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Tuesday, January 1, 2013

MY PERSONAL DIARY OF 2012



1 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today a few creatures wished me on the occasion of arrival of new English year 2012. I did not wish anybody proactively. Somehow I am not comfortable with this shallow culture. We can feel it. We need not celebrate it specially with others consuming bad drinks and dancing crazily. Every year we must grow as rational thinkers, individuals, spiritualists and idealists. It should happen every day and night. This is what God expects from us. By 9:00 gave 480 rupees to the local buffalo milk seller towards 16 litres of fresh milk I bought from him from 16 December to 31 December in 2011. By 8:00 paid 2,000 rupees to our house owner Datla Satya Narayana Raju towards our portion rent for the period from 14 December to 31 December last year. I told him to consider 200 rupees of it as our domestic electricity usage charge for this period. They did not arrange a separate electricity reading machine in our portion yet. I asked D S N Raju if he is expecting formal advance payment for our rented portion. He said he would clarify it after consulting my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy Raju. He loves and respects my uncle a lot due to our ancestral family relations. Spent most of the day at home reading Eenadu. Night visited our familiar folks in Tuni. Went to sleep by 10:30.

2 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of January from my personal diary of 2011 on my computer. Took about six hours’ time for it. Srijana read out part of this content while I was typing it up. I could type faster when she was reading it out than when I was looking into it time to time. My fingers move fast on a computer keyboard. My friend Sriram typed up all my personal diaries on computer so far. Earlier I decided not to assign any work to him due to his instruction to me to delete a word from my personal diary. I considered him as a coward after this experience with him. I feel happy when typing up my personal diary on my computer. Evening Sekhar brought his familiar mattress maker to our abode on our request. He checked the measurements of our big iron cot. He asked for 10,000 rupees to make a mattress and three pillows for this cot. He uses quality material for it. We told him to do it. By 8:00 Srijana brought a statue of Lord Krishna into our abode. She bought it for 400 rupees from a nearby roadside seller in Payakaraopeta. She said that she bought it to present to me as a gift against my birthday mementoes to her every year. I felt blissful about it. Lord Krishna came to our abode. I have very little passion for the photos and statues of deities. Went to sleep by 10:00.

3 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of February from my diary of 2011 on my computer. Srijana read out part of this content for me. Morning Srijana gave back the statue of Lord Krishna to the roadside seller to get it painted white by him. Now it is in the colour of brown. He is not appearing clearly to viewers in our abode. He is a beautiful God. Srijana gave a little white paint and 50 rupees to that artisan to paint it. He painted it well by the evening. Lord Krishna turned very beautiful after this painting work. I am not going to His temples or worshipping Him formally in our abode. God does not expect acting skills from His devotees. He knows that every creature lives and dies according to its Karma. God ensures that this cosmic process goes on naturally in every age. I am very happy to see Lord Krishna in our abode. Evening applied for 14 works through Elance, an online platform for freelance professionals to find work and earn money. They pay in US dollars. I found their policies and practices fair and appreciable. I am waiting to get some freelance work from oDesk and Elance. The money, which I borrowed from the folks of Manappuram Finance, is flowing out fast. I have to face this situation earning money soon. Went to sleep by 10:00.

4 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of March from my diary of 2011 on my computer. Srijana read out content from some pages of it. Evening booked a Spice handset on the Bag It Today of India Today Group. Its price is 999 rupees. Its look and features are very attractive. I give it to Srijana. She is very interested in buying a cellphone with such features. Her present cellphone became old. It’s a Nokia piece. She bought it around March 2008. Now it is not functioning well. Srijana likes using gadgets with modern and socially attractive features. I think this Spice cellphone meets these criteria. I will take it if she does not find it interesting after using it for some days. My Reliance LG handset is also looking old and weak now. Srijana is often commenting that I am not an efficient and reliable earner. I married her without a job saying that I was doing a job at the time of engagement. I remained without doing a job for many months after my marriage with her. Now many young folks are earning well in India and abroad doing different jobs and businesses. They are buying many things for their wives and children. I am not doing well in this aspect of life. Srijana is right in her views and remarks about my present state of life as an earner. Money is the most powerful phenomenon of this age. It provides value to its holders. Went to sleep by 10:00.

5 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 10:30 Srijana and Anand took a bus to go to our house in Peda Gummuluru. Srijana helps my mother in cooking two kinds of dishes on the occasion of Sankranti. My mother opted for her against my sisters-in-law Sandhya Rani and Kranti. Sandhya Rani is busy every day making food arrangements for her husband and two sons. Kranti is not good at cooking. Her patience levels are low. Cooks need patience. They may cook many dishes working hard for a long time but those that consume them criticize them insensitively. I am not good at cooking but I often criticize about the cooking skills of Srijana. We need a few minutes to blame others but years to become an expert in something. We often forget this truth when casually criticizing others. My mother is preparing these two dishes to distribute to her three sons. Good parents love their children more when they are growing older but bad sons and daughters neglect their parents when they are financially independent and young. I think my parents are greater than their three sons. They are always giving us something to improve our comfort and happiness levels. We are doing almost nothing for them in return. They are concerned about our future. Today typed up the content of April from my diary of 2011. Went to sleep by 10:00.

6 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could not sleep well. Two little mosquitoes kept on making sound about me. I killed them with the bat meant for it. They attacked me more. I remained awake most of the night, doing this duty. Some of them are harmless but their sounds irritate us when we are trying to sleep. Today I avoided typing up part of my 2011 diary because I felt sleepy and weak. By 1:30 posted a blog titled “Reliance Netconnect” on my blog site adding the photo of Anil Ambani. I discussed the point of my inconvenience caused due to the inefficient and poor service delivered by them. I am not getting their promised 3.1 Mbps broadband (Internet) speed from their Reliance Netconnect device attached to my computer system. I ruthlessly blamed Anil for the poor standards he is maintaining while doing business in India with Indians. He is not a good entrepreneur. He does not practice business ethics. Their customer service is poor. By 5:45 Srijana and Anand returned from Peda Gummuluru by bus. My mother sent 50 items of homemade Mithai and snacks for us on the occasion of Sankranti. From 7:30 to 10:00 spent in a weekly meeting of the business owners of Amway in Tuni. My friend Ramnadh Varma took me there. They talked about the business standards of Amway and the nature of their service to India. I enjoyed listening to their casual speeches and sensing their enthusiasm. Went to sleep by 11:00.

7 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of May from my diary of 2011. Srijana read out part of it. Anand is adding happiness to our lives. He is speaking many words clearly. He always wants the presence of his mother. I stopped using my hands to correct him. He often indulges in mischief. Srijana calls me to correct him with my angry words. I am like a special squad member. I involve in their affairs occasionally to instill a sense of discipline in him. I did not buy toys or such other items for Anand. Srijana does it for him. She recently bought a kiddy bank for him. She is putting his money in it. I don’t like this practice. Children, aged below 10 years, should not be burdened with the ideas of saving money and future plans. Their parents can do it for them. Some folks advised me to admit him into some kindergarten school around June this year. I want to do it when I find him suitable for it. Institutional learning is a burden on human brain. Tender kids should not be subjected to this regular punishment. Anand should enjoy his life in our presence at this stage of his physical and psychological growth. He is not a burden to us but delightful and precious asset. We should let him to develop under our protective and kind guidance. Parents should think like saints but not merchants. Went to sleep by 10:30.

8 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today typed up the content of June from my diary of 2011 on my computer. Morning my in-laws took Janmabhoomi Express in Secunderabad railway station. Today Srijana spent her time waiting for the arrival of her parents. She made all the parts of our abode clean and tidy again. I wondered observing her enthusiasm and excitement today. Srijana enjoys the presence of her father more than that of her mother. He loves her a lot. He buys something for her frequently. He brought her up providing her with liberty. I like their bond as a father and daughter. Srijana went to Tuni railway station by 6:00 on the scooty of Asha Bhanu along with Anand to receive her parents. Her maternal uncle Sekhar too went there. By 7:00 the local mattress maker brought a mattress and three pillows to our abode. He arranged them on our big iron cot. Found them suitable and beautiful on it. We paid 10,000 rupees for it till now. We have to yet pay 1,000 rupees to him. Srijana and Sekhar brought my in-laws on two bikes by 8:00. They brought about 30 kilos of fresh Amla nuts, homemade snacks and two pairs of clothes for Anand. They found our rented abode beautiful and comfortable for us. Anand is very happy about the arrival of his maternal grandparents. They shower unconditional love upon him. He enjoys that liberal treatment. Went to sleep by 11:00.

9 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today it is the 22nd birthday of Srijana. She enters her 23rd year of life today. My brother Sambha came here by 11:00 on his bike along with his friend Gopi. We checked a few residential plots of land in Devi Nagar for 30 minutes along with the father-in-law of Gopi. My brother enquired about the present rates of these plots of land. Very few houses are constructed in Devi Nagar till now. This area is between NH-16 and railway track. Now the folks of real estate business are very active here buying and selling these plots. I gained some insights from the casual talk of my brother about plots. Gopi and Sambha left for Peda Gummuluru by 12:30. My brother took about 30 kilos of Amla nuts. They prepare pickle with them at home. My father-in-law bought two kilos of chicken and three kilos of prawn on the occasion of the birthday of Srijana. They prepared a few dishes for this occasion. This birthday party took place from 7:30 to 9:30. About 25 creatures attended this celebration. Srijana cut her birthday cake by 8:00. Took video of this occasion with my digital camera. It did not result well due to poor light in our abode during this time. Srijana wore a new pair of clothes. She spent all the day happily. Her parents made it possible. Morning gave my birthday memento to her. By 10:00 my in-laws and Anand left for Viswanadhapuram. Slept by 11:00.

10 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I told Srijana that I would spend this day for her. We wanted to go somewhere and spend together. We did not do it. We don’t have a bike to go out frequently. We have to walk to reach NH-16. Thence we have to take a sharing auto rickshaw or hire a rickshaw to go deeper into Payakaraopeta or Tuni. We can move in three directions from the Y Junction here. Transport facilities are few to Devi Nagar. Vehicles create sound and air pollution but we need them to travel fast and comfortably to distant places. Srijana started getting ready by 2:00 to go to Viswanadhapuram. Her dear folks are there. I treat her like a parrot in some respects. Birds live happily in their natural habitats like hills, valleys and forests. For Srijana, Viswanadhapuram is such a natural habitat. I think the much age difference between Srijana and me is good for her. I treat her like a sensitive and innocent student. They grow well if we provide them with liberty and clean atmosphere. Srijana is young by age but I am young both physically and psychologically. Happiness grows there, where youthful age and experienced sage are working together. Srijana excels me in some skills. God does not equip any creature with all kinds of skills. Everybody depends on others for something. Thus different creatures develop and sustain a bond of mutual dependence and happiness. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning submitted the manuscript of “A Dreamer’s Love Story” to the folks of Yodha Press, Women Unlimited and Other India Press by email. These publishing firms are in New Delhi and Goa. Women are managing them. I read a feature about women running publishing firms in India in the Telugu daily Sakshi on the 9th of this month. I want to check if they can publish my second work. By 3:00 borrowed the scooty of Asha Bhanu and went deeper into Payakaraopeta and Tuni to buy a few items. Bought two large bed sheets at Vijaya Cut Pieces for 690 rupees to use on our big iron cot. This cloth store in Tuni is known for quality items at fixed prices. Bargaining is not allowed in this store. Then bought a new remote control for our old ONIDA colour television and three kilos of jaggery for our domestic use. Got 16 passport size colour photos of Srijana printed out at Sri Prakash Studio in Payakaraopeta. He took 50 rupees for it. Bought three T-shirts for 600 rupees in the cloth store of Mamidi Appa Rao & Sons. Returned home by 4:30. Today I spent about 1,500 rupees. Today Asha Bhanu provided breakfast, lunch and supper for me. Today I watched television for about four hours. This morning it rained for one hour. The hills in the north of our abode looked fascinating in this setting of clouds. It delighted me a lot. Went to sleep by 10:00.

12 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of July from my diary of 2011 on my computer. Today Asha Bhanu provided me with lunch and supper. I knew that my brother Srinivas maintained a mood of anger with my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani for a few days recently. He did not talk with her. He decided to sell his five acres of paddy farmland in Gollalagunta. He wants to buy residential plots of land in Visakhapatnam with this money. He thinks that real estate is a better platform to earn money than agriculture. My brother Sambha and my father did not approve this plan of Srinivas. Real estate business is in the hands of cheats and brokers now. Innocent, sensitive and honest people cannot be successful and happy in this field. Agriculture may not be profitable for peasant farmers but the rates of farmlands keep increasing every year due to scarcity of land resources in India. My brother thinks that his wife did not support him in this regard. I consider his view irrational and insensitive in this regard. We often blame others to hide our failures and demerits from wider public view. Srinivas could not convince his folks. He often takes hasty decisions and then depends on my father and brother Sambha for the required money and vital assistance. He did so when buying his present apartment also. My folks struggled a lot to arrange money for it initially. Parasites cannot live with self-respect always. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of August from my diary of 2011. Asha Bhanu provided me with breakfast and lunch. My cousin Narendra Varma invited me to Gollalagunta to celebrate Sankranti with them this time. My father-in-law invited me to Viswanadhapuram. My father invited me to Peda Gummuluru. I felt happy thinking about their love for me. I decided to go to Peda Gummuluru. Parents enjoy the presence of their children. I wanted to stay in my abode at Devi Nagar without going anywhere for this Sankranti. Festivals cannot fill joy in our lives if we don’t live every day carefully. Festivals are occasions to meet our folks. We try to be happy on festive days. Many employees celebrate festivals grandly because they find other days as mechanical and artificial in their automated lives. Many folks spend a lot of money on festivals to exhibit their sense of celebration and happiness. It shows their inherent tendency and desire for special recognition in their familiar societies. Can’t we be happy without cooking special dishes, wearing new clothes and spending a lot of money? Everybody craves for special joy now and then to escape from the impact of real life. Many shallow Indians consume alcoholic drinks and play cards to celebrate festivals. I saw many such folks in our community. Took a bus by 6:30 and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 7:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

14 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a bus by 12:15 and reached village Tangedu by 1:15. Walked to the house of the in-laws of my brother Sambha from the main road. They invited me to this place on the occasion of Bhogi. They came here from Peda Gummuluru to celebrate Sankranti. Raja Sagi Surya Narayana Raju, the father of my sister-in-law Kranti, died three years ago, due to cardiac arrest. Since then, this house is not in much use. They are coming here once a year or so. I wonder to observe the importance accorded to men in Indian society. The death of a man disturbs the financial and social status of his family. Janaki, the mother of Kranti, often desired to go to Elamanchili and live there in a rented house, along with her husband. Some of her siblings are living there. Her husband did not approve her idea because his association with Tangedu and its people is long and deep. Now this house is appearing like a great abode to Janaki. She lived in it for about 25 years with her husband and daughter. She wants to recollect and relive those golden memories now. She cleared cobwebs and dirt in this house. She cooked special dishes for Sankranti. She met her relatives here. By 4:30 Kranti did the ceremony of “Bhogi Pallu Poyadam” for her son Anjaneya Raju. Took video of it. Today I had sugarcanes satisfactorily. Today it’s cold here. There are many trees and hills around Tangedu. Nature is showering dew to add beauty to winter. Cold is powerful in this region now. Baby Anjaneya Raju is walking now. They are happy about it. Spent happily talking with Sambha and others. I did not do anything to celebrate Bhogi. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. My brother Sambha and I reached Peda Gummuluru by 9:30 on his bike travelling via Kota Uratla and Darlapudi. By 12:30 my friend Ganga Raju and I went to the place of dice desks in this village. I took 140 rupees to play here and enjoy myself. Six dice bear spots representing numbers from one to six. Interested folks gain or lose money placing their money on one or more numbers printed on these wooden desks. I like this game of gambling a lot. I bet five or ten rupees only every time. I lost 110 rupees initially. Then I started winning money slowly. I won 80 rupees at a stage. Then I started losing money. I stopped it when I had 150 rupees in my pocket. It was to walk away from this spot with a light heart. Many like different games of gambling because they provide them with a sense of challenge, thrill and luck. Losers play with a depressive mood to win back the lost money. Winners play excitedly to win more money. Gambling is present in one form or the other in every part of the world in all ages. Gambling attracts all powerfully. Many cannot withstand its evil attraction. The more we get into gambling, the more we degrade ourselves into the low standards of life. Today I enjoyed this form of gambling for two hours. Many celebrated their time watching cock fights. Saw the Telugu film “Body Guard” from 6:30 to 9:00 in cinema Venkatapathi Raju Mahal in Adduroad. Slept by 10:30.

16 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning spent in Peda Gummuluru. By 2:30 my friend Ganga Raju dropped me in Ramayyapatnam on his bike. I came here to see and enjoy the fair in this village, which takes place every year on the occasion of Kanuma. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy joined me here. We watched cock fights for a few minutes in a place near the house of parents of Lakshmi. My uncle left for the mango garden at hills by 5:00 on his bicycle. My friend Bojja Shankara Rao joined me by this time. He likes me a lot. I like his character. He gave me 100 rupees to play at a desk of dice on his behalf. I won 150 rupees with this money within five minutes. Returned 100 rupees to him and retained the 150 rupees with me. Shankar brought me to our house in Peda Gummuluru by 8:30 on his bike. Had my supper. We went back to Ramayyapatnam by 9:00. Watched the Telugu social play “Prema Kiranaalu” from 10:00 to 2:00 sitting in the open. A few boys and men of the Yaadhava community of this village presented this stage play. They brought two female artistes from Narsipatnam to act and dance in it. About 200 folks watched it till 1:00. They stopped it by 2:00 because there were about 10 viewers only by this time. Films and television channels are major threats to drama now. I donated 100 rupees for this show. I did not see Lakshmi in this fair. She is my goddess. Shankar dropped me at our house by 2:30 on his bike. Went to sleep by 2:45.

17 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Took a bus and reached our rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 9:00. Vamsy brought Srijana and Anand to our abode by 12:30 on a bike from Viswanadhapuram. Anand has got a cold. By 7:30 bought a bottle of PediaSure for 410 rupees for Anand. He consumes it every morning with a glass of lukewarm buffalo milk. It’s good for his growth. Recently I told my father-in-law to sell the half an acre of lime farm of Srijana in Viswanadhapuram. He promised to give this much of land and about 60 grams of gold ornaments for his daughter during his formal talk with my father before my marriage with Srijana. My father and brother Sambha went to buy another piece of immovable property for Srijana with this money. Many consider it as dowry for me but such interpretation is wrong. I am not getting anything from my in-laws. They are offering this land and gold ornaments to Srijana as their gifts minding her future. My father earned some property for me. It shows the responsibility of parents towards their children in the Indian society. Dowry means what the bridegroom party gets from the bride party by force and uses it according to their interests for their benefits. Srijana is disturbed about my father asking her father about this farmland and gold now. I think that everybody must keep his promise. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. My in-laws came here by 10:30 from Viswanadhapuram. From 11:00 to 1:30 saw the Telugu film “Businessman” in cinema Gowtam along with Chandini (daughter of my house owners D S N Raju and Asha Bhanu) and her cousin. We bought three tickets for 300 rupees in black. Their actual cost is 75 rupees. They sold all tickets in black. Police take bribes from these rogues and allow them to do these things. Few have time and interest to complain to immoral and illegal police about these things at cinemas. Puri Jagannadh directed this film very well. I give 98 marks for 100 for this film. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. By 3:00 bought a set of four books titled “Oxford English Language Reference” at our rented abode for 399 rupees from a marketing fellow. He said that their actual cost is 1,195 rupees. By 5:30 Srijana and I went to the branch office of Navata Road Transport in Tuni on the bike of Asha Bhanu. We collected the iron swing material from them. My father-in-law got it made at Masanpalli for us using the old iron of Rudraraju Venkata Rama Raju. By 6:00 paid 350 rupees to a fellow at Sandil Enterprises for a recharge of Reliance Netconnect wireless broadband worth 500 Mb. None of Reliance folks came to my abode till now to check the speed of broadband at my end. Anil Ambani is one of the dirty businessmen of India. He should sell condoms at brothels in India. He can do such businesses only efficiently. He must be hanged publicly to change corporate India. Went to sleep by 10:00.

19 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a bus by 12:45 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 1:30. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy, my brother Sambha and I reached the house of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy in the mango garden at hills by 2:30 on the bike of Sambha. Narasimha Murthy talked with his parents for a few minutes. He wants to take them to his abode in Tetagunta soon. The memory ability of my paternal grandfather Thammi Raju is low now. The memory ability of my paternal grandmother Lakshmi Narasayyamma is very good even now. Now they cannot live without depending upon others. My two paternal uncles are taking care of them now on rotation basis. We three returned home by 4:30. Sambha and I took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 4:45 and reached NAD Kotha Road by 6:45. Thence we went to the rented abode of a maternal aunt of my sister-in-law Kranti at Adavivaram. We want to buy their used Honda Activa scooty for me and Srijana to use. They are interested to sell it to us. Sambha and I reached the apartment of our brother Srinivas at Sujatha Nagar by 9:00 riding this scooty for quality check sake. We understood that it got some defects in it. We brought papayas for the family unit of Srinivas from Peda Gummuluru. My nephew Sujan is preparing well for the annual exams of his first year Intermediate course. Went to sleep by 10:00.

20 January (Friday)

Woke up by 3:00. I could not sleep thereafter. I have got a cold. By 8:15 my brother Sambha and I reached Adavivaram on scooty from Sujatha Nagar. Our friend Tirumalaraju Srinivasa Raju, the youngest son of T S N Raju, joined us here. They are living in Adavivaram. We three consulted a familiar bike mechanic in this place and asked him to check the quality of this scooty. It’s a 2002 model scooty. This mechanic told us that it may cost about 15,000 rupees. We did not feel like buying this very old scooty. We returned it to its owner. We three took an APSRTC bus and reached Dwaraka Nagar by 12:30. Thence we walked down to Dondaparti area. We checked about 30 used Honda Activa scooties in about 10 resale stores till 3:30 in this area. The prices of these scooties are between 28,000 and 55,000 rupees. We bought a used Honda Activa scooty for 29,500 rupees by 3:45 from Wheels Zone store here. It’s in black colour. Its date of registration is 7 September, 2007. Its registration number is AP 31 AT 4673. Its registered owner is Jessy Sowjanya B V. Its cubic capacity is 102. We found its quality and look good. We bought this scooty with the money of Srijana. Sambha said that he would pay for it soon. It’s going to be his gift to me. Sambha and I reached Adduroad by 5:30 on this scooty travelling via Steel Plant area. Reached my abode at Devi Nagar by 6:00 riding this scooty from Adduroad. Went to sleep by 10:00.

21 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I suffered from cold. Spent all the day at home casually. Srijana and I have special love for Honda Activa scooty. Recently she opened a savings account in the State Bank of India branch of Kodavatipudi. She also took out a loan of 44,000 rupees from this bank as part of a scheme of the State Government meant for the development of women through liberal financial assistance to them. She decided to buy a used Honda Activa scooty for 20,000 rupees. Sambha and I went to Visakhapatnam to buy one within this price range. We did not find good scooties of our choice at this price range. My brother bought a good scooty for us crossing our estimated budget for it. We are very happy to own this scooty now. Srijana enjoys bike rides. We need to go out frequently to buy this or that. We can do it happily using a scooty like this. I don’t feel comfortable riding bikes with gear systems. I have to yet acquire the skills of riding those risky bikes. I feel disturbed and tense while riding a scooty on busy roads because many Indian roads are bad and many Indians are worse than cattle in using their bikes and cars on road. Many Indian youth ride their bikes carelessly on road. High speed on busy roads is their style. Disciplined and sensitive folks suffer a lot due to their dirty acts on clumsy roads. Went to sleep by 9:30.

22 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. By 2:00 our house owner D S N Raju and I started to Narsipatnam on his bike. We reached their ancestral house near village Appannadora Palem by 3:15. It’s about 10 kilometres from Narsipatnam. This hamlet is in Narsipatnam Mandal. His father lived here for about 30 years as a supervisor in a mango garden of a rich Kshatriya of Tangedu. I found this hilly region beautiful and inspiring. Took photos and videos of this place with my digital camera. D S N Raju told me about the conditions of those days in this region. They had to either walk or use bullock carts to go to distant places. He learned many things from his father about human life and struggle for existence. They have about 10 acres of arid agricultural land in this area. I like to live in a place like this breathing pure air and drinking pure water flowing down from hills. We started back by 4:45. We reached Devi Nagar by 6:00 travelling via Srunga Varam and Kota Nanduru. He often rode his bike at a speed of 80 kilometres per hour. The force of related winds affected my eyes. He is an expert in riding bikes. He often takes me here and there on his bike. He has special love for me. He said that our recent ancestors originated from one Datla family. He often tells me about the standards and values of the people of those days. He is a strong and disciplined man. Today I felt weak. Cold left me but low fever hit me. I am experiencing its silent attack in my body. Went to sleep by 10:30.

23 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Even today I suffered from low fever. Spent all the day casually. Afternoon a local TV mechanic repaired our old colour television a little. He is one of the field executives of a local cable TV network unit. We paid 1,000 rupees to him for this cable TV connection and service provision for some months to come. He did not ask for money for this minor repair work. I proactively gave him 50 rupees for this work done by him. Sensitive and virtuous people do not consider everything from the standpoint of profitability. Many cheats collect a lot of money from us doing different kinds of businesses. We pay them helplessly. We should pay good people proactively. We should not benefit from the goodness of others. It is like cheating saints knowingly. I took this old ONIDA colour television from my friend Rajani Kumar Raju in 2008 in Hyderabad. I could not pay to him for it till now. It is functioning well. I have no money to buy a new television now. Srijana watches television more than me. There are many books in our abode but Srijana does not read them to improve her language skills or knowledge base. I should read many books and see various places to improve my knowledge. I am unable to do it now. I have to earn money. I have to do something for it. The folks of Reliance Netconnect did not resolve my issue of low wireless broadband speed till now. They are selling these wireless broadband devices like condoms near brothels. Went to sleep by 10:00.

