MY PERSONAL DIARY OF 2014

1 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 3:00. I could not sleep thereafter. Typed out and edited the content of 31 December, 2013, on my computer. Posted the content of my personal diary of 2013 on my blog site dcraju.blogspot.in by 5:12. Also typed out and posted a blog titled “Dear Arvind” on my blog site virahini.blogspot.in by 8:00. It’s my short letter to Arvind Kejriwal. He is an admirable person. He is a star of contemporary Indian politics. By 10:30 went to the rented abode of Datla Ramesh in Elamanchili in an auto rickshaw. We brought their old LG washing machine home by 11:20. Srijana wants one now to wash the soiled clothes of our little baby. They soil clothes a lot during the first three months. I cannot buy a new piece now spending about 20,000 rupees. This is the piece of Sowjanya. We have to get it repaired a little. Recently they bought a new washing machine. By 1:00 went to Payakaraopeta and Tuni to buy some things. Bought three shirts and three pants for Anand from a roadside vendor, spending 720 rupees. Bought a small 2014 diary for 60 rupees for Srijana. Got my Airtel cellphone usage recharged paying 220 rupees. Also enabled it for one paisa per second tariff for 90 days paying him 55 rupees for it. Paid 3,500 rupees to my portion owner towards rent for the last month. By 3:00 Srijana and her folks returned from the teak plantation at Marripalem. They brought some food items from there. By 4:30 Srijana, Anand and I exchanged all the clothes of this boy at the store of vendor. I bought less size ones. Night ironed three pairs of my clothes. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

2 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Subba Rao told me that one should not use material in one’s classroom while teaching. He told me so twice or thrice since my communicative English teaching classes were started here. I felt like educating him on the aspects of teaching and presentation. Rushed to the place of Srinivasa Varma and typed out a one-page explanation note on this concept. I wrote in which contexts material should be used in teaching assignments and in which contexts we need not use material at all. Took a printout of it. Put it on the table of Subba Rao in his absence there. In the morning class, I presented my PPT titled “How to Improve Your English Language Skills?” for the two hours from 11:00 to 1:00. I did the same in the afternoon class also from 3:00 to 5:00. They enjoyed listening to me attentively. Had my lunch in the dining hall of Boys Hostel. By 5:50 Subba Rao talked with me in his cabin. He said that he was offended by the statement I put on his table this morning. He told me not to give him such pieces of writing hereafter in response to his oral discussion of some concepts and ideas. In course of this discussion, he looked egoistic and childish to me. I told him that I am a thinker. I offered to email some of my blogs to him to enable him to understand me better. He said that he does not read them. He said that we should change according to the present trends of teaching and society. I told him that thinkers lead the process of change intellectually and creatively. Went to sleep by 10:00.

3 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:45 gave 18,000 rupees to my brother Sambha at the turning point of Upamaaka in Nakkapalli standing on the footboard of a Hetero bus on my way to this company. Earlier my father borrowed money, for me, from the Visakha Graameena Bank at Adduroad pledging some gold ornaments of Srijana. Now we owe them 57,000 rupees and interest on it for five months or so. I allotted 10,000 rupees to clear part of this gold loan. Srijana lent me 8,000 rupees to clear this loan. We asked my father to clear part of this loan paying this money there today. Recently Srijana paid 1,500 rupees to the folks of Canossa School towards the last term fee in this academic year for Anand. Next month I have to pay 10,000 rupees to her. From 11:00 to 1:00, I taught the basics of English and some expressions of functional English to the learners of first batch in Boys Hostel. I used the present second year undergraduate English textbook titled English for Empowerment to teach some functional English expressions. Today the afternoon class did not take place as an important meeting was conducted in this room by the management of Hetero. Today I told HR executive Sirish Reddy that I had loss of pay for one day last month due to their mistake. He said he would look into that matter. My father said that I still owe 41,000 rupees to the folks of bank at Adduroad. Afternoon my in-laws, Jagannadha Raju and Venkata Ramanamma came to my abode from the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. Evening, by 5:45, I wrote 16 lines in Telugu in our office for the memento of Srijana. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

4 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. The father of Srijana, her paternal aunt Venkata Ramanamma and paternal uncle Jagannadha Raju left for Annavaram by 4:00. Thence her relatives disperse to their respective destinations. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 on the bike of the warden of Boys Hostel. Took my diary, a pair of casual clothes, my camera and five biscuit packs in a cloth bag along with me. Put my cellphone also in it in ‘switched off’ mode. Today I conducted quiz for the first batch of learners. I asked them the spelling, meanings and sentence usage of about 100 words. Gave each of the two groups three marks if they did well in answering the word related three questions. We enjoyed this quiz. Afternoon taught basic English ideas and expressions of functional English to the second batch of learners from 3:00 to 5:00. By 6:30 Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma and I started back from the company on his bike. He dropped me near our house in Peda Gummuluru on his way to Darlapudi. Had my supper by 7:30. My mother prepared plantain fry for me. Recently my father and brother Sambha got a shelter constructed in the front yard of our house with sheets of asbestos spending about 28,000 rupees. Till now we used palm tree leaves for this shelter. They get dried up and lose shape within months. They need replacement once a year or so. Now our front yard is looking beautiful. We can sit comfortably under it and talk. Rain and heat can’t affect it much. My father got this money from the sale of the buffalo, which he reared for long. Spent talking with Sambha for one hour. Slept in his house by 9:30 feeling the winds of advanced winter.

5 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 8:00 my brother Sambha and I went to our mango garden at hills on his bike. Trees are blossoming. We spent some time at the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy. On the way back, collected a cushion pouch from Swati in Ramayyapatnam for Sankeerthana. It is the item of my cousin Sirisha of Durgada. We use it to carry babies comfortably and safely during journeys. My mother offered me lunch with fish soup by 11:00. My parents, Sambha and I spent talking about our domestic affairs for one hour. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 12:30 at Adduroad and reached Payakaraopeta by 1:10. Got my 16 Telugu lines of text typed up and designed by 3:30 at an Internet café in Payakaraopeta. Gave him 100 rupees for this type and design work. Got a print of it given out at Sai Surya Digital Lab in Tuni by 4:30 on a 10x12 photo paper. He charged 75 rupees for it. Got a glass and wooden frame fitted on it at a frame maker’s store in Tuni by 4:30. It turned into a beautiful birthday memento for Srijana. By 5:00 brought two tins of purified water from the nearby water sale point, on my scooty. By 7:30 uploaded the JPEG version of the birthday memento of Srijana into my blog site. Scheduled it to be published on it by 8:00 am IST on the 9^th of this month. Emailed it to some of my familiar folks. This time I used somewhat formal words in this memento. I choose some words to suit my ideas and feelings. My Telugu vocabulary is low. Showed this memento to Srijana by 8:00. It’s cold. I am catching a cold quite often. Slept by 9:30.

6 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I discussed Noun, Pronoun and Adjective in the two classes in the morning and afternoon. By 3:00, in the afternoon, Srijana, her maternal grandparents, Anand and Sankeerthana left for Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw of their familiar fellow. They took a lot of luggage also in it. Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana went there to spend up to Sankranti. The maternal grandparents of Srijana would have stayed here for about 80 days. Lakshmi Bharati did extraordinary service to her sick and bedridden husband during these days. She served Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and me also. She stayed here this long only because her husband was helpless and had to be taken to a doctor in Tuni frequently. My father and mother complained to me twice or thrice about their staying here for long. They said that their son Sekhar should have taken his sick father to his rented abode in Tuni. I treat Sekhar like my brother because he is such gentleman. His wife Revathi also showers a lot of affection upon me always. Their present abode is in the second floor of a building. It is not as spacious as mine. My parents cannot understand these things as outsiders. They think that it would be a burden to me if many folks stay here. We should have a little goodness as human beings. This is our real tribute to God. He creates and guides us always with immeasurable love and kindness for us. We should have a little of that kindness as His heirs. By 7:45 Surya Kumari offered me supper in their abode. Slept by 9:30.

7 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I taught Verb, Adverb and Preposition to the two batches of Hetero learners in the morning and afternoon in a training hall at Boys Hostel. They decided to keep 35 learners in each batch when they scheduled these classes. Now there are no these many students also in these classes. Some of them are absent every day. They have to attend some important meetings and training classes in their plants. Some doze off when I am teaching. Some can’t come because of being sick or on leave. Thus I am unable to see the kind of discipline I desire in these communicative English classes. It shows lack of effective managerial skills in the superiors concerned. All are interested in the pursuit of learning English in Hetero complex. The management failed to send the scheduled learners also to these classes in this scenario. I am typing out every point of English grammar on the white projector screen using a computer keyboard. There is no monitor. Typing out everything on screen is good to avoid the learners writing errors based on what a teacher told them orally in a classroom. I can deliver more, typing out, using a computer, than writing on a blackboard with a chalk piece. By 2:45 prepared a question paper with 50 questions on parts of speech. In modern English, we call them ‘word class’. By 6:00 got 65 of this question paper copies printed out in our department. Today Surya Kumari offered breakfast and supper to me. Slept by 9:30.

8 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I taught Conjunction and Interjection to the learners of two batches. Conducted a test also to them on parts of speech. We call it ‘word class’ in modern English.  I gave 50 sentences. Underlined one word in each of these sentences. They have to identify to which word class that particular word belongs and write it on the short line given against it. I told them the right answers towards the end of this test. They evaluated their test papers on their own. Most of them did well in this test. All the scheduled learners did not attend either of these two classes. About 10 learners are absent to every class almost every day. My teaching schedule is like a super-fast train. It arrives and departs like an automated dictator. Those that can board it in time are lucky ones. Others are unfortunate ones. Returned home by 7:45 by bus. Today, from 4:00 to 5:00, evening, the cradle ceremony of my baby daughter Sankeerthana took place in Viswanadhapuram at the house of the maternal grandparents of Srijana. They decorated a small cradle for this ceremony. They lay the baby in it for the first time after its birth. Married women bless the baby formally wishing him or her long and happy life. From this day onwards, the baby mostly rests and sleeps in the cradle being swung by his or her mother or others. They do it on an auspicious day. Srijana shot this ceremony with our Sony digital camera. Her cousin Sunil also shot it with his camera. I missed it as a father of the baby. Slept by 10:00.

9 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Rushed to Y Junction without having breakfast. Not a driver stopped his bus at this point between 8:10 and 8:20. It shows the commitment of management towards bus commuters. Some employees travel standing in these buses. About eight employees were there failing to get into some bus. We all hired an auto rickshaw and reached Hetero complex by 9:05. Each of us gave him 20 rupees for this service. Today I taught Present Tense to the learners of both batches at Boys Hostel in the morning and afternoon. Returned home by 7:05 by bus. Surya Kumari offered me supper by 7:40 in their abode. It is the 24^th birthday of Srijana today. She enters her 25^th year of life today. She celebrated it normally in Viswanadhapuram. She wore the new sari, which I bought in Payakaraopeta recently for her to wear on the occasion of the naming ceremony of Sankeerthana. She did not eat or drink anything special as she is on special diet regimen considering the age of the baby and breastfeeding. I wished her by 7:25 at night over phone. Morning I remain somewhat busy shaving, writing my diary, scanning Eenadu, bathing, getting dressed up and having my breakfast hurriedly. I have to do it all in about two hours’ time. This is perhaps scheduled and inevitable routine of many employees in this world. May Lord Krishna bless and guide Srijana, Sagar and Sankeerthana always. My happiness lies in their bliss. I allow Srijana to be free always. I think liberty is the best gift we can offer anybody. Slept by 10:00.

10 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I taught Past Tense to Hetero learners in the morning and afternoon in a training hall at Boys Hostel. By 10:30 our manager Subba Rao came to my classroom when I was preparing teaching material on the screen related to projector. Yesterday also he sat in my class for some time while I was teaching parts of Present Tense to my scheduled Hetero learners. Today he asked me to open that word file of teaching material. He expressed doubts and asked questions about some example sentences related to different categories of Present Tense. He used logic and common sense in this short interrogative session with me. I satisfied his mind to some extent. In fact, English grammar is not a system of 100% perfection and accuracy. One grammatical unit plays different confusing and misleading roles in different contexts. For example, we should not use verbs of perception like see, look, appear, seem and understand in continuous tense form but we add the ‘ing’ to these words also in many oral and written contexts of usage of English. Very few are using 100% grammatically correct English in this world now. In this scenario, 90% English users, who use ordinary or good English, cannot really understand the spoken and written English of 10% extraordinary English users. Every language has grammar rules and regulations but we regularly violate them because our logical mind does not accept those vague conditions. The idea and practice of standard language use is always complex. Slept by 10:30.

11 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I taught Future Tense to the two batches of Hetero learners. Today there was a little drop in their attendance. The Sankranti vacation mood hit them earlier than necessary. Today I conducted a test to them on Tenses. Gave them 50 sentences. They have to identify to which sub category of tenses it belongs. Each right answer gets one mark. Most of them did well in this test. I told them that I would not conduct classes on next Monday and Thursday. The management declared Sankranti and Kanuma holidays for all general shift staff. By 5:30 went to my manager Subba Rao with my filled up leave application form. I want leave on the 16^th of this month. I have nothing to do on this date as an English instructor even if I come to company. It is my 100% confirmed and finalized decision. He refused to approve this leave, signing it. He said that he would approve it later considering the exigencies. Again he proved that he is mentally retarded person. I did not kick him because he is a hypocrite. He needs slow but powerful treatment. Returned home by 7:05. Srijana brought Sankeerthana to Tuni by 7:30 in a car driven by her cousin Manoj. She showed the baby to Dr. Ramesh and left for Viswanadhapuram by 9:30 in the same car. The baby got a little health problem. Saw the Telugu film “Nenokkadine” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna from 9:30 to 12:30. Mahesh acted and danced very well in it. Sukumar made it into a very interesting and exciting film. Slept by 12:45.

12 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Washed a pair of clothes by 8:30. Went to Tuni by 10:00. Bought some medicines and other items for Srijana and Sankeerthana worth about 500 rupees. When I was going to the rented abode of Sekhar, my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and his wife Vimala appeared to me on their scooty. Talked with them for two minutes. I don’t like seeing and talking with Vimala. I developed this impression about her after observing her character for 20 years. She is a psychopath. She craves gold, money and assets. They are more important to her than her husband, children or others. Recently I told my uncle not to bring her to my abode on the occasion of the naming ceremony of Sankeerthana. I invited him only to this occasion over phone. He too did not come. Perhaps he must have got hurt as I clearly told him not to bring her. A poisonous and dangerous snake also looks common to a snake charmer but not to others. We can’t stand the presence of a snake in our abode like a professional. Vimala turns the atmosphere of any formal occasion into an unbearable one with her talk about gold, money and other unrelated topics. Had prawn biryani by 12:30 in the abode of Sekhar at Tuni. Revathi prepared it well. Spent there till 1:30 reading books and dailies. By 4:30 ironed two pairs of my clothes. By 6:30 put some of my belongings in a bag minding my scheduled journey to Gollalagunta. By 7:00 Surya Kumari offered me supper with fish soup. By 7:30 applied ‘Classic’ black henna paste to my moustache and part of hair. Took a bath by 9:00. Slept by 10:00.

13 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a Hetero bus at Y Junction by 8:15 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Took my bag and belongings also with me. Today Subba Rao did not come to office. His superior would have granted him leave today without thinking about exigencies. He celebrates three holidays and one leave in this process. He is a selfish and narrow-minded idiot from this perspective. He refused to sign my one day leave application form the other day to exhibit his ego and false prestige. He thinks as if he is the governor of Reserve Bank of India. Then I am the President of World Bank. If he is a character artist, I am a director. Today I typed up teaching material in the training hall at Boys Hostel from the VGS English Grammar and Composition using the projector screen. Typed up content related to Direct and Indirect Speech for about four hours. I teach it to Hetero learners in three classes. Also typed up content related to Active and Passive Voice for one hour. Stopped working by 4:45. Morning Soma Sundaram signed my one-hour permission form. Swiped my attendance by 5:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 5:10 and reached Nakkapalli by 5:20. Took a Tadepalli Gudem bound Express bus by 5:30. Fare is 74 rupees for Jaggampeta. It is a new and strong bus of APSRTC. The driver drove it like a car. Reached Jaggampeta by 7:30. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Gollalagunta by 8:00. Had my supper by 8:15 in the house of my youngest maternal aunt Raja Kumari. Slept by 9:45.

14 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. They are celebrating Bhogi today in Gollalagunta. Some folks lit fire to an old and big trunk by 7:00 at a nearby place. Took a bath by 8:00 and wore a pair of old clothes. My brothers Sambha and Srinivas came here by 11:30 from Peda Gummuluru and Visakhapatnam. They brought Suhas, Kranti and Anjaneya Raju from there. My parents had already reached here. The grandchildren of Kolukuluri Subba Raju and Butchiyyamma decided to meet here in Gollalagunta this year to spend happily for two days on the occasion of Sankranti and Kanuma. Some creatures are yet to arrive. My cousin Murali, his wife Ramya and their son Suraj came to Gollalagunta by 12:00. We all started to the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju in Jaggampeta in the car of Mantena Krishnam Raju by 1:00. My cousin Bala had already reached here. My cousin Kiran and his wife are here. We all spent talking among ourselves till 4:30. We finalized the marriage of Bala with the younger daughter of my uncle Datla Rama Raju during this talk. We returned to Gollalagunta by 5:00. My cousin Narendra Varma, Kavita, Suhas and I went to the place of desks of dice in Gollalagunta by 5:30. We played this game of gambling for about one hour. I bet five rupees each time. I won 100 rupees. Night my cousin Narendra Varma conducted some games for the Kshatriya children in this part of Gollalagunta. I spent talking with my folks at the house of my maternal uncle Varma during this time. I actively participated in it. Slept in the house of my maternal aunt Satyavati by 10:30.

15 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is Kanuma today. My uncles donated rice and a few similar gifts to native priest on this occasion. It is a local Hindu tradition. This is to satisfy the souls of their dead parents in the other world. Today my cousin Anantha Lakshmi and others prepared Chicken Biryani and some other dishes for the guests. Today my brothers played cards with their familiar folks throughout the day. Srinivas is more addicted to playing cards than Sambha. He can’t control his thoughts on choosing his partners of game and the amount of money to be bet. There are different levels of players of cards. Laymen can’t play this tantalizing game with experts. Sambha does not play with experts nor bets beyond his financial capacity. Yesterday and today he would have lost about 500 rupees. Today I played cards with my familiar folks for about four hours during the day and night. I bet 10 rupees for each game. I lost about 150 rupees. Evening my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma, her husband Pakalapati Venkatapathi Raju, her daughter Parvati, their son-in-law Anantha Varma and their children came here by 7:30 from Durgada. Night my cousin Narendra Varma and his friends conducted some games and competitions for children and adults of our community in this part of Gollalagunta. Rice flour designs (Muggulu in Telugu), musical chair and hitting blown balloons with blindfold status are some of them. Watched them for one hour. Evening, Srinivas and Suhas left for Visakhapatnam, by 5:30, from Jaggampeta. Slept by 12:30.

16 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Played cards with my familiar folks from 10:00 to 12:30. Lost about 200 rupees. Had my lunch by 1:30. Took a sharing auto rickshaw in Gollalagunta by 1:40 and reached Jaggampeta by 1:50. Took an ordinary bus by 1:55 and reached Tuni by 3:30. The bus fare is 43 rupees. Reached my rented abode in Devi Nagar by 3:45. By 5:00 my parents took 41,500 rupees from me on the NH-16, sitting in a car of our distant relatives. They were going to Peda Gummuluru in this car from Gollalagunta. I gave this money to them to enable my father to repay my gold loan with the Grameena Bank at Adduroad and take the four gold ornaments of Srijana back from it. Recently Srijana sent 40,000 rupees to me from Viswanadhapuram. Her father gave it to her to clear this gold loan. I have to repay him later. I added 1,500 rupees to this amount of money. By 7:30 collected a parcel from Gunturu Prasada Raju. Srijana sent biryani and chicken curry for me from Viswanadhapuram. From 8:00 to 8:30 washed two pairs of my clothes. My stay in Gollalagunta failed to satisfy me. My cousins Vasu, Narendra Varma and Hari of Durgada were the initiators of the idea of family meet in Gollalagunta. All the scheduled invitees did not attend this event on the given dates. Even those that attended it did not do anything special suitable to this occasion. I don’t like participating in such formal events, which lack order and time management. I regret going to Gollalagunta this time. Slept by 10:00.

17 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I taught the basics of Direct and Indirect Speech to Hetero learners in the training hall at Boys Hostel. All the scheduled learners did not attend these classes. Still some are on Sankranti related leaves. Morning I took my filled up leave application form to our manager Subba Rao for his approval and signature. This is for the leave, which I took yesterday. He said that I did not inform him about it yesterday over phone or by email. He added that it is a manner of respect for one’s boss, which I failed to practice in this regard. I took this leave application form to him last Saturday itself but he refused to sign it then. He did not have respect for me that day. He signed it saying that he was doing it out of respect for me. He struggles to get respect from others but he does not respect all out of his intuition. He pretends respect before his superiors. He applies his faculty of ego and false prestige before his subordinates to let them realize that he is their boss. It means others don’t respect him voluntarily because he lacks that status and stature as a boss or person. We should not beg respect from others but command it through the power of our standards and values as admirable individuals. I remained silent when Subba Rao was talking with me as I know that his ulterior motive was to insult me somehow. Night had 15 biscuits for my supper. Slept by 9:30.

18 January (Saturday) 

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:07 by bus. Today I taught 50 example sentences of Direct and Indirect Speech to Hetero learners in the morning and afternoon. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and my in-laws came to my abode by 3:00 this afternoon from Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw. They brought many festive dishes, sugarcanes, fruits and vegetables from there. Sankeerthana is doing well. Evening they fitted a cradle related spring to the ceiling in our hall. They tied a sari to the both ends of this spring to use it as a cradle for the baby. They place cloth made cushion pieces in the middle of this sari. When one exerts pressure on this spring through hand, the cradle moves up and down. Babies enjoy this slight rhythmic movement while lying on the smooth set of clothes in the cradle. Once mothers and grandmothers used to sing lullabies to lull babies to sleep. The present young and educated mothers can’t sing lullabies. They are moving away from the original Indian culture and tradition rapidly. Moreover, bringing up children has been made into a responsibility of mothers and their female relatives, over the years, in India. A father does not serve his baby day and night like a mother. A mother struggles and suffers a lot bringing up her children in India. A father can never replace her role completely. This is why Indian tradition accorded the highest value to mother. We can’t assess the power and purity of mother’s love. Slept by 9:30.

19 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Brought two tins of drinking water from the nearby pure water sale point by 8:00 on my scooty. My mother and father came to our abode by 8:10 from Peda Gummuluru. They came here to see our baby daughter Sankeerthana. They brought guavas, homemade sweets and snacks for us. They brought the four gold ornaments of Srijana also. My father recently repaid the gold loan at the Grameena Bank in Adduroad and took the ornaments of Srijana back. Took my father to Tuni by 10:30 on my scooty. He bought a bed sheet and some cloth pieces. I bought a black belted Times wristwatch for 250 rupees. I am not taking my cellphone to Hetero complex. I often need to know time when delivering my work as an English instructor and otherwise. Others need not respect me looking at my watch. I like light and cute pieces. So, I bought it today. Bought a white cut vest also for me. Bought four English books for D Dhana Lakshmi of Hetero. She is attending my English classes now. She asked me to buy these books giving me 500 rupees yesterday. Watched the Telugu film “Yevadu” of Ram Charan in cinema Gautham from 2:15 to 5:15 along with Anand. It is a very interesting and exciting film. However, the story and screenplay are more powerful and gripping than the songs. Anand got haircut in a salon by 6:00 under my supervision. My parents left for home by 4:00. Night ironed three pairs of my clothes and got my moustache coloured. Slept by 9:30.

20 January (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:07 by bus. Today Subba Rao cancelled the English classes to be taken by me. Today NHO classes took place in that hall at Boys Hostel. They did not make alternative arrangements about it. Today I was completely engaged in safety audit related work. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. By 9:30 Srijana and Revathi started to Kakinada by bus from Tuni along with Sankeerthana. The baby is crying much every night from 9:00 to 11:00. Srijana failed to understand why she is crying so. She is not happy about the standards of children’s doctors in this region. He tested the baby and said that she is doing well. He prescribed some medicines for some common health problems faced by babies of that age. They are Oliade olive oil for body massage; Actimate drops enriched with nutritional food supplements; T-98 pediatric drops for avoiding fever; IFYCET drops for cold; SMS drops for colic, griping pain and flatulence; Calshine P oral drops for paediatric use; Colimex drops for antispasmodic and antiflatulent use and Dermadew baby soap for body wash. He prescribed ALBENT suspension single does pack for Anand for prevention of worms in his digestive system. These medicines cost her 500 rupees only. They gave the doctor 200 rupees towards consultation fee. Transport charges amounted to 300 rupees. They returned home by 5:30. Slept by 9:30.

21 January (Tuesday) 

Woke up by 5:00. Last night I had two dreams. The first one is that of an elopement. A boy takes a girl away with the support of his family members. The parents of the girl are furious about this act of the boy. It is a set of critical and tense conditions as such. They undertook this elopement being encouraged by me directly or indirectly. I was experiencing the tension of this event as a witness in this dream. The second dream was a nightmare to me. Some folks were engaged in the project of killing me. They recruited professional killers to do this on their behalf. They are searching for me. They may pour petrol or diesel upon me when I appear to them alone somewhere. Then they set fire to me. Police informed my brother Sambha about it. In fact, it may be their plan. Initially they prepare a suitable ground to kill their targeted person. They are authorized criminals in India. I experienced the stress related to this nightmare for those few minutes. I never thought about such events in my life. My subconscious brain frightens me this way now and then. It may be symbolic presentation of some truths happening around my material life beyond my knowledge. God sends such messages to His chosen souls to make them feel the essence of their Karma subconsciously. Thus, often, He may erase the effects of Karma from the accounts of His devotees. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit at Hetero. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

22 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. This early morning Telugu film actor Akkineni Nageswara Rao passed away in Hyderabad. I could see those sad moments of loss and pain on television, only after coming back from Hetero complex in the evening. I saw my platonic friend Nagarjuna in white clothes at Annapurna Studio by the scientifically preserved lifeless material abode of his father. The fans and admirers of Nageswara Rao were seeing his laid out body formally placing flowers on the glass box. I saw many greeting and talking with others with a smiling face. They cry in films in sad scenes but they are smiling in this place of real pain. It reflects the degradation of contemporary Indian society. They don’t know when to smile or maintain a sad face also. They don’t smile when they are appreciating or greeting somebody happily but when there is a dead body around. This is the present Indian culture. We need not cry at a dead body because death is inevitable to all mortals but we should not smile also in such occasions of loss and sorrow. Nageswara Rao lived 90 years of life. He acted in many feature films and earned many admirers. He fought bravely against his fatal health problems. He is a self-made man. He is an admirable individual, symbolizing punctuality, discipline and commitment. He loved and lived for dramas and films till the end. He could not act completely in his last film “Manam”. It is regrettable. His soul deserted its body according to its schedule. I am there to love and guide Nagarjuna. Today I did safety audit related work at Hetero. Slept by 9:30.

23 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:45 by bus. Morning I did not do much work. From 1:00 to 6:00 K Srinivasa Reddy showed different parts of pharmaceutical process to the 14 NHO candidates of 4^th batch in non-SEZ. I nominally accompanied and guided them as a representative of L&D department. I walked a lot as part of this internal tour. Most of the Hetero employees are ordinary people when compared to the intellectuals and scientists of this nation but they are making great medicinal ingredients for the mankind vigorously and successfully. It is because they are strictly following established norms of a process. I felt proud and happy observing them in their places of work. It was over by 6:20. Subhasini handed me a Hetero invitation card for the celebration to be held in the premises of Sri Prakash educational abode beside NH-16 at Payakaraopeta this Sunday. It is a grand celebration of Hetero marking its 20 years of journey and success as a pharmaceutical company. They are spending about one crore rupees for these celebrations related to their Nakkapalli unit. They estimate that about 7,000 invitees may attend this event representing this unit as employees and their family members. Today they have started distributing invitation cards. Artists and event managers are going to run most of this event. I am delighted to participate in this event. Slept by 9:30.

24 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. By 11:30 went to Boys Hostel. Took some of my English related books from the table in my familiar room. Kept them in my place. This material is to prepare English content to be used in my communicative English classes. Earlier I prepared most of the content on Articles on the 17^th and 18^th sitting in my classroom at Boys Hostel using the projector screen there. Today I added more content to this word file using the computer system of Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma of EHS. I did it rigorously from 1:30 to 6:00. Today Srinivas spent most of his time in Payakaraopeta doing preparatory work related to 20-year celebrations of Hetero in a ground of Sri Prakash educational abode. I used his computer in his absence. Morning I moved to the place behind that of Soma Sundaram. Subba Rao allotted my present place of sitting to D Kishore Reddy. The IT folks brought his computer system to this place and fitted it here. The new place, where I am sitting now, is worse than the previous one. There is no setting of suitable drawers to keep my books and other work related items. I have to bring an empty cardboard box from the engineering store and keep my things in it. Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram plan everything perfectly minding their priorities, comforts and facilities here. I can sense the essence of their ulterior motives aimed at me. They are like innocent kids. I change them slowly applying my love rather than intelligence. Slept by 9:30.

25 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I prepared teaching content related to modal auxiliaries and collocations for about eight hours on the computer system of Srinivasa Varma. My eyes felt weak by the evening due to continuous focus on the computer screen. Today I heard some Hetero employees saying that they did not receive the personalized invitation cards to the celebration to be held tomorrow. It reflects the poor management skills of the HR departments in this complex. Employees feel offended if they are not treated fairly during company related functions and celebrations. HR departments are generally known as abodes of rules and regulations rather than facilitators of harmony and amity among employees. Returned home by 7:25 by bus. Today Srijana collected the birth certificate of Sankeerthana from a Mee Seva point in Tuni. Morning we took the photos of the baby and ourselves with our Sony digital camera. Srijana is in the process of getting photos and documents ready to apply for the “Bangaaru Thalli” scheme of the state government meant for female babies. By 8:00 went to the ground in Sri Prakash College beside NH-16 along with Anand. The stage decoration and other arrangements are going on for the 20-year celebrations of Hetero tomorrow. They are distributing prizes to winners of different competitions this night itself. Wished my familiar creatures and returned home by 8:30. Slept by 10:15.

26 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha came to my abode by 6:30 on his way to Talupulamma Lova along with his familiar fellow. Gave photocopies of documents related to Srijana, Sankeerthana and me. He applies for “Bangaaru Thalli” scheme of financial assistance in Peda Gummuluru on behalf of us. Spent talking with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy from 11:00 to 12:00. Posted five photos of Sankeerthana and her mother on my blog site by 1:30 for my blog readers. Anand and I entered the venue of 20-year celebration of Hetero in Sri Prakash College beside NH-16 by 2:30. They started the scheduled programs by 3:30, one hour late to actual plan, owing to sunshine on stage. The external anchors of the celebration were Anasuya and Shiva Reddy. Anasuya impressed me with her lively and appreciable presentation and communication skills. I like Shiva Reddy for all the art forms he presents. Hetero employees and the external professionals presented songs and dances well. They presented laser, beam and video shows highlighting the journey of Hetero for 20 years. Chairman Bandi Parthasaradhi Reddy addressed the visitors for about 25 minutes from 8:20. Recorded parts of this event with my camera. Anand and I had Chicken Biryani by 8:45 at one of those food counters. There was heavy crowding at counters like ice cream and fruit pieces. Many Hetero employees and their family members behaved as if they are living only to eat. We returned home by 9:00 on foot. Evening my in-laws left for the teak plantation at Marripalem. Srijana’s mother stayed here for a week to help her daughter. Slept by 10:00.

27 January (Monday) 

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I prepared teaching content on subject and verb agreement on the computer system of Srinivasa Varma for about seven hours. He was on leave today. Yesterday the organizers of 20-year celebration of Hetero gave a hat, a ball, a bubble maker, an eye Halloween mask and a sweet substance. Datla Anand Sagar Varma felt happy receiving these small gifts as a child. He remained silent during the time of presentations on stage, obeying my instructions to him. He asked for an ice cream when we went for having dinner around 8:00. I could not get one for him making a way through those crowds of folks at those counters. There were many counters offering a wide variety of food items. I did not have the patience and tastes of a glutton to crave them. Most of the participants put the used food plates and other items on the carpet itself. They made the food counter area dirty and clumsy. They don’t have such passion for gaining knowledge and intelligence or involving in social service activities. It means that most of the human beings in this world are spending their time, money and energy for ordinary pursuits like eating, drinking and celebrating their lives somehow but not for self-realization and social issues. A few idealists and visionaries are only struggling and suffering for the welfare and peace of others. This is why we are seeing millions of brainless blokes in this world. Slept by 9:30.

28 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I added some more content to the teaching content file on subject-verb agreement for about an hour in the evening on the computer system of Srinivasa Varma. Rest of the time I remained almost free. Evening they gave me a copy of January-March edition of DARPAN, the in-house family magazine of Hetero. It’s beautiful and interesting to read. They started it recently. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. Now Srijana is suffering a little to take care of Anand and Sankeerthana. She has to get Anand ready for the school. She has to cook and pack lunch for him, wash his clothes and guide him in doing his homework. Sankeerthana is sleeping mostly during daytime. She cries intensely now and then at day or night. Often she cries without a reason to justify it substantially. I think she made it into a habit. I wonder to know that children develop bad habits since their infancy. Srijana’s mother went to Marripalem to be a servant of her husband. He is a parasite. My mother and father don’t leave their house for any cause. They criticize others being in their comfort zone always. I find their words and thoughts narrow-minded and selfish many times. None of our close or distant relatives is free and willing to help Srijana for some days staying with us. I focus my time and energy on my job and sleep. I am also selfish. This is how many mothers struggle and suffer bringing up their babies those few months. Slept by 9:30.

29 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Beat on the buttocks of Anand by 7:45 with my right palm. He cried for two minutes. He was crying when his friend Sai Sanjana was taking four or five Britannia 50-50 biscuits from a tin in our kitchen against his wish. She is a four-year-old daughter of the family unit living in the upper portion of this house. Anand and she are students of Canossa School. She is a smart girl. She tries to benefit from every occasion and relationship she comes into. Anand is not that strategic in his thoughts and moves towards others. I did not like his selfish attitude when crying against her act of taking his biscuits. So, I beat him. The blood in my right palm got activated due to the pressure this action generated. He cried intensely. I stopped beating him but today I yielded to that instinct of a disciplinarian and brute. I spent most of this day blaming myself against this inhuman act. I named him Anand to see him with happiness always. What if I bring tears into his eyes out of my mad acts? Lord Krishna blessed me with this valuable life to think and work for all those that love me purely. Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana chose me as their partner of love. It’s my moral and spiritual duty to keep them happy. Children think and behave like children only. We cannot understand and love them deeply if we assess them from the standpoint of adults. Today I added some content related to questions to my teaching material at Hetero. Slept by 9:30. 

30 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. When walking to the Y Junction to take a Hetero bus, I felt something soft under my right sole in my shoe meant for the right leg. I undid the lace of this shoe and found a dead cockroach in it. I was afraid that something harmful was there in my shoe but I killed that cockroach because of my mistake. I generally shake both of my shoes before wearing them, keeping their insoles downwards. This is to allow any object or creature fall down. My pair of shoes rest for about 10 hours every night. Some innocent and helpless creatures might use it as a cushion bed at night. They may fail to wake up before I take them to put on. They face tragedy if their hosts and hostesses do not treat them like honourable guests but detestable creatures or negligible entities. Creatures like scorpions and centipedes often bite us if we don’t observe them and be alert in time. Cockroaches are timid and sensitive creatures. They flee as soon as noticing the presence or movements of cruel man. I regret the death of this cockroach in my account today. I pray Lord Krishna to bless its soul and give it a good birth. Every day I kill various creatures like mosquitoes, ants and worms, knowingly or unknowingly. I am a killer or criminal from their perspective. This is the tragedy of human life. We are killing and torturing more creatures than any other creature in this world. What is there in human life to celebrate? Today I added some more content to the questions and answers, in my teaching material, on a computer, at Hetero. Slept by 9:30.

31 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Morning I added the details of books and soft copies of English grammar files downloaded from Internet, to acknowledgment section, towards the end of the communicative English teaching material I prepared. With this, I completed the task of preparing material for the communicative English classes to the employees of Hetero complex at Nakkapalli. I did it all on the computer systems of others as I don’t have one. Today I coordinated the safety inspection work in the morning and afternoon as a representative of L&D department. From 3:07 to 5:10 participated in the eighth episode of Vedika in the training hall above the cafeteria in non-SEZ. About 60 creatures attended this monthly program. Morning Suma Latha told me that she would move to SEZ tomorrow to work there hereafter. She sits in the place behind mine. She came here from the engineering store in non-SEZ two months ago. Now she is working in the purchase department here. She is a beautiful girl though her complexion is not fair. Recently she gave me a 2014 diary, as a present to me, out of admiration for me. I can assess the feelings and notions of others towards me looking at their eyes and words. I gave her my copy of VGS English Grammar and Composition as a present. We admire many but we cannot reach that sense of feeling to all directly or indirectly also in many contexts. Slept by 9:30. 

1 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:07 by bus. By 10:00 Suma Latha started to her new workplace in SEZ with some of her office belongings. By 11:30 I moved to this place of work along with my belongings from the place to the right of it. D Kishore Reddy is sitting before me. Today I did safety inspection related work. By 11:39, an amount of 22, 275 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account by the folks of Hetero towards my salary for the last month. Morning Srijana took our baby girl Sankeerthana to the primary health centre at Y Junction in Payakaraopeta for periodical vaccination. Today they administered the first doses of OPV, DPT and Hepatitis B. Her two thighs, where vaccines were administered, got swollen. She got fever within an hour after this vaccination. It is an expected result of this vaccination. By 7:45 went to Payakaraopeta on my scooty and withdrew 7,000 rupees from the ATM point of Axis Bank. Moved to Tuni to buy some things. Bought 500 grams of almonds for 280 rupees and one kilo of dates for 90 rupees for Anand. Bought kitchen items for 200 rupees. Bought 20 Pampers diapers for Sankeerthana, spending 275 rupees. Got the cellphone of Srijana recharged for 220 rupees and mine for 100 rupees. Got 200 rupees worth petrol filled into the tank of my scooty. Gave 1,800 rupees to Srijana. Paid 3,500 rupees to my house owner by 8:45 towards rent for the last month. Did a type work and slept by 11:50.

2 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Yesterday afternoon Murali gave me a data entry work. He is running a Mee-Seva centre in Payakaraopeta. I know him. I have to type up the details of companies with phone numbers into a Microsoft Excel sheet. I asked him to pay me 50 paise for every entry. I could type up the details of 100 units only from 9:00 to 11:30 last night. Typing up the cellphone numbers, looking at each digit, consumes a lot of time. I realized that I should not do this work if he can’t pay me two or three rupees for each entry. I have no time to do this work beyond schedules of Hetero. Yesterday Srijana recruited a domestic help to help her at home. She may be 35 or so. She has to dust the floor in our abode, wash some clothes and do the dishes. She does not come on Sundays. Srijana pays 800 rupees to her for this work per month. Anand and I watched the Telugu film “Heart Attack” in cinema Sai Mahal from 10:50 to 1:30. Puri Jagannadh directed it well. Nitin and Adah Sharma played the lead roles. Adah looked beautiful and acted well in it. She loves an orphan, who lives as a casual tourist. It happens in Spain. He does not realize the need of her presence and love in his life when she proposes to him in Spain. He feels that pain of loss when she moves to India. He rushes there and wins her love ultimately. Jagannadh presented ISKCON also in this film. Enjoyed watching it. Had my haircut by 6:30. Returned the Yellow Pages book and typed file to Murali by 7:30. Went to sleep by 9:30. 

3 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:08 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Afternoon got two particulars updated in my profile by the folks of Hetero over here. We can check our personal recorded details on the internal network MyDesk of Hetero. Recently I found that they typed the name of my father wrongly. They typed K S N Raju there instead of D Venkatapathi Raju. This is the name of my present house owner. Got it changed by HR executive Uma Devi. Also got the name of my baby daughter Sankeerthana added to the list of my family members. Blunders are taking place in data entry works in Andhra Pradesh. We can witness this crime in ration cards, photo voter identity cards, Aadhaar cards and some other documents issued by rogues of government. They are entering particulars wrongly. Thereafter people suffer in various ways because of those wrong details in their important documents. I am also a victim of such governments and their administration in this highly polluted and corrupt state. Returned home by 7:05 by bus. Srijana told me that Sankeerthana cried a lot today. She did so for about six hours continually. She said that she felt disturbed about the fact that there is nobody to help her in such situation. She cursed the folks of her and my families. There are many people in India but few of them help us when we are in a state of crisis. Slept by 9:30.

4 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:09 on the bike of Rajesh, an executive in the IT department at non-SEZ. We talk frequently. They did not stop a bus at Y Junction to take. I was frustrated to the extent that I felt like coming back home and applying for a leave later. Rajesh appeared like a savior to me at the eleventh hour. Today I did nominal work related to safety audit. Spent scanning Longman Dictionary of Contemporary English and Wren & Martin English Grammar book for some time. They are treating me as a special guest now. We don’t burden our guests with much work. I am happy about it. Returned home by 7:05 by bus. Today Srijana felt like going to Viswanadhapuram. There is the first birthday of Aakish, the baby son of Krishna. They invited us formally coming to our abode. Srijana also avoided going there considering the intensity of focused attention she has to pay towards Sankeerthana and Sagar there. Yesterday night I took four tablets for facing the attack of fileria in future. Recently the state government got these medicines distributed across the state as part of its periodical drive to avoid this disease in its people. Filaria is caused by black flies and mosquitoes. Part of our body, any leg in particular, swells abnormally and remains so forever. Scientists invented many curative vaccines and medicines to serve and save humankind but we have no time and interest to get vaccinated and take those medicines also in time. We are such buggers. I am also one of them. Slept by 9:30.

5 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I forgot wearing my black belt across waist keeping the bond between the inserted shirt and top of trousers tight. I started wearing a belt when I was a student at the University of Hyderabad. Thereafter I never wore a full-sleeved shirt and a pair of trousers without a belt. I use black belt only always. In fact, some of our pants are so tight that we need not wear a belt. Yet we feel uneasy if we don’t wear it some days in hurry. It’s a psychological factor. Today I felt so a little. The top of my trousers gave a tight fit today. I was comfortable to this extent. We should wear a belt exactly across our waist. Many wear it above their belly also to look tall or for some other reason. It should be avoided. If we keep anything pressing on our belly, it affects the digestive and nervous systems in that part. I think we should not wear rings and wristwatches also for that matter. In fact, wearing clothes is also like blocking the freedom of our body. Naturists spend nakedly in their reserved spots of stay to feel and enjoy that freedom of body. Many Europeans celebrate it through sunbaths. Actually these are all good habits. We should sleep without anything on our bodies at night, if possible. Our body relaxes a lot this way. Today I typed out a blog titled “Indian Politics” for eight hours at Hetero. Slept by 9:50.

6 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 8:00 my blog “Indian Politics” got posted on my blog site. I scheduled it so yesterday night. Reached Hetero complex by 8:57 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit in the morning and afternoon. Spent talking with Rajnikant Ganesha, our HR manager, in their building at the entrance of non-SEZ, from 4:15 to 5:45. He told me about his experiences as an HR employee. He is a handsome and elegant person. He responds to all the employees courteously and formally. An employee may be decent or indecent. We can certainly improve them with our words and manners of sensitivity and empathy. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. It is Radha Sapthami today, a festival of sun god for Hindus. Hindu religion considers him God. Scientists treat him as a star. He appears suitable to the beliefs and perspectives of both. Like many phenomena and occurrences in this universe, the sun has the features and qualities of God and star. He brings hope, health and happiness into our lives, blessing us with his bright rays every day. We cannot be happy spending in darkness and artificial light for long. He is very disciplined and punctual. His love is universal. His journey is unbelievably long. He is round and beautiful. All these admirable qualities make Him God for all of us. He is able to make many gigantic planets rotate around Him continuously. He is 14, 96, 00,000 kilometres away from the earth. He is inaccessible to man and other creatures on earth. He neither cries nor laughs based on our appeals or jokes. So, he is a star. Slept by 9:30.

7 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. My in-laws came to my abode from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju near village Marripalem. They brought homemade snacks, bananas, papayas, tomatoes and some other vegetables from there. The other day my father-in-law told us that he was suffering from pain in a leg. I did not ask him anything about it. This is my stand towards many in my familiar circle of folks. There were days when he consumed excessive doses of chicken while living at Koruprolu Mallavaram. He was regular visitor to the spot of cock fights there. His body stored about 15 kilos of excessive fat then. Thereafter he seldom had time or focus on the idea of burning that fat. It settled in him like a colonizer. Exploitation is, generally, the primary objective of any colonizer. That fat is creating some problems in his body now. He never asked me about bringing happiness into his life. He smokes cigarettes. Once he used to consume alcohol much. He is enjoying the fruits of those habits now. I love him as the father of my wife. He likes me a lot. The lives of those, whom we love, are not in our control. We often suffer observing the difficulties and pains in their lives because of their Karma. We cannot transfer our Karma to others nor take theirs. Only great saints can do it. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

8 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Read English grammar points from an Oxford University publication for about one hour in the evening. Today I proposed an idea to Goli Srinivasa Reddy, the DGM of Production in non-SEZ section. I proposed him that I plan the supply of quality mango fruit to Hetero employees at affordable prices in the coming season. I typed out the details of this proposal and emailed it to him. He positively responded to it. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Today Srijana and Revathi took Sagar and Sankeerthana to the clinic of Dr. Vikram Kumar at Kakinada for consultation. He said that both of them are well. Sagar’s height is good to his age but not weight. He advised Srijana to feed milk, boiled eggs, fruits and nuts regularly. He prescribed Longifene-DS BUCLIZINE syrup of 200 ml weight, EnFer suspension with Ferrous Ascorbate and Folic Acid and multi-vitamin mineral supplement COMVIT-Z for him. He prescribed IFYCET, Actimate, Colimex drops and SMS drops for Sankeerthana again. He advised Srijana to consume about one litre of milk every day. This is necessary for generation of breast milk in a mother’s body. They went there in the morning and returned home by 6:30 in the evening. She spent 1,600 rupees for all of it. From 9:30 to 12:45 saw the Telugu film “Paandavulu Paandavulu Thummedha” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna. Srivas failed in making the first half of it as interesting as the second half of it. Manoj acted, as a lady, well. Slept by 1:00.

9 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a bus by 8:30 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 9:15. Spent talking with my mother and other folks for some time. Had my lunch in the abode of my brother Sambha by 11:30. By 12:30 Sambha and I reached our paddy farms near village Tangedu, hiring a vehicle at Adduroad. Boddu Appala Naidu is the associate of Sambha in Tangedu. He has been involved in the farm work here for the last 10 years or so. Last paddy season, he grew paddy in one acre of my farm here. Today Appala Naidu harvested that crop by 3:30. He assigned this work to a team of harvesters of Tangedu. He is paying 250 rupees to each of those nine members. He also provided them with lunch and alcohol. I wondered about penetration of alcohol into the lives of the poor and the rich in this state. This is the first and last crop from the 2.12 acres of my paddy farm here. Recently Sambha sold it to somebody. I got about 500 kgs of paddy towards my share of it. We brought 12 sacks of paddy to Sri Rama Lakshmi Modern Rice Mill at Koruprolu by 5:15 in the hired vehicle. They milled this paddy by 7:00. It yielded about 400 kgs of rice. Got it packed into eight sacks, adding Boric acid powder to it. Hired an auto rickshaw and brought these sacks of rice to my rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 7:30. Gave him 350 rupees for this work. We take about two years’ time to consume this much rice. Today Srijana and her mother worked hard to clean parts of our abode. They tired a lot. Slept by 10:15.

10 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I am on a sick leave of Hetero. I have 10 sick and 10 casual leaves in a calendar year. Today I typed up the content of January from my diary of 2014 for 310 minutes on my computer. I am taking 10 minutes’ time to type up the content of one day, looking at words on each page of it. By 11:00 my brother Sambha and my father came to my abode. Prior to it, they went to Tuni directly on bike from Peda Gummuluru. Recently my parents got the idea of buying some amount of silver, getting three food consumption size plates made out of it and presenting them to each of their three sons. Many Hindus use silver dishes and decorative pieces as symbols of their richness or in religious and other formal functions. I don’t like gold, silver or any such item, the value of which increases or decreases based on the stupidity or ignorance of man. Today my father and brother bought about half a kilo of silver at a store in Tuni to get three silver plates made. They are spending about 50,000 rupees on it. My father borrowed the money from a familiar moneylender for this task. I wonder about the passion of Indians towards gold, silver and platinum. By 11:30 my folks had lunch in my abode and left for Peda Gummuluru. My father-in-law came from Marripalem by 4:00 on bike. He brought a watermelon, guavas and milk from there for us. We packed my 320 kilos of fresh rice into eight sacks and put them on a concrete shelf in our kitchen. We added Boric acid powder to all the rice before packing it. We use this rice for about two years. Slept by 10:00.

11 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 4:30 my in-laws left for the teak plantation at Marripalem on their bike. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning I told the HR manager Rajnikant Ganesha about Boddu Srinu, the son of Boddu Appala Naidu, the agricultural associate of my brother Sambha. He has vocational course and ITI certificates in electrical branch. He did not do apprenticeship in any industry till now. Rajnikant told me that freshers are being recruited as apprentices only now. They are paying about 4,500 rupees only to apprentices towards stipend per month. They are paying more salary to experienced candidates only. Boddu Appala Naidu is a resident of village Tangedu. He has been a loyal farmer to my brother Sambha for the last 10 years. He is poor. He has no assets. He has a daughter and a son. He asked me to find a job for his son. Recently Srinu gave me his resume and photocopies of certificates, when I went there. He is doing an unreliable temporary job now with a Mahindra two-wheeler unit at Narsipatnam. He is getting married soon. He is a good boy. Night told my house owner K S N Raju that a Hetero employee is interested in buying a plot of land at Annavaram. He has two plots there. Chakradhar Reddy would be lucky if he can buy one of those plots. They are in Devi Nagar layout beside NH-16. The plots of this area will be commercially very attractive in near future. K S N Raju is not interested in retaining them. I will see that both of them benefit mutually, selling and buying it. Slept by 10:00.

