1 January (Sunday)
Woke up by 8:00. The latter half of last night presented Swagata Gupta in my dream. She appeared me like a brilliant star of imposing beauty. This dream had three parts. The first part symbolized that she has a lot of admiration for me and also that I am a great admirer of her. The second part symbolized that she is in the company of such male friends who use her innocence to their advantage. They are good at backbiting. She is an innocent creature. So, she is being subjected to the cunning nature of her trusted friends. The third part presented that we had an ideal relationship sometime ago (perhaps in our previous births). I was filled with pity for this beauty throughout the day recollecting this classic dream. May my Lord Krishna save her from evil and suffering and guide her toward happiness and success. Morning read Eenadu for three hours. Went to Malakpet by 11:30 to check the beauty of Jyothi, a prospective bride for my friend Veeru. I found that she is taller and heavier than him and so an absolute mismatch to him. Evening withdrew 2400 rupees from the ATM Center of Andhra Bank at Nallakunta. Kiran and I paid 2,000 rupees toward monthly portion rent, water and electricity charges to the owner of our abode. Night we had tasty supper with curd and chicken curry. Washed my clothes by 8:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
2 January (Monday)
Woke up by 5:20. Last night Swagata Gupta decorated my dreamland. It was a classic of feelings of admiration for one another. Though we have been behaving as aliens in our office, we are deeply in love with each other. I enjoy her presence in our office. She regrets my absence in the office even for a few hours. We are so attached psychologically to each other that we are trying to keep distance in our office environment, not to allow others to suspect that we are lovers. This dream provided me with bliss. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:40. Took my seat of work by 8:20. Morning typed out and posted a poem titled “31st Night 2005” on my blog site of Google. This poem seeks to paint the bliss of my dream of last night in a readable form. Today I edited one article of The ICFAI Journal of Systems Management. Today, Swagata Gupta, my goddess of beauty, did not come to the office. I silently bore the pain caused by her absence in our floor. Returned to my abode by 6:00. Took two pairs of my clothes to the nearby washerwoman for ironing. I was feeling tired and so could not start my computer system for editing my diary of 1995. Listened to my favorite Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for 90 minutes. I was falling asleep in between. Had my supper by 9:00. I have been suffering from cold for the last 20 days. Went to sleep by 10:30.
3 January (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Today Swagata Gupta came to the office. I felt very happy to witness her presence in the office after two days of separation. She sits among her female colleagues during lunchtime. I spend sadly being unable to talk with her. Today I was partially involved in the editing of South Asian Journal of Management. Afternoon my colleague Jerry Thomas said that I am an insane person in the sense that I am wasting a lot of money and time in the pursuit of processing my 12 books and planning to get them published. I realized that he knows almost nothing about me as a creative writer. Evening received a New Year greeting card from my cousin Narendra Varma in Kakinada. He wished me sweet and successful year 2006. Returned to my abode by 6:00. Rested for two hours. Had my supper by 8:30. Kiran and I went out on his bike. I bought a beautiful cotton blanket for 260 rupees. Thereafter bought one mattress, one pillow and two pillow covers for 320 rupees. For long I have been sleeping on a mat covering myself with a light bed sheet. These items make my life comfortable and cozy. Today Kiran bought a broom and swept our portion energetically. The cold of winter is ferocious outside. Even today I could not edit my diary. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
4 January (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Morning I started typing out a blog titled “The Blest Night” to post on my blog site of Google. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing the content of South Asian Journal of Management. Today Swagata Gupta wore a beautiful dress. I could not look at her being busy with my office work. Evening my colleague Jerry Thomas commented that my writings need to be improved a lot. I took it positively but challenged him to write one-page text on any topic he likes as interestingly as I can. He is scared of giving me the address of his website also. He could not disclose the name of a person, who sent him an email, making fun of my recent farewell speech addressing our former Executive Editor Ch Rajeswar. I told him that one must substantiate one’s comments with reliable and appreciable proofs to change another person. People, who fail to be honest, bold and frank in their opinions and expressions, can seldom change or impress others. Jerry Thomas seems to be such a passive character to me. Returned to my abode by 6:15. My faculty of creativity got affected due to the impact of comments of Jerry Thomas today on my writings. I could not continue typing out my blog, which I started this morning. Read something for some time. Had my supper by 8:00. Spent talking with Kiran for some time. The realization that I am unable to edit my diary of 1995 is paining me. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
5 January (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:50. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Morning typed out and added one more page to my blog titled “The Blest Night”. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of the content of The ICFAI Journal of Systems Management. Morning Swagata Gupta came to me to introduce a new sub editor, who joined us today. I felt very happy seeing her near me in that context. Her voice is sweet. She wore black jeans and a sky-blue top today. I observed that she was feeling a little uneasy to stand near me. She has admiration for me in her heart. I found it studying her behavior secretly and analytically. I felt as if a classic dream was passing by me when she was going away from me. She is honeypot of our floor. Returned to my abode by 6:00. Morning the male owner of our abode failed to fill drinking water, being supplied by Hyderabad Municipality, into our containers. We borrowed a bottle of water from them to have our supper. Evening typed out and added two more pages to my blog titled “The Blest Night”. There is a statue of Lord Krishna in our main room. I don’t know to whom it belongs. It is in a window and toward our heads when we sleep. He likes me and so spending near me. What do I need more than that? I am sleeping well after buying mattress and blanket. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
6 January (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar, two bananas at a pushcart and reached our office by 7:40. Scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and added one more page to my blog titled “The Blest Night”. From 9:00 to 12:00 carried out the editing of an article of The ICFAI Journal of Systems Management. Afternoon had a plate of chapatis in Anu’s Hotel for 14 rupees. Afternoon typed out and added three more pages to my ongoing blog and completed it. Today I got a small diary of 2006 prepared for the employees of ICFAI. Today Swagata Gupta did not come to the office. Exceptional beauty is irresistible feast to my eyes. I feel abandoned in its absence. I don’t know if she is maintaining many admirers as told by my colleague Vijay Krishna. I develop psychic attachment with familiar female beauty to feel that I also belong to it in some sense. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Edited the ongoing blog for two hours. Had my supper by 9:15 along with my cousin Kiran. The bitter gourd fry was tasty. I am bearing with the nuisance of cold helplessly blowing my nose once for every hour. I feel that Swagata is in love with me if she regularly comes to the office. I visualize and fear that she may leave this office soon if she is on leave for any reason. Went to sleep by 10:45.
7 January (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. I am taking a Revital tablet soon after every breakfast to avoid deficiency of vitamins and minerals in my body. This energizing drug is being manufactured by Ranbaxy Pharmaceutical Company in India. Today I was involved in editing my blog titled “The Blest Night” from 8:30 to 4:30. Posted it on my blog site of Google by 4:45. This morning my cousin Shiva called me up and asked me to lend him 1000 rupees. Thereafter my friend Dantuluri Shiva Varma called me up from Darlapudi and informed me that he would come to Hyderabad soon to personally attend and clear the issue of his love with Swati Maitreyi, who is presently working with Maa television channel as an anchor. Today Swagata Gupta came to the office in a beautiful Punjabi dress. She intentionally looked at me twice. I felt happy at it. Came back to my abode by 6:10. Kiran and I went to cinema Sandhya by 8:50 on his bike to see the Telugu film “Jai Chiranjeeva” of Chiranjeevi. There were no tickets. I felt a bit disappointed. He already saw it. Came back to my abode by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
8 January (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:30. Took a head bath by 7:30. Went out and bought a copy of Eenadu. Read it from 9:00 to 11:30. Carried out the Error Report work of MBA Review magazine for two hours. Had my lunch along with Kiran by 1:30. Then we took his bike and started to Dilsukh Nagar. We reached cinema Konark by 2:00. The ticket counter of 35 rupees was already closed. A guy, selling tickets in black, was openly offering us our desired things. We hesitated to buy them at such high prices. We saw a long queue at the ladies counter. We bought two tickets for 100 rupees. I felt furious about the regulatory mechanism of the government. Selling tickets at cinemas in black became an ordinary thing. Police don’t mind it. We had two glasses of almond flavored sweet milk for ten rupees at a pushcart by road there. We saw the Telugu film “Jai Chiranjeeva” of Chiranjeevi from 3:00 to 6:30. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. Traffic jammed for 30 minutes on road. Traffic police arrived soon and cleared it. We returned to our abode by 7:30. We had our supper by 8:30. Kiran told me about his experiences of audit tour in North India four months ago. He said that he saw exceptional living female beauty in Mumbai. He observed western culture at its advanced stage in this city. Public display of physical scenes of love attract the looks of both orthodox and modern creatures in many places. Gurgaon is another place with posh malls and striking female beauty. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
9 January (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a hotel by Punjagutta Crossroads and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as the authorized signatory on behalf of our librarian Prakash. Today I was thoroughly involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Marketing Management. This evening I found that the folder of my journal related work on my computer system was deleted. I felt very disturbed about it. I heard that many files disappeared from the computer systems of other staff also earlier. I put my files of journals in my sharing folder. It can be completely accessed and altered by others sharing it. Today the unidentified villain of our office targeted at my ignorance and innocence in this regard. I suspect that some passive admirer of Swagata Gupta would have done it. Perhaps he must have found that she admires me. He is unable to compete with my handsomeness and creativity liked by some girls in this office. I felt furious at him internally. Spent talking with Sutapa Patnaik till 6:00. Came to the bus stop by 6:30. No bus was found light. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached New Nallakunta by 7:00. Paid him 41 rupees. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
10 January (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banraja Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Today I was thoroughly involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Marketing Management. Before releasing the material of this journal to the printing press, our operations manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa severely rebuked me. The author of an article did not sign his copyright statement, clearly providing his name. I failed to communicate with the consulting editor of this journal at Bangalore about this issue in the manner expected by our operations manager. Meanwhile our Executive Editor G R K Murthy came there. Our Team Leader Sutapa Patnaik was also there. Murthy taught me about the organizational behavior and the discipline of cadre supposed to be maintained by me as a sub editor, to be respected and appreciated by my colleagues and superiors. I could not bear his words. He is old in appearance but seems like a kid compared to my level of understanding about human life and world. I pitied his egoistic argument aimed at reforming me. I decided to quit this firm formally. It was already 7:00. Came to the bus stop by 7:15. Took a heavily filled bus and reached my abode by 8:00. I am disturbed thinking about Swagata Gupta. She gets hurt if I leave this firm now thinking that I did so only because of her. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
11 January (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:40. Morning typed out my resignation letter to leave ICFAI University Press as a sub editor. First I took it to our Administrative Manager K V Rao. He advised me to give it to our Operations Manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa. He read my letter and told me to give it to our Executive Editor G R K Murthy. He read my letter and appreciated my confidence as a creative writer and my boldness in taking my life as a challenging one. By this afternoon I could send the final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Systems Management to its consulting editor in Chennai. Afternoon carried out the processing work of The ICFAI Journal of Entrepreneurship Development. Took a bus by 5:20 and reached Shivam Road by 6:10. Spent in the Global View Internet café from 6:15 to 8:20. I uploaded the photos of a Russian beauty into my blog site of Google. I scanned various photos and finalized four of them. Came back to my room by 8:45 on foot. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:10. Had my supper by 9:30. Meanwhile Kiran came. We spent talking for half an hour. My wishes to Swagata Gupta. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
12 January (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banrara Durbar and went to our office by 7:45. Morning took some of my writings to give to our Executive Editor G R K Murthy to read. Our office boy John stopped me from entering his room saying that he would not be in a good mood in the morning being seriously involved in his office work. Today I edited three articles of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies. It is the inaugural issue of this quarterly journal. I edited two articles written by the faculty members of Department of English at the University of Hyderabad. One article was written by Pramod K Nayar on Amar Chitra Katha and the other by Professor Alladi Uma and Reader M Sridhar. I found the language quality and scholarly debate in these two articles very interesting. I felt very happy for editing the works of my teachers. Today, Swagata Gupta, the beauty queen in our floor, looked very busy attending the work of release of a magazine along with her team leader B Shalini. She often came into our journal section to meet the staff in art department. It was my pleasure to see her walking proudly with a smile on her face. Returned to my abode by 6:15. Had my supper along with Kiran by 8:30. Read the Telugu daily Eenadu and Telugu film weekly Sitara for two hours. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.
13 January (Friday)
Woke up by 7:30. Read the Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. A boy from the nearby ladies hostel brought the breakfast of puris for us in two containers. There were eight items. Kiran and I equally shared them. We reached cinema Sudarshan at RTC Crossroads by 9:45 on his bike. There was no presence of audience at all. We went to a nearby hotel and had two samosas for six rupees. Thence we walked to a nearby pushcart and had two glasses of sugarcane juice for eight rupees. We could easily get the tickets. We saw the Telugu film “Style” of Lawrence Raghavendra and Prabhu Deva from 11:00 to 2:00. We enjoyed a lot watching it. We came back to our abode by 2:30. We had our lunch by 3:00. Today it is Bhogi, the day of bonfire for Hindus. We could not celebrate it in a traditional way. The daughter of the owner of our rented portion was flying a kite along with her brother and other friends on the terrace. I wanted to go there and observe the beauty of view from there. There are no stairs to go up. I regretted it. That girl wore black glasses for decoration sake. She would have felt happy if my cousin Kiran or I had watched her playing with the kite. Her parents may suspect our affection for her. Her brother was playing Telugu cine songs aloud on their tape recorder over there. I spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
14 January (Saturday)
Woke up by 7:30. Today it is Sankranthi. The residents of our nearby houses were flying kites from the terraces of their favorite places. I spent all my time typing out a blog titled “The Princess of East India”. The name of the protagonist is Swagata Gupta, my colleague in ICFAI University Press. She is a wonder of beauty. I created this short story of ten pages to express my sense of admiration and affection for her. She goes to the head of our department, with a magazine in her hands to be released, taking her team leader Shalini along with her. She looks innocent but talks like a big woman while among her female colleagues. Nowadays she is going out during our lunch break to get something from outside to eat. She comes to the office on time in the morning and leaves it early in the evening. She came to do this job from West Bengal. She is an inspiration for my lonely and lovesick heart. I never get a chance to talk with her in our office. I decided to do something great for her on this Sankranti. I could successfully complete this blog by 8:00. I majestically portrayed the imaginary character of Swagata Gupta in this story. An admirer of beauty like me cannot offer a better gift than this to such an angel of beauty. I don’t know much about her personal life. This allowed me to present her character in a fantastic and ideal manner. I achieved a great thing today finishing this blog. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
15 January (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:30. Today I spent all my time editing my blog titled “The Princess of East India”. I spent about eight hours to give it a fine look. I presented the character of Swagata Gupta in a very ideal and impressive way. She is very beautiful and intelligent but spends all her youth with lovesickness and solitude. She marries a young and handsome man in her 42nd year. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road on bike along with Kiran by 6:10. I posted this blog on my blog site of Google. I searched for the photo of a very beautiful woman for 150 minutes. I scanned about 2000 profiles of Russian brides for this purpose. I found one photo only suitable for the title of this blog. The protagonist in this story is an extraordinary beauty. I cannot add ordinary photo to this story for this reason. This blog got a good look after adding the photo of a Russian beauty. Returned to our abode by 8:30 along with Kiran. We had our supper by 9:00. I again checked the beauty of that Russian woman on my computer. She is very attractive. I don’t know her name or place of existence. She is a token of admirable female beauty. I posted her photo in a right place. Washed a pair of clothes by 10:20. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
16 January (Monday)
Woke up by 6:45 with the help of Kiran. Freshened up myself hurriedly and rushed out. Hired an auto rickshaw on main road and moved to the bus stop by 7:30. Bought a pack of Britannia Tiger cream biscuits for four rupees and went to our office. Got it opened by 8:15. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies. Rich language of these writers and the great treatment of their themes delighted me immensely. Many expect such writings from the masters of English literature. I felt proud of my branch of professionals and artists. Today, Swagata Gupta, my goddess of beauty, wore a beautiful dress. She did not have her lunch in our floor this afternoon along with her dear female colleagues. I thought that she read my blog titled “The Princess of East India” which I wrote praising the beauty and majesty of her life. She must have failed to face me due to inhibition that developed after reading it. I caught a glimpse of her in our floor in the wash room when she was washing her lunch box along with her female colleagues. This evening I gave some of my writings to our Executive Editor G R K Murthy for pleasure of reading. Returned to my abode by 6:15. Had my supper by 8:30 along with Kiran. We rushed to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 8:50 on his bike. We could not get tickets for Telugu film “Lakshmi” of Venkatesh. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
17 January (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 8:15. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banraja Durbar and bought two bananas for three rupees. Morning I prepared one page of farewell speech to be made in the presence of my colleagues while bidding farewell to our colleague Vijay Krishna. Our operations manager P K Ramappa did not come to the office today. They postponed this program to tomorrow for this reason. Today I was deeply involved in journal work. I could finish the editing of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies by this afternoon. It is the only journal I found very interesting among many I edited so far. P Prabhakara Rao, the consulting editor of this journal, wrote extraordinary foreword commenting on the significance of articles published in this journal. His comments are scholarly. They add attraction to this journal. This afternoon I spotted Swagata Gupta at a hotel near our office. She gave a smile sensing my movement past her. She is such magnet of grace. Returned to my abode by 6:30. Started typing out a blog titled “An Unposted Letter” on my computer and completed one page. Last night I could not sleep well. I became weak due to it by this evening. Had my supper along with Kiran by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
18 January (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 7:00. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Entrepreneurship Development. From 2:30 to 3:30 the farewell function to our outgoing colleagues Vijay Krishna and Jobin Thomas took place in the small conference room in our third floor. The editorial teams of both the journal and magazine sections attended it. Our operations manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa also attended it. Swagata Gupta came in a beautiful new dress and shone among us like a full moon. She sat in somewhat back row of chairs. I could not look at her satisfactorily due to the presence of many around me. They presented a pen and a diary as gifts to Vijay Krishna and an English dictionary to Jobin Thomas. I read out my farewell message addressing my colleague Vijay Krishna. Swagata remained silent throughout and moved out after this meeting. I felt as if a star was walking out. After the office hours, I went to the rented abode of Vijay Krishna along with him on his bike. It is at West Marredpally in Secunderabad. I helped him carry his complimentary journals home in two bags sitting and holding them at the back of his bike. He dropped me at Rethifile Bus Stand by 8:00. Took a bus and returned to my abode by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:30. I was already thoroughly tired. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.
19 January (Thursday)
Woke up by 3:30. I could not sleep till 4:30. Then I was falling asleep. There was no time to sleep. Washed a pair of clothes and took a bath by 6:50. Went to the bus stop by 7:15. Had a plate of idlies for seven rupees. Entered our office by 7:40. Scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and added some more content to my blog titled “An Unposted Letter” till 9:00. Until afternoon carried out the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Entrepreneurship Development. Meanwhile dizziness attachked me. Somehow went to Sai Ganapathi Hotel and had a plate of Gobi Rice for 14 rupees. It hardly contains nutritional value. Thereafter had a glass of fruit salad. It was to tackle my giddiness. Afternoon attended the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Systems Management. Simultaneously I carried out the processing of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies. Dizziness was on in me. Today my darling Swagata Gupta looked solemn sensing my disturbed psyche in the aftermath of my colleague Vijay Krishna’s departure from our office. She is such a fantastic girl. She came in a pink Punjabi dress today. Returned to my abode by 6:30. This morning my cousin Raghupathi came here from Jaggampeta by bus. He wants to do a software course at Ameerpet in Hyderabad before flying off to the USA. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
20 January (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:45. Scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:10. Typed out and added some more text to my blog titled “An Unposted Letter” till 9:00. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Entrepreneurship Development. Today also my sweetheart Swagata Gupta spent her office time passively sitting in her seat of work. She wore a blue Punjabi dress today. I enjoyed her presence in the office. Came back to my abode by 6:30. I could luckily get a seat in a thickly packed bus. I felt sleepy when the bus was moving. This fatigue was due to the constant contact of my eyes with the computer screen. I am eating worthless foods in hotels. Typed out and added two more pages to my blog titled “An Unposted Letter”. Kiran returned from his coaching center by 8:40. Both of us had our supper by 9:00. The little amount of rice being sent from the nearby ladies hostel is not enough for us to eat. Lord Krishna is guiding me staying in my room in the form of a statue. He knows how to direct me and with whom to connect me in the form of marriage. I am waiting for that happy event in my life. Slowly it is getting hot hinting the arrival of summer. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
21 January (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:20. Took a bus by 6:50 and reached the NIMS bus stop by 7:20. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:40. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s English dailies for ten minutes. By 9:15 finished typing out my blog titled “An Unposted Letter” on computer. I have to edit it before posting it on my blog site of Google. Today I was partially involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Systems Management. It was supposed to be released this evening to the printing press but for our operations manager P K Ramappa. He objected two copyright statement letters faxed by the authors of two articles. One letter was signed by one author on behalf of the remaining two authors. He wants it to be signed even by the other two authors individually. Another author wrongly filled in the information regarding the submission of his article to this press for publication. I consider them as petty things. He is an adamant and eccentric creature. Today Swagata Gupta came in a blue dress and calmly attended her office work. Came back to my abode by 6:00. My cousin Shiva came from Banraja Hills by 8:30. Both of us saw the Telugu film “Lakshmi” of Venkatesh in cinema Mega at Dilsukh Nagar, buying two 45 rupee tickets for 120 rupees in the black. Went to sleep by 1:30 for my dreams.
22 January (Sunday)
Woke up by 7:00. Washed a pair of clothes and had a head bath by 9:00. Had the breakfast of Upma sent from the nearby ladies hostel by 9:30. Read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Carried out the Error Report work of Treasury Management magazine of ICFAI University Press from 10:00 to 3:30. Had my lunch by 2:00 along with Kiran. In the Eenadu of yesterday, there was an invitation for poetry in Telugu. The best entries would be selected by noted Telugu Film Lyricist Bhuvana Chandra and published in it on coming Valentine’s Day. The poetry should not exceed eight small lines. It must be written and sent on a postcard only. I wrote Telugu poetry for this purpose. I am a committed believer and follower of the concept of love between a man and a woman. I wrote this small piece with the realization and competitive spirit that it won’t be selected unless it presents the soul of love in a touching manner. I am competing with many creative people in this competition. There are no gifts for the selected ones. Participation counts. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 5:00 to 6:00. Read the Telugu film weekly Sitara from 6:15 to 7:30. The temperature in the twin cities is increasing slowly hinting the advent of summer in a big way soon. Had my supper by 9:15. My eyes became weak by the evening due to much reading throughout the day. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams presented by God.
23 January (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and supplemented it with two bananas. Got our office opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. Today I was involved in releasing the content of The ICFAI Journal of Systems Management to the printing press and sending the final version of The ICFAI Journal of Entrepreneurship Development to its consulting editor for scrutiny. Today also P K Ramappa rebuked me severely showing a reason for his anger. I did not mind it. Today, Swagata Gupta, my goddess of beauty, came in a very beautiful dress. I could not even look at the design of her Punjabi dress feeling shy in our office environment. I suffered internally being unable to see her satisfactorily. She is a bright star of exceptional beauty. Spending in her presence is a boon to esthetes like me. Evening she stood behind me when I was swiping my attendance card. May God bless her with pleasant smiles and blossoming beauty. She is a wonder on the soil of India. Spent in Global View Internet café from 6:00 to 9:00 searching for the photos of beautiful women to post on my blog site of Google soon along with my latest blog. I scanned 3000 photos and spotted three considerable ones. Had my supper by 9:45. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
24 January (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:20. The cool winds of early morning were kindly greeting me. Took a bus by 6:50 and reached the NIMS bus stop by 7:20. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 7:40. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Completed editing my blog titled “An Unposted Letter” by 11:20 and posted it on my blog site of Google. The photo of a European woman, which I added in the beginning of this blog, is looking fantastic. Today I did not do even a little editing work related to my position in the office. This morning my father called me up from Adduroad. He said that my brother Sambha and somebody else would come to Hyderabad in the first week of next month. They want me to see a Kshatriya bride. She is working with HCL Technologies in Hyderabad now. I agreed on everything he told. Swagata Gupta is my choice. If God can motivate her toward falling in love with me, I will be grateful to Him. I can live happily with her. Today she came in a new Punjabi dress. I could not see her face or dress today satisfactorily. I regretted it. Returned to my abode by 6:00. I asked for a bottle of water and the daughter of the owner of our rented portion gave it with a smiling face. Listened to Telugu film songs from 6:30 to 8:30 on my Walkman. Lord Krishna is directing my life in this room. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by Him.
25 January (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast and went to our office by 7:30. Today I did not do even a little editing work. I spent browsing the Internet and scanning beauty on various websites. Afternoon checked many websites carrying the name Swagata Gupta. At last found her somewhat vague photo on the website of Jadavpur University. She was photographed when sitting under a tree along with another woman. Her face is not clearly visible. I could identify her observing her hairstyle (bob) and the shape of her body. She wore a blue dress. It is looking marvelous on her body. She has a few papers on her lap and posing as if she is talking something with her friend or teacher. I copied that photo from there and posted it in the beginning of my blog titled “31st Night 2005” on my blog site of Google. Today I could see her photo by the grace of God. She is such a goddess of beauty. Today I saw her twice in our office. I felt relieved of my pain. This morning I started typing out a new blog titled “Delegated Duty” and completed one page of it. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Typed out and added two more pages to my latest blog mentioned above. Had my supper by 9:30. This morning cold caught me due to the entry of cool winds from window and movement of our ceiling fan inside. My dreams were not disturbed. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
26 January (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:30. This morning I avoided taking a bath to celebrate the Republic Day of India specially. Today I spent typing out the blog titled “Delegated Duty”. It was over by 5:30. My cousin Raghupathi and I went out and hired an auto rickshaw up to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. We found that tickets were already sold at these two cinemas. Thence we hired another auto rickshaw and reached cinema Shalini at Kothapeta near Dilsukh Nagar. He bought two tickets for 70 rupees. We came out of it and strolled along the main road for some time. We sensed that this area is very dusty and so we walked back to this cinema very soon. They allowed us into the lounge by 6:30. Some audience sat in chairs. Some stood up for lack of space to sit. Some were buying the available snacks and drinks being influenced by impulsive shopping disorder. We remained balanced in this setting controlling our senses. We entered the space of main seats by 6:45. Local ads were showed for ten minutes. We saw the Telugu film “Chukkallo Chandhrudu” in the first show. The hero is Siddharth. There are three heroines in it. It is directed well. It has an interesting love story centered on the hero. We took an auto rickshaw from there and reached Dilsukh Nagar by 9:30. Thence we took another auto rickshaw and reached Shivam Road by 9:50. Thence we took another auto rickshaw and reached our abode by 10:00. We had our supper by 10:30. Cold is high outside. Today I spent my time happily and meaningfully. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
27 January (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:30. Today I knew that Padma Bhushan is awarded to the Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi by the Government of India considering his contribution to social service and his worth as a film actor. He is a good man. I felt happy because he received that great honor at such age. Posted my blog titled “Delegated Duty” on my blog site of Google by 12:10. Today I got an email from the AdSense team of Google. They approved my request to consider my blog site for placing their ads. It means that the blogs I typed out and posted on my blog site have a little readership potential. I felt very happy about this achievement. I receive money based on the number of clicks by readers on the ads posted on my blog site by Google. Today my darling Swagata Gupta came twice near me on her way to the art department. Her face was cool and shiny as a full moon. I enjoyed the brilliance of her smiling face. My life is at her doorstep. She may accept it if I am lucky. May God guide us. This afternoon I attended the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Entrepreneurship Development. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Had my supper by 9:00 along with Kiran. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
28 January (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to the office by 7:30. Got it opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Today I was involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Entrepreneurship Development. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta came in a pink Punjabi dress. She came twice to our floor. When I happened to see her face-to-face, I found her a little upset. I felt disturbed observing her in such passive and depressive mood. May my Lord Krishna console and direct her toward happiness. She is a budding rose in the garden of God. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. By 7:00 Kiran and I went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road. Both of us spent there till 9:15. Today I allowed the automated network of Google to post its ads on my blog site named www.golmalgovindam.blogspot.com. I get money if readers/visitors click on the ads posted on my blog site or read my posts on it for long. I checked my AdSense account of Google and found that I already earned a few US dollars. I felt very happy about it. I checked a few Google ads posted on my blog site. They are attractive. May God bless me in this respect. We came back to our abode by 9:30. Our KSS hostel mate Murali came and spent talking with us for one hour. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
29 January (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:30. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 9:30. Today I spent most of my time typing out and editing my blog titled “Ninny Meets Zinmeen” which was started this morning. Last night my team leader Sutapa Patnaik visited me in my dream. This dream signified that she wants to be a good friend of mine and thus a close relative to my family members also. She is my good friend in our office. She is a married girl and a beautiful creature. She is a close friend of my goddess Swagata Gupta. She daily spends with her during our lunchtime. I don’t have luck to talk with Swagata, a temple of Indian beauty. May God bless these two creatures. Afternoon read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for two hours. Got two pairs of my clothes ironed by 6:30. Our rented portion is near main road. When we keep windows open, dust enters our space and settles there silently. My computer is also being covered with dust. I am disgusted with it. There is no enough space to put my clothes for drying up in the open. Sunlight does not touch our wet clothes till 2:00 or so. Sweeping our space daily became an issue for us. Kiran employed a domestic to do it. She is not doing her duty because of our time management problems. My prayers to my Lord Krishna to bless me. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
30 January (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened by 8:00 as the authorized signatory on behalf of Prakash, our librarian. Typed out and added one more page to my blog titled “Ninny Meets Zinmeen” by 9:00. Today I carried out the editing work of two journals of two of my colleagues and helped them. Today it is the last day of work in our office for our DTP Operator Sonesh. He got a job with Satyam Computers. Each one, working in our floor, contributed 20 rupees to buy a farewell gift for him. It was celebrated casually around 2:30 in our journals section. The staff of magazines section also came. My beauty queen Swagata Gupta was also there among them. She was in a crimson Punjabi dress spreading the fragrance of her brilliant beauty. I thanked God for allowing me to see her on this occasion. She maintained a smiling face. I thought that it was meant for me only. This afternoon I was snapped with a digital camera by an art department staff member for a photo to be published in the Effective Executive magazine of our press. I was pointing my right index finger at an image on a computer. I checked this photo in a few minutes on their computer. It looked ugly. I don’t appear well in side profile unless the cameraman/photographer is an artist. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog working on it from 6:30 to 8:30. Had my supper by 9:00 along with Kiran. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
31 January (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:30 along with my cousin Raghupathi. He was going to attend his coaching class at Ameerpet by bus along with me. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and reached our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory and took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and added one more page to my blog titled “Ninny Meets Zinmeen” by 9:15. Today I spent most of my time editing the content of The ICFAI Journal of Applied Finance to help my colleague Mamata. She joined our press recently. She is slow in editing. By afternoon I could release the material of The ICFAI Journal of Entrepreneurship Development to the printing press. It should have been released ten days ago. Today Swagata Gupta wore a new green Punjabi dress. I could not see her clearly during the office hours. She is not coming to our floor frequently. I am hurt at it. I could glance at her when she was swiping her attendance card in the evening. She was feeling shy to look at my face. She is regularly visiting me in my dreams. May God bless her. Came back to my abode by 6:00 by bus. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog. I spent this month happily. My admiration for Swagata made my time enjoyable. I actively typed out and posted blogs on my blog site of Google. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
1 February (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:40. Morning I did not add content to my blog titled ”Ninny Meets Zinmeen”. Kept searching for images on Google till 9:15. Spent rest of the time editing one article of The ICFAI Journal of Applied Finance and one article of The ICFAI Journal of Urban Policy. The latter is inaugural issue. My colleagues Mamata and Manisha are handling these two journals. I helped them because the material of my scheduled journal did not arrive yet. Morning I found the beautiful photo of a girl on Google. I added it in the beginning of my blog titled “Delegated Duty” replacing the old one. The name of this girl is Basanti. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Spent eating a few homemade eatables for some time. Kiran and I went out on his bike to buy a big water container for our domestic use. We bought one for 450 rupees. It can store 100 litres of water. We returned to our abode by 7:30. Today Swagata Gupta came in a crimson Punjabi dress. I could not see her face even for once. I regret it. I enjoyed her presence. My monthly salary from ICFAI is not yet credited to my bank account. Had my supper by 8:30 along with Kiran. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
2 February (Thursday)
Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Withdrew 5,000 rupees from my account at the ATM Center of Andhra Bank near NIMS Hospital. Had three bananas and a pack of biscuits for my breakfast. Got our office opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. Today I spent most of my time editing the articles of The ICFAI Journal of Urban Policy. Today Swagata Gupta spent in an absolutely indifferent manner toward me. I could not see her face even for once. This evening Pradeep Kumar Ramappa talked badly with me. I was hurt by his treatment. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Kiran and I went to the ATM Center of HDFC Bank near Shivam Temple on his bike by 6:30. I deposited 5000 rupees in cash. My savings account with this bank has been with a balance of 37 rupees for the last four months. I tried to reactivate it with this deposit. This evening I collected the credit card of ICICI Bank from a courier representative in our office showing my identity card as proof of originality. I did not open that envelope today. This evening I typed out and added one more page to my blog titled “Ninny Meets Zinmeen”. This morning also I added one more page. I have to add one more page to finish it up with ten pages. Had my supper by 9:30. Morning my brother Sambha called me up from Adduroad and informed me about his arrival to Hyderabad soon. Went to sleep by 10:30.
3 February (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:45. Morning typed out and added one more page to my blog titled “Ninny Meets Zinmeen” and finished it. Today I saw Swagata Gupta many times in the magazines section. She wore a fantastic Punjabi dress. I felt very happy seeing her that beautifully. Her face was shining like a star in the galaxy. She too looked at me lovingly. I thanked my Lord Krishna for blessing me with that bliss. I found all my day delightful due to the blessings of her looks at me. Today I received my income tax refund of last financial year from the office at Ramkoti in Hyderabad. By 12:40 went to the nearby branch of Andhra Bank (Somajiguda) and deposited that cheque worth 5120 rupees, issued by Reserve Bank of India. Afternoon my brother Srinivas called me up from a place near Rajahmundry and told me to buy and send an MP3 CD of gazhals of Jagjit Singh. This evening my brother Sambha starts from Tuni railway station by Visakha Express to Secunderabad. Came back to my abode by 6:30. This evening I saw the photo of my goddess Deepthi in Telugu film weekly Sitara in their family photo. She is very cute. Had my supper along with Kiran by 9:00. The cold of winter is still there outside. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
4 February (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. My cousin Kiran and I hired an auto rickshaw and reached Secunderabad railway station by 7:15. Mumbai-Bhubaneswar (Konark) Express arrived by 7:40. Both of us talked with Naren, the younger brother of Kiran, for ten minutes. He is going to his home in Jaggampeta from Mumbai. Bhubaneswar-Secunderabad (Visakha) Express arrived by 8:20. We received my brother Sambha and one of his friends from Adduroad. I took a bus near this railway station and reached our office by 9:00. Today I spent much of my time discussing the pending inputs of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology with Ramappa and Sutapa. I observed that its consulting editor A C Ojha was nicely being insulted by Ramappa and Murthy. The latter two are egoistic people but the prior is an honest man. Today my darling Swagata Gupta came to the office by 10:00. She wore a new Punjabi dress today. I could see her brilliant face. Kiran and I started from our office by 3:00 on his bike. We, my brother Sambha and his friend, reached the abode of Mantena Aruna at Miyapur by 4:00. She is an MBA. She is working as an executive with the Confederation of Indian Industry in Hyderabad now. She has attractive eyes and sweet voice. I would give 60 marks for 100 for her beauty. She is considerably intelligent. We interacted in a casual manner for about one hour in privacy. I gently told her that I am looking for marrying somebody more beautiful than her. She said that she needs some time to decide whether to marry me or not. Returned to my abode by 10:00. Had my supper and went to sleep by 11:30.
5 February (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Read Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. My cousins Raghupathi and Kiran, my brother Sambha and I stepped out of our portion by 10:15. I saw the Telugu film “Pothe Ponee” in cinema Sudarshan at RTC Crossroads in the morning show. They saw the Telugu film “Gajini” in cinema Mayuri. We returned to our abode by 2:30. We had lunch brought from the nearby ladies hostel. Thereafter four of us ate one kilo of grapes. Rested for one hour. By 4:30 Kiran and I went to Shivam Road to buy an MP3 CDs of gazhals of Jagjit Singh. We did not find them there. Thence we moved to Himayat Nagar and bought a few audio and video CDs. I bought the video CDs of Telugu films “Swayamvaram”, “Kalyana Ramudu”, “America Ammaayi” and “Shiva Puthrudu” and two audio CDs. They cost me 500 rupees. These are for my brother Srinivas. On the way, I talked with him from a public telephone booth. He asked me about my opinion about Aruna, the girl whom I saw yesterday evening. I told him that she is an intelligent girl and earning 16000 rupees a month. He felt happy hearing this news from me. Had my supper by 10:00. Aruna is not an exceptionally beautiful girl. I am looking for exceptional beauty. I am in admiration with Swagata Gupta now. If my Lord Krishna helps me, I can marry her. I am a man of dreams. I have to face hard realities. Went to sleep by 11:00.
6 February (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. This morning my brother Sambha left for Samalkot by East Coast Express from Secunderabad railway station along with his friend of Adduroad. Kiran took him there on his bike. Took a bus by 6:45 and reached Panjagutta Crossroads by 7:20. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Today I attended the editing work of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. Afternoon talked with Aruna from a public telephone booth. She said that she takes time to decide whether to marry me or not. I appreciated her decision. Today Swagata Gupta spent casually in our office. I could not see her face even for once. Afternoon my father called me up from Adduroad. I told him about what that girl informed me about our marriage. He opined that it is better if search is started for another girl. Returned to Shivam Road by 6:10 by bus. Spent in the Global View Internet café from 6:15 to 9:20. I scanned the photos of 10000 Russian brides and finalized 10 out of them as beautiful ones. My eyes got strained due to this long eye contact with a computer. Came back to my abode by 9:35. Had my supper by 10:00 along with Kiran. Often cold is attacking me. Winter is active in the twin cities during late night hours. Went to sleep by 10:45.
7 February (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and supplemented it with three bananas worth three rupees. Today I was involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. This afternoon I received an email from Aruna. She wrote that she liked the PowerPoint presentation I prepared and sent her recently describing our mutual interaction for the purpose of marriage. This afternoon I posted my blog titled “Ninnmy Meets Zinmeen” on my blog site of Google. I saw Swagata Gupta many times this afternoon. She wore a crimson top and blue jeans. Today our team leader Sutapa Patnaik explained the additional duties of us sub editors apart from our regular editing work. I am assigned the duty of carrying out the editing work of extra content load of my colleagues. The work of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies was also simultaneously going on. Mannava Sailaja is a research associate in our press. She is a beautiful and intelligent girl. I sense that she likes me as a person. I like to talk with her but she may feel uneasy if I take that iniative. May God bless her. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for two hours. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
8 February (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:40. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Morning I was involved in sending the final version of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies to its consulting editor Prabhakara Rao. It is inaugural issue of this quarterly journal. I worked actively to process it fast. Afternoon my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani called me up from Jaggampeta when I went out for my lunch. My colleague Satish Reddy informed me about it. I called her up. She asked me whether I am interested to marry Aruna or not. I told her that presently I cannot marry her. She is considerably beautiful and intelligent but I am expecting more than that in a girl to marry. I will be happy if Swagata Gupta can marry me. I saw her many times in our floor today. Her face was shining like a star. She put a serious face at me. Her close friends Juveria, Sutapa Patnaik, Shalini and Sneha Thomas would have trained her in this direction. I am enjoying her imposing presence. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Today my cousin Kiran left for Jaggampeta by bus. He wants to prepare for his coming CA Final exams staying at home for some days. Today I watched parts of the Telugu feature film “America Ammaayi” on my computer. Also typed out one more page in my new blog. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
9 February (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:40. Today I was involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. Its consulting editor A C Ojha sat with me. Both of us incorporated some changes into the content of this journal on my computer. My mother called me up from Adduroad around 11:30. She is much disturbed about my marriage. She did not like my discarding the option of marrying Mantena Aruna. She said that my father and brothers are furious with me in this regard. I requested her not to worry about my marriage. She is suffering from high blood pressure. May Lord Krishna bless her with good health. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a beautiful pink Punjabi dress. Today I saw her many times. I thanked her highness in my heart for blessing me with such beauty. I will be very happy if she marries me. Only my Lord Krishna can help me in this regard. Evening I stayed back till 6:20 to finish the editing of one article of The ICFAI Journal of Urban Policy. Returned to my abode by 7:30. Read Telugu film weekly Sitara for 30 minutes. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog. Had my supper by 9:50. It was cold. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
10 February (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as the authorized signatory on behalf of Vinod, our administrative associate. Took my seat by 8:00. Scanned the photos of many girls and women and chose two or three of them to post on my blog site of Google. Morning attended the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. My darling Swagata Gupta came in a new Punjabi dress today. She came to our section of journals many times. She stood by the row of my journal team for a few minutes talking with her team leader Shalini. I looked at her face many times secretly. It was shining like a full moon. She mostly maintains bob. It adds more beauty to her face. She sits like a queen in her seat in the magazines section. She sat beside the DTP operator Murali for some time and got some correction work carried out. I scanned her beauty when walking past her. She is a marvel of beauty. Thus I found all the day very pleasant and inspiring in her presence. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added two more pages to my ongoing blog, working on my computer for two hours. My cousin Raghupathi is daily attending classes at Ameerpet. Today he booked flight tickets to the USA for leaving from Chennai Airport on the 10th of this April. Went to sleep by 11:00.
11 February (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:30. Today it is the second Saturday of the month and so a holiday to our press. Today I spent all the day within my abode typing out on my computer to finish my ongoing blog. Breakfast, lunch and supper were brought in time by a boy from the nearby ladies hostel. I worked for about eight hours and added five more pages to my present blog. I set the title ”Excursion” to it. It would be presented to my blog readers as a gift on the occasion of this Valentine’s Day. Swagata Gupta is the source of inspiration for me in creating all these blogs ever since I rejoined ICFAI University Press after my long leave. Her behavior toward me in our office and her presence in my dreams signify that she is also in love with me. I think that she may express her love for me soon. She seeks the help of my team leader Sutapa Patnaik for this purpose. I will be very happy if she reveals her heart to me. I pray my Lord Krishna to direct her well toward this goal. She is a magnet of beauty and admirable person. I can lead a heavenly life with her. I will readily agree to her proposal of marriage. I can look after her carefully. I will prove myself as a writer and earn enough money to provide her with a comfortable life. She is my master. I am her slave. I will serve her devotedly. May God unite us soon with His blessings. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
12 February (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and rested for one hour. Carried out the Error Report work of Professional Banker magazine from 7:30 to 11:30. The boy from the nearby ladies hostel did not bring us lunch even by 12:15 though we told him about the time schedule this morning when he brought the breakfast Upma for both of us. My cousin Raghupathi and I dressed up ourselves and moved out by 12:30 on the bike of Kiran. We reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 1:00. We thought that there would be much rush for the film but the situation was normal. There was nobody at ticket counter. We parked the bike in the premises of this cinema and walked to a nearby hotel by main road. Each of us had Mini Meal for 15 rupees. We saw the Telugu film “Shock” of Ravi Teja and Jyothika in the matinee show. A disciple of noted film director Ram Gopal Varma directed this film. I would give 100 marks for 100 for it. We enjoyed watching this film throughout. There was much presence of audience for this film. I felt happy at it. Viewers must encourage the directors and producers of such great films. Came back to my abode by 5:00. Read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Took a rest for one hour. Spent talking with Raghupathi for some time. Washed a few clothes and took a head bath by 8:30. The boy from ladies hostel brought supper for one person only. Raghupathi had his supper outside. Had my supper by 8:45. It was cool outside. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
13 February (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:40. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing three articles given by my colleagues to help them. This morning my father called me up from Adduroad. He is angry over my decision about not marrying the girl whom I formally met recently. He questioned me why I refused to marry that girl though she is educated and earning well. My mother, brothers and relatives also condemned my decision in this regard as stupid and foolish. I told my father not to worry about my marriage for some more days. He is disturbed about my decision in this direction. Today I saw my goddess Swagata Gupta many times in our office. I look at her like a thief. I am gaining strength from her presence. Took a bus by 5:30 opposite the NIMS bus stop and reached my abode by 6:00. Went to Global View Internet café by 6:15. I searched for the beautiful photos of girls for four hours but I could not find even one. I posted my blog titled “Excursion” on my blog site of Google by 10:15. I added the photo of Meera Jasmin to it as a last resort. Came back to my abode by 10:30 in an auto rickshaw. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
14 February (Tuesday)
Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and added two bananas to it for four rupees. Today I added a new photo to my blog titled “Excursion”. Today I was thoroughly involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology. My team leader Sutapa Patnaik is so brilliant and patient that she finds out errors in almost all the pages of a journal before its release. Today it is Valentine’s Day. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a superb dress. She put on a sleeveless pink top and black jeans. She wore this combination of dress today only to hint me that she is also in love with me deeply. She looked bewitching and extraordinary in that dress. I felt very happy knowing that I have such great place in her heart for me. I am waiting to marry such a wonder of beauty. I hope she marries me by the grace of God. I don’t like to know about her background before deciding to marry her. I have chosen her means she is a goddess. I saw her many times today. My eyes got drenched in the spell of her beauty. I am grateful to her and my Lord Krishna for making this Valentine’s Day delightful for me in a big way. Came back to my abode by 7:00. Had my supper by 8:30. Solitude is my friend and guide. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
15 February (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and reached the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by main road and entered our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. Took my seat by 8:00. Today I could not start typing out my new blog due to tense office work. Today I attended the work of three journals which are at different levels of processing. This morning a meeting took place in the conference room of magazines section for about two hours. P K Ramappa stressed the need of being fast and efficient in editing the content of journals to release them in time. Thereafter our team leader Sutapa Patnaik explained us the quality and speed of work being expected from us by our Executive Editor G R K Murthy. I said that the editorial teams will be subjected to more stress and imbalances if things go on like this but it is what is happening in many publishing firms now. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta came a few times into our journals section. I tried to balance myself against the gravity of her attractive beauty. She is a lightning. I live in that light. This evening my colleague Sutapa Patnaik talked with me personally for some time. I sensed a good friend in her attitude towards me. Returned to my abode by 7:00. Rested for two hours. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
16 February (Thursday)
Woke up by 2:00. I could not manage to sleep for two hours. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and entered our office by 7:40. Morning I gave this diary to my team leader Sutapa Patnaik and asked her to read and return it to me tomorrow. I want to know how she understands my character. Today I was partially involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology and the preparation of pre-final version of the inaugural issue of The ICFAI Journal of Urban Policy. This evening I sent a long email to English Professor Alladi Uma of the University of Hyderabad. I discussed a few things of my life in it. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a beautiful sleeveless top and black jeans. The design on that top is very attractive. She punched her attendance card soon after me and came to the reception desk to swipe her plastic card after me. Thus I got a golden chance to witness her presence in the evening before leaving the office. Today I could not look at her face thinking that others may misunderstand us. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog “Time Management”. Had my supper by 9:00. Nowadays my cousin Raghupathi is returning from his tuition classes at Ameerpet very late. He is working hard to improve his skills and go to the USA soon. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
17 February (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:30. Our administrative associate Vinod did not turn up this morning to open the office. Got it opened by 8:10 on his behalf. Took my seat of work by 8:20. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog “Time Management” by 9:10. Morning carried out some corrections in The ICFAI Journal of Information Technology sitting with its consulting editor A C Ojha. Afternoon withdrew 1000 rupees from the ATM Center of Andhra Bank near NIMS Hospital. Bought ghee sweets for 20 rupees at a sweet stall by road. Morning proofreader Prasanna Lakshmi of my editorial team asked me to present her a sweet on the happy occasion of the release of IJIT to the printing press. I did it. Afternoon I attended the editing work of The ICFAI Journal of Public Administration. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a new Punjabi dress. I partly scanned it and knew that it is black. I could not see her face today. I don’t like to be identified as an eccentric bloke in our office looking at her intentionally when others are observing us. Sensitive admirers are victims of internal suffering. Morning Sutapa Patnaik returned this diary to me. Came back to my abode by 6:50. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my blissful dreams to be presented by God.
18 February (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast of three bananas for five rupees and entered our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog titled “Time Management” by 9:10. Today I attended the editing work of the articles of The ICFAI Journal of Consumer Behavior, an inaugural issue of our press, and The ICFAI Journal of Public Administration. Afternoon my brother Srinivas called me up from Jaggampeta from the house of my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju. He comes to Hyderabad tomorrow morning by bus. I told him that I would come to receive him. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta came half an hour late to the office. She wore a crimson top and black pants. I could not see her face today. She did not come to our row of editorial team members even for once. She did not care about me today even a little. She calmly attended her editing work sitting in the magazines section. I interpreted her indifference toward me as helplessness due to her heavy work in the office. Left our office by 5:00 and reached my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog to play my role as a writer, working on it for about 90 minutes. Had my supper by 9:30. The boy from the nearby ladies hostel brought it. It was cold. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
19 February (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached the head office of State Bank of Hyderabad at Gun Foundry by 7:00. Spent there waiting for the arrival of my brother Srinivas by bus from Jaggampeta. Called him up and knew that he was staying in Hotel Ruma near Nampally railway station. Hired three auto rickshaws, spent about 60 rupees and reached that lodge. We came to the head office of SBH by 9:00. The preliminary round of selection for the recruitment of armed guards for the UCO Bank is taking place here today. Forty two ex-servicemen attended this selection process from six districts of Andhra Pradesh. District sainik boards sent the names of some eligible ex-servicemen for this purpose. This selection process has two rounds. The first round was over by 12:30. We had lunch in the nearby Bombay Bakery and Restaurant. The second round was over by 3:00. Then we went back to Hotel Ruma and rested there for one hour. We returned to this venue of selection and checked the list of selected candidates by 5:00. My brother is also selected. The final interview is scheduled to be conducted in the regional office of UCO Bank at Banjara Hills, by Road No. 10, tomorrow morning. We vacated this hotel by 5:30 and came to my rented abode by 6:30. I booked a bus ticket for my brother to Rajahmundry for tomorrow evening. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 9:00. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
20 February (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and entered our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Morning typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog. Today I spent most of my time incorporating the corrections, suggested by my team leader Sutapa Patnaik, on my computer, in The ICFAI Journal of English Studies. Today my sweetheart Swagata Gupta came in a simple Punjabi dress and spent all her time in her chair attending her editing work. Our colleague B Shalini is pregnant now. Hers is a love marriage. She is carrying out her office work, without taking leave from the office. She is a team leader and her absence in the magazines section significantly affects the release dates of magazines, which have deadlines. She is unable to decide either way. She is another moon in our floor. Reached the regional office of UCO Bank by Road No. 10 in Banjara Hills by 5:15 in an auto rickshaw. The final interview was effectively attempted by my brother Srinivas for the position of Armed Guard at any UCO Bank in Andhra Pradesh. Both of us went to the nearby Music World showroom. He bought a few audio DVDs to take home. We hired an auto rickshaw and reached my abode at Nallakunta by 6:40. We reached Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station by 7:40. We had supper in Hotel Nandini there. He left for Jaggampeta by 9:00 by an APSRTC Hitech bus. Went to sleep by 10:00.
