Recently I cleared my loan from Manappuram Finance at Tuni borrowing money from him. By 3:30 packed 100 mangoes into two cardboard boxes to take to my abode in Payakaraopeta. My father brought them to Adduroad by 4:00 on his bicycle. Srijana, Anand and I followed him on foot. We took a Payakaraopeta bound bus by 4:30. Srijana and Anand sat in a seat beside the rear exit. A clumsy fellow stood on the footboard. He kept ogling her. I felt irritated and infuriated but did not express it. His friend joined him soon. Srijana was watching out of a window. They were looking at her. I was observing them like an alien. I did not like to make a mess out of it. It’s a journey of 30 minutes. It’s their style of expressing admiration for a beauty. Ogling is an indecent expression. Sensitive girls hate such guys. Somebody treats them somewhere. I left them to their lot. Slept by 10:00.

4 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Paid 3,500 rupees to my house owner K S N Raju by 8:30 towards rent for my portion for the last month. It is not my money. Recently my father-in-law told me that he gave us about one lakh rupees during the last two years. I borrowed money from others also. I am searching for such jobs, which I can do living in this rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta. I am not interested in going anywhere else. School is very near to Anand from this abode of living. Hospital is very near for Srijana. National Highway 16 is closely visible from here. This house faces the railway track and green hills. I enjoy these views. I can reach our house in Peda Gummuluru within 30 minutes from here. The abodes of Srijana’s parents, maternal grandparents and relatives are very close to this place. I am comfortable and happy in this environment. I am failing as an earner. I have to earn about 25,000 rupees every month to live happily here. It seems I cannot earn this much money in this place. I have to manage with whatever I can earn. All are considering me as an irresponsible person now because I am not earning money. Society paints our picture vaguely based on what it knows about us partially. Few have time and interest to explore and analyze realities objectively. I am living in a shallow society. Saw Telugu film “Iddharammaayilatho” in cinema Gautham from 2:30 to 5:00 along with Srijana and Anand. It is an interesting and exciting film. Srijana and Anand left for the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near village Marripalem by 6:00. Slept by 9:00.

5 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 11:00 took a ceiling fan to a mechanic in Payakaraopeta. Raghu came along with me. He is the younger brother of Asha Bhanu. I often depend on him for minor electrical works in our rented abode. Yesterday night he undid the ceiling fan in our small bedroom. He checked and found that the copper wiring in this fan got damaged. The former tenant, who lived in this portion for about four years, left two ceiling fans in two bedrooms. They are heavier than the present ceiling fans. They are of better quality than the present pieces. My house owner K S N Raju told me to use them. This mechanic told me to come on Saturday to take this fan after its repair. By 11:15, a DTH mechanic came to our abode. He brought the used SUN DIRECT dish material of my in-laws from agricultural farm at Marripalem. He fitted a TATA Sky dish there for them. They spent 3,200 rupees for it. My father-in-law presented that SUN DIRECT piece to us. This mechanic fitted this dish material on the terrace of this house by 11:45. Our ONIDA colour television got activated by 12:15. Srijana becomes busy watching television again. I watch it now and then. By 12:30 took a bus at Payakaraopeta and got off it at Thaandava Junction by 1:15. My father-in-law sent a fellow with a bike to take me to the agricultural farm of D S N Raju. I felt happy spending in this tranquil place. Slept by 9:30.

6 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night I could sleep well in this agricultural farm. Pure air and silence made it possible. My in-laws entered the first floor of this newly constructed house on the 30^th of last month in this farm. It is comfortable for them. The teak plants grew about three metres tall. This farm is turning greener and beautiful day by day. Srijana and I reached Thaandava Junction by 9:00 on two bikes. Anand stayed back in agricultural farm with his maternal grandparents. He said that he would go to school from the abode of these grandparents here. He is not interested in going to Canossa School from our rented abode in Payakaraopeta. He is not interested in going to any school at all. He wants to play at home and spend his time happily. Institutional learning is a burden. He wants to avoid it staying away from school. I don’t want to send him to any school. He should grow at home happily. Srijana, her parents and my parents want him to go to school. I regret it. He should not spoil and ruin his life getting educated like me. Education is making human beings into machines and merciless businessmen. Srijana and I took a bus by 9:30 and reached our rented abode at Devi Nagar by 10:45. About three months ago Srijana got affected with Bronchitis. Recently she went for medical tests. By 5:45 took her to Harika Hospital in Tuni. Dr M Pradeep prescribed some medical tests and medicines for her. Slept by 9:30.

7 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. It started raining two days ago due to monsoon. It turned cool and pleasant. For ordinary people, it is like falling into a cool river from a furnace. Summer gave way to rainy season in many parts of India. Kerala witnesses this spell of seasonal rainfall every year in June initially. They are lucky people of India. Their land is filled with inspiring natural beauty. By 9:00 went to Gayathri Junior and Degree College in Tuni on my scooty. They placed a small ad in the Visakhapatnam district edition of Eenadu on the fourth of this month. They are looking for teachers and lecturers to work in their school and colleges. I gave my application to them for the position of English Lecturer in their degree college. Meanwhile, Murthy, the owner of these educational institutions, came to this office. He scanned my CV, covering letter and photocopies of educational certificates. I asked for 16,000 rupees or more as monthly salary for this position. He said that he is providing education to students collecting low fees from them for all courses of education. He can pay me 12,000 rupees a month. I have to take two Intermediate and four undergraduate courses every day. It is a big responsibility. I told him that I would respond to him soon. He told me to join by 9:00 this Monday if I am interested in this job offer. He gave me four Intermediate course related texts to have a look. Today I edited the content of April from my diary of 2013 on my computer for one hour. Slept by 10:00.

8 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 9:00 Srijana and I went to Tuni on our scooty. She bought vegetables in a market for us. Went to Gayathri College and gave a letter to them. I wrote (typed out), in this letter, that I cannot join their colleges as an English lecturer if they don’t pay me 15,000 rupees a month. By 12:45, my cousin Vasu, his wife Hema, his mother Raja Kumari, my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma and my uncle Chanti Babu came to our abode in the car of the prior. They spent talking with us for 30 minutes. They found our rented abode spacious and comfortable. They left for Visakhapatnam by 1:20. They spend their time for a while at our house in Peda Gummuluru en route. Srijana took a bus by 4:00 to go to the abode of her parents at Marripalem. By 4:20, went to a paper plate maker in Payakaraopeta. He is making light meal plates with paper. His parents and siblings are engaged in it. Brought him to my abode. Showed my paper cup machine and the three bundles of raw material. Asked him to find somebody to buy them. Brought my repaired ceiling fan home by 5:30 from the mechanic. Spent 300 rupees on it. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 5:45. Today he bought the 219 square yards of plot of my brother Sambha at Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar in Payakaraopeta for about seven lakh rupees. We spent talking till 7:00. By 6:16, Murthy of Gayathri College, called me up and told me to meet him tomorrow morning at this college. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to Gayathri College in Tuni by 10:00 on my scooty. Correspondent Murthy was there. He said that he would pay me 15,000 rupees a month as salary on one condition. He does not pay me salary for the months of April and May. There won’t be teaching work in these two months. Generally he pays salaries to teachers for the month of April also. He does not pay salaries for the month of May only to all teachers because it is the period of holidays for all. I agreed to it. He took me to the house of a student in Tuni in his car by 10:20. He said that she is a brilliant student. He told his father to admit her into 9^th standard in his school. He is starting an English medium school this year. Rayapa Raju took the school section as part of the deal between them. Murthy is starting his school this academic year for students from Nursery to Standard 9. Took leave of him by 11:00. He advised me to start to college by 9:00 or 9:30 tomorrow morning. It is auspicious time according to Telugu calendar. He follows astrological beliefs faithfully. Informed my parents and brothers that I had joined this college as an English lecturer today. They felt blissful. I am joining a job after a break of two years. I felt uneasy today because I am responsible for teaching English to a number of students from tomorrow. Srijana, her mother and Anand came by 4:30 from Marripalem. Today I typed up the content of May from my diary of 2013 on my computer. Slept by 10:00.

10 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could not sleep well. Initially I slept on the terrace. A few drops of rain fell around 12:30. I came down and tried to sleep in our small bedroom. There is no ceiling fan. There are some mosquitoes. They disturbed me. Going to bed is in our hands. Sleeping well is beyond our control. Every adult must sleep for eight hours satisfactorily every night. If we fail to do so, we die earlier than desired by us. My father, my maternal aunt Raja Kumari and Hema came to our abode by 9:00 in the car of Vasu. My father brought about 50 mangoes of “Nalla Mogga” type for me from Peda Gummuluru. These four left for Gollalagunta by 9:05. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Golla Appa Rao Centre in Tuni by 9:15. Thence walked to Gayathri College. This is my first day in this college as an English lecturer. Morning took three classes casually. All students are yet to come to college after summer holidays. Afternoon sat observing the demonstration classes of some candidates. Murthy wants some more teachers and lecturers to work in his school, junior and degree colleges. Srijana and I went to Harika Hospital in Tuni by 5:45. A paramedical staff member injected CLAVOX I.V. medicine to Srijana through special apparatus fitted on the back of her left hand. Dr Rama Krishnam Raju prescribed four doses of this medicine to cure Bronchitis in her. This is the second dose of it. We returned home by 6:30. Raghu fitted the ceiling fan in our small bedroom. Took out some books from my cardboard boxes. Slept by 9:45.

11 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father-in-law came to my abode by 7:30. Today he and my mother-in-law have to present themselves in the court at Tuni. It is in relation to a case of complaint, they made against a police in K O Mallavaram, a few years ago. They attend an adjournment session today. By 8:30 Srijana and I started to Tuni on our scooty. I got off it at Gayathri College. She went to Harika Hospital in Tuni to get the third dose of CLAVOX medicine injected. Morning I took three classes and discussed general things casually. Had my lunch by 1:00. From 3:15 to 4:30 taught English to the teachers and lecturers in this college. Vinjamuri Sri Rama Chandra Murthy, the owner of Gayathri educational institutions, asked me to teach them about the importance of English and tenses. Most of the teaching faculty members are not using proper communicative English in their classrooms now when teaching different subjects to their students at various levels of learning. I advised these teachers and lecturers to improve their English through reading different books, listening to authentic spoken English on radio and television channels and other platforms, speaking it regularly and writing it frequently. They can learn English if they have passion for it. Practice is important. Left the college by 4:45. Srijana came to Harika Hospital by 5:15 on our scooty. She got the fourth dose of CLAVOX injected against Bronchitis in her. We spent at the abode of Revathi for 15 minutes. We returned home by 7:30. Slept by 9:30.

12 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Got ready by 8:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 8:05 and reached Golla Appa Rao Centre by 8:10. The fare is five rupees. Thence walked and reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Srijana pursued her first year B.Sc. Computers course of study in this college during the academic year 2007-08. Morning I took three classes and discussed some points of English casually. Had my lunch by 1:00 sitting in a classroom. Srijana packed some amount of rice in a steel breakfast box and curry in a small plastic container. From 3:00 to 4:00 took the English instruction class to the teaching faculty of this educational institution. Today some creatures did not attend this class. Perhaps they have no time or interest in this class. Left the college by 4:10. Met my uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada by 4:20 near the office of Sub Registrar in Tuni. Today he paid one lakh rupees to his familiar real estate agent Dhivaanam towards partial payment for the plot of land he bought from him in Seshadri Nagar Layout in Tuni region. He pays the remaining amount of money soon and gets this plot of land registered in the name of his son-in-law Anantha Varma. Today I could not assist him personally because of remaining in the college. He went to my abode in my absence. He said that he would leave for Durgada by the passenger train at 7:30 from Tuni railway station. Walked back to Golla Appa Rao Centre by 4:30. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw up to Durga Ambika Ice Factory in Payakaraopeta. Slept by 9:30.

13 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Morning took two classes and discussed English casually. We should not start teaching the prescribed syllabus until all the students attend their classes. Afternoon I did not take the English instruction class to the teaching faculty members because they had no time for it. Attended the demonstration class of a Telugu teacher casually along with my colleagues and some students. He could not do it well. Morning Srijana and Anand went to Canossa English Medium School near our rented abode. She paid 1,000 rupees and admitted Anand into the standard of Lower Kindergarten. Last academic year, he attended the classes of Nursery for a few days only. Today Srijana paid part of his course fee. We have to yet pay 5,500 rupees. She also paid 800 rupees and collected study material and some other related items for Anand from these folks. They sell low cost items at high prices. All private schools and colleges are doing this business in Andhra Pradesh now. Anand goes to school from the first week of next month. Morning Srijana bought a beautiful food carrier bag for me spending 150 rupees. She bought six Cello Gripper pens also for me. By 5:00 Srijana, Anand and I went to Tuni on our scooty. She bought a steel food carrier for me for 150 rupees and one for 85 rupees for Anand. We bought a pair of cherry red moccasin Romano shoes for 620 rupees for me and a pair of black shoes (of BATA) for Anand for 220 rupees in the Popular footwear store at Payakaraopeta. Slept by 9:30.

14 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana arranged my food carrier by 7:45. There are three boxes in this stainless steel food carrier. She kept rice in the bottom box, curd rice in the middle box and curry in the upper box. She put this carrier in the beautiful bag, which she bought for me. Started to Gayathri College by 8:07 with this bag. I am an automated machine now. This machine has fixed working hours and related schedules. I feel like a bonded labourer when I am going somewhere carrying this box of lunch. I joined the cult of sheep. I lead my mechanical life depending on the instructions of somebody else. I patiently wait for the alms thrown by my employer every month. I surrendered the process of my survival to the guidance and mercy of an employer. Today I took five classes of Intermediate students in the morning and afternoon. I am discussing basics of English depending on an English grammar book and Oxford Learner’s English Dictionary. Most of them are poor at English. They have no passion for it. They are studying it for the sake of examinations. From 5:00 to 6:30, Sri Rama Chandra Murthy, the head of this institution, gave a lecture to all the teaching faculty members. He advised us on the aspects of admissions, expectations of parents and students, quality of teaching, continuous assessment, behavior of teachers and standards and values to be followed while in this educational institution. He speaks well. He is an able and intelligent administrator. Returned home by 7:30. Slept by 9:30.

15 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took five classes of Intermediate and undergraduate students in the morning and afternoon sessions. I took a class of ninth standard students also. Attended the demonstration class of a candidate, who wants to become an English teacher, in Gayathri School. He taught about C V Raman for about 10 minutes using the black board in a classroom. He did not use auxiliary verbs and prepositions well in this demonstration class. I gave 50 marks to his English language skills. He did not teach earlier. He is entering this profession. When there are no suitably qualified and capable teachers, the managements of schools and colleges recruit incompetent ones. If school children are not taught well, they become poor learners and users of English in course of time. Most of Indians are inefficient users of English now because they are not improving their standard of English continuously through reading, speaking, writing and listening practices. Regular practice is essential to improve our English usage skills. Most of us are not practicing English systematically but using it now and then nominally. Returned home by 4:45. Madhavi, the maternal aunt of Srijana, Sushma and Sunil, her cousins, took a bus of Navin Travels on NH-16 by 7:40 in Tuni. They are going to Hyderabad after spending summer vacation in Viswanadhapuram. They have nine items of luggage. I helped them in this process along with Sekhar. It’s pleasant today. Slept by 10:00 for my dreams.

16 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night the maternal grandparents of Srijana slept here. Started ironing about seven pairs of my clothes by 8:30 borrowing the iron of my landlord. About 9:00, high voltage of electricity was supplied to all the houses in Devi Nagar from the nearby substation. Two ceiling fans, the iron in my hand and equipment connected to our television got affected due to it. Took the maternal grandparents of Srijana to the auto rickshaw stand in Tuni by 10:30 on my scooty. It is near railway station. They took a sharing auto rickshaw for Viswanadhapuram. Got the handle of our scooty tightened by my familiar bike mechanic Rajesh by 11:00 at his shed in Lingala Colony. Brought electrician Suresh from this place to our abode by 11:15 on our scooty. Electricity was restored by 12:30 by the folks of substation. This technician made some electrical repairs in our abode till 1:15. Gave a ceiling fan and my iron for repair at his store later. They are charging 300 rupees to fit new copper wiring framework in a damaged ceiling fan. From 3:15 to 3:45 ironed my remaining clothes with the repaired iron of my landlord. Suresh took 200 rupees to repair the electrical equipment in our abode and this iron today. Typed out teaching plan, for Intermediate course students, in Gayathri Junior College, for this academic year, on my computer, from 4:45 to 5:30. Murthy asked all lecturers to prepare academic plans. From 6:30 to 8:45 Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Prema Kadhaa Chithram” in cinema Surya Mahal. It’s good. Nanditha looked very beautiful in this film. Slept by 9:45.

17 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Wore my new pair of cherry red shoes by 8:00. I have been using my black pair of shoes for the last two years or so. I bought them from a roadside seller in Khairatabad for 400 rupees when working with the firm Glads Media in Hyderabad. This pair of shoes are worn-out. It is appearing on their surface. Srijana bought this new pair of shoes for 620 rupees. It does not have laces. I always use this kind of shoes. Tying up laces and undoing them takes time. I don’t like it. I mostly put on shoes when going out. They protect our feet from many unexpected minor injuries and bacteria. Our feet are the base of our body. We should take care of them always. Regularly wearing shoes gives us a formal look among our familiar folks. My old pair of black shoes did me extraordinary service. I owe them. How can I express it? How do objects receive our sense of gratitude or fury? It’s a complex phenomenon in our lives. Today I spent from 8:30 to 4:15 in Gayathri College. I took six classes. Today my uncle of Durgada got the residential plot of land in Seshadri Nagar layout near Tuni registered in the name of their son-in-law Anantha Varma. I could not go there being busy with my classes at college. The office of Sub Registrar is near this place. Srijana, Anand and I spent in the rented abode of Sekhar in Tuni from 4:40 to 5:40. We brought 20 mangoes from here to our abode. Srijana’s grandmother sent them from Viswanadhapuram. Slept by 10:00.

18 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took six classes in the morning and afternoon. Morning I gave my annual teaching plans to the folks in the office. It shows how I teach the entire syllabus to the first and second year students of Intermediate course in this academic year. It is actually a tentative schedule of teaching. We cannot teach every topic of prescribed syllabus according to our individual or collective teaching schedules. Future is uncertain. The management asked the teaching faculty members to complete teaching all subjects by November. Then they start study hours. The students have to study in classrooms for two hours every day under the supervision of their lecturers. The educational system in India is mostly examination-oriented. Students long for high marks in every subject. They prepare regularly minding the pattern of questions given in their periodical exams. I believe that students learn very little through institutional learning in India. They have to memorize questions and answers for about nine months and produce it on answer sheets during the period of annual exams. Their purpose of education is getting certificates but not growing psychologically and intellectually. This is why most of Indians remain and live as copycats. Very few inventions and discoveries took place in India during the last 500 years. In India, there is no value for creative, intelligent, brave and ideal people but rich, showy, shallow and insincere creatures. Slept by 9:30.

19 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took seven classes in the morning and afternoon. I told the first and second year students of Intermediate course, many times, to buy English textbooks and workbooks. Most of them did not buy them yet. Some of them took old books from their familiar creatures. The same is the case with the students of first and second year undergraduate students. I wonder about their carelessness in this regard. I believe that every student should buy new textbooks for all of their prescribed subjects in their course of studies. It reflects their interest in their studies. Subject experts prepare textbooks investing a lot of passion and hard work into this process. It is not an ordinary job. I think many students are passing their exams without seeing their prescribed course textbooks. Worthless idiots are running many private schools and colleges now in India. They collect study material from some sources. They give them to their students to prepare for their exams. They buy guides and test papers from bookstores. These are all secondary material for students. The primary material is their prescribed textbooks in each subject. Students and managements of educational institutions should understand this fact. From 5:00 to 6:00 Murthy took a class for all the teaching faculty members. He prepared an outline of time table seeking the opinions of teaching faculty. Went to sleep by 9:30.

20 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to Gayathri College by 8:25. Today I took five classes. Today I took the names of students, who did not buy English subject books. By 5:00 went to Indira Book House in Tuni and told them about the number of books I want for my students in this college. They kept them all ready for delivery. When students don’t buy textbooks, the teachers have to make them do it. Going to a classroom without textbooks is like watching a 3 D film without wearing those special glasses. Today my brother Sambha got 4.49 acres of mango farm registered in his name at the office of Sub Registrar in Nakkapalli. This piece of land is very near to our mango farm at hills near Ramayyapatnam. He bought each acre of this land for 4.10 lakh rupees from many folks in village Ramayyapatnam. Twenty-four members signed this sale deed as the owners of this land. These folks don’t have reliable documents proving the ownership of this land. My brother Sambha likes taking up such risky ventures. There are no reliable registration documents for many lands in India. Indians did not care for legally substantial proofs and documents before independence. Most of them were joint families. They had strong bonds as siblings. They loved their native land and involved in agricultural activities devotedly. They treated their lands as their ancestors. They had moral and spiritual attachment with them. Now Indians are considering their lands as commercially attractive pieces of property. Open and beautiful lands are disappearing fast. Slept by 9:30.

21 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 6:00 from Peda Gummuluru on his Honda Activa scooty. Yesterday he spent there. My parents sent six Papara Gova mango fruit and two dozen bananas for us from there. The mango season is coming to an end in this region. My uncle is planning to get a house built in his recently bought plot of land at Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar in Payakaraopeta. It is by Devi Nagar. He is looking for a girl to get his elder son married. The attitude and behavior of his wife Vimala are the biggest problems in his life. He could not change her. He is living with her for the sake of observant society and his two sons. He left for Tetagunta by 6:10. Went to Gayathri College by 8:20. Spent in the college till 4:10. Today many students brought money to buy English textbooks. Most of the second year B.Sc. students did not bring money despite my instruction to them yesterday to this effect. I rebuked them sharply. I punished them giving them a writing assignment. I asked them to write five short sentences about their families. Most of them wrote these sentences without helping verbs in them. Their standards of English language usage are low. I cannot make them bright in one or two academic years. They must practice English regularly to improve their spoken and written skills in this foreign language. Teaching ordinary students is easy for any teacher. They don’t ask difficult questions. Slept by 9:30.

22 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:20. Today I took six classes in the morning and afternoon. Today also I focused on making the students buy textbooks for their respective academic courses. I asked some students to read out parts of an English textbook. Most of them hesitated to read out. A B.Com. second year female student refused to read out at all. She felt cowardly and nervous. She said that she never read out any piece of writing in a classroom among her classmates during the last 13 years of her institutional learning. I remembered my education up to B.A. I had always been a passive listener in classroom. I was never asked to read out. I seldom asked my teachers questions. If every student asks questions foolishly or intelligently, a teacher cannot complete prescribed syllabus in any academic year. No teacher is a perfect authority on any subject. I think that passive learners are really a boon to all teachers. They allow teachers to teach peacefully. They prepare for their exams without bothering their teachers. They rely on study material, test papers and guides prepared by subject experts. They don’t depend on textbooks for preparation. Many complete their courses of study without seeing textbooks. Returned home by 5:30. My mother-in-law brought about 80 Neelam mangoes from the farm near Marripalem. My father-in-law sent them for us collecting them from a tree in a neighboring farm. Srijana, Anand and I took a bus by 6:00 at Y Junction and reached Peda Gummuluru by 6:30. Slept by 9:00 in our house.

23 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha, my father and I started to our mango garden at hills by 7:00 on the bike of the prior. We reached there by 7:20 travelling via Ramayyapatnam. Now this brother is getting our mango farmland leveled and ploughed deploying an earth digging machine (poclain) and a tractor. Today also this work took place in the section of Kotha Raju Gari Podu. My father bought this piece of land from a Kshatriya fellow called Kotha Raju about 30 years ago. This garden is not even everywhere. Once there were cashew trees in this garden. In course of the last 10 years, they died or got removed by us. Now there are mango trees only in this farm. Some of them are not growing well. They need sufficient rainwater and manure. There is empty land here and there. Soon Sambha would buy some mango saplings and get them planted here. There are hills to the north of this mango farm. They add natural beauty to the mango and cashew groves in this region. I like spending in this scenic zone. It makes me dreamy on cloudy and rainy days. We spent in this beautiful place today for some time observing this mechanical work. We returned home by 10:30. Had my lunch by 11:30. My father gave me 25 kilograms of rice for our domestic consumption in Payakaraopeta. He brought this sack of rice to Adduroad on his bicycle by 1:00. He gave me 1,000 rupees for our inevitable expenses. Srijana, Anand and I reached our abode by 1:30 in a sharing auto rickshaw. Slept by 10:00.

24 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to Gayathri College by 8:30. Thence I moved to Gayathri School by 8:40. Vinjamuri Sri Rama Chandra Murthy started this school this year after leaving his partnership in the ownership of Tagore Convent and School. Rayapa Raju is running that school now. There are about 300 students in this school now from Nursery to standard 9. He rented in a small school building to accommodate these little learners for a few months. After the completion of construction of his new building, he moves them into that place. He asked me to teach English subject to the students of ninth standard also in this school. There are about 15 students in this class now. Their English textbooks have not arrived yet. Today I took five classes in the college. Started teaching lessons from the prescribed syllabus to all of them. The first year students of undergraduate courses are not coming to college now. Admissions are still going on. There are no adequate number of rooms to accommodate all these students. Murthy is planning to somehow adjust them. He is making a timetable every morning. He wants some more time to make a full-pledged timetable. It may be possible when all the teaching faculty members and students start coming to the school and colleges. Murthy coordinates all these things as the owner and manager of Gayathri educational institutions. Now he is working as the headmaster of an upper primary government school in Valluru, a village in Tuni Mandal. So, he is engaged in multi-tasking regimen. Returned home by 5:15. Slept by 9:30.

25 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:20. Today I took seven classes. I am taking the classes of first and second year Intermediate courses. There are M.P.C., Bi.P.C., C.E.C. and M.E.C. groups in Gayathri Junior College. I am taking the classes of M.P.C. and Bi.P.C. groups only. Yajamani is taking the classes of C.E.C. and M.E.C. groups. The instruction takes place in English and Telugu media. So, there are four classes in Intermediate course for me to be taken every day. I teach the groups of both media alike. I explain lessons and grammar points in Telugu in every class because we are all learners of this foreign language but not masters of it. If English medium students are really good at English, they don’t need anybody to teach English to them. Every English textbook is prepared in such a manner that each of those topics is easily comprehensible and self-explanatory. English lecturers are there to explain them in their mother tongue. There are B.A., B.Com. and B.Sc. groups in the segment of undergraduate courses of study. The third year students don’t have English subject (any language for that matter). I have to teach all the students of first and second year courses in this segment. I have to take a class for the students of ninth standard also every day in Gayathri School. I have to read out every lesson aloud and explain them. My vocal cords are sensing much strain now due to this excessive burden on them. I think they take some time to balance with this kind of work pressure on them regularly. Returned home by 5:10. Slept by 10:00.

26 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night the maternal grandmother of Srijana came to our abode around 1:00. Her husband Dantuluri Jagannadha Raju got dementia. We have to lock all doors from inside when we are sleeping. He may go out with some unnecessary plan of action. He got a bad memory now. His life became slow and dependable. His wife is taking care of him every day. Others have no time for spending with him. This is the characteristic of this age. Everybody wants the company of active and exciting persons and objects only. Vibrant and fascinating action is what everybody likes. They hate weak and passive creatures and phenomena. They left for Viswanadhapuram by 8:30. By this time Srijana and Anand also started to Visakhapatnam by bus. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took seven classes. Today Srijana consulted a pulmonologist in Visakhapatnam. Her uncle Rama Krishnam Raju advised her to meet him. She is still suffering from Bronchitis related cough. This doctor told her that asthma is at its initial stage in her now. It can be cured completely through use of medicines. He gave her a medical device filled with curative gas made for confronting asthma. He advised her to inhale this gas regularly. She should not take medicines now to tackle it because she is pregnant now. He advised her not to spend in dusty and smoky places. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani accompanied her to hospital. She took them to their house at Sujatha Nagar from the hospital. I think air pollution is causing lung disorders to many now across the world. Went to sleep by 9:30.

27 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Cooked rice by 6:00 in our pressure cooker. Surya Kumari offered me curry by 7:30 for my packed lunch. Had some amount of rice with mango pickle and curd by 7:50 for my breakfast. Started at home by 8:00 with my Ludan food carrier bag and reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took six classes. Murthy assigned me two works to do at home. He asked me to translate a complaint letter from Telugu to English. I should type it up. It is related to Sikayala Narasayyamma. She is working as a helper now at the Anganwadi centre in village Boddhavaram in Kota Nanduru Mandal. She thinks that she must be promoted to the position of worker considering her qualifications and work experience. It did not happen till now though she got orders from the High Court of Andhra Pradesh to this effect recently. She wrote and complained to many authorities in this process of struggle for it during the last three years. This letter is addressed to the chairman of Human Rights Commission, Hyderabad. There are two pages in it. Returned home by 5:00. Srijana and Anand returned home by 3:00 from the house of my brother Srinivas in Visakhapatnam. From 5:15 to 7:15 did the home work assigned by Mr. Murthy. Translated the complaint letter of Narasayyamma from Telugu to English. Also, translated some sentences from Telugu to English. These are instructions to lecturers in Gayathri College from Murthy. I did these two works on my computer. Slept by 9:30.

28 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:20. Today I took seven classes. Mr. Murthy assigned me home work. He scribbled a letter in English addressing the executive officer of TTD in Tirupati. He wrote to them about the Satchidananda Thapovanam in Tuni. This is on the bank of river canal Thaandava in Tuni. Recently a flood occurred in this region. The resultant floodwater washed away most of this religious abode. Murthy is writing to them for financial assistance to construct rooms for different purposes in this place. He asked me to type it up on my computer. Left the college by 4:45. Walked to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni by 5:00. Paid 898 rupees to them towards interest for 39,000 rupees for about 38 days. It is the gold loan of my father-in-law. Returned home by 6:00. Typed up the letter of Murthy on my computer by 7:00. It is a one-page letter. This afternoon my mother-in-law came to our abode from the agricultural farm near Marripalem. She brought vegetables and cow milk from there. Her brother Rama Sekhara Raju took her to his rented abode in Tuni. Today Srijana and her mother dusted and arranged a portion of our rented abode and the household items in it. The NH-16 is a few steps away from our present rented abode. We hear sounds of friction of those tyres and horns every day and night. The related smoke and dust must be polluting air in this location. So, houses are turning dusty. Went to sleep by 9:30.

29 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took seven classes. Returned home by 5:15. Srijana, Anand and I got ready by 6:00 to go to see a Telugu film in a cinema in Payakaraopeta. When I was trying to start our scooty, it did not move at all. Felt disappointed about it. Called up our familiar bike mechanic Rajesh. He rushed here by 6:17 on a bike from his shed at Lingala Colony. He checked our scooty and said that somebody tightened the brake system at the rear. I wondered about it. Afternoon Srijana went to Talli Pilla Hospital for consultation. Dr C S Lakshmi prescribed some tablets for her. Then this scooty functioned well. Srijana parked it right in front of our portion on the cement road. She said that it was in their close observation only most of the time. This mechanic said that a brake system does not get tightened on its own generally. It means somebody did it intentionally. He indirectly prevented us from going to see a film. We could not catch the miscreant. Rajesh and I went to the store of Devi Prasanna Tyres opposite Gayathri College in Tuni. They sell MRF goods exclusively. Bought two tyres and two butyl tubes here spending 2,540 rupees. Rajesh got them changed by his familiar mechanic in Payakaraopeta. He took 50 rupees for it. Thence we moved to his shed. He fitted a new brake system beside the rear wheel. I bought it for 70 rupees. Rajesh asked for 50 rupees for his work in this process. I gave him 100 rupees. Today my scooty made me get some of its worn-out parts replaced with new ones. Slept by 10:00.