12 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Morning did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today I took about 10 tomatoes to Hetero. I ate five of them. Others had the remaining ones. Some said that consumption of tomatoes leads to formation of stones in our kidneys. Can anybody say that, one, who consumes the best food and has good habits, does not get any health problem? What science cannot answer and resolve would be answered and resolved by Karma. God can create scientists but scientists cannot create God. By 2:10 G. Chakradhara Reddy and I started to Payakaraopeta on his bike. K S N Raju joined us at our abode in Devi Nagar. Three of us reached Devi Nagar layout at Annavaram by 3:00 on bikes. K S N Raju showed his two plots of land to Chakradhar. They are of 272 and 251 square yards. K S N Raju put them at 2,600 rupees per square yard. Chakradhar benefits a lot, from this land, if he can buy it now. It is in a commercially attractive place beside NH-16. We two returned to Hetero complex by 4:40. We went out on permission. The other day I saw Chakradhar in Peda Gummuluru looking for a residential plot of land to buy. Real estate agents present ordinary sites also as extraordinary ones. Annavaram is a good place associated with God. K S N Raju is a gentleman. He is willing to sell his sites at nominal rates. I decided to connect these two gentlemen this way. Seller is mostly the loser in real estate business. Buyer is the lucky one. It is a field of lies and hopes. Slept by 9:30.

13 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today I wore the new shirt and pair of trousers, the cloth of which was presented to me by Dandu Surya Narayana Raju, the owner of the teak plantation at Marripalem, where my father-in-law is working as a supervisor. He would have spent about 1,000 rupees to buy these two cloth pieces for me at Bhima Varam. I am grateful to him for his affection towards me. Returned home by 7:05. Moka Srinivas got off a vehicle near Y Junction at Payakaraopeta by 7:10. He called me up. Brought him to my abode by 7:15 on my scooty. He is looking for a room to stay as a tenant. Recently he joined the EHS department at Hetero in non-SEZ as a deputy manager. K S N Raju showed the room on the terrace of this building. He said that it should not be defaced with cooking activities. Srinivas said that he cooks but does not deface it even a little. Yet they have to finalize this deal. Srinivas left for the boys’ hostel at Hetero complex by 7:45. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 8:00 from Tetagunta on his scooty to stay here this night. We talked about the match of Bala. His father Satya Narayana Raju asked for two lakh rupees to materialize this marriage. My teacher uncle K V Rama Raju and Bala agreed to give him this amount of money to him. Datla Rama Raju, the father of the bride and his folks asked for a little time to decide on it. This is like circus. Slept by 10:00.

14 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. It is Valentine’s Day today. It is an occasion to share the feelings of our love with others. I did not witness this spirit of love in Hetero complex. All were engaged in process of production of medicinal substances directly or indirectly. Perhaps we can feel this spirit of love in students at schools and colleges. We feel more attracted towards those, who are unfamiliar and inaccessible to us than those close to us. The percentage of female employees is less than that of males at Hetero complex but they would be treated well by the management. Their buses start first in the evening. They have maternity leaves. They have special dining hall in non-SEZ. Males enjoy their presence. It is passive sharing of love every day. Most of the females are unmarried ones at Hetero here. They must have celebrated this day psychologically. It is Maagha Pournami today. Enthusiasts take holy ablutions in sea near Revu Polavaram. Last night and this morning are the peak hours of this annual celebration. Thousands of folks rush to the beach here for the traditional bath ceremony. They believe that the sea god sanctifies their bodies and souls. Seawater kills bacteria on our skin. It always seems mysterious and attractive to me. I could not go there last night or today being busy as an employee of Hetero. Srijana’s mother came here in the afternoon. By 7:40, this night, Moka Srinivas of EHS of Hetero, entered a room in this building. Went to sleep by 9:45.

15 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 in the NANO car of a familiar fellow. They did not stop Hetero buses at Y Junction for us to get in. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 4:51, M Rajesh, our IT executive, booked a HP 16 GB pen drive on shopclues.com for me, using the details of my Axis Bank debit card. Its cost is 685 rupees. The shipping charges are 44 rupees. I may get it in a week’s time. The folks of Gadgetindia send it to me from Kolkata. I think it may cost about 1,000 rupees in the open market. I lost my Transcend 4 GB pen drive about a year ago somewhere. I have been waiting to buy one since then. I got this plan materialized today at last. I like storing data easily and securely using pen drive apart from online and on my computer. We can carry data easily and securely using pen drive. There are many varieties of pen drives now in market. I like those with caps. It makes the gadget elegant and reliable to carry. Pen drives catch viruses frequently. Pen drives are not allowed freely into Hetero complex. We are supposed to use them with permission from the IT department. They permit us to carry CDs and DVDs only through authorization. My material related to communicative English classes is there on the computer of Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma now. I have to keep it in my pen drive. I can carry it easily within Hetero complex. Returned home by 7:20. Ironed five pairs of my clothes from 9:00 to 10:00. It is the wedding anniversary of Surya Kumari today. She offered us some homemade food items on this occasion. Slept by 10:30.

16 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took an APSRTC bus at Y Junction by 8:30 and reached Anakapalle by 10:10. It is about 60 kilometres from Payakaraopeta. The fare for the ordinary bus is 43 rupees. Hired a rickshaw and reached NTR market yard by 10:30. It may be about two kilometres from the bus station. Maheswara Rao helped me buy two blocks of jaggery. It weighed 32 kilograms. He took 990 rupees for it. They sold me one kilo of jaggery for 31 rupees. Maheswara Rao is the brother-in-law of Dhanunjayudu, my colleague in purchase department at non-SEZ. I went to this jaggery market to buy quality jaggery for our domestic consumption. I could not find 100% pure jaggery here also. There may be 80% purity in this jaggery. This market yard looked dirty and sticky to me. Jaggery is for human consumption mostly. They made this market yard into cattle shed. I bought the jaggery in Block 15. Returned to bus station by 11:10 in the same rickshaw. Gave him 60 rupees. Reached home by 1:20 by bus. My uncle Chanti Babu came to our abode by 2:00 from Durgada. Meanwhile Srijana, her mother, Anand and Sankeerthana went to the abode of Sekhar in Tuni on our scooty. Srijana and Sankeerthana consulted Dr. D Rama Krishnam Raju for their minor health problems. My uncle, K S N Raju and I spent talking at our abode till 5:30. Then my uncle and I went to Seshadri Nagar layout near Tuni on the borrowed scooty of our portion mate. I painted the corner stones, in the two sites of my uncle, yellow. Dropped him at Tuni railway station by 6:10. Today I did not get time to see a film. Slept by 10:00.

17 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning my brother Sambha and his familiar fellow went to Aswaraopeta in Khammam District to buy mango plants. Recently my brother bought two acres of farm from my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy for me near our mango garden at hills by Ramayyapatnam. My uncle inherited it from his father Thammi Raju. Sambha bought it for me for 8, 50,000 rupees. Earlier there were cashew trees on this part of land. This uncle got those trees uprooted deploying a poclain and got this land leveled. Sambha sold my 2.12 acres of paddy farm near village Tangedu to buy this piece of land for me. We are yet to take the money from the buyer of my farm at Kota Uratla and give it to this uncle. My brother bought 80 mango plants to plant in this farmland. Srijana, Anand and I attended the birthday party of the two-year-old son of Nujella Subba Raju at his rented abode from 7:30 to 9:30. Srijana gave the boy gift worth 320 rupees. Anand and I had dinner there by 9:30 along with some other folks of Hetero. Subba Raju is with the HR department in non-SEZ of Hetero at Nakkapalli. Sambha crossed the NH-16 at our abode in Payakaraopeta by 10:40. Gave him a document needed to apply for “Bangaaru Thalli” scheme for Sankeerthana in Peda Gummuluru. He bought 42 Suvarna Rekha, 30 Banginapalli, 2 Kothapalli Kobbari, 2 Pandooru Mamidi, 1 Panchadhaara Kanchi and 1 Imam Pasandh mango plants for me. Yesterday and today my father and he got 80 pits dug in my farm to plant these plants in them very soon. Slept by 11:00.

18 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning S Kullayi Reddy, the DGM of EHS department at Hetero complex, wrote short answers to some questions I prepared yesterday. Srinivasa Varma is interested in sending an article to be published in Darpan, the quarterly magazine of Hetero, on desalination plants associated to this Hetero complex. I prepared some questions to be answered by those associated these plants. The systematic arrangement of these answers creates our desired article. Also, the folks of National Safety Council, invited entries for competitions to be held soon on the occasion of Safety Day. Evening typed out a two-page article on the concepts “Safety, Health and Environment” to participate in this competition. Our EHS folks send it to the regional chapter of safety council at Hyderabad. I will write slogans also on safety for this purpose. Today my father and brother Sambha got the 80 mango plants planted in my farm near our farm at hills. They deployed 10 workers to do it. They got about 50 litres of water poured at the bottom of each newly planted mango plant for the wetness they require initially around their roots in the ground. My folks have been busy with these works for the last four days. Today Sonia Gandhi somehow got the Telangana Bill passed in the Lok Sabha of Indian Parliament. I posted her photo and a few words of appreciation on the banner of my blog site on this occasion. She proved herself as a leader of power and commitment through this bold act. Slept by 9:30.

19 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today my brother Sambha got the loose wet soil tightened around the 80 mango plants in my two-acre farm near hills. It enables the roots of plants to spread comfortably into the deeper layers of soil without entry of unnecessary air and substances from the surface of it. Roots want cozy state around them. Five acres of cashew farm remained to be shared by the sons and daughter of Thammi Raju after the death of the latter last year. My paternal uncles Narasimha Murthy and Narayana Murthy got the weak cashew trees in this land uprooted with a poclain and got it leveled. They shared four acres of it and gave one acre of it to my paternal aunt Subhadra. Narasimha Murthy sold his two acres of land to me through Sambha. This is the land of my paternal grandfather Thammi Raju. He loved it. He walked on it. He lived an ideal life, representing the true Indian culture. My parents named me Thammi Raju. It did not enter my educational certificates. Sambha bought this piece of land for me with this sentiment and out of his admiration for this ideal man of India. My mother, my sister-in-law Kranthi and her mother Janaki came to my rented abode by 11:00 today from Peda Gummuluru to see my baby daughter Sankeerthana. They spent here for two hours and started back. Today my father went to Gollalagunta to settle a dispute between my two maternal uncles and aunts. Went to sleep by 9:45.

20 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 3:20, Srinivasa Varma and I reached the spot of two desalination plants of Hetero at Rajayyapeta near the sea. We talked with two employees of Hetero here about the desalination process and systems for about 90 minutes as part of my casual talk to collect relevant information from them for the article to be sent to the folks of Darpan magazine of Hetero. Srinivasa Varma took photos of parts of these plants to be printed along with this article. We returned to Hetero complex by 5:30. Today my father and my uncle of Durgada were in Gollalagunta in the pursuit of resolving disputes among my maternal uncles Krishnam Raju and Appala Narasimha Raju and my maternal aunts Raja Kumari and Satyavati. Recently Narasimha established a haystack opposite the house of Raja Kumari. Sagiraju Rama Raju, the husband of this aunt, objected to this act of his brother-in-law, stating that poisonous creatures like snakes and scorpions may enter it. Narasimha said that it is his part of land and so he is authorized to do anything with it. Krishnam Raju interfered in this matter to solve it. Narasimha was already angry with him. So, he told Krishnam Raju, his elder brother, to get out of his house. My father and this uncle intervened in this affair at this stage of conflict to pacify the parties and bring them to a mutually possible and acceptable casual agreement. Night my brother Sambha went to Rajahmundry to attend a marriage, along with his friends, in a car. Slept by 9:45.

21 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I spent all the day in the work related to training given to contract workers of Hetero. Morning and afternoon two batches of workers were trained in the conference hall above cafeteria in non-SEZ. About 120 workers attended this training program. Our manager Illuri Subba Rao educated them on the aspects of environment, health and safety. The folks of EHS department also addressed them for a while. Soma Sundaram, office boy Sunil and I were engaged in the task of preparing and giving them safety identity and instruction cards. About 1,500 contract workers must be working in Hetero complex now. Labour contractors are earning a lot in this system. I hate labour contractors. They are living happily squeezing the sweat and blood of destitute contract workers. Both public and private sectors are largely creating wealth, exploiting the helplessness of contract workers. Many employees are earning highly through their salaries and perks. Contract workers are getting meager wages. Evening I met Kangres, a contract worker in Hetero complex. He came from Odisha to work here. His contract supervisor’s agency is Simhapuri. He is providing him with food and shelter at Nakkapalli. He is getting 5,500 rupees per month. He has a wife and two kids back at home to feed. I took his cellphone number to see if I can help him in near future. He is a helpless guest to Andhra Pradesh. I should guide and help him kindly, if possible. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

22 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 3:30, went to the conference hall in QA building at SEZ. The ninth episode of Vedika was already started. I would have missed one or two presentations. They decorated this hall beautifully for this occasion. They brought and offered snacks, drinks and tea specially. Enjoyed watching this program till 5:20. Morning I prepared the article on desalination, depending on the inputs provided by S Kullayi Reddy and two staff members at these plants near sea. Emailed this article titled “Desalination – The Ultimate Solution” to Kullayi Reddy for his consideration. I am yet to improve it based on his suggestions. Also sent the two-page essay and slogans, which I prepared for sending to the folks of National Safety Council at Hyderabad, as my entries to their competition. Kullayi Reddy is the DGM of EHS department at Hetero complex. He is a humble, honest and lovable person. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By 7:40 my house owner K S N Raju, D S N Raju, his wife Asha Bhanu, and I started to the temple of God at Annavaram. We had dinner in the hall 18 in Vishnu Sadan on Ratnagiri by 8:45. Sunita Devi, the second daughter of Kakarlapudi Narasimha Murthy Raju, marries Datla Venkata Sanjay Varma of Rajugari Palem of Guntur district by 4:57 am tomorrow in the hall 19 here. My brother Sambha and many familiar folks attended this dinner. We returned home by 10:54 on bikes. Slept by 11:10.

23 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My house owner K S N Raju and I started to Ramayyapatnam by 8:30 on his bike. A Kshatriya fellow, who is living in Payakaraopeta now, has a land dispute to be settled in this village. They lived there about 30 years ago. He asked K S N Raju to accompany his party of passive supporters. Showed our place of living to him in Peda Gummuluru. Thence we moved to our mango garden at hills via Ramayyapatnam. Showed him our three parts of mango farm. Today my father is getting the newly planted mango plants in my two-acre farm watered, deploying about 12 female workers and one man. He was drawing water from our well when we went there. This well is deep. Drawing water from it is a difficult work for anybody. I advised him to avoid doing such hard work at this age. K S N Raju and I returned to Ramayyapatnam by 10:30. We spent about one hour’s time at the place of dispute resolution as passive witnesses. He dropped me near our house in Peda Gummuluru by 11:45 and left for Payakaraopeta. Spent talking with my parents, Sambha and others till 3:30. Took a bus by 4:00 at Adduroad and reached my abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 4:30. Went to main town by 4:45 and bought some things for domestic consumption. Morning the maternal grandparents of Srijana came to our abode from Viswanadhapuram. Edited the content of January from my diary of 2014 from 7:30 to 8:30 on my computer at home. Slept by 10:00.

24 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 3:30 Srinivasa Varma and I got five entries ready to send to the Andhra Pradesh chapter of National Safety Council at Hyderabad. They are conducting competitions in different categories on the occasion of national safety day on the 4^th of this March. I am contributing an essay and slogans in English for this competition. By 4:45 a DTDC courier boy took away this parcel of entries to send to Hyderabad. I generally don’t like participating in competitions, taking exams and sending written pieces to publishers. It is allowing others to judge our skills and capacity. They may not have the standards and values, which we expect from them as judges. Many times we don’t see the judges of our work and how they evaluated it. We hope that we will be the winners but it does not happen always. Even if we win in a competition, all others get disappointed due to their defeat in it. Our success and happiness lead to the pain of other contributors and participants. Publishers have the highest levels of ego and indiscipline. They seldom pay attention towards writers. Why should I write an article according to their guidelines when they are undisciplined idiots in their professional arena? Writers became shameless rogues now. They are running after worthless publishers and editors to get their works published. By 8:15 took Srijana and Sankeerthana to the clinic of Dr P. Ramesh in Tuni for general checkup of the baby. Went to sleep by 10:00.

25 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning the maternal grandparents of Srijana left for Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw. Jagannadha lost most of the fat in his body. He is looking thin and light now. He is unable to walk perfectly. His memory is down. He became a dependent old man. His wife is treating him like an innocent and helpless child. He is like a bedridden patient now. The idea of getting my cousin Bala married to the daughter of my uncle Datla Rama Raju of Gollapalem failed at the eleventh hour. Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju, the father of Bala, asked for two lakh rupees, for it. The party of bride cannot afford it. K V Rama Raju, the eldest brother of K S N Raju, got ready to pay this money to the latter, along with Bala, to get this marriage done somehow. The bride party withdrew themselves from this match observing the attitude of the father of bridegroom. Bala is disappointed about it. He realized that his father became a villain in this matter. He could not marry his favourite girl due to his father’s stupidity. Girls are rare now in Kshatriya community for boys to marry. Bala missing to marry this girl in this context is unfavorable to him. K S N Raju is not selfish but a stupid man. Stupid rogues take wrong decisions because of their foolishness, eccentricity or ego. They present it as their greatness to others arguing the points from their standpoint. Slept by 10:00.

26 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Winter is at its preparatory stage of departure now. Summer is at the door getting ready to step in. The folks of electricity board already started power cuts. People did not get into the mood of solar power completely till now. Installation of solar panels on the top of buildings is a costly affair. Many ordinary Indians are unable and unwilling to bear these costs. They are accustomed to the electricity supplied by government at affordable tariff plans. My domestic electricity consumption bill seldom crossed 300 rupees per month during the last five years. I can afford it. If governments take care to produce and supply power honestly to all kinds of people, they can live happily. I faced a difficult situation this winter to sleep in my bedroom at night. If I close the door and the two windows completely, including ventilators at the top of the walls, to avoid entry of cool wind of winter, fresh air does not get in. If I keep all the inlets of air open, for fresh air, my room becomes a big refrigerator. Both ways I am subject to disturbance. I could not sleep for eight hours continuously on most of the nights this winter because of these problems. I got up, almost every morning, with a cold. It might have happened due to the congested air in the room, mixed with the vapour of mosquito repellant liquid. Nature thus played with me like a mischievous child. Afternoon Anand went to the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem with his maternal grandmother. Slept by 9:30.

27 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 9:30 Srijana and Sankeerthana took a bus at the bus station in Tuni for Visakhapatnam. My house owner K S N Raju took them there on his bike and helped them. My brother Srinivas and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani received her at the bus station in Visakhapatnam. Thence they went to consult Dr. Bala Raju. He checked the asthma status of Srijana. He said that there is no improvement in her health condition. He prescribed some medicines and advised her to use them for two months. Her maternal uncle Sekhar got asthma. He is taking medicines for it. Perhaps Srijana inherited it from her ancestors. The present air pollution might be cause for it. Srijana moved to the abode of my brother Srinivas, along with them, after consulting the doctor. From 9:30 to 12:00 K S N Raju and I saw the Telugu film “Heart Attack” in cinema Sai Mahal. I saw it for the second time. We wanted to see another film, which got released today. They were selling tickets in the black. I am against it. I honoured Puri Jagannadh watching his film again. It is Maha Shiva Raathri today. Lord Shiva blesses His devotees specially today. Many fast and avoid sleeping at night on this occasion to please Lord Shiva. I don’t understand how a God or Goddess can be made happy through a devotee’s fasting or sleeplessness. My brother Srinivas remained awake at night on this occasion. Slept by 12:20.

28 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is a holiday today for the general shift employees of Hetero. This holiday is to facilitate those that fast and stay awake yesterday on the occasion of Maha Shiva Raathri. Today I typed out a blog titled “Truth”. There was power cut for about four hours. They disturbed me to some extent. By 4:00 Srijana and Sankeerthana reached Y Junction in an Express bus. Brought them home on my scooty. She enquired about the earrings to be made for Sankeerthana. They get earlobes of a baby girl pierced and little holes made for wearing light ornaments rest of the life. Srijana knew that one gram of gold is required to make two earrings for Sankeerthana. She talked about it with a goldsmith there. He would make and bring them shortly. My father-in-law would pay for it. I wonder about the madness of Indian girls and women for gold. Sankeerthana is being pushed into this field of imaginations and aspirations with this ear piercing observation of Indian tradition. By 5:00 went to Tuni on my scooty. Bought 30 eggs for 115 rupees at a wholesale egg store for our domestic consumption; five Britannia 50-50 biscuit packs for 50 rupees for Srijana and five Ganga milk packs for 100 rupees. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 8:00 on his scooty. My house owner K S N Raju, he and I spent talking casually for 90 minutes. He decided to sleep here this night. He is thinking about getting a house constructed somewhere for his family unit. Slept by 10:30 for my dreams.

         1 March (Saturday) 

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 4:00 downloaded my February payslip from the MyDesk network of Hetero. My salary for this month is 21,485 rupees after deductions related to professional tax, PF, canteen and bus facilities. This time they deducted 1,000 rupees towards TDS. It infuriated me. My income in the financial year 2013-14 is not taxable. TDS, in this context, in my present state of life, is like stealing a few valuable coins from the bowl of a helpless Indian beggar. Rushed to HR manager Rajnikant Ganesha to seek clarification about it. He said that he is also a victim of the policies of HR folks at corporate office in Hyderabad. They don’t ask their employees for IT declarations. Even if some employees provide them proactively, they neglect them. They deduct TDS from all considerable salaries irrationally and illogically. Rajnikant told me that there is no use of talking with them either. They are stupid idiots without basic knowledge about income tax. I experienced much disappointment and pain thinking about this injustice caused to me because of the carelessness of Hetero management towards their employees. Returned home by 7:00 by bus. Surya Kumari offered me supper by 7:30. Paid 3,500 rupees to her by 8:00 towards rent for February for my portion in their house. Morning Srijana got Sankeerthana vaccinated and took her to Marripalem. Saw Telugu film “Basanthi” from 9:45 to 11:45 in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir. Slept by 12:00.

2 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to Seshadri Nagar layout near Tuni by 8:30 on my scooty. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and his elder son Srinivas already reached here. My uncle wants to buy a plot of land here for him. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju got off an ordinary bus near the LIC building in Tuni by 10:00. He came from Gollalagunta. He wants to buy a plot of land in Tuni, Payakaraopeta or Peda Gummuluru. He is not interested in living at Gollalagunta in the vicinity of the houses of my maternal uncle Varma and maternal aunt Satyavati. They verbally attacked them recently on wrong grounds. He does not like their attitudes. He surveyed the plots of land in this layout and knew about those rates. Narasimha and his son left for Tetagunta by 10:45 on their scooty. Rama Raju and I came to my abode by 11:00. I offered raagi malt to him. We two reached the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem by 12:10 on my scooty. My in-laws felt happy about our coming here. They prepared Chicken Biryani for us. We spent talking about our familiar people and events for some time. We had lunch by 1:30. The teak plants are tall and beautiful now. Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana are doing well here. The thighs of the baby got swollen partly due to vaccination last Sunday at the primary health centre in Payakaraopeta. She is crying intensely now and then because of the pain at injected part. Rama Raju took a bus at bus station in Tuni by 3:15. Enjoyed spending with him today. It was sunny and pleasant today. Slept by 9:30.

3 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. They did not stop buses after I reached Y Junction. A familiar Hetero employee took me up to Hetero complex. Today I forgot wearing my black belt. Felt uneasy throughout the day. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 11:30 went to the HR department to talk with DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy. I told him about the irrational TDS deduction from my salary last month and inefficient bus service. He said that they deducted TDS from the salaries of many employees illogically. He would talk with the HR folks at corporate office about this issue. He said that all buses would not be stopped at every point. I think a driver is stopping a bus at Y Junction by 8:10 every morning. If I fail to reach there by this time on any day, I would be a loser. Some of us are travelling standing up every morning and evening. They should buy one or two more buses. They are not doing it. Returned home by 7:00 by bus. Today Surya Kumari offered me breakfast and supper. Ironed two pairs of my clothes from 8:00 to 8:30. One portion in our house at Peda Gummuluru remained vacant for the last five months or so. Till now two folks paid an advance of 2,000 and 500 rupees respectively but did not enter it. This portion does not look modern to many present folks. There are three rooms vertically. Veer Kishor of EHS, in the non-SEZ of Hetero complex, is interested in renting in this portion. Slept by 9:30.

4 March (Tuesday) 

Woke up by 5:30. Last night Deepthi appeared to me in my dream. She looked very sad and depressed. Some event or experience disturbed or hurt her deeply. She must be suffering, recollecting her admiration for me. She has the qualities of an introvert in this dream. She is advancing steadily towards self-realization. Remorse, suffering and isolation guide one rapidly towards God than happiness and comforts in one’s spiritual journey. Deepthi loves me deeply even now. I did not receive negative signals from her soul through telepathy. She can never forget me in her life. I made such lasting impressions on her psyche once. She is there in my heart. I have a lot of space in my psychological and spiritual domain. I love and admire many appearing in this mysterious world made by God. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. From 11:00 to 11:30 the folks of EHS department celebrated the 43^rd national safety day near the abode of HR department in non-SEZ. A few senior staff members talked about the importance of safety on this occasion. They distributed snacks towards the end of this program. Returned home by 7:10. Today Surya Kumari offered me breakfast and supper. From 8:00 to 9:00 added a little more content to my blog titled “Truth” and edited it. Uploaded it into my blog site. It would be posted by 8:00 am tomorrow automatically. Night had papaya fruit pieces. Summer is advancing slowly. Sun is leading the show. Slept by 10:30. 

5 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. I decided not to send Veer Kishor as a tenant into a portion of our house in Peda Gummuluru. Yesterday I told him to go to our house in Peda Gummuluru and pay advance to my parents to confirm his status as our tenant. He did not do it. I don’t like such indiscipline in anybody. He married a girl about six months ago. Till now he did not bring her to this place to live with her. His father has assets worth about two crore rupees. He inherits half of that property. He is getting 8,000 rupees from the Hetero as an employee in the EHS department of non-SEZ. He wants to live with that money only. I asked him if he is not interested in inheriting the property from his parents. He wants every bit of it. He does not have the qualities of a modern Indian. He married late. He is not enjoying his married life. Economy is necessary for all. We should plan for our future also. They should not disturb our present. We cannot enjoy our future if we neglect the beauty and needs of our present. Veer Kishor is living in future neglecting his present. He did not develop as an individual completely. He often depends on his parents to take ordinary decisions also. I regret his thoughts and lifestyle. He is losing the beauty of his crazy age because of his innocence. Srijana, Sankeerthana and Anand returned home, this afternoon, from Marripalem. Slept by 10:00.

6 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning a goldsmith brought two earrings from Visakhapatnam to my abode. Recently Srijana ordered them for Sankeerthana. She gets the ear lobes of the baby pierced soon and gets these rings fitted there by a specialist. She paid 4,500 rupees to him for buying and making these gold ornaments. I think we cannot see the ears of any Indian girl or woman without some ornament hanging to them. Is not man looking handsome and grand without ornaments on his body? Wearing gold ornaments or not is a matter of option for males in India but females take it differently. They crave ornaments made of gold and other precious metals. I hate this dirty attitude of Indian women. They are not improving psychologically despite education and trends of social reformation. Indian women should improve their skills and knowledge to fight against cruel and manipulative males. They should grow as individuals. I regret Srijana initiating Sankeerthana into the sphere of gold ornaments with these earrings. By 7:30 Anand and I went to Thaandava cooperative sugar factory in Payakaraopeta. My younger paternal uncle Narayana Murthy is working at the sugarcane weighing machine in this factory now. He knows that I like sugarcanes. He informed me to come over phone. He got some sugarcanes collected from the loads on the vehicles here for me. We talked about our familiar things for some time. He works here in sugarcane crushing season only. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

7 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 7:00 my father-in-law came to my abode from the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. He came here to undergo medical tests to know about the levels of diabetes and blood pressure in his body. He consumes such foods, which intensify these health problems. When we cannot regulate our tongue, we become physically and mentally disorderly. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. I am unable to use my Sony digital camera optimally. I often tell Srijana to take the photos of Anand and Sankeerthana. She is not doing it as much as I desire. Sankeerthana is crying more than expected of her age. She chose crying as a means to get her desired things done. She is crying intensely at times. Srijana is unable to bear that intense crying. She is unable to look after the baby on her own all the time. We could not find a person to help her for these few days. We cannot take photos well always. We need adequate light and fitting background effects. Mothers should take the photos and videos of their babies when the latter are pleasant and are playing on their own. They indulge in their domestic chores during this time. Father remains busy on Sundays and holidays also. I am such culprit now. I am not capturing the beauty of Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana these days. I think modern parents are not spending enough time with their children. It’s bad culture. Slept by 10:00.

8 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:15 my mother-in-law came to my abode from the teak plantation at Marripalem. Reached Hetero complex by 8:58 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Also participated in the celebration of International Women’s Day in the open space above cafeteria in non-SEZ. There may be about 200 female employees in the Hetero complex at Nakkapalli now. Most of them are unmarried girls. They decorated this space with flowers. Our L&D department conducted drawing, singing, fashion show, quiz, elocution and essay writing competitions on this occasion. D Dhana Lakshmi of SEZ helped and guided Subba Rao, Soma Sundaram and Kishore Reddy in these arrangements and events. It all went on from 10:00 to 5:30. They distributed Reynolds Metallica FX ballpoints and dark chocolate bars towards the end of it to all participants. I enjoyed the presence of girls and their spirited participation in this celebration. Returned home by 7:10. By 11:00, this morning, Srijana and her mother got the ear lobes of Sankeerthana pierced and earrings fitted by a female beautician in Tuni. She cried intensely during those few moments due to that pain. These ornaments are made of 1.5 grams of gold. Srijana’s mother came here to help her on this occasion. Revathi and Anand were also there. From 9:30 to 11:30 Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Bangaaru Kodi Petta” in cinema Gowtham. The beauty and facial expressions of Swati impressed me a lot. It is an interesting film. Lacking linear order of screenplay is a drawback of this film. Slept by 12:00.

9 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today typed up the content of February from my diary of 2014 on my computer for 280 minutes. By 1:00 Srijana, Sankeerthana and I started to Peda Gummuluru on our scooty. We reached there by 1:30. It was cloudy and pleasant when we were travelling. This is the first time I took Sankeerthana for such a long ride on my scooty. The cool air and the rhythm of the vehicle sounds on NH-16 lulled her to sleep. She enjoyed this ride being in the lap of her mother, supported by a cushion carry bed. My folks felt happy looking at her face, adorned with little earrings. My mother is feeling giddy. The diabetes or high blood pressure in her body must be the cause of this problem. I advised her to consume adequate water, watermelon and papaya. Sambha is suffering from acidity. He travels regularly on his bike to different places. He does not consume foods or liquids in time. Today my father spent in our mango farm at hills from 8:00 to 1:00. He got the newly planted mango plants watered deploying 10 female workers. He drew water from our well in the farm. They poured 60 litres of water at the bottom of every plant. My father is supervising this work every Sunday. He returned from the farm by 2:00 on his old bicycle. He felt happy seeing us and Sankeerthana. We took leave of them and started back by 4:00. We spent talking with Kalyana Varma for 10 minutes at Vempadu Toll Gate. He was going to Visakhapatnam in a car. Slept by 10:00.

10 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. My in-laws left for Marripalem by 4:30. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Anand is applying talcum powder on his face now and then, in the evening, for beautification. When Srijana asked him why he was doing so, he said that Sai Sanjana is doing so. She is a three-year-old daughter of a Hetero employee, staying in a portion of our building. She daily plays with Anand in our abode. She is also studying at Canossa School. Anand observed that she is bringing a small tin of talcum powder to school daily for beautification purpose. She got the qualities of a film actress. Anand learnt this art from this girl. He is adjusting powder on his face carefully looking into a mirror. Srijana and I are wondered about his concern for beauty. Sai Sanjana taking a tin of powder to her school for beautification is another big wonder for us. Her parents want her to grow as a doll of beauty or a girl of knowledge, intelligence, creativity and courage? India needs women of bravery but not of only beautiful appearance. She must be able to frighten or kill a cruel man. Voluntary organizations and police can’t save girls and women in India from attacks and atrocities but they themselves only. Srijana also appears to me as a doll of beauty often. Indian tradition and culture made and kept her race so for centuries. Ideal boys and men should guide them towards being brave and intelligent. Night ironed three pairs of my clothes. Had sugarcanes before going to bed. Slept by 10:00.

11 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:54 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 1:30 went to Boys Hostel to bring my remaining books from the training hall, in which I taught communicative English to Hetero learners recently. They laid carpet on the floors and fitted curtains to windows. The two training halls are looking more beautiful and comfortable now than earlier. Different training classes go on here regularly. They are still making arrangements for venue for communicative English classes. I did not ask Subba Rao or others about it. They must know how to utilize my knowledge and skills. If I educate them about my capabilities, they may take me as an egoistic fellow or simply get offended. They have affection and love for me. They respect me always. I should allow them to sort out things and make arrangements slowly. Veer Kishor gave advance to my parents to enter a portion as a tenant. I allowed his destiny to prevail. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. By 8:40 Sambha informed me that the buyer of my paddy farm at Kota Uratla wants it to be registered in his name at the office of sub registrar in Kota Uratla tomorrow. I have to be there to sign those documents as the seller of this farmland. Sambha supervises and coordinates rest of this sale deal. By 9:00 sent an email to my manager Subba Rao asking him to grant leave tomorrow for me. I don’t like such indiscipline in applying for a leave. Circumstances made me so. Slept by 10:00.

12 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 9:10 called up my manager Subba Rao at Hetero and informed him that I don’t come to office today. He readily approved my proposal for leave. By 9:30 my brother Sambha and my father came to my abode from Peda Gummuluru on the bike of the prior. They brought two mangoes for me. By 10:15 they left for Tuni. They came here to collect the three silver plates, which they ordered a few days ago. They got a little gold also added to each of them in the form of design of a flower. By 10:45 took a sharing auto rickshaw at Y Junction and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 11:20. My mother offered me papaya fruit pieces. Spent talking with my paternal aunt Subhadra for one hour at our house. Her husband is staying away from her due to differences of opinion. Her son Ravindra Varma is waiting to join a government job. They offered five lakh rupees, towards bribe, for this job with the VIMS at Visakhapatnam. Sambha and my father returned from Tuni by 1:20 with the silver plates. Sambha and I reached the office of Sub Registrar at Kota Uratla by 2:10 on his bike. A niece of Malla Venkata Ramana of Gavarapet in Kota Uratla bought my 2.12 acres of paddy farmland under survey number 164-3. The rate of each acre of this land is 4, 75,000 rupees. We two signed on the documents. It was all over by 6:00. We returned home by 6:50. I took 20,000 rupees from this amount of money. Sambha spends rest of it for the land I bought from my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy. Returned to my rented abode by 8:10. Slept by 9:30.

13 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:58 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 3:00 Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana left for Viswanadhapuram in the car of their familiar fellow. There is the Upanayanam of Datla Anvesh Varma tomorrow morning. She wants to see it. By 8:30, at night, I watched a video shot with our digital camera recently. They shot it when a female beautician was piercing the ear lobes of our baby Sankeerthana to fit the earrings there. I saw the agony being underwent by her during this time. It happened on International Women’s Day. Revathi was also there. My mother-in-law shot it. The baby was crying intensely being unable to bear that physical torture. The beautician pressed the sharp ends of the rings into her ear lobes by force. I felt as if four witches were committing a heinous crime on an innocent and helpless baby beyond my presence. I am the criminal to leave the baby in the hands of such females. The baby was unable to breathe while crying painfully. Called up Srijana and rebuked her severely. She said that I have no moral authority to criticize her about it. I was sleeping at home when she was in the labour at hospital. The baby cries intensely every time a needle is pierced into her body to inject vaccine. She asked me where I was and what I was doing during those times of their intense pain. She subdued my psychic power with her rational questions. I cannot bear babies crying with pain. Slept by 9:45.

14 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:58 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana returned to our rented abode, this afternoon, from Viswanadhapuram. Morning she attended the Upanayanam of Anvesh. Her parents also came for this occasion. Afternoon many folks went to Visakhapatnam to attend the marriage of Anvesh tonight. My in-laws also went there. My father-in-law consults a doctor there about his health. He has got pain in his thigh. He has 15 kilos of excessive fat in his body now. He should eat less amount of rice and avoid consumption of fatty foods. He cannot tune himself to this lifestyle rapidly. Recently my folks applied for “Bangaaru Thalli” scheme of the state government for Sankeerthana. It is a scheme of financial assistance for girls. I advised Srijana not to go for it because I am not a poor man of India. My father got some assets for us. I can look after them well. Anyway they moved ahead with it. We cannot depend on the financial assistance of others much these days considering the uncertainty of future. Governments are corrupt and financially down. The lives of people are also vulnerable and uncertain. In this adverse set of complications around us, we should depend more on the mercy of God and individual Karma than mortals and material world. I am often unable to find money for some vaccines to be bought for Sankeerthana. Srijana is regularly taking her for vaccination at government facilities. Evening Telugu film actor Pavan Kalyan started his political party ‘Jana Sena’ in Hyderabad. Slept by 10:00.

15 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:58 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Afternoon typed out an article titled “Education in Andhra Pradesh” on the computer system of Srinivasa Varma. He was on weekly off today. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. My in-laws returned from Visakhapatnam by 8:00 by bus. Today both of them underwent holistic body checkup in a hospital at Visakhapatnam. Considerable abnormalities were not detected. Went to a nearby shop by 8:15 on my scooty and bought Ganga milk packs, Pampers medium size diapers for the baby, biscuits, rusks and matchboxes for our domestic consumption. By 9:00 my in-laws left for Viswanadhapuram. From 9:30 to 12:15 saw the Telugu film “Dheerudu” in cinema Gowtham. There are many mosquitoes in this cinema. Vishal and Aiswarya played the lead roles in this film. I like Vishal for his stellar look and impressive performance in stunts and songs. He struggles a lot to impress viewers. Every artist should have this quality. Aiswarya, the daughter of actor Arjun, played the role of heroine in this film. She is one of the exceptional beauties of India. She got classic features. Dheerudu is not a suitable film to introduce such angel. Her face is like a divine painting of an extraordinary artist. Her father Arjun and I should write and direct a classic historical or love story for this princess of India. She is like a magnet of beauty. A marvelous beauty should act in classic art pieces. Slept by 12:30.

16 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Edited my blog titled “Education in Andhra Pradesh” by 8:50 on my computer and posted it on my blog site by 9:10. Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Bheemavaram Bullodu” in cinema Surya Mahal from 11:00 to 1:30. It is an interesting film with exciting dialogues, story and songs. Sunil did well. Esther looked beautiful and impressive. Anand watched it interestingly. He got addicted to watching films in cinemas and on television channels. He feels excited and happy when I take him out for films. He is more interested in films than his school. I like to bring him up like a free bird. Sankeerthana is doing well. She is trying to turn to the right while on bed. She likes me. I take her on to my chest and move here and there to comfort her in an upright position. She enjoys these moments of my walk. She does not sleep for long hours during daytime. Now she is sleeping well at night. She got enough breast milk to get from her mother. She cries intensely to get her favourable things done quickly. She is an adamant and angry creature from this perspective. Srijana is using oils to keep her body healthy and soft. Afternoon Srijana and I sliced a block of our jaggery into pieces. It is getting wet on that part where air is not available. The other block of it is not affected much. We kept it so for the time being. Today my father got water poured at the bottom of mango plants in my farm. They are drawing water from our well. My brother Sambha got a pit dug in my farm to store water in it. He is getting water from a farm beside ours to water young mango plants. Slept by 10:00.

17 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. When returning home by bus, I put some unique questions to the familiar folks sitting beside me. I invented those questions during this short period of time to educate and entertain them differently. This is applied creativity. I thoroughly enjoyed this intellectually stimulating exercise. I used my faculty of intelligence this way on this short journey. I put the same questions to Srijana at home. She could not answer all of them. She felt thrilled and enthusiastic about the fun and challenge involved in these questions invented by me. Sankeerthana turned to the other side of her body, this night, by 8:30, successfully. Generally babies lie keeping their back down. This turning means moving, on their own, to lie keeping their stomach downwards. She achieved it today. She has been on these feats during the last few days. Srijana captured this victorious pose of the baby with our Sony digital camera. Night Srijana told me that her maternal uncle Sekhar wants to borrow one lakh rupees from somebody familiar to me. I asked some but they wanted time. Meanwhile her thought led to the familiar fact that her paternal uncle Jagannadha Raju has got this much money to lend. He said that he would lend it to Sekhar through me only. I agreed to it. Sekhar will be accountable to me signing a promissory note in my name. He has to pay 2,000 rupees every month towards interest on this principal. What a game? Slept by 10:00.

18 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night I slept in the room, in which Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana have been sleeping for the last few days. Sankeerthana got up suddenly at midnight crying loudly. She must have witnessed a nightmare or that my telepathy signals would have disturbed her peaceful subconscious arena. I decided not to sleep in that room for some more days. By 7:15 got about 40 coconuts pulled from the tree of Anasooyamma of Viswanadhapuram, which is in her plot of land, near our rented abode. A toddy seller pulled them. I took a 50-rupee note to give 20 or 30 rupees to him. He said that 50 rupees is the minimum charge to pull any number of coconuts from a tree. I understood why the farmers in Kerala are depending on trained and skilled monkeys to get coconuts pulled from those many trees there. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today Jagannadha Raju deposited one lakh rupees into the SBI account of Srijana to lend it to her maternal uncle Sekhar through her. Sekhar took her ATM to withdraw this amount of money from her account on three days. He is in the process of starting a business unit with this money in Tuni. He believes that I arranged this money for him. Srijana told me that her paternal uncle got this money to lend. Sekhar is taking this money without knowing that it belongs to Jagannadha Raju. All these folks highlighted my value as an honourable mediator. Both the lender and borrower are my familiar and reliable folks. I am free and happy to this extent. I like such fun games. Went to sleep by 10:00.

19 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Jaladurgam Ram, the DGM of L&D departments of Hetero, conducted a meeting with safety audit related folks from 12:30 to 1:30 in a training hall at SEZ. Towards the end of it, when I was near him, he asked me how I was doing. I said I am happy. If I say I am not happy, I need to tell him many things about it. Happiness demands very little explanation. He never asked me what I want to do well as an English instructor here. It means he has no genuine interest in me or Hetero employees here. He is a hypocrite. Why should I tell facts to a liar? It’s waste of time. I know how to guide the Hetero employees towards learning English. I don’t need the support of actors like Ram or Subba Rao. Today Soma Sundaram brought Rajesh from Tuni for an interview for a position in L&D department. Ram interviewed him from 5:20 to 5:30 in the room of Subba Rao. It is a dirty interview. He asked him such questions, which prove that he is not suitable for any position with L&D. He disappointed and insulted Rajesh this way. Rajesh was my colleague at Gayathri College in Tuni. He is an MCA. He is teaching computer science to undergraduate students in this college. We can use him well in our department. Ram and Subba Rao also know it. They intentionally avoided him. I should make Soma Sundaram realize it. Returned home by 7:00 on the bike of Rajesh. Slept by 10:00.

20 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Removed the outer layer of 30 coconuts from 7:00 to 7:30 with a sharp iron tool meant for it. I sweated a little. Took a bus at Y Junction and reached Hetero complex by 8:55. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning prepared the resumes of Pallepu Rajesh and Boddu Srinu. Soma Sundaram is searching for a job for Rajesh. I am trying to bring Boddu Srinu into Hetero as an electrician. He wants a job. There are two tenants in the third and last floor of the house in which I am living now as a tenant. I brought Moka Srinivas of Hetero into one room. This time the monthly domestic electricity bill of the family unit in that one bedroom portion crossed 300 rupees. It never happened during the last two years. Earlier I told Srinivas that it is enough if he pays 50 rupees on his part towards electricity consumption charge for a month. Now he has to pay 100 rupees as their common bill crossed 300 rupees but he refused to pay so saying that he consumed very little electricity last month. The wife and husband (the parents of Sai Sanjana) of that family unit are also economical. They are expecting this man to pay 100 rupees. My house owner or I would add those 50 rupees if none of them is ready to pay it. A drunkard spends a lot of money at liquor or toddy stores daily, casually. It shows that drunkards are happier and richer than these dirty misers of India. Slept by 10:20.

21 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Removed the outer layer of 25 coconuts from 6:45 to 7:15. There are 55 coconuts. I will send them to my parents in Peda Gummuluru. They break them and dry them up in the sun. They get coconut oil from them in a mill. These 55 coconuts may cost about 400 rupees in the open market now. They can buy high quality coconut oil spending this much money. They can use it for one year. They don’t do it. They enjoy the process involved in getting oil from these coconuts. This is what majority of Indians do. They are experts in wasting time, doing unnecessary and unrelated things. They don’t think much to improve the existing systems with many drawbacks and demerits but follow them blindly. They don’t try to bring a lamp to a dark place but move to a place of light. They believe that somebody comes to improve them, avoiding using their intelligence and hard work. I know about many Indians who do nothing but whiling away their time. My parents also belong to this category of people. They daily talk a lot about many things but not about their health and happiness. They point out mistakes committed by others but don’t focus on self-reformation. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. It was hot and sultry today. They switched on AC machines recently to face summer while working inside. It is difficult for those working in production blocks. Slept by 9:30.

22 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Also issued safety instruction cards to 35 contract workers in the morning and evening after training was given to them by Moka Srinivas of EHS department in non-SEZ. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. A close friend of Srijana presented clothes to Srijana and me on the occasion of our sixth wedding anniversary tomorrow. She bought and brought a long-sleeved shirt of stripes and a jeans pant for me. I don’t like jeans even one percent. It is like cricket for me. Srijana and this friend were dear classmates at government junior college for girls in Tuni once. Her husband is working as a bus driver with APSRTC now. From 9:30 to 12:00, Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy and I saw the Telugu film “Veta” in cinema Gowtham. He brought his son Shanmuk Harshit. I took Anand Sagar. Both watched this film attentively, without dozing off in the middle of it. Srinivas works in the accounts department in our floor. We became friends recently. We often talk in our floor of administrative block. He is a native of village Vulapalli near Bikkavolu. He is living in a rented abode at Lingala Colony in Payakaraopeta now as a tenant. He has been working with the Hetero unit at Nakkapalli for the last six years. The other day he asked me to be his mentor. I felt happy about his knowing the meaning of that word and asking me to be so for him. I did not find the story of this film interesting. Madhurima looked attractive. The director made it into a collage of serious events and twists. Slept by 1:00.

23 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. It is the sixth wedding anniversary of Srijana and me today. We two wore the new sets of clothes presented by her female friend. They were bosom friends at government junior college for girls in Tuni. I wore a blue jeans pant to satisfy Srijana. She prepared Chicken Biryani and sweets to offer a little of them to the folks familiar to us in Devi Nagar. Took a bus and reached Peda Gummuluru by 1:30. Gave about 45 coconuts to my parents. Spent talking with them and my brother Sambha till 5:00. Took a bus by 5:15 at Adduroad and reached my abode by 5:50. Anand and I went to Thaandava cooperative sugar factory at Payakaraopeta by 6:45 on my scooty. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came out from the weigh bridge of the factory to give me some sugarcanes. He got some drawn out from a vehicle, cut them into suitable pieces to carry and tied together. We spent talking for 20 minutes sitting under the big tree at the entrance of this factory. There are many birds in this tree. They soiled our clothes partly. Returned home by 8:15. Boddu Srinu brought fresh pearl millet and groundnuts in three sacks in an auto rickshaw by 8:30 from Tangedu. His father Appala Naidu grew them in the farm of Sambha near Tangedu. Paid 1,800 rupees towards the cost of these items and 300 rupees towards transport charge. My familiar folks in Devi Nagar take most of these items, paying for them. It is for my satisfaction. Slept by 10:00.

24 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Now my house owner K S N Raju is involved in getting an arch constructed at the entrance of Devi Nagar beside NH-16. They started this work 10 days ago. It all costs him about 25,000 rupees. The old arch failed about a year ago. He started this work spending about 10,000 rupees of his own thinking that other house owners in Devi Nagar would contribute to it later. It is enough if each of them contributes 1,000 rupees. Only three or four of them gave money till now. Others are passive about it. In fact, it is a common development and beautification work related to every resident of Devi Nagar. K S N Raju took this initiative because he has been associated with this colony for long. Others are making him a victim ultimately, not supporting him financially in projects of this order. It shows the nasty attitude of most of ordinary Indians. They don’t recognize and appreciate virtuous members in their locality. They don’t walk along visionaries and idealists. They are silent villains of the contemporary India. I hate them. K S N Raju struggled hard and got street lights fitted to some electric poles in Devi Nagar. He spent 6,000 rupees for it. Many beneficiaries of this facility did not pay him money for it till now. Morning my in-laws came here from the teak plantation at Marripalem. They brought vegetables and fruits from there. I am having sugarcanes every night. Slept by 10:30.

25 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:54 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 10:00 my brother Sambha and Ganapathiraju Narayana Raju came to Hetero complex in the car of the latter from Adduroad. Appala Raju is working in the purchase department in non-SEZ. He sits behind me. Recently he told me that they are looking for a vendor to supply black stones to the non-SEZ to use in construction works. The current vendor is not supplying this material well. I told Sambha to see if he can do it. Narayana Raju has been in this field for the last 20 years. Sambha met him at Adduroad. Both of them came today to Hetero complex to discuss this matter with Appala Raju. Narayana Raju is unable to walk longer as his legs are affected. Somehow he walked to the HR building from the main gate. Sambha too accompanied him. They and Appala Raju discussed the matter of material supply for five minutes in the HR section itself. Appala Raju told Narayana Raju to give a quotation. Sambha is surprised about the formalities to be followed by visitors. They took the cellphones from them and issued white helmets and badges. They left this place within minutes. Today my in-laws attended the court at Tuni in relation to a case they filed against a police in K O Mallavaram 10 years ago. There have been a series of adjournments. Indian legal system is very slow and unreliable. Slept by 9:30.