24 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of September from my diary of 2011 on my computer. There was power cut for two hours. Now I have seven bank accounts. I am unable to maintain even minimum balances in these accounts. I have saving accounts with State Bank of India at Etikoppaka, State Bank of India at HCU campus in Gachibowli, Andhra Bank at Somajiguda, HDFC Bank at Banjara Hills, Axis Bank at Jubilee Hills, ICICI Bank at Khairatabad and UCO Bank at Dwaraka Nagar in Visakhapatnam. Most of these accounts turned into dormant accounts because I am not using them regularly. I should go to each of these banks and close the accounts. I did not do it so far. I think this is what many Indians do with their banks in India. Even banks are neglecting such matters of concern for them. Nobody sent me an email or legal notice informing me to activate my dormant accounts or close them. They are not interested in this aspect of banking because it is not profitable for them. Srijana has two bank accounts now. One is with the Andhra Bank at Tuni and one is with the State Bank of India at Kodavatipudi. She has no enough money to maintain them well. I love ATM centres more than banks. Machines work faster than men and women in giving money to customers. I am not going to banks much now because I have no money to deposit into my accounts. Money is doing wonders in the present material world. Went to sleep by 9:30.

25 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of October from my diary of 2011 on my computer. Low fever and phlegm are affecting my health now. Srijana and Anand went to Viswanadhapuram by 10:30 on our Honda Activa scooty. She worshipped their village goddess Challamaamba in Viswanadhapuram breaking a coconut there. She did so at the temple of Lord Rama also in this hamlet. She worshipped the village goddess in Koruprolu Mallavaram also. She prayed at these temples asking for the blessings of these deities for our newly bought Honda Activa scooty. She tied three lemons to this scooty to scare black powers of humans and ghosts. Her folks felt happy looking at the quality and beauty of this scooty. They returned home by 3:30. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy spent here from 5:30 to 7:30. He is in the process of selling his residential plot of land at Devi Nagar. He met a familiar fellow in this area and enquired about the rates of residential sites here. The current rates are between 2,000 and 3,500 rupees per square yard in this locality. My uncle has 265 square yard site here. By 7:45 Bose of Gollalagunta called me up from a venue of marriage in Payakaraopeta. He came here to attend marriage of his distant relative. Many folks of Gollalagunta attended this function. Bose and three distant relatives of me came here by 10:00, from this venue of marriage, to sleep in our abode for this night. Went to sleep by 10:30.

26 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 3:00. Took my four relatives of Gollalagunta to the venue of marriage at Payakaraopeta by 4:00 on my scooty. I made three rounds for it. This venue of marriage is about two kilometres from my abode at Devi Nagar. They can reach there on foot. I dropped them there because they are my guests. We must respect and love all of our relatives and friends. We should not mind the social and financial status of our guests in treating them. Friendship and relationships are greater than money and assets. I enjoyed the company of these folks for these few hours. They like me a lot. One of them is a great childhood friend of my father. By 8:00 took an Express bus at the bus station in Tuni and reached Jaggampeta by 9:45. My cousin Narendra Varma came here on his bike and took me to Gollalagunta by 10:15. We are selling my one acre of paddy farmland near Dhora Cheruvu in Gollalagunta to a native fellow for seven lakh rupees. I came here to sign the related agreement document and take two lakh rupees from this buyer as advance. They made me wait for six hours and then said that it cannot be done today. I turned furious and told my uncle that I won’t sell it this year. Spent talking with my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju from 5:00 to 6:00 in his house at Jaggampeta along with my cousin Vasu. Took a bus and returned home by 8:00. This morning my brother Srinivas, sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and nephew Suhas came to my rented abode at Devi Nagar. Went to sleep by 10:00.

27 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. My brother Srinivas, sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, Suhas, Srijana and Anand took a bus at Y Junction by 9:30 for Peda Gummuluru. My brother called me up from this bus and told me that he forgot his cellphone charger back in our abode. I should take it to them. Started to Peda Gummuluru on my scooty by 11:00. Nakkapalli sub inspector Ch Rudra Sekhar collected 300 rupees from me at the Toll Plaza near Vempadu towards fine for riding my scooty without driving license and some other documents. Regretted my bad luck. Spent in our house at Peda Gummuluru for two hours. By 2:00 took my scooty to the mechanic outlet of Abdul Nasheer Khan in Adduroad. He dusted air filter and changed engine oil. Also got it washed with water. Spent 500 rupees for these works. Nasheer is a lovable and respectable bike mechanic for me and my brother Sambha in Adduroad. He has been working as a mechanic here for the last 28 years. He said that many boys worked as assistants with him and started their own bike repair points. I see Nasheer as a great Indian but not as a shallow religious entity. I love him for his honesty and dedication towards his work. India needs such worthy individuals. Srinivas, Sandhya Rani and Suhas left for Elamanchili by 1:30 by bus. Thence they go to Visakhapatnam. Srijana, Anand and I started back to our rented abode at Devi Nagar by 4:45 on our scooty. Reached here by 5:20. Went to sleep by 10:00.

28 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 12:15 took a bus at the bus station in Tuni. Got off it at the bus station in Kathipudi by 1:00. Took another bus by 1:30 and reached Jaggampeta by 2:10. My maternal uncle Varma came here on a bike. We two reached Gollalagunta by 2:30. Spent talking with my folks for two hours. By 4:00 Varma prepared a revenue document specifying the details of sale agreement of my one acre of paddy farmland near Dhora Cheruvu in Gollalagunta to Gandikota Venkateshwarlu of this village. He belongs to Sagara community. We are selling it to him for seven lakh rupees. I signed this agreement document as the owner of this farmland. Today they paid three lakh rupees to me to confirm this agreement formally. They pay remaining amount of money in two installments and get it registered in their name. I decided to sell it going against my recent decision considering the complexity of situation of Venkateshwarlu. He already sold a piece of his agricultural land exclusively to buy my agricultural farmland. He got paddy farmland right beside that of me. The reputation of my uncle Varma gets affected if I don’t sell this farmland to Venkateshwarlu, as decided earlier, because the prior played the role of a mediator in this regard. The marriage of a daughter of Venkateshwarlu is associated with the purchase of my farmland. My angry decision should not bother all these creatures. Returned home by 7:20 by bus. My teacher uncle K V Rama Raju and his son Raghupati visited my rented abode by 8:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

29 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 8:30 my father came here from Peda Gummuluru. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy accompanied him up to Y Junction. Brought him to my rented abode from the main road (NH-16) on my scooty. He liked my rented abode. Handed him the three lakh rupees, which I brought yesterday night from Gollalagunta. He bought this one acre of paddy farm in 1976 from Mandapati Krishna Murthy Raju of Gollalagunta for 7,500 rupees. Then he spent 500 rupees for its registration. He wants to buy another piece of immovable property for me with the money resulting from the sale of this farm in Gollalagunta. It was the first piece of land he bought in his life. He deeply loves this farm for this reason. He took a sharing auto rickshaw by 9:30 for Adduroad. By 1:30 Srijana, Anand and I went to the rented abode of Sekhar at Court Street in Tuni. We spent there till 2:30. By 3:00 we went to the ENT clinic of Dr D Rama Krishna Raju near Raja Ground. He is an M.S. in ENT. He checked my ears. There is no wax as I thought. He showed it to me on his computer. I told him that I always sense “Om” sound from my head. He prescribed 10 BILOVAS tablets for me. He said that he would get my hearing ability checked by an audiologist soon. He is a son of a paternal uncle of Rama Sekhara Raju. He prescribed a lotion to avoid wax formation in the ears of Anand. He did not collect consultation fees from us. Went to sleep by 10:00.

30 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today it is Radha Sapthami, the birthday of sun god. Hindus worship Him today. Srijana and Asha Bhanu worshipped this God according to our native Hindu tradition. They prepared sweet milk rice (Ksheeraannam) with jaggery on this occasion. They read out mantras from a small book related to Aditya Hrudayam. They worshipped this God for two hours in the front yard of this house. I took photos and video of this occasion. By 3:30 Bojja Shankara Rao came here from Ramayyapatnam. He wants to take out a gold loan from the branch office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni. He is new to this kind of loans from private finance firms. He asked me to guide him. He took me to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni on his bike. He borrowed 10,000 rupees from them pledging his gold chain. Now he has three milk collection points in Etikoppaka. He sells this milk to Heritage Dairy. He is an honest and disciplined fellow. Returned home by 4:30. I am suffering from low fever, phlegm and cough now. I am feeling weak and dull for these reasons. Avoided consulting doctor fearing those consultation fees and cost of medicines. Low fever attacks me now and then and stays with me for long. I must get my body tested periodically. Srijana and Anand also need it. I should spend about 20,000 rupees every year for these holistic body tests. I want to get into this process as early as possible. Today I spent my time casually and passively due to fever. Went to sleep by 10:00.

31 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Low fever, cough and cold bothered me even today. Weakness haunted me. Anasuyamma of Viswanadhapuram has a small residential plot of land in Devi Nagar by NH-16. There is a coconut tree in it. There are about 50 coconuts at the top of it. It is a tall and thin tree. She told me to collect those coconuts and use. A native fellow is using part of this land. He is rearing his buffaloes here. He told me that he would ask his familiar toddy seller to pluck these coconuts for me. He did not do it during the last 10 days. He may ask for 50 rupees for this little work. He daily climbs palm trees to collect toddy from them. He is a professional in the unorganized sector. We should not underestimate anybody or anything in this universe. A missile cannot do the work of a needle. By 7:45 paid 720 rupees to the nearby buffalo milk seller for the 24 litres of milk I bought from him in this month. He often adds water in the milk. I request him not to do it. He avoids it for that day. He is struggling a lot to rear two buffalos. I can understand his helplessness in adding water to milk. He is an ordinary Indian like me. Srijana and Anand saw the Telugu film “Body Guard” of Venkatesh and Trisha in cinema Surya Mahal from 6:30 to 8:40. I did not accompany them because I already saw it. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

1 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 7:30 paid 3,200 rupees to my house owner towards rent and domestic electricity bill for our rented abode for the last month. By 10:30 met Dr. K V S Raju. He is a noted Ayurvedic doctor in this locality. He is popularly known as Mantrala Raju in this area. Told him about my health disorders. He prescribed 20 tablets for my low fever and DEKOFCYN syrup for my cough. He gave Clearliv tablets and syrup for Anand. These medicines are to activate the liver of this fellow and improve his appetite. He is vomiting frequently. By 11:30 got the blood samples of Anand and me tested at Vijaya Clinical Lab in Payakaraopeta. I have no diabetes or high cholesterol. Anand has no jaundice but low amount of blood in his body. He is more interested in junk food items than homemade food. By 12:00 a native toddy seller pulled the coconuts from the tree of Anasuyamma. There are about 170 coconuts. Gave 50 rupees to the toddy seller for pulling down these coconuts. Also gave 10 coconuts to him and another fellow here for their help in this work. We use these coconuts. By 6:30 Srijana, Anand and I got ready. We reached Tuni railway station by 7:05 on our scooty. Parked it in the scooter stand. Srijana bought two tickets for eight rupees to Durgada Gate. Visakhapatnam-Kakinada passenger train arrived by 8:05. It was densely packed. We somehow got into a general coach of it. We reached the house of my uncle in Durgada by 8:40. Slept by 10:00.

2 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:19 the auspicious occasion of “Godhuma Raayi Pettadam” took place in the house of my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma. From today they carry out works related to the marriage of their son Hari with Padma of village Pillavanipalem. They are getting ready for the Upanayanam and marriage occasions on the 26th of this month. My parents too came here for this occasion today. My uncle Chanti Babu, my parents, Srijana, Anand and I took Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger train by 1:10 at Durgada Gate. My uncle and I got off this train at Tuni by 1:50. The other folks detrain it at Narsipatnam Road and go to Peda Gummuluru. My uncle and I talked with a fellow about the print of wedding cards of Hari. He asked for 2,000 rupees to print 200 cards. We gave the related details to him. We reached my rented abode in Devi Nagar by 3:30. We brought the two sacks of coconuts to NH-16 by 4:00. We took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 4:10. Gave 70 rupees to him for carrying our coconuts and us. My uncle and I reached the place of marriage in village Konavani Palem by 6:30. The marriage of a son of a distant relative of Chanti Babu is taking place in a coconut garden in this village this night. We had dinner by 9:00. My uncle left for Narsipatnam Road railway station by 9:10. Reached our house by 9:45 walking along NH-16 road. Went to sleep by 10:30.

3 February (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:00 a local priest came to our house. It is Bheeshma Ekadasi today. My parents have been performing the “Satya Narayana Swami Vratham” in this house on every Bheeshma Ekadasi under the guidance of a priest. This time we too joined them on their advice. This priest conducted it from 9:15 to 11:15. My parents, Srijana, Anand and I participated in it. I wore special clothes on this occasion. They are silky and slippery. I observed that my father did not concentrate his mind on this worship during this time. He was talking with others. He used abusive language addressing my mother. He did not obey the instructions of the priest completely during this special worship. He often chanted the mantras of his own configuration neglecting those of the priest. I think he inherited these traits from his mother. I participated in this formal worship for the satisfaction of my parents. They gave 400 rupees to this priest for conducting this worship. Srijana, Anand and I took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 1:40 and reached our rented abode in Devi Nagar by 2:15. Went to Satya Venkata Printers unit in Tuni by 3:15. Got them type up the content for the wedding cards of my cousin Hari of Durgada. Ensured that it was error free. My uncle Chanti Babu entrusted this work to me being busy with other works related to the marriage of his son. Went to sleep by 10:00.

4 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. I am still suffering from low fever and weakness. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode by 9:30 from Tetagunta. He came here to collect some money from the buyers of his plot of residential land in Devi Nagar. He signed the initial agreement document today. Spent with him till 2:30. Watched television for some time. By 6:30 went to the unit of Satya Venkata Printers in Tuni on my scooty. Collected the wedding cards related to the marriage of my cousin Hari and Padma. From 8:30 to 10:30 Koda Malleshwara Rao and I perfectly folded these cards and put them in those Book Post envelopes. The printer of these cards told me that they charge 150 paise to arrange each envelope this way. Mallesh and I saved 300 rupees for my uncle Chanti Babu doing this manual work. Many folks should work with commitment and coordination to make a traditional marriage successful. Mallesh is a familiar fellow to my house owner D S N Raju. He is a resident of Appannadora Palem, Narsipatnam Mandal, Visakhapatnam District. He often comes here to supervise the house construction work of D S N Raju. He belongs to Scheduled Tribe community. I often talk with him. I like his character. By 9:00, this morning, Srijana and Anand started to Viswanadhapuram. Srijana went there to help her maternal grandmother in preparing milk sweets. Anand follows her wherever she goes. Their bond is strong. Went to sleep by 10:45.

5 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 11:00 Srijana and Anand returned from Viswanadhapuram. She brought three watermelons, sugarcanes, fresh groundnuts, snacks and lemons from there. By 4:50 my uncle Chanti Babu reached Golla Apparao Centre in Tuni. He came here from Durgada to do some things related to the marriage of his son Hari. Brought him to the bus stand in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. Local professional cook Chitti Babu met us here by 5:45. We told him that we need food for about 300 people on the 26th of this month in Durgada on the occasion of Upanayanam of Hari. We provide them with all the cooking items required for it. They cook food items for breakfast and lunch. He asked for 3,000 rupees for this service. They cook food items and wash dishes after dinner. We agreed for it. He gave a list of items required for it. Brought my uncle to my abode by 7:00. Srijana smeared wet turmeric paste on the wedding cards of Hari by 7:30. Took my uncle to Tuni railway station by 7:45 on my scooty. He takes a passenger train to Durgada Gate from here. Recently my cousin Hari bought eight pairs of clothes in Bilaspur spending about 24,000 rupees for the occasion of his marriage. He gave a bachelor party to his colleagues spending about 8,000 rupees. His father is disturbed about his indiscipline in this regard. Went to sleep by 10:15.

6 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:00 Kuppa Satya Narayana Sastri came to my abode. He is 70 years old. He said that he belongs to Arasavilli in Srikakulam district. He wants to get his daughter married soon. He needs about 50,000 rupees for it. He cannot afford it. He is going from place to place asking for financial assistance from ideal donors. I gave 116 rupees to him. He blessed Srijana, Anand and me. By 11:00 Srijana and I got haircut done to Anand in R K Salon in Payakaraopeta. He sat calmly for it. Thence we moved to the rented abode of Sekhar at Court Street. The maternal grandparents of Srijana already came here from Viswanadhapuram. Srijana and Anand joined them to go to Rambilli. By 12:30 posted a parcel with 10 wedding cards in the post office at Tuni for my cousin Hari in Chhattisgarh. He wants to distribute them to his colleagues there. By 1:00 Srijana, her maternal grandparents, Ashish Varma and Anand took a bus at the bus stand in Payakaraopeta for Elamanchili. They have their relatives in Rambilli. Sekhar, Revathi and Aditya Varma go there this evening. They take holy baths in the sea near Rambilli, tomorrow morning, on the occasion of Maagha Pournami. Took a bus by 5:45 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 6:30. I desired to go to Revu Polavaram this night itself to see and enjoy the annual village fair there but my brother Sambha and my friend Ganga Raju discouraged me from this idea. Went to sleep by 10:30 in the house of Sambha.

7 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 3:00. My brother Sambha and I started to village Revu Polavaram by 7:00 on his bike. We reached the venue of annual fair by 7:30. My brother parked his bike in the space meant for it. Thence we walked for a kilometre and reached the beach. It’s Maagha Pournami yesterday night. Many take holy baths with seawater on this occasion. Hindus, in coastal regions, move to their nearby beaches to have these religious ablutions. My brother and I bathed with seawater from 8:00 to 8:45. I feared the force of tides. I behaved like a cowardly kid with the sea. I loved the beauty and power of the sea and sun before me. I enjoyed the presence of people around me. Took a video of this collective celebration with my Sony digital camera for 10 minutes. Sea and sun are always beautiful and inspiring. I bought two kinds of snacks for 60 rupees to honour the tradition of this annual village fair. We returned home by 9:30. Earlier I could witness the grandeur of this fair during night. I knew that such fair is not taking place at night now. Now many are visiting beaches for these holy baths during daytime only. By 12:30 my brother Sambha, two familiar Kshatriyas and I checked the suitability of an agricultural farm for a dairy unit. It is about one kilometre from village Peda Gummuluru. Took a bus by 1:15 and returned to my rented abode at Devi Nagar by 2:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

8 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:00. Got ready by 6:00. Reached the bus stand in Tuni by 7:00 on my scooty. Parked it in the vehicle stand. Took a Rajahmundry bound Express bus by 7:05. It started off by 7:15. Reached Jaggampeta by 8:45 travelling via Annavaram and Kathipudi. The bus fare is 43 rupees. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Gollalagunta by 9:15. Walked to the house of my maternal uncles and aunts from the main road. Gandikota Venkateshwarlu and his relatives came to our place of houses by 10:30. Venkateshwarlu paid two lakh rupees to me. This is his second installment payment towards the cost of my one acre of paddy farm near Dhora Cheruvu. He pays me two lakh rupees as the third and final installment this April or May. Then I will transfer the legal ownership rights of this agricultural farm to him. Today I signed on the agreement document specifying that I received an amount of five lakh rupees from him till now as part of this sale deal. My maternal uncle Varma prepared this document. He is coordinating this land sale process on behalf of me. My cousin Narendra Varma is seriously preparing for the GATE. He takes this entrance exam on this Sunday in Kakinada. Took leave of my folks and returned to bus stand in Jaggampeta by 12:00 in a sharing auto rickshaw. Took an Express bus and reached my abode by 2:00. Srijana and Anand returned from Rambilli by 10:00 this morning. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I typed up the content of November from my diary of 2011 on my computer. By 3:00 Srijana, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru on our scooty. We reached there by 3:45. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy, aunt Kumari and cousin Ashwini are in their house in Peda Gummuluru now. They are getting it beautified in view of the marriage of Ashwini on the 11th of this March. I proposed the idea of taking my uncle and aunt to their thatched hut in the mango garden on my scooty. My father criticized me about it. He said that I am not yet good at riding a scooty. He does not like my helping his brothers or our other relatives in any context. He developed such attitude over the years. He inherited these qualities from his mother. I turned furious about his unsolicited advice to me in this regard. Gave him the two lakh rupees, which I brought from Gollalagunta recently, and rushed to the house of my brother Sambha. Told my father that I would not enter his house for one year. This is my disciplinary action against him for advising me in a wrong context using abusive language. A selfish and narrow-minded person has no moral authority to criticize the ideas and acts of a dreamer and idealist. Sambha and I also talked very seriously about these issues. Went to sleep by 9:00.

10 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 9:20 Srijana, Anand and I started to Narsipatnam on our scooty. My brother Sambha joined us at Kota Uratla. We reached the RTO (Regional Transport Office) in Narsipatnam by 10:30. I filled up two application forms for the issuance of driving licenses for Srijana and me. They said that their online registration system is out of order now. Transport constable Appanna checked our 10th standard certificates for the proof of name and age and attested our application forms. He advised us to come to this office this Monday with these application forms. Appanna and another employee in this office are familiar folks to my brother Sambha. Srijana and I are trying to get driving licenses fast utilizing his recommendation in this regard. We reached the office of Sub Registrar in Kota Uratla by 11:30. We asked P Meenakshi for the issuance of another marriage certificate for Srijana and me. She said it is not possible. I felt like killing her and throwing her dead body in a filthy canal. She is a cowardly and inefficient public servant. Corruption is high in this office. Marriage certificate is not a big issue. I did not understand why she is helpless in this regard. Earlier Sambha collected our marriage certificate from this office on our behalf. We missed it in his house. We returned to Peda Gummuluru by 1:30. It is the wedding anniversary of Sambha and Kranti today. We returned home by 5:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

11 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. It seems that low fever deserted me. Still I am feeling weak. I decided to forgive my father. I should go to our house as usual. He does not change. He uses abusive language. He cannot spend even one day without criticizing somebody. My mother has been tolerating his insensitivity for the last 40 years. I am often depending on him for money and family support. Mine is the life of a helpless parasite now. I owe him 10 lakh rupees. I have no moral authority to go against the wishes and orders of my father. My mother is getting disturbed and hurt due to my furious reactions towards them. Their love and attachment for us is more powerful and deeper than ours for them. They are disturbed about my financial condition now. I believe that Lord Krishna directs me always. By 3:30 my aunt Vimala and her sister Lakshmi came to our abode. They are daughters of Kolukuluri Varahaalamma, a sister of my paternal grandfather Thammi Raju. Vimala is torturing my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy due to her excessive passion for money and assets. I treated her affectionately today because she was my guest today. Respecting guests is a part of Indian culture. They found our rented abode and household items good. They appreciated my choice and taste in this regard. Enjoyed their presence and affection for me. They started back to Tetagunta by 4:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

12 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 10:00 Srijana, Anand and I went to Tuni on our scooty. Srijana checked two shops to buy a pair of footwear for her. She did not like any item in them. She said that she has to go to a beauty parlour to beautify her eyebrows. She complained that she has no special saris to wear when she goes to parties and functions. She has about 30 saris now. She is not finding them as attractive now because they are not new. She bought different bangles for her. She is trying to improve her look using artificial items and methods. She does not know how to enhance her beauty naturally. She is thinking like a typical modern Indian girl. They do different things to look attractive in functions and public places. Males don’t have such ideas and desires. They concentrate more on earning money and becoming self-reliant. Today my cousin Narendra Varma took the GATE in Kakinada from 10:00 to 1:00. He said that he answered about 50 questions only out of 100 fearing negative marks for wrong answers. Now many Indians are struggling hard to get through these competitive exams. They are improving their general knowledge reading books but not their characters changing their attitudes and lifestyles. Honesty and hard work are more important than intelligence and wealth to become and live as great individuals. Indians degraded themselves a lot in this regard. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 9:30 Srijana, Anand and I took a private travel vehicle and reached Peda Gummuluru by 10:00. My brother Sambha and I reached the office of Sub Registrar in Nakkapalli by 10:15 on his bike. A document writer took the related proofs from me and filled up some forms meant for the issuance of a marriage certificate for Srijana and me. We are applying for one here because we lost the one given in Kota Uratla earlier. Sambha brought two familiar Kshatriya folks from Peda Gummuluru to sign the forms as the relatives of Srijana and me along with him. This application process was over by 12:00. Took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 12:15 and reached Narsipatnam by 1:30. Rushed to RTO from Peda Boddepalli Junction on foot. They said that the broadband Internet access is not yet restored to their computer systems. Transport constable Appanna told a fellow to take 200 rupees and the filled in application forms from me. They call me up soon. Returned to the office of Sub Registrar in Nakkapalli by 4:00. Morning they told me to come here by this time to collect my marriage certificate. This time they told me to come tomorrow. Felt furious but did not express it. Reached my rented abode by 5:15. By this time Srijana and Anand reached Gollalagunta. Reached bus stand in Tuni by 5:45 on my scooty. Got into an Express bus by 6:00 and reached Gollalagunta by 7:40. Slept by 11:00.