30 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 8:00 to 9:00 edited the content of May from my diary of 2013 on my computer. Then borrowed the iron of K S N Raju and started ironing my clothes. Electrician Suresh came to our abode by 10:30 on his bike from Lingala Colony. He repaired a ceiling fan and an iron. He fitted the ceiling fan in the hall near television and one in the room right after the entrance near my computer table. He charged 300 rupees for repairing our iron and a ceiling fan. He did not ask for money to fit two ceiling fans today. I gave him 20 rupees for courtesy sake. He took my mother-in-law to Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta on his bike at our request. Thence she took a bus for Thaandava Junction. She stayed here for some time and helped Srijana clean our abode, wash clothes and arrange things in order. She also stitched some clothes on the sewing machine in our abode. She is hard-working and patient. I like her qualities as an Indian middle-class woman. We have to work moderately every day to keep going. We should not depend upon others regularly. Completed ironing six pairs of my clothes by 1:55. Srijana, Anand and I got ready fast. We rushed to cinema Gautham by 2:15 on our scooty. Some idiots were selling tickets in the black for the first show of Telugu film “Balupu”. I did not like this malpractice. We moved to cinema Sai Mahal and saw the Telugu film “Action” in it. It is good. We returned home by 5:15. Watched Telugu program “Swaraabhishekham” on Eenadu Telugu television channel from 6:00 to 9:00. Slept by 9:30.

1 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:20. Today I took seven classes. Morning I went to the classes of I year B.Com., II year English medium Intermediate MPC group and I year English medium Intermediate MPC group. Afternoon went to the classes of II year B.Sc., II year Telugu medium Intermediate MPC group section A and II year Telugu medium Intermediate MPC group section B. The first period in the afternoon is of Standard 9 at Gayathri English Medium School. Soon after my lunch, I walk for about 10 minutes to reach this school from the college. The II year B.A. students sit together with the students of II year B.Com. for English class. There are three groups in B.Sc. course. They are MPC, CBZ and Computer Science. All of them sit together for English class. The I year B.Sc., B.Com. and B.A. students are not coming to college yet. They came to college initially for some days. Murthy told them not to come to college until they inform them again. Now there are no adequate number of rooms in Gayathri College to accommodate all the students of Intermediate and undergraduate courses. So, they told these students to wait for some days. Left the college by 4:45. Reached home by 5:20. By this time, Surya Kumari, her two sons Abhinav and Bhargav, Srijana and Anand were engaged in the work of cleaning the small domestic water flow canal in the front of our building. They used domestic pipe water and a tool for it. By 5:30 paid 3,500 rupees to Surya Kumari towards rent for our portion for the last month. Slept by 9:30.

2 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:25. Today I took seven classes. By 12:10, one of my female colleagues, called up to the cellphone number of Lakshmi in Narsipatnam. I told her about my love story with Lakshmi once. I asked her to call her up for me. She did it using my cellphone. A male received this call at the other end. She asked for Lakshmi. He said it is a wrong number. He ended this call. I don’t know whether this number is hers or not. My friend Madhav gave it to me. Lakshmi should be considered as an unfortunate girl if she does not have a cellphone for herself. If she cannot respond to me, she must be treated as a pitiable sinner. Our admirers are our real assets. We should not discard them. I pity the life of Lakshmi. Left the college by 4:50. Bought 30 eggs for 114 rupees, two biscuit packs for 34 rupees for Anand and milk packs for 24 rupees. Reached home by 5:30. Today Srijana sent Anand to Canossa English Medium School near our rented abode. It is an auspicious day for her to do it. He has 10 books for his LKG standard. His school uniform is not yet ready to wear. The tailor has to stitch and bring it. Srijana is preparing him for school every day. She adorned his books with protective sheets of thick brown paper. A jobholder is a criminal and sinner. He does his job only, leaving his vital responsibilities. I am such rogue now. Today Srijana started cooking the rice, which I brought from our house in Peda Gummuluru recently. It’s polished rice and looks white. We left 20 kilograms of our old brown rice for Srijana to use after her delivery. Slept by 10:00.

3 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I went to Tuni by 6:15 on our scooty. The little food carrier, which Srijana bought recently for Anand, got damaged on its own. A supporting frame got broken. She showed it to the retail seller of this item. He said that he can neither get it repaired nor give another piece for it. Srijana felt angry with him and expressed it in words. She told him that she should not have bought it from his shop but from one of her familiar folks. He advised her to get it repaired through gas welding. We bought a pack of Complan powder for 190 rupees for Anand. We got the little food carrier of Anand repaired through gas welding at a roadside shed in Payakaraopeta. He took 20 rupees for it. I think we bought it for 100 rupees. Anand is drinking a glass of warm milk every morning. Srijana adds sugar and a bit of nutritious powder to it. It is for flavour and energy. He is consuming a boiled egg also every morning. He did not grow fat on his bones but he became taller. I didn’t take photos and videos of him during the last four months or so. It is the mistake of Srijana and me. Childhood is a precious stage of life. We should cherish and record it. Anand is speaking many words well now. He is eating, playing and sleeping well. He is interested in watching films in cinemas with us. I am unable to spend much time with him. Slept by 10:00.

4 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:15. Morning my mother-in-law came from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem. She brought Jersey cow milk and fresh vegetables for us from there. She came here to consult her cousin and doctor D R K Raju. Today Anand went to Canossa School wearing his new uniform. He has two pairs of uniform. Srijana knew that he cried for 15 minutes in his classroom today. School is not his natural habitat. He is missing the presence of his mother in those few hours in school. Kids are vulnerable and sensitive. Institutional learning is a burden on them. Parents become villains to their children in this sphere. It’s ironical phenomenon across the world. As parents, we compel children to do what they don’t like naturally. Ordinary human beings cannot go against the trends of their time. We started treating children as machines ever since we realized that educational certificates can get them jobs and money. How many Indians are improving psychologically and culturally through education? Anand is a victim of this artificial and commercial system of education in India. From 6:15 to 9:15 my mother-in-law, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Balupu” in cinema Gautham. Srijana did not come to see it fearing the air pollution in this setting. It is an interesting and exciting film. Shruthi Hassan is beautiful and impressive in it. Enjoyed watching it throughout. Had my supper by 9:40. Went to sleep by 10:30.

5 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. The first year B.A., B.Com. and B.Sc. students are coming to college now. They are sitting in one room only for the English class. There are about 60 students in total. Most of them did not buy English textbooks till now despite my instruction to them several times. This is the case with almost all the students. They don’t listen to me attentively when I am reading out a poem or prose lesson for them. I wonder about their attitude towards English. They are like shapeless stones. They are not trying to beautify themselves through determination and hard work to this effect. Most of them are scared of English language and grammar. They don’t change easily. Returned home by 5:00. My father-in-law came to my abode from Marripalem by 12:30 this afternoon. He went to Koruprolu Mallavaram and Viswanadhapuram on my scooty to do some pending things there. He came back by 8:00. He brought some mangoes, lemons and coconuts from there for us. Evening, Mohan, the owner of an Internet café in Payakaraopeta, whom I know, asked me if I am interested in working as a trainer of English usage skills with the pharmaceutical firm Hetero Drugs near Nakkapalli. They may pay me about 20,000 rupees a month for this position. I told him that I cannot opt for it leaving the present one. It is a matter of moral values. Virtues are more powerful than money and comforts. We can strengthen and beautify our characters practicing virtues. Slept by 10:00.

6 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could not sleep well due to power cut for long. Power cuts became regular during the last 10 days. Srijana is feeling very disturbed and disgusted about these power cuts at night also. We have to sleep late or wake up from the state of sleeping due to power cuts at night. Most of us need the air of fans to sleep. Last night, Nallari Kiran Kumar Reddy, the present chief minister of Andhra Pradesh, appeared me in my dream. He spent very affectionately with me for a few minutes. I wondered about his humility and simplicity while spending his time with me in the dream. I consider him as a gentleman in politics. He speaks well. He is an educated person with admirable standards in English and manners. I deeply enjoyed his gracious presence. Went to Gayathri College by 8:30. I knew that the management informed students not to come to college today in view of call of SFI for closure of many educational institutions as a protest against excessive fees in many private schools and colleges. Murthy conducted a meeting for the teaching staff from 10:30 to 11:30. Returned home by 12:15. By 4:30 two fellows fitted a Whirlpool Elantra inverter and SF SONIC inverter battery in our rented abode. Its capacity is 600 VA. Srijana and her father bought it from a store in Tuni for about 12,000 rupees. Today they paid 8,000 rupees. It brings comfort and happiness into our lives. Srijana wanted and bought it urgently. I remained neutral. Went to sleep by 9:00.

7 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 8:30 to 9:00 ironed three pairs of my clothes. By 12:45, met my friend Subbi Reddy, near cinema Sri Rama in Tuni. He came here to attend a function. His native place is village Nagulapalli. He did not get time to come to my abode at Devi Nagar. He goes to Chennai soon to join the department of income tax. He cleared that selection process. He leaves his job (UDC) with the passport office (back office) in Visakhapatnam. I wonder about the attitude of these employees moving from one job to another. Many unemployed youth are unable to get government jobs now. These folks desire to change from job to job like crazy monkeys. Subbi Reddy told me that he would come to my abode sometime later. Returned home by 1:15. Srijana, her mother, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Singam” in cinema Sai Mahal from 2:15 to 5:15. It is an interesting and exciting film. Surya is a handsome and excellent actor. He married the beautiful actress Jyothika. They match in looks and acting skills perfectly. They are very suitable creatures as life partners. There is a kind of charm and magnetism in the face and body language of Surya. He always looks lively and pleasant. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. Afternoon it rained a little in this region. It turned somewhat cool and refreshing. Though it’s rainy season now, adequate rainfall did not occur in many parts of this region till now. All are eagerly waiting for rains. It’s remaining mostly hot. Went to sleep by 9:15.

8 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:00 my mother-in-law left for the agricultural farm at Marripalem. Srijana and Anand spend very happily when she is at home. She works and serves others always. Started to Gayathri College by 8:10 on our scooty. Today I took seven classes. I don’t like going to this college on my scooty. I think I should use a bicycle for this purpose. I get 15,000 rupees a month from this college as salary. I should get 30,000 rupees a month for the kind of hard academic work I am doing here but it is not happening. It is a common trend in this state now. Compared to the salaries and perks being offered to teachers, lecturers and professors by the state and central governments in many parts of India now, what these private educational institutions are paying is miserable and pathetic. Government created such environment that anybody can start a school or college just like a little Kirana shop. It means education is a business field now. In business, generally, rich, intelligent and cruel persons exploit poor, unfortunate and helpless blokes. I am a victim in this scenario now. Governments have no control on private education in this state. Teachers and lecturers are living like helpless beggars in many mediocre schools and colleges in this state now. I am such underdog now. Dogs should avoid false prestige. I like this point of ethics. Brought a sack of rice and plantains home from the rented abode of Revathi by 5:00. I took my scooty to college for this purpose. Slept by 9:30.

9 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Some of my colleagues decided to go on a short leave to prepare for the ensuing DSC (District Selection Committee) exam (which is taken to become teachers at government schools in Andhra Pradesh). They come back after two months. Mr. Murthy is looking for temporary faculty members to fill these vacancies. I don’t go anywhere because I am not eligible to take these exams. I am aged according to their scientific calculations. I am eligible to vote during elections till my death. There is no age limit for voters and contestants in political elections in India. Democracy, in India, is for shallow players, selfish businessmen and criminals. They play with, exploit and scare the subjects directly or indirectly. Returned home by 5:20. Srijana, Anand and I went to Talli Pillala Hospital in Tuni by 6:15 on our scooty. Srijana consulted   Dr. C S Lakshmi. She is sensing mild stomachache now and then. This doctor told her that it is common now in this stage of her pregnancy. She prescribed six tablets of Gintac 150 mg to take whenever she feels so. They cost us three rupees only. Srijana is in her fifth month now. We went to a shop. We bought dates, biscuits and jaggery for our domestic consumption. We returned home by 7:00. Anand is learning the initial letters in English alphabet and initial Arabic numbers now. He has to write them in a book every day just like the ones written by his teacher. He is not interested in this homework. Srijana is persuading and guiding him in this respect. Slept by 9:30.

        10 July (Wednesday) 

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:20 on my scooty. Dropped Srijana at the bus depot in Tuni by 8:10 on the way. She was going to consult a doctor in Visakhapatnam by bus. Today I took eight classes. By 5:00 went to the market yard in Tuni on my scooty and bought four kilos of onions for 110 rupees for our domestic consumption. It’s a wholesale store. Srijana suggested me this place. Now onions are a little costly at retail stores and so this move. My friend Ramnadh gave me a bottle of iron-folic supplements of Amway by 5:30 near Vani fancy store. I have to pay for it. These supplements are for Srijana. Iron and folic acid are essential for the optimal growth of baby when it is in the womb of its mother. I want to buy the Nutrilite protein powder also for her but my critical financial condition is pulling me back. I regret it. Spent talking with Ramnadh for 15 minutes. He supervises many Amway business owners in this region. I joined Amway but I chose not to educate sheep misusing my time. The products of Amway are very good for improving our strength and health but millions of Indians want diseases, disorders and related pain and suffering. Now we are in a bad age of human lives. They don’t practice virtues suggested by us. Many are doing social service patiently. I am not a field worker yet in this domain. Returned home by 6:00. Srijana returned home by 4:00 this evening. My sister-in-law Kranthi and baby boy Anjaneya Raju accompanied her in bus journey to and from Visakhapatnam. Slept by 9:30.

11 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. I am waking up around 3:00 in the early morning and blowing my nose. Cold wind is entering our bedroom every night as I keep all the inlets of air open. So, I am catching a cold by the middle of the night. My brain is waking me up to face the cold. I am losing sleep for about two hours in the early morning due to it. I like breathing fresh air of nature always. Seasonal changes and man-made pollution affect the quality of air everywhere. If I can’t sleep well for eight hours continuously on any night, I remain weak and somewhat passive the following day. My biological clock is getting affected due to some inevitable forces of nature and circumstances in my present stage of life. I think rhinoplasty destabilized the internal structure of my nose to some extent. I am catching cold and sneezing more often than normal order. I daily bath with cold water, including head. I have to solve or withstand these chronic minor health disorders. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Paid 660 rupees to Ramnadh for the bottle of iron-folic supplements of Amway, which I took yesterday from him. Today I took eight classes. By 5:10, Murthy paid me 10,000 rupees towards my salary for the 20 working days last month. He said that he paid my salary first in this academic year. Returned home by 6:00 on the bike of Sai Rama Raju of Viswanadhapuram. By 6:32, Jireh InGod of Patridge talked with me over phone from Philippines about my second manuscript. Slept by 10:00.

12 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Left the college by 4:40. Bought one kilo of sweets at a sweet store in Tuni for 100 rupees. These are for Srijana to take to our house in Peda Gummuluru tomorrow formally. Reached home by 5:20. Murthy, the head of Gayathri educational institutions, has not paid salaries to my colleagues till now. They said that they are accustomed to it for long. The salary range of my colleagues is from 6,000 to 18,000 rupees a month. Most of them get about 6,000 rupees. Only one lecturer is getting 18,000 rupees. He has been working in this college for the last 10 years or so. Every year Murthy must have added an increment of 1,000 rupees to his salary. I believe that the value of any employment generation unit depends on the point of when they are paying wages or salaries to their workers and employees. They should pay it by the first of every month for what they did in the previous month. It is the best way of it. I know that some pay once a week or a day. They are even more admirable and ideal employers. Many employees work like automated and helpless machines in the unorganized and private sectors in India. They want money to lead their lives. Employees mostly do not demand their employers to pay them by the first of every month. It is because of their goodness or helplessness. It is the moral responsibility of every employer to ensure that their employees are paid in time regularly. Employees should not be treated like beggars anywhere. Went to sleep by 9:30.

13 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:10 Srijana and Anand started to Peda Gummuluru. According to our regional tradition, a pregnant woman should go to the house of her in-laws, in the fifth month of her pregnancy, formally. She should take sweets also. Srijana is fulfilling this purpose today this way. They take the first and second pregnant stages of a woman more formally than that follow. The parents of the girl get some special sweets prepared on this occasion to send along with their daughter formally. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on our scooty. Today I took eight classes. Left the college by 4:45. By 5:00, gave my scooty to my familiar bike mechanic Rajesh near our rented abode, bringing him up to this point of road, on my way back from the college. The battery must be charged, the engine oil should be changed and the body of it has to be washed with water. I want to get these things done during our absence at our rented abode. When waiting for a bus at Y Junction, I got a taxi luckily. Took it by 5:30 and reached Adduroad by 5:50. It was a pleasant and fast journey on a cloudy evening. Gave him 20 rupees. It had just rained a little in this area. It was cool and refreshing here. Reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 6:00 on foot. My brother Srinivas had already come from Devarapalli. By 7:30 Rayarapu Ramana came to our house from the nearby village China Gummuluru. We sold the crop of our mango garden at hills for 1, 80,000 rupees for the coming season to start from January. We should sell it to him the following year also at the same rate. Slept by 9:30.

14 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00 in the house of my brother Sambha. My two brothers Srinivas and Sambha went to our mango garden at hills by 7:00 on the bike of the latter. Recently Sambha got 45 mango saplings planted in a part of Kotha Raju Gari Podu. He bought and brought them from Kadiyam. The construction of the shed is also over in one part of this garden. They went to see them. They returned home by 8:30. Meanwhile Rayarapu Ramana came to our house from China Gummuluru. He paid one lakh rupees to our father towards partial cost of the crop of our mango garden for the ensuing season. My father and we three brothers shared it equally. My father and Sambha spent about 80,000 rupees for the development of this land this year. Ramana pays the remaining 80,000 rupees later. We can’t share it because it is land development expenditure. Told my father to clear part of the loan I have with Grameena Bank at Adduroad with my share of money. I owe them 81,000 rupees. Anand and I took two buses and reached the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near Marripalem by 12:50. D S N Raju gave a lunch party today to some folks. He invited me also. I attended it. Anand and I returned home by 5:10. Spent talking with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and his friend Papa Rao of Tetagunta till 5:50 at our abode. Srijana, Anand and I went to Talli Pilla Hospital in Tuni by 7:15 on our scooty. Doctor C S Lakshmi prescribed some tablets for her. They are Felol, Becozyme, Supercal and Protinules-PL powder of nutrients. We did not buy the first one. Srijana is using an Amway product for iron and folic acid supplements. Slept by 10:30.

15 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:15. Srijana showed me our domestic electricity bill. They gave it today. It is related to the consumption period 11 June to 10 July, 2013. They made it 784.66 rupees. My actual consumption charges for this period are 188 rupees. They are collecting 551.57 rupees for 2010-11 and 45.95 rupees towards FSA for 2012-13. It means I have to pay 600 rupees for what I did not consume during this period of time. They are virtually playing with the lives of poor electricity consumers in this state following irrational, illogical and unethical measures of this order. They are supplying electricity freely to many sections of societies. Misuse of power is rampant in this state. Power cuts are prevailing phenomenon. It’s sheer anarchy everywhere. I am disturbed and affected due to these fanatic policies and practices in the sector of electricity generation and distribution. I cannot ask them to remove electricity to my portion being unable to afford these shocking charges. They know it. They know when and how to hit ordinary people. Low class people cannot pay these charges. They don’t know how to earn more money. They cannot live with less money. Today Srijana paid 4,600 rupees to the folks of Canossa School. The first term fee for Anand is 3,100 rupees and special fee for smart classes is 1,500 rupees. Now Christians also learnt how to earn money exploiting the parents of schoolchildren. Hindus are their role models. Hindus turned India into a dirty playground. Slept by 9:30.

16 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:20. Collected meanings and example sentences for about 50 idioms from online sources on my computer from 6:00 to 9:00. There are idioms to be taught to the first year undergraduate students. We have to look up in a standard English dictionary for their meanings and usage. Online sources are more informative and reliable in this regard. There are books also exclusively dealing with phrasal verbs and idioms. Most of us don’t buy such books because we are not interested in reading them. We have no time for such pursuits. We have time and interest to do only such things, which keep us as lazy and crazy idiots. Very few have passion for English grammar, language and literature now. They like parties, gossip, games and foods more than stories and poetry in their mother tongues or English. They focus on English and other languages for examinations or employment purpose only. When we stop reading books, we stop growing psychologically and intellectually. We must develop the habit of reading books to think and live as better individuals than drunkards, cheats and criminals. I don’t prepare any lesson to teach in a classroom. Most of the lessons and grammar sections in the prescribed textbooks are self-explanatory. We don’t know the meanings of some words and phrases only. Highly qualified, experienced and patient subject experts prepare textbooks for students at various levels of learning process at schools, colleges and universities. They are masters of this art. My devout salutes to all of them. Slept by 10:00.

17 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. My throat got affected because of teaching eight classes every day. I am unable to speak with my original voice. My students can easily identify the change in my voice. I am getting a cold almost every day these days due to change in weather. I am sneezing every day. I never spoke a lot. I never stood up in any classroom to ask questions or get my doubts clarified. I played the role of a silent, submissive and obedient listener in all the classes during my 17 years of institutional learning. I presume that these are the qualities of a good student as far as the educational system of India is concerned. Every student does have doubts. If every student asks questions and doubts in every class, a teacher does not get enough time to speak and complete the given syllabus in time. In fact, the characteristic of a substantial educational system is thorough discussion and debate of the themes, ideas, concepts and thoughts related to each subject. Such system of learning process makes students think intelligently, innovatively, creatively and logically. It is not happening in India now. The students are supposed to memorize given pieces of syllabus in every academic year and write them out during the period of examinations. It is a test for our memory but not something which examines our abilities as a thinker and dreamer. Srijana told me that morning Anand had cried before going to school. Slept by 9:30.

18 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Anand cried before going to school. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I reached cinema Surya Mahal by 6:10 on our scooty. We saw the Telugu film “Saahasam” of Gopichand and Tapsy in it from 6:30 to 9:00. Treasure hunt is the theme of this film. It is very interesting and exciting. Chandrasekhar Yeleti directed it very well. Most of this film is set in Pakistan. I wonder if it was really shot there. Though, as an idealist, I have no aversion for the intelligent, ideal and helpless people of Pakistan, in reality, there are no substantial reliable relationships between this country and India. I consider the military act of occupation of part of Kashmir by the political heads of this country once as a morally and logically condemnable move. China too occupied a vast stretch of land of India in 1962. In course of time, these two countries assumed the positions of rival states to India. I believe that civilizations and cultures flourish through mutual cooperation and collective march towards a harmonious and prosperous future. Hatred and betrayal lead to destruction and despair ultimately. The foreign policy of every state must be based on the principles of honesty, vision and benevolence. God likes to see this world in this order. I experienced these emotions and notions while watching this film. Why so many barriers among all the states in this world? Went to sleep by 10:00.

19 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:10. My house owner K S N Raju and I spent talking for two hours sitting on chairs on the road in the front of our house. It is a routine pursuit for both of us. We often talk and discuss many things. I always enjoy talking with him. He is an honest and helpful person. These days I am suffering much from cold and sneezes. I am blowing my nose 20 to 40 times a day. My voice lost its original form of expressive sound. I am feeling uneasy and uncomfortable, because of these chronic health disorders, while in a classroom. My partly blocked nostrils are affecting the outflow of my voice. Also I am going out once or twice to blow my nose. Mischievous students take it as an opportunity to make noise or casual remarks about me in this context during my short absence in their classroom. Their favourite pursuit is chatter and gossip. They pretend silence for the sake of the teacher in their classroom. They are like sheep. Teachers are like shepherds for them. Some shepherds are violent and some are benevolent. This is the only difference. I had always been a silent and obedient sheep in my classrooms. I never made noise as a student for 17 years. From 6:00 to 11:00 cold and sneezes played havoc with my face and hurt me. It was their blatant attack upon me. Yesterday my brother Srinivas sold one acre of his paddy farm to a fellow in Gollalagunta. Slept by 11:30.

20 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:10. Anand and I went to the abode of Mantrala Raju by 7:00. I told him about my chronic cold and affected throat. He gave me three kinds of tablets of English nature. He took 50 rupees only for them though they cost more than that. I like his ethics as a medical practitioner. He is kind and patient towards his patients. Morning my father-in-law came to my abode from the agricultural farm at Marripalem. He took our full HP domestic LPG cylinder, keeping their empty one here. He often does so. My mother-in-law Saraswati overuses gas. She does not concentrate on the ongoing cooking activity completely. This is the case of almost 70% of households in India. Be it men or women, they don’t consider Liquefied Petroleum Gas as a very precious item. I see in many houses and hotels the rampant misuse of this gas. The Government of India is spending billions of rupees every year to provide this essential domestic commodity at subsidized rates for all Indians. How many Indians are feeling the burden of this expenditure by the government? I think most of Indians are not suitable citizens to live in a welfare state. They misuse if they get anything freely or at low prices. Governments, in India, are patiently bearing the heavy burden of subsidies, minding the welfare of poor people but the rich and manipulative rogues are exploiting these schemes and policies to a large extent. The domestic HP gas connection of my in-laws is still in Medak district. They have to get it transferred to this place. Slept by 9:30.

21 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I typed up the content of June from my diary of 2013 on my computer for about six hours. By 12:30, Srijana, Anand and I went to the rented abode of Sekhar in Tuni on our scooty. They invited us for lunch. Revathi offered Chicken Biryani, Fish Curry and Gulab Jamoons for us. They tasted very well. I don’t know on what occasion she offered us lunch but we three readily accepted their invitation. I like tasty foods and drinks, which are not contaminated with artificial colours and additives. I don’t go vigorously searching for them. I enjoy them if they come my way. I am always grateful to Sekhar and Revathi for their affection and warmth towards us. We delighted in their gesture of affection this way today. We moved to Tuni by 1:15 from their abode to buy some items at shops. Srijana bought a pack of Butter Fun candies to use on the occasion of the birthday of Anand soon. We also bought a pant and shirt for Anand spending about 600 rupees. I can also get a pant and shirt at this rate. These idiots are selling the items of children at very high prices. They are looting poor and helpless parents of children. I felt so today. They are doing several businesses depending on children of innocence and imitation psychology. My father-in-law gave 2,000 rupees to spend on the occasion of birthday of Anand. He is giving us money regularly. My earning is limited. I am depending on others. Last night Telugu film actor Akkineni Nagarjuna appeared me in my dream. He expressed the purest form of his love and affection for me. Slept by 9:30.

22 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took seven classes. It was cool and cloudy today. Returned home by 5:15. Ironed my clothes with my iron. By 8:15 gave my CV to an HR executive in the first floor of the apartment block behind ours. He is working with the unit of Hetero Drugs near Nakkapalli. His wife and Srijana met today casually. She said that there is a vacancy for English communication skills trainer with Hetero. I met him in this context. He said that he would show my CV and photocopies of certificates to their folks at Hetero and let me know what happened. I gave my book and the Eenadu newspaper cutting also to him. Employers want tangible proofs to assess our worth in relation to the job to be offered. By 6:30, yesterday evening, Srijana, Anand and I met Dr Rama Krishnam Raju in his ENT clinic near Raja Ground. I consulted him about my throat infection. He prescribed me three kinds of tablets. They are Advent 625 mg, Levorid-D and Predmet 8 mg tablets. He prescribed six of each of these tablets to be taken in a period of three days. Srijana is feeling itchy in her ears. He prescribed a little bottle of eardrops for her. If we have a close relative as a doctor, we meet him or her frequently to get rid of those health problems, discarding others! My throat got cured after taking these tablets. Now my voice is gaining its originality slowly. It enables me to speak well in my classes. My soft voice should reach the careless and insensitive ears of many students! Slept by 9:15.

23 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took seven classes. Morning I sensed that I got low fever. By 10:40 walked to a nearby medical store from the college and bought four tablets for six rupees to withstand this health problem. Evening I felt that my digestive system is also partly affected. I sensed the signs of diarrhoea in my body. Bought four tablets for five rupees from a medical store to face it. I am taking the tablets prescribed by Dr Rama Krishnam Raju also to cure my sore throat. My voice is perfect now. These tablets set my vocal cords right. Today I took 12 tablets in the morning and evening. I bombarded my body with different kinds of tablets today to fight against various bacteria and viruses in me. Generally they enter our body through air or water we consume. I seldom get health problems. So far, I never spent in any hospital because of any illness. Lord Krishna is kind and possessive about me to this extent. I am a wee creature in His vast universe. Returned home by 5:05. By 5:30, Srijana, Anand and I went to Tuni on our scooty. We bought decorative items, sugar, sago, edible oil and biscuits minding the birthday of Anand on the 25^th of this month. Srijana enquired about a one-kg cake at a bakery store. He advised her to come on that day. Srijana wants to celebrate his birthday considerably. She invited our folks to grace this occasion. I am like a spectator in this event. Anand is enjoying these arrangements. Slept by 9:30.

24 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took seven classes. Returned home by 5:05. By 5:29 got a call from an HR executive of Hetero Drugs at Nakkapalli. She informed me to come for an interview to their office along with my CV, the photocopies of my educational certificates and payslips issued by my former employers. She asked me if I can come tomorrow. I replied in the negative. I said I would come this Saturday. Today also I suffered from low fever. For the last 10 years or so, I have been getting low fever once a year or so. Externally I don’t feel my body hot but internally I sense fever. I feel slightly weak and ill when low fever affects my body. I keep engaged in my regular activities despite low fever. I think I cannot do so with actual fever, which heats up my body externally also. Lord Krishna is helping me this way. Dizziness also affects me this way. I get it now and then. I think it happens mostly because of the low blood pressure in me. I mostly avoid consuming salty and sweet food items. Diarrohea is another health problem, which affects me once or twice a year. Generally I take care about the foods and drinks I consume. I look for pure and hygienic ones. Purity cannot be assessed perfectly always. We cannot detect bacteria and viruses using our senses. They somehow enter us. I think that my body is a science laboratory. It reacts fast if any harmful organism enters it. By 8:00 brought my mother-in-law to our abode from Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. She came by bus from Marripalem. Slept by 9:30.

25 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:15 on my scooty. Today I took five classes. Most of the Intermediate students are preparing for their first unit test now. They are studying in my classes also. I avoided attending my last class from 3:50 to 4:40. Started back early to attend the birthday celebration of my son Anand Sagar Varma at home. Bought a yellow birthday cake at a bakery store in Payakaraopeta for 150 rupees for Anand. Got ‘Anand Sagar’ written on it with a colourful cream (which is harmful to health). Reached home by 4:25. My parents, my sister-in-law Kranthi, her baby boy Anjaneya Raju and her mother Janaki came here this morning from Peda Gummuluru to attend the birthday celebration of Anand. Srijana invited some of our familiar folks also to this occasion from our nearby abodes of living. From 4:45 to 5:15, prepared the question papers for the first unit test of first and second year Intermediate students of Gayathri College and the students of ninth standard of Gayathri School on my computer looking into those three prescribed course textbooks. Emailed them to Mahendra Varma of Gayathri College. Anand cut his birthday cake by 6:00 among the wishes and presence of invited guests. I took the photos and videos of this occasion with my Sony digital camera. It was dim in the hall due to sunset outside. So, there is no much clarity in the content shot. Srijana decorated part of this hall with ribbons and balloons. Revathi, Sekhar, Aditya, Ashish, the maternal grandparents of Srijana were also there. Chocolates, biscuits, cake, Chicken Biryani and sweet milk porridge were served to guests. Some gave money and gifts for Anand. He is entering his fifth year of age today. Slept by 10:30.