26 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 4:00 my in-laws left for the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem on bike. By today the annual exams of Anand came to an end. He did well under the guidance of his mother. They run UKG classes for a few days for the present LKG students to partly prepare them for the next academic year. He attends the school in the afternoon only from tomorrow onwards because of intense summer. I am not focusing on his education at all. I am pressed for time. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today Subba Rao told me about his ambition when I was talking with him casually in his room. He wants to live in a serene bit of five acres of land with fruit and flower gardens all around. There must be a duplex house, car and one or two boys to help him during emergencies. He should get everything he wants within his territory. He moves out once a month or so to buy vital things for him. Now he wants one crore rupees to get his dream realized. He said that he has neither assets nor money to achieve his imaginary state of serene life. I told him that he can realize his dream if he pursues it passionately. Every great achievement is a dream in its initial stage. Subba Rao avoided offensive treatment towards me. He is behaving lovingly, reverentially and liberally towards me. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Today Srijana arranged some wedding cards of Mounika. Slept by 10:00.

27 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I am on casual leave. Started to Peda Gummuluru by 6:20 on my scooty. On the way, near Vempadu Toll Gate, bought two watermelons for 80 rupees for my parents. My mother and I started to Rambilli by 7:15 on my scooty. We reached the house of parents of Datla Ramesh by 8:15 travelling via Pancha Darla and Venkata Puram. Today Ramesh is holding half sari ceremony for his daughter Sraavya. He invited many guests to this traditional occasion in his family unit. He must have spent about four lakh rupees to buy gold ornaments for Sraavya. This ceremony went on between 9:00 and 11:00. Took photos and videos of this occasion for some time. They started offering lunch by 11:30. Ramesh got different dishes made for this occasion spending about one lakh rupees. Sowjanya actively participated in this occasion as the mother of Sraavya. About 300 guests attended this function. I gave 500 rupees for the baby as a token of my affection for her. Ramesh and Sowjanya presented one saree to each female guest. It all went on well. Took my mother to the house of Varahalamma, her close associate and relative in childhood. They spent talking for some time. Before that I spent talking for some time with the eldest maternal grandfather of Srijana in their house for one hour. Took my mother to our house in Peda Gummuluru by 3:15 on my scooty. Veer Kishor entered a portion in our house, this early morning, along with his mother. Returned home by 4:00. Slept by 9:30.

28 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Appala Raju of purchase department told me to ask my brother Sambha to supply black stones as early as possible to Hetero unit here. Afternoon prepared bill book and letterhead templates in the name of my brother Sambha. He does many useful and helpful things for his familiar folks but there is no written record of those activities and achievements. This is the problem in documenting and maintaining human history. Writers and researchers focus their analytical and critical views on a few people of society only. Life is not what is seen or talked about generally by casual observers but what is lived by each individual in a society in a period of time. It is not just a record of visible acts but of invisible thoughts and intangible pains also. Who can find out and document all those aspects of real lives? If anybody asks us about what we did so far, we answer it in a few sentences. We forget many things related to our lives. The process of life is more interesting, insightful and eventful than a brief summary of it. We focus on summary only to assess the character of a person or trends of a society. From this perspective, the books of history, which we are reading now, are incomplete from many standpoints of critical analysis. Today Srijana dusted and cleaned much part of our abode with the help of Satyavati, the domestic help of K S N Raju family for long. She tired much. Slept by 9:30.

29 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today I called up my brother Sambha twice to enquire him about the progress in their plan to supply black stones to Hetero unit. Second time he answered me angrily saying that he does not like being followed up repeatedly. Then he must be sitting in a local political meeting. It is a useless meeting for him. He may earn a little profit if he supplies black stones to Hetero unit regularly. His careless, reckless and aggressive attitude and response irritated me. I decided not to assign any important third party task to him. I respect discipline and standards in others more than richness and intelligence. Sambha does not seem to have these qualities. Spent most of the time thinking about the negative qualities of Sambha. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By 6:27 an amount of 22,350 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account from the folks of Hetero towards my salary for this month. From 9:30 to 12:15 Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Legend” in cinema Gautham. Bala Krishna did very well in his roles. It is an interesting and exciting film. Radhika Apte looked beautiful. She has no much role to play in this film. Anand remained awake throughout. His passion for films is almost similar to mine. He watches films on television channels also passionately. He is maintaining styles in looks and acts now and then due to the impact of those actors in films. Slept by 12:30.

30 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Anand and I went to Tuni by 9:30 on our scooty to buy some things for domestic use. Withdrew 12,000 rupees from the ATM centre of Axis Bank. Bought Pampers diapers, milk packs, onions and some other items, spending about 1,500 rupees. By 2:00 Bojja Shankar Rao came to my abode on his bike. Morning called him up and told him to come to my abode to collect his money. Paid him 10,000 rupees. He lent me this amount of money about a year ago. Gave him 12 Sunnundalu also out of affection. Ironed six pairs of my clothes from 3:30 to 5:00. Started searching for margosa flowers, holding a little bag in my hand. There is a young margosa tree in the plot of land to the left of the house of K S N Raju. I climbed up this tree but could not collect many flowers. Walked into the campus of Canossa School by 5:30. Asked for the permission of a Christian woman there to collect some flowers from their margosa trees there. She accepted readily. There is a tree with slope but no scope to keep my grip firmly. Somehow climbed it up and pressed myself to it like a careful lizard. Collected some margosa flowers fast. I enjoyed this dangerous and thrilling challenge. These margosa flowers are to be added to the pickle of Ugadi tomorrow morning by Srijana in our abode. By 8:40 my cousin Narendra Varma got off an ordinary bus near Tuni railway station. Brought him home on my scooty. He is on leave. We spent talking for one hour. Slept by 10:45 for my dreams.

31 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana prepared pickle by 8:30 on the occasion of Ugadi. It is the first day of Telugu New Year Jaya today. Narendra Varma, Anand, Srijana and I had it by 9:00. Srijana prepared Pesarattu for our breakfast. Naren and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 9:15 on my scooty. We got 200 rupees worth petrol filled in the tank of my scooty. Naren paid for it. We spent talking with my parents till 10:00. We went to the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy near our mango garden at hills by 10:20. We spent talking with my aunt Kumari, cousins Ashwini and Ashok for two hours. She offered buttermilk and tea for us. Naren and I moved through our mango garden for 20 minutes. We collected about 40 mangoes from under two trees. I closely observed my young mango garden. There is an artificial water pit in it. A plant died. Took video of this scenery. We returned to Peda Gummuluru by 1:00. My mother offered us lunch. We spent talking with Sambha for some time. We returned to my abode in Payakaraopeta by 3:15. Brought my mother-in-law home by 4:20. She got off a bus by NH-16. She brought a big watermelon and snacks from there for us. Took Naren to Seshadri Nagar layout near Tuni by 4:45. He saw the plots of land in this layout. He took a bus by 5:10. He was going to Durgada. By 7:30 my father-in-law came. He and Srijana took Sankeerthana to Dr Ramesh for general checkup. Slept by 9:30.

1 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 4:00 my father-in-law left for the teak plantation at Marripalem. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Gave an envelope to a postman that comes to our building, asking him to post it at their office, in Nakkapalli. There are a paper cutting of an old Eenadu daily and my letter to my cousin Vasu in this envelope. The first one contains a pictorial description of the growth of a fetus in the womb of a mother during nine months. I heard that, Hema, the wife of Vasu, is pregnant now. This information is highly useful for her. I typed out a few words of advice for my cousin Vasu in the letter. I wrote about the importance of knowledge, information, planning and vision in it for anybody to improve gradually in one’s life. Most of us read and know a lot from different sources of knowledge and information but we seldom make use of it. We search for relevant information during emergencies only. We look out for instant external help during such times. A knowledgeable and brave person can face difficulties and challenges better than an ignorant and cowardly person. We should equip our body and brain with energy and insights to lead our lives happily. We should avoid dependence upon others to the maximum possible extent. By 2:00 my mother-in-law left for the teak plantation at Marripalem by bus. She prepared a little mango pickle for us and helped Srijana. Slept by 10:00.

2 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Afternoon our manager Subba Rao told me to take a class in the CGMP class as regularly as possible. Every month they teach a topic representing L&D department. The topic of this month is positive attitude. They prepared a PPT on it. I have to explain it for an hour. He took me to a CGMP class. That PPT was not there on the computer. He took the class for this reason. I need a little time to tune myself to play a new role. Till now, I tuned my mind as that of an English instructor only. Now I have to teach another topic. Every speaker cannot be a writer. Every writer cannot be a speaker. A father cannot play the role of a mother. A daughter cannot play the role of a son. A pilot cannot play the role of a locomotive driver. God created different features and creatures in this world in this fashion. Mountains, rivers, seas, deserts, lakes and plains cannot replace the beauty and importance of birds, animals and human beings. Each phenomenon and creature is unique and different from the other. Many creatures are disappearing from this land forever due to natural calamities or manmade blunders. God is withdrawing that form of life from this material world. The diversity of beauty and balance of life and occurrences is being affected and destabilized to this extent. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Today Sankeerthana succeeded in turning to the other side of her body. She indulged in this feat many times. Slept by 9:45.

3 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 9:30, Soma Sundaram, Kishore Reddy and I gave our blood and urine samples in the occupational health centre of SEZ. Every factory, involving dangerous working conditions and processing of raw material, should test the health condition of their employees periodically. It is a labour welfare measure. In Hetero units here, they are getting medical tests conducted once a year. I am happy about it. Yesterday was the last day as a kid of LKG for Anand at Canossa School. From today he has summer holidays till 16 June. He got third rank in his class. Srijana brought his progress report of LKG. I am very disturbed about missing precious moments of his LKG life. How is he spending in his classroom? How are his classmates dealing with him? Is he getting hurt psychologically to stay in that restricted classroom environment? How are his teachers behaving towards him? Is he eating food and drinking water satisfactorily while in school? What am I doing as his father? I left him in a hell knowingly. If a male parent can give birth and bring up a baby like a female parent, I never send my son or daughter to school. They are studying in restricted school atmosphere when they should play with their friends and parents. I am against this cruel culture but I am becoming a victim of it now. Slept by 10:30.

4 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Evening they offered plantain snacks at cafeteria in non-SEZ. They serve snacks and tea every evening to employees at cafeteria. They deduct five rupees from the salary of employee for snacks and two rupees for tea. The employer adds the same amount of money as their contribution. I go for some varieties of snacks only. I observed that many employees are leaving part of the snacks in plates. They are undisciplined idiots. I don’t leave food items in plates any day because I treat them as valuable items. Millions of people are suffering without food and water in different parts of this world. I am a privileged entity of India, not to be one of them. God blessed me to be so. I should not insult the mercy of God, discarding His valuable gifts to me as worthless items. Everybody, getting anything on subsidized prices, deeply owes to common people and philanthropists of the contemporary societies. The employees of pharmaceutical companies owe to millions of patients in this world. We are making and selling medicines to them. We are deriving the pleasure of profits and comforts depending on the plight of their diseases and disorders. We are gaining from their pain. We are such nasty rogues and helpless parasites. Then how can we misuse the valuable gifts offered helplessly by these many unfortunate beings of the world. I am disturbed observing the attitudes of many employees here. Slept by 9:30.

5 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning and afternoon training was provided to about 180 contract workers on the aspects of safety by EHS staff members in a training hall at Boys Hostel. I too participated in it as a facilitator from L&D department. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Morning Srijana took our baby Sankeerthana to the primary health centre near Y Junction for periodical vaccination. They administered the third dose of oral polio vaccine, the third dose of DPT and the third dose of Hepatitis B. She cried intensely during this time. Scientists and doctors should find out ways to administer vaccines to children without any physical and mental pain. They are sensitive creatures. We should avoid subjecting them to all kinds of pain caused by manmade devices and techniques. Srijana is extending great motherly service to Sankeerthana. Breastfeeding, application of baby lotions and powders to keep her body soft and comfortable, getting her bathed twice a day with lukewarm water, making her place of sleep smooth and pleasant, administering oral medicines for minor health problems, staying awake at night to lull her to sleep, consuming suggested foods only to keep the health of the baby good and more. Anand is happy talking with his sister and enjoying her delightful moments and movements. Slept by 9:30.

6 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. From 9:00 to 10:00 edited the content of February from my diary of 2014 on my computer. Anand is frequently asking for chicken curry these days. Srijana told me about it. Bought 500 grams of skinless broiler chicken at a nearby store for 60 rupees. Anand does not ask me to buy many things directly. I talk aggressively with Srijana and Anand now and then if they are undisciplined in doing anything. Anand is scared of me about it to this extent. So, he approaches me through Srijana for many of his needs. Srijana prepared chicken curry well. I don’t focus on the idea of consuming fish or chicken dishes frequently. Today voting took place for the positions of MPTC and ZPTC in many parts of Andhra Pradesh. I am supposed to vote in Peda Gummuluru. I did not go there being pressed for time. By 3:45 my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode. He is searching for a suitable residential plot of land in this area to build a house. By 3:55, Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and I started to rented abode of Sekhar in Tuni on my scooty. I bought a shirt piece for me spending 300 rupees and gave it for stitching at Noor Tailors unit. Also bought Pampers diapers, six milk packs, an academic file and Zincovit drops. The academic file is for Anand. I bought it for 130 rupees. We would keep everything, related to him, in it. We returned home by 5:30. Sankeerthana enjoyed this short trip though she felt sultry while moving through crowds. Slept by 10:00.

7 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 2:30 Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana left for Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw to spend there for some days. Srijana’s maternal grandmother took them there. The marriage of Sushma, the daughter of Srijana’s maternal aunt Madhavi, is scheduled to take place on the 17^th of next month. The related occasions and activities need the involvement of all their relatives and well-wishers. Srijana went there to participate in these happy moments of their folks. I declared summer holidays to Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana for two months. They can go to their favourite places and people to celebrate happily. I cook something and can manage on my own. Love means allowing others to be free whenever they need it. Liberty is the ultimate asset and beauty of every creature. Long power cuts are a problem in villages now. Srijana and my darlings may get disturbed a little because of it. They are going to buy and fit an inverter soon. I miss their presence but others enjoy it for these few days. I should not make them my servants to keep myself comfortable and happy. They are my valuable guests. I should love them honestly and deal with them ideally. Lord Krishna treated His beloved creatures so. I should learn a little from Him. Night Moka Srinivas slept in our abode. Slept by 10:00.

8 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Moka Srinivas and I formatted a word file on my computer till 7:00. It is his term work report for a diploma course in safety. He is doing it under the guidance of Elangovan of Regional Labour Institute at Chennai. Today I am on casual leave on the occasion of Sri Rama Navami. Actually I took this leave to do my diary typing work. Today typed up the content of March from my diary of 2014 on my computer for 310 minutes from 9:00 to 7:00. There was power cut for about four hours. Some sugarcane got spoilt as I could not chew them till now. I put them in open air under the cover of a gunny bag. Much part of sugarcane turned red due to chemical bond between air and juice in those sticks. When I chewed some of these pieces to check if that juice is still fresh and consumable, I found that the juice got avoidable flavour. I like sugarcane for its sweetness. I like the health related suggestions given by Dr. Mantena Satya Narayana Raju. Many food lovers developed aversion towards him because he advises them not to consume those foods, which they like a lot. He advises us to avoid all kinds of spicy, salty, oily, baked, stored and polished food items. Now all hotels and food stores are largely selling these kinds of items only. Chicken, mutton, fish, prawns, pork and beef are daily food choices of most of Indians. I try to collect and consume fresh and natural foods and juices. My intentional sugarcane collection is part of this pursuit. Slept by 9:45.

9 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had a little cold rice by 7:45. Took a bus at Y Junction by 8:30 and reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today the folks of Srijana involved in the formal occasion of “Godhuma Raayi” in the house of her maternal grandparents in Viswanadhapuram. They start the work related to the marriage of Sushma from today. Srijana must have participated in this religious ceremony actively. Anand and Sankeerthana too witnessed these moments of joy. Night cooked rice in our pressure cooker by 7:30. Surya Kumari gave me pickle. From 9:00 to 10:30 aligned and formatted the work of Moka Srinivas on my computer. Distance education courses are quite shallow pursuits of learning in many parts of India. Many are pursuing these courses for those certificates and related promotions in their jobs and professions. It is like a piece of decoration for them. They collect relevant information and data from different online and offline sources to make up these theses and reports. Even their guides have no adequate time and interest to check the uniqueness of these papers and educate them. There are agencies and academic writers to prepare any kind of term paper or thesis for some money. Indian degrees and qualifications are worthless and unreliable to much extent. Most of Indian academic units have no standards. Slept by 11:00.

10 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:45 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today it was cloudy and cool. Night Rama Sekhara Raju boiled milk in a building at Tuni, as it is an auspicious day today. His familiar folks and well-wishers attended it. He is starting a hotel in this place soon. They offer food from next Wednesday onwards. It is near the office of LIC. Revathi and his mother would be the cooks in this hotel. I think Sekhar is investing about one lakh rupees into this project. He has been running a welding unit for the last 10 years or so in Tuni near Raja Ground. He gets welding orders from different government and private parties. Many folks get works done and pay related charges late. Some avoid paying altogether. Every customer looks reliable when he approaches us to buy a product or service from us. Later he may not pay the money because of his fraudulent nature or helpless conditions. We would be the losers. Business establishments and banks become bankrupt due to such customers. Many do businesses believing in the prospects, ahead of them. They want to gain profit in near or distant future depending on the nature and scale of their investments. Future is uncertain. Many businesses involve expected and unexpected risks. Businesses, running through credit system, are more prone to risks. Now Humans are slaves to money. They struggle a lot to gain and retain it somehow. Slept by 10:15.

11 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 5:00, this evening, Srijana, her mother, Anand and Sankeerthana left for the teak plantation at Marripalem to spend there for some days. They went there from the abode of Sekhar in Tuni. Those living in cities and towns are interested in moving to valleys and forests from their stressful mechanical life. They should enjoy the beauty of nature and the sounds of creatures there to be calm and peaceful, externally and internally. How many Indians are doing it now? They are taking liquor bottles to consume them and feel like idiots. They are booking or taking prostitutes with them to satisfy their wild desires. Some indulge in playing cards. Many are going to resorts to satisfy the dormant beast instincts in them. They are ruining beauty and purpose of nature this way. For them, celebration means thinking and living like psychopaths and rogues for some time. On the other hand, there are some gentlemen and women, who resort to forests to spend there ideally and happily for some time. They meditate or play in those serene and divine places. Nature is a gift of God to man. We should try to maintain its originality for the sake of God. The farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem is a resort for me. My folks are enjoying themselves there. Slept by 10:30.

12 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 12:30 I knew that an accident took place in a block of Deccan Fine Chemicals Limited near Kesavaram. Three persons died and about 15 employees were injured. It is known that a reactor blew out as temperature increased in it to dangerous level. Accidents and explosions take place in chemical units now and then in spite of all precautionary measures. Managements and employees are partly responsible for them. Some managements wake up only after disasters. They focus more on the quick and effective production of valuable substances, neglecting the improvement of existing manufacturing processes and automated risk control systems. The local societies react overly against the managements of industries in their region soon after accidents. They collectively scare the representatives of units and demand excessive amounts of money from them as compensation for deaths and injuries caused. I know about some incidents where managements paid 30 to 40 lakh rupees to the family members of the deceased. Human life is valuable but the value of such life is being decided based on where and how one died. The state and central governments pay compensation depending on a situation. If one dies due to a road accident by an unidentifiable vehicle, nobody cares about it. If one dies in defense sector or in a highly profitable industrial unit, one gets lakhs of rupees towards compensation. From 6:30 to 9:30, Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy, his wife Sri Latha, his son Sanmukh and I saw the Telugu film “Resu Gurram” in cinema Gowtham. It is a very exciting film. Slept by 11:00.

13 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:45 gave my scooty to mechanic Rajesh at his shed in Lingala Colony. Its engine oil must be changed. The front part is a little loose. It needs a wash with water. Gave him 400 rupees for all these works and told him to keep it ready by this evening. This scooty is doing great service to Srijana and me. It never gives us problems in the middle of a journey. It’s more than our well-wisher. Rajesh is my favourite bike mechanic. Took a Narsipatnam bound bus by 10:00 and got off it at Thaandava Junction by 11:00. My father-in-law and Anand were there waiting for me. We reached the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem by 11:15 on his bike. Srijana and Sankeerthana are doing well. Now the baby is sleeping well at night. She is craving other tastes than that of breast milk. Hard foods may be introduced to her when she crosses her sixth month but Srijana is feeding pieces of biscuits, in crushed and softened form, to her, considering her choice for different tastes. By 1:30 had my lunch with chicken curry. I wanted to avoid consumption of meat three years ago. All are accustomed to treating a guest with some kind of non-vegetarian dish. I don’t like to trouble them for vegetarian dishes when I go to their abodes. Spent walking in the garden of fruit trees for some time. My father-in-law dropped me at Thaandava Junction by 4:30 on his bike. Returned home by 6:00 on my beautiful scooty. Slept by 9:30.

14 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. It was rather cool and pleasant today. It is the birth anniversary of Dr. B R Ambedkar today. I enter my 37^th year of life today according to my educational certificates. My teacher uncle K V Rama Raju recorded my date of birth in this manner around 1984 when I was joining the primary school at Gollalagunta considering my excessive age to that standard. He worked as a teacher at this school in this village for many years. He struggled to inculcate discipline and standards in his students. He treated them harshly now and then to bring them to the right path of living. Indians consider Ambedkar an intelligent and ideal person but the reservation system for SC and ST communities, which he incorporated into constitution of India then, remained as a nightmare for the people belonging to other communities. SC and ST communities can reach any position in a short time depending on these established mercy policies of the state and central governments. They assumed status of shameless and worthless parasites of India during the last 60 years. They are acting the roles of beggars and patients now to live happily relying on alms thrown by others. Untouchability, in disguised manner, continues in India, as long as there is reservation system. The folks of other communities are treating them like avoidable and detestable creatures now across places of India. Slept by 9:30.

15 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 5:30, Dr. Prem Kumar emailed my blood and urine test results to my personal email id. I went to the OHC in SEZ and asked him about it. All test results are normal except the count of triglycerides. They are 245. The normal count should be 140 mg/dl. The doctor advised me to do physical exercise and avoid consumption of fatty foods. I am consuming excessive amount of curd daily. I would avoid it. I owe to the folks of Hetero for extending this service to me. I am aware that one must go for regular medical tests for knowing about one’s status of health. I often neglect it. Hetero made me get it done as part of their company policy. I have been thinking for long to do physical exercise regularly. I failed in implementing it. Every morning I write my personal diary for 40 minutes, leaning against a wall, sitting, outside the house. I should do exercise after this pursuit. If I do it before, my nervous system gets stressed and takes time to reach normalcy. My hands should be completely healthy and vigorous while writing my diary. Even if I move a mosquito killer bat about me, for a few minutes, during this time, my right hand is getting affected. I cannot write well in that agitated condition of my hand. Scanning Telugu daily Eenadu is consuming 20 minutes’ time every morning. Clean shave, on every Hetero working day for me, demands 10 minutes. I should get time from all these pressing and important pursuits for physical exercise! Slept by 10:00.

16 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:51 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Returned home by 7:10. Cooked rice for me for supper and breakfast for tomorrow morning. Surya Kumari is giving me curry or soup every night for my supper. Stopped using curd at home for me. I have a little of it at Hetero daily at lunch. It is enough for my body for some time. Morning did a little exercise at home to exert pressure on my belly and reduce the excess fat content stored therein. Ironed two pairs of my clothes from 8:15 to 8:40. Downloaded an explanatory note on triglycerides by 8:58 from the Internet. By 9:00 power cut occurred. They are cutting power supply for about four hours every day now. I am going to fight against excessive amount of triglycerides present in my blood now. I should bring that count to normal level through exercise and balanced diet. Awareness about keeping up good health is necessary for everybody. We should have commitment to control our tongue and mind to maintain good health. We can acquire a lot of knowledge reading dailies, weeklies, books, talking with good people, watching television and listening to radio. I have been in this process for long. Doctors and well-wishers can advise us but we are the ones to practice it strictly minding our well-being and the happiness of our dependents. We are all very vulnerable and pitiable creatures in this universe. We should be alert always. Slept by 9:30.

17 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. From 11:30 to 1:00 sat in the class of Ram Jaladurgam, in the training hall, above cafeteria, in non-SEZ. He was addressing the senior staff of Hetero on the concept of productive meeting. He advised them on how to prepare for, start, run and end a meeting. It was very interesting and exciting. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By this time, Srijana reached home. She and Sankeerthana came. Sankeerthana must be administered Hib vaccine in her fifth month. It is not available in the medical facilities run by governments. We should get them in private clinics. Srijana told me to come to receive her. She came here on the bike of a road user. I am happy about it. Beauties have much recognition and appreciation in almost every society. They impress viewers immediately with their appearance, words and attitude. Personally I feel attracted towards all kinds of beauty. I enjoy their presence. We cannot approach impressive beauties as we can towards ordinary ones. We feel admiration towards them. We cannot talk with them readily. We talk a lot beyond their presence. We try to help beauties proactively but most of them don’t accept it from unfamiliar ones. I see many looking admiringly at Srijana when we are outdoors. She does not like it. I can bear with it if it is not too direct and active. Slept by 10:00.

18 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 3:30, met our HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy and handed him my written proposal on supply of mangoes to Hetero employees in this mango season. He read it and said that most of Hetero employees go to their nearby mango gardens and collect quality mangoes on their own. Though I sell them at nominal rates, many may think that I am doing business. I found his points of view logical and rational. I am withdrawing myself from the idea of supply of mangoes. It is a difficult assignment for me altogether. I should save my valuable time and energy. If some of them ask me for good mangoes, I guide and help them personally. I know about good mangoes and how to ripen them naturally. By 11:30 Srijana took Sankeerthana to Neo Care Clinic in Payakaraopeta. Dr I N Murthy administered the first dose of Hib vaccine to the baby. He advised Srijana to avoid all the medicines prescribed by Dr Vikram Kumar. He prescribed one or two medicines only. He talked with Srijana for about one hour. He educated her about some aspects of pregnancy, delivery and bringing up little children. He said that the baby is well. By 3:30 the baby and the mother reached the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. They get ready to go to Peda Gummuluru this Sunday morning. Slept by 9:50.

19 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Evening our manager Illuri Subba Rao conducted a short meeting in the conference hall in our floor. He introduced Kusuma Devi to us in L&D department. She joined our department. He advised me to give my present place of work to her. I should move to the place, which is to the right to me now. I have about 15 books to keep in drawers. There are no drawers in the new place to which I am moving. I have to get an empty cardboard box and put them in it. Subba Rao gives more preference to females than males in his outlook and treatment. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. By 4:30, this evening, my father reached the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem from Peda Gummuluru via Narsipatnam. He takes his daughter-in-law, grandson Anand and granddaughter Sankeerthana to his house in Peda Gummuluru tomorrow formally. In-laws take their daughter-in-law and baby, in the fifth month of the baby, to their house, as part of their tradition here. They do it when the baby is in its third or seventh month of age also. Srijana and her mother prepared Janthikalu and Chalividi for this occasion. Srijana takes them to Peda Gummuluru. By 7:40 started to Tuni on my scooty to do some things. Also spent talking with the folks of Revathi in their rented abode for some time. Last Wednesday they started serving food in their hotel. Slept by 10:30.

20 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Edited the content of March from my diary of 2014 on my computer from 10:30 to 11:30. Meanwhile my father, Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana came to my abode in an auto rickshaw from the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. They halted here for a few minutes on their way to Peda Gummuluru. I put a 20-litre purified drinking water bottle, mosquito killer bat and four milk packs in it for Srijana and the baby. They may catch a cold because of the change of water. There are many mosquitoes in Peda Gummuluru. My parents have to buy milk packs at a shop. By 12:15 went to Chaitanya Homely Mess in Tuni on my scooty. This is the hotel started by Sekhar recently. He built it on the land of a Kshatriya fellow beside road. He spent two lakh rupees to build this hotel. He paid one lakh rupees towards advance to the owner of it. I found it beautiful. His wife and her folks are preparing dishes in the kitchen. He recruited a man and a woman for other works. Had my lunch here with fish soup by 1:45. Watched the Telugu film “Avathaaram” in cinema Gowtham from 2:30 to 5:00. Kodi Rama Krishna failed in making it into an extraordinary film. I could not hear many dialogues clearly. Story is interesting but narration is complicated and confusing. One can watch this film for the beauty of heroine, villain and graphics. Many supporting actors looked clumsy to me. He should have focused more on strengthening the main plot. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

21 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Afternoon Srijana called me up and told me to come to Peda Gummuluru once to see them. By 6:30 Srinivasa Varma dropped me at our house on his bike. Srijana, Anand and my parents felt happy about my coming. Sankeerthana was sleeping during this time. My mother offered me supper with chicken and cashew curries. I think Srijana missed my presence within a day here. I wonder about it. There is freedom to her even at our house but not as much as she finds it in my presence in our rented abode at Payakaraopeta. It means many creatures want 100% freedom but not limited one. She is feeling it with me, with her parents and her maternal grandparents only. This is how we can colonize people and creatures ideally. We should love and care for them so deeply that they are unable to find it anywhere else. I am happy about bringing Srijana to this level of comfort and happiness in my presence. I colonized her thoughts and attitude. Pure love and care attracts us fast towards those offering it. My parents are enjoying the presence of these creatures. My father told me that he would bring Srijana and the folks to my abode in an auto rickshaw in the morning of this Wednesday. Took a truck at Adduroad by 7:30 and reached my abode by 8:10. The political scenario is hot all around due to the elections to be held soon in all parts of India. Slept by 9:30.

22 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Adi Narayana is working with Symed Labs unit now in Hetero complex. He is a resident of village China Gummuluru. He became my friend four months ago proactively. He said that they know about our family members for long. My paternal grandfather Thammi Raju used to meet his folks of those days frequently. I feel happy listening to the memories of those days recalled by my familiar folks. Adi Narayana is a gentleman. He must be 30 or so now. He said that he married the daughter of Jogi Naidu of Ramayyapatnam. We lived in his house as tenants from 1992 to 1999. This house is close to that of Naidu, the father of Lakshmi. This is where I fell in love with Lakshmi. The brother-in-law of Adi Narayana married a sister of Srinivas, the husband of Lakshmi. Adi Narayana told me that Lakshmi is living with her husband and in-laws at Kaapu Veedhi in Narsipatnam now. I told him about my love for Lakshmi then. He said that he would take me to their house one day soon. I am waiting for that occasion. Lakshmi and I did not look at each other for two minutes also. It has been blind love and admiration till now. I like to see how Lakshmi responds and reacts after my unexpected presence in their house. I want to capture the beauty of emotions in her face with my eyes. I like many creatures and phenomena in this world. Lakshmi is one of them. It is not wrong. Slept by 9:30.

23 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 7:00 my father, Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana reached our abode in an auto rickshaw from Peda Gummuluru. He spent with us for one hour. We two started walking to Y Junction by 8:00. He has no money on him to pay somebody and go back to home in a vehicle. I gave him 120 rupees. He gives me lakhs of rupees. I give him like this. He always borrowed money from others to buy something valuable for us. He faced risks bravely. His three sons, daughters-in-law and grandchildren are living more comfortably and happily spending their money for themselves but he did not learn lessons observing their thoughts and activities. This is the difference between their generation and ours. They built future neglecting or sacrificing their present. We are celebrating present, avoiding planning for future. They believed and relied on the honesty and power of relationships. We are living based on monetary calculations and artificial smiles. My father is an achiever. He earned some assets for us. We are hypocrites and parasites. We are not doing anything worthwhile for our parents. We three sons owe a lot to them. They represent struggle, pain and sacrifice of humanity. We represent fun, laziness, weakness and foolishness of present generation. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Morning my mother-in-law came to my abode from the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. Slept by 10:00.

24 April (Thursday)

Last night I slept on the terrace of our building as there were guests of third party in my abode down. There are many mosquitoes on the terrace also. They did not allow me to sleep. I would have slept for one or two hours only. By 8:00, Vatsavai Raghu Rama Raju and I started to Hetero complex on my scooty. Today I am taking my scooty to come back early on it in the evening. Reached Hetero complex by 8:45. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 4:05 came out of Hetero campus taking two-hour permission. Raghu could not join me as planned by us this morning. Reached my abode by 4:45. The marriage of Mounika and Sandip takes place tonight opposite the house of K S N Raju. Mounika is the daughter of Datla Surapa Raju and Padmavati. Took photos and videos of the decorated marriage venue and people before it went dark. Had dinner by 8:00 along with other guests. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came here for dinner. The parents of Srijana and her maternal grandmother also attended this occasion. The marriage ceremony was started by 10:20. Many wasps were dancing about the bright electric lights. Mosquitoes were happy to see many blood donors all around. I remained awake till 1:00 watching the occasion of marriage. Then moved to a folding cot in our hall. I thought one guest can sleep on the floor instead of me. I should not sleep to see marriage completely. I should sleep minding the needs of my body. Slept by 1:45.

25 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. From 9:10 to 9:15 our manager Subba Rao talked with me angrily in his room. He instructed me to be at my place of work only during my free time also. I should not sit at the places of others. I should not teach English or other things to others going to their places casually. He means that I should think and behave like a robot. He does not like my being kind and ideal human being in the L&D department. He also said that I don’t have professional growth in this company. He wants to move out when he gets a better opportunity. He wants me to become a hypocrite like him. He told me to find another job if I am not happy with the present one. I did not talk back much because I know about the ulterior motives of this rogue. Jaladurgam Ram put such poisonous snake as the head of L&D department. Soma Sundaram is affectionately rearing it. Subba Rao is suffering from a sense of inferiority complex. He thinks that I am talking badly with others about him. He suspects others frequently. He cannot survive in L&D department for long. Jaladurgam Ram is the director of this harmful creature. He bites anybody at will. He cannot harm me because I am a snake charmer. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 5:00 Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and others left for Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw. Slept by 9:30.

26 April (Saturday) 

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Afternoon gave a letter to HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy explaining him the problems I am facing as an English instructor in Hetero here. He said that he would get them resolved soon. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. The pairs of clothes, which I bought and got stitched at Hyderabad on the occasion of my marriage in 2008, lasted till recently. I stopped wearing them pair after pair as they got tight. The shirts lost their quality at collars. They served me for long. They presented me attractively to myself and others. I washed and ironed them frequently. I did not take their photos or videos with my digital camera. I am slowly forgetting about their colours, designs and visual beauty. They have no place in history. They don’t fight for their identity. They don’t crave appreciation. They rendered me humble and ideal service silently. They proudly played on my body for long. Where are they now? I am also an object in this mysterious universe. I too disappear from this huge canvas one day. I too have estimated durability like these innocent and ideal clothes. I too fade and get lost slowly. Every creature and object has a lifespan.  I am leaving my clothes periodically. Similarly my soul is leaving different bodies regularly. Human death is a matter of concern for all. We are not treating other creatures and things with such sensitivity. I regret it. Slept by 9:30.

27 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Walked to the abode of Mantrala Raju by 9:00. He gave me 90 tablets of Triglize. Paid him 360 rupees for them. This is Ayurvedic proprietary medicine of apex. He advised me to take two tablets daily to reduce the quantity of triglycerides in my blood. By 10:15 started to the vegetable market in Tuni on my scooty. Bought carrots, cabbage, beetroots, tomatoes and courgettes for me spending about 180 rupees. I want to consume them raw along with sprouts of green gram every morning. I should reduce the intake of harmful foods and drinks and increase natural foods. I am getting into this regimen slowly. Saw the Telugu film “Prathinidhi” of Nara Rohit from 11:00 to 1:30 in cinema Gowtham. It is a satire on contemporary Indian politics. The director made it into an interesting and exciting film. He criticized the attitudes of politicians, voters and political system in India. Very few viewers came to watch this film. The title of the film suggests that it educates viewers. People are not interested in being educated in India but being fooled and amused. This is what politicians are doing instead of magicians and thieves. Had my lunch by 1:45 in Chaitanya Homely Mess of Rama Sekhara Raju. He invited me to the marriage of Sushma on the 17^th of this May. Today I wanted to type out a blog on my computer but there was power cut for long. Night coloured my hair and moustache with the paste of Classic herbal henna powder. Slept by 9:30.

28 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I did not do any useful work for the company. Evening sat at the place of Homam near the administrative building in non-SEZ for one hour. They have been conducting it for the last four days. About six priests are participating in it every day. The management of Hetero conducts this religious ceremony every year in specially decorated places in non-SEZ and SEZ. This evening, Bandi Parthasaradhi Reddy, the CMD of Hetero units, participated in this ceremony. It takes place in SEZ from tomorrow onwards. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Morning I consumed sliced pieces of courgettes, carrot, beetroot and tomato for my breakfast. I want to accustom good food to my body and mind. I am consuming an onion every afternoon at lunch. It keeps the internal walls of blood vessels in my body healthy, blocking development of risky fat layers. Last night Srijana appeared to me in my dream. She went to Hyderabad without telling me. I felt very disturbed and hurt about it. I was almost crying while talking with her over phone. It reflects my deep psychological attachment with Srijana. We develop strong bonds with those that spend with us closely for long. I think Srijana spent more time with me till now than my parents, brothers and others. I don’t have such bond with my parents also, who think and struggle for me. Spending closely for long is important for a bond. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

  

29 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 11:30 met our plant head Goli Srinivasa Reddy to update him on the latest status of communicative English classes. I took a sheet of paper to him describing my requirements as an English instructor. He responded to me angrily about not conducting classes for all these days. It is a mistake of the L&D and HR departments. He knows it. I need a suitable place and some facilities to run them. It seems Subba Rao is intentionally blocking my way from teaching English effectively to these learners at Hetero. He is not providing me with what I want despite my requests many times. Vedika program was conducted from 3:07 to 5:10. Very few attended it. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By 7:48, an amount of 24, 717 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account from the HR folks of Hetero towards my salary for this month. I wondered about this excessive pay compared to my previous monthly salary credits. I should see my payslip to know why they paid me more than I expected this time. When I called up Srijana generally, she told me about an interesting thing Sankeerthana did this evening about 5:00. A relative gave a Pandooru Maamidi mango fruit to Srijana to eat. She opened it a little to draw juice from it. Sankeerthana took it and drew juice from it like an adult. She is uttering words like Anna and Amma now and then. Slept by 9:30.

30 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night my English professor Sudhakar Marathe appeared to me in my dream. He is doing well. He must have remembered and thought about me much. Many people, things and incidents remain in our subconscious domain of brain. We often focus on some of them bringing them to our conscious arena of thoughts, beliefs and emotions. I deeply enjoyed the presence of this professor in my dream. Reached Hetero complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today I knew that the additional amount of money credited to my salary is towards LTA (Leave Travel Allowance) for me. I am happy about it. Our Hetero bus broke down near village Vempadu when we were travelling back in the evening. A rear tyre of this bus punctured. We took different public and private travel vehicles for Tuni and Payakaraopeta. Reached home by 7:20 taking an APSRTC bus from Vempadu. Raghu Rama Raju and I went into main town by 8:00 to buy some things for us. Withdrew 5,000 rupees from the Axis Bank ATM point. Bought a 20-piece pack of Mamy Poco pants for Sankeerthana, Johnson’s baby powder and soap, a mango shaped teether, half a kilo of grapes and a sensitive toothbrush spending about 500 rupees. The last two items are for me. By 8:45, we went to Chaitanya Homely Mess of Sekhar in Tuni. I gave the items of baby and 500 rupees to Sekhar, asking him to send them to Srijana in Viswanadhapuram. By 9:05, paid 3,500 rupees to my house owner K S N Raju towards the rent for my portion for this month. Slept by 10:20.

1 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today it is holiday for general shift employees of Hetero at Nakkapalli on the occasion of International Labour Day. From 9:00 to 3:00 typed up the content of April from my diary of 2014 on my computer. Had my lunch in the abode of Padmavati by 1:45. Ironed six pairs of my clothes from 4:00 to 5:30. Today there was no considerable power cut during daytime. I am very happy about it. From 6:30 to 9:00 saw the Telugu film “Kottha Janta” in cinema Gowtham. Maruthi made it into an interesting film. It is an account of love between two selfish creatures. The songs, music and dialogues are touching. However, the director failed in making the main plot more gripping and touching. There is no adequate amount of dramatic effect in the film. If viewers come out from a cinema without much emotion, perhaps there is no vitality in that film. Characters, events, music, songs, dialogues, story, screenplay or some other element of a film should chase viewers for some days. They can be classic films. The beauty and acting skills of Regina Cassandra impressed me deeply throughout the film. Madhurima looked and danced well. Sirish played his role well. When I was coming back on my scooty, heavy wind blew. It raised a lot of dust and sand. The wind was so powerful that road users stopped and closed their eyes for a few minutes. Rain did not follow as expected. Slept by 10:20.

2 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. The HR folks of Hetero added 2,312 rupees to my salary this month towards LTA. I noticed it in my payslip today. I should travel to some beautiful place with my folks and enjoy my time with them. I should use this money for this purpose. Most of us are not doing anything in a systematic manner being pressed for time. Adjustments and compromises are our way of life. By 5:30 the sky turned completely cloudy above Hetero complex. It was delightful and refreshing scene for us. Got into a Hetero bus walking fast in this inspiring setting of nature. It started raining by 6:20. Our bus started off in this exciting atmosphere. The driver drove it with much difficulty as the road did not appear him clearly through the glass before him. The wiper was out of order. All Hetero buses at Nakkapalli unit are about 15 years old and worthless. They buy used vehicles and run them doing minor repairs continuously. I knew that one of these bus contractors is a distant brother-in-law of Parthasaradhi Reddy. To benefit him, they are using these old and outdated vehicles. They have no concern for the safety of employees travelling in these vehicles. Nepotism is a harmful social disorder. We can observe this fatal infection in many companies being owned and run by Indians. Slept by 9:30.

3 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Took my belongings in a bag. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 11:00 I got stomachache. Morning I consumed carrots, beetroot, courgettes and tomatoes kept in the refrigerator for about five days. They lost their freshness. Perhaps this led to this problem. Went to the OHC in non-SEZ for medicines. They gave me two tablets and a little tonic. The pain in my stomach got alleviated within minutes after taking them. Felt relieved before going for lunch. By 6:15 Srinivasa Varma dropped me at our house in Peda Gummuluru on his bike on his way to Darlapudi. My brother Srinivas, sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and nephew Suhas are here. Came here to feel that sense of togetherness with my folks. My parents, paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and Narayana Murthy spent at the temple of Kukkuteshwara Swamy in Pithapuram on this Thursday, Friday and today. They came back this afternoon from there. They went there to hold religious ceremony to satisfy the desires of soul of Datla Thammi Raju, my paternal grandfather, who passed away one year ago. They did it for three days under the guidance of a native priest. They spent 3,000 rupees for the service of priest. They spent there visiting the nearby temples also. Where is the soul of Thammi Raju now? We don’t have reliable data on souls. Saints can guide and help us in this regard. Slept by 9:30.

4 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00 in the front yard of our house in Peda Gummuluru. Last night I slept well in the open breathing fresh air and feeling the gentle touch of snow. By 6:30 my brothers Srinivas and Sambha started to our mango garden at hills on the bike of the latter to bring mangoes for us. They brought 200 Suvarna Rekha mangoes from there by 9:30. They are ready to be ripened naturally. I took 50 of them to bring to my abode for my consumption. My father burst into tears about 11:30 talking about the attitudes and behaviors of Sambha, Kranthi and Janaki. They are living closely to our house but they are not extending the kind of affection and care my parents are expecting from them. By 1:30 gave 2,600 rupees to my father. He spends it to buy manure and water for my mango plants at hills. Suhas dropped me at Adduroad Junction by 2:00 on bike. Took a taxi by 2:20 and reached my abode by 2:50. Scanned today’s Eenadu for 40 minutes. Swept the floor with a broom for 20 minutes. There is a lot of dust and some strands of hair. A lizard was lying dead in a corner of my bedroom, emitting stink due to decomposition. Cleaned it. The block of jaggery is wet. It is melting. Juice trickled down and made it sticky. Moved it to another place. Washed a pair of clothes and took a bath by 5:30. Went to Tuni on my scooty. Bought tomatoes, carrots, sweet peanut rounds and bananas for me. Evening K S N Raju brought his new car home. Slept by 10:00.

5 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 7:45 consumed a carrot, five tomatoes, four sweet peanut rounds and three bananas. Also took a cal-mag supplement of Amway and a Triglize pill of apex. My teeth are feeling sour after consuming tomatoes. I am unable to chew other hard foods thereafter. My teeth are sensitive. I bought a toothbrush meant for sensitive teeth. I have to buy toothpaste meant for sensitive teeth also. I neglect many things. They disturb me readily. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00. Five days ago my manager Subba Rao sent an email to all Hetero employees at Nakkapalli stating that communicative English classes would be started today again in a room at Boys Hostel. The timings are from 10:30 to 12:30 and from 3:00 to 5:00. The first and second batches of learners are supposed to attend these classes today. I was there during this time. Not a single learner came for this class in the morning or afternoon from SEZ or non-SEZ. I sat there and returned both times. Subba Rao, Jaladurgam Ram and HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy brought such reputation to these classes because of their negligence. It reflects their contempt for the development of employees at Hetero complex at Nakkapalli. They have no concern for the prosperity of Hetero unit either. They are playing artificial but beautiful roles to impress their superiors. I regret it as a helpless witness. Slept by 9:30.

6 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today also I spent at the Boys Hostel in the morning and afternoon during my scheduled hours of communicative English classes. Nobody came from the SEZ or non-SEZ for these classes. Perhaps the learners are not happy about the way the English classes are being conducted. They remain engaged in different works in the plants. Their supervisors are not allowing them in time to go to these classes. There is about one kilometre distance from their workplaces to boys hostel. They have to walk all this way. They asked for the provision of a vehicle to bring them to this hostel for the English classes and take them back. Nobody took it seriously. They want many things to be done by the same employees at a time. They are unable to do anything perfectly for this reason. They have no passion for English or knowledge as they do have for meat, liquor and gambling. They are not trying for improving themselves. They want to remain foolish, lethargic and stupid always. This is the state of majority of Indians now. They have no progressive attitude. They are not involving in ideal pursuits. They want to lead their lives casually without struggle for discipline and perfection. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Went to Tuni by 7:30 on my scooty to do some things. Had my supper in Chaitanya Homely Mess by 8:30. Summer is hot now. Those spending outdoors much can feel it more than others. Slept by 9:45.

7 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. It is a holiday today for the folks of Hetero to enable them to vote. Took a bus at Y Junction by 8:15 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 8:45. Stood in a short queue at the government high school in Peda Gummuluru to cast my vote. I stood so from 9:30 to 9:45 along with the residents of this village. I voted in favour of Mutthamsetti Srinivasa Rao, who is contesting for the Lok Sabha constituency of Anakapalle and Vangalapudi Anitha, who is contesting for the Payakaraopeta constituency in Andhra Pradesh state. Both of them are representing Telugu Desam Party. I wish to see Narendra Modi as the prime minister of India this time. I think Chandra Babu can save Andhra Pradesh from the present state of crisis if he becomes the chief minister. Reached Viswanadhapuram by 2:00 via Kota Uratla, Venkatapuram and Kodavatipudi. Srijana did not vote today coming to Peda Gummuluru. Sankeerthana cannot withstand the sultry weather of summer. Srijana and her folks are busy in the preparations related to the marriage of Sushma. Sankeerthana and Anand are doing well. My father-in-law and I started to Tuni by 4:00 on his bike. He dropped me at my abode by 4:30. Ironed three pairs of my clothes by 6:00. My father-in-law took the 15-kilo block of jaggery from my abode. It’s melting slowly and developing fungus on surface. Slept by 9:30. 

8 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today I knew that the first and second batches of learners of communicative English do not attend the remaining classes. They are currently very busy with their shift and work schedules. They are selecting new candidates from the SEZ and non-SEZ for these classes. I am a little disturbed about it. I wanted to take 23 classes to them to complete instruction of the syllabus prepared by me. They are unable to have this feast completely. There are no computer, projector and screen in the newly arranged room for communicative English classes. I cannot teach the present topics of English in this atmosphere. So, I prepared another teaching plan today. There are dictation of words, quiz, writing, reading and similar practice oriented exercises in it. There are no specific tests in this pattern. The learners practice English extensively in every class. I would just be a facilitator of their learning process. I do not teach English grammar topics specifically. I explain it while they are practicing different aspects of functional English. Most of these exercises are from Rapidex English-Telugu speaking course book. The folks of Hetero failed in providing me with what I want to teach English well to their learners. They could not do it in 240 days also. What a pity? Went to sleep by 9:30.

9 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 11:30 my brother-in-law Vamsy got off Prashanti Express at Tuni railway station. He took it at Hindupuram. He is working with a unit of Wipro Infrastructure Engineering Limited there. He is not happy with the salary and benefits being provided by these folks here. He wants to leave this company soon. Azim Premji talks about the development of India often on stages as a visionary of India. He does not know how employees are being treated at this unit. The management is creating an environment, whereby boys leave it out of frustration because of pitiable career growth. Azim is unable to satisfy enthusiastic boys like Vamsy also with his employee standards. They are recruiting fresh batches of candidates from ITIs and other training units. They pay them low salaries. They neither care labour laws nor think of the concerns of employees. Vamsy turned into a victim joining this industrial unit. He took my scooty to Viswanadhapuram. They use it for some days on errands related to the marriage of Sushma. Today I had two mango fruit. The mangoes, which I kept in a cardboard box to ripen naturally, did not become fruit in time. They did not ripen well in the trees. I should have kept hay in the box instead of old newspapers. They are not as tasty as I expected. Today it’s cloudy. Slept by 9:30.

10 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night it rained considerably. It is relief for the victims of high temperature of summer. It rained well at our mango garden at hills near Ramayyapatnam also. The young mango plants enjoy these showers more than the bigger trees. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today also it was cloudy and cool most of the day. Today my parents went to Bhima Varam. They took Simhadri Express at Narsipatnam Road railway station by 7:45 this morning. My father packed 200 Suvarna Rekha mangoes in four cardboard boxes to take for the relatives of my mother there. They stay there for two or three days. My elder maternal grandfather migrated to Thungabhadra region about 40 years ago from Gollalagunta. He died of throat cancer. His children settled in Bhima Varam region afterwards. We seldom go to that region to see them because of the distance factor. My parents have been busy in their struggle for existence for many years. Now they went there to see and spend with them for some time. They enjoy their presence. They can celebrate the beauty and novelty of that place and those people. We feel relieved seeing and spending in unfamiliar places. There are many beautiful and inspiring places around us. We neglect them and crave distant places. God adorned every part of this earth with diverse kinds of beauty. We often fail to notice and rejoice that beauty. Slept by 10:00.