14 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. My cousin Krishna Kumari, the daughter of my maternal uncle Kolukuluri Appala Narasimha Raju (whom we address as Varma) and my cousin Anantha Lakshmi, reached puberty on the 10th of this month. They are holding a function today on this occasion. This function took place from 10:00 to 5:00. About 200 invitees attended it. My uncle spent about 20,000 rupees for it. They received some gifts and about 8,000 rupees from guests. I took photos and videos of this occasion with my Sony digital camera. I don’t like functions of this order but attended it for the sake of my dear uncle. I did not give any gift or money to my cousin on this occasion. I am bankrupt now. My sister-in-law Kranti, her mother Janaki, baby boy Anjaneya Raju, Srijana, Anand and I reached bus stand in Jaggampeta by 1:00 in an auto rickshaw from Gollalagunta. We took a Tuni bound ordinary bus by 1:20 and reached Tuni by 3:00. I reached my abode by 3:30 on my scooty. Srijana helped them take an auto rickshaw to Peda Gummuluru. By 8:00 Chintalapati Venkata Ramana Varma came to our abode from Tuni on his bike. He repairs computers and uploads different kinds of software files. He is a freelance professional. He activated Microsoft Word 2010, uploaded Nero Express and McAfee software into my DELL INSPIRON computer system. I often copy photos and videos to DVDs from my computer. I need anti-virus software to protect my files. Slept by 10:30.

15 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Spent all the day at home. I wonder to observe the trend of piracy in India. Most of the Indians use pirated software and copies of feature films in their homes and offices. Plagiarism is another big issue in the publishing world. Presently I am using pirated versions of Microsoft Word 2010, Nero Express and McAfee. Computer mechanics carry a set of CDs and DVDs with different types of pirated software and files. I think many Indians cannot buy original systems and software. I saw many folks watching pirated versions of feature films on their computers at home. It’s a fashion for many Indian youth now. Many download pirated copies of music files from the Internet. There are thousands of pornography websites. Millions of enthusiasts watch and download pornographic images and videos every day and night. Theft seems to be a basic instinct of humanity. Almost everybody is a thief and killer. I steal many things in my lifetime. I kill many organisms in my existential struggle as a parasite. Thus sin and crime became inevitable parts of human life. Our struggle to defend and honour the beauty and power of creativity and originality seems to be futile in all ages. Our cultures and civilizations are based on the systems of imitation and piracy. Went to sleep by 10:00.

16 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:30. By 9:00 Srijana, Anand and I reached bus station in Tuni on our scooty. We took a bus and reached Narsipatnam by 10:30. The bus fare is 23 rupees for each adult. We walked to the office of Motor Vehicles Inspector at Bali Ghattam. Transport constable K Appanna and other folks came to this office by 11:00. Many were desperately waiting for their arrival. Venky seems to be an office boy here. He is doing things fast. He paid fees on the 14th of this month on behalf of Srijana and me for learner licenses for us. He did so on the instructions of Appanna in our absence. Today they took our photos and digital signatures by 12:00. We should take online tests to prove that we are good at driving chosen vehicles and traffic signals but it is not happening at any RTO in Andhra Pradesh perfectly. The state government has no adequate test grounds, staff and infrastructure to do it well. Many get driving licenses through local agents. They pay much money to these illegal brokers. Procrastination and corruption are high at these offices. Appanna is doing things honestly and favorably for Srijana and me due to the recommendation of my brother Sambha as his familiar fellow. He told me to come to this office on the 24th of this month again. He makes Srijana pass this test to issue her a learner license initially. I fail in it initially. We took a bus by 1:00 and returned home by 2:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

17 February (Friday)

Woke up by 4:00. Today I typed up the content of December from my diary of 2011 and completed this typing work. I spent about 80 hours’ time to type it up on my computer. The typed version of this diary has 140 pages. I felt very happy for completing this typing work today. This is the first long typing work I did in my life till now. I wrote my 2011 diary well. I can edit it fast for this reason. By 3:00 my brother Sambha and his friend Gopi came here from Peda Gummuluru on a bike. They collected the marriage certificate of Srijana and me from the office of Sub Registrar in Nakkapalli. It is in English. I found it portable and beautiful to carry. It’s much better than the one issued by those folks in Kota Uratla earlier. My brother, Gopi, a few familiar folks and I saw some residential plots of land in Payakaraopeta near Police Raj Nagar from 3:30 to 4:30. These lands are near NH-16. They checked them out of interest in doing real estate business in this area collectively. I accompanied them for nominal presence sake. I have no money to do anything. By 7:30 my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and I started to Tetagunta on my scooty from Y Junction. We reached the abode of my uncle by 8:00. I found riding scooty, at night, amid lights, difficult. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. My paternal grandparents are staying in the abode of my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and aunt Vimala now. They came here recently from the abode of my uncle Narayana Murthy in the mango garden at the hills near Ramayyapatnam. Narasimha Murthy is living in a coconut garden as a supervisor. His wife Vimala is not on talking terms with him. She craves for money, gold and assets more than her husband, children and relatives. By 11:00 my uncle and I went to the mango garden of the prior on my scooty. It is one kilometre from Tetagunta. It is six acres of land near road. He recently bought it from a fellow. He is yet to pay much money to him and get it registered in his name. We walked through it for a few minutes. I found this mango farm fertile and beautiful. My uncle took me to the agricultural farm of his familiar fellow by 11:30. We sat here for one hour. I had fresh coconut water from nuts here. We returned to Tetagunta by 1:00. Had my lunch by 1:30. Took photos and videos of my paternal grandparents with my digital camera. They are eating food for the sake of society. They are sleeping for God’s sake. They are inviting their deaths silently and helplessly. I witnessed the power of old age in their lives. My uncle and I started to Tuni by 3:00 from Tetagunta on my scooty. He rode it slowly. Reached my abode in Devi Nagar by 3:45. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

19 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I edited the content of January and February in my diary of 2011 on my computer. I wrote this diary better than the earlier ones. So, I am able to edit it fast. I can edit the content of three months also in this diary a day but I am avoiding it. If we do a lot of work on a day, we feel stress and strain. It impacts the quality of our work. Now there is power cut for four hours every day. They are cutting it from 10:00 to 12:00 in the morning and 4:00 to 6:00 in the evening. I don’t use my computer system during this time because my UPS provides power backup for 15 minutes only. I cannot buy a high capacity UPS now. Morning Srijana took Anand to a nearby place for polio prevention drops. The Government of India is funding this immunization program throughout the nation. I am happy using our Honda Activa scooty. Srijana also uses it frequently. It is burning one litre of petrol to run a distance of 40 kilometres. We have to spend two rupees to travel a distance of one kilometre on it. It consumes optimum amount of fuel when being run between the speed range of 30 and 50 kilometres per hour. Many found its colour, functioning capacity and look appreciable. Now I am riding it better than earlier. Anand enjoys going out on it along with us. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

20 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of March and April in my diary of 2011. It’s Maha Shiva Raathri today. Srijana and Anand went to a temple of Lord Shiva in Tuni by 9:30 along with D S N Raju and his wife Asha Bhanu. They spent there till 1:00 worshipping Lord Shiva formally. I did not do anything specially to get His blessings. I have been sensing pain in my left kidney for the last four days. I think it is due to infection or formation of stones in it. I should consult a doctor and undergo necessary medical tests to find out the cause for this pain. I need money if I go to a private doctor. I want to go to a government hospital. I am in the process of editing my 2011 diary. I have to attend the marriages of my cousins Hari and Ashwini soon. I want to resolve this issue after these works. I have the idea of undergoing comprehensive body checkup medical tests every year but I am postponing it every year for lack of money. They charge about 5,000 rupees for one fellow. Many private hospitals are providing such services now. I always believe that my health is strong and reliable. I never considered the idea of going for medical insurance necessary for this reason. Sometimes we don’t have even 1,000 rupees on us to spend for our emergency health problems. Many Indians depend on God in the matters of their health and life. Slept by 10:00.

21 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of May and June in my diary of 2011. By 6:00 Srijana, Anand and I started to Payakaraopeta on our scooty to see a Telugu film in a cinema. It broke down after we moved a little from our rented abode in Devi Nagar. I took it to a bike mechanic spot in Payakaraopeta on foot. Srijana and Anand followed me. We walked for about two kilometres to get it repaired. The mechanic said that air entered the petrol supply pump and so it stopped starting automatically when the related switch is pressed. He charged 40 rupees for this repair work. He is an honest and good fellow. Meanwhile a helpless woman asked me for one or two rupees. I asked her about her problem. She said that she has no enough money to go to Narsipatnam from Tuni by bus. She came here depending on the promise of a fellow. He did not meet her. I gave her 30 rupees because she has about 10 rupees only in her begging hand in the form of coins. She cried expressing her sense of gratitude to me for this help. Tears represent one’s deepest pain. I believed that she is not a professional beggar or cheat. She must be 60. We returned home by 7:15 on our scooty. Night clarified many doubts and questions of Srijana about my attitude and character. She kept crying for about two hours. Went to sleep by 10:00.

22 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of July and August in my diary of 2011. Morning bought 30 sapodillas for 30 rupees from an old woman hawker. She first said that she sells a dozen sapodillas for 100 rupees. She must have thought that I don’t know about the prices of these fruit in open market. They buy 100 sapodillas for 50 rupees or so from farmers in their farms. Sometimes they buy trees bearing them. They pluck ripe ones frequently and sell them in markets. I found that these sapodillas are of low quality. I bought them not to disappoint her. She said that I am her first customer today. She must be about 65. She belongs to Relli community. Sabari of this community offered sweet mango fruit to Lord Rama centuries ago in India. This woman casually remarked that her son is a drunkard. There were about 150 sapodillas in the container being carried by her keeping it on her head. She requested me to help her lift that container and put on her head. I did it readily. She walks from house to house yelling the name of these fruit. Many avoid buying from her because there are daily markets and attractive shopping malls out there in the main town. Actually she is cheating people selling low quality fruit. Many Indians forgot the concept of quality in foods now. From 6:30 to 9:15 Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Nippu” in cinema Sai Mahal. Slept by 10:00.

23 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of September and October in my diary of 2011. Evening Srijana went to a beauty parlour in Tuni to get her eyebrows beautified. She bought rolled gold bangles for her. She prepared a powder in Viswanadhapuram with dry leaves of Tulasi. She is applying that paste on her face to improve her beauty. I often appreciate her beauty. Some young blokes specially look at her when we go out. I don’t find their looks suitable to such contexts. We can express our sense of admiration for beauty with our eyes. Many fail to do it well. We can compare the looks of a dog at his master to that of admiration of a fellow for a beauty. The looks of a dog at his familiar bitch in mating season can be compared to those of a rogue at a beauty. There are many such rogues in India now. Dirty idiots comment badly about beauties in public places. Females like to go out with their parents, siblings, relatives, friends and well-wishers only in such bad societies. Many beauties are getting into unethical relationships and businesses in India now. When men think and behave like pimps, beauties cannot live like goddesses. Beauties are a great attraction of this world. All may admire them ideally. Went to sleep by 11:00.

24 February (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Anand and I took a bus by 8:40 and reached Adduroad Junction by 9:15. My brother Sambha took Srijana and Anand to our house in Peda Gummuluru on his bike. I continued my journey to Narsipatnam in this bus. My mother, Srijana and Anand took Visakhapatnam-Vijayawada passenger at Narsipatnam Road railway station by 11:00 for Durgada Gate. Got off this bus at Peda Boddepalli Junction in Narsipatnam and walked to RTO at Bali Ghattam. Transport constable K Appanna came to this office by 11:30. He got Srijana pass the online driving test and kept her learner’s license ready to be collected by me. Her license number is LLR AP13121752012. The folks of RTA of Anakapalle authorized this license. They got me fail in the first online driving test. So, I paid 60 rupees again towards examination fee for the next online test. Also filled up another application form and submitted it to them. Appanna told me to come to this office this Monday for my learner’s license. Took a bus and returned to Peda Gummuluru by 2:00. Sambha brought a pack of Chicken Biryani from a hotel for me. By 5:00 we bought a NOKIA handset for 1,650 rupees in a store at Adduroad for my sister-in-law Kranti. By 5:15 Sambha gave me 20,000 rupees. Earlier he said that he gives me all that money, which I spent to buy my Honda Activa scooty. He paid this much money towards it. Took a lorry and returned home by 8:15. Went to sleep by 10:30.

25 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 4:00. Today I edited the content of November and December in my diary of 2011 and completed its first and final level of editing. I took about 30 hours’ time to edit the content of this diary. I felt blissful after completing this editing work. I am very happy because I typed it up and edited it this time. This is the best work I did after entering this rented abode in Devi Nagar. Posted the edited version of this diary on my blog site at http://dcraju.blogspot.in by 2:00. Got it scheduled to be automatically published on it by 8:00 a.m. IST tomorrow. I added my latest colour photo in the beginning of it. Today is a great day in my life. The typing and editing work I did in relation to my diary of 2011 made this day so. I became weak today because I did not get time to have my breakfast or lunch. Had 12 biscuits and two boiled eggs to save myself from severe weakness caused due to continuous editing work and lack of proper food. By 3:30 Tirupati Raju of Viswanadhapuram came to our abode and asked me if I have money and interest to get into an insurance policy before the end of this month. He could not reach his target this time. He is an agent of LIC. I said I have no money. Got ready by 6:30. Took a passenger train at Tuni railway station and reached Durgada by 8:30. Slept by 11:00.

26 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:00 in the premises of temple of Lord Shiva in Durgada along with my cousins Vasu and Narendra Varma. Last night we slept here because there was no enough space in the house of my uncle to sleep. My cousin Vasu brought a car of his friend from Kakinada to help my uncle. The Upanayanam of my cousin Hari took place from 7:00 to 10:00. Took photos and videos of this occasion with my Sony digital camera. Lunch went on between 10:30 and 1:30. About 300 creatures attended this function. My uncle booked a private school bus and an Ambassador car to take the bridegroom and guests to the venue of marriage. They decorated the Swift car, brought by Vasu, for the bridegroom. Anantha Varma, Vasu and I also sat in it. Kalyana Varma drove it. We started in Durgada by 2:30 and reached Pillavani Palem by 5:30 travelling via Annavaram, Tuni, Thaalla Palem and Kannuru Palem. The marriage of Hari and Padma took place between 7:00 and 10:30. Took photos and videos of it with my camera. We all started back by 11:15. My brother Sambha and I got off the bus at Adduroad Junction by 12:45 and walked to the house of the prior to sleep. My uncle did not allow girls and women to attend this marriage occasion in Pillavani Palem representing bridegroom party. Srijana desired to come to see this marriage but stayed back. I support presence of girls and women at marriage functions. Went to sleep by 1:00.

27 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a bus by 10:00 and reached Narsipatnam by 11:00. Walked to the office of RTO at Bali Ghattam from Peda Boddepalli Junction. Collected my learner’s license from this office by 11:30. Transport constable K Appanna made me pass the online driving test in my absence and got this license document ready for me. He looks imposing with a tall and strong build. He is living in China Gummuluru. My license number is LLR AP13125322012. They are not conducting online and driving tests perfectly at these offices. Many brokers are there in every region doing these RTO works for vehicle users. Vehicle inspectors are corrupt blokes. They join these jobs to earn a lot in a short period of time taking bribes extensively. I ride my scooty very carefully minding the safety of road users and me. There is no harm if they issue me driving license without checking my driving skills. All youth don’t drive their vehicles like me on roads. They get into accidents and disturb public creating bad horns through their trendy bikes and cars. Authorities failed in India in controlling such rogues on roads. Took a bus at bus station in Narsipatnam by 12:45 and returned to Payakaraopeta by 2:00. Spent rest of the day reading newspapers and watching television. Went to sleep by 11:45.

28 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 11:00 went to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni and paid 252 rupees to them towards monthly interest for 25,000 rupees, which I borrowed from them earlier. Recently Srijana repaid me 30,000 rupees, which her father borrowed from me in 2008. She took out a loan sponsored by the Government of Andhra Pradesh. It is meant for the financially backward women in this state. Srijana got it as a resident of Viswanadhapuram. Initially Srijana told me to spend 20,000 rupees of it to buy a used scooty for us. My brother Sambha said that he would pay the cost of the scooty. Thus Srijana could repay the debt created by her father. Most of the belongings in our abode belong to her. She expects me to do a good job always and look after her well. I failed much in this regard so far. I could not do jobs continuously for some reasons. Srijana is a beauty. She is like a flower in my garden of love and admiration. I should always keep her happy. I cannot do it well as long as I don’t earn money regularly. Srijana is disturbed about my turning and remaining jobless frequently. Her and my familiar folks often ask us about my present status of job and income for survival. They think that I am vulnerable and unreliable as an earner. Money became a vital element to make and keep human life happy now. I am not in a comfortable zone as an earner now. Went to sleep by 10:00.

29 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Spent all the day at home casually. I did not get any freelance writing or editing work through oDesk or Elance. They must be thinking that the writing skills of folks of third world countries are low. They prefer the professionals from countries like Canada, Ireland, the USA and the UK. Many desire to get their works done at very low rates by freelancers through these online sources. Freelance creatures look like helpless blokes to many employers. None of Reliance Netconnect folks came to my abode to improve the speed of wireless broadband despite many emails to them. They advised me, over phone, on how to do it on my own. Anil Ambani is cheating millions of Indians through his inefficient and fraudulent businesses in India. The other day I sent an email to advocate C S N Raju in Hyderabad asking him to do something against Reliance fraudsters at the High Court of Andhra Pradesh. He did not care my email. He must be considering me like a joker because I have no money to pay him. He wants rich clients to earn money. I need a lot of money, time, energy and patience to correct criminals and sinners through cases at courts of law. I cannot do it now. Many are cheating me regularly. I should not kill them. They don’t change on their own to the better. Went to sleep by 10:00.

1 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 6:45 paid 3,000 rupees to our house owner Asha Bhanu towards rent for our portion for the last month. Recently they fitted an electricity recording KWh meter. Hereafter we pay our respective electricity bills separately. By 11:15 Srijana and Anand returned from Durgada. The bride party hired a small van to take my cousin Hari and Padma to Pillavanipalem from Durgada formally. Anantha Varma, the brother-in-law of Hari, is going there as “Thodu Pelli Koduku” to assist Hari. My cousin Vasu also accompanied them on the request of Hari. Srijana and Anand travelled in this van up to Devi Nagar. She brought sweets and snacks from there. She became the centre of attraction in the house of my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma in Durgada during and after the occasion of Upanayanam of Hari. Many found her very beautiful, active and pleasant. She stayed there for five days and helped them. She could not sleep well during these few days. My cousin Sirisha (Parvathi Devi) is pregnant now. She enjoyed the marriage of her brother. The folks of bride party presented 50,000 rupees to Sirisha, as a traditional gift, as part of the custom prevalent in this region. Gave two DVDs to Hari. They have photos and videos, related to Upanayanam and marriage of Hari and Padma, shot by me, with my Sony digital camera. This is my gift to them. I have no money to buy other gifts. Went to sleep by 11:00.

2 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today I applied for eight kinds of freelance editing and writing assignments on Elance. By 4:30 my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came here from Peda Gummuluru. He and I started to Kota Nanduru on my scooty by 4:45. We reached the house of Vysya community member Ramam. His eldest son Sudhakar is a familiar merchant to my uncle. We gave a wedding card to Ramam inviting him to the marriage of my cousin Lakshmi Narasayyamma (Ashwini). Ramam may be 70 now. He told us about the values and way of life he learnt from his father. I found them very interesting and insightful. Vysyas of Andhra Pradesh are known for strong familial bonds, wealth, simplicity, frugality and tradition. I know about such Vysyas, who became rich and influential, simply running Kirana shops in villages and towns. Their women wear many gold ornaments during functions. They like to have more sons in their families than daughters. They loyally follow the advice of their father in business and family matters. My uncle casually told me that the present assets of Ramam may value about 50 crore rupees but his house and behavior are simple and humble. Others can learn a lot from the lives and culture of Vysyas. They are like mini private banks in this state. Many borrow money from them and sell their agricultural produce to them. My uncle and I returned to Payakaraopeta by 7:00. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

3 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 11:00 Srijana brought my cousin Sirisha and her baby daughter Shiva Sahithi from Tuni on our scooty. Her father was going to Pillavanipalem in an Ambassador car to bring his son Hari and daughter-in-law Padma to Durgada formally. Anand is very interested in Sahithi. Today he kissed her many times. He is getting attracted towards girls. He is moving closely with babies of opposite gender. Srijana often compares Anand to me. I too admire beauties. There is difference between passionate love and admiration. I did not touch beauties out of passionate love for them. I admired them being in much distance from them. Brought Anantha Varma to our rented abode by 5:00 on our scooty. He travelled up to Tuni from Pillavanipalem along with Hari and Padma. He told me that the in-laws of Hari treated them very well as special guests. They prepared different kinds of dishes for them. He said that they are good folks in all respects. They work hard in their agricultural farms. They live simply and honestly. There is inspiring natural beauty in this region. Hari is lucky in getting Padma from such family. Padma will be an ideal wife to him. Srijana and Anand started to Viswanadhapuram by 5:45 on our scooty. Anantha Varma, Sirisha, Shiva Sahithi and I started to Adduroad by 6:00 by bus. They went to Ramayyapatnam. I went to our house in Peda Gummuluru. Went to sleep by 9:30.

4 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today there is the function of a kind in the house of the daughter of my youngest paternal grandfather Datla Narayana Murthy Raju in Peda Gummuluru. It went on from 7:30 to 4:30. The age of this girl is about 15 now. Today they got her wear half sari formally. They decorated her with ornaments. The parents of this girl have no assets at all. They invited many Kshatriya creatures to this function. They spent about 25,000 rupees on this occasion. I served food items to guests for about three hours. I participate in some functions though I don’t like them personally. This is one of such functions. Many idiots are getting into such parties and functions now out of false prestige. They are suffering from the social disorder of identity crisis. They expect the arrival of many familiar creatures to their houses through functions of this nature. They compare themselves with lifestyles and celebrations of contemporary blokes. Party culture is infectious in India. Many Indians are concentrating on quite unnecessary things now. We need not throw a party for every trivial occasion in our life. We should have good habits. We should live with honesty and idealism. Many talk about us beyond our presence. We can assess our worth as individuals partly depending on this secret talk about us among others. We must improve ourselves based on both casual and constructive criticism from others. Went to sleep by 9:30.

5 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 6:30 my brother Sambha and I started to Kota Uratla on his bike. We went there to enquire about the present rates of agricultural farms in this area. My brother and my father are in the process of searching and buying a little piece of agricultural land for me using the money we got from the sale of my one acre of paddy farm in Gollalagunta. They are experienced folks in this field. They consider me as an innocent and ignorant person in this regard. I am playing a nominal role in this process. Sambha left for Elamanchili by 9:30 dropping me at Darlapudi. He went there to take a test as an “Aadharsha Raithu” of Andhra Pradesh government. They pay 1,000 rupees a month for this position. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and returned home by 10:00. The activities and arrangements for the marriage of my cousin Ashwini are going on fast. By 3:45 shot two photos of Penta Lakshmi from two family group photos, brought by a cousin of her, from Ramayyapatnam. She wore a green sari in these photos. My Sony digital camera captured her images. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy and I booked a few rooms, in Lodge Ravi Teja, in Tuni, for bridegroom party, for the 10th and 11th of this month. Srijana and Anand returned to Devi Nagar by 3:30 from Viswanadhapuram. Slept by 11:00.

6 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. The battery in my Reliance cellphone is not functioning well. I bought a China Made battery from a store in Tuni. It is also not functioning well. Asked him to give another piece. I am not happy about the services of Reliance Communications from the beginning. I decided to switch to another service provider when Mobile Number Portability system was introduced in India. The failure of battery encouraged me to shun Reliance today itself. Rushed to Arundhati Agencies mobile store in Tuni by 1:00. Bought an Airtel prepaid GSM SIM card representing number 95731 69823 for 70 rupees and a SAMSUNG Hero Music GT-E1232B cellphone for 1,650 rupees. It’s a 1232 model piece. I can use two SIM cards in it. Sent text ‘Port’ to number 1900. Once the Reliance rogues send me related code, I will use my present Reliance number in Airtel service network. I am blissful to get rid of Reliance this way. I hate anything related to Reliance hereafter because they tortured me highly for all these years. Anil Ambani is worse than a prostitute in India. Morning Vamsy came to Tuni from Hyderabad. He attends the marriage of his cousin Pridhvi at Annavaram on the 9th of this month. He gave a beautiful NOKIA handset to Srijana. It got many features. Srijana is blissful to own it. Coincidentally Srijana and I got new handsets today. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 8:20 on our scooty. We reached our house by 9:00. We came here to help my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy in relation to works and arrangements associated with the marriage of his daughter Ashwini. My father told me to take the agricultural farm of my brother Sambha, in Kota Uratla (near village Tangedu), instead of buying another farmland, with the seven lakh rupees I have. My brother has 2.15 acres of paddy farmland in this place. One can easily reach this farmland from the main road leading to Narsipatnam from Kota Uratla. My friend Veeranjaneyulu also told me to see if there are a few acres of farmland worth between two and four lakh rupees (one acre). He is struggling a lot to mobilize money for this purpose. The rates of agricultural farms and residential plots of land increased a lot during the last three years. Rapid acquisition of land by state and central governments and industrialists led to high demand for lands in many regions in Andhra Pradesh. Real estate sector became very attractive field for agents and brokers to earn a lot of money fast in the form of percentage. Veeru is considering farmlands in Vizianagaram district also. He is much interested in buying such agricultural land, which costs about two lakh rupees per acre. He is planning to live in a serene and inspiring place in near future, going away from all kinds of pollution created by modern man in main parts of villages, towns and cities. His ideal plot of land must be among hills for this purpose. Went to sleep by 10:00.