21 February (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road, two bananas and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened on behalf of our librarian Prakash, due to his absence. Morning typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog. Today I was thoroughly involved in editing an article of The ICFAI Journal of Public Administration. Afternoon called up my brother Srinivas at Jaggampeta. He reached home safely by bus. Also talked with my father, who came there to see the family of my brother. He is concerned about my marriage. I will marry my honeypot Swagata Gupta soon if God helps us. Today she wore a crimson top and black jeans. She came to our journals section many times. She gave me mesmerizing smiles. She is a classic piece of God. I am getting energy from her walk and words. She behaves like a princess. Many seek bliss from her face. Came back to my abode by 6:50. Listened to my favorite Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Had my supper alone by 9:30. Swagata Gupta is decorating my dreamland. Thus I find my nights blessed with her presence. I cannot describe the intensity of joy I experience when spending with her. Lord Krishna is keeping us together in dreams. Went to sleep by 11:00 to savor the flavor of my divine dreams blessed by God.
22 February (Wednesday)
Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by main road and entered our office by 7:30. Scanned today’s dailies for half an hour. There is not a single job vacancy for language editors. I am not looking for a job now but checking the jobs on offer in newspapers is a matter of joy for me. Morning I could not add a page to my blog in progress. There was no enough time. Today I was thoroughly involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies and the language editing of The ICFAI Journal of Public Administration. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a crimson top and black jeans. Morning I stood in the magazines section for five minutes attending my work. I saw my darling Swagata talking with Jerry Thomas. She did not look at me at all. I was hurt by her indifference to me. I think she is intentionally teasing me now and then. I am her devotee. My salvation is associated with her admiration for me. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added one more page to my blog in progress working from 7:00 to 9:00 on it. Had my supper alone by 9:30. Now cold is attacking me quite frequently. Cold which enters our abode during late night is a villain. Blowing nose time to time is a little hell. Washed a pair of clothes by 10:15. Went to sleep by 10:30.
23 February (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:30. It was not opened in time by the scheduled authorized signatory today and so I went out and spent observing the traffic on road for 20 minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:30. Morning I could not add content to my ongoing blog due to upset mood. By this afternoon I could send the final copy of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies for the approval of N J Yasaswy. By this evening I could send the pre-final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Public Administration to its consulting editor for scrutiny. Today my sweetheart Swagata Gupta wore a shirt with a beautiful design and black trousers. She came to our journals section about ten times. I saw her somewhat secretly. She maintained a smiling face many times. I stood in her way talking with one when she was going to the art department. She asked us to excuse her and we cleared the way for her to move ahead. I enjoyed myself all the day in her blissful presence. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added one more page to my blog in progress working for two hours on my computer. Had my supper alone by 9:40. I am suffering from cold. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams presented by God.
24 February (Friday)
Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Last night, Pramod K Nayar, an English lecturer at the department of English in the University of Hyderabad, visited me in my dream. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by road, three bananas and entered our office by 7:30. Our administrative executive, who was supposed to formally open our office this morning, did not turn up till 8:00. I got it opened by 8:05 on his behalf. Morning I could not add one more page to my blog in progress and finish it. Today I attended the processing work of three journals. Today my sweetheart wore a brown shirt and black jeans. Swagata means either welcome or autobiography and Gupta pertains to a dynasty of rulers in India during 300 AD. She is a princess in body and mind. I am swimming in the river of admiration for her. It is healthy for my body and delightful to my mind. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added the last page to my blog in progress titled “Time Management” working on it for 80 minutes on my computer. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 8:15. Posted this blog and a photo on my blog site of Google. Came back to my abode by 9:00 in an auto rickshaw. Had my supper by 9:15. Swagata Gupta is visiting me in my dreams as well. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
25 February (Saturday)
Woke up by 3:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for half an hour and managed to sleep by 4:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Today I was thoroughly involved in the processing of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies and The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a crimson top and black jeans. She did not come to our journals section for her magazine related work. She sat in her chair calmly doing her work. She stopped coming to our section to have her lunch. She must have got a plan in her heart for me. Let her keep it as a secret for some days. I pray my Lord Krishna to make her my creature forever. Her smiling face can enrich my life with bliss and wealth. Came back to Vidya Nagar by 5:45. Walked to my favorite hair salon near flyover and had my haircut. He is my favorite fellow. He plays songs on radio. It is great joy to spend there having my haircut, listening to those songs. Came back to my abode by 7:00. Had a head bath by 7:30. Read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for half an hour. Had my supper by 9:20. My best wishes to my darling Swagata. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.
26 February (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Filled the drinking water into a can from the tap being supplied by the Hyderabad Municipality. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went out and brought a copy of Eenadu. Read it for two hours. Had breakfast of Upma brought from the ladies hostel by 9:00. Raghupathi and I moved out on Kiran’s bike by 9:30. We kept the bike in the premises of cinema Mayuri and took a walk along the main road to Musheerabad. It was meant for killing time rather than physical exercise. We saw the Telugu film “Ranam” of Gopichand and Kamna Jethmalani in the morning show. The story is weak but presentation is somewhat good. Kamna is a beautiful girl. I enjoyed watching her acting and beauty in this film. We returned to my abode by 2:30. We had lunch by 3:00. Rested for one hour. My darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. May Lord Shiva bless her. Started typing out a new blog titled “Formatted Past” and added two pages to it. Washed a pair of clothes by 8:30. Today it is Mahaa Shiva Raathri, a Hindu holy day centered on Lord Shiva. I pray Him to direct the lives of Swagata Gupta and me carefully. Let Him unite us soon if He thinks that we are made for each other. The temperatures of summer are increasing day by day in the twin cities. We are feeling thirsty and sultry in our abode also. Lord Krishna is there in my abode in the form of a statue. He is bringing Swagata Gupta into my dreams to heal the disorder of my lovesickness. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
27 February (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:45. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog “Formatted Past” working on it till 9:00 on computer. Morning I could finalize the work of The ICFAI Journal of English Studies for its release to the printing press. It could not be released because its print count had not come yet from the concerning department. Afternoon edited the articles of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a brown T-shirt and black pants. She came to our journals section many times to attend her magazine work in the art department. She looked fantastic in today’s dress. She was smiling looking at her female friends. I was blessed by her gesture. Her smile works as an inevitable spell of attractiveness on any sensitive man. I looked at her like a voiceless entity. My future is dedicated to her. My life can be decorated and animated by her beauty and sweet voice. She is mine. I am waiting for her blessings to me. May Lord Krishna unite us soon. Let me save my youth and reorient it in her direction. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog working on it for 150 minutes. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
28 February (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Filled drinking water into our plastic can from the tap down. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and entered our office by 7:30. Our librarian Prakash did not turn up till 8:00. Got it opened as the authorized signatory on his behalf. Typed out and added one more page to my blog titled “Formatted Past” by 9:15. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of three journals, which are at different levels of processing. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a colorful Punjabi dress. She came many times to our journals section. I went to their magazines section many times. I could not look at her face due to the presence of staff around. A goddess in a temple is waiting for her devotee to come. Her devotee sat at the entrance of that temple on steps with pain of detachment from her. My goddess was very busy with her magazine work today. I would have washed her tired feet and face with cool water if she had allowed me to do it. I am her bonded laborer. My lifelong duty is to serve her. God assigned me this holy work. I am waiting for her permission to admire her whole-heartedly. May God bless us. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog working on it for 150 minutes. Had my supper by 9:45. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
1 March (Wednesday)
Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30 and started to the bus stop at Vidya Nagar. Took a bus by 6:50 and reached NIMS bus stop by 7:15. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by road and went to our office by 7:30. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog “Formatted Past” working on it for one hour. Today I attended the work of three journals. Today my darling Swagata Gupta wore a brown top and black pants. For the last few days, I have been observing that she avoided maintaining her bob. I don’t know if she gets it done in a beauty parlor. She gets a small salary from this firm. She has to spend that money for her hostel, cellular phone bills and other expenses. She seems to be a disciplined and sensitive girl. She does not have great ambitions or goals. Such simple and good girl can be a suitable match for a dreamy and romantic fellow like me. I have decided to marry her. Only God should help her reach me soon. I can tackle my parents, brothers and society in winning and retaining her love for me. She is a very beautiful creature. I can lead a heavenly life in her company. Today she did not stir much out of her seat. May God direct her wisely. Came back to my abode by 6:00. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog working on it for two hours. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
2 March (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Filled our plastic can with drinking water. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as the authorized signatory on behalf of our administrative executive Vijay Kumar. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and added one more page to my blog in progress by 9:00. By the afternoon I could release The ICFAI Journal of Public Administration to the printing press. By the evening I could get the pre-final version of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law ready for check by our team leader and its consulting editor. Today my sweetheart Swagata Gupta wore a pink top and black jeans. I went to their magazines section frequently to collect printouts from the final printer there. She sat in her chair editing content on computer. She folded her sleeves to maintain a style. When I was talking with my colleague, standing near DTP operator Murali, she came to the latter to tell him something about her editing work of Advertising Express magazine. I was hearing her sweet words. Her voice was attracting me like a magnet. Instead of having honey and sugarcane juice, one can listen to her voice. God filled it with rhythm of music. I greatly enjoyed her standing and talking by me. Came back to my abode by 6:40. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
3 March (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:30. Typed out and added the tenth page to my blog titled “Formatted Past” and finished it working on it from 8:00 to 9:00. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Consumer Behavior. This evening our team leader Sutapa Patnaik wore a beautiful sari and looked attractive. It is a happy day for her. She went to the folks of law department of ICFAI to talk about English. This evening I stayed back till 6:30 in the office to release The ICFAI Journal of English Studies to the printing press. Today my angel Swagata Gupta wore a beautiful new brown Punjabi dress. She came to our journals section many times. Her face was shining like a rainbow. I could not identify any color in it except the light of beauty. That strength activates me to dream of a happy world around me. I am behaving like a living shadow in her company. My heart beats for her but my mouth cannot speak with her. I am enjoying this pain of separation from her believing that she belongs to me one day. Came back to my abode by 7:30. Rested on my mattress for one hour. Had my supper by 9:00. The sky was cloudy outside. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.
4 March (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Last night it rained a little in the twin cities. It lent coolness to dry weather. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Bought a pack of Britannia Tiger cream biscuits for ten rupees and entered our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory and scanned today’s dailies for ten minutes. Checked the beauty of some women on Google Images for some time. By the afternoon I could get the inaugural issue of The ICFAI Journal of Urban Policy ready to send to N J Yasaswy for his approval. Afternoon carried out the editing of one article of The ICFAI Journal of Consumer Behavior, an inaugural issue. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a crimson top and black pants. Today she got her hair dressed into bob. Today I went to magazines section many times but I could not see her face even for once. I don’t like it being noticed and commented on by our colleagues. When I was standing before the entrance of our journals section, talking with our team leader Sutapa Patnaik, she was coming from the ladies toilet in our journals section. I briskly walked back to give her way. She rushed like a fast vehicle. It was the simple way I could find out to hint her that I am her slave. Spent in the Global View Internet café by Shivam Road from 6:00 to 8:00. Sent an email to Jyoti Sastry. I found her email address on Google Images when browsing it casually. Had my supper by 8:45. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
5 March (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Had breakfast of Upma brought by the boy from the ladies hostel by 8:30. Edited the photo of Jyoti Sastry on my computer for one hour. Her photo would be added to my next blog, which will be posted on my blog site soon. Today I was supposed to start typing out my new blog and add four pages to it. Somehow I could not do it. First I decided to start it after having my breakfast. Later I postponed it to do after my lunch. Even then I could not motivate myself to start it. Thus I spent most of the day without doing any useful work. I kept my body on my mattress. Drowsiness attacked me. Dreams ensued. The sky was cloudy outside. It was cool inside. Raghupathi and I went to Shivam Road by 3:00. I bought six B complex tablets at a medical store. Vitamin deficiency is often affecting me due to unbalanced diet. Thereafter I got my jute bag mended at a footwear outlet. There Raghupathi got his casual footwear mended. When returning to my abode, we bought half a kilo of black grapes. We enjoyed our stroll on road through dust. The grapes were tasty. We spent talking for two hours about Kolkata, its people, its tourist attractions and its beauty. He said that many Bengalis are well-educated and good-natured. Washed my clothes and had a head bath by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
6 March (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Filled drinking water into our plastic can. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:40. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Morning started typing out my new blog and added one page to it. Today I was thoroughly involved in the work of three journals. Morning gave The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law to our team leader Sutapa Patnaik for corrections by her. By the afternoon, I could finish the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Consumer Behavior, an inaugural issue. By the evening, I could release The ICFAI Journal of Urban Policy to the printing press. Afternoon the material of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management arrived. Today my darling Swagata Gupta wore an incredibly beautiful new Punjabi dress. She came across me many times. Her beauty shone like gold in that set of clothes and attractive hairdo. She looked at me once or twice. My mind got flooded with delight and light. Today she spent much of her morning time talking with our Executive Editor G R K Murthy about the release of a magazine, along with her team leader B Shalini. Evening it rained a bit. The sky was cloudy. Came back to the press of my personal life by 7:00. I was already very tired and so did not continue typing out my ongoing blog. Had my supper by 8:15. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
7 March (Tuesday)
Woke up by 2:00. I could not manage to sleep for long. Swagata Gupta must be the reason behind it. I developed deep admiration for her. It led to a psychic attachment between the two. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Bought two bananas for four rupees and one pack of Britannia Tiger cream biscuits for ten rupees. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and added one more page to my blog in progress. Today I was thoroughly involved in getting the final copy of The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law ready to send to its consulting editor for her final check. Today my darling Swagata Gupta wore a brown top and black pants. She got her hair dressed up. I went to the magazines section many times. Saw her editing the content of her magazine eating something. She came to our journals section twice or thrice. She maintained a smiling face for me. May God bless her. Evening I posted my blog “Formatted Past” on my blog site of Google. I added the photo of Jyoti Sastry in the beggining of this blog. She is a beautiful girl of India. Met our Administrative Manager K V Rao in his apartment by flyover near Shivam Road by 6:00. Spent talking with him for 40 minutes. Recently he was affected by a cardiac disorder. He is recovering from that illness now. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
8 March (Wednesday)
Woke up by 3:00. Swagata Gupta is not allowing me to sleep well. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. When I was walking from the NIMS bus stop toward our office, I noticed that the scene of a film was being shot opposite Punjagutta police station by road. I saw Raju Sundaram, a noted choreographer in South India. There were other folks also in this place. I stood there for 20 seconds watching it. Had worthless breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and moved to our office by 7:40. Took my seat of work by 7:50. Typed out and added one more page to my blog in progress by 9:15. Today I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Afternoon my cousin Narendra Varma called me up from Kakinada. His final year exams of Diploma in Mechanical Engineering end by the end of this month. I advised him to come to Hyderabad soon to decide on what to do now. Today my sweetheart Swagata Gupta wore a colorful new Punjabi dress. I could not see what colored trousers she wore. I glanced up at her face once or twice. The same brilliance and fairness were dancing there. Today she was very busy attending the work of her Advertising Express magazine. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:30. Washed a pair of clothes by 10:15. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.
9 March (Thursday)
Woke up by 4:00. Swagata Gupta is not allowing me to sleep until 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Bought two bananas for four rupees and a pack of Britannia Tiger biscuits for ten rupees and entered our office by 7:40. Got it opened as the authorized signatory on behalf of our administrative executive Vijay Kumar. Took my seat by 8:00. I could not type out and add one more page to my blog in progress titled “An Active Employee” for lack of enough time. Morning I was partially involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Evening released The ICFAI Journal of Employment Law to the printing press. Evening my HCU friend Ramesh called me up from this city. Now he is working in Ramoji Film City at its art department. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a maroon Punjabi dress. It is a new pair. She was shining like a star. I was spending in that light. I could see her face once or twice satisfactorily. Afternoon she went out for bringing her lunch along with her colleague Susan. I spent all the day happily in her presence. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it from 6:30 to 8:30. Had my supper by 9:00. It was cloudy outside and cool in our abode. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
10 March (Friday)
Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. It was drizzling. Got a little wet in it. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:40. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Spent one hour scanning the photos of women on Google Images. Today I edited a short article of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. I spent two hours for this work. Spent rest of the day scanning the photos of girls and women on Google Images. I searched about 10000 photos to find exceptional beauty in them. I could find three or four photos only. Today my darling Swagata Gupta wore a beautiful pink Punjabi dress. There is a nice design on it. She came to our journals section many times for attending the work of her Advertising Express magazine. She had to release this magazine to the printing press by this evening. She intentionally looked at me once or twice. What does an admirer want more than that from his goddess of beauty? She looks very small in some dresses. She walks like a princess and smiles like a goddess. I don’t think that she is very intelligent. God made her body with special interest. She can live happily if she remains morally and spiritually strong always. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it till 8:00. Had my supper by 8:30. Read the Telugu film weekly Sitara for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
11 March (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Typed out and added two more pages to my blog in progress “An Active Employee” working on it from 6:00 to 10:00. Then my cousin Raghupathi and I moved out on the bike of Kiran. He dropped me at Lakdi Ka Pool and proceeded to Ameerpet for attending his coaching class. Thence I took a bus and reached Serilingampally by 12:00. Thence took an auto rickshaw and reached the State Bank of India near the University of Hyderabad by 12:10. I deposited 8000 rupees into my savings account with this bank. The balance is very low in this account. So, I wanted to strengthen it with this deposit. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani and five rupees of Dinshaw’s ice cream at the shopping complex in the HCU campus by 1:15. Took a bus and reached Mehdipatnam by 1:45. Thence took a bus and an auto rickshaw and reached my abode by 3:00. Rested for one hour. Typed out and added two more pages to my ongoing blog and finished it by 8:30. My friend Murali of the Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel came by 8:45. Spent talking with him for half an hour. The boy of the ladies hostel brought supper for me by 9:00. Had it alone by 9:30. Today it was cloudy outside. I don’t know how my darling Swagata Gupta is celebrating this cool day in the city. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.
12 March (Sunday)
Woke up by 4:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for two hours. Freshened up myself by 7:00 and went out. Bought a copy of Eenadu and read it for two hours. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. My cousin Raghupathi and I went out on bike by 10:15. He dropped me at RTC Crossroads Junction and moved to Ameerpet for attending his coaching class. I bought a 35-rupee ticket at cinema Odeon by 10:30. Strolled along the main road toward Chikkadpally and returned to this cinema by 10:50. Saw the Telugu film “Dhevadhaasu” from 11:00 to 2:10. This hero and heroine are new ones. They are cute. They acted well. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. Came back to my abode by 3:00 in an auto rickshaw. Raghupathi returned from Ameerpet by 3:30. Both of us started to the house of our relatives at NGOs Colony in Vanasthalipuram by 4:00. We bought one kilo grapes for 25 rupees and a dozen green bananas for 20 rupees. On the way, our cousin Bala came across us. He is working as a mathematics teacher at Millennium High School now. We went to the rented abode of our relative Lakshmi (maternal aunt of Bala) of Gollalagunta by 5:15. We spent talking with them for one hour. She offered homemade eatables and hot milk for us. Thence we moved to the rented abode of our cousin Murali (brother of Bala) and spent there for ten minutes. We started back by 7:00 and reached my abode by 8:00. On the way, we bought two glasses of curd for 14 rupees and 100 grams of sweets for 15 rupees. Had my supper by 9:00. Washed a pair of clothes by 10:15. Went to sleep by 10:30.
13 March (Monday)
Woke up by 4:00. Last night Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at Hotel Banjara Durbar and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Started typing out a new blog titled “An Illiterate Man” and added one page to it. Today I was supposed to edit the articles of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. There are many tables and formulae in them and so its work was not finished by our DTP operator or proofreader. I spent all the day without doing even a little office work. I spent browsing the websites of various Indian and foreign universities. Today our team leader Sutapa Patnaik or B Shalini, the friend of my darling Swagata Gupta, did not come to the office. Today my sweetheart wore a brown top and black trousers. She got her hair dressed up. Today I did not go to the magazines section even for once. My honeypot came to our journals section many times. I could see her face once or twice. She maintained serious face once. I was hurt. The psychic pain of admirers cannot be explained to others. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it for 90 minutes. Had my supper by 8:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
14 March (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of Onion Dosa at a pushcart by main road and went to our office by 7:30. This morning our librarian Prakash got our office opened. He is scared of theft of office material in the event of shutters of our three floors getting opened before the arrival of our sweeping staff. Our third floor was opened by 8:00. I lost my mood to type out and add one more page to my ongoing blog for this reason. Today I spent all the day without doing even a little editing work. Three articles of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management have complex formulae and a number of tables. Our DTP operator and proofreader could not provide me with its processed content for language editing due to it. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a new pink Punjabi dress. She spent all her time in the magazines section only. She came across me when I was leaving the office in the evening. I could not look at her face clearly but I sensed that she was weak. I found dimness in her face. She is the darling of my heart. May Lord Krishna take care of her health and happiness. I cannot see her sad face or weak appearance. Afternoon I posted my blog “An Active Employee” on my blog site of Google. It is my gift to my blog readers on the occasion of Holi, which falls tomorrow. Evening typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
15 March (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. This dream signified that she is suffering a lot being unable to talk with me in our office. I am in her heart but she is unable to spend with me in reality for some reasons. Mine is also the same case. I have been admiring her in my heart for the last four months but I could not talk with her even for once. May Lord Krishna console and direct us. I cannot do anything more than this. Today it is Hindu festival Holi. A day for crazy folks to throw different colors on one another. I spent all the day within my abode. This morning the boy of ladies hostel did not bring breakfast for me being busy with his game of colors. Today I typed out and added four more pages to my blog titled “An Illiterate Man” working with it on my computer in the morning and afternoon. Evening went to a nearby telephone booth and called up my brother Srinivas at Jaggampeta. He is waiting for the intimation letter from the head office of UCO Bank in Kolkata. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani said that she would send homemade sweets, tomato pickle and dates for me. My cousin Kiran returns to Hyderabad soon from Jaggampeta. Had my supper by 8:30 with adequate amount of curd bought and brought from a nearby shop. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:00. Today the sky was partly cloudy. It was sultry. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
16 March (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris and two bananas and entered our office by 7:45. There was no enough time. So, I could not scan today’s dailies. Typed out and added one more page to my blog “An Illiterate Man” working on it from 8:00 to 9:00. Today I spent most of my time editing two articles of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Today my sweetheart Swagata Gupta came in a beautiful new Punjabi dress. It is white in color and there is a light and elegant design on it. I felt very happy seeing her in that attractive dress. She spent most of her time sitting in her chair in the magazines section. She sensed that I was suffering being unable to see her in our journals section. She intentionally came to talk something with the proofreader Manjula in our section. I secretly glanced at her face. While going back, she maintained a smiling face. I took it as her blessings to my poor life in this office. She looked very beautiful and jovial today. I am grateful to my Lord Krishna for keeping her healthy and happy. Her smiling face provides strength to my weak mind. My goddess Swagata Gupta is visiting me in my dreams also. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it from 6:30 to 9:00. Had my supper by 9:30. Today it was sunny. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.
17 March (Friday)
Woke up by 3:00. Swagata Gupta did not allow me to sleep. Spent two hours being unable to sleep. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of idlies at a pushcart by main road by 7:30. Had two bananas also for three rupees. Got our office opened by 7:40 on behalf of my friend and administrative associate Vinod. Morning typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog “An Illiterate Man” and completed it. Today I did not do even a little editing work. Only one article of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management, with 30 pages, is pending to edit and finish this journal. There are many formulae and tables in it. So, our proofreader Prasanna Lakshmi is struggling hard to proofread it. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta came in a crimson top. I could not see which colored trousers she wore. I can see her only when she comes to the ladies toilet in our journals section. I cannot see her face also satisfactorily in that context. Today she intentionally came to talk with our proofreader Manjula. It was to allow me to see her somehow. She smiled when going back to her section. She is in deep love with me. Her smiles energize me. Evening she left the office by 3:00. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
18 March (Saturday)
Woke up by 3:00. My darling Swagata Gupta did not allow me to sleep. Spent two hours listening to Telugu cine songs on my Sony Walkman. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris, two bananas and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Took my seat by 8:30. Scanned the photos of some women on Google Images for two hours. By 12:30 I could complete the editing of the remaining article of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. By 4:00 I could give the pre-final version of this journal to its consulting editor and our executive editor G R K Murthy for his check. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore brown Punjabi dress. She came to the toilet in our journals section a few times. I could not see her face also. In the afternoon, I went to the finals laser printer, put in their magazines section, many times. She sat in her chair doing some work. I could not see the design on her Punjabi dress. Other staff members observe me with their detective eyes. I spent very sadly due to my helplessness in this regard. I was not lucky enough even to look at her face for once. May God bless us. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Started typing out a new blog titled “A Memorable Chat” and added one page to it, working on it for two hours. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
19 March (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Typed out and added one more page to my present blog working on it for two hours. Had breakfast of Upma, brought by the boy from the nearby ladies hostel, by 9:30. Read today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. My cousin Raghupathi and I started to Ameerpet on bike by 10:00. We reached the office of Dimensionality Software Services near the building of Aditya Trade Center by 10:45 travelling via Raj Bhavan Road. This office is in the fifth floor of Greenhouse building. I spent there for half an hour reading the latest English weekly The Week when he was practicing his recently learnt theories and techniques on a computer in the laboratory there. By 11:20 he dropped me at cinema Vijaya Laxmi Talkies in Ameerpet. I wondered knowing that such an old cinema is still there in Hyderabad showing feature films to viewers at such nominal ticket rates. I bought a 12-rupee ticket and saw the Telugu film “Shivamani” of Nagarjuna, Rakshita and Asin in it. I earlier missed seeing this film and so went that far. The interiors and other material in this cinema looked antique and outdated. Yet I liked its old style. This film is interesting. Each one of us had lunch for 12 rupees in a roadside hotel at Himayat Nagar. We reached my abode by 3:15. I had to type out and add two more pages to my ongoing blog but my mood was off. Took a rest on my mat for two hours. Washed my clothes and had a head bath by 8:00. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
20 March (Monday)
Woke up by 4:00. Last night Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Filled drinking water into our plastic can by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road, two bananas and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as an authorized signatory. Took my seat by 7:45. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog titled “A Memorable Chat” working on it till 9:15. Morning edited an article of The ICFAI Journal of Cyber Law to help my colleague Mamata. Afternoon I did not do editing work because there was nothing to attend. Today my darling Swagata Gupta wore a green top and tight black jeans. She got her hair dressed up. Morning she came to our journals section twice or thrice. She was talking with our proofreader Manjula. I saw her smiling face and felt happy. Evening she came to me by 4:55 and handed the April issue of Insurance Chronicle magazine to me for Error Report. When I was formally typing out an official reply to the author of an article, she came fast and put that book on my desk with her sweet words ‘Your Error Report . . . hah’. I sensed her admiration for me in that voice. My ears were blessed hearing her sweet words addressing me. She edited the content of this magazine. I brought it to my room. She wrote my name on it with a black pencil. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it for two hours. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
21 March (Tuesday)
Woke up by 4:15. Swagata Gupta did not allow me to sleep well. Freshened up myself soon and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart by main road and two bananas for three rupees. Got our office opened by 8:00 on behalf of our librarian Prakash. Took my seat of work by 8:05. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog “A Memorable Chat” by 9:15. Today I did not do even a little editing work. My team leader Sutapa Patnaik knew that I was sitting idly. Yet she did not assign me any editing work. I spent all the day scanning the beauty of photos of women available on Google Images. Today my darling Swagata Gupta wore a pink Punjabi dress. When I was drinking water in our corridor, she came to our journals section. She maintained a smiling face sensing my presence over there. She came to our journals section in the evening also. She kept smiling for me. I greatly enjoyed myself seeing her beautiful face. Her smile is a great asset to her. I spent happily today in her presence. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it from 6:30 to 8:00. This morning my cousin Kiran returned from Jaggampeta. He brought me homemade sweets, tomato pickle, dates and jaggery sweets given to him by my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani. Had my supper by 9:30. Spent talking with Kiran for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.
22 March (Wednesday)
Woke up by 4:30. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Filled drinking water into our plastic can from the tap below by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris for seven rupees at a pushcart by main road. Then bought and had two bananas for four rupees. Took my seat of work by 8:50. Morning typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog titled “A Memorable Chat”. Today I edited three articles of three different journals to help my colleagues Mamata, Juveria and Satish. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta came in a crimson top. I could not see what colored trousers she wore. Today I found her face a little weak. She would have failed to sleep well last night thinking about me. Morning she came to talk with her friend Juveria in our journals section. She knew that I was seeing her like a thief sitting in my chair. She blessed me with a big smile. I enjoyed its spell. I went to their magazines section twice but could not see what type of trousers she put on. Perhaps it might be black. Today she got her hair dressed up. From the observations I have, I believe that God has decided to unite us soon. Both of us are spending our days boringly. Came back to my abode by 6:15. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it from 6:30 to 8:00. Washed a pair of clothes by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:00. Spent talking with my cousin Kiran for half an hour. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
23 March (Thursday)
Woke up by 4:00. Swagata Gupta did not allow me to sleep well. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris, two bananas and went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as the authorized signatory on behalf of our administrative executive Vijay Kumar. Took my seat of work by 7:45. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it till 9:15. Today I spent a busy day in the office. I edited one article to help my colleague Mamata. Received the material of The ICFAI Journal of Behavioral Finance and The ICFAI Journal of Higher Education. From 4:00 to 5:40 our team leader Sutapa Patnaik conducted a meeting of our journals team. She stressed the need of our working together dutifully and strategically. Morning I gave a few homemade sweets to Sutapa. I think she gives some of them to my sweetheart Swagata Gupta. Evening my honeypot Swagata Gupta stayed back in the office until I left it. She is very deep in love with me. Today she wore a black top and black jeans. Today she got her beautiful hair dressed up. Morning I observed her looking at and correcting her hair in the mirror in ladies toilet. Afternoon posted my blog titled “An Illiterate Man” on my blog site of Google. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
24 March (Friday)
Woke up by 4:15. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Filled drinking water into our plastic can by 5:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris for seven rupees and two bananas for four rupees. Entered our office by 7:30. Spent reading today’s dailies for 20 minutes. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog “A Memorable Chat” and finished it by 9:30. Morning I did not do any editing work. Afternoon attended the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. Today my sweetheart Swagata Gupta put on a brown top and blue jeans. She got her hair dressed up. Morning she smiled for me when going away from the ladies toilet. Thus I started a good day. Afternoon she came to hand a magazine to one of my colleagues in the journals section for Error Report. I observed that she maintained a bright smiling face for me. I am living for her. Today I stayed back in the office till 5:30. My goddess Swagata Gupta also stayed back in the office to go after I move out. She is all for me. I am deeply in admiration with her. May Lord Krishna unite us soon. Came back to my abode by 6:50. I was exhausted and so did not feel like doing anything. Spent talking with my cousin Kiran for two hours. I told him about my admiration for Swagata Gupta. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
25 March (Saturday)
Woke up by 4:30. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at an eatery near Punjagutta police station and two bananas for my breakfast. Got our office opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Took my seat of work by 8:00 and scanned today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Today I was completely involved in the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Bank Management. I could release it to the printing press by 5:15. Today my darling Swagata Gupta put on a beautiful Punjabi dress (light green top and wheat bottom). She got her hair dressed up. I went to their magazines section many times to collect the printouts of my journal. Her team leader and friend Shalini is on a long maternity leave. She passively sat in her chair attending her editing work. Today I could see her brilliant face once or twice. I believe that she is also in deep admiration with me. Lord Krishna made her fall in love with me. She shut down her computer system by 5:00 and started talking with her friends. I know that she stayed back till 5:30 only to make me happy with her presence. Returned to my abode by 7:00. Saw the Telugu film “Happy” of Allu Arjun in cinema Sandhya along with Kiran in the second show. Went to sleep by 1:30.
26 March (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Filled drinking water into our plastic can by 5:30. Took a head bath by 6:00. Carried out the Error Report work of Insurance Chronicle magazine of our press from 6:30 to 11:30. It is April issue. My sweetheart Swagata Gupta edited the content of this magazine. She intentionally gave it to me to be peer reviewed by me. It is like a masterpiece for me because my goddess processed it. I carefully read this magazine from start to the end. There are about 32 grammatical errors in it. After falling in love with me, she stopped concentrating much on her editing work. No beautiful and sensitive girl can work devotedly in any office keeping her lover on the other side of the floor. She cannot spend even a day without visiting my blog site. I would keep four or five errors only in this Error Report. I will submit it to her tomorrow. She is a commander. I am her helpless servant. I cannot question her highness about many errors in this magazine. I kissed the words written by her on this magazine. She wrote my name and the deadline for the submission of this Error Report with a black pencil. I elegantly wrote in it with a black pencil wherever errors are found. I have to impress such a marvel of goodness and beauty with my calligraphy. Afternoon spent talking with my cousins Murali, Kiran and Raghupathi. Washed my clothes by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
27 March (Monday)
Woke up by 3:00. My darling Swagata Gupta did not allow me to sleep well. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris for seven rupees and a little amount of almond flavored milk for ten rupees. Got our office opened by 7:40 as an authorized signatory. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and prepared the Error Report of Insurance Chronicle magazine by 9:00. My goddess Swagata Gupta entered our floor by 9:10. I pasted the Error Report of this magazine in the sharing folder of her computer system and went to her by 9:30 to return the magazine. I put it near her computer and told her, “I have pasted the report. . . in your sharing folder”. I don’t think that she could hear even one word spoken by me. She maintained normal face and did not say anything back. I liked her intelligence. Posted my blog titled “A Memorable Chat” on my blog site of Google immediately after returning to my place from Swagata Gupta. I talked with her for the first time and so this gift to her. Today she wore a pink top and blue jeans. She spent happily today. Afternoon edited an article to help my colleague Mamata. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Started typing out a new blog titled “A Tutor and His Disciple” and added one page to it. Had my supper by 9:00 along with Kiran. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
28 March (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Filled drinking water into our plastic can by 5:15. Freshened up myself by 6:30 and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and two bananas. Entered our office by 7:40. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog by 9:15. Today I spent most of my time editing the content of The ICFAI Journal of Higher Education. Today my darling Swagata Gupta came in a beautiful Punjabi dress. The top is in light green color and the bottom is in maroon color. She looked very slim in this dress. This morning she came to the art department. I looked at her face. It was shining brightly within her beautifully dressed up hair. She looked busy with her work today. She intentionally avoided looking at me. I know why she behaved like that. May God bless us. She stayed back in the office until I left it by 5:05. Came back to my abode by 7:00. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it for two hours. The delivery boy of the ladies hostel did not bring supper for us even by 9:00. I felt infuriated against him and the owner of this hostel. My cousin Kiran and I went there to seriously talk with him about his careless attitude towards us. He said that the boy is an orphan and thief. He advised us to take care of our belongings in the room. We brought the meal and had it by 9:30. I am suffering from cold. The sky is partly cloudy this night. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
29 March (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Filled drinking water into our plastic can by 5:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and three bananas before entering our office. Took my seat by 7:45. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog “A Tutor and His Disciple” by 9:15. Today I spent most of my time editing the content of The ICFAI Journal of Higher Education. My cousin Kiran came to our office by 4:30. Today our Executive Editor G R K Murthy had to conduct a meeting with our journals section editorial team from 4:00 onwards but he went out to attend another important program. Today my darling Swagata Gupta wore a brown top and blue jeans. She got her hair dressed up. I wanted to show her to my cousin. We sat in two chairs in the corridor of our third floor. She sensed my heart and so came to the journals section. Kiran could not see her face clearly. We sat there waiting for a second look. She understood that we don’t move from there without seeing her for the second time. She came out. Kiran could partly see her face. He said that she is slim and looking like a marvel of beauty. He commented that my creative and aesthetic life can be extraordinary in her company. I saw her travelling in an auto rickshaw toward Ameerpet. She maintained a smiling face whenever we looked at her. Went to sleep by 12:00.
30 March (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:00. Had a bath by 7:00. Spent reading today’s Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Today is the first day of Telugu year Vyaya. People believing in the impact of stars on human life like to listen to predictions read by almanac readers (Hindu priests) today. I am not interested in attending such programs. Swagata Gupta is the goddess of my heart. I have firmly decided to marry her. I believe that she is also in admiration with me. She will express her heart to me very soon. According to my predictions, supported by my dreams and blessings of Lord Krishna, we are bound to marry soon and live happily for a long time. The fulfillment of my earthy existence lies in my being a devoted and admirable husband to her. I can easily convince my parents and relatives to our marriage. I am ready to sacrifice anybody or anything for her, if necessary. Admiration is like meditation. The practitioner should reach his or her goal clearing all the hurdles on the way with indomitable will and the guidance of God. I wish my sweetheart Swagata Gupta the best on this occasion. May God bless her and direct her towards me. Rested on my mat from 9:00 to 12:00. Had delicious lunch, brought from the nearby ladies hostel, by 1:30. Typed out and added two more pages to my blog titled “A Tutor and His Disciple” from 2:00 to 4:30. Read the Telugu film weekly Sitara for one hour. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:00. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams blessed by God.
31 March (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had a plate of puris at a pushcart and two bananas for three rupees. Went to our office by 7:30. Got it opened as the authorized signatory by 8:00 on behalf of our administrative executive Vijay Kumar. Today I was thoroughly involved in the editing of The ICFAI Journal of Higher Education. This morning I sent a long email to Pramod K Nayar, an English lecturer at the Department of English in the University of Hyderabad. Today my darling Swagata Gupta wore a beautiful new Punjabi dress and got her hair dressed up. She put on black footwear. I will worship her tender soles soon as her sweetheart. I am going to be one of the luckiest men in this world marrying her soon. Observing her behavior in our office and my dreams, I can believe that we are going to marry soon. She is spending every day heavily, waiting for meeting me soon on a special day. Mine is also the same case. Today she came to our journals section many times. I looked at her face to seek bliss. Our Executive Editor G R K Murthy conducted a meeting from 3:30 to 6:30. My goddess Swagata Gupta was waiting for me outside. I rushed out soon to allow her to go to her hostel before it gets dark. I am living for her. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
1 April (Saturday)
Woke up by 4:00. Last night the Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi visited me in my dream. Both of us talked affectionately for a long time. Filled drinking water into our plastic can by 5:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Did not get time for having breakfast and so bought a pack of Britannia Tiger cream biscuits for five rupees. Got the office opened by 7:40 as an authorized signatory. Took my seat of work by 7:52. Typed out and added one more page to my blog titled “A Tutor and His Disciple” by 9:15. Today I received an email from Pramod K Nayar. I felt very happy about it. He is a lecturer now in the Department of English at the University of Hyderabad. I am his admirer. Today I received a long email from my M.A. English classmate Colin Leslie Kelman in Bangalore. He is doing well with his wife. They are moving into their independent house soon. Today I was thoroughly involved in the work of The ICFAI Journal of Higher Education. I could get its pre-final copy ready by 5:00. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a beautiful brown Punjabi dress. I could partially look at her face a few times. I did not feel satisfied with it. She stayed back in the office until I left it. Came back to my abode by 6:30. Typed out and added one more page to my ongoing blog, working on it for two hours. Had my supper by 9:30. It is sultry. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
2 April (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00, sat before my computer, typed out and added two more pages to my ongoing blog titled “A Tuitor and His Disciple”. I could successfully complete this blog by 10:30. My darling Swagata Gupta is the source of inspiration to me for creating all these blogs between November 2, 2005, and today. It is going to be the last blog I post on my blog site of Google as a Sub Editor with the ICFAI University Press. Morning the boy of ladies hostel brought breakfast of Upma for Kiran and me. Kiran went to the public library at Basheer Bagh to prepare for his CA Final exams. I had a little part of it by 11:00 after taking a bath. Then went out and brought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Spent reading it till 1:00. Then went to the ATM Center of Andhra Bank at Vidya Nagar and withdrew 800 rupees. Thence proceeded to RTC Crossroads. Walked from cinema to cinema and found that my desired films were beyond my reach. Recently two or three good films were released. I have to buy a ticket for 100 rupees in the black. Saw the Telugu film “Mulla Kireetam” in cinema Venkateswara at Narayana Guda. It concisely portrayed the life of Jesus Christ. Came back to my abode by 5:00 in an auto rickshaw. The room was hot. I could hardly rest in it. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Washed my clothes and had a head bath by 8:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
3 April (Monday)
Woke up by 4:00. Swagata Gupta did not allow me to sleep well. Morning municipal drinking water was not supplied due to a pipe leak problem. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road for seven rupees and three bananas for four rupees. Got our office opened by 7:30 as an authorized signatory. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Typed out three papers to give to some of my colleagues. The first two pages carry the information about the 12 books I am going to get published soon and the third page is for them to fill in. These papers can be considered as personal survey forms. Today I edited four articles of MBA Review magazine to help my colleagues Swagata Gupta and Hepshiba Neha. Today my sweetheart Swagata Gupta put on a brown top and got her hair dressed up. Today I could not see her face or what colored trousers she put on. She spent most of her time in her place of work. She did not care for me at all. I spent depressingly today for this reason. I felt like falling on her feet and crying to make her kind to me. From 3:30 to 5:15 Pradeep Kumar Ramappa conducted a meeting of our journals section sub editors. By 7:00 got 20 sets of my personal survey forms printed out at Global View Internet café by Shivam Road. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
4 April (Tuesday)
Woke up by 4:00. Swagata Gupta did not allow me to sleep well. Listened to Telugu cine songs for half an hour. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast for seven rupees at a pushcart by main road and three bananas for three rupees. Got our office opened by 8:00 on behalf of our librarian Prakash. Today I edited four articles of MBA Review magazine to help my colleagues Swagata Gupta and Hepshiba Neha of magazines section. Today my goddess Swagata Gupta wore a brown top and black jeans. I could not see her face clearly even for once. She sat in her chair carrying out her magazine work. I spent a sad day without being blessed by her heavenly smiles. I want to marry her. May God realize it if He is kind to me. I am her admirer. Morning distributed my personal survey forms to 20 staff members in our office. Eighty percent of them returned them to me without filling in them. They are not interested in reading my books. I thought that they behaved strangely in this regard. Evening I told our Executive Editor G R K Murthy that my last working day with the ICFAI University Press would be 10th of this month. He sadly said that he misses my pleasant company. I felt touched by his words. May God bless him. Today I took my previously given works to him back from him. He could not read them for lack of time. Had my supper by 9:00. My best wishes to my sweetheart Swagata Gupta. Went to sleep by 10:00.
5 April (Wednesday)
Woke up by 4:00. My goddess Swagata Gupta did not allow me to sleep well. Filled drinking water into our plastic can by 5:15. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by main road and then two bananas for four rupees. Got the office opened by 7:45 on behalf of our Administrative Officer Manjunath Bhat. Took my seat of work by 8:00. Morning attended the final check of The ICFAI Journal of Higher Studies. Afternoon edited an article of MBA Review magazine to help my colleagues Swagata Gupta and Hepshiba Neha. Today my sweetheart Swagata Gupta put on a pink top and black jeans. She folded her trousers. Today I saw her face many times. She maintained a smiling face for me. Today I heard her talking in Hindi, with Bangaru Babu, the head of our art department. She put on black footwear. She wore a wristwatch with black belt. Earlier she used to wear a silver colored wristwatch. She walks like me. She talks like me. All these observations of her character and appearance made me believe that she is also deeply in love with me. She stayed back in the office till 6:00 until I left it. I will marry her soon. She was born for me. Today I attended the formalities for my release from this press on the 10th of this month. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
6 April (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. My cousin Kiran and I went out on his bike by 7:10. He has to attend a class at Lakdi Ka Pool. He collected his books of preparation from the library at Basheer Bagh and dropped me at the bus stop in Lakdi Ka Pool. Thence took a bus and reached the rented abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu at Journalist Colony ‘A’ by 8:20. They offered me cool rice with buttermilk for breakfast. I happily had it. He talked with the owner of this house. He agreed to allow him to get two spacious rooms constructed on the terrace of this house. My friend wants to use those two rooms as the exhibition halls of his paintings. He has to spend about 50,000 rupees for it. Recently he completed the order of painting of Lord Venkateshwara. He charged 1, 50, 000 rupees for it. I wondered looking at that great beauty he created. I spent there till 7:00. Watched half of the Telugu feature film “Gudumbaa Shankar” of Pavan Kalyan and “Gitanjali” of Nagarjuna completely playing his video CDs on his computer system. Also downloaded the nude photos of some female models from a few websites for him. I checked my blog site of Google also. Came back to the press of my personal works by 8:20. Had my supper, bought and brought from a nearby hotel, by 9:00. Last night Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. This dream showed that she is living happily like a kid in our family, being loved by all of them. Went to sleep by 10:00.
7 April (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Filled drinking water into our plastic can by 5:30. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went out and bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Spent reading it for two hours. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Shivam Road by 9:00. Global View Internet café was opened by 10:00. Posted my blog titled “A Tutor and His Disciple” on my blog site of Google by 10:15. Took a bus and reached Ameerpet by 11:00. Bought a long-sleeved shirt and trousers for 460 rupees in the Kumar Shirts showroom there for me. The color of this shirt is brown. The color of trousers is dark blue. Today it is Sri Rama Navami, on which, the birth anniversary of Lord Rama, and the marriage anniversary of Lord Rama and Goddess Sita, would be celebrated by Hindus, every year. I will wear this pair of clothes on the 10th of this month. It remains as a memorable day in my life. My sweetheart Swagata Gupta and I will announce the news of our love and marriage to our colleagues that day. It will be a surprise to all. Swagata Gupta would resign from her job that day itself. Afternoon saw the Telugu film “10th Class” in cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. Today I had two glasses of fruit salad, three glasses of sugarcane juice and two glasses of fruit juices to quench my thirst. Night we got a new Bajaj ceiling fan fixed in our room, removing the old one. It became useless. The moonlit sky is partly cloudy. My cute kid Swagata Gupta must be enjoying it. Took a bath by 10:15 to feel cool. Went to sleep by 10:30.
8 April (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 8:00. Went out and brought a copy of Eenadu by 8:15. Spent reading it for two hours. Rested till 1:00. Hired an auto rickshaw and went to cinema Shanti by 1:15. I could not get a ticket standing in the queue there. Bought a 33-rupee ticket for 60 rupees in the black. Saw the Telugu film “Sri Ramadasu” of Nagarjuna from 2:00 to 5:00. There is no much scope for Nagarjuna to act in this film. Suman played the role of Lord Rama. I enjoyed his look and acting in this film a lot. Two or three songs, sung by S P Bala Subrahmanyam, are main attractions. Music is good. I don’t think that this director exhibited extraordinary skills in directing it. Audience are receiving this film well because Nagarjuna played the title role in it. There are no good films, other than this, now, on show. So, it is attracting many. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. Came back to my abode by 5:30 in an auto rickshaw. Today I had four glasses of sugarcane juice to face this summer. Also had two cups of Vanilla ice cream. Evening listened to Telugu cine songs for two hours on my Walkman. By 8:00 called up my uncle Rama Raju at village Peda Theenaarla. My cousin Narendra Varma took Godavari Express at NRPM railway station by 6:30 this evening. He reaches Secunderabad by tomorrow morning. I have to go there to receive him. Had my supper by 9:30. Last night my goddess Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
9 April (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and went to the bus stop near Shankar Math by 5:30. Took a bus and reached Secunderabad railway station by 6:15. My cousin Narendra Varma was waiting for me on Platform No. 10. He came here by Godavari Express. He travelled in a third class compartment and so looked weary and sleepy. We took a bus at Rethifile Bus Stand and reached my abode by 8:00. He recently completed his Diploma in Mechanical Engineering from the Andhra Polytechnic at Kakinada. He wants to take coaching for the entrance test into Bachelor of Technology. He brought toasted cashew, some eatables and fruits from his home. I advised him to rest satisfactorily. These cashew and fruits may be offered to my goddess Swagata Gupta. Today I spent much of my time in my abode reading Eenadu and listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman. By 6:00 my cousin Kiran and I admitted my cousin Narendra varma into Sai Medha Coaching Centre at Kachiguda. He brought 3000 rupees from home. I added 2500 rupees to it. This payment is toward the coaching, food and accommodation facilities for him here, till the 16th of next month. Thence Kiran and I moved to Abids. I bought a leather belt for 160 rupees at a store near Big Bazar building. Came back to my abode by 7:00. Washed my clothes and had a head bath by 8:30. Lord Krishna unites Swagata Gupta and me tomorrow. Went to sleep by 10:00.
10 April (Monday)
Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Put on my new long-sleeved shirt, new trousers, new leather belt and went to the bus stop by 6:45. Had two bananas and two small bottles of almond flavored milk. Got our office opened by 7:45 as an authorized signatory. Today is my last working day in this office. I believed that my goddess Swagata Gupta would propose to me today. She came to the office by 9:00. She wore a pink Punjabi dress. She did not get her hair dressed up today. She used a clip to shape her hair at the back. She came to our journals section twice or thrice. She looked at me once or twice. She did not say anything with me till the evening. Our journals section staff members presented me three farewell gifts. One is 2006 diary, one is a costly pen of a company and the other is a costly pen of another company. Swiped my attendance card by 5:00, gave it to our Administrative Manager K V Rao and returned to my abode in an auto rickshaw, spending 50 rupees. I told my cousin Kiran about what happened in our office today. He could not understand the characters of Swagata Gupta or Sutapa Patnaik. We discussed the pros and cons of my admiration for Swagata Gupta for two hours. Both of us went to an Internet café at Kachiguda. I sent a two-page email to Sutapa Patnaik explaining my love and related pain centered on Swagata Gupta, and asked her what Swagata Gupta thinks about me really. I felt relieved after sending this email. Came back to my abode by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
11 April (Tuesday)
Woke up by 4:30. Last night my goddess Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. It signified that she is suffering internally because of her separation from me. I felt very sad seeing her in such situation. I would have died for her if she had asked me for it. Freshened up myself by 8:00. Kiran and I went out on his bike by 8:15. He dropped me at Lakdi Ka Pool and moved to the public library at Basheer Bagh to prepare for his CA Final exams. Thence took a bus and reached the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu by 9:00. Called up my former colleague Sutapa Patnaik at ICFAI University Press and told her to read the email I sent her. She replied me by 11:30. Her email shows that she did not pay even minimum attention toward reaching the admiration of my heart to my goddess Swagata Gupta, which I thought she did for me. I thought that she would play a great role in uniting us. I was deeply hurt reading this email from her. I asked her for her cellular phone number. She did not give it thinking that I would call her up frequently. I implored her to allow me to talk with her this evening to console myself. She did not allow me to meet her. I regretted it. Came back to my abode by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:30. Today I felt very happy realizing that I could reach the pain of my heart for Swagata Gupta, to my former colleague Sutapa Patnaik. She must reach my heart to Swagata Gupta now at least. Went to sleep by 10:30.