26 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. Today I took eight classes. Morning gave the question papers of first and second year Intermediate courses to Mahendra Varma in the office. They photocopy the printouts of these question papers for conducting periodical tests like units, quarterly and half-yearly exams. My question paper would be used for the first year English medium Intermediate MPC group, second year English medium Intermediate MPC group, and the A and B sections of second year Telugu medium Intermediate MPC group and BiPC group students. Yajamani, my colleague, is teaching English to students of groups of Arts and Commerce, apart from first year Telugu medium Intermediate MPC group students. Every teacher feels certain degree of pride and authority while preparing a question paper to test others. Preparing a question paper is easy but answering it is difficult. Nobody can remain calm and balanced before and after scanning a question paper. It had been my experience during my 17 years of formal education. Question papers and formal tests generate tension, stress, pain and suffering in us. Students cannot enjoy their lives during their age of formal education for this reason. Formal education makes the life of a learner hellish. Afternoon gave the first unit question paper in Gayathri School for the students of ninth standard. I am teaching this class from 1:10 to 1:50 every afternoon. I walk for 20 minutes to and from this school. Returned home by 5:20. Srijana, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 5:34 on our scooty and reached there by 6:15. Slept by 9:00.

27 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. There are many mosquitoes in and around our house in Peda Gummuluru. Last night they attacked me considerably. By 8:30 my parents, my brother Srinivas, sisters-in-law Sandhya Rani and Kranthi, Janaki and I went to the government high school in Peda Gummuluru, along with our kids Anand and Anjaneya Raju. Today election is being conducted in this village to choose ward members and Sarpanch (village president) for the Graama Panchaayat of Peda Gummuluru. My brother Datla Sambha Murthy Raju is contesting for the position of a ward member. Our ward is the fifth one in this village. The symbol allotted for my brother is gas stove. The symbol of the Sarpanch candidate, he told us about to vote for, is a basket. Her name is Viyyapu Kondamma. We all voted for these two contestants. Reached the bulk drug manufacturing unit of Hetero Drugs near Nakkapalli on my scooty by 9:15. Entered the office of their HR department by 10:00. I came here for their selection process to a position of communication skills trainer. Filled up their formal application form. By 11:30 met Subba Rao, the manager of newly started department ‘Learning and Development’. He asked me a few questions and put a small written test to me. I gave a short demonstration class in the training hall. Had free lunch in the dining hall by 1:30. Met director Mohan Reddy by 4:35. He talked with me for two minutes. Rushed back to Peda Gummuluru by 5:00. Started back to Payakaraopeta by 5:30 on my scooty along with Srijana and Anand. By 8:00 knew that Sambha became a ward member with a majority of 80 votes. There are 180 votes in our ward. His rival got 50 votes. He is happy about it. This is his first entry into the sphere of politics, though he is into it, indirectly, for long. We felt happy. Slept by 9:30.

28 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is the birthday of my eldest brother Srinivas today. He was born on 28 July, 1970, at Gollalagunta in East Godavari District. He enters the 44^th year of his life today. Our parents did not celebrate our birthdays when we were little children or later. We three brothers did not take it seriously even after we had grown up. We may or may not celebrate our birthdays considerably. Morning Srijana and I wished Srinivas on the occasion of his birthday. It is Parents Day today. I don’t think that Srijana and I are ideal parents to Anand. Srijana is sending him to school despite his aversion for it. I am not spending a lot of time with him as a kind and affectionate father. I am living like an automated machine, doing a job, for the sake of my survival. Every parent should live like a protective shadow for his or her children throughout their lives, saving them from the impact of tribulations and pain. Unfortunately many parents are bringing up their children like businessmen now. They are turning them into successful entities in the pursuit of earning money and acquiring comforts but not as distinct and ideal individuals in understanding and practicing virtues in every stage of their lives. This is why there are unrest, disorder and pain in this world now. Most of parents have no moral values now. How can they make their children ideal when they are unethical? From 9:00 to 4:20 spent in Gayathri College supervising the study hours of Intermediate students. Murthy made it so because yesterday was a holiday due to Panchayat Elections. C S Lakshmi prescribed Bonansa and Beplex Forte tablets for Srijana. Today we also bought Protinules-PL bottle of powder for Srijana by 6:30. Slept by 9:30.

29 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:20 on our scooty. Srijana is not using our scooty on her own now. She advised me to take it to college instead of keeping it at home disused most of the time. I found it as a good option. Most of my students are expecting to see me coming to college on a bike like many other lecturers. They are considering me as an ordinary man if I go to college on foot from Golla Apparao Centre. Somehow the people of India developed the idea of assessing the worth of a person based on one’s material assets and attractions but not one’s psychological refinement and spiritual growth. This is what we can consider as sheer materialism of humanity. This is the characteristic of this age. Saints, thinkers and idealists would be neglected and looked down upon in this sinful age of psychopaths and lunatics. Today I taught English in four classes of undergraduate students. The first unit tests were conducted to all the Intermediate students in the afternoon. I collected the answer sheets of second year MPC and BiPC group students for evaluation. Returned home by 4:55. Evaluated the answer sheets of Telugu medium A section students completely. There are about 25 answer sheets. Also started evaluating the answer sheets of Telugu medium B section students. Their English language skills are very low. Gave most of them marks out of sympathy for them rather than for the relevant content in their clumsy answers. Spent talking with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy from 7:30 to 8:30. It’s cool and pleasant today. Slept by 9:15.

30 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. Today the ninth standard and Intermediate students took their first unit test. I taught the four classes of undergraduate students only for this reason. Evaluated some answer sheets of Intermediate students in leisure hours. Returned home by 5:00. Evaluated the answer sheets of Intermediate students for about two hours. By 8:00, the representatives of Government of India, headed by the Congress Party, declared their decision to create a separate Telangana state, in a set period of time. The folks of Telangana Rashtra Samithi (TRS) party started celebrating this blissful occasion. The scoundrels and rogues of coastal Andhra and Rayala Seema regions took it as a bad news for them. They are accustomed to the mentality and lifestyle of a parasite during the last 50 years. Most of them moved to Hyderabad and other Telangana regions for jobs and businesses but not out of love for Telangana people, places or culture. Since there has been a lot of economic activity in this part of the state, the capital region developed a lot. Nobody developed it out of idealism or vision but only because of their selfishness. The political leaders of Telangana region want a separate state to save their distinct culture and tradition from the impact of other cultures. Even Rayala Seema region must be created as a separate state. Separation is always a matter of concern and pain for humans and other creatures. We must accept it patiently and ideally when it is inevitable. No region is ours. We are all temporary residents here. Slept by 9:15.

31 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. Some of the Intermediate students only came to college today in view of the strike called for by some interest groups in the region of coastal Andhra protesting against the decision of central government to form a new state of Telangana. Mr. Murthy arranged some placards and banners in support of the concept of united Andhra Pradesh. He bought and got five-rupee Britannia Good Day biscuit packs distributed to each of these students. Even some of the students of Gayathri School came here along with their teachers. There might be 150 students in total. It was drizzling. The demonstrative procession (rally) was started by 10:40 under the guidance of staff of Gayathri educational institutions along the GT Road in Tuni. I too accompanied them for the sake of courtesy for Murthy. I don’t like such shallow and futile public shows. This procession marched via Tuni railway station, Golla Apparao Centre and Raja Junior College with shouts of slogans by boys and girls. The hypocrites of print and electronic media shot these scenes of public protest with their cameras. It was all over by 11:30. Left the college by 11:35. Evaluated the first unit answer sheets of first and second year Intermediate students for about three hours. This task was over. I felt happy. The English language skills of 95% of these students are very low. I gave some marks to most of them out of sympathy for them. I should encourage them towards being optimistic. I should love them as students because they are victims of this generation. Slept by 9:30.

1 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night my HCU English faculty member Pramod K Nayar appeared me in my dream. He spent some time with me like a bosom friend. I deeply enjoyed his affectionate and sublime company. It was a blissful dream. By 7:00 paid 3,500 rupees to Surya Kumari towards rent for our two-bedroomed ground level portion in their three-storied building for the last month. Reached Gayathri College by 8:20 on my scooty. Today also first unit exams were conducted to Intermediate students in the afternoon. Today I took four classes to first and second year B.A., B.Com. and B.Sc. students. From 1:30 to 2:30 sat in the ninth standard classroom in Gayathri School supervising the conduct of first unit exam. The ninth standard students took my English exam also today. Collected their answer sheets from the headmistress for evaluation. Returned home by 5:15 on my scooty. Went to my favourite hair salon by 5:40 and got a haircut. Paid him 30 rupees for it. Morning my father-in-law came here on his bike from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near Marripalem. Srijana and Anand went there along with him to spend there for some time. I readily approve the tour decisions of Srijana. She enjoys the company of her parents and relatives. I should always enable her to savour those blissful moments. Everybody enjoys liberty, equality and fraternity. Our worth as individuals depends on allowing others to feel and experience these notions. Night evaluated the answer sheets of students of ninth standard for 15 minutes. Slept by 9:45.

2 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. They sent students back to homes in view of the strike declared by some political parties protesting against the idea of separate statehood to Telangana region. A few staff members only came to college. Murthy asked me to take an English class for the present teaching staff of Gayathri school and colleges. We all went to Gayathri School by 10:00. He addressed the staff for 15 minutes. He stressed the need of every teacher improving his or her spoken and written English communication skills to be efficient users of this language in classrooms. There are thousands of English medium schools and colleges in Andhra Pradesh now. How many of these teachers and lecturers are really good at English? Most of them use non-standard English in classrooms and outside. Students also become so in course of time. I spoke to them for about 30 minutes using blackboard. I briefly discussed Tenses, Parts of Speech, Number and Verb Agreement and some other aspects of English as a language. Advised them to buy standard English dictionaries and grammar books. Passion to learn and regular practice are essential to improve our skills and knowledge in any activity and subject. Murthy returned from the upper primary government school at Valluru by 12:30 and permitted us to leave for the day. Edited the content of June from my diary of 2013 on my computer for one hour. Ironed about five pairs of my clothes from 4:30 to 5:30. Typed out a one-page letter addressing the folks of Hetero Drugs at Nakkapalli stating that I cannot join their firm if they don’t pay me 30,000 rupees a month. I will use it when needed. Slept by 10:30.

3 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Surya Kumari offered me Upma by 7:30 for my breakfast. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. Even today there were no students and lecturers in the college. The folks of YSR Congress Party are on a strike today protesting against the idea of formation of a separate Telangana state. The TDP folks are also observing strike in this context. They block roads, get shops closed and hold rallies for the sake of their shallow and worthless publicity. These are all actually anti-social elements. They disturb and panic ordinary people in the name of these protests. They are actually very selfish and cruel citizens of India. They don’t do anything for the welfare of society. They appear actively in public places during seasons of chaos and unrest. Nobody respects them. They long for identity through this illegal and immoral public interaction. I hate them. Murthy asked me to prepare a few questions for the teaching staff of Gayathri School with the objective of testing their basic English language skills. I typed out 30 questions from 10:45 to 11:30 on a computer in the office of this college. Got them printed out on four pages of two sheets of white paper. Went to Gayathri School by 12:00 and gave them to the headmistress. Returned home by 12:25. Surya Kumari offered me rice and curry. From 12:30 to 8:30 typed up the content of July from my diary of 2013 on my computer. By 5:15 brought Srijana and Anand from Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. They took a bus from Thaandava Junction. She brought five litres of Jersey cow milk, homemade cake and snacks from there for us. Slept by 9:30.

4 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. He is running his school and colleges today out of his passion for the welfare of his dear students. Only 10% of the students came to college. Almost all teaching staff came. I strongly believe that we should not expect anybody to work on Sundays. Humankind decided and confirmed it that way. Human beings should follow this norm with 100% commitment and morality. Murthy does not follow this norm. I appreciate the intuition and spirit of students in not coming to college today. Murthy became a machine ever since he started working as an administrator in private educational institutions. He has no personal life. He is expecting his subordinates also not to have personal lives. Today I sat in some classes like a shepherd overseeing some helpless and sad sheep in a pen. I should say it was an unproductive day. Students and teachers are the victims in this hell created by Murthy. I surrendered my individuality and self-esteem to him the day I joined this college as an English lecturer. I should not disobey him. This is the culture now in most of the mediocre private firms in India. Returned home by 3:15. Low fever entered me again. It must be a viral fever caused due to cold weather. Today I felt dim and passive due to this internal effect. I should buy tablets to counter it. By 8:31 K Subrahmanyam called me up. He was one of my classmates at A P R School in Bhoopathipalem. He asked me to identify him giving vague hints. I recollected and told his name in the first attempt itself. He talked with me after 20 years of our separation at this school. Slept by 9:30.

5 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. A small news item, with the photo of the folks of Graama Panchaayat of village Peda Gummuluru, appeared in the Visakhapatnam district edition of Telugu daily Eenadu. Informed my brother Sambha about it over phone. He also appears slightly in this photo. Yesterday they toured through Peda Gummuluru and Adduroad in a small van as a gesture of their affection and gratitude to the people of this village for voting to them and making them the local rulers of this village for five years to come. Most of us like to see our photos in a newspaper with a positive and enjoyable description about us. Largely print and electronic media reflect our common destiny. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. Today I took five classes. Gave the evaluated answer sheets to students in some classes. Wrote on the blackboard that I gave most of them marks out of sympathy for them. Their drawbacks are spelling mistakes, lack of grammar, irrelevant answers and clumsy writing. From 2:00 to 5:00, Murthy held a rally with the students of Gayathri junior and degree colleges protesting against the idea of separate Telangana. Students marched via Tuni railway station, Golla Appa Rao Centre, Raja Junior College and assembled in Raja Ground. I did not participate in it because they had moved away by the time I returned to college from the school. It was drizzling. Returned home by 3:15. Srijana and Surya Kumari prepared sweets with toasted groundnut kernels and jaggery for us. By 7:00 our familiar Mantrala Raju (an experienced practitioner of traditional Indian medicine) prescribed Fenacet and Gramflox-OZ tablets for me to face low fever, cold and related weakness. Slept by 9:30.

6 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took eight classes. Even today distributed answer sheets in two classes. It was over by today. Today I sensed weakness caused by low fever. I am taking six tablets every day to subdue it. Returned home by 5:15. Srijana coloured my hair and moustache black with Classic herbal henna powder paste by 6:00. It is giving substantial black colour to my hair and moustache. The combination is pure water and this powder. This afternoon Srijana collected the offer letter of Hetero Drugs meant for me from the wife of our neighbour Subba Raju, who is working there as a senior HR executive. I scanned it. They did not mention my salary in it. My position is ‘Officer’ in their Learning & Development department. Earlier, orally, this HR executive told me that my monthly salary would be 25,000 rupees for this job. There are many immoral and illegal HR norms in it. It is an ordinary firm as far as its HR policies and labour laws are concerned. They are making medicines for humans but they have no humanity in the treatment of their employees. Srijana pressurised me to readily accept this job offer and join this firm considering our present critical financial condition. I gave a letter to Subba Raju by 7:30. I stated in it that I cannot join this firm unless they pay me 30,000 rupees a month for it. I explained them why they should pay me this much salary. I am not an ordinary person. I know my value better than others. Slept by 9:30.

7 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. Today I took eight classes. Even today I sensed low fever and related weakness in my body. Every day I read out lessons aloud in the classrooms to enable students to listen to me. I am doing so for about six hours in this college and school on all working days. My vocal cords are getting affected due to this excessive burden on them. My voice is not regaining its original sound. Reading aloud consumes much of our physical energy also. Today I experienced my body turning warm, nervous and weak while teaching in classrooms. Returned home by 5:00. I found that a small water pipe is loosened beside the compound wall in our portion. Water is gushing out of it. Srijana and Surya Kumari did not know how to repair it. Called up my familiar electrician and plumber Suresh from Lingala Colony. He came to our abode by 8:30. He applied a bit of sticky chemical paste at the point of leakage. We stopped the down flow of water from the tank on the terrace while doing this repair work. He told us to keep the paste untouched by water for about four hours. We blocked flow of water from the tank throughout the night for this purpose. He did three other plumbing related repairs also in this house. My dear uncle D S N Raju told me that he does plumbing works also. I know him as an electrician only. He charged 100 rupees for this repair work. It’s justifiable. Evening my brother Srinivas called me up and asked me about my job with Hetero. I told him that I had sent them a letter. Slept by 9:30.

8 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Sent an email to the HR folks of Hetero Drugs at Nakkapalli by 6:15 attaching my one-page letter of response to their job offer. My wife Srijana, my brother Srinivas, my parents and my familiar folks are astonished knowing about my decision in this respect. I refused to accept this job offer because they decided my salary in an illogical, irrational and insulting manner. I don’t get any popularity or special status joining this firm. I have got value of my own in isolation too. Their norms of employment are like those of a mad and cruel dictator. A dictator cannot attract an idealist and thinker through commands and authority but discipline and obedience. Hetero Drugs is an ordinary firm flourishing due to the hard work and intelligence of hundreds of employees. A writer is the proud owner of everything he or she creates applying his or her uniqueness and creativity. An artist has more originality and vision than any commercial firm in this world. I know about many worthless blokes, who are being paid substantially for carrying out quite unproductive works. I should not underestimate myself always just because I am not financially strong. Now and then I must stand up like a ferocious lion in a dark forest also. It is the characteristic of a challenger. Today I took eight classes. Today also I felt weak due to low fever in me. It must be a strong viral fever. Lord Krishna is enabling me to face hardships. Returned home by 5:20. The maternal grandparents of Srijana came to our abode today. They stay here for a few days. Went to sleep by 9:30.

9 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. The maternal grandparents of Srijana moved to the abode of their son Sekhar in Tuni by 8:45. Brought my mother-in-law to our rented abode by 9:10 from Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. She brought Jersey cow milk and vegetables from there for us. My brothers Srinivas and Sambha came to my abode by 9:15 from Peda Gummuluru on the bike of the latter. Srinivas came here to search for a suitable residential plot of land to buy for him. They two met the local real estate agent Kakarlapudi Narasimha Raju. He proposed to sell his 284 square yards of plot in Devi Nagar near the area of Canossa School. My brother paid 9,000 rupees to him towards advance for it. They did it all without my consultation and intervention. My parents and brothers think that I am a negligible entity in the matters of lands and money because I did not save any amount of money or bought any piece of land till now with my money. My brothers had lunch by 12:30. They left by 3:30 on the bike. Srijana, Anand, my mother-in-law and I reached the abode of Sekhar in Tuni by 4:00. We spent here for two hours. Walked to the rented abode of Gunturu Prasada Raju in Bank Colony by 6:00. The marriage of his younger daughter Sravya Sri is scheduled to be held tomorrow night at Palakollu. Had dinner here by 7:30. Srijana, Anand and I returned home by 8:00. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy slept in our abode this night. It’s Ramadan today. Slept by 10:30.

10 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 4:00. Got ready by 7:00. Sekhar brought his father to my abode by 7:10 on his bike from his rented abode in Tuni. He took me to the abode of Gunturu Prasada Raju in Bank Colony by 7:30. Had my breakfast here along with other folks. Prasada Raju hired an APSRTC bus from Tuni Bus Depot to take his relatives and guests to Palakollu for the occasion of the marriage of his younger daughter Sravya Sri this night. He and his wife Suguna affectionately invited me to this marriage. Today I took leave from Gayathri College for this reason. We all got into this bus by 7:45. There were about 15 females and 25 males in it. The maternal grandmother of Srijana, her mother and the family of her maternal uncle Sekhar also got into this bus. Most of them are creatures of Viswanadhapuram. This bus started off from Tuni by 8:05. Some folks started in cars. We reached Palakollu by 1:35 travelling via Annavaram, Rajahmundry and Ravulapalem. The venue of the marriage is Kshatriya Sankshema Parishad Kalyana Mandapam built with the major patronage of Penmetsa Satya Narayana Raju and Surya Padmavati. Many rich Kshatriya folks contributed to the development of this community facility over time. We had lunch by 2:15. Rested for one hour in the second room by the dining hall. The bridegroom party arrived here by 5:30. Took photos and videos for some time with my Sony digital camera. The marriage of Mahesh and Sravya Sri took place from 11:00 to 2:00. We all got into our bus by 2:15. I remained awake.

11 August (Sunday)

Our bus started back to Tuni by 3:05 from the venue of marriage along with 50 passengers. I sat by a window seat in the right corner at the rear end of this bus. I found Palakollu and Ravulapalem areas green with agricultural farms and prosperous with industrious peasant farmers. Some noted artistes of the Telugu film industry had their roots in these beautiful and inspiring places of West Godavari district. I like these places and these people. We reached Tuni by 7:30 travelling via Ravulapalem, Rajahmundry, Jaggampeta and Annavaram. It was a pleasant journey in the morning hours but few enjoyed it. All of them were sleepy and dim. I did not doze off much. Got off this bus near cinema Sri Rama in Tuni and walked up to Golla Appa Rao Centre. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw. Reached home by 8:00. I felt very sleepy and dim today but I could not manage to sleep during daytime. By 12:00 went to the rented abode of Raghu, the younger brother of Asha Bhanu. Today they are offering lunch to a few familiar folks on the occasion of the first death anniversary of their father Konda Raju. Some souls gathered here to metaphysically wish luck to the departed soul of this gentleman. Spent talking with my familiar folks for some time. By 5:30 K S N Raju came from Bhimavarapu Kota. By 6:00 showed him the residential plot of land, which my brother Srinivas had bought recently in Devi Nagar. He told me about some negative aspects of these plots. My folks bought it without consulting this idealist. Slept by 9:30.

12 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:10. Srijana, Anand and I started to Talli Pillala Hospital in Tuni by 5:45 on our scooty. We came across K V P Raju. Yesterday he joined the Deccan Fine Chemicals unit at Kesavaram. It is a casual job. They pay him 8,000 rupees for it. He is commuting on his bike from Adduroad to do this job. He has to travel for about 70 kilometres, to and fro, to do this job. I advised him to move to Payakaraopeta again along with his family unit. I have to search for a rented abode for him. We reached the hospital by 6:00. Dr C S Lakshmi checked Srijana by 7:00. She prescribed medical tests and medicines for her. We went to Nikhil Scan & Diagnostic Centre by 7:10. They did blood and TIFFA tests for her within 20 minutes. TIFFA showed that the growth of the baby is normal in every way. Even other tests proved normalcy. She spent about 1,200 rupees for these tests. She showed these reports to Dr. C S Lakshmi by 7:50 in her hospital. She advised Srijana to eat sprouts (of wet green gram and Bengal gram kernels) every day for adequate provision of proteins to her body through natural foods. We bought Surbex-XT and SHELCAL-250 tablets in Vasavi medical store near this hospital. We bought green gram and Bengal gram kernels in a store to prepare sprouts for Srijana every day. She advised her to have sprouts every morning and evening until her delivery. We returned home by 8:10. Srijana is drinking warm milk every morning and evening. Slept by 9:45 for my dreams.

13 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. They decided not to run this college today in view of intense strike being organized by various interest groups in Andhra Pradesh today protesting against the idea of statehood to Telangana. I consider it as a biased and futile agitation by many lunatics in this state. Disturbing public life and damaging public facilities is a characteristic of anti-social elements. A movement should involve intelligence of people and their leaders but not their stupidity and eccentricity. A few teaching staff members reached this college by 8:45. We all kept waiting for the instruction of Murthy. Many colleges declared holidays in this region from 8 to 18 of this month considering different kinds of strikes and other relevant factors. Murthy does not like to close his college like others. He thinks that he is helping students and teachers this way. They think that they are being tortured in this manner by him. Holidays are like heavenly moments in the lives of employees in private sector in India. Even students enjoy holidays a lot. Institutional learning is a big burden on the sensitive and formative lives of learners. This is why they crave holidays always. Murthy informed us to leave for the day by 10:30. Today he misused our time and energy this way. Returned home by 10:45. It rained considerably for 30 minutes around 11:30 and made it cool. I am still experiencing low fever. Slept by 9:30.

14 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana and Anand left for the agricultural farm at Marripalem by 8:10. Reached Gayathri College by 8:40 on my scooty. Today I took eight classes. By 4:00 Kakarlapudi Mahendra Varma gave me 10,000 rupees, putting them in an envelope, bearing my handwritten name. He is an office staff member in this college. This is part of my salary for the last month. They pay me the remaining amount of my salary sometime later. A few days ago the driver of a Gayathri school bus hit a man on road. He died on the spot. Murthy paid two lakh rupees as compensation to the relatives of this victim. Returned home by 5:30. Today it rained considerably in Tuni and Payakaraopeta. The two electricity supply wires, in front of our house, dropped down, due to the bend of a cement pole, here, in the wet soil. We can touch them with our hands. This electricity can kill anybody within seconds. Bharat Varma, the elder son of Surya Kumari, and I rushed to the substation in Payakaraopeta and informed them about it. The linemen were busy carrying out some other emergency repair works elsewhere. They came to our spot of problem by 8:00. They checked the slope of the cement pole and the resultant position of the two electricity supply wires. They said that they cannot set it right during nighttime. They stopped power supply to this pair of weak wires. They said they would repair it tomorrow. We should identify crisis fast to face or solve it efficiently. Poor electricity distribution system in Andhra Pradesh became the cause of many accidents and deaths. Slept by 9:30.

15 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could sleep exclusively because of the air of a ceiling fan energized by the alternating current supplied by the inverter in our abode. I was alone. Reached Gayathri School in Tuni by 8:00 on my scooty to participate in the celebration of the Independence Day of India. Yesterday Murthy informed all the teaching faculty to compulsorily attend this program. Otherwise I would not have gone to this celebration. These are all futile shows of hypocrites in India. The celebration of this day took place from 9:30 to 10:30. The chief guest was noted local advocate M V Surya Narayana Raju. I took the video of this occasion with my Sony digital camera. Saw the Telugu film “Jagadguru Adi Shankara” in cinema Sai Mahal from 11:00 to 1:45. Kaushik Babu played the role of Saint Shankaracharya. He suited well to this role. His handsomeness and performance are admirable. It is impossible to show the supremacy and achievements of this divine saint in one feature film. Director J K Bharavi portrayed it all symbolically. I enjoyed watching every bit of this film. I give 90 marks per 100 for this film. It’s an extraordinary film. My platonic friend Akkineni Nagarjuna played a good role in it. I enjoyed watching his appearance and acting. From 2:30 to 3:30 edited the content of July from my diary of 2013 on my computer. Afternoon they set the fallen down electric wires right. Reached Viswanadhapuram by 5:20 on my scooty. It rained here for 30 minutes. Slept by 9:30.

16 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is Sraavana Sukravaaram and the auspicious day of Vara Lakshmi Vratham for Telugu Hindus today. Newly married girls and women worship Goddess Lakshmi today ceremoniously. Srijana and her maternal grandmother were in these preparations from yesterday. They collected different fruits, flowers and other items for this purpose. This morning Revathi and their family unit came here from Tuni to participate in this special collective worship. Srijana, her grandmother and Revathi performed worship to Goddess Lakshmi from 10:30 to 11:30. I took video of it for some time. By 11:10 my friend Bojja Shankara Rao sent me an SMS asking me if I can repay him the 10,000 rupees, which I borrowed from him earlier. I informed him to wait for some more months. He agreed readily. I realized that I cannot repay anybody if I continue with Gayathri College as an English lecturer with my present salary from them. I have a debt of about one lakh rupees now to clear. I should not reject the job offer made by the folks of Hetero Drugs at Nakkapalli. Srijana, Anand and I returned home by 2:00 on our scooty. Rain chased and drenched us on the way. Nature loves me warmly. By 7:30 told Subba Raju that I decided to join Hetero. He is the HR executive with Hetero living as a tenant in the ground floor of apartment block near ours. On the 12^th of this month, Rajanikant Ganesha, the HR manager of Hetero Drugs unit at Nakkapalli, emailed me stating that they cannot review the decision they took about my salary. I remained neutral till this time. By 9:20 sent an email to Rajanikant Ganesha stating that I decided to join Hetero. Money makes many things! I yielded to it. Slept by 10:00.

17 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. By 8:35 told Vinjamuri Sri Rama Chandra Murthy that I got a better job with Hetero and that I want to leave this college by the end of next week. He felt a little shocked with this piece of news. He asked me to work in this college till the end of this month. He said that there are no talented English teachers or lecturers in Tuni and Payakaraopeta or the surrounding areas. It has been his experience for the last 30 years. He also remarked that all schools and colleges in this region are somehow managing their educational institutions with low quality English faculty only. I wondered knowing about this reality. There is scarcity of physics and English faculty in many parts of Andhra Pradesh now. Many young creatures are pursuing M.A. English literature course through distance education mode for the sake of getting jobs as English teachers in government schools. Most of them cannot write even a paragraph without grammatical errors. This is the state of 90% of employees in public and private sectors in India now. In this bleak environment, those with substantial communication skills in English are prospering in their personal and professional lives. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:15 on my scooty. Evening the little finger of the right hand of Anand got a little pressed when he put his hand at the edge of a door. It happened because of the force of open air on the door. The blood at the end of it got affected. We took him to Mantrala Raju. He gave medicine and oil to apply on the affected portion of the finger. Night my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy slept in our abode. Slept by 9:30.

18 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and I spent at the houses of D S N Raju and Avathaaram in Devi Nagar for one hour. My father came to our abode by 10:30 from Peda Gummuluru. He brought two kinds of homemade sweets for us. He came here to see the plot of land, which my brother Srinivas bought recently in Devi Nagar. Narasimha Murthy and he saw it by 11:00 walking a little from my abode. Took my father to the rented abode of Pusapati Venkata Ramana Raju in Rajugari Beedu by 11:15 on my scooty. They are somewhat childhood friends. They recollected those memorable days in their lives. My father asked him if he and his relatives are interested in selling a piece of land to us. It is beside our mango garden called Kotha Rajugari Podu near hills. P V R Raju asked for some time to decide on it. We returned home by 12:00. My father, my uncle and I had lunch by 12:30. I bought skinless broiler chicken for 50 rupees. Srijana prepared curry with it for us. My father and my uncle left for Peda Gummuluru by 12:45 on the Honda Activa scooty of the latter. Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Addaa” in cinema Gautham from 2:30 to 5:00. The director portrayed a good aspect of love in a passive and confusing manner. He failed in making it into a piece of touching melodrama. Viewers expect thrill and anxiety from every film. It is good. Slept by 9:30.

19 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:10 started to Tuni on my scooty along with Srijana and Anand. Took them to the rented abode of Gopi. It is the birthday of their daughter today. So, they invited my family for lunch in their abode today. Srijana and Anand decided to spend there. By 12:15 I too went there on foot from Gayathri College for lunch. Devi Priya offered me Chicken Biryani and Gulab Jamoons. She is the wife of Datla Gopala Krishnam Raju. He is a native of Viswanadhapuram. It is the birthday of their daughter Akshita today. She must be 10 or so. My father-in-law came here by 12:45 on his bike from the agricultural farm at Marripalem. He too had lunch here. He brought Jersey cow milk and some vegetables for us from there. Gayathri School (earlier Ushodaya School was run here) is very near to this place. Reached there by 1:05. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:30. Ever since I joined Gayathri College, I have been wearing a pair of clothes for two days only. Earlier, as an employee, I used to wear one pair for three days continuously. I changed this pattern of employee behavior. I wash my clothes and iron them. Changing our lifestyle to the better is desirable but it should not place more responsibility upon others. Many wear a pair of clothes for one day only. They make their mother, sister or wife wash those worn-out clothes with hands or a machine. They make slaves at home in this process. We should wash our clothes before deciding to change our lifestyle to a showy one. Slept by 9:30.