8 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. Evening made a house portion clean along with Yesu Babu and the brother-in-law of my uncle Narayana Murthy. This portion was filled with cobwebs and dust. It remained beyond human use for one month. We use it as a guesthouse for the bridegroom and his representatives before marriage of Ashwini. Today we three worked hard to make this portion tidy and attractive. Actually we assigned this work to Yesu Babu but we too got into it to finish it fast. We should not assign cooking and cleanliness works, to others, exclusively, as far as we can manage. We depend on others when we are helpless. They do it carelessly minding our dependability. My uncle decided to do the marriage of his daughter in an open plot of land beside his house. My father advised him to do it on the terrace of his house. It is not spacious and suitable for the occasion of marriage. Earth is one of the five elements, for which Hindus accord great value in their lives and culture. Our houses and other buildings are constructed on earth. We should not value our houses and offices more than the earth and the natural phenomena on it. The assets of God and nature are more valuable, powerful and beautiful than those of man. I love earth a lot. I consider graveyard and temple alike. Man made his life sophisticated and complex in the process of his growth as an intelligent and manipulative creature. The age and history of earth are longer and deeper than those of man. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 March (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. My uncle Narayana Murthy and I went to Gurrajupeta by 9:30 on my scooty. We plucked three bunches of coconuts from the garden of a familiar Kshatriya fellow. These are for the occasion of marriage of my cousin Ashwini. My brother Sambha and I are helping my uncle more than others. We are using our bikes to move to different places and do things. Those, who help us a lot, before a marriage, are our real relatives and well-wishers. Those, who stay with us for a little time only, during the occasion of marriage, are our guests. Relatives and well-wishers are like a well in our house. We can depend on them. Guests are like rain in a desert. We should not depend on them. My uncle gave me 300 rupees so far to fill petrol into my Honda Activa scooty. This is because I am using my scooty for his works frequently. He is paying petrol allowance to me! I need it. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and his wife Vimala play the roles of guests during formal occasions of this order in our houses. I don’t like their attitudes in this regard. The best we can do to others is honest and reliable service when they need our presence, advice and help the most. I like the occasion of marriage in human life more than any other occasion. The activities related to marriage make all active and cheerful. Went to sleep by 9:30.

10 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 10:30 the brother-in-law of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy and I went to our mango garden at hills to pluck and bring fresh mango leaves and dry sticks. Enjoyed this ride to our mango garden on my scooty. Today I helped my uncle in marriage related activities. I used my scooty to move to different places fast. My father and his two brothers have been riding bicycles for the last 30 years. They are planning to buy switch start scooties soon. I am not happy about the relationships among my father and his siblings. They don’t think or worry about difficulties and problems in the lives of others. My father did not like my working hard for the occasion of marriage of my cousin Ashwini. My paternal grandparents treated our family badly since the marriage of my father. The siblings of my father treated him like an alien. My father inherited one acre of mango farm only from his father. He struggled hard to live on his own in those circumstances. By 7:30 my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and I reached Tuni in an auto rickshaw. We collected 25 kilos of prawns from the fish market and returned to Peda Gummuluru by 9:00. We two returned to Tuni by 10:00 on my scooty to receive the bridegroom and some of his relatives. We brought them to Lodge Ravi Teja by 11:30 and showed them the rooms booked for them in advance. My uncle and I slept, in my rented abode at Devi Nagar, by 12:00.  

11 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 2:00. Got ready by 4:00. My brother Sambha and a relative came to my rented abode by 6:00 from Peda Gummuluru on a bike. They bought 30 kilos of fish from fish market in Tuni and started back by 7:30. My uncle Narasimha Murthy and I took the bridegroom party to Peda Gummuluru by 9:00. The bridegroom returned to the lodge in Tuni after a formal ceremony under the supervision of a priest. Cooking different food items and decoration of marriage venue was over by 6:00. The marriage of my cousin Ashwini (Datla Lakshmi Narasayyamma) and Naresh Raju took place from 6:15 to 9:45. About 600 creatures attended it. Naresh Raju is working with a unit of NTPC at Ramagundam now. He belongs to village Siddhapuram in Akiveedu Mandal in West Godavari District. He seems to be a gentleman. There are some differences between the marriage formalities and ceremonies of West Godavari Kshatriyas and those of Visakhapatnam District. My uncle would have spent about 10 lakh rupees for marriage of his daughter. Srijana moved closely with my cousin Ashwini in beautifying her as a bride and during marriage ceremony. I enjoyed the brilliance and celebration of this marriage occasion. We three brothers worked actively for this marriage. My uncle and aunt felt happy about the successful and happy celebration of this marriage. Went to sleep by 12:30.

12 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00 on the terrace of the house of my brother Sambha. Dew fell during the night. My uncle Narayana Murthy and I moved together from 8:30 to 12:30. We did some things to settle matters remaining after marriage occasion. Many plastic plates and glasses got scattered around the venue of marriage. We got them all collected and burnt off by three paid workers. We returned the tent house items to our familiar Kshatriya fellow. We found that some of these items got stolen by a few native folks when we were busy doing main works related to marriage occasion. They cost my uncle about 4,000 rupees. I could not see the marriage of Ashwini and Naresh satisfactorily being engaged in works and arrangements related to it. I did not take photos and videos of this occasion due to it. The folks of bride party cannot watch the marriage ceremony as comfortably and freely like those of the bridegroom party in this region in our community. Srijana, Anand and I started back to our rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 1:30 on our scooty. Scanned the Eenadu dailies of last four days for two hours. By 5:00 Srijana, Anand and I went to Tuni on our scooty. We bought some clothes and other items moving from shop to shop. Vamsy left for Hyderabad by 8:30 by a private travel bus from Tuni. Srijana took packed homemade food and water for him from our abode. Slept by 10:15.

13 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Washed two pairs of clothes. Srijana, Anand and I started to Viswanadhapuram by 11:00 on our scooty. We reached there by 11:50. I ride scooty slowly and carefully on bad roads. We saw the newborn baby of Suresh. He is a relative of Srijana. The maternal grandparents of Srijana felt happy about my taking Srijana and Anand to their house on my scooty. Bikes facilitate comfortable and speedy journey compared to bicycles. Went to the sugarcane collection point near Kodavatipudi by 4:00. Tirupati Raju got a few sugarcanes cut and tied together for me. I have sugarcanes interestingly. The maternal grandmother of Srijana is processing fresh tamarind now for domestic use. We enjoyed this short stay in Viswanadhapuram. We started back by 4:35. Srijana went to Arundhati Agencies mobile store in Tuni by 6:30 to do the work of Mobile Number Portability. The code issued by folks of Reliance Communications is RA 135278. This Airtel representative inserted a new Airtel SIM card into my double SIM SAMSUNG handset. Number portability gets into effect in a few days. I am leaving Reliance and joining Airtel for better network coverage and customer service. Recently a Reliance creature talked with me over phone. I did not allow her to talk with me for more than 30 seconds. Slept by 10:00.

14 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Recently Datla Krishna Varma asked me to come to Jaggampeta to teach English subject to his students in Sahithi Public School. He is a brother-in-law of my brother Srinivas. I thought much about it. A married person cannot go out as simply as a bachelor, leaving his family members at home. Now, many teachers, working in private schools, left them (schools) to prepare for the examination to become government school teachers. All B.Ed. qualified candidates have to take a test to be conducted by district selection committees. Krishna Varma needs an English teacher to face this emergency situation in his school. I am not doing any work now being at home. I decided to help Krishna Varma in this context. Got ready by 11:30. Mallesh accompanied me up to bus station in Tuni on my scooty. Took a Tuni-Vijayawada Express bus by 1:00 and reached Jaggampeta by 2:30. Walked a little from the bus station and reached the venue of Sahithi Public School. Met Krishna Varma and spent talking with him for one hour. He felt happy about my coming here to take the short-term teaching assignment in his school. He told me about many things he is doing now apart from running this school. He said that he wants to develop through hard work and honesty. It started raining when I was in a sharing auto rickshaw, crossing cinema Rajaveni. Gollalagunta is welcoming me. Went to sleep by 9:30.

15 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. My cousin Narendra Varma and I started to Jaggampeta by 8:20 on his bike. He recently joined Aditya Engineering College at Surampalem as a lecturer. He keeps his bike in the premises of Sahithi Public School and takes a bus of this college every day. Today I taught English lessons to the students of 7th, 8th and 10th standards. This is an English medium co-education school. They teach from Nursery to Standard 10 here. I explained lessons in Telugu in all the classes. The mother tongue of these learners is Telugu. They cannot speak or write English like the native speakers of English in the U.K. or Canada. Even these teachers are not experts in using English. We should not teach English or any other subject in English, to those learners, who are not very good at English. They become helpless and inefficient users of English in course of time due to such superficial educational system. This principle is not applicable to those learners, who use standard English language extensively even outside their classrooms. Evening it rained for about 30 minutes. Krishna Varma and I spent talking for one hour. Naren and I returned home by 7:30 on his bike. Today the results of GATE-2012 were released online. Naren’s rank in it is 6000. He is happy about it to some extent. Went to sleep by 9:30.

16 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. My cousin Naren and I started to Jaggampeta by 8:30 on his bike. We reached Sahithi Public School by 8:45. Today I taught English subject to the students of 7th, 8th and 10th classes. Explained lessons in Telugu. I did not find the lessons in their Readers suitable to their age group. There are a series of chapters connected to each other. There are many characters and events in each of these chapters of a novella. The names of these characters and foreign places are difficult for these little learners to pronounce, remember and memorize. I failed to remember the sequence of events even when passing through the paragraphs of a chapter. I don’t think that these English medium students are good at English language or literature. They don’t care language much. They focus more on Mathematics, Science and Social Studies than Telugu, Hindi and English. They depend on study material and guides to prepare for the periodical exams in their schools. They have no time, interest or patience to read difficult writings of foreign authors. They like gripping stories with a few characters and simple sentences. Poetry is a difficult part of literature for teachers to understand at their level and teach it effectively thinking from the perspective of little learners at school. Went to sleep by 10:15.

17 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Jaggampeta by 9:15. Today I taught English subject to the students of 6th, 7th, 8th and 10th classes. Three students distributed chocolates and biscuits on the occasion of their birthdays. Today I sat in the classroom of 2nd standard for 30 minutes. I could not control their collective noise and mischief. I enjoyed their innocence and passion for talking with others. By 2:22 Krishna Varma and I started to Peda Gummuluru in his car from their house in village Gurrampalem. We reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 3:25. We took the military tent from this house. My brother Srinivas brought it once from Indian Army. Krishna Varma asked my brother for it. He wants to use it in his site meant (yet to be developed) for tourists near village Ramavaram. He is embarking on different projects of this order now. We reached my rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 4:20. Srijana and Anand got into this car by 4:30. We reached Jaggampeta by 5:30. Srijana and Anand reached Gollalagunta by 5:45 in this car. I brought Srijana and Anand to Gollalagunta minding our marriage anniversary on the 23rd of this month. Supervised the study hour of 10th standard students from 7:00 to 8:00. Went to sleep by 9:30.

18 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took an auto rickshaw by 9:30 and reached Jaggampeta by 10:00. Supervised the study hours of 10th standard students till 12:30 in Sahithi Public School. There are eight boys and eight girls in this standard now. They have to take their annual public examinations from the 26th of this month. This is time for intensive preparation for them for these exams. Many students aim at achieving 500 or more marks for 600 in these exams. These private schoolteachers complete teaching prescribed syllabi of all subjects quite early in every academic year. Thereafter they make students prepare for their annual exams, sitting for a long time, in their classrooms, every day, under the supervision of teachers. I don’t like students preparing under the supervision of teachers always. They are not sheep. A tutor or teacher supervising their conduct in a classroom is like a shepherd. Students must be trained to grow into intelligent, honest and visionary individuals. They should not look for mentors and guides always to take decisions and form opinions on different aspects of their lives. Educational institutions are producing money oriented materialists in every academic year instead of virtue oriented human beings. Institutional learning became mechanical, artificial and painful now for little and young learners. Slept by 9:30.

19 March (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Sahithi Public School by 8:50 on the bike of Naren. Today I taught English subject to the students of 6th, 8th and 10th standards. Night supervised the study hours of 10th standard students from 6:30 to 8:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and returned home by 8:30. Evening called up the rogues of Reliance Communications and asked them about progress in the process of my Mobile Number Portability into Airtel network from Reliance. They said they did not do it because I did not clear the dues till now. They did not inform me about it proactively. They intentionally delay portability cases. They make the process of exit from their service complex and irritating. Called up my cousin Vasu and asked him to pay 1,000 rupees to these folks through online money transfer. He did it immediately. My desire to get rid of Reliance Communications fast is not yet fulfilled. They torture me as much as possible before allowing me to switch to Airtel service from Reliance, retaining this number. They neither provide reliable service nor do business practicing ethics. The business values of Anil Ambani are public cheating and corporate fraud. I pray God to remove Anil from the soil of India and save Indians from the sins of such nasty entrepreneurs. Today I cursed this criminal. Went to sleep by 9:30.

20 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Sahithi Public School in Jaggampeta by 8:45. Today it was expected that deputy D.E.O. would come to this school for inspection. Krishna Varma advised his staff on how to play their roles during the time of inspection. This government official did not come to this school today. He inspected two other private schools in Jaggampeta and left for his office. Today I did not teach English subject to students of any class. Supervised the study hours of students of 10th standard. Uppalapati Krishnam Raju, the father-in-law of Krishna Varma, passed away this afternoon, at a private hospital, in Rajahmundry. They admitted him into this hospital, two days ago, as he was suffering from a few health disorders. They treated him in ICU but they could not save his life. The lower half of his body got paralyzed due to an accident to him about 20 years ago. He has been spending his time sitting in a chair in his abode at Molleru Mallavaram since this time. His wife served him a lot for all these years. He could not move out to bath or for natural calls. She did everything keeping him in a room. His soul left this crippled and painful body today. My cousin Narendra Varma and I went to the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju at Teachers Colony in Jaggampeta by 6:15. We spent talking with his second son Naren for 30 minutes. Went to sleep by 9:30.

21 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 8:45 went to the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju at Teachers Colony in Jaggampeta. Returned their scooty. Yesterday night I brought it to Gollalagunta from their abode. Talked with Naren and my uncle for a few minutes. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 9:30 on the scooty. Today I taught English subject to the students of 6th, 8th and 10th standards. I checked language skills of the students, asking them the spellings and meanings of some simple English words. Their vocabulary is very low. Teachers are not explaining the meanings and usage of many words in English or Telugu. Students are not able to understand the essence of lessons due to it. They are reciting important questions and answers to write them down on answer sheets during exams. Students of mediocre English medium schools and colleges fail to be good at either English or Telugu. A shallow set of students are coming out from each of these educational institutions every academic year. They are struggling to learn communicative English before or after getting jobs in corporate firms. They are learning English with a purpose rather than passion for it. Majority of Indians use bad English for this reason. Returned home by 6:30. Went to sleep by 10:15.

22 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50. Today I taught English subject to the students of 6th, 7th, 8th and 10th standards. They started teaching the subjects of 10th standard to the present 9th standard students about a month ago. Annual public exams would be conducted for the 10th standard students only at high school level in Andhra Pradesh. The managements of private and public schools make their 10th standard students struggle hard and get more marks in their annual exams. Students are supposed to study hard in their study hours every day. I consider study hours, under the supervision of teachers and tutors, in premises of educational institutions, superficial and unnecessary. Many students pretend before teachers in classrooms. They act the roles of great learners to satisfy the beliefs of teachers about students. If students are sheep, they certainly need the care and supervision of a shepherd. If they are honest and visionary individuals, they must know where, why and how to prepare for their exams. Parents, contemporary society and various other influences mould the character of a person in every age. Educational institutions cannot produce great human beings, when the people and circumstances are dishonest and evil all around. Returned home by 7:30 in a sharing auto rickshaw. Went to sleep by 10:00.

23 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today it is the marriage anniversary of Srijana and me. We lived four years of married lives so far. Today it is Ugadi also. Telugu year Nandana Naama is starting today. Srijana and I got the blessings of my maternal uncles, other uncles and aunts, here, on this occasion. I bought one kilo of Milk Mysore Pak for 150 rupees and a pack of Butter One candies for 50 rupees to distribute to our folks here on this occasion. Srijana and I did it from 8:30 to 9:30. My cousin Bala came here by 2:30. Srijana, Anand, Bala, Naren and I started to the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju in Jaggampeta by 3:15 on two bikes. We spent in their house from 3:40 to 5:40. We all spent talking among ourselves. We enjoyed these moments of togetherness. Bala left for Kakinada by 5:30. My teacher uncle dropped me in Gollalagunta by 6:15 on his scooty. Srijana, Anand and Naren returned to Gollalagunta by 6:30. Srijana bought and brought two bottles of cool soft drinks (Fanta and Sprite) and a pack of strawberry ice cream for celebration in the evening. We all had this casual party from 8:00 to 9:00. We enjoyed ourselves talking among ourselves. This night of the spring was cool, pleasant and soothing. I enjoy the presence and thoughts of Srijana and Anand. Went to sleep by 10:30.

24 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana and Anand got ready by 8:00. My cousin Narendra Varma took them to Jaggampeta on his bike. They two took an Express bus for Tuni by 8:20. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Sahithi Public School by 9:20. Today I taught English subject to the students of 6th, 7th, 8th and 10th standards. By 1:15 had my lunch in hotel Satya Sri paying them 30 rupees for it. The accountant of the school is paying me for me to have meal in a hotel whenever I go out. Generally Krishna Varma is bringing food for me from his house at Gurrampalem for my lunch also. This morning a priest came to this school. Krishna Varma showed the hall tickets of 10th standard students to them for the first time today. The priest performed special worship to the Hindu Goddess Saraswati on this occasion seeking Her blessings for these students. They put their exam related clipboards and other kinds of writing material, at the photo of this goddess, on floor, in a classroom. These students have to get high marks and grades in the coming annual exams and keep up the reputation of this school. By 5:40 Narendra Varma returned from Aditya Engineering College at Surampalem in their college route bus. We two spent talking in the premises of this school about the standards and values of the present students at schools, colleges and universities. We reached Gollalagunta by 7:30 on his bike. Slept by 9:30.

25 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to the agricultural farm of my uncle Ramakrishnam Raju by 9:00 along with my maternal uncle Varma and his son Vinay (Kolukuluri Vivekananda Varma). Today they are collecting Karra Pendalam tubers from this farm. My uncle employed two native labourers to assist him in this work. They pulled out these plants using two sharp tools. Vinay and I put these dug out plants, with tubers, in select parts of this farmland. My two uncles separated tubers from plants cutting them with two sharp knives. We loaded these tubers into a bullock cart by 12:30. The extracted milk from these tubers is used for making sago and white powder. This year this crop did not yield well in this region due to low rainfall. Today I did considerable physical work, in this farm, in the sun, along with others. I felt associated with the beauty and vitality of this soil. On the way back home, my uncle and I collected four long sugarcanes from the sugarcane farm of a familiar fellow. Afternoon took a few photos for my folks here with my Sony digital camera. The name of the daughter of my maternal uncle Varma and cousin Anantha Lakshmi is Krishna Kumari. Her nick name is Kavitha. She is a beautiful and disciplined girl. Now she is pursuing 9th standard at the government high school in Gollalagunta. Went to sleep by 9:30.

26 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:45 on his bike. He daily keeps his bike under a tree in the premises of this school. He takes a college bus of Aditya Engineering College to commute every day. He returns by 5:30 to Jaggampeta from this college. Now he is working as a lecturer there. Now they are paying him 14,000 rupees a month though they show it differently in their records. Today I taught English subject to the students of 6th, 7th and 10th standards. Had my lunch in hotel Satya Sri by 1:20 paying them 30 rupees. Naren returned from Peddapuram by 5:15. I left the school by 5:30. Naren and I went to the weekly vegetable market in Jaggampeta by 5:45. He bought vegetables worth about 75 rupees for their domestic consumption. We returned home by 6:15. Srijana and Anand went to Peda Gummuluru by 4:30 on our scooty from our rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta. They spend there for a day or two. Recently my cousin Vasu got a berth reserved for Srijana for Visakha Express for the 30th of this month online. She and Anand take it at Tuni railway station for Secunderabad. Thence they go to the farmhouse at Masanpalli to spend with my in-laws for some days. This is in view of my being in Gollalagunta till the end of April to teach at Sahithi Public School. Went to sleep by 9:30.

27 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:45. Today I took the classes of 6th, 7th, 8th and 10th standard students. I did not find the toilets clean, hygienic and usable in this school. There are about 700 students in this school now. They often use these toilets. They may get infections after using them. Teachers also go to them. I observed some teachers avoiding using them altogether fearing infections. Many students are throwing food in a corner of this school during lunchtime. A native boy is coming here every evening to collect this misused food. He told me that they offer it to their pigs. There is no provision for adequate drinking water in this school. Teachers and students are bringing drinking water in bottles from their homes. I found the classrooms comfortable. Air blows into them always from two sides. Cobwebs are there in every classroom. They remove them occasionally. They are allowing spiders to live happily in their classrooms. There are two women to sweep in the classrooms and premises of this school every day. They keep them clean always. There are a few plants and trees in the premises of this school. They must be exhaling oxygen to some extent. There is a Reliance Mobile cell tower in a corner of this school. Went to sleep by 9:45.

28 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Sahithi Public School in Jaggampeta by 8:50. Today I taught English subject to the students of 6th, 7th, 8th and 10th standards. By 1:20 had my lunch in Naganjaneya Hotel near Sahithi Public School paying them 30 rupees. The classes were over by 4:00. Went to bus station. My brother Srinivas, my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, Sowjanya, Ramesh and baby Sravya got off an Express bus here by 4:20. My brother asked me if I am in need of money. I replied in the negative. I stopped earning money since I had left Glads Media in July 2011. I felt happy knowing about the concern of my brother about me. I brought these five creatures to Sahithi Public School by 4:25. Krishna Varma offered drinking water, tea and soft drinks to these folks. We all sat in chairs and spent talking about our domestic affairs for some time. Krishna Varma and these folks left for Molleru Mallavaram by 5:10 in an auto rickshaw. Tomorrow the 10th day ceremony takes place at this village in the house of maternal grandparents of Sandhya Rani in memory of Uppalapati Krishnam Raju, who passed away recently. They serve food to a few invited and familiar people formally seeking the best wishes of them for the departed soul of Krishnam Raju. I don’t like going to such ceremonies, which are celebrated after the death of a person. Returned home by 6:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

29 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Sahithi Public School by 8:50. Today I took the classes of 6th, 7th, 8th, and 10th standard students. By 4:00 my maternal uncle Varma came to this school. We walked to the bus station. My brother Srinivas, my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, Sowjanya, Ramesh and baby Sravya reached here from Molleru Mallavaram. They took a Visakhapatnam bound Express bus by 4:15. My uncle Varma, his son Vivekananda Varma and I reached the temporary office of Ravindra Bharathi School in JVR Complex. They conducted an admission test for this boy to check his standard of education. He got 23 marks for 100 in this test. Now he is in 6th standard at Swamy Vivekananda School in Jaggampeta. My uncle is not happy about the quality of education being provided here. He wants to admit him into this new school. He paid 2,000 rupees in this school office to confirm a place for his son in 7th standard for the coming academic year. Neeraja Reddy, the academic coordinator of this school, explained the educational system of this school, to us, for 40 minutes. I felt happy knowing about their methods of teaching and standards of discipline. Naren and I returned to Gollalagunta by 5:45 on his bike. Went to sleep by 10:00.

30 March (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:45. Today I taught English subject to the students of 6th, 7th, 8th and 10th standards. By 5:30 took a bus at bus station in Jaggampeta and reached Samarla Kota by 6:15. The bus fare is 10 rupees only. Naren had already reached here. I bought a jute bag with holding sticks, four Lays packs and a bottle of cool almond flavoured juice. I spent 40, 20 and 50 rupees respectively for these items. The two holding sticks of a jute bag got broken when Srijana and Anand were getting into train at Tuni railway station this evening. She informed me, over phone, to buy one in Samarla Kota. The Lays potato chips are for Anand. I got the juice prepared at the fruit juice point in Brahmana Hotel near railway station. It is a famous fruit juice stall in this town. Many frequent it for sweet and irresistible fruit juices. Also bought a dozen bananas for 25 rupees for Srijana and Anand. Visakha Express arrived on platform 3 by 7:00. Handed the jute bag and other items to Srijana from a window. She took two bananas only. Her berth number is 44 in sleeper coach S-6 of this train. Asha Bhanu helped her and Anand take this train at Tuni. Srijana and Anand are going to Hyderabad. Naren and I returned home by 8:40. Went to sleep by 10:00.