12 April (Wednesday)
Woke up by 8:00. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 9:00. Today I wanted to spend my time without doing anything. I admired Swagata Gupta as a goddess and wanted to marry her. I prayed Lord Krishna to make her understand me. I explained my former colleague Sutapa Patnaik how deeply I am admiring her. None of them helped me. I remained as a helpless and pitiable victim. I should commit suicide to get rid of this internal suffering. It is a spiritual crime. I should not resort to such extreme steps. My goddess Swagata Gupta is not a bad girl. She somehow failed to receive the love and pain of my heart for her. I should have directly talked with her. I suspect that Sutapa Patnaik played the role of a villain in keeping us away from one another. I sent her three serious emails after leaving our office, explaining her how deeply I am suffering for Swagata Gupta. She did not like to give her cellular phone number also to me. She sent a short email stating that she cannot help me much in this regard. Such casual reply from her shows that she does not like me or my sweetheart Swagata Gupta. I pray Lord Krishna to punish her adequately if she played the role of a villain in this case. A sinner must be corrected by God. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. She is suffering internally for me. May my Lord Krishna unite us soon, punishing the criminals. I spent sadly today in her thoughts. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
13 April (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Today I started editing my personal diaries on my personal computer. Today I edited a small part in my diary of 1995. My plan is to edit for 12 hours a day. I could not achieve it today. There was nobody in my abode today. This haunting solitude of my life is acting as a negative factor. Morning my cousin Kiran brought breakfast for me from the nearby ladies hostel. Afternoon avoided my lunch being uninterested in going out to bring it. Evening I fell asleep. A scary dream attacked me. I witnessed some people beating me without my fault. It scared me. By 4:30 called up my HCU friend Ramesh. He came to Kothi from Vanasthalipuram to attend some work. He readily agreed to come to my abode today. Went to the nearby Shankar Math temple and waited for him for 15 rupees. Both of us came to my abode by 6:30. We spent talking for two hours. I told him about my blog site of Google and other developments in my life recently. He is working as a 2D animator now in the Ramoji Film City. Both of us spent in a nearby Internet café for one hour. By 9:00 called up my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani at Jaggampeta and told her about my problems in editing my works being alone. Last night Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
14 April (Friday)
Woke up by 8:00. Morning I decided to go to my home and carry out the editing work of my works. Packed my related things and took it to the office of Navata Road Transport at Vidya Nagar. I booked my computer table, black trolley bag and a cardboard box of books there. It cost me about 500 rupees. Then took my computer and CPU (Central Processing Unit) to be dusted and packed at a computer sales and service outlet by Shivam Road. They said that they won’t carry out such minor works. I was deeply hurt by their response. Thence I took them to Kothi in an auto rickshaw. One fellow packed them in two cardboard boxes and took 200 rupees from me for it. Thence I brought it back to the office of Navata Road Transport at Vidya Nagar and booked it for Adduroad. Thence rushed to Shivam Road and booked a ticket to Adduroad for Hyderabad-Visakhapatnam Hitech bus for tomorrow for 323 rupees. It starts by 4:00 tomorrow evening from Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station. Came back to my abode and rested for one hour. Went to the nearby ladies hostel and paid 200 rupees to its owner to clear the dues. Thence moved to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road and spent there till 7:45. Sent emails to my former colleagues Sutapa Patnaik, Satish Reddy and Sriram. Thence moved to the apartment of Administrative Manager K V Rao of ICFAI University Press and offered him a bottle of Rooh Afja and a dozen bananas. On the way back to my abode, bought one kilo of sweets to take home. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
15 April (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Washed a pair of clothes and took a head bath by 7:30. Kiran dropped me by the reservation complex at Kachiguda railway station by 8:00. I stood in the queue there and got a sleeper class ticket reserved for my cousin Narendra Varma for his journey to Narsipatnam Road on the 16th of next month. By 9:15 went to Sai Medha Coaching Centre at Kachiguda and gave that ticket to Naren. Thence returned to my abode by 10:30. Spent reading the Telugu daily Eenadu for two hours. Rested for some time. Went out and had my lunch in a hotel near Shankar Math temple. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station by 3:30. Paid him 32 rupees. About five months of my association with this rented portion thus came to an end. The Hyderabad-Visakhapatnam Hitech bus started off by 4:15 from the MGBS. My window seat number is 26. A family, going to Annavaram, was travelling sitting about me. One of them is a small girl aged about 14. She found me as a handsome guy. Her parents did not consider me as a bad boy. She sat beside me for a few minutes. She looked innocent. I enjoyed her presence a lot. I was drinking the sugarcane juice, brought in a bottle, frequently. Had my supper in a roadside hotel around 10:30. The moon was bright in the sky. They played two Telugu feature films on the television in this bus on journey. This bus reached Vijayawada by 11:30.
16 April (Sunday)
Got off the bus at Adduroad Junction by 6:00. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached my home by 6:15. The luggage I booked at Vidya Nagar has not yet reached Adduroad Junction. Maternal heredity affected my mother. She has been suffering from knee joint pain for the last four months. She is planning to consult a doctor at Government Hospital near Nakkapalli soon. I advised her to go to the Navy (Kalyani) Hospital in Visakhapatnam with the help of my army brother Srinivas. My paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju came to our house and spent talking with me for about two hours. He is living with the families of his two younger sons now in Peda Gummuluru. I greatly enjoyed listening to his affectionate words for me. Had my lunch by 1:30 with chicken curry. Rested for one hour. My uncle Srinu came by 3:30. He is taking care of his old parents now. He is in financial problems now. I greatly enjoyed his affectionate talk with me. Our mango garden associate (friend of my brother Sambha) Kurandasu Appa Rao came by 5:00. He talked with me for one hour. He asked me to find a job for his eldest son in Hyderabad. I told him that I would help him. My uncle Chanti came by 6:30. His son Sekhar is working in Hyderabad now. He spent talking with me for two hours. Had my supper by 8:00 with fish soup. Today the sky was cloudy. My goddess Swagata Gupta must be suffering for me in Hyderabad. Today I spent a passive day due to sleepy mood. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
17 April (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Last night I tried to sleep in the open in the narrow back yard of our house. It started drizzling around 12:00. Power cut occurred. I could not sleep well. My goddess Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. I felt sad thinking about the physical distance between her and me now. Went to Adduroad by 12:00 to enquire about the arrival of my booked luggage from Hyderabad. My brother Sambha collected and kept it in his tent house. Both of us carefully brought it to our house in a rickshaw. I put my luggage in our house and fixed my computer in a room. I struggled hard to dust the keyboard. Thereafter I opened it to clean it inside. About four buttons stopped functioning after my cleaning work. I decided not to use it anymore. Went back to Adduroad by 4:30. There is a five-hour regular daytime power cut in our village. I came here to attend the editing work of my works, 12 hours a day. This daily power cut has become a curse in this regard. I talked with some electricians in Adduroad about how to resolve this issue. They advised me to buy a power saving battery system. It costs me about 10,000 rupees. I cannot bear such expenses now. Spent talking with my friends there for about four hours. This morning it rained heavily. It is good for many seasonal crops. Had my supper by 7:30. Watched television for 90 minutes. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams blessed by God.
18 April (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 8:00. Went to Adduroad by 8:30. Spent talking with my friend and priest Viswanadha Sharma at the temple of Lord Anjaneya Swamy for 20 minutes. Left for Payakaraopeta by 9:30 by bus. Went there to buy a keyboard, a mouse and a UPS for my computer. I wondered knowing that there is not even one shop where one can get computer related material. I walked from place to place for half an hour. At last went to Creative Computers near the police station. There was hardly anything related to computers. I bought a keyboard and an optical mouse for 575 rupees. Spent browsing Internet in it for one hour. It was very slow. Returned home by 1:30 by bus and had my lunch. Took a bus at Adduroad Junction and reached Visakhapatnam by 4:10, after a two-hour journey. Walked a little away from the bus complex. Spotted a computers outlet opposite Gupta Brothers bookstore. There I bought a D-Link UPS, five floppies, a floppy box, an electric spike, a computer cleaning lotion and an empty CD for 1900 rupees. Had a glass of Lassi at Ayyappa Fruit Juices and came back to the bus complex by 6:15. The bus started off by 6:30 and dropped me at Adduroad Junction by 9:00. Walked to our house with the luggage. Had my supper by 9:45. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.
19 April (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. My mother and I took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 9:45. We got off it by 11:00 at NAD Kotharoad. We had a glass of grape juice there. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw to Kalyani Hospital. He struggled to take us to this place. We could enter this hospital (meant for defence personnel and their dependents) by 12:00. My brother Srinivas already came to this place from Jaggampeta. We sat at a wrong place. Only the dependents of in-service defense personnel would be treated there. Thence my brother took us to a nearby spot where the dependents of ex-servicemen would be treated. Recently the Government of India introduced a new system in the defense related hospitals. This system necessitates the service seekers to carry their individual identity cards to get medical services. Today my brother could not get those cards ready for our parents. We could not consult the doctor for this reason. Thence we came back to old Gajuwaka in an auto rickshaw. There I bought a papaya for 18 rupees. Thence we took an Express bus and reached Adduroad by 4:00. Had my lunch by 4:30. Went to Adduroad and spent talking with my friends there for one hour. Had my haircut by 6:30. I asked the mechanic at Supraja Electronics to come and fit the external material to my computer system. He did not come till 9:00. I felt very angry at his carelessness. Went to sleep by 10:00.
20 April (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Watched television from 8:00 to 9:00. Then went to Adduroad and checked for the availability of any technician to fit the keyboard and audio system to my computer at home. I could find one after a thorough search. He has a shop near the main road. He does photo editing and video mixing works related to marriage and other functions. He has a computer in his shop. He came to our house and fitted those things to my computer. He found that the new keyboard is not functioning well. He took it to his place and tried to repair it. He could not do it. My cousin Vasu came from Peda Theenaarla by 11:30. He brought fresh sapodilla fruit for me from there. We watched television for some time. My cousin Vasu and I left for Payakaraopeta by 1:30. We returned the defective keyboard to the owner of Creative Computers, where I bought it recently. Thence we went to cinema Sri Rama and saw the Telugu film “Pournami” of Prabhas and Thrisha. I greatly enjoyed watching this film from the start to the end. Famous choreographer Prabhu Deva directed this film. It is one of the great films I have seen. The story, the music and the direction of this film belong to very high category. On our way back, we took an old computer keyboard from Creative Computers in the place of returned one. We took a bus and returned to Adduroad by 7:00. I fitted the keyboard to my computer. It is functioning well. Had my supper by 8:30. This evening a serious debate took place in our house. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
21 April (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. This morning I started editing my diary of 1995. Today my cousin Vasu spent here till the evening. He got their paddy husked in the nearby rice mill. Afternoon there was power cut. I could not edit from 12:00 to 6:00 for this reason. Some advised me to buy an inverter to avoid this problem. I have no that much money. Wasting six hours a day, without editing my works, greatly delays the processing of my diaries. I have to stay with this problem. Afternoon rested at home. By 5:00 went to the house of my uncle Srinu to spend talking with them for some time. The coconut seedlings, which we planted in the front yard of their house long ago, grew up. They added beauty to their thatched house. Their son Surendra is in the second standard now. He is studying at Viswa Shanti Convent School at Adduroad. My aunt Padma prepared sugar water for me adding lemon juice to it. They have a buffalo before their house. My uncle Bhaskara Raju is working at government canal digging projects now. His wife is not happy with his earning potential and place of residence. Pervasive poverty often makes people hate one another. Returned home by 6:15. Had a bath by 7:00 and started editing my diary. My uncle Rama Raju spent with us this night. I spent talking with him for one hour. I stopped editing by 9:00. Today I completed editing the May part in my diary of 1995. Went to sleep by 10:30.
22 April (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Edited my diary of 1995 for four hours. Morning a ceiling fan was fitted in our house in the room where my computer system is placed. Afternoon the keyboard of my computer stopped functioning all of a sudden. Morning an electrician told me that a small pit must be dug into earth at the back of our house and an iron wire must be fixed into it to avoid electric shock in gadgets like computer and refrigerator in future. My computer keyboard would have got affected due to it. I stopped working due to this problem. It severely disturbed my editing work. I have to utilize every minute for editing my works on computer. These problems are testing my patience levels. Went to Adduroad by 2:00 to see if there was anybody to help me fixing an iron wire into earth. I moved from shop to shop. Nobody was there. I felt very disgusted at it. I cursed all the folks living and working in Adduroad. My friend Sekhar came from Ramayyapatnam by 3:30. He is working in the Indian Army as a soldier now at Jammu & Kashmir. I felt very happy to see him after a long time. Both of us had a glass of grape juice and spent talking for two hours. From 4:30 to 7:30 spent talking with my friend and priest Viswanadha Sharma. He said that the stars in the sky greatly influence the life of a man. He is good at Hinduism. Had my supper by 9:30. Today I spent a very bad day because I could not edit my diary. Went to sleep by 10:30.
23 April (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Morning watched television for some time. Went to Adduroad by 8:30. Spent talking with Narasimha Murthy Raju, the partner of my brother Sambha in the tent house business. He has only one son. He is studying at Timpany School in Visakhapatnam now. He wants to get his son take the entrance examination into the Sainik School at Korukonda in Vizianagaram district. He asked me to guide him in this regard. I assured him that I would certainly help him. By 4:00 I brought electrician Ramu of Ramayyapatnam to our house. He fitted a thin iron wire into the switch board, where my computer is connected, and fixed its other end in the pit dug at the back of our house, to avoid electric shock to my computer while working on it. Thereafter I spent searching for another electrician in our village. He has to change the direction of electricity supply wire of our house from one side to the other. Our neighbor Subba Raju developed enmity towards us for this reason because this wire is passing via his house touching their coconut tree in the front yard of their house. He recently attacked my father, picking quarrel with him on these grounds. He fears that electric shock may occur if there is leak in that wire. My folks did not take this issue seriously. They are engaged in the seasonal work of collection of cashew nuts in their respective crop-bought gardens. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
24 April (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Brought an electrician from our village to our house by 6:30. He disconnected the electricity supply wire from the nearby cement pole by 7:30. Then both of us went to Adduroad to buy and bring some related material. This work was over by 10:30. Morning I brought three 10-rupee packs of Britannia Tiger orange cream biscuits from Adduroad. My brother Sambha liked them. My cousin Vasu and I left for Visakhapatnam by 11:10, in our hired auto rickshaw, along with my used computer system and CPU. We reached Wintel Computers opposite Gupta Brothers bookstore in Dwaraka Nagar by 1:15. The owner of this outlet bought my used computer system and CPU for 4000 rupees. I bought it for 9000 rupees, one year ago, in Hyderabad, from Ravi Kumar, the systems administrator in ICFAI University Press. I withdrew 4000 rupees from the nearby ATM Center of Andhra Bank and 4400 rupees from the nearby ATM Center of HDFC Bank. I told him to give me a new computer system taking my old one. He took 8000 rupees from me. They assembled a new CPU for me. I spent 12000 rupees for this new computer. It has 15-inch color monitor, 40 GB hard disk space, 128 MB of RAM, CD writer and mother board of Mercury. They loaded some software also into it. We started back by 5:30. We returned home by 7:50. I brought a familiar one from Adduroad and got my new computer system fixed correctly. It is functioning well. My two bank balances became minimum after this purchase. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:10 for my dreams.
25 April (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30 and watched television for some time. My friend Dantuluri Shiva Varma came from Visakhapatnam by 9:30. We spent talking for three hours. He loved Swati Maitreyi, a Kshatriya girl, working as an anchor now with the Maa television channel in Hyderabad. He built up a strong imaginary world of psychic attachment with her. He thought that she was also in love with him. This admiration from his side continued for about two years. He wrote many letters to that television channel appreciating her performance as an anchor. Recently he went to Hyderabad thrice to meet her at that television studio. She did not like to meet him. She told the security men there to send him away, saying that she has no familiarity with him. He failed in this love affair and learnt a lesson from it. I started editing my diary of 1995 by 1:05. Power cut occurred in a few minutes. I rushed to the substation at village Koruprolu to enquire the fellows there about these undeclared power cuts. There was neither the Assistant Engineer nor Sub Engineer. I spent there till 5:00. Thence rushed to Nakkapalli and collected information about the consumer council in Visakhapatnam. Typed out a three-page complaint letter on my computer by 10:30. My editing work is severely being affected due to these frequent undeclared power cuts. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
26 April (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went to our post office and enquired about the arrival of any mail to me. Took a bus by 10:00 at Adduroad Junction and left for Payakaraopeta. The floppy on which I stored my complaint letter was not opened at Creative Computers. I regretted it. I spent checking my blog site, email and collecting some information from the Internet for one hour. By today the total income earned from my AdSense account is $ 2.9. My blog site did not become popular because I intentionally left it so. Now my concentration is on processing and bringing out my 12 books. Returned home by 1:30. Started my computer system and again copied the soft copy of my complaint letter into the floppy. Took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 2:00 and reached Elamanchili by 2:20. Got my complaint letter printed out on a laser printer at a Internet café near the main post office. One registered letter was sent to the Assistant Engineer, Substation, Koruprolu and one registered letter was sent to Dr P Rama Rao, Honorary Secretary, Visakha Consumer Council. I have decided to fight against the Eastern Power Distribution Company Limited, through consumer court. I stated in this complaint letter that this distribution company must pay me a compensation of 25 lakh rupees for the loss incurred by me due to its frequent undeclared power cuts in our village. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and my nephew Suhas came to our house from Jaggampeta by 6:00. Night spent talking with them for some time. Went to sleep by 11:00.
27 April (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Power cut was imposed from the substation by 6:00. Spent all the time at home. Today my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, sister-in-law Kranti and my mother were engaged in taking out the cashew from those nuts from 9:00 to 1:00 using sharp tools meant for that domestic work. They attended five kilograms of cashew nuts this way. This cashew is for my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani. She uses them in dishes and as snacks to her two children. My mother picks big and quality cashew nuts from the lot brought from our garden. Then they must be dried up in the sun for about one month. This act makes cashew durable. Taking out cashew from those nuts is a boring and disgusting work. Hands get affected by cashew oil. Many apply edible oil to their palms, before touching them, to avoid this problem. About two kilograms of cashew emerges from five kilograms of dry cashew nuts. I spent lying on the floor in the front of our house when they were carrying out that tedious work. Had my lunch by 11:45. Electricity was restored by 12:00. I started working on my computer. Evening or night power was not supplied uninterruptedly. The sky turned cloudy and winds started blowing by 5:30. Such atmosphere encourages the folks at substation in Koruprolu to cut power. I am feeling sleepy when working seriously on my computer. I hate such qualities in me. Night it was very cool outside. I enjoyed it. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
28 April (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and edited my diary of 1995 for a few minutes. Took a rest from 6:00 to 12:00 because there was power cut. Today also my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and my mother carried out the work of taking out cashew from those nuts. Afternoon and night edited my diary of 1995. By 5:30 it rained with heavy winds. Power cut occurred. I have been facing this problem ever since I came here from Hyderabad. There is scheduled six-hour power cut. One should not expect uninterrupted power supply even during the remaining 18 hours. If there is heavy rain or wind, somewhere in this region, those folks at substation cut power supply immediately. There would be frequent repairs in electric lines because they are all established with low quality stuff. Government linemen don’t come to the house of any fellow if they are not paid some money by the victim concerned to get it done fast. Many domestic electric works would be carried out by private electricians only. Very few call up the blokes at any substation, if there is a complaint or suggestion to be made, because the government at the other end, in the form of employees, seldom cares for them. Most of these government employees are uneducated and laymen in their related knowledge and skills. The government does not fill important vacancies at substations in villages and towns. The material used and the modes of operation at these substations are outdated and unreliable. Only extremists can change these corrupt and polluted systems fast. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
29 April (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Afternoon and night edited my diary of 1995 for about four hours. Evening it rained with powerful winds. This year mango crop failed severely. These gales badly affect mango crop. Today, my brother Sambha, my cousin Vasu and my father brought fallen mangoes to home. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my mother and my nephew Suhas carried out the work of peeling those mangoes for making mango pickle. I became very frustrated at the frequent power cuts, which stopped me from editing my diary. Evening received the acknowledgement card signed by the assistant engineer at the substation in Koruprolu. I recently sent a complaint letter to him, by registered post, asking for his legally and morally justifiable answers to the questions posed by me, in relation to the frequent undeclared power cuts from their substation now. If he does not respond to me properly, within 10 days, I would consider the option of filing a case against him in a consumer court. Night there was no power supply to our village from 9:00 onwards. I slept inside for some time. It was sultry. Mosquitoes started biting me. Then I brought my handy folding cot to the front of our house. Even outside there were mosquitoes. I could not sleep well for these reasons. Modern man’s dependence on electricity is phenomenal. I was slightly affected by this phenomenon today. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
30 April (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1995 for about five hours. Today my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani cooked janticals (a local dish familiar to Telugu people) in our house for us from 10:00 to 1:00. She came here with her younger son Suhas to spend happily for some days but it did not happen. Today winds blew rigorously and affected mango crop. My brother Sambha and my father brought fallen mangoes from our garden at the hills. My mother decided to prepare a kind of mango pickle with them. They peeled about 200 mangoes today. They spent about 10 hours carrying out this work. My mother likes her because she behaves affectionately and helps her honestly in her domestic chores. Suhas behaves adamantly with his mother. He is a noted mischief-maker. Bearing with heavy childishness is a problem to anybody. She did not go to the houses of our familiar ones also for lack of time. This morning my brother Srinivas informed us over telephone to send her back to Jaggampeta immediately. He is working with the HPCL now, in the security division of its underground pipelines, carrying petrol from Visakhapatnam to Secunderabad. Cooking and keeping house clean become a problem to him in her absence. Evening she got her luggage ready to go to Jaggampeta tomorrow. Today my sister-in-law Kranti took Suhas to the house of her parents in village Tangedu. He secretly took the purse of my mother (with a little money in it). His mother beat him when he returned from there. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
1 May (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1995 for about eight hours on my computer. Morning my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani offered 16 cashew apples and 16 pomegranates to one of our familiar married women. It is part of a series of such ceremonious offerings to other married women by her meant for bringing prosperity and happiness to her husband and children. As per this course of observations, based on Hindu beliefs, she has to offer 16 kinds of fruits, in an orderly manner, 16 fruits of each kind, to whichever married Kshatriya women she likes. She had already offered three kinds of fruits. This afternoon she, her son Suhas and my father left for Jaggampeta by a bus from Adduroad Junction. She is taking cashew, coconut oil and a few mangoes with her. My mother gave 20 rupees to her grandson Suhas. My sister-in-law looked energetic and beautiful when she came to our house a few days ago. She became pale and colorless within this short time. There is no scarcity of basic human needs in our house. My mother could not understand why she became so. She kept on working this or that on all the days. Beauty thrives in physical comfort. Perhaps she lacked it in our house. I felt the absence of these two persons when they left home. Human nature is unpredictable. It cannot enjoy the presence of God. It can criticize invisible ghosts, which remain inaccessible to it. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
2 May (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1995 for about ten hours. This morning my mother gave me two boiled eggs laid by our pet hen. Then I was working on my computer. She firmly believes that one should wash one’s hands after eating boiled eggs, meat or fish dishes. She knew that I would not wash my hand after touching boiled eggs because I was devotedly involved in my editing work. She fed me like a child. I greatly enjoyed that affectionate gesture from her. For many months I have been spending away from her, being busy with my job. Her body and mind are becoming delicate and passive, day by day, along with her increasing age. Now I am unmarried. A mother starts distancing her children from the domain of her pure affection once they get married. I am her youngest son. I behave like a good boy with her. She treats me as a small child. She also offered me sweet milk beverage prepared with sago. It was tasty breakfast. Afternoon she went to meet the doctor at Etikoppaka Cooperative Sugar Factory in Darlapudi to take tablets for her knee joint pain. He was not available. Evening I received the acknowledgement card signed by P Rama Rao of Visakha Consumer Council. Recently I sent the copy of a complaint letter to him. He received that registered letter on the 29th of last month. Today it was hot and sultry. The scheduled power cut took place from 12:00 to 6:00. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Went to sleep by 10:00.
3 May (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I completed editing my diary of 1995. The power cut took place from 12:00 to 6:00. About two months ago, my uncle Srinivas (the eldest son of my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju) gave a pup to us. He thought that it would be a ferocious and faithful dog because it has 21 nails. My brother Sambha liked it being in our house. Within very few days, after it was brought to our house, it proved a thief. It started behaving badly in our house. It did its natural calls in our house. It enters all rooms neglecting the commands of its caretakers. My mother could not bear with its mischief and indiscipline. They tied it with a chain to a small tree in front of our house. Some food would be offered to it sometime. It could not move away from this place. If it was left freely once or twice a week, it started behaving in its old style. One day it was taken away from our house and left there. It returned home the following day. Its enemies in this place would have bitten it black and blue. It became very weak. It started taking its life very casually. It stopped eating food in our house and going outside. It looked innocently at our faces. This evening it died at the house of one of our neighbors. It is hardly three months old. It does not know where its parents, relatives and siblings are. Its dead body would be thrown away somewhere by somebody. I pitied its life and death. I did not love it when it was alive. I am a hypocrite. Went to sleep by 12:40.
4 May (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I started editing my diary of 1996. I did it for about 11 hours. Yesterday evening my father returned from Gollalagunta along with my nephew Sujan and my cousin Kavita. These two are in their summer holidays of schools now. My nephew Sujan recently took the entrance examination into Navodaya Vidyalaya after his fifth standard. He got coaching at Jaggampeta, for about three months, before taking this entrance test. He said that he did well in this test. The results of this entrance test will be announced soon. A number of private schools came up in all the places in the recent years. They want rich students and poor teachers. Earning money through business of education with small children, is their goal. Majority of them are English medium schools. There won’t be provision of quality education in most of these schools. In these circumstances, reputed government schools like Navodaya vidyalayas and Sainik schools are the best options to the parents of intelligent children. This afternoon my brother Sambha and my nephew Sujan saw the Telugu film “Style” in a cinema at Adduroad. This afternoon postman brought the ECET hall ticket of my cousin Narendra Varma. We have been waiting for it for the last few days. This evening my uncle Narayana Murthy said that he would conduct the formal worship to Lord Hanuman on the 10th of this month in village Ramayyapatnam. He told me to come there. Today there was power cut from 12:00 to 6:00. It was sultry during the day and night. Went to sleep by 12:30 for my dreams.
5 May (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. I edited my diary of 1996 for about ten hours today. This morning my cousin Vasu came from village Peda Theenaarla on bicycle. I told him to reach the news of arrival of ECET hall ticket to his brother Narendra Varma in Hyderabad. He spent here till the evening. Recently my paternal aunt Subhadra brought their son Ravindra Varma from Hyderabad. He has been doing a trivial job over there for the last one year. She heard that he was not going to the job regularly. He is about 18 now. She wants to get him married soon. He is not much educated. His character is known well in our village. He has no job. The present-day parents of girls are very wise and visionary. Finding a bride for him is not an ordinary issue. I heard that he is not willing to come and see me. I rebuked him severely in Hyderabad when he stole the cellular phone of my KSS hostel mate Murali. He still remembers those words. His father does not know how to behave with his relatives or familiar society. He hates the very presence of his son at home. Bearing with a spoilt child is very difficult for parents. A husband can divorce his arrogant wife. A woman can beat a cowardly man. A dog can chase 100 pigs but an Indian mother cannot stop taking care of her unmarried son. She believes that she can reform the perverted life of her son. She craves for his affection till the end. She dies visualizing a golden period in the life of her son. Went to bed by 12:30.
6 May (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1996 for about ten hours. Today I had two mango fruit. This morning my mother and father went to Anakapalle to get the swelling around the knee joint of my mother treated. My mother has to prepare breakfast and lunch for us, sweep the house cleanly and wash our clothes. She could not get ready before 11:00 for this reason. By 12:30 my maternal aunt Raja Kumari came from Peda Theenaarla. I heard about the financial condition of their family. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju earns 1500 rupees a month as a supervisor of coconut garden. Its owner is deep in debts now. He does not pay him his salary till the middle of month. They have to spend 6000 rupees a year for the education of their eldest son Vasu. They have a small plot of land in Peda Gummuluru, one acre of rice farm near Raja Venkata Nagaram and a simple house in Gollalagunta now. They have a debt of 50000 rupees now. They are struggling hard to spend their days. They are planning to sell one of their properties to get rid of this burden of debt. She is also thinking of selling her few gold ornaments. She took my cousin Kavita and my nephew Sujan to their abode today. They have been spending boringly at our house for the last few days. Today Sujan did not have lunch because it was bitter gourd curry in our house. This evening my sister-in-law Kranti cooked rice for us as my mother was not at home. Evening it was cloudy and cool. Today power cut occurred irregularly. Went to sleep by 12:50 for my dreams.
7 May (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1996 for about ten hours. This afternoon my cousin Vasu came from Peda Theenaarla. He spent here till the evening. I showed him the cloth pieces I bought recently from a vendor for 400 rupees. He took them to Adduroad and got them cut into four pieces. Four pairs of trousers can be stitched with them. I gave two pieces to Vasu and two pieces to my father. This morning my nephew Sujan returned from the abode of my uncle Rama Raju along with my cousin Vasu on bicycle. He is feeling bored to spend here. Actually he came here to spend for some days. He is going to Jaggampeta tomorrow along with my father. Today my father, my mother, my brother Sambha and my sister-in-law Kranti were devotedly involved in the first stage of preparation of two kinds of mango pickles. My mother played main role in this work. The doctor said that her knee joints got rubbed and affected due to friction caused by her bodily movements. She should not ascend stairs, sit on floor or carry heavy weight. It is to avoid pressure on her knee joints. The doctor prescribed tablets and injections for her worth about 1000 rupees. She is already taking tablets for high blood pressure. She daily does hard and hectic chores in our house. She does not like to employ a domestic to help her in domestic chores. Evening our familiar fellow Yesu Babu of village Ramayyapatnam spent talking with me for about two hours. He likes me a lot. May God bless him. Went to sleep by 12:00.
8 May (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1996 for about eight hours. This morning my father and my nephew Sujan left for Jaggampeta by 11:30. Today there was power cut for seven hours during daytime. It is badly affecting me daily. I could not fit the electric plugs into my UPS correctly. Whenever power cut occurs, the backup is failing within minutes. I am unable to save some part of the edited text due to it. It is a matter of great concern for me. Creative thoughts are like lightning in the sky on a rainy day. They cannot be restored if lost once. Today I decided to go to the rented abode of my brother Srinivas at Jaggampeta soon. There electricity supply would be 24 hours a day. It facilitates me to edit my works 14 hours a day. If I don’t spend that much time on this task a day, I cannot finish it early. There is no reply from the Assistant Engineer of the substation at Koruprolu to my complaint letter sent to him recently. He must have feared to read it. He does not have the guts to answer back or the answer. I have to deal with him soon. I am frustrated at the carelessness and delay of government agencies. Today it was very sultry during the day and night. It is very inconvenient for my editing work. Creativity increases in moderately cold and densely dark atmosphere. I cannot find it in our house now. I am sleeping in the open for fresh and cool air. Went to sleep by 10:30.
9 May (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1996 for five hours only. I sat before my computer for editing as soon as electricity was supplied by 12:00. They cut it again by 2:00 and continued it till 5:00. I turned furious about the folks at substation. I felt like killing the detestable blokes sitting at the helm of affairs of electricity department in this nasty state. Morning exchange of angry words took place between my mother and my sister-in-law Kranti. I was deeply disturbed by their complaints and considerations about one another. I argued with my mother for about two hours to explain her why and how enmity and aversion develop among the folks of the same family. None of them is ready to accept these truths and remain noiseless. I was disturbed by these developments. By 1:30 my sister-in-law Kranti left for the house of her parents in Tangedu by bus. She said that she does not come back to our house. Her state of mind hurt me. My brother Sambha is the victim in this account. May God help these two creatures. Evening my great friend Yesu Babu talked with me for about two hours. His words sound impressive and universally applicable. I greatly love him considering his affection for me. May God bless him with a bright life. Evening my cousin Vasu came from Peda Theenaarla. He spent here this night. Today my brother Sambha brought a dog to our house. Went to sleep by 10:00.
10 May (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Vasu and I started to Ramayyapatnam by 7:15 on bicycles. I bought three packs of biscuits at a shop to give to my paternal grandparents there. They are living in a small rented portion now. My paternal grandmother has been suffering from knee joint pains for the last 30 years. Even the health of my paternal grandfather got affected recently. He is suffering from nervous and muscular weakness. He is fetching water from a nearby well every day. He has to arrange everything for my grandmother to cook food and keep their abode clean. They have three sons and one daughter now. None of them is ready to offer shelter to them now. They lent some money to their familiar ones in this village. They are not repaying them due to their problems. I pitied their coexistence affected by mutual dependence. Today my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy conducted annual formal worship to Lord Hanuman at His small temple in this village along with my aunt Kumari under the guidance of a priest. This auspicious program went on from 9:00 to 11:00. Some villagers came to this temple and offered their prayers to Lord Anjaneya on this occasion. My cousin Vasu and I spent there till 3:30 until the formal lunch program was over. I talked with my familiar ones in this village for some time during this time. I wanted to offer 100 rupees to this God but could offer 10 rupees only. I prayed Him to guide me well. Thence we went to our mango garden by hills. We returned home by 6:00. Thus today I spent very happily in the presence of God. Went to sleep by 10:30.
11 May (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today there was power cut for six hours. I could not edit my diary of 1996 for more than four hours. During day and night, it was very sultry. This kind of disgusting weather affected my spirit of creativity and speed of editing. I am disappointed to know that my editing work is going on very slowly. Evening my father returned from Jaggampeta. Recently my brother Srinivas bought a plot of land in Jaggampeta. My father went there to help him in the registration work. I knew that my brother Srinivas is feeling uneasy to allow me to his rented portion in Jaggampeta for carrying out my editing work 14 hours a day. There is no enough space in his portion to keep my table and computer. It further discouraged my spirit of work. There is no encouraging environment to attend my historical project of processing and publishing my works. During daytime, there is power cut and it is very sultry. I cannot remain sleepless for long during nighttime. I have to somehow cope with this situation and carry out my editing work, for which I came here. I pray my Lord Krishna to help me in this direction. Last night my goddess Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. I left my job one month ago. She must be suffering remembering this bitter fact. May Lord Krishna bless her. She is an innocent kid. Went to sleep by 9:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
12 May (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Today I could not edit my diary even for ten minutes. Morning went to the house of my uncle Srinu (the second son of my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju) and spent there for one hour. By 11:30 went to Adduroad and sat at the temple of Lord Anjaneya. My friend and priest Vemulakonda Viswanadha Sharma has been formally serving this God for the last one year. He is from Vizianagaram district. He has been living in Peda Gummuluru for the last eight years or so. He studied up to fifth standard. He was trained well in Hindu scriptures. He conducts Hindu marriages and such other ceremonies. He resolves many problems of his believers, through reading almanacs and depending on the theories of astrology. He became very popular among conservative folks in this region. He tries to defend virtues and practices them wherever possible. He is my close friend. I greatly enjoy his company. He knows much about Hinduism and way of the world. It was sultry today. I could not edit my diary, sitting in a closed room in our house, due to it. Today I spent about eight hours talking with this priest, sitting at the temple. Evening called up my familiar creatures at ICFAI University Press in Hyderabad and knew that my colleagues Satish Reddy and Rajendra Dass had left it recently. My goddess Swagata Gupta got a well-paid job with Reuters in Bangalore. She also leaves this office soon. I was hurt hearing this piece of news. May God bless her happy life in Bangalore. I am still in her admiration. She often visits me in my dreams. Went to sleep by 9:00 for my dreams.
13 May (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1996 for eight hours. Recently my brother Sambha brought a dog from Adduroad. Somebody brought it from Vizianagaram by lorry. He was having booze at a liquor store in Adduroad when that lorry halted for a while by main road. This dog was in his hands with a chain. That drunkard gave it to a barber in Adduroad asking him to take care of it for some ime. He told him that he would take it back from him when he comes this way soon. This barber has already two dogs at his abode. So, he could not accommodate it. He gave it to my brother, when he sat in the tent house, near his barbershop. He brought it to our house. It has medium height and black and white fur. It is considerably beautiful. My mother does not like it because she had bitter experiences with our former pet dog. She told my brother to take it away from home immediately. He did not do it. It likes our house atmosphere. It is scared of going out. There are many local enemies to it. It is not a thief like the previous one. It is very active. It keeps moving in and around our house searching for its preys. It daily does its night duty. It is very fond of chicken and fish dishes. It bites many things available to it in our house. It damaged my toothbrush and shaving brush recently. It drives crows also away, barking at them loudly, chasing them from the ground. It likes playing with us. It bites us lovingly, carefully managing its sharp and white teeth. It licks us frequently to remind us about its presence near us. It became a good friend to all of us in course of time. Went to sleep by 9:00.
14 May (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Today I edited my diary of 1996 for half an hour only. Frequent power cuts severely disturbed me. I could not sustain my mood for editing. I cursed the nasty blokes at substation. Morning spent some time at the abode of my uncle Srinu. Afternoon went to Adduroad and spent talking with my friend Viswanadha Sharma, sitting at the temple of Lord Anjaneya Swamy. Every Sunday open public market takes place in Adduroad. There was much movement of people today there for this reason. Villagers consult this priest and seek his guidance for resolving their minor problems. He earned 60 rupees today this way in my presence. They believe in his spiritual and mystic powers as a priest. He worships Goddess Durga to eke out a living and get knowledge. A devotee broke a coconut at the feet of that God. I waited for it to eat for long. I asked the priest to offer me a bit of that broken coconut. He readily did it. We spent talking there for about four hours. We discussed the selfish attitudes of humans in the present society. We left this small temple by 8:00. He offered me a Limca cool drink at a shop on the way. I bought vegetables worth four rupees for Dolli Gaadu (this is how many call him in village Ramayyapatnam. His name is Polisetty Venkata Ramana). Viswanadha Sharma gave me a 10-rupee note saying that I am not doing a job now. So, I should not spend money for him. I was touched by his affection for me. I returned him that money saying that it is not a big issue for me. Night it was very sultry. I felt very disgusted with it. Had toasted groundnuts, prepared by my mother. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
15 May (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. By 12:30 I could complete editing my diary of 1996. Then started editing my diary of 1997. Today electricity was supplied for long during daytime. I could carry out my editing work interestingly. My father and my brother Sambha bought one or two cashew gardens this year for seasonal crop. They did not earn a profit from those ventures. They said that this year there are no good rates to mango fruit in the markets of Orissa, West Bengal and Jharkhand. Insects damaged much mango crop this year. This evening power cut occurred for two hours. I did not feel like a sensible man when it was restored by 9:00. I cursed the dirty pigs of electricity department in Andhra Pradesh. I could not edit my diary during nighttime due to my bad mood caused by irregular power cuts. This morning my uncle Srinu asked me if I like to come to Jharkhand area in a lorry along with him. He is taking mango load to that area, driving the lorry of his brother-in-law. I liked his offer but could not utilize it being busy with my editing work. Travelling long distances, sitting by such affectionate relative of mine, is a matter of bliss for me. Evening my mother toasted fresh groundnuts in a pan. We had them interestingly. Thereafter we had a little jaggery. Today I had about three mango fruit. My brother Sambha brought them from his mango garden. Night we folks spent talking among ourselves for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
16 May (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1997 for four hours. Afternoon my uncle came from village Durgada. Now he is searching for a suitable boy for his daughter and suitable girl for his son. He is expecting many virtues from a boy. He must be tall and handsome. He must be fair and do a good job. The financial value of his part of property, to be inherited from his parents, should not be less than ten lakh rupees. It is good if he does not have sisters or brothers. They should have a good house. He should not have physical or mental disorders. He should not smoke or drink. It would be better if there is a chance for his going abroad to do a great job. His family background must be very good. He should not expect much dowry or other formalities from the bride party. Now his son Hari is doing a small job in Chennai. He earns about 7000 rupees a month. He is tall and very handsome. He became a little weak now due to hot weather in that place. The girl should be very beautiful and educated. A dowry of about ten lakh rupees and other formalities are expected. His marriage takes place in a simple way. He left for his village on a scooter by 5:15 along with his relative. Evening it turned cloudy. Winds blew for ten minutes. It rained a little from 8:00 to 10:00. I did not carry out my editing work at night. Spent talking with my brother Sambha, my father and my mother. Many pressures, related to our family, got eased. It was inviting. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
17 May (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1997 for four hours in the morning. My cousin Narendra Varma came to our house by 7:00. He came from Hyderabad by Godavari Express. He has to take ECET (to pursue B.Tech. course) tomorrow at Andhra University in Visakhapatnam. He is looking a little shabby. He prepared for some time sitting in a chair in my computer room. His father came from Peda Theenaarla by 2:30 on a bicycle. He brought a dozen bananas and three coconuts for us from there. He came here to take Narendra Varma to Visakhapatnam and make him take that entrance test. They would stay in a house of their relatives there for this night. Narendra said that he can stay at the house of one of his friends there for this night. My uncle Rama Raju liked this idea. By 3:00, three of us went to Adduroad on two bicycles. I bought a HB pencil for Narendra for three rupees. I already gave him an eraser and a sharpener. This morning I gave him 100 rupees. Earlier I thought of going to Visakhapatnam along with him. We understood that he can reach the place of this test on his own. He prepared well for this entrance test. May God bless him. He took an Express bus by 3:45. My uncle spent with us this night. Evening it turned very cloudy. It rained a little, along with powerful winds, by 8:00. Night avoided my editing work and spent talking with this uncle. Watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
18 May (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Morning my uncle Rama Raju left for Peda Theenaarla on his bicycle. Today I edited my diary of 1997 for eight hours. I vomited by 10:30. I was sensing it for some time but it happened when I came out finishing my scheduled editing work on computer. I thanked God for it. Otherwise my mother has to clean the space, disfigured by that smelly substance, pushed up from my stomach. Evening I ate rice with turmeric and tamarind soup (called Chaaru in Telugu) only. They say that it keeps our stomach effective, improving its capacity of digestion. Around 9:30, my mother offered me homemade curd. She said that it cools down the temperature in my body. Something wrong must have happened after the turmeric soup and curd got mixed up in my stomach. I have been eating mango fruit and toasted groundnuts for the last few days. Phlegm must have developed in my body due to it. I did not feel weak after vomiting. Perhaps my body has been waiting for it to happen for long. I wonder at the inbuilt mechanism, which throws out unwanted stuff from our stomach. When our body senses that digestion of supplied food and liquids harms the state of our constitution, it immediately takes a decision and creates vomiting. We don’t hate it when it is in our stomach. Once it comes out, it turns ugly and detestable to us. God allowed man to clean and decorate the visible parts of his body. He does not know the look of his internal structure. My health got fortified today. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
19 May (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. All the day stayed at home. Today I ate three mango fruit. By 11:30 my cousin Narendra varma came back from Visakhapatnam. He said that he did ECET well. Food was not there for him in our house. My mother offered him mango fruit and then prepared Upma. My father asked him about his further studies, related expenditure and duration. He advised him to look for a job soon, considering the financial condition of his father now. I felt angry at his advice to him. One should pursue education when there is energy in one’s body and intelligence in one’s mind. One can earn money and fame by one’s hard work or luck but one cannot concentrate on one’s studies and get certificates after a phase of life. I know that he is intelligent. There is no encouragement to him from his parents. His father has many rich and wise relatives. They don’t help him in any way. He spent in our house till 3:30. Then he started to their abode in Peda Theenaarla on the bicycle left here recently by his brother Vasu. He spent a busy life for all these days. Today he went back to his house to enjoy the care and affection of his parents. By 5:00 it turned very cloudy. Lightnings flashed in the sky. Thunders accompanied them. Cool winds started blowing. I stood in the open and saluted nature. Today I edited my diary of 1997 for ten hours. Went to sleep by 11:00.
20 May (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Morning completed editing my diary of 1997. Today I edited my diary of 1998 for five hours. Went to the house of my uncle Srinu by 12:30. Spent there talking with them till 4:00. My uncle Bhaskara Raju has a three-year-old daughter. He had a vasectomy soon after begetting this child. I told him that it is wrong on his part. He should have done it after begetting one more child. Everybody feels insecure after certain age. Bonds between/among siblings are enjoyable and desirable. He said that his father advised him to do so. Poor people should not beget more children. It is enough if that child is brought up well. He has his argument. The mother of this child is telling her husband to admit her into an English convent at Adduroad. I advised them to do it when she reaches four at least. This child is still learning how to speak. Her mother said that she gets accustomed to school environment in the meantime. I think that little children should not be burdened with such responsibilities before five. Many books, heavy school bags and chasing homework are affecting the healthy and happy growth of kids in India now. My aunt Lakshmi prepared tea for all of us by 3:30. My paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju returned from Tetagunta by 4:00. He went to the abode of my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy to settle their family disputes. He said that the situation there is beyond control. Had a bath by 5:45. Today it was sultry throughout. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
21 May (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1998 for seven hours. The electricity was cut by 9:20 and restored by 11:30. My creative mood got affected. I could not edit my diary. My cousin Narendra Varma came from village Peda Theenaarla by 9:00. Both of us talked about the ways of improving one’s English language skills and human nature for half an hour. Went to the rented abode of my friend Viswanadha Sharma by 10:00. Spent talking with him till 1:00. He told me about his parents, brothers and sisters. He said that they lost much of their ancestral property when he was very young. He is an impressive speaker. I like his words and affection for me. Returned home by 1:15 and had my lunch. This morning talked with my cousin Kiran over telephone. He is at his home in Jaggampeta now. He said that he did well in his CA Final exams conducted recently. He would come here in a week’s time. Today Pulse Polio Immunization program took place in our state. For this reason, electricity was supplied most of the day. I could not utilize this time for my editing work on computer. I could not believe in the reliability of the fellows at the substations. From 3:30 to 6:00 watched Teja television channel. Today I had four mango fruit. Evening my brother Sambha went to Tetagunta on the request of my uncle Narasimha Murthy. Went to sleep by 11:00.
22 May (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited my diary of 1998 for eight hours. The sultry weather and the cursed power cut are making my life miserable. The editing of my diaries is not going on fast due to it. Today my friend Viswanadha Sharma conducted ceremonial worship to Lord Hanuman at His small temple in Adduroad. It was done on the occasion of birth anniversary of Lord Hanuman. I heard that it was grandly celebrated with the presence of many devotees. My father took a coconut and broke it there on this occasion. It was discovered that it was spoilt. The God did not accept the worship of my father. Today I did not go to Adduroad. Thus He kept me away from Him. My friend sent me a few bananas, which were offered by a devotee and blessed by this God. This evening my mother cut sweet mango fruit and offered me. I found worms in it. They are white in color and very small in size. One cannot identify them easily. I had already eaten a few pieces of that mango fruit. My sharp teeth would have crushed the bodies of those worms and sent that stuff inside along with the sweet mango juice. I stopped eating remaining mango fruit. I would have consumed a few worms recently. My stomach processes those worms and separates that stuff from entering the main mechanism of my body. If eyes and tongue fail to stop unwanted things from entering our body, our active stomach does that duty. Anyway white blood cells are also there. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
23 May (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today there was power cut from 6:00 to 12:00. Today I edited my diary of 1998 from 12:15 to 8:30. There were power cuts of short durations in between. Took a bath and had my supper by 8:40. Sweat wet my body within seconds. I felt very disgusted at it. I found that there is no use of taking a bath in such sultry weather. Today I had six mango fruit. This morning I spent some time at the abode of my uncle Srinu, talking with my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju. Now they are engaged in building up a small house with the help of a state government scheme. By 9:30 had a bath and wore my trousers and shirt. Meanwhile my paternal aunt Subhadra came. Spent talking with her for two hours. Thereafter went to Adduroad and called up my cousin Kiran and my brother Srinivas at Jaggampeta. Kiran said that he would come to this place in a few days. My brother Srinivas said that he would come to our house tomorrow, along with his wife, after attending a work in Elamanchili. Perhaps they take out a loan from a bank there. Thereafter spent talking with my friend Viswanadha Sharma at the temple of Lord Hanuman. Today I offered him a glass of almond flavored milk and a pack of Britannia tiger cream biscuits worth ten rupees. Today he is going to Vizianagaram along with his wife and two little children. Went to sleep by 10:15.
24 May (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I did not edit my diary of 1998. By 11:30 the aunt of my cousin Narendra Varma came here. They are living at Jeedi Metla in Hyderabad now. They have two daughters. The elder of the two got good marks in her recently completed tenth standard. She took the entrance test into polytechnic. She got a good rank in it. She decided to avoid joining polytechnic course because technical education does not suit girls much. I advised her to pursue Intermediate. She is an intelligent and disciplined girl. She can go up to post graduation if enough support is extended from her parents. I told her mother to educate her well. By 12:50 my cousin Narendra Varma took them to Adduroad. From there they go to the abode of my uncle Rama Raju at Peda Theenaarla. By 1:15 my brother Srinivas and my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani came from Elamanchili. They took out a loan of 20,000 rupees from the State Bank of India at Elamanchili. My father went to our mango garden by hills to bring mangoes for them. He brought 100 mangoes on bicycle. We packed them in a cardboard box by 5:30. My brother Sambha and I went to Adduroad to see them off for Jaggampeta. We kept waiting for a bus for a long time. Nobody stopped. They took a Rajahmundry bound taxi by 6:20. We felt happy at it. Evening and night it was cloudy and sultry. I did not feel like editing my diary in such atmosphere. Night spent talking with Yesu Babu and Dolli Gaadu till 9:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
25 May (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. All the day stayed at home. Today I edited my diary of 1998 for five hours. The scheduled power cut was there from 6:00 to 12:00. Between 12:00 and 6:00, again there was power cut for three hours. I stopped editing my diary by 8:30. Evening my mother prepared chicken curry and toasted groundnuts. Today I had about six mango fruit. All these things are making me energetic and heavy. Power cut is a big problem for me now. Two houses are under construction now on the right of our house. The owners of these houses worked as government teachers once. They are getting these two houses constructed now minding the future of their two sons. They are working in Visakhapatnam now. Our familiar fellow Dolli Gaadu of Ramayyapatnam has been working as a supervisor at one of these house constructions for some days. They are paying him 1800 rupees a month. My father helped him in getting this continuous work. He is not good at farm work. He works hard. Many like this good quality in him. He is spending 400 rupees only a month for his food. He wears a pair of clothes continuously for a week. He does not wash his clothes frequently. He seldom combs his hair. He talks pure village language of our district (Visakhapatnam). He sees films in cinemas once or twice a year. Many of his familiar ones treat him like a simpleton. God blessed him with good health. He is a representative of honesty, poverty, innocence and goodness. I love him a lot. I like to take him along with me when I am financially well. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
26 May (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. All the day stayed at home. Morning spent lying on a cot because there was power cut. By 8:30 my aunt Raja Kumari came from Peda Theenaarla. She brought a pumpkin for us. By 12:30 my mother and she went to Visakha Grameena Bank at Adduroad. They are members of a 10-member DWACRA Group in village Peda Gummuluru. It is a scheme of our state government meant for financially weaker women in the villages. My aunt Subhadra is also a member in this group. She heads up this team. Today each one of them took out a loan of 2500 rupees. They have to pay it back to this bank in ten monthly installments. My aunt Raja Kumari gave me that money. It is towards repayment of the money I gave once to her son Narendra Varma in Hyderabad for his coaching to take ECET. I felt uneasy when taking this money back from her. She spent here till 4:30. By 5:00 my cousin Narendra Varma came here on a bicycle. By 6:30 he checked his rank in the ECET, the results of which were released this morning. He got 148th rank in it. Internet made information easily available to all. It is one of his considerable academic achievements. He gets a seat in a good engineering college with this rank. I want to see him doing M.Tech. at any IIT after his B.Tech. course. He should be one of the great persons in our family circles. Night he stayed at our house. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
27 May (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. My cousin Narendra Varma and I started to Peda Theenaarla by 7:30 on our bicycles. We reached their abode by 8:00. It is about six kilometers from our house to theirs. I spent there till 5:45. I took two kilograms of sugar, two Horlicks bottles and two packs of biscuits to them. This is to celebrate the success of Naren in the ECET. Morning spent talking with my aunt Raja Kumari, my uncle Rama Raju and my cousins Vasu and Naren. Now they are living depending on a monthly salary of 1500 rupees. My uncle is working as a supervisor of a 100-acre coconut and cashew garden. By 12:30 I could educate my aunt and uncle about the worth of education their son Naren is going to pursue if they support him financially. They agreed to sell part of their property and educate him well. I felt happy at their decision. My uncle, Vasu and I started to see the coconut garden of Baby Babu by 1:30. We saw a beautiful thatched house in this coconut garden. My uncle told me that its owner spent eight lakh rupees for it. It attracts nature lovers and gamblers alike. We checked the interiors of this artistic abode. Thence we walked to the nearby seashore. We spent there from 2:30 to 3:30 touching and feeling the spell of tides there. Returned home by 7:00. Today I offered a five-rupee coin to the sea. Night spent talking with my brother Sambha. Went to sleep by 11:00.