20 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is the birthday of Bharat Varma (Abhi) today, the elder son of Surya Kumari. He cut his birthday cake by 8:15 in the portion above ours. I could not attend it in the hurry of going to college. By 8:40, Bojja Shankara Rao of Ramayyapatnam, called me up. He told me to take more money from him if I am still in financial problems. Earlier I borrowed 10,000 rupees from him. I could not repay it till now. He made this generous offer in this context. He must be considered as an extraordinary person in my life. He does not benefit anything because of helping me. His love for me is ideal and selfless. He has no sympathy for me but empathy. He told me to send an SMS if I cannot ask him orally for money. Lakshmi, whom I admired a lot, never tried to talk with me over phone also, during the last 20 years. We should express our love somehow to our platonic friends also. Love, buried in our heart, never gets a place in human history. Love, which is expressed proactively to somebody, is sweeter and nobler than the one expressed or felt reactively. Shankar has a good impression about my character. He honored my character respecting me this way. I like all those, who love me. Love attracts me towards others. I said Shankar that I don’t need money now because I am earning it now. Today I took eight classes. Returned home by 5:10. Had Chicken Biryani and sweet porridge, offered by Surya Kumari, by 5:30, for my supper. Today my brother Srinivas and his son Sujan were in Hyderabad. Sujan got his educational certificates verified as part of EAMCET admissions process. Slept by 9:30.

21 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. By 12:30 all our teaching faculty members got into a newly bought bus meant for Gayathri educational institutions. We bought a Maha Lakshmi brand wet grinder for 2,300 rupees to present to bridegroom Koduri Adi Narayana today on the occasion of his marriage. He has been working with Gayathri College for the last 10 years or so as a mathematics lecturer. We reached the house of Adi Narayana in A Suravaram by 12:45 in the college bus. Meanwhile Murthy and some other representatives of Gayathri College also arrived here. We presented our collective gift to Adi Narayana at their house. The videographer took a video of this scene. We had lunch by 1:30. We returned to Gayathri College by 1:50 in college bus. I could not take my scheduled period from 1:00 to 1:45 for ninth standard students today because of going to A Suravaram. Today I took seven classes only. Left the college by 5:00. Went back to Gayathri College by 7:00 on my scooty. Rajesh, Bhanu Prakash, Ramesh, Lavanya, two others and I started to Annavaram by 8:30 in a sharing auto rickshaw. We reached there by 9:00. We all spent our time in the temple area at Sita Rama Sadan waiting for the arrival of Adi Narayana and party. They came here by 12:15. We wished Adi Narayana and started back in our hired vehicle by 12:45. His marriage is around 2:00. We returned to the college by 1:20. Reached home on my scooty. Slept by 1:30.

22 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took seven classes. By 4:00 Murthy directed the students to participate in a rally from this college to Golla Appa Rao Centre as a protest against the decision of the central government to separate Telangana region from Andhra Pradesh. All the boys and girls participated in this imposed and artificial rally. I too walked along with them up to the office of document writer Joga Ramesh near the office of Sub Registrar in Tuni. My uncle Chanti Babu came from Durgada this afternoon to collect the land ownership document from this document writer. He paid all the amount of money for the plot he bought in Seshadri Nagar layout for his son-in-law Anantha Varma. The local real estate agent Somanna Dora gave the related documents to my uncle today. Spent talking with my uncle from 4:15 to 4:50 while these students were making unnecessary noise at the GAC. Joined them when they were walking back to college. People have no patriotism in India now. Most of them are dishonest, selfish and narrow-minded. Most of the employees have their unions in the organized sector. They always think and fight for their salary hikes and benefits. The movements, which are taking place in any part of Andhra Pradesh now, are not being run by ordinary people but highly selfish interest groups. Innocent students are the victims in this scenario of artificial agitations in coastal Andhra Pradesh and Rayala Seema regions. I hate such futile public shows. Slept by 9:30.

23 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. Today I took eight classes. My voice is affected due to overuse of it in the classrooms every day. I am feeling feverish almost every day. I am getting a cold almost regularly. I am sensing pain in the middle of my soles after getting up every morning from bed. It is getting completely alleviated within a short time. I am getting backache also while in college because of standing up continuously in classrooms. I have to do something to face these minor health problems but I am unable to focus much on them. This must be the case of millions of creatures in this world. Human beings, animals, birds, trees and so many other living organisms are suffering due to various health disorders. Diseases and infections cause physical and psychological pain to all. Can we imagine the existence of any creature without disease and distress? Some can express the intensity of trauma of physical or psychological pain and some cannot. It seems diseases are a kind of punishment to organisms imposed on them as part of their fate, which Hindus identify as Karma. It chases our soul continuously. We must clear all our dues to our lenders to live satisfactorily and happily. Similarly, we must bear all kinds of pains and suffering related to our physical form to make our spiritual journey light and pleasant. No salvation to a sinful soul. Slept by 9:30.

24 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30 on my scooty. They decided not to run it today as part of the collective decision taken by the Joint Action Committee (JAC) of this region. It’s their protest against the central government’s decision to form a separate Telangana state. Returned home by 9:00. By 10:00, I was informed to come to college. Murthy wanted me to come. Went back to college by 10:15. Murthy asked me to teach English to the teachers at Gayathri School for some time. Went there by 10:30. Taught them English grammar for 90 minutes. Briefly explained them the communicative English to be used in a classroom environment, putting questions, parts of speech and tenses. Perhaps this is my last class to them. I like them because they are victims of private educational system in this state. They have to work like bonded labourers for very low and untimely salaries. Returned home by 12:15. Had my lunch by 12:45. Walked to Y Junction in Payakaraopeta by 1:15. The folks of APSRTC have been on strike for the last 10 days. I did not get even private vehicles to go to Visakhapatnam. Moved to Tuni railway station by 2:27. Bought a ticket for 20 rupees. Took Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger train by 2:30. It was packed densely with passengers. Got off it by 4:50 at Marripalem Halt. Took two sharing auto rickshaws and reached the apartment of my brother Srinivas at Sujatha Nagar by 5:50. I will undergo some medical tests in Care Hospital day after tomorrow for Hetero job purpose. Slept by 9:30.

25 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:15 my brother Srinivas and I started to Marripalem on the bike of the prior. There is a CSD unit for the folks of armed forces. They opened it by 11:30 for the ex-servicemen segment of folks to go in and buy things. My brother entered it. They don’t allow outsiders in. I felt like an untouchable in this premises. This is the value accorded to artists, intellectuals and dreamers in many countries. I moved towards the exit of this canteen to closely watch the excitement of the creatures shopping inside. I did it through the iron fence, which has holes in square shape. They were all hungrily picking up items to pay very little for them. My brother and I returned to the abode of the prior in Sujatha Nagar by 12:30. Srinivas bought most of these things for my family unit today, based on my list of choices. There are no many items, which Srijana and I wanted for our domestic consumption. I am not happy about the standards being followed in the CSDs of Indian armed forces in places beyond Army, Navy and Air Force premises. They are dumping low demand items into these CSD points. They have immoral deals with private firms. Corruption and disorders are prevalent in the defense sector of India. Spent rest of the day watching television. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani treats me like a special guest. She prepares such curries and drinks, which I like much. My brother supports her plans and concepts in this regard. Slept by 10:45.

26 August (Monday)

Woke up by 4:30. Got ready by 5:20. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani prepared breakfast for me and put it in a box. She poured lemon juice added sugar water in one bottle and plain water in one bottle. She put an apple also in my bag. Took leave of them by 5:30 and walked to the main road. Took two sharing auto rickshaws and reached the Care Hospital at Ram Nagar by 6:15. They opened the outpatient section by 7:15. Told the receptionist that I came with a job offer letter from the Hetero Drugs unit at Nakkapalli to undergo some medical tests suggested by them. A fellow collected about 50 ml blood from the middle of my right arm into three glass tubes by 8:00. A woman took my ECG by 8:10. A fellow took digital X-ray of my chest by 8:20. Had my homemade breakfast of rotis and kept waiting for these medical reports in the waiting hall. Collected the reports by 11:30. Met Dr. Prabhakar by 12:00. He checked my pulse rate and other reports also. The paramedical staff checked my blood pressure, height and weight. My height is 168 cm, weight is 72 kgs and BMI is 25.5. My BP rate is 110/70. The doctor scribbled in my medical record file that I am fit for employment. Hired an auto rickshaw for 50 rupees and rushed to railway station. A generous fellow bought a ticket for me for 55 rupees, on my request, as there were long queues. Got into a general coach of Ratnachal Express by 1:30. It was thickly packed with passengers. Got off it at Tuni by 3:30. Srijana came to station on our scooty. Reached home by 4:15. I am getting ready to join the Hetero Drugs unit at Nakkapalli. Slept by 9:30.

27 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:10 on my scooty. Today I took eight classes. Left the college by 4:50. Went to Sai Surya Digital Colour Lab and Studio in Tuni. A photographer took my photo by 5:20. Asked them for 32 passport size prints of it. The prints were ready by 5:50. They took 100 rupees for it. I am not happy with my appearance in these photos. Every evening my face turns weak and dim in the college because of much teaching that preceded. Today also my eyes were weary and weak. I look fresh and presentable in the morning but they don’t open their commercial units by this time. I can get my photos taken at home with my digital camera but we cannot create the studio environment with background and lighting effects. I got these photos taken for the folks of Hetero. Bought a 100-rupee non-judicial stamp paper for 150 rupees from the licensed stamp vendor P Demullu at Sri Kanya bookstore. He said that the supply of stamp papers got affected due to long strike environment in this region. Many rogues are mercilessly looting public in the name of strike now. This scoundrel is one of those sinners. This stamp paper is also for the HR folks of Hetero. They print the three-year legal agreement on this sheet of paper stating the terms of the job I have with them. Legal agreements can do nothing if a writer plans against them. From 7:45 to 9:00 prepared first unit question papers on my computer for the first and second year students of undergraduate courses at Gayathri Degree College. Slept by 9:30.

28 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. It started drizzling. By 6:15 my brother Sambha called me up and informed me to come to the Y Junction. Rushed there on my scooty. He and his friend Rama Raju were going to Kadiyam in a transport vehicle to buy and bring mango saplings. My father sent two sacks of rice in it for us from Peda Gummuluru. Collected them. Reached Gayathri College by 8:15. Today I took eight classes. Afternoon distributed some homemade sweets to my lunchtime colleagues on the occasion of Sri Krishna Janmaasthami. They asked me for a party as I got a job and leaving this college soon. I said I won’t do it since it’s like insulting this college. We should not celebrate separation from a person or institution if we are sensitive and sensible human beings. I am seeing party animals everywhere now. They are shamelessly begging others for parties for very trivial occasions also. I hate this dirty Indian culture. Returned home by 5:30. Today Anand took three first unit tests in Canossa School. He got tested in English, General Knowledge and telling the names of material in his classroom. All are being subjected to this mental torture at their tender age. He got 23 marks in English for 25 and full 25 marks in the two other tests. Srijana is guiding and supervising his homework every day. Getting him ready for school every morning is also a task. Modern schools and colleges made the mothers of students into tense and restless labourers. Night posted a photo of film actor Akkineni Nagarjuna and message on the banner of my blog site. It’s his birthday tomorrow. I love him. Slept by 9:45. 

29 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is not a working day for Gayathri College today due to planned strike in Tuni and Payakaraopeta by some interest groups. Ironed six pairs of my clothes from 11:30 to 12:30. By 5:15 Srijana, Anand and I started to Tuni on our scooty. We met ENT doctor Rama Krishnam Raju in his clinic near Raja Ground by 5:30. I told him that I am catching a cold regularly these days. Sneezes are accompanying cold. He tested my throat with an endoscope. He said that my vocal cords swelled a little due to excessive work pressure on them. I am teaching for about 320 minutes on every working day in Gayathri College and School. It has been an inevitable part of my professional work ever since I joined it. He also said that teachers inhale powder of chalk pieces in a classroom environment while dusting off blackboards. It may cause throat problems. In fact, I seldom write on blackboards. He advised me to take some precautions. He prescribed five Moxam-400, six Macpred-8 and ten LIZINE-M tablets for me worth 241 rupees. We returned home by 6:50. Today I collected some English phrases meant to be used by teachers in classroom and school environment while interacting with their students. I depended on different online sources for it. Earlier Murthy asked me to do it for the sake of his teachers. It turned out into a word file containing 10 pages of content. It’s birthday of Akkineni Nagarjuna today. I wished him through my blog site. Today it is the birthday of my cousin Sagiraju Narendra Varma also. Wished him also over phone. Slept by 9:30.

30 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:30. Today I took four classes. Today the first and second year students of undergraduate courses started taking their first unit tests. From 2:30 to 4:30 V S R Murthy held a rally with all the students of Gayathri junior and degree colleges. It is a protest against the decision of central government to form separate Telangana state. Initially these students walked to Raja Ground. The students of some other schools and colleges also reached here by 2:50. It was sunny and sultry. The organizers of this rally distributed water packs to all the protest role players. I too accompanied them for courtesy sake. They reached Golla Appa Rao Centre by 3:30. Most of the shops were closed. So, the roads were rather free. Parakala Prabhakar, an intelligent and visionary personality of Andhra Pradesh, addressed this massive gathering of students and other participants, from 3:50 to 4:20. He visualized the fate of Telangana, Rayala Seema and Andhra regions in the event of formation of three states from the present united state of Andhra Pradesh. The listeners received his refined speech warmly and enthusiastically. All the participants dispersed from this place by 4:25. I waited in the office of Gayathri College till 5:45 asking Mahendra Varma for my remaining amount of salary related to the last month. He said that there was no enough closing balance. Today Anand took his first unit Telugu and Rhymes tests. Slept by 9:30.

31 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Gayathri College by 8:20. Murthy expressed his sense of happiness about my working in his educational institutions till now. He asked me to write a report about him. He invited me to the dinner at Gayathri College in the evening hours on the 5^th of next month, which he is going to offer on the occasion of Teachers Day. Today I took three classes. Afternoon played the role of an invigilator in Gayathri College from 2:15 to 4:30. The undergraduate students are taking their first unit tests now. By 5:15 handed the books of Gayathri College to Mahendra Varma. Earlier Murthy gave them to me. Mahendra Varma gave me 5,000 rupees. This is the balance amount of salary due to me, related to last month. Murthy said that my salary for this month would be paid in the first week of next month. Perhaps this is my last day in Gayathri College as a fulltime English lecturer. I develop psychological attachment with creatures fast. Separation is always a painful experience for me. Those haunting memories settle deep in my psyche. I cannot erase them. I enjoyed my association with this college and its students. Many students are disturbed knowing that I am leaving this college. I am moving out for the sake of better salary. Returned home by 5:30. Paid 3,500 rupees to Chandramati, the wife of my house owner K S N Raju, by 5:35, towards rent for our portion for this month. From 7:00 to 9:30, evaluated the answer sheets of students of first year undergraduate courses of Gayathri Degree College. There are about 60 answer sheets. Today Anand took Numbers Identification and Sketching Pictures tests in Canossa School as part of his first unit exams. Went to sleep by 9:45.

1 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 8:30 to 2:30 typed up the content of August from my diary of 2013 on my computer. Ramadevi, the mother of Revathi, and Sridevi, the maternal aunt of Revathi, spent in our abode from 12:30 to 3:30. They came here from the rented abode of Sekhar and Revathi in Tuni. They watched the occasion of Upanayanam of Shivaji on my computer for one hour. Earlier I shot the photos and videos of this occasion at Annavaram with my Sony digital camera. They felt happy watching these photos and videos. Shivaji is the son of Ramadevi. They are natives of Gollalagunta. We enjoyed their presence. By 5:00 Srijana coloured my hair black with Classic herbal henna powder paste. The black colour of my moustache is fading earlier than that of hair. Human face comes into contact with water more than hair every day. When we wash face with toilet soap or other related substance, the chemical agents in those items affect the artificial colours present on our face. I believe that colouring our hair and moustache is not a reliable means of hiding our original look and age. Very few of us are living honestly and purely now. We are playing beautiful roles concealing our vice and ugliness to attract and impress others. We ceased to be real human beings long ago. We are machines now. We colour machines when they rust due to pollution and rain. Similarly we can colour and beautify our visible parts of body frequently or regularly. Beauty and sensitivity endear us to others. We may maintain them as materialists. Slept by 9:45.

2 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Started to Peda Gummuluru by 8:15 on my scooty. Reached there by 8:45. Gave them a bag of empty polythene covers and plastic sacks. Srijana packed them picking them up from our abode. My folks use them somehow. My father was there supervising our buffalo graze. Told him that I am joining the Hetero Drugs unit at Nakkapalli today. He felt happy. My mother was not there. She went to attend a religious ceremony in Adduroad. Talked with my sister-in-law Kranthi, baby boy Anjaneya Raju and Janaki for a while. My brother Sambha went to Kadiyam to buy and bring mango saplings. He is in the process of getting them planted in his agricultural farm at Tangedu. Reached Hetero Drugs unit near Nakkapalli by 10:00 on my scooty travelling via Adduroad and Upamaaka. Already there were about 15 candidates waiting in queue. They too came here today to join this firm. By 10:30 the HR folks in the non-SEZ block gave us a personal information sheet to fill up. They told us to go for medical fitness tests at Occupational Health Centre in the SEZ block. Had my homemade lunch standing at a tree by 12:30. Dr. G Prem Kumar checked my blood pressure and eyesight by 4:40. He certified that I am medically fit for joining this firm as an employee. The HR creatures advised us to submit all our documents tomorrow and join. Returned home by 5:40. Srijana, Anand and I went into Payakaraopeta by 6:15 on our scooty. We got eight passport size photos of Anand printed out at Prakash Studio. I need one to paste on a form of Hetero. Slept by 9:15.

3 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Started to Hetero Drugs unit near Nakkapalli by 8:20 on my scooty. Reached there by 9:10. There was a queue at the entrance gate of non-SEZ block. I too stood up along with them. The security staff allowed us into the HR department by 10:30. There was a rush of candidates, who came to join this firm today. Firstly they did the recruitment process of freshers. Had my homemade lunch in a room of security staff at the entrance by 1:30. By 2:30, Gauthami, a HR executive, took the original certificates of my 10, Intermediate, B.A. and M.A. courses. She took some other filled up forms also from me. She did not give me any receipt, as a written proof, for this HR recruitment measure. They made me sign a three-year legal agreement stating that I would work with them for a period of three years from now. If they want to regulate employees, they can do anything like this. My father has to pay them two lakh rupees if I quit this job before this stipulated time. My gross salary is 25,000 rupees per month. They took my fingerprints by 5:30 for their biometric attendance record system. Filled up an Axis Bank account application form also. HR executive Pratap Reddy supervised it. They open their employee related salary accounts with the Axis Bank at P Lakshmi Puram (near Payakaraopeta). By 5:45 I got my employee number with this firm. It is 113531. My designation is ‘officer’ in the Learning & Development department, which is part of HR. I will be on probation for six months. My joining date with this firm is 3 September, 2013. Returned home by 6:50. Slept by 9:15.

4 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Started to Hetero Drugs unit at Nakkapalli by 8:00 on my scooty. They blocked roads in Nakkapalli as part of a strike by the rogues of JAC. Most of the Hetero employees could not attend their duties today due to it. Went to our house in Peda Gummuluru by 9:00. Thence started to our mango garden area at hills. My brother Sambha is getting his newly bought mango garden leveled and beautified deploying a poclain. Spent talking with him till 10:30. Then moved to the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy. Talked with my cousin Ashok and aunt Kumari. Had my lunch here by 11:30. Ashok and I walked through our mango garden for 15 minutes. Sambha beautified it. Felt blissful and heavenly in this soothing environment. Recently the construction of a shed was also completed in our mango farm. It’s for our stay. Returned to Payakaraopeta by 1:45. By 2:30 Srijana and I went to Tuni on our scooty. Handed the evaluated answer sheets of undergraduate students in Gayathri College. Got my ICICI Bank account number added to my LPG account at ICICI Bank in Tuni giving them a photocopy of my Aadhaar card. Gave my CPU and related DELL discs to Hari in his office for formatting it completely. It’s getting slow these days. We spent at the abode of Revathi from 5:30 to 6:00. Recently Srijana got three T-shirts bought for me by her cousin Sunil in Hyderabad. Sekhar brought them from there. There are small designs on them. I don’t like wearing such dirty items. I told her not to get such things for me ever hereafter. Returned home by 6:20. Slept by 9:15.

5 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Started to Hetero Drugs unit at Nakkapalli by 8:00 on my scooty. Reached there by 8:50. The security staff did not allow me into the non-SEZ block because I did not have their identity card and safety pair of shoes on me. They made folks of this status wait outside till 9:30. By 12:00, Uma Devi, a HR executive here, issued me an identity card and a Hetero bus pass. They directed me to go to the section of Learning & Development in the administrative block and report to its manager Subba Rao. Met him by 12:45 in the first floor of the building near the statues of Lord Krishna and Lord Ganesh. Subba Rao welcomed me into Hetero. His colleague Jonnalagadda Soma Sundaram took me to the department of engineering stores behind this building. They issued a pair of Allen Cooper black safety shoes of 8 inch size and a pair of white aprons of size 36 to me. I felt happy and honoured. By 1:30 had my lunch in the cafeteria of non-SEZ. They charge 13 rupees for meal from every employee that eats here. The firm adds its share of 13 rupees to it to pay to the contractor. Afternoon I did not do any work particularly useful for Hetero because they did not allot space and material exclusively for my use yet. Scanned an English dictionary. Pressed the upper end of my right index finger in a biometric swipe machine at the HR department by 6:00 and left it by 6:05. Reached home by 6:45. Srijana, Anand and I went to Gayathri College in Tuni by 7:30 on our Honda Activa scooty. Vinjamuri Sri Rama Chandra Murthy organized a function on the occasion of ‘Teachers Day’ on the terrace of this building. He felicitated teachers with gifts. We did not have dinner as it got very late due to many speeches. We returned home by 10:10. Slept by 10:30.

6 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Put on the Allen Cooper pair of black shoes by 8:00. The folks of Hetero issued them to me. They are of good quality meant for the safety of employees working in those hazardous manufacturing blocks and other places. My feet felt them heavy as I am wearing a pair of light cherry shoes till now. Their internal structure is soft and firm. Took a Hetero bus at Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar entrance gate by Y Junction in Payakaraopeta by 8:10. They deduct 1,000 rupees from my salary every month if I commute by their buses daily. I opted for it considering the difficulty involved in commuting on my scooty every day on National Highway 16. Softly pressed and recorded my biometric attendance by 9:10 in the non-SEZ block. Now a training program is going on for the daily wage labourers on safety measures to be followed by them while working in these drug manufacturing units. They hired the services of a specialist to educate these workers in a comfortable classroom environment. My colleague Soma Sundaram is coordinating this program as a representative of L&D department. Subba Rao told me to help him. Walked to a training hall in SEZ block by 10:00 from the non-SEZ block of Hetero complex. Spent rest of the day with Soma Sundaram assisting him in this task. They provided biscuits, chocolates and tea for the contract labourers during this training program today. We concluded it by 6:10. Pressed my outgoing attendance by 6:12 in a biometric machine and left the workplace by 6:15. Sat in a Hetero bus for my return journey along with other Hetero employees. It started off by 6:40. Got off it at Y Junction by 7:25. Reached my abode by 7:28 on foot. Took a bath and had my supper by 7:50. Slept by 9:30.

7 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:05 and reached Hetero complex by 8:50. Even today industrial safety specialist V Lakshmana Rao addressed about 150 contract labourers of Hetero on precautions to be taken while in workplace. This training took place in a training hall of quality assurance department of SEZ unit. It went on from 9:30 to 5:00. I helped my colleague Soma Sundaram in coordinating this program. Around 4:30, it rained heavily for 30 minutes. Rainwater stagnated on roads in this complex. Took a Hetero bus by 6:30 and returned home by 7:15. Washed my pair of clothes and took a bath by 7:40. Meanwhile my in-laws came to our abode on a bike from the agricultural farm of Dandu Surya Narayana Raju near Marripalem. They brought four litres of Jersy cow milk, guavas and vegetables from there for our domestic consumption. Morning Srijana took Anand to the primary health centre at Y Junction in Payakaraopeta by 9:30. The Asha health assistants gave a DPT/Td vaccine to him through his right thigh under the guidance of a doctor. This is a second booster dosage of it for him, which has to be administered to him in his fifth year of age. This vaccine causes pain in and around the injected part of body. Anand is sensing it now. He has a slight fever now. This is a general effect of this vaccine. I am missing him. I am not spending enough time with him as his father. I am a sinner from this perspective. Slept by 9:30.

8 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is my 37^th birthday today. I am entering my 38^th year of life today according to English calendar. I wore a new white T-shirt on this occasion. This is one of the three, which Srijana got bought for me by her cousin Sunil in Hyderabad recently. She prepared Chicken Biryani. By 10:30 Anand and I cut a birthday cake. My father-in-law bought it yesterday for me on the insistence of Anand. From 11:00 to 1:30 Srijana, her mother, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Thufaan” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir. Apoorva Lakhia filled exciting action and speedy narration into it. Ram Charan and Priyanka Chopra acted well in it. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. By 4:00 brought my CPU from the office of Hari in Tuni. He formatted it and uploaded some software files into it. Paid him 200 rupees for this service. Today some folks wished me on the occasion of my birthday. Celebrating birthdays may be considered important from one perspective. Human birth is the best opportunity to realize the power of God and struggle to attain salvation. We can celebrate this aspect of human life on our birthdays. On each of our birthdays, we must remember that life is a result of sins committed by us in a series of our previous births in various living forms. We should not yield to evil temptations in this birth. We must refrain from the thoughts and acts of vice. God likes us only if we live practicing virtues. Nothing belongs to us. This body is a shadow of my soul. Slept by 10:00.

9 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. It’s a holiday today for the general shift employees of Hetero on account of the Hindu festival Vinayaka Chavithi. Hindus worship Lord Ganesh today ceremoniously. Srijana did not worship Him today because she is pregnant now. Anand and I also did not worship Him because we did not feel its necessity that strongly. Gods and goddesses don’t expect special worship from their devotees. They bless us always. Many blokes are there in Payakaraopeta and Tuni worshipping different size idols of Lord Ganesh in public places. They make a lot of noise for nine days from today. They walk from place to place and collect donations from the natives to conduct special worship to Ganesh collectively. I don’t like this culture of Indians. They disfigured the original form of Hinduism. We should be righteous and holy in body and mind to please deities. How many Hindus are so now? They commit sins every day and worship God to forgive them. God does not interfere with our Karma. From 12:30 to 1:30 edited the content of August from my typed version diary of 2013 on my computer. Today I packed the Telugu book on Justin Milarepa and gave it to my familiar fellow to send to the yogi in Uttarakhand. It’s a very precious book for him. I am unable to post it on my own because I remain in Hetero on all working days of it. Evening we walked to the nearby railway track and sat there for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.

10 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:15 at Y Junction and reached Hetero complex by 9:10. Morning Illuri Subba Rao told me to prepare a teaching plan explaining how I would like to teach communicative English to the employees of Hetero complex here, over a period of time. I did it on a sheet of paper. Spent most of the time scanning an English dictionary. They did not yet prepare a teaching schedule for Hetero employees. I don’t consider Subba Rao as an efficient manager to the department of Learning & Development. He did not show me a clean and special cubicle to sit and work. He told me to sit in a place where the things of others are kept in every drawer. There is no proper chair also for me to sit. There is a broken one. I asked him for a computer to work on. He is unable to make it available for me. He does not seem to have much authoritative voice in Hetero to get necessary items for his subordinates. I think even the idiots of Hetero do not know what to provide to whom in their units to enable them to work proudly and efficiently. If employees have to beg for everything, the management should be considered as a lot of nuts and lunatics. They assigned me the position of officer in this unit but they are not treating me so. Subba Rao is exhibiting his status of boss towards me frequently. I am playing the role of his subordinate to satisfy his ego. Took a Hetero bus and returned home by 7:15. Went to sleep by 9:30.

11 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. This early morning my in-laws left for the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near Marripalem. Took a Hetero bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today, Srinivas, a HR executive with Hetero, checked the bus passes of Hetero employees, when they were travelling in those buses. He asked some of them to get off those buses because they were travelling without bus passes. It’s inhuman. Today I spent all the time looking up into my Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English (fourth edition). It’s a casual tour through the meanings and usage of some English words. Morning my boss Illuri Subba Rao introduced me to Goli Srinivasa Reddy, the plant head of non-SEZ block. He too sits on a part of our floor. He talked softly and courteously with me. Returned home by 7:20 by a bus. My parents, brothers, Srijana and all my relatives are very happy about my joining Hetero unit at Nakkapalli. They know that I have been going through a hard financial condition for the last two years. Gayathri educational institutions are financially down always. It could not be a solution for my financial problems. Hetero is a reliable and financially stable business entity. They pay me salary in time. They encourage me considerably through periodical incentives. It is a big pharmaceutical firm with hundreds of employees working in its various units at different places. Thus Hetero assumed the position of timely savior in my life. Lord Krishna directed me into this path strategically. Slept by 9:30.

12 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Morning sat in a CGMP training class in the training hall above the cafeteria in the Hetero Labs unit of non-SEZ. A Hetero employee taught the QC folks on the aspects of handling complaints and recall from customers. Though it’s not related to my domain of job responsibilities in Hetero, I found it interesting. My boss Subba Rao is engaging me in some activity so as to keep me active until the communicative English classes get started. They are making arrangements for a suitable classroom for this purpose in Boys Hostel. Jonnalagadda Soma Sundaram is an assistant manager in the HR department, mostly handling duties related to the section of Learning & Development, under the guidance of Subba Rao. I am spending my time along with him now. Afternoon I visited the warehouses in Labs and Drugs units in the non-SEZ block with 11 recruits as part of their induction program. They showed and explained us the procedures and rules to be strictly followed here. I found these places and policies very interesting and exciting. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Morning Srijana posted the book on Justin Milarepa to the given postal address in Uttarakhand. It’s a ‘Speed Post’ dispatch worth 67 rupees. Our familiar yogi receives it there. Today Srijana consulted Dr C S Lakshmi in Talli Pillala Hospital at Tuni. She bought prescribed tablets ZEVIT, Bonansa and a bottle of Protinex powder. Night my HCU friend Samanta Sahu talked with me for 10 minutes over phone. Slept by 9:30.