31 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Sahithi Public School by 8:50 along with Naren on his bike. By this time, Srijana and Anand reached Secunderabad by Visakha Express. Vamsy received them. They took a bus and went to the rented abode of Madhavi at Ashok Nagar by 10:00. Today I took the classes of 6th, 7th, 8th and 10th standard students. Had my lunch in Naganjaneya Hotel by 1:20. Returned home by 5:45 along with Naren. Met Ganapatiraju Ramabhadra Raju by 6:00 at the peepal tree community meeting point to ask him about the present state of his life. He is the brother of Saint Appanna, who died a few years ago, in Gollalagunta. His sister and wife are living in this village now. They are poor and helpless now. They refused to look after him for this reason. He may be about 65 now. He is looking old and helpless. He wears a saffron set of clothes and begs in the areas of Rajahmundry, Kakinada, Samarla Kota, Peddapuram and Tuni. He travels freely in trains from one place to another in the uniform of an Indian beggar. He tried to die five times going across a running train but somebody always pulled him back from the railway track. Now he is unable to work hard and earn money for his living. So, he resorted to begging. He comes here by the end of every month to collect 150 rupees from Fakir Raju (a donation from the regional Kshatriya Seva Samithi at Jaggampeta). The government folks refused to give pension to him because he is a gypsy (a living entity without a particular place of residence). Slept by 10:00.

1 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at the abodes of my folks in Gollalagunta. By 10:00 I got a cold. By 4:00 low fever attacked me. I must have consumed bad food or water today. It is Sri Rama Navami today. I did not go to the temple of Lord Rama to watch the religious ceremony of the marriage of Lord Rama and Goddess Sita. Criminals and sinners of contemporary society are conducting it in temples for formality sake. They are not following the virtues of Lord Rama. Today I knew that Yejarla Sudharshana Raju passed away yesterday morning. He has been a popular person in Peda Gummuluru for the last 10 years. Many native people used to approach him regularly to get their disputes resolved. He was like a local judge for them. He used to shout at them using abusive words while resolving their issues. He became rich through immoral ways. I never talked with him though he was a neighbour to us. My brother Sambha liked him a lot. They had been great friends. He trusted my brother more than anybody else. He was in a hospital for one week in Visakhapatnam before his mortal departure. The issue of death disturbs me a lot. It proves that every creature is subject to its Karma. The powers and schedules of souls are mysterious and intangible. Went to sleep by 10:30.

2 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:45. Today I supervised the study hours of 6th, 7th, 8th and 9th standard students. Morning my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and her sister Sowjanya went to Molleru Mallavaram to formally see their maternal aunt Kumari as a widow in a white sari. Her husband Uppalapati Krishnam Raju passed away recently. Indian society treats a widow as a symbol of misfortune and sorrow. They expect her to lead an inactive and ugly life after the death of her husband. Many educated and modern Indians are not following this facet of Indian culture now. I am happy about this progressive change in their attitudes. My folks returned to their respective homes in Visakhapatnam district in the afternoon after seeing their aunt. Returned home by 6:30 along with Naren on his bike. By 8:00 smashed my green coloured Reliance LG handset hitting it hard on a solid surface. Removed the SIM card representing my present Reliance cellphone number 9396872652 from it and threw the damaged handset away into the nearby empty paddy farm using my energy to the fullest. It has been bothering me for the last one month. I spent about 400 rupees to make it useful but in vain. By 9:00 Srijana, her cousin Sunil and Anand reached the farmhouse of my in-laws near Masanpalli travelling for three hours in the morning. Went to sleep by 9:30.

3 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50. Today I supervised the study hours of 6th, 7th, 8th and 9th standard students. They are preparing for their annual exams. I enquired the teachers of this school about their monthly salaries. Their salary range is from 1,500 to 6,500 rupees. They receive their remuneration on or after the 12th of a month for the previous month. I believe that hawkers can earn more than them in the present society. There are a large number of private schools and colleges in Andhra Pradesh now. Many unemployed youth are trying to become teachers and lecturers in government schools and colleges considering those salaries and facilities. There is intense competition among qualified candidates in getting jobs in public and private sectors. The managements of many private educational institutions are cashing in on this helplessness of qualified teachers. They pay them nominal salaries and burden them with excessive work load throughout academic year. I consider all such teachers as foolish and stupid idiots. They can live happily selling tea or fruits in busy areas. They don’t do it because they are educated clowns. Others exploit us when we remain as brainless sheep in our thoughts and actions. I am seeing such teachers every day. Slept by 9:30.

4 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My cousin Narendra Varma dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50 on his bike. Today I supervised the study hours of 7th, 8th and 9th standard students. It rained from 4:45 to 5:15. I experienced the healing spell of this rain sitting in a classroom. It’s like a blessing of Mother Nature for sultry summer victims in this region. My cousin Naren (second son of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju) proposed me the idea of going to see a film in a cinema. I readily agreed. He is working with Accenture in the USA now. He came here on a one-month paid leave to spend with his folks. His name is Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju. We two walked to cinema Rajaveni by 5:45. We saw the Telugu version of English film “John Carter” in it from 6:00 to 8:00. I could not understand the story clearly but I enjoyed watching it. Naren spent about 150 rupees on this occasion. I enjoy his presence. He walked back to Teachers Colony. A familiar fellow brought me to Gollalagunta on his bike by 8:20. It’s cool and refreshing due to the little rain this evening. Srijana and Anand are enjoying their days in the agricultural farm near Nizam Sagar along with their folks. Srijana thinks that she is pregnant now. I advised her to go ahead with it. Went to sleep by 10:00.

5 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today it is a holiday for Sahithi Public School on the occasion of the birth anniversary of Babu Jagjivan Ram. Spent all the day casually at the three houses of my folks in Ramachandra Puram part of Gollalagunta. It was bright and sultry most of the day. I enquired some creatures of Sahithi Public School about the fees being collected for different standards from students. Their fees are between 2,000 and 5,000 rupees per an academic year. These fees are not higher in comparison to those being collected by folks of many corporate private schools in Andhra Pradesh. I knew that the parents of many students are not paying even these fees in time. Datla Krishna Varma is yet to receive about 12, 00,000 rupees from them. They may not clear these dues at all. Many of the parents of these students are poor, uneducated and unethical. They don’t know about the money required to run a school perfectly and successfully. I don’t like the attitudes and outlooks of such people. Krishna Varma is not thinking and behaving like a rigid materialist in collecting fees from these fellows. When a society is bad in many ways, educational institutions cannot transform students and their parents into cultured and virtuous ones through mechanical or scientific ways. Went to sleep by 9:30.

6 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. It’s a holiday today at Sahithi Public School on the occasion of Good Friday. Spent all the day casually at home. My cousin Narendra Varma told me about the state of engineering colleges in Andhra Pradesh now. There are about 700 engineering colleges in this state now. Ninety percent of them are worthless colleges. They run them with pathetic labs and shallow faculty members. They offer bribes to the inspection committees of AICTE. They don’t care about the low standards of these dirty colleges. The evaluation system of exam papers is very bad in these colleges. Worthless lecturers give high marks to brainless students also because they are dishonest and don’t have subject knowledge. Students are not interested in education. Most of them don’t have even basic knowledge in their core subjects. The managements of these colleges don’t pay salaries to teaching faculty according to the norms of AICTE but their will and the helplessness of the recruited folks. K V V Satya Narayana Raju is the worst idiot in this regard. He pays salaries of January in April. He is an MLC now. The central and state governments know about this filth in engineering colleges. They are not bothered about provision of quality education in India. Even the parents of students are not worried about this issue. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50. Today I sat in the class of IX throughout the day supervising their study hours. I read the book Many Lives Many Masters of Brian Weiss during this time. I took six hours’ time to complete reading all of it. There are 16 chapters and 219 pages in it. My friend and artist Veeranjaneyulu gave it to me long ago. Today I felt an impulse to read it completely. Psychiatrist Brian narrates his personal experiences with his patient Catherine. She has many fears, phobias and psychological disorders. Brian cures her through many sessions of hypnosis. He knows a lot about her previous births, lifetimes and deaths during these sessions. He slowly realizes that the characteristics of Catherine in this life have their roots in many of her previous births in different parts of the world. Highly evolved souls communicate with Brian through the voice of Catherine and clarify his doubts regarding human life, Karma and souls. It is a great book. One must lose fear of death after understanding the essence of this book. It has profound impact on my understanding about life and death. We must be able to lead an ideal, peaceful and balanced life through understanding and practicing the knowledge gained from this book. Went to sleep by 10:00.

8 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at the abodes of my folks in Gollalagunta. By 9:30 our familiar Kshatriya fellow brought the father of a prospective bride for my cousin Hari from the nearby village Kambala Palem. This formal occasion took place till 10:15 in the house of my uncle Gottumukkala Ramakrishnam Raju and aunt Satyavati. The actual name of Hari is Gottumukkala Appala Raju. He is 28 now. His left leg and left hand got affected partially, a few years ago, due to a brain disorder then. He looks a little crippled due to it. Finding a bride for him became a big issue for all of us. The ratio of girls to boys is less now in Kshatriya community. Boys have no adequate number of girls to marry. Many boys, with ordinary qualities and low earning capabilities, are remaining unmarried forever due to it. Love marriages are a common phenomenon now across communities, religions and regions. Appala Raju is hard-working, honest and reliable. Girls are not interested in such qualities of boys now but their jobs, family assets and false prestige. My uncle and aunt are not particular about the features and qualities of the girl now but the marriage of their son somehow. It is enough if she takes care of him like a traditional Indian homemaker. They respond to us positively or negatively soon. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today it is the birthday of Kolukuluri Krishna Kumari, the daughter of my maternal uncle Varma and cousin Anantha Lakshmi. She entered her 14th year of life today. She celebrated her birthday simply. She wore a new pair of clothes. She distributed chocolates and biscuits to her familiar folks. She touched the feet of some creatures and sought their blessings. I don’t like this practice. The blessings or curses of ordinary people cannot change our individual or collective Karma. Highly elevated souls guide and help us even without our knowledge of them. The nick name of this girl is Kavitha. She is a beautiful, meek and disciplined girl. I told my uncle and cousin that I would find a suitable bridegroom for their daughter when she crosses the age of 21. She is in her 9th standard now at Zilla Parishad High School in Gollalagunta. Her father bought a bicycle for her. Hers is a life of limitations and restrictions. Now many conservative parents are afraid of sending their daughters to colleges and universities. They fear that they love somebody there and resort to love marriage. I advised my uncle to educate Kavitha up to graduation. I don’t know about her Karmic schedule. Life is a mystery. Went to sleep by 9:30.

10 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50 on his bike. Today I supervised the study hours of 9th standard students most of the day. Played the role of an invigilator from 11:00 to 12:00 supervising the first annual examination for a few students of 4th and 5th standards in a classroom. Today they took General Knowledge exam. Returned home by 6:00. Srijana informed me that she is not pregnant. Menstruation plays a predominant role in the life of a female. She undergoes a lot of stress and strain, every month, for about 30 years, due to this inevitable biological process. Many women are not allowed to move freely in their houses during their period times. Now many girls and women are not following this custom. They have no time, patience or interest in it. I think that they need not practice this conservative family norm. It is enough if they follow the modern methods of keeping themselves hygienic and balanced during those three or four days every month. They may attend religious and social celebrations also during this time. Their presence does not impact the purity of gods and goddesses. This evening we got a positive reply from the folks of Kambala Palem. They are interested in my cousin Hari. Slept by 9:45.

11 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50. Today I supervised the study hours of 8th and 9th standard students. Every day I am observing many teachers beating students with sticks and scales in this school. I believe that Krishna Varma knows about this practice in his school. I don’t like corporal punishment to students in institutions of learning. They are beating them on their palms and other parts of body mercilessly. I saw many boys and girls crying due to this corporal punishment. Their parents are complaining to Krishna Varma about it. I think he did not instruct teachers to avoid it. I know that students make a lot of mischief in schools. It’s their spirit of celebration of their liberty in this age. We must allow them to enjoy this part of their liberal and innocent childhood. My parents provided me with limitless liberty throughout my childhood. I celebrated that spirit of liberty and innocence in my life. Parents and teachers can teach the principles of morality and discipline to these creatures through love and kindness for them. Schools and houses should not become prisons and circus rings, where training is imparted mechanically and mercilessly. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

12 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Sahithi Public School in Jaggampeta by 8:50. Today I supervised a few students of 4th, 5th, 6th, and 8th standards when they were doing their annual Telugu examination. They took it from 10:10 to 12:40 in a classroom. I gave them question papers, answer sheets and threads to tie them together. Enjoyed my role as an invigilator during this time. District Common Examination Board prepares question papers for the students of 6th, 7th, 8th and 9th standards. The teachers of respective schools prepare question papers for their students from Nursery to 5th standard. The answer sheets of students from 1st to 9th standards are not sent out for evaluation by teachers of other schools in this state. The folks of public and private schools do not take these examinations seriously for this reason. They focus a lot on the students of 10th standard only in every academic year. By 5:30 it turned cloudy but did not rain immediately as expected. Naren and I returned home by 7:30. Today four of my folks went to village Kambala Palem, near Eleswaram, to formally see the prospective bride, suitable for my cousin Hari. They found her good and talked about the important things related to marriage. We are all happy about this development. Slept by 10:00.

13 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50. From 10:10 to 12:40 supervised the conduct of annual examination of Hindi in a classroom for a few students of 4th, 5th, 6th and 8th standards. Afternoon supervised the study hours of 8th standard students for three hours. Naren and I saw the Telugu film “Rachcha” in cinema Krishnaveni from 6:00 to 8:30. It’s an interesting and exciting film. We returned home by 8:45. This morning, Srijana, Anand, my in-laws, my cousin Sirisha, her husband Anantha Varma and their baby Shiva Sahithi started to Basara from Masanpalli in a vehicle hired for 1,400 rupees. The ceremony of “Aksharaabhyaasham” for my son and Sahithi took place from 9:45 to 10:15 in the temple of Goddess Saraswati at Basara under the supervision of a priest. They initiated these two kids, into the system of learning, this way, seeking the blessings of this goddess for them. Anand is much interested in going to school now. They returned home by 3:00 in the hired vehicle   travelling via Banswada and Bodhan. Srijana enjoyed this tour through Nizamabad district. Her parents made it possible. Went to sleep by 10:00.

14 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. It’s a holiday at Sahithi Public School today due to the birth anniversary of Dr B R Ambedkar. Spent all the day at the houses of my folks here. From 12:30 to 3:00 my cousin Narendra Varma, my maternal uncle Varma and I played cards on two conditions. We must play 20 games with a bet of 10 rupees for each. That one, who wins the highest number of games of all, should contribute his entire profit towards buying sweets for the 12 members of the three families here. None of us won these games considerably, better than others, even after the completion of 20 games. Then we played two more games, with a bet of 50 rupees, for each, hoping that one of us would emerge as a considerable winner, this way, to contribute to the common welfare fund. I won these two games. My overall profit by this time was 180 rupees. My uncle and cousin lost this amount of money to me. I added 50 rupees to this amount of money and made it 230 rupees. We bought a few packs of sweet groundnut rounds spending this money and distributed them to all as decided before. Everybody felt happy about it. I conceived and implemented this idea. By 3:30 Srijana, her parents and Anand reached the rented abode of Madhavi at Ashok Nagar in Hyderabad from Masanpalli. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually at the houses of my folks in Gollalagunta. Morning Srijana and Anand enjoyed the celebration of Upanayanam of a nephew of her uncle Mandapati Subba Raju in the rented abode of the latter at Ashok Nagar. Recently Srijana told me that she would have miscarriage a few days ago. The occurrence of period stops during pregnancy time. A woman should be very careful during the first four months of her pregnancy. She should avoid doing all such things, which exert pressure on her stomach. The foetus in her body would be very sensitive and vulnerable during this stage. It gets dissolved and the related substance comes out along with the impure blood due to failure of pregnancy. Miscarriage is like intentional refusal to the entry decision of a soul into her body as her baby son or daughter. Every woman should avoid miscarriage because it is against the principles of nature and will of God. Every soul chooses where and when to take a birth based on its Karma. Srijana did not create conducive atmosphere for a soul to take birth as her third baby. I regret it. All our roles are transitory as human beings but we must play them in this creation. Ordinary creatures cannot understand the mysteries in this cosmos. Slept by 10:00.

16 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Sahithi Public School in Jaggampeta by 9:10. Supervised the conduct of annual examination of English for a few students of 8th and 9th standards in a classroom from 10:10 to 12:40. Evaluated the answer papers of 6th standard students from 1:20 to 5:45. There are about 75 students in this class. I did not teach English subject to them completely. I don’t know answers to the questions given from their syllabus. Prepared answers for all the possible parts of the question paper with the help of an intelligent student in this class. I could evaluate these papers fast after completing some papers. I was a little liberal in giving marks to them. Their standards of spoken and written English are low though they are studying in an English medium school. I believe that we should think like a psychologist, idealist and humanitarian while evaluating the answer papers of very poor students at school level. Various psychological, social, financial, cultural and familial factors affect their development as learners at school in their formative age. They compare their marks, grades and achievements with those of their classmates and develop inferiority complex. They are sensitive, innocent and vulnerable creatures. Went to sleep by 10:00.

17 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50 on his bike. From 9:30 to 12:30 conducted oral English test to the students of 6th A and 6th B sections for 20 marks to each of them. From 1:30 to 4:30 conducted oral English test to the students of 7th and 8th standards for 20 marks to each of them. This oral test is part of their annual English examination. I was not satisfied with the performance of these students in this test. Their English usage skills are very low. They are ignoring usage of helping verbs while constructing sentences. They are not listening to standard English in their classrooms, homes or other common places in their societies. They have no passion to learn English or any other language perfectly. They are interested in playing and discussing cricket, spending their time casually and talking about unrelated and unnecessary things all the time. Most of them are considering this school premises as an abode of punishment. They are eagerly waiting for holidays. Many of their parents don’t inculcate a sense of discipline and hard work in them at home. They expect their teachers to do it at school. The standards of English teachers are very low in many parts of India now. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Naren dropped me at Sahithi Public School by 8:50. By 9:30, the teachers, who left this school recently, to prepare for the DSC examination, came here to rejoin it. I felt relieved after seeing the English teacher. I played the role of an invigilator in a classroom from 10:00 to 12:30. Today they took Mathematics exam. Afternoon evaluated the answer papers of students of 7th standard to help this English teacher. Told Krishna Varma that I would not come to this school from tomorrow onwards. He agreed for it after a little hesitation. This is my first experience as a teacher in a private English medium school. Krishna Varma brought lunch for me also from his house in village Gurrampalem on many days. We two had it together many times. I enjoyed the taste of the curries prepared by Padmaja, the wife of Krishna Varma. She seems to be an excellent cook. My overall impression about this school is low. The students are not getting quality education. The teachers are working for about nine hours on all working days. They are leading helpless lives with low salaries. Students have no passion for institutional learning and knowledge acquisition. School education is in the control of immoral businessmen and corrupt governments now. I don’t like working in such schools. Went to sleep by 10:00.

19 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 7:30 my maternal uncle Varma and my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju took three sacks of paddy to the rice mill of Venkayya in Gollalagunta. This is my share of paddy cultivated and stored by Rama Raju for me. They husked this paddy by 9:00. The 147 kilos of paddy yielded 110 kilos of rice. I got it husked the least. It’s brown rice with high value of nutrients. Paid 60 rupees to them towards husking charges. Hired an auto rickshaw for 30 rupees and brought this rice to the house of my maternal aunt Satyavati by 9:15. Rajeshwari, a cousin of my maternal grandmother, sieved this rice from 10:30 to 1:30 to remove unnecessary morsels from it. Paid her 50 rupees for this service. My two uncles packed this rice in two sacks after adding optimum amount of boric acid powder to it. This powder protects rice from the attack of worms. My two sacks of brown rice are ready for transport to Payakaraopeta. This rice is for domestic consumption in my little family unit. This is the contribution of my father for my material life. From 5:00 to 6:00 my uncle Varma, my cousin Narendra Varma and I had palm tree nut juice in a nearby place. It is good for health in summer. I am ready to leave Gollalagunta. Went to sleep by 10:00.

20 April (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today the results of first year Intermediate annual examinations were released by the Government of Andhra Pradesh. My nephew Sujan got 408 marks for 470 in his MPC group. It’s a good achievement. By 2:30 my maternal uncle Varma and I took a sharing auto rickshaw in Gollalagunta and reached Jaggampeta by 2:40. Spent talking with Krishna Varma in his office room at Sahithi Public School from 2:45 to 4:00. He told me many things about his life, character and culture. He gave 6,000 rupees to me for working in his school for about one month as an English teacher. By 4:15 bought an MTS STRIKER handset for 500 rupees in Saravana’s New World store along with my uncle. Got its lock altered at K V Cell Point paying 80 rupees for it. I can use any CDMA SIM card through it. He inserted my Reliance CDMA SIM card into it. I used it through an old CDMA handset of my cousin Narendra Varma for some days. By 4:45 took an ordinary APSRTC bus at the bus station for Tuni. The bus fare is 35 rupees. It rained considerably during this bus journey. It was cool and heavenly for me throughout. Lord Krishna blessed me this way. Got off this bus at Golla Apparao Centre in Tuni by 6:40. Walked up to bus stand in Payakaraopeta. Took a bus. Reached my rented abode in Devi Nagar by 7:05. Slept by 10:00.

21 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Dust settled on the floor in our rented abode due to our absence for about 20 days. Cobwebs also developed in some parts of it. Dusted and swept it clean with a broom from 6:00 to 7:00. Washed my Honda Activa scooty with four buckets of water. Worms developed in a pack of dates and a block of jaggery in our abode. Morning Asha Bhanu offered three idlies for my breakfast. Avoided preparing lunch for me. I fast now and then on such grounds for a little time. Night Asha offered Vegetable Biryani for my supper. By 5:30 went to R K Salon in Payakaraopeta and had a haircut. Spent much of the day reading old weeklies and watching television. There was power cut for about six hours. I am feeling more comfortable and happier in this abode now than anywhere else. I am selfish and narrow-minded in this regard. I am minding my priorities and interests. A disciplined and sensitive fellow cannot be in other places with unfamiliar or familiar people for long. He cannot change his attitude and values for others or expect others to change to satisfy him. Now Srijana and Anand are enjoying their time with their folks in the rented abode of Madhavi at Ashok Nagar near Patan Cheru. Slept by 10:30.

22 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 7:15 my uncle Chanti Babu came to my abode. He took Kakinada-Visakhapatnam passenger train from Durgada Gate to Tuni. He wants to buy a small residential plot of land for his daughter Sirisha and son-in-law Anantha Varma. My house owner Datla Satya Narayana Raju showed his land in Payakaraopeta to him. He wants to sell part of this land. He put it at about 1,800 rupees per square yard. My uncle checked some plots of land in Devi Nagar area also. They can spend about two lakh rupees for this purpose. It is difficult to buy a spacious plot of land with this money in a town area now. My brother Sambha and sister-in-law Kranti came here by 4:00 on their bike. It’s a casual visit. They brought Prawn Biryani, two mangoes, one papaya, coconut pickle, six eggs and fresh mango pickle for me from Peda Gummuluru. By 5:00 Sambha and I went to the sugar factory in Payakaraopeta. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy Raju collected a few sugarcanes for me minding my special interest in them. We brought them to my abode. By 5:45 my uncle left for Tuni railway station to go to Durgada. By 6:15 Sambha and Kranti started to Peda Gummuluru. By 6:30 I found that somebody stole 400 rupees from a shelf in my rented abode. I suspect three outsiders in this regard. Slept by 10:00.

23 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at home reading Eenadu and a short spiritual book. It was hot outside. By 3:00 went to the spot of AP Online in Payakaraopeta on my scooty to pay domestic monthly electricity bill. Yesterday morning my house owner Asha Bhanu gave me two electricity bills and 600 rupees asking me to pay them at this centre. I put them under a sheet of old newspaper in a shelf beside our television in the hall. Yesterday evening our familiar electrician and two of his assistants fitted home theatre wires in this place. One of them stole four 100-rupee notes from here and left two 100-rupee notes back. When I told the electrician about it, he checked the clothes of his assistants. He said that they did not have this money on them. I suspect him also but did not check either of them. I did not like to intensify this issue of theft doing physical check. Asha Bhanu bore 200 rupees out of this loss. I bore 200 rupees. I am not much worried about the loss of this money. We cannot avoid some things. We should not suffer foolishly. Chandini and I saw the Telugu film “Disco” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir at Payakaraopeta from 6:30 to 9:15. Its story and contents are very bad. Went to sleep by 10:30.

24 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached the bus stand in Tuni by 9:30 on my scooty. Parked it in the scooter stand under a mango tree. Took an ordinary bus by 10:10 and reached Narsipatnam by 11:20. Walked from the bus station and reached RTO at Bali Ghattam by 11:35. Took two Form 4 applications and filled the details of Srijana and me in them. Paid 515 rupees towards fee for permanent license for each of us. I applied for license to run bikes and light motor vehicles. He told me to come on the 30th of this month along with these filled in application forms and fee payment receipts. Srijana, Anand and I go there. I saw many brokers in this office. They offer bribes to government employees here and get their things done. I think ninety percent of candidates get their driving licenses this way in Andhra Pradesh. It’s an established system of corruption. It’s a percentage bribery network of public servants. Each employee receives his or her share of bribe based on his or her designation in an office. It happens regularly. Took a bus in the bus station by 1:15 and reached Tuni by 2:30. The bus fare is 23 rupees. Today it’s very hot. I had jaggery water to withstand it. Went to sleep by 10:00.

25 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day reading Eenadu and watching television. My attempts of Mobile Number Portability from Reliance to Airtel did not become successful during the last two months. I submitted my application at an Airtel outlet in Tuni. He applied for it online as per the established system. I got two SMSes from the number 1901 stating that my application was in process. Thereafter there was no proactive response from the idiots of Airtel or Reliance. My cousin Narendra Varma and I talked with them many times about it over phone. They did not answer why it did not happen. They irritated me giving irrelevant and insufficient answers. I felt like killing them for their immorality and carelessness in this regard. Many Indians fail to do it. Airtel folks played with me like anything. I withdrew myself from the idea of number portability after these bitter experiences. I leave Reliance number slowly. Reached the temple of Lord Satya Narayana in Annavaram by 6:30. Had dinner in the specially decorated venue beside Prakash Shadan by 7:30 along with my familiar folks of Gollalagunta and others.