28 May (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. All the day stayed at home. Spent most of my time watching television. This year my brother Sambha bought about ten acres of mango gardens for the seasonal crop. Initially many thought that this year the rates of mangoes would be high but it did not happen. Cyclones ruined this crop to some extent. Majority of the mango crop would be transported to the states of Orissa, West Bengal and Jharkhand from this region every year. The native merchants there decide the rates of these mangoes when they receive them in lorries there. The owners of these mango loads don’t have say there. Whatever is given by those native merchants has to be taken. Language is also a problem. The owners and buyers of seasonal mango crop face many problems in sending it to those markets. Whether the rates of mangoes are encouraging or not that year, they have to take care of their gardens until that crop is collected and sent to those markets. Frequent weather changes and insects badly affect this crop. Packing and transporting mangoes to farther inland markets involves many costs. Mangoes are perishable fruit. They must be collected and sold in time. Ripe mango fruit fall down from the trees. They cannot be transported to distant markets. Toward the end, many owners or the buyers of this seasonal crop incur losses. Middlemen exploit them every year. This is why many Indian farmers remain poor and helpless for years. They have no reliable facilities to produce and transport quality mangoes. This time my brother regretted buying even those few mango gardens for searsonal crop. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
29 May (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. All the day stayed at home. Spent most of my time watching television. My sister-in-law Kranti is at the house of her parents in Tangedu now. A few days ago my mother and she exchanged a few angry words. She was hurt by it and went to their house alone. Before going there, she stated that she would not come here until a new house is constructed by her husband Sambha for them. My mother and she have been living like enemies for long. Kranti is not good at domestic chores. She likes to live like a princess in her house. Her parents are not financially that strong to send housemaids and other servants along with her. My brother Sambha does not like spending much money for domestic facilities, comforts and luxuries. He is a frugal and pragmatic man. My father also speaks this and that frequently despite knowing that she does not like any comments from him about her, her parents or relatives. In this context, my brother recently decided to construct a house in his site opposite our present house. I am not an enemy to Kranti. I neither criticize her demerits nor appreciate her merits. She is not a disciplined kid. I am not a patient teacher. My brother is somehow managing his life in this set of disgusting things at home. The elders of our families don’t interfere in these affairs of our abode because they have no time or patience to settle these disputes. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
30 May (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. By 6:00 my brother Sambha and I started to our mango garden at hills on our bicycles. First he took me to his crop-bought mango garden. It is a garden of four acres. There are shiny and big mangoes in the trees. They get ripe and fall down if left so for 20 more days. There are no encouraging rates in the mango markets now. We could not find many fruit under these trees. Thence we moved to our mango garden. We plucked about 100 mangoes from our reserved mango tree there. Thereafter we took 100 mangoes from the buyer of our mango crop this year from our reserved quota for this season. We found ripe fallen fruit under these trees. I collected some of them into our bag. We found a jackfruit under our tree in this garden. I like it. My brother cut it open with a knife. There were no fruit in it. We returned home by 9:30 with those loads of mangoes on our bicycles. From 10:30 to 12:30 spent talking with my familiar ones at the abode of my uncle Srinu. By 1:30 called up the folks at ICFAI University Press in Hyderabad. Talked with its Administrative Manager K V Rao. Knew that my darling Swagata Gupta is working with Reuters now in Bangalore. From 2:30 to 5:30 spent in the coconut farm of my uncle Chanti. He offered me water from two coconuts in his garden. We returned home by 6:30. Night spent talking with my folks at home for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.
31 May (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. From 7:30 to 8:30 watched television. When I was watching television, it rained heavily outside. By 9:30 went to Adduroad on bicycle. My friend Viswanadha Sharma joined me in a few minutes. Both of us went to the temple of Lord Hanuman by 10:00. Last night he returned from Vizianagaram finishing his weeklong tour. We spent talking for more than one hour. We returned home by 12:00. My cousins Vasu and Narendra Varma came from Peda Theenaarla by 12:15. They spent here till 4:30. My uncle Srinu came here by 1:00. We spent talking at our house till 2:30. Then we moved to his abode. There I spent talking with them till 3:30. Then both of us went to the house of another uncle. There two aunts are suffering from viral fevers. We did not stay there for long fearing those viruses. By 4:30 we walked into the nearby groves searching for margosa sticks for teeth brushing purpose. We returned to his abode by 5:15. I spent there for some time. Today I saw two beautiful girls; one walking on road and one playing at her house. They are feast to my eyes. Today I had four mango fruit. Today I called up my folks at Jaggampeta and knew that my cousin Kiran went to Visakhapatnam to spend at the house of his maternal aunt for one or two days. Went to sleep by 9:30.
1 June (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. My cousin Vasu came from Peda Theenaarla on bicycle by 8:30. We took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 9:00 and reached Elamanchili by 9:30. I bought a lungi for 100 rupees in an Apco cloth store. Thence we walked to Kumar Shirts showroom along the main road. There I bought a short-sleeved shirt for 65 rupees for my casual wear at home. Also bought a short-sleeved shirt for 115 rupees to present to my cousin Narendra Varma on the occasion of his recent success in the Engineering Common Entrance Test. Vasu bought a short-sleeved shirt for 75 rupees. Thence we went to Gitanjali Junior College by station road. This college was started by my Intermediate (10+2 course) contemporary Suresh Balu. His brother is running this college now. Balu got a job with a Reliance company four months ago. This private college earned good reputation in this town. We returned home by 1:00 by bus. Vasu spent with us till 5:00. My brother Sambha and my uncle Srinu left for Jaggampeta by 3:30 by a lorry. They are taking mango fruit for my brother Srinivas and my maternal aunt Satyavati. They are going there to attend the marriage of one of our relatives. Vasu and I helped them carrying those mango parcels on bicycles up to Adduroad. Evening spent talking with my friend Viswanadha Sharma for some time. Went to sleep by 9:00 for my dreams.
2 June (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Morning watched television for some time. Thereafter read Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. My uncle Narayana Murthy came by 6:00 and went to his mango garden at village Gurrajupeta on his bicycle. I spent watching television till 11:00. My uncle returned by 11:10 from his mango garden. By 12:30 we went to the rented abode of my friend Viswanadha Sharma. Recently this uncle found a match for Parvathi, the daughter of his brother-in-law Janaki Rama Raju. This boy is working in the Indian Railways now getting 6000 rupees a month. This uncle liked his handsomeness. Reliable government job is an attractive quality in a bridegroom now. The bride studied up to tenth standard. She is tall and beautiful. Her father has about 50 lakh rupees worth property. Recently the rates of agricultural farms greatly increased. So, many farmers became millionaires in no time. This priest said that the horoscopes of the bride and bridegroom matched well. The marriage must be done within 20 days. My uncle reached this piece of news to the heads of both parties. They could not take instant decisions on this issue. I felt embarrassed at their attitudes. People must act or react faster when the best opportunities are at hand. My uncle lost his spirit after sensing the casualness of these two parties in this regard. He left for his house in the mango garden at hills in a bad mood. Night spent talking with my father and mother for some time. Went to sleep by 9:00.
3 June (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Today I spent most of my time watching television. It was sultry throughout. By 11:30 my cousin Kiran came along with his cousin Vivek. He is the son of his maternal aunt Parvathi. He is studying Intermediate in Visakhapatnam now. He has short hair. He is a handsome boy. I told Kiran that his cousin is looking better than him. They spent here for 15 minutes. Kiran gave me 1700 rupees. He took it from the owner of the house at Nallakunta in Hyderabad, in which we stayed for a few months as tenants. Then I paid advance rent to her. Afternoon postman delivered the ECET rank card of my cousin Narendra varma. Afternoon spent some time at the house of my uncle Srinu. By 6:00 my cousin Kiran and his cousin came from the house of their maternal grandparents at Raja Venkata Nagaram. They sat at our house for 20 minutes. Then I took them to the houses of our relatives Chanti and Appala Raju. We spent for ten minutes at each of these two houses. Then I took them to the house of my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju. Night my uncle Srinu, Kiran, his cousin Vivek, Dolli Gaadu and I went to cinema Venkatapathi Raju Mahal and saw the Telugu film “Pournami” of Prabhas and Trisha. I sponsored this event and spent 110 rupees for it. We greatly enjoyed watching this classic film. Went to sleep by 12:30 for my dreams.
4 June (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:40. My cousin Kiran and his cousin left for Raja Venkata Nagaram by 5:45. This morning they go to Jaggampeta from there. Spent reading today’s Telugu daily Eenadu from 7:00 to 8:00. Watched television for some time. My cousin Narendra Varma came from Peda Theenaarla on bicycle by 10:30. He brought jackfruit for me. Their smell is well but their taste is low. I somehow ate 20 of them. He spent his time here watching television and resting on bed. Now he is suffering from an ulcer in his mouth. He is taking medicine for it. Both of us had our lunch by 1:30. He ate rice with buttermilk. By 2:00 my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju came. My father and he spent talking for two hours. I listened to their conversation. It was very interesting. Today I had four mango fruit. Today my father paid our electricity bill. This time it amounted to 300 rupees. My cousin Naren left for his abode by 4:30. We gave some mango fruit to them. By 5:00 called up Rama Rao of Visakha Consumer Council and informed him about my coming to Visakhapatnam tomorrow. He told me to ring him up once I am in the city. I have to file a case against the folks of Koruprolu Power Substation under his legal guidance. Took a head bath by 7:00. Had my supper with fish soup by 7:15. Watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.
5 June (Monday)
Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself by 5:00. My cousin Narendra Varma came by 6:30 from Peda Theenaarla. We reached Narsipatnam Road railway station by 7:00 on a bicycle. We took a passenger train and reached Visakhapatnam by 9:00. We hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Collectorate Junction. We knew that the District Employment Exchange was recently moved to Kancharapalem. Thence we rushed to an old building in the old ITI at Kancharapalem. I got my employment card renewed by 11:00. Again I have to renew it in February 2009. Thence we went to Maddilapalem to meet a relative of Naren. Thence we moved to Sitammadhara. We walked to the office of Kshatriya Samkshema Samithi there to collect a scholarship application form. There was nobody in the office. We walked down the road and spent in an Internet café for two hours browsing Internet. Then we went to a nearby restaurant and each of us had lunch for 18 rupees. Then we went back to the KSS office and collected a scholarship application form. Then we went back to the Internet café and spent there till 4:50. Then we went to the house of P Rama Rao. He advised me to deal with the folks of Andhra Pradesh State Electricity Board (APSEB) through National Consumer Council in India. Reached home by 8:45 travelling by Visakhapatnam-Kakinada passenger train. I found an envelope, addressed to my brother Srinivas, in our house. Went to sleep by 11:00.
6 June (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. My brother Sambha, my cousin Naren and I reached our mango garden at hills by 6:30 on bicycles. We collected fallen mango fruit from under those trees. Naren and I tied those small loads of mangoes at the back of our bicycles and started back by 8:30. Naren left for his abode by 9:00. By 10:00 went to Adduroad along with my father. He brought the parcel with mango fruit on his bicycle. Took a Rajahmundry bound Express bus by 10:15. They halted it for 15 minutes at the bus stand in Tuni. Reached the bus stand in Jaggampeta by 12:35. My brother Srinivas already came there. Both of us reached his rented abode near mosque on his bike. I brought 50 mango fruit in a bamboo basket for him. Had my lunch by 1:15, offered by my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani. By 1:30 my brother Srinivas and I went to the house of my teacher uncle Kolukuluri Venkata Rama Raju. Kiran and his cousin Vivek are also there. We spent talking with them till 3:30. Thence we moved to Gollalagunta. He dropped me at the house of my maternal grandparents and went to do his duty at the HPCL Pipeline Substation near village Kandregula. I spent talking with our relatives till 6:00. Then both of us came back to Jaggampeta. Today I came here to give the job intimation letter to my brother Srinivas. He got a job with the UCO Bank as Armed Guard. He is very happy about it. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
7 June (Wednesday)
Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself by 5:00. Today it is the birthday of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani. My brother Srinivas dropped his son Sujan and me at the bus stand in Jaggampeta. I bought four bottles of Horlicks at a medical store for 232 rupees. Sujan and I took a bus by 9:30 for Molleru Mallavaram. We reached there by 10:15. My brother Srinivas, my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and their son Suhas reached there by 10:20 on bike. I spent talking with them till 1:00. My aunt Lakshmi prepared tasty prawn curry for all of us. We had our lunch by 12:10. I presented the four bottles of Horlicks to my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani on the occasion of her birthday today. I shook my hand with hers and wished her happy birthday. She thanked me for it. I took an auto rickshaw and reached the house of my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju at Jaggampeta in Teachers Colony by 2:00. Spent talking with my cousin Kiran, his cousin Vivek and my aunt Lakshmi till 5:30. My uncle left his house by 4:30 to attend a marriage. Kiran, Vivek and I saw the Telugu film “Bangaaram” in cinema Venkateshwara in the first show. Thereafter we saw the Telugu film “Pokiri” of Mahesh Babu in cinema Rajaveni in the second show. We returned home on foot by 12:30. We slept on three folding cots in cool weather. Went to sleep by 12:45 for my dreams.
8 June (Thursday)
Woke up by 4:30. Took leave of my hosts and reached the bus stand in Jaggampeta by 5:00. A Tuni bound Express bus arrived by 5:30. Reached there by 7:00. Thence took an Anakapalle bound ordinary bus. Reached home by 7:45. Dolli Gaadu gave me the key. I opened the lock fixed to the small gate of our compound wall. There was no chain of the keys to open the main doors of our house. I searched for them for ten minutes. My father and mother went to Tangedu to attend the Upanayanam occasion of a familiar Kshatriya fellow. They took the keys with them. I turned very angry about it. I could not brush my teeth or take a bath till 11:30 due to it. Then freshened up myself and put on casual short-sleeved shirt and lungi. My youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju and my cousin Narendra Varma came here by 12:00. Spent talking with them for some time. My uncle Narasimha Murthy and his son Srinivas came from Tetagunta by 1:00. Spent talking with them for some time. My uncle Srinu and I had Limca cool drinks at a shop by 4:00 to satisfy our hunger. He too avoided having his lunch as I remained hungry today. My father and mother returned from Tangedu by 4:30 by bus. I talked with them angrily. They remained silent. Today I did not eat anything from 6:00 to 5:00 being angry with my parents. Night watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
9 June (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Morning spent watching television. Postman delivered a letter by 9:30. It came from Jubilee Hills in Hyderabad. The UCO Bank Employees Union sent it to my brother Srinivas intimating him to join the main branch of UCO Bank at Dwaraka Nagar in Visakhapatnam. By 10:00 reached this news to my brother over telephone. Now he is getting ready to move to Visakhapatnam soon and join the UCO Bank as Armed Guard. By 10:30 my cousin Narendra Varma came from Peda Theenaarla on bicycle. Now he is engaged in getting income and nativity certificates from the Mandal revenue office in S Rayavaram. He needs them when joining B.Tech. course soon. He got 67% marks in his Diploma in Mechanical Engineering from the Andhra Polytechnic in Kakinada. From 2:00 to 4:00 spent talking with him about the attitudes of conservative parents and social trends now. This casual discussion is to educate him well and keep him alert always. By 5:00 went to the abode of my uncle Srinu. There I talked with my friend Viswanadha Sharma also. Returned home by 6:00. Took a bath near our well by 7:00. Had my supper by 7:30. The sky was bright. Took a rest on cot in the open for one hour. Watched television for some time. Today it was sunny and sultry. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
10 June (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. All the day stayed at home. Spent most of my time watching television. By 4:00 started to Elamanchili by bus from Adduroad. Went to Kumar Shirts showroom there and bought two short-sleeved shirts. My father gave me 200 rupees and told me to buy shirts for him. Each of these two shirts cost 75 rupees. They are cotton shirts. Thence walked to a nearby tailoring shop and got parts of these two readymade shirts stitched again giving him ten rupees. It is to lengthen the durability of these shirts. Then went to the kirana shop of my B.A. classmate Appa Rao. His father was there. Talked with him for about two hours. He told me how he ran his family after marriage without getting any financial support from his parents or in-laws. Now he has property worth about 50 lakh rupees. He has four sons. Two of them are married. He is providing them with food and shelter even after their marriages. I wondered at his planning for his family and his love for his sons. Had two glasses of orange juice for eight rupees at a nearby shop. I found it very tasty and healthy. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. My father wore those shirts and checked whether they suited to him or not. They looked a little tight. He did not like to wear them. They are perfectly suitable to him according to me. I felt angry at his old-fashioned dress sense. Night my uncle Rama Raju spent here. Went to sleep by 10:00.
11 June (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. All the day stayed at home. Read Telugu daily Eenadu from 7:30 to 8:30. Spent most of my time watching television. My cousin Kiran left for Hyderabad on the 9th of this month from Jaggampeta by bus. The results of CA Final would be announced in the first week of next month. He wants to do a computer course in the meantime useful for his career. He stays in Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda until I go there. I stopped carrying out the editing work of my diaries on my computer. The sultry and hot weather is discouraging me from it. Cool and dark atmosphere is good for creative work. I have been busy with my personal and office related editing work for long. In future I will become busier. So, I decided to spend here happily with my parents and relatives for some days. Two happy events are taking place when I am here. My brother Srinivas got a job with the UCO Bank and my cousin Narendra Varma is going to join B.Tech. course. On the other hand, my brother Sambha has problems with his wife and our parents. He recently decided to build a house to resolve this issue to some extent. Later he changed his opinion for some reasons. Night watched the Telugu program “Sri Kanaka Maha Lakshmi Cinema Club” on Eenadu television channel. I saw my friend Lakshmi Lahari in this program and felt happy. Went to sleep by 10:30.
12 June (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Went to post office by 8:30. Told postman to check if there is any letter for my brother Srinivas. First he checked ordinary letters. Thereafter he checked registered letters. There was a letter for my brother Srinivas from the regional office of UCO Bank in Hyderabad. It is a registered envelope carrying his appointment letter. My brother is offered the post of Armed Guard at the main branch of UCO Bank at Dwaraka Nagar in Visakhapatnam with a basic pay of 4060 rupees a month. The gross emoluments may be about 8000 rupees a month at least. I reached this happy news to my brother over the phone by 8:40. Spent watching television till 12:30. Then my cousin Narendra Varma and I had our lunch. By 1:00 we went to the house of my uncle Srinu. We spent there talking with them till 4:30. Now they are in a difficult position regarding the construction of their house. They have no enough money to take that construction work forward. They are arguing among themselves over the issue of provision of money for it. We talked about various other aspects of common nature also. They help us understand human life better. By 5:00 my cousin Naren left for their abode at Peda Theenaarla on bicycle. By 5:30 went to Adduroad on my bicycle. Sat at the small temple of Lord Anjaneya talking with my friend Viswanadha Sharma for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
13 June (Tuesday)
Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself by 5:00. Went to Adduroad by 8:00. Called up my brother Srinivas in Jaggampeta and knew when he starts to Visakhapatnam by bus from there. My uncle Rama Raju came from Peda Theenaarla by 9:15 on bicycle. Today he is going to Gollalagunta along with my aunt Raja Kumari and my cousin Kavitha, the daughter of my maternal uncle Varma, who came here a few days ago to spend her summer holidays. Raja Kumari and Kavitha arrived by 9:30 in an auto rickshaw. They took a lorry with their luggage. The private travel bus, in which my brother Srinivas is travelling, reached Adduroad by 10:00. I also took it. We reached Visakhapatnam by 12:20. The other military man, who is also selected for the post of armed guard with the UCO Bank, was there near the bank waiting for my brother. He said that today is not an auspicious day for joining the bank. We had our lunch in his house by 1:30. By 3:30 we three went to Lalitha Nagar area from Akkayyapalem in an auto rickshaw searching for a suitable abode to rent in for my brother and his family. We checked three houses. Our relative Varma (close friend of my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju) helped us in this regard. My brother and I took a bus at the bus complex in Visakhapatnam and reached home by 8:30. Had my supper by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
14 June (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Morning watched television for some time. By 8:30 went to Adduroad and spent there for one hour. My cousin Narendra Varma came from Peda Theenaarla by 9:45. Both of us took a lorry for Kakinada by 10:00. It was carrying milk in its tank and running like a bicycle. We got off it in Tuni and walked to the nearby bus stand. Thence we took an ordinary bus for Kakinada. We reached there by 1:15. We went to the house of his relative there and carried out a little work. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Andhra Polytechnic. It was lunchtime. So, then, the staff in that college was attending that regular duty. We walked to a nearby hotel by road and each of us had Vegetable Biryani for eight rupees. Again we went to the college and knew that the certificates of the students did not arrive yet. We hired an auto rickshaw and reached the bus station by 3:30. There we had a glass of banana juice. By 4:00 we took an ordinary bus to Tuni. Thence we took an Express bus and reached Adduroad by 6:30. Took a bath by 7:00. My brother Srinivas was informed to attend an induction-cum-orientation program at the regional office of UCO Bank in Hyderabad. He decided to leave for Hyderabad tomorrow. Night went to Raja Venkata Nagaram to attend the marriage of Lalitha, the daughter of Datla Ranga Raju. After dinner, went to sleep by 11:00.
15 June (Thursday)
Woke up by 2:50 in the house of my distant paternal grandfather Datla Narasimha Murthy Raju. He is the maternal grandfather of my cousin Kiran of Jaggampeta. Sat watching the marriage ceremony of Lalitha and Gopi from 3:00 to 5:30 at the house of Datla Surya Narayana Raju, the father of four daughters. The bridegroom is more handsome than the bride. Lalitha is my distant cousin but I have to accept the truth. Took an auto rickshaw and reached Adduroad by 6:30. Had a bath by 7:30. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Rested on bed for two hours. Had my lunch by 12:30 and went to the house of my uncle Srinu. My youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju and his youngest son Bhaskara Raju are engaged in the construction of their house now. Workers are cutting and moulding iron bars to fix them in the scheduled space on the basement soon. Returned home by 1:15. Rested for some time. Went to Adduroad by 2:15 on bicycle. Parked it before the tent house of my brother Sambha and walked to cinema Venkatapathi Raju Mahal. Saw the Telugu film “Veerabhadhra” of Bala Krishna. It is not much interesting. Evening talked with my friend Veeranjaneyulu in Hyderabad over the phone. Informed him that I would come there in ten days’ time. Today it was hot and very sultry. It is sweaty all the time. Went to sleep by 8:00 for my dreams.
16 June (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Read Telugu daily Eenadu from 7:00 to 8:00. Spent watching television for some time. Morning my father went to Tangedu to bring my sister-in-law Kranthi. He returned alone from there by 12:30. Janaki, the mother of Kranti, clarified him that her daughter does not do mean things like sweeping, washing dishes and drawing water from the well at home. Such chores must be done by servants. Today is not a suitable day for her to send her daughter to our house. So, she avoided it. By 1:30 my cousin Narendra Varma came from Peda Theenaarla on bicycle. I explained him terms given in the government notification for admission into engineering colleges by polytechnic qualified students. We think that he may get a seat in a good private engineering college. By 1:30 we went to the abode of my friend Viswanadha Sharma. He spread a mat for us to sit. Naren and my uncle Srinivas sat on it. I sat beside him. We talked with him about a few things for three hours. We enjoyed his talk. By 5:00 went to Adduroad. Sat at the tent house of my brother Sambha for 15 minutes. Returned home by 6:00. From 8:00 to 8:30 watched weekly Telugu serial “Durga” on Eenadu television channel. My friend Lahari appeared in it. She is acting well. Today it was hot and sultry. Went to sleep by 9:00 for my dreams.
17 June (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Read Telugu daily Eenadu from 7:00 to 8:00. Spent watching television for some time. My uncle Rama Raju and my aunt Raja Kumari returned from Gollalagunta by 11:00. My mother prepared lunch for them by 12:00. We talked about the education of my cousin Narendra Varma for half an hour. My father made a few suggestions in this regard. I vehemently condemned his pieces of advice. So, clash took place between him and me. He does not know the value of education and so he is not the right person to comment on it. I angrily told him that I would not take even a little property from him in my life. My blood boiled during this exchange of words between us. My uncle told me to cool down. My uncle and I spent watching television from 1:00 to 4:00. They left for Peda Theenaarla by 4:30. Went to the house of my uncle Srinu by 4:30. Two masons are working in the construction of their house. There is shortage of bricks. The owner of a kiln failed to supply them in time despite their frequent phone calls. Returned home by 6:00. It is sultry. Body is remaining sweaty all the time. It is very unfavorable atmosphere for creative people. Rested in the open for some time. Went to sleep by 9:30.
18 June (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Read Telugu daily Eenadu from 6:30 to 7:00. Went to Adduroad by 7:30. Took a taxi and reached Visakhapatnam by 9:00. Called up the owner of a house at Madhava Dhara and enquired her about the rent of the portion they advertised in a daily today. She said that it is 1700 rupees a month. I found it attractive. Hired an auto rickshaw and rushed to the place of that house. The House No. is 247. It is located in the MIG Phase II of VUDA. The female head of this house showed me the internal structure of the front portion in this house. There are two bathrooms, a hall, two bedrooms and a kitchen. There is a lot of space inside and outside. It is a great portion for a small family. There is a hill before it. The ambience is serene and pleasant. I gave her 2000 rupees as advance rent and told her that the family of my brother Srinivas would move into it in the morning hours on the 21st of this month. She said that she would get this portion cleaned and keep it ready by that time. Paid 100 rupees to the driver of the auto rickshaw, who brought me back, got off it and walked to the bus complex. Took a Luxury Express bus for Adduroad at a fare of 45 rupees. Reached there by 1:00. Called up my brother Srinivas and told him about the house portion I paid for and finalized for them at Madhava Dhara today. He felt happy about it. Watched the Telugu film “Veerabhadhra” of Bala Krishna on television for half an hour. Went to sleep by 9:30.
19 June (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. My brother Sambha and I started to our mango garden at hills on our bicycles. I spent talking at the house of my uncle Narayana Murthy for one hour. Our familiar fellow Yesubabu helped us in plucking mangoes from a tree. We tied those gunny bags with mangoes at the back of our bicycles and started back by 9:00. The sun was already up in the sky. Temperature was high. We reached home by 9:45. I became sweaty and exhausted. Had my breakfast and rested till 12:00. Then went to a nearby telephone booth and called up the folks at ICFAI University Press in Hyderabad. Knew that new sub editors joined it and editing process is becoming normal day by day. Talked with its Administrative Manager K V Rao about the failure of credit of my salary for the month of April, 2006, to my bank account so far. He said that he would attend it at once. Went to Viswa Shanthi Convent School in Adduroad by 2:00 along with my uncle Srinu. We paid the outstanding fees for his son Surendra. He is in his third standard now in this school. Returned home by 2:30. The sky turned cloudy. Went to the house of my uncle Srinu by 3:00. Sat there till 6:45 attaching protective covers to the school books of Surendra. This afternoon my cousin Narendra Varma went to Kakinada to collect the certificates of his polytechnic course from Andhra Polytechnic. Went to sleep by 9:00.
20 June (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. My brother Sambha left for Jaggampeta by 6:00. My father borrowed 10000 rupees from a local cashew merchant for my brother Srinivas. It is for his expenses arising out of his residential and job centered move from Jaggampeta to Visakhapatnam soon. My brother Sambha went there to help them in packing things. My brother Srinivas worked as a Security Supervisor in the underground petrol transport pipeline network of HPCL for more than two years after coming back from the Indian Army. Recently he got a job with the UCO Bank at Dwaraka Nagar in Visakhapatnam. His residence in Visakhapatnam is good for the education of his two sons. For the last three days, I have been suffering from severe cold. Recently I drank a little amount of packed buttermilk at the bus stand in Anakapalle. A local manufacturing unit prepared and packed it. It must have millions of bacteria in it. By 10:00 went to the house of my uncle Srinu. They are totally engaged in the construction of their house. Rested for some time at the abode of my friend Viswanadha Sharma. He returned from the temple of Lord Hanuman in Adduroad by 12:00. Spent talking with him for 20 minutes. Returned home by 12:45. Spent watching television from 1:00 to 7:00. Had my lunch by 1:30. Today I ate three mango fruit. I did not take tablets to face cold. My inbuilt immunity system is actively fighting against the dangerous bacteria. Today it was sultry. Went to sleep by 8:00.
21 June (Wednesday)
Woke up by 4:00. Freshened up myself by 5:00. My mother also got ready by 6:00. The van arrived by 6:30 from Jaggampeta. My brothers Srinivas and Sambha, my nephews Sujan and Suhas, Lakshmi, the mother of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my sister-in-law, the driver and helper of the van came here along with the load of their luggage. We added some luggage at our house to it. All of us started to Visakhapatnam by 6:45. My brother-in-law Datla Ramesh and my sister-in-law Sowjanya came to collect some luggage from this van. We stopped it for ten minutes near Elamanchili at the national highway junction for this purpose. I could not identify the location of the house when the van was running fast on the road. We reached Kailasa Giri due to it. There we stopped our van, enquired a native person about it and came back to the building of Geological Survey of India. There I got off the van and showed the way to that house walking on the road before it. We formally entered the front portion of House No. MIG 247 at Madhava Dhara in VUDA Colony Phase II by 11:01 heating up and getting the cow milk overflow from a copper dish. All were engaged in arranging the household items till the evening. Everybody liked this house portion. I felt happy about it. My mother and I returned home by 9:00 taking a bus from the bus complex. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
22 June (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Read Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. My father went to our mango garden at hills on bicycle by 7:30. I waited for my cousin Vasu to come from Peda Theenaarla. Both of us reached our mango garden at hills by 10:00 on two bicycles. The buyer of the seasonal crop of our mango garden left this place two days ago. Some mangoes would be left in the trees even after they carefully collect them. Vasu and I searched for them from 10:30 to 2:00 walking from tree to tree. It demands much patience from us. We collected about 200 mangoes this way. We used a long dry stick and stones to collect the mangoes from those tall trees. We went to the abode of my uncle Narayana Murthy by 2:15. We washed our hands and legs at the hand pump near their thatched hut. My aunt Kumari offered lunch for us. We had it and rested for one hour. By 3:30 we collected Jamun fruit (called Neredu Pandlu in Telugu) from a nearby tree and had them. By 4:00 both of us started back on our bicycles along with the loads of mangoes at the back of our vehicles. We reached home by 5:00. It started raining. I enjoyed it. This afternoon my brother Sambha returned from Visakhapatnam. Night my father talked bitterly with my mother and got ready to beat her when he found that she did not fill kerosene in the lamp during daytime itself. I faced him. Went to sleep by 10:00.
23 June (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. It was raining heavily. Took an umbrella and started to Adduroad by 6:00 on foot. Our familiar fellow Dolli Gaadu came along with me carrying a bag of mangoes. I took a Jeep by 6:15. Reached Elamanchili by 6:45. Hired a rickshaw at the bus stand and went to the rented abode of my brother-in-law Datla Ramesh. Talked with them for half an hour. Handed the mangoes brought from home for them. Took an Express bus at the bus stand and got off it at the N.A.D Kotha Road Junction. Thence hired an auto rickshaw and reached the building of Geological Survey of India at Madhava Dhara in VUDA Colony by 9:00. Walked a little from there and reached the rented portion of my brother Srinivas by 9:15. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my nephews Sujan and Suhas and I reached Siva Sivani School at Marripalem in an auto rickshaw by 10:00. We talked with headmistress Begum Iqbal for some time. They conducted short written tests to assess the academic worth of Sujan and Suhas. They found Sujan poor at mathematics and English. Somehow they agreed to admit them into third and sixth standards respectively. We paid 9500 rupees to them toward fees. There is a need of 7000 rupees for paying the outstanding fees, buying uniforms and books for them. We returned home by 2:30. Night we spent talking among ourselves for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30.
24 June (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Read Telugu daily Eenadu from 6:00 to 8:00. Spent rest of the day at home talking with my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, her mother Lakshmi and watching my nephews Sujan and Suhas playing. Watched Telugu video films on television for some time. Evening my sister-in-law prepared a sweet dish for me. Evening my brother Srinivas started back from Hyderabad by Godavari Express. He went there to attend a two-day formal training at the regional office of UCO Bank, before joining the main branch of UCO Bank at Dwaraka Nagar in Visakhapatnam as an Armed Guard. Today we waited for the arrival of my brother-in-law Datla Ramesh and his family from Elamanchili. He has to bring money from there to lend to my brother Srinivas to meet the inevitable expenses arose due to my brother’s residential move to Visakhapatnam. He could not manage to come today being busy with his coconut business there. My sister-in-law and I wanted to go to the main city and buy school uniforms for Sujan and Suhas. We wasted all the day for lack of money in hand. The rented abode of my brother Srinivas is located in a serene setting. There is a hill about it. The owner of this house is a good woman. She must be about 60. Evening spent talking with her for some time. They are from Anakapalle. She has two daughters and one son. She is living with the family of her eldest daughter over here. She is suffering from high blood pressure. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
25 June (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Read Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. My brother Srinivas came by 8:00. He travelled by Godavari Express from Hyderabad. He attended a two-day induction and orientation program at the regional office of UCO Bank in Hyderabad. Lakshmi, mother of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, and I started to Elamanchili by 9:30. We hired an auto rickshaw up to N.A.D. Kotha Road Junction. Thence we took a Kakinada bound Express bus and reached Elamanchili by 12:00. We went to the rented abode of my brother-in-law Datla Ramesh. I spent there for 20 minutes. Ramesh dropped me at the bus stand on his bike. Took a bus and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 12:45. Had my lunch by 1:00. Took a bus at Adduroad Junction and reached Payakaraopeta by 2:00. Walked to the Creative Computers at the other end of the road. Spent checking my emails and blog site for one hour. I actually went there to sell my computer to somebody. It is to avoid the trouble of carrying it to Hyderabad. I wanted 14,500 rupees for my computer, UPS and table. He asked them all for 10000 rupees. He knows very little about computers. I did not like his casual and irrational bargaining in this regard. I told him that I won’t sell it at that rate. Returned home by 6:00. Night watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.
26 June (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. My cousin Narendra Varma came from Peda Theenaarla by 7:00. He is going to Visakhapatnam to get his tenth standard and diploma qualifications registered at the District Employment Exchange there. After this work, he goes to the rented abode of my brother Srinivas at Madhava Dhara. My uncle Rama Raju came from Peda Theenaarla by 12:00. He borrowed 50,000 rupees from a fellow in this village with the help of my father to meet the expenses arising out of his son Narendra Varma joining B.Tech. course after the ECET. Both of us went to Adduroad by 2:30. We were carrying mango pickle and mangoes for my brother Srinivas in Visakhapatnam. We took a Visakhapatnam bound Express bus. We got off it at N.A.D. Kotha Road Junction. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw and reached the rented abode of my brother Srinivas at Madhava Dhara by 5:30. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my nephews Sujan and Suhas, my cousin Narendra Varma and I started to the main city by 6:30. First we talked with a tuition teacher in Madhava Dhara for Sujan and Suhas. Then we hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Jagadamba Junction. We bought school uniforms for Sujan and Suhas in Sona Extension Counter near the office of Telugu daily Vaartha. They told us to collect a few items after stitching in four days. We returned home by 8:00. Night we talked among ourselves for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30.
27 June (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. My uncle Rama Raju, my cousin Narendra Varma and I took leave of my brother Srinivas and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and stepped out by 8:00. We hired an auto rickshaw and reached Government Polytechnic at Kancharapalem by 8:30. Today admission related counseling program is going on there for the ECET candidates of Mechanical Engineering branch. By 10:00 Naren and I sat in the hall after the submission and verification of his educational certificates by the concerning staff. We hoped that a seat would be available for him in some reputed private engineering college. He got a seat at Aditya Engineering College near Peddapuram in East Godavari district in this counseling program. We felt a little disappointed about it. Girls and reservation category candidates got seats in reputed engineering colleges. By 12:30 three of us had our lunch at the small hotel in the premises of this college. Second level counseling was started by 8:00. He did not get a better seat even in this round. I desired to take him to any engineering college in Hyderabad. Not a single seat remained available for his rank 148. Naren stayed back in the city with his friend. My uncle and I took a Kakinada bound Express bus and reached Adduroad by 10:00. We had supper by 10:30. I had three mango fruit. My uncle Rama Raju stayed back at our house for this night. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
28 June (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. By 8:30 put all the research journals of ICFAI University Press, which I brought here from Hyderabad, in a cardboard box and kept it on a cement shelf in our house. I got all of them as complimentary copies as the sub editor of those journals. All these books carry my name in them in the space left for editorial team. I am the main language editor of all these research journals and three or four magazines. They are part of my professional life as a sub editor with the ICFAI University Press in Hyderabad. My cousin Vasu came from Peda Theenaarla by 9:00 on bicycle. He helped me in the following packing work. I completed packing my personal computer, computer table, UPS, big luggage carrier and mangoes by 12:30. Then we had lunch. Then we took them to the branch office of Navata Road Transport at Adduroad. That agent (he is close to us as a friend and well-wisher) charged me 305 rupees for my luggage of six items for its transport by their lorry to Vidya Nagar in Hyderabad. I bought and presented him a bottle of Mirinda worth 40 rupees for his affection for me. Then returned home and dusted my books and other personal assets in my old cardboard boxes and other containers for 20 minutes. I have my records of life in four containers in our house. Then went to Adduroad and gave 370 rupees to the agent at ANL Parcel Service for the booking of a ticket for me to Visakhapatnam-Hyderabad Hitech APSRTC bus for Hyderabad tomorrow evening. I have to board it at the bus stand in Elamanchili. Today I had six mango fruit. Today it was hot and dry. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
29 June (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Took my clothes for ironing to our familiar washerwoman by 8:30. She said that she would bring my ironed clothes to our house in an hour. I had to wear them today to go to Hyderabad. On the way, went to the abode of my uncle Srinu and formally told them all that I would leave for Hyderabad this evening. Took a bath and went to Adduroad by 11:30. Knew that my journey-cum-reservation ticket for the hitech bus is ready to be collected at the point of ANL Parcel Service near APSRTC Bus Stand in Elamanchili. Also knew that the items I booked at the branch office of Navata Road Transport moved this morning toward Hyderabad in a lorry. By 12:00 my cousins Vasu and Narendra Varma came from Peda Theenaarla. Had my lunch by 1:30. Reached Adduroad with a small suitcase and a jute bag by 4:00. Vasu and I took an Express bus for Elamanchili. My father and my cousin Naren saw us off at this bus stop by Adduroad Junction. I collected my reservation ticket for the hitech bus by 5:00. Gave 500 rupees to my cousin Vasu as a gesture of my affection for him. The bus left the bus stand in Elamanchili by 6:10. It should actually leave it by 5:30. The Telugu Desam activists blocked the traffic on National Highway 5 for two hours at Nakkapalli protesting against the measures of present Congress government in postponing local elections unethically.
30 June (Friday)
The bus reached the bus complex in Vijayawada by 2:30. It was running 150 minutes late. Got off it at Dilsukh Nagar in Hyderabad by 10:00. Took a city bus and reached the Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel (for boys) in DD Colony by Shivam Road. Joined this hostel as a guest. The supervisor allotted me a room with a cot and two chairs. Room rent per person for 24 hours is 50 rupees. I am grateful to our Kshatriya community for helping me in this regard. Freshened up myself by 12:00. Went up the hostel and spent talking with my familiar ones till 1:00. Then hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Narayana Guda. My expected Telugu film is not on show in cinema Venkatesha. Reached cinema Devi at RTC Crossroads by 2:00. Saw the Telugu film “Pandhem Kodi” of Vishal and Meera Jasmin from 2:30 to 5:00 in this cinema. The story is very exciting. The acting of Vishal and Jasmin in this film is commendable. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. By 6:00 reached Flat No. 210 in Manohar Apartments by OU Road near the flyover. Spent talking with K V Rao, the present administrative manager of ICFAI University Press. He said that journals and magazines are not being released in time now. He told me to collect my relieving letter and apply for my provident fund. I asked him to give me the email id of my goddess Swagata Gupta. He said that he would certainly help me in this regard. Had my parcel supper by 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:00.
1 July (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. My clothes are in a box at the branch office of Navata Road Transport in Vidya Nagar. By 7:00 went out and bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Read it for half an hour. Then called up my friend Veeranjaneyulu. He told me to come there. Took two city buses and reached his rented portion at Journalist Colony ‘A’ by 8:30. His mother and his cousins went to their village near Eluru to vote in the MPTC and ZPTC elections. Now two of his cousins are staying with him. Recently he bought a treadmill for 5500 rupees. I found it useful and beautiful. This machine allows him to practice running and walking at home to keep himself physically strong. He introduced changes into his dietary regimen. He is afraid of being affected with high blood pressure and obesity. I like his concern for his health. Now he has a debt of about 200000 rupees. He spent 140000 rupees for the construction of a spacious hall on the terrace above his rented portion. This place is to concentrate well on his painting work beyond the presence of his relatives staying with him. His expenditure is beyond his control. Evening we went to a homeopathy clinic at Masab Tank. He is taking medicines prescribed by a lady doctor there for sinus. Night we spent talking for some time. Went to sleep by 11:00.
2 July (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Went to Film Nagar on foot and bought a copy of Eenadu. Came back and spent reading it for one hour. Had my breakfast and rested for two hours. Our common friend Kuracha Srinivasa Rao, whom we affectionately call Bhayya, came here by 12:40. I saw him after a long time. Now he is working as a junior lecturer in physics with Sri Chaitanya Junior College at Nizampet in Kukatpally. He is earning well and looking content. He is planning to buy a car and marry in the next year. His parents are searching for a suitable girl for him. He wants his wife to be a good servant to him after marriage. Highly educated and job doing girls question his superiority complex. So, he does not like to marry them. We spent talking till 4:30. Then we took leave of Veeru and moved out on the bike of Bhayya. It was very cloudy. It was drizzling due to cyclone. I waited for my route bus at Yousufguda Check Post from 5:00 to 5:45. Then took a bus and reached Shivam Road by 6:30. Withdrew 1800 rupees from the ATM Centre of Andhra Bank. Searched for single rooms, meant for bachelors, in Vidya Nagar area, behind the railway station. No room was found. From 7:30 to 8:30 searched in DD Colony along with two of my friends on their bikes. There was no room. Had my parcel supper in the KSS Hostel by 10:00. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
3 July (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Went to a nearby roadside eatery and had my breakfast by 7:30. Hired an auto rickshaw and went to the branch office of Navata Road Transport at Vidya Nagar by 8:30. Bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu and spent reading it till 9:15. The office was opened by 9:45. The lorry carrying my stuff arrived by 10:30. I saw that my luggage booked at Adduroad was unloaded carefully and kept in this office. A rent house broker showed me a small room in the fourth floor of a house in Ram Nagar. I did not find it suitable for me. Brought my luggage from the branch office of Navata Road Transport in a rickshaw and put it in my guest room of the KSS Hostel. Took two buses and reached the State Bank of India at the University of Hyderabad by 2:30. I went there to withdraw my money from my savings bank account. The teller told me that my account turned dormant. It is because I failed to carry out even minimum number of transactions during the scheduled period as per their terms and conditions. The accountant did something on his computer on my request and made my account active. Then I withdrew 6000 rupees. Ate something at the small hotel in the shopping complex in the HCU campus by 4:00. Took two buses and returned to our KSS Hostel by 6:00. Searched for a single room in Vidya Nagar for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30.
4 July (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached Secunderabad railway station by 6:10. My cousin Kiran got off Gauthami Express by 6:50. Both of us took a city bus and reached Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 7:30. We came to the KSS Hostel on his bike by 8:30. We ate four mango fruit brought from our house. By 9:00 we moved out on his bike. We met advocate C S N Raju in his office at Khairatabad by 9:30. I talked with him about filing a lawsuit against the APSEB complaining about its pathetic and dangerous electricity supply in villages and applying for copyrights of my 12 books to be published soon. Thence we went to the office of ICFAI University Press and met its Administrative Manager K V Rao. Thence we moved to the HR department of ICFAI housed in the fourth and fifth floors of Flat No. 62 in Nagarjuna Hills. I collected my relieving letter and helped the staff there filling in the application form for the issuance of my provident fund. Paid 1200 rupees to the owner of House No. TRT-201 at Vidya Nagar by 2:00. I will move into a single room in this house as a tenant tomorrow evening. Spent in the Global View Internet café by Shivam Road from 2:30 to 6:30 typing out an email to my darling Swagata Gupta. Now she is in Bangalore. The email I sent her bounced soon. My cousin Kiran told me how to do it. Once again sent it by 9:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 on a cot in Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda.
5 July (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00 in Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda. My cousin Kiran offered me tea. Had it without brushing my teeth. Both of us came to the Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel on his bike by 8:30. Freshened up myself by 9:00. Kiran went somewhere along with my hostel mate Murali. I walked down Shivam Road and had my breakfast at a roadside eatery. Thereafter I bought homeopathic medicines at a special store for 15 rupees for the preventive care of Chikungunya. This viral fever has been attacking many in our state for the last few months. Then bought a pair of flip-flops in the BATA showroom. Spent in the Global View Internet café for one hour checking my email. Came back to the KSS Hostel by 11:00 and rested for one hour. Paid 250 rupees to the hostel supervisor towards my guest room rent for five days. Had my lunch in Devi Mess by 1:30. Spent in the Manjeera Boys Hostel from 2:30 to 3:45. Then Kiran and I came to the KSS Hostel and moved my luggage into my single rented room in the House No. TRT-201 by MMTS station road at Vidya Nagar. Arranging my luggage in this room was over by 5:00. A local electrician (a boy) fitted my ceiling fan, tube light and computer, taking 70 rupees for it. I bought some items for 200 rupees to meet the needs of stay of a bachelor in a small room like this. By 9:00 checked my email to see if Swagata Gupta sent me reply. There was no reply. Had my supper in Dhana Lakshmi Deluxe Mess. My prayers to Lord Krishna. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
6 July (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. I asked the owner of this house if she can provide me with breakfast, lunch and supper for me taking some money for it. I think they call it paying guest accommodation. There are no unmarried girls in her family. She need not worry thinking that I interfere in their family affairs making somebody fall in love with me. She is about 75. She has two sons. The elder one is married. The younger one is yet to be married. She has one daughter. She is also married. They are Brahmins. She is orthodox in terms of tradition and culture. She said that she would consider the point of providing me with food. I can save a lot of time if she can do this favor for me. Morning spent within my room. My cousin Kiran brought my washed bed sheets and pillow cover from his familiar washerman by 7:30. Took a city bus by Shivam Road and reached the rented portion of my friend Veeranjaneyulu at Journalist Colony ‘A’ in Jubilee Hills by 2:30. He told me to have lunch. I had dates and corn and so avoided it. Throughout the evening he was engaged in finalizing the paintings of Lord Venkateshwara. By 8:20 all of us had supper. We reached cinema Hitech at Madhapur by 8:50 in an auto rickshaw. We saw the Telugu film “Vikramaarkudu” of Ravi Teja and Anushka in the second show. It is very interesting. We returned to his abode by 12:30 in an auto rickshaw. Went to sleep by 1:00.
7 July (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Took leave of my friend Veeranjaneyulu and stepped out of his abode by 6:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 6:45. Thence took a city bus and reached Shivam Road by 8:00. Bought a parcel of Upma for eight rupees and came to my room. Had some mango fruit, brought from our house, after having my breakfast. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Read Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Rested on my mat for some time. Went out by 1:00. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 18 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe by 1:30. Then walked down to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet. Saw the Telugu film “Nandana Vanam 120 KM” in the matinee show. Neelakanta directed it. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. It has exciting treatment. Took a bus by 4:30 and proceeded to Secunderabad. Bought two casual T-shirts for me in the Fantoosh outlet near Rethifile Bus Stand. One is in blue color and the other is black. Each one of them cost me 65 rupees. They are looking very good at that rate. Came back to Shivam Road and bought a lungi in a cloth store for 60 rupees. Went to the house at Street No. 8 in Nallakunta and brought our plastic water drum from there by 7:00 on foot. Kiran and I left it there when we vacated that rented portion three months ago. Spent some time in the KSS Hostel. Had my supper in a hotel by 8:30. Took a bath and went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
8 July (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Hired an auto rickshaw and went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda. I decided to start editing my diaries on my computer from this morning. When I started my computer, I found that its keyboard is not functioning. I felt disgusted about it and shut it down. Kiran and I went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel by 9:30 on his bike. We brought our common friend Murali to my room and got my computer keyboard checked by him. It is functioning. I wondered at it. Both of them left for Kukatpally by 10:00 to attend some work. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached cinema Sandhya at RTC Crossroads by 10:30. I saw the Telugu film “Godavari” of Sumanth and Kamalini Mukherjee in the morning show. It is very interesting and pleasant. Rested in my room from 2:30 to 4:00. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Picket Road in Secunderabad. I took my UPS of D-Link Company to get it repaired at its authorized regional office in LBR House building. It was kept closed because it is second Saturday today in this month. I was disappointed about it. Moved back to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda in the same auto rickshaw. I spent 150 rupees on this journey. Kiran, his roommates and I spent talking among ourselves from 6:30 to 8:00. By 8:30 Kiran and I reached cinema Odeon Deluxe at RTC Crossroads. Three of his roommates too came there soon. We saw the Telugu film “Amrutha Varsham”. It is excellent. Went to sleep by 1:00 on a cot in Manjeera Boys Hostel.