13 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night Telugu film actor Bala Krishna and actress Meera Jasmin appeared me in my dream. Bala Krishna interacted with me very affectionately. I witnessed his pure form of love for me. Jasmin was rather passive. It was a blissful dream. Some days ago Telugu film director Dasari Narayana Rao appeared me in my dream. He talked very affectionately with me. He made many classic films. He is an extraordinary film personality and prolific writer. I deeply enjoyed his love for me. Various creatures visit me in my dreams regularly. Most of them express their deepest sense of love and respect for me. I witness the beauty of reality in my dreams. It’s a work of telepathy. It’s a metaphysical system of communication of lighter bodies or souls. We cannot understand and experience everything with our physical faculties and material tools. The arrogance of rationalists and scientists appears like foolishness and innocence to saints. Morning sat in a safety training class along with newly joined recruits. It was interesting and insightful. Afternoon too I did the same. I enjoyed my role of silent and passive listener in this induction program. Morning, Gauthami, a HR executive in the non-SEZ block, gave my appointment letter to me. I found it defective in many respects. They did not explain many important terms and conditions related to this job. I told her to correct my address in it. Returned home by 7:15 by a Hetero bus. Slept by 9:30.

14 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:15 at Y Junction and reached Hetero complex at N Suravaram by 9:05. There are four manufacturing units in this complex. Two units are in the non-SEZ block and two are in the SEZ block. I am part of non-SEZ block of units though we deliver service to the employees of all these units. They manufacture intermediates and Active Pharmaceutical Ingredients (APIs) here. Today 48 recruits participated in the induction program in the non-SEZ block. They visited the quality assurance department in the morning and got educated about those standards and procedures. I accompanied them as a representative of Learning & Development department. I enjoyed this field visit program. Today I took my appointment letter from Gauthami, a HR executive here. There are no many details, which an employee should know. They took my standard 10, Intermediate, B.A. and M.A. certificates from me on the 3^rd of this month. They did not give an acknowledgement letter or receipt for it. They got me sign a three-year legal agreement. They did not give me time to read it also that day. These are their employee regulation procedures. They are not fair. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Morning Srijana and Anand went to our house in Peda Gummuluru to spend with my folks there. Anand has holiday today on account of second Saturday. Slept by 10:00.

15 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 7:30 at Y Junction and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 8:15. Our familiar Kshatriya fellow Chintalapati Venkata Rama Raju came to our abode by 9:15 from the nearby village Rambilli. He served in the Indian Army for about 20 years. He said that he is not receiving his arrears well from the central government. He asked me to write a letter of complaint in English explaining the details of his issue. I did it in 15 minutes. I told him that I would type up this matter on my computer at home and post those three letters to the three authorities in India. I will send one letter to him. He would submit it at the Zilla Sainik Board in Visakhapatnam personally. He is a native of Gollalagunta. We all like him. He left for Tangedu by 10:00. His daughter is there. By 11:30 my mother served me rice with fish soup. My brother Sambha and I went to our mango garden at hills by 1:00 on his bike. We walked through it and felt happy. Recently it rained well in this locality. The trees are beautiful and green now. We returned home by 3:15. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy, Anand and I reached Payakaraopeta by 4:00 on the Honda Activa scooty of the prior. Srijana came in a sharing auto rickshaw after us. My uncle left for Tetagunta by 4:30. Got four letters and envelopes ready by 7:30 for dispatch. This is work of Rama Raju, an ex-serviceman. Srijana will post them according to my advice. Slept by 9:45.

16 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Got ready by 7:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw at Y Junction by 7:15 and reached Nakkapalli by 8:00. By 8:15 took the lift of a biker and reached Hetero complex by 8:30. Pressed my attendance in the biometric machine by HR department in non-SEZ and moved to Boys Hostel on the other side of the road. They developed two conference halls in the ground floor of this building for classroom training purpose. They are inaugurating these two halls today ceremoniously under the guidance of a priest. Illuri Subba Rao, the manager of Learning & Development department, informed me to attend this occasion early. So, I went there early this morning. By the time they were getting ready to inaugurate it, Soma Sundaram took me to our department in the non-SEZ block. Today’s programme in conference hall is training to a batch of Hetero employees on personality development by motivational speakers P Jawaharlal Nehru and Shiva Ram of Lead India. They spoke to employees in the morning and afternoon in the training hall above cafeteria. I too sat in these sessions as a listener. They inspired the listeners with their educative and inspiring words. It’s a session of awareness and enlightenment for the learners. I enjoyed listening to them from 10:30 to 5:30. Returned home by 7:15 by a Hetero bus. Morning Srijana posted the four letters of Rama Raju in the post office at Tuni. It’s Speed Post. I have time for Hetero only. I am an employee now. Slept by 9:30.

17 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Typed out a blog titled “Vibrant India” on my computer till 5:30. U R Anantha Murthy casually remarked that he would leave India if Narendra Modi becomes the prime minister of India. This blog is an attack on his personal remark in this context. There may be about 1,500 words in it. It’s my humble tribute to Narendra Modi, a great leader of India. A wave of emotion and speed provokes me often to write. This is an outpouring of that order. I felt compelled to write and post it on my blog site. There was no Internet actively. I am still hanging with Reliance Netconnect⁺ piece because there are no better alternatives here. We should not rely on Reliance because they have no standards and values as entrepreneurs. They cannot sell condoms also without defects. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today Shiva Ram of Lead India and motivational speaker D Nagi Reddy addressed about 35 Hetero employees in the training hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ block on some aspects of life to educate and inspire them. I too listened to them in the morning and afternoon. It was touching and inspiring. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. Internet access was not stable to post the blog, which I typed out this morning. My brother Srinivas told me that his elder son Sujan got a place in SRKR College at Bhima Varam to pursue four-year B.Tech. course in EEE branch of it. The folks of EAMCET allotted places today online. My in-laws came to our abode by 7:30 from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near Marripalem. Slept by 9:30.

18 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By this time my in-laws started to the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near Marripalem on bike along with Anand. The management of Canossa School declared holidays for their little learners for about 10 days in view of strikes by some interest groups in this region. He wants to spend some days with his grandparents there. He gets more freedom there than here. Freedom is a vital requirement for children to grow well. Took a bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today I attended a training program meant for the NHO batch of candidates in a classroom at Boys Hostel. The management of Hetero here introduced NHO program recently. It means New Hire Orientation. We can consider it as a part of induction. They educate and inspire the newly hired candidates towards becoming active and dedicated participants in the duties to be performed by them in this Hetero complex soon. Today about 58 candidates participated in this program in the morning and afternoon sessions. There are about 15 girls also. They are providing tea and snacks to all of them during scheduled intervals in the morning and afternoon every day, apart from lunch. They are enjoying these NHO classes. I am a participant in this program now. Today they were educated on production procedures and the structure of Hetero. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Posted the blog “Vibrant India” on my blog site by 8:00. Slept by 9:30.

19 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a Hetero bus by 8:15 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today I participated in the NHO program at Boys Hostel. Today D Srinivasa Raju spoke to these candidates on different aspects of safety. Today 58 candidates attended this program. This is the first batch of this induction program called NHO. I found this program on safety interesting and informative. They are providing tea, snacks and lunch in the dining hall of Boys Hostel to the candidates and organizers of this program every day. By 5:55 I met our manager Illuri Subba Rao in his room in our department in the non-SEZ. He asked me why I did not shave today. Earlier he instructed me twice to shave every day before coming to Hetero complex. He wants everybody in the Learning & Development department to be impressive and tidy. Shaving daily certainly enhances beauty of our face but it takes about 10 minutes’ time every day in our lives. I wish to utilize that time to do something else, which makes me more intelligent and balanced. Could he ask me to shave daily if I were a devout Muslim or Sikh? We are giving more importance to our physical look than our attitude and character. Our character impresses and influences others more than our look. I have such character. Subba Rao has no interest in it. Till now I shaved twice a week, on every Monday and Thursday mostly. Hereafter I should shave six days a week as an employee of Hetero. Returned home by 7:30. Ironed my clothes for 50 minutes. Slept by 10:00.

20 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. It was raining outside. Vinjamuri Sri Rama Chandra Murthy, the owner of Gayathri educational institutions, distributed about 100 beautiful umbrellas to all the invitees on the occasion of celebration of Teachers Day in his college on the 5^th of this month. I am also a recipient of this honorary presentation from him. I used it to walk up to Y Junction without getting wet in rain. We may not use every object in our house or possession but it may serve us a great deal at some point of time in course of life. So, we should love even smaller items of utility in our lives. Life is a short and vulnerable journey through a series of challenges and wonders. We don’t know who or what saves our life when we are in a critical condition. It may be a stone, an old 10-rupee note or a beggar. So, we should not underestimate or overestimate anything or anybody in this world. Everything has got a purpose to serve. We should continue to live despite hardships and suffering. We should wait for a lifetime to receive a great gift from God in some cases. Patience and hope are the vital qualities required in every creature. I think the dog has these extraordinary qualities. His master may not provide food to him for long for some reasons. He does not bite and kill his master because of it but keeps waiting on and on. Otherwise he runs out searching for food without criticizing his master. God is like this master of a dog. We should live like this dog with hope and patience. Slept by 9:30.

21 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:15 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. From 10:00 to 2:30 NHO program took place in a training hall in Boys Hostel. K Srinivasa Reddy spoke to 53 joinees on some aspects of production. I too sat in this session as a representative of Learning & Development department, listening to those interesting topics of production. We all had lunch in the mess of Boys Hostel by 2:00. We all reached the training hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ by 3:00. The fifth episode of Vedhika took place here from 3:07 to 5:45. It’s an internal program for Hetero employees. Enthusiasts can speak or do anything in this program to educate or entertain their fellow employees. They are conducting it once a month. Today four PPT presentations took place on stage fear, body language, etiquette and success. HR executive Gauthami sang two Telugu film songs. One made three jokes. The last PPT on success was made by our manager I Subba Rao. He did it very well. I enjoyed watching this program completely. Returned home by 7:15 by a Hetero bus. By 1:00 my nephew Sujan joined SRKR College in Bhima Varam paying the related fees. My brother Srinivas, sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and Sujan went there for it. Sujan took about six exams after the completion of his Intermediate course for entering different engineering institutions. He got a place in this college at last. We are all happy about his achievement. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

22 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Typed out and edited a blog titled “Mystery of Admiration” from 8:00 to 10:00 on my computer and posted it on my blog site. I analyzed the concept of admiration in this blog. From 11:30 to 1:30 Srijana and I saw the Telugu film “Potugaadu” in cinema Gautham. It is an ordinary film with a good end. Had my lunch by 1:50 and spent reading today’s Eenadu for one hour. Srijana and I started to Tuni by 3:00 on our Honda Activa scooty. She bought some items needed in our abode. I bought a black belt with a buckle for 80 rupees, two underwear items and a white vest for 250 rupees at Vijaya Cut Pieces store. I mostly get confused about the sizes of my waist and chest. Today I realized this mistake after wearing and checking my underwear items at home. I bought 85 size ones but I need 90 cm ones. Srijana decided to exchange them soon. Generally I buy Gokul brand items. The life of Lord Krishna is associated with this term. I buy cut shape pieces only always. I don’t like full size underwear. Recently my brother Srinivas criticized me about the quality of my belt. I don’t remember when I bought it. Perhaps four years lapsed. It lost its blackness in some parts. I indirectly respected my brother buying a new black belt. I bought a pack of Gillette Guard double-edged blades also as I have to shave six days a week as a Hetero employee. We returned home by 6:00. Today it is cool and pleasant. Slept by 9:30.

23 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today, V Lakshmana Rao, a trainer, spoke to contract labourers on the aspects of safety in the morning and afternoon in the training hall above cafeteria in the non-SEZ. About 60 labourers participated in it. I participated in it to coordinate this program as a representative of L&D department. The purpose of our department is to educate and entertain the human resources of Hetero complex here and slowly transforming them into dynamic, intelligent and cultured entities. Since English instruction classes are not yet started, my manager is engaging me in these activities of our department. We are part of HR department. Mostly contract labourers are uneducated and ordinary people working in many firms in India. They work hard but don’t care much about their health and safety. Some of them consume alcoholic drinks, chew tobacco products, behave carelessly and use coarse language in their workplaces. Today my cousin Datla Bhaskara Raju also participated in this training session on industrial safety in the afternoon. He is the youngest son of my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju. He comes here on a bicycle daily from Peda Gummuluru. We both felt happy about meeting in this context. Returned home by 7:30. Today the maternal grandparents of Srijana came to our abode from Viswanadhapuram. Slept by 9:30.

24 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. It’s a holiday today at Hetero complex near Nakkapalli for the employees of general shift and some others. They took this decision in view of strike declared by worthless blokes of coastal Andhra Pradesh protesting against the idea of separate Telangana state. They make block roads, chose shops and filling stations as part of this artificial agitation. They disturb free flow of public life to satisfy their collective egos and false prestige. They are anti-social elements of India. We have to work on next Sunday because they gave us a holiday today artificially due to strike. From 8:00 to 1:00 typed out and edited a blog titled “Futility of Agitation” on my computer. It’s my take on the present state of affairs in Andhra Pradesh revolving around the idea of separate statehood to Telangana region. It’s a circus. It’s a nasty game of interest groups and lunatics in public places. Idiots and rogues became the leaders of these filthy public shows. I analyzed and commented on this situation in this blog. It would be posted on my blog site by 8:00 a.m. IST on the 28^th of this month. I scheduled it so. By 2:00 Aditya Varma and I started to teak plantation of D S N Raju near Marripalem on my scooty to bring Anand back from there. We reached there by 3:00. Thence we started back by 3:30 and reached our abode by 4:30. Night I got a cold. It’s attacking me frequently these days. Slept by 10:00.

25 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:15 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. It is the largest API manufacturing facility in Asia. From 10:00 to 1:00 G S N Reddy spoke to the 56 NHO candidates on the aspects of maintenance in the training hall at hostel. From 2:00 to 3:30 two folks of quality control department spoke on the aspects of their part of work. From 4:15 to 5:30 Illuri Subba Rao talked about time management through a PPT. It is all an informative and insightful session throughout the day. I sat with these newly joined creatures, as a passive coordinator, representing L&D department. Started back by 6:35 in a Hetero bus. The devotees of Lord Ganesh blocked the traffic at the Upamaaka entrance point in Nakkapalli for about 30 minutes. They were taking an idol of Lord Ganesh to immerse in a water body. They were dancing crazily on road in tune to music and songs of their standards. All the folks in our buses and those being blocked on NH-16 felt angry and frustrated because of these idiots and sinners of Hinduism. There were no police. We can witness scenes of this nature regularly in many parts of India. Anybody can block roads in the name of religion, political campaigns, community celebrations, roadside building construction works, parties and celebrations of any kind. Police don’t interfere in this public nuisance because they are immoral dogs and bitches essentially. Slept by 9:30.

26 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar entrance point by 8:10. Two Hetero buses moved towards Nakkapalli before me. Meanwhile I heard that the remaining Hetero buses were blocked by brainless protesters in Payakaraopeta and Tuni. These are all general shift buses. These employees should reach Hetero complex at N Narasapuram by 9:00. Some commute by bus and some by their own vehicles. The rogues of different agitations disturb normal flow of public life and partially or fully damage private and public property during these times. They exhibit their suppressed jealousy towards their fellow Indians this way frequently. If their villain is x, they beat y for no reason. They want to frighten x, torturing y. In most of these cases, x is a powerful and inaccessible entity. Since they cannot touch x, they bother the innocent and helpless y. This is the nature of many agitations going on in many parts of India now. Most of these agitators are antisocial elements presenting themselves as ordinary citizens during normal conditions. They exhibit their wrath and jealousy towards others during agitations. Police and governments have no control on them. They are least worried about peace and order around them. They are in protective covers. They leave innocent people in the hands of villainous agitators. This is the worth of democracy in India. Today K Srinivasa Reddy spoke on the aspects of production to NHO candidates. Afternoon Srijana and Anand went to the teak plantation of D S N Raju near Marripalem to spend there for some days. Slept by 9:30.

27 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, Anand, the maternal grandparents of Srijana, Revathi and her two sons Aditya Varma and Ashish Varma are in the teak plantation of D S N Raju near Marripalem now. My in-laws are the hosts to them. They spend there for a few days. It is a naturally beautiful place with hills and green gardens around. The teak plants are longer and stronger now than earlier. These plants and other plants are adding more beauty to this farm now. Surya Kumari is offering breakfast and supper for me now. I don’t eat much. I would be hurried when starting to Hetero in the morning and somewhat weary after returning to my abode from Hetero in the evening by 7:15 or 7:30. I cannot make food arrangements for me in this context. Surya Kumari is offering food to me in these circumstances. Many boys and girls don’t like eating food in the abodes of others. They feel shy and reserved. I don’t have such inhibitions in the matter of having food offered by my familiar ones. If we like some people, we should allow them to serve us now and then. We too should reciprocate such generous nature towards them often. I think then only we can be treated as participative agents of a harmonious society. Morning V Lakshmana Rao addressed the first batch of NHO candidates in hostel for one hour. Rest of the day K Srinivasa Reddy guided them in non-SEZ on collective visit to some production blocks. Slept by 9:30.

28 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. It is the last day of New Hire Orientation program for the 58 candidates, who joined this firm recently. Our manager Illuri Subba Rao informed me to engage them from 9:30 to 11:00 in a training hall at Boys Hostel. In fact, I am looking for this opportunity. I have been a passive participant in this program till now. Today I interacted with them for one hour casually. I showed them my book Stories of Love and Beauty. I told them about my two blog sites and email id. I told them that any of them can email to me if they have got any problems. I think and write for humanity. I read out a list of 50 Telugu feature films, which they should watch, to feel happy and get inspired. There are 12 girls in this first batch of NHO program. They looked more interested in what I was saying than the boys. Opposite genders get intensely attracted. I discussed some aspects of my life, society and India also. I observed careless and lazy attitude in most of them during these few days. They did not remain silent also when instructed to do so. They have no discipline. They are young sheep of India. They can neither listen to other speakers silently nor speak to others fluently and bravely. From 11:20 to 12:00 Subba Rao spoke to them on teamwork through a PPT. From 2:00 to 2:30 some dignitaries of this firm had special lunch with these folks in the hostel mess. Subba Rao and I got a group photo taken with them by 3:30 near the Boys Hostel. Slept by 10:30.

29 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today many general shift and some other shift employees came here to work as they could not work on the 24^th of this month due to strike. I am one of them. Morning Soma Sundaram and I spent in a training session in SEZ for one hour. He left by 2:30 since he came by 6:00 this morning. I wrote names and details of about 150 contract labourers on stiff cards with a ballpoint pen from 2:00 to 4:30. They underwent training on safety by V Lakshmana Rao yesterday. The management is spending a lot of money and time to educate all its employees and contract labourers on different aspects of work and life. How many Indians changed being inspired by lives and messages of virtuous achievers like Saint Adi Shankara, Swami Vivekananda and Mahatma Gandhi? How many Indians are reading great books now? When governments are selling tobacco, liquor, defective medicines, harmful foods and drinks, condoms and doing many such immoral things publicly, how can Indians be safe, secure, happy and righteous in their personal and professional lives? Since we hope that training people can change them slowly, we indulge in these pursuits often. Indians are always living depending on their hopes but not reality because they expect great change without doing it at their level. Srijana and Anand returned from the teak plantation of D S N Raju near Marripalem by 2:30 today. Slept by 9:30.

30 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:00 at Y Junction and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today Subba Rao did not assign me any work. So, I did very little of it today. Spent most of the day looking up different words, their meanings and usage in the fourth edition of Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English. One of the best ways to improve our English language skills is to buy and use a standard English dictionary regularly. The more we go through it, the more we realize that we actually learnt very little of it. One, who knows every word and its usage from any standard English dictionary, is actually the star of English. Such person’s vocabulary is so rich that he or she can defeat a lexicographer or an experienced English professor also within minutes in a test of vocabulary. There are some challengers of this capacity in this world. We need extraordinary passion and continuous practice to master any art. Self-motivation is vital for it. My vocabulary is poor. I am realizing my actual worth as a user of English while scanning this dictionary. We can buy as many dictionaries as possible. Each dictionary presents English differently from the other. We can learn more from these diverse presentations of English. Returned home by 7:20. Murthy did not pay me the salary of August yet. I can’t get salary from Hetero also early as I did not get those bank documents till now. I have to pay my house portion rent on the 1^st of every month according to my policy. Told my cousin Vasu, over phone, to credit 3,500 rupees into my ICICI Bank account to resolve this issue. Slept by 9:30.

1 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today our manager Subba Rao did not assign any work to me. By 10:00 asked him if I could go to the place of D S Varma in the EHS department in the ground floor and work there on his computer. He readily agreed for it. L&D department is on the first floor of administrative block in the non-SEZ. Today I passionately worked on the computer of Varma for about seven hours. I prepared about 42 slides on the notion titled ‘How to improve your English?’ I devised and discussed the concept of PMPA in it. I invented this procedure minding the needs of learners of English. In this formula, P stands for Passion; M for Material; P for Practice and A for Application. It’s a systematic approach for learning English. I discussed many other points and issues related to this idea in this PPT. It’s my creative and original piece of writing on this theme. I will add some more slides to this PPT and finish it up. Returned home by 7:15 by a Hetero bus. Morning my cousin Vasu credited 3,500 rupees to my ICICI Bank account. By 7:20 paid it to Surya Kumari towards rent for the last month. From 9:30 to 12:30, Srijana, Anand and I saw Telugu film “Atthaarintiki Dhaaredhi” in cinema Surya Mahal. One can see the creative excellence of director Thrivikram Srinivas in this film. The comedy part of Brahmanandam affected the beauty and speed of this film. It should have been avoided altogether. Slept by 1:00 for my dreams.

2 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. It’s a holiday today for general shift employees of Hetero at Nakkapalli on account of the birth anniversary of Mahatma Gandhi. Typed up the content of September from my diary of 2013, on my computer, for about six hours. I did it from 7:30 to 2:30. Anand and I went to Tuni by 3:30 on my scooty. Bought two kilos of onions for 50 rupees from a wholesale store in market yard. Got the cellphones of Srijana and me recharged at the unit of Arundati Agencies for 100 rupees each. Bought a pair of scissors for 35 rupees to trim my moustache after shaving regularly. Went to the abode of Revathi by 5:00. She gave some corncobs, custard apples, oranges and lemons. Had my haircut in my favorite hair salon in Payakaraopeta by 5:30. Usually I go for it once for two months. I think we should do it once a month to keep our hair more stylish and attractive. Short hair makes our face lose its natural charm. We should keep our hair moderately longer and beautify it regularly. I like black hair. By 7:30 my in-laws came to my abode on a bike from the teak plantation of D S N Raju near Marripalem. Srijana is unable to do some works in our abode now. So, she asked her mother to be here for two or three days and clear these things. Mahatma Gandhi fought for freedom of India from the British. I utilized that freedom today in the form of a holiday. Freedom is an asset of every creature. We should utilize it and let others also enjoy it. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

3 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. By this time, my father-in-law left for the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today Subba Rao did not assign me any work. Today I completed my PPT on the topic ‘How to improve your English?’ working on the computer of Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma of EHS department in our administrative block. There are 50 slides in it, including the author statement. I made a word file also with this content. I have to yet edit this PPT a little. I prepared this short guide for the learners of English without referring to any offline or online resources. It is a useful guide for enthusiasts. Returned home by 7:30. By 11:50:16, an amount of 17,249 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank salary account from the folks of Hetero Drugs unit towards my salary for the last month. They calculate salary from 25 to 24 every month. I got an SMS to my cellphone to this effect. Felt very happy about it. Night my cousin Murali talked with me, over phone, for 10 minutes. He is working with the Narayana group of educational institutions at Hyderabad now. He criticized the standards and values of these idiots. They are collecting huge amounts of money from the parents of innocent students, teaching them how to take IIT and other entrance tests. They are making the lives of students mechanical and artificial in this process. They are bribing governments at every level to run their schools and colleges according to their immoral and illegal norms and policies. Slept by 9:50.

4 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. When walking to Y Junction to take a Hetero bus, I saw them on road. They kept them beside the road considering the strike by antisocial elements of different political parties. They blocked both sides of NH-16 at Y Junction keeping their two-wheelers across. Vehicles got lined up. The employees of Hetero casually gathered here and talked nonsense for some time. I realized that most of them are shallow blokes. They don’t have intellectual thoughts and ideal outlook. Walked back to my abode, sensing fury, against the rogues in Indian societies. Police and governments are allowing them to create unrest in public places. They are living happily in their comfortable and secure houses, offices and vehicles. Typed out and edited a blog titled ‘Underwear’ on my computer from 8:30 to 12:30. Got it scheduled so as to be published by 8:00 a.m. IST, tomorrow morning, on my blog site. It’s my written tribute to underwear. Edited the content of September, from my diary of 2013, from 1:00 to 2:00. Felt sleepy and dim by this time. Dozed off on a cot for some time. By 5:30 went into Tuni and did some things. Today Srijana and her mother arranged some mosquito nets to attach to all the mosquito entry points in our abode. Srijana bought some material for it. Her mother stitched cloth pieces on those edges of sheets. By 7:30 my father-in-law came to my abode from Marripalem. He brought meat of goat. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

5 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 4:00. Since protesters stopped Hetero buses yesterday morning, we decided to leave Y Junction before 5:30 this morning. Got ready by 5:00 and walked to Y Junction by 5:05. Already protesters stopped every Hetero employee there, going on bikes or in cars, towards Nakkapalli. They did not allow even one Hetero bus of A shift employees to move this way. Many Hetero employees gathered here by 5:30. They were more than the protesters. In fact, they are the victims of this worthless agitation. They appeared as the supporters of this agitation standing there silently and helplessly. I came back to my abode. Removed my Hetero identity card from across my neck and my Hetero pair of black shoes. Wore my cherry coloured pair of light shoes. Put my diary, camera and a pair of casual clothes in a cloth bag. Started to our house in Peda Gummuluru on my Honda Activa scooty. They stopped me on the road and asked me about the intention of my journey towards Nakkapalli. I said I was going to our house in Peda Gummuluru. They left me after a minute. Had breakfast, prepared by my mother, by 7:45. Reached Hetero complex by 8:00 on my scooty. Pressed my attendance by 8:05. Today I spent casually with D Srinivasa Varma of EHS department, going to production blocks along with him. Left it by 5:08. Reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 5:30. We should apply for a leave or work on another holiday if we don’t work on a working day at Hetero here. Slept by 9:30 in the house of my brother Sambha.

6 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father is rearing a buffalo now. It is pregnant. He wants to sell it after two months. He decided not to buy any creature thereafter. He is unable to take it to empty farmlands for grazing. He realized that he cannot be happy if he indulges in such pursuits. He is taking care of his health, daily going for a walk for four kilometers and drinking a lot of water. I washed their Pureit water purifier (which I gave them earlier) and got it dried up in the sun for two hours. They started using it recently, as they have to spend more money, boiling water, using LPG. I washed my scooty also, drawing water from our well. Its water level reached up due to heavy rains recently. It’s the third birthday of boy Anjaneya Varma today. I came here to attend it. My brother Sambha decided to celebrate it in the evening after he returns from our mango garden at hills. He is getting weeds removed from the soil of our mango garden now to strengthen and beautify it further. Had Chicken Biryani by 11:30 in their house. They offered me some homemade sweets also. Took some photos of Anjaneya Varma and others with my camera. My parents felt happy about my spending my time with them for a while today. My brother Srinivas and his folks did not come here today for the birthday as roads were blocked by criminals. Returned home by 2:20 on my scooty. Went to the rented abode of Revathi in Tuni by 4:00. Brought oranges, custard apples and lemons from there. Slept by 9:30.

7 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Subba Rao told me to go to Boys Hostel and supervise the arrangement of newly bought and brought chairs in the two training halls there. Went there by 10:00. There are 100 blue chairs in one hall and 100 red chairs in one hall. They are of Garnier company in Bengaluru. The management of Hetero bought each of these chairs for 2,900 rupees. They are of good quality and look but their price seems to be excess to me. The representatives of Garnier fitted white writing pads and bottom support boots to them. Two folks made holes in the wooden ceiling for fitting Fortune Art lights. Heavily dust spread in these two halls when they were drilling it. Later two electricians fitted lights in these two halls. I carried about 40 chairs in and out in this process of arrangement today because there was none to do it. In India, we had better do some things on our own instead of waiting for somebody else to come and do. It seldom or never happens! Felt happy doing this work. Today I took my payslip, from the folks of HR, for the month of September. I found it more intelligent and liberal than I expected. We can understand the intelligence of folks of HR and accounts based on how they categorized the gross salary of an employee into different segments. Returned home by 7:40 by bus. Today Anand got 45 marks for 50 in his quarterly exam of English. Srijana is preparing him well. Slept by 9:30.

8 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Sensed acute pain in my pelvis. Suffered so for 30 minutes. Meanwhile Srijana got up and went to Surya Kumari in the first floor of this house. She gave a strip of painkiller pills meant for children. I took two of them as I am an adult. Pain got alleviated within 10 minutes. I felt relieved but could not sleep. It should be an infection. By 6:30, went to the abode of Mantrala Raju beside NH-16 near our abode for his advice. He gave me some tablets. Took a Hetero bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Morning supervised some work, which was done in the two training halls at Boys Hostel. Had my lunch in the cafeteria of non-SEZ by 2:00. Met Dr. P S N Atchyutha Rao in Occupational Health Centre (OHC) of non-SEZ by 2:30. He said that he was instrumental in starting and running the health facilities in this Hetero complex at Nakkapalli. He told me about his years of experience as medical professional and in related achievements. He told me to contact him for any medical advice. He prescribed four kinds of tablets for curing the infection in my pelvis. Took them in this Hetero OHC. From 3:40 to 5:15, sat in the training session of Uday Kumar, on interpersonal skills, meant for senior executives of Hetero here. It was held in the conference hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ. Today I collected my Axis Bank ATM card and cheque book from HR executive Pratap. My account number is 913010044205555 with P Lakshmipuram branch of it near Payakaraopeta town. Today Anand got 50 marks for 50 in Telugu. Slept by 9:30.

9 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Since I got up early, yesterday morning, my biological clock did it so even today. Tried to create my Internet banking Axis Bank account using the details provided by them. It was not possible. Went to the branch of Axis Bank at P Lakshmipuram by 4:00 on my scooty to withdraw money from my account. The security guard closed it and slept inside it. Perhaps there is no money in this ATM unit. They closed it during the last two days due to strike. Went to the Axis Bank ATM centre near cinema Surya Mahal in Payakaraopeta. There is no money even in this unit. Withdrew 4,000 rupees from the ATM unit of SBI here. Took a bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today I attended the speech of Uday Kumar on interpersonal skills in the conference hall above cafeteria in the non-SEZ in the morning and afternoon. It was interesting and insightful. Evening it poured for 30 minutes. Returned home by 7:15. Today I took about six tablets for withstanding the pain in my pelvis. By 9:30, at night, I could create my Axis Bank Internet banking account on my computer. I felt very happy about it. I want to use it for many of my needs. I have been waiting for this facility for long. Today Anand took his quarterly exam on numbers in Canossa School. Today gentleman Sri Hari of Telugu film industry died in Hyderabad. Today an associate of poclain died in the mango garden of my paternal uncles at hills near Ramayyapatnam due to a thunderbolt when he was on a tree there. I pray God to bless their souls. Slept by 10:30.

10 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today Subba Rao did not assign me much work. Today I took a water bottle. Our office associate fills drinking water in all the bottles of employees in administrative block and puts them at their desks. They provide us with tea around 11:00 a.m. and 4:00 p.m. IST on every working day. I am having this tea considering its benefits to health. Today I sensed acidity in my stomach. Went to OHC and took two antacids from them. Today I did not feel well. Today I took tablets to face the infection in my pelvis. By 5:45 met Jaladurgam Ram in the meeting room of HR department in non-SEZ. He is a personality development trainer and motivational speaker. He devises and implements plans and programs for the learning & development departments of all Hetero units. I told him about my state of affairs here now. He asked me to write an email invitation, giving me a context, to assess my English language skills. I wrote one on a sheet of white paper. He told me to read it out. He asked me to define communication and invitation. He asked me to add some more words to the first draft of it to make it into an effective invitation. I added four sentences to it. He said that it is value addition. He advised me to deliver the best. Returned home by 7:45. Today Ramnadh gave tri-iron folic, Salmon Omega-3 and cal mag D supplements of Amway to Srijana, on my request. Slept by 10:30.