26 April (Thursday)

The marriage of Datla Veera Venkata Satya Narayana Raju with Lalitha Madhuri took place between 3:00 and 4:30. Now he is working with Welspun in New Delhi as a deputy general manager at a salary package of 25 lakh rupees per year. He did B.Tech. at BITS in Pilani and MBA at IIIT in Hyderabad. He achieved success and happiness through intelligence and hard work. He belongs to an ordinary Indian middle class family. Lalitha is a beautiful, rich and intelligent girl. Their intelligence brought them together. I did not sleep at all during this night. I enjoyed watching this occasion of marriage. The parents of this boy lived in Gollalagunta for long. I know them. They are relatives of Srijana. I did not feel like having the Dharshan of the God on this hill considering the heavy flow of devotees today. Many marriages took place on this hill this night. Many shallow blokes frequent temples to make others believe that they are devotional, religious, spiritual and pious. God knows very well about all of us. We should not act to impress God because He is not foolish and innocent. He is the source of intelligence and life in our material bodies. Took a bus and returned to bus stand in Tuni by 5:45. Reached home on my scooty. Spent all the day casually. Slept by 10:00.

27 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually. Reached Tuni railway station by 6:02 on my scooty. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 6:05 on platform 2. Srijana and Anand got off their window seat 36 from reservation coach D-8. They got three items of luggage. We reached home by 6:15 on our scooty. They spent about 25 days happily in the abodes of their dear folks in and around Hyderabad. Srijana looked tired due to train journey in hot and sultry summer. Anand slept for two hours during this journey. My house owner Asha Bhanu started her pilgrimage by 10:00 from their house. She visits a series of places related to Shirdi Sai Baba travelling by a bus in three states along with other devotees. They do it for about 12 days continuously. She is a dedicated devotee of Shirdi Sai Baba. She believes that he is guiding her life. I saw many photos and books of Shirdi Sai Baba in their portion of house. I believe that there is much relation between religion and spiritualism. Religion helps humans attain salvation through worship of deities. Spiritualists get it understanding nature and power of souls. Went to sleep by 11:00.

28 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day within our rented abode. Morning cleaned our Samrat air cooler and started using it. The iron frames developed rust in it. It is functioning well. By 5:00 reached the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni on my scooty along with Srijana and Anand. Paid 252 rupees to them towards monthly interest for the 25,000 rupees, which I borrowed from them earlier pledging the black beads gold necklace of Srijana. Thence we proceeded to Shanti Hospital by Park Road in Tuni. Srijana consulted Dr. A V Naga Lakshmi about her irregular periods. She prescribed 8 NOVEX-DS, 10 Ceftizor-200 and 15 NEERI tablets for her. Earlier she did not use prescribed tablets completely. I don’t like such negligence in her. We bought a Mabao electronic insect killer bat for 170 rupees to kill mosquitos in our abode daily. The one, which we bought recently, failed after we used it for a week. These two are ‘Made in China’ items. They don’t provide warranty or guarantee for these products. We buy them because there are no alternatives made in India or imported from other countries. We can buy their low price gadgets. Mosquitoes bite Srijana rapidly. I don’t attract them much. She says that I am not a human being! Slept by 10:00.

29 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana and I dusted many parts of our living abode. She cleaned the floor with a wet cloth. I dusted my computer, CPU and computer table also. Today I copied the photos to my computer from my Sony digital camera. Srijana shot most of these photos. They shot some photos at Nizam Sagar. She said that she missed many photos, which she took for Anand and Shiva Sahithi in Basara and other places there. They are very precious photos and videos for her. Her cousin Sunil copied some photos to his computer from this camera. She thinks that he missed them. She regretted a lot about the mysterious disappearance of these photos and videos. Time disfigures and kills many creatures and phenomena in this material world. What seems to be ordinary and negligible today might become extraordinary and unforgettable tomorrow. Photos and videos are great inventions in the modern times. They create and sustain visual memories for us. I wonder to realize that man accords more value to photos and videos than living beings and things accessible and affordable to him. Images do not argue and quarrel with us irrationally. Slept by 10:00.

30 April (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I reached bus station in Tuni by 9:30 on our scooty. We took a bus and reached bus station in Narsipatnam by 11:00. Thence we walked to RTO at Bali Ghattam. Transport constable K Appanna did not come to this office today. We submitted our two applications, along with necessary attachments, for the issuance of permanent driving licenses to Srijana and me. We took an Adduroad bound bus and reached Peda Gummuluru by 12:30. My mother cooked rice for us. Ate six mango fruit in the house of my brother Sambha. This year many mango and cashew crops failed in this locality. Sambha gave me about 40 mango fruit to take home. I collected the Aadhaar cards of Srijana, Anand and me from my father. They sent them from Bengaluru recently by post. I am grateful to Nandan Nilekani. They did it faster than expected in my case. My folks did not receive them till now though they attended this program quite earlier than us. My Aadhaar number is 2581 2031 5488. The Aadhaar number of Srijana is 9556 7638 3699. The Aadhaar number of Anand is 8057 7020 3762. We can use them as proof of identity throughout India. I am very happy to receive them this early. It rained. We returned home by 6:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

1 May (Tuesday) 

Woke up by 5:30. Last night our house owner D S N Raju called me up by 1:00. Walked up into his portion. He was drunk. He kept talking with me for one hour. He recollected his association with his father, relatives of those days and the essential characteristics to be possessed by Kshatriyas. He is feeling lonely and forsaken after the departure of his parents and relatives. People coexisted with deep affection and attachments those days. Now many old people are craving for those days for this reason. This man practiced honesty and discipline during his 20 years of service in CRPF. He often tells me about those memorable days in his life. He respects Indian tradition and culture. He smokes and drinks. I hate these bad habits in anybody. Bad habits are like fatal diseases and infections to human beings. They end their lives abruptly. They leave back their dependents in a tragic and helpless state of life. I know about many such people suffering silently due to some tragedies in their families. Today I felt sleepy and weak. From 6:30 to 9:15 Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Dhammu” in cinema Sai Mahal at Payakaraopeta. It is a very exciting and interesting film. Slept by 10:30.

2 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home watching television and reading newspapers. I am waiting for the results of Government Junior Lecturer examination, conducted by APPSC, on 3 December, 2011. Earlier they stated that they would release these results this April and conduct interviews in May and June. They are delaying this process. I did not prepare well for this examination. I may or may not get this job. I believe that our Karma often presents us such wonders, which are beyond common sense, logic and rationality. My folks are disturbed about my being jobless for long. They know that I am not earning money now. I am not interested in joining private educational institutions as a teaching fellow. Their moral standards are very low. Dirty businessmen are running private schools and colleges now in Andhra Pradesh spoiling the lives of students and teachers. They are torturing students and teachers with high levels of stress in artificial and mechanical environment. I don’t like to victimize myself joining such abodes of corporal punishment. I like to start a small business unit along with my brother Sambha. I think I did not spend much time with my parents and brothers so far. Went to sleep by 10:00.

3 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home casually. By 10:30, Nanaji, a schoolmate of Srijana, came here from Koruprolu Mallavaram. He is working in a plant of India Cements Limited at Tandur now. He did an ITI course. They are paying about 16,000 rupees to him per month as salary. They are providing many facilities to their permanent employees. He is very happy about his life and job there. We spent talking with him for about two hours. He gave me a diary knowing that I write it daily. I enjoyed his pure sense of love and affection for me. Afternoon I asked Srijana if she is willing to sell one of her gold ornaments for me to clear our debts. She did not approve this idea readily. She asked me if I ever buy gold for her. She loves gold. She is not ready to sacrifice it for me. I remembered the answer of the wife of Valmiki to him when he asks her if she shares the result of sins being committed by him as a dacoit and otherwise. The intentions of Srijana are not serious in this regard. She is innocent. She cannot assess my worth as an idealist, thinker and writer. Lord Krishna gave me an innocent wife. Innocence is more beautiful than intelligence. Slept by 10:00.

4 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 6:30 saw a press notice of APPSC stating that the schedule of interviews to be held for the positions of junior lecturers in government junior colleges in Andhra Pradesh has been posted on their website. I have been anxiously waiting for these results for long. My neighbour Rayapureddy Raghavendra Rao has a computer system with broadband connectivity. I checked this website on his computer. They did not post the list of candidates qualified and selected for these interviews based on their marks scored in the written tests conducted earlier. I felt disappointed. It reflects the indiscipline and carelessness of these blokes. I asked my cousins Vasu and Narendra Varma to check this website and inform me about any update on it in this regard. Srijana, Anand and I started to Viswanadhapuram by 10:30 on our scooty and reached there by 11:00. It’s a casual visit. Vasu called up the customer care phone number of APPSC in Hyderabad to get clarification about the results I am waiting for. It always remained engaged. They have no time to attend the calls of candidates. My cousins and I wondered about these low standards of APPSC. A bunch of nuts and lunatics must be running it. It’s pleasant here. Went to sleep by 10:00.

5 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:00 cut a jack fruit open. Today Srijana, her maternal grandmother, her maternal uncle Sekhar and Revathi carried out the work of preparing mango pickle. By 4:15 Srijana, Anand and I started to Payakaraopeta on our scooty from Viswanadhapuram. By 6:15 we went to Talli Pillala Hospital in Tuni. Srijana consulted Dr C S Lakshmi about her disorders in periods. It seems to be a result of miscarriage. She prescribed ultrasound scan of abdomen for her. Later she consulted Dr Srimannarayana in this hospital and told him about the health condition of Anand. His weight is not proportionately perfect to his age. We are providing him with good food necessary for his optimum growth. This doctor prescribed APTIMUST syrup, FULL-365 suspension and BENZOL for Anand. He is not a good boy in terms of food consumption to some extent. He prefers useless food items to useful ones. He likes to eat everything available. His weight is 11 kilograms now. He must be 13. He cries frequently. He craves for the presence of his mother always. I am not happy about his attitude and sense of discipline now. He acts smartness before me sensing my mood and temper. Slept by 10:00.

6 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day at home reading Telugu dailies and watching television. By 11:00 Srijana and Anand went to Tuni on our scooty. Srijana underwent ultrasound sonography test in Abbayi Doctor Clinical Laboratory on the advice of Dr C S Lakshmi. They discovered particles of a failed conception. By 1:30 she went to Talli Pillala Hospital along with her aunt Revathi. Dr C S Lakshmi gave a tablet to Srijana and told her to take it there itself. She charged 800 rupees for it and consultation. This tablet is perhaps to purify the internal space of her uterus. Miscarriages are common in women. Srijana delayed in consulting doctor about it. Women must meet qualified doctors soon after occurrence of miscarriage. Srijana rejected the entry of a soul into her body through this miscarriage. I regret this spiritual abnormality. Many women cannot realize occurrence of pregnancy in them initially. They are ignorant and helpless in this regard. Indian women should improve their knowledge about their body and health instead of gold ornaments, clothes, beauty enhancement and fashion. From 6:50 to 9:15 saw the Telugu film “Love Journey” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir along with my friend Pericharla Sri Rama Raju. It’s not interesting. An idiot produced it and a scoundrel directed it. Went to sleep by 10:30.

7 May (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 10:05 called up the folks of APPSC in Hyderabad and enquired a fellow about the results of Junior Lecturer exam. He told me that they post them on their website 20 days before the scheduled dates of interviews for these posts. I felt relieved and satisfied with his answer. By 1:45 went to Tuni railway station on my scooty to receive my cousin Hari of Durgada. Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger train arrived by 2:00. Brought him to our abode by 2:10. He came to his house in Durgada on a short leave from Thanjavur. He is leaving the present company and joining similar one in Tuticorin considering pay hike. We watched his Upanayanam and marriage photos and videos on my computer for some time. The quality of these photos and videos is low. A dirty idiot of Gollalagunta shot and decorated them. He damaged the beauty and originality of their visible memories. Srijana offered toasted cashew, a Sunnunda and mango fruit to him. His wife Padma is pregnant now. I gave him the photocopy of a useful newspaper cutting. His wife can understand the process of child growth reading it. He left for Durgada by 7:00. Slept by 10:00.

8 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home. From 1:30 to 5:30 revised the CV of my cousin Hari on my computer. He is working as a mechanical engineer at thermal and gas based power generation units. There are five pages in his CV. I improved its content and format out of personal interest. In India, we should not assess the qualities and capabilities of candidates based on their CVs. Indians are experts in telling and writing absolute lies about themselves and others. I know about some recruitment agencies and professionals proposing resume writing services to all kinds of candidates searching for jobs. It is a morally objectionable trend. One’s CV should reflect one’s language skills also. If one is not good at written English, one should present that truth in one’s CV also. Many candidates are cheating firms presenting lies in their CVs prepared by professionals. We should not write our covering letter differently while applying for various kinds of jobs. We should not change our CV according to the expectations of the firms we are aiming at. They should know what we can do and what we cannot. Easy money makes us into lazy, crazy and worthless blokes in the long run. Slept by 10:00.

9 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 11:45 Srijana and Anand started to Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. They enjoy the atmosphere and people there. It is like a natural habitat for them. Anand is close to his mother. He always wants to be with her. He cannot bear even a few minutes of her absence from him. I am like an avoidable alternative to him. He plays with his dolls and toy bicycle. He likes playing with creatures of his age. He often indulges in mischief. He pretends discipline and obedience before me. I don’t like to send him to kindergarten school. He should enjoy his tender childhood in our abode in our presence. We often take his photos and videos. He is not behaving naturally before camera. He is afraid of me. He gives artificial poses for me when I look for natural disposition in him. Srijana bought many clothes and dolls for him. Her father often buys clothes for him. I don’t like it. He is sleeping for about 12 hours every day. He takes medicines readily. He considers me like a tyrant. He does not approach me without invitation. He is active and energetic. Went to sleep by 10:00.

10 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night it started raining around 1:00. I wondered at the frequency and intensity of thunders and lightning that followed. I felt as if thunderbolts fell heavily in this locality. I never experienced such natural phenomenon. Remained awake for about two hours witnessing this wrath of nature against immoral and sinful Indians. By 1:00 my father came here from Peda Gummuluru. He brought 10 mango fruit, a papaya and homemade snacks for us. Rushed to Tuni railway station by 2:00. My cousin Krishna Kumari got off Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger train. She took it at Durgada Gate halt along with my uncle Chanti Babu and their daughter-in-law Padma. I got her into a sharing auto rickshaw bound to go to Kodavatipudi. Srijana receives her at Viswanadhapuram. She is on her short summer holiday tour to our abodes of residence in this region. My father and I took an ordinary bus at Y Junction in Payakaraopeta by 3:30 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 4:15. My brother Sambha dropped me in Ramayyapatnam by 8:30 on his bike. Bojja Shankar Rao invited me to watch a stage drama. Its title is “Aada Janma”. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy and I watched it from 10:00 to 1:00. There are a main story, comedy episodes and dances for Telugu film songs.

11 May (Friday)

Narayana Murthy and I walked to their thatched hut in the mango garden at hills and reached there by 1:30. I enjoyed this short walk in dim moonlight. I felt my psychic unity with the beauty and love of nature for me. My uncle and I lay on two folding cots in the open by their hut. I could sleep within minutes to my wonder. Generally I take a lot of time to get into sleep during late night hours and after disturbed state of sleep. Physically I provided enough exercise to my body through walk to this mango garden from Ramayyapatnam. There are many trees and hills here. Dew is falling invisibly. There are no air and sound pollutions. The tranquility of nature lulled me to sleep like a kind mother. I enjoyed this short sleep under the wide sky. My body and soul are craving for the magic and warmth of benevolent nature every day and night. I am living in an artificial society contaminated with many kinds of pollution and disturbances. Spent all the day in the abode of my uncle. Now my cousin Ashok is here. By 5:00 collected 200 Suvarna Rekha mangoes from the trees in our garden. Brought them home by 5:30 in an auto rickshaw. Slept by 10:15.

12 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at the houses of my parents and brother Sambha. By 3:30 went to Adduroad and spent talking with my friends for one hour. By 5:00 my brother Srinivas came here from Visakhapatnam. We packed 150 Suvarna Rekha mangoes into three cardboard boxes. Srinivas takes 100 mangoes and I take 50 mangoes to our abodes for domestic consumption. Recently Srijana and I got two white ration cards representing Viswanadhapuram and Peda Gummuluru. One family unit should have one ration card only as per the regulations of Civil Supplies Department of Andhra Pradesh. They cancel one card when they know about it. I wait for that time. They issue a few food and related items once a month to these ration card holders at subsidized prices. It is a measure of welfare state meant for the poor. I am also a poor fellow now as this card holder. We get rice, kerosene, sugar, edible oil and wheat this way. We don’t know when we become poor or rich in this age of multiple disturbances and disorders. We often depend on the mercy of governments for something or the other. Many use these ration cards as proofs of identity. In India, it is difficult to identify who is poor and who is rich because they change their status based on their ego but not reality. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Srinivas took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 8:30 for Visakhapatnam. My father and I took a bus by 12:00 and reached my rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 12:45. We rested for some time. By 1:30 Srijana, Krishna Kumari and Anand came here from Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. She brought a considerable amount of luggage from there. My father and I went to the cloth store Vijaya Cut Pieces in Tuni by 2:30 on our scooty. We bought three shirt cloth pieces and three pieces for three pairs of trousers for 1,000 rupees for my father in this store. We bought some other cloth items also for 365 rupees. My father came here to buy them. He recollected his earlier association with this old and reputed cloth store. He bought clothes in this shop once for his three sons. This is my favourite cloth store in Tuni. They sell quality cloth items at fixed and affordable prices for all. They don’t follow deceitful marketing techniques and strategies to attract consumers. I like their honesty and standards. My father left for Peda Gummuluru by 4:00. Srijana brought about 100 mangoes from there. Slept by 10:00.

14 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. My cousins Bala and Narendra Varma took a bus in Kakinada by 9:30 for Tuni. They reached here by 11:45. Went to the bus station by 12:00 and brought them home by 12:10 on my scooty. We had lunch by 12:30. We all spent talking among ourselves for two hours having mango fruit. Naren, Bala and I reached the industrial unit of Deccan Fine Chemicals Pvt. Ltd. at Kesavaram by 3:00 on my scooty. Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju, the father of Bala, is working here. He felt happy about our casual visit to his place of work. He showed us parts of this plant. They make pesticides and export them to some foreign countries. They are not following pollution control norms well. I wondered about the intelligence of mankind observing the machinery and manufacturing processes in this plant. We started back by 4:30. Bala and Naren decided to buy tickets at cinema Surya Mahal in Payakaraopeta standing in the queue there. Srijana, Krishna Kumari, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Gabbar Singh” of Pavan Kalyan and Shruti Hassan in it from 6:30 to 9:00. This is the best film of Pavan (how can I say it without the knowledge of films yet to be acted by him in future! We often use language wrongly out of excess frustration or unlimited admiration). We enjoyed watching every bit of this film. Went to sleep by 10:30.

15 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My cousins Bala and Naren started to Tetagunta by 9:30. They go to the abode of my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy. His wife Vimala is a paternal aunt of Bala. I enjoyed the presence of my cousins. From 12:30 to 2:30 selected and copied many Telugu film songs into the 2 GB memory card of Srijana from my computer for her to listen on her cellphone. Recently her brother Vamsy presented a NOKIA cellphone to her. Its price is about 3,500 rupees. There are many features in it. She likes it. I copied many classic Telugu film songs into her memory card. From 4:00 to 5:30 swept off the cobwebs attached to the roof in the front of our portion using a broom and an empty drum. Srijana and Krishna Kumari helped me in this work. I often help Srijana in domestic chores like washing used utensils and keeping our portion clean. I wash my clothes. Srijana is not like a housekeeper or servant for me. I like to consider her as a lovable and honorable individual associated with my helpless and vulnerable life. I should work for her without professing ideals outside for others. Went to sleep by 10:00.

16 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Morning Srijana applied a bit of black henna powder paste on a little part of my hair. It is a skin allergy test. My body reacts within 24 hours’ time if this substance does not suit me. There are many white strands of hair on my head and moustache. They give me a slight amount of bad look. I don’t mind them much. Srijana is not happy about them. She knew that I am not interested in applying hair colors now. Henna seems to be a better alternative to her for me. From 1:00 to 2:00 we played cards for pleasure sake without betting money. Srijana, Krishna Kumari and I participated in it. We don’t have many choices for entertainment here. Sea is about 10 kilometres from here. It’s hot and sultry here in summer. We cannot enjoy much at beach in this environment. We thought of buying bats to play shuttle badminton casually. We cannot play it happily in the open in summer. Playing cards without bet does not provide much thrill or happiness to players. We should have a lot of money to go to different places and spend our time specially. Most of Indians cannot afford it in India. We are spending at home fearing summer. Many are toiling in this hot sun. Slept by 10:00.

17 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 10:30 to 11:00 Srijana applied herbal black henna paste on my head with a used toothbrush. I surrendered my head to her. She applied it densely. I bathed with cold water after one hour. She applied henna to my moustache also to blacken it. My hair on head and moustache turned very black due to this herbal henna. I am looking better than earlier. I would not have taken this initiative without the encouragement of Srijana. I am grateful to her. I am happy about her care and concern for me. Materialists crave for natural and artificial beauty. Black hair is the choice of majority Indians. From 1:30 to 4:30 Srijana, Krishna Kumari, Asha Bhanu, Chandini and I played cards with a bet of 10 rupees for each game. We played 35 games during this time. Krishna Kumari lost 110 rupees. Asha Bhanu and Chandini lost 20 rupees. Srijana won it all. We enjoyed playing it. I can play three kinds of games only, which can be learnt easily by anybody. Srijana ridicules me about my skills in playing cards. I believe that success in playing cards involves luck but not intelligence of players. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 May (Friday)


Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. I am eating about six mango fruit every day now. Morning Srijana made the items in our kitchen clean and orderly washing and dusting them with a detergent and cotton cloth. My cousin Krishna Kumari helped her in this work. Afternoon Srijana, Krishna Kumari and I played cards for two hours. Krishna Kumari lost 120 rupees. Srijana made every part of our home clean and orderly working on it from three days. I believe that a house or other place cannot be made and kept clean and orderly without the honest contribution of everybody living in it. Many traditional Indians think that domestic cooking and cleanliness are compulsory and exclusive duties of homemakers concerned. I hate this typical Indian male mentality. Many Indians made Indian woman into a lifelong slave and servant this way. Everybody treats his or her abode of living like a dustbin. They throw or keep things wherever they like. They make toilets and bathrooms dirty. The housewife or a domestic has to make them all tidy and orderly. Indians should change a lot in this regard. Everybody should keep his or her house or office tidy and orderly at his or her level. Went to sleep by 10:00.


19 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 11:30 Srijana brought my cousin Anantha Lakshmi and her son Vivekananda Varma to our rented abode on our scooty from Golla Appa Rao Centre in Tuni. They took an ordinary bus in Jaggampeta. It’s their casual visit to our abode. They all played cards for about three hours today except Anand and me. Evening it rained for some time with heavy winds. It’s like heaven for all of us. The cool winds consoled and delighted us throughout the night. We are using our air cooler frequently without applying the water circulation system in it. Water is leaking out from the grass frames of it. Thick layer of dust developed on them. The iron frames of it got rusted. We are just using the fan in it for dry air. I deeply enjoy showers and breezes in summer. There are mosquitoes in and around our abode. Drainage system is not yet established in Devi Nagar area by the folks of Payakaraopeta Panchayat. Many throw their domestic garbage in the open plots of land around their houses. I often take our dustbin to the nearby drainage canal beside the National Highway 16. We often kill mosquitoes with our electric bat. Slept by 9:00.

20 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 7:30 my house owner Satya Narayana Raju told me that he was going to Tetagunta on his bike. I too decided to go there along with him to see my paternal grandparents. We two started here by 7:45. We reached the house of a relative of D S N Raju in village Raajula Kothuru near Tetagunta by 8:15. We spent here till 9:00. They offered tea, Upma and sweet milk porridge for us. It is the house of a maternal aunt of Asha Bhanu. I enjoyed their sense of hospitality and affection for us. This village is known for the exclusive residences of Kshatriya folks. We two went to the abode of my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy in Tetagunta by 9:15. Then my uncle was not here. We talked with my paternal grandparents. Thammi Raju is frail and dull. He is sleeping most of the time. Lakshmi Narasayyamma remembered the relatives of D S N Raju, who are known to her since her childhood days. Vimala offered mango fruit for us. She is not happy with my uncle. We returned home by 10:30. By 3:30 Srijana, Anantha Lakshmi and Anand went to Tuni on our scooty. Srijana guided Lakshmi in buying a SAMSUNG handset for 1600 rupees. Lakshmi bought Airtel and BSNL SIM cards also for her. Slept by 10:30.

21 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. By 12:49 got a call from 08097577589. It is a call from Mumbai from Bhavna Shah. She read my blog about Reader’s Digest on my blog site. She asked me about the reliability of various prizes and cash awards being offered by the folks of Reader’s Digest to those sweepstake winners. I shared my experiences with her about it. She also told me about her personal and professional life. She may be 50 or so. I invited her to Visakhapatnam as a guest. She gave me her email id. I sent her an email with my comments on Reader’s Digest and some details about me. She talked with me for about 15 minutes. I felt happy about a new person talking with me over phone proactively. We can learn a lot from others. Our sense of affection and attachment for others depends on how much they are caring for and thinking about us. We like creatures of opposite gender more than same gender without minding their race, region, age, colour and such other factors. I wonder about this inherent and inevitable force of attraction between females and males. It makes this world beautiful. Slept by 10:30.