9 July (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Kiran and I came to my room at Vidya Nagar on his bike by 8:30. Freshened up myself by 9:30 when he was listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman. We started to Vanasthalipuram on his bike by 10:30. First we went to the abode of his friend at High Court Colony. We spent there for half an hour. His friend is pursuing Chartered Accountancy course now. Thence we went to a nearby fruit market. There we had sugarcane juice. It was tasteless. We regretted it. I bought a dozen green bananas for 20 rupees and two mango fruit for 15 rupees. We reached the rented abode of our cousin Murali at Self Finance Colony in Vanasthalipuram by 12:30. His mother Rajeswari and his brother Krishnam Raju (Bala) are also staying with him now. Murali and Bala are suffering from viral fevers now. We had lunch by 1:30. Kiran spent playing cards with our cousin Anusha for some time. Her brother was playing video games on television on the other side. I remained as a silent observer there. Anusha is a brilliant student. She wants to become a doctor pursuing MBBS course in India. My cousin Bala and I reached Secunderabad by 7:45 by a city bus. He is going home by Gauthami Express train. Had my lunch in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road by 9:00. Came to my room and took a bath by 9:30. I felt relieved. Ate two bananas. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
10 July (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for 90 minutes. Kept my UPS in a jute bag and stepped out of my room by 9:00. Waited for a light bus at a bus stop for half an hour. Passengers were hanging on the foot board. I did not like to travel in such bus. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached the Picket area in Secunderabad by 10:30. The regional office of D-Link Company is in the second floor of LBR House building there. I told a service technician there that my newly bought UPS in Visakhapatnam is not providing the stated power backup to my personal computer. It should provide backup for 22 minutes as per the specifications given in the manual of this company. He said that he would check it and return tomorrow afternoon if possible. Took two buses and returned to Shivam Road by 12:00. Spent browsing Internet in the Global View Internet café for one hour. There was no reply from my goddess Swagata Gupta. Had a plate of rice for 23 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached cinema Sri Mayuri by 1:40. Saw the Telugu film “Hanumanthu” of Srihari in the matinee show. It is very interesting. Came back to my room by 5:00. Rested for some time. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 8:30. When coming back from there, called up my brother Srinivas at Madhava Dhara in Visakhapatnam. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
11 July (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went out and had my breakfast in Nellore Tiffins outlet by 9:00. I did not find my time interesting. Walked further down Shivam Road and bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Came back to my room and spent reading it for two hours. By 12:00 rang up service technician Praveen at the office of D-Link in Secunderabad and enquired him about the status of my UPS given to them for repair. He told me to call up after one hour. I felt irritated. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for some time. Called up Praveen by 1:00. He told me to call up by 5:00. Walked down Shivam Road and had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 17 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe. Thence walked up to the Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel in DD Colony. Spent with my former hostel mate Alluri Murali Krishnam Raju from 2:00 to 6:30. Then hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda. Knew that my cousin Kiran went out to see a Telugu film for the second time. Spent talking with him from 8:30 to 9:30. Today I felt very frustrated at the delay in starting my editing work due to external factors. I get depressed if I stay alone in my room. I wanted to sleep in the hostel room of Kiran. This night there are no vacant cots there to sleep. Kiran dropped me at my abode by 10:15. Went to sleep by 11:00.
12 July (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Washed a pair of clothes. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Went out and had a plate of puris at an eatery by Shivam Road by 9:30. Then bought a copy of Eenadu and spent reading it at Global View Internet café for some time. It was opened by 10:30. Spent browsing Internet in it till 12:30. Took a city bus and reached Rethifile Bus Stand in Secunderabad by 1:00. Thence hired an auto rickshaw and proceeded to LBR House building in Picket area. Met Vishal in the D-Link service centre. He said that the battery in my UPS must be replaced with a new one. He added that it takes about four days for those spare parts to come from Goa. I told him that I cannot wait that longer for its repair. He advised me to take another piece from this office. I liked that option. There I had a cool drink and some sweets for my lunch. Came to the office of Data Systems in the third floor of Minerva Complex by 2:30. There was no the serial cable for which I went there. I could get it at a shop in Chenoy Trade Centre. Came back to my room by 4:00. This serial cable could not be connected to the CPU. This device facilitates to see the power backup status of the UPS on a computer when there is power cut. My former KSS hostel mate Anjaneya Raju and I saw the Telugu film “Asthram” in cinema Sandhya in the first show. I enjoyed watching it. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
13 July (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Madhu, my familiar electrician in this area, came by 8:00. He carried out the work of connecting an iron wire to earth from the switch board in my room. This safety measure is to avoid electric shock to me when editing my works on my computer. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:30. When I was loading the soft copy of Longman’s Dictionary of Contemporary English into my computer, the earth wire, which was above my ceiling fan, got loosened and fell on the fan in motion. I flicked that switch off immediately. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman from 11:00 to 1:00. Then went to Global View Internet café. Knew that my cousin Kiran passed his CA Final exams. Yesterday only he entered his 23rd year of life. I felt happy at this achievement by him at such age. Called up and congratulated him and his father on this occasion. I bought two apples for 30 rupees and two custard apples for 10 rupees to offer him as my gift. He came to my room by 4:00. Spent talking with him for one hour. I advised him on how to plan his future. This night he would give a small party to his roommates in Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda. This afternoon the owner of my rented portion offered me lunch. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 9:00. Went to sleep by 11:00.
14 July (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went to Nellore Tiffins outlet by Shivam Road and had my breakfast by 8:00. Thence further walked down Shivam Road and bought a copy of Eenadu. Came back to my room and spent reading it for one hour. Listened to Telugu cine songs for some time and rested for some time. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 11:30. Spent there browsing Internet till 1:30. Hired an auto rickshaw and rushed to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 1:45. Tickets were already sold at the counter. Bought a 30-rupee ticket for 60 rupees in the black. Saw the Telugu film “Ashok” from 2:00 to 5:00. It is exciting. Took a city bus and came back to Shivam Road. Spent in the Global View Internet café from 5:30 to 7:30. Changed the design template of my blog site www.golmalgovindam.blogspot.com and made it look more attractive for my readers. Also incorporated some changes into the ad formats of Google AdSense on it. Also downloaded some of my files from one Yahoo Briefcase account and uploaded them into another account. There was no email (reply) from Swagata Gupta. On the way back to my room, bought a kilo mango fruit for 20 rupees. Had my supper in Aunty Mess by 9:00. Morning paid 300 rupees to a local newspaper agent towards six-month subscription to the English daily The Times of India. They gave me a bag as gift. Went to sleep by 10:00.
15 July (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Today I started editing my diary of 1998 after a long time. Today I edited it for about ten hours. I wanted to start editing my diaries soon after coming to Hyderabad from our village. I could not do it for some reasons. Now I am staying in a convenient place for editing. There is no chance for excuses. I spent my money carelessly during the last few days being affected by frustration caused by much delay in finishing the editing of my 12 works to be published soon by me. By the grace of God, I could start this work today. I wanted to edit it for 14 hours. I took lunch break from 1:00 to 2:00. This afternoon I bought a monthly plate meal mess card for 530 rupees from Supriya Mess. It is in House No. TRT-84 in Vidya Nagar. I can have 30 meals using this card. This mess is known as Aunty Mess also. The food items would be prepared by a woman (aunty). An active boy serves them. This mess is very near to my room. Afternoon rested from 4:00 to 5:30. Dreams haunted me. I did not like to rest but the stress arising out of my continuous editing work made me so. Today it was partly cloudy. Today I sat in my chair for a long time and so became physically dim. Had my supper by 10:15. Went to sleep by 11:00.
16 July (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Today I edited my diary of 1998 for about ten hours. Had my lunch by 1:30 in Supriya Mess. Today there was Vegetable Biryani because it is Sunday today. The quality of rice was bad. Had my supper in this mess by 9:45. This morning I had eight Britannia Tiger orange cream biscuits. It is enough for my breakfast. This morning the elder son of the owner of my rented room talked with me for 20 minutes. He is about 45 but looks young. He asked me about my present work. I told him that I am editing my works now to get them published soon. He said that he has a few journalist friends who can help me in this regard. He does not know that I am not interested in seeking anybody’s help in this project of my life. Now he is working with Nidhi Industries, a start-up venture engaged in the manufacture of electrical transformers. They are looking for working capital. I told him that I am a writer and that my writings can be read on my blog site of Google. He is a good fellow. He has a car at home but I never saw it being used by him. He hums Telugu songs loudly in the morning. He tries to be cheerful despite bad conditions around him. Today it was partly cloudy. Last night my sweetheart Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Went to sleep by 11:00.
17 July (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Last night I could not sleep well. A sweet dream followed. I woke up in the middle of the night to bear with the psychic impact of that dream. There were many beautiful girls but my attention was on a particular girl. She must be my darling Swagata Gupta. By 2:00 completed editing my diary of 1998. I think this is pre-final level editing. This morning I ate 12 Britannia Tiger biscuits. I did not like to go out and have a considerable breakfast in some hotel. I must finish editing my works as early as possible. The format of the typed word files of my diaries is not good. I spent some time correcting them. By 2:15 had a plate of Dal Rice in a roadside hotel near Global View Internet café by Shivam Road. The quality of rice and red dal were good here. It is great food for 12 rupees. From 3:00 to 4:00 spent browsing Internet and uploading the word files of my edited diaries into my Yahoo Briefcase. Also had a look at my blog site of Google. Returned to my room by 4:15 and took a rest for one hour. Formatted some parts of my diaries on my computer from 5:30 to 8:00 listening to music. Went to Supriya Mess by 8:30 and had my supper. Today I found quality rice and tasty items there. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00.
18 July (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Yesterday I observed that my eyes turned reddish due to constant contact with my computer screen. This morning also my eyes looked weak. So, I decided to give holiday to my eyes from this editing work today. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu from 7:00 to 9:30. I saw an ad in it seeking translators from Telugu to English and vice versa. This employer is in Mumbai. In my present situation I cannot devote my time for other assignments but I was tempted to send my response to him. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 10:15. Sent my CV to that Mumbai-based firm by email. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 11:15. Saw the Telugu film “Paathaala Lokam” in cinema Sri Ramana Digital in the morning show. It is the dubbed version of the English film “Underworld Evolution”. I enjoyed watching this film. Walked back and had a plate of Dal Rice for 12 rupees in the roadside hotel near Global View Internet café. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel and rested there for two hours. Returned to my room by 4:00. Rested for 40 minutes. Edited my diary of 1999 from 5:00 to 9:00. My eyes turned weak. I felt disturbed. Had my supper in Supriya Mess by 9:30. The sound of trains passing by and halting at Vidya Nagar railway station delight me. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
19 July (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Checked my eyes in the mirror and found that they were red. It made me decide not to edit my diary today. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu from 7:00 to 8:30. Ate 12 Britannia Tiger biscuits for my breakfast. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel by 9:30. Spent talking with Murali for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 11:00. Spent there browsing Internet till 2:00. There was a reply from Ajit of Shakthi Enterprises in Mumbai. He informed me that they are paying one rupee for one source word for translation now. I sent a reply expressing my interest in their work and asking them to assign me work at the earliest. Had a plate of Dal Rice for 12 rupees in the nearby Bawarchi Biryani point. Came back to my room by 3:00. Arranged my audio cassettes of Telugu cine songs in order in a shelf. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Sony Walkman for about four hours. Went to Supriya Mess and had my supper by 9:00. Bought three packs of Britannia Tiger biscuits at a general store on the way back to my room. Today it was partly cloudy. This morning I asked the folks at Net Fusion Computer Sales outlet by Shivam Road if they got anti-glare glasses meant for protecting eyes from the light of computer screen. They advised me to go to an opticals store. I know that it all costs me a lot. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
20 July (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Today I edited my diary of 1999 for ten hours. This morning I took a head bath. That shampoo made my hair lifeless and ugly. Applying coconut oil is the only solution but it makes my hair sticky. Morning ate 12 Britannia Tiger biscuits. Had my lunch in Supriya Mess by 1:30. Stopped editing my diary by 8:30. Went to a bookstore near Syndicate Bank down Shivam Road and bought a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara. I decided to avoid my supper, feeling heavy, and so bought eight potato bajjees at a pushcart by Shivam Road on my way back to my room. They were tasty. I ate them happily and filled my stomach partially for this night. Completed reading the Telugu film weekly within half an hour. A report providing the details of remuneration being taken by the actors and actresses in the Hindi film industry surprised me. A famous director is taking ten crore rupees to direct a film. It shows the value of creativity and competence in the present entertainment industry. Afternoon read about the rates of paintings. Famous artists are earning millions of rupees. My friend Veeranjaneyulu remained in darkness. There is nobody to market his extraordinary talent. He is living simple life working on reproductions. Today it was partly cloudy. Today I felt satisfactory for editing my diary for much time. Went to sleep by 10:30.
21 July (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:45. Today I edited my diary of 1999 for eight hours. I felt unhappy with this poor performance today. Morning had 12 Britannia Tiger biscuits. Had my lunch and supper in Supriya Mess today. Afternoon read Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Spent in the Global View Internet café by Shivam Road from 7:30 to 8:00. Ajit Shirodkar, the project head of Shakthi Enterprises in Mumbai, emailed me that he would get back to me soon with the details of translation work. Recently I created my matrimonial profile on rediff.com. I searched the profiles of some brides today on it and found one of them somewhat considerable. I wanted to contact her to appreciate her beauty. I cannot send an email to her directly because I am not a paid member on it. This website sent a given message to her expressing my interest in contacting her. Today I received an automated reply from this website. She declined my request. She is a girl from Mumbai. She must have thought that she is an angel of beauty and I an ordinary bloke of India. Many modern educated Indian girls are shallow and cowardly. They show off when in great positions and secure places but fear even to talk with an unfamiliar man when they are alone. I hate such nasty ultramodern girls. They spoil the mindsets of dreamers like me. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
22 July (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:45. Freshened up myself by 6:45. Started editing by 7:00 and stopped it by 7:30. Today I edited my diary of 1999 for ten hours. Morning had Britannia Gold biscuits. Had my lunch in Supriya Mess by 2:00. Had my supper by 8:30. Afternoon read Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Yesterday I could not see my blog site of Google. Recently a bomb blast occurred at a railway station in Mumbai. It was suspected that Pakistan-generated terrorists did it. The concerning officials of the Government of India are investigating it. They found that international terrorists are exchanging information through blogs on Internet. So, they issued orders to the blogging service providers to block them for some time. I did not feel disturbed when I could not see my blog site. I read in the newspapers that some bloggers became very angry at this measure initiated by the Government of India in this regard. When a government is in a difficult and tense situation, in terms of its national security and peace process, it tends to take precautionary measures immediately. People should try to be in harmony with its spirit of concern for the nation instead of complicating things on their own in such times. An individual is always less important in comparison to national priorities from the standpoint of a good state. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
23 July (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:45. Started editing my diary of 1999 by 6:00. Had 12 Britannia Tiger biscuits by 7:30. I felt weak by 11:30. The food items I am taking for my breakfast might not be supplying the required energy to my body. It results in low blood pressure. That leads to faint. Had a glass of sugar water by 12:00. Weakness was still on. My cousin Kiran came from Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 12:30. He told me to get ready to go to see some Telugu film in the matinee show. The pre-final editing of my diary of 1999 was over by 2:30. Then he dropped me by Shivam Road and went to meet his friends. Had a plate of rice for 23 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe. Spent in the Global View Internet café from 3:00 to 4:00. Uploaded the word file of my edited diary of 1999 into my Yahoo Briefcase and checked my emails. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu from 4:10 to 5:00 in my room. Kiran came by 5:15 on his bike. We went to cinema Sri Sai Raja by 5:45 on his bike. The premises of this cinema was packed with many viewers. We saw the Hindi film “The Killer” from 6:00 to 8:15 in this cinema. It has interesting and exciting story. We enjoyed watching it throughout. There were one percent female audience only. Kiran dropped me at Vidya Nagar. Had my supper for 22 rupees in a hotel. Came back to my room by 9:15 on foot. Went to sleep by 10:00.
24 July (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. The spell of morning time made me stay back for one more hour. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. I think that she will express her love to me soon. During the extended hour of sleep this morning, she again appeared me in my dream. She is in her house. There are about ten bodyguards around her. She is crying thinking about her separation from me from the 10th of April this year. Her parents are also unable to console her in this regard. I went to their house in this atmosphere. She sensed my presence within seconds from inside. She came out like a lightning. She sat beside me on a cot in front of their house. I touched and consoled her. I talked with her for a minute and assured her that we would marry soon. She felt relieved after hearing these words from me. I greatly enjoyed this classic dream of pain relief. Today I found my face weak when I checked it in mirror. I decided to rest till the afternoon. Took a bath by 11:30. Went to Supriya Mess and had my lunch by 12:30. Edited my diary of 2000 from 1:00 to 7:15. Went to a medical store by Shivam Road and bought two tablets for one rupee to get rid of phlegm in my body. I wondered at the rate of these two tablets. Rang up my friend Viswanadha Sharma in Peda Gummuluru by 8:00. Knew that all are well there. Had my supper in Supriya Mess by 9:00. Today it was cool and cloudy. Afternoon and night it rained a bit. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
25 July (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Today I edited my diary of 2000 for nine hours. Morning had 12 Britannia Tiger biscuits. Afternoon went to a kirana shop by Shivam Road and bought two packs of dates for 40 rupees. Half a kilo of dates cost 20 rupees in a packed form. One kilo of dates cost 20 rupees at hawkers on roads. Dust settles on them. Recently I read in the Telugu weekly Swati that dates are useful to one’s body in many ways. I like their sweetness above all. Had lunch in Supriya Mess by 1:45. Felt sleepy when editing. My mind turned inactive. It must be because of eating rice. Rested on mattress from 3:30 to 4:30. I cursed the laziness of my body. Recently I checked my weight at a machine in a bus stand. It showed 63 kilograms. If I subtract one kilo from it for the weight of my clothes and a pair of shoes on my body, it would be 62. It shows that physically I am well. I ate many mango fruit recently in our house. There my mother fed me well. Where do all these calories go? My waist also gained weight. My clothes are hinting it. I must go jogging for my physical fitness. There is neither time nor interest now for it. Had supper in Supriya Mess by 9:15. Afternoon cold caught me. Today it was cloudy. It rained a little. Last night Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Went to sleep by 10:00.
26 July (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:45. Last night two nightmares scared me. Today I edited my diary of 2000 for half an hour only. The intensity of cold, which attacked me yesterday, increased this morning. I had to go out frequently to blow my nose. It distracted me from my concentration on my editing work. Shut down my computer system by 8:00. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Slept on my mattress for two hours. Had a bath and went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 11:20. There was no email (reply) from my sweetheart Swagata Gupta. I heard that she did her post graduation in Economics at Jadavpur University in Kolkata. Spent checking that website for some time. Then checked the website of the University of Hyderabad. I knew that our English Professor Sudhakar Marathe is retiring soon. My blog site of Google still remained invisible. I regretted it. Bought an inhaler of Amrutanjan Company for 12 rupees to face my cold. Walked down Shivam Road and reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 1:40. Saw the Telugu film “Pandhem Kodi” for the second time. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel in DD Colony by 4:45. Spent talking with my friend Alluri Murali Krishnam Raju for one hour. Came back to my room by 6:00. Rested on the mattress till 8:00. It started raining by 7:00. Had my supper in Supriya Mess by 8:30. It turned cool due to rain. I enjoyed it. Today I wasted a day. I deeply regret it. Went to sleep by 10:00.
27 July (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:50. Last night my sweetheart Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. Took a head bath by 6:30. Started editing my diary of 2000 by 7:00. Today I edited it for eight hours. Today I could not edit much of it. This realization hurt me. Had lunch by 2:00 in Supriya Mess. I felt drowsy around 4:30. Shut down my computer and rested for half an hour. Even after that, I did not feel like editing. Walked to a bookstore by Shivam Road and bought a copy of Telugu weekly Swati and a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara. Walked back to Global View Internet café by 6:00. There was no email (reply) from my darling Swagata Gupta. My blog site of Google still remained invisible. Came back to my room by 6:30. Spent reading the above-mentioned Telugu weeklies till 8:30. Went out to have my supper by 9:00. My familiar washerman stopped me on the way. Spent talking with him for 20 minutes. I told him that I am suffering from cold. He said that I should apply a good balm on my throat. I told him that one should bear with cold until it leaves one on its own. Had my supper in Supriya Mess by 9:45. This morning I bought 200 grams of dates for my breakfast. Today I could not carry out my editing work in the evening. I am growing my body, because of sitting in my room, after eating enough every day. My brain is resisting laziness in my life. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
28 July (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Started editing my diary of 2000 by 7:00. Power cut occurred once or twice. Read Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Also had three puris bought from a woman by Quarter No. TRT-200. Also ate 100 grams of dates. I felt very tired internally by 12:30. So, shut down my computer system and rested on mattress for some time. I found that power cut is occurring frequently. For the last few days, it has been raining heavily due to cyclone. There might be some problems in the supply of electricity through wires. Rushed to Shivam Road by 1:30. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet within five minutes. Bought a ticket for 30 rupees. Walked to a nearby hotel by main road and had a plate of Tomato Rice for 12 rupees. Saw the Telugu film “Gaayam” of young actor Bharat from 2:00 to 4:15. It was dubbed from its Tamil original. Vishnu Vardhan directed it. I enjoyed watching this film very much. Took a city bus and returned to my room by 5:00. The old woman in this house told me that my father called up. Went out and rang up my brother Srinivas to know if there is anything urgent. Edited my diary from 5:30 to 10:00. Then went to Supriya Mess to have my supper. He cooked rice and served me. I ate that hot food fast. Came back to my room by 10:45. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
29 July (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2000 by 7:00. Power cut occurred by 8:30. Went out and had a Masala Dosa at a small hotel near Vidya Nagar railway station. It cost six rupees. It was good for that rate. I went there in a dark blue T-Shirt and an attractive lungi. Two college girls walked in that way when I was having my breakfast there. I felt that they were attracted by my handsomeness. Returned to my room and spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu for 15 minutes. Edited my diary for some time and rested for half an hour. Took a bath by 1:00 and went to Supriya Mess to have my lunch. Edited my diary from 2:00 to 9:00. Rested for 30 minutes in between. Today I edited my diary for about nine hours. I am not satisfied with this work. It was cool and cloudy outside. It was raining now and then. Still I am getting very tired after editing for a few hours. I am being forced to rest for some time. I took up a herculean task. I cannot finish the editing of my works soon if I remain like this. Today I ate about 200 grams of dates. Went to Supriya Mess by 9:15 and had my supper by 9:45. Recently I read in a newspaper that my sweetheart Lahari is acting as a heroine in a Telugu film. May God bless her. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams blessed by God.
30 July (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Morning had a plate of puris bought from the woman by Quarter No. TRT-200. Today I edited my diary of 2000 for about ten hours and finished its pre-final level of editing by 9:00. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 9:10. Uploaded the edited word file of my 2000 diary into my Yahoo Briefcase. Today there were two considerable emails to me. My cousin Narendra Varma sent one. Now he is in his first year B.Tech. Mechanical Engineering course at Aditya Engineering College in Surampalem near Peddapuram. He is sharing a rented room with his college mates. A woman is cooking for them. They bring rice and vegetables from market. He is happy with the strength of teaching faculty in this college. There are a good number of books in this college library. This academic year campus interviews were also conducted there. There is much distance from his room to the college. There are many grammatical errors in his email. He is worried about it. I advised him not to worry about English at this stage of his academic life. My friend Sriram sent an email asking about my whereabouts. He sent me his cellular phone number and informed me to call him up at it. He enquired me about the progress of editing work of my 12 books. I informed him that it may be over by the end of this September. Today I wanted to see a Telugu film. There was no time. Had my supper in Supriya Mess by 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
31 July (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Had a plate of puris by 8:00. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu from 8:15 to 9:00. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Sony Walkman for one hour. Went to cinema Odeon Deluxe by 11:00 by bus. Bought a ticket for 35 rupees and saw Telugu film “Amma Cheppindhi” in the morning show. I enjoyed watching it a lot. There were no many viewers in this cinema. I regretted it. Nowadays, films produced and directed by people with human values, are not doing well at cinemas. Had a plate of Egg Noodles for 17 rupees in a roadside hotel at RTC Crossroads. I liked the taste of this dish. I felt very uneasy to eat them, suffering from severe cold. Hired an auto rickshaw and went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 2:30. Knew that my cousin Kiran is attending an intensive coaching program now at the CA Institute in Lakdi Ka Pool meant for enhancement of communication skills in the latest batch of students that passed CA Final. Talked with Amitesh, the Nepalese friend of Kiran, for some time. I explained him how interesting my 12 books are going to be once they get published. Kiran returned by 9:00 on his bike. He asked me if I can lend him 500 rupees. I said I have 500 rupees only now on me. We had supper in a hotel at Kachiguda. He dropped me at my abode by 11:30. Went to sleep by 12:00.
1 August (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Had a plate of puris by 8:00. Rested on my mattress till 10:30. Had a bath and went to Shivam Road by 10:40. Checked my bank balance in the HDFC ATM Centre there. There are 61 rupees. Then went to the ATM Center of Andhra Bank and found that there is a balance of 400 rupees in it. Hired an auto rickshaw and rushed to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 11:10. Went there to see the Telugu film “Parama Shivam” of Tamil actor Ajit. It is not being shown there. I paid 20 rupees to the driver of auto rickshaw. I regretted it. Came back walking to compensate it. Spent in the Global View Internet café browsing Internet from 11:30 to 1:30. Today I created another Yahoo Briefcase account with the name greatindianwriter. Bought one kilo of papaya for 15 rupees for my lunch today. Slept in my room from 2:15 to 4:15. Called up my friend Sriram and told him to come to my room this evening for a casual meeting. I kept waiting for him from 4:30 to 6:30. He could come by 7:00 from his office at Nagarjuna Hills taking two city buses. I briefed him on the status of my editing work. He told me how his life is going on now. He left by 9:00. Had my supper in Supriya Mess by 9:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
2 August (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. The local paperboy forgot to issue me English daily The Times of India from yesterday morning itself as per my subscription schedule. Today I reminded him about it. He gave me a copy of it. Went to a nearby buffalo milk sale point and bought a pack of eight rupees. My acquaintance, living in another room in this house, heated it for me. I had a glass of hot and sweet milk. For the last one week, I have been suffering from a bad cold. I daily drink cold water into my empty stomach for water therapy. It is keeping my cold effective. Today I had hot milk to face this problem to some extent. Slept in my room from 10:00 to 11:30. Listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for some time. Went out by 12:15. Took a city bus and reached RTC Crossroads by 12:30. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani in Krishna Darshini Hotel by 1:00. Spent strolling up and down from cinema Sapthagiri to cinema Usha Mayuri for some time. Bought a 35-rupee ticket at cinema Sapthagiri by 2:00. It was cloudy. Still I was feeling thirsty. Ate a plate of oily food no! Had a glass of fruit salad to counter it. Saw the Telugu film “Parama Shivam” from 2:15 to 5:00 in it. Ajit acted well. I liked it. Took a bus and came to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel by 5:30. Spent talking with my familiar ones there for one hour. Returned to my room by 7:00. Saw playing a video CD on my computer till 8:00. It is the success story of Raja Naren of Britt Worldwide India. Had my supper in Supriya Mess by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.
3 August (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:45. Morning had 20 Britannia Tiger orange cream biscuits and one glass of Rasna mixed drink. Recently I found that much time is being wasted in having my breakfast brought from outside. This measure is to save more time and use it for carrying out my editing work. The cream biscuits I am eating give me about 1000 kilo calories of energy and the drink gives me 376 kilo calories of energy. This information is given on those packs. I could remain active till 1:00. Had my lunch by 2:00 in Supriya Mess. Stopped editing my diary of 2001 by 5:00. Today I edited it for eight hours. I felt somewhat satisfactory for this amount of work. Took a city bus by 5:10 by Shivam Road and reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 5:30. There was 38 A city bus readily. Took it and got off it at the stop of the temple of Lord Venkateswara in Anand Bagh by 6:00. Called up my friend Sriram from there. He came to me in two minutes along with Aravind. Now Aravind is working with ICFAI University Press as a DTP operator. He joined it about five years ago. Both of us had been good friends. He left for his abode by 6:30 on his bike. We talked about many things for 30 minutes standing in the drizzle at the bus stop. Phani Sekhar talked about the business with Amway products for 70 minutes in the rented portion of Sriram, who recently joined it. Had my supper in a hotel by Shivam Road and returned to my room by 11:30. Went to sleep by 12:00.
4 August (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Started editing my diary of 2001 by 7:00. Had 200 grams of Britannia Tiger orange cream biscuits and one glass of Rasna powder mixed drink by 7:30. The woman living in a nearby quarter as a tenant came into our house to pluck flowers. She saw me working on my computer in my room. She asked me if I am interested to buy any breakfast item from her today. I told her that I stopped coming to her to buy breakfast items for lack of time. She remained neutral. Stopped editing my diary by 1:00. Went to Supriya Mess and had my lunch by 1:40. It was raining continuously due to depression over Bay of Bengal. I borrowed an umbrella from the owner of my rented room. I can get one more meal only using my present mess card of Supriya Mess. I have to buy a new 30 meals card paying 500 rupees there. Came back to my room and started editing my diary. I did not feel like editing it. Shut down my computer system and rested on my mattress. There is no much time for me to finish the editing work of my 12 books. It was raining outside. My mind refused to resume this work till 9:00 at night. I cannot complain to anybody when the devil is within me. I hate this disorder of decay in me. I cannot uproot it. Working only for five hours on a comfortable day is a curse on my life. I wasted many days like this after I started editing my diaries after leaving my job with ICFAI University Press. Can I kill myself for my guilt? Night also it kept on raining. Had my supper in Supriya Mess by 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
5 August (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Started editing my diary of 2001 by 7:00. Had 200 grams of Britannia Tiger orange cream biscuits and one glass of Rasna powder mixed drink by 8:00. They are providing me with adequate energy to edit my diary till the afternoon but I am feeling acidic in my stomach. I decided to avoid these items of breakfast for some days. Had my lunch in Supriya Mess by 1:00. Returned to my room and rested on my mattress till 2:00. Then started editing my diary and continued it till 8:15. Today I edited my diary for about 11 hours. I felt satisfactory for my work today. Went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road and had my supper by 8:40. It has been raining for the last four days due to cyclone. Drops of water are appearing on the internal surfaces of walls in my room. This quarter was constructed about three decades ago by government folks. These walls are not strong. So, they can’t resist rain and moisture. The owner of this house got affected with fever. She is taking tablets. I advised her to eat hot rice with turmeric and tamarind soup to face this illness. She said that her two sons are good at eating homemade food but not at cooking. The production of electricity increased due to enough water in reservoirs. Many low-lying areas in twin cities were flooded with rainwater. Went to sleep by 10:00.
6 August (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:10. Freshened up myself by 6:45. Started editing my diary of 2001 by 7:00. Had five idlies by 8:30 bought from the woman in Quarter No. TRT-200. Also had one glass of Rasna mixed drink by 9:00. Had my lunch in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road by 2:00. Came back to my room and rested on my mattress till 3:15. Again started editing my diary and continued it till 9:00. Today I edited it for ten hours. I am happy about it. Had my supper in the above-mentioned hotel by 9:40. I knew a few things about ICFAI University Press from my friend Aravind when I met him recently at Anand Bagh in Secunderabad. Many DTP operators and sub editors left it. Nobody knows when one joins or leaves it. Journals and magazines are being released but there is no surety of quality of language. I don’t think that Error Report work goes on well in such environment. The staff in the 3rd floor wanted to give a farewell party to my darling Swagata Gupta when she was leaving it for Bangalore to join her job with the Reuters. The Operations Manager Pradeep Kumar Ramappa advised them not to throw parties in view of many departures recently. Swagata would not have worried about it. She must have found this office like hell after I left it. Sutapa Patnaik took long leave recently. I think this firm is in a bad phase now. Time decides its course of journey. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
7 August (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Started editing my diary of 2001 by 7:00. Had five idlies by 8:00 bought from the woman at Quarter No. TRT-200. Had a bath by 1:30. Went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road and had my lunch by 1:45. It was good for 18 rupees. Came back to my room and rested on my mattress from 2:00 to 3:00. Then started editing my diary and continued it till 8:20. My cousin Kiran came from Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 7:30. He said that today Yandamoori Veerendranadh gave a lecture to them in their CA institute. He was very much impressed by the communication skills and depth of knowledge of this guest speaker. He wondered knowing that he is one of the famous Telugu novelists in Andhra Pradesh. He felt proud of his profession knowing that such great writer is also a Chartered Accountant. We left for RTC Crossroads on his bike by 8:30. Today I edited my diary for about ten hours and so decided to enjoy myself. Kiran encouraged me in this direction. We bought two 40-rupee tickets at cinema Sandhya by 8:45. We had some snacks near this cinema by main road by 8:55. Titles were over by the time we entered this cinema. We saw Telugu film “Game” of Mohan Babu in it. It has a very weak story. We somehow bore with it. He dropped me at my room by 11:30. Went to sleep by 12:00.
8 August (Tuesday)
Woke up by 7:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2001 by 7:30. Went to the woman selling homemade breakfast items at Quarter No. TRT-200 by 8:30. Spent talking with her for ten minutes. She is from Srikakulam district. She is selling breakfast items to earn some more money and support her family. She has two children. She said that she is planning to prepare lunch and supply it to bachelors living in this locality. I advised her not to depend on food supply business to bachelors. They are not disciplined in eating food. Cooked items get spoilt if they don’t order for them systematically. I advised her to do any other business associated with durable items but there are many kirana shops in this area. She made a sad face after listening to my suggestions. Today I bought five puris from her for seven and a half rupees. The pre-final level editing of my 2001 diary was over by 1:15. I was already feeling weak due to hunger. Took a bath by 1:30 and went out. Had a plate of Dal Rice for 20 rupees in Bawarchi Biryani Point by Shivam Road. I found it costly. Spent browsing Internet in Global View Internet café from 2:40 to 3:40. Checked my emails and uploaded the word file of my 2001 edited diary into my Yahoo Briefcase. Withdrew 100 rupees from the ATM Centre of Andhra Bank. Came back to my room and spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for much time. Night called up my brother Srinivas in Visakhapatnam. Went to sleep by 10:30.
9 August (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and spent listening to Telugu cine songs till 8:30. Had my breakfast at an eatery by Shivam Road and took a bus by 9:00 for Mehdipatnam. Thence took another bus and reached the University of Hyderabad by 10:30. The State Bank of India there was opened by 10:30. Withdrew 1000 rupees from my savings account there. Today I gave them my recently taken passport size photo. They pasted it on my passbook and stamped the seal of this bank on it. Went into the HCU campus by 11:00. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for eight rupees at the small canteen in the shopping complex there. Also had one cup of vanilla ice cream for five rupees at a shop there. Spent talking with my friends, T Kiran Babu, Veerraju and Pusa Kekuchol from 11:20 to 1:30. Took a bus opposite this university main gate and reached Mehdipatnam by 2:30. Thence took another bus and got off it at the end of flyover at Narayana Guda. Thence walked and reached Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 3:30. Rested in its Room No. 12 for two hours. My cousin Kiran came by 6:30. We spent talking till 8:00. Then we started walking to cinema Shanthi and reached there by 8:15. Tickets were already sold. Thence we went to cinema Sri Mayuri at RTC Crossroads. We saw Telugu film “Veedhi” in the second show. It is very interesting. Went to sleep by 12:30 on a cot in his hostel room.
10 August (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:00. My cousin Kiran dropped me at my abode by 7:30 on his bike. Freshened up myself and rested on my mattress till 9:30. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman till 11:00. Then typed out one-page letter addressing advocate C S N Raju. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road and got it laser printed. It cost me one rupee. I used an Executive Bond paper for it. Bought two postal stamps for ten rupees at a bookstore there and pasted them on it. I briefly wrote about my intended case against the APSEB, the progress of editing work of my 12 books and the point of applying for copyrights in it. He is my friend and well-wisher. Had a plate of rice for 23 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe by 12:45. Then took a city bus and got off it at cinema Sapthagiri at Musheerabad. Thence walked to cinema Sri Sai Raja. There was still much time for the matinee in it. Walked toward Jamistanpur. There bought a toasted corn cob for four rupees and came back to this cinema having it. Bought a 35-rupee ticket by 1:50. There were very few viewers. Saw the Hindi film “Dharwaja Bandh Rakho” from 2:00 to 4:00. I enjoyed watching it throughout. Took a bus and came back to Shivam Road by 4:30. Bought a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara and came back to my room. Read it completely in half an hour. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs for three hours. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 9:00. Evening it was cloudy. Went to sleep by 10:30.
11 August (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself and started my computer system to begin editing my diary of 2002. I found that the file of Longman’s Dictionary of Contemporary English, installed some days ago, was not functioning. It was asking me to insert the original compact disc. I borrowed it from my friend Murali Krishnam Raju once. Recently he went to Bangalore searching for a good job. I have Advanced Learner’s Dictionary of Oxford University Press in a book form with me. I need the soft copy of a standard English dictionary to do and finish my diary editing work fast. I decided to avoid the editing work of my diary today due to this problem. Went to a bus stop by Shivam Road and wanted to go to Jubilee Hills to meet my friend Veeranjaneyulu there. I waited there for two hours but not a single bus came with a little space for me to stand up also. Walked down to Avinash Audio and Video Centre and borrowed the video CDs of the Hindi feature film “Page 3” and the English feature film “The American Beauty”. Watched playing them on my computer from 11:00 to 3:00. They are interesting. Spent browsing Internet in Global View Internet café from 4:00 to 6:00. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel in DD Colony and spent talking with my familiar ones there for 30 minutes. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for two hours. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.
12 August (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:10. Freshened up myself and spent reading English daily The Times of India for half an hour. Went to Shivam Road and took a bus for Yousufguda Check Post by 7:30. Thence took an auto rickshaw and got off it at Journalist Colony Junction. Thence walked and reached the rented portion of Veeru by 9:00. Had a plate of Lemon Rice, offered by his mother. Then walked up, along with Veeru, into his specially constructed art room. Now workers are engaged in constructing a bathroom in the hall of this artist there. I found Veeru in a bad mood. His mother is suffering from high blood pressure and diabetes. She is not properly following the prescribed food habits by her doctor. His eldest brother underwent an operation recently. His intestines got affected due to his food and smoking habits. The doctor warned him against smoking and drinking. Yet he is indulging in them now and then. Recently he bought some gadgets to do exercises daily at home for his physical fitness, thus to save his valuable time and use it for his painting work. He is keeping his health up with balanced diet and lifestyle. He is spending all his time on reproductions for livelihood and maintenance of city life. He has no time to concentrate on his original works and prove more as an artist. He has many rich clients. They buy his paintings and use them for decoration in their homes, offices and temples. They don’t have time or interest to promote him as an artist initially. Came back to my room by 8:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
13 August (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Spent reading English daily The Times of India for half an hour. Went to B K Salon at Adikmet by 7:30. He opened it and cut my hair first. For many months, I have been paying him 20 rupees for a haircut. He is my favourite barber. He never asked me to increase the payment for his service. I thought I should give five rupees more. Came back to my room and had a head bath by 8:30. Had my breakfast by 9:00. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs till 11:30. Then started my computer system and began typing out script for the occasion of the retirement of my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju of Jaggampeta. He retires as a government teacher on the 31st of this month. I named my script “Certificate of Merit”. It has five pages. It came well. Got it laser printed at Global View Internet café by 2:00. Had my lunch in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe by 2:30. Came back to my room and spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman. Hired an auto rickshaw by 5:00 and moved to RTC Crossroads. Bought two 35-rupee tickets for 100 rupees from a drunken student. Sold one to a student there for 60 rupees. Saw Telugu film “Brahmaasthram” of Jagapati Babu in cinema Odeon Deluxe. It was good. Neha Oberoi is a great beauty. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.
14 August (Monday)
Woke up by 6:10. Last night my darling Deepthi visited me in my dream. She was preparing to take some exams. She was doing it lying on floor keeping the book in her hands. I was also there lying on that floor and watching her studying. She was very happy because I was near her. I enjoyed this dream a lot. It lasted for about ten minutes. Freshened up myself and spent reading The Times of India for 20 minutes. Took two buses and reached the University of Hyderabad by 9:40. Spent talking with my familiar ones there for 30 minutes. Withdrew 1000 rupees from my savings account with the State Bank of India there. There is a balance of 1000 rupees after this withdrawal. Took two buses and reached Himayat Nagar by 11:30. Kept on searching for the latest edition of Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English with a CD for three hours, walking for three kilometers, and then travelling in an auto rickshaw. Ended up buying its 1995 edition at a bookstore in Kothi. When I checked the content of this CD on my computer, I found that it is not the one I am looking for. I felt I wasted 370 rupees when I am in a financial crisis. I have to sell it to somebody. My mind refused to start editing my diary of 2002 without its desired version of CD. I am wasting my days like a brainless bloke. I curse myself for this unbearable delay in my editing work. The problem is I should not kill myself to get rid of this hell. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
15 August (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Spent reading English daily The Times of India for half an hour. Freshened up myself and went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel at DD Colony by 8:30. The father of my friend Anjaneya Raju was there. His name is Dantuluri Rama Raju. He belongs to Tanuku in West Godavari district. He asked me if there is any Kshatriya girl in my knowledge to be married to their eldest son. I remembered one of my familiar ones. I brought him to my room to show it. By the way, he collected the basic details of the younger son of my room owner. He said that he would find a match for him. We took two buses and reached the rented abode of my relatives at Self Finance Colony in Vanasthalipuram by 11:00. They talked for 30 minutes about the things related to marriage. We came back to Dilsukh Nagar by 1:30. We waited for 107 V city bus for one hour standing in the sun. Then we took an auto rickshaw up to 6 Number Road and thence walked up Shivam Road. On the way, I bought a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu at a bookstore. He proceeded to our hostel. I had a plate of rice for 22 rupees in Shirdi Sai Baba Hotel. Also bought two sweet laddoos for 12 rupees to celebrate the 60th Independence Day of India. I found that the fellow of this sweet stall had nicely cheated me. They are small and tasteless. Rested in my room for some time. Read Eenadu for two hours. Spent browsing Internet from 8:30 to 10:30 in the Global View Internet café. Went to sleep by 11:00.
16 August (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Spent reading English daily The Times of India for 20 minutes. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Had my breakfast by 7:30. Hired an auto rickshaw and started to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 8:30. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. My cousin Kiran and I started to Secunderabad by 10:00 on his bike. He attended the second round interview for a job with the audit firm of Deloitte. A senior partner of this company conducted this interview to him for five minutes. He liked the personality and experience of Kiran in this field. He did not ask him subject related questions. He offered him the position of Assistant Manager with annual remuneration of three lakh rupees. He felt happy about it. On the way back to his hostel, I bought a copy of Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English for me for 400 rupees in a bookstore by main road at Kachiguda. It is the fourth and latest edition of this dictionary with a CD. I could not do my editing work for a week because of not having this CD with me. This morning I took 1700 rupees from Kiran. Earlier I lent him 700 rupees. Now I borrowed 1000 rupees from him. Had my lunch in their hostel by 2:00. Came back to my room in an auto rickshaw by 5:00. Loaded the CD of English dictionary into my computer system and found it satisfactory for my editing work. Saw the Telugu film “Bommarillu” of Siddharth in cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet in the first show. It is very good. Went to sleep by 10:30.
17 August (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:15. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 7:00. Had my breakfast by 8:30 when it was drizzling. The woman keeps her breakfast items for sale at House No. TRT-200. I have to pay ten rupees for the light things she prepares. Stopped editing by 11:30. My computer system is not functioning fast. My cousin Kiran spent here preparing some study material for one hour. By 12:00 went out and collected some information from Internet. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Barkatpura by 1:00. Went to the office of regional provident fund to know when my provident fund would be sent to my given bank. They said that nothing can be done unless I know my provident fund number. Called up Rambabu of ICFAI in Flat No. 62 at Nagarjuna Hills and knew my PF number. Then went to the folks in the fourth floor of this building and knew that my money would be sent to the Andhra Bank at Somajiguda within ten days. I thought that it would be around 10000 rupees but it is below 7000 rupees. Came back to my room by 2:30. I felt a little depressed visualizing my imminent financial position. Rested on my mattress till 4:00. Then started editing my diary. My cousin Murali came by 5:30. Spent talking with him for one hour. The virtual memory of my computer is very low. Night read the Telugu film weekly Sitara for 40 minutes. Went to sleep by 10:30.
18 August (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 7:00. Had my breakfast by 8:00. Stopped editing my diary by 12:00. Took a bath and went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 12:30. Had my lunch and came back to my room by 1:30. I felt drowsy after exporting the rice into my stomach and so could not start editing my diary. Rested on my mattress till 2:30. Then started my computer system and edited my diary for half an hour. Frequent power cuts and low virtual memory of this computer discouraged me from carrying out this editing work. Shut it down and went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road. Spent there carrying out the work of formatting the blogs on my blog site of Google. I found that the text of these blogs is looking smaller. Changed the font, font size and color of these blogs. Also uploaded my photo into my profile on it. Today I created my profile on portal match.com. I spent there from 3:20 to 8:00 attending my work on Internet. There is a reply from the credit cards division of HDFC Bank in Chennai. I felt happy with their response to my minor complaint made to them earlier. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 8:30. It rained in the evening and turned cool. Today I did very little editing work. It depressed me a lot. Time is running fast but my work is lagging behind. I am supposed to carry this body. Went to sleep by 10:00.
19 August (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 6:30. Had my breakfast by 8:30. Stopped editing and had a bath by 1:00. Went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road by 1:30 and had my lunch. Spent reading my favourite Telugu daily Eenadu for half an hour. Came back to my room and took a siesta for one hour. Started editing my diary by 3:30 and continued it till 5:30. For the last two months, I found that, much of my time is getting wasted in going out and having my breakfast, lunch and supper. When every minute of time is important for me, to finish the editing work of my 12 books, I am wasting hours and days just like that. This realization is paining me a lot. I need encouraging environment and somebody to serve me some food in time. Being victimized to sleep for one hour after my lunch became a problem. I am not doing physical exercises to keep myself active because there is no time or interest to me in it for long. I need a solution from this problem. Took a city bus and reached the rented portion of my friend Veeranjaneyulu at Jubilee Hills by 7:00. His mother got an alliance for him from Kakinada. They showed me her photo for my comment. She is considerably beautiful and suits him well. He said that she is not looking inspiring to his eyes. I tried to counsel him. Had my supper along with him by 11:00. Went to sleep by 12:30 for my dreams.
20 August (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:30. Took leave of them and came to the road by 7:15. Took an auto rickshaw and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 7:30. There bought a copy of Eenadu. Took a city bus and reached Shivam Road by 8:30. Walked to the nearby Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel and enquired its supervisor about the availability of vacant rooms in it for students. He said that all the rooms were already filled. I can stay in it for a month spending 2000 rupees. Now I am spending 3000 rupees a month staying in the small rented room in House No. TRT-201 at Vidya Nagar. Room rent and food expenses are increasing my monthly expenditure. I have no much money now. Spent talking with my familiar ones there till 9:30. Came back to my room and spent reading Eenadu till 11:30. Also scanned The Times of India for 20 minutes. Rested on my mattress for one hour. Then took a bath and went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess. Had my lunch by 2:00. Went to Global View Internet café and spent there browsing Internet from 3:15 to 6:15. Typed out a letter addressing the folks of credit cards division of HDFC Bank in Chennai. I have to send my invalid credit card to them and get a new one from them. I kept it with me even without signing it for two years. Today I changed some photos attached to my blogs on my blog site of Google. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for one hour. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30.
21 August (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 6:30. Had my breakfast by 8:30. I found that my computer system is functioning slowly. Recently I increased its virtual memory. Still this problem is on. I think it is because of its low RAM. The soft copy of Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English is taking about a minute to show the meaning of a typed word in it. The word file of my diary has 159 pages of text in it. I did not like to edit my diary at such low speed of my computer. Shut it down by 11:00. Took its CPU to Net Fusion Computer Sales and Service Centre by Shivam Road on foot. They checked it and said that its RAM should be increased to make it work faster. A chip of 128 MB RAM costs me 650 rupees. It is also a used piece. I felt disgusted with all this. So, asked them how much my computer brings if I sell it. They said it may bring about 6000 rupees. I bought it for 12000 rupees three months ago. They could not get that chip of RAM even by 6:00. Hired an auto rickshaw and went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 7:00. I explained the hell of conditions I am experiencing now to my cousin Kiran. He advised me to endure it. He said that he would help me financially once he joins a job. Saw the Hindi film “Kabhi Alvidha Na Kehna” in cinema Venkata Ramana Megaplex at Kachiguda in the second show. Went to sleep by 1:00.
22 August (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. My cousin Kiran dropped me at my room by 8:00 on his bike. Took a head bath and had my breakfast by 8:30. Spent reading Telugu daily Eenadu for one hour. Scanned The Times of India for ten minutes. Rested on my mattress till 12:00. Then went to Net Fusion Computer Service Centre and enquired them about the availability of chip of 128 MB RAM. They told me to come by 4:00. Came back to my room and listened to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for half an hour. Went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess and had my lunch by 1:30. When coming back, bought a little jaggery for eight rupees. It is of good quality. This is to eat and sweeten my body. I heard that jaggery has good nutritional value. This is how I support my love for jaggery. Rested on my mattress from 1:40 to 3:40. Then went to the computer service centre. They were ready with a chip of 129 MB RAM. A boy came with me and fitted that chip in my CPU by 4:30. I felt happy about revitalizing my computer system. Paid him 600 rupees for this chip. Played with my computer for two hours. Deleted unwanted files from the four drives and created some more space. Rested on mattress for some time. Went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by Shivam Road and had my supper by 8:30. Today Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi is celebrating his birthday. Watched the television there for some time. Today I spent a dim and lazy day. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
23 August (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 6:30. Had my breakfast by 8:15. Stopped my editing work and had a bath by 1:30. Already my body was sensing weakness caused by hunger. My brain turned dim. Rushed to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess and had my lunch by 2:00. Came back to my room and took a siesta for one hour. Started editing my diary by 3:00. My cousin Kiran came by 3:20 on his bike. He told me that he got a job offer from the audit firm Ernst & Young in Hyderabad. He is the only one selected from among 150 candidates. A partner of this audit firm conducted his final interview for one hour. He played with him like anything (stress interview). He gets 35,000 rupees a month doing this job. He got the best job for his qualification and experience. He has bright future ahead. I congratulated him on this occasion. He left for his hostel by 4:00. I resumed my editing work. The owner of my rented room said that my father called up. She is a nasty woman. She avoided calling me aloud when my father was on the line. I cursed her existence on this earth. Only my monthly rent is important for her. I don’t like to buy a cellular phone until my 12 books come out. Stopped my editing work by 8:20. Talked with my brother Srinivas and my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani over telephone by 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.
24 August (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 6:00. Had my breakfast of four idlies at a small hotel near Vidya Nagar MMTS station by 8:30. I felt a little uneasy in my neck around 10:30. I think it is because I am keeping my head focused on my computer screen for a long time. Stopped my editing work and rested on my mattress for 90 minutes. Had a bath by 12:30. There is still some swelling on my nose due to rhinoplasty I underwent about two years ago. Some disorder developed in it when I was bathing today. I had about 30 sneezes continuously. I prayed God to kill me when I am sleeping at night. Walked down Shivam Road and bought a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara at a bookstore. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 17 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe. Came back to my room and spent reading Sitara for one hour. Rested for some time. Started editing my diary for God’s sake. Kiran came by 4:30. Spent talking with him for half an hour. Gave him the papers with the message of retirement and told him to hand it to his father on the 31st of this month. Stopped my editing work by 8:20. Went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess and had my supper by 9:00. Today it rained a little. Night the owner of this house told me to vacate the room at the earliest. She found that their electricity bill increased after my arrival. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
25 August (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could sleep for four hours only. A horrific nightmare played in my dreamland in the latter half of night. It badly influenced my mood today. My brain turned dim and inactive. I decided not to edit my diary in such bad mood. Spent reading The Times of India for 20 minutes. Had my breakfast of four idlies at a nearby eatery by 8:30. Rested on my mattress till 10:00. Took a bath and left for E & L School in DD Colony by 10:30. My cousin Murali is working in its Content Development section. He develops content in mathematics. Spent talking with him for half an hour. Told him that I want to move into their rented abode at Vanasthalipuram as a paying guest in a few days. He felt happy with my decision. Walked a little from there and reached Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel by 12:00. Spent talking with its supervisor Kanumuri Narasimha Raju for 90 minutes. He may be 75 now. Bought a toasted corn cob for five rupees and four bananas for six rupees at two pushcarts by main road and finished my lunch. Came back to my room and rested on my mattress till 4:00. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road and spent there browsing Internet for one hour. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman till 8:00. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 8:20. Night listened to an interesting documentary in the “Current Affairs” edition from Delhi radio station. Went to sleep by 11:00.