11 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a bus and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today I sat in the NHO training class at Boys Hostel. They are second batch of candidates for this program. They are 65 in number. There are about 12 girls in them. Today K Srinivasa Reddy taught them about the aspects of production. I coordinated it as a representative of L&D department. Enjoyed listening to it. Returned home by 7:00. The maternal grandparents of Srijana are staying here now. Two days ago, Dantuluri Jagannadha Raju, her grandfather, jumped off a high wall in their house at Viswanadhapuram, out of his desire to go out that night somehow. He got dementia. It was raining that night. The soil must be wet and slippery. He fractured his right leg. Part of his knee joint got displaced. Dr Suresh Kumar treated it and applied a long plastic bandage on the leg in his hospital at Tuni. He should not stand up or walk for a few days. He became a bedridden patient. He is on a cot in our hall. His wife Lakshmi Bharathi is the primary caretaker of him now. Sekhar and Revathi are also attending him now and then. Some are coming to see him. Today I felt acidic in my stomach. I did not feel well. Night transferred 3,500 rupees into the ICICI Bank account of my cousin Vasu through my Axis Bank online banking platform. This is my first online transaction using my bank account. Felt very happy about it. Slept by 9:30.

12 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Morning the folks of a warehouse spoke to NHO candidates about the procedures and activities related to their department. Afternoon Narasimham talked about quality control. Today there were 68 candidates. This program took place in a training hall in Boys Hostel. Our manager Illuri Subba Rao noticed that a fellow drew some marks on the writing pad of a chair. It’s actually white and beautiful. He defaced it with his bad habit. Subba Rao told him to clean it completely applying any method he likes. It is a great instruction. Many idiots, rogues and lunatics deface benches, chairs and beautiful surfaces of material in buses, trains, cinemas, conference halls, boulders, trees, temples and monuments. It reflects their nasty attitude. We always wash our faces for beauty sake. It means we like to impress others with our visual beauty. We should not deface anybody or anything, which does not belong to us. We have no moral authority to do so. I never defaced anything till now. I respect the elements of beauty and integrity in this world. Returned home by 7:20. Today many trade and employee unions called off their long strikes. The buses of APSRTC started running on roads. Electricity is being generated at power stations. Trains are running normally. I don’t like any movement, which bothers unrelated people, directly or indirectly. I should not torture others if I am angry with my wife. Slept by 9:30.

13 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Got ready by 8:30. Sekhar dropped me at bus station in Tuni by 9:10 on his bike. Took a Tuni-Vijayawada bus by 9:15. It started off by 9:30. The fare for Jaggampeta is 51 rupees for Express buses. I gave a 100-rupee note to bus conductor. He returned 50 rupees to me. I borrowed one rupee coin from a fellow passenger and gave it to him. Reached the bus stand in Jaggampeta by 11:00. My cousin Narendra Varma came here by 11:25 on his bike from Gollalagunta. We went to house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju in Teachers Colony by 11:30. We spent talking with him till 12:30. He felt happy about my joining the Hetero unit at Nakkapalli. He asked about the job and life of Narendra Varma also. He talked about the present Indian culture and politics for a while. We took leave of him and went to Gollalagunta by 12:45. Today I came to Gollalagunta to see my folks here. Narendra Varma came here from Gummadi Poondi on a short leave. Spent talking with all of my folks throughout the day. I gave a small party to them to celebrate the occasion of my getting a good job. I bought three kilos of sugar and three kilos of wheatlets for 210 rupees to prepare Ravva Laddus. My maternal aunt Satyavathi prepared 132 rounds of them adding homemade ghee and cardamom powder. I told her to distribute them equally to the three family units here and my maternal uncle Krishnam Raju. Slept by 9:30.

14 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. My cousin Hari got a minor surgery performed on his impaired left leg recently to improve it. He is staying at home most of the time. He is recovering slowly. He became handsome and fat because of staying at home for long. Nutritious food and adequate sleep keep us healthy and happy. Took leave of my folks by 8:00. My cousin Narendra Varma dropped me at bus stand in Jaggampeta by 8:15 on his bike. Took an ordinary bus by 8:20 and got off it at Golla Appa Rao Centre in Tuni by 9:40. The bus fare is 40 rupees. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached my abode by 10:00. Typed out and edited a blog titled ‘Feature Films’ on my computer till 5:30. I wrote about my notions and comments about feature films in this blog. I got it scheduled to be posted by 8:00 a.m. IST on the 16^th of this month on my blog site. I have been sensing low fever for the last one week. It visits my body regularly. I don’t feel much affected and weak due to it. Today I sent an aggressive SMS to Murthy of Gayathri College asking him for my salary for the month of August. He has to pay me 15,000 rupees. The relatives of Srijana are coming to our abode to see her bedridden maternal grandfather. Night read a long email sent by my MA English classmate Colin Leslie Kelman from Bengaluru. He is doing well with his wife and two kids. I sent a long email to him explaining the state of affairs at my end. It’s a holiday today at Hetero for general shift employees due to Dasara. Slept by 9:30.

15 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:40 on the bike of an employee. Today 66 candidates of the second batch of NHO got trained on the aspects of safety in a training room of Boys Hostel in the morning and afternoon. I nominally coordinated it as a representative of L&D. Evening helped HR executive Pratap collect filled up application forms of Axis Bank from some of these candidates. Took the 7:10 bus and reached home by 7:50. The maternal grandparents of Srijana are staying here because one of them is sick and bedridden now. Earlier they never stayed here for the pleasure of it. I think most of Indians spend at the abodes of others for considerable period of time mainly for two reasons. It is when they are very happy or sad. Marriages, birthday celebrations and festivals are some occasions of happiness. Old age, accidents, diseases and deaths are some occasions of sadness. How many Indians spend considerable amount of time with their parents, siblings, relatives, friends or well-wishers when they are beyond these two contexts? It means we are giving more importance and time for events, functions, parties and occasions rather than to satisfy others now and then. In fact, we should love every normal man and woman also every day. It means being human. Slept by 10:10.

16 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. I am taking tablets to face low fever in my body. It got into me six days ago. Earlier I neglected taking tablets to counter low fever but now I am taking them as I have free access to them in Hetero OHC as its employee. Generally we get free things and be satisfied with them instead of getting something expensive though it is essential for us. We can observe this tendency in almost 90% population in this world. Pensioners are the greatest example for this phenomenon. They serve in a government firm for a stipulated period of time and thereafter live depending on the pension and other facilities freely provided by governments at various levels. They are least bothered about millions of poor and unemployed people in their country. Are not they the most shameless and narrow-minded citizens of a country? They are getting alms from government. They are the biggest burden on the exchequer. They are living depending on public money, which is contributed by millions of helpless people also in their country. The President of India, defense personnel, people’s representatives and anybody, who takes something from others, without work done for it, is a criminal and sinner of India. They are worse than beggars and antisocial elements of a nation. Today Srinivasa Varma taught about safety aspects to 69 NHO candidates. I coordinated them nominally. Went to sleep by 9:50.

17 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. The low fever is almost gone from me. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today the 67 NHO candidates were trained on the aspects of Quality Assurance, Maintenance and Engineering, in the morning and afternoon, at Boys Hostel, by two Hetero executives. I nominally coordinated this program. Returned home by 7:55. I am not getting time to watch feature films as a Hetero employee. I cannot attend morning, afternoon or evening show of a feature film due to my present working hours with Hetero unit. I cannot go for the night show of it to be healthy the following day. This is the biggest negative aspect for the growth of film industry in India. Employees are not getting time to watch films in cinemas in India. Ninety percent of companies expect their employees to work on Saturdays also. Most of these employees have no time to enjoy their personal lives in India due to these conditions. The lives of three shift and night shift employees are even more troublesome and pathetic than those of general shift folks. Many mediocre and nasty employers do not pay wages and salaries to their employees in time. These adverse conditions directly or indirectly influence the success rate of films in India. Feature films educate or entertain us effectively. We should watch them regularly. Went to sleep by 9:50 for my dreams.

18 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus by 8:15 and reached Hetero complex by 9:10. Today K Srinivasa Reddy taught the 70 NHO candidates on the aspects of production in a training hall at Boys Hostel. I nominally coordinated it. There are about 13 girls in this second batch of NHO candidates. I observed some girls looking at me interestingly every day. Perhaps my handsomeness attracted them towards me. They are keeping a pleasant face for me whenever they look at me. I find some beauties in my female viewers. I enjoy their presence and beauty. A thing of beauty is joy for all. We can see and enjoy all kinds of beauty, which is freely available and visible in this world. We should not touch any beauty out of sexual interest but pure admiration for it. Female beauty is like a soft flower. We should see it from a distance and enjoy its status of existence in our access. The moral and legal owners of every beauty are its parents, siblings, husband and children. We should not do anything, which disturbs and hurts them directly or indirectly. This must be our culture when we are living in a civilized society. We can admire every beauty through our classic glances of admiration. They should resemble those of a deer or rabbit in its natural habitat but not those of a dog looking at a bitch in a mating season. Many beauties are becoming cruel and insensitive in India now because boys and men are making them so. Slept by 9:50.

19 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today 70 candidates of NHO visited different blocks in SEZ under the supervision of K Srinivasa Reddy. All of them kept standing or walking throughout the day. This plant visit is meant for enabling them to understand different systems of processing in this unit. Boys did not have discipline. They sat wherever possible. I did not sit anywhere during the time of plant visit. I have got such will and energy. I don’t like somebody telling me to stand up. It shows our physical weakness. I like to sit when somebody tells me to do so out of courtesy. Thus I receive respect from them. Standing represents valour. Sitting reflects our weakness. Security guards are superior to their superiors from this perspective. Salute them. Returned home by 7:35. Spent talking with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy for one hour. My cousin Bala got a match in Gurrajupeta. She is a niece of my friend K V P Raju. Bala wants to see her. Her parents are not interested in showing her to a prospective bridegroom but only his female representatives. In fact, both are distant relatives. I am not happy about the attitude of parents of this girl in this context. Many see and know about her because she is not a princess to stay indoors always. It is ridiculous if they don’t show her to a prospective bridegroom. I am not at all interested in such stupid and eccentric parents of Indian girls. Slept by 10:00.

20 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Ironed seven pairs of my clothes from 7:30 to 9:00. By 10:40 took Aditya, Ashish and Anand to cinema Gautham on my scooty. Recently they increased the rates of tickets. I bought 25-rupee tickets for 30 rupees. This hike is justifiable. We watched the Telugu film “Raamayyaa Vasthaavayyaa” of Jr. NTR, Shruti Haasan and Samanta in it from 11:00 to 1:30. It is a very interesting and exciting film. I enjoyed watching every bit of this film. Jr. NTR does well in every scene, song and fight. He is an attractive actor now for many. The beauty of Shruti and Samanta is also an asset of this film. I think Shruti is more beautiful than Samanta. We generally do not talk about other characters in a feature film. In fact, they are great actors and actresses. We cannot imagine a film without their substantial contribution to it. I love all those artistes. Harish Shankar made this film into an attractive piece, applying his admirable intelligence and creativity as a director. Bought 30 eggs for 108 rupees, a Protinex powder tin for 195 rupees and dates for 100 rupees. From 2:30 to 4:50 typed out and edited a blog titled ‘Letter to God’ on my computer to post on my blog site soon. It discusses key points about life through a letter of man and reply of God to it. By 6:00 went to Thaandava Junction by bus and brought cow milk and vegetables given by my father-in-law. My abode is attractive with people now. Slept by 10:00.

21 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. From 10:30 to 1:30 K Srinivasa Reddy took the 74 NHO candidates to different parts in non-SEZ and explained them the manufacturing process at different levels. From 3:00 to 5:30 they were practically trained on different aspects of firefighting by the staff members of EHS department. I coordinated this process of learning. It rained heavily from 2:00 to 2:45. Today I wore one of my two white aprons for the first time. I felt differently. I wear yellow helmet also while going for plant visit along with trainees. It is a safety measure. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. My friend Bojja Shankara Rao brought five litres of fresh buffalo cheese milk to my abode from Etikoppaka. He has a milk collection point there. He loves me a lot. His wife contested for the position of Sarpanch in village Ramayyapatnam recently. He spent about three lakh rupees in this process of local election. He did not win it. He realized value of money and nature of voters this way. The cost of this lesson is three lakh rupees. He belongs to a lower middle-class family. We commit most of mistakes and blunders knowingly. Bad habits are just some of them. Thieves know that their acts are wrong and police punish them if they are caught. Still they keep doing it. Sinners get attracted towards immoral and dangerous pursuits always. Slept by 9:30.

22 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Morning our manager Illuri Subba Rao talked to the second batch of NHO candidates in a training hall at Boys Hostel about skills and qualities required to be successful employees anywhere. It’s a PPT presentation. It’s interesting and exciting. From 1:45 to 2:45 special lunch was offered to all these NHO candidates in the dining hall of Boys Hostel. They served Vegetable Biryani, Chicken Curry and a sweet item. Goli Srinivasa Reddy, B Gopala Krishna Reddy, Rajnikant Ganesha and D Kishore Reddy also attended it. It is the last day of training for these folks as part of their NHO program. The attendance of senior staff and other arrangements were due to it. They talked to these candidates for a few minutes before lunch. Afternoon Subba Rao talked to them about the importance of teamwork. Thereafter each of them spoke about himself or herself under the supervision of Kishore Reddy. Three of them talked about the contribution of L&D team to them in keeping them comfortable and happy for all these days. They praised me also. I felt uneasy about it. I played the role of a shepherd for these few days. I did not see discipline in their words or behavior. We should impress others through our refined use of language and admirable acts. Only fools like shallow talk. Today it rained heavily due to cyclone. Night my in-laws spent in our abode. Slept by 10:00.

23 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I took the attendance of internal safety inspection team members. Some employees are checking the safety related precautions being followed by casual labourers in their workplaces in SEZ and non-SEZ. This daily inspection is to check the awareness of contract labourers on their safety after attending the safety classes of V Lakshmana Rao. Those, who are following safety precautions perfectly, would be appreciated with a pack of biscuits. Those, who are not following these safety norms, would be sent out after four warnings. By 1:02 sent a two-page email to Jaladurgam Ram, the chief learning officer of Hetero, explaining him what I need to deliver the best to the employees of Hetero complex at Nakkapalli. Informed him that I need a computer system with unlimited Internet access. Internet is one of the best resources to improve English. We can get innovative and attractive ideas for teaching and learning English through various online resources. I also wrote to him that I have to buy some English dictionaries, grammar books and audio video material to use as reference material and teaching aids in my classes of English instruction. My manager Subba Rao did not care for my needs till now. I need to communicate to a right person to get things done. It was cloudy and rainy today. Returned home by 8:00 by bus. Slept by 9:30.

24 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:10 Srijana and Anand left for Visakhapatnam in a car of her relative. Earlier a doctor advised her to consult him when she is in her eighth month of pregnancy to know about the status of asthma in her body. So, this journey. My sister-in-law Kranthi and their son Anjaneya Varma took this car by 8:30 at Adduroad. The teeth of this boy got affected. Most of them got broken or fell off. A relative of Srijana is dentist in Visakhapatnam. Kranthi took her boy to consult this doctor. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I coordinated the internal safety inspection program as a representative of L&D. I did this nominal work sitting in our administrative block in non-SEZ. Today it was cool and rainy. Cyclone and monsoon are dancing together. Many residential areas, farms of crops and other habitations got affected due to this floodwater. Ponds and rivers are full with water. The pond near the temple of Lord Venkateshwara in Upamaaka is overflowing. Our Hetero buses run on the bank of this tank every day and night. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. From today onwards, the price of Telugu daily Eenadu would be four rupees on weekdays and five rupees on Sundays, along with their supplement. Today they gave a notice in their daily with this information. It is a hike of one rupee. They increased its price because of high costs involved in bringing it out now. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

25 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus by 8:20 and reached Hetero complex by 9:10. Today I did a little work of supervision related to internal safety inspection. By 1:45 sent an internal email to C Mohan Reddy, Goli Srinivasa Reddy, B Gopala Krishna Reddy, Rajnikant Ganesha and Illuri Subba Rao, discussing the problems related to Hetero buses and commuters. I sent a long letter discussing the problems and the solutions in a tabular format. Every day Hetero bus commuters talk a lot about the quality of Hetero buses and the problems they are facing while travelling in them. Most of them have neither time nor interest to discuss it with the management. Today I took this initiative. Today it was cold and rainy. They did not run Hetero buses with employees on the bank of the pond in Upamaaka considering the volume of water in it and potential risk to its bund if heavy vehicles move on it. The natives of Upamaaka and Nakkapalli let excess water from this pond flow out from an outlet at Nakkapalli. It is flowing across the road. We all walked from Upamaaka and took Hetero buses on the NH-16 at Nakkapalli. My pair of shoes got wet when I was crossing flow of water. Reached home by 7:45. Srijana and Anand returned home by 4:45 from Visakhapatnam. Night I tied my pair of Hetero black shoes below the ceiling fan in our master bedroom to dry them up this way. The pond of Lord Venkateshwara at Upamaaka gave them this status. Slept by 9:30.

26 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:00 I knew that general shift employees of Hetero need not go there by buses. They took this decision considering the situation in Hetero complex and the road leading to this place from Nakkapalli. It has been raining considerably for the last few days due to depression over Bay of Bengal. Excess rainwater affected many areas. Today my brother Srinivas is getting a residential plot of land registered in the name of his wife Sandhya Rani at the office of Sub Registrar in Nakkapalli. My younger brother Sambha is coordinating it. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 10:00 and reached this spot in Nakkapalli by 10:30. Document writer Krishna Murthy of village Koruprolu is our favourite fellow here. My role is that of a witness here. It is a plot measuring 284 square yards in Devi Nagar. My brother bought it for 9, 65,600 rupees from the eldest daughter of Kakarlapudi Narasimha Raju. It was all over by 1:30. Went to the house of my parents in Peda Gummuluru by 2:00 along with my folks. Had my lunch and talked with my folks till 4:00. Took a bus by 5:00 and reached my abode by 5:40. By 6:00 Srijana and I went to Tuni on my scooty. I bought a Wren & Martin English grammar book for 150 rupees at Indira bookstore for my teaching needs at Hetero. Srijana met Dr C S Lakshmi in Talli Pillala Hospital by 7:00. She checked her. Today it rained heavily in parts of Andhra Pradesh. Slept by 9:45.

27 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I typed out and edited a blog titled ‘Death’. Scheduled it to be posted by 8:00 a.m. IST on my blog site on 1 November. By 2:00 Anand and I went to cinema Gautham to see the Telugu film “Bhay” of Nagarjuna. I saw one selling tickets in the black. Police, cinema owners, distributors or producers have no concern about this issue. I decided not to see this film because it is bad culture to encourage idiots at cinemas. Folks of film industry often talk about the issue of piracy. They should focus on the issues of film viewers also. We moved to cinema Surya Mahal and saw the Telugu film “Dhoosukelthaa” of Vishnu from 2:30 to 5:00. It is interesting and exciting. Veeru Potla made it into a good film with intelligent twists and turns in the development of the story. Manchu Lakshmi Prasanna should not have appeared in this film. A sister, appreciating her brother, through a bit of song, does not seem to be an attractive point for viewers. The Telugu daily Sakshi is a good example for it. They always present Y S Raja Sekhara Reddy, Jagan, Vijayamma, Bharathi, Sharmila and all their folks as superb persons in India. This must be their high priority agenda but it looks like avoidable fuss to sensible outsiders. I have bad impression on Sakshi television channel also. I have no money to promote myself in the lines of Y S Jagan! He should guide me. Slept by 10:00.

28 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:45 on the bike of a familiar Hetero employee. Today I did a little work related to internal safety inspection. Today sun appeared and shone brightly after these few cloudy and rainy days caused by cyclone. Many creatures, plants and trees celebrated this occasion voluntarily. Returned home by 7:40 by a Hetero bus. Last night Lakshmi appeared me in my dream. I felt her psychic attachment and passion for me in this dream. She is constantly remembering me and suffering recollecting her separation from me 20 years ago. Her admiration kept increasing for me but she formed a web of fears and doubts around the idea of talking to or meeting me physically for all these years. I gave way to talk to me but she declined it foolishly. I am in easy access to her but she is unable to approach me. It’s like keeping a bottle of pure water with us and looking at sea with thirst. Even God cannot save fools. He somehow transmits the message of pain from one victim to another. They should resolve their issues applying their brains. I admire Lakshmi deeply because she made such lasting impressions upon me when I was an innocent boy. She blessed me like a Goddess of beauty and divinity in my childhood days.  I owe her for that love and affection. I like to talk to and meet her to remove that sense of loss and grief from her but she is blocking the way. Slept by 10:00.

29 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I did very little work related to L&D department. Afternoon helped Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma edit part of a PPT on gas cylinders. He often takes classes on safety for Hetero employees and freshers. I told him to edit those sentences on his own, explaining the errors in order of words (syntax). Thus one can learn written English fast. I often spend with Varma. He treats me affectionately. He commutes from Darlapudi on a Hetero company bike. His father is working in cooperative sugar factory at Darlapudi. My father and he were familiar folks at this factory. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Today I received five books from M S P Murugesan. His pen names are Vaiyavan and Yogesh Mithra. He is a writer and publisher from Chennai. Recently he sent me an email appreciating my blogs. We are in regular email correspondence. He publishes books through his publishing unit named ‘English Titles’. The names of the books, which he sent me, are the latest edition of his periodical publication English Times, and books Guru Gobind Singh, Guru Nanak, Story of a Stone and Indian Birds. He proposed the idea of getting one of my personal diaries published by him. I want to do it when time calls for it. I cannot create time for many vital tasks of this order. Vaiyavan encourages and inspires me through his emails. Today it was sunny and bright. Winter is also stepping in. Slept by 10:00.

30 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Spent some time with Srinivasa Varma. By 11:00, Mandapati Shivaji came to HR department in non-SEZ. He is the brother of Revathi, who is wife of Sekhar, the maternal uncle of Srijana. He has educational qualifications and work experience related to fire and safety. He is working at Hyderabad now. He wants to join the Hetero unit at Nakkapalli. I sent his CV to Srinivasa Varma recently by email. He showed it to his boss Kullayi Reddy. The HR folks called him for interview today based on his advice. Shivaji came from Hyderabad to attend this interview. I assisted him a little in Hetero in the process of his interview. Vivekananda J Makari interviewed him by 5:00. Rajnikant Ganesha talked with him by 5:15. They decide his salary and inform him about it soon over phone. He left this place by 5:20. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. Evening Srijana went to Gayathri College to collect my salary of August from them. Mahendra Varma gave 10,000 rupees to her on the advice of Murthy. They pay the remaining amount of 5,000 rupees shortly. Paid 3,500 rupees to my house owner by 7:45 towards rent for my two-bedroomed portion for this month. Srijana, Anand and I are happy in this rented abode. I want to keep them happy being a disciplined and ideal tenant. Slept by 10:00.

31 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:05 by bus. Today I did not do any work related to L&D. Read the little book titled Story of a Stone. Today the folks of HR of Hetero informed Shivaji that they can pay 13,500 rupees only to him for his desired job in the EHS of it. His present salary with another firm at Hyderabad is 18,000 rupees. He has to lose 4,500 rupees to choose this job. He got ready for it. I supported his move. He may be happy with Hetero in the long run. He wants to be in a nearby place to his native village Gollalagunta. His mother and relatives are there. Returned home by 7:25 by bus. Srijana was ready to go to Visakhapatnam in the car of her cousin D R K Raju, an ENT specialist, by the time I returned home from Hetero by bus. She asked me to come along with her. Her cough is intense due to asthma. We got into the car of D R K Raju on NH-16 by 8:00. He dropped us at Gayathri Nursing Home at Zilla Parishad area by 10:00. By 10:30 Dr. T Bala Raju checked her pulse. He prescribed some tablets for her. He advised her to inhale the vapour of a liquefied medicine (asthalin respules) through a nebulizer for three days and come to consult him if it does not get alleviated even by then. Bought medicines worth about 600 rupees at the medical store here. We took a deluxe bus by 11:00 at bus complex and returned home by 1:30. Today Hetero folks credited 22,644 rupees to my Axis Bank salary account towards my salary for this month. Slept by 2:00.

1 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I slept hardly for four hours. Reached Hetero complex by 8:45 on the bike of a familiar Hetero employee. Today I did nominal work related to L&D. Read the small book titled Guru Gobind Singh written by Vaiyavan. It is very interesting. The life of this 10^th guru of Sikhs is ideal and courageous. He sacrificed his children also for the cause of his faith and brethren. He got the qualities of a true and visionary leader. Sikhs worship formless God, practising the standards and values professed by their 10 religious masters. I wonder to know that the Sikh religion took birth to fight against the tyranny of a set of cruel rulers in India. We see many Sikhs in the highest order of Indian defense sector even now. They are impressive and brave citizens of India. Punjab is a beautiful and fertile land of India with exceptional beauties. I love those places and people. Reading this book improved my knowledge about Sikhs. Returned home by 7:15 on the bike of a Hetero employee. By 9:00, this morning, the maternal grandparents of Srijana left for Viswanadhapuram to get ready for the celebration of Deepavali in their house. Jagannadha Raju is recovering slowly from the pain and effects of fracture of his right leg. Today Srijana bought a piece of compressor nebulizer of Omron Company for about 2,000 rupees. They consider it an efficient respiratory therapy device. Went to sleep by 10:00.

2 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus by 8:10 and reached Upamaaka by 9:00. These villagers stopped all general shift Hetero buses here. They did so because some vehicles of coal moved this way beyond the time schedule agreed on by the villagers and management of Hetero. They allow these buses to move only after Hetero folks talk with them. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Hetero complex by 9:15. Today I did a little work related to internal safety inspection. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Indians think and behave like a shameless society of parasites and beggars if they find a rich person or financially stable company near them. The Hetero unit at Nakkapalli became an easy source of income for many beggars of this location. The representatives of Hetero do a lot of service to these ungrateful beggars regularly as part of their CSR initiatives but they often hold agitations demanding more. Many loafers and rogues became leaders and rich idiots exploiting Hetero for the last few years directly or indirectly. They often beg donations in lakhs from Hetero to build temples for poor Hindu deities. These are the standards and values of many shameless Hindus in India now. Beggars are building temples through donations. Indians loot companies around them in different ways. Companies have negative impression and hatred towards natives for this reason. They feel like burning entire villages and towns being vexed by their selfish and criminal activities. Slept by 10:00.

3 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is Deepavali today, a festival of Hindus. Ironed six pairs of my clothes from 7:30 to 9:00. Meanwhile my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came from Tetagunta on his scooty. Bought and brought two tins of drinking water from the nearby private RO plant on his scooty. They sell 20 litres of purified water for five rupees if we go and bring it in our tins. We have been buying and using it for the last five months or so. I bring it regularly on my scooty. My uncle and I reached the house of my paternal aunt Subhadra in Peda Gummuluru by 10:00 on his scooty. Ravindra Varma, the only son of this aunt, got slightly injured in Chhattisgarh, in an incident, two days ago, when he was taking a train to come home to celebrate Deepavali. He is working with a civil contractor there. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy went there to bring him by train. They came here by 11:00. Ravindra is a little weak. Doctor stitched a little split skin on his head. Met my folks. My mother packed some snacks for me. They are not celebrating Deepavali this year on account of the death of my paternal grandfather Thammi Raju last May. Returned home by 1:00. My in-laws came from Marripalem by 5:00. My father-in-law and Srijana went to Tuni on my scooty. They got an Amaron battery fitted to it spending 1,400 rupees. It failed four months ago. Night we burst crackers nominally. I did not celebrate it. Slept by 9:00.

4 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. My in-laws left for the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem by 4:30 on bike. Took a bus and reached Hetero complex by 9:05. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. In the return journey, at Y Junction, our bus driver was surprised observing the careless and aggressive behavior of five young idiots near the liquor store. They were all drunk. The driver had to stop the bus fearing the presence of these rogues on the road. They argued and quarreled with the driver. They uttered abusive words addressing Hetero employees. None of us could do anything because we represent a company. We do not have special identity as a mob of loafers while on road. They belong to that class of bastards. Some vehicle hits them or some equally careless bloke thrashes them soon publicly. The lessons of nature or God are more dictatorial and powerful than those of mortals. The road sense of majority of Indians is pathetic. Pedestrians cross roads carelessly. Vehicle drivers indulge in different kinds of tricks on roads blowing their irritating horns and through their nasty styles of driving. Most of Indian police take money from wrongdoers and criminals on road. They are public criminals, in the disguise of uniforms and insignia, authorized by corrupt and inefficient governments. They torture common man every day somehow. They lick the bottoms of politicians, celebrities, businessmen and criminals. Slept by 9:30.

5 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus by 8:15 and reached Hetero complex by 9:05. Today I did nominal work related to L&D department. Morning Jaladurgam Ram came here from Hyderabad on a short visit to this unit. He is the chief learning officer of Hetero units across places. He enquired about the progress of internal safety inspection. Evening he came to our section of work in the administrative block in non-SEZ. He checked our places of work. He advised Gopala Krishna Reddy to fit computers in our section wherever needed. I felt very happy about it. I have been waiting for a computer with Internet access for the last two months. I have been using computer for the last 10 years. I can use computer keyboard well. Internet allows me to explore English language differently and extensively compared to books. English language teacher should use both traditional and modern resources well to teach English effectively to his or her learners. There are many experts of English in this world but they cannot teach English to us directly. Most of them share their knowledge and experiences with us through various forms of presentations online. We benefit much learning continuously from these online sources. Ram appeared like Lord Rama to me because he talked about computers today in our section. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

6 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Two days ago I knew that today National Highway 16 would be blocked by activists of Y S Jagan’s political party. I wore my casual pair of shoes and avoided putting the identity card of Hetero around my neck considering the situation to be created by these bastards of India. They may target Hetero employees at Tuni, Payakaraopeta or Nakkapalli. They break the glasses of Hetero buses or beat them if they don’t follow their wild instructions. Police do not interfere in these cases of public nuisance created by a mob of antisocial elements. They don’t resolve any serious issues of citizens of India without bribes and political influence. They encourage rapists, thieves, burglars, killers, criminals, sinners and many sorts of social beasts in India because 90% of them are joining these jobs to earn a lot of money looting common people and victims. Indian police are the most powerful armed criminals in India. I like to talk with a beggar, a leper, a corrupt politician or a nasty businessman but not a police because they insult and hurt me with their rude language and criminal behavior. The supposed activists did not stop our buses today. His Excellency Y S Jagan is kind towards us to this extent. I did nominal work today in L&D department. If I were made God for a week, I would hang 90% of the Indian police publicly to change India to the better fast. Slept by 9:45.