22 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I played cards with my folks for three hours and lost 100 rupees. Today it was sultry. I think that playing cards, smoking, consumption of alcoholic drinks and prostitution are some of the bad habits humans are suffering from now. Many say that others got them into these bad habits over time. It reflects their life of low standards and virtues. We are responsible for every bad habit we represent. There are many great people also around us. We don’t approach them to know about virtues and practice them. Bad habits do not impose responsibilities and restrictions upon us like virtues and saints. It is a sphere of stupidity, insanity and irrationality. The causes for unhappiness and unrest in this world are bad habits. I had liquor once but did not get into that bad habit because I have such power of self-control and individuality. I play cards now and then with my folks for domestic entertainment. I am not a slave to it. I have access to prostitutes but I did not indulge in that vice because I don’t like such kind of life. We should be loyal and obedient to God. We should live ideally. Went to sleep by 10:00.

23 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 7:30 Krishna Kumari and I started to Peda Gummuluru on our scooty. On the way, saw a pollution check vehicle authorized by the state government. Gave him 35 rupees for this certification. He did it within five minutes. He did not check the smoke of my scooty. We reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 8:15. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju is here now. A fellow, who bought the seasonal crop of our mango garden, for this year, brought 600 mangoes to our house by 10:30. It’s part of our casual oral sale agreement. They did not grow well this year. My brother Sambha gave me the two permanent driving licenses of Srijana and me. They sent them recently to his address by post. I am very happy about it. Packed the mangoes into four cardboard boxes. One is to be sent to my cousin Vasu in Jharsuguda. Sambha gives three boxes of mangoes to his familiar folks. Started back to Payakaraopeta by 4:30 on my scooty with 100 mangoes. Reached home by 5:15. Srijana, Anand, Anantha Lakshmi and Vinay started to Peda Gummuluru by 5:30. Night went to the house of Sri Rama Raju in Vaibhav Township at Naamavaram, along with D S N Raju, on his bike, casually. Slept by 10:45.

24 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home casually. Srijana, Anand, Anantha Lakshmi, Krishna Kumari and Vivekananda Varma returned from Peda Gummuluru by 3:30. My driving license number is AP13120120009313. My Indian Union Driving License was issued on 30 April, 2012. The licensing authority is RTA, Anakapalle. I am permitted to drive LMV and MCWG class of vehicles. This license is valid up to 13 April, 2028. The Indian Union Driving License number of Datla Naga Satya Srujana Devi is AP13120120009314. It was issued on 30 April, 2012. The licensing authority is RTA, Anakapalle. She is permitted to drive LMV and MCWG class of vehicles. Her license is valid up to 29 April, 2032. We could get these driving licenses faster due to the recommendation of my brother Sambha. They did not test our driving skills at all. I am happy to get this proof of identity. I don’t like driving vehicles on roads with heavy traffic. I am a disciplined road user but many Indians are not using roads like me. I walk along the extreme left of a road. I ride my scooty also like this. I am more concerned about the condition of bike and my safety on road than speed. Slept by 10:00.

25 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 5:45 Srijana and I went to the arch of Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar. A bus of Reddy Travels arrived here by 6:00. My mother-in-law and Srijana’s cousin Sunil got off it. They took it yesterday night in Hyderabad. My father-in-law sent about 120 mangoes from there for us. They are all of superior quality and breed. They were collected from the garden of Rudraraju Venkata Rama Raju near village Masanpalli. We brought our two guests to our abode. Anand became blissful about the arrival of his maternal grandmother. He likes her more than his mother. My mother-in-law is suffering from a kind of allergy (related swelling) on her face. She came here to get it treated by a doctor. By 9:00 brought a bit of hay from my familiar milk seller to ripen these mangoes. By 1:30 Krishna Kumari, Vivekananda Varma and I took a Bhadrachalam bound Express bus at Tuni bus station. We reached Jaggampeta by 3:30. We took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Gollalagunta by 4:00. We brought 130 mangoes for my maternal uncle Varma. Evening it was very sultry here. We felt uneasy. Slept by 9:30.

26 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could not sleep well due to sultry weather. By 9:30 my maternal uncle Varma, the buyer of my paddy farm, under the irrigation limits of Dhora Cheruvu and I reached the office of Sub Registrar in Jaggampeta. A document writer made us both parties sign the documents. By 1:00 Gandikota Venkateshwarlu and his relatives paid two lakh rupees to me under the guidance of my uncle Varma. Earlier they paid me five lakh rupees towards the cost of my one acre of paddy farm. The revenue survey number of this piece of agricultural land is 135/1. Gandikota Venkateshwarlu of village Gollalagunta bought this land from me for seven lakh rupees. From today onwards this land belongs to him. I don’t have any land in the limits of Gollalagunta or Gurrampalem now. I am buying 2.15 acres of paddy farm of my brother Sambha in the area of Kota Uratla with this money. Took a Paderu bound Express bus at the bus station in Jaggampeta by 1:30 and reached Tuni by 3:20. Srijana brought our scooty to receive me. Evening Srijana, her mother and Anantha Lakshmi consulted our familiar Ayurvedic doctor beside NH-16. Slept by 10:00.

27 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana took her mother and Anand to Viswanadhapuram by 6:30 and returned home by 8:00. My brother Sambha brought my maternal uncle Krishnam Raju to our abode by 7:00 on his bike from Peda Gummuluru. He started back by 8:30. Gave him the two lakh rupees, which I brought from Jaggampeta yesterday. By 9:30 took my uncle to the cattle market near sugar factory in Payakaraopeta on my scooty. He is looking for a strong bamboo stick. He wants it for support while walking. His present stick became short due to use of it for long. There were no strong sticks suitable for him. We returned home by 10:00. Srijana and I went to Tuni by 10:30 on our scooty. Handed the mango parcel to Ravindra in Alleppy-Dhanbad Express at Tuni railway station by 12:45. He is a colleague of my cousin Vasu. He is going to Jharsuguda. By 12:00 Srijana underwent ultra sonography of abdomen in Sri Ganesh Clinical Laboratory on the advice of Dr C S Lakshmi. There are no traces of miscarriage anymore. Evening my uncle and I sat near the rented abode of K N M Raju near the railway track talking. Slept by 10:00.

28 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 1:07 got a phone call from an Australian. He belongs to a self-publishing firm. He asked me if I am interested in their publishing services. I felt a little uncomfortable to comprehend his English accent. I told him to send an email. Went to the house of my neighbour R Raghavendra Rao (nick name Raghu) and checked my email on his computer. I replied to the foreigner stating that I am not interested in any publishing service from them, which requires money from me. I can get my second work of fiction published by the folks of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai if I can afford 1, 30,000 rupees for it. I am short of money now. It is hot and sultry now. We are staying indoors most of the day fearing this heat of advanced summer. My uncle Krishnam Raju is eagerly waiting to go to Gollalagunta. He is smoking cigars and cigarettes now. His passion for cocks and cock fights did not die. I cautioned him about the fatal disorders caused due to smoking. He said that early death is not a matter of concern for him. His understanding about life, death, religion, God, money and politics is better than that of many educated blokes I am coming across now. Slept by 9:45.

29 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 7:30 my maternal uncle Krishnam Raju and my cousin Anantha Lakshmi left for Gollalagunta. Meanwhile my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, her sister Sowjanya, baby Sravya, my nephews Sujan and Suhas came here from Molleru Mallavaram finishing their short summer vacation tour there. My brother Srinivas did not get off the bus here. He got his UCO Bank duty today at Devarapalli. We seven creatures played cards for two hours with a bet of 10 rupees for each game. Sandhya Rani did not win even one game of the 20 we played. She lost 200 rupees. Evening it turned a little cloudy and cool. Bought 500 grams of broiler chicken by 4:30 for 90 rupees. This is to prepare curry for my folks. I seldom buy chicken or fish for our domestic consumption. Today Srijana prepared ice cream using Vanilla flavor powder. It’s very tasty. We all enjoyed having it. By 6:00 Datla Ramesh came here from Elamanchili on his bike. He is the husband of Sowjanya. Srijana and I enjoyed the presence of these creatures. We spent talking about our familiar people and things. Slept by 10:00.

30 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 7:30 my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and my nephews Sujan and Suhas took a sharing auto rickshaw at Y Junction for Adduroad. Ramesh, Sowjanya and their baby Sravya left for Elamanchili by this time on their bike. Srijana left for Viswanadhapuram by 9:00 on our Honda Activa scooty. She asked me to come along with her but I decided to stay back at home alone. Today they are performing Laksha Vatthula Pooja in Viswanadhapuram. Srijana too participates in it along with her dear creatures of this hamlet. I am eating about 10 mango fruit every day now. Srijana cannot compete with me in eating anything. By 5:30 my brother Sambha called me up and told me to come to Peda Gummuluru. Took an ordinary bus by 6:00 at Y Junction and reached there by 6:40. My brother Srinivas came here by 7:00 finishing his day’s work at the UCO Bank in Devarapalli. Sambha offered supper to the family unit of Srinivas and me in his house casually. It’s his gesture of affection and love for us. We had Chicken Biryani prepared at home. We three brothers spent talking among ourselves for one hour. We talked about the rates of agricultural farms and residential sites now. Slept by 10:00.

31 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Srinivas and my father went to our mango garden at hills by 7:30 on the bike of my brother Sambha. They brought 150 mangoes from there by 10:30. My father packed them into three cardboard boxes by 2:30. From 10:00 to 2:30 my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani cooked snacks for her sons Sujan and Suhas. Morning Sujan beat Suhas due to a dispute while they were playing cards betting money. Their mother beat Suhas to control the pitch of his voice arguing with her about his innocence in this regard. He complained that she always supports her elder son Sujan only. He asked her to beat his brother also. He explained us how he was treated badly earlier in comparison to his brother. He is not as fair as his brother in skin colour. Those are the thoughts of an innocent child. By 4:45 Srinivas, Sandhya Rani, Sujan and Suhas took a bus at Adduroad Junction for Visakhapatnam. They have eight items of luggage with them. Took a bus by 5:10 and reached my abode in Devi Nagar by 5:50. Morning Srijana returned from Viswanadhapuram. It was hot and sultry today. Went to sleep by 10:30.

1 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Paid 3,000 rupees to my house owner by 7:30 towards rent for my portion for the last month. By 12:30 brought my brother Sambha and one of his friends to my abode on my scooty from the level crossing at Lingala Colony in Payakaraopeta. They came here from Peda Gummuluru to attend a Congress Party meeting, headed by present Chief Minister Kiran Kumar Reddy. This meeting is in view of by-election to be held for Payakaraopeta constituency soon. Many folks are coming here frequently to address native voters. I am not interested in these road shows and meetings organized by political parties and business firms. There are no honesty and patriotism in their words or activities. Many shallow Indians attend them for free food and liquor. They don’t have self-respect. My brother could not withstand high temperature of this summer. He left that place before the arrival of Kiran. They had lunch in my abode and left for Peda Gummuluru in the car of a familiar fellow. Srijana and I saw the Telugu film “Adhinaayakudu” of Bala Krishna in cinema Sai Mahal from 9:35 to 12:00. I found every bit of this film very exciting and interesting. Slept by 12:30.

2 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I noticed that the driving license cards of Srijana and me partly got disfigured. We put them in two plastic pouches as many do. The vague photos, printed on them, developed white spots on them. The colour of the photos got lost here and there. Srijana called up Venky at RTA in Narsipatnam and talked about it. He advised her to keep them always in such places, where air is available. Moisture and heavy heat damage their quality. They printed them and issued us about one month ago. We have to use them for about 20 years. This is the quality of driving licenses being issued by Government of India. They don’t think about quality of things being given by them to people of this nation. Indians don’t question them about these disorders and demerits in public services. Politicians and bureaucrats are not worried about standards and values in public service. They are interested only in looting public money and somehow retaining political power. Indians cannot change them. They like to live like helpless victims of India. I am a sufferer among them. Took an ordinary bus by 3:00 and reached NAD Kotha Road by 6:00. Reached the abode of my brother Srinivas by 6:30. Slept by 9:30.

3 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Srinivas and I started to Scindia by 8:00. We took three city buses and reached there by 9:15. We walked a little and went to CSD point in the premises of INS. I came here to buy some items like toilet soaps and shampoos spending about 3,000 rupees. Srijana and I prepared a list of items for this purpose. We decided to buy them all once, to use them for one year. They sell all items without taxes. Srinivas can utilize this CSD facility as an ex-serviceman. I want to save some money this way. My brother entered this canteen by 10:00. I sat outside. He came out by 10:15. He said that there are no many items we wanted. He bought a few other things for us. We took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Gajuwaka by 11:00. Thence he left for Sujatha Nagar. Took a Vijayawada bound Luxury Express bus for Payakaraopeta by 11:10. They stopped it at V V Plaza, near Kasimkota, for lunch, for 30 minutes. These rogues are selling all items at very high prices. They are cheating their customers. Reached home by 1:45. Went to sleep by 11:00.

4 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana and I brought Anand to our rented abode by 11:30. He came here from Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw along with his maternal grandmother and others. He likes his maternal grandparents more than his mother and me. He does not like to spend with me. Today it was very hot and sultry. We are spending all the time indoors using our Samrat air cooler. We are spending happily within the house due to its cool air. Today it is the birthday of noted Indian film singer S P Bala Subrahmanyam. He is a classic and ideal singer of India. His songs inspire and delight me always. He is empowered with the blessings of God. His extraordinary art of singing is divine. God created him to entertain and console human beings on His behalf. I wish to meet great artists like him. I could not do it for long. They are very busy every day. They may not get enough time to spend with us. We cannot express our real sense of admiration for them even if we meet them personally. We cannot measure the intensity and depth of our admiration for others. It is intangible. I love my dear Balu. He is my master. His voice is celestial for me. Went to sleep by 10:00.

5 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. It was very hot outside. Our Samrat air cooler made it cool inside. We are grateful to those folks, who made it in Hyderabad. Evening Srijana went to the abode of her aunt Revathi in Tuni and brought her mother to our abode casually. Recently Srijana bought a pair of black jeans for 400 rupees in Hyderabad for her. I don’t interfere in many things she does for herself and Anand. I like to respect her self-respect and liberty as an individual. Personally I don’t like wearing jeans at all. I think jeans enhance beauty of beautiful girls and women but they are not comfortable clothes for men or women. They affect sensitive skin of some parts of body. A lot of water is used in manufacturing process of jeans. Every year, gallons of water, is being misused by many firms, in this process. We can live without wearing jeans but not vital natural resource water. Srijana is concerned about her physical beauty but not the environment in which she is living. This is the attitude of millions of shallow people in this world. Their thoughts are narrow. Their lives are superficial. Went to sleep by 10:00.

6 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 8:15 at Y Junction and reached Peda Gummuluru by 8:45. By 1:00 my father and mother took a bus for Narsipatnam Road railway station. Thence they take Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger train for Visakhapatnam. They are going there by a passenger train to save money. They stay at the abode of my brother Srinivas in Sujatha Nagar. They go to INS Kalyani Hospital at Scindia for periodical medical tests and medicines. They think about saving money in everything they do. They earned assets for their three sons going through very complex situations of life. They struggled a lot to bring us up. We are giving almost nothing back to them. This is the story of many parents and their children in India. The intensity of love and attachment parents have for their children is beyond common sense, rationality and logic. This is the uniqueness of Indian culture in all ages. Parents melt like candles to provide comfort and light to the lives of their children. By 3:30 my brother Sambha and I went to our mango garden at hills. We brought 500 mangoes in an auto rickshaw from there. I brought 150 mangoes to my abode in Devi Nagar by 5:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home enjoying the pleasant air of our air cooler. It was very hot outside. There are many mango fruit now in our abode. I am eating them a lot. We gave some of them to our familiar folks here. Often I come across police while moving in public places. I have very bad impression about these dirty pigs in the Indian society. I believe that 80% of police in this state are worse than dogs and bitches. I don’t like to go to a police station because they talk and behave like criminals with poor, helpless and innocent people. They are servants of politicians, businessmen and influential blokes in society. They daily collect money from all kinds of underdogs in their jurisdiction. They are shameless beggars and detestable psychopaths. They use their professional authority and energy to torture common people every day and night. They are immoral and illegal bastards in our Indian society destined to live as parasites. I often feel like shooting or hanging them publicly for the crimes and sins they are committing publicly. I pray God to kill bad police in accidents and natural calamities. Went to sleep by 10:30.

8 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father-in-law already got off a bus at Y Junction. Yesterday night he took this bus in Hyderabad. Brought him home on my scooty along with his luggage. He brought fish and prawns for us. He bought them from the fishermen at Masanpalli. They catch them in Nizam Sagar reservoir.  He also brought 10 kilos of big size onions from there. He recently cultivated this crop in the agricultural farm of R V Rama Raju near Masanpalli. By 10:00 Sekhar brought his wife Revathi and his two sons Aditya and Ashish to our abode on his bike. They spent here till the evening. Anand deeply enjoyed the presence of these creatures throughout the day. Srijana wore a new blue jeans and top today. She looked very beautiful in it. By 5:00 it rained with strong winds. Felt very happy at the sign of monsoon. Walked happily in the surrounding plots of land breathing fresh and cool air. By 5:30 Srijana, Anand and others left for Viswanadhapuram. My father-in-law took my scooty for his temporary use in this area. Today the folks of APPSC posted the results of Junior Lecturer exam on their website. My cousin Vasu checked them online. My number is not there. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at home. By 11:30 Ramji came to my abode. He is a friend of Srijana. They are B.Sc. classmates. He is working as a police now in Kakinada in the Anti Naxal Squad. He has been in love with Maanasa for the last four years. Her father is prepared to get her married. She is a sensitive girl. She did not tell her parents about her love for Ramji. We discussed what to do in this scenario. A sensitive girl cannot help her lover marry her. She makes him a victim at some stage of their love, moving towards marriage. Both the boy and girl should be intelligent, bold and strategic to make their love successful somehow. I advised Ramji to be ready to face any eventuality. Srijana and Anand returned from Viswanadhapuram by 6:00 in an auto rickshaw. She brought about 100 mangoes from there. Told her about my failure in getting through the Government Junior Lecturer exam. She felt very disappointed about it. I have been an irregular and unreliable earner ever since I married her. I got a bad image in my familiar circle of people as an earner. Went to sleep by 10:00.

10 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. By 10:30 my in-laws returned from Viswanadhapuram on my scooty. Today both of them underwent some medical tests at a laboratory in Tuni. By evening, Srijana collected those medical reports from there. The cholesterol and sugar levels of my father-in-law are very high. Her cousin, who is an ENT doctor, advised him to go to Apollo Hospital in Visakhapatnam and undergo complete body checkup tests. Now he is disturbed about his health. He smokes cigarettes and consumes oily foods regularly. He eats fish, prawn and chicken curries frequently. He eats a lot of polished white rice. I advised him many times on how to keep up his health. He remained careless in this regard. Majority Indians worry about their health at the eleventh hour only. They are scared of clinics and hospitals because many doctors kill patients with poor treatment and rich medical bills. I think that most of Indians are irrational, stupid and eccentric. They waste most of their time thinking and worrying about unrelated and unnecessary things to them. Many of my familiar folks belong to this set of rogues and lunatics. Today it was cloudy and refreshing. Slept by 10:00.

11 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. My father-in-law and Srijana took a bus at Y Junction by 5:30 for Visakhapatnam. They are going to Apollo Hospital at Waltair. My father-in-law gets his body tested there. Srijana guides him in this hospital. He wants good health but he has no determination to shun his bad habits. By 7:45 my uncle Chanti Babu came to our abode. He took Kakinada-Visakhapatnam passenger train from Durgada Gate to Tuni. Recently Srijana brought about 100 mango fruit from Viswanadhapuram. Packed them into a cardboard box to be taken to Durgada by this uncle for domestic use. Packed about 50 mango fruit in another cardboard box to take to Gollalagunta. We two reached Tuni railway station by 10:10 along with our heavy luggage. Vijayawada bound passenger train arrived by 11:30. We got off this train at Durgada Gate by 12:35. Spent at the house of this uncle in Durgada till 3:30. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 3:45 and reached Kathipudi by 4:00. Thence took a bus by 5:00 and reached Jaggampeta by 5:30. My cousin Vasu and I reached Gollalagunta by 6:00 on his bike. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

12 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Many of our relatives came here by this evening to attend the occasion of Upanayanam of my cousin Hari (Gottumukkala Appala Raju). Many folks discussed present politics sitting under the margosa tree beside the house of my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju. Today election took place in some parts of Andhra Pradesh to elect people’s representatives. These are by-elections. The toughest competition is among the contestants of Congress, YSR Congress and Telugu Desam parties. Y S Jagan Mohan Reddy is in CBI custody now. He is spending his time in a jail in Hyderabad now. The CBI folks argue that Jagan accumulated assets worth billions of rupees during the last eight years utilizing the political power of his father Raja Sekhara Reddy. Jagan and his costly lawyers argue that these are all biased and baseless remarks. Every Indian believes that 90% of politicians are corrupt now. Jagan is just one of these rogues. Why should one criminal be victimized in this nation when there are many in every legislature? This is the common view of many voters in this context of regional politics. I think Indians are worse than monkeys. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. The Upanayanam of my cousin Gottumukkala Appala Raju, who is mostly called as Hari among us relatives, was performed between 7:00 and 10:00 this morning. It was cloudy and cool throughout the day. About 400 invitees attended this function. They hired a native photographer to take limited number of photos of this occasion. I took 19 video bits of this event with my Sony digital camera. I did not like the clarity of these videos. The cloudy weather made them so. I enjoyed the presence of people on this occasion. Our relatives prepared food items for this occasion. They cooked all food items better than professional cooks familiar to us. They represented Indian tradition grandly in this regard. All relatives and invitees left the venue of this occasion by 2:00. Srijana and her folks left for Jaggampeta by 2:30 to attend the marriage of a cousin of Revathi in Sri Ram Nagar there. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju dropped me at this venue of marriage by 7:00 on his bike. Had dinner here by 8:30. My folks and I slept in the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju at Teachers Colony by 10:30.

14 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 2:30. Last night, Dantuluri Ashish Varma, the younger son of Revathi, soiled the mattress on a cot, while sleeping. Now he is five years old. He damaged the quality of a piece worth about 10,000 rupees. I am disturbed about it. If children have the qualities of an animal, we should treat them accordingly. My teacher uncle K V Rama Raju is a very disciplined and visionary person. He was not at home when we rested in his house. I am subject to his criticism in this regard. We think and react alike about many things happening around us now. We don’t tolerate indiscipline and lack of planning in others. We watched the marriage of a cousin (daughter of her paternal uncle) of Revathi in Sri Ram Nagar from 3:00 to 5:00. We got into the bus of this bridegroom party, bound to Rambilli, by 5:30. We got off it at Y Junction in Payakaraopeta by 7:45 and reached our rented abode in Devi Nagar. Ramji and I met the father (a wholesale merchant of gunny bags) of Maanasa at the market yard in Tuni by 5:30. Ramji told him about his intense love for his daughter for the last six years. He said that his daughter is not in love with him but that he has been disturbing her for long. He is prepared to get her married soon with another fellow. Ramji is deeply disturbed and hurt about it. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could not sleep well. There was power cut for about one hour in the middle of the night. There was no power cut at all before the by-election in Payakaraopeta constituency. The state government tried to entice voters this way also. They started power cuts soon after the by-elections in 18 state legislature constituencies and one Lok Sabha constituency. Today the results of these by-elections were released. The YSR Congress Party, led by Y S Jagan Mohan Reddy, won most of these seats. Now Jagan is in a prison due to charges of excessive corruption. Ordinary voters voted for him, not minding corruption as an issue at all. Eighty percent of people are corrupt and dishonest now in India. Politicians, businessmen and intelligent people are earning more than ordinary blokes through corruption and cheating. This is the only difference. By 11:30 my friend Krishna Varma came here from Ramayyapatnam. We spent talking about many things. Took him to Tuni railway station by 4:00 on my scooty. He got into a general coach of Link Express by 5:00. Now he is working in a Vijai Electricals unit at Rudraram in Hyderabad as a casual worker. Slept by 10:00.

16 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 8:30 to 9:30 washed my clothes. Washing clothes is a kind of physical exercise. I wash my clothes well. I cannot expect such perfect wash from others. We should not wash more than 10 clothes at a time. Our energy and patience levels decide the quality of wash we give to our clothes. By 1:00 took a bus and reached Peda Gummuluru by 1:30. By 3:00 my brother Sambha, his associate Kurandasu Yesu Babu and I started to our mango garden at hills in an auto rickshaw. Kurandasu Appa Rao, the brother of Yesu Babu, joined us in Ramayyapatnam. From 3:30 to 5:00 we collected about 650 mangoes from our reserved Cheraku Rasaalu tree in our garden. We packed them into five sacks. We returned home by 5:30. My brother Srinivas came here by 9:00 from Devarapalli completing his job work at the UCO Bank there. My parents and we three brothers spent talking among ourselves from 9:30 to 11:30. Sambha is the backbone of our family. He guides and supports us time to time. He talks strategically and bravely with others. He plans to teach great lessons to his opponents directly or indirectly. He helps others generously. He is honest, ideal and kind. Went to sleep by 12:00.