26 August (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Last night my darling Swagatha Gupta visited me in my dream. She is learning dance. She is a little chubby now. I felt happy finding her well. Morning I told the owner of my rented room that I would vacate it very soon. She advised me to consume electricity carefully until I vacate it. For me, it means that I should not do my editing work on computer. This morning I did not do it for more than three hours. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel at DD Colony by 11:30. Spent talking with my familiar ones there for one hour. Had a toasted corn cob for five rupees and four bananas for five rupees for my lunch. Spent talking with the supervisor of this hostel for some time. Today I received two letters to this address. One is from the HDFC Bank at Banjara Hills intimating me about the shift of their present branch there to a nearby place. The other is from the office of Employees Provident Fund at Barkatpura in Hyderabad. Rushed to Barkatpura to get a doubt clarified there. I spent 40 rupees on it, for my to and fro journey. I regretted it. Spent waiting for my cousin Murali from 4:00 to 4:40, sitting opposite Sai Supermarket near the KSS Hostel. We went to NGOs Colony in Vanasthalipuram and searched for a rented portion. We found one suitable for me near the bus stand there. I told him to pay the rent advance to them tomorrow. Came back to Dilsukh Nagar by bus by 8:00. Thence took an auto rickshaw and reached Shivam Road by 9:00. Had my supper in a roadside hotel and came to my room by 9:30. Listened to radio for some time. Went to sleep by 11:00.
27 August (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Spent reading The Times of India and Eenadu for one hour. Had my breakfast by 8:30. Took a city bus and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 9:30. Thence took an auto rickshaw up to Journalist Colony in Jubilee Hills. I lost 30 rupees on my journey in this auto rickshaw. I thought a pickpocket attended it. My friend Veeranjaneyulu told me that a thief does not leave a 50-rupee note back in my pocket for courtesy sake. Today it is Vinaayaka Chavithi. I decided to witness the celebration of this Hindu festival among the relatives of Veeru in his rented abode. So, I went there. His mother prepared sweet eatables on this occasion. I knew from my friend that the marriage of my goddess Deepthi is finalized and that it would take place in a few months. This piece of news deeply hurt me. I am bringing out a book to express my admiration for her. Accepting the fact that she would be morally and legally the life partner of another young man soon became difficult for me. I told her many stories treating her as my close childhood friend in many of our previous births. I could not even speak with her satisfactorily in this birth. She remains a goddess of my heart forever. She is an innocent kid. I am her platonic honorary lifelong guardian. Night Veeranjaneyulu, his associates and I saw the Telugu film “Andhaala Raamudu” in cinema Hitech at Madhapur. Went to sleep by 2:00.
28 August (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Took leave of my friend Veeranjaneyulu and came to Journalist Colony Junction by 6:30. Took an auto rickshaw and reached Ameerpet by 7:15. Walked for a few minutes and took a city bus near Cherma’s Cloth Store. Bought a copy of Eenadu by Shivam Road and came to my room by 8:00. Had my breakfast and spent reading this daily for one hour. Rested on my mattress for one hour. Took a bath and went out by 11:00. Reached the regional office of Employees Provident Fund at Barkatpura by a city bus. Walked into its fourth floor and talked with the concerning employee there about the status of processing of my provident fund. He said that it was already sent to the Andhra Bank at Somajiguda in the form of a cheque. Took a city bus and reached NIMS bus stop by 12:30. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani at a hotel in Dwarakapuri Colony. I have sweet bond with this place. Spent in the office of Andhra Bank at Somajiguda from 1:00 to 2:30. There is no discipline in this bank. I felt disgusted with its slow and messy functioning everywhere. I took a new passbook. Also knew that my cheque is not yet received by them. Came back to Shivam Road by 3:00 by bus. Spent talking with my familiar ones at Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel for some time. Borrowed 1000 rupees from my cousin Murali by 4:00. Came to my room and spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for two hours. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 9:00. Night listened to radio for some time. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
29 August (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and spent reading The Times of India for 20 minutes. Had my breakfast by 7:00. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs on my Walkman for 90 minutes. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel at DD Colony by 9:30. Thence hired an auto rickshaw and moved to the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi at Nallakunta. Asked them about allowing me into its hostel from the first of next month. They said that the vacant room in the hostel is currently under renovation. Bought a copy of Eenadu and came back to my room by 10:30 on foot. Spent reading it for two hours. Went to Shivam Road by 1:00 and bought a toasted corn cob (on fire) for five rupees. It was for my lunch today. Rested in my room for a long time. Bought 250 grams of peanuts and roasted them in a pan in the room of my familiar one in this house. Had a glass of fruit salad in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe by 4:30. Spent talking with the owner (he is from Guntur district. We two became friends in course of time because it is my favourite Internet café in this locality and so I often go there out of love for it and him) of Global View Internet café for 30 minutes. Spent reading dailies, weeklies and monthlies in the city library at Nallakunta from 5:00 to 7:30. This reading disturbed me much. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 8:30. Today it was cloudy. Last night my darling Deepthi visited me in my dream. I am grateful to Lord Krishna. Night listened to radio for 90 minutes. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
30 August (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and had my breakfast by 7:00. Spent reading The Times of India for 20 minutes. Went to city library at Nallakunta and spent there reading this and that from 8:00 to 9:30. The librarian did not turn up even by that time. I wanted to have a look at the recent copies of Telugu weekly Swati. I sent a question to Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi recently. I advised him not to join politics. I wanted to check what answer he gave to my question in this regard. Every week the best question would be selected and the senders of those questions would meet Chiranjeevi personally soon. Bought a copy of Eenadu at a bookstore there and came back to my room by 10:00. Spent reading it for two hours. Had a plate of Oothappam for 12 rupees and two bananas for three rupees by Shivam Road. It was my lunch today. Went to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel and spent there talking with my familiar ones from 1:00 to 3:30. Came back to my room by 4:00. Rested on my mattress till 6:00. Spent listening to Telugu cine songs on radio and playing audio cassettes till 8:00. Had my supper in Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess by 8:30. Today I had a plate of chicken curry for 20 rupees. It was not good. Today it was cloudy due to depression over Bay of Bengal. I am feeling sad for wasting my days one after one. My mind refused to continue editing my diaries in this room. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
31 August (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and had my breakfast by 7:00. Spent reading The Times of India for 20 minutes. Washed a pair of clothes by 9:30. Rested on my mattress for two hours. Went to a bookstore by Shivam Road and bought a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara and a copy of Telugu daily Eenadu. Came back to my room and spent reading Sitara from 12:30 to 1:30. Then went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess and had my lunch. Thence proceeded to Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel at DD Colony and spent talking with my familiar ones there till 2:00. Thence went to Global View Internet café and spent there browsing Internet from 2:15 to 5:15. Today I deleted two old photos and uploaded two new photos into my blogs on my blog site of Google. Also read parts of my blogs to check whether they are interesting to me or not. I found them absorbing and felt happy. My present income earned through ads posted on my blog site by Google is $ 2.16. Many netizens don’t know about my blog site. It keeps me so. Came back to my room and read Eenadu for two hours. Went to Sai Lakshmi Deluxe Mess and had my supper by 8:30. Today it was partly cloudy. Last night I had a nightmare. So, got up in the midnight and could not sleep for one hour. Thereafter a good dream followed. Went to sleep by 11:00.
1 September (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Had my breakfast by 7:00. Spent reading The Times of India for 20 minutes. Rested on my mattress till 11:30. Took a bath by 12:00. The sun was bright in the sky. Went to a bookstore down Shivam Road and bought a copy of Eenadu. Bought a pair of black socks at the BATA showroom a little down from there. Then walked back and withdrew 1000 rupees from the ATM Centre of Andhra Bank. My provident fund of 6936 rupees, from the ICFAI University Press, was credited to my account. Had my lunch satisfactorily in Devi Mess by 1:00. They provide enough curd to customers in this hotel. Thence walked to E&L School in DD Colony and repaid 1000 rupees to my cousin Murali. Seriously talked with the supervisor of the KSS Hostel for half an hour. He said that I cannot be admitted into this hostel now. I cursed the race of Kshatriyas internally. Came back to my room and spent reading Eenadu for two hours. By 4:00 called up three of my friends and asked them if they can help me in finding a room for me. My preference is for paying guest accommodation. My friend Bhayya of HCU said that it may be available in Kukatpally area. By 5:15 an agent of Blue Dart gave me my renewed HDFC credit card. Searched for PG accommodation in Shankar Math area for one hour. Night had two soft drinks and avoided my supper. Listened to radio for two hours. Went to sleep by 11:00.
2 September (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Had my breakfast by 7:00. Spent reading The Times of India for 20 minutes. Took a bath and moved to Shivam Road. The city buses were very heavy. Walked down this road and reached 6 Number Road. Thence took a Kukatpally bound bus. Met Vishnu Prakash Raju of Kshatriya Marriage Information Centre, in his office, by Road No. 5, in KPHB Colony. I asked him if paying guest accommodation would be available in that area. I found that he has no information about it. I took my two color photos back from him. I gave them to him about two years ago. I told him that I am not interested in marrying Kshatriya girls. I saw the photos of some Kshatriya brides there. I found one girl beautiful. They have property worth one crore rupees. He said that they are trying to get her married to any rich fellow working in the USA. Bought a copy of Eenadu and a copy of English weekly The Week and came back to Shivam Road by 12:30. Had my lunch for 23 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe and came back to my room. Spent reading this daily and this weekly for three hours. Went to Global View Internet café and spent there browsing Internet from 5:00 to 7:00. Today I sent two emails to two Russian brides. I got their freely available email addresses on bride.ru portal. I asked them if they like to be my friends. Their names are Natalia and Anna. Both are teenagers. Night had snacks and curd for my supper. Listened to radio for two hours. Went to sleep by 11:00.
3 September (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Took a city bus and reached Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 10:00. Kiran had just arrived from Jaggampeta. His father bought a new cellular phone for him. He sent me a note appreciating my recent letter to him on the occasion of his retirement from the position of government schoolteacher. Kiran and I discussed my situation of helplessness to edit my diaries. We finalized the option of moving to the rented abode of my brother Srinivas in Visakhapatnam. He dropped me at my room by 12:00. Had some biscuits and curd for my lunch. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Then started packing my things. It was over by 2:30. Took a rest for two hours. My cousin Murali came by 5:15. He and I put two mattresses, two pillows, one chair, one water container, one ceiling fan and a few other items in an auto rickshaw and left for Vanasthalipuram by 6:00. We reached Self Finance Colony by 7:00. I paid 100 rupees to the driver of this vehicle. They are keeping my luggage in their rented abode as I am going out of the city. I sold my old newspapers at a stall for 28 rupees. Bought a reservation ticket for me to Hyderabad-Visakhapatnam APSRTC Hitech bus for 382 rupees for tomorrow evening. Had my supper in their abode by 8:30 along with Murali. Spent talking with them till 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:00.
4 September (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Took leave of my cousins Murali and Bala. Reached Dilsukh Nagar by 6:30 by a city bus. Thence took an auto rickshaw and came to Shivam Road. Withdrew 2000 rupees from the ATM Centre of Andhra Bank by 7:30. Came back to my room and packed the cardboard boxes, carrying my luggage, with a Sellotape. Moved this luggage to the branch office of Navata Road Transport at Vidya Nagar in a rickshaw. Sold my computer table for 500 rupees to the agent of this office. Got my computer, CPU, UPS, black trolley bag and a cardboard box of things booked to Murali Nagar in Visakhapatnam. It all cost me 208 rupees. Took a city bus and reached Punjagutta by 11:30. Went to Plot No. 71 at Nagarjuna Hills and met my friend Sriram. He gave me a CD containing the soft copies of PageMaker files meant for my editing purpose. Spent in the Global View Internet café by Shivam Road from 1:00 to 2:30. Posted a blog on my blog site providing the details of my stay in Visakhapatnam. It is for the visitors of my blog site. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station by 3:10. My short association with the small room in House No. TRT-201 at Vidya Nagar came to an end by today. Bought a bottle of Fanta soft drink for 28 rupees for my use during bus journey. The Visakhapatnam bound Hitech bus started off by 4:05. They stopped it at a hotel by main road in Nandigama by 9:30. The food items in this hotel were not good. I avoided having my supper for this reason. We reached the bus complex in Vijayawada by 11:00. I had a glass of orange juice there.
5 September (Tuesday)
The bus in which we were travelling broke down at Kovvuru near the bridge on River Godavari. They told us to move into another Hitech bus of the APSRTC. It was stopped a few steps ahead of ours. It was also coming from Hyderabad and going to Visakhapatnam. Very few seats were vacant in it. I stood in it up to Rajahmundry. There I took a window seat and felt happy. I kept the window a bit open for allowing cool and fresh air in. A fellow sitting behind me disliked my act. He complained that he was being affected by cold. I remained silent when he closed that window. I took a nap for some time. Our bus reached Annavaram by 4:00. Day broke by the time it reached Elamanchili. Got off it with a suitcase and a small bag at the office of Geological Survey of India by 7:10 in Visakhapatnam. Thence hired an auto rickshaw and reached House No. MIG 247 in Madhava Dhara by 7:20. My brother Srinivas had already left for Dwaraka Nagar for his job at the UCO Bank there. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani was getting her sons Sujan and Suhas ready for their school. I have been wearing the same set of clothes since last Sunday. I wore a pair only for a week during my stay at TRT-201. The old woman, who owns that old house, is an eccentric and miser. I got rid of her. Spent all the day at home. Sleeplessness and the related dimness affected me throughout the day. Went to sleep by 9:30.
6 September (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Hired an auto rickshaw and proceeded to TSR Complex at Dwaraka Nagar by 10:30. There I bought a television stand for 400 rupees and a chair for 250 rupees. I faced problems in carrying the computer table which I bought in Hyderabad. The transport agent collects tariff for it based on the space it occupies in a lorry. I bought it for 1000 rupees there. I spent 600 rupees so far for its transport from place to place. I sold it for 500 rupees recently to avoid further expenses for its transport. Today I could not buy another computer table because it costs me 1800 rupees. It cannot be put in an auto rickshaw even for local transport. The idea of transport of a computer and a computer table thus remained a challenge to me. Returned home by 1:00. Paid 150 rupees to the driver of auto rickshaw. Had my lunch by 1:30. Took a siesta for one hour. Went to a nearby Internet café and spent there for 150 minutes browsing Internet. Attached two photos to two of my blogs on my blog site. One is of a solitary man and the other is of a lonely bird. There were no emails to me. I am not a useful or interesting person to anybody now. By 5:30 called up the agent at the branch office of Navata Road Transport at Murali Nagar and enquired him about the arrival of my luggage booked at Vidya Nagar in Hyderabad a few days ago. He answered in the negative. I cursed these blokes for this delay. Had my supper by 8:30. Watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
7 September (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:00. Morning watched television for some time. Called up the agent at the branch office of Navata Road Transport at Murali Nagar by 10:30. He told me to ring up by 5:00. Spent resting and watching television till 4:30. When called up the fellow of Navata Road Transport, he said that my luggage did not arrive yet. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to this office by 5:30. This agent said that my parcel items reached the transshipment point at Srinagar in Gajuwaka. He added that I can collect them from that point if it is urgent. I wanted to collect them taking this extra step to avoid further delay. Hired an auto rickshaw by 5:40 and started to this transshipment point. It is located in industrial area at Srinagar in Gajuwaka. My hired auto rickshaw driver does not know this area. The road is dirty and dusty. There was no front light to his vehicle. It must be 10 years old. One can know about its age at a glance. It cannot run fast. We reached there by 7:00. They said all my parcel items did not arrive yet. Two of them arrive tomorrow morning in another lorry. I felt disgusted at it. I spent three hours and 180 rupees on it. Bought a kilo Lion dates and 250 grams of sweets. I like spending some money on good things when much was wasted on bad things. Returned home by 8:30. Went to sleep by 9:30.
8 September (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Went to a nearby shop and called up the fellow at the transshipment point of Navata Road Transport at Srinagar in Gajuwaka. He said that only three of the five parcel items I booked in Hyderabad had arrived. The remaining two items have to arrive in another lorry. Then called up their representative at their head office in Vijayawada. She told me to call her after one hour. I felt disgusted with her answer. Returned home and spent two hours in a bad mood. By 10:30 went to the nearby Internet café. Typed out a three-page complaint letter addressing the folks at its head office in Vijayawada. I spent 45 rupees on it. Had my lunch by 1:00. Hired an auto rickshaw and went to the post office at Marripalem by 1:30. Booked this envelope in Speed Post paying them 25 rupees. Paid 50 rupees to the driver of auto rickshaw. Returned home by 2:30 and rested on cot for two hours. Evening and night watched television for some time. Today I entered the 31st year of my life. I did not like to celebrate it. I am devotedly engaged in the editing work of my 12 books now. I wasted a lot of time so far this way. I am ashamed of myself to think about it. I am one of the nasty blokes of India. Indians are experts in wasting time. I inherited this culture from this nation. Publishing my writings is my highly important goal now. I must be considered a clown if I fail to finish this task at the earliest. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
9 September (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the time at home watching television. My sister-in-law Sowjanya came here by 2:00 from Elamanchili in a car of their familiar one. She brought her daughter Sravya along with her. She came here to spend for this weekend. Her husband Ramesh is busy in his coconut transport business. So, he could not come. By 5:00 went to a nearby telephone booth and called up the agent at the branch office of Navata Road Transport in Murali Nagar. She said that two of my parcel items did not arrive yet. They do not deliver a few items when others are yet to arrive. I understood that this unwanted scene is going to be extended further. I have to patiently wait and see. By 5:30 went to the nearby children’s park along with my nephew Sujan and Sravya. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani beat her son Suhas this evening when he got into mischief. He turned angry at it and went away. We went to this park searching for him. We saw him playing with a boy there. There were no kids in this park when we went there. They came in as time was moving towards dusk. I felt revitalized after spending there for a few minutes. I am not supposed to play like small children but I can feel their lively spirit and joy spending among them for some time. Greenery of surroundings heals one’s eyes. The liveliness of children cures the disorders of solitude of youth. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
10 September (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went to a nearby shop and bought a copy of Eenadu and a packet of milk. Spent reading this newspaper for two hours. Watched television for some time. Our relatives came by 11:30. The atmosphere at home remained lively for about six hours due to their presence here. My sister-in-law prepared chicken curry for all of us. Children spent playing happily outside, not minding the heat of angry sun. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju called up by 4:30 from village Peda Theenaarla. He asked me when I would come there. I told him that I would come there when the editing work of my books would be over at the rented abode of my brother Srinivas. He asked me if I need money. Recently he sold an acre of rice farm to fund the education of his son Narendra Varma. I felt happy at his affection for me. Today Sowjanya showed me the photos of Meera Jasmin, Lahari and mine, taking them out from my photo album. She jokingly asked me which one of them suits as life partner beside me. I told them that none of them accepts me now in their present positions. All my folks know about my accounts of serious admiration for girls. In fact, Sowjanya was one of the girls I wanted to marry. This morning called up the folks at the branch office of Navata Road Transport in Murali Nagar. She told me to call up tomorrow because it is holiday today for them. Night my brother and sister-in-law went to the main city to do a little shopping. I have nothing to do there and so stayed back at home. Night watched television for four hours. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
11 September (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went out, bought and brought a copy of Eenadu and a packet of milk. My brother Srinivas and I left for the main city by 9:30 on his bike. We reached the main branch of UCO Bank at Dwaraka Nagar by 9:50. I went to a nearby ATM Centre of Andhra Bank to withdraw money. The security guard there said that it is out of order. Thence walked to the nearby ATM Centre of Bank of Baroda. Withdrew 1500 rupees from it. Went to UCO Bank by 10:15. My brother Srinivas filled in an application form meant for opening a savings account in it. He introduced me to this bank as its staff member. I showed my passport and PAN card as proofs of my identity. The accountant there told my brother to bring our ration card. I wondered at his typical professional meantality. I gave 1000 rupees to my brother to open this account. Took leave of him and returned home by 1:00. Sowjanya, her husband Ramesh and their child Sravya left for Elamanchili by 1:15. Had my lunch by 2:00. Had a nap till 3:30. Called up the folks at the branch office of Navata Road Transport in Murali Nagar by 5:00. They said that my luggage was already sent to our abode here. It arrived by 5:30. I undid those parcels and put them inside. Fixed my computer system. Today the marriage of Surya and Jyothika took place in Chennai. They basically belong to Tamil film industry. They look ‘made for each other’ in beauty and goodness. May God bless them. Went to sleep by 10:30.
12 September (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Started editing my diary of 2002 by 6:15. I found that the angle of contact between my eyes and the computer screen is not right. It affects my neck. I did not find it comfortable to type using the keyboard. The small table meant for keeping television is not suitable for keeping a computer on it. Shut down my computer by 9:00. Went to Dwaraka Nagar by 10:00 along with my brother Srinivas on his scooter. Walked to the ATM Centre of Andhra Bank there and withdrew 1000 rupees. There was a balance of 1500 rupees in my account after this withdrawal. Walked to the nearby TSR Complex and bought a computer table for 1300 rupees. I found it very good at that price. Hired an auto rickshaw and got this table tied on its top. I found this auto rickshaw driver very interesting. He kept on telling me how happily he is living now with his family. He bought a computer for 38,000 rupees for his daughter. She is at high school now. He has a big colour television brought from Japan. He said that he earns one lakh rupees a year. He deposited enough money in banks minding secure future of his two children. He said that he could achieve all this only through this auto rickshaw. I gave him 80 rupees though he asked me 50 rupees only. He is the happy and successful man I saw in the recent times. I took his phone number. His name is Nani. Today I edited my diary for eight hours. Went to sleep by 10:15 for my dreams.
13 September (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 6:30. Last night I got up in the middle of the night being influenced by a dream. I could not sleep for one hour. It affected me today. I found my face weak and my eyes dim. I rested on the floor for half an hour this morning before starting my editing work. This morning my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani went to the main city along with her familiar tenant in this house. She is new to this area. So, she asked her to accompany her. They returned home by 3:30. Had my lunch by 1:00 and took a nap for 20 minutes. My brain turned dim by 6:00. I stopped my editing work by 7:15. My eyes went deep due to my long work on computer. Had a bath by 8:00. Today my nephew Suhas lost ten books when coming back from the school in the auto rickshaw along with his brother Sujan. Suhas seems to be a little careless of his studies. His attitude in this regard often disturbs his parents. Both of them went back to their school on foot searching for those books. They returned after one hour with empty hands. They went out to attend their tuition classes by 5:00. Had my supper by 8:30. The movement for the formation of a separate Telangana state is very active now. It tarnishes the image of India as a nation of unity in diversity. Ignorant people are being encouraged towards the achievement of this goal by the leaders concerned. I am disturbed about these developments in Andhra Pradesh. Went to sleep by 10:00.
14 September (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Today I edited my diary of 2002 for ten hours. Now I have good atmosphere for carrying out my editing work. Madhava Dhara is a pleasant and silent area in Visakhapatnam. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani provides me with breakfast, lunch and supper in time. I drink a glass of sugar water in the evening to balance the temperature in my body. There are three standard English dictionaries with me now but I mostly use the online dictionary of Pearson. It is the fourth edition of Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English. It greatly helps me in my editing work. My nephews Sujan and Suhas go to their school by 9:00 in auto rickshaw along with other students of their school from this area and return home by 4:00. They don’t disturb me much. My brother Srinivas leaves for his job around 9:30 in the morning on his bike. He returns home around 9:30. He is on probation now. I observed that I am mostly encountering nightmares in this place. They awake me in the middle of the night. I fail to sleep for long because various thoughts flow in my brain after experiencing those scary nightmares. If I cannot sleep well for eight hours continuously a night, it affects me the following day. My nose got affected after rhinoplasty. I am getting sneezes every now and then. Cold is attacking me frequently. I have to go out time to time to blow it. It disturbs my flow of work significantly. Night power cut occurred for 40 minutes. Had my supper by 9:30. Today I avoided taking a bath. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
15 September (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Last night I could sleep well. The intensity of nightmares was not much scary. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 7:00. It started raining by 8:30. It turned cloudy. I felt very happy at this change. Had my lunch by 1:00 and took a siesta till 2:30. My brain is turning dim by lunchtime every day. Today I rested a little longer. I felt very relieved. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani prepared a sweet by 4:30. Ate a guava also by 5:00. Stopped my editing work by 8:15. Today I edited for about nine hours but much work was not done. This realization disturbs me a little. Sujan did not go to his tuition class this evening. He is suffering from boils. His mother took him to a doctor by 6:30 in an auto rickshaw. She prescribed some tablets and an ointment for him. His food habits are under the control of his mother. Yet he often gets affected by some disorders. Had my supper by 8:30. Watched television for a few minutes. This evening mosquitoes bit me in the room though the ceiling fan was on there. I think they conquered that air. They hide behind clothes, boxes and curtains and get into action when they are moody. They must have found today’s drizzle soothing and inspiring. Our suffering is associated with their speed and mood. Went to sleep by 10:00.
16 September (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Last night my goddess Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. I found her sad. She wore a simple dress. She was disturbed about something. She neither greeted me nor looked at me. I thought that she was very sad for being away from me. I tried hard to reach my message of love to her. Nobody helped me in this direction. Every friend I had was unreliable. They were all hypocrites. I intensely suffered being unable to talk with her on my own. I was deeply hurt to leave her in that state of depression. I should say that it was a sweet dream because I could see my sweetheart in it after a long time. I am grateful to my Lord Krishna for bringing her into my dream. Today I edited my diary of 2002 for ten hours. I could not edit much. Today it rained for long due to depression over the Bay of Bengal. The cool weather kept me inspired to work enthusiastically. Sujan and Suhas returned from their school by 1:30. My brother Srinivas came back from his office by 2:30. He said that he has to attend a meeting of their bank union tomorrow in Rajahmundry. He stays in Jaggampeta this night along with his friends there. He started here by 3:30. Today my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani bought a dozen oranges from a hawker. She could buy them for 25 rupees. That woman first asked for 40 rupees. Then she came down to 30 rupees after my bargaining. She said that they buy 100 oranges for 108 rupees in the market. Went to sleep by 9:00.
17 September (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Last night I got up in the middle of the night and failed to sleep for half an hour. I hate this habit. It started torturing me recently. Today I hated the speed of work I could maintain in editing my diary of 2002. I could finish the language editing of ten pages only working for ten hours. Today also it was cool and rainy. I found it encouraging. I remained without any contact with my parents in Peda Gummuluru though they are living a few miles away only from here. My father got the telephone removed from our house about two years ago. My brother Sambha is planning to buy a cellular phone soon. It reduces the distance between me and my parents to some extent. My mother is suffering from the feelings of insecurity due to her uncomfortable relationship with her younger daughter-in-law Kranti. She has to daily take tablets to keep her high blood pressure under control. My father lost his source of regular income after his retirement from the sugar factory. They are disturbed about my remaining unmarried till now against my increasing age. I am worried about these things. My brother Srinivas returned from Rajahmundry by 9:00 this night. Their bank union folks gave him a bag. Creating issues for staging agitations and presenting demands before their managements is their primary activity. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
18 September (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Last night I had a dream of diversity. I spent talking with a saint for some time. He wondered at my knowledge in spiritualism. I dined with him. I was hurt for eating his food because he was a poor man living in a dilapidated house. Then, there was a beautiful girl in deep admiration for me but unable to reach me. Then, I saw one of my maternal grandfathers, who died a few months ago. Then, my cousin Kiran was trying to pull sugarcanes from a bullock cart travelling on a road in a village. Then, I spent in an agricultural farm with one of my relatives for some time. Then, I went to a retail store and bought something to eat. Today I edited my diary of 2002 for ten hours. Today I could edit 12 pages only. My mind is getting tired soon. So, the speed of my editing work is getting affected. This evening my sister-in-law gave me a glass of orange juice. She added adequate sugar to it. It revitalized my mind wonderfully. I clearly sensed that positive effect in my body. Thereafter I could work actively for three hours. Today also it rained considerably due to depression over Bay of Bengal. This evening my brother Srinivas brought snacks from the city. I found them very tasty and beautiful. Today Sujan and Suhas did the first test of their quarterly exams. Had my supper by 9:00. Watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
19 September (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Last night also a dream disturbed me considerably. Today I edited my diary of 2002 for eight hours. I could not edit more than ten pages. This morning I wasted two hours without editing my diary. I wanted to know what a long knife would be called in English. It is not a sword but it looks like that. I remember looking at the pictures of different kinds of knives used for various purposes in an English dictionary some time ago. There were about 15 items in that page. I have three big standard English dictionaries. I scanned them page by page. I checked about 4000 pages but I could not find the page of pictures I have in my mind. I felt very disturbed about this experience today. I used a common noun in that place and moved away from that page. Language editing is a very boring work. It becomes very difficult to find out the exact word for the feeling we have in our heart or the situation we want to describe or the object we know about or saw somewhere in the past. The more we want to keep our words suitable and accurate, the less the speed of our editing work and the satisfaction we derive from the quality of language we used before. One must have a lot of command of language to satisfy the critical eyes of intelligent and educated readers through his writings. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
20 September (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Morning I felt giddy when started editing my editing work. Stopped that work and rested on the cool marble floor for one hour. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani gave me a B Complex tablet. My parents came by 9:15 in an auto rickshaw. They came by bus from Adduroad to see the family of my brother Srinivas and me. They brought two sacks of rice, a can of homemade sweets, a bottle of buttermilk, ten kilos of groundnuts and a few oranges. I decided to avoid my editing work today. My sister-in-law and my mother prepared sweets with coconut and jaggery. Most of the day I spent talking with my mother. She said that her daughter-in-law Kranti is not on talking terms with her. My brother Sambha is busy in the construction work of his house opposite our house. He already spent about three lakh rupees on this work. He still needs one lakh rupees to finish this construction work. It takes about two months’ time. He ran out of money. He is planning to sell his rice farm in Gollalagunta to meet this urgent need of money now. The house site, bought by my father for me, is beside his. I told my father that I would buy a house in Hyderabad, Kolkata, Bangalore or New Delhi. I told him to sell it and help my two brothers, who are in financial problems now. He does not listen to me. He cannot believe that I can live without depending on his property. They are earning for us sacrificing their health and minimum comforts. I don’t like to enjoy my life with the money earned by others. Evening my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani prepared Lemon Rice for our supper. It was extraordinary in taste. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
21 September (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself and started editing my diary of 2002 by 7:00. Afternoon rested for one hour after my lunch and then started my editing work. My brain turned dim by 6:30 and so stopped this work. I read in some book that even human brain gets affected by the nature of foods and drinks one consumes regularly. I am being provided with very tasty and healthy food now. There is no problem to me in this regard. The fact is that one cannot work effectively after continuous work for some hours. Now I am editing the events, which happened in my life, on a daily basis. As a writer I wrote everything casually without minding much about the quality of language I am using in my personal diaries. Now I am working on it as a language editor. I should think that very educated and intelligent critics are going to read my diaries, to find this work highly valuable now. It compels me to examine the meaning of every sentence I am editing. As a writer, what I am writing looks important, and, as a language editor, how I am writing it looks important. Retaining the truth of the past is my primary concern. At the same time, it must be interesting to read. I don’t like to read about me unless the text is absorbing. These factors are making me slow in my editing work and straining my brain a lot. I could not edit it till 8:00 for this reason. I felt disappointed about it. Went to sleep by 9:30.
22 September (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited my diary of 2002 for about eight hours but the amount of work done was very little. I felt very disappointed about it. I am eating well here. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani is an expert in cooking. She is serving me delicious food items in time every day. I am not moving out of my chair, being involved in my editing work on computer. It is leading to growth of much fat in my body and stress on my mind. Editing my diaries is mostly related to creativity and partly to rules of grammar. Trying to finish this editing work fast is making it a mechanical process. Consequently the effect I am desiring to add to it is not being established in it. Sitting before a computer, working on it for hours together continuously, affects one’s eyes. I have to carry out my editing work with a balanced mind. These days the currents of thoughts in me are keeping me sleepless for hours at night. So, it is becoming difficult for me to start a fresh day. Getting away from this heavy burden of work is the only way out in these circumstances. This evening I depended on the toss of a rupee coin to decide either way in this regard. Going back to Hyderabad and joining some job and staying back in Visakhapatnam until all the editing work of my 12 books is over are the two options put before it. It advised me to go to Hyderabad. I felt happy with its judgment. Went to sleep by 11:30.
23 September (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:30. Last night I could not sleep for more than two hours. Various kinds of thoughts ran across my mind. I failed to control them despite my best efforts. Thereafter my darling Swagata Gupta appeared me in the dream. She appeared in a bad setting. It hurt me much. Today I edited my diary of 2002 for eight hours only. I felt happy with it. I assured my mind that it need not edit my remaining two diaries at a stretch. I decided to do it at a slow pace. It would be possible only when I join a job. These words gave much encouragement to my mind. It worked vigorously. This is how human beings struggle within themselves frequently. I think man would have achieved a lot if hunger and sleep did not bother him every day. Creativity gets affected by basic threats of human existence like sickness and sorrow. One must take care of one’s health and relationships to remain oneself strong in one’s creativity. The more one is able to control one’s mind, the more the beauty and depth of one’s creative thoughts and pursuits. I lost this controlling power on my mind about five years ago. Being unable to sleep early at night is a health disorder. It affects one’s creativity. I am providing my body with comfort now. I decided to subject it to strain soon. It makes me sleep well. I want it. Went to sleep by 10:30.
24 September (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Last night my darling Swagata Gupta appeared me in my dream. It suggested that she is not active in whatever she is doing now. She is still admiring me. I was hurt seeing her in such bad mood. She is an innocent girl. May God bless her. Today I edited my diary of 2002 for five hours. My mother and father left for Peda Gummuluru by 2:00. My mother asked me to take 500 rupees from her for my expenses because I am jobless now. I gently refused to take it. This is the time for me to keep my parents happy giving them money now and then. I may not be able to help them now but I should not still take money from them for my expenses. They are ignorant. They don’t know how to keep themselves happy at their level. They don’t like to spend their money for their minimum comforts also. My father asked me to present him a two-wheeler buying it with my money. I assured him that I would present him a car when I reach that financial position. Today we planned to see the Telugu film “Bommarillu” of actor Siddharth. My brother Srinivas dropped my nephews Sujan and Suhas and me at cinema Sowjanya in Gopalapatnam by 5:00 on his bike. I found that tickets were already sold at this cinema. Thence I came to cinema Mourya Deluxe and bought five balcony tickets for 100 rupees. My brother and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani did not like to see the Telugu film “Shiva 2006”. We three saw it and returned home by 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.
25 September (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Today I edited my diary of 2002 for ten hours. The pre-final level editing of this diary came to an end by today. It is a great achievement for me. Recently my parents and my brother Srinivas became disappointed with me due to my decision to remain unmarried till 2008. They told me about a girl in our familiar village. They are willing to offer me a dowry of five lakh rupees. This girl is 20 years old. She is not educated in cities. She is not much beautiful. I told them not to search for a bride for me. I don’t need a wife to cook for me and take care of my home. I need a girl to inspire me with her beauty and voice and one that can enjoy reading my writings and challenge my thoughts. I don’t like to attribute my success to her arrival into my life. I will try to win her heart with my love and dedication for her. I am interested in admiring her like a goddess. I am physically and mentally very healthy. So, I need not worry about my age now. I have the goal of bringing out my 12 books. I have to sacrifice some pleasures of my life in this struggle for excellence. My brother Srinivas told them not to think about my marriage now because I am not ready for it now. My father told me that I should not marry any girl without telling them. I told him that modern girls are not that foolish. They enjoy love with boys but allow their parents to find bridegrooms for them. Went to sleep by 10:00.
26 September (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Had my haircut by 8:30 in a nearby hair salon. Spent in a nearby Internet café from 10:00 to 11:00. Cleared my Yahoo Mail box and uploaded the word file of my edited diary of 2002 into my Yahoo Briefcase. Packed my computer, CPU and UPS and moved to Dwaraka Nagar in an auto rickshaw by 12:00. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani prepared a glass of orange juice for me and put a little luggage in a bag for me. We reached the shop of Wintel Computers opposite Gupta’s Bookstore by 1:00. I bought this computer in this shop on 24th April this year. I found it difficult to take it back to Hyderabad and so decided to sell it here itself. The manager of this shop said that it does not bring me more than 8000 rupees in the present market. I lost 4000 rupees in five months’ time but I did significant amount of diary editing work on this computer. I felt sad to put it in this shop to be bought by somebody. He told me to come after two days to collect the money. Took a bus and reached Adduroad by 4:30. The bus fare is 45 rupees. I found a guy talking for about one hour continuously over his cellular phone with somebody. He must be talking with his girlfriend. I felt jealous of him. Met my uncle Srinu, my friend Viswanadha Sharma and updated myself on the things of their lives now. Night spent talking with my cousin Anantha Lakshmi, my uncle Narasimha Murthy and my uncle Rama Raju. My parents felt very happy at my homecoming. Our house looked cool and welcome to me. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
27 September (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. I could sleep well last night on a folding cot in the open. I could enjoy such sound sleep after many days. Today I had a look at the house of my brother Sambha. About 70% of its construction work is over. He is spending about four lakh rupees on it. Today the construction work of sun shades took place from 9:30 to 12:30. Eighteen workers participated in this work. They had tea for four times during this period of time. My brother Sambha supervised this work carefully standing in the sun. He gave 300 rupees to these workers for their lunch today. They buy parcels of food from some hotel in Adduroad and share it among themselves. Thaathabbaayi is the head of this team of masons. He is a well-wisher of our family. He said that only my house is pending to be constructed. I told him to be ready to build a beautiful guesthouse for me soon. He felt happy with this casual assurance from me. Had my lunch by 1:30. My father brought chicken for me from Adduroad. Today he went to our mango garden at hills to supervise the ploughing work by a tractor. Afternoon rested for one hour on bed. By 3:00 went to the house of my aunt Subhadra along with my cousin Anantha Lakshmi, her daughter Kavita and my sister-in-law Kranti. We spent there talking with her for one hour. Evening talked with my friends in Adduroad for two hours. Had my supper by 8:00. Went to sleep by 9:30.
28 September (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Morning spent at home. My aunt Raja Kumari came from Peda Theenaarla by 10:00. She brought washed sesame and jaggery for me. They prepared Chimmili for me by 11:30. My cousin Anantha Lakshmi and my aunt Raja Kumari left for Kota Uratla by 12:30 in an auto rickshaw. They went there to see our familiar saint, who meditated nakedly for some years in a forest near village Raapaka once. Spent talking with my friend Dantuluri Shiva Varma for one hour standing by road. Had my lunch by 1:30. Rested on bed for one hour. My brother Sambha and I started to our mango garden at hills by 2:00 on two bicycles. We spent for one hour talking with our familiar Kshatriya fellow in his agricultural farm on the way near the old well. They were digging pits to plant four coconut seedlings there. We kept our bicycles near the old well and walked to our mango and cashew garden. The trees are green. This land was ploughed well recently. So, it is looking beautiful. We spent at the thatched hut of my uncle Narayana Murthy for one hour. My aunt Kumari offered tasty tea to us. We started back from there by 4:30. I spent talking with my grandfather Thammi Raju and my grandmother Lakshmi Narasayyamma for two hours in their rented portion by the side of road in Ramayyapatnam. They told me about their plight due to the careless behavior of their children towards them. I felt disturbed listening to them. We returned home by 6:30. My brother Sambha told me that he would solve the problem of our grandparents soon. Went to sleep by 9:30.
29 September (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Spent at home till 11:00. Had my lunch and left for Adduroad by 11:15 along with my brother Sambha. Both of us took a bus by 11:30. We reached Visakhapatnam by 1:30. We met our brother Srinivas at the UCO Bank in Dwaraka Nagar by 2:00. We put our luggage in this bank and walked to the nearby shop of Wintel Computers. Its manager was not there. We moved to cinemas Sangam and Sarat. He decided to see the Telugu film “Pokiri” of Mahesh Babu in the matinee show. The manager of Wintel Computers told me that my computer and UPS are not yet bought by anybody. I felt disgusted with this whole affair and so decided to take them back to Hyderabad. Booked four items of my luggage at the branch office of Navata Road Transport in Murali Nagar by 4:30. I paid 192 rupees for the transport of this luggage to Vidya Nagar in Hyderabad. Withdrew 1100 rupees from the ATM Centre of State Bank of India using my ATM card of Andhra Bank. Met my uncle Krishnam Raju (Vaamana) at the E-Seva centre in Madhava Dhara by 5:30. We came to my brother’s abode and spent there for 20 minutes. Then we went to their apartment opposite the office of Provident Fund in Marripalem. I met my aunt Ratna Kumari after about 20 years. They told me about Gold Quest International. Had my supper by 8:30. Went to sleep by 9:30.
30 September (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Spent talking with my brothers for some time. I advised them to pay 32000 rupees and become members of Gold Quest International. I found that they are not interested in it. Both of them are planning to sell their pieces of land to clear their heavy debts. It is a reliable and comfortable way for earning money. My brother Srinivas left for his office by 10:00 on his bike. We spent reading Eenadu and watching television for some time. We watched the video CD of the marriage of our brother-in-law Ramesh and sister-in-law Sowjanya for some time. We had our lunch by 12:50. We took leave of our sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and started to the main road by 1:15. My brother Sambha, our nephew Suhas and I took 48 A city bus by 1:40. We reached Dwaraka Bus Station by 2:15. I bought a reservation ticket for 382 rupees to Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station in Hyderabad. They waited there until my bus arrived. Its scheduled departure time is 3:00 p.m. It left this bus station by 3:40. There were not more than four or five females in this bus. It disappointed me. Mine was Window Seat No. 15. There were two girls sitting behind me. They are not much beautiful but I enjoyed their presence. I felt like resting in their laps. They showed the Telugu feature films “Anji” of Chiranjeevi and “Idiot” of Ravi Teja on the television in this bus. I enjoyed watching them a lot. They told us to have supper in the bus station at Rajahmundry. I bought two bottles of soft drinks for me there. We reached Vijayawada by 11:30.
1 October (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Got off the bus at Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station by 8:30. Called up my cousin Kiran and informed him about my arrival to the city. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda. Spent talking with my cousin Kiran for 20 minutes. He dropped me at Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel in DD Colony by 9:30 on his bike. The supervisor of this hostel went to Madhura Nagar for attending the annual general meeting of the KSS. I put my suitcase and bag in a guest room there. Freshened up myself by 10:30. Spent talking with my friend Alluri Murali Krishnam Raju in his hostel room for two hours. He recently came here from Bangalore. He is searching for jobs there. Rested on a cot for one hour. Had my lunch by 1:30 along with my hostel mates. They brought a full meal parcel from Shirdi Sai Baba Hotel by Shivam Road. Three of us shared it among ourselves. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 3:15. Posted a blog on my blog site giving the details of my return to Hyderabad and the progress of my diary editing work. Checked my emails and deleted unwanted ones. Posted my CV on naukri.com job portal. I spent there browsing Internet from 3:20 to 7:20. I paid 40 rupees for it. Night had a plate of egg noodles at a fast food pushcart by road for 15 rupees. Today I was sleepy and dim. It was partly cloudy today. Went to sleep by 11:00.
2 October (Monday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself and went to Shivam Road by 9:30 along with my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju. He is going to Singapore tomorrow night from Hyderabad and so doing a little shopping today. He is cleverer than me in such things. So, I avoided going along with him though he asked me to accompany him. Reached Yousufguda Check Post by 11:00 by 113 Y city bus. Thence took an auto rickshaw and reached the rented portion of Veeru at Journalist Colony ‘A’ in Jubilee Hills. His abode is full of his relatives. All of them came here to celebrate Dasara along with Veeru. Had my lunch along with Veeru by 2:30. He said that he suffered from throat infection for about 10 days recently. He could not work well during these days. Now he has a debt of about two lakh rupees. He is trying to clear it at the earliest. Took leave of him by 3:30 and reached KSS Hostel by 5:00. Rested on my cot in the guest room for some time. Went to Global View Internet café by 6:00. Spent there browsing Internet till 7:30. Scanned the beauty of about 600 Russian brides, applied for ten jobs through naukri.com job portal, posted my updated CV on timesjobs.com job portal and scanned a few blogs posted on my blog site. My income so far through AdSense is $ 2.35. Had a plate of vegetable noodles and two glasses of fruit salad for my supper in a nearby bakery by road. Went to sleep by 11:30.
3 October (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Morning washed a pair of clothes. Had my breakfast at a pushcart by the gate of Osmania University by 8:30. Also had two bananas for four rupees. Spent reading Telugu film weekly Sitara for half an hour. Rested on my cot for two hours. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached RTC Crossroads by 1:00. I did not get tickets for the Telugu film “Stalin” of Chiranjeevi or “Boss” of Nagarjuna at cinema Sandhya. Thence walked to the nearby cinemas and found that the feature films on show there were already seen by me. Saw the Telugu film “Shivapuram” of Prudhvi Raj and Kavya in cinema Devi in the matinee show. I enjoyed watching this film a lot. Came back to hostel by 5:15. My cousin Murali came there by 5:30. I asked him to lend me 1000 rupees. Had my supper by 9:00 along with my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju. He distributed sweets to our hostel mates. He, his father, our hostel mate Bala Rama Raju and I reached the airport at Begumpet by 10:00 in an auto rickshaw. This is the first time I went to an airport in my life. I greatly enjoyed this experience. My friend went in by 11:30 for check-in. We spent there till 2:00. It was the time when the flight to Singapore took off. I found the stylish dresses and refined behavior of air travelers attractive. They are lucky people. I felt jealous of them. I loved them. Went to sleep by 3:00 in my hostel room.
4 October (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Last night I had a blissful dream. The ratio of nightmares greatly declined after I came to Hyderabad from Visakhapatnam. Had a plate of puris and two bananas by 8:30. Spent reading The Hindu, The Times of India and Eenadu for two hours. Rested on my cot for some time. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 1:30. Spent there for two hours browsing Internet. Scanned some photos of Russian brides and posted my CV on clickjobs.com job portal. There was no reply from the employers to whom I emailed my CV recently. I clarified them not to respond to my application if they are unable to pay me not less than 32,000 rupees per month. This statement shocks them. I like it. This is my revenge for worthless employers. They played with me when I was a fresher. Had a bottle of almond flavored milk and a pack of cream biscuits by 2:30 for my lunch. Went to the branch office of Navata Road Transport at Vidya Nagar by 4:00. Brought my parcels from there in an auto rickshaw. I wanted to sell my used computer to the commercial buyers in this city. They said that they cannot give me more than 6,000 rupees for it. I decided not to sell it at such low price. This morning my cousin Murali lent me 1000 rupees. Today I looked pale due to sleeplessness last night. I did not like to see my dim face in a mirror. Had my parcel supper along with my hostel mates by 9:30. It was cold outside. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
5 October (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Had a plate of Onion Dosa at a nearby pushcart by 8:15. Bought a copy of Eenadu and a copy of Sitara and spent reading them for one hour. Walked down Shivam Road and took a city bus by 10:30. Got off it at cinema Sri Ramana and bought a ticket for 40 rupees. Saw the Telugu film “Boss” of Nagarjuna from 11:00 to 1:30 in it. I enjoyed watching this film. My friend Lahari played a small but good role in it. She looked slim and beautiful in this film. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 14 rupees and a glass of cool fruit salad for ten rupees in a nearby hotel. Came back to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 2:00. Spent there for six and a half hours browsing Internet. Today I applied for 53 jobs through naukri.com job portal. My target jobs are Copy Writer, Content Developer, Content Editor and Creative Writer. My preferred places of job are New Delhi, Bangalore and Mumbai. Spent scanning the beauty of the photos of the girls and women posted on my blog site in the beginning of my blogs for some time. Also read a few blogs on my blog site to assess their quality. They are interesting. Paid him 65 rupees and came out of it by 8:30. Had my supper in Devi Mess by 9:00. Its rate is 22 rupees. One can have enough curd in this hotel. Today it was partly cloudy. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
6 October (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Washed a pair of clothes and took a bath by 7:30. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Rested on my cot for two hours. Went to RTC Crossroads by 1:00. Bought a ticket for 30 rupees at cinema Sandhya. Had a glass of fruit salad and snacks there for my lunch. Saw the Telugu film “Stalin” of Chiranjeevi and Trisha from 2:15 to 5:30 in it. Muruga Das directed this film. He is a small guy. One can find his vision and power of creativity in the films he directed so far. Chiranjeevi and others acted well in this film. Trisha is also an attraction of this film. I heard that she consumes alchohol and creates mess in public places now and then. She is an attractive actress but not a good girl. Who is bothered about one’s character now? People are very busy now. They assess others either by their looks or their earning potential. I enjoyed watching this film a lot. It provides a great message to viewers. I think people hardly follow ideals expounded by others. Took a city bus and reached Lakdi Ka Pool by 6:00. Had a glass of cool almond flavored drink there. This evening there is a Bharata Natyam dance recital by Telugu film actress Laya. Sangam Academy, a cultural organization in Hyderabad, and Suchir India, a real estate firm in Hyderabad, are sponsoring this dance event. Ordinary viewers like me were allowed to sit in the upper circle. There was no air. All felt sultry over there. I could see this performer like an image in motion due to the distance between her and me. Sat there for 30 minutes only. Went to sleep by 10:00.
7 October (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Walked down Shivam Road and had my breakfast at a pushcart there by 9:30. From 10:00 to 1:00 spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café. I was attracted by the online ad agency Pinstorm. Its head office is in Hyderabad. They have their branches in New Delhi, Malaysia and Singapore. They grew well within two years after its establishment. They put an ad on my blog site. I applied for the position of “Web Copywriter” with them. Had a glass of fruit salad and two bananas and returned to my hostel room by 1:30. Rested on my bed for two hours. My face turned dim and pale after getting out of the bed. Spent talking with my hostel mates for some time. Went to cinema Sri Ramana Digital at Bagh Amberpet by a city bus by 5:45. Two of my hostel mates also came there to see the film. We knew that the show would be started there by 6:45. They did not like to wait there till then for seeing this film and so left. I did a little walk along the road to spend my time. Had a glass of fruit salad at a roadside hotel there on the way. Saw the Telugu film “Kidnap” of Surya and Jyothika in it. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. Had my supper in Devi Mess by Shivam Circle by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
8 October (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:30. I discovered that I am affected by low fever. I sensed the symptoms of this illness yesterday evening itself. It acquired more strength during night. I could not sleep well due to disturbing dreams. Took a head bath by 7:30. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Walked down Shivam Road and bought four tablets and one milk bread at a medical store to face my low fever. Went to the nearby post office and scanned a Telugu film weekly for some time. Then went to the library at Vidya Nagar and scanned a few old copies of Telugu weekly Swati. I wanted to see if my question sent to Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi was selected or not. I could not find the copies of September. Thence went to Global View Internet café and spent there browsing Internet for 20 minutes. Scanned the beauty of some Russian brides. Went to a tea stall and had a cup of tea and a cup of milk. It was to send in a tablet and a few pieces of bread. He took five rupees for 100 milliliters of boiled milk. This is how a poor Indian exploits other poor people. Bought two apples for 20 rupees. I found these prices irrational and unethical. Rested on bed for three hours. I recovered myself from low fever after taking the tablet. Evening bought three samosaas for 12 rupees for my supper. I could eat two of them only. Today I spent a dim day due to fever. People walking happily on road looked great and privileged to me. Went to sleep by 9:30.