11 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I typed out and edited a blog titled “Acknowledgement” on my computer. I worked on it for about six hours. I scheduled it to be posted on my blog site by 8:00 am tomorrow morning automatically. There is eight pages of content in this blog. From 11:00 to 1:30 saw the Telugu film “Pyaarme Padipoyaane” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna at Payakaraopeta. Aadhi and Sanvi played the lead roles. Aadhi danced like a robot in some shots of songs. There is no adequate fat in his body. He would have melted it through rigorous physical exercises for build sake. His face lost charm for lack of enough fat. Sanvi is a cute beauty. She also played her role well. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. Today I had biscuits, milk and mango fruit for my breakfast and lunch. By 6:30 a TATA SKY mechanic removed our present SUN DIRECT television telecast signal reception dish from the terrace of our building and fitted a TATA SKY dish. D S N Raju told my father-in-law to arrange a television and signal dish in his teak plantation for the farm executive living there. He pays for it. My father-in-law gets this SUN DIRECT piece fitted there for him. He is indirectly presenting this TATA SKY dish to us on behalf of D S N Raju. He pays one-year subscription fee for it. It all costs him 3,000 rupees. Today it rained considerably for a few minutes in the afternoon and made it cool. Slept by 11:00.

12 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. When I was waiting at Y Junction to take a bus and go to Hetero complex at Nakkapalli, I heard that they declared today holiday because the daughter of our CMD Bandi Parthasaradhi Reddy died yesterday morning. I did not know why and how it occurred. She has plenty of money, comforts, luxuries, parents, brother, relatives and many well-wishers. Yet she failed to balance her psyche and sustain her valuable life. It seems to be a result of strong emotional impulse. She left her parents, brother, children and husband in a pit of pain, loss and suffering. She is a very important creature in the lives of these mortal beings. May God forgive the mistake committed by her innocent mind and relieve her burdened soul from that weight of spiritual crime. Her death sent waves of pain and loss into the psyches of all those associated with Hetero. Parthasaradhi is our patron and well-wisher. Our happiness and comforts are a result of his intelligence, hard work and vision. May Lord Krishna bless him and his family members with solace and happiness. He lost one child at home but hundreds of others are waiting outside for his love, care and guidance. Went to the house of my brother Sambha in Peda Gummuluru by 12:40. Spent talking with the folks of my maternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju for some time. Ravindra and I went to our mango garden at hills by 4:30 to bring 50 mangoes for me. Slept by 10:00.

13 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 6:00 put the 50 Suvarna Rekha mangoes in a cardboard box filled with hay. They ripen fast in hay when the entry of air is blocked completely. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. They placed the photo of Krishna Sindhuri, the daughter of Parthasaradhi Reddy, the CMD of Hetero, on a pedestal by the road in the unit, to let all the employees know the sad news of her death and empathize with it. We all observed silence for two minutes remembering her. Morning I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Afternoon prepared 24 safety instruction cards to issue to 24 contract workers trained by Srinivasa Varma on safety. This training went on from 3:00 to 5:20 in a training hall at boys’ hostel. I spent here during this time. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Afternoon my parents returned from Bhima Varam. Today the counting of votes took place in Andhra Pradesh for the positions of MPTC and ZPTC. Many folks spent happily talking about it. Today I bet with Chakradhar Reddy and Srinivasa Reddy in Hetero that Chandra Babu would become the chief minister of Andhra Pradesh this time. They said Jagan becomes so. Chakradhar has to give me three tins of Haldiram’s rasgulla if I win. Srinivas has to give me three bottles of Rooh Afza if I win. Last night the father of my friend P Krishna Varma died in Ramayyapatnam. He is old. He has been suffering from poverty and diabetes for the last 10 years or so. Slept by 10:20.

14 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 12:40 my brother Sambha came to the entrance gate of HLL-III on his bike from the office of Sub Registrar at Nakkapalli to take me there. We started by 1:00 and reached there by 1:15. Today there is the registration of two acres of land of my paternal uncle Datla Narasimha Murthy Raju in my name at this office. My father, my two paternal uncles, their male children and Sambha were present to carry out this task as the legal heirs of Datla Thammi Raju. They all signed on documents of proof. It all went on from 1:30 to 3:15. This piece of land is located in survey number 27/2 under the revenue section of village China Gummuluru. My brother Sambha spent 40,000 rupees for this registration process. My uncle Narasimha Murthy refused to pay 4,000 rupees to the document writer Krishna Murthy for a mistake he committed as a seller of this land to me. He argued like an idiot about it. I will teach him a lesson sometime in future. I can forgive innocent and stupid people also but not those that play tricks with me. He committed that mistake before Sambha and me today. It is Vaishaakha Pournami today. My father got this task carried out today as it is an auspicious day according to Telugu calendar. Sambha dropped me at HLL-III by 3:30 on his bike. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Ironed three pairs of my clothes. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

15 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. By 1:00 went to the house of D Kanaka Raju in Vempadu along with Kolnati Sunil Kumar, the office boy associated with L&D, on a bike. Kanaka Raju is a small transport vehicle driver with Hetero here. He is a contract worker. His Upanayanam was conducted this morning in this village. He invited some Hetero employees to this occasion. About 25 creatures attended it representing Hetero complex. We had dinner here by 2:00. Sunil and I returned to HLL-III by 2:30. Enjoyed this ride via hamlet Amalapuram. I am new to these villages in Nakkapalli Mandal. Today the results of annual exams of standard 10 were released in Andhra Pradesh. My nephew Suhas got 8.5 grade marks in it. This time Lok Sabha and many legislative assembly elections were conducted by election commission in India spending about 3,500 crore rupees. Many rich and influential contestants spent crores of rupees to lure the voters somehow. They got money, chicken dishes, liquor, gifts and other items distributed publicly and secretly also. Police and election commission played nominal roles. They distorted and disfigured the status of democracy in this state. They made it into a nasty game. Slept by 10:00.

16 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today the election commission of India made arrangements for the counting of votes across places in India. Our folks in Hetero switched on the television in the conference hall at administrative building in HLL-III to watch the results of these elections live. Some folks sat there. I too went into it now and then. By 1:00 it became clear that Nara Chandra Babu Naidu of TDP is going to become the chief minister of Andhra Pradesh this time. Narendra Modi of BJP would be the prime minister of India this time. I felt happy observing these results. There are many idiots and rogues in BJP but Narendra is a gem in this political party. India is in the need of such honest, intelligent and visionary leaders now. The Congress Party got very few seats of Lok Sabha across India. After independence to India, I think the Congress Party got the least number of MP seats in these elections only. It is a great lesson to them. Corruption, nepotism and lack of patriotism are the major drawbacks of the Congress Party in India now. People of India voted against them to retaliate this way. The economy of Andhra Pradesh is very bad now. Chandra Babu is taking a huge dustbin from the idiots of Congress Party in Andhra Pradesh also. Returned home by 5:30 taking permission. Sunil and I reached Viswanadhapuram by 8:30 on my scooty. Slept by 11:00.

17 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night I slept on the terrace of a house in Viswanadhapuram as there was no place to rest in the house of the maternal grandparents of Srijana. I could sleep well for about six hours. Fresh natural air and light snowfall made magic on my body. Today the activities related to the marriage of Sushma went on continuously. I spent talking casually with my familiar folks throughout the day. I often get confused in deciding whether I should take an active or passive participation in a religious, social or cultural event of my familiar folks. I am not lazy. I work fast if others expect me to do something for them. They should ask me to do it. I don’t do it proactively. The folks of K S N Raju came here by 5:30. They spent here for a few minutes. K S N Raju came by 6:30. He stayed here for two hours. He had dinner by 8:30. He gave 500 rupees for Sushma as a token of affection. My brothers Srinivas and Sambha did not come here as decided earlier. Rain and wind stopped their scheduled journey on bike from Peda Gummuluru. The marriage of Sushma and Ashok Varma took place from 10:45 to 12:45 in the decorated space in the open. Watched it throughout. They are suitable to each other. It was cloudy, cool and pleasant at night. I enjoyed it.

18 May (Sunday)

Waited for a means of transport from 3:00 to 5:00 to go to Payakaraopeta from Viswanadhapuram. Meanwhile a fellow brought his auto rickshaw to take the vegetables of Prasada Raju to Tuni. Srijana and Sankeerthana started to Rambilli by 3:30 in the car of the bride and bridegroom. Srijana has many of her relatives in Rambilli as her maternal grandfather belongs to this village. She wants to facilitate her cousin Sushma be happy in the house of bridegroom. Got off the auto rickshaw at Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta by 6:20. Thence walked on the bridge for 15 minutes and reached my abode at Devi Nagar by 6:35. Felt a little sleepy and dull as I did not sleep at all last night. Scanned Eenadu and rested on a cot for one hour. By 10:30 took an APSRTC bus and reached Peda Gummuluru by 11:00. Had my lunch in our house by 11:15. Spent talking with my father and mother till 2:00. Morning my father and my brother Srinivas went to our mango garden at hills and brought some Suvarna Rekha mangoes. He took some of them to his house in Visakhapatnam. They kept a cardboard box with 35 mangoes for me. I came here to take it. Spent talking with my brother Sambha and his folks till 3:20. Took an APSRTC bus at Adduroad by 3:30 and returned to my abode by 4:00. Saw the Telugu film “Dhillunnodu” in cinema Sai Mahal from 6:30 to 8:30. Slept by 10:00.

19 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took two communicative English classes at Boys Hostel for two batches of learners. Morning I took this class from 10:30 to 12:30 and from 3:00 to 5:00 in the afternoon. Seventeen employees attended the morning class. Fifteen employees attended the afternoon class. Many personality development and production related training classes are going on now in Hetero complex. Sending different employees to various classes and achieving the periodical targets of production is really an ordeal for the respective plant heads. I started these classes again today after my last class on 18 January. There is no provision of a computer, projector and screen for me to teach them well. They could not do it for me during the last eight months. I regret it. I prepared another teaching plan and syllabus for this classroom atmosphere. Most of this syllabus is from Rapidex English-Telugu speaking course book. It all goes on orally without the need of other teaching aids. This is not as effective as the syllabus I prepared earlier for these classes. I will teach it when I have the teaching aids necessary for it. These batches of learners remain as losers from this view. The HR department is not functioning well here. Employees are disturbed about it to much extent. Slept by 10:00.

20 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I took the two classes for the two batches of Hetero learners at Boys Hostel in the morning and afternoon. Taught them greetings and good manners from the Day 1 and Day 2 content in Rapidex English-Telugu speaking course book. About 16 learners attended each class. Morning I conducted it from 9:30 to 11:30 and from 3:00 to 5:00 in the afternoon. They were silent and attentive throughout in the classes. I knew that they are not getting time to practice English beyond classroom instruction. Learning English is not a serious matter of concern for them as earning money. They have many responsibilities to fulfill as employees and persons. Learning English has become just a nominal pursuit in their busy and crazy lives. Learning English or anything else useful to one or others demands certain degree of passion, hard work and psychological process from the learner. All crave comforts, luxuries and happiness in their lives and professions but not challenges and difficulties. Learning process is long and continuous. They have no such patience to practice and learn anything for long. They want instant and pleasant results from everything they do. Smoking, drinking, sex, parties, eating and gossip give them such results. They are engaged in those pursuits now. Very few are thinking out of this box. Slept by 9:30.

21 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two communicative English classes at Boys Hostel in the morning and afternoon. Taught content from Day 3 and Day 4 of Rapidex. From 7:00 to 8:30 an HR meeting took place in a conference hall at HDL-IX. Srinivasa Rao, a Hetero HR consultant at corporate office, addressed the HR folks on different aspects of operational HR and strategic HR. He prepared KRAs and KPAs for our HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy for example purpose. He said that many senior staff should prepare their KRAs and KPAs for the development of the organization. What is designed, implemented and measured must be understood by all stakeholders. All achievements must be measured periodically. There is no use of just design and execution of HR practices and policies. We should assess the effectiveness of all HR initiatives through perfect statistical calculations.  It was an informative, insightful and interesting meeting. They dropped many attendees of this meeting in a taxi at their respective places. I reached my abode by 9:30. I felt the tremor of an earthquake about 10:15 while scanning Eenadu lying on a bed. It is a silly game of Lord Krishna with me. By 11:30, this morning, Srijana and Sankeerthana returned to Viswanadhapuram from Rambilli in a car. Slept by 10:30.

22 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:58 by bus. Today I took the two classes for the two batches of learners at Boys Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 16 and Day 17 of Rapidex. Evening Subba Rao advised me how to teach English to learners. He said that I should speak in English only in the classroom. I should instruct the learners not to speak in Telugu in the classroom. This is unwanted advice to me from him. I know how to teach English. I use Telugu only to teach them English. I should allow them to speak in Telugu in my classroom because they are comfortable with it. They are learners of English but not masters of it. Brainless idiots like Subba Rao often advise others to make them believe that they are very intelligent. In fact, Subba Rao is a cunning fellow. He tries to impress others artificially. He is a good actor. He is a dangerous hypocrite. He has ulterior motives in everything he does. He never asked me what I want to teach English well. He has no genuine interest in developing anybody at Hetero. He is an opportunist. He is working here just for his salary and benefits. How can such a shallow man impress me with his unsolicited advice? Returned home by 7:00 by bus. Today Srijana brought Sankeerthana to get her vaccinated. Dr. I N Murthy of Neo Care administered the second dose of Hib and the first dose of Rotavirus vaccines to her. Slept by 10:00.

23 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I took the two classes of communicative English at Boys Hostel. Pain developed in my right kneecap by 3:15 when I was in the classroom. I am teaching standing up every morning and afternoon for four hours. Perhaps it is exerting pressure on my knees. I stand up in the Hetero buses also while going there in the morning. Now it’s very hot as the summer in this region is at its peak. We are sweating profusely in the Hetero units in the open. All the water poured in is surfacing on the skin within seconds. The present English classroom is feeling sultry despite six wall-mounted fans. Subba Rao is not much bothered about the needs and facilities of others under his supervision. In fact, he is creating discouraging atmosphere for me in the L&D department. He is envious of me for some reasons. Time changes him. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana returned from Viswanadhapuram by 6:15 in an auto rickshaw. She brought many sweets, mangoes and other items from there. She said that she lost a small bag on the journey. There are the medical records of Sankeerthana, her three nighties, her personal diary, her childhood gold earrings and a small necklace of black beads. It slipped off the auto rickshaw somewhere. Morning paid 360 rupees to the local Eenadu agent towards annual subscription for the Telugu monthlies Chathura and Vipula. Slept by 9:30.

24 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took the two communicative English classes at Boys Hostel in the morning and afternoon for four hours. The pain in my right kneecap got completely alleviated by this afternoon. I don’t know why it started and how it got cured automatically. It is the wonder of human body. I am grateful to my body created by God. Evening an employee of Hetero talked with me for 30 minutes. He told me about the immoral and indecent attitude of our manager Illuri Subba Rao and his gang. He got some Brahmin friends after joining Hetero here. They suppress their subordinates if they are talented and better than them in some respects. They wish to grow in the organization being in the good looks of their superiors. They always suffer from jealousy, inferiority complex and low self-esteem. They cannot bear others growing professionally under their guidance. They don’t improve themselves learning continuously but being envious of others doing so. They are shameless and worthless idiots. They are detrimental elements of a workplace. I hate such rogues. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. My mother, my sisters-in-law Sandhya Rani and Kranthi and boy Anjaneya Raju came to my abode by 6:30 from Peda Gummuluru. Night it rained for a while after gales. It turned cool and pleasant. Slept by 10:00.

25 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani brought four bottles of Rooh Afza from Visakhapatnam. My brother Srinivas bought them in a More marker there for 500 rupees. My colleague P Srinivasa Reddy of Hetero gave me this money to me recently as part of my winning the bet with him. I have to give him one bottle. Gave 400 rupees to my mother. They left for Peda Gummuluru by 8:15 by a bus. Spent with them happily for some time. Anand Sagar and I saw the Telugu film “Manam” in cinema Sai Mahal from 11:30 to 1:50. It is a touching film with the elements of deep familial bonds, possessive love, separation and pain. It portrays the concepts of rebirths and reunions of souls also. Akkineni Nageswara Rao, Nagarjuna and Naga Chaitanya are the main actors of this film. Shriya, Samantha, Akhil, Amala and Amitabh also beautified this film. Nageswara Rao acted for the last time in his life in this film. This film is a tribute to his memories in Telugu film industry. Enjoyed watching it throughout. It rained this afternoon. Spent talking with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy from 5:00 to 6:30 at my abode. Today I posted the photos of Narendra Modi on the banners of my two blog sites, appreciating his worth as an achiever, in a few words.  He is a brilliant and admirable man of India. Slept by 10:00.

26 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:58 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel in the morning and afternoon. Today I made them read text from three books of standard 6. Reading English medium course books of school children is a good practice to improve our English and general knowledge. Afternoon they offered free lunch in Hetero complex to all the employees and contract workers on the occasion of the 16^th day ceremony of Krishna Sindhuri, the daughter of Bandi Parthasaradhi Reddy, the chairman of Hetero units. I too had it by 1:00. By 5:45 my colleague Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy and I started to our mango garden at hills on a bike from Hetero complex to bring mangoes. We reached there by 6:30. We collected about 120 mangoes from our Papara Gova and Cheraku Rasaalu trees. On the way back, my father gave me some bananas and mangoes. We reached Payakaraopeta by 8:00. Gave 80 of these mangoes to Srinivas. Night prepared the résumé of Dantuluri Lakshmi Devi, the daughter of my younger paternal grandmother. She is a Telugu teacher. She asked me to look for a job at Hetero. She is unable to live with 4,000 rupees as a Telugu teacher in mediocre private schools. By 6:11, this evening, Narendra Damodardas Modi, took pledge as the 15^th prime minister of India near the Parliament in New Delhi. May Lord Krishna guide him always. Slept by 10:30.

27 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:58 by bus. Took the two English classes in the morning and afternoon at Boys Hostel. Today I gave them 10 topics and asked them to write on them. This is for the practice of writing. It rained from 5:00 to 5:30. I remained in the hostel observing the beauty of it. It turned cool and refreshing. Morning I met HR manager Rajnikant Ganesha and asked him about a job for Lakshmi Devi, my cousin. He said that she cannot be taken into Hetero as a fresher because she is 37. She cannot be recruited as an experienced candidate also because Telugu teachers are not wanted here now. I should try alternatives. Regional languages are fading slowly against the prevalence of English in India. English emerged as a powerful and reliable medium of communication among peoples in this world. My father-in-law came to my abode by 12:30 this afternoon. He brought five big papayas from the farm of D S N Raju. My cousin Lakshmi left for Narsipatnam. Her younger sister is there. Night my friend Raghu Rama Raju fitted a sub metre at the portion of Moka Srinivas in our abode. He did it from 9:00 to 10:00. It failed to work properly. We should change it after observation. It became a worthless and irritating matter for K S N Raju and me. Slept by 10:30.

28 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Today I taught them the content from Day 18 and Day 19 of Rapidex. Today I thought about selling quality mangoes to some of my familiar Hetero employees. We have about 1,000 mangoes in our mango garden from a Papara Gova and a Cheraku Rasaalu tree to sell. These are part of our reserved trees from those sold to Ramayanapu Ramana of China Gummuluru. We want to sell each Papara Gova mango for six rupees and Cheraku Rasaalu mango for eight rupees. About 20 Hetero employees can buy them. I should ask who are interested in buying them. I should take them to our mango garden on a holiday on their vehicles. The cost of the petrol or diesel their vehicles consume and the value of time they find on a Sunday must be considered. They may not come on the day in given time. Even if I keep those fresh mangoes at my abode in Devi Nagar, they don’t come to buy them. Everybody is interested in high quality things but no interest, time and patience to collect them going an extra mile. They buy those, which are accessible to them. Mostly mediators keep our desired items in our vicinity but they sell low quality items at high prices. Cheating is part of their business. I decided not to trouble myself trying to give quality mangoes to Hetero folks. Slept by 9:30.

29 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Today I discussed the content from Day 22 and Day 24 of Rapidex. My voice is getting affected because of speaking loudly in the classroom. Wall fans are making noise while on. They are making me talk louder. My cousin Sagi Ravindra Varma is coming to Hetero now to work here as a contract worker. He is working as a painter in the supervision of S R R Contractor. He is painting at Boys Hostel now along with two other boys. They pay him about 230 rupees for his physical work a day. He is the son of my paternal aunt Subhadra. He is the only son to his parents. His father Appala Raju is staying in village Gurrajupeta now, away from his mother and him. Ravindra may be 27 now. He has no reliable sources of income. His parents have assets worth about 70 lakh rupees in the form of a house and coconut garden. Nothing of it can make him happy. His parents have been living like enemies for the last 35 years. Both are misers. Ravindra has been a victim in this scenario. I regret it. By 4:30 Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana reached the house of my brother Srinivas at Sujatha Nagar in Visakhapatnam. They took a bus from the bus station at Tuni by 2:30. Slept by 9:30.

30 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Diarrhoea affected me this morning. Yesterday Srijana kept some curd for me in our fridge. Yesterday night I wanted to make Lassi with it adding sugar to it.  I added two spoons of salt into it instead of sugar in dim light in the kitchen. Softened salt dissolves in liquids so fast that we cannot separate it. I often sense the symptoms of low blood pressure in my body. It means my body wants a little more salt than others. I did not like to waste the curd or salt in it. I added about one litre of water to it to balance the intensity of salt. Had two glasses of salty buttermilk. My body accepted it. This morning also I had two glasses of it. It resulted in diarrhoea. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Took four tablets for prevention of diarrhoea and two ORS sachets in the OHC by 9:05. Felt relieved of diarrhoea by afternoon. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Only three learners attended my afternoon class. I taught them using my energy orally. It’s an insulting situation for an instructor like me. Can it be considered a worthwhile learning system if there are three learners only in a classroom? This credit goes to Subba Rao and the HR department of Hetero at Nakkapalli. Morning Srijana consulted pulmonologist Bala Raju about her asthma. He advised her to use previous set of medicines until breastfeeding is stopped. Slept by 10:00 after editing the content of April from my diary of 2014 on my computer.

31 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Today I taught them the content of Day 34 and Day 35 from Rapidex. By 5:07 an amount of 22,560 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account by the folks of Hetero towards my salary for this month. Returned home by 7:05 by bus. Had my haircut by 8:00 in my familiar salon. Paid 3,500 rupees to my house owner by 8:30 towards rent for my portion for this month. I am very happy about Narendra Modi becoming the prime minister of India. The Congress Party made India into a dustbin through its corrupt and inefficient rule. The people are thoroughly disappointed about the state of affairs in India under their selfish rule. Narendra Modi should play the role of a benevolent dictator now. Bureaucracy, investors and people are lazy and narrow-minded now. They are ready to change. The role of a social reformer is always challenging and dangerous. He should swim against the strong current of friction and resistance. Narendra Modi evolved as an idealist under the influence of RSS. I hope that he will change India into a state of peace, prosperity and patriotism applying his virtues. Slept by 10:00.

1 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Peda Gummuluru by 8:30 on my scooty. My father and I went to Ramayyapatnam by 9:00 on my scooty. This early morning Pusapati Narayana Raju died in this village. He went to see his lifeless entity before the cremation. The number of Kshatriya families living in this village fell to three or four with this demise. Lakshmipathi Raju remained as the only surviving Kshatriya elder here. Souls left old bodies. Void is spreading in this village as far as the presence of Kshatriyas is concerned. Yesubabu and I went to our mango garden by 9:15. We collected about 40 mango fruit from under our trees. We also plucked 72 Banginapalli mangoes from our reserved tree for me to take home. We spent at the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy for one hour. My mother offered me lunch by 11:45. Returned to Payakaraopeta by 1:00 on my scooty with raw and ripe mangoes. Saw the Telugu film “Vikrama Simha” in cinema Gowtham from 2:30 to 4:45. It is an interesting and exciting film but viewers wish to see the brilliant and stylish acting of Rajnikant in body. Many are not interested in seeing him in animated form. However, Soundarya toiled and proved her talent making this technologically challenging film. By 7:00 Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana got off a bus at Y Junction. Brought them home. Slept by 10:30.

2 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today Kalvakuntla Chandra Sekhara Rao took oath as the first chief minister of newly formed Telangana state. From today onwards Andhra Pradesh means coastal region and Rayala Seema only. I think there are nine districts in coastal region and four districts in Rayala Seema region. Many rogues of Andhra region started projecting KCR as a criminal and sinner ever since he intensified the separate Telangana movement. They should not have done so like selfish and narrow-minded blokes. KCR is the leader of that movement. Fighting on behalf of his people is his moral responsibility. He might not have the qualities of an idealist and perfectionist. Such thinkers seldom become rulers. It is true that the folks of Andhra and Rayala Seema regions contributed substantially to the development of Hyderabad region. Most of them went there for better sources of livelihood, jobs, education, business, buying lands and engaging in agriculture and so on. They did it all for their development and happiness but not minding the development of Telangana people or places. It means they are all selfish to the core. KCR wanted to stop this colonization and decline of distinct Telangana culture. The base of all movements is selfishness. Slept by 9:30.

3 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Yesterday morning Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana went to the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. They went to spend there for some days. Reached Hetero complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today I taught them the content of Day 49 and Day 51 from Rapidex. Today they served a banana for lunch to all the employees. They have been offering small packs of buttermilk also to every employee during lunchtime. These are all their employee welfare measures. I am enjoying all these offers and facilities being provided generously by the management of Hetero. I never got respected so in the firms where I worked earlier. The Hetero units at Nakkapalli are contributing substantially towards the livelihood and employment of about 5,000 folks. They are living happily spending the wages and salaries being offered by Hetero in time always. I am one of those happy beneficiaries. Everybody that knows about me is happy realizing that I am working with Hetero here. Bandi Parthasaradhi Reddy is a devotee of Lord Krishna. He got a small temple of Lord Krishna constructed in the campus of HLL III near the administrative building. He named his son Vamshi Krishna and daughter Krishna Sindhuri. Slept by 10:00.

4 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today I taught them the content related to telephone etiquette from Rapidex. There are some typographical errors in the English-Telugu version of this book. There are differences in the English and Telugu sentences as far as their context and meaning is concerned. There may be about 10% such errors only in the entire book. It mostly happens when the translators are careless and typists are ignorant of the work they are handling. Such errors can be avoided when those involved in the preparation of a book have respect for and meticulous attention towards all the content in it. They did not change some original English sentences also. Those words and usage are outdated now. When early stage learners are reading this book to improve their communication skills in English, they may internalize the wrong order of it. It’s a crime and sin, which no writer, translator or publisher should ever commit. These learning related course books are like a spoon-feeding mother. A kind mother should not feed wrong food to her innocent and dependent babies. Learners usually possess the qualities of ignorance, innocence and fear. The teacher or the writer has the moral responsibility of giving them the best of what they can do. Slept by 10:15.

5 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today I taught them the present, past and past participle forms of about 90 verbs and three example sentences for each verb. It is an important practice for learning English. We should know which form of verb we should use in a sentence based on when something happened or happens. When we are using a main verb in the present tense, we add ‘do’ and ‘does’ for questions. If we have to ask a question about the most recent past, we use the words ‘have’ and ‘has’ and the past participle form of a helping or main verb. The verb should be in the present tense form only when we are using it along with ‘do’, ‘does’, ‘did’, ‘should’, ‘must’, ‘can’, ‘could’, ‘may’, ‘might’, ‘let’, ‘ought to’, ‘have to’, ‘had to’, ‘shall’, ‘will’ and ‘would’. We ask questions about the past using the word ‘did’. We talk about the past positively using the past tense forms of helping and main verbs. We talk about the past negatively using ‘did not’. The forms of verbs change according to the person and number of words in sentences. We should go through standard English grammar books regularly to keep our English usage flawless. Standard English dictionaries are also vital to improve our grammar and vocabulary. Slept by 10:20 for my dreams.

6 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I forgot to wear my Hetero identity card. They told me to write an explanatory note addressing the HR folks. Today I taught 80 pairs of antonyms, their meanings and usage in sentences to the learners of English in the two classes at boys’ hostel. Morning I found that somebody stole my newly bought pair of thongs at my abode in my absence. Srijana bought them recently in Visakhapatnam spending about 100 rupees out of love for me. They were light and beautiful. I have been wearing a pair of black Paragon thongs for the last four years or so. Their quality is extraordinary. I love the footwear of Paragon for their supreme quality and superior durability. Srijana thought that I should wear a new pair of thongs when I go out to keep up my image to some extent. I regret knowing that somebody took them away. I suspect two frequent visitors to my abode. One is a paperboy and one is a neighborhood woman. I cannot complain to police or deploy a private detective to trace them. What a pity? I should get a secret camera installed at the entrance of my house portion. It costs me more than what I may lose without it. I cannot afford it now. Today Srijana came to Tuni to take out the gold ornaments of her mother from a financial unit, repaying the loan. Slept by 10:15.

7 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel in the morning and afternoon. Today I taught them the names of human body parts and human relations from Rapidex course book. It has been hot and sultry for the last few days. We are sweating profusely once out from the air conditioned administrative block. The folks of production blocks suffer more than others in summer. They work near hot reactors handling powders and liquids. I think production is the most important department in a pharmaceutical unit. The more they produce, the more the revenue to the management of it. All other departments play a supportive role. This is why managements too offer more regular and periodical benefits and incentives to the staff of production blocks. They really deserve that special treatment from the management. They are undergoing a lot of strain and pain to make various kinds of medicines for the humanity. They are giving us relief from many ailments and health disorders. Allopathic medicines are known for quick relief. These are recording the highest sale figures in many parts of the world due to their fast curative power. Medicines are reliable servants to creatures. Slept by 10:00.

8 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Peda Gummuluru by 8:00 on my scooty. My father and I went to our mango garden at hills by 9:00 on my scooty. We checked the growth of my mango plants. Recently he got a tractor load of manure deposited in my farm. He gets it deposited at the base of each plant soon. I put 50 raw Banginapalli mangoes in my bag by 10:00. My father put them in our shed collecting them from our reserved tree. We returned home by 10:20. I returned home by 11:00 with mangoes. Meanwhile Srijana, Sankeerthana and Anand returned from the teak planation at Marripalem. She brought many papayas, bananas and other items from there. By 11:20 my brother Srinivas, his colleague Satya Narayana and his daughter came to my abode. They came to this place to see natural beauty and take some mangoes from our garden. They spent here for 15 minutes. Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Ulava Chaaru Biryaani” in cinema Gowtham from 2:30 to 4:45. Prakash Raj directed it. It’s a portrayal of lovesick, sensitive and ideal creatures struggling to find a suitable life partner for beautifying their solitary lives. Sneha and Prakash Raj played these roles of solitary birds. It’s a visual feast for me. By 5:00 got haircut of Sagar done in a salon. By 6:30 typed out and posted a blog on my blog site about the above feature film. Slept by 10:00.

9 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today I made them read out short chunks of text for reading practice. It is to let them realize the mistakes in their pronunciation. Today it was cloudy, cool and pleasant. The monsoon rains have reached Kerala. They reach Andhra Pradesh shortly. This change in weather is a sign of it. Today Srijana bought a Ganga wet grinder at a shop in Tuni spending 3,500 rupees. She did it without telling me because she knows that I don’t give money for it. Every month I am allocating 10,000 rupees to clear my debts. This process of relieving myself from this psychological burden is going on slowly. The idiots of Sunshine International put a burden of about one lakh rupees upon me. I am postponing the ideas of buying many things for personal and domestic use in this critical financial condition. Srijana must have a secret fund. She gets interest on it. Often she spends that money for our domestic needs. I never asked her about the specifications of that fund. According to the Hindu Dharma, it is the moral responsibility of a husband to look after his wife and children. We husbands should not depend on the belongings and assets of our wives as far as we can manage. Slept by 10:00.

10 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today I conducted a quiz in both the classes on the spelling and usage of selective English words. It is a vocabulary building exercise for them. Morning 10 learners and afternoon six learners attended these classes. I am not happy with this low attendance of learners. It was hot and sultry today. Last night Jayanthi appeared me in my dream. She may be 20 now. She is working as a chemist in the engineering department at HLL III. She is a B.Tech. She sits in our floor in the administrative block in HLL III. She is one row away from mine. She plays shuttle badminton well. She daily looks at me because we move often in our office space. She knows that I am a writer and I wrote a book. She developed admiration for me during the last six months or so. She is unable to express it apparently in this office environment. It means there is no possibility in the real world to communicate her feelings and notions to me. Her psychological constraints may be a problem. So, I experienced her innermost sense of admiration for me in my dream. It is a metaphysical communication through sublime medium. Perhaps God’s select ideal souls facilitate this communication process to solace the psyches of living creatures. Slept by 10:00.

11 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took two classes. Today I dictated 150 words to the learners of first batch. This is to allow them to assess their spelling skills. Thereafter I told them the spelling of each word, its meaning and its usage in a sentence. Today this class got extended up to 12:30 from 9:30 as I had to deal with these many words. I reduced the number of words of dictation to 80 in the afternoon class considering the time the discussion of words is taking. HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy assigned me a work today. Recently a girl of village Rajayyapeta joined the Hetero as an employee. She is very poor at English. She is from a very poor family. She is unable to carry out documentation work also nominally when sent to a block. She is weak. She is feeling uneasy and uncomfortable to deal with the folks in a workplace. He advised me to educate her for some days taking her to my English classes and assigning nominal work in our L&D department. I remembered the story titled “A Tutor and his Disciple” in my book Stories of Love and Beauty. It is a tough job. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Today my cousin Ashwini came to my abode to see Sankeerthana. She bought and brought two dresses for the baby. She spent here from 9:30 to 3:30. Slept by 10:00.

12 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night Telugu film actor Nandamuri Bala Krishna appeared to me in my dream. He wants to take out a loan from a bank. He and I were going to a bank on this work. I enjoyed his warmth and affection for me in this dream. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today I taught them how to use some English words in sentences. Today it was very hot and sultry. We sweated profusely, when walking in the sun. I withstood this scorching sun consuming water and homemade lemon juice added sugar water. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Today Sankeerthana entered her seventh month of age. Srijana told me that she became very weak today due to scorching heat outside. Evening she pressed the body of the baby with a wet and cold cloth to reduce the high temperature in her sensitive body. Drops of blood dropped down from the nostrils of Anand. It happened earlier also twice or thrice. His constitution gets affected in summer. Doctor said that it is common in children of that age. Srijana poured cold water on his head before his bath. I felt sorry for being unable to buy an AC machine. Anand, Sankeerthana and Srijana can rest and sleep satisfactorily in an air-cooled bedroom. I need about 25,000 rupees to buy it. My present financial condition does not permit it. Slept by 10:00.

13 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today I conducted the classes in an AC room as it was free today. Only one candidate attended this class in the afternoon. I taught him as usual. Today I asked the learners to tell me the Telugu words, phrases and sentences, which they regularly use in their personal and professional lives. I told them how to use them in English language. This is what we call functional English. Today it was very hot and sultry. Now performance appraisals are going on in Hetero complex at Nakkapalli. Some employees have to fill up those appraisal forms specifying their KRAs and KPAs. Most of them are unable to fill them well because their English language skills and knowledge about this HR jargon is low. My manager Illuri Subba Rao does it for me. Management adds increments to the salaries of employees partly relying on these inputs. Every year employees eagerly wait for and discuss the points of increments and bonuses. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By 7:50 Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy came to my abode on my request. Gave him 15 mango fruit, a papaya and 10 bananas. We turned bosom friends during the last two months. Slept by 10:00. 

14 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took the last class at boys’ hostel to the learners of first and second batches. Today also I taught them English sentences to be used in different personal and professional contexts. I took 24 classes of two-hour duration to these learners. I did not take even one leave during the period of these classes. I don’t like some learners not coming to my class because of my leave. Many of the scheduled learners also did not attend these classes. They did not make proper arrangements for the convenient and comfortable conduct of English classes. I asked them many times what I want to conduct these classes well. Learners fail to learn their desired subject satisfactorily if there is no suitable learning environment. Our manager Subba Rao is not interested in providing me with what I want as an English instructor. I scan his ulterior motives regularly. He thinks that he is talking intelligently but others easily identify that he is narrow-minded and strategic. My voice got affected because of speaking loudly in my English classes to defeat the noise of wall-mounted fans. I am happy for completing English instruction successfully to these two batches of learners. The next two batches will be started from the 19^th of this month. Slept by 10:00.

15 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a bus by 8:00 at Y Junction and reached Peda Gummuluru by 8:30. My brother Sambha told me to come for mangoes. Spent talking with my parents, brother and others for some time. Put about 60 raw mangoes in a bag. These are collected from the mango garden of Sambha. Returned to Y Junction by 10:30 in a sharing auto rickshaw. Srijana and I carried these mangoes to our abode in Devi Nagar. They weigh about 30 kilos. By 3:15 gave a parcel to a colleague of Vamsy, who is travelling by Prashanti Express, in Tuni railway station. He is going to the unit of Wipro Infrastructure Engineering Limited at Hindupuram in Ananthapuram district. Srijana packed two kinds of mango pickles, 15 mangoes and homemade snacks for her brother working there. Spent in the rented abode of Sekhar in Tuni from 3:30 to 4:30. They are staying in a house near LIC building now. By 4:40 took Anand to the clinic of ENT specialist Dr. D Rama Krishnam Raju in Tuni on my scooty. Recently a few drops of blood fell from the left nostril of Anand. Dr. I N Murthy of Neo Care clinic earlier prescribed Nasivion nasal drops for him. By 6:30 this doctor cleaned his nostrils and prescribed T-Bact ointment for his nostrils. Anand is a sensitive boy. Slept by 9:30.

16 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. I am on a sick leave today. Today I typed up the content of May from my diary of 2014 on my computer. It took me about 360 minutes’ time. There was power cut for about four hours today. It was hot and sultry throughout the day. Spent all the day at home. The bag, which Srijana lost recently, on her way from Viswanadhapuram to Payakaraopeta, is not yet found. Somebody kept it for those few belongings of Srijana and Sankeerthana. India became a land of thieves and criminals. Indians are the most dangerous species on earth. They are liars and masters of double standards. I am coming across many such Indians every day. They are wearing beautiful masks to impress others fast and cheat them. I think rest of the world should institute an international subject called ‘Understanding Indians’ in their respective institutes of higher learning. Here hypocrites talk about values. Police encourage killers and rapists. Mothers send their daughters to the beds of rich and influential folks. Shopkeepers sell hundreds of fake goods to innocent and helpless Indians. Lawyers argue the worst of the cases also for money. There is no original constitution to India. It is copied content from other sources. India is a land of dirty idiots. You can see them everywhere. Slept by 10:00.

17 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I am on a sick leave. Today it was hot and sultry most of the day. From 2:30 to 5:00 Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Jump Jilani” in cinema Gowtham. I enjoyed watching every bit of this film. E Satthi Babu, the director of this film, made it into a visual and audio feast. The dialogues are very interesting and comic. Naresh impresses me much with his typical acting and dialogue delivery skills in comedies. I like his look and acting skills. One actress in this film is very beautiful. She played the role of wife of Naresh, who is a thief. She is like cheese. She impressed me with her magnetic look and acting skills throughout the film. It rained outside by 4:30 and made it cool. Fell deeply relieved by this thrilling shower after this scorching summer. By 6:30 the maternal grandmother of Srijana sent 30 mangoes and lemons from Viswanadhapuram in a familiar vehicle. Collected and brought them home on my scooty. By 7:10 my brother Srinivas informed me over phone that he got through the written test of UCO Bank, which he took in Hyderabad recently. He is promoted to the position of assistant manager. He is planning to move to Bhima Varam or Atthili through this promotion. Slept by 10:00.

18 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 on the bike of a familiar fellow. Today I did nominal work related to internal safety audit. Today I sent the soft copy of the English grammar book, which I prepared for the Hetero employees at Nakkapalli, to the folks of Visakha Printers, through Srinivasa Varma, by email. We asked him to design it. Goli Srinivasa Reddy, the production head of HLL III and HDL VI, is interested in getting this work printed minding the interests of Hetero employees. Today I submitted my application for the two sick leaves, which I used yesterday and day before yesterday. The reason I specified on it for my sick leaves is low fever caused by summer. It is a beautiful lie. No man or woman can live and die without telling a lie. Lies are inevitable parts of human existence. How can we utilize sick leaves without lies? It is enough if our lies do not hurt others. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Went to Tuni by 7:30 to buy some things. Bought two Rapidex books for Shilpa and Lakshmi in my floor, from Indira bookstore. They asked me to do it. Also bought a VGS English Grammar book for me. Somebody stole my book from my classroom at Boys Hostel. Gave eight Banginapalli mango fruit to Subba Rao in his rented abode at Rajugari Beedu by 8:15. Today Srijana bought 16 books for 800 rupees from Canossa School for Anand for his UKG standard. Slept by 10:30.

19 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I started teaching English to the learners of third and fourth batches at Boys Hostel. Today I took these classes in an AC room here as it was free today. Morning 10 and afternoon 21 learners attended these classes. Today I taught the content from Day 1 and Day 2 of Rapidex. Afternoon consulted a doctor in OHC and told him that my vocal cords are getting affected because of teaching English four hours a day. He checked the back of my mouth with a torch and prescribed me two kinds of tablets. He advised me to gargle with lukewarm water. Today my father came to my abode by 11:30 from Gollalagunta. He went there to attend the marriage of Lavanya, the third daughter of Subba Lakshmi. He rested here for three hours. He played with our baby Sankeerthana for some time. He left for Peda Gummuluru by 4:30. Srijana treated him affectionately. I am happy about it. Today Anand went to Canossa School with his set of books and food. It is his first day as a UKG student. His freedom as a child is being lost this way. I am not happy about it. By 8:00 Anand and I went to the abode of Sekhar in Tuni on my scooty. We brought 20 mangoes from there for us. Slept by 10:00.

20 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took my two English classes at Boys Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 3 and Day 4 of Rapidex. Today it was cloudy and sultry. Today I took cut mango fruit pieces to Hetero complex in three plastic containers. My idea was to consume mango pieces from one container and give the ones in the other two containers to my familiar folks. I consumed the fruit pieces in the three containers because the circumstances forced me to do so. Those, to whom I offered them, could not consume them. There are about six girls who like me. I couldn’t give these sweet items to any girl because of the gender difference. We generally feel attracted towards the creatures of opposite gender but we cannot interact with them as freely as we can do towards the creatures of same gender. Society, culture, tradition and religion mostly block free flow of expressions and relationships among the creatures of opposite gender. When there is much distance between two creatures, they feel more attracted towards each other. Many girls and boys have various feelings and thoughts to express to the creatures of opposite gender but it is not being materialized due to some reasons. It is a cause of pain and suffering in humanity. Slept by 9:30.

21 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel in an AC room. Today I taught the content from Day 16 and Day 17 of Rapidex to them. Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram are not assigning me any work other than the communicative English classes. In fact, there is a lot of work to be done in our L&D department now. We have to conduct various internal and external training programs to the employees of Hetero units here. Soma Sundaram is working hard to withstand this heavy burden of work. He keeps running always. In this situation, leaving me almost free for four hours every day is a matter of wonder for me. I get exhausted after teaching for two hours. Speaking out loudly consumes a lot of energy. I am being relaxed after my classes as they are not assigning me any work. I don’t know if they have any ulterior motive in keeping me free also. Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram also take L&D classes daily. Subba Rao teaches well. His classes are interesting for me. He has passion for acquisition of knowledge and information. Mostly he behaves formally with many employees. Today Srijana got the second dose of Rotavirus and third dose of Hib vaccines administered to Sankeerthana at Neo Care clinic in Payakaraopeta spending about 2,450 rupees. Slept by 9:30.

22 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 8:00 reached our house in Peda Gummuluru on my scooty. My father and I went to our mango garden at hills by 8:30. My father already collected Banginapalli mangoes from our reserved tree and kept them in our shed. We put about 50 mangoes in a bag and returned home by 9:00. We went to Gurrajupeta by 9:30 on my scooty. My father and I spent talking with Kolukuluri Krishnam Raju for 40 minutes. He is sick now. He is our well-wisher. Reached my rented abode at Devi Nagar by 11:30 with 80 mangoes. Had my lunch by 12:30. My Hetero colleague Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy and I started to Viswanadhapuram by 1:15 on his bike. We entered the lime garden of the maternal grandparents of Srijana by 2:00. Lakshmi Bharati accompanied us. We collected about 100 Banginapalli mangoes from the trees, 30 lemons, two jackfruit and some curry leaves from this garden. We returned to the rented abode of Srinivas by 4:00. Gave about 60 mangoes to him. He dropped me at my abode by 5:00. My in-laws came to my abode by this time. He brought seven old wooden tools to my abode recently. There are no tops on them. My father-in-law and I went to a store of wooden items in Tuni by 7:00 to buy the required items for these tools. I bought vegetables and other items spending 800 rupees. Slept by 10:00.

23 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Today I taught them 80 English words, their spelling, their meanings and their usage to make them understand the importance of vocabulary to enrich their language skills. I chose these words from Longman Communication 3,000. It is a list of 3,000 English words, which are widely used by millions of speakers across the world, in spoken and written formats. Today it was hot and sultry. Now my eldest sister-in-law Sandhya Rani is suffering from gastric pain. It happened earlier also. It is a result of remaining without food for many months in the morning being absorbed in her household chores. She prepares breakfast, lunch and other items every day for her husband and two sons. She neglects the point of consumption of her food during these peak hours in her domestic chores. It leads to gastric problems in the long run. Perhaps this is the problem of many homemakers in India now. They are so absorbed in the welfare activities of their family members that they have no time to focus on the welfare of their bodies and minds. Sandhya Rani got the qualities of a queen. She talks less, treats all well and lives peacefully. Slept by 10:00.

24 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:58 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Today I made them read short stories in English on the aspects of nature and biodiversity. I borrowed this book from Bharat Varma. This book has 20 stories meant for educating school children. I found these stories very interesting and insightful. Most of the Hetero employees failed to read them well. They have no considerable English pronunciation skills. They could not explain each English sentence in Telugu. Their Telugu vocabulary and pronunciation skills are also low. I had to read each English sentence after them and explain it in Telugu. There is no use of just reading a foreign language. We must be able to understand and explain each sentence in our mother tongue in our own words. Reading without comprehension is worthless. Morning our manager Illuri Subba Rao asked me to fill up the Hetero employee appraisal form related to me. I ticked on ‘Excellent’ and ‘Very good’ options in all the columns. He advised me that one should not tick on ‘Excellent’ but on ‘Very good’ and ‘Good’ mostly because there is always need for us to grow psychologically. It is a good observation. He asked me to fill it just to know my opinions. He fills it ultimately. Slept by 10:00.

25 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night I packed about 30 Banginapalli mango fruit in a cardboard box for presenting to Goli Srinivasa Reddy in Hetero complex at Nakkapalli. It weighs about 20 kilos. It is difficult to carry these fruit in a packed Hetero bus. I requested my colleague Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy to bring his bike today. We started to Hetero complex by 8:30 on his bike. We reached there by 9:00. We put this box in a security cabin at the main entrance gate of HLL III. Told Srinivas that I brought mango fruit for him. He casually remarked that he got many mangoes in his native place also. He belongs to Satthupalli in Khammam district. It is his affectionate remark at me. I am offering these mango fruit to him out of my affection for him. He loves me a lot internally but expresses part of it only. He would take these mango fruit to his abode at Gajuwaka tomorrow evening in his company car. He is staying in an executive room at boys’ hostel now and then these days. Today I conducted a quiz on English words in the two classes. The management of Canossa School declared today and tomorrow holidays to students considering intense summer heat. Anand is happy about it. Today two carpenters got seven wooden stools ready for us. They worked on those old pieces brought by my father-in-law recently from somewhere. Slept by 10:00.

26 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Today I gave them 12 topics and asked them to write five to fifteen sentences on any one of those topics. This is to improve and assess their writing skills. Most of them did not do well in it. They are unable to use helping verbs. The attendance of the learners was also low. Some are coming to two or three classes only. Subba Rao failed to bring order in the conduct of communicative English classes. Today I took cut mango pieces in three plastic containers to my place of work. I often take this or that to consume in the office. I offer some of them to my familiar male and female colleagues. Today I gave it to Jayanthi in our floor. My previous telepathic experience suggested me that she admires me. Evening she told me that she would bring something for me to eat in my container. It is a rare experience for me. I admired and pursued some girls but few of them ever offered me anything to acknowledge my sense of admiration for them. Today I felt grateful to Jayanthi thinking about her affectionate offer. Today it was cloudy, cool and pleasant throughout the day. God blessed me with the kind breezes of monsoon. Slept by 9:45.

27 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Today I taught the content of Day 18 and Day 19 to them from Rapidex. They are miscellaneous questions and negative sentences. Today Jayanthi brought the seeds of a pomegranate for me in my plastic container. She gave it to me by 12:00. I had them. Lord Krishna said that He would accept leaves, flowers, fruits or water from His devotees. I too accepted these seeds similarly from Jayanthi. Afternoon brought a repaired revolving chair from the engineering store in HLL III through the mediation of HR executive Anil. My present chair has no cushion. I brought it for this comfort. Today it was cloudy and cool. All are anxiously waiting for rain. Today one of my familiar colleagues brought the résumé of a girl of village Neeladri Puram. It is a hamlet near Peda Gummuluru. She is looking for a job. She completed her Intermediate course. Now she is pursuing a graduate course through distance education mode. I showed this résumé to HR manager Rajnikant Ganesha in the evening. He said that one should be a graduate at least to get a job here. There is no much difference between a graduate and an illiterate in many parts of India. Shallow educational institutions are preparing such nuts. Then what is the use of these degrees? Slept by 9:30.

28 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at boys’ hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 22 and Day 23 of Rapidex. It’s on usage of prepositions. I observed that many of the learners are turning lazy and bored after teaching the content for some time. They neglected learning English grammar over the years. Each language grammar involves some rules. We cannot use any language well without mastering its grammar. The brains of learners should function effectively while learning unfamiliar but necessary things. It is a useful mental exercise. Many Indians are not using their brains during their academic years or afterwards. They turned mechanical and lazy. They are not interested in learning such things, which expect them to be innovative, logical and analytical. They are eventually becoming nuts. Their knowledge and patience levels are low. There are many educated folks in India but their educational and intellectual levels are so low that they cannot write even a paragraph without grammatical errors in their mother tongue or other language. They are losing learning instincts slowly. Today it was cool and pleasant. By 8:45 Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and I reached Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. Slept by 11:00.