7 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus by 8:10 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Evening talked with B Gopala Krishna Reddy in the HR department about my expectations and requirements here as an English instructor. He said that a place for English teaching exclusively is not ready yet with all suitable arrangements. Many classes are going on regularly now in all the training halls in SEZ and non-SEZ. I told him that I have to buy some standard English dictionaries, grammar books and audio video material to use in my English instruction classes. I can put them in the training hall, which is exclusively meant for English classes. I cannot move them from one place to another every day based on my venue of teaching. So, we have to buy this material later. He advised me to start teaching English for some batches of learners now until an exclusive venue of English is finalized and equipped adequately. I also told him about my idea of getting a booklet printed with the copy I wrote on the concept “How to Improve Your English?”. We talked for five minutes to review the present status of English instruction project. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. This evening Srijana and Anand went to Viswanadhapuram. They enjoy the atmosphere related to the marriage of Anupama there. It’s pleasant today. Went to sleep by 10:00.

8 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:05 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to L&D department. I am happy with my job at Hetero now. They gave me this golden opportunity when I was suffering from financial instability and debts all around. I enjoyed my job as an English lecturer with Gayathri College in Tuni but Murthy failed to pay even those pathetic salaries in time to his poor and helpless employees. I suffered due to it. He has to yet pay me 5,000 rupees for my teaching work in August. The folks of Hetero offered me 25,000 rupees as monthly salary when I deserve 28,000 to 30,000 rupees against my salary of 27,000 rupees with Glads Media in Hyderabad. If Gollaputi Mahendra paid me 27,000 rupees, running a small start-up with unbearable losses, B Parthasarathi Reddy of Hetero should pay me 50,000 rupees. Companies honour and pay to hypocrites, relatives and cheats better than idealists, thinkers and challengers in India. Branding culture is also high in India. They value candidates of premier institutes and royal families rather than those with great individuality and vision. It means 90% of the firms in this world are being owned and run by nuts. They cannot identify and honour masters of wisdom. However, Hetero pulled me from a mess of things in my life and made me hero again. Returned home by 7:30. Srijana and her folks came to my abode by 8:10 from Viswanadhapuram. Went to sleep by 9:45.

9 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I am on sick leave though I am not actually sick. I took this leave yesterday, from the folks of Hetero, to attend a marriage. Spent in the AC hall of Merchants Association in Tuni from 8:00 to 10:45. Alluru Anupama, the daughter of Satya Narayana Raju and Aruna Devi of Viswanadhapuram, married Dantuluri Mukesh Varma, a native of Vissa Koderu. Local MLA Raja Ashok Babu and MLC D V Surya Narayana Raju attended it. Some regarded them specially. I treated them as familiar street dogs. I neither beat them nor cared their presence. I have such aversion and hatred towards 90% of the politicians in India now. They are public criminals. By 11:00 Srijana consulted Dr. C S Lakshmi. By 2:00 collected 5,000 rupees from Mahendra Varma of Gayathri College on the instructions of Murthy. This is the outstanding payment of salary due to me for the last August. Bought a copy of VGS English Grammar and Composition by 2:15 for 60 rupees from Indira bookstore in Tuni. B Syamala Rao and B Sarada wrote it. It is a good book for learners of English in Andhra Pradesh though there are some typographical errors in it. Many consider familiar books as ordinary ones if they are sold at low prices. We should buy books based on our level of knowledge and worth of content in a book but not depending on the fame of an author or publisher. Today many relatives of Srijana visited my rented abode. Went to sleep by 9:30.

10 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Typed up the content of October from my diary of 2013 on my computer from 8:00 to 2:00. From 2:30 to 7:30 typed out and edited a blog titled ‘Writer’ on my computer. Scheduled it to be posted on my blog site by 8:00 a.m. IST on the 12^th of this month. I partly discussed the ideas about writers and writings in this blog. By 10:30 my in-laws left for the farmland of D S N Raju at Marripalem. The maternal grandparents of Srijana are here now. Some relatives of Srijana are coming here frequently to see her bedridden grandfather. During the last two months, I have observed that money is being spent rapidly by Srijana and me. We spent 40,000 rupees during this time. I wonder about it. Most of it was spent for clearing a debt for my father-in-law; house portion rent; medical tests, medicines, devices and Amway supplements for Srijana; regular expenses for repair and fuel of my Honda Activa scooty; buying material for household consumption, clearing small debts and many miscellaneous expenses. I am disturbed about this rapid outflow of money. I have a debt of about one lakh rupees to clear slowly. I have to sell the paper cup machine of Delhi folks to some related business fellow and get some money from it. I am not spending money for any wrong or avoidable needs. I cannot become rich suddenly to face this adverse situation. I have to withstand my financial problems with planning and hope. Lord Krishna guides me. Slept by 10:15.

11 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today N Narayan Reddy talked to 34 Hetero senior executives and managers on effective managerial skills in the training hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ in the morning and afternoon. I nominally coordinated it as a representative of L&D department. They provide tea, biscuits or snacks during breaks of long and formal training classes and meetings. It’s another advantage of attending a formal meeting in a big company as its employee or guest. Does anybody give tea and biscuits to us in real life even if we do a lot for them directly or indirectly? Nobody did so towards me in my personal life till now. I too did not do so towards anybody. I think providing tea, coffee, biscuits and snacks to employees regularly or occasionally is a good gesture of any firm. The stakeholders directly enjoy and benefit from consuming them. A firm or person should be financially stable and ideal to do so. Big companies spend a lot to respect and please professionals, guests and their employees in their premises. It is indirectly subduing them. Can we scold or beat somebody that treated us like a VIP in his or her house or office? We cannot take strict disciplinary actions against those that delight us with a valuable offering. This is how bribery and corruption take birth and grow in any nation. Went to sleep by 9:45 for my dreams.

12 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus by 8:20 and reached Hetero complex by 9:10. Today N Narayan Reddy spoke to 34 senior executives and managers of Hetero on effective managerial skills. This training program took place in the hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ. Towards the end of this program, our plant head Goli Srinivasa Reddy and our L&D manager Illuri Subba Rao gave conclusive remarks, addressing the participants, about the purpose of these training programs by external experts to Hetero employees regularly. Srinivas advised them to learn new things regularly and implement them in their personal and professional lives for achieving development and happiness. Subba Rao advised them to use refined language when communicating with their subordinates and contract labourers. He often uses rude language while talking with me in his room. I bear with him because he cannot withstand my language as a person but as his subordinate only in Hetero. Managers feel certain degree of authority and ego while talking to their subordinates in almost every company. They cannot control their angry feelings and emotions while trying to correct their subordinates through words.  Most of them stop thinking like human beings after assuming authoritative positions in companies. Managements should punish or sack such managers, who are not sensitive, receptive and intelligent. Otherwise they ruin everything slowly. Slept by 9:30.

13 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Now I have to buy many things for me, Srijana, Anand and other purposes but I am not doing it for lack of enough money. I am postponing most of them regularly. I think we can sort our needs broadly into two types. They are primary and secondary. Primary needs are those, which we cannot neglect. They are house rent, electricity bill payment, milk payment, fees to educational institutions when our children are studying, vegetables and other products to be used in kitchen like LPG, toilet soaps, detergent cakes and powders, petrol or diesel to be consumed by our personal vehicles, medical expenses and so on. Secondary needs are clothes for us and our immediate dependents, celebration of festivals, casual parties, bad habits like smoking, drinking and paid sexual enjoyments, unnecessary personal tours, pilgrimages, ornaments, beautification, expensive entertainment, regular consumption of costly food items, investments in volatile or unreliable sources of profits in short or long term, different kinds of gambling, using costly gadgets and so on. One should plan carefully and implement those decisions perfectly to be well, balancing between these two kinds of needs. I am trying to be good in this process always. Srijana’s mother came here this afternoon from the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. Slept by 9:45.

14 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I nominally coordinated the internal safety inspection. Helped D Srinivasa Varma prepare two formal documents in English. When coming back from Hetero complex by bus, bought a pack of gold fingers for 10 rupees from a casual seller at the toll plaza near Vempadu on NH-16. They are yellow coloured snacks, which are deeply fried in low quality edible oil. I do not benefit even a little consuming them except their spicy taste on tongue for those few seconds. I don’t buy and consume such food items much. I know what to eat and drink to keep my health up. I gained some knowledge about it reading dailies and books. Millions of Indians are buying and consuming harmful food items every day because of their ignorance and stupidity. The manufacturers of such low quality foods are both in the public and private sectors, organized and unorganized segments. Central and state governments are not banning the production and sale of these harmful foods and goods. We elect and authorize some folks of our nation to rule us, believing that they are more intelligent, brave and ideal than us. Indian rulers are not working for the welfare of their citizens now. They have neither patriotism nor concern for millions of innocent and helpless people of India. Doctors and hospitals are flourishing in India but not healthy, peaceful and happy creatures. Democracy made India so. Slept by 9:30.

15 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:12 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. I see a temple of Lord Venkateshwara in Upamaaka when going to Hetero complex and coming back. I collected a little block of rock from a boulder near the statue of this God on the hillock in 2003 when I went there as a devotee with my relatives. I did it when getting ready to go to Alaska for a fish packaging job. I wanted to keep it with me as a holy symbol of God in Alaska. I put it in my AUK black trolley bag, which I bought to keep my things before moving to Alaska. I did not go to the USA. After 10 years, I joined a Hetero unit near Upamaaka. I decided to go away from India out of my ambition to earn a lot of money. Then this God pulled me back. Now He made me work here, near Him. Hindus believe that God is omnipresent and omnipotent. A piece of stone is also equal to God. God pulls and keeps His innocent and helpless devotees in His vicinity. He enables them to face the effects of their Karma. He subjects them to difficult tests in order to bring them to the path of self-realization and salvation. God knows everything. He oversees the perfect functioning of this universe. He is kind and visionary. He has answers for all those questions, which man failed to answer for centuries. We should meditate for years and acquire spiritual powers to understand Him. Slept by 9:30.

16 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Evening took one-hour permission to leave for home by 5:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw near Hetero complex and reached Nakkapalli by 5:15. The fare is eight rupees. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Payakaraopeta by 5:45. Srijana already packed my desired items in a bag. I told her to buy 30 packs of sweet rice flake rounds at a wholesale store in Tuni. She bought them for 220 rupees. She packed 25 packs of them in the bag for me to take to our house in Peda Gummuluru. These are my gifts to my parents. They should not consume such food items, which affect their health. My mother has got high blood pressure, diabetes and asthma. My father got high cholesterol once but he controlled it through consumption of suggested foods, intake of adequate water and regular exercise. He still got some fears about his health. He does not consume all kinds of food carelessly. I bought these items minding their health. They don’t affect the health of any patient also. We can eat any number of these items. We can enjoy their taste a lot. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 6:00 at Y Junction and reached Adduroad Junction by 6:45. My father criticized me for buying that many packs of sweet items for him. Spent talking with my brother Sambha for some time. He enjoys my presence. Went to sleep by 9:00 in his house.

17 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My brother Sambha and I reached our mango garden at hills by 6:30 on his bike. We checked the growth of recently planted mango plants. They are growing well due to abundant rains that fell recently. Sambha pulled four mangoes off a young Banginapalli tree. One or two trees yield a little crop before their actual season out of their bliss. I shot the video of part of our mango garden with my digital camera. The red soil, the green plants and trees and hills got captured beautifully. We spent at the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy for 20 minutes. We returned home by 8:30. Sambha, his wife and son Anjaneya Varma are going to Srisailam this night by bus from Adduroad to see Lord Shiva there. Took leave of my folks and returned to my rented abode at Devi Nagar by 10:45. By 11:30 took Srijana to Talli Pillala Hospital in Tuni on my scooty. She prescribed scan of her stomach to assess the growth of the baby inside. We bought vegetables at a wholesale store in market yard spending 210 rupees. We collected the scan report by 1:15 from Nikhil Diagnostics point. C S Lakshmi checked them. Aditya, Ashish, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Villa” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna from 2:45 to 5:00. It is an exciting and insightful film blending the elements of psychology, black magic and inspiring background score. From 5:30 to 10:30 typed out and edited a blog titled ‘Indian Police’. It would be posted on my blog site on 20 November, by 8:00 a.m. IST. Slept by 10:45.

18 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:05 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Returned home by 7:15 in the car of Ramana Murthy, the liaison officer of Hetero here, who joined it very recently. Enjoyed this short journey via Vempadu. Two days ago, Sachin Tendulkar retired from Indian cricket. The media and millions of nasty Indians discussed it as a matter of historical and divine importance. The filthy pigs of Telugu daily Eenadu called him God in their front page. I have no spiritual powers to burn everything related to Ramoji Rao. He wrote about this nasty rogue of India completely in his Sunday supplement. I misused five rupees buying his defaced tissue paper this Sunday. He must keep 10 or 20 Eenadu dailies in the toilet of Sachin every day so that he can clean his holy bottom with those worthless tissue papers. The present Government of India announced Bharat Ratna to this bloke of India to record its status as a sick and nasty government of India. I hate not just Sachin but every other cricketer that made India into a fool’s paradise over the years. We must honour great patriots, scientists, farmers, doctors, artists, social reformers, visionaries and saints of India if they contributed substantially to the development and happiness of India and Indians but never a sportsman because he or she is like an appendix in the body of a nation. We don’t need them but we are bearing with them. Went to sleep by 9:30.

19 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 7:00 to 7:30 typed out and edited a blog titled ‘Dear Sachin’ on my computer. It is a letter addressing Sachin Tendulkar. Many idiots and rogues of India are talking a lot about this businessman after his retirement from the Indian cricket. The Government of India deciding to honour him with Bharat Ratna is another biggest joke in the history of India, for patriots and visionaries of India. I briefly discussed these points of concern in this blog. I scheduled it to be published on my blog site by 8:00 a.m. IST tomorrow. Rescheduled the posting of blog titled ‘Indian Police’ to 8:00 a.m. IST on the 24^th of this month. Sachin Tendulkar, cricketers of his order and some other nasty celebrities of India ruined this nation during the last 70 years. They are inventing, propagating and promoting such culture in India, which turns Indians into lazy, crazy and dangerous entities of India in the long run. A nation becomes dustbin when dirty pigs and sick dogs are admired as great individuals in it in an age. Cricket is a game of loafers, scoundrels and parasites in India. Sachin is celebrity to such bastards of India. They keep their Mother India on a bed of sharp arrows to get time for playing cricket and gambling. Sachin prepared such brainless idiots in India for 30 years. Today I did nominal work related to L&D department in Hetero complex. Slept by 9:30.

20 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Today my colleague Jonnalagadda Soma Sundaram told me that our manager Illuri Subba Rao hurt him psychologically. Soma Sundaram struggles to bring as many employees as possible to every training program being conducted in Hetero complex; mostly for those attended by paid external professional speakers. Today he felt that Subba Rao did not appreciate him properly for the dedicated work he is doing daily. In fact, many managers do not appreciate their subordinates at all. They actually criticize us regularly. They expect us to deliver more and more. Most of them maintain more ego and false prestige based on their designations and privileges rather than empathy and sincerity based on their individualities. I think big firms like Microsoft and Google have completely changed this work culture. They are treating their employees like kings and queens, providing them with high salaries and unbelievable benefits and comforts of different kinds. This is the best culture to be adopted by every company in the world. They may not be able to pay like corporate giants but they can certainly get intelligence and innovation from their employees and use them for their sustainable growth this way. We must identify and appreciate honest, visionary and loyal employees always. Neglecting and insulting them is like spitting on our face publicly. Slept by 9:30.

21 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Hetero bus at Y Junction by 8:15. Police stopped all Hetero buses at Nakkapalli by 9:00 because the drivers could not show the documents related to the originality and quality of them immediately. Police work honestly and bravely once a year or so in India. They collect bribes from rich wrongdoers and leave them. They target and harass ordinary and helpless Indians regularly. The present Hetero buses are old and defective ones. Many employees are travelling in them scolding the management every day. I observed some high cadre employees of Hetero passing past us in their cars, without bothering to know why that many Hetero employees were appearing on and along the roads. They moved leaving their back seats vacant. They should take a few employees in their cars to Hetero complex if they have minimum concern for this company or B Parthasarathi Reddy. They get about one lakh rupees a month as salary. They have no respect for their chairman. They are heads of different departments in Hetero complex. This is what we can call corporate culture in India. They think and work for their salaries, increments, perks and comforts but not for the growth of their respective companies. I daily see many such superiors in Hetero complex at Nakkapalli. Parthasarathi Reddy is ideal in bearing with such ungrateful employees. I believe that if superiors are nuts in a company, their subordinates slowly become escapists and dullards. Slept by 9:30.

22 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. I got a bad cold by 8:45. It got intensified as the day progressed. By 4:00 took four tablets from our Occupational Health Centre (OHC) to withstand cold. They could do nothing immediately. Today it rained continually due to cyclone. Bacteria and viruses rose from the wet soil and danced in the open. They gave me cold. I kept blowing my nose once for every few minutes. Cold is a disgusting and disappointing health disorder. No doctor or medicine can cure it immediately. It takes adequate time to leave the body of its vulnerable host. Cold is a dear cousin of headache and fever. If it feels lonely, it may invite them cordially. I never got headache. Lord Krishna configured my body that way. I consume such foods and drinks only, which keep up my health. In course of time, I made my body into a mini scientific laboratory. It signs me, through immediate emergence of symptoms, about the entry of foreign bodies into me. It does not tolerate bad foods and drinks also. What a lab an innocent entity made after years of planning and struggle? It tells him about the vulnerability of his body! Does any scientist build such lab, which ridicules and criticizes him frequently? I did it! Am I improving my immunity consuming good foods and following ideal lifestyle or not? Should I consume all kinds of stuff to improve my immunity? What a dilemma for disciplinarians in this world? Slept by 9:30.

23 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. A Hetero security officer asked me to edit his two-page letter addressed to the present president of India. He discussed the issue of statehood to Telangana in this letter. Edited it in his cabin at the entrance of SEZ. I did it for 30 minutes before lunch. I wonder at the appeals of many innocent citizens of India to persons holding high level political positions in India. I hate prime ministers, presidents, chief ministers and all such politically authorized criminals of India. They have no standards, values and patriotism. They somehow acquire and retain power for their comforts and benefits. Pratibha Bharati and Pranab Mukherjee became the presidents of India because they are the loyal dogs of the Congress party. It means they are choices of corrupt political parties in India but not intellectuals and idealists of India. They are nasty politicians but not admirable citizens and individuals of India. They play the roles of kings and queens while in those positions, concealing their actual identities of a sick dog or a dirty bitch. This is the status of democracy in India now. These are the qualities of majority politicians in India. They have no concern for the development of India. Unrest and poverty in India are the results of such political system in India. Slept by 9:30.

24 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Ironed six pairs of my clothes from 8:00 to 9:00. Edited the content of October from my diary of 2013 from 9:45 to 10:45 on my computer. Bought and brought two tins of purified water from the nearby water sale point by 11:10 on my scooty. It is 40 litres of water. They are selling 20 litres of water for five rupees to those that are going to their unit. They charge 20 rupees if they supply it to our abodes in their vehicle. It is a good business. It is an appreciable social service. By 11:20 my friend Sri Rama Raju and I reached cinema Sai Mahal on his bike along with Anand. The Telugu film “Varna” was already started on the screen. I went late thinking that they start it at 11:30. I cursed myself. We three saw it from 11:27 onwards. I insulted Sri Raghava and everybody related to this film attending it late. I apologize to them. Every sensible creature should watch a feature film from the start to the end. It is an extraordinary film for me. Sri Raghava took me into an elevated sphere of souls and spiritual experience applying a magical story, inspiring background score and many soothing elements of creativity. It is like a curative tonic for sensitive and ideal lovers in this world. Lovers should not become mad or commit suicides because of untimely deaths of their beloved. Their souls are living in another world, in another form of life. Soul has no death. From 2:00 to 5:30 typed out and edited a blog titled ‘Pornography’ on my computer. From 5:40 to 6:15 Srijana and I spent in Tuni buying some things. Went to sleep by 9:30.

25 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Now Jagannadha Raju is bedridden in my rented abode. His wife Lakshmi Bharathi is doing service to him regularly. His eldest daughter Saraswati, son Sekhar and daughter-in-law Revathi are attending to him partially. He cannot brush, bath, eat and go to toilet on his own. They have to treat him like an innocent and helpless child to serve him daily out of kindness and pity for him. Rendering service to bedridden creatures is a very disgusting and testing exercise. Who likes to wash our soiled clothes and smelly bottoms? Very few allow tenants into their houses if the latter have mischievous children or bedridden patients. They build their houses beautifully with different tastes and plans, investing a lot of money and time. They cannot bear if others deface it. They are right and appreciable in thinking and behaving so towards their tenants. Nobody likes a dirty dog soiling a costly and beautiful bed. We should always take care of our health. We should walk and run carefully. We must drive vehicles like sensitive and disciplined road users. We must keep our body light and active through regular exercise. Who likes to carry our heavy body if we are bedridden or dead? We must shun smoking, drinking, gambling and all bad habits to be healthy and happy. Slept by 9:30.

26 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Today my colleague Soma Sundaram and I stayed back in the office till 7:00 doing a little work at the eleventh hour. His computer system got virus. The IT department took four days’ time to format it because there are no adequate staff members in this division. There is no provision for easy and reliable communication among employees because they banned use of cellphones in the campus of complex for some reasons. There is no provision for fast mobility in the premises. They gave bikes to very few high cadre folks only in every department. Most of others have to walk and walk even if there is an urgent work at the other end. Many employees are daily struggling and suffering because of these minor drawbacks in their system of work. Many high cadre folks, who get salaries between 50,000 and 2, 00,000 rupees per month, are actually a burden to this complex. I believe that Parthasarathi Reddy is unable to assess their capabilities perfectly and draw the best work from them regularly. They have neither intelligence and vision to develop the firm rapidly nor true love and respect for their employer. They are spending their lives happily. I can explain them how to save about 200 crore rupees every year in this complex but who has time to ask an intellectual to apply his power of analysis? Indians cannot recognize challengers living in India. Went to sleep by 9:30.

27 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 on the bike of a Hetero employee. Today I failed to take a Hetero bus at Y Junction because I reached there by 8:20. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. I use Cello Gripper black ballpoint to write my personal diary. If I lose my black pen for some reasons, I use a blue pen for one or two days only. In fact, I love blue colour but I don’t use blue pen to write my diary. There is a reason for it. Photocopy machines cannot scan blue coloured content well but black one. I don’t like to do what I like personally in many contexts but what is right for a condition or situation from the perspective of idealists and saints of this world. This must be the individuality of a perfectionist. I should eat such foods, which keep me healthy and happy. I should talk more with only those, who love me a lot. I should buy such things only, which I need a lot and which I can afford to buy and use. I should believe in those beliefs and ideologies only, which serve humankind in some way if followed voluntarily or implemented strictly by others. I should love and respect good people to promote values in my familiar societies. I should face challenges to become intelligent and visionary. I should focus on self-respect, self-criticism and self-analysis to grow psychologically. I am trying to move in this direction. God and my account of Karma largely impact me in this process of life. Slept by 9:30.

28 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Morning they formally inaugurated the 20-year celebrations of Hetero, lighting lamps in the training hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ. Hetero was started in 1993. Then I completed my 10^th standard and left school. Today they held competition of designs for female employees in Hetero complex. Many participated in them enthusiastically. Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram coordinated them. Evening they conducted mock drill to keep employees alert on steps to be taken during times of emergency. We all briskly moved to the assembly point from the administrative block and other scheduled workplaces. We stood in suggested rows on the main road. They took our attendance. It all went on from 4:00 to 5:00. Returned home by 7:12 by bus. Yesterday night I told Srijana that her normal delivery occurs on the 8^th of next month. Today she consulted Dr. C S Lakshmi in Talli Pillala Hospital at Tuni. She told her that her delivery may take place between the 3^rd and 8^th of next month. This night I planned to give the name Vipin Saket to the baby if it would be male. I believe that it would be a male baby only. Vipin means forest. Saket means Lord Vishnu. He should live like a saint in a forest. I shared this idea with Srijana. She did not object to my proposal. I don’t mind even if it would be a female baby. Generally great souls take birth as males. Slept by 9:30.

29 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. It was sunny and lovely today. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. By 8:00 added details of bank account of Pakalapati Kalyana Varma to my online Axis Bank account. I borrowed 10,000 rupees from him on the last day of last year when I was in financial crisis. He lent me this amount of money without asking me even one question. He likes me as a writer. He scanned my blogs and personal diaries online. He is a handsome, intelligent and visionary guy. Recently he joined HP, leaving CISCO. He is very occupied as a jobholder. I would credit 10,000 rupees to his CITI Bank account very soon. I follow a strategy in borrowing money from others. I ask for 10,000 rupees from those for whom this amount of money looks nominal based on their present financial status. They should be able to wait for any length of time to get their money back from me. They should know partly or fully about my standards as an individual. They should be great human beings. All those, from whom I borrowed money till now, possess these qualities to some extent. I don’t borrow money from anybody repeatedly. I borrow once only from one as far as possible. I repay all my lenders as soon as I am financially stable. I never take personal loans from banks. I never buy anything for my pleasure taking out loans. I borrow money only when I am bankrupt. Slept by 9:30.

30 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to L&D department. From 3:07 to 5:30 the sixth edition of Vedika program took place in the conference hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ. I took photos and videos of it, with the Canon digital camera of our HR folks. Our manager Illuri Subba Rao criticized my way of capturing these moments. He said that I took more videos than photos. He thinks that few watch videos. He said that my handling of camera was awkward. I took videos in slow motion. Group photos never show anybody specifically. He also said that I should move closer to the targets of capture to get clear pictures. He used aggressive tone talking to me in this context. I did not like his foolish and stupid remarks about my skills in using a camera. I influence others in two ways. One is through my words and one is through my silence. I use words to change sensible and sensitive people and silence to reform foolish and stupid blokes. I am applying silence against Subba Rao. I allow him to commit more and more mistakes towards me. He exhibits such bad behavior before others also one day. Insensitive and stupid folks change him using the language of his status. He changes his temperament within seconds. It is not a quality of individuals but opportunists. Chameleons change colours based on the settings around them. Opportunists also act so. Individuals are like peaks. Ordinary creatures cannot understand them. Returned home by 7:15. Slept by 9:30.

1 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 3:00. Typed out three pages of a blog titled ‘Advertising’ from 3:30 to 6:00 on my computer. By 7:30 went to bus complex in Tuni on my scooty. My brother Srinivas and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani reached here by 7:40 in a bus. They took it at NAD Kotha Road. They were going to Molleru Mallavaram. The health condition of Pakalapati Venkatapathi Raju, the maternal grandfather of this sister-in-law, is very critical now. Collected a bag from my brother. There are different cakes, toilet soaps, Horlicks bottles, toothpaste tubes, dish and hand wash liquids, biscuit packs and the like worth about 2,000 rupees in it. He bought them in a CSD store at Visakhapatnam for me. By 9:00 Anand and I had our haircuts. By 9:20 my brother Sambha, sister-in-law Kranthi and their son Anjaneya Varma came here on a bike from Peda Gummuluru. We took this boy to Bharat Dental Hospital in Tuni by 10:30. Some of his teeth got broken and affected. A doctor cleaned one of the affected ones today. From 2:30 to 5:00 saw the Telugu film “Billa 3” of Ajit Kumar in cinema Surya Mahal. It seems to be a remake of Telugu film “Billa” of Prabhas. I don’t like watching remakes. I committed a mistake today going to see this film. I enjoyed the feel of this film but not its story because I already knew it. By 4:00 Sambha left for his abode with his wife and son. By 6:30, this evening, the maternal grandfather of Sandhya Rani passed away in Molleru Mallavaram. He suffered from throat cancer for about five years. He smoked. He is an idealist. Slept by 9:30.

2 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. Added some more content to my blog titled ‘Advertising’ from 8:15 to 9:15 on my computer. By 9:33:55 an amount of 21,565 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account. Got an SMS to my cellphone about it. This is my salary for the last month, after deduction of applicable debits, from the folks of Hetero. Pakalapati Venkatapathi Raju lived for about 88 years. He had six brothers and three sisters. He had a rice mill in Molleru Mallavaram. He spent most of his married life in ideas and acts related to this rice mill. He knows many natives of Ramula Devapuram, Molleru and Mallavaram. They used to bring their sacks of paddy to this rice mill in bullock carts to get it husked. He lived all his life without cheating or hurting others. He got two daughters. His two sons-in-law were not much reliable for him. He helped many in his circle of relatives. He had no bad habits other than moderate smoking of two or three cigars a day. I think it caused him throat cancer. Doctors made a hole in his throat. He started becoming a dependent. His wife and two daughters looked after him caringly. He left a house, three acres of land and some amount of money back for his wife and daughters. He got impressive Aryan features. His daughters inherited traces of those features. I think he often regretted not begetting a son. Daughters can never replace the status and value of a son in the life of an Indian father. Night added some more content to my blog titled ‘Advertising’ on my computer. Slept by 9:50.

3 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Morning Subhasini asked me to write a short speech for her. She wants to present it in the valedictory function to be held soon marking the 20-year celebrations of Hetero. Typed out and edited two pages of content for this purpose from 11:30 to 1:30 on the computer system of D Srinivasa Varma of EHS. He was on leave today. This speech resulted so well that it should be delivered by somebody like B Parthasarathi Reddy. It carries that insightful and authoritative message to Hetero employees at Nakkapalli. The status and power of Subhasini do not suit the power of these words. Goli Srinivasa Reddy has aversion for English. I failed to know how to honour this speech. It is a powerful weapon of words. Ordinary persons should not handle it. Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram are actually disguised foes to me in our L&D department. They have no true love for Hetero company or its management. They are acting mechanical roles to satisfy others. Every day they talk privately in that cabin. They can’t bear my presence there. They cannot be happy if I think and do anything extraordinary for Hetero employees, units or management. They are opportunists and hypocrites. God punishes them for their evil. From 8:00 to 9:15 added some more content to my blog ‘Advertising’ at home on my computer. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

4 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. By 12:15 Srinivasa Varma and I went to the desalination plants of Hetero near beach on a casual visit to see them. We spent seeing the sea and desalination process till 12:45. We returned to Hetero complex by 1:00 on bike. Today Srinivasa Varma emailed my speech to a Hetero employee, who came here from Hyderabad, to supervise some activities here. I want to see how he uses it or neglects it. This speech is suitable to be delivered by B Parthasarathi Reddy but which high cadre Hetero employee gets this idea? Parthasarathi is employing hundreds of candidates in his pharmaceutical units but how many of these employees have really loyalty and love for this man? Most of the employees are commercial entities now. They always expect bonus, increments and other benefits from their employer but never question themselves whether they deserve this royal treatment. We can see thousands of such dirty employees in public sector in India. Even in private companies, many employees flourish being in the good looks of their egoistic superiors and blind management. Indian economy does not improve if talented and industrious candidates are not identified, encouraged and appreciated. Many entrepreneurs have no good standards in India at their level. They are following dishonest ways and means to be successful in India. Even the central and state governments are encouraging such culture. Slept by 9:30.

5 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 in the car of a familiar Hetero employee. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Afternoon Srijana went to Talli Pillala Hospital in Tuni on the bike of his father to consult Dr. C S Lakshmi. She said that the baby is ready to enter this material world. He may take birth around this Sunday. I think that this time would be the early hours of Sunday or up to 1:00 p.m. that day. Great souls choose their parents, place and time of birth carefully. I presume that Vipin Saket is likely to born considering various factors favorable to his parents and him. C S Lakshmi is leaving for Tirupati about 3:30 p.m. this Sunday along with her husband Srimannarayana. She got inevitable task there. She advised Srijana, which doctors or a hospital to opt for, in Tuni or Payakaraopeta, in case the baby is to born in her absence. We develop some strong psychic attachments and trust towards some persons and entities in this world. Most of them may be quite illogical and stupid. C S Lakshmi is an experienced doctor. Srijana, Sagar and Sisir took birth in that hospital at Tuni. Srijana and her folks are accustomed to this doctor and hospital. I want to take leave on Saturday to be at home to finish some important works and be cool on Sunday. In these circumstances, I want to see how Vipin plans his entry into this mysterious world. Slept by 9:30.