9 October (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Washed a pair of clothes by 7:30. Took a head bath by 8:00. Went out and had my breakfast by 8:30. Also bought one apple for 12 rupees. Rested on bed for two hours. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 12:00. Our hostel mate Bala Rama Raju also came along with me. Nobody sent me email. There was the regular email from the bride.ru site from Russia, containing the photos of about 60 Russian brides. Scanned those photos for five minutes. We bought a papaya for seven rupees at a fruit store on the pavement of main road. It was for my lunch today. By 2:00 three of our hostel mates and a familiar Kshatriya fellow gathered in my guest room G 1. We spent talking about various general things for about two hours. One of them is earning about 20 lakh rupees a month now. He is about 35. He is still unmarried. He has a car worth eight lakh rupees. He is unable to get a beautiful Kshatriya girl for him to marry. I felt jealous of his luxurious life. I requested him to give me a job at him. He is earning well. I am a poor fellow. I decided to sell my computer for meeting my inevitable expenses. By 8:30 went to the rented abode of my cousin Murali at Self Finance Colony in Vanasthalipuram. Had my supper there by 9:00. Even today I suffered from low fever. Went to sleep by 10:30.
10 October (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Rajeswari, the mother of my cousins Murali and Bala, gave me a glass of hot milk. Also had five idlies offered by her. Murali and I came to NGOs Colony bus stop by 8:00. I bought a copy of Eenadu at a store there. We reached Shivam Road by 9:00. He went to the content development centre of Mathrusri Educational Institution at DD Colony. I bought two tablets for three rupees at a medical store to face low fever. Spent most of rest of the time in my guest room in KSS Hostel. Afternoon had three bananas and one glass of sugar water for my lunch. From 2:30 to 6:30 a serious debate took place among our hostel mate Murali Krishnam Raju, our hostel supervisor Narasimha Murthy Raju and me about the merits and demerits of tradition and modernity. I told them that now educated and beautiful girls are running after such boys who are doing jobs in European countries. Honest and sensitive boys are not looking attractive for them to marry. I argued with them that tradition is good for those that lack individuality and honesty in thought and action. I must be ready to blame my parents and brothers also if they are wrong in something. I should admit my faults and demerits. The present conventional society is trying to hide its demerits for achieving success in many things. Honest and frank people cannot be happy in such environment. Went to sleep by 11:00.
11 October (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went out and had my breakfast by 8:00. Bought a copy of Eenadu and a copy of The Times of India. Today I did not see even one suitable job for me in the English dailies. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Rested on bed in my guest room for some time. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 11:30. Spent there browsing Internet for two hours. Not a single employer or recruiter responded to my online job applications. In my CV I stated that my rate is 32,000 rupees per month and that employers unable to pay it for me need not contact me at all. Perhaps this straightforward statement might have hurt their egos. Scanned the beauty of Russian brides for some time. Emailed an enquiry to New York Literary Agency. I asked them if they can help me in bringing out my blogs in the form of a book. Getting a book published in the United States of America and winning the hearts of readers in England is not a simple thing. Came back to my hostel room and rested on bed for two hours. Again went to this Internet café and spent there from 5:00 to 9:30. Typed out a long blog and posted it on my blog site. Even today I suffered from low fever. Today I had two glasses of fruit salad. Avoided taking tablets. Went to sleep by 11:30.
12 October (Thursday)
Woke up by 8:00. Last night I had a nightmare. Freshened up myself by 8:30. Went out and had a glass of orange juice. I did not feel like eating any hard food. Bought a copy of Eenadu and spent reading it for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:30. Spent there browsing Internet till 5:00. There was a reply from the folks of New York Literary Agency. They informed me to email my manuscript for evaluation. I prepared 33 word files copying the text of the blogs I posted on my blog site so far. They informed me to answer two questions. I replied them that I have been writing for the last eight years. My goal as a writer is to educate and entertain the readers in this world. Earning money and fame are my secondary goals on the way. I sent all my desired pieces of writing to them as email attachments by 4:00. I felt very happy for sending my blogs to a famous literary agency in the USA. I wrote them that the title of this book would be My Blogs on Google and that my blogs need thorough editing before being sent to publishers. Had a glass of fruit salad at a hotel, bought a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara and returned to my hostel room by 5:30. My cousin Murali met me before going home. Even today I suffered from low fever. I did not take tablets. Can it kill me? Night had parcel supper along with my hostel mates. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
13 October (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Spent reading Eenadu for half an hour. Had two bananas and a glass of orange juice by 8:30. Rested on my bed for one hour. Took a city bus by 11:00 and reached the rented abode of Veeru by 12:00. Bought one litre of buffalo milk at a shop on the way and took it there. It was to drink hot milk there and recover myself from the weakness caused by low fever. Veeru was involved in the painting work of Lord Venkateshwara. It is very big. Its price is 1,50,000 rupees. We had our lunch by 12:30. Our common friend Muralidhar, a follower of Meher Baba, joined us in the mean time. We spent talking among ourselves till 4:00. Murali and I reached Flat No. G-31 in the third floor of Manju Shankar Apartments near Malkajgiri railway station quarters at Prasanth Nagar by Lalapet flyover by 5:00 on the bike of Veeru. He advised me to stay in it for a few days. It belongs to his friend, who is doing a job in the USA now. We came to my hostel guest room by 6:00. We spent discussing spiritual matters till 9:00. He dropped me at RTC Crossroads and proceeded to the abode of Veeru on the bike. I went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 9:30 in an auto rickshaw. My cousin Kiran and I had our supper in a hotel there by 10:00. I borrowed 2000 rupees from him. Returned to KSS Hostel by 11:00. Went to sleep by 12:00.
14 October (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Had my breakfast by 8:00. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Rested on bed for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 11:00. Spent there browsing Internet for two hours. Today I emailed my CV to two employers. One of them contacted me three months ago by email. The other job is in Mumbai. Also sent an email to the customer service division of HDFC Bank credit cards in Chennai. They promised me that they would credit some money to my bank account (to correct a mistake they committed earlier) but it did not happen. There was no reply from New York Literary Agency. They stated on their website that they take about one week’s time to evaluate a manuscript. If they think that my blogs are commercially viable, they would take my work to publishers. Today I had a look at www.idontwantdowry.com. The developers of this marriage site try to unite brides and bridegrooms, who dislike dowry system. Came back to my guest room in the KSS Hostel by 1:30. By 2:00 had a glass of fruit salad at a nearby bakery. Rested on bed for some time. Evening spent talking with my cousin Murali for 30 minutes. Went to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet in an auto rickshaw by 5:40. Saw the Telugu film “Pogaru” of Vishal and Rima Sen in it. Kiran Rathod acted in a song. She is a beautiful actress. Had my supper in Devi Mess by Shivam Circle by 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30.
15 October (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Bought a copy of Eenadu and spent reading it for one hour. Took a city bus and reached the abode of Veeru at Journalist Colony ‘A’ in Jubilee Hills by 9:30. Our friend Murali, Veeru and I reached Ravindra Bharati by 11:00 in an auto rickshaw. Thence we went to Hotel Kamat there. I had a cup of fruit salad in it. Since fruit salad means juice made of various fruits, they gave me 100 grams of slices of some fruits. They took 27 rupees for it. Veeru paid for it. I can have a glass of tasty fruit salad for ten rupees in small hotels. I regretted eating something in this hotel. I liked the clean, beautiful and air-conditioned environment in it. Today the promoters of www.idontwantdowry.com marriage site are conducting a program in the Mini Conference Hall of Ravindra Bharati. We spent there from 11:30 to 1:30. Unmarried girls, boys, their relatives and parents participated in this program. All of them are against the dowry system. I did not find a beautiful girl here for Veeru to marry. His expectations are very high about female beauty. He cannot attract such beauties until he becomes very rich and famous as an artist. We returned to his abode and had our lunch by 2:30. I returned to KSS Hostel by 4:00. Spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café from 5:00 to 8:00. Had my supper in a hotel by 8:45. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
16 October (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Today I spent most of the time within the hostel. Afternoon talked seriously with a few of our hostel mates about their behavior. They became lazy and worthless due to continuous financial support from their parents and lack of urgency about their future. They spend most of their time talking about films and listening to songs on computer in their hostel rooms. I don’t like staying along with such undisciplined blokes but I have no affordable and comfortable alternative now. I am allotted a guest room at rent of 50 rupees for 24 hours. There are one wooden cot, two plastic chairs, one plastic table, one ceiling fan, one tube light, one mattress, one pillow and one bed sheet in this room. It is the best accommodation I can get in the twin cities now at such charges. Above all I like the clean and quiet ambience of this hostel being maintained by this old hostel supervisor. I am grateful to the folks of our community for their constant support to me in this regard. Evening spent talking with my cousin Murali for half an hour. Both of us spent at Global View Internet café for 15 minutes. Then he left for his abode at Vanasthalipuram. I spent browsing Internet for one hour. There was a reply from the folks of New York Literary Agency. They received my manuscript by email. They informed me that they would take one week’s time for evaluating the suitability of my work for publication. There was no reply from employers. Today it turned cloudy. Today I spent a dim day because of sleeping on bed for long during daytime. By 8:00 my friend Krishna Varma called me up and said that he would come here to meet me tomorrow morning. Went to sleep by 10:30.
17 October (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:50. Went to the bus stop by Shivam Temple by 7:00 and kept waiting for the arrival of my friend Krishna Varma by a city bus. He belongs to village Ramayyapatnam. Now he is working at Vijai Electricals Limited at village Rudraram in Medak district. He did not turn up even by 9:00. Yesterday evening he said that he would start there by 6:00. Came back to my room and rested on cot. He came by 10:00. When I went there to bring him to our hostel, I came across my HCU friend Samanta Sahu on road. We were roommates for two years there. He felt very happy for seeing me after a long time. I brought him to my guest room. We spent talking for 30 minutes. We had soft drinks at a shop by 11:00 to celebrate this occasion. He is doing Ph.D. under the guidance of Professor Shanta Sinha in the HCU now. Krishna Varma and I spent talking from 11:30 to 1:30 in my guest room. We had our parcel lunch by 1:50 and moved to Global View Internet café by 2:00. He does not know about sending emails and browsing Internet. He watched me doing these things. We left it by 4:00. He left by a city bus by 5:00. I spent browsing Internet from 5:00 to 8:00. I applied for jobs at Google in Delhi and Deloitte in Hyderabad. Had my parcel supper along with my hostel mates by 9:00. Spent talking with them for some time. Went to sleep by 10:30.
18 October (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Had my breakfast by 8:00. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Today I did not find a suitable job vacancy for me in The Times of India or The Hindu. Took a rest on bed from 10:00 to 12:00. Then spent talking with my hostel mates for two hours. I did not find anybody to partner with for buying a parcel of meal from a hotel. Bought half a dozen bananas for ten rupees and a plastic glass of curd for seven rupees. I filled my stomach with three bananas and the curd. Afternoon spent listening to FM radio on my Walkman for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by 4:00. Spent there browsing Internet till 8:30. I am addicted to Internet these days. Today I created my profile on the employment section of Dell Computers. I wanted to post my details even on the website of IBM. I could not choose a password conforming to the four terms they specified there. Also updated my details in the personal history profile of my account on the website of the United Nations. They may allow me to work with them when I cross 80. I like its standards and reputation across the world. Had my supper by 9:30 along with my hostel mates. Recently my M.A. English classmate Shiv Narayan Mishra died in Orissa drowning in River Mahanadi. His careless attitude towards water killed him. It is a sad news for me. I did not like his immature behavior with others while in the HCU also. It is his destiny. Went to sleep by 11:00.
19 October (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Washed a pair of clothes and put them on our hostel terrace for drying up. Went to a nearby eatery and had a plate of Dosa. Bought a copy of Eenadu and a copy of Sitara and returned to my guest room by 9:00. Spent reading them for two hours. Rested on bed for one hour. Started walking towards RTC Crossroads by 12:30. There was much time for the matinee. I could not start jogging to avoid unnecessary fat in my body. I think walking helps me balance my fat a little. By 1:15 had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 15 rupees and a glass of fruit salad for ten rupees in Hotel Krishna Darshini near cinema Sapthagiri. Stood up in queue and bought a 35-rupee ticket by 1:30. Saw the Telugu film “Saamaanyudu” of Jagapathi Babu from 2:15 to 5:00 in cinema Odeon 70 MM. I enjoyed watching it. Took a bus and reached Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 5:20. Spent browsing Internet till 6:45. There were two replies from two employers. I replied them that I am interested to join them. There was an automated response from matri-search website. A Kshatriya girl expressed her interest in me. I allowed her to contact me. I felt happy knowing that at least a girl in this world is interested to marry me. Had my parcel supper along with my hostel mates by 10:00. Listened to radio for some time. Went to sleep by 11:00.
20 October (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Spent reading Eenadu from 7:30 to 8:30. Freshened up myself by 9:00. Had a plate of puris at a nearby eatery by 9:30. By 10:30 my hostel mate Anand and I went to cinema Sudarshan at RTC Crossroads in an auto rickshaw. Tickets were already sold there. About ten fellows were selling 40-rupee tickets for 80 rupees in the black. We waited there till the eleventh hour to see if they would bring down that artificial rate. They made it 70 rupees. I discouraged my friend from buying them. I don’t like seeing a feature film after its titles (in the beginning) are over. We returned to Shivam Road by a city bus and spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café for one hour. Had my lunch by 2:30 along with my hostel mates. Rested on my bed for one hour. Again went to this Internet café by 4:15 and spent there till 5:30. An American offered to pay me $ 30 for each text ad he puts on my blog site. He first wrote that he would like to offer me $ 20 for each text ad. He was much impressed by my instant and positive reply and so decided to increase this rate within minuets. I liked his goodness and so asked him to be my friend. Went to cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 5:40 in an auto rickshaw. Saw the Hindi film “Don” of Shah Rukh Khan from 6:00 to 8:45. It is very interesting. This morning I could not see the Telugu film “Raaraaju” of Gopichand and Meera Jasmine. Had a glass of curd, 12 biscuits and a glass of sugar water by 10:00 for my supper. Went to sleep by 11:00.
21 October (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Spent reading Eenadu till 8:30. Had my breakfast at a nearby eatery by 9:00. Called up my cousin Kiran at Manjeera Boys Hostel in Kachiguda by 9:30. He said that he would be busy today enjoying along with his friends in the city. He added that he cannot allow me to join their team of enjoyment. They find me as a disciplined guy. They don’t like spoiling their carefree holiday mood with my presence among them. Spent listening to FM radio for one hour. Took a city bus and reached RTC Crossroads by 12:30. Went to cinema Sudarshan and bought a ticket for 40 rupees. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani and a glass of fruit salad in Hotel Krishna Darshini by 1:00. Leaned against a tree by RTC Crossroads Junction watching people go by till 1:30. Saw the Telugu film “Raaraaju” of Gopichand and Meera Jasmin in the matinee show. It is good. Then hired an auto rickshaw and moved to cinema Srinivasa at Narayana Guda by 5:10. Had a soft drink and two samosaas at a small hotel there. Bought a ticket for 35 rupees by 5:45. Saw the Telugu film “Mosagaallaku Mosagaadu” of Suresh Gopi from 6:00 to 8:00 in this cinema. It is the dubbed version of a Malayalam film. It is very interesting. Bought five custard apples for ten rupees. Came walking to the bus stop near cinema Sandhya. Many are celebrating Deepavali splendidly. I enjoyed myself sensing those sounds and light silently. Went to sleep by 10:30.
22 October (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Had a small glass of bitter gourd juice for five rupees at the Golden Jubilee gate of Osmania University. Two young men sell some juices to the walkers and joggers there every morning. They are good for heath. Took a bus and reached Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 8:00. My cousin Kiran and I spent talking there for some time. We had our breakfast in a nearby three star hotel by 9:00. He carried out his audit related work on his laptop for one hour. We went to the apartment of our friend Murali near Malkajgiri railway quarters by 12:00 on his bike. On the way, I bought about 25 custard apples for 40 rupees from a bullock cart village hawker on the pavement near Fever Hospital bus stop. I put them in my guest room before going there. We spent talking with Anil Muktavar and his friend there till 2:30. The prior is planning to go to Mumbai soon to prove himself as a national level fashion model. He worked as a copywriter in Hyderabad for one year. He looks like an English man but he thinks and lives like a traditional Indian. We took leave of them and returned to Shivam Road by 3:00. We had our lunch in Nellore Mess. He paid our bill of 100 rupees by Ticket Restaurant meal vouchers. His audit company Ernst & Young issued him those vouchers. Evening I had about 20 custard apples. My cousin Kiran did not have his share of fruit from them. From 4:00 to 6:00 spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café. Went to sleep by 10:00.
23 October (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. It means I got up from the bed and not that I slept till this time. I could not sleep for more than two hours due to the bad cold that affected me yesterday night. I think it attacked me because I had many custard apples yesterday evening at a stretch. I read in a newspaper that cold would be the result of excessive consumption of custard apples. Drinking a small glass of bitter gourd juice in the morning would also have contributed to the development of this minor disorder. My body could not withstand these two things and so gave way for these two disorders. Morning spent reading Eenadu for two hours. There is no hygienic food in any hotel by Shivam Road and so avoided having my breakfast today. Bought two tablets at a medical store opposite our hostel. Also bought two packs of Horlicks biscuits for 14 rupees. Spent much of my time resting on bed. The cold invited fever by 1:30. Went to Global View Internet café by 2:30. Today I found two energizing emails in my inbox. One was from New York Literary Agency in the USA and the other one was from Cactus Communications Private Limited in Mumbai. Reached NGOs Colony in Vanasthalipuram by 7:30, taking two buses, along with my cousin Murali. Consulted the doctor in Ram Reddy Clinic there by road. He did an injection and prescribed some tablets for me. It all cost me 97 rupees only. Night ate rice with hot turmeric soup. Had hot buffalo milk before sleeping. Went to sleep by 9:50.
24 October (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Last night I took a tablet meant for inducing sleep. It was for the first time that I took such tablet for getting sleep. It helped me sleep well. Had a glass of hot milk without brushing my teeth. Rajeswari, the mother of Murali, took care of me like a mother. I thanked her inwardly for her affection for me. I felt a little relieved this morning. It is certainly a result of proper medication. I would be grateful to my cousin Murali for his affection towards me. I would not have consulted a doctor if he had not motivated me towards it. I believe that every disease that attacks us is a result of our Karma. We get rid of them according to the commands and kindness of God. Even then we must try to save ourselves from pains and strains in our lives. It minimizes the burden of work on God. He has many patients and sinners in this world to be saved and served by Him. We should not torture Him with our thoughts and acts of ignorance and stupidity. Returned to our hostel by 9:30 along with my cousin Murali. Went to Global View Internet café by 11:40. Sent an email to the folks of New York Literary Agency informing them about my acceptance to the terms of contract they sent me. I need a critique of my work from a good professional to go ahead in this direction. They gave me the email address of an agency in New York. I sent an email of enquiry to them. Afternoon had a glass of fruit salad and two idlies with Saambaar. Spent rest of the time within our hostel. Fever is still there though cold is gone. May God bless me. Went to sleep by 10:00.
25 October (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Fever is still there in me. Bought a copy of The Hindu and a copy of Eenadu at a bookstore. Took a bus and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 7:30. Thence took an auto rickshaw and proceeded to Journalist Colony ‘A’. Bought two packs of buffalo milk for 18 rupees and walked to the abode of Veeru. He was doing exercise on a machine. Had my breakfast and took the two tablets of morning dose. Two days ago Veeranjaneyulu went to Kakinada to formally see a girl with the objective of marriage. She is about 28. He found her overweight and so disliked to marry her. He is much disturbed by the bad effects of obesity in people he is observing in the present society. I am not optimistic about his marriage. He is looking for an angel with classic features. They are all after software engineers, NRIs, rich professionals and celebrities. Returned to my guest room by 3:00 and rested for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by 4:15. Recently I was asked to send $ 89 to Writers Literary in the USA. The folks of New York Literary Agency process my work after receiving the critique on my work from them. Night I did a little online research to check if it is a scam. My cousin Kiran motivated me towards it. We got sufficient evidence to believe that it is a fraud. I have to explore more online before starting playing with these blokes. Had my supper by 9:00. Went to sleep by 12:00.
26 October (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Read Eenadu and Sitara from 6:30 to 9:00. Then had parcel breakfast and took two tablets. I think I am affected by viral fever. I have to get my blood tested to find out the real nature of this disorder. I cannot bear the expenses for these medical tests if I go to a hospital. I am unable to get hot water or hot milk in this hostel. It compels me to have cool drinks and useless food items available at shops. I decided to stop taking medicines for fever. I took tablets for three days. Now I should allow the mechanism of immunity in my body to fight viruses. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 1:30. Spent there till 6:30 and paid him 50 rupees for it. Typed out five pages of blog and posted it on my blog site. It describes my personal life now. It allows my friends and well-wishers to know where I am and what I am doing now. When we share our thoughts and pains with others, the burden of strain on our brain gets alleviated. There were no emails from any employer or recruiter. Scanned the beauty of Russian brides for some time. By 8:30 had a plate of Vegetable Noodles at a nearby pushcart by road. Thereafter had a bottle of stored almond flavored milk in Sai Supermarket opposite our hostel. Also bought a bottle of mango drink for 20 rupees. A patient behaves abnormally in his ways of eating and drinking when left alone. Went to sleep by 10:00.
27 October (Friday)
Woke up by 5:30. I avoided taking a bath for the last three days due to fever. My hair wore an ugly look due to it. Anybody can understand at a glance that I am suffering from an illness. Spent reading Eenadu from 8:00 to 11:00. Today, Girish Karnad, a distinguished writer and actor of India, is delivering a speech on the theme of “Arts and Society” in a seminar hall in the University of Hyderabad. I like him a lot. Listening to the speech of such a great man in our university is a matter of bliss and celebration for me. The nasty fever I am suffering from and the look of a patient I am wearing now stopped me from going there. I regret my bad luck. Afternoon I did not feel like eating anything. By 2:30 started to Ameerpet in an auto rickshaw along with my computer. I sold it to our former KSS hostel mate Rama Chandra Raju. He asked me to bring it to his office there. He is running Rainbow Interiors there. I paid 80 rupees to the driver of this auto rickshaw. I sat in his office there for one hour. I found his small office beautiful. He started it two months ago in the building of Surekha Chambers opposite VIP showroom. He got me fix this computer there because it is a good day today according to Telugu calendar. Came to the bus stop opposite NIMS Hospital by 8:00. Took a bus there by 9:00 and reached Shivam Road by 9:30. Spent browsing Internet for 30 minutes. Had a bottle of stored almond flavored milk. Went to sleep by 11:00.
28 October (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Today also I avoided taking a bath due to fever. Went to a nearby tea stall and had a cup of tea. I wanted to have a glass of hot milk but in the modern Indian society people are supposed to die drinking carbonated drinks even when suffering from diseases. Spent reading Eenadu from 8:00 to 11:30. This is my most favourite newspaper in Andhra Pradesh. Had a little rice with curd by 2:00 along with my hostel mates. They don’t ask me if I want to get something from outside when they are going out to bring their lunch parcels from hotel. They don’t have even that minimum concern for a patient like me staying in the same hostel. They spend their leisure playing cricket or Tambola closing doors and windows to escape from the vigilant eyes of our hostel supervisor. Spent at Global View Internet café from 4:00 to 5:00 browsing Internet. Then took a city bus and got off it at the bus stop of Secretariat. Thence walked and reached Ravindra Bharati by 6:00. This evening there is an inaugural function of two audio cassettes of Lalitha Geethaalu. Kalaga Krishna Mohan wrote them and composed music for them. S P Bala Subrahmanyam and D Surekha Murthy sang them. I deeply enjoyed the presence of my great master Balu and S Janaki. Kinnera Arts and Naadha Vinodhini jointly organized this program. The hall was packed with audience. They received those melodious songs with claps. It went on from 6:30 to 9:00. It was drizzling outside. Returned to Shivam Road by 10:00. Went to sleep by 11:00.
29 October (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Washed my clothes by 7:00. Took a bath by 8:30. Spent reading Eenadu from 9:00 to 11:30. One of our hostel mates brought me the parcel of a Dosa from a nearby eatery by 10:00. Rested on bed for two hours. Afternoon did not feel like eating anything. Had two glasses of curd. By 4:00 my cousin Kiran came from Kachiguda on his bike. He is planning to go to some other place from Manjeera Boys Hostel, where he is staying now. We first searched in Durgabai Deshmukh Colony (DD Colony) for a single bed room portion. Then we moved to Gandhi Nagar via RTC Crossroads. Even there we could not find one. Thence we moved to Bagh Lingampally. It already turned dark. We could not continue our search for long. It started drizzling by then. We returned to the Vegetable Market area at Nallakunta by 7:00. We bought and had a few pieces of sweet at a sweet stall there. Thence we moved to Shivam Road. There is not even one good hotel in this locality. We ended up with Hotel Shanthi Deluxe. I had a plate of Lemon Rice for 16 rupees. He had a glass of fruit juice for 16 rupees. When I was trying to order an item of low price, he said that he stopped thinking about money now. I wondered at the change in his outlook for money now. Thereafter we checked our emails at Global View Internet café. There was nothing for me. I regretted my bad luck in getting a job. Night listened to music on radio for half an hour. Went to sleep by 10:30.
30 October (Monday)
Woke up by 8:00. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Went to a tailoring shop by Shivam Road and gave him a piece of cloth for stitching. My brother Srinivas gave me this piece of cloth recently when I went there. This tailor said that he cannot stitch it into a casual shirt for less than 90 rupees. This is why I stopped getting clothes stitched by tailors nowadays. Thence I moved to Lalitha Diagnostic Centre at Bagh Amberpet to know with which health disorder I am suffering now. A nurse there put a device in my mouth and discovered that I have no fever at all. Then the doctor examined my pulse rate using his medical tool. He found that I am suffering from an infection. He understood that the cough in me is the symptom of that infection. He prescribed six Tuxyne tablets for me. I took one tablet with a glass of fruit salad. Came to Global View Internet café by 11:30. Spent there browsing Internet till 6:00 and paid him 65 rupees. Recently Google added new features to its Blogger service. I spent all this time changing the look of my blog site applying the automated features developed by the Blogger team of Google. There was no email to me from any employer or recruiter. My frustration is thus continuing. Came back to our hostel and rested on bed for one hour. I sensed that my blood pressure was low. I felt dizzy. My hostel mates were playing Tambola. I cursed them inwardly. Had my parcel supper along with them by 10:00. Listened to radio for some time. Today it was cool and rainy. Went to sleep by 10:30.
31 October (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:30. Took a bath by 7:30. Went out and had a plate of idlies with Saambaar by 8:00. Took a tablet with a cup of tea. Returned to my room and spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Walked down Shivam Road and had a plate of rice for 20 rupees in Annapurna Mess. Went to Global View Internet café by 12:45 and spent there till 5:30. There was an email from the AdSense team of Google. They wrote me that the number of invalid clicks on the ads posted on my blog site is increasing. I replied them in a fitting manner. Spent rest of my time changing the look of my blog site. I did not like those few templates provided by Blogger team. I also found that the folks of Google are not doing anything for making my blog site known to more and more netizens in the world. I wrote about it to them in my email. Today I spent 280 minutes browsing Internet there and paid him 45 rupees for it. Collected my stitched shirt from the tailor and returned to my room by 6:30. It was drizzling due to depression over Bay of Bengal. Went to a nearby pushcart and had a plate of Chicken Noodles for 17 rupees by 7:30. Then bought a glass of stored curd for seven rupees in Sai Supermarket opposite our hostel and had it. It has been a month of frustration and illnesses for me. I struggled to spend my time searching for a job. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
1 November (Wednesday)
Woke up by 7:00. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went to a nearby pushcart and had a glass of orange juice for ten rupees. Then got a plate of breakfast packed for me. Bought a copy of Eenadu and a copy of The Hindu. Came back to my room and spent reading them for two hours. Went to Global View Internet café by 11:30 and spent there browsing Internet till 2:30. There was an email from Victoria Strauss. Earlier I sent an email to her asking about reliable literary agents in the USA and UK. She advised me to carefully choose them using the web source given by her. Not a single employer or recruiter sent me email offering me a job. I felt very angry about these folks in India. Applied for the position of Sub Editor with the English daily Peninsula in Qatar. Returned to my room by 3:00. Had a few sweet groundnut rounds and a glass of curd for my lunch. Rested on bed for one hour. Spent watching the people and the vehicles moving on the road in front of our hostel for 30 minutes. Went to Global View Internet café by 5:50 and spent there browsing Internet till 8:00. Emailed my CV to some software companies in Hyderabad. Had a plate of rice for 22 rupees in a nearby hotel by 8:30. I did not feel like eating but for the sake of my health. Night listened to FM radio for one hour. Today it was cloudy and rainy. May God bless me with a peaceful life. Went to sleep by 10:30.
2 November (Thursday)
Woke up by 8:00. When there is no work to do, one need not worry about the times of going to bed and getting out of bed. Took a bath by 8:30. Went to a nearby pushcart and had a plate of puris by 9:00. Bought a copy of Eenadu and a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara and returned to my room. Spent reading them for two hours. Rested on bed for one hour. By 1:00 bought six yellow bananas for nine rupees. Had five of them for my lunch. Withdrew 100 rupees from the ATM Center of HDFC Bank near Shivam Temple by 1:30. Thence walked down to Global View Internet café and spent there browsing Internet for one hour. There was no reply from any employer or recruiting agency. Deleted all emails from my Yahoo Mail inbox. I am trying to detach myself from all these things of distraction and disturbance. It started raining in the mean time and so sat there watching the drizzle for some time. Returned to my room by 4:00. My cousin Murali came by 5:10 to our hostel. Spent talking with him till 6:15. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles for 17 rupees at a nearby pushcart on pavement by 7:00. Thereafter bought a glass of curd for seven rupees in Sai Supermarket opposite our hostel. Spent listening to FM radio for some time. One of our hostel mates called me up by 9:30. They have some parcel rice to offer me. I paid them ten rupees and had it. My cousin Kiran came and lent me 1000 rupees by 10:30. May God bless him. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
3 November (Friday)
Woke up by 8:00. Morning spent reading Eenadu for some time. Today also I spent a dull day. Evening went to Global View Internet café to check my email. No employer or recruiter sent me any email informing me about the availability of any job. Recently I paid 1550 rupees to our hostel supervisor towards rent for my guest room for the month of October. I borrowed 4000 rupees from my cousin Kiran so far for meeting my inevitable expenses. I am badly looking for a job now. I am ending every day with frustration and depression about my life. There is no progress in my diary editing work. The person to whom I sold my computer recently did not give me money yet. I did not know how to tell him about it. I am living the life of a beggar now. I have to buy new clothes and a new pair of shoes for me. People travelling by car are looking to be lucky and blessed ones. They have money. I don’t have it. This realization is hurting me a lot. I did not see interesting places in the twin cities till now. I want to do it after my marriage. I have no value in the present marriage market. I am not using this time for anything that improves my life. I have no mood to write anything. I sense that I am not well these days. I am unable to sleep well. I am being haunted by dreams all the nights. Seeing films in cinemas now and then is the only relief for me now. I am not interested to do anything appreciable by society. Thus hell is continuing. Went to sleep by 11:00.
4 November (Saturday)
Woke up by 7:00. Morning washed a few clothes. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Had my breakfast at a nearby pushcart by 8:30. Also bought and had two bananas for four rupees. Went to Global View Internet café by Shivam Road by 10:30. Spent there browsing Internet till 2:30. Paid him 40 rupees for it. Today I sent an email to the folks of Microsoft. I recently decided to move my blogs posted on the Blogger of Google to some other online space. I posted interesting blogs on this blog site months ago. I found that it is not attracting many netizens towards it. Google provided me with some space to showcase my thoughts. They don’t do anything to promote the blog site of any blogger. My AdSense income earned through it so far is $ 3:93 only. I decided to move all the content from my www.golmalgovindam.blogspot.com site to Microsoft. Today I sent an email even to the AdSense team of Google. I wrote them that I am withdrawing myself from their AdSense program within 10 days. I informed them that I would delete my blog site from their space within a few days. Today I uploaded my updated CV into timesjobs.com job portal and applied for about ten jobs through it. Took two buses and reached the rented abode of my cousin Murali at Self Finance Colony in Vanasthalipuram by 6:00. We had Lemon Rice prepared by his mother by 6:15. We saw Telugu film “Chinnodu” of Sumanth in cinema Sushma there from 7:20 to 10:00. We returned home on foot. Went to sleep by 11:30.
5 November (Sunday)
Woke up by 7:00. Had my breakfast by 8:00. Spent reading Eenadu for about four hours. A Telugu speaking person wrote about her visit to London recently. I felt very attracted towards that great city. I wondered knowing that British people like sunny days a lot. Indians don’t find any particular season much interesting while in India. Many Indians enjoy sunshine, rain and cold alike during the three seasons of a year. Visiting London remains as a great experience to tourists from the East. Had my lunch by 1:00. Rajeswari, the mother of Murali, prepared ginger curry for us. It is good for health. Murali came along with me up to the bus stop of NGOs Colony. I enjoy his company. He is following Sahaj Marg. Shri Parthasarathi Rajagopalachari is the head of this spiritual organization now. Murali is living a good life. Took two city buses and reached our hostel by 2:15. I enjoyed my short stay in the abode of my relatives. Rested on bed for one hour. Went up and spent talking with our hostel mates for some time. They were talking about moral standards of creatures in film industry. Their focus was on actresses. They think that most of the heroines are nothing more than prostitutes. By 6:30 had a plate of Chicken Noodles for 17 rupees at a pushcart by road. Also had a glass of curd adding sugar to it. Night spent listening to radio for about two hours. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
6 November (Monday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went to a nearby eatery and brought the parcel of my breakfast by 8:30. Also bought a copy of Eenadu and spent reading it in my room till 10:45. Got my half size color photo taken in a small photo studio down Shivam Road. This morning I looked very handsome in mirror after shaving and taking a head bath. Today Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi is receiving honorary doctorate from Andhra University in Visakhapatnam. My darling Deepthi would also have gone there along with her family members to attend this function. Today I got my photo taken to celebrate this occasion. Chiranjeevi recently received Padma Bhushan from the Government of India. From today onwards he would be called doctor. Today I spent at Global View Internet café from 10:30 to 5:15 browsing Internet. I checked the blog space of Microsoft, blogit.com and Yahoo to assess the quality of their sites for moving the content from my present blog site on Blogger of Google to one of them soon. I did not find them more interesting than the Blogger of Google. My income through AdSense on Google is so low now that I am compelled to remove my blogs from it to keep up my self-respect to some extent. I have depressing experience with Google in this regard. By 6:30 had a plate of noodles for 17 rupees and two glasses of curd for 14 rupees for my supper. Night listened to radio for two hours. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
7 November (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Had my breakfast at a nearby pushcart by 8:00. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:30. There was an email from the AdSense team of Google. They asked me why I decided to withdraw myself from their AdSense program. I typed out a five-page piece and sent it to them by email. They gave me a lot of free online space. So, I could post my blogs on it. I felt that I have moral responsibility to help them in my own way. There are 16 paragraphs in my report emailed to them. I spent for four hours in this Internet café typing out this letter. I also informed them that I won’t remove my blog site from their Blogger. I felt very happy for doing this good thing. Had a glass of fruit salad and returned to my room by 3:00. Rested on bed for one hour. Took a city bus and reached RTC Crossroads by 4:30. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 14 rupees in a roadside hotel at Narayana Guda by 5:00. From 6:00 to 8:00 saw the Telugu film “Nuvve” in cinema Deepak. It is an interesting film though the story is weak. By 8:30 collected my color photos from R K Digital Studio by Shivam Road. They came well. By 9:00 had two glasses of curd for my supper. By 9:30 went to the rented abode of my friend Kanumuri Rajani Kumar Raju in DD Colony. Went to sleep by 11:00.
8 November (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu from 8:00 to 10:00. Rested on bed for one hour. Went to Astoria Restaurant at RTC Crossroads by 1:30 in the car of Kanumuri Rajani Kumar Raju. He is the friend of our hostel mate Bala Rama Raju. He is about 32 now. He is in the field of real estate and bank projects now. He earns about five lakh rupees a month. I felt jealous of his happy life backed by significant regular income. He wants to marry soon. He told me to look for a beautiful girl. I have three poor girls in my mind. He is not expecting dowry. The girl should be beautiful and considerably educated. I liked his goodness. He thinks that I am a good fellow. We became friends very fast. I too had Mutton Biryani along with them in this hotel. We returned to the KSS Hostel by 2:30. I rested on bed in my room for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by 4:00 and spent there checking emails for one hour. By 7:30 my cousin Murali, my friends Bala Rama Raju and Rajani Kumar Raju, and I went to the rented abode of the uncle of the prior at Self Finance Colony in Vanasthalipuram. Rajani saw the photo of Rama Devi, a cousin of Murali. We spent there for 20 minutes. He did not find the photo of this girl beautiful. We returned to DD Colony by 8:30. I talked with my brothers Srinivas and Sambha using the cellular phone of Rajani. There is a Kshatriya girl. I collected her details from them. Today Rajani spent about 300 rupees for me and made my day enjoyable. Went to sleep by 11:00.
9 November (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went out by 7:30 and got breakfast packed for me. Also bought two bananas for me. Bought a copy of Eenadu and a copy of Sitara and returned to my room. Spent reading them for two hours. Had my breakfast by 9:30. Went to Global View Internet café by 12:00. Spent there browsing Internet till 3:30. Today I changed the name of my blog site from Golmal Govindam to Aalangini Samahaayithe. I created this name on my own. Today I read four blogs, which I posted on this site once. I found them very interesting. This realization made me believe that I can prove my abilities as a writer soon. Ate a few dates and had a glass of curd by 4:00. Rested on my bed for some time. My friend Rajani came by 6:00. Talked with my parents in our village using his cellular phone for five minutes. Yesterday I knew that my brother Sambha bought a cellular phone of TATA Indicom service recently. I felt very happy about this news. Now I can talk with my parents frequently. My friend Anjaneya Raju came by 6:30 from Singapore. He went there on a tourist visa for finding a job there. He said that he would go there again within 15 days. Spent talking with him for much time. We had supper together in Devi Mess by 9:15. He became weak in that country. Night listened to FM radio for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:30.
10 November (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went out and brought breakfast for me and a copy of Eenadu. Spent reading it for two hours. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:30. Spent there browsing Internet till 2:00. There were no emails from any employer or recruiter. Today I sent an email to Sowmya, a girl working as a radio jockey with Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. She anchors a program titled “Dr Love” on it from 11:00 to 12:00 every night. She talks very sweetly about things related to love among youth. I wrote her that I am very much attracted towards her sweet voice. Today I applied a few changes to my blog site on the Blogger of Google. Had a plate of Lemon Rice for 16 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe by 2:30. Our former KSS hostel mate Rama Chandra Raju came here by 3:00 and paid me 3000 rupees. Yet he has to pay me 500 rupees for the computer he bought from me recently. By 5:30 my friends Rajani, Bala Rama Raju and I went into the Osmania University campus. Rajani did walking for 40 minutes for exercise. Then three of us went to his rented abode in DD Colony. He prepared cheese with buffalo milk and jaggery for us. I ate about one kilo of it and felt heavy. I felt like a drunken fellow. It was very sweet. Returned to my guest room in the KSS Hostel by 9:30. I did not feel like eating anything. Turned on Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. Today also Sowmya presented her one-hour program excitingly. I enjoyed listening to Telugu cine songs describing the intensity and beauty of love. Went to sleep by 12:15.
11 November (Saturday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went out and had a plate of puris by 9:30. It was very oily. So, had a glass of grape juice. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:00 and spent there till 1:30. Sowmya sent an email to me. It is very short but I found it interesting. I felt so impressed by her email that I typed out a two-page message and emailed her. In my present solitary life, she is a source of solace for me. I sent an interesting reply to her. Returned to my room and had a pack of biscuits and a glass of stored curd for my lunch. Rested on bed for two hours. By 4:30 went to the rented abode of my friend Rajani. It is on the other end of DD Colony. Spent there watching television for some time. He told me about the heroes and heroines in Telugu film industry. I motivated him adequately for coming along with me to see a film. We reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet on his bike by 5:30. He bought a ticket even for me. We saw the Telugu film “Vallabha” of Simbu and Nayantara. There are many twists in this feature film. I also felt that there is no need of three heroines in this film. However, I found this film interesting. Rajani dropped me at the KKS Hostel by 9:15 on his bike. Went to Devi Mess by Shivam Circle and had a plate of rice for 22 rupees. I did not feel like eating it. Night there was no the program of Sowmya on Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. I felt disappointed about it. Went to sleep by 12:00.
12 November (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Bought a copy of Eenadu and spent reading it for two hours. Took a city bus and reached Kukatpally by 9:30. Thence took an auto rickshaw and reached Miyapur by 10:00. Had a soft drink there for eight rupees and started walking along the Bollarum approach road. Reached the venue of today’s occasion by 10:30. Today Garden Party is being organized here for the community of Kshatriyas in twin cities. About 4000 Kshatriyas attended this annual function. I spent most of my time watching the programs being presented there on the stage. I did not find discipline among these creatures. Had lunch by 1:30. They started Tambola game by 4:00. I also bought two tickets for 40 rupees. This game was over by 5:00. I did not win any prize in it. I found my participation in this game very exciting. The highlight of today’s programs there is the Magic Show by Murali Krishnam Raju of West Godavari district. He is an APSRTC bus conductor there. I took his cellular phone number out of love for him as an artiste. There were many beauties but I could not see them due to shyness. Today I spent happily among Kshatriya creatures. Returned to Shivam Road by 7:30. My friend Anjaneya Raju and I spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café for one hour. There was no reply to me from Sowmya of Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. I felt disappointed about it. Had my parcel supper along with my hostel mates by 10:00. I developed admiration and psychic attachment for the sweet voice of Sowmya. I kept listening to Radio Mirchi from 11:00 onwards.
13 November (Monday)
Last night I did not sleep at all. I kept listening to Telugu cine songs on Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. Sowmya conducted a program with Aryan for 90 minutes. Both of them talked very sweetly as lovers. I felt very jealous of him. I don’t have even one girl to talk with. I am helplessly wasting my time looking for a job. Sowmya stopped anchoring that program from 1:00 onwards. I kept listening to this FM radio waiting to hear her voice. Night elapsed within seconds. Sleeplessness sat on my face heavily. It was all due to Sowmya. I became very lovesick. Washed my clothes by 7:00. Took a bath by 7:30. Went out and brought a copy of Eenadu and a parcel of breakfast by 8:00. Spent reading this newspaper till 9:30 and then had my breakfast. I tried to sleep and recover myself from the weakness but in vain. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 17 rupees and a glass of fruit salad for 10 rupees in Hotel Shanthi Deluxe by 12:00. Spent at Global View Internet café from 12:30 to 6:00. Typed out and posted a blog titled “My Song of the Day” on my blog site. It expresses my love for Telugu film actors Chiranjeevi and Nagarjuna. I experienced their platonic love for me in my dreams. Today also there was no email from Sowmya. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles and a glass of curd for my supper. Night listened to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM for some time. Went to sleep by 12:00.
14 November (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:30. Talked with my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma using the cellular phone of my friend Rajani for five minutes. She came to our house to see her eldest sister. I think I saw her about three years ago. I told her about my friend Rajani Kumar Raju and asked her to send me the photo of her daughter (my cousin) Sirisha by post. Rajani may marry her if he likes her physical beauty. Rested on my bed for one hour. Bought and brought a parcel of rice from Devi Mess by 12:30. My friend Anjaneya Raju and I had it by 1:00. We hired an auto rickshaw and reached cinema Usha Mayuri at Musheerabad by 1:40. We saw the Telugu film “Manasu Palike Mouna Geetham” in it in the matinee show. Story is interesting but the treatment is bad. I could enjoy seeing the beauty of heroine Sneha on screen to some extent. We returned to Shivam Road by 4:50. Went to Global View Internet café by 5:00 and spent there till 7:30. There was an email from Sowmya. I felt very happy. I sent a long email to her typing it out for two hours on computer. I became a slave to her sweet voice on Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. She anchors “Dr Love” program captivatingly. Her email was very short but I found it interesting. Returned to my room by 8:00. Had my parcel supper in our hostel by 9:15. I am enjoying winter. I feel very solitary and creative in this season. The pain of lovesickness haunts me strongly. Night listened to FM radio for one hour. Sowmya entertained me. Went to sleep by 12:15.
15 November (Wednesday)
Woke up by 7:30. Last night my darling Sowmya anchored the program “Dr Love” from 11:00 to 1:00. She interacted with Sai Leela, a girl pursuing her ninth standard now. This schoolgirl told Sowmya how boys and girls express their love to each other in their school. I wondered knowing about the great tips of love being followed by these students. My darling interviewed her very interestingly with her sweet voice. I felt like kissing her for her sweet words. I could not sleep for much time due to it. Freshened up myself by 8:30. Had my breakfast by 9:00. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Spent talking with my hostel mates for about three hours. Had parcel lunch by 2:00 along with them. Rested on my bed for some time. Went to Global View Internet café by 4:30. Today there was no email from Sowmya. I know that she plays tricks on me like this. There was an email from a recruiting agency, asking me to attend an interview on the 19th of this month. The related employer is Google in Hyderabad. Had a plate of noodles at a pushcart by 6:30. Had my haircut in a hair salon at Vidya Nagar by 7:00. Took a head bath by 8:00. Today I understood from the words of one of our hostel mates that most of the girls and boys are enjoying their sexual life before their marriage itself now in India also. It is a big demerit of Indian culture now. Night listened to FM radio for two hours. Went to sleep by 12:15.
16 November (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:30. Last night I did not sleep for more than five hours. It was because of the program of Sowmya on Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. Boys and girls are sending emails to her seeking her advice about their problems of love. I found her answers very interesting. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Spent reading the Telugu film weekly Sitara for one hour. Went out and had a plate of puris and three bananas by 9:30. My face turned weak due to sleeplessness yesterday night. I cannot manage to sleep during daytime. Had a plate of rice by 1:30 in Devi Mess by Shivam Circle. Spent talking with my hostel mates for two hours. Went to Global View Internet café by 4:00 and spent there browsing Internet till 7:30. There was an email from the UBS Company asking me to email my CV for consideration for the position of editor. It is a great organization to work with. There was no email from Sowmya. She would have failed to read my long email. I felt disappointed about it and so visited various other websites. Came back to hostel by 8:00 with a parcel of noodles and a glass of curd. My hostel mates are undisciplined ones. They do everything late. It made my life miserable in this community hostel. Today the sky was partly cloudy. Today I wanted to go to see a Telugu film. My weak body discouraged me from it. My financial condition is also very bad. Night listened to FM radio for three hours. Went to sleep by 12:30.
17 November (Friday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:00. Rested on bed for one hour. Went up and spent talking with my hostel mates for two hours. One of them bought a toy car for 2250 rupees. It can be run by remote control. I found it interesting. Had my lunch by 1:00 along with my hostel mates. A parcel of full meal costs us 35 rupees. Three can share it. Took a city bus and reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 1:40. Bought a ticket for 25 rupees to see the Telugu version of English feature film “Casino Royale”. Daniel Craig played the role of James Bond in it. Eva Green looked very beautiful in it. I enjoyed watching this film a lot. There were three or four female viewers only in this cinema. For many Indian women, an English film means explicit scenes of sex. So, they avoid seeing them in public places. Came to Global View Internet café on foot by 5:30. Spent browsing Internet till 9:30. Sowmya sent me a short email by 9:00. I wrote her to send me long emails every day. Had a glass of fruit salad for 10 rupees for my supper this night. Spent listening to Sowmya’s program “Dr Love” on Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM from 11:00 to 1:00. She did it well. She pleased me a lot with her sweet words. Went to sleep by 1:30.
18 November (Saturday)
Woke up by 7:30. Freshened up myself by 8:00. Went out by 8:30 and brought a parcel of breakfast and a copy of Eenadu. Spent reading this newspaper for one hour. Had my breakfast by 9:30. Rested on bed for two hours. Went up and spent talking with my hostel mates for some time. My friend Anjaneya Raju and I walked down Shivam Road and brought a parcel of full meal by 1:30. We had it by 2:00. Rested on bed for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by 3:45. Spent there browsing Internet till 7:20. There was an email from www.24hourschat.com folks asking me to send my CV for the position of Business Executive with them. Emailed my CV to them. Also sent a long email to Sowmya of Radio Mirchi. Today I saw the photo of Sowmya on a website which deals with Telugu films. I did not find her beautiful. My psychic attachment with her, which made me listen to her program every night, got affected by this realization about her beauty. I am an admirer of inspiring female beauty. I also understood that she cannot keep me attracted toward her with her short emails in response to my long emails discussing interesting things. I regret the change in my outlook for her after seeing her photo. Had my supper in Devi Mess by 8:00. Tomorrow afternoon I have an interview with the team of Google. Avoided listening to FM radio altogether this night. I cannot start a pleasant day without enough sleep at night. Went to sleep by 8:30 for my dreams.
19 November (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went out and had a glass of orange juice for 10 rupees by 9:30. Took a city bus and reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 11:30. Walked up to Hotel Padma opposite the railway station and had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 18 rupees in it by 12:00. Hired an auto rickshaw by 12:10 and reached Mayfair Centre at Police Lines in Begumpet. The office of MeritTrac Assessment Zone is in the fifth floor of this building. I used steps to walk up. A written test was conducted from 1:00 to 2:00 on a computer. They gave five topics. One is supposed to type out two essays on any two of those topics with a minimum of 15 sentences in each. I typed out my essay arguing in favor of death penalty and about my favourite website on Internet. I did well in these two tests. About 20 candidates took this test, to be recruited by Google. I felt very happy with my performance in this test. Went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda by 4:00. My cousin Kiran came there by 6:30 seeing a film in a cinema. We went to a nearby Internet café and spent reading the emails I sent to a few. We had supper in a hotel there by 8:00. He paid for the meal and ice cream we had there. We enjoyed talking about this and that for some time. He dropped me at the KSS Hostel on his bike by 9:00. The winds of winter were already active in the city. Went to sleep by 11:30.