29 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night we came here to see the folks of Viswanadhapuram. The parents of Srijana also spent here. Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and I started back to Payakaraopeta by 6:30 on our scooty. We reached our rented abode by 7:30. We brought some mangoes, a pineapple, two coconuts and some lemons from there. My brother Sambha, my sister-in-law Kranthi and their son Anjaneya Raju came to our abode by 7:45 on a bike from Peda Gummuluru. Sambha brought 50 Nalla Mogga mangoes from there for me. He collected them from the tree of Ramayanapu Ramana in our mango garden at hills. These fruit are very sweet. I like their juice a lot. By 10:30 my maternal uncle Krishnam Raju got off an Express bus on the high way 16 near the bus station in Tuni. He came from Gollalagunta to see us. Brought him home by 10:45 on my scooty. Sambha and I bought one kg Konaam fish pieces for 200 rupees in the fish market at Tuni. Srijana prepared fish soup and chicken curry for our guests. By 4:00 Sambha, Krishnam Raju and I went to a cashew nut processing unit at Geddala Beedu near Tuni. Sambha gave 16 kgs of nuts here for cashew to be drawn out from them. All these folks left for Peda Gummuluru by 5:30. We enjoyed their presence. Slept by 10:00.

30 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero complex by 8:51 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 31 and Day 32 of Rapidex. Today 20 learners only attended both the classes. Our scheduled number of learners to attend each class is 30. Some of these learners are remaining sleepy in the class. I know the psychological status of every learner in my class. Some come to class out of passion to learn. Some do so for the sake of formality. Many learners fail to understand that they are going to a class to improve themselves. They disuse or misuse the opportunities provided by others generously. The Indian educational system is the best example for it. Every year the Government of India and various state governments are spending crores of rupees for school, college and university level education. The students are learning very little from them. We can see millions of such students in India now. They have no passion to learn. They are studying for obtaining degrees. Once they are out of those educational institutions, they stop touching books and dailies. They are becoming worthless idiots radically. We can see thousands of such employees in every company in India. They have no will to change to the better. They wish to live happily without growing psychologically. Slept by 10:00.

1 July (Tuesday) 

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 34 and Day 35 of Rapidex. These are expressions related to invitation, permission and instruction. By evening I downloaded my payslip of June from the MyDesk online network of Hetero. Salary was not credited to my account even by night. Anand is going to Canossa School near our abode on foot. Srijana is getting him ready every morning for the school. She is guiding him in doing his homework. She bought charts of Telugu alphabet and numbers for him. He is not interested in doing homework or going to school. She is pressing him to this extent every day. She is shouting at him every day to get things done. He is not active in things related to education. He is bursting into tears if I question him about any mischief he does. Somehow I am not happy with the idea of anybody crying. God sent all His beloved and innocent creatures into this world to be happy. He does not like anybody crying. Anand wants to be in my good looks always. He often requests Srijana not to tell me about the avoidable things he does. He feels and expresses a lot of warmth for Sankeerthana. He enjoys the company of Sai Sanjana and other children here. Slept by 9:30.

2 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. An amount of 22,375 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account yesterday towards my salary for the last month from the folks of Hetero. I did not get an SMS to my cellphone about it. I thought my salary was not credited. I did not pay the rent for my portion for this reason. I like to do it on or before the first of every month. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught them the content from Day 42 and Day 43 of Rapidex. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Went to the ATM centre of Axis Bank at P Lakshmi Puram on my scooty by 7:20 along with Anand. Withdrew 7,000 rupees from my account. Paid 3,500 rupees to Surya Kumari by 7:30 towards rent for my portion for the last month. I regret paying the rent one day late this time. I violated my self-imposed rules. I think that every tenant owes a lot to the owner of the abode in which he or she is living. I am living happily in this spacious abode even though it is not mine. Everybody may not be able to build a house in every place he wishes to stay for some reasons. As a tenant, he or she is solving this problem easily. The best kind of gratitude we can express towards our house owner is through paying him or her due rent in time always. He or she, as a house owner, is a respectable entity. Slept by 10:00.

3 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:55 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 49 and Day 51 of Rapidex. Morning Subba Rao casually asked me how I rank myself as part of my performance appraisal. In fact, he fills it on his own as my manager. He asked me thinking liberally about it. I said I consider myself ‘Very Good’ as far as my performance is concerned here. The other four options may be ‘Excellent’, ‘Good’, ‘Normal’ and ‘Very Normal’. Self-assessment is a difficult assignment. Everybody maintains some degree of self-confidence, self-respect, ego and superiority complex. It is necessary to live with a balanced mind. It is difficult to assess the caliber of other person also. We may not have the required skills and patience to assess the other perfectly. We need to investigate and enquire a lot about a person to know much about him or her. Even then it is difficult to assess the character of a person accurately. One pretends a lot to be in the good looks of one’s family, society and employer’s place. His or her character is a sum of his or her thoughts and acts. How can we weigh the worth of one’s intangible thoughts and ideals? Slept by 10:00.

4 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught them some kinds of conversation from Rapidex. I asked them to play those different roles reading out those dialogues. Speaking out enhances our spoken English skills rather than silent reading. Afternoon I spoke a little about Manga to the learners. She is the girl from village Rajayyapeta entrusted to me by our HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy. I am supposed to educate her. After the class, she blamed me about talking about her. She said that I talked about her in an insulting manner. She said that I should not talk so about a girl where all are boys. She appeared to me like a hypersensitive girl. I did not talk back much with her about this because she cannot understand it from a right perspective. She is suffering from inferiority complex. They can’t bear if others talk about their drawbacks and demerits directly or indirectly. They don’t possess the virtues needed to be respected and appreciated by all but they wish to be treated so by everybody. They can’t bear constructive criticism also. Manga needs to change a lot in this cruel and insensitive world to live normally. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. My in-laws came to our abode from the abode of teak plantation at Marripalem. Slept by 10:00.

5 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:01 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the three tense forms of about 120 verbs. We should know the forms of various verbs to use them in sentences well. It rained considerably from 4:45 to 5:20 in the evening. I got partly wet in this shower when coming back to HLL-III from the hostel. I enjoyed this gentle touch of cool rain. Returned home by 7:10. Today my father-in-law and Srijana bought two kinds of gold ornaments from Baba Jewelers unit at Tuni. They bought a gold chain for Sankeerthana spending 39, 500 rupees. Its weight is 13.650 grams. They bought two earrings also spending 18,000 rupees for Srijana. I never like anybody’s passion for gold. For me it is a worthless item valued by millions of rogues and nuts in this world. We should please God practicing virtues but not wearing fashionable clothes and ornaments. The financial condition of my in-laws is down now. They should not have spent that much money on these gold items. I did not blame them because I should be kind towards innocent and stupid creatures also. We can consider it unconditional love. We should be able to live with people of various kinds. They seldom change to our expectations. Slept by 10:00.

6 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My father-in-law left for the teak plantation by 4:00 on his bike. My father and mother came from Peda Gummuluru by 8:30 in an auto rickshaw. Brought them home from Y Junction. They brought three mango fruit, a silver plate and vermillion powder from there. By 9:30 the son-in-law of the youngest paternal aunt of Srijana came from Chinnayya Palem on his bike. He is a native of village Rangapuram near Bikkavolu. He bought and brought about 20 kilos of dried up groundnuts from Chinnayya Palem. By 10:30 my father and I went to Tuni on my scooty. We bought vegetables in a market. Bought some books from Indira bookstore. Got the cellphones of Srijana and me recharged for 100 rupees each. Showed the hotel of Sekhar and the sites of my uncle of Durgada to my father by 11:00. He bought two soft drink bottles for Anand and Anjaneya Raju. We had lunch at home by 12:30. By 2:30 my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode on his scooty. We all spent talking for two hours. My guests left for their respective abodes by 5:00. They made this day pleasant and valuable with their presence. By 6:30 my colleague Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy, his wife Sri Latha and their son Shanmukh came to our abode casually. They spent with us till 8:30. Edited the content of May from my diary of 2014 by 9:30 on my computer. Slept by 10:20.

7 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the antonyms of about 100 English words to them. Today I presented a copy of Rapidex English-Telugu Speaking course book and a copy of VGS English Grammar and Composition to M S V D Devi. She is coming to my English classes now. Three days ago she presented me a Nestle milk bar on the occasion of her birthday. She belongs to Annavaram. I bought these books for 230 rupees. These are my birthday gifts to her. She is a cute and disciplined girl. By 5:40 had potato snacks in the cafeteria at HLL-III. Got off the Hetero bus at Y Junction by 7:10. It started raining by 6:45 when we were in the bus. It got intensified. Stood in a shelter by Ruchi Restaurant beside NH-16 observing the magic of rain. I wonder about the way clouds release water onto the earth. They have plenty of stored water in them collected from sea and other water bodies on earth. They wait for conducive atmosphere to rain. They travel collectively and drop water rhythmically in their chosen areas. Lightnings flash during this time. They say it is because of friction among passing clouds. I perceive the intelligence of creatures in clouds. I stood there till 8:30 watching it. Slept by 10:00.

8 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I taught the content of Day 57 and Day 58 to the learners of third batch from Rapidex. Afternoon it started raining by 2:15. I took an umbrella from my department and reached my classroom in the Boys’ Hostel by 2:40. The path was sticky and slippery. I waited for my learners to come to my class. Nobody turned up till 3:40. I understood that they were unable to come due to rain. One came somehow by 3:45. I did not run the class exclusively for him. A class looks interesting to an instructor if there are considerable number of learners. By 4:30 Rajesh of IT department downloaded a PDF of children’s short stories for me from the Internet on my request. It is a publication of Children’s Book Trust, New Delhi. There are about 20 short stories in it. It is a compilation of stories submitted by participants in a workshop conducted by CBT once. There are 116 pages in it. Got them printed out on 58 pages. I use these interesting stories for reading practice in my English classes hereafter. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. Went to an Internet café in Payakaraopeta by 8:00 on my scooty and got these pages subjected to spiral binding paying 30 rupees. Today it rained heavily at Devi Nagar. Rainwater entered our master bedroom. Srijana cleaned it. Slept by 10:00.

9 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Morning only three learners attended this class. I made them read the short story titled “A Man On Board” from the publication of Children’s Book Trust. Afternoon nine learners attended this class. I made them read the short story “When Papa Scolded Me”. Their reading comprehension skills are low. We cannot read and understand writings in any language without command of vocabulary and grammar. We can achieve it through rigorous practice only. From 1:00 to 2:15 typed out and edited a two-page blog titled “Naming Ceremony” on the computer system of Srinivasa Varma. It’s my satire on the present trend of naming different public institutions and facilities by politicians and interest groups, according to their selfish attitudes and ulterior motives, in India. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Posted the blog on my blog site by 8:30. It would be published by 8:00 am tomorrow morning. Today Srijana went to Viswanadhapuram along with Anand and Sankeerthana to attend a function. The elder son of Alluru Surya Narayana Raju held it on the occasion of his coming home from the USA on a leave. They came back by 10:20 at night in a car. Slept by 10:40.

10 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 on the bike of my colleague Dhanunjayudu. Took four kilos of mango jelly along with me. It is made by a relative of Surya Kumari in village Vempadu using quality mango fruit juice. Each kilo of it costs 100 rupees. I wanted to sell it to my familiar folks in Hetero out of my goodness. I sold it to four creatures by evening. All of them are low salaried employees. Those with higher salaries did not buy it because they don’t do anything without a plan. They did not buy a nutritious and tasty item also from a reliable person for 100 rupees. Others bought it because they are living being influenced by their intuition. Those, who do everything according to their planned decision only, cannot enjoy their lives much. Often we should allow our impulses and intuitions also to guide us. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I conducted a quiz in each class on English words to improve their interest in vocabulary building exercises. They enjoyed it. By 5:20 went to our house in Peda Gummuluru on the bike of my familiar colleague Prakash to bring 25 mango fruit from there. Gave 15 fruit to him. Returned home by 7:10 in the TATA NANO car of this man. By 7:40 went to the cashew processing unit at Geddala Beedu and brought the cashew of Sambha from there. Slept by 10:00.

11 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:45 on the bike of a familiar Hetero employee. It has been raining and wet for the last four days. People are enjoying this pleasant change in weather. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I dictated 80 English words to them. Initially they assess their spelling skills. Thereafter I tell them the spelling of each word, its meaning in Telugu and its usage in a sentence. It is a vocabulary building exercise. Today I submitted my filled up medical insurance application form to the HR department. I wrote the names of my wife, children and parents on it. I don’t like the deceptive policies and practices of medical insurance firms and hospitals. I am doing it here because it is an inevitable company policy. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. My brother Srinivas sold his three acres of paddy farmland in Gollalagunta under the irrigation area of Dhora Cheruvu. He sold each acre of this land for 7, 75,000 rupees. My brother Srinivas wants to buy some other property with this money. He is not happy about the fertility and productivity of this farmland. My brother Sambha and my father are not happy about this decision of Srinivas. I supported his view because I should respect the choices of others also. Slept by 10:00.

12 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Only one learner attended the class today in the morning. I taught him briefly about tenses and word class. Afternoon eight learners attended the class. I conducted a quiz on English words. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By 8:00 Srijana got a cake cut by our baby Sankeerthana. Today she enters the eighth month of her bodily age. Srijana is celebrating the 12^th of every month as her birthday. She dressed her up with a beautiful pink dress. She distributed pieces of cake and chocolates to the four children in our abode. We took the photos of this occasion with our digital camera in the dim electric lights. Sankeerthana is doing well. She is consuming breast milk and rice food of Nestum. She is not a crybaby. She cries occasionally to attract our attention towards her. She is very interested in eating or drinking anything accessible to her. She likes me because I take her out for short outdoor walks. She is feeling bored staying indoors always. She likes watching things outside. She smiles frequently instead of laughing. I think the beauty and acts of babies are so unique and attractive that we cannot describe them in words. We must see and feel them. It’s cool and pleasant today. Slept by 10:00.

13 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 8:30 Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and I reached Peda Gummuluru on our scooty. Polisetti Srinivasa Rao is a creative person in Ramayyapatnam. He is known as Dubai Srinu in this village. He writes and directs Telugu social dramas. He wants to make a short film out of his Telugu social drama titled “Thappevaridhi”. He is selecting cast through a screen test event today at Adduroad. He invited me to be one of the judges on this occasion. About 15 enthusiasts were examined from 11:30 to 1:30 in a room of Gayathri College. I too evaluated them in the form of marks from 1 to 10 for their acting skills. They asked them to enact some role from one to two minutes. They shot those scenes with a digital camera. Morning my brothers Srinivas and Sambha went to Gollalagunta to do the work of sale of the paddy farm of the prior there. By 1:50 gave 2,000 rupees to my father. He is getting manure deposited at each mango plant in my farm and rocks placed in its corners to block outflow of rainwater. Returned home by 2:50 on my scooty along with my folks. From 6:30 to 9:00 Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Raaraa Krishnayya” in cinema Surya Mahal. It’s an interesting film. Regina Cassandra acted and danced well. She is beautiful in it. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

14 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:54 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Told them to ask any questions and doubts on English. They don’t have much to ask. We should have creativity, knowledge and curiosity to have questions and doubts also. It was cool and pleasant today. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Recently a mechanical shed came up at the entrance of Devi Nagar Colony. They are making loud noise every day as part of their welding and repair works. By 7:12 went to their shed to caution them against the generation of such sounds. It is a few steps away from our rented abode here. I told them that I would complain to the local police if they make such loud noise daily because this is a residential area. They responded passively implying that they are sorry for what’s happening. They yielded to my warning. I regretted it. They built a building spending a lot of money. It may be their source of livelihood. I am not psychologically fit to hurt sensitive people. I can be angry against bad people only. The more they resist changing to the better, the more I wish to suppress and ruin them. If I have adequate money and time, I get many wrongdoers killed secretly. I cannot stand evil for long. Lord Krishna is balancing my life without giving me money and time. Thus He is avoiding me from committing evil Karma. Slept by 10:15. 

15 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Yesterday my brothers Srinivas and Sambha collected 20 lakh rupees from the buyer of three acres of paddy farmland of the prior in Gollalagunta. They signed an agreement to this effect. He gets the land registered in his name soon. With this sale of the land, our family has no any asset in Gollalagunta. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:58 by bus. Today I took both the classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today also I clarified the doubts and answered the questions of learners. By today, my communicative English classes came to an end for the third and fourth batches of learners. The attendance is very low even for these two batches. It’s disappointing for me. The classes for the fifth and sixth batches of learners are scheduled to be started from this Friday. I applied for a sick leave tomorrow. Subba Rao readily granted it. He gave me 200 rupees asking me to buy some mango fruit this night. Returned home by 7:05 by bus. Went to the market in Tuni by 7:20 on my scooty. There was one seller of mango fruit only. Bought 15 mango fruit for 230 rupees. She made me buy them at that rate. They do so towards the end of a mango season. Gave them to Subba Rao by 7:50 in his rented abode at Rajugari Beedu. Slept by 10:00.

16 July  (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I am on a sick leave. Today I typed up the content of June from my diary of 2014 on my computer from 8:00 to 2:00. It was cloudy, cool and pleasant today. From 6:30 to 9:00 Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Dhrushyam” in cinema Sai Mahal. Venkatesh and Meena played the main roles. They are a husband and a wife. They have two daughters. The older one is a teenager. Venkatesh runs a cable TV network. He regularly watches various feature films on his television in his cable TV office. He acquires a lot of knowledge this way. Once the son of an IG molests his teenaged daughter in his house beyond his presence. His daughter hits him on his head in her attempt to save herself in the presence of her mother. He dies on the spot. They wrap a cover around that dead body and bury it in a pit in their land near their house. Venkatesh knows about this unexpected mishap from his wife and daughter. He believes that it is not wrong on their part. He trains his three family members on how to deal with police during the investigation. He strategically plans and collects proofs showing that his family members are not there on the day of this incident. Police fail to trace any evidence against his family members despite their best efforts. Thus he saves his family. Sri Priya directed it. It’s a wonderful film. Slept by 10:00.

17 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:20 by bus. Today they were catching fish in the tank lying between Nakkapalli and Upamaaka. There was traffic jam in this place for some time. Today I did not do any work. They decided to start the classes for the next batches of learners from the 21^st of this month. I decided to go to the unit of Visakha Printers at Kurmanna Palem to check the status of progress of the design of the English material, which I emailed to them about a month ago. I have to get it done personally going to their workplace. Our plant head Goli Srinivasa Reddy permitted me to go there. Thereafter I got the permission of HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy and our manager Subba Rao. Filled up an on-duty form, got it signed and submitted it to the HR folks. Tomorrow I would be on this task representing Hetero. Today I felt low fever and sickness. It started yesterday morning. By 6:45 Bhaskara Raju and I reached the big pond at Nakkapalli. He got two 12 kg weight fish bought for 1,200 rupees at this pond by his friend. He told me to take fish pieces of one kg. We got those fish cut at a house in Rajayyapeta by 8:20. I collected one kilogram of sliced jaggery powder at Vempadu by 8:45. Reached home by 9:15 with these two items. Slept by 10:30.

18 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took an APSRTC bus at Y Junction by 8:30 and got off it at the bus stop in Kurmanna Palem by 10:30. The bus fare is 106 rupees. Called up Y Venkat, the owner and manager of the print unit named Visakha Printers. He took me to Plot No. 48 in Sai Ram Nagar, Duvvada, by 10:45, on his scooty. Sativada Rajesh is the designer here. Sat with him till 1:30 and got the two cover pages, internal title page, table of contents page and the page of first chapter designed on his computer. I told him to use blue and white colours only wherever necessary throughout the book. He designed these pages also using these two colours only. I told him to print it on an art paper. It may cost up to 200 rupees for a copy. There is 164 pages of content on A 4 size paper now. It may turn into a book of 300 or more pages after the layout in PageMaker. Rajesh said that he takes a week’s time to do it all. By 2:00 had my lunch in the first floor of this building, the living abode of Venkat and his family. They treated me affectionately. Venkat belongs to Maliki Puram region in East Godavari District. The units of Hetero at Nakkapalli contributed a lot in his growth as a printer here. Took an APSRTC bus by 2:30 at Kurmanna Palem and reached home by 4:15. The fare is 92 rupees. Today I was on duty of Hetero. Slept by 10:30.

19 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. By 9:30 submitted my bills worth 300 rupees to Shilpa in our accounts department for payment. This is towards the expenses I incurred yesterday due to my visit to Visakha Printers unit at Duvvada. The bus fares to and from the destination amounted to 198 rupees. I presented 102 rupees towards miscellaneous expenses like lunch, local travel and beverages, which I did not spend in fact. Venkat took me from the main road and got me dropped there on his scooty. He offered me lunch. It means I stole 102 rupees from the folks of Hetero showing wrong causes. Every year thousands of employees exploit public and private companies this way submitting quite unbelievable fake bills. They think that companies are money trees. They don’t spend their money in this manner. They bargain a lot even to buy a product of 10 rupees. What a nasty mentality of Indians? I have been one today. It means Hetero spent about 1,300 rupees for me yesterday on my comfortable journey to a spot. That’s the greatness of hundreds of companies in India. Today the 1^st episode of Vedika took place, in a new format, in HLL-III, from 3:07 to 5:30. Three employees presented PPTs. This afternoon my in-laws came to my abode. Today it was cool and pleasant. Slept by 10:00.

20 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today Srijana and my mother-in-law cleaned the shelves in two rooms and kept things in order. Many unnecessary things and dust pile up in our houses frequently. We must conduct a systematic cleanliness drive often to keep it tidy and orderly. Today I typed out and edited a blog titled “Criticism” for about three hours. Published it on my blog site by 8:00 at night. Srijana and I went to Tuni by 12:00 to buy some items. We bought many things worth about 2,500 rupees. I bought a shirting for 150 rupees, a cloth piece for a pair of trousers for 240 rupees and a Gokul white cut vest for 80 rupees from the cloth store Vijaya Cut Pieces. This is my preparation for my birthday on the 8^th of September. In fact, Srijana motivated me to buy these items earlier than necessary. Gave the two cloth pieces at Noor Tailors unit for stitching in Payakaraopeta. Today I bought two lungies also in this cloth store spending 480 rupees. Today it was cloudy and cool. Sankeerthana enjoyed it. She is sleeping less than needed for a baby of her age. I often call her Junnu Mukka (a piece of cheese in English) because she is soft and cute like it. She often makes interesting sounds while in joy. Anand delights talking and playing with her. Many familiar folks presented many dresses to her. Srijana said that I did not buy one dress also for her till now. My mother-in-law left for the teak plantation at Marripalem by 4:30. Slept by 10:00.

21 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:15 by bus. Yesterday night one man died falling under a vehicle at Upamaaka. Today they blocked the entry and exit of Hetero employees and vehicles this way for this reason. Every year the management of Hetero spends lakhs of rupees for the welfare of the people and development of localities in this region. Native rogues regularly beg money from the company for this or that. The same idiots talk against the company and create nuisance quite often. It shows their double standards. They think about their comfort and benefit always. This is why Indians do not develop much. Today the Hetero folks and vehicles moved via Vempadu and Amalapuram mostly. Today is the scheduled date to start my English classes to the learners of fifth and sixth batches. Morning five learners only came to this class late at Boys’ Hostel. I sent them back. Afternoon about 20 learners attended the class. I taught them briefly about English alphabet, tenses, word class, person and number. I did not take their attendance also. I consider tomorrow the first day for the learners of these two batches. Today it was cool and pleasant. I am still feeling low fever. I get on with it casually. It visits me often and quits voluntarily after some days. Slept by 10:00.

22 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night, Anand urinated in the bedroom where I was sleeping. He drank sweet lemon water before sleeping along with me. He felt the pressure of filtered water inside at about 10:50. He wanted to go to toilet. I somehow got up at this time. He got off the bed beside mine. He peed just beside the bed (towards the head position) on which he was sleeping, considering it a toilet. I delivered some angry words at him. He remained silent and depressive. Told him to call his mother. She came to the spot and kept an old cloth on the soiled spot of it. She responded aggressively for waking her up. I regretted my response to this occurrence. I should have handled the situation silently without hurting either of these two. I should have forgiven Anand because he did so once during the last few years. We commit such mistakes while sleepy or unconscious. I should not have disturbed Srijana’s sleep through Anand. Self-criticism helps us grow psychologically. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:15 in the car of my familiar folks. Today I took the two communicative English classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught them the content of Day 1 and Day 2 from Rapidex. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 7:30. We spent talking about our domestic affairs for two hours. He decided to stay here at night after my insistence on it. Slept by 10:00. 

23 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content of Day 3 and Day 4 from Rapidex. Today I gave the copies of my CV to all those that attended these two classes. I am doing so in every schedule of teaching regularly. This is to allow them to partly understand me. Many times we don’t know the details of a person or a thing. When we try to recall it later, we miss that information. We don’t remember many things unless we make a conscious effort about it. Our brain stores such data only, which we feed into it with a purpose. Written proofs are important to give anybody or anything a place in history. All that we communicate orally fails to have a record of its own. I often get the nicknames of persons only but not their actual names. It is a bad culture of people. We must project and promote our real names more effectively than our nicknames. Nickname is like our shadow. We should use it rarely. Many like being addressed through their nicknames. They think it is fashion. They call babies also with those short and silly names. I don’t like this culture. We are rapidly moving away from our original culture this way. We should avoid it. Slept by 10:20.

24 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content of Day 16 and Day 17 from Rapidex. By 12:30 Polisetti Veeranna Naidu came to the gate at HLL-III. He belongs to village Ramayyapatnam. I know him for long. He brought his younger daughter Nagamani to join her job with the security department here. It is a contract job. They pay her 7,000 rupees a month. I took the photocopies of her certificates to HR manager Rajnikant Ganesha to know if there was any suitable vacancy for her with these Hetero units here. He said that they won’t take any female candidates into documentation section for another six months. He added that they are cause of many problems inside and outside the plants. He cited some examples. Many males are also committing mistakes and blunders. We are not stopping their recruitment because we need their hard work. We often criticize females to conceal our drawbacks and demerits as males but not because of the intensity of the problems caused by them alone. No woman ever commits moral crimes in this world if we treat her like a Goddess but we men are treating her like a useful object only. Today Srijana took Sankeerthana to Dr. I N Murthy at Neo Care clinic. He prescribed AZINTAS-200 drops for cold and Coratus syrup for prevention of excessive phlegm in her body. Slept by 10:00.

25 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I dictated 80 English words to them. I explained the spelling, meaning and usage of all these words after the dictation. It is a vocabulary building exercise. Yesterday evening I sent an email to our HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy discussing some issues I am facing. I presented these problems as those of the HR department. He sent a word to me to meet him today. He talked with me for five minutes from 1:40. He advised me not to blame the HR department for such issues for which they are not responsible. He told me to get my problems resolved in an appropriate manner set by the existing system. He did not like my sending a page-long email criticizing the HR department. Today I took a one-hour permission to leave the company by 5:00. I could swipe by 5:15 after my class. Reached home by 6:00 on the bike of my colleague Prasad in accounts department. The fifth birthday of my son Anand was celebrated in our rented abode from 7:00 to 7:15. He cut a cake and distributed chocolates and biscuits to the few invited guests. Srijana served vegetable and chicken biryani to guests. We spent about 1,000 rupees on it. Slept by 10:30.

26 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 5:30 took my mother-in-law to Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. She took a Narsipatnam bound ordinary bus by 5:50 to travel up to Thaandava Junction. She came here to help her daughter Srijana in making the house clean and arrange things for the birthday of Anand. She is patient and hard-working. I think often others close to her utilize her as an associate in work rather than a respectable guest. They assign her some work wherever she is. I observed this tendency in her mother, sister and daughter also. Her inability to pronounce words clearly and hear perfectly may be one of the reasons for it. They take her as an innocent creature. Though her name is Saraswathi, many call her Rani in her close circles. She watches television extensively. I seldom see her being angry or disgusted. She cooks different dishes tastily. She mostly responds to others with a smiling and pleasant face. I feel respect and affection towards her since she bore and brought up a beauty for me, to marry and live with blissfully, when all others neglected me. She treats me and guests very warmly. I enjoy her presence. Her husband treats her lovingly. She treats babies and children very well. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I conducted a quiz on English words. It was cool and pleasant today. Slept by 10:00.

27 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 11:00 Anand and I went to Payakaraopeta on our scooty to see a Telugu film. The film was already started. We moved ahead into Tuni. Bought a Boost pack for Anand, a stage 2 Nestum baby food pack, two plastic containers to store black gram paste in a refrigerator, Apollo baby bib pack for Sankeerthana and two kilos of onions. They all cost me about 800 rupees. From 2:45 to 4:30 I saw the Telugu film “Horror Kadhaa Chithram” in cinema Surya Mahal. It portrays the elements of occult, horror and fear. About seven friends go to a deserted hotel called ‘Grandios’ to celebrate a party at night uniquely. They know that some suicides took place in it earlier. The room bearing number 1403 has more history of tragedies in it than other spots. All these friends die in this hotel that night except one in about two hours' time. They realize that the existential energy of a ghost is associated with a medical box in it. The surviving woman somehow burns it and thus the life of that ghost, which killed all her friends brutally one after one in that hotel that night. She runs out of this hotel when the day breaks. I deeply enjoyed watching it. The background score is the greatest feature of this film. Edited the content of June from my diary of 2014 on my computer from 8:00 to 9:00. Slept by 10:00.

28 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Yesterday night my friend Kanumuri Rajani Kumar Raju called me up from Hyderabad. He said that there is a suitable girl for him to marry in Tuni area. His familiar fellow Patnaik, who is working as a government teacher in Payakaraopeta now, told him about this girl. He told me to talk with Patnaik and speed up this process. I did it. She belongs to village Raajula Kothuru near Tetagunta. She married a fellow. Recently she got divorce from him on the grounds of his impotency and harassment from her in-laws. The wife of Patnaik and this girl are currently working with Gayathri School in Tuni, where I taught English subject to the students of ninth standard for three months last year. Then I saw this girl. She is beautiful. Rajani saw her photo and got impressed. Patnaik, his wife and her colleagues at Gayathri School already convinced this girl to marry this man. She said that her brother-in-law, who is working at Bengaluru now, has to play a key role in this regard. He will come here soon. I have to play the role of a mediator in this process. I have to join two lovesick and solitary birds. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I made them read short stories, meant for children, from a CBT publication. Today it was cloudy, cool and pleasant. Slept by 10:20.

29 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught them how to write grammatically correct English through a writing exercise. I told them to write 10 to 20 sentences on any one of the 10 topics I gave. I showed them on projector screen correcting grammatical errors in what they wrote. This is what we call language editing. Today it was cool and pleasant. Now my bother Sambha is looking for a fertile piece of land to buy for my brother Srinivas with the money, which the latter got through the sale of land at Gollalagunta recently. Sambha told me that the rates of lands increased much during the last few years. Those close to roads and human habitations are more costly than those in the interior parts. Rich people are looking for easily accessible sites and lands to buy. Poor ones are satisfied even with those pieces of land, which are far away from them and barren. Many consider buying lands and improving them a secure way of investment and livelihood. However, agriculture is not a source of reliable income for 80% of peasant farmers in India now. Most of the Indian farmers depend on seasonal rainfall for cultivation. It’s Ramadan today for Muslims. They do it systematically. Slept by 10:00.

30 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 18 and Day 19 of Rapidex. There are miscellaneous questions, negative answers and tag questions on these pages. Recently Srijana recruited a woman to sweep our portion and keep it clean with wet dusting. She has to do it every morning, except on Sundays. Srijana would pay 300 rupees a month to her for doing this routine domestic work. I think she is offering tea every morning to her. We don’t have tea or coffee as a habit. Preparing tea exclusively for her is really a task for Srijana. Sankeerthana is not sleeping as much as babies of her age do. Srijana has to spend most of her time with the baby only for this reason. Four days ago this newly recruited woman asked Srijana 500 rupees to buy rice. Her demand is irrational considering the number of days she worked with us and her monthly pay. Srijana asked for my opinion on it. I told her not to give. What if she does not appear after taking this money? I am financially down now. I cannot help others when I am helpless. Often idealists too fail to be kind and generous towards others. Circumstances bind them. By 7:30, my father-in-law came from the teak plantation at Marripalem on his bike due to the insistence of his grandson Anand over phone. He brought snacks and soft drinks for him. Slept by 10:00.

31 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 22 and Day 24 of Rapidex. It’s on usage of prepositions. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By 8:46 an amount of 22,380 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account by the folks of Hetero towards my salary for this month. By 9:00 Anand and I went to the branch of Axis Bank at P Lakshmi Puram near Payakaraopeta on my scooty. Withdrew 16,000 rupees from my salary account. Paid 3,500 rupees to Surya Kumari by 9:08 towards the rent for our two-bedroomed portion in their house for this month. The remaining money has to be paid for other needs. Money is moving fast from my account every month. We wait 30 days for that day of payment of salary. We don’t enjoy those moments beyond that day. Various needs wait to grab that money within no time. Waiting is the actual process of life for majority of employees in this world rather than enjoying using the salaries they get from their employers. Outsiders think that employees are lucky creatures because they get salaries every month. Employees think that they are leading automated lives like bonded labourers. Very few are happy in this material world. Slept by 10:00.

1 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 31 and Day 32 of Rapidex. By 5:15, I felt weak after my class. Went to cafeteria by 5:30 to have evening snacks and energize myself. Today they made Paranthas. I had one chewing it hard. Generally I avoid consuming this food item because it is made of Maidha. It is not suitable for human body. It is sticky powder leading to indigestion. It has no nutrients. I think this food item should be banned in India minding the health of millions of Indians, who are consuming it regularly in the form of different dishes. I felt uneasy after eating it. I took an Aristogime tablet in the OHC as a preventive measure to avoid stomachache. Today I committed a mistake knowingly. Morning my mother-in-law Saraswathi came to my abode from the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. Srijana decided to learn tailoring work from today. She invited her mother to be here for some days. She takes care of our baby Sankeerthana when she goes out for learning tailoring. The place of learning is Ladies Corner opposite Lakshmi Functional Hall in Payakaraopeta headed by P Subba Lakshmi. This afternoon she stitched a gown for our baby as part of her learning. Slept by 10:00.

2 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night our English Professor Pingali Sailaja appeared to me in my dream. She appeared with a sense of royal dignity and spiritual elevation. Perhaps she remembered me deeply on some occasion recollecting my obedient and devout association with her when I was at HCU as a student. I felt her affection for me in this dream. I enjoyed her august presence. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two communicative English classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 34 and Day 35 of Rapidex. Today it was cool and pleasant. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By 6:00, this evening, my paternal uncle Kolukuluri Appala Narasimha Raju came to our abode from village Gollalagunta. He came to see our baby and us. He does not go to the abodes of his relatives much. He has two acres of paddy farmland and two acres of dry land in Gollalagunta area. He looks after his family depending on the meager income generated through this property. His daughter Krishna Kumari is studying second year Intermediate course now at Pragati Junior College in Samarla Kota. His son Vivekananda Varma is studying ninth standard now at Ravindra Bharati School at Jaggampeta. He is spending about 20,000 rupees every year for the education of each of them. He lives ideally as far as possible. Slept by 10:20.

3 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My uncle Varma and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 8:00 on my scooty. My father, this uncle and I saw a piece of land beside NH-16 at Adduroad by 9:15. My brother Srinivas is looking for a piece of land to buy. By 11:30 some Kshatriya folks of Ramayyapatnam sold 3.2 acres of cashew grove to my brother Sambha. Varma wrote an agreement about it. This land is very close to our mango garden at hills. It is in the revenue section of village China Gummuluru and Grama Panchayat of Ramayyapatnam. He bought each acre of this land for 4, 50,000 rupees. By 12:30, my uncle, Sambha and I went to our mango garden at hills on bikes. My father got my two acres of mango farm leveled and improved. We three spent our time at the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy from 1:15 to 2:30. I returned to Payakaraopeta by 4:00 on my scooty. Srijana and I went to Tuni by 4:30 to buy some items. I bought cloth pieces for a shirt and a pair of trousers for me spending 450 rupees at Vijaya Cut Pieces store. I did it out of my impulse. We spent 2,500 rupees in one hour’s time. Had my haircut in a salon by 5:15. I got it done by a new barber today, not being happy with the skills of present one. Went to sleep by 10:20.

4 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Somebody picked one copy of Rapidex English-Telugu Speaking Course book from the training hall in this hostel. I kept it there day before yesterday. I wonder to know that there are the thieves of books also in this holy India. I could not teach the scheduled syllabus from Rapidex today for this reason. Morning conducted clarification of doubts class and afternoon taught tenses to the learners. I took 400 rupees from Shilpa in the accounts department in our floor by 5:30 to buy two books and a beautiful file carrier for me to use in communicative English classes. M Subba Reddy, the DGM of accounts and finance department, readily signed this from to give me this much of money. He likes me a lot though we seldom interact. I have my English books but decided to buy two books using money of Hetero to compensate the loss I incurred due to the theft of my two books till now in their campus. By 8:00 bought a copy of Rapidex for 170 rupees and a copy of Essential English Grammar of Cambridge University Press for 125 rupees at Indira bookstore in Tuni. The second edition of latter was written by Raymond Murphy. Also bought an Igen black file carrier for 170 rupees in another store. Night my father-in-law spent in our abode. Slept by 10:20 for my dreams. 

5 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content of Day 42 and Day 43 from Rapidex. Morning I gave the quotation of Visakha Printers to HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy. It is about the cost of print of Communicative English book prepared by me. He stated that black and white version of it costs 92 rupees for each copy and multi-colour version costs 220 rupees for each copy. I suggested him that the coloured copy would be preferable because he uses art paper for it. He said that he would think about it and let me know. Today I submitted the two bills to Shilpa in accounts department for the 400 rupees, which I took from her yesterday to buy material to be used by me in the communicative English classes. Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy of the accounts department told me that if I had spent more money than issued, it would be paid to me. I spent 480 rupees. She pays me 80 rupees. I wonder about the generosity of companies. They pay a lot of money to various kinds of people regularly to clear bills. Many submit fake bills to take more money than spent on something. Every year millions of dollars are being spent across the world to clear those fake bills also. Night my father-in-law stayed at our abode. Slept by 10:00.

6 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content from Day 49 and Day 51 of Rapidex. Morning our manager Subba Rao told me to prepare data regarding the communicative English classes I conducted at Hetero complex till now. I worked on it from 1:00 to 2:20 on the computer of Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy and finished this work. Evening he told me that this data is vague. One cannot understand how many learners attended how many classes looking at this report. He told me to make it more clear and specific. It is not possible in reality. He made English classes into a circus show. We sell tickets to 100 enthusiasts thinking that all of them turn up to the show. They may or may not come to the show for some reasons. Learners displayed such behavior in attending my English classes till now. Some came for the first two or three days only. Others dropped out of it sometime afterwards. Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram did not monitor the attendance of these learners because they have no real interest in me as an English instructor or my English classes. They are scared and jealous of me because they have no standards or values. They are opportunists. I am allowing them to commit mistakes habitually. They collapse one day on their own. Slept by 10:20.

7 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I made them practice some context based dialogues from Rapidex. This oral practice is on entertaining a guest, between a HR manager and a jobseeker, between a mother and her son, at a bank, between a doctor and a patient, between two friends and office. I made them read these dialogues out. I too read most of them uttering dialogues of a role player. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Now Srijana is going to Subba Lakshmi of Ladies Corner tailoring unit at Payakaraopeta to learn the skills of tailoring. Her mother is taking care of the baby during this time in our abode. The only drawback of tailoring work is that it affects the sight of a tailor. I did not like to allow her to learn this work considering this fact initially. She said that she would learn it to stitch clothes for Sankeerthana and her only. I said I would be happy if she learns stitching the clothes of males also. Anand and I would be happy if she stitches our clothes now and then. Now I am paying 300 rupees to get a pair of trousers stitched for me. Tailoring charges are making half of the people avoid buying cloth pieces at fabric stores. Slept by 10:00.

8 August (Friday) 

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:35 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught them the three tense forms of about 100 verbs. Morning only one learner attended this class. I taught him. Now my role here is like that of a film operator in a cinema. His duty is to show the film, not minding the number of viewers that come to see a film in it. This is the kind of attention they are paying to English classes here at Hetero. This is why everybody is remaining as a worthless idiot as far as usage of English is concerned. From 12:30 to 1:30 they conducted a program for female employees in the space above cafeteria in HLL-III. They distributed sarees to married ones and useful cloth pieces to unmarried ones on the occasion of Vara Lakshmi Vratham on this Shraavana Sukra Vaaram. I too watched it as a viewer for 30 minutes to feel the traditional spirit of this occasion. They served lunch, free of cost, to all the employees today on this occasion with a sweet and special dishes. They declared half day leave to all female employees. Morning Srijana and her mother worshipped Goddess Vara Lakshmi in our abode under the guidance of a priest. They wore new saris and cooked special dishes on this occasion. Sankeerthana is learning to crawl now. Slept by 10:00.

9 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the antonyms of about 100 words. Morning one attended the class and two in the afternoon. Today a meeting of Chandra Babu Naidu took place beside NH-16 near Nakkapalli in the afternoon. He visited the temple of Lord Venkateshwara at village Upamaaka before attending this program. Many people were brought to this spot by the local TDP leaders and activists. The typical features of a political meeting in our state are bringing people in vehicles, hanging the promotional material of local idiots in all public places, the speeches of the main leader and some of his or her associates, declaration of some boons to native people and places, distribution of gifts to some beneficiaries of government schemes and traffic restrictions. Nasty police appear like shameless dogs and bitches everywhere. Chandra Babu announced many boons to the people of this state in the campaign during the recent elections. He has to spend crores of rupees to fulfill them. It is an ordeal for him. People are thoroughly habituated to expect a lot from the governments. Many Indians think and behave like beggars in this regard. They are very selfish and narrow-minded. Slept by 10:00.

10 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. It is the 40^th birthday of Telugu daily Eenadu today. It was born in Visakhapatnam. It is an extraordinary daily for me. I read it every day. Today I typed up the content of July from my diary of 2014 on my computer from 8:00 to 1:00. Afternoon my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy told me over phone that yesterday a suitable girl is finalized for my cousin Bala to marry, in Tuni. They saw the girl and initiated talks with her parents about it. Felt happy knowing about it. Today my brothers Srinivas and Sambha checked some residential plots of land near Peda Gummuluru. Srinivas wants to buy a piece of land near NH-16 with commercial interest. They are putting one acre of land at one crore rupees. We advised him to buy agricultural land far away from national highway. He is not interested in it. He is foolish in this regard. From 2:30 to 5:00, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Geetanjali” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna at Payakaraopeta. It portrays horror and comedy. It is an interesting and exciting film. Today I bought a balcony ticket for Anand also spending 30 rupees. I did it for the first time for him. He felt nervous and agitated while sensing some sounds and scenes in it. Got his hair cut by my newly chosen barber Vadapilli Ramana by 5:30. Evening my parents went to Visakhapatnam with Srinivas. Slept by 10:00.

11 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I taught the content of Day 57 and Day 58 from Rapidex. Today seven candidates attended the two classes. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. By 7:30 my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and his elder son Srinivasa Raju came to our abode. They spent here till 8:00. My father-in-law came here before them. He stayed here this night. Sankeerthana is still learning to sit and crawl. Her smiles are mesmerizing. She is anxiously looking at us while we are eating or drinking something. We cannot feed her everything we consume considering her age. She is grabbing things in her access to put them in her mouth. She carefully tries to hold little things on the floor. She pricks us keeping her thumb and index fingers straight with the latter. She likes playing pulling the hair on our heads. She comfortably places her legs and hands on the soft pillows and small mattresses about her. If Srijana maintains an angry look at her, she cools down the situation with a smile. Srijana said that she is aggressive unlike Anand. She does not cry much. She is bored of staying indoors always. She enjoys herself observing surroundings, when we take her out. Slept by 10:00.

12 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I made them read six short stories from the publication of CBT. It’s reading practice for them. Evening it rained a little. Recently Vaiyavan sent me his book Lord Buddha by post. There are about 90 pages in it. I am reading it now. It’s interesting to know about Lord Buddha. Buddhism developed much in countries like Tibet, China, Thailand and Japan. Lord Buddha advised all sufferers and victims in this material world to shun desires and move towards salvation. The China’s foreign policy and strategies are quite contrary to the teachings of Buddha. Occupying Tibet and subjecting those peaceful and innocent monks to suppression and pain is one of the sins and crimes committed by Chinese rulers. Aggressive and cruel culture leads to destruction. Many acts and policies of China present it as a poisonous snake to the external world. They are attacking vulnerable and helpless regions to exploit and ruin those treasure-troves and people. China appears to me as the most dangerous country in the world now. They should develop their country being a highly helpful and reliable entity to the other world. Every country like China should shun evil desires to be blessed by God. Slept by 10:00.

13 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I conducted a quiz on English words. Today five learners attended the two classes. There are mosquitoes in our abode. We regularly kill them using mosquito killer bat. Recently we bought Godrej mosquito repellant cards. We burn them and create smoke to arrest mosquitoes. They are hiding by clothes and other concealed places in our abode. Human habitations are not natural habitats for mosquitoes. Tigers and lions are living in their reserves or forests. Why should mosquitoes enter human abodes to torture them daily? Every morning I am waking up with a cold and three or four sneezes. I think there is something abnormal in my nostrils. The back bones in my feet are paining me. It is intense soon after getting up from my bed in the morning. Some Hetero folks told me that it is because of the Allen Cooper pair of safety shoes, which I am wearing now regularly as a Hetero employee. I would take a pair of BATA shoes from them soon, if possible. They say they are comfortable to feet. I am unable to sleep for eight hours continuously for these reasons. It is affecting my body a little. I should be alert. Slept by 10:00.

  

14 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Today I dictated 80 English words to them. I explained the spelling, meaning and usage of each word to improve their vocabulary. My brother Srinivas rented in an apartment today in Bhima Varam for 6,000 rupees a month. He will be transferred to a branch of UCO Bank at Atthili or Bhima Varam soon. His younger son Suhas is also transferred to a branch of Sri Chaitanya Junior College in Bhima Varam from one at Visakhapatnam. Sujan, the elder son of this brother, is pursuing B.Tech. course at S R K R College now in Bhima Varam. My brother is happy about it. He did not get the official intimation from the folks of UCO Bank about this transfer till now. So, he works with the UCO Bank at Devarapalli for some more days. He is in the process of moving his household items and family members to the new place now. The folks of UCO Bank pay 12,000 rupees to him for packing and movement of his household items. The parents of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani came to the abode of my brother at Sujatha Nagar to help them in this process of relocation. I wondered to know that the rents and cost of living are higher in Bhima Varam than those at Hyderabad or Visakhapatnam. It seems to be a place of commercial blokes. Slept by 10:00.

15 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. From 8:00 to 11:00 typed out and edited a blog titled “How to Express It?” Posted it on my blog site by 11:25. My son Anand got a second prize in a running race conducted by the folks of Canossa School recently on the occasion of Independence Day. They gave him a pencil box as gift. Today he did not go to school. Morning my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and my nephew Suhas started to Bhima Varam by Simhadri Express train from Visakhapatnam. By 12:00 Srijana and I took Sankeerthana to Neo Care clinic on our scooty. She got rashes on her skin. Dr. I N Murthy prescribed two kinds of oral solutions and a costly soap for the baby. It is a minor skin problem. From 2:30 to 5:00 Anand, Srijana and I saw the Telugu film “Alludu Seenu” in cinema Gowtham. V V Vinayak made it into an exciting and interesting film throughout, applying appealing twists and turns in the narration. Srijana saw this film coming to a cinema after about a year. She was engaged deeply in the care of Sankeerthana in and out. Vinayak offered us a visual feast. It’s a holiday today for the general shift employees of Hetero. I utilized this independence happily. Many Indians celebrated Independence Day today. Slept by 9:45.

16 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I took the two classes at Boys’ Hostel. Even one learner did not attend the class in the morning. Afternoon four learners attended this class. Conducted a quiz on English words. They have to tell the spelling, meaning and usage of the word I ask to get a mark. We could discuss 32 words only in 100 minutes this way. Morning my brother Srinivas, sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my nephews Sujan and Suhas boiled cow milk in the apartment, which they rented in Bhima Varam. Sujan stayed back and others returned to Visakhapatnam by this afternoon by Prashanti Express train. Thus they formally entered their new rented abode this early morning. They are packing their belongings in their apartment at Sujatha Nagar in Visakhapatnam now to move to Bhima Varam next Wednesday. They are renting out their apartment to a bank manager for 4,500 rupees. He is working with the branch of Indian Bank near their apartment block Balaji Towers now. Morning Srijana got a Measles preventive vaccine administered to our baby Sankeerthana at an Anganvadi centre in Payakaraopeta. She said they did it painlessly. Evening my friend Adi Narayana and I decided to go to the abode of in-laws of Lakshmi at Narsipatnam tomorrow morning. Slept by 9:30.

17 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Shaved my beard, wore a new pair of clothes and started to Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta by 7:30. Took a bus by 7:54 and reached the bus station in Narsipatnam by 9:06. Adi Narayana got off an auto rickshaw by 9:25. Both of us walked to the house of in-laws of Lakshmi in Kaapu Veedhi via the Ayurvedic shop of Buchchi Raju. Lakshmi was not there. Her father-in-law, a retired government teacher, told Adi Narayana that she and her husband went to the abode of prior in Ramayyapatnam. We spent talking with teacher from 9:45 to 10:15. Adi is the husband of the sister-in-law of the sister-in-law of Lakshmi. We saw the Telugu film “Secunder” in cinema Kanya Cine Max from 10:50 to 1:20. Took a bus bound to Tuni by 1:45 and reached my abode by 3:15. I told Srijana about the purpose of my journey to Narsipatnam yesterday itself. By 3:45 went to Tuni and bought some items and vegetables spending about 1,000 rupees. By 6:40, Kamallapalli Shiva Babu, a priest with the temple of Lord Vinayaka at Rajugari Beedu in Payakaraopeta, set the date and time for the occasions of Anna Praashana and Kesha Khandana of Sankeerthana. They take place in the morning hours on the 20^th of this month. By 9:10, collected 75 apples sent by Kusuma Devi, my colleague. Slept by 10:00.