6 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. When there was nobody in our floor, gave the copy of two-page speech to our plant head Goli Srinivasa Reddy. He took it from me with an encouraging gesture of smile. He told me to send the soft copy of it by email. He loves and respects me as a writer and one with a little command of English. It is enough if he knows that I wrote this speech to contribute to the occasion of 20-year celebrations of Hetero. I don’t crave credit for everything I do. We should try to live like a tree. Others should enjoy our presence and gifts. We must celebrate proactive love and care of others instead of craving reactive expressions and relationships of all known to us. We must keep ourselves away from the thoughts and efforts of false prestige. Our virtues should endear us to others but not our shameless and artificial efforts to be in the good looks of others. Our employer may not be 100% morally and legally appreciable entity but we should be grateful and loyal to him if he is supporting our life. I am grateful to Bandi Parthasarathi Reddy because he is supporting my life generously paying me 25,000 rupees every month. He is making medicines to alleviate pain of thousands of patients across the world. When I was like a withering plant, he poured vitalizing water at the roots. Returned home by 7:15. From 8:00 to 9:00 added some more content to my blog titled ‘Advertising’ on my computer. Finished writing it out. I edit it soon. Slept by 9:45.

7 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I am on casual leave. From 8:00 to 2:00 typed up the content of November from my diary of 2013 on my computer. Edited my blog titled ‘Advertising’ on my computer from 4:30 to 6:00. Watched the Telugu feature film “Aata Aarambham” in cinema Gowtham from 6:30 to 9:20. It is a very exciting and insightful film discussing the points of dirty politicians in India, the merits and demerits of Indian police system and the intelligence of youth applied to retaliate against a corrupt minister. Vishnuvardhan added speed, beauty and intelligence to this film. Ajit Kumar is a handsome and energetic actor. He played his role powerfully in this film. We see him as a villain in the first half of it. In the second half of it, we understand why he became a bad man. The beauty of Nayan Tara and Tapsy is also an attraction of this film. Yuvan Shankar Raja provided exciting music. I love him and his music. I give 90 marks for 100 for the story, narration and everything associated with this film. It educated and entertained me powerfully. I wonder about the skills and experience of artistes and technicians working in the process of dubbing a film into another language version. Generally Tamil, Malayalam, Kannada, Hindi and English films are being dubbed into Telugu. We should love and respect all actors and actresses because they are struggling hard to educate and entertain us differently. We all owe a lot to them. Slept by 9:50 for my dreams.

8 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My blog titled ‘Advertising’ was posted on my blog site by 8:00. Brought two tins of drinking water from the nearby RO plant on my scooty. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 10:30. Spent talking with him till 11:30. By 2:00 Sekhar and I took Jagannadha Raju to a clinic in Tuni. Much of the black skin below his waist at the back got infected deeply. It is likely to hit the bone soon. It ate skin and gave a horrible shape. We feel repulsive glancing at it. A dermatologist is visiting this clinic every Sunday to treat skin disorders of local patients. He checked the skin infection of this patient and prescribed medicines worth 900 rupees. We brought him back to my abode by 2:20 in the auto rickshaw. He took 130 rupees. He lives at a nearby place. He spends most of his money for liquor. Often we call him. By 4:50 brought a familiar barber to my abode from my favourite hair salon to shave the beard of Jagannadha Raju. He did it for 15 minutes. He must be 16 or so. He said that he came to my abode just out of love for me. He does not go outdoors for shaving or cutting. I asked him about his present state of life. He is working in this salon as an assistant to its owner. He provides him with food and 2,000 rupees a month. He earns about 40,000 rupees a month from this salon. He should pay 200 rupees to this boy per day. One rich barber is exploiting another helpless fellow of his community. This is the culture of most of Indians now. Slept by 9:30.

9 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. Today our manager Subba Rao was on leave. Soma Sundaram did not assign me any work. Spent reading my English grammar books. Recently elections were held in Delhi, Madhya Pradesh, Rajasthan and Chhattishgarh to choose people’s representatives to rule respective regions for five years. BJP won majority places against other political parties. Aam Aadhmi Party, headed by Arvind Kejriwal, very new political party in India, emerged as a victorious entity in Delhi, winning many places there. Their objective is removing corruption from politicians and administration. Ideal candidates contested on behalf of this revolutionary political party. I appreciate all the voters of Delhi for expressing their standards and values this way opting for ideal candidates. This is not enough. All citizens should inculcate questioning attitude. They must be united and collective in fighting against local problems and wrongdoers. Their protests and agitations should not disturb the free flow of public life. They must be honest and hard-working as citizens of India. Political parties cannot develop or ruin any nation without the participation of people in it. Contractors are earning huge money in every region doing low quality works. Many are looting public money in different ways. Rulers can arrest this process of corruption if they are ideal at their level. Good citizens and great rulers can change a nation. Slept by 9:30.

10 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. Morning Subba Rao told me that I have to teach communicative English to two batches of Hetero employees from the 25^th of this month. He advised me to prepare for it and earn a good name. It is like a devil talking about divinity addressing a saint. He never asked me what I need to teach English well to Hetero employees. Mohan Reddy, Jaladurgam Ram or Gopala Krishna Reddy has no time or interest to talk with me for five minutes also about it. It implies that they have no genuine interest to provide quality English learning opportunities to Hetero employees here. They need some English instructor. They recruited me. Jaladurgam Ram is the head of L&D division of Hetero. He does not know what an English teacher needs to teach English effectively to learners. He must have recruited Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram into L&D department here. Subba Rao is good at English. He makes simple but impressive presentations in training classes through PPTs. He is trying to act smartly before me. He tells me to cook fish curry well without giving me fish, ingredients and dishes. He instructs me to walk two kilometres per hour in a muddy and slippery canal. I know that he is playing the role of a funny villain towards me but he does not know that I am a wizard with skills to play with all kinds of villains. I don’t like initial batch learners also missing anything because of their poorly equipped English instructor. From 8:00 to 9:00 edited the content of November from my diary of 2013 on my computer. Slept by 9:30.

11 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection. By 3:00 Srijana informed me over phone that she got admitted to Shanti Hospital at Tuni this afternoon as she was sensing pains as signs of delivery. Applied for a one-hour permission to go home early. Stepped out of Hetero complex by 5:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Nakkapalli by 5:40. There waited for a medium of transport to Payakaraopeta for 20 minutes. Took an APSRTC bus by 6:00 and reached Y Junction by 6:30. Went to Shanti Hospital by 6:50 on my scooty. Srijana was waiting for the labour pains and the following normal delivery. Her maternal grandmother, parents and Revathi were here. I ensured that Srijana was in a suitable and secure place for her delivery. Dr C S Lakshmi and Srimannarayana of Talli Pillala Hospital are on their inevitable tour to Tirupati now. Sekhar knows A V Naga Lakshmi of Shanti Hospital well. We should have familiar doctor to attend a normal delivery patiently. The rented abode of Sekhar is very close to this place. This is why we chose this hospital for the normal delivery of Srijana. Returned home by 7:45. I could not manage to sleep. A good husband should be near his wife when she is in labour. I came home considering my vulnerability to sleep. By 12:40:45 (on 12.12.2013) Srijana gave birth to a female baby normally. Revathi informed me about it over phone. Slept by some time.

12 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety inspection and spent scanning an English grammar book. I told one or two only about my begetting a female baby. I believe that many need not talk about a natural phenomenon. By 10:00 my brother Sambha came to Shanti Hospital, on his bike, to see the newborn. Some familiar folks wished me on this occasion. The star of the baby is Revathi according to Telugu calendar. The paadham is second one. The thidhi is Dhashami. She weighs about three kilos. She got fair skin colour and black hair. I came up with eight names for her to choose one of them. They are: Ananda Hrudaya, Vasanta Kokila, Kartika Pournami, Rani Pramodini, Tharangini, Geetanjali, Sankeerthana and Mayuri. Srijana and the baby came to our abode by evening from Shanti Hospital. Many of my folks and I are happy about Srijana giving birth to a female baby. Indian girls and women are known for beauty and virtues over the decades but I don’t want to attribute some qualities only to females. Every living being must be provided with freedom and atmosphere to grow happily. A daughter is a reliable support to her mother. Srijana can be happy decorating her daughter. I will beautify Anand. Though all parents like their children alike, gender too partly plays a little role. Woman is the creator of creatures. Man must be her loyal and helpless supporter. Both are necessary in this beautiful and mysterious world of God. Slept by 9:30.

13 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Many believed that 11-12-13 was a unique date because such date with that order of numbers, specifying day, month and year, occurs after some 803 years again. Numerologists establish and sustain such beliefs and practices in their shallow followers. Many modern parents planned to have normal or forced deliveries on this date. It’s not a good practice. Forced deliveries should be avoided by all doctors unless it is a critical condition. Normal delivery is more painful than operated delivery but every mother should prepare herself physically and psychologically for it. There are suitable physical exercises and yoga practices for pregnant women. They enhance healthy growth of babies inside and normal delivery. Pregnant women should spend their time ideally and peacefully, creating such tranquil and soothing ambience, if possible. They should listen to classical instrumental music frequently. The lifestyle and living abodes of mothers deeply affect the physical and psychological growth of the babies in them. There are some centres in India now, which are creating ideal atmosphere for pregnant women. Those that can afford them may join them. Today Srijana and her folks took the newborn to Dr Lalam Satya Narayana in Tuni. He administered BCG and HepB 1 (dose) vaccines to her. He prescribed vitamin E drops of Evion company. Slept by 9:30.

14 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Evening our manager Illuri Subba Rao told me to be prepared for my English classes. I told him that I need four kinds of arrangements to teach English well to Hetero employees. They are: 1. A computer with Internet access. 2. About 10,000 rupees to buy a few English reference books for Hetero learners. 3. A blackboard to write on with chalk pieces. 4. Publication of a booklet with the content I prepared (How to Improve Your English-a 50-slide PPT) to give to all Hetero learners of English that attend my classes. Subba Rao refused to consider any of them as important for me in this process. He appeared like a villain to Hetero employees at Nakkapalli. If the management does not provide me with what I want, I cannot deliver well. Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram became dirty villains of L&D department. They want to play beautiful roles before their superiors to grow in this complex. I don’t want to attract others through artificial words but honest and dedicated work. Subba Rao is an actor. He can’t influence me as a hypocrite. I know how to teach lessons to such idiots, rogues and scoundrels also because Lord Krishna equipped me with such goodness, intelligence and creativity. Subba Rao is a dirty idiot of India. He grants me leaves without questions. He does not want me to be in my seat always. It is like providing a competent and ideal doctor in a hospital with everything he does not need, when there are many sad patients. He needs equipment and encouragement to test and treat them. We should not insult him giving him pen and paper only. Slept by 10:00.

15 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:00 my mother, my brother Srinivas, my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, Kranthi and baby boy Anjaneya Varma came to our rented abode from Peda Gummuluru to see my newborn baby. My father sent 10,000 rupees for me. By 10:30 the maternal grandmother of Srijana and I went to Tuni to buy some things needed for Srijana and my little baby. We returned home by 12:30. I did not get time to spend with my folks when they came to me. They had lunch and left for their respective abodes. Saw them off at Y Junction by 1:20. By 3:00 went to Payakaraopeta to give two cloth pieces to a tailor for stitching. The maternal grandmother of Srijana presented these cloth pieces to me. I saw some folks selling cloth pieces beside the main road in Payakaraopeta. I bought a shirt piece and a piece for a pair of trousers for 500 rupees. They said that they are from Delhi. They were speaking Hindi. They are my guests. I honoured them buying these cloth pieces from them. There are many cloth stores in Tuni and Payakaraopeta. I can buy anywhere. We should respect our guests. This is our essential Indian culture. I gave the two shirt and two trouser cloth pieces to Noor Tailors unit for stitching. They are charging 300 rupees to stitch a shirt and a pair of trousers. I gave 400 rupees towards advance to them. Told them to stitch them by this Saturday. They agreed. Mostly the naming ceremony (Naama Karanam in Telugu) of my baby daughter would be next Sunday. Slept by 9:30.

  

16 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:05 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning met Goli Srinivasa Reddy, the head of non-SEZ. I told him about my four requirements as an English instructor to deliver well. He advised me to update myself. Using a blackboard for teaching is an outdated idea for him. He said that English material may be purchased soon; computer with Internet access can be arranged soon and the booklet with my specially written English content may be printed shortly for Hetero learners. He neither discouraged nor encouraged me with his replies. Jaladurgam Ram, Subba Rao or Gopala Krishna Reddy never asked me about my requirements during the last 100 days. It shows their sense of love and respect for Hetero employees here and Bandi Parthasarathi Reddy. They are playing artificial roles to please him. Subba Rao is the best hypocrite of these three. I realized it observing his character and attitude closely. He does not know how to cheat a dullard also. He is an innocent kid when analyzed from some perspectives. I would change him slowly, indirectly. He can’t withstand my power of intelligence and fury against him directly. I should give him time to realize that he is not as intelligent as he thinks about himself. I am an idealist. I should love people despite some drawbacks and demerits in them. I should not get angry with wrongdoers unless the situation is very critical. I should practice empathy and sympathy. Slept by 9:30.

17 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. My father reared a buffalo. It is pregnant now. It is likely to deliver soon. He thought that it would bring him about 40,000 rupees when sold but buyers are asking it for 30,000 rupees only. It has no such qualities, which buyers expect of a good one to pay well. He decided to sell it at some rate. He has no time and interest to rear it with its calf for milk at home. I wonder about the selfishness of man. He rears different animals and birds for his pleasure or livelihood. Very few develop psychological attachment with them. My father reared this buffalo to get money from the sale of it. It developed psychological attachment with my father, our house and those surroundings for all these months. It goes somewhere once sold. Where does it go? How do they treat it? Man became the biggest criminal on earth. He is craving profits, benefits and comforts always. He manipulates anybody or anything for it. Business is his goal. Money is his vital need. He changes his words and acts depending on a context. He plays beautiful roles to entice others. He smiles for courtesy sake. He cries for formality. I am thoroughly disappointed about this lot of people. Some of them often talk with me about virtues. Many cannot bear direct verbal criticism. They are accustomed to shallow words of praise from others. They live in their dens of filth and lies. Slept by 9:30.

18 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. A priest decided to conduct the naming ceremony of my little baby in the morning hours of this Saturday. Srijana informed most of our familiar folks over phone about this occasion. Evening I gave her 2,000 rupees to buy some items for this celebration. I realized that I cannot bear the presence of many creatures in my abode. They don’t have discipline and good manners. They use resources like LPG, electricity, food items and water carelessly. I advise them many times to avoid them but they don’t change much. They argue with me when I tell them something. They think that I am a fool. I hate those, who consume tea and coffee twice or thrice every day. They disfigure the sink in our kitchen with all such used powders and remains. They have false prestige. I cannot bear the presence of such stupid creatures. They disturb my peace of mind. I am bearing with them because they love me. In near future, I want to create such place of living and ambience, where I need not see these people daily. I don’t allow my brothers also to my special abode unless they possess the qualities I define then. I can’t bear creatures with bad habits and lifestyles. I like a disciplined dog but not a stupid man or woman. I am living the life of an ordinary materialist now. I think I need to live like this for another 10 years. From 8:00 to 9:00 prepared the CV of Vatsavai Raghu Rama Raju (the younger brother of Asha Banu) on my computer. Slept by 9:30.

19 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. I am not getting time for my personal life, as an employee. I start at home by 8:00 every morning to take a Hetero bus at Y Junction. I return home by 7:15 or 7:30 every night by a Hetero bus. I am spending about 10 hours’ time on most of the weekdays as a Hetero employee. I get Sundays only to do my personal work. Many works remain to be done that day. I am unable to see a feature film also that day, now and then. I don’t have time to spend with my wife, children, friends or relatives. Doing a job of this order makes a person selfish and narrow-minded. They don’t read books. They don’t spend their time in social and cultural events. They don’t fulfill their responsibilities as individuals and citizens of a nation. Their knowledge and experiences are limited. They think and fight for their comforts and privileges only. Trade and employee unions are the most selfish associations in any country. They are benefitting largely from the developed status of their nations. Governments are treating them as valuable adopted children. I know about many government and private employees, who are getting lakhs of rupees after death. Many Indians are also dying in accidents and for various other reasons but governments pay little or nothing to them. Ordinary citizens are being treated like orphans in India now. Slept by 9:30.

20 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. Agitators stopped all the employees and vehicles. They sat crying and shouting at the entrance gates of non-SEZ and SEZ. They did not allow any employee in or out. Yesterday night a contract worker died soon after coming out of Hetero complex. He works at a boiler. He may be about 40. He is a native of Neeladri Puram, a village near Peda Gummuluru. The relatives of this contract worker criticized the management of Hetero alleging that he died because of them. By 10:15 local politicians and police arrived to this spot of agitation and hubbub. The representatives of company and agents of the victim talked about this issue. They resolved it peacefully. The two main gates were opened by 11:00. Nobody knows about the actual cause of his death. It may be a health disorder or a problem intensified because of working in hazardous workplace. God only knows the truth. The management of Hetero agreed to pay five lakh rupees to the dependents of this unfortunate man on humanitarian grounds. They paid 10,000 rupees additionally, initially, to help them face this tragedy in their lives. They also said that any dependent of this worker can join this company for employment. Today I did nominal work related to L&D department. Applied for leave tomorrow. Returned home by 7:15. Went to Noor Tailors unit and collected my two pairs of stitched clothes. Bought a sari for Srijana spending 380 rupees in MB cloth store in Payakaraopeta. Slept by 10:00 for my dreams.

21 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 2:00. I could not manage to sleep thereafter. A continuous train of thoughts ran across my brain. Today I am on sick leave. By 8:00 my three maternal aunts, my parents, Sambha, Kranthi, Anjaneya Varma, the folks of Srijana, Anantha Lakshmi, Revathi, her mother and some others got ready in my abode for the naming ceremony of my female baby. A priest came here by 8:30 from Tuni. Srijana and I participated in this ceremony from 8:45 to 9:30. My parents and Sambha desired the name of my baby to be Uma Maheswari. I did not like to disappoint them. The priest advised me to add ‘Sri’ to it based on numerology. So, I named by darling Sri Uma Maheswari formally to satisfy them. I named her Sankeerthana in my command of thoughts. From 10:30 to 11:30 stood in a queue in an  E-seva centre in Tuni to apply for the birth certificate of Sankeerthana. They said their server was down. By 1:00 got the loan amount of my in-laws transferred to the name of Sekhar in Manappuram Finance unit at Tuni. By 2:30 most of my folks left for their abodes. Today Aditya Varma took photos and videos of the naming ceremony with my Sony digital camera. Evening annual cultural program took place in Canossa English Medium School. Anand too played a little role in it. I could not spend with him. Took the maternal grandmother of Srijana to Viswanadhapuram by 6:45 on my scooty. We attended the birthday party of a one-year-old boy there. I collected some sugarcane from the sugarcane collection point near Kodavatipudi for consumption at home. We returned home by 9:30. Slept by 10:00.

22 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today typed up the content of December, from 1 to 21, from my diary of 2013, on my computer. Morning my cousin Bala bought a Tourist version diary of 2014 from Kalyani bookstore in Kakinada for me on my request. I have no time to go there and buy one on my own. He bought an Eagle company diary according to my specifications. I have to get it somehow from there. Morning a marketing agent came to my abode and advised me to buy an RO water purifier for domestic consumption. The best one of them costs me 16,000 rupees. I need it. I want to buy one but I have no money. Shortly afterwards an SBI Life Insurance manager came to my abode. He explained me about an attractive insurance policy. I have to pay one lakh rupees each year for five years. The risk coverage, sum to be obtained or monthly pension that follows from the sixth year is very attractive. I felt like buying this policy but I can’t afford it in my present financial conditions. From 2:30 to 5:00 saw the Telugu film “Biriyani” of Kaarthi and Hansika Motwani in cinema Surya Mahal. It is an exciting and interesting film. Venkat Prabhu made the element of suspense so intense and complicated in this film that 90% of viewers fail to understand it in one go. He explained it towards the climax. Winter is beautiful and soothing now. I am feeling the gentle touch of cold winds in the morning and evening. The sun is keeping me warm and spirited with his kind rays of hope. Slept by 10:15.

23 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. My nephew Suhas came to my abode by 9:00 this morning. He took Simhadri Express in Visakhapatnam along with his parents. They were going to Molleru Mallavaram via Samarla Kota to formally see the maternal grandmother of Sandhya Rani. Suhas got off it in Tuni. It is his 14^th birthday today. He came here to see our baby Sankeerthana. I could not spend much time with him. He asked me to come to see a feature film in a cinema at Payakaraopeta on the occasion of his birthday. I did not accept his proposal. The second show film runs between 9:30 and 12:00 at night. This is sleep time for me. I have to spend a sleepy and dull day if I don’t sleep well the preceding night. I like spending in moonlit nights and night fairs in villages but I am subject to inevitable sleep at night. I avoid staying awake at night mostly for this reason. I need to sleep well for eight hours continuously every day. I watch dreams in my state of sleep every night. Most of these dreams are soothing and sublime. Since I have to do something special to celebrate the birthday of Suhas, I proposed him the idea of playing cards for 10 times. The bet is 10 rupees for each game. We played them in 20 minutes’ time. He won 20 rupees. I gave him 30 rupees to see a film tomorrow in Payakaraopeta. We had sugarcanes by 9:40. Slept by 10:00.

24 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. From 5:00 to 6:30, watched the song and dance presentations of some Hetero employees in SEZ on a special stage. Evening these competitions were conducted as part of the 20-year celebrations of Hetero. Walked about a kilometre from the administrative block in non-SEZ to the SEZ spot of these celebrations. Gandhi Reddy, Kullayi Reddy and Subba Rao were the judges of these presentations. Watched them silently and attentively with admiration for them. About four Hetero employees deeply disturbed me before me. They were shouting crazily, making rude comments about the songs, dances and the ones presenting them on stage. I controlled myself throughout this period of time. They are bastards of India. I hate anybody that insults arts and artists publicly or privately. Nobody has authority to insult an artist except on the grounds of their standards and values. Artists should have high moral standards. They must practice unconditional love and ideals. When Hetero employees were singing and dancing on a stage, they were artists for me for those few minutes at least. I should either encourage them decently or spend there silently. This must be my self-imposed role as a viewer or listener while in a place of cultural event. Came out of this venue furiously by 6:30 feeling wrath against those rogues. Reached home by 8:15 by bus. Afternoon Suhas left for Visakhapatnam by bus. Slept by 10:00.

25 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today sports and games competitions were conducted in the campus of Sri Prakash College in Payakaraopeta, beside NH-16, for Hetero employees, as part of the 20-year celebrations of Hetero. Our manager Subba Rao participated in them as a representative of L&D department. I don’t like sports and games much. The various governments in India made me so. When millions of poor and helpless people are suffering in India without food, shelter and clothes, the governments are spending billions of rupees for the promotion of sports and games. It’s like a nasty Indian playing cards with a prostitute, leaving his parents on streets as beggars. We should not spend public money for gambling and fun when others are suffering with penury and pain. It is against the fundamental responsibilities of a democratic government. People must be treated like kings and queens in a democracy but not like beggars and orphans. In India, politicians and celebrities are enjoying this status now spending public money and resources. Sat in a training hall of Boys Hostel from 10:00 to 12:30, as an English instructor, to tell anybody that comes to this place that English classes would not be started today. Earlier Subba Rao announced this date without planning. I remained quiet to let him use his brain. From 7:45 to 8:30, edited the content of December, from 1 to 21, from my diary of 2013, on my computer, at home. Morning Srijana took the baby to Dr. Suresh in Tuni for general consultation. He said she is well. Slept by 10:00.

26 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Helped Srinivasa Varma prepare a PPT on the concept of boss. He has to give a presentation in the seventh episode of Vedhika tomorrow. He chose this topic for his presentation. He talks about the qualities of a good boss and a bad boss. He collected relevant images and headings from the Internet. I added copy to each of these slides depending on the symbolic representation of the image and heading. There are about 20 slides in it. Today Subba Rao told me that I can start my English classes to Hetero employees from this Saturday. I readily agreed to it. Most of the Hetero employees are interested in learning English. They are feeling grateful to the management of Hetero for providing them with an opportunity to learn English also. Some of them often ask me questions and express doubts related to English. Since they are interested in English, they are more interested in me than Subba Rao or Soma Sundaram in our L&D department. I am younger and more creative than them. Girls are more interested in me than them. They developed an element of jealousy against me for these reasons. They are trying to keep me slow and inactive in delivering my skills, not providing me with what I need as an English instructor here to teach all well. Jaladurgam Ram is supporting them indirectly. I am simply watching this silly game. Slept by 9:30.

27 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Afternoon they conducted the seventh episode of Vedhika in the training hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ from 3:07 to 5:40. I played a nominal role in it as a representative of L&D department. Snacks and tea were made for about 150 participants of this monthly internal event to offer them during break. They could not take a break as per the schedule. They did not announce about the provision of snacks and tea towards the end of this program also. Only 30% of the participants stayed back to have them at the eleventh hour. The company has to pay the food contractor 1,200 rupees for these snacks and tea. Wastage of food is a common phenomenon across places in India. Rich people get many varieties of foods and drinks prepared for their guests on different occasions. We cannot have that many varieties. Once that party or celebration is over, the food contractors dump that stuff somewhere. Today some enthusiasts participated in this program beyond the schedule. They took about 15 minutes’ time. We should run a formal program according to the written schedule strictly. We must softly discourage enthusiasts from participating in a formal event, beyond schedule, explaining them the difficulties involved in handling anything beyond schedule. Today I did not take photos and videos of this occasion considering the remarks of Subba Rao against me last time. Nobody shot this program considerably today. It’s a mistake of L&D department. Its manager is responsible for it. I am just a nominal role player here. Slept by 10:15.

28 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today our manager Subba Rao told me that I have to start my English classes from the 30^th of this month. He did not advise me on how to teach English without the material and arrangements I wanted. He instructs all concerned about the arrangements he wants for a one-hour petty event also but he has no time and interest to maintain the same spirit towards English classes. I can scan his character easily because he is not a master of intelligence or strategy. Today I spent my time actively doing work related to my English classes. Rajesh of IT department copied my files to a CD by 5:00. I took about 15 of my books to my desk till now to use them as reference material in my English classes. Soma Sundaram and Subba Rao gave me the lists of learners of the two batches. I teach one batch of learners from 11:00 to 1:00 and one batch from 3:00 to 5:00. There are about 36 learners in each batch. I will deliver extraordinarily in my English classes. I will command the respect and love of my learners through my influential power of teaching. Subba Rao should feel the power of my abilities and skills indirectly. He should realize that he cannot block the journey of a tempest with a rag. Returned home by 7:25 by bus. Venkata Ramana, the youngest paternal aunt of Srijana, came to my abode by 6:45 this evening from village Peda Brahmadevam. She brought about 20 kilos of fresh paddy from there. Srijana gets rice flakes (Atukulu in Telugu) made from them. Night downloaded five PDFs of English grammar from the Internet to use in my English classes. Slept by 10:30.

29 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Typed up the content of December, from 22 to 28, from my diary of 2013, for one hour. By 9:30 took the maternal grandmother of Srijana to Tuni on my scooty. She bought some items for her. I bought a white vest for me in a cloth store and some other items in a retail store. By 11:40 collected my 2014 Tourist Guide version Eagle diary from the driver of an ordinary APSRTC bus at cinema Sri Rama in Tuni. My cousin Bala gave this diary to him this morning by 9:30 in the bus complex at Kakinada on my advice. He gave 20 rupees to him as a token of affection for doing this favour. I gave two 10-rupee Britannia Good Day biscuit packs to him to honour him. The number of this bus is AP 28 Z 3078. He said that his name is Atchi Raju. From 2:45 to 4:30 saw the Telugu film “Uyyaala Jampaala” in cinema Surya Mahal. Avika Gor is the main attraction of this film. Her arresting beauty and impressive performance chased me throughout the film. There is no dramatic appeal to this film. The dialogues, story, songs and music are quite ordinary. There is no speed of events in it. Many scenes are unnecessary ones. The name of director, Virinchi Varma, is more classic than this film. This film has nothing to offer other than the beauty of Avika Gor and village atmosphere. By 6:00 got 80 copies of my CV printed out on Royal Executive Bond sheets of paper. By 7:00 got Atukulu (rice flakes, made from wet and toasted paddy) made at a place in Payakaraopeta, giving them 120 rupees for it. By 8:00 edited the content of the seven days (22 to 29 in December) in my diary of 2013 on my computer. Slept by 10:30.

30 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. By 10:30 went to a training hall in Boys Hostel on foot. Took about eight of my English books and material along with me to this place. Goli Srinivasa Reddy and Subba Rao talked initially addressing the few learners of English. Thereafter each of the learners introduced himself or herself briefly. Then there was tea break for 15 minutes. I dictated 26 English words to check their proficiency in spelling. They evaluated the answers on their own, checking the words typed out by me on the projector screen. All the listed learners did not come today for this morning class. D Kishore Reddy and I prepared some rules and regulations for the learners of my communicative English classes by 1:00. Had my lunch in this hostel by 1:30 along with Kishore. He is coordinating some L&D activities now. By 3:00 the learners of afternoon batch sat in this classroom. Raghu and Subba Rao talked initially. Then each of the learners introduced himself or herself. Dictated 25 English words for a test of their spelling skills. Most of them did well in it. They took tea break by 4:30. I told them to go to their respective workplaces after tea. All the learners did not attend this class also. I am not happy about the planning and coordination skills of L&D department and the heads of those learners. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Jagannadha Raju, the paternal uncle of Srijana, came to our abode today from Hyderabad. He bought and brought about 60 apples and oranges. Lakshmi, the eldest paternal aunt of Srijana, also came to our abode today. Slept by 9:30.

31 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a bus at Y Junction by 8:20 and reached Hetero complex by 9:03. Today I took the two scheduled communicative English classes at Boys Hostel in the morning and afternoon. Today also all the listed learners did not attend these classes. Today I discussed ‘Correction of Sentences’ in both the classes. I did not give them tea break. I taught each class for two hours. I told them to avoid tea break and focus on learning English. They can have tea and coffee anywhere but they don’t get a good opportunity to learn English everywhere. All of them paid complete attention towards me in both the classes. Stayed back in the office till 6:40, helping Srinivasa Varma write an email related to a safety meeting. Returned home by 7:45 by bus. By 7:30, an amount of 20, 787 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account, from the folks of Hetero, towards my salary for this month. Morning Srijana, Sankeerthana and her folks went to the abode of my in-laws in teak plantation at Marripalem in a car. Anand had already gone there. Tomorrow the first death anniversary of Ramana Raju takes place there. So, all his sons and daughters are attending it. They invited their close relatives also to this occasion. Night typed up and edited the content of 29 and 30 in December from my diary of 2013 on my computer. The year of 2013 is bidding me farewell. It loved and guided me like a kind mother and visionary father. My warm and deep wishes to it. Slept by 11:30. 

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