17 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 7:30 to 10:30 my father and I packed 300 mangoes into five cardboard boxes. These are all Cheraku Rasaalu variety of mangoes. We sold them to my friend Rajani Kumar Raju for 2,000 rupees. My parents take this money because we collected these mangoes from their reserved tree in our mango garden. Hired an auto rickshaw for 150 rupees and took six cardboard boxes of mangoes to the ANL-APSRTC parcel point at the bus station in Tuni. I packed 25 Suvarna Rekha and 10 Banginapalli varieties of mangoes in a cardboard box for Rajani. This is my gift for him. This parcel agent charged 540 rupees to send these six cardboard boxes of mangoes to Hyderabad by bus. Rajani collects them from the MGBS in Hyderabad. Took a bus by 2:30 and returned to Peda Gummuluru by 3:00. This afternoon my brother Srinivas took 150 mangoes to his abode in Visakhapatnam by bus. We are at the end of mango season in our region now. Monsoon brings rains in June. Rain affects the quality of mangoes in the trees in this season. There are very few mangoes in our garden now. Mango trees turn green, healthy and beautiful in rainy season. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha and I went to our mango garden at hills by 6:00 on his bike. We collected about 130 Banginapalli mangoes from our reserved tree. Sambha plucked them with a long tool meant for this purpose. We spent a few minutes at the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy. Two days ago my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy sent my paternal grandparents to this abode from his abode in Tetagunta. His wife Vimala ordered him to take them away. My uncle is like a helpless victim in her hands. My paternal grandparents are appearing like unnecessary burden to their children now. We returned home by 6:30. Today it was cloudy and cool. By 11:30 took a bus at Adduroad Junction and reached my rented abode in Devi Nagar by 12:15. I found the environment around our abode refreshing and inspiring. Sambha and his associate Kurandasu Appa Rao brought four packs of Prasaadham from Annavaram by 11:45. I took one pack and finished it within minutes. I like its quality and taste. Sambha and Appa Rao rested in our abode from 1:00 to 3:00. By 4:00 they left for Peda Gummuluru on a bike. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

19 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to the bus station in Tuni by 10:00 on my scooty. Collected the parcel from ANL-APSRTC point. Radha Krishnam Raju sent 10 kilos of Shakti Malt powder for me from Eluru in a cardboard box. Each kilo of powder cost me 120 rupees. He spent 125 rupees to send it here through ANL. Brought my cousin Vasu to my abode. He came here from Gollalagunta. We had lunch with prawn curry by 11:30. We two took an auto rickshaw by 12:30 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 1:00. We spent talking with our folks till 2:45. Then we started to our mango garden on the bike of my brother Sambha. We spent at the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy for two hours. By 5:15 my uncle, Vasu and I went into our mango garden. My uncle plucked 55 Papara Gova mangoes from our reserved tree using a long wooden tool. Vasu and I returned home by 6:00. We packed these mangoes into a cardboard box. These are for Vasu to take to their house in Gollalagunta. We two took a bus with three cardboard boxes of mangoes by 6:15 and reached Devi Nagar by 6:45. Went to sleep by 10:00.

20 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, her parents and Anand reached Tuni railway station by 7:00 in an auto rickshaw. Vasu and I reached there on my scooty. Anand is going to the agricultural farm of R V Rama Raju near Nizam Sagar to spend with his maternal grandparents for some days. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:30. My in-laws and Anand got into reservation coach D-2 of it to take their seats 22 and 23 in it. They have seven items of luggage with them. Vasu, Srijana and I returned home by 7:50. Took Vasu to bus station in Tuni by 10:00 on my scooty. He left for Gollalagunta with two cardboard boxes of mangoes. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy, his cousin Vamsy and I went into Sri Prakash College by 10:30. Vamsy is the son of elder brother-in-law of this uncle. He wants to join B.Com. course in this college. The related fees, per academic year, for education and hostel facility, are 48,000 rupees. By 4:00 Srijana, Chandini and I started walking to the nearby railway track. We spent talking sitting beside this track for half an hour. It’s excitingly cool, cloudy and inspiring today due to monsoon. I like trains, their horns and railway tracks a lot. They make me dreamy. Went to sleep by 10:00.

21 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today it was cloudy, cool and inspiring. By 11:30 my in-laws and Anand reached the agricultural farm of R V Rama Raju near Nizam Sagar from Hyderabad. My father-in-law took them there on his bike. Vamsy takes their luggage there from Ashok Nagar later. Now Anand is with his dearest creatures in a beautiful place. By 12:15 Srijana and I reached Tuni railway station on our scooty. We kept waiting for the train on platform 2. Alappuza-Dhanbad Express arrived by 1:15. My cousin Vasu was in AC coach B-2 of it. He took it at Samalkot railway station. We handed a cardboard box of mangoes to him. There are about 30 mangoes in it. We returned home by 2:00. I decided to do something to earn money instead of doing a job. I am tired of being a slave as an employee in firms run by worthless blokes. I developed aversion for jobs and the related automated life during the last few years in Hyderabad. My parents and brothers want to see me as an employee under somebody. They think that I am not a capable person to earn money doing anything other than a job. Went to sleep by 10:00.

22 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana dropped me at the bus station in Tuni by 7:50. Took a Rajahmundry bound Express bus by 8:00. Reached Jaggampeta by 9:30. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju joined me here. We two took a Rajahmundry bound ordinary bus by 9:45 and reached Rajahmundry by 10:30. We hired an auto rickshaw from the bus station for 30 rupees and reached cinema Sai Krishna on the instructions of Srinivasa Rao. A security guard, at the ATM Centre of Bank of India, advised us on how to reach the place of Gayatri Cottage Industries. We walked a little from here and reached this place. They are making about 15 kinds of plastic items on a machine. It requires hard physical work every day. I cannot do it to earn about 10,000 rupees a month. They gave a small classified ad in Telugu daily Eenadu recently. We went there to know about this self-employment opportunity. We returned to bus station by 11:00 in an auto rickshaw. We took a Visakhapatnam bound Express bus by 11:15. My uncle got off it at Jaggampeta by 12:00. I reached Tuni by 2:30. Today it was cool and inspiring. Slept by 10:00.

23 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. Today I called up two folks to enquire about data entry jobs. They have their offices in Visakhapatnam. Both of them told me that I have to pay advance to get this home-based typing work from them. They are expecting 5,000 to 10,000 rupees from others for it. I understood that they are cheats. I cannot use their data. It is not worthy data for anybody to steal from me. They attract many enthusiastic and innocent candidates giving small classified ads in local dailies. They collect a lot of money in the form of advances from poor and sensitive youth. They look as reliable and respectable people initially. They go away after a few months. Victims complain to police formally. Police don’t take their complaints seriously because they don’t get money resolving issues of unemployed youth honestly. We cannot depend on police, lawyers and judges in India in the process of getting justice. They don’t have standards and values. They work for money. They become rich and famous in their familiar societies through acts of corruption and crime beyond public knowledge. Slept by 10:00.

24 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at home reading Eenadu and watching television. By 4:30 my house owner D S N Raju and I met Kishore in Payakaraopeta at his dairy unit. He advised me on the prospects of a pulses milling unit. There is much demand for processed pulses in Tuni and Payakaraopeta regions. Wholesale merchants get many sacks of raw pulses husked. Then they sell them to retail shop owners. We need about 200 square yards of land and two lakh rupees as capital to start this unit. I believe that one must get business advice from those, who have three qualities. They are intelligence, experience and purest form of love for us. Starting a business unit is easy but getting profits from it continuously is difficult. We must assess the risk factors before getting into any business. We must be able to come out of it with least amount of loss, which we can bear readily and easily. Many believe that they must cheat others regularly to get more profit from their business. In fact, honesty and idealism make us great entrepreneurs. From 6:30 to 8:45 Srijana, Chandini, Maurya Varma (son of K V P Raju) and I saw the Telugu film “Endhukante Premanta” in cinema Sai Mahal. It is an interesting love story for sensitive and sensible people. Slept by 10:30.

25 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at home casually. Afternoon went out along with Sri Rama Raju on his bike. He is planning and supervising the construction of some houses in Payakaraopeta and Tuni. I am not using the Reliance Netconnect service now. I don’t have Internet access now. I hate anything related to Reliance now. I decided to ban Reliance from my life. I tried a lot to switch to Airtel from Reliance through Mobile Number Portability facility. The filthy pigs of Reliance Communications did not do this work at all from their end. They are worse than prostitutes. Anil Ambani is one of the nasty rogues of India. He is a dirty businessman in India. His business ventures are run based on the principles of cheating and immorality. He talks a lot of nonsense in public places but essentially he is a cheat. The Government of India is encouraging such mentally retarted entrepreneurs in India. I decided to leave my Reliance cellphone number soon. If they don’t leave me normally, I leave them abnormally. From 6:30 to 8:45, Srijana and I saw the Telugu film “Sakuni” in cinema Sri Surya Mahal. It is not as interesting and powerful as its title suggests in terms of its story, narration and character development. Slept by 11:00.

26 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Morning spent reading Eenadu and watching television. Met Dantuluri Venkatapati Raju by 1:00 in the upper portion of this house. His daughter Devi and their family entered this upper portion on the 14th of this month as a tenant unit. They came here from Gurrajupeta. Venkatapati Raju belongs to Tetagunta. He told me about a cashew processing unit in Tuni. It is owned and run by his familiar person Mallikarjuna Rao. This unit is beside Natavaram Road in Tuni. Srijana and I reached this unit by 3:15 on our scooty following Venkatapati Raju. He showed us every part of this unit. We saw the boiling and steam sections where cashew nuts get boiled and dried up. About 50 native girls and ladies are involved in the process of pulling out cashew from the cut nuts and grading them into different categories according to their quality and size. Mallikarjuna Rao wants to sell this unit. I informed my brothers Srinivas and Sambha about it. They expressed their interest in buying it. We don’t have money readily to buy it. I want to be the manager of this unit if we buy it. I like it. Went to sleep by 10:30.

27 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana and I started to Viswanadhapuram by 9:00 on our scooty. We reached there by 9:30. Spent talking with Alluru Satya Narayana Raju from 10:00 to 12:00. He had Amsterdam beer sitting before me. He said that one of his friends sent it for him from the USA. It was made in Holland. These drinks are bitter to sense with nose or tongue but millions of people are consuming them every day in every part of the world. This phenomenon reflects the universal truth that human birth is a result of sins committed by one soul in a series of births earlier. Sinners seek pleasure from harmful, painful and self-destructive pursuits of life. From 10:00 to 4:30 Srijana and her maternal grandmother were involved in preparing two kinds of sweets. They made one sweet item with coconut and jaggery and another sweet item with sesame and jaggery. These are for our domestic consumption. We returned home by 5:30. My house portion mate Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju and I went to Deccan Fine Chemicals plant at Kesavaram by 6:30 on his bike. He is looking for a job there. We returned to Devi Nagar by 8:00. Slept by 10:30.

28 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to Tuni bus station by 10:45. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju got off an Express bus by 11:00. Brought him to my abode by 11:10 on my scooty. We had lunch by 12:30. We started to Peda Gummuluru by 12:40 on my scooty. We reached there by 1:15. We spent talking with my mother, Sambha and Janaki for two hours. By 3:00 my brother Sambha and Krishnam Raju started to Kota Uratla on the bike of the prior. I started on my scooty behind them. We reached our agricultural farm by 3:30. I saw my land for the first time. My brother Sambha sold this piece of agricultural farm to me for seven lakh rupees. It is about two acres of land. It is between Tangedu and Kota Uratla. Sambha is planning to get Sarugudu saplings planted in this farm soon. They grow into long trees in about four years’ time. The folks of paper manufacturing units buy this wood. We cannot depend on rainfall in this region for cultivation of profitable crops every year. Many are resorting to Sarugudu cultivation in our region for this reason. Returned home by 4:30. Started to Payakaraopeta by 5:00 on my scooty. Brought about 20 mango fruit from our house. Went to sleep by 10:30.

29 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at home casually. From 4:30 to 6:00 spent with Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju and Pericharla Sri Rama Raju. We three went to a decorative tiles manufacturing unit in Devi Nagar. They started it a few days ago. They invested about six lakh rupees into this unit till now. These tiles can be used for external walls and outdoor floors. It requires a lot of hard work every day. They have this kind of shops in towns. They can sell them easily. About 10 creatures are working in this unit. They are using a small generator for production of electricity instead of depending on power supplied by the state government. The Andhra Pradesh government is more focused on selling liquor to people than producing electricity. We walked to a dairy unit beside the railway track from this place. A native farmer has two acres of agricultural farm here. He is rearing five buffaloes. He is selling fresh milk to folks around his house in Payakaraopeta. He is growing jasmines also in this place. I saw two great Indians today. They are earning money doing hard work every day. Slept by 11:00.

30 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 our neighbour Rayapureddy Raghavendra Rao and I went to the office of BSNL in Tuni. We asked them about the availability of BSNL 3 G data cards used for getting wireless broadband. They did not stock them. They are not willing to lay fiber cable up to Devi Nagar area for broadband, considering the number of users interested in this service here. It is not profitable for them. Informed my cousin Vasu in Jharsuguda to recharge my Reliance Netconnect service through online payment for it. He paid 449 rupees and bought 2 GB amount of broadband for me, which is valid for one month. I relied on Reliance again. By 3:30 my brother-in-law Vamsy went to a paper cup manufacturing unit in Basheer Bagh in Hyderabad. The name of owner of this unit is Sudheer. He is earning about 30,000 rupees every month from this unit. He is in business relationship with Sunshine International in New Delhi. I knew about them through a classified ad in Eenadu recently. Srijana and I are interested in this business idea. We have to spend about one lakh rupees for the machine and material to get into it. My brothers are not interested in buying the cashew processing unit at Tuni because we have to invest about one crore rupees to buy and run it, which we cannot afford now. I have to do something to earn money. Went to sleep by 12:00.

1 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Paid 3,000 rupees to Asha Bhanu towards rent for my portion for the last month. From 6:30 to 7:00 D S N Raju, Venkatapati Raju and I worked on the front road opposite the house of the prior. A heap of broken blocks of cement was there. We three scattered them on the road. It is to make this part of the road good enough to withstand rains. I enjoyed this physical work. Today it rained considerably. Pools of water developed in many residential plots of land in Devi Nagar. Weather turned cool. People are relieved from hot and sultry summer. Today I spent most of my time with D S N Raju. I accompanied him on his bike rides to Tuni and Payakaraopeta to do a few things. Evening D S N Raju, Venkatapati Raju and I cut some babool trees in the plot of land of a brother of the prior. D S N Raju proposed the idea of growing vegetable plants in this land and their other plots of land in Vaibhav Township beside NH-16 at village Namavaram. He got a team of familiar folks to get into this collective physical work. We can use these vegetables for our domestic consumption. Night we three spent talking on the terrace for one hour. Slept by 10:00.

2 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 Srijana and I went to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni. We pledged seven items of gold of Srijana in it and borrowed 1, 05,000 rupees from them. They gave 80,000 rupees to us retaining the 25,000 rupees, which we borrowed from them earlier. They released our black beads gold necklace and included it in this mortgage system. We borrowed this amount of money at an interest rate of two rupees per 100. By 11:30 we went to the ICICI Bank branch at Balaji Street in Tuni. We got 64,000 rupees deposited into the current account number 037805500117 of Sunshine International in New Delhi. This payment is towards the cost of a paper cup manufacturing machine and related raw material for it. We have to yet pay 30,000 rupees for this machine. Muskan informed me that they would send this machine to me in 10 days’ time. We jumped into this self-employment venture considering the decline of our financial status during the last one year. By 2:30 took a bus for Anakapalle. Thence took another bus up to NAD Kotha Road. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw. Reached the abode of my brother Srinivas at Sujatha Nagar by 6:30. Slept by 11:00.

3 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha left for Peda Gummuluru by 8:30. He came here yesterday night. Reached the office of District Employment Exchange in the premises of ITI at Kanchara Palem by 9:30. A haughty woman opened the window of clerical section by 10:30. Submitted my employment card for renewal. Its due date is February 2012. We can get it renewed even within six months of time after its due date. Collected the renewed employment card by 11:30. I got it renewed to hint them that still I am a vulnerable and insecure Indian looking for a government job. This time they printed my details on a plain white sheet of paper and gave it to me considering me like a foolish and worthless Indian. Reached V S Krishna Junior College at Maddilapalem by 12:15. Spent talking with its present Principal I Mallikarjuna Rao till 1:00. He was my history lecturer at Government Junior College in Elamanchili during my academic years 1995-97 there. I knew about his present status reading a history subject related input published in Eenadu recently meant for those Intermediate students ready to take annual exams soon. Returned to Sujatha Nagar by 2:30. It was cool and refreshing today. Slept by 10:00.

4 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night Sonia Gandhi appeared me in my dream. I sensed her innocence and affection for me. I experienced an admirable aspect of her life in this dream. Took leave of my brother Srinivas and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani by 8:00. My brother advised me to concentrate on the aspect of earning money for my survival. Took a Narsapuram bound Super Luxury bus by 8:53 at NAD Kotha Road for Tuni. The bus fare is 93 rupees. Reached Tuni bus station by 11:00. Thence walked to Koduri Honda service centre. Srijana brought our Honda Activa scooty to this place. The mechanic fitted a new dome and a foot rest to it. He also repaired some parts of it. We paid 640 rupees to them. From 4:30 to 6:30 spent talking with Asha Bhanu, Venkatapati Raju and Sri Rama Raju about my paper cup manufacturing unit, which is to be started soon. They talked about the negative aspects of such business ventures. They highlighted the complexity involved in getting separate electricity connection for it from the folks of APSEB. They behave like shameless slaves before corrupt politicians and merciless criminals before honest people. Slept by 12:00.

5 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I typed up the content of January from my diary of 2012 on my computer. I did it for about six hours. By 5:00 our portion mate Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju and I met Kakarlapudi Narasimha Murthy Raju near his rented abode in Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar. We three spent talking for two hours. He told us about the presence of poisonous snakes in this area. The bite of a poisonous snake like cobra can kill a person within minutes. The bites of some snakes cause different kinds of permanent health disorders in humans. He is an expert in healing patients affected with snake bites. He also told us about black magic. Various evil forces are prevalent around us. We cannot realize their presence and influence upon us as ordinary human beings. Tribes, living in some forests, can kill their targeted creatures through their black magic. We cannot explain and prove everything like they do it in laboratories as part of their scientific research. Much is happening beyond our material consciousness. This creation is mysterious. Slept by 10:00.

6 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. My portion mate Venkatapati Raju and I started to Gurrajupeta by 1:00 on his bike. His daughter Mounisha Rani died a few days ago in their house at Gurrajupeta due to the bite of a cobra. They could not save her. She was about 15. They are deeply affected with this event. They left their house to forget her memories slowly. We reached the rented abode of his sister in Gurrajupeta by 2:00. She offered snacks and tea for us. We went to his house near the village pond. He showed me where a snake bit his daughter. Thence we went to his coconut farm near this village. I enjoyed the beauty of greenery and air here. Sea is about one kilometre from this place. We can hear its noise from this farm. We had fresh coconut water. We reached Peda Gummuluru by 5:00. We spent talking with my brother Sambha, my mother and father for one hour. My paternal grandparents lived in Gurrajupeta about 50 years ago. My father knows many Kshatriyas living in this village. I know very little about all these relatives. I am a shallow modern Indian in this respect. We two returned to Devi Nagar by 6:30. Went to sleep by 10:30.

7 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I made some changes to my two blog sites. The Blogger team of Google is adding great attractions to this feature regularly. Power cuts increased recently. They are playing with the lives of common people. Power cuts are occurring during nights also. I am able to sleep for four or five hours only at night in this situation. Water and gas based power generation units are not producing much electricity now in Andhra Pradesh. Thermal power stations are unable to meet the electricity demand in this state. People are accustomed to sleep using fans and AC machines now. Many bought invertors. I am waking up automatically when ceiling fan stops functioning during nighttime due to inevitable power cuts. I am waiting helplessly for the power to get back. The green grass and trees around our abode must be positive factors for growth of mosquitoes. They attack me in the absence of air, created by fan. I open windows for free entry of natural air at night also. Mosquitoes use this path to enter my room. Sleepless nights are making me dull and weak. Slept by 10:00.

8 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Morning spent reading Eenadu. Srijana, Chandini and I saw the Telugu film “Eega” in cinema Gowtam at Payakaraopeta from 2:00 to 4:30. It is an interesting and exciting film. It is the story of a fly retaliating against its villain. S S Rajamouli directed it very well. I enjoyed the sensitive love between the hero and heroine a lot. This story is based on the concept of rebirth of a dead human being as a fly and its memories of its previous birth. We liked the movements and expressions of the fly in many scenes. The background score and songs added more beauty to this film. We enjoyed watching it throughout. By 5:30 Srijana, Chandini, Maurya Varma, Venkata Satya Sita Devi (the mother of Maurya Varma and the wife of Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju) and two familiar kids (the son and daughter of Rayapureddy Raghavendra Rao, our neighbour) went to the nearby Polavaram Canal (under construction) to see the natural beauty in this place. I too joined them soon. They are making a canal now digging the hill with machines. It is an irrigation canal funded by the state government. We enjoyed the air and greenery in this place. We sat beside the railway track for some time and watched the trains passing by us. We spent with nature for pleasure. Slept by 10:30.

9 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. My mother, my sister-in-law Kranti and baby boy Anjaneya Raju came here by 10:30 from Peda Gummuluru. My mother brought guavas from our house. My mother told me to do a job for my livelihood here. She thinks that doing a job does not require investment. There is no risk of loss also. I realized that the life of an employee in the private sector is like that of a caged bird. I like a life of liberty, through which I can live like an individual with self-respect. I don’t like shallow creatures dictating norms to me as my bosses. My parents cannot understand my psychology from this perspective. I am upset to know that I could not give back anything for my parents till now. They struggled a lot to bring me up. They sacrificed many things to buy agricultural farms for us three sons. Often I am depending on them. Still I am living the life of a parasite. I have to earn a lot of money to come out of this ditch. My mother and others started back to Peda Gummuluru by 3:30. I enjoyed their presence. Slept by 10:30.

10 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana went to Viswanadhapuram by 9:30 on our scooty. Her maternal grandfather Dantuluri Jagannadha Raju is unable to do many things now. He is losing memory slowly. He got high blood pressure. He is unable to move along their buffalo now. The folks of Viswanadhapuram have to go to China Boddepalli every month to bring their quota of provisions from the depot of civil supplies there. Srijana went to this place today to bring provisions for us and her maternal grandparents. Her maternal grandmother likes her a lot. She helps her in her domestic chores whenever she is there. I like their sense of mutual affection and possessiveness. Got ready by 3:30. Reached Tuni railway station by 4:00. Bought a ticket for 32 rupees for Samalkot Junction. Visakhapatnam-Hazrat Nizamuddin (Link) Express arrived by 4:47. Got into sleeper coach S-6 of it. My cousin Sagiraju Narendra Varma got into this coach by 5:30 at Samalkot Junction. We are going to Nagpur. He brought Lemon Rice and butter milk from Gollalagunta. We had them by 7:30. It was cool and refreshing. We spent talking till 10:30.

11 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:00. The train reached Nagpur by 9:15. Narendra Varma and I reached National Power Training Institute by 10:30. The counseling session was started by 11:00 for the open category of candidates. The rank of Naren is 144. We sat in the conference hall observing the counseling process before us. The counseling for Naren was over by 5:00. He got a place in NPTI at Neyveli in Tamil Nadu. He paid the initial fee here in the form of a DD. There are six NPTIs in Nagpur, Badarpur, Durgapur, Neyveli, Nangal and Guwahati. These institutes train candidates in power generation processes for one year. My cousin has to pay about two lakh rupees for this course. There are good job opportunities for those that completed this course. They work in power plants in high positions with attractive salaries and facilities. We hired an auto rickshaw for 100 rupees and reached Nagpur railway station by 5:20. Hazrat Nizamuddin-Visakhapatnam Express arrived by 5:45. We got into reservation coach S-8 of it. I developed bad impression about Nagpur during this short stay. Many are cheating people publicly. They are dishonest.

12 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. The train reached Samalkot Junction by 10:30. My cousin Naren got off it at this station. We have reservation up to this station only. I did not like to get down here and take another train. I should buy a ticket for travelling up to Tuni railway station. I continued travelling in this train without a ticket. Got off it in Tuni railway station by 11:15. A ticket checking fellow caught me. He told me to pay 350 rupees towards fine for travelling from Samalkot to Tuni without a valid ticket. I explained him that my intention was not fraudulent in this regard. He found me as a good fellow observing my clothes and spirit of sincerity in my voice. He told me to pay 150 rupees. I did it without more questions and explanations. They found a writer and dreamer as an unauthorized fellow to travel freely between these two stations. How many illegal and immoral Indians are travelling freely in trains and flights across places? Srijana and I reached our rented abode by 12:00 on our scooty. Spent rest of the day casually. Felt sleepy and weak throughout the day. Slept by 10:00.

13 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:30 our house owner Asha Bhanu talked seriously with me about the complaining nature of Srijana about the issues she is facing in this rented abode owned by them. She remarked that such attitude is typical of girls coming out from villages. I did not counter her words. I did not find her comments rational. Later I asked Srijana if we should vacate this house portion soon. She replied in the affirmative. We knew that the ground level two-bedroomed portion in the house of a retired drill master (Physical Education Teacher) is vacant now in Devi Nagar. Srijana and I checked it by 12:30. We found it spacious