18 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Got some apples distributed to my familiar folks by 7:30. Kusuma Devi is working with the L&D department now at Hetero. Recently she said that her father has a long trailer truck. They often bring bulk loads of apples from Shimla and Delhi. I asked her to get some apples for me. She brought 75 apples for me. The cost of each apple is 16 rupees. We decided to retain 15 of them and sell the rest to my familiar enthusiasts. I never buy apples and pomegranates because of their high prices. Mostly I avoid buying any fruit that costs above five rupees. My upbringing in an ordinary family conditioned me to this extent. I have to spend money for many inevitable needs in my life. I always remain short of money for this reason. How can ordinary Indians afford to buy costly fruits in this critical environment? Many fruits are within the reach of rich people only in India now. Today I took the last class to the learners of fifth and sixth batches at Hetero. Nobody attended the class in the morning. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. This evening the maternal grandparents of Srijana came to our abode. Her maternal grandmother asked me to borrow 30,000 rupees from my familiar folks, if I can. My colleague Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy gave his ATM card to withdraw this amount of money from his account for this purpose. I did it by 8:00. Slept by 10:00.

19 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:45. My brother Sambha took my signatures on an application form at Nakkapalli by 8:35. He is in the process of getting the details of my two acres of mango farm at hills entered into my old passbook. Today I nominally coordinated the internal safety audit. By 12:30 completed preparing the data of Communicative English Classes (CEC). I have been working on it for the last two weeks. I systematically documented the data of CEC conducted by me till now in Hetero. I prepared batch-wise reports. I also wrote a one-page report specifying the reasons leading to low attendance of learners to these classes. By evening gave the soft copies of these word files to our manager Illuri Subba Rao. He asked me for this data earlier casually. I did all this work on the computer system of Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma of EHC at HLL-III. From 1:30 to 5:00 prepared a 20-slide PPT on “Positive Imaging” for G Keshava Reddy. He presents it soon in a Vedika program in HLL-III. Today I applied for sick leaves on the 20^th and 21^st of this month. Subba Rao readily granted them. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Evening my parents and my in-laws came to my abode from their respective places of residence. We made arrangements for the scheduled occasions tomorrow. Slept by 10:00.

20 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:00. Devulapalli Anantha Padmanabha Sharma came to our abode by 6:30 on his scooty from village Koruprolu near Adduroad. My brother Sambha, sister-in-law Kranthi and Anjaneya Raju came here by 6:40 from Peda Gummuluru. This priest conducted the Vratham of Sri Veera Venkata Satya Narayana Swami from 7:00 to 8:30. My parents, Sambha and Kranthi, Srijana and I participated in this guided worship. From 8:45 to 8:55, the traditional occasion of “Anna Praashana” of Sankeerthana took place. We put some items like gold, book, flowers, fruits, knife and homemade dishes before the baby for her to touch any three of these items one after the other. She touched the Bhagvad Gita, flowers and silver dish. We gave 1,116 rupees to the priest for conducting this formal worship. My father-in-law, Srijana, Sankeerthana and I reached the temple of Lord Satya Narayana in Annavaram by 10:40 on two bikes. The initial hair that grew on the head of the baby was shaved (tonsured) completely at the scheduled place here between 10:45 and 10:55. I shot the video of this occasion with my digital camera. We gave 100 rupees to the barber. We returned home by 11:45. My parents and I reached Peda Gummuluru by 3:00 by bus. Sambha and I went to the Primary Agricultural Cooperative Society in village Koruprolu by 3:30 on his bike. I gave the scanned copies of my Aadhaar card, photos and signed in their book for clearance of 20,000 rupees, which I borrowed from them earlier as a peasant farmer, as part of the loan cancellation boon offered by Nara Chandra Babu Naidu, the present chief minister of Andhra Pradesh. My brother Srinivas and his folks moved to Bhima Varam today with their belongings. Slept by 10:00.

21 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today also I am on a sick leave. By 10:30 Srijana, Sankeerthana, my in-laws and I went to the rented abode of Sekhar in Tuni. I met Vinjamuri Sri Rama Chandra Murthy in Gayathri College by 10:40. Told him that Sudha, who is working as a Telugu teacher in his Gayathri School now, is interested to marry my friend Rajani Kumar Raju of Jeelugu Milli. He said that he knows Sudha and her parents well. He would talk with her about it soon and let me know. I think he is an efficient person to mediate it. Also told my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy to enquire about it through his familiar folks in village Raajula Kothuru near Tetagunta. I knew that the parents of this girl are not much interested in getting her married again. She is in a family related trap now. It is becoming difficult to pull her out of this sticky mire. Spent at the hotel and abode of Sekhar till 3:00. Considerable number of people are not coming to his hotel now. He is disturbed about it. Evening it rained nominally for 20 minutes. By 5:15 my in-laws left for the teak plantation of Dandu Surya Narayana Raju near village Marripalem. My father-in-law said that he does not send my mother-in-law again to stay here for some more days. Srijana may have to stop going to tailoring classes. Slept by 10:00 for my dreams.  

   

22 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:52 by bus. Paid 1,200 rupees to my colleague Kusuma Devi by 9:10 for the 75 apples, which I took from her recently. The communicative English classes for the learners of seventh and eighth batches should be started from today according to the schedule we communicated to all by email. Went to the Boys’ Hostel in the morning and afternoon to take these classes. Nobody came for this class. Today they knew that the audit of folks of US FDA is going to take place from the 26^th of this month in HLL-III. US FDA is like a leader with the highest authority for pharmaceutical firms in the world. Their approval is necessary to sell different kinds of medicines proudly in the international market. A kind of fever spread in many employees here due to this ensuing event. We cannot keep many things perfect in India despite the best efforts of a few because many are deeply accustomed to imperfection. If we keep costly toilet soap in a toilet to wash face and hands only, they may wash other parts also with it or take it home. Many Indians don’t know the difference between public and private property. They damage or disfigure public property like anything. They extensively use or misuse the property of their employers also daily. Imagine the US FDA norms being followed by Indian employees in Indian companies in this context! Slept by 10:00.

23 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I did not do any considerable work useful for the company. Spent reading an English grammar book and talking with my familiar folks. Being unable to meet Lakshmi, even after 21 years of our separation, surprised me. I think I met her on 13.07.1993 when I went to their house in Ramayyapatnam to ask them for a hammer. It’s just an incident but not planned meeting. Thereafter we never talked. It has been admiration from both of us. Her father turned and remained a villain in keeping us apart. I created an opportunity for her to talk with me but she did not utilize it even this time. She seems to be a cowardly girl. She admires me a lot but does not talk with me in the real world. She is daily seeing and talking with a variety of dogs and bitches but not willing to do so towards me. This is the tendency of most of the Indian girls and women. They can’t take decisions on their own. They love and admire boys silently for a few days and torture them violently for a lifetime afterwards. Lakshmi is not a goddess but I made her so in my imaginative world. She is not thinking and behaving like an angel but a bitch. She need not be scared to meet me because I am not treating her like a prostitute. I am trying to fill a void in her, thus the one in me also simultaneously. Slept by 10:00.

24 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:30. My brothers Srinivas and Sambha came to Payakaraopeta by 9:45 on a bike. I too joined them on NH-16 near my rented abode. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy joined us with his scooty. I parked my scooty at a familiar place. We started to see a mango farm on two bikes via Kolimeru and Kottam. We reached the farm by 11:00. It is near village K E Chinnayya Palem in Kota Nanduru Mandal. It is an eight and half an acres of farm among hills. The land is uneven in many parts of it. The mango and other trees are very healthy. It is a fertile piece of land. The owner of this land is willing to sell each acre of it for three lakh rupees. It is about 20 kilometres from Tuni. The road leading to this farm from K E Chinnayya Palem is not good. We went there to see it physically with the intention of buying it for my brother Srinivas. We felt satisfied about the fertility and productivity of this land. My folks discuss it and decide whether it should be bought or not. It is very beautiful and serene at green hills. We spent talking till 4:30 in our abode after returning from there and having lunch by 3:00. Then they left for their abodes. Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and I went to the rented abode of Sekhar in Tuni by 4:50. Bought some items spending 500 rupees for our domestic use. We returned home by 6:20 on our scooty. Slept by 10:00 for my dreams.

25 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:54 by bus. Today I spent reading an English grammar book. Most of the employees were deeply engaged in beautifying the premises of HLL-III and HDL-VI in view of the audit in this place by a representative of US FDA from tomorrow onwards. I wonder to observe the attitudes and behaviors of majority Indians. They are mostly living to impress others. US FDA is not an institution of highest moral standards or values. They don’t audit any pharmaceutical company in India with 100% perfection. It’s just a formality for them. The representatives of US FDA take bribes in huge amounts from the managements of pharmaceutical firms. Almost every Indian pharmaceutical company pays huge amount of money and offers other assets to these fashionable rogues of US FDA. If any company does not satisfy them this way, they get it closed somehow. The high level regulatory authorities are the most corrupt ones in India. Not a single pharmaceutical unit can be run in any part of the world if US FDA folks are really honest in their audits. This is the true nature of almost every regulatory body in India, including the Parliament, Supreme Court and legislatures in states. Indians are the most corrupt criminals in the world. They do anything for money, assets and pleasures of flesh. Slept by 10:00.

26 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I took some papaya pieces, a sweet item and drinking water to the Hetero unit in a small bag. The security folks ordered me to keep this bag out with food items. By 10:00 Parul Patel came to the administrative block in HLL-III as an investigator representing the US FDA to audit the quality of some intermediaries being manufactured here. She spent in HLL-III till 5:45 checking documents and verifying the standards in some departments. Most of the employees wore their respective aprons, helmets and similar PPEs. They kept everything as neat and as orderly as possible. I too wore my white apron to impress the goddess of US FDA if she happens to glance at me by chance. I understood why Indians do not improve fast. They think and behave like slaves and prostitutes. They always struggle to make a living impressing their masters and clients. They don’t have standards and values of their own. US FDA is a worthless international agency like WHO, UNO and World Bank. Their employees act like saints externally but actually most of them are professional criminals. They somehow join these international agencies to earn a lot of money and false prestige rapidly. They don’t do anything for peace and sustainable development in this world. They do anything just for the formality of their jobs. Slept by 10:00. 

27 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today also Parul Patel conducted audit of the scheduled blocks in HLL-III. Many employees looked busy showing her documents and taking her to specific locations for physical verification. Parul brought festive atmosphere into our campus. All departments and employees geared up to CGMP norms and practices. Typed out a blog titled “Dear Narendra Modi” from 10:30 to 1:30 on the computer system of Srinivasa Varma. I expressed some of my notions and concerns to him to alert him as the prime minister of India. It is my tribute of words to him. I would post it on my blog site soon. Today I saw a white battery vehicle in HLL-III. It is meant for guests and dignitaries that visit Hetero Complex here. They see workplaces travelling in it slowly. It is made in and imported from China. I think I can drive such vehicle. I should drive it in a wonderland of nature to feel heavenly and inspired. This morning Srijana, her maternal grandmother and Sankeerthana went to Viswanadhapuram by 11:00 on our scooty. They spent there till 3:00 and came back. It has been cloudy and cool for the last three days. It is raining rarely like a scared guest. Slept by 9:30.

28 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. The US FDA audit by investigator Parul Patel in HLL-III was over by 4:00. It was successful. They got a sapodilla plant planted in the lawn beside the administrative block in HLL-III by her as a memory of this occasion. Many employees celebrated this event along with the representatives of management. The managements of almost all pharmaceutical companies pay crores of rupees to investigators of international agencies to satisfy them behind the screen. The agents of US FDA are not an exception to this. Since the USA acquired the status of super power, anything prefixed or suffixed with US has a great brand image across the world now. They commit felonies in many countries misusing this brand image. The USA appears as the number one fraudulent country in the world now if we assess its plans and strategies honestly. It seeks its development and happiness in the ruins and tragedies of other countries. They wish to keep their country clean and beautiful making others ugly and stinking. They wish to consume the best foods imported from other places. I think Americans are the best patriots in the world now. Other nationals should learn a lot from them. My in-laws came to my abode by 4:30. Slept by 10:00.

29 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night Lakshmi appeared to me in my dream. I think she somehow knew that I came to the house of her in-laws at Narsipatnam beyond her presence. She empathized with my notions as her admirer wishing to see her strongly. She wants to console me. She desires deeply to see and talk to me. It is a heavenly dream for me. Srijana and her mother made suitable dishes and preparations for the worship of Lord Ganesha today on the occasion of Vinayaka Chavithi. We worshipped Ganesha from 8:00 to 8:40 in our hall formally. My in-laws and Anand too participated in it. Sankeerthana joined it in the middle of it waking up from her morning sleep. We all went to the abode of Sekhar in Tuni by 9:30 on our bikes. I saw the Telugu film “Lovers” in cinema Sri Rama at Tuni from 11:00 to 1:20. Sumanth Ashwin and Nanditha enacted their roles very well. Nanditha looked very cute and beautiful. Maruthi portrayed love and comedy touchingly in this film. The role of the psychologically impaired comedian in this film impressed and entertained me a lot. I love this actor and his unique acting skills in every film. This film delighted me much. We all returned to our abode by 4:00. From 5:00 to 6:30 edited the content of July from my diary of 2014 on my computer. It’s a holiday today for me. Slept by 10:00.

30 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I did not have any specific work to do. I utilized this time to write a blog on the computer system of Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma. Typed out and edited a blog titled “Saint and Sanatana” from 10:00 to 5:00. Saint is a young hermit meditating God in a forest near Himachal Pradesh. Sanatana is a young and beautiful girl engaged in the similar spiritual pursuit in that place. She is able to sense the presence of this saint because of her spiritual growth. She asks this saint some questions. He answers them kindly and patiently. I discussed many spiritual matters in this blog through a conversation set between a saint and an enthusiastic practitioner in this field. This attempt is to educate my blog readers on some spiritual points I know. I felt blissful after finishing up this task because it is such a marvelous effort I made today. It’s a discussion of the path leading towards salvation and God. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. By 6:19, an amount of 22,450 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account towards my salary for this month by the folks of Hetero. My cousin Narendra Varma came to my abode by 7:00. He went to Peda Gummuluru first from Gollalagunta to see my folks there. We spent talking for some time. Slept by 10:00.

31 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took some photos and a video of my cousin Narendra Varma with our baby Sankeerthana by 8:00. He is on a short leave now. Dropped him at Golla Appa Rao Centre in Tuni by 10:15 on my scooty. He was going back to Gollalagunta. Paid 4,000 rupees to my house owner Surya Kumari by 10:30 towards the rent for my portion for this month. We entered the ground level two-bedroomed portion in their house on 28.07.2012. We lived here for about two years till now. I increased the rent from 3,500 to 4,000 rupees for my portion for this reason. They did not ask for a rise. It is their goodness for us. I increased it intuitively to acknowledge it. Their spacious house portion by NH-16 deserves it now by all means. From 2:30 to 5:00 waited for my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy. He said he would come to my abode. He did not turn up. I felt very angry about his indiscipline. It was my scheduled time to watch a matinee. From 6:30 to 9:00 Srijana and I saw the Telugu film “Rabhasa” in cinema Gowtham. It is a very interesting and exciting film. Today it was cool, wet and pleasant. Greenery is rich around our abode here. There is open space on the four sides of this house. We hear the sounds of vehicles moving on NH-16 when we are conscious. We are easily accessible to our folks here. Slept by 10:15.

1 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Morning did SET related work for three hours. Afternoon spent reading an Oxford English grammar book. Yesterday Srijana told me that she wants to buy an LIC policy in the name of Sankeerthana. She wants to save some money minding the future of the baby. Today I asked our manager Illuri Subba Rao about a good savings plan for children. He advised me to go for public provident fund option with a bank or post office. He also advised me to buy about 10 grams of gold for each of her birthdays ahead until she reaches 15 years of age or so. He said it can be useful for us at the time of her marriage. I don’t believe in my ability to invest for long in any financial plan minding my or anybody’s future. Sankeerthana or I are the creatures of God. We are subject to our individual Karma and the direction of God more than anything else. Our future plans are like rags floating on an ocean. If we can keep our lives safe and secure through our plans and vision, there should not be troubles and pains in our lifetimes. I often do some things to satisfy contemporaries, who are largely influenced by present trends. Evening my mother-in-law left for the teak plantation along with her husband. Slept by 10:20.

  

2 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:58 by bus. I joined the HLL-III unit near Nakkapalli on this date one year ago. Today I did not do any work beneficial to Hetero. By 1:10 I knew that my colleague Eepuri Appala Raju is looking for a donor of B⁺ blood. He is with the purchase department here. His wife Sarojini has to undergo a surgery in two days’ time. The doctor advised Appala Raju to collect one unit of blood for this purpose. I proposed to him that I would donate my blood for it. He felt happy. Both of us took two-hour permission to go out by 4:00. We reached Shakthi Voluntary Blood Bank in Tuni by 5:30 on my scooty from my abode. A girl here drew blood from the central artery on my right arm, from the middle of it, from 6:15 to 6:30 in this unit. She collected 300 ml of blood. I felt giddy for about three minutes after this process while resting on a cot. She offered me glucose mixed water for refreshment. Appala Raju offered me a bottle of Maaza soft drink. He is new to the act of blood donation. He felt tense about me. I wished his wife the best in the surgery to be operated upon her soon. She is a beautician. Doctor is going to remove the uterus in her body to avoid some health problems she is experiencing now. Slept by 10:00.

3 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:45 on the bike of a Hetero employee. They did not stop bus at Y Junction for some of us to get in. The recorded joining date of me with the HLL-III unit at Nakkapalli is 3 September, 2013. I completed one year’s service with Hetero by today. I think no employer in the vicinity of our village Peda Gummuluru can treat me as royally as Hetero does. I returned to my native place, in 2011, from Hyderabad, being disgusted with the pollution and hectic lifestyles of creatures there. Relatively it is somewhat better here. When I was financially in a critical condition, after losing about one lakh rupees due to the fraud of Delhi idiots, Gayathri College offered me a considerable job. The folks of Hetero picked me up from that unit of financial weakness. Though I am not completely happy about the standards and values of the management of Hetero here, I am happy with the salary and other benefits they are offering me here. All my folks are happy about my working with Hetero. I owe to them. Today I spent watching insightful video files on the computer of Srinivasa Varma. Night created my profile on the portal of EPF. My PF UAN is 100126009071. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

4 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:48 by bus. Morning I downloaded PDF files on interesting facts, blood donation, soul after death, vasectomy and human body. Emailed these files to Srinivasa Varma at Hetero. Today I spent reading these files on his computer to improve my English and general knowledge. By 5:30 Sunil and I went to the cafeteria in HLL-III to have the evening snacks. He is with the liaison department here. We spend closely often. Today they offered a small Laddu and a hot dish. He said that he is fond of this sweet item. He took mine also from my plate without my permission. I did not take it back because it can’t be an act of courtesy. I told him that I make him sense such feeling, which I experienced today because of his indecent act. He said he would get another for me but I did not accept that proposal. The taste and value of Laddu is not a point of concern here but his taking it from me without my acceptance. If he had 90% desire for it at that time, I had at least 20% desire for it. He insulted and attacked my desire with his. We should not force our desires and fancies upon others. We should be sensitive towards the feelings and possessions of others, however futile they may look to us from our standpoints. Today Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana went to the teak planation at Marripalem along with my father-in-law on his bike. Slept by 10:00.

5 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 8:00 my blog titled “Dear Narendra Modi” got published on my blog site automatically. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:09 on the bike of a Hetero employee as the folks of buses did not take us in at Y Junction. By 12:15 printed out the PDF file titled “WHAT BECOMES OF THE SOUL AFTER DEATH”. Sri Swami Sivananda of Divine Life Society wrote and put it online. I downloaded it recently from the Internet at home. Today I read it for two hours. It illuminated my ignorant mind a lot. I knew many things about the nature of soul against that of body. Transmigration of souls and their salvation after many births and deaths is a very interesting topic for all those fascinated about the spiritual aspects of life forms on this earth. Reading this brilliant book and internalizing those notions and concepts enables us to live happily. It would be possible when we focus more on our spiritual growth than the attractions of this material world. We should bring down our set of desires to the least possible level. We should keep our thoughts, words and acts virtuous and holy. We should slowly withdraw our passion for this body and aim at reaching God. Our persistent efforts are needed for this transformation. Slept by 10:30.

 

6 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I gave a PPT presentation on the topic “Personal Effectiveness” in the CGMP class at HLL-III from 3:00 to 3:45 on the advice of our manager Illuri Subba Rao. The folks of L&D daily take classes in CGMP teaching schedules to improve the thought process of employees, discussing insightful aspects of life and profession. Now Subba Rao and Soma Sundaram are taking these classes in Hetero Complex. As my English classes are not yet started, he asked me to take these one-hour classes for some days. They prepare and teach a different topic every month, using a PPT. Today I explained the PPT prepared by them. Today also I read the book of Swami Sivananda, on life after death, and completed reading it. I read it often hereafter because I should internalize the essence of such great books. We can find solutions to many problems we are facing in this material world, improving our spiritual knowledge. We should not develop attachment with any creature or phenomenon in this world because it causes various life forms to our soul. Karmas, attached to our souls, can be cleared through our realization of God and our continuous efforts only. As long as we love this body, we keep suffering in various ways. Slept by 10:00.

7 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My father came from Peda Gummuluru by 10:00. He brought two Punasa mangoes and four eggs from there for us. We went to a gold shop in Tuni by 10:30 on my scooty. He collected a gold ornament from this shop, which he ordered a week ago. It is of the wife of my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju. Bought 10 Britannia Good Day biscuit packs for 50 rupees and four sweet groundnut round packs for 60 rupees for my parents. He took a bus in Payakaraopeta bus stand by 10:50 for Peda Gummuluru. By 1:00 had my lunch at a religious function in Anand Nagar Colony at Payakaraopeta near the temple of Lord Ganapathi. My father-in-law brought Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana from the teak plantation at Marripalem by 12:45 on his bike. He brought vegetables and coconut sweets from there. Saw the Telugu film “Boochamma Boochodu” in cinema Sai Mahal from 2:30 to 4:30. I did not find it much interesting. It’s a suspense thriller but there was no much suspense or thrill while watching it. The director failed in making the main plot absorbing. He focused much on quite unnecessary themes and scenes. I misused my time watching it. My paternal uncles Narasimha Murthy and Rama Raju spent at our abode from 6:00 to 8:00. Slept by 10:00.

8 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. It is my 38^th birthday today. I enter the 39^th year of my material life today. I did not celebrate it specially, considering my present financial condition. Srijana prepared sweet milk porridge and special breakfast item for me. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:59 by bus. Gave a Dark Fantasy choco fills biscuit pack of Sunfeast, worth 30 rupees, to Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy, on the occasion of my birthday. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class on “Personal Effectiveness” in the CGMP class at HLL-III. Afternoon they took the idol of Lord Vigneshwara to the beach at Rajayyapeta to immerse it in seawater ceremoniously. They worshipped Him for nine days on the occasion of Vinayaka Chavithi. I did not participate in this procession because there was more madness in their spirits than devotion to God while doing it. There were crazy songs and indecent behavior throwing colours upon others. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. My father-in-law came from teak plantation. He brought guavas for us. Srijana prepared fish soup for me with those bought and brought by her father yesterday there. Some of my folks wished me over phone. Birthdays can be celebrated decently and ideally. Human life is an opportunity to realize God and move towards salvation. We should thank God for being so kind to us. Slept by 10:00.

9 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. From 3:00 to 4:00 took the L&D class in the CGMP classes at HLL-III, in the classroom above cafeteria. From 4:15 to 5:40 attended the class of EHS department took by Moka Srinivasa Rao in this place. He talked on hazard identification and risk assessment for 20 minutes. Thereafter he showed a long video on safety. It was made by the folks of Hetero. It is very informative and insightful. We should not be restricted to learning our branch of knowledge only. If we spend 80% of our time on those aspects of life and profession, which are particularly related to us, we should utilize rest of the time on acquiring the knowledge of other disciplines also. Knowledge is like light. It leads us from darkness to brilliance like a kind mentor does. Acquisition of knowledge should be our passion if we want to grow psychologically. Books, conferences, dailies, electronic media, Internet, videos, documents, feature films, documentaries and nature are some of the sources of knowledge. We should be proactive in pursuits of knowledge acquisition. Knowledge pulls us out from the gloomy pits of ignorance, stupidity and eccentricity. All can improve their knowledge. Slept by 10:00.

10 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I spent reading an English grammar book for much time. By 12:30 typed out a one-page letter on the issues related to IT calculations and deductions from the salaries of employees at Hetero Complex, Nakkapalli. They deducted 1,000 rupees from my salary towards TDS though my salary income during 2013-14 was not taxable. Many irregularities took place in this regard because of the inefficiency of folks at Hetero corporate office in Hyderabad. I discussed these issues and offered solutions to them in this letter. Emailed and gave it to M Subba Reddy, DGM of finance and accounts departments in our floor. He said that he would discuss these issues and try to solve them. Today my colleague Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy asked me to write powerful statements, reading which one can get answers to many questions one encounters regularly. He should feel self-confident, relieved and hopeful reading those points of guidance. I typed out 16 statements from 3:30 to 4:00 to satisfy his request. I put them on an A 4 size paper. When I gave him a printout of it, he did not treat it as a valuable document. God gives us all that we need but we don’t identify and utilize them optimally. Such negligence and ignorance are cause of pain to us. Slept by 10:00 for my dreams.

11 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I am on a sick leave. Today I typed up the content of August from my diary of 2014 on my computer for about six hours. Sankeerthana is crawling now depending on her legs, hands and stomach. She is interested in exploring things about her. She is greeting and communicating to us through making sounds, which we cannot decode. She has been suffering from cold for the last four days. She gets excited by the tricks of Anand aimed at her. Srijana is feeding breast milk, soft rice with tamarind soup and Nestum baby food. It is becoming difficult for Srijana to take care of the baby always. I stay out of home from 8:00 to 7:15 on all days as a Hetero employee except on Sundays, holidays and leaves, which are few. Anand spends in Canossa School from 9:00 to 4:30. She prepares him for school and helps him do homework daily. We like to spend with babies for a few minutes only just like guests that visit our abodes. A mother has to focus on her baby while the latter is with her in any state of conscious or subconscious pursuits. She should have extraordinary sensibility of service, patience and sacrifice to bring up her babies. Srijana is engaged in such service now towards Sankeerthana. Slept by 9:15.

12 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I nominally coordinated SET, representing L&D. Spent most of the time reading an Oxford English grammar book. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. My in-laws came to my abode by 5:30 from the teak plantation. Srijana and her father took our baby Sankeerthana to Neo Care clinic of Dr. I N Murthy at Payakaraopeta. She did not consume hard food today at all. She is making typical sounds hinting us that she is feeling uneasy in her stomach. This doctor prescribed three kinds of solutions for her. They are GITSYN prebiotic and probiotic sachets, WOFLOOZ and CYCLOPAM drops. Probiotics enhance growth of desirable bacteria in the bodies of children. They eventually fight against bad bacteria, which are present in their bodies. Little babies tend to touch and lick a variety of infested surfaces out of their curiosity and innocence. She is keeping her hands in her mouth frequently to check if they have sweet flavour. They crave tasty foods and drinks like adults. Babies move among millions of harmful bacteria and viruses daily. So, they catch minor and major health disorders regularly despite our best care. Even breastfeeding must be very hygienic and careful by mothers. Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Power” in cinema Sai Mahal from 9:30 to 12:00. It’s very interesting and exciting. Slept by 12:15.

13 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:50 by bus. Today I did nominal work related to L&D department. Morning I took about 600 ml of the water, which we get from the ground at our abode in Devi Nagar, to be tested in the Quality Control department at HLL-III, by folks familiar to me. Dasari Gnani Pratap took this initiative to help me. He recently moved to QC department from the HR. Srijana is using underground water to cook rice and other dishes.  There is white powder in this water. It is rusting containers made of metals. I realized that consumption of this water is the cause for bone pains in Srijana, Anand and me. I observed Anand limping soon after getting off bed every morning. The hardness of water, which we are using for cooking, is at a high level. I want to know its details. I instructed Srijana to use filtered water only for cooking also from today onwards. I regularly bring two 20-litre cans of filtered water from a nearby private water sale unit on my scooty.  I pay seven rupees for each can of water. They did not give me the report on this water by this evening. I wonder to know that I took two years’ time for this realization. This afternoon my mother-in-law left for the teak plantation at Marripalem by bus. Slept by 10:00.

14 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My father and mother came from Peda Gummuluru by 9:00. They brought eggs and homemade snacks for us. Venkat of Visakha Printers unit at Duvvada and three of his folks came to our abode by 11:30 in a car. They want to buy plots of land and agricultural farms in this region. They sought my guidance in this regard. We all had lunch in our abode by 11:50. My father and I joined them. We reached Devi Nagar layout at Annavaram by 12:30 in their car. Showed them the three plots of K S N Raju in this layout. We bought the packs of Prasaadham of Lord Satya Narayana by 12:50 from the counter there beside road. We reached Viswanadhapuram by 2:00. We had papaya fruit pieces and tea at the house of maternal grandparents of Srijana by 2:15. Her grandmother gave me 12 oranges to take home. We started to see some mango farms near village Venkata Puram by 2:30 along with Goudi Raju. We stopped the car at an end of this village and walked about two kilometres via the large pond. We could see very little of the mango gardens available here for sale. They dropped my father and me at our abode beside NH-16 by 5:00 and moved towards Visakhapatnam. My father and mother took a sharing auto rickshaw at Y Junction by 5:30 for Peda Gummuluru. My father-in-law stayed here this night. Slept by 10:00.

15 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I typed out 95 English sentences translating the Telugu ones given by a staff member of pharma section in HLL-III. I did it for one hour in the morning on the computer system of Soma Sundaram. Spent rest of the day casually. The staff of pharma section uses these English sentences hereafter in their regular work atmosphere to improve their communication skills in English. It’s a good attempt. Yesterday morning my mother cried for two minutes recalling the abusive words used by her second son Sambha addressing her recently in his house. He got accustomed to usage of abusive language of masses during the last 10 years. He is using that language addressing anybody frequently. He is doing so while talking with my father and mother also. Every recipient of our spoken or written language does not interpret the essence of those words in the same manner. So, we should be sensitive and reasonable while talking to others in various contexts. We should not hurt others using abusive words and signs. Mostly I use refined Telugu language only while communicating to others. I use a little abusive language with Srijana and Anand only rarely when they do something wrong. Slept by 9:30 for my dreams.

16 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:57 by bus. Today I typed out and created three written files. Two of them are Human Sensitivity Questionnaire and Financial Insecurity Questionnaire. The other is a two-page letter addressing the present head mistress of Canossa English medium school, in which Anand is pursuing UKG now. There are 10 ‘yes’ and ‘no’ choices against each sentence. One has to tick on either of these two choices. A tick on ‘yes’ gives one a mark. One should multiply that score of marks with 10 to get one’s status of sensitivity or financial insecurity now. I am not happy with the standards and values of management of Canossa School at Payakaraopeta. They are running their school like businesspersons. I discussed how they should change to make this school an ideal abode of learning. I wrote this letter as the father of the kid Anand. Today I received the report on the ground water of our abode from my familiar folks in the QC department at HLL-III. The hardness of this water is 697 and PH is 6.96. They said hardness of drinking water should be 500 or below. We stop consuming this water. My friend P Srinivasa Reddy, his wife Latha and their son Shanmukh spent with us from 8:00 to 8:45. Slept by 9:45.

17 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I coordinated the NHO class arrangements at Boys’ Hostel nominally from 10:00 to 5:30. It’s the work of a kid. Morning Srijana handed over my two-page letter and my CV to Jaya, the present head mistress of Canossa School. She scanned part of this letter and shared some angry words with Srijana. Nonsense is one of those words. I got infuriated against this idiot. She is not a Christian the moment she talks angrily with an innocent mediator. Srijana is not responsible for what is written in it but I. She can deal with me in the manner suggested by me. I proposed to her to write a letter or send an email to me if she has anything to share with me. I sent my CV to her with all of my details. There is no need of her talking with Srijana in an abusive manner. Jaya needs to change a lot. She can communicate in any manner with Lord Christ because He is a kind God. He pardons His devotees even if they commit mistakes and sins for any number of times. I am not God but fire. I burn the drawbacks of others through application of my rational wrath if they misbehave with me. I will see if Jaya comes into contact with me. Slept by 10:00.

18 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:02 by bus. Morning I evaluated the answer sheets of some NHO 18 candidates to help my colleague Kusuma. Today I found that somebody stole one of my Oxford English grammar books. I felt disturbed and depressed about it. I decided to get a wooden cabinet of three drawers fitted for me in my place of work. I want to keep my belongings in those drawers and lock them to save myself from the effects of these internal thefts. I met the folks of concerning departments and got a PO prepared and signed between 2:00 and 4:00. The company has to spend about 5,000 rupees to get it fitted for me. By evening an amount of 4,714 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account towards Dasara bonus. They pay 8,400 rupees for those that completed one year’s service or above by last March. I worked for about seven months only by last March. They calculated accordingly and paid me this much. I am happy about it. By 2:30 Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana left for the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem along with my father-in-law on his bike. They spend there some time. By 8:00 paid 30,600 rupees to Latha, the wife of P Srinivasa Reddy, in their rented abode, to clear the debt, which we had on this date last month. Slept by 11:00.

19 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Morning evaluated the answer sheets of NHO candidates for one hour to help my colleague Kusuma. From 3:00 to 4:00 took the L&D class to the attendees of CGMP classes in the training hall above cafeteria in HLL-III. I talked on the topic “Personal Effectiveness” through a PPT made by Soma Sundaram. His designation is Assistant Manager in L&D. He is not good at English. He is taking L&D classes regularly to motivate Hetero employees discussing interesting and insightful topics. He talks in English often and prepares PPTs on various topics without knowledge of and focus on English grammar. We should make deliberate efforts to learn and use English perfectly. Our casual attitude on English keeps us as dullards in usage of it always. Soma Sundaram talks about many virtues while taking L&D classes but does not practice them in his personal and professional life. He has ulterior motives in doing many things. He thinks that others can’t understand his real attitude and character. There are many intelligent creatures about us. They know what kinds of folks we are. Honesty is our beauty. We should practice it. Slept by 10:00.

20 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:57 by bus. By 11:00 explained the nature of wooden cabinet I want in my place of work to Pericherla Soma Raju of village Vempadu. He is the contractor doing wood related works in Hetero Complex. He took the measurements of the space, where he has to fit it for me. The second episode of Vedika took place from 3:20 to 5:30 in the conference hall above cafeteria at HLL-III. Took photos and videos of this occasion with a digital camera of L&D department. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Srijana and the two creatures returned to our abode by 9:30 from the teak plantation at Marripalem this morning. By 7:30, we reached the rented abode of Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy at LT Colony in Payakaraopeta. Today it is the 5^th birthday of their Shanmukh Harshit Reddy. We spent here till 8:45. They offered dinner to a few invitees. We came back to our abode by 9:00 on our scooty. I watched the Telugu film “Aagadu” of Mahesh Babu from 9:45 to 12:30 in cinema Gowtham. It is an interesting and exciting film. However, director Srinu Vaitla committed some mistakes in making this film. Dialogues of Mahesh are longer and faster than required. The screenplay and speed of the narration confuse many viewers. Went to sleep by 1:20.

21 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and I reached Peda Gummuluru by 9:30 on our scooty. Recently an ankle of my brother Sambha got a little twisted when he was walking up the steps at the entrance of his house. It got swollen. He refused to take an injection when a doctor advised him to do so. He is afraid of getting medicines injected through needles. He is recovering slowly from that pain and swelling. My father told me that a buffalo of Polisetti Thaatha damaged two young mango plants in my two-acre mango farm recently when he was away. He belongs to village Ramayyapatnam. I felt infuriated about this incident. I felt like hanging this rogue publicly because he is a typical dirty Indian. They always struggle for their comforts and happiness. They are insensitive. Many Indian villagers rear buffaloes, cows, goats and sheep for their livelihood. They graze them in the farms of others but never feel grateful to them. My father, Sambha and I are struggling a lot to grow these mango plants in my farm like sensitive babies. This criminal attacked two plants through his buffalo out of his carelessness. There are millions of such criminals in Indian villages. They are ruining India daily. We returned home by 3:50. Slept by 9:30.

22 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. This morning my brother Datla Srinivasa Raju joined the branch of UCO Bank at Railway Station Road in Bhima Varam as an Assistant Manager. He got trained at the regional office of UCO Bank in Chennai for some days before joining here. His two sons Sujan and Suhas are studying there. He is happy about it. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:57 by bus. Morning pasted adhesive stickers on some tokens meant to be given to contract workers by folks of Safety Enforcement Team (SET) as part of their regular visits to blocks. Contract workers get a gift if they follow safety norms well when inspected by SET members. Spent rest of the day casually. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Went to Tuni by 7:45 on my scooty to buy sweet groundnut rounds. Bought 10 packs for P Srinivasa Reddy spending 150 rupees and four packs for me for 60 rupees. Srijana already bought 10 packs to give to this family unit. Went to the rented abode of P S Reddy at LT Colony by 8:00. He refused to take 20 packs saying that they can’t consume them. He told me to take 10 packs to my abode. I agreed to it. This is my gift to them on the occasion of the birthday of their son Shanmukh Harshit, which was celebrated last Saturday. These items are good for health. Slept by 9:30.

23 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Sankeerthana and I reached Y Junction by 8:10. They took an Express bus by 8:25 for Elamanchili. Today they did not stop many buses for us to get in at this point. About 20 Hetero employees could not take any bus. I requested a familiar employee and reached Hetero Complex by 9:08 on his bike. From 10:00 to 2:30 typed out and edited a blog titled “SC ST Reservations in India” on the computer system of Srinivasa Varma. I post it on my blog site in October. From 3:00 to 4:00 took the L&D class in CGMP classes in HLL-III. There was no the scheduled PPT on the computer there. I somehow talked on “Personal Effectiveness”. Today it was known that the audit of US FDA takes place from tomorrow onwards in HLL-IX for three days. All the training classes scheduled on these dates are cancelled. I think US FDA audit is like a war for many pharmaceutical companies in India. They start decorating the place at the eleventh hour. It means they are not following those norms on other days perfectly. It is difficult to catch a fish and prepare soup after the arrival of our supreme guest. Today Srijana went to Elamanchili to attend puberty function of Sraavya and returned home by 2:00. My mother-in-law came to our abode by 7:30. Slept by 9:30. 

24 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:45 by bus. Morning spent reading the English grammar book Essential English Grammar of Raymond Murphy. It is meant for elementary learners of English. I am at this level now in learning standard English. This book is very useful for me. By 2:45 Vivekananda J Makari booked three Sony Xperia Z3 series cellphones online for 3,000 rupees being provoked by Varma and me. Varma found the price of this gadget 1,000 rupees while searching online to buy one for his boss Vivekananda to use in their EHS department. We failed to notice specific information given in small letters. Vivekananda found that it is advance booking payment for this piece, which actually costs above 20,000 rupees. We at once talked with and emailed to customer care executive of Big C asking her to cancel this transaction and return the money. Often our eyes cheat and provoke us to do silly and stupid things. From 3:00 to 4:00 took L&D class in CGMP classes at HLL-III. Today Subba Rao, Soma Sundaram and Kusuma too sat in my class. Returned home by 6:45 on the bike of P S Reddy. My blog “Saint and Sanatana” got posted on my blog site by 8:00 this morning. My mother-in-law left for the teak plantation at Marripalem by 2:00. Night booked a Transcend 16 GB pen drive on amazon.com for 416 rupees for me. Today Sankeerthana suffered from diarrhoea, vomiting and fever. Slept by 10:00.

25 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Spent most of the time reading English grammar book titled Essential English Grammar of Raymond Murphy. Took an L&D class on “Personal Effectiveness” from 3:00 to 4:00 in CGMP classes at HLL-III. Now all the employees at Hetero Complex are engaged in the thoughts of their annual increments. These increments are of the last financial year. They pay increments late at Hetero. It is expected that these increments would be paid with the salaries of September in the first week of October. I realized that increments are not being assessed and paid fairly at Hetero. Many are leaving Hetero units after credit of increment arrears to their salary accounts. I know about many employees who are working in such employment units, where there are no bonuses or increments. Their purchasing power is lower than those, who are earning a lot of money doing attractive jobs or lucrative businesses. If one is unable to increase one’s income every year in tune to the growing costs of living, one slowly turns and remains poor and helpless. Employees should not demand increments or bonuses. Managements should decide them carefully to encourage skillful and industrious ones. Assessments should be fair. Slept by 10:15.

26 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:45 by bus. Today I helped my colleague Soma Sundaram feed data of Vedika program into online network. From today onwards Anand has Dasara holidays till the 5^th of next month. He is very happy about it. He is studying well now under the guidance of his mother. I am not getting time to educate him beyond my personal and professional duties and chores. I educate him when time permits me. He wants to go to the teak plantation at Marripalem and spend with his maternal grandparents but not paternal grandparents. It is true in India. I think the parents of girls express more care and concern towards their daughters after their marriage also. Parents mostly treat their sons as outsiders after their marriages. Children enjoy the company of those, who treat them affectionately in their formative age. This is also the age when we need to start moulding their characters. How many kids and adults change to the better, to our expectations, if we tell them softly? I think this is why we often resort to loud and offensive language. Anand turns sensitive within seconds if we use aggressive words or behavior aiming at him. Slept by 10:15.

27 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I spent much time reading an English grammar book. Returned home by 7:00 by bus. By 2:30 this afternoon Anand left for the teak plantation at Marripalem along with his maternal grandfather on bike. He wants to enjoy his Dasara holidays there. From 7:30 to 7:45 spent talking with Datla Rama Raju, my paternal uncle. He said that his in-laws, wife and daughters are treating him in an insulting manner. He is so hurt and disappointed by their behavior that he wants to stay away from them for some months. They have not been happy with his earning ability and financial background for long. His father Krishna Murthy Raju died long ago without leaving any reliable property for him. My folks got him married to this girl telling some lies about his financial condition. His living in the house of his in-laws further decreased his value in their views. They are treating him like a worthless and shameless parasite. He is earning about 8,000 rupees now as a truck assistant. He spends all that money for his family only. He sensed that his present employer Datla Rama Krishnam Raju cannot retain him for long. He has to come out of that house and look for another job. I have to guide him. Slept by 10:00.

28 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Edited the content of August from my diary of 2014 on my computer from 7:00 to 8:00. My uncle and maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma came to our abode by 8:00 from village Durgada. They took a passenger train from Durgada Gate to Tuni. They came to see us. She has got high blood pressure and asthma. This uncle, this aunt and I went to Seshadri Nagar layout at Tuni by 9:30 on my scooty. They have the plots of their son Hari and their daughter Sirisha here. My aunt did not see them till now. She did it today along with her husband. My uncle wants to get two houses constructed in these plots of land. He needs about 30 lakh rupees for it. He wants to somehow mobilize it. I painted the plot numbers on the corner stones with blue colour. Also wrote Hari on the four stones of his plot. Went to cinema Surya Mahal by 10:40. They saw the Telugu film “Power” in cinema Sai Mahal from 11:00 to 1:30. I saw the Telugu film “Loukyam” in cinema Surya Mahal during this time. Gopi Chand and Rakul Preet Singh did well in it. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. Rakul is an impressive beauty. She looked inspiring in many scenes of this film. Srijana prepared sweet milk porridge and snacks for my uncle and aunt. Dropped them at Tuni railway station by 6:45 on my scooty. Slept by 10:00.

29 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did not do any work useful for the company. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Morning Srijana, her cousin Sunil and Sankeerthana went to Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. Sunil came here this morning by bus from Hyderabad to spend his Dasara holidays with his folks. Today a postman of Payakaraopeta delivered my parcel pack at my abode. The eldest son of K S N Raju received it during my absence. It is a black Transcend Jet Flash 350 16 GB USB pen drive, which I booked on Amazon on the 24^th of this month, paying 416 rupees, through my Axis Bank online account. They did not type my name on the envelope in the address. I wonder about it. The folks of Amazon must be so fast that they forgot to type my name also. Envelope and its packing are superb. I found their packing standards more appreciable than the gadget inside. When do Indians follow these standards in delivering services to others? I am very happy about the service standards of Amazon. I could save about 300 rupees and my precious time booking it on Amazon. Online transactions save our time and money. I like the speed and technology in it. Slept by 10:00.

30 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. By 9:30 got my 16 GB pen drive inaugurated by my familiar IT executive Rajesh in HLL-III. Gave him a 10-rupee biscuit pack for doing this favour. He copied four Harry Potter films into my pen drive for courtesy. From 3:00 to 3:45 HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy conducted a meeting with the folks of L&D department in the conference hall of HR department. Subba Rao, Soma Sundaram, Kishore Reddy, Kusuma and I attended it. He said that two of us must be sent to SEZ. He advised Subba Rao to assign roles and responsibilities carefully to all of us to avoid excessive work burden on anybody. It is almost an ordeal for Subba Rao to decide to send which two of us to the other section of Hetero Complex. I said I obey his instructions. This is the minimum courtesy we should have towards our manager. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Srijana told me over phone that Sankeerthana stood on her own today for the first time around 7:00 at night. She could stand up for some seconds. Today my cousin Anantha Lakshmi and her daughter Krishna Kumari came to Viswanadhapuram. Krishna Kumari spends her Dasara holidays with Srijana. By 1:55, this afternoon, my cousin Vasu begot a son. Night scheduled my blog “SC ST Reservations in India” to be published on my blog site on 20 October. Slept by 10:15.

1 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I spent casually. They declared the 2^nd and 3^rd of this month holidays on account of the birth anniversary of Mahatma Gandhi and Dasara. I applied for a casual leave on the 4^th of this month. The 5^th is a Sunday. Thus I would have four days of freedom. I am not working much now in Hetero because they have no time to think on how to utilize me optimally. Employees lose if the management fails to utilize me. I think companies are the only entities in this world, which pay salary to their staff on holidays and leaves, apart from government institutions. Does a farmer pay to a worker if the latter does not work a day? There are millions of labourers in this world who are not paid on holidays and leaves. Employees, who have casual, sick, paid and special leaves, are very fortunate ones. I owe to the management of Hetero for their kind treatment towards me. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Evening Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and Krishna Kumari came to our abode. By 7:50 paid 4,000 rupees to Surya Kumari towards rent for my portion for the last month. This time I did not get SMS to my cellphone about my salary credit. The idiots of Axis Bank must be sleeping in the banks also. Slept by 10:00.

2 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and Krishna Kumari left for the teak plantation at Marripalem by 2:30 in an auto rickshaw. Tomorrow, the owner of the teak planation there, is going to hold a function, inviting his relatives and friends. Revathi and her mother are the professional cooks for this occasion. My father-in-law is busy with these arrangements. Srijana too helps them. By 3:00 bought three shirt pieces and three trouser pieces for 1,400 rupees from a roadside cloth sale point in Payakaraopeta. They said they came from Delhi to sell these cloth pieces. They are my guests. The prices are also reasonable. I did not bargain with them at all. I bought each shirt piece for 220 rupees and trouser piece for 250 rupees. Actually I don’t need three pairs of clothes now. I mostly did it to encourage these guests to our region. I don’t know from where they procure these items but their quality and prices are affordable to the common. Gave them at Noor Tailors unit for stitching. Told him to stitch them by the end of this month. From 6:20 to 8:45 P Srinivasa Reddy, his son Shanmukh and I saw Telugu film “Govindhudu Andhari Vadele” in cinema Gowtham. It is a beautiful creation of Krishna Vamsy. Enjoyed watching every bit of it. Today I sold my old paper cup machine to a fellow for 4,000 rupees. Slept by 10:30.

3 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Went to the rented abode of our manager Illuri Subba Rao by 8:10 on my scooty. We two started to the teak plantation at Marripalem. My friend P Srinivasa Reddy, his wife Latha and their son Shanmukh started on their bike 20 minutes after us. They met us at Thaandava Junction by 9:30. We spent here for 30 minutes. We bought and had tasty guavas here. We reached the teak plantation of D S N Raju by 10:45. Subba Rao decided to go back within minutes. He saw part of the garden. Plucked two ripe papayas for him from a tree. Brought him to Thaandava Junction by 11:20 on my scooty. He bought 10 guavas here for 40 rupees. He took an APSRTC bus for Payakaraopeta by 11:45. The male and female relatives of Dandu Surya Narayana Raju are spending in this teak plantation now. They came in cars from Bhima Varam. They are rich creatures. The costs of their beverages and the bets of their games are high. We walked through the garden. We had chicken biryani and fish curry. We had custard apples also. We owe to D S N Raju. Srinivas, his folks and I started back by 4:30 from this plantation on our bikes. Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana are doing well in this naturally inspiring place. Slept by 10:15.

4 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. From 9:00 to 12:20 kept checking the PNR status of a reservation I did on IRCTC portal recently. It’s for my brother Sambha and his folks, to Tirumala Express, today, from Narsipatnam Road to Sri Kalahasti. They remained waiting list even after the preparation of chart. Informed Sambha to cancel their journey. Cancelled the return ticket reservation for the 6^th of this month. It’s also waiting list. This is the first reservation I did on IRCTC using my account on it. Took a sharing auto rickshaw at Y Junction by 1:00. Reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 1:45. Took a watermelon, a papaya and 15 oranges for my folks. By 3:45 Venkata Rao came to our house on our request. My father borrowed 10,000 rupees from him on 14.02.2014 on behalf of me when buying mango plants to use in my two-acre farm. The interest is two rupees per 100 rupees for month. Paid him 11,500 rupees to clear this debt. Gave 2,000 rupees to Sambha to get my farm ploughed soon. Took a bus at Adduroad by 4:30 and returned to Payakaraopeta by 5:00. Gave 100 oranges to my manager Subba Rao in his rented abode by 7:00. I got them from Viswanadhapuram. Their cost is 500 rupees. The other day Subba Rao asked me to procure them for him. Winter is slowly casting its spell. Slept by 10:00.

5 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and Krishna Kumari returned by 9:30 from the teak plantation at Marripalem in an auto rickshaw. From 8:00 to 2:00 typed up the content of September from my diary of 2014 on my computer. Evening Srijana started using her SAMSUNG GALAXY STAR cellphone. Its colour is ceramic white. Her uncle Subba Raju, the husband of her maternal aunt Madhavi, bought it initially for his daughter Sushma. Meanwhile the husband of Sushma bought a better cellphone for her. Subba Raju told Madhavi to give it to some familiar creature. She chose Srijana for it. Its printed price is 5, 240 rupees. Srijana wants to pay for it. I see many using stylish cellphones and other costly gadgets. I simply think that I cannot afford them. I think the only costly item I possess right now is my DELL INSPIRON computer. I bought it with the money of my father. I like it. I am using it optimally. The more the number of regular use possessions we have, the more we spend our time using them. They consume our precious time and make us into crazy idiots. I think we should simplify our life to the maximum possible extent. Sophistication keeps us tense always. We should possess what we can afford. Slept by 10:00.