20 November (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:30. Rested in my guest room for two hours. Brought a parcel of plate meal from Devi Mess by 12:30. My friend Anjaneya Raju and I had it by 1:00. We took a city bus and reached RTC Crossroads by 1:30. We saw the Telugu film “Bhaagya Lakshmi Bumper Draw” in cinema Sudarshan 70 MM in the matinee show. It is a comedy. Rajendra Prasad played the main role. We enjoyed watching this film a lot. This cinema was filled with audience. We walked for about one kilometer and then hired an auto rickshaw up to Shivam Road. I spent in Global View Internet café from 5:15 to 10:15 browsing Internet. Anji left this cafe by 7:30. Today I made some changes to my blog site on the Blogger of Google. Typed out the names of some girls on Google Images and scanned their photos. I did it for about three hours. I did not find even one girl very beautiful. Sent an email to one girl whose email id is given on her website. I need very beautiful and righteous girls and women to inspire me as a creative creature. I searched for such angels of beauty on Internet. Today I spent 50 rupees for it. I am addicted to Internet due to availability of much time to me. Had two glasses of almond flavoured milk by 10:30. I know that they prepare it with useless powders of smell. This is India. Went to sleep by 11:30.
21 November (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Took a city bus and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 8:00. Thence walked to a nearby sweet stall and bought 250 grams of sweets for 20 rupees. Bought a copy of Eenadu also. Then took an auto rickshaw and moved to Journalist Colony Junction. Reached the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu by 9:00. Had my breakfast and spent talking with them for 10 minutes. Then walked up into his art room and started typing out a blog on his computer. The title of this blog is “Garden Party”. I worked on it from 9:15 to 7:15. I wrote about the annual garden party recently held in Naren Gardens at Miyapur by Bollarum Road. It was organized for the Kshatriya community in our state. I analyzed this event broadly. It amounted to 10 pages. I felt very happy about it. I kept listening to melodious Telugu cine songs when typing it out for enhancing my creativity. Today I could not talk much with my friend Veeru. So, I decided to meet him tomorrow. Took leave of them by 7:30 and reached Shivam Road by 8:40. Spent at Global View Internet café for one hour. Posted my blog on my blog site and added the image of a beautiful garden to it. Had my parcel supper along with my hostel mates by 10:30. Today I spent my time happily and actively. Went to sleep by 11:30.
22 November (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 8:00. Went to bus stop by 9:00. I had to go to Yousufguda Check Post and from there to the abode of Veeru at Jubilee Hills. Very few buses of that route came this way. Each one of them was packed thickly. Boys were hanging on footboard. I felt disgusted about it. Went to a nearby pushcart and had my breakfast. This wait continued till 11:00 but not a single bus came with a little space to accommodate me. I felt very embarrassed at it and withdrew myself from the idea of going there. Called up my friend Veeru and informed him about it. Rested in my room for one hour to come out of this frustration. Went up and spent talking with my hostel mates for some time. Had my lunch in Devi Mess by 2:30. Went to Global View Internet café by 4:00 and spent there browsing Internet for three hours. Today I sent two emails to two persons living in the USA. Deepa Singh is a research scholar in chemistry. Deepa Kundur is an assistant professor at a university in Texas. Both of them are beautiful and intelligent and so impressed me much. I saw their photos and read about their academic achievements so far. Returned to our hostel by 7:15. Spent talking with my friend Rajani Kumar Raju till 9:30. We had supper together in Kakatiya Mess by 8:00. I enjoy his company because he is rich and honest. Talked with my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani using his cellular phone for some time. Night listened to a Telugu play on Hyderabad radio. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
23 November (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Took a bus by 7:30 and proceeded to Yousufguda Check Post. There bought a copy of Eenadu. Thence took a taxi up to Journalist Colony Junction. He took five rupees only. Bought Solano butter candies for five rupees in a shop there by road and walked towards the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu. Spent most of my time there talking with Veeru and Murali. My friends Rajani Kumar Raju and Bala Rama Raju came there by 4:00 in the car of the prior. All of us spent talking among ourselves till 7:30. Murali is a devoted believer and follower of Meher Baba. He told us about the life of Meher Baba. We listened to him interestingly. Murali told me about his classmate. He said that she is very beautiful. Rajani is searching for a beautiful and educated girl now to marry. We thought of uniting these two creatures. This girl belongs to Reddy community. Rajani got ready to marry her if she is also interested in him. The problem is that her parents may not accept it. Rajani told us how he helped in the love marriages of three pairs earlier. I felt proud of him after listening to his account of the three marriages coordinated by him. Rajani and Balaram saw the paintings of Veeru and felt very happy. We started back by 8:00 from there. We had supper in a hotel at Lakdi Ka Pool on the way. I spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café from 9:00 to 10:00. Went to sleep by 11:00.
24 November (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Took a city bus and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 8:30. Bought a copy of Eenadu and proceeded to the abode of Veeranjaneyulu. On the way, bought 20 Solano butter candies for 10 rupees at a shop by road. This morning I had good breakfast. It is rich in fiber. Veeru said that the pulses used to prepare this food item were imported from the USA. We spent talking most of the time. Murali told me that the girl working in Bangalore, who belogns to Reddy community, is not interested in marrying Rajani, my friend, who belongs to Kshatriya community. I hated her mentality and cursed her internally. By 2:00 our common friend Anil Muktavar came there. Veeru is planning to apply for a Canadian scholarship. He asked us to write his brief academic and professional biography and descriptions of six of his paintings for it. Anil is a brilliant copywriter. His command of English is better than mine. I told him to do it for Veeru. Returned to Shivam Road by 3:30 and spent browsing Internet for three hours. Typed out an English poem titled “Universal Killer Disease- Lovesickness” and posted it on my blog site. Returned to our hostel by 7:00. Spent talking with Rajani for two hours. My friend Anjaneya Raju and I went to Dilsukh Nagar by 9:30 by a city bus. We saw the Telugu film “Maanikyam” in cinema Venkatadri there from 10:15 to 1:15. It is very interesting. We enjoyed watching it. We returned to Shivam Road in an auto rickshaw. Went to sleep by 2:00 for my heavenly dreams.
25 November (Saturday)
Woke up by 7:00. Freshened up myself by 8:00. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:30. Took a city bus and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 10:30. Thence took an auto rickshaw and reached the abode of Veeranjaneyulu by 11:00. He is in family related problems now. His eldest brother smokes cigarettes and consumes alcohol. He underwent a minor heart operation a few weeks ago. That doctor warned him against smoking. He is still indulging in it now and then. He has two daughters and a son. He worked as a lorry driver once. He is not doing anything now. Veeru is much disturbed about his undisciplined life. Afternoon tried to talk with my darling Swagata Gupta over phone. She is associated with Equities News Desk at Reuters in Bangalore now. She did not receive my call because then she was not there. By 3:00 our friend Anil Muktavar came there. He prepared text outlining the academic and professional profile of Veeru. It is meant for applying for scholarships. Came back to Shivam Road by 4:00. Spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café for one hour. There was an email from Shalini Sharma of People Link Solutions (a private job consultancy) informing me that I got selected for the second round of selection process of Google. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles, a glass of almond flavoured milk and a glass of curd for my supper. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.
26 November (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went out and had a plate of puris by 9:30. Spent talking with my hostel mates for two hours. Two of them were playing cricket, closing the doors, to escape from the watchful eyes of others. I cursed them internally. Walked down to Global View Internet café by 2:00. Spent there for four hours browsing Internet. Sent a long email to Pramod K Nayar, a lecturer at the Department of English in the University of Hyderabad. I felt very happy about it. Came back to hostel by 6:15. Three of our hostel mates and I stood opposite Sai Supermarket by road and spent scanning the beauty of girls and women moving by us. We saw a poor puppy there. We offered biscuits, water and almond flavoured milk to it. It rested there for some time. We enjoyed its company a lot. It came to our hostel around 9:30. Our hostel supervisor drove it out. I cursed him internally. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles for 17 rupees at a nearby pushcart on the pavement. Bought a glass of curd and prepared Lassi adding sugar to it. It was to balance the bad effect caused by fast food. I stopped listening to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM to keep myself healthy. I also stopped sending emails to RJ Sowmya. These measures help me remain peaceful. I can sleep early. I can enjoy my dreams. I don’t get attracted more towards her. I can use that time for other good things of my life. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
27 November (Monday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Had my breakfast by 9:00. My cousin Murali brought the photo of his cousin Rama Devi by 9:15. I found her beautiful. Rajani Kumar Raju came here by 9:30. He did not like her beauty. I was surprised at his judgment of female beauty. We returned the photo of this girl to my cousin Murali by 11:30. Rajani and I had lunch in Kakatiya Mess by 12:30. He paid even for me. Rested in my guest room for two hours. Took a city bus and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 4:30. Thence took an auto rickshaw and reached the abode of Veeranjaneyulu. He wants to apply for the art scholarship of Elizabeth Greenshields Foundation in Canada. He finalized six of his paintings for it to send along with his application form. Our friend Anil Muktavar and his friend Zubin Vakil came by 7:30. The prior is a copywriter and fashion model while the latter is a fashion designer. Anil wrote text for Veeranjaneyulu outlining his profile as an artist. I typed it up on computer while he was dictating it to me. It is a worthy sketch of this great artist. Thereafter Anil set titles to four of Veeru’s paintings. These paintings signify a divine and platonic bond between this artist and his invented damsel of beauty and innocence. Went to sleep by 12:30.
28 November (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Had my breakfast by 8:00. Spent four hours downloading beautiful female nude photos from Internet. The speed of broadband is low and so this work could not be carried out fast. Veeranjaneyulu wants to enter the field of art exhibitions in India soon with his specially done original paintings for this purpose. He wants to work on those special paintings of his taste, for four months continuously, to have a considerable number of original works on his part, before going for an exhibition. Nobody is there to support him financially in this direction. He is looking for a young female model with arresting bodily features. He wants to work on the divinity of innocent nude female beauty applying baroque techniques. He asked me to collect information on aesthetics and photorealism for it. He also wants to know about the art movements at Baroda (in India) now. Afternoon I got an email from a private job consultancy in Hyderabad. They asked me to give my cellular phone number. I avoided buying a cellular phone being scared of frequent calls from everybody. Now I may miss a job for not having a phone of mine. Now I am in a bad financial condition. This realization hurt me. Returned to my guest room by 5:30. Spent talking with Rajani Kumar Raju from 7:00 to 9:00. His company lifts me up from the pit of depression. He wants to produce a Telugu film soon being funded and guided by one of his rich business associates. We talked about it for long. Night avoided eating food due to depression. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
29 November (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Washed my clothes by 6:30. Had a bath by 7:00. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. My friend Anjaneya Raju and I went out by 9:30. I withdrew 500 rupees from my savings account from the ATM Centre of HDFC Bank near Shivam Temple. There is balance of 247 rupees in it after this withdrawal. I gave my recently taken photo negative for print of eight passport size photos at R K Digital Studio. Then we had breakfast at an eatery there and returned to our hostel by 10:00. Paid 1500 rupees to our hostel supervisor towards the rent for this month for my stay in a guest room in it. Today I spent about four hours reading useful grammar points in Little Lifco Dictionary (English-Telugu). I have poor vocabulary. I have to improve it looking up in a standard English dictionary time to time. Went to Global View Internet café by 5:20 and spent there browsing Internet for 90 minutes. There was an email from Elizabeth Darling of AuthorHouse. She asked me if I am interested in getting my book published by them. I sent back an email answering the eight questions she sent me. There was an inspiring reply from Pramod K Nayar. Also scanned the beauty of some Russian brides. The folks of bride.ru portal (from Russia) email me these photos every day. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles for 17 rupees by 7:30. Listened to radio for two hours. Went to sleep by 10:30.
30 November (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Walked down Shivam Road and bought a pack of buffalo milk for eight rupees. Went to the rented portion of Rajani in DD Colony by 7:00. On the way, bought two packs of breakfast items from a bicycle vendor for 20 rupees. Kept waiting for Rajani there till 9:00. He went for morning walk in the campus of Osmania University. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Had my breakfast and 200 milliliters of boiled milk by 10:00. He told me that he would help me in buying a cellular phone for me today. It costs me 500 rupees. It can be used and paid for like a landline phone. I am compelled to buy one for me to facilitate telephonic interviews and contacts by employers. I left his abode by 10:30. Walked down Shivam Road and bought a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara. Came back to my guest room and spent reading it for one hour. Avoided lunch and spent much time resting in my room. Went to Global View Internet café by 5:20 and spent there for 90 minutes. There was a reply from Elizabeth Darling of AuthorHouse in England. She wrote that I have to spend money if I want to get my book published there by them. I sent her reply asking for alternatives. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles by 7:00. This morning cold attacked me. It got intensified by the evening. Today I posted a long blog on my blog site carrying the five emails I sent to Sowmya earlier. Night listened to radio for two hours. My heartfelt farewell to November. Went to sleep by 10:00.
1 December (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself and went out by 7:00. Had a little plastic cup of tea for two rupees at a little stall by road. My friend Rajani appeared me walking. I too joined him and went to his abode. Spent there reading Eenadu for half an hour. Borrowed 1000 rupees from him. Went to a nearby Reliance Communications outlet by 10:30 and bought a Reliance cellular phone for 1500 rupees. This model is LG-RD2710. I liked the monthly rent and other service features of this postpaid plan. I felt very happy for getting connected to the world with this phone. I don’t like carrying a cellular phone with me always. I realized very recently that I must have one to be considered as a modern man. It would be useful to me in many ways. My goddesses, friends and relatives would be able to contact me directly. Voice carries emotion and passion with it. Spent all the day casually. Afternoon posted my phone number information on my blog site. By 6:30 went to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda. My cousin Kiran came there by 8:00 and lent me 3000 rupees. Also gave me a booklet of Ticket Restaurant meal vouchers worth 750 rupees. Then he rushed to catch a private bus to go to Jaggampeta. Had my supper in that hostel by 8:10. Hired an auto rickshaw and moved to cinema Sri Ramana Digital at Bagh Amberpet by 8:30. My phone was activated by then by the folks of Reliance network. Made the first call to my brother Srinivas and my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani in Visakhapatnam. Saw the Hindi film “Dhoom 2”. Returned to KSS Hostel by 12:00 on foot. Went to sleep by 12:15.
2 December (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. My cousin Murali brought breakfast for me by 9:00. He informed me about his arrival when I was bathing. I felt as if I have no freedom even to bath peacefully. Rested on bed till 1:00. Went to a hotel by Shivam Road by 1:15. Had I no Ticket Restaurant meal vouchers with me, I would not have entered it for having my lunch. I found many items costly in this hotel. At last I ordered Egg Biryani. He took 15 minutes to prepare and bring it for me. I took 30 minutes to finish it. I had a soft drink also to make it 60 rupees. I signed it and gave him one 50-rupee ticket and one 10-rupee ticket. I owe to my cousin Kiran for it. Went to Global View Internet café by 2:10. Spent there browsing Internet till 5:30. Sent an email to Pooja Makhijani in New York. She is a beautiful and young writer. The only regret is that she is already married. I discovered this fact about her after sending the email. I challenged her to send me such email, which makes me read it twice or thrice. By 6:00 called up my brother Sambha in Adduroad and told him the number of my cellular phone. By 7:30 had a plate of Chicken Noodles for 17 rupees at a pushcart by road. Also bought a glass of curd for seven rupees in Sai Supermarket opposite our hostel. Spent listening to radio for 90 minutes. I suffered from cold even today. I hate it. Today our hostel supervisor changed the bed sheet, pillow cover and quilt on my wooden cot. Went to sleep by 9:00 for my dreams.
3 December (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went out and had my breakfast by 8:30. Spent talking with my hostel mates for some time. Reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet by 10:30 on foot. Tickets for the morning show were already sold. So, I bought one for the matinee today. I received a phone call around 11:00. Before I could attend it, taking it out from the left pocket of my trousers, it was withdrawn from the other end. I thought it would have been from Swagata Gupta in Bangalore. Returned to my hostel by 11:30 on foot. Checked the call history in my phone with the help of Balaram. It is the number 02230333232. It originated from Mumbai but I could not understand who gave me that missed call. Took a bus and reached cinema Sri Ramana by 1:15. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 14 rupees and a glass of fruit salad for 10 rupees in a hotel there by road. Saw the Telugu film “Sainikudu” of Mahesh Babu and Trisha Krishnan from 2:00 to 5:00 in it. I found it interesting and enjoyed it watching throughout. Came back to Global View Internet café by 5:15 on foot. Spent there browsing Internet till 7:15. Bought six bananas at a pushcart and a glass of curd in a supermarket there and returned to my room by 7:30. They constitute my supper today. I am bored with my life. Nobody sends me an email or makes a phone call. They are all busy. Went to sleep by 8:30.
4 December (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:00. Also had a green banana. Spent reading important points of English grammar in a dictionary for three hours. Had my lunch by 1:30 along with my hostel mates. Went to Global View Internet café by 2:15 and spent there for 70 minutes browsing Internet. Spent talking with my friends Rajani and Balaram in my guest room till 5:00. Then three of us went to the rented portion of the prior. I sliced about one kilo of jaggery in 15 minutes with a kitchen knife. Meanwhile Rajani prepared other things. Hot cheese, prepared with buffalo milk, jaggery and black pepper, was ready by 7:00. I ate about one kilo of cheese. I deeply enjoyed eating it. Rajani collects buffalo milk and keeps it in his refrigerator. Evening I told my cousin Kiran to come to me after his office hours but he could not make it. I wanted to show him to Rajani and know if the latter can find him suitable for the role of hero in his Telugu film to be produced soon. Balaram and I returned to our hostel by 8:30. I felt heavy with cheese and so avoided eating anything else at night. From 9:30 to 10:00 spent talking with my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my nephews Sujan and Suhas, my sister-in-law Kranti and my brother Sambha in Visakhapatnam. I have free calls of Reliance. So, I took this liberty with my cellphone. Night I had four kinds of dreams. I enjoyed them. Winter was intense outside. Went to sleep by 10:30.
5 December (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went out and had my breakfast by 8:00. Bought a copy of Eenadu and returned to my guest room by 8:30. Spent reading it for 90 minutes. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:00 and spent there for five hours. Typed out and posted a long blog on my blog site titled “A Solitary Bird”. In it I wrote about my goddess Deepthi. Then I posted six emails there, which I sent to some of my familiar and unfamiliar ones earlier. I could not type out a blog because of not having a computer, activeness or happiness. Afternoon had a bottle of Sprite soft drink. I did not feel like eating anything. Called up Mallikarjun of People Link Solutions and asked him about the next round of selection process by the folks of Google in Hyderabad. He told me that he would contact them and let me know something about it. Spent listening to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM from 4:00 to 7:30. Then went to a nearby pushcart and had a plate of Chicken Noodles for 17 rupees. Also bought a glass of curd for seven rupees. My cousin Kiran and I wanted to go to see a Telugu film in the second show. This night there is a farewell party to one of his superiors in the office. He got a job in England and so leaving this organization. Kiran did not like to escape from this celebration and so stayed back. Today I spent moodily. I spent two months’ time without a job. I am borrowing money from others to continue my stay in Hyderabad. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
6 December (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went out and had my breakfast by 8:00. Bought a copy of Eenadu and returned to my room. Spent reading it for three hours. Rested on bed for some time. By 1:30 walked down Shivam Road along with my hostel mates. I bought a kilo Chicken Curry for 60 rupees in Tasty Bite Restaurant and gave him two meal vouchers of Ticket Restaurant for it. I found this curry oily and avoidable but I ate it because I paid for it. It was one of the bad curries I had. Went to Global View Internet café by 2:30 and spent there browsing Internet for one hour. Hired an auto rickshaw and reached cinema Sri Mayuri by 5:50. My cousin Kiran also reached there in time on his bike from the Ernst & Young office at Begumpet. We saw the Telugu film “Maayaa Bazaar” of Raja and Bhoomika from 6:00 to 8:40. On the way back, he bought a few sweets for us from a van by main road at VST. I enjoyed eating them. We met Rajani Kumar Raju in his rented abode at DD Colony by 9:20. I took Kiran there to check if Rajani can find him suitable for the hero role in his Telugu film to start soon. We spent there talking with him till 10:00. We requested him to find a rented portion for us. He said that he has the idea of a portion at Gandhi Nagar near RTC Crossroads. Anybody that stayed in that abode for some months became very rich. He is one of those lucky ones. I wondered at his sketch about that portion. Kiran dropped me at KSS Hostel and left. Went to sleep by 10:30.
7 December (Thursday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Took a city bus and reached Yousufguda Check Post by 8:15. Bought a copy of Eenadu and reached the abode of Veeranjaneyulu by 8:30 in an auto rickshaw. Had the breakfast of oats with buttermilk and cold rice with beetroot curry. From 9:00 to 4:00 spent typing out a blog titled “The Indiscipline of a Disciplinarian”. It amounted to 10 pages. I wrote how I have been spending my time for the last two months and the social trends I observed recently. The tone of this blog is that of a benevolent dictator. I finished it up typing it out fast and felt happy for my performance today. Came back to Yousufguda Check Post by 5:00 in an auto rickshaw. Bought a copy of Telugu film weekly Sitara for five rupees and spent there reading it for 10 minutes. Then took a city bus and returned to Shivam Road by 6:30. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles and a glass of curd for my supper. My hostel mate Balaram asked me to dictate him a note on population. He did not like the long sentences I dictated to him. He has to read it out in his class of Spoken English in an institute tomorrow morning. I wonder if he achieves anything great in his near future. I saw Swagata Gupta in my dream this night. It indicated that she is guilty of something and this event is associated with my marriage with her. I felt very happy for seeing my goddess. I also travelled in an aeroplane. I derived bliss from this dream. Went to sleep by 9:00.
8 December (Friday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Went out and had my breakfast by 7:30. Bought a copy of Eenadu and returned to my room. Spent reading it for 90 minutes. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:00. Spent there browsing Internet for one hour. Had coconut water for eight rupees and Maaza soft drink for 10 rupees. I felt very disgusted waiting for a bus and so had these drinks to cool down myself. Took a bus by 1:00. While in this bus, got a call from my uncle Chanti Babu (Pakalapati Venkatapathi Raju) in village Durgada. He said that he would send me the photo of his daughter Sirisha to be shown to my friend Rajani for marriage purpose. I told them my present postal address. Reached the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu by 2:30. Had my lunch there by 3:00. Spent editing my recently written blog for four hours on his computer. Actually I went there to explain the concepts of aesthetics and photorealism to Veeru. We have to collect related information from Internet. We could not do it even today. He bought a new washing machine today. They did special worship and inaugurated it formally. The company’s executive came there in the evening and explained them how to use it. He stood there for one hour. I understood that he was not in a right mood to indulge in the discussion of theories of art. We had supper by 9:30. We watched the Telugu feature film “Jai Chiranjeeva” of Chiranjeevi on his computer playing a compact disc. We enjoyed watching it. Cold was already intense outside. Went to sleep by 12:00 for my dreams.
9 December (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could not sleep well. Cold penetrated into the art room and kept entertaining me throughout. Yet a short dream played. Returned to Shivam Road by 8:00. Went to a nearby eatery and got a parcel of breakfast. Returned to my guest room and spent reading Eenadu for three hours. This morning my cousin Kiran went to the temple of Lord Venkateshwara at Chilkur. Called up and told him to come to me soon after coming back from there. He came here by 12:00. We rested for one hour. We had lunch in Kakatiya Mess by 2:00. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw and moved to Manjeera Boys Hostel at Kachiguda. We started from there by 3:30 searching for a room on his bike. We moved through Musheerabad, Gagan Mahal, Domal Guda, Gandhi Nagar, Himayat Nagar and Kawadi Guda. We found two vacant portions only out of our search for two hours continuously. They don’t like renting out their portions to bachelors. I proposed the idea of sex change operation to Kiran. Then we can play wife and husband roles. We had orange juice by 5:30. We saw the Telugu film “Police Saamraajyam” of Suresh Gopi and Gopika in cinema Deepak from 6:00 to 8:30. We enjoyed watching this film very much. There were no many viewers in this cinema. We regretted it. He dropped me at KSS Hostel by 9:00. I had a glass of curd. Spent talking with my hostel mates for half an hour. Night had a horrific nightmare. Got up out of fear. Thereafter a sweet dream followed. Went to sleep by 10:00.
10 December (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Meanwhile our hostel supervisor Narasimha Raju bought and brought a copy of Eenadu for me. Spent reading it for two hours. By 9:00 my friend Balaram and I went to a nearby eatery and had our breakfast. Thence we proceeded to the abode of Rajani Kumar Raju. There I was engaged in slicing two kilos of jaggery for one hour with a knife. Rajani prepared delicious cheese with buffalo milk by 12:00. I had two bowls of it and felt very satisfied. I like eating it while it is a little hot. We returned to KSS Hostel by 1:30. I felt heavy and so avoided having my lunch. Went to Global View Internet café by 2:00 and spent there browsing Internet for one hour. Returned to my room and rested on bed for one hour. Took a city bus and reached Birla Temple by 5:00. I kept there waiting for my friend Trinadh till 6:00, standing by the fence near footwear keeping place. I saw about 10 beautiful girls there and felt like asking one of them to marry me. Moved to the nearby Birla Science Centre by 6:10 after the call of my friend. There we saw an extraordinary married Malayalee beauty. I regretted her marital status. She moved away soon in a car along with her family members. We attended the “Awareness Meet” of Gold Quest International from 7:00 to 8:00 in the Bhaskar Auditorium there. This hall was packed with related folks. My friend joined it recently. It is a rewarding scheme. Returned to Vidya Nagar by a city bus and had my supper in Kakatiya Mess by 8:45. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
11 December (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went out and had my breakfast by 7:30. Bought a copy of Eenadu and returned to my room. Spent reading it for two hours. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:00. Spent there editing my blog titled “The Indiscipline of Disciplinarian” till 2:10. Paid him 40 rupees for it. Went to the nearby Tasty Bite Restaurant by 2:15 and had a strawberry ice cream for 15 rupees. There was a young couple in this restaurant. I felt lonely and forsaken in comparison to them there. I gave a Ticket Restaurant meal voucher there at the counter. Rested in my guest room for 90 minutes. By 4:30 stood by road before Sai Supermarket opposite our hostel watching the people passing by me. I am thus trying to form a bond with my people of India despite their carelessness towards me. By 5:15 my cousin Murali came there. Spent talking with him for 10 minutes. By 6:30 my friend Rajani Kumar Raju came there. He recently told me that there is an extraordinary beauty in Bhimavaram. She would be a perfect match for my cousin Kiran. He considers her an angel of beauty. I requested him to unite those two creatures at any cost. A princess should marry a prince. He agreed to do it. Went to the nearby Kakatiya Mess and had my supper by 8:00. Cold is high in twin cities now. Solitary entities cannot spend happily in such setting. Listened to radio for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00.
12 December (Tuesday)
Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Went out and had my breakfast by 7:00. Bought a copy of Eenadu and spent reading it for two hours. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:00. Got two of my old photos scanned there. Got one of them beautified and added it in the profile section of my blog site. Posted my blog “The Indiscipline of a Disciplinarian” on my blog site and attached one of my photos, which I got taken while in the University of Hyderabad, to it. I got this color photo taken with a white vest and trousers on the terrace of Men’s Hostel ‘A’. It is one of the best blogs I have written. Left this Internet café by 2:15. Had four sweet potato samosaas and three bananas for my lunch. From 3:00 to 4:00 rested on bed in my guest room. Spent discussing English grammar with my hostel mates for two hours in my room using the 2005 edition of Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English. By 8:00 my friend Anjaneya Raju and I left for RTC Crossroads by a city bus. We bought two 35-rupee tickets at cinema Devi by 8:15. I had a plate of Egg Noodles at a roadside eatery there by 8:50. We saw the Telugu film “Pellaina Koththalo” of Jagapathi Babu, Priyamani and Astha Singhal in it. It is a very good film. Priyamani looks like my darling Deepthi. She acted well in this film. Astha is beautiful. She too acted well in it. We enjoyed watching this film a lot. Lovers and married couples must see this film. We returned to KSS Hostel by 12:20. Went to sleep by 12:30.
13 December (Wednesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Walked down Shivam Road and bought the newspapers Eenadu and The Hindu. Had a plate of Pesarattu and a cup of coffee in Tasty Bite Restaurant. This breakfast item was like a thick sheet of paper and the quantity of coffee was like a blood sample. Returned to my guest room by 9:00 and spent reading Eenadu for two hours. I did not find suitable job vacancies for me in The Hindu. Went to Tasty Bite Restaurant by 1:30 and had Chicken Biryani and a soft drink for 60 rupees. I took 30 minutes to have them but I needed five hours to get rid of the bad experience of consuming them. The pieces of chicken served to me must have been stored in a fridge for more than a week by those nasty blokes. Rested on bed for two hours. Strolled through DD Colony for 15 minutes. Went to Global View Internet café by 5:50. Changed some photos attached to my blogs earlier on my blog site. I scanned the photos of about 10000 Russian brides on bride.ru portal and picked four of them to post on my blog site. There was an email from the folks of PennyWise Solutions at Somajiguda asking me to email my CV and other details for consideration for the position of content writer with them. I did it for them. I wrote them that I am expecting 32,000 rupees a month as salary. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles for 17 rupees at a pushcart by road by 9:30. Listened to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM for 30 minutes. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
14 December (Thursday)
Woke up by 7:00. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Walked down Shivam Road and bought Eenadu and Sitara. Had my breakfast at an eatery by road. It was oily. Returned to my guest room by 8:15 and spent reading Eenadu and Sitara for two hours. Rested on bed for some time. My friend Anjaneya Raju and I went to Shirdi Sai Baba Hotel and brought a parcel of full meal by 1:00. We had it in my guest room. Listened to radio for one hour. Went to Global View Internet café by 3:45 and spent there browsing Internet till 8:30. Today I made some changes to my blog site and added two new photos to my blogs on it. Even today I sent an email to Swagata Gupta. I don’t know whether this email id is a correct one or not. I wrote her that I love her and I want to marry her. I also posted two of her opinions published in the English daily The Telegraph in Calcutta in 2002 on my blog site and gave a test to my blog readers on it. She remained an enigma to me for long. I believe that she is also in love with me but not reaching it to me at all. I have been carrying this psychic pain for long. Lack of response from the beloved ones is a tragedy for sensitive and dedicated lovers. I hope that Swagata Gupta would do something to console me before I die. She is visiting me frequently in my dreams. I would be blissful seeing her in that sphere of divinity and mystery. Had snacks, a glass of sugarcane juice and a glass of curd for my supper. Went to sleep by 11:10.
15 December (Friday)
Woke up by 7:00. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went out and had my breakfast by 8:30. My teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju called me up from Jaggampeta by 9:00. He asked me about my well-being and the status of progress in my search for a job. I felt happy at his call. Spent talking with my hostel mates for some time. Got a full-size color photo taken in R K Digital Studio by Shivam Road by 12:10. It is meant for keeping on my blog site. Spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café for 90 minutes. Sent an email to Radio Jockey Anita of Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. Had my parcel lunch in my guest room along with my friend Anjaneya Raju by 2:30. Took a siesta on bed for 90 minutes. By 5:15 went to the nearby Vidya Nagar railway station along with my hostel mates. We took an MMTS local train by 5:40 and got off it at Uppuguda station by 6:00. Thence we hired two auto rickshaws and moved towards Charminar. We reached Chowmahalla Palace by 6:30. The audio release function of Telugu film “Yogi” of Prabhas was conducted there from 6:30 to 8:30. Some noted figures of Telugu film industry attended this function. Venkatesh and Nayantara came there and left that place soon just from my left. I enjoyed watching this event. This palace is very attractive. We had dinner (rice with chicken curry) there sponsored by the producer of this film. We returned to KSS Hostel by 10:30. Listened to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM for 40 minutes. Went to sleep by 11:20.
16 December (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:45. Freshened up myself by 7:15. Spent reading Eenadu for some time. Had my breakfast by 9:30. Rested on bed for two hours. I became fat due to enough food and adequate rest every day. I have to do jogging but no mood. Went to Global View Internet café by 12:00. Typed out a blog of three pages about the event of audio release function of Telugu film “Yogi” of Prabhas. Actually I went there to type out a long blog but my mood failed. Had a glass of sugarcane juice for five rupees and returned to my guest room. Bought a pack of Britannia Tiger cream biscuits for 10 rupees in Sai Supermarket opposite our hostel. Spent listening to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM for one hour. My cousin Murali came here by 5:00. I motivated him adequately for coming to see a film along with me. We reached cinema Sri Ramana at Bagh Amberpet in an auto rickshaw by 5:30. We bought two tickets for 80 rupees. We saw the Telugu film “Khatharnaak” of Raviteja and Ileana from 6:00 to 8:30 in it. We enjoyed watching it. Thence he went to Vanasthalipuram. Came back to Shivam Road on foot. Had a glass of almond flavoured milk at a roadside hotel for 10 rupees. Bought 250 grams of sweet white grapes for 10 rupees and reached my room by 9:10. Listened to radio for 20 minutes. Today some creatures of Kshatriya community joined our hostel as guests. I knew that they came from Visakhapatnam. I felt like talking with them but could not. There is a beautiful girl among them. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
17 December (Sunday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Walked down Shivam Road and brought a copy of Eenadu and a parcel of breakfast for me. Spent reading this newspaper for three hours. Spent talking with my hostel mate Anjaneya Raju for one hour. Both of us brought a parcel of Chicken Biryani from Tasty Bite Restaurant by 1:30. We had it by 2:00 in my guest room. Rested for one hour on bed. Spent talking with my friend Bala Rama Raju for two hours. He told me how he built up his body though he looked average in his childhood. I enjoyed listening to his narration about it. Listened to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM from 5:00 to 7:00. Radio jockies Anita and Sowmya did their weekly gossip program interestingly. This morning checked my email and saw an invitation from the folks of Apex Covantage at Banjara Hills to attend an interview for the position of content analyst with them. Evening also went to Global View Internet café being prompted by my sixth sense. There was an email from a person inviting me to join a Yahoo Group being moderated by her. Her email id is gupta_priya03@yahoo.com. I thought that my goddess Swagata Gupta would have sent me that invitation. I think she is trying to communicate with me somehow. I sent three emails to her explaining what happened after I left ICFAI University Press on 10 April, 2006. This effort is to make her believe that still I love her and that I want to marry her. Went to sleep by 11:30 for my dreams.
18 December (Monday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Listened to the songs of Telugu film “Yogi” of Prabhas on my Walkman for half an hour. Walked down Shivam Road by 8:30. Had my breakfast in Tasty Bite Restaurant by 9:30. Took a city bus by 11:00. Got off it at a circle after Punjagutta Crossroads and started walking. Reached the office of Apex Covantage by 11:45. It is situated by Road No. 2 in Banjara Hills. They are in Knowledge Process Outsourcing (KPO) business. They conducted a written test and interview for me for the position of content analyst. They offered to pay me 10000 rupees a month, which I used to get from my previous employer. I felt disgraced and so avoided accepting this job. Thence walked to the bus stop at Yousufguda Check Post. Had a glass of almond flavoured milk there at a pushcart. Reached Shivam Road by 3:00 by bus. Paid 208 rupees at the Reliance outlet there towards the monthly charges of my Reliance cellphone. Spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café from 5:30 to 7:00. There was an email from Shakti Enterprise, a translation agency in Mumbai. I joined them as an English-Telugu translator once. They assign me some work soon. There was no reply from gupta_priya03@yahoo.com. I don’t know whether it is my Swagata Gupta’s email id or not. Had a plate of Chicken Biryani for 55 rupees at Tasty Bite Restaurant using the meal vouchers of Ticket Restaurant presented to me by my cousin Kiran. Listened to radio for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
19 December (Tuesday)
Woke up by 6:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:00. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:30. Swati accepted my interest in her. I felt very happy about it. I created my bridegroom profile on simplymarry.com portal two days ago. Its ad appeared on my blog site recently. Thus I knew about it. Swati is 24. She is from New Delhi. She has inspiring features. I am deeply impressed by her beauty. She sent me an automated message stating that she too liked my profile and that she wants to know more about me. Today is one of the happiest days in my life because an angle of beauty liked me. Borrowed 500 rupees from my hostel mate and bought a demand draft in State Bank of India at Bagh Amberpet. Typed out a covering letter at Global View Internet café. Hired an auto rickshaw and rushed to Kachiguda railway station along with my friend Anjaneya Raju. Booked an envelope at the Speed Post section in the post office there. It was addressed to the Times House in New Delhi. I have to pay 500 rupees for a three-month membership on this marriage portal. I cannot send personal messages to brides there without becoming a paid member on it. I told my friends, my brother Srinivas and my cousin Kiran about Swati. I like to marry her at the earliest if God approves my desire in this direction. She is an irresistible beauty for me. Her face is very cute. Her qualities inspire me as a writer. She is a goddess of beauty and innocence. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
20 December (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu and The Hindu for one hour. Went to Tasty Bite Restaurant by 9:30 and had breakfast along with my friend Anjaneya Raju. Went to a nearby Internet café and got three of my old photos scanned. Then went to Global View Internet café. Uploaded these three photos into the photo album section on my bridegroom profile on www.simplymarry.com website. It is to allow my darling Swati in New Delhi to look at my photos and keep loving me. They activate my Silver Membership on it once they receive the DD I sent them yesterday. Till then I cannot send a personal email to my beauty queen Swati. I did not find changes in her profile today. She must be waiting for my response to take this process further. May Lord Krishna keep her happy. There was no reply from Swagata Gupta. Spent talking with Rajani Kumar Raju from 12:30 to 2:30. Had my parcel lunch along with my hostel mates by 3:00. Listened to an interview with my master S P Bala Subrahmanyam on Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM till 5:00. Went to Global View Internet café by 7:00. Saw the two photos of Swati on the marriage website and felt rejuvenated. She is a magnet of beauty. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles and a glass of curd by 9:00. My cousin Narendra Varma called me up and informed that he got first class marks in the first semester of his B.Tech. course. I felt very happy at his success in these second year exams. Cold is strong outside. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.
21 December (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could not sleep for more than four hours. Telugu film actor Venkatesh visited me in my dream. He snapped my face with a cellphone camera and left that place. Felt very happy for seeing him. Read Eenadu and Sitara from 7:00 to 9:30. Went to a nearby photo studio and ordered the print of six of my photos. Had my breakfast by 10:30 in Tasty Bite Restaurant. Came back to my room and spent discussing English grammar with my hostel mate Bala Rama Raju for one hour. Had my parcel lunch by 2:00 in our hostel. Went to the color lab at Vidya Nagar and collected my photos. They did not come well. I regretted it. Went to Global View Internet café by 3:40. Contacted an operator in the office of The Times of India in New Delhi through their Live Chat facility and knew that my DD of 500 rupees meant for my membership on www.simplymarry.com did not reach them yet. I am unable to contact Swati, my goddess of beauty in New Delhi, for this reason. I scanned her two photos on this website and felt blissful. Went to the abode of my friend Rajani Kumar Raju by 6:00. We spent talking for one hour. We went to Shivam Road and had supper in a hotel there by 8:00. We spent at Global View Internet café from 8:30 to 10:30. I created his bridegroom profile on simplymarry.com website adding five of his photos there. Then we scanned the profiles of 250 brides on it. He liked four of them. I have Swati for me. So, no need to contact others. Went to sleep by 11:00.
22 December (Friday)
Woke up by 5:00. Last night Swagata Gupta visited me in my dream. We greeted each other waving hands and left for school in our respective directions. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Spent listening to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM for one hour. Had a plate of Upma for nine rupees at Tasty Bite Restaurant by 10:00. Spent listening to Radio Mirchi for two hours. My friend Rajani and I had lunch in Tasty Bite by 2:00. Then we went to an Internet café and checked the marriage website www.simplymarry.com. Chatted live with Ananya and knew that they received my DD of 500 rupees. When we tried to pay the membership fee using the credit card of Rajani, it failed. He liked a girl very much on this website. He wants to marry her after becoming a paid member on it like me. We scanned the profiles of some brides on it for some time. I checked my email by 4:00 and found that my silver membership got activated on it. Typed out a long personal message and sent it to Swati in New Delhi through this website. I wrote her how deeply I love her and how early I want to marry her. I think I can win her love for me. I felt very happy for contacting her this way. I would marry her soon by the grace of my Lord Krishna. She is an angel of beauty. I cannot stay away from her for long. Evening enjoyed travelling in the car of Rajani along with him. We had supper in a small hotel at Gandhi Nagar by 8:15. Listened to Radio Mirchi from 8:30 to 11:15 in my guest room. Went to sleep by 11:30.
23 December (Saturday)
Woke up by 4:30. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went out and had my breakfast by 9:30. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:00. Spent there browsing Internet till 1:00. I actually waited for the email from my goddess of beauty Swati in New Delhi. I wrote her that I like her 100% and that I decided to marry her at the earliest. I found her nose and eyes very beautiful. She is an Aryan beauty. I expressed my love for her frankly. My first message to her was so explicit and crazy that she takes me as a lunatic. I found that she checked her profile on the marriage site even today. She must have read the message I sent her yesterday evening. I wrote to her that she is one of the great beauties of India. May Lord Krishna unite us soon. From 4:00 to 12:00 spent in the company of my friend Rajani Kumar Raju. I enjoyed this time sitting in his car when he was driving it. By 5:30 I bought two tickets for 80 rupees at cinema Sri Ramana in Bagh Amberpet. We spent watching television in his rented abode for one hour. We went to Global View Internet café by 7:00. He expressed interest in some bride profiles posted on the marriage site where I found my darling Swati. He liked a beauty there a lot. We had lunch in Shirdi Sai Baba Hotel by 8:20. We saw the Telugu film “Raakhee” from 9:00 to 12:00. I enjoyed watching this film very much. Returned to KSS Hostel by 12:10. Went to sleep by 12:20 for my dreams.
24 December (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 5:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Had my breakfast by 10:30. Spent listening to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM for some time. Hired an auto rickshaw and went to RTC Crossroads Junction by 1:30. Had my lunch in a roadside hotel there. Then moved to cinema Mini Odeon. Balcony tickets were already sold for the Telugu film “Abaddham”. It is the 101st film directed by eminent Tamil film director K Balachander. I felt disappointed about it. Came back to the bus stop near cinema Sandhya. Took a city bus and reached Shivam Road. Spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café from 2:15 to 7:30. I am waiting for email from Swati. Now she is not a paid member on simplymarry.com marriage site. I think she did not read my personal message on it yet. I sent another email to her through this website requesting her to become a paid member immediately on it and respond to me. I saw her two photos on this site many times and felt relieved. I found that she checked her profile on this website even today. May Lord Krishna make her contact me soon. Came back to hostel by 8:00. I did not feel like eating anything due to depression. Had some biscuits and two glasses of cold water. Spent listening to radio for one hour. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju came by 10:00. I told him that three brides rejected his interest in them. He is also a member on this website. He felt relieved to that extent. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.
25 December (Monday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 7:30. Went out and had my breakfast by 8:00. Scanned Eenadu for 10 minutes at this eatery. Spent talking with my hostel mates in my guest room for some time. One of our former hostel mates came by 10:00. He is doing a job now in Bangalore. We felt happy knowing about the progress in his life. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju and I went to Global View Internet café by 12:30. Three brides already rejected his expression of interest in them. He justified their decision. I pitied their move. He is earning well. He can give them comfortable life. Even today we tried to pay his membership fee online using his credit card details. It failed. I found that my sweetheart Swati did not become a paid member yet on it. I think she could not read my personal messages sent to her due to it. I felt very disappointed about it. I cannot understand what stopped her from becoming a paid member instantly on it and contacting me. Had my lunch in Kakatiya Mess by 2:30 along with my friend Rajani. Spent talking with my hostel mates for some time. Spent browsing Internet at Global View Internet café from 5:00 to 8:30. Saw the two photos of Swati on the marriage site for about 20 times. I cannot do more than this until she contacts me. Had my supper by 9:50 along with my friend Anjaneya Raju in his hostel room. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.
26 December (Tuesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:00. Spent listening to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM for one hour. Went out, got breakfast packed for me and bought a copy of Eenadu. Returned to my guest room and spent reading Eenadu for some time. Went to Global View Internet café by 9:30. Entered simplymarry.com site and chatted live with Ananya. I knew that a free member can read and respond to the personalized message of a paid member on it. I understood that Swati already read my two messages sent to her through this website. I sent another message to her today. A passionate dreamer like me cannot withstand silence from his beloved for long. When one is good in character and honest in expressing one’s deepest notions, one need not fear to communicate with another person, though their familiarity is very little. In today’s message, I wrote her how I am suffering due to silence from her. I have to reach the pain of my psyche to her to relieve myself to some extent from that burden of lovesickness. May Lord Krishna make her love and marry me soon. Today I typed out and posted a blog titled “A Depressive Dreamer” on my blog site. I took 300 minutes to create it. Had an ice cream for my lunch and returned to my guest room by 4:00. Listened to FM radio for some time. Had a plate of Chicken Noodles and a glass of curd by 6:30. Spent listening to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM from 7:00 to 10:00. This is to relieve myself from the depression caused by Swati in New Delhi. Modern girls like playing with sensitive and innocent guys like me. Went to sleep by 10:30.
27 December (Wednesday)
Woke up by 5:00. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Cold water is biting my body when bathing. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Today I saw a suitable job vacancy for me in The Times of India. It is for copy editor with the newspaper Economic Times in Kolkata. It is the city of my goddess Swagata Gupta and so decided to apply for it online. Today I spent most of the day in my guest room talking with my friend Anjaneya Raju and listening to Radio Mirchi Hyderabad FM. This morning my cousin Murali brought my audio cassettes of Telugu film songs from his abode in Vanasthalipuram. Once I kept them there when going home. By 5:20 went to Global View Internet café and spent there browsing Internet till 7:30. There was no reply from Swati in New Delhi. She checked her bride profile on this marriage site even today. I sent a long message to her today in which only the phrase “I Love You” is repeated many times. Had my supper in my guest room by 8:30. My cousin Kiran came here by 9:15 on his bike from his office. He said that perhaps Swati did not like to respond to me for some reasons after reading my personal messages to her or that her mother must be thinking about it. I told him that I have only 20 rupees on me now. He gave me a booklet of Ticket Restaurant’s meal vouchers worth 750 rupees and 150 rupees to be spent by me until he gets his salary for this month. I am seeing Lord Krishna in him now. He left for his hostel by 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my sweet dreams.
28 December (Thursday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Went to Tasty Bite Restaurant by Shivam Road and had my breakfast along with my friend Anjaneya Raju. Spent reading Telugu film weekly Sitara for one hour in my guest room. Went to Global View Internet café by 10:00 and spent there browsing Internet for three hours. Today also there was no reply from Swati. I sent a message of one page to her informing her that still I am in love with her and that I want to marry her. I don’t know why she is not responding to me. Yet I felt like writing something to her. I love Swati. I like to please her with my messages to her. It is because she is the first beauty that expressed interest in me. Today I knew that the staff of Google in Hyderabad may conduct an interview for me in a few days. This happy news relieved me a lot. Had my lunch in my room by 2:30 along with my friend Anji. Spent listening to radio for some time. By 5:00 started walking to RTC Crossroads. Bought a ticket for 35 rupees by 5:30. Saw the Telugu film “Abaddham”, directed by noted Tamil director K Balachander, from 6:00 to 8:30, in cinema Mini Odeon. This screen is small. I regretted it. It is one of the great films I have seen. I liked this story and treatment a lot. Balachander proved that he remains as a genius forever. I liked the beauty and acting of Vimala Raman in it a lot. Had a plate of Vegetable Biryani for 10 rupees at a roadside hotel there and started walking back to our hostel. Went to sleep by 10:30.
29 December (Friday)
Woke up by 6:30. Freshened up myself by 7:00. Spent reading Eenadu for one hour. Borrowed 1000 rupees from my friend Rajani Kumar Raju, 500 rupees from another friend Murali and paid 1550 rupees to our hostel supervisor today towards the rent for my guest room for this month. Walked down Shivam Road and withdrew 100 rupees from the ATM Centre of HDFC Bank by Shivam Temple. Had my breakfast in Tasty Bite Restaurant along with my hostel mates by 9:30. Thence moved to Global View Internet café to send a message to my cute kid Swati in New Delhi. I fell in love with her and so habituated myself to sending messages to her daily. She is my sweetheart. I have to keep in touch with her. Today I wrote to her about my stand on sexual aspects of human life. She checked her profile on this marriage site before me today. I am sure that she is reading my messages. Her brilliant beauty is making me write more. Had my lunch by 2:30 in our hostel. Spent listening to melodious Telugu film songs, playing audio cassettes on my Walkman, from 4:00 to 6:00. My cousin Kiran came here by 7:30. We had Chicken Biryani in Tasty Bite by 8:00 along with my hostel mates. We two reached cinema Mini Odeon at RTC Crossroads by 8:30. We saw the Telugu film “Abaddham”, directed by K Balachander, from 9:00 to 11:30 in it. He too enjoyed watching it. He lent me 3000 rupees by 11:45 withdrawing it from the ATM Center of ICICI Bank. He lent me 10000 rupees till now. Went to sleep by 12:00.
30 December (Saturday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Went out and had my breakfast by 7:30. Spent reading Eenadu for half an hour. Went to Global View Internet café by 9:30. Typed out a message of one page to send to Swati in New Delhi. I lost this message when copying it. It deeply hurt me. Meanwhile my cousin Kiran came there. We searched for an apartment to rent in on www.to-let.co.in website. We found this website useless in many ways. He was disappointed at it and left for his hostel. Then I typed out another message of one page for Swati and sent it to her by 1:00. This message pleases her a lot. Had Boneless Chicken Biryani and ice cream in Tasty Bite by 2:30 along with my cousin Shiva. Rested in my room for some time. Went to Global View Internet café by 4:30. Typed out a message for Swati and sent it to her by 6:00. I clarified that I won’t send messages to her after this. I loved her and wanted to marry her. I cannot bear silence from her. This farewell message alerts her to respond to me if she really loves me like me. I pray my Lord Krishna to make her love me. I admired her beauty and wanted to become her lifelong sweetheart. I felt disturbed sending this message to her. Returned to my guest room with sad feelings. Rested on bed for two hours. Spent talking with Rajani Kumar Raju for half an hour. Had supper in my room by 9:30 along with my friend Bala Rama Raju. May God bless my darling Swati and direct her in a bright path. Went to sleep by 10:30.
31 December (Sunday)
Woke up by 5:30. Freshened up myself by 6:30. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. My cousin Kiran came here by 9:30. We went to a rental agency at Chikkadpally by 10:00 on his bike. We paid 200 rupees to him as advance. His agent showed us three single bed room portions situated in Chikkadpally, Himayat Nagar and Gandhi Nagar. We liked one portion very much but its monthly rent is 5000 rupees. It looks larger for two bachelors. We went to another rental agency by 12:00. He told us to come in the evening to see portions. We had Chicken Biryani and vanilla ice cream at Tasty Bite by 12:45. Spent typing out a blog on computer in Global View Internet café for four hours and posted it on my blog site by 5:00. It is a talk between Deepthi and me (fiction) set at the airport in Begumpet. It amounted to five pages. When I checked the photo album of Swati on simplymarry.com site, I found two of my photos there. I felt blissful. Perhaps my darling Swati would have done so to hint me that she too loves me and that she wants to marry me soon. My cousin Kiran could not see this wonder. Had my supper in Devi Mess by Shivam Circle by 8:00. Spent listening to my favourite Telugu film songs on my Walkman, lying on my bed, in my guest room, till 12:00. I thought that Swati would call me up from New Delhi when the New Year steps in. This is a very happy year in my life. I improved significantly as a writer. I enjoyed my life as a dreamer. I am grateful to my Lord Krishna. Night had a heavenly dream. Went to sleep by 12:20.
© 2011 Datla Chiranjeevi Raju