6 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:52 by bus. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class on Hetero in the training hall at HLL-III. Spent rest of the day casually. It is the fifth birthday of Anjaneya Varma today. They hold it at their house in Peda Gummuluru. I could not go there. Srijana also did not go there. Sambha would have felt happy if we had gone there. We somehow don’t consider an event party or celebration unless a number of people attend it. We seek pleasure in the presence of others. We think their blessings are worthy. How can we identify whether one is holy or sinful? Generally holy creatures don’t mingle with sinful blokes. It means we are delighting in the presence of sinners only in the name of parties and functions regularly. We can’t improve our individualities if we have group culture. We mostly do many things to satisfy those in our chosen group of folks. We take many decisions being influenced by the casual attitudes and preferences of our group. We don’t achieve much as long as we are associated with a shallow group. Individual worth and achievement can’t be claimed when we are being identified as one among many. Afternoon Krishna Kumari took a bus at Tuni bus station for Jaggampeta. Srijana saw her off. Slept by 10:00.

7 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class on Hetero in CGMP classes at HLL-III. Spent rest of the day casually. Today Nadiminti Giri emailed my Form 16, after talking to him over phone. Night tried to register my details on the portal of income tax but could not. Its functioning is poor. Vamsy told his sister Srijana that he is not happy with the folks of Wipro Infrastructure Engineering at Hindupuram. Once they said that they would make him a permanent employee of it if he works with them for two years. Later they said that he should work for another six months. It means Azim Premji is more focused on selling those nasty Santoor soaps through that age-old dirty ad than following standards in his business entities. Now I got a reason to call him a sick donkey of India. They talk about positive change but their brains are not capable of understanding those concepts and practising them at their level. According to the brain of this dog of India, a married woman, with a child, can look beautiful only through using Santoor toilet soap. This is what that outdated ad shows. Slept by 10:00.

8 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:54 by bus. Today my manager Subba Rao did not assign me any work. They were busy with training programs by external experts. Today lunar eclipse occurred in the sky for about five hours during the second half of the day. Yesterday night I tried to create my account on the portal of income tax department of India. I could not do it. Today P Srinivasa Reddy also tried but failed. We talked with the service executives of this department over phone. They could not solve it. We fed correct details into it but their software system presented them as invalid entries. It is like somebody telling me that I am not Datla Chiranjeevi Raju. I felt infuriated about the quality of this portal. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. The father of Srijana spent here for some time. By 8:30 I could create my profile on this portal. I could achieve it feeding only those particulars, which are marked mandatory. They did not record my name accurately into three divisions based on my name on my PAN card. They committed a mistake and presented it as my blunder. Indians are suffering a lot daily due to wrong feeding and maintenance of data of people by representatives of governments. Slept by 10:45.

9 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:59 by bus. Today I took the L&D class on Hetero in the CGMP classes at HLL-III from 3:00 to 4:00. Today P Srinivasa Reddy submitted my tax refund application online. They have to refund me 1,000 rupees. I am sending a printout of this online application to their folks at Bengaluru. Filing IT returns online is not as easy as said by many agents of governments. I depended on my friend for it being an MA English candidate. Governments are more focused on collecting different kinds of taxes from all kinds of people but not in returning their dues early. Many public and private agencies are regularly looting money from people. LPG distributors are first-rate criminals in India. They started looting money from their customers after introduction of the Aadhaar number association. They are not crediting dues to customer accounts honestly. It is a wonder if we can find any private or public business entity in India, where there is no irregularity, fraud or corruption at all. Banks, insurance agencies, passport offices, Indian Railways, CBI, courts of law, police, MLAs, MPs, ministers…all are in this network. They loot us but don’t serve us. I felt victimized many times in this gloomy Indian culture. Slept by 10:00.

10 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. From 3:00 to 4:00 took the L&D class in CGMP classes at HLL-III and talked about Hetero. Today many talked about the intensity and impact of Hudhud cyclonic storm, which is over the Bay of Bengal now. They said it ravages three districts in coastal Andhra Pradesh. The central and state governments made suitable arrangements to face this impending natural calamity. People developed a careless outlook on the information and alerts being issued by the staff of meteorological departments in India. It may or may not happen. They assume the status of buffoons. Satellites can show us the location of natural calamities but not particulars regarding where and how they get intensified. Man cannot control the behavior of nature. He can describe its beautiful dance or violent pursuits. Nature plays a significant role in decorating and destroying the stage of God according to His instructions. By 5:45 my father-in-law took Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana to the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem on his bike. The folks of Canossa School declared tomorrow a holiday in view of Hudhud cyclone. Srijana decided to spend with her parents for these two days. I permitted them to go there anytime they like. Slept by 10:15.

11 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. From 3:00 to 4:00 took the L&D class on Hetero in the CGMP classes at HLL-III. Today the sky was cloudy due to Hudhud cyclonic storm over the Bay of Bengal. The management of Hetero decided to send all general shift employees one hour early to regular time considering the impact of cyclonic storm. Reached home by 6:00 by bus. Morning my friend Kanumuri Rajani Kumar Raju came to Payakaraopeta from Hyderabad by bus. He spends with his friend Patnaik whenever he comes here. Today they went to a sick sago unit at Samarla Kota in the car of Patnaik. Rajani wants to help the owner of this unit getting him financial assistance from a bank. Patnaik and Rajani returned from there by 8:00 in the car. I too went to the house of Patnaik with them. The knowledge and presentation skills of Patnaik impressed me. He is a government teacher. His wife is the headmistress of Gayathri School now. I know her since I worked there. She offered milk and puris to us. We spent talking for one hour. Brought Rajani to my abode by 9:00 on my scooty. We talked about familiar things for one hour. He is looking for a beautiful girl to marry. He wants to buy land in this region. My uncle Narasimha Murthy helps him in these matters. Slept by 10:15.

12 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. It started raining by 8:30 due to Hudhud cyclonic storm. Rajani Kumar Raju and I walked to the nearby railway track. Showed him the plots of land on the way. Strong winds were blowing. They pushed and pulled us through our umbrellas. We walked back fast being unable to resist this wind. We went to the abode of Patnaik in Payakaraopeta by 10:00 in his car. We spent in his house till 8:00 at night. The winds and the rain kept shaking and uprooting tall trees around. We witnessed the power and speed of these gales staying indoors. There was power cut since 10:00. The wife of Patnaik cooked delicious chicken biryani for us for lunch. Evening she prepared snacks for us. It was like a house arrest for us. Nature did not permit us to stir out. We knew that police stopped the movement of vehicles on National Highway 16 in all affected areas. Many trains on this route were cancelled. Air traffic was regulated. Television channels got a tasty news dish. They celebrated this feast of the nature. TV 9 is the worst of all Telugu television channels. They sensationalize news to attract or scare people. I hate those rogues of media. I knew that heavy loss was caused to the property of people in coastal Andhra Pradesh region due to this cyclone. I did not call up any of my folks to know about them. They should know what to do. Slept by 10:00.

13 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a Hetero bus at Y Junction by 8:15. They stopped it at Nakkapalli. We all reached Hetero Complex hiring auto rickshaws or asking for lifts on bikes. Trees fell off or bent downwards due to severe gales of Hudhud cyclone. Light structures also got affected. There was no adequate electricity supply to these pharmaceutical units. So, they stopped many reactors. Afternoon they offered Lemon Rice and Curd Rice for lunch as there were no gas cylinders to prepare regular food items. Contract workers did not come to work. The attendance of employees was also low. They had no much work to do. Srinivasa Reddy and I reached the abode of Bojja Shankara Rao in Ramayyapatnam by 1:30 on a bike. We knew that he is living in Eti Koppaka now with his family. We went there by 4:30. He had just gone out. Earlier he said that there is two acres of land at China Gummuluru. I want it for my friends Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma and Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy to buy. They want to buy one acre of land each. Collected one litre of buffalo cheese milk from the Heritage milk point of Shankar. He kept it for me. Many trees and electric poles, along this road, got uprooted due to cyclone. We returned to Hetero Complex by 5:35. Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana returned from the teak plantation. There was no electricity supply today. Slept by 10:00.

 

14 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night I slept without the air of ceiling fan. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:54 by bus. Today also they supplied electricity in the Hetero Complex through power generators run by diesel. Most of the reactors were kept inoperative. The boilers could not be run as the coal turned wet due to rain. Plants and trees remained in their ugly postures. Today I spent reading books. The conditions in villages and towns of Visakhapatnam, Vijaya Nagaram and Sri Kakulam districts are pathetic. Plants and tress fell across roads. Water and electricity supply is not there. Phones and cellphones turned inoperative as towers fell off due to gales. Children are suffering without milk. Old people have no vital facilities. School buildings collapsed. Overhead synthetic water tanks got blown away into air. The agencies of governments have no adequate resources to improve the infrastructural facilities fast. This damage, caused by nature, is a sign of God, addressing sinners and criminals. Some are selling essential goods at unbelievable prices to benefit from the vulnerability and helplessness of theses victims. There is no humanity in most of the people in this world now. God punishes sinners severely early or late. We often think nobody knows about the sins and crimes we are committing. Each of it gets attached to the Karma of our respective souls. It binds and influences us inevitably. By this evening, they restored electricity supply in Payakaraopeta and Tuni. Slept by 10:30 for my dreams.

15 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. They did not stop any bus at Y Junction for some of us to get in. Requested a Hetero employee and reached Hetero Complex by 9:09 on his bike. From 3:00 to 4:00 sat in the class of Soma Sundaram in CGMP classes at HLL-III and observed his mode of teaching. He is using ungrammatical English. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. Afternoon my brother-in-law Vamsy came to my abode. He is on a 10-day leave from the Wipro Infrastructure Engineering unit at Hindupuram. He bought and brought a woolen blanket for us from Bengaluru. Its cost is 1,600 rupees. It is looking good. His parents came to see him. Enjoyed their presence. My father and brother Sambha are disturbed observing the condition of trees and plants in our 18 acres of mango farm at hills. Some trees and plants got uprooted. The branches of many trees got twisted and broken. They developed an ugly shape. They don’t bear mangoes to that extent. The broken branches must be collected, cut and sold to be used in paper making units. The mango plants in my two-acre farm did not get affected much. My father got wooden posts installed supporting these plants just before this cyclone. They got twisted a little but there is no heavy damage. A guava tree, at our house in Peda Gummuluru, got much affected. Slept by 10:00.

16 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:09 by bus. Kept waiting for Baggu Bhagyasri at the gate of HLL-III from 10:00 to 11:30. She turned up by 11:45. I informed her to come here for an interview today for the position of a receptionist. She is a daughter of the owner of a house in Tuni, wherein the family unit of Sekhar, the maternal uncle of Srijana, stayed for some months earlier. Revathi knows them well. When I took this girl to HR manager Rajnikant, he asked her to give her résumé. She forgot to bring it when coming hurriedly from Kakinada. I asked a HR executive to give me the file of CVs of candidates kept with them. I gave her CV to them three months ago. I did not find it in that file. When I was typing out her résumé on a computer in the HR department, Rajnikant found fault with me about it. He said he is not satisfied about her attitude. I sent her out observing his emotional response. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class on Hetero in the CGMP classes at HLL-III. Met Rajnikant by 5:00 and asked him if I can tell Bhagyasri to come another day for interview. He told me to bring her this Saturday. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Got the hair of Anand cut by 8:00 by barber Vadapilli Ramana in Payakaraopeta. By 8:15 we went to the house of Bhagyasri in Tuni. Talked with her for 10 minutes about the nature of job with Hetero. She is preparing for bank (IBPS) exams now. She said she prepares so till this December. She is a beauty. Slept by 10:15.

17 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:58 by bus. From 10:00 to 5:30 spent listening to the class of D M D Murthy in a training hall at Boys’ Hostel. He is a motivational speaker from Lead India 2020 at Hyderabad. Today he spoke on self-image, communication and goal to about 66 Hetero employees to improve their attitudes and work culture. I played the role of a listener in this program. I gained insights and knowledge from his lecture on different aspects of life and profession. By 6:00 my manager Subba Rao asked me about my opinion on which two of our L&D staff should be sent to the SEZ portion of Hetero Complex soon as part of the word given to our HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy recently. I said Kishore Reddy and I should be sent there. He thanked me for my honest input. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. Srijana said that Sankeerthana had suffered from fever and cold today. We took the baby to Dr I N Murthy of Neo Care clinic at Payakaraopeta on our scooty. He prescribed Calpol 120 mg oral suspension for fever and RANAZY-200 suspension for cold. Talked with him for 10 minutes. He worked in the UK for some years earlier. He is in the process of starting his hospital soon at Tuni. We discussed some points in this direction. Slept by 10:45.

18 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:57 by bus. Today I spent most of the time in the training classes at Boys’ Hostel listening to the useful and insightful words of the trainers. It was a delightful experience. Returned home by 7:30 by bus. Today Sankeerthana suffered from fever. Night Revathi, Aditya and Ashish spent in our abode. The teak plants and other trees got affected in the agricultural farm of Dandu Surya Narayana Raju at Marripalem. Srijana and our two creatures were there during the time of Hudhud cyclone. Srijana said that 80% of those teak plants got uprooted. Every year he is spending about 60 lakh rupees on this farm. This cyclone caused a loss of about two crore rupees to him. Nature teaches lessons to all. It shows that anybody or anything can be beautified or destroyed within seconds. Material organisms or entities can do nothing against violent reactions of nature. It kills people, animals and insects alike. It is an instrument of God. He uses it to delight or destroy His creative elements in this world. I am happy about the occurrence of this cyclone and its impact on the lives of sinners in this region. Transformation often takes place through tragedies only. This cyclone is a commander. There is no place for cases and arguments. Judges and courts of law are like rags before it. Slept by 10:30. 

 

19 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 10:25 Srijana dropped me at bus station in Tuni on our scooty. I took a Vijayawada bound Deluxe Express bus by 10:30 for Jaggampeta. The bus fare is 63 rupees. Reached Jaggampeta by 12:00. Walked to the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju. A few days ago three folks hit his scooty when he was taking a turn at a road near Eleswaram. They were going on a bike very fast. The right ankle of this uncle got injured in this minor accident. Doctor stitched the split skin together on this part. He has diabetes. He is recovering slowly from this injury. Spent talking with him till 1:30. He dropped me at the junction in Jaggampeta by 1:45 on his scooty. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Gollalagunta by 2:00. Bought 1,500 grams of broken wheat pieces, 1,500 grams of sugar and 20 cardamoms for 109 rupees at the retail store of Chitrapu Surya Narayana. These are to be used in the making of a sweet item by my maternal aunt Satyavati for Srijana. My parents and brother Sambha already reached here. Tomorrow morning there is the naming ceremony of the baby son of Vasu (Sagiraju Srinivasa Raju) in village Ramula Devapuram. We came here to attend that celebration. Vasu came here by 3:00 taking Dhanbad-Alleppy Express train up to Samarla Kota from Jharsuguda. Today BJP won maximum state legislature constituencies in the elections held at Haryana and Maharashtra after counting of polled votes. Slept by 8:45 in the house of my aunt Satyavati.

 

20 October (Monday)

Woke up by 4:00. All of us got ready by 6:30. We got into two hired auto rickshaws and started to village Ramula Devapuram by 7:00. We reached our destination by 9:00 travelling via Gurram Palem, Jaggampeta, Rajapudi, Mallisala, Mallavaram and Molleru. The road from village Molleru to Ramula Devapuram remained challenging for decades. They are in the process of improving it now. My cousin Sagiraju Srinivasa Raju and his wife Hema participated in a religious ceremony of their 21-day-old baby boy from 9:30 to 11:30 under the supervision of two invited priests. Vasu saw the image of his baby son in an earthen bowl, filled with edible oil, and also named him Kartikeya Varma during this time. I took photos and videos of it with my Sony digital camera. We had formal lunch by 12:00. Returned to Gollalagunta by 2:00. Copied the shot content into the DELL laptop computer of Vasu. Collected Ravva Laddus from my maternal aunt Satyavati. She made them for Srijana. Took a sharing auto rickshaw, paying 10 rupees, and reached Jaggampeta by 2:50. Bought 10 apples for 100 rupees for Anand and Srijana. Kept waiting at bus station for an Express bus bound towards Visakhapatnam, to get off at Tuni. One arrived about 4:30 but got thickly packed within seconds. I waited from 3:00 to 6:00 this way here. Only this bus emerged and left. I lost three hours’ time believing in the standards of APSRTC. There are many ordinary buses on this route. Took one by 6:00 out of disappointment and reached Tuni by 8:00. Slept by 10:00.

21 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. From 3:00 to 4:00 took the L&D class on Hetero in the CGMP classes at HLL-III. The management of Hetero decided to pay salaries to employees before Deepavali this time. The HR folks stopped payroll calculation date by the 19^th of this month to provide data to corporate office early. They are going to pay increments along with these salaries. All the employees are in this mood now. There are many issues as far as increments are concerned to employees in large scale industries. Managers and other authorities do not assess the worth of the employees under their level honestly in many cases. They get influenced by notions of community, religion, region, language and gender. Unfortunately, the hypocrites in a company, who mostly maintain close and affectionate relationships with their superiors, get more identity and incentives than those that remain behind the screen. Honesty and hard work are not being identified and appreciated much in many Indian companies. Many employees compare their salaries, increments and other incentives with those of others to feel proud or down. No management can satisfy the egos and expectations of all of its employees perfectly all the time. Many employees expect more than they deserve. Companies don’t mint money. Slept by 10:00. 

 

22 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night Lakshmi appeared in my dream. She felt strong platonic love thinking about me. My recently going to the house of her in-laws at Narsipatnam enriched her belief that still I admire her. Since we never met in reality, our admiration for each other is a web of intense emotions and imaginations. It is an inevitable feeling of loss and separation. Each of us attributes exceptional features and qualities to the other. We believe that society around us is a villain in keeping us apart. We can’t take initiatives fast to meet because our individual good images might be tarnished if something unexpected happens in this process. Thus both of us remain in a web of self-imposed moral standards and social restrictions. This dream strengthened my admiration for this girl because I subconsciously felt the intensity of her psychic attachment and related pain for me. This dream is a gift of God to me to console my psyche. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. From 3:10 to 4:10 took an L&D class on Hetero in the CGMP classes at HLL-III. Spent rest of the time casually. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. By 8:07 an amount of 35,618 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account towards my salary for this month and due increment arrears. Felt very happy. Transferred 10,000 rupees to the bank account of my cousin Vasu and 5,000 rupees to the bank account of Srijana online to clear part of my dues to them. Slept by 10:00.

23 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana and her mother worshipped Goddess Lakshmi by 10:15 on the occasion of Deepavali. They cooked special dishes. By 10:30 Srijana, her mother, Sankeerthana and Anand left for Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. Recently Lakshmi Bharathi, the maternal grandmother of Srijana, got slightly injured when her husband, who is suffering from dementia, pushed her. She fell down. Skin got split on her head and sustained bruises on her elbow. They went to see her. My friend Papadasu Srinivasa Reddy and I reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 11:15 on his bike. I gave 1,000 rupees to my mother asking her to spend it on her minor religious needs in this holy Telugu month of Kaartheekam. Srinivas and I went to village Goodepu Lova by 12:00. My friend Bojja Shankara Rao showed us a piece of agricultural farm near this village. I want to help Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma and this Srinivas buy a little piece of land here. So, this inspection of land. We reached our mango garden at hills by 1:00 via Ramayyapatnam. Checked the status of our mango farms. The Hudhud cyclone did not damage them much. We spent talking with my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy from 2:00 to 3:00 at his abode here. We spent talking with my brother Sambha from 3:10 to 3:50 in his house. We returned to Payakaraopeta by 4:30. My father-in-law, Srijana, her mother, Anand and Sankeerthana celebrated Deepavali from 6:30 to 7:30 in our abode. Slept by 10:00.

24 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:50 by bus. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class on Hetero in the CGMP classes at HLL-III. Evening our manager Illuri Subba Rao told me that my colleague Dasari Kishore Reddy and I have to move to SEZ part of Hetero Complex soon from HLL-III. For long, the folks of SEZ have been feeling that all L&D staff members are sitting in HLL-III only. They want two of us to be there. So, this move. I already said that I am ready to move. Subba Rao can’t deliver well if both of us sit away from him. He realizes it within days of our relocation to SEZ. A visionary must be able to assess the future, while circumstances are still in his favour. Otherwise the entire system of operations gets disturbed or collapses soon. It’s up to Subba Rao now how he runs the L&D department. He needs to be tenser and disturbed now than earlier. There are five staff members now in L&D department, including Subba Rao. We are like five fingers of a hand. Now two of those fingers function staying away from the hand. Reached home by 7:15 by bus. Morning Srijana took Anand to Vijaya Clinical Lab in Payakaraopeta for the test of his blood on the advice of Dr I N Murthy. It was found out that Anand got typhoid. This doctor prescribed Cefixime & Ofloxacin tablets for him for five days. Slept by 10:00.

25 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:52 by bus. Today I helped my colleague Kusuma feed the data of Lead India 2020 attendees into the LDM network of Hetero. It is a training program meant for the improvement of employees. It was cloudy, cool and pleasant today. Hetero employees are talking about their increments and arrears now. Some are disturbed and dejected about the nominal increments they got against their superior cadres and multiple responsibilities. They decided to quit Hetero as early as possible. Heads of some departments intentionally proposed paltry increments for some of their subordinates. They did so out of jealousy and ego. There is no logic or morality. Such unfair moves are affecting the morale of many industrious and loyal employees. Hard work and talent must be identified and appreciated everywhere. All employees are waiting for their salary slips to know about what they got exactly. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Gave three papayas and a little cheese to our manager Subba Rao by 7:30 in his rented abode at Rajugari Beedu. Today Anand took tablets for prevention of typhoid. He is having coconut water and other liquids also. From 9:30 to 12:00 saw the Telugu film “Pooja” of Vishal and Shruti Hassan in cinema Surya Mahal. It is a very exciting and interesting film. Slept by 12:30.

26 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took my mother-in-law to Narsipatnam Road Junction in Payakaraopeta by 9:00 on my scooty. She took a bus for Thaandava Junction. By 9:10 took my scooty to my familiar bike mechanic Rajesh in Lingaala Thota Colony. Got the left mirror fitted. It got loosened recently. We should not ride bikes or drive four-wheelers without mirrors on both sides. We should run vehicles observing who is coming behind us. Also got the bearings changed in the front wheel. It all cost me 160 rupees. My brother Srinivas came to my abode by 10:15 from Peda Gummuluru. Yesterday he paid 21 lakh rupees to the owners of his Suvarna Bhoomi plots of land near Anakapalle towards their cost and registration charges. He bought two plots of 200 square yards each. They register it in his name soon and send those documents to him. We took four new 10-rupee note bundles, worth 4,000 rupees, from him. Srijana likes them more than me. He had light lunch by 11:40. Took him to Tuni railway station by 12:00 on my scooty. He took Dhanbad-Alleppy Express by 12:25 for Nidadavolu Junction. Thence he takes another train for Bhima Varam. From 3:30 to 4:30 edited the content of September from my diary of 2014 on my computer. Today it was cloudy, cool and pleasant. I have been sensing stomachache for the last two days due to excess gas. Slept by 10:00.

27 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 7:30 Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana poured milk in a nearby anthill on the occasion of Naagula Chavithi. I did it by 8:05 while rushing to Y Junction to take a Hetero bus. My folks did it in our mango garden at hills. Earlier I asked our manager Subba Rao to grant me leave today. He refused considering schedules of work at L&D today. Otherwise I would have joined my folks at Peda Gummuluru. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. From 3:00 to 4:00 took L&D class on Hetero in the CGMP classes at HLL-III. Spent rest of the day casually. Indians attribute a lot of value to snakes religiously. They worship Lord Nagendra on different occasions. They kill snakes regularly out of fear. We observe such double standards in many things they do. They believe that there is a world of serpents also. There are many Indian feature films on divine powers of serpents. There is a clash between traditionalists and rationalists about the qualities of snakes. Most of the Indians lead their lives based on their beliefs but not rationality. It is not easy to change the outlooks and attitudes of Indians. They started changing rapidly ever since they moved to other countries and knew about other cultures. Now uneducated and poor Indians are following Indian culture and tradition more than others. We cannot block change. Slept by 9:30.

28 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today Srijana sent Anand to school. He recovered much from typhoid. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:08 by bus. From 10:00 to 2:00 nominally coordinated plant visit of 26 NHO candidates of batch 20 in HLL-III. Took L&D class on Hetero in the CGMP classes at HLL-III from 3:00 to 4:00. Today our manager Illuri Subba Rao sat in this class for about 40 minutes. We feel uneasy and uncomfortable when our superior is present in our class of teaching. It may be because of our respect, affection or fear towards them. The designation and related authority of our superior also makes us feel differently. We try to be very formal in the presence of our superiors. We try to impress them somehow. We try to enhance our image doing our best. In fact, such situation should not arise in any classroom environment. Absolute freedom is the primary criterion required for any speaker, teacher or instructor to prepare the content and deliver it in his desired manner. The target learners are the right ones to assess the skills and capabilities of an instructor. Judges are inappropriate ones to assess the worth of an artist or performer. The best of one does not emerge when there is pressure and supervision around. It happens when one is not bound by restrictions. So, all formal judgments are unreliable and artificial. Slept by 9:15.

29 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I did not do anything beneficial to the company. Scanned English dictionary for some time and spent rest of the day casually. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Took Anand to Neo Care clinic at Payakaraopeta by 7:30 on my scooty along with Srijana. Dr I N Murthy checked Anand and said that he got rid of typhoid. Gave him the four-page letter, which I typed out recently, addressing this doctor. I discussed the qualities of a doctor, receptionist, hospital and some other points useful to him. He worked in the UK for 10 years as a pediatrician. His qualifications and professional experience are appreciable. He got a hospital built in Tuni to offer some specialist medical services. He is unable to decide whether to stay in India or move to the UK. My letter offers some suggestions and insights to him in this direction. He talked with me for 10 minutes about his life and experiences as a doctor. He thanked me for preparing a letter for him. There is need of talented doctors in Indian villages and towns. Many doctors are not happy with the attitudes of illiterate Indians. They don’t like spending money on their health. They lack sense of hygiene and discipline while in hospital also. Slept by 10:15.

30 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did very little work useful to the company. Morning HR executive Nirosha took my book Stories of Love and Beauty to read. By 2:00 our manager Subba Rao called me into his cabin. Our HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy asked me, over phone, if I was willing to go to the Hetero formulations unit at Jadcherla to take communicative English classes to those employees for a month. I hesitated too little to say ‘yes’ to his proposal. I should take it as an honour and opportunity instead of problem. The management of Hetero is treating me like a prince offering me good salary, perks, subsidized facilities and identity as an earning entity. I should take this opportunity as a chance to express my sense of gratitude and loyalty to them. Srijana is a little comfortable because of my stay at home. I keep my baby Sankeerthana happy for some time taking her into my lap; often bring purified drinking water from a nearby sale point; go out on errands and also play the role of a security guard at night for my three creatures. They miss these services from me for these few days. We should be ready to do something more for our kind employer when situation demands. Today I saw my payslip of October. The increment they offered me for the last financial year is 3,500 rupees. I expected 5,000 rupees. Slept by 10:00.

31 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I am on a casual leave. Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 8:45 on our scooty. I knew that our dog has been sick for the last two days. Some stray dogs bit him severely when he went out recently. He is not consuming food. He slept on the terrace of our house. I did not see him physically. I am not interested in relieving his soul from his body through my interference. May God bless him life or death at His will. Sambha, others and I saw a few pieces of land near village Goodepu Lova from 12:30 to 1:30. Had my lunch by 2:00 in our house. Srijana, Anand and I went to see our mango garden at hills by 2:20 on our scooty. We saw the mango farm and my paternal grandmother. My aunt Kumari treated us well. She gave 10 raw custard apples for us. We returned to our abode at Devi Nagar by 3:30. By 4:00 got a berth reserved for me in a 3^rd AC coach of Garib Rath train, for the 5^th of November, from Tuni to Secunderabad, at an Internet café. By 5:00 paid 4,000 rupees to my house owner Surya Kumari towards rent for my portion for this month. From 5:20 to 6:00 Srijana and I bought some items from a few stores in Tuni and Payakaraopeta, spending about 2,500 rupees. Afternoon my mother-in-law came to our abode from the agricultural farm of D S N Raju at Marripalem. Slept by 10:00.

1 November (Saturday) 

 

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. From 10:00 to 4:30 coordinated the plant visit of NHO candidates in SEZ. They saw different sections of production process and firefighting system. By 10:30 sent an email to Jaladurgam Ram informing him about my journey to Hyderabad this Wednesday. He is DGM of L&D departments of all Hetero pharmaceutical units. He directs my stay and teaching schedules at Hetero unit by Jadcherla. I miss Sankeerthana more than others staying outdoors for a month on this assignment. She enjoys my company. I like her attachment with me. It’s my mistake if she misses me and feels it for these few days. Tender babies develop psychic attachment with those few, who are very close to them. Their world is very little. They wish to daily see those faces and spend with them. Staying away from Sankeerthana for these few days is a test for me. Her innocent looks, fascinating acts and mesmerizing sounds are divine. I owe to my employer. He is the reason for my comforts, happiness and peace of mind now. They honoured me asking me to go there to take English classes for some days. They gave me an option to go or not. It’s their goodness. I should be loyal and honest towards them. They love me. I should respect their love for me. Lord Krishna plays with my baby during my absence here. Slept by 9:30.

2 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I typed up and edited the content of October from my diary of 2014 on my computer. I did it for about seven hours. By 10:00 Srijana and Anand reached village Bhimavarapu Kota on our scooty. K S N Raju is holding a holy food party today on the occasion of Kaartheekam. He invited us to it. I did not get time for it. Thence she went to Thaandava Junction to bring some items her father gave. They returned home by 3:00. Had my hair cut by barber Vadapilli Ramana by 3:45. This is my preparation as a presentable English instructor to play a scheduled role soon at the Hetero formulations unit by Jadcherla. We should look as attractive as possible as a public speaker. Evening Srijana took Anand to Dr. Ramesh Kumar in Tuni. He is limping saying that he has pain in bones of his feet. This doctor advised Srijana to admit the boy into his hospital for observation for three days. It means many medical and room charges. Srijana decided to take him to the clinic of Dr. Vikram Kumar at Kakinada for better advice and treatment. Sankeerthana and I spent at the abode of Mantrala Raju beside NH-16 from 4:15 to 5:15. Today some Kshatriya folks met here to finalize the idea of starting a Kshatriya Seva Samithi for Payakaraopeta town exclusively. They talked casually about it. I too paid 100 rupees and became a member of it. My father-in-law came to our abode by 10:00. Slept by 9:30.

3 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:54 by bus. From 10:30 to 11:30 SET review meeting took place in a training hall at HDL-IX. Soma Sundaram conducted it. He explained the new SET members the purpose of safety enforcement teams. He did it well. By 12:00 took 5,000 rupees from Shilpa of accounts department at HLL-III for my expenses during my journey to and stay at Hetero formulations unit by Jadcherla. I am happy about it. I think good companies like Hetero send their employees to other places like an Indian father sends his daughter to the house of her in-laws after her marriage. These standards of companies are really appreciable. From 3:00 to 4:00 spent in the cGMP class at HLL-III. I talked about the importance of learning English. My colleague Kishore Reddy talked about positive change and public speaking skills. He performed well. Today there was no electricity supply in this hall. So, we could not present the scheduled PPT on public speaking skills. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Went to Tuni to buy some items needed for me during my stay at Hetero Jadcherla unit. Morning Srijana and her father took Sankeerthana and Anand to Dr. Vikram Kumar at Kakinada. He administered the first dose of flu preventive vaccines to both of them. He prescribed vitamin tablets for Anand. They spent 3,500 rupees on it. Slept by 10:00.

4 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I spent most of the time listening to the personality development class of D Nagi Reddy in a training hall at Boys’ Hostel. He was speaking representing Lead India 2020. He talked on life and vision, communication skills, human relations and personal development. It was an interesting and insightful class from 10:30 to 5:30. He said he wants to improve his English. I gave my PPT titled “How to Improve Your English Skills?” to him. Knowledge is divine. We should share it with everyone. We should not conceal it. We have death. Knowledge has no death. It has been creating and sustaining this universe for millions of years. By 2:15 my colleague Kishore Reddy told me that my schedule of teaching at Hetero Jadcherla unit got postponed as they have an audit this week. Rushed to my department and checked the email from Mani Kumar Kankanala of Hetero corporate office. He informed me to plan my journey in such a way that I start my English classes on the 11^th of this month there. Cancelled my ticket for Garib Rath Express train and reserved a 3^rd AC berth in East Coast Express train for the 9^th of this month. Informed him about it. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Srijana kept many things ready for my journey. Both of us put them in two bags from 8:20 to 8:30 checking my typed list of it. Slept by 10:30.

5 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. When I cancelled my reservation ticket to Secunderabad yesterday afternoon, I knew that actually I got it done for the 4^th of this month. I somehow memorized the date of my journey wrongly (5.11.14). Lord Krishna saved me postponing my journey to Jadcherla, materializing an audit there. An atheist considers it coincidence. A theist perceives it as a divine intervention. I am grateful to God for His mercy on me. Today I saw my 100 visiting cards, sent by Venkat of Visakha Printers at Duvvada. They are good. I typed out 10 sentences and emailed that word file to him. These are changes to be incorporated into the design of this card and quality of the paper to be used. I want it to be made and look better. I did it out of my taste. From 3:00 to 4:00 took the L&D class at HLL-III and talked about public speaking through a PPT. I gave some of my visiting cards to Hetero folks after this class when they asked me for it. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Got a message to my cellphone from the folks of CPC at Bengaluru about my IT refund. They said it would be credited to my bank account within three days. It is a wonder for me. There must be speed and transparency in the service of governments to people. Slept by 10:00.

6 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:53 by bus. Today I did not do anything useful to Hetero. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Srijana told me that she got a fever today. She consulted a doctor and got an injection administered. She said she got fever because of Sankeerthana. The baby bit her nipples while having breast milk. Teeth are developing in her mouth now. She is taking objects into her hands and biting them. It is an instinct. She is biting nipples also out of this habit. She is warning her mother and us also with her authoritative voice and signs. Srijana decided to wean the baby. She wants to feed buffalo or cow milk to her hereafter. I read somewhere sometime that the process of bringing up human babies is the most testing phenomenon in this world. We have to care for them very attentively. No other animal or bird is as apprehensive as human mother or father about their babies. Pups and cubs live freely and happily since they are very tender. Can our babies be that independent and bold when they are a few days old? It is good if Sankeerthana feeds on breast milk for some more time but her formative teeth became a block against it. Her instinct and innocence are causes of her unhappiness in this regard. May Lord Krishna bless and guide her. Night my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy stayed at our abode. We spent talking about our domestic matters for two hours. He slept here. Went to sleep by 10:15.

7 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. From 10:00 to 6:00 spent in a training hall at Boys’ Hostel listening to the words of Chelote Ajith Kumar. He is a personality development trainer. Today he spoke to 70 Hetero employees on life and vision, communication, change management and interpersonal relations as part of the Lead India 2020 training program. He is running a school named Mount Carmel in Kakinada. His roots are in Kerala but he moved to and lived in many places in India. He is living in Kakinada now. I enjoyed listening to his class throughout the day. It was interesting, informative and insightful. Today Venkat of Visakha Printers brought 50 newly designed visiting cards of me, to Hetero Complex, when he came here, to do some other work. I could not meet him. I collected these cards from Appala Raju of purchase department. He made many changes in it out of my written suggestions to him by email. This card looks better than the earlier one. Informed him to print 200 cards and send me somehow by tomorrow evening. Earlier I got my visiting cards printed when I was at Vanasthalipuram in Hyderabad. Most of them are still with me. They are looking outdated now. I want to give these new visiting cards of me to those that are interested in improving their knowledge and transforming their lives. Slept by 10:00.

8 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. From 10:00 to 5:30 coordinated the Lead India 2020 training program at Boys’ Hostel. Today 53 employees attended this class. Today also Chelote Ajith Kumar talked on those topics, which were discussed yesterday. By 11:30 filled up an on-duty form and gave it to Sirish Reddy of time office. I wrote I would be on duty of Hetero at Jadcherla as an English instructor from 10:11.2014 to 10.12.2014. They calculate my attendance based on it for these days. Also typed out an application, printed it out and attached to it, requesting them not to deduct bus charge from my salary this month as I don’t commute by Hetero buses here during this period of time. By 5:00 put my books in a cardboard box, plastered it and placed it in the cabin of Subba Rao. They are likely to move to the ground floor soon from the first floor in administrative block. They take my box also down. Returned home by 7:05 by bus. Srijana and her mother cooked sweet and hot items for me today to take and consume at Jadcherla. Srijana said that Sankeerthana did not sleep today until the preparation of these dishes was over. She kept moving about there. She is becoming more passionate about all things. By 8:00 Srijana applied Super Vasmol 33 to my hair and moustache. She started applying it recently. By 9:14 received my 200 visiting cards from a Razole bound APSRTC Express bus, bearing number 2834. Venkat gave them at Duvvada by 7:10 this evening. Slept by 10:15.

9 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 3:00. I could not manage to sleep thereafter. Got ready from 4:30 to 5:30. Srijana and I started to Tuni railway station by 5:40 on our scooty. It rained a little to greet me. Howrah-Hyderabad East Coast Express arrived by 6:12. Got into 3^rd AC coach B-2 of it with my two bags of luggage. Srijana saw me off. Sat at my berth numbered 42. Travelling in an AC coach of a train is for the first time for me today. It is rather silent and cool. I breathed polluted air throughout sitting in this closed compartment. Morning and afternoon had Vegetable Biryani prepared and packed by my folks for me. Got familiarized with Chiruvuri Ramesh. Gave some visiting cards of me to him and told him to give them to those interested in English and knowledge. By 11:40 a young and newly married couple sat beside me at Vijayawada station. They moved closely sharing their love through words. I solemnly witnessed it. Spent most of the time reading Eenadu and The Hindu dailies. Got off at Secunderabad railway station by 6:26. Took a 49 M bus and got off it by 7:00 near GVK at Banjara Hills. Rajani Kumar Raju made me walk to his nearby rented abode, giving directions to me over phone. Got infuriated and rushed to the art abode of Veeru, hiring an auto rickshaw. We met after a long time. We spent talking for some time. Morning Srijana, her mother, Anand and Sankeerthana went to the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem to spend there for some days. Slept by 10:50 in the abode of Veeru.

10 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had breakfast by 8:30. Took leave of Veeru by 9:45. His cousin Prasad dropped me at a point in Jubilee Hills on a scooty by 10:15. Hired an auto rickshaw for 150 rupees and reached Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station by 10:45. Took a Kurnool bound Super Luxury Express bus and bought a ticket for 93 rupees to Jadcherla. It started off by 11:00. Kankanala Mani Kumar came into contact with me over phone. He is a HR manager in the corporate office of Hetero at Sanath Nagar in Hyderabad. Today he was at Hetero Jadcherla unit on some assignments. He texted me regarding how and where I should get off this bus. I got off it at TIIC, beside NH-44, a little after Rajapur. By 1:40 driver Chennaiah came to this spot in an old jeep to take me into the Hetero unit here. Followed the entry formalities at security gate here. Stepped down from this jeep at biologics unit. A boy named Gandham Srisailam put my two bags of luggage under the staircase beside the reception desk here. Mani Kumar facilitated me have lunch in a small canteen here by 2:00. Jaladurgam Ram, DGM of L&D departments of Hetero units, was here today. Spent with Mani Kumar and Ram till 5:45. I knew that employees have no time to attend my English classes here. They send some creatures to satisfy me. I came here to give them a lot. They are not lucky enough to utilize me optimally. Srisailam took me into a guesthouse by 6:10. This room is good. Had my supper here by 8:50. Slept by 10:00.

11 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Got ready by 8:45 and got down from Room No.1 in the second floor of the guesthouse here behind Hetero Labs Unit-VI. Had my breakfast in the canteen of HLL-V by 9:10. Walked to the HLL-V-B block on the advice of Mani Kumar. Conducted communicative English class in the QA conference room here from 9:45 to 10:30. I did it orally. They sat around an oval table here. I taught them a little about learning English. They are 11 employees from HLL-VI. All of them are of initial designations like junior officer, senior operator and senior executive. They listened to me attentively. The folks of HLL-VI could not plan it well today. Spent rest of the day at the biologics unit along with Mani Kumar. Today Prakash of Bija Consulting firm trained some employees under the program title “Nature vs. Nurture” here. I attended it nominally. By 2:56 got a berth reserved for me in Garib Rath Express train for 10 December, 2014, from Secunderabad to Tuni, online, using the computer system of Hari Kumar, the HR manager at biologics unit here. I confirmed my date of return journey this way. Walked back to the guesthouse by 6:15. I am slowly accustoming myself to this place and environment. I am feeling like a fish out of water here. Sachin Patil is staying with me in this guest room now. He is working at an RO section in HLL-V-B block here now representing a contractor to Hetero. Slept by 10:00.

12 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a communicative English class in the training hall of QA in HLL-V from 7:15 to 8:30. Today also there was no punctuality on part of the attendees. They said the folks of the company did not arrange a bus for them this morning as informed to them yesterday evening. Each presentation, which I prepared to teach in one class, for a batch of learners, takes two hours’ time. First they told me to take a class for one hour only. Later they allotted me 90 minutes’ time for each class. Today the scheduled learners could not come in time. So, I could not teach them my intended PPT on learning English. I discussed related ideas orally. Today 23 employees attended this class from Hetero Labs Unit-VI. They listened to me attentively. I gave my visiting cards to all of them. I told them that whoever likes English and knowledge can read my blogs. Had my breakfast in the canteen of HLL-V by 9:00. Walked to HLL-III (biologics unit) by 9:15. Meanwhile Mani Kumar came here in a Hetero bus from Hyderabad. From 10:00 to 5:30 Govindarajula V Srikanth took a training class to 15 Hetero employees in a training hall in this unit, representing Bija Consulting firm of Prakash of Chennai. The title of this program is “Nature vs. Nurture”. I partly coordinated this program to help Mani Kumar. Had my supper in the kitchen below our guesthouse by 8:30 along with G V Srikanth. Slept by 10:00 for my dreams.

13 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Actually I have been waking up by 3:00 every morning ever since I came to this place. My biological clock got disturbed. I am struggling to sleep till 5:00. I am achieving it desperately after some time. Took a communicative English class from 7:00 to 8:45 in the training hall of QA at HLL-V. Today I taught them using my PPT titled “How to Improve Your English Language Skills?” They listened to me attentively. By 9:30 met Eswara Prasad, a HR executive at HLL-VI. Talked with him for 10 minutes. From 10:00 to 5:00 spent in the training program titled “Nature vs. Nurture” conducted by Srikanth in a training hall of QA at biologics unit. I nominally coordinated it in association with Mani Kumar. Today it was cloudy and cool. It drizzled continually. Enjoyed this pleasant spell of nature. I brought here many items like toilet soaps, detergent cakes, shampoo, casual footwear, small mirror to see while shaving, towels, deodorant, soap boxes and double-edged blades. These are really helping me a lot over here. Can we ask such items others just as we can do with water or money? I appreciate my vision in this regard. I am an isolated guest here, staying away from human habitations. I cannot move out that easily. This is restricted pharma environment. Lord Krishna is my friend and guide here. Slept by 10:00.

14 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a communicative English class from 7:00 to 8:30 in the QA training room at HLL-V-B to 22 employees of HLL-VI and V-B. Today I discussed the basics of English like alphabet, letters, vowels, consonants, words, spelling, pronunciation, sentences, usage and vocabulary for 45 minutes. Talked about insightful things for 45 minutes to educate them as employees and individuals. Returned to my guestroom by 9:30 and rested on my cot till 10:30. When I was about to go out, I realized my room key was neither on me nor anywhere in our room. I felt disturbed and stressful about it. Met Eswara Prasad at HLL-VI and updated him on today’s English class. Then met HR manager Ganapathi Rao at HLL-V and gave my English files for him to read later. Yesterday night he appeared to me when he came to the eating place at our guesthouse. He expressed his interest in learning English. So, these soft copies of English today. By 11:45 walked to biologics unit and met HR executive Rajasekhar there. He said that their IT staff member Lakshman is interested in learning English. He copied the soft copies of my files to his computer. By 3:30 found my room key. It fell off my pillow when I shook it as my last option. By 6:00 went to the QA training room at HLL-V to take English class to another batch of employees from 6:30 to 8:15. Only five came by 7:00. Sent them out. Here employees have no time to attend English classes. Slept by 10:00.

15 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night Lakshmi appeared in my dream. She behaved like a passionate love does towards her platonic admirer. It was a heavenly dream for me. Took communicative English class from 7:00 to 8:30 in the QA training room at HLL-V. Today I taught them functional English expressions. I could not teach it completely because that content requires two hours’ time. Today 27 employees attended this class from HLL-VI and V-B. By 10:30 took 11 items of my worn-out clothes to the laundry near biologics unit. He said he would get them washed and ironed by this evening. I have time, interest and facility to wash my clothes here regularly but there is no suitable place to put them to dry up in the sun. When returning to our guesthouse, I saw many bees on the road dying. There are two beehives hanging to hard structures near the guesthouse. Today a pest control contractor would have applied poisonous spray on one of those beehives to kill them mercilessly. I saw it there. Bees play a vital role in keeping biological diversity intact on this earth planet. We die without food if bees get killed by modern man like this. Spent rest of the day reading a daily, watching television, reading an English grammar book and thinking. By 5:30 collected my clothes from the laundry, paying him 40 rupees for it. In the OHC here, I saw an excellent Telugu book titled “Vaidhyudu Lenichota”. Slept by 10:00. 

16 November (Sunday) 

Woke up by 5:00. Got ready by 8:00. Walked out of Hetero gate by 9:00. Took a bus by 9:15 and reached Jadcherla by 9:30. Walked to cinema Devi. Talked with Vaiyavan in Chennai over phone for eight minutes casually. Saw the Telugu film “Pillaa Nuvvu Leni Jeevitham” in this cinema from 11:30 to 2:00. It is an interesting and exciting film. Sai Daram Tej did well. Regina Cassandra looked beautiful. Watched the Telugu film “Current Theega” in cinema Venkata Ramana from 2:30 to 5:00. It is a very interesting and exciting film. Manoj improved his physique appreciably. He acted, danced and did stunts well in this film. Rakul Preet Singh is like an angel in this film. She looked magnetic in the school dress and afterwards in other dresses. Her gentle looks and acting touched me throughout the film. Jagapathi Babu acted in these two films. He performed marvelously. Two songs in this film are very touching. I honoured myself watching these two wonderful films today. I bought a 40-rupee ticket to see each of them. Both these cinemas are beautiful. Bought two books titled LIFE COMES FROM LIFE and Coming Bank from the mobile bus bookstore of the Bhakthi Vedantha Book Trust for 90 rupees. They are great books on the life after death. Took a Rajapur bound sharing auto rickshaw and reached the entrance of TIIC beside NH-44 by 6:00. Walked about four kilometres and reached my Hetero guestroom by 6:30. Evening Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana returned from Marripalem. Today they had a garden party there with invited guests. Slept by 10:30.

17 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took communicative English class from 7:00 to 8:30 in the QA training hall at HLL-V. Today I discussed Noun, Pronoun and Adjective through a presentation. Today 13 employees attended this class from HLL-VI and V-B. Spent with HR executive Eswara Prasad at his place in HLL-VI from 1:00 to 3:30. I partly edited the content in my word file titled “Communicative English” and took a condensed print of it on 40 pages. There are 160 pages in it. It came well. It’s just to see how it looks in print. Today I completely read the book titled LIFE COMES FROM LIFE. It is a publication of ISKCON. It illuminated my consciousness about life, death, soul, God and ignorance. All these material attractions and scientific advancements seem like bubbles in wind after realizing the essence of this great book. We should attain a lot of spiritual progress to understand the power of God and reach Him. Nothing happened in this universe by chance as scientists believe and postulate. Everything is happening due to mystic powers of God. We cannot see and feel it with our normal senses of this body. This book is a challenge to any scientist, who believes that matter is superior to life. We feel elevated and solaced after reading it. It is like a doctor for those suffering from ignorance and stupidity. It’s like the sun in our gloomy life. Slept by 10:00.

18 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took communicative English class from 7:00 to 8:30 to 16 employees of HLL-VI and V-B in the QA training hall at HLL-V. Today I discussed Verb, Adverb and Preposition. Read the book titled Coming Back-The Science of Reincarnation published by Bhakthi Vedantha Book Trust from 9:30 to 1:00, lying on my cot in guestroom. I started feeling forsaken and distressed after reading this book. There are 84, 00,000 varieties of living entities in this universe. Human life form is the best of all these creatures. It is an opportunity given by God to understand Him and reach His blissful spiritual world. What we crave at the time of our death decides the life form we are going to take after this life. Nature and demigods guide this process. If God is an ocean, we are like drops of water in it. All the creatures and phenomena in this universe are created by God. These are all transitory. We suffer as long as we are in this material world. Only God is the source of everlasting bliss. We should attain Him, detesting this shadowy world. Why should He create my soul at all? Why should He make me deeply love His creation? Why should He expect me to hate this world of Him and reach another world of Him? He is the cause and effect of my existence. Where am I here? From 6:30 to 8:00 took an English class to 12 employees of HLL-VI. It is second batch. Presented my PPT on English to them. Slept by 10:30.

19 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took two communicative English classes today in the morning and at night in the QA training hall at HLL-V. Morning 11 and evening 10 employees attended these classes. Morning discussed Conjunction and Interjection. Evening discussed basics of English. Spent rest of the day reading an English grammar book. I am deeply missing the blissful presence of my baby daughter Sankeerthana. She is my great guest. She came to this material world to console me. She comes to me lovingly sensing my movements about her. She developed psychic attachment with me during the last three months. She likes if I take her out for a stroll along the road opposite our rented abode. Anand did not express such innocent and invaluable warmth towards me when he was her age. Sankeerthana is also missing me there but she cannot express her feeling of separation as I do in words. Lord Krishna is the father of all creatures in this world. He knows that His creatures are suffering daily with a multitude of pains and voids. He is a doctor to all these millions of patients in this universe. He treats them applying His mystic powers. May that kind God bless my baby with comfort and happiness. I love Sankeerthana because she is my baby. He loves all babies because He is God to all. Slept by 10:00.

20 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. My biological clock is almost normal now. I am not getting up too early to my expected time now. Today I took the two communicative English classes at HLL-V in the morning and evening. Morning 17 employees attended this class and 7 in the evening. From 12:00 to 4:00 spent with Jaladurgam Ram and Mani Kumar. They came here from the corporate office of Hetero at Sanath Nagar in Hyderabad to talk with the heads of departments here about some training programs to be conducted here soon. I enjoyed their presence. I am missing Srijana and Anand. Srijana is accustomed to my possessive care and warmth for her though I talk with her aggressively and rudely once in a while. Srijana does not expect much from me. She is content and happy with what I am and what I can do for her. She misses me more than I do because her psychic world is smaller than mine. She feels forsaken silently. Doing many things for the baby Sankeerthana and Anand is really troublesome and testing for Srijana now. I hurt her to this extent coming here on this assignment of English teaching. Anand too misses me. Children of formative age possess innocence and some divine qualities. I enjoy such qualities possessed and expressed by Anand in my presence. I am missing them now. We realize the value of our dear ones when we are away from them. Humankind is a vulnerable species on this earth planet in many respects. Slept by 10:00.

21 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took two communicative English classes in the morning and evening at HLL-V. Morning 12 employees attended it and evening 8. Srisailam is bringing Telugu daily Eenadu for me. He is a native of village Polepalli here. The SEZ is in the area of this village, where Hetero is located. I read newspapers, watch television in the guesthouse for some time, read English grammar book for some time and go out for lunch at HLL-V. This is how I am spending here beyond my teaching schedules. I am happy as a guest here but not as an English instructor. The attendance of employees is very low. I am getting my worn-out clothes mechanically washed and physically ironed at the laundry once for six days, paying them for it. I am missing my parents also here. They love me a lot. I stay away from them for a month. I miss my brothers. Physical presence and geological closeness play a great role in building and sustaining human bonds. Many are missing the love and care of their beloved ones, being far away from them for a period of time or forever for some reasons. This is one of the tragedies all creatures face in this material world. We don’t or can’t love all alike though we often say so to present ourselves as idealists. We are all narrow-minded and selfish creatures. This is why we feel homesick and lovesick often when away from home. Slept by 10:00.

22 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took a communicative English class at HLL-V from 7:00 to 8:30 in the morning. Today 14 employees attended this class. Today I discussed Future Tense. The 18^th episode of Vedika was conducted in the QA training hall at HLL-V from 3:15 to 5:20. A girl presented a PPT on “Problems and Solutions” and a boy presented a PPT on “The History of USFDA”. Both failed in impressing the viewers. They neither read out the content well nor explained it well. Their presentations were passive and mechanical. Thereafter a debate took place on the topic “Are films affecting the society positively or negatively?” Four sat on one side and four sat on another side as participants in this debate. Even viewers participated actively in this lively debate. I admire the creativity, knowledge, technology and art involved in this art form. They are all great creatures. They have been educating and entertaining human societies substantially over the years. They are struggling day and night to think innovatively and impress viewers differently through their feature films. They have passion and devotion for this art form. Even students, IAS and IPS officers, ministers, managements of educational institutions don’t have such passion towards what they are doing now. Feature films are amazing for me. Those making them are admirable for me. HR folks Ganapathi Rao and Mani Kumar coordinated this monthly cultural event. Slept by 10:00.

23 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srisailam and I started to Jadcherla by 10:15 on his bike from the campus of Hetero. He took me via the road between Polepalli and Macharam. My idea was to buy my favourite dailies first and then go to see a Telugu film in a cinema. We surveyed an area of about two kilometres in this town but I did not get Eenadu, The Hindu or The Times of India. I bought Sakshi, The Hans India and Andhra Jyothi, instead, the newspapers of secondary importance for me. We went to bus station beside main road as the last resort. I did not get any daily here by 10:30. Newspapers, which are admirable tokens of knowledge and information, are not available throughout the day anywhere. Junk foods, polluted minds, contaminated items, harmful acts and restless lifestyles can be witnessed anytime anywhere. This is why India is so even now. Srisailam and I saw the Telugu film “Rowdy Fellow” in cinema Srinivasa from 11:30 to 1:30. Nara Rohit did well. The director made it into an interesting film with short dialogues and decent scenes. It’s a beautiful film. I felt like watching the Telugu film “Ice Cream 2” of Ram Gopal Varma but did not, considering the troubles in return journey in the evening alone back to Hetero. Srisailam dropped me at Hetero Unit-V by 2:30 on his bike. Spent rest of the day scanning these dailies lying on my cot in my guestroom. Why did I come here? What am I doing here? God is great. Slept by 10:00.

24 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took two communicative English classes in the morning and evening. Morning 12 employees attended the class and 10 in the evening. From 11:00 to 4:00 spent in the space of HR executive Eswara Prasad at HLL-VI. Srisailam scanned and photocopied the sheets of attendance of English classes on my request. Prasad emailed these copies to respective authorities of departments to let them know the present status of communicative English classes here. I sent an email to our manager Illuri Subba Rao, our HR DGM Gopala Krishna Reddy and colleague Soma Sundaram intimating them about what is happening here now and my scheduled departure from here in the second week of this December. Subba Rao replied to me using three sophisticated words; sanguinity, prowess and prudence. Perhaps he is not happy with the style, tone and content of this one-page email by me. I have to look up in a standard English dictionary to understand the first two words. He must be scared or jealous to read the email of a thinker and revolutionary. I can scan the ulterior motives of my familiar creatures fast. For the last few days, I have been obsessed with the idea of writing a lot to Vamshi Krishna and Parthasaradhi Reddy of Hetero. I type out a long letter and email it to Vamshi Krishna as early as possible. Slept by 10:00.

25 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took two classes in the morning and evening at HLL-V. Morning 14 employees attended this class and 8 in the evening. From 10:00 to 5:00 typed out 11 pages of content, addressing Vamshi Krishna, the son of Parthasaradhi Reddy, discussing many things, related to Hetero, in the form of a letter. I add content to it daily discussing many more things. I did it on a computer system sitting beside Eswara Prasad in HLL-VI. Had my lunch in the canteen at HLL-VI by 2:00 along with Prasad. By 4:20 Mani Kumar called me up from the Hetero corporate office at Hyderabad. He asked me to prepare a short question paper on English and conduct a test to the attendees of first and second batches of my classes. This is to assess their English language skills before and after attending my classes. This is pre-test as such. I prepared 20 short questions. Evening conducted this test to the eight folks. I conduct this test towards the end of this schedule of classes also. That will be post-test. Recently I informed Srijana that we would celebrate the first birthday of Sankeerthana on the 12^th of December. Today she said that we would invite all near and far ones and celebrate it well. I agreed to it. Sankeerthana is a reflection of Lord Krishna. Today I wore my blue shirt. Today I put on my blue shirt for the first time in my life. Slept by 10:00.

26 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took two classes in the morning and evening. Morning 19 employees attended this class and 6 in the evening. From 10:00 to 4:00 typed out 10 pages of content in the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. Srijana told me that my dear baby Sankeerthana is uttering some words now. Two teeth developed considerably in her mouth. She is not relying on breast milk of her mother much now. She is consuming a little milk with Bournvita powder. She is not interested in milk without sweet flavour. She is getting attracted towards tastes of substances. She is aggressive. She tore two books of Anand crawling to him. I told Srijana to capture those enchanting gestures and acts of our lovely baby. She said that Sankeerthana is not posing normally when our camera is focused on her. This is how we miss splendid feelings and poses of babies and beauties. Cameras cannot catch them. We see them rarely but we can’t store those great impressions in our mind for long. I hear the voice of our baby Sankeerthana while talking with Srijana over phone. It’s like sensing the presence of God from distance. We can see the beauty of God in babies. Srijana said that Sankeerthana is very intelligent. Lord Krishna installed that genius in her. I am missing the divine presence of Sankeerthana. I am not doing wonders here as an English instructor either. Yesterday and today two folks remarked here that I am looking handsome with blue shirt on me. Slept by 10:20.

27 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took two classes in the morning and evening. Morning 18 employees attended this class and 8 in the evening. Today I added a few sub heads under a main head in the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. I could not sleep well last night. I decided not to write today for this reason. Intellectual and creative pursuits need peaceful, healthy and balanced minds. Today, when I talked with my father, in the evening, over phone, I knew that our pet dog died around the first week of this month. My brother Sambha brought it to our abode about 10 years ago. Stray dogs bit him when he went out. He turned sick and died. My brother brought another pup to his house to fill that vacancy. My father is planning to bring one soon to their house also. The death of a dog, which has been with them, for 10 years, like an obedient, loyal, lovable and reliable servant, did not make much difference in their lives. In fact, he served them many years better than me. He did not move away from them in his lifetime. I go to them once a month or so. I am expecting a lot from them. He accepted whatever they gave. He lived for them always, sacrificing his parents, friends and relatives. He died helplessly like an orphan among us. He craved my love whenever I went there. I did not play with him lovingly when he was alive. He went away from me. Can I see him again? Where is his soul now? Slept by 10:00.

28 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took two communicative English classes in the morning and evening at HLL-V. Morning 12 employees attended this class and 4 in the evening. Today I added 10 more pages of content to my letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. Typed it out on a computer, sitting beside HR executive Eswara Prasad, at HLL-VI. Recently I knew that HR executive Subba Raju of HLL-III, Nakkapalli, was caught on charges of misappropriation of company funds. He has been with Hetero for about six years. He carried out work related to monthly salary calculations of employees. He found some ways to deposit the money from other inactive employee salary accounts into his known bank accounts. Thus he is said to have misappropriated about 50 lakh rupees from the resources of Hetero organization. He bought a piece of agricultural land near Kota Uratla with part of this money. The security staff members of Hetero found about 20 ATM cards in his rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta. The management of Hetero attached his land bought with company money. He was fired. He decided to vacate his rented abode. He looks so innocent and decent that I can’t believe this piece of news even now. A wrong desire tarnished his image within days. He misused the liberty, goodness and honour provided to him by Hetero. He may leave this place by the time I go there. He was instrumental in my joining Hetero when I was in financial crisis. He went astray. He got the result for his misdeed. May God bless him good life. Went to sleep by 10:20.

29 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I conducted English class in the morning hours only. Ten employees attended this class. Today I discussed Articles. Today I got my 14 items of worn-out clothes washed and ironed by the folks at laundry near the biologics unit. From 10:00 to 4:00 typed out and added 10 more pages to the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. Today my guestroom associate Sachin Patil vacated this room. I enjoyed his presence all these days. We exchanged our homemade snacks. We never had a clash in using toilet or otherwise. We talked politely and softly always. I can use communicative Hindi considerably. I studied Hindi for five years while at school and college. I know the basic grammar of Hindi. Grammar is the soul of any standard language. We should master it to use any language well. My Hindi vocabulary is low because I am not using it much. Knowing a language allows us to understand the lives and culture of people using it for centuries. We can learn any language if we have passion for it. I am not missing Sachin Patil much perhaps because he is a male creature. It won’t be so if I spend with a girl or lady in the similar manner. Human body and its basic instincts are like fire. They struggle to be cooled down and satiated with the water of company of opposite gender. We can live as sensitive and sensible human beings only if we suppress and reform the beast hidden in all of us. Slept by 10:20.

30 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today my parents came to my rented abode at Payakaraopeta and spent there till the evening. They enjoyed their time with Sankeerthana and Anand. Stepped out of the Hetero gate by 9:00. Took an auto rickshaw and reached Jadcherla by 9:20. Bought Telugu dailies Sakshi, Andhra Jyothi and Namasthe Telangana. Bought six bananas for 20 rupees. Walked to cinema Venkata Ramana. Sat on a chair in it and started scanning these dailies. Bought a 40-rupee ticket by 11:20. Saw the Telugu film “Rough” of Adi and Rakul Preet Singh in it till 2:00. The exciting story, plain narration, impressive performance of Adi and excellent beauty of Rakul Preet Singh are the attractions of this film. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and rushed towards cinema Srinivasa. Bought a 40-rupee ticket. Saw Telugu film “Yama Leela 2” in it from 2:15 to 4:30. The story, narration, scenery and the performance of the cast are interesting and exciting. Took an auto rickshaw by road and reached Hetero gate by 5:10. From 7:00 to 7:25 read the Telugu story “Roopini Devi” in Andhra Jyothi Sunday supplement. The plot, the first person narrative style and the vocabulary in it touched me deeply. Mannam Sindhu Madhuri wrote it very well. Her cellphone number is there towards the end of this story. Talked with her over phone from 7:50 to 8:10 about the beauty of the story she wrote. Her beautiful Telugu words and voice impressed me. We exchanged our email ids. Today some folks of Telugu film industry organized a telethon in Hyderabad for the cause of the affected ones by Hudhud cyclonic storm that rocked Visakhapatnam recently. They donated that raised fund to the government of Andhra Pradesh for this cause. Slept by 10:20.

1 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Morning four employees attended my English class from 7:00 to 8:30. Today I discussed some modal auxiliary verbs. Evening two employees came to my class from 6:30 to 8:00. I did not run this class for this reason. Today I did not add more pages to the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna as I did not sleep well last night. The HR folks of Hetero did not pay salaries to the employees of Nakkapalli units till today. Sacking Subba Raju, who was caught committing financial fraud recently, must have affected the work related to salary payment. Srijana could not pay rent of our portion to our house owner in time because of it. We read stories, watch films and meet different kinds of people often. We cannot communicate to those, whom we like, for some reasons. We don’t have their cellphone numbers, email IDs or addresses. Many artists and artistes influence and impress us a lot through their writings, paintings, music, songs and dance but most of us can’t reach our sense of admiration and appreciation to them. Many don’t like sharing their personal details publicly with all. I think writers should provide their contact details towards the end of their works. Publishers should promote this culture. Readers should be able to talk or write to their beloved writers. Some folks may create problems if they have our personal details but this happens rarely. How do good creatures contact us if we are not accessible to them? Slept by 9:30.

2 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night, by 9:27, an amount of 21,767 rupees was credited to my Axis Bank account, towards my salary, for the last month, by the folks of Hetero. I received an SMS to my cellphone about it. Today I took two communicative English classes in the morning and evening. Morning four employees attended this class and three in the evening. From 9:00 to 3:30 I added 10 more pages of content to my letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. I thought that this month I get more salary than that of last September because they added increment of 3,500 rupees to my account in October. They must have deducted much of it in different fixed ways. They said they deduct one day’s salary from the salaries of all Hetero employees for the month of November. This is towards the cause of victims of Hudhud cyclone, which affected coastal Andhra Pradesh region recently. They must have made deductions towards my PF contribution, medical insurance, bus charges, canteen and service tax also. I am not feeling the pleasure of increment for this reason. Statutory deductions are like flies on an ice cream we are consuming now. Every time we lick it passionately, they bother us a little. They don’t eat much of it but they impact the quality of pleasure we derive from that pursuit. Hetero made me hero paying me this salary but I am not feeling much of it as my inevitable expenses are exceeding my fixed income every month. Lord Krishna is my guide. Slept by 10:30.

3 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took two communicative English classes. Morning five employees attended it and two in the evening. Morning Srijana paid 2, 200 rupees to the folks of Canossa School towards second and last term fee for Anand. He is taking his third unit exams now. From 9:15 to 4:00 added 10 pages of content to my letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. Had my lunch by 12:40 in the canteen at HLL-V. Scanned today’s Telugu daily Eenadu from 4:15 to 5:30 lying on my cot in the guestroom. I am giving money to Srisailam for it. He often gets it bought and brought by his familiar employee of Hetero from Jadcherla. Today I saw my pay slip of November on MyDesk of Hetero. They deducted 901 rupees from my salary towards contribution for the victims of Hudhud cyclone. They deducted much money towards my medical insurance also. This is just waste of money for me because I never use this facility from those folks of insurance. The pay slip of the last month disappointed me much. I told the HR folks not to deduct bus transport charges from my salary this month as I don’t use it for a month. They deducted 1,000 rupees for it despite my written request and intimation about it before coming here. I am happy here eating good food and resting on a comfortable cot. Went to sleep by 10:20.

4 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took two English classes. Morning three employees attended this class and two in the evening. Added 10 more pages of content to the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna from 9:10 to 4:00. Morning Sachin Patil came to my guestroom from Kolhapur to resume his work here with the water system at HLL-V-B. Last night Y S Jagan Mohan Reddy appeared in my dream. He expressed his deepest sense of love, respect, humility and reverence for me. I wondered to sense his purest form of submission in my presence. It’s like two bosom friends meeting after years of separation and spending blissfully for some minutes. Something made him feel very sorrowful, deserted, lonely, regretful and philosophical. He must have sought solace in my thoughts in that state of peaceful and balanced mind. He remembered me very intensely. He strongly felt like spending with me for some time in this material world. Since he could not materialize it, in real world, the essence of his intense admiration and warmth for me reached me through telepathic signals. Great angels, authorized and empowered by magnanimous God, must be facilitating this metaphysical communication between one another. His love and admiration for me are so pure that I cannot feel angry with him anymore. I should love him. I should wish him happiness. May Lord Krishna bless him. It has been a classic dream for me. Slept by 10:00.

5 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I took three English classes. Morning four attended this class. From 2:00 to 4:00 conducted a special English class in the small conference hall in the first floor of HLL-VI. Ashok Todwal, the general manager of HLL-VI unit, advised me to conduct special classes to some folks at HLL-VI during daytime as the employees of injection dosages are rather free now. Ten employees attended this class. I discussed basics of English with them. Evening four employees attended this class. Morning I added four pages only to the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. Ashok talked with me for 30 minutes. He told me to take special classes during these four days before I leave. Thus he interrupted my fast project of adding 10 pages of content to this letter daily and concluding it before I leave this place. I feel like a cyclone when I am writing an important piece of intelligence. I feel furious if anybody disturbs that intense psychic journey. The IT staff disabled access to my files on the computer system by 4:10 as there is an audit soon in HLL-VI. They further dampened my spirit as a thinker. I have to resume this task at Hetero Complex, Nakkapalli. This is the plan of Lord Krishna to pacify my agitated mind for a few days. Morning Srijana and her mother took Sankeerthana and Anand to Dr. Vikram Kumar at Kakinada by bus. He administered second dose of flue preventive vaccine to both the children. He prescribed some medicines also for them. Slept by 10:20.

6 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Morning and evening I did not conduct English classes as there were no learners to listen to me. From 2:00 to 4:00 there were three employees only in my special class in the small conference hall at HLL-VI. I did not feel like teaching anything seriously to them. I discussed 100 wonderful facts. They surprised and educated them a lot. Today I took out a print of my train reservation ticket from the computer system of Eswara Prasad. I start back from this place in the afternoon hours of coming Wednesday. From 10:00 to 12:30 prepared the CV of Eswara Prasad on a computer. Improved it thoroughly using the content in his present form of CV. There are three pages in it. He felt happy seeing the updated version by me. Morning copied the long letter, addressed to Vamshi Krishna, to my pen drive in the IT room at HLL-V, with the help of an IT executive there. Also emailed it to the company email ID of Dantuluri Srinivasa Varma at Hetero Complex, Nakkapalli. It’s a very important file for me. Deleted it from the computer systems here. Today I called up some of my familiar folks and invited them to the first birthday of my baby Sankeerthana on the 12^th of this month. Srijana is busy there in the plans and arrangements related to it. Today she, her mother, Anand and Sankeerthana went to Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. The Upanayanam of my cousin Sagiraju Narendra Varma takes place on 11 February, 2015, and his marriage on 21 February, 2015. Slept by 11:00.

7 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Had my breakfast in the canteen at HLL-V by 8:30. A vehicle was going out by this time from the campus of Hetero. Took it and reached Jadcherla by 9:30. Bought Telugu dailies Andhra Jyothi, Sakshi and Namasthe Telangana from a store. Also bought a dozen bananas for 40 rupees. Thence walked down and reached HDFC Bank by road. Scanned these dailies from 9:45 to 11:00. Walked to cinema Sri Raghavendra. Saw the Telugu film “Lakshmi Raave Maa Intiki” in it from 11:20 to 2:00. The story, the narration, the dialogues, the actor, the actress and comedy are beautiful. Enjoyed watching it. Walked to cinema Devi. Saw the Telugu film “Aggi Ravva” in it from 2:15 to 5:00. Komagan A L Raja made it into an educative and inspiring film, highlighting the bitter realities of private educational system in parts of India now. Manipulative managements of educational institutions are earning crores of rupees every academic year, exploiting the poor and helpless parents of students. Corrupt governments are also in favour of them. This film portrays the stark realities of this issue in India. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 5:45. He brought us to Hetero via a shortcut after Macharam. A seven-year-old boy sat at the back of it with his two elders. His coins of money fell down in a sandy path due to a jolt of this vehicle. He ran back to pick them. He got off it near Hetero. When I asked him, he said he lost about nine rupees. I gave him 120 rupees out of my love for him. I saw a spark of innocence and happiness in his eyes. I felt a strong emotional bond with him at that time. Slept by 10:20.

8 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Morning I did not take the English class because nobody came for it. Evening I took the class. Four employees attended it. From 9:30 to 5:30 spent in a training class at HLL-V-B. External life trainer G V Srikanth presented a class titled “Nature vs. Nurture” to 14 employees here. I was there as a listener and coordinator of L&D. Mani Kumar and Jaladurgam Ram of L&D were also there. During the last one year, I sat in the classes of many external trainers in Hetero units as a representative of L&D department. I noticed that none of them used flawless English in their PPTs or speeches. They charge from 10,000 to 20,000 rupees per day for their classes. They call themselves motivational speakers. They undergo different trainings and courses to obtain different degrees and certificates. They add all those qualifications to their names to present themselves as great creatures to their clients and listeners. They commit mistakes and blunders in using English in their classes. They become and remain so, as long as they don’t refer to standard English grammar books and dictionaries. We turn into brainless sheep when we stop criticizing ourselves and learning passionately. We cannot become role models to others if we act some formal roles to cheat others. We should practice virtues before preaching them to others. I pity these batches of personality development speakers. They are helpless parasites on the contemporary entrepreneurs. Slept by 10:20.

9 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Morning anybody did not come to the English class. Evening two employees attended the class. By 7:30, morning, took 20 items of my worn-out clothes to the laundry near biologics unit. By 2:30 they washed and ironed them. Paid him 100 rupees for this service. From 10:00 to 6:00 spent in the training hall at HLL-V-B. G V Srikanth took his class for 30 employees. I participated in it for six hours as a listener and coordinator. Mani Kumar was there. Jaladurgam Ram came in the evening. I did not go to Hyderabad during the last one month though I was free during daytime and on Sundays. I have some folks there to see after a long time. I did not go there considering the distance factor. I realized that people in Mahaboob Nagar district are poor and helpless. They are struggling for existence. They got accustomed to poverty and hardship. Their dialect of Telugu, their way of life and their culture touched me. I spent in Hetero unit near village Polepalli. I love these trees, these rocks, these farms and this land. Mine is Room No. 1 in the guesthouse here. One can see beautiful sunsets and splendid scenery from the window in this guestroom. I have bathed with hot water for all these days, using the geyser in this bathroom. I have a good cot and other facilities in this room. They are maintaining these units beautifully. All treated me well. They offered me good food. I spent here liberally and happily as an English instructor and guest. Slept by 10:10.

10 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a communicative English class from 7:00 to 8:30. Two employees attended it. By 10:30 got the attendance details of my classes scanned by Gandham Srisailam and emailed these files to the related folks of Hetero. Spent watching television in the guesthouse from 10:50 to 12:20. Had my lunch by 12:45 in the canteen at HLL-V. The folks of Hetero sent a vehicle to the guesthouse on my request. By 1:15 got into it. Reached Jadcherla railway station by 1:40. Bought a ticket for 25 rupees for taking Mahaboob Nagar-Secunderabad passenger train. Spent waiting for this train on platform 1 from 1:45 to 4:15 (talking with Keshava Murthy, a retired teacher of this region). When I asked the station master, he said that my expected train would arrive very late today. He advised me to take a bus. Their professional standards infuriated me. Hired an auto rickshaw for 50 rupees and rushed to Jadcherla Bus Station beside main road. Took a Kurnool-Hyderabad Express bus by 4:30. Bought a ticket for 80 rupees. S Keshav Reddy, who was travelling by this bus up to MGBS, offered to drop me at Secunderabad railway station, after knowing about my situation. This bus reached MGBS by 6:50. Keshav and I started on his bike by 7:00. He dropped me at the railway station by 7:28. Today Lord Krishna (Keshav) helped me two ways. Bought a dozen bananas for 40 rupees. Got into G-8 coach of Garib Rath Express train on platform 1 by 7:30. Bought a pack of Vegetable Biryani for 60 rupees and had it by 8:30. Bought blanket and pillow for 25 rupees to use. Slept by 10:20.

11 December (Thursday)

Got up from my berth by 1:15. Stood in the open space at exit till 1:40 breathing fresh winter air. Meanwhile this train reached Vijayawada Junction. Got off my coach and spent on the platform for a few seconds. This train pulled off by 2:00. Got onto my berth to sleep again. Woke up by 5:00 when this train was leaving Samarla Kota station. It reached Tuni by 5:50. Helped my journey mate Shruthi get off this train with her little baby and female associate Kondamma. She is a native of village Satya Varam near Payakaraopeta. She is a beauty. Invited her to the birthday of my baby daughter Sankeerthana. Srijana came to station to receive me on our scooty. We reached home by 6:15. Yesterday evening my parents came to my abode from Peda Gummuluru to attend the birthday of Sankeerthana. By 8:00 my father and I started to Peda Gummuluru on my scooty. My friend Bojja Shankara Rao sent 25 litres of cow milk to our house by 9:30 in a can on my request. Paid 650 rupees for it. My father sat behind me, keeping this can with milk between us, on scooty. We returned to Payakaraopeta by 10:20. I rode the scooty very carefully. Rest of the day involved myself in preparatory work related to the first birthday celebration of Sankeerthana. I knew that the agricultural loan of 25,000 rupees, which I borrowed from the Primary Agricultural Cooperative Society, at village Koruprolu, about two years ago, got waived completely, recently. I owe to Nara Chandra Babu Naidu, the present Chief Minister of Andhra Pradesh, for this kind gesture towards me also. Slept by 10:00.

12 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 6:45 my father-in-law took me to a place in Tuni to collect some litres of buffalo milk from a seller here. He did not turn up till 8:30. Then Sekhar took me to fish market in Tuni. He bought 12 kilos of white prawn for 2,400 rupees for the occasion today. I stood here for one hour observing three folks remove the soft skin of these prawn. Returned home by 10:00. My relatives came to our abode by 12:30. Children decorated the hall with balloons and sheets of coloured paper. By 4:00 my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju and I went to a bakery unit in Tuni and collected the two-kg birthday cake in the name of Sankeerthana. Its cost is 500 rupees. By 4:30 Prawn Biryani, Vegetable Biryani, Chicken Curry, Fish Curry and other dishes for the dinner were ready. The birthday celebration of Sankeerthana took place from 5:30 to 7:30 in our decorated and illuminated hall. My parents got her cut the cake. We and our invitees blessed her. We hired a photographer to take photos of this occasion and give us those soft copies of photos. I too took the photos and videos of this occasion with my Sony digital camera. The dinner was served to our guests in the ground opposite our abode, under a hired tent, from 6:45 to 9:30. We put chairs on the road opposite our abode and almost occupied it during this time. Some parked their bikes and cars on and along this road. It all went on well. Srijana oversaw everything. Sankeerthana was patient enough to sit calmly throughout the function. Many guests left this place by 8:30. Lord Krishna directed it well. Slept by 10:20.

13 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju and aunt Raja Kumari left for Gollalagunta by 5:10 on their bike. My uncle Rama Krishnam Raju also left for this village. My parents left for Peda Gummuluru. Took a Hetero bus at Y Junction by 8:15 and reached Hetero Complex by 9:00. Some of my familiar folks expressed their pleasure over my coming back to this campus after one month. I like their warmth for me. Today I prepared reports on my English classes conducted at Hetero Jadcherla unit recently. I did it for about seven hours on the computer system of D S Varma. Emailed these reports to Jaladurgam Ram, Gopala Krishna Reddy, Subba Rao and Mani Kumar by 6:10. Today, about 12:30, in the afternoon, I entered the females’ toilet in the ground floor of our administrative block at HLL-III. I did it being engrossed in a thought process. It’s just before the toilet of males here. Luckily there was no even a female creature in and around this toilet during this time. Lord Krishna set the stage completely ready for my show at this time. It all happened within five seconds. I went in and came out of it like a rocket. Returned home by 7:15 by a Hetero bus. From 9:30 to 12:30 Anand and I saw Telugu film “Lingaa” of Rajnikant in cinema Sai Mahal. The story, the narration, the music, the dialogues, scenery, Sonakshi and Anushka are beautiful and very interesting throughout. Slept by 1:00.

14 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I typed up the content of November from my diary of 2014 on my computer for six hours. By 6:00 took Anand to the salon of Vadapilli Ramana and got his hair cut. By 7:30 took my CPU to the Internet café of Mohan, my familiar fellow. Told him to dust and format it. He checked the status of CPU in my presence and said that it need not be formatted. He said that he would upload the latest anti-virus software and some other tools to make it effective. He remarked that he might take 300 rupees from me formatting it unnecessarily but he does not like it. He said that God gives him money another way if he is good to all. He gave me an example to let me know how God gave him more money than expected, when he lost 200 rupees from one of his clients, being honest.  I wondered about his goodness and his devotion to God. If every Indian thinks like Mohan, there won’t be pain and suffering in India. Many are craving love and honesty in India now. We must be truthful to all. God is more kind and generous towards those that love and serve others honestly and kindly. Srijana said that she spent about 22,000 rupees for the birthday celebration of Sankeerthana. My brothers Srinivas and Sambha gave 10,000 rupees each for the baby. Guests presented money and gifts. The gift money amounted to about 35,000 rupees. I think about 250 guests graced this occasion, including our folks. Morning my mother-in-law left for the teak plantation at Marripalem. Slept by 9:30.

15 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a Hetero bus by 8:20 and reached Hetero Complex by 9:00. Morning typed out a letter specifying the details of money I spent during my travel to Jadcherla and stay there for a month. It all amounted to 3,000 rupees. I return 2,000 rupees to them. Today I checked my online account of Axis Bank and knew that 1,030 rupees were credited to it on 8.11.2014 from the folks of income tax department towards my IT refund for the financial year 2014-15. I am very happy about it. They worked like stars of India. I love them. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class in the training hall at HLL-III in cGMP set of classes and taught on ‘Winners’ through a PPT. From 4:15 to 5:45 talked with our manager Illuri Subba Rao in his cabin. We discussed life, God, religion, love, attraction between opposite genders and agriculture. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. By 9:00 brought my CPU of computer from the Internet café of Mohan. He installed some software on it. He could not remove webssearches.com from the menu bar. It’s a dirty malware developed by some Indian fraudsters. Paid him 100 rupees for his service. Today Srijana, her maternal grandmother and Sankeerthana went to Purushotthapuram and Rambilli on our scooty to see their relatives there. They started here by 10:00 and returned by 4:30. Today I knew that my mother collapsed yesterday morning at a place in our house in Peda Gummuluru due to low blood pressure. She got hurt a little. Slept by 11:20.

16 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night Lakshmi appeared in my dream. She remembered me deeply on an occasion she attended somewhere. She felt the pain of separation and loss intensely. Angels of God reached me this message through telepathy. I suffered like a platonic lover of this girl while experiencing this dream. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I added six more pages of content to the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. I am typing out this content on the computer system of D Srinivasa Varma. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class in the training hall at HLL-III and talked on ‘Winners’. By 5:00 returned 2,000 rupees to Shilpa in the accounts department at HLL-III. I borrowed 5,000 rupees earlier from her for my expenses during Jadcherla tour and stay. I spent 3,000 rupees on this assignment. Returned the remaining money today. Returned home by 7:10 by bus. Spent with Sankeerthana for one hour. Took her to the abode of Padma in our street. She is bored of seeing the same things in our abode every day. She feels happy if I take her out. My mother is recovering from the sickness caused by collapsing recently in our house. She is in the pursuit of getting our house whitewashed now in view of Sankranti ahead. She refused to come to our abode for this reason. In fact, she enjoys staying there more than anywhere else. We develop attachment with some people and places. We like to be there. Others may find it illogical and eccentric at times. Slept by 9:30.

17 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I added four pages of content to the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna, typing it out for two hours. Today Moka Srinivas of EHS department brought an eagle 2015 diary for me from Kakinada. He bought it from Sri Kalyani Book Centre at Bhanugudi Centre on my advice. He bought it for 140 rupees. It’s a blue diary of TOURIST GUIDE version. Its code is HBX. It’s looking very beautiful. Srinivas selected an impressive piece for me. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Edited the content of November from my diary of 2014 on my computer from 8:15 to 9:15. Recently a casual discussion arose between our manager Illuri Subba Rao and me about the frequency of sexual intercourse between couples these days. He wondered when I told him that I would have had it for about 50 times only with my life partner during the last six years of our married life. Many believe that husbands of beauties crave and indulge in it passionately. Birth control measures, aversion to use of condoms, lack of time and lack of inspiring and suitable ambience are some factors, making young and passionate couples also unable to enjoy their conjugal lives. Many go for it with other creatures. I decided to follow Lord Rama in this regard. A true Hindu should have his or her conjugal life with life partner only. My body can indulge in it 365 days a year but Lord Krishna did not plan my schedules from that perspective only. Slept by 9:45.

18 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 on the bike of a familiar Hetero employee. They did not stop buses today at Y Junction for some employees to get in. Today I added five pages of content to the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class in the training hall at HLL-III and talked on ‘Winners’. God created genitals for urinary and reproductive purposes. Modern man started according excessive importance to sex. One cannot feel and enjoy orgasm for more than a few minutes. If man can feel it for a minute at the most, females can delight in it for 10 minutes. Millions of people are indulging in many immoral, illegal and absurd acts of sex for this fleeting bodily pleasure. 97% of people like sex with different creatures but not with the same partner forever. This is the major reason for prostitution and debauchery in this world. One should have sex once for 24 hours to derive pleasure from it. Masturbation and sex fantasies are better than aggressive and immoral attacks on others. Anybody that satiates his sex instincts like a beast in this life is likely to be born as a pig in the following life form. God gives us what we crave and deserve. I too have the instincts of a beast in me but I regulate them to live like a gentleman. There are many varieties of postures of sexual intercourse but in reality we often fail to practice them for various reasons. It is a good exercise for body and mind. There are norms for when and how to do or not to do it. There are rules for every game in our knowledge. We should follow them to be treated as humans. Slept by 9:30.

19 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I added five pages of content to the letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna and concluded it. There are 108 pages in this Word file. I edit and send it to Vamshi Krishna soon. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class in a training hall at HLL-III and talked on ‘Winners’. Sankeerthana expressed excessive affection towards me after I returned from the Hetero unit at Jadcherla. She took some time to recollect me. Then she felt very possessive of me. When I return from Hetero in the evenings, she feels very happy looking at me. She is obsessed with the intuition of standing on her own now. She is often doing it for a few seconds. She is biting every accessible object with her two lower teeth now. She is consuming breast milk at night only before sleeping. Srijana is grinding and feeding hard foods to her during daytime. She enjoys outdoor tours and playing with others. She likes listening to songs. She is moving to the tune of the music on. She does not consume tonics and medicines that easily. Now she is crawling on her knees and palms fast. She plays some tricks with us after learning them from us. She is not as fair as she was a few months ago. Her hair is also not considerably black now. She is active. Often she gets into mischief and infuriates her mother. She has about 50 pairs of clothes now. Regularly Srijana is applying coconut oil to her hair. She is sleeping in the cradle in our hall in the morning or afternoon only during daytime for some time. Slept by 9:45.

20 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night Telugu film actor Nagendra Babu appeared in my dream. ‘Mukundha’, the debut Telugu film of his son Varun Tej, is to be released to cinemas soon. This gentleman is in those thoughts now. He is financially and psychologically somewhat down now. He strongly felt like sharing those innermost feelings with me. Since it became impossible for him to talk with me in real world, due to the psychological boundaries he built around him, he thought about me deeply for solace. In fact, God is the source of ultimate solace. God reached the sensitive notions of this gentleman to me through telepathy. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I started editing the long letter addressed to Vamshi Krishna. Changed its font from Times New Roman to Perpetua. Changed its font size from 11 to 12 for ideal legibility. The content of this letter got extended to 118 pages after these changes. I edited the initial 25 pages of content in it today on the computer of Srinivasa Varma. D G Pratap of QA department at HLL-III consumed about three hours of my time today, making me type out data of winners of sports and games, which are being conducted now here as part of our annual event. When I was editing an important document, meant for the development of Hetero organization, he made me spend my precious time on such data typing work. This is how time gets misused extensively in India by many folks. Wasting time becomes an automated process in their lives and professions. Pratap is a good boy but he knows to use me as a data entry operator only. Slept by 10:00.

21 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Typed up the content of December, from 1 to 20 of it, on my computer, from 9:30 to 1:30. My cousin Narendra Varma came by 3:15. He bought a pair of cloth pieces in Kakinada for him. Took him to Noor Tailors unit by 3:20 on my scooty. This tailor took his physical measurements. He charged 350 rupees to stitch them. Naren, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 3:30 on our scooty. Naren held the empty milk can of my friend Shankar. Now the folks of NHAI are improving the present NH-16 between Tuni and Elamanchili. One way traffic restrictions are imposed here and there. I bought 13 oranges for 100 rupees at Adduroad for my parents. We spent talking with my parents for some time. We started to our mango garden at hills by 4:00 on scooty. Anand stayed back at our house in Peda Gummuluru. We reached my two-acre mango farm by 4:15. They are growing well. The plants of horse gram are green and beautiful here. They did not yield crop for lack of rain in time. I enjoyed their proud presence around my young mango plants. The mango plants blossomed earlier than expected. My father nipped most of them. He is going there regularly to nurture the growth of these plants. We spent talking with my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy and aunt Kumari from 4:25 to 5:00 at their thatched hut. We talked with Sambha at our house for some time. Three of us returned home by 6:10 on our scooty. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

22 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:05 on the bike of a familiar Hetero employee. Today I edited 25 pages of content in the letter addressed to Vamsi Krishna. Winter is very intense now. Some farmers are happy now as a loan waiver scheme of Nara Chandra Babu Naidu enabled them not to pay much of their crop or gold loan. I too benefited from this scheme. Many rich folks are also benefitting from this scheme. I have been a helpless beggar accepting these alms from Chandra Babu. There are thousands of such beggars in Andhra Pradesh. My father can help me clear this loan because I am financially down now. He does not mind his son becoming and remaining as a beggar forever. Many rich Indians, who have assets worth crores of rupees, are also shamelessly depending on the schemes and programs meant for the poor and the helpless. Various governments are spending huge money every year for these affluent beggars of India like me. These are worthless rogues of India compared to those sleeping in bus stands, railway stations and pavements at nights. Indians lost honesty and self-respect years ago. They choose to live as beggars forever. Most of the government employees and politicians are also beggars in India. They are begging regularly from others. When my brother Sambha asked me if I want a fresh agricultural loan, I said no. Chandra Babu offered me alms collecting it from the bowls of helpless beggars in this nation. I should not bother him more remaining as a shameless rogue forever. Slept by 10:00.

23 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I edited 25 pages of content in the letter addressed to Vamsi Krishna. From 3:00 to 4:00 took L&D class in the training hall at HLL-III and talked on ‘Winners’. Anand took his half-yearly exams for three days recently. Now he has Christmas holidays for some days. When I saw my mother last Sunday, I knew that there was a little swelling on her head. It resulted when she collapsed and hit the main door, from behind, in their portion. My brother Sambha took her to a doctor at Adduroad. High blood pressure and diabetes are her major problems. Asthma and knee joint pains are her minor health problems. She is taking tablets for her major problems every day. My younger sister-in-law Kranthi could not win their hearts. Sambha is a source of support and solace to them. They are worried about him because he is consuming alcohol daily now. He is not changing despite our advice to him. I am being away from my parents, not to be a burden to them. I am unable to spend much money for them because my regular expenses are exceeding my salary income every month. They are not spending their money for them much because they have been economical for years now and want to save it for us. My brother Srinivas is at Bhima Varam doing his job with UCO Bank and educating his children there. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani looks after them like a goddess. I am witness of these things. Slept by 10:00.

24 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I edited 25 pages of content in the letter addressed to Vamsi Krishna. From 3:00 to 4:00 took an L&D class in the training hall at HLL-III and talked about ‘Winners’. Morning, by 9:30, Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana left for the teak plantation at Marripalem. Anand has Christmas holidays till next Sunday. They wish to spend there for these few days. By 7:30, at night, I had a Chapathi, for 20 rupees, at a hotel by Y Junction. By 8:09 sent an email to Mannam Sindhu Madhuri of Guntur. She writes Telugu stories and speaks on public platforms now and then. My Internet is very slow now. I have to wait for many seconds to open my email account also. I think cold winds of Indian winter are blocking the free travel of broadband waves of Reliance Netconnet+ medium. I should get my computer checked and formatted. Slow Internet access kills our time and interest to do something online. I am spending 441 rupees only now for a month for the wireless broadband Internet of Reliance. I wish to migrate to another service provider. They charge much initially. I cannot spend even that 1,500 or 2,000 rupees now for it. Financial constraints too often hinder us from good things we wish to do. I could not get my second work of emails/stories published till now for this reason. Yesterday night, by 7:15, Indian film director Kailasam Balachander died in Chennai. He has been one of the stars of Indian cinema. He is a man of standards and values as an artist and individual. Slept by 10:00.

25 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:12 on the bike of a familiar Hetero employee. There was no room in the buses today to get in. Today I spent in the Chanakya training hall at Boys’ Hostel. Speaker M V V K Gupta took a Lead India 2020 class to 68 Hetero employees and talked on four topics to educate them as persons and employees.  I coordinated it as a representative of L&D department from 9:30 to 5:30. I had snacks and lunch here in the hostel along with these participants and trainer. They offer food, snacks and tea, free of cost, to those attending training programs of this order, on most of the occasions. I enjoyed this class as a listener also throughout. Today I could not edit the letter addressed to Vamsi Krishna, being engaged in this work as a supervisor. I played the role of a shepherd instead of a wizard today. This is how many employers utilize their employees in India, knowingly or unknowingly. Today Jaladurgam Ram and Kishore Reddy of L&D went to Maredumilli from our Nakkapalli Hetero unit. Ram conducts a class for some Hetero folks tomorrow and day after tomorrow. Returned home by 7:30 after having a Chapathi in the hotel at Y Junction. Edited the content of December, from 1 to 20, on my computer, from 8:00 to 8:40, from my diary of 2014. Sent an email to Rajesh Touchriver by 9:00 appreciating his worth as an idealist and radical thinker. He directed three great films till now. He thinks and works like a visionary Indian. Slept by 10:00. 

26 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:10 by bus. Today I edited 10 pages of content in the letter addressed to Vamsi Krishna. I write why I named my baby daughter Sankeerthana. This name sounds like the name of her mother Srijana. There is a classic Telugu feature film titled “Sankeerthana”. Geetha Krishna directed this extraordinary film. Similarly Lord Krishna is the creator and director of my baby Sankeerthana. Akkineni Nagarjuna and Ramya Krishnan played the poet and dancer in this film. Their roles are moving in this film. These two artists fall in love in this film. Dr. C Narayana Reddy, Sirivennela Sita Rama Sastri and Acharya Athreya wrote divine lyrics for this film. They are stars of Telugu film industry. Tanikella Bharani wrote fascinating and heavenly dialogues for this film. These words hug and kiss our senses poetically and platonically. My beloved singer S P Bala Subrahmanyam, K J Yesudas, S Janaki, Vani Jayaram and S P Sailaja sang splendid songs for this film. The music of maestro Ilayaraja is the soul of this film. Dr. M Gangaiah produced it on the banner of Konark Movie Creations. It was released in 1987. This film is mostly shot in beautiful spots of East Godavari district. I admire these people and places. Sankeerthana is a masterpiece for me. Everybody that worked in the making of this classic film command our love and respect. Sankeerthana means singing melodiously, worshipping God. I want the life of my baby to be so beautiful, inspiring, touching, melodious and divine like this film and a song praising God. This name sounds melodious. Sankeerthana was born in Maargashiram month, the favourite one to Lord Krishna. I am grateful to Him for all this. Slept by 10:00.

27 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:56 by bus. Today I edited the last 10 pages of content in my letter addressed to Vamsi Krishna and completed this grand project. I felt blissful about this achievement. Perhaps this is the longest letter I have written to a person till now. I attached a small colour photo of me towards the end of this letter. I changed it to a PDF. There are 120 pages in it. There are 73,484 words in this letter. I typed out and edited this content for about 100 hours, on different days in this month, at Jadcherla and Nakkapalli Hetero units, on the computers of other employees. I discussed many things useful to Hetero organization under 12 headers. When I told some familiar employees of Hetero that I am sending this long letter to our chairman and his son, they said they may not read that long letter. Some said it may give negative result to me. I believe that it is a classic letter meant for the success and happiness of all those associated with Hetero organization. It’s a grand deed on my part. Let Lord Krishna decide its result. A radical thinker and idealist should have extraordinary thoughts and courage to share them with the beneficiaries. I am doing it. Evening went to our house in Peda Gummuluru and brought some bananas grown there. Went there with permission. Afternoon Srijana, Anand and Sankeerthana returned to our rented abode from the teak plantation of D S N Raju at Marripalem. Sankeerthana got a cold on the return journey. Slept by 10:00.

28 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 8:00 sent the long letter, addressed to Vamsi Krishna, to him and his father Sri Bandi Partha Saradhi Reddy, from my personal email ID. Typed up and edited the content of December, from 21 to 27, from my diary of 2014, on my computer, from 8:00 to 9:30. Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Mukundha” of Varun Tej and Pooja Hegde in cinema Sri Rama Krishna from 11:10 to 1:30. It is a pleasant film. Varun Tej looks like his father Nagendra Babu. He did his role well with ease. Addala Srikanth shaped and presented the role of Rao Ramesh excellently. I love the superb acting skills of Ramesh in every film I watch. His mannerism, typical dialogues and their diction and his appearance are the asset of this film. The role of Prakash Raj is passive in this film. All songs, except one, are melodious and touching. Music is inspiring in many parts of it. Pooja impresses with her decent and calm role. The hero and the heroine talk to each other, that too very little, after 90% of the film. It happens in real life also. Srikanth portrayed this film according to his taste and orientation. My best wishes to Varun. By 3:30 Srijana, Anand, Sankeerthana and I went to the rented abode of Sekhar in Tuni on my scooty. Srijana and I met Doctor D Rama Krishnam Raju in his ENT clinic at Tuni by 5:00. Srijana is unable to smell flavours. He prescribed tablets and scan of nose for her. He prescribed six VIPOCURE PLUS tablets for control of sound in my head on my request. We returned home by 5:40. Sankeerthana is suffering from a cold now. Slept by 10:00.

29 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:56 by bus. Morning helped my colleague Kusuma Devi finalize the training data of a program for two hours. Coordinated SET nominally in the morning and afternoon. By 12:40 it started raining due to depression over the Bay of Bengal, which resulted in cyclone. It rained moderately for about three hours continually. It turned very cool and pleasant. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Sankeerthana is suffering from a cold, cough and phlegm now. She is not sleeping well at night. Srijana is disturbed about it. Today Sindhu Madhuri replied to me from Guntur. She does not know even how to address me. She used some ungrammatical English words. She replied to me without changing the text in the subject line. I had a good impression about her after reading her Telugu story “Roopini Devi” recently in the Sunday supplement of Telugu daily Andhra Jyothi. I lost that impression about her after reading this email. She discussed human life beautifully in that story, using good Telugu words. I did not sense such refinement in the use of words in this email. Perhaps she is not a true writer. A writer should have affection, respect and sensitivity towards everything created by God. He should spread knowledge and message of God to all. Sindhu is not the only writer in India. I bothered to talk with her over phone and sent her an email. I did so to express my sense of appreciation to her but not because I am an idiot. If she cannot write a short email also well, why should I waste my time treating her like a worthy creature? Slept by 10:00.

30 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 8:54 by bus. Today Vedika program took place from 3:30 to 5:00 in the training hall at HLL-III. Today it rained continually for some time due to depression over the Bay of Bengal. It was cool and pleasant most of the day. Today Sankeerthana suffered a lot due to a cold and phlegm. Srijana took care of her patiently. She said that she cursed my and her folks for none of them helped her during this testing time. Sometimes babies don’t allow their mothers to have a meal also. Bringing up babies is not as easy as we outsiders think. A good mother only experiences and knows the pain and strain involved in it. I often forget writing about some things in my diary. Many things happen in 24 hours’ time. We can’t record them perfectly always. There is much scope for losing or missing information while writing or reading a diary. What we avoid writing today, considering something worthless today, may become very useful and important in near or distant future. We cannot get it later, despite our best efforts. Time is a powerful shadow. It conceals, suppresses and buries many events and secrets regularly. Diaries and diarists are like fleeting rags against the whirlwind of time, which is automated and authorized by God. Diaries are reliable records of the past but not 100%. The character, attitude and mood of writer also impact how they write diaries. We should be as honest as possible while writing our personal diaries. Truths are sweet fruit of God. Slept by 10:00.

 

 31 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Reached Hetero Complex by 9:00 by bus. Today I did not do anything useful to Hetero. Many folks appeared wishing others on the occasion of the eve of New Year’s Day. It was cold and windy today. Returned home by 7:15 by bus. Typed up and edited the content of December, from 27 to 30, from my diary of 2014, on my computer, from 7:45 to 8:30. Added this content towards the end of remaining content of it, which I posted on my blog site last Sunday. By 8:16 got an SMS to my cellphone. The folks of Hetero credited 24, 938 rupees to my Axis Bank account towards my salary for this month. From 8:00 to 9:30 Srijana and Surya Kumari decorated the front of our abode with a design of colours, welcoming the New Year 2015. They thought that the winds of winter erase most of it by tomorrow morning. They asked me to capture it with my digital camera before it loses its shape due to power of nature. I did not do it because at dim light of night, my camera cannot snap it well. That colourful design is like the hopes and dreams of ordinary creatures. The wind is like a painting brush of God. He changes every design with his creative skills and mystical powers. Our paintings are like those drawn on a wet beach. Any tide can erase it at any time. The strokes of brush of God are like the commands of a benevolent dictator, inscribed on the canvases of millions of souls in this universe. We should obey them. This year is like a dot in that painting of God. Slept by 10:30.                                

                                                                                   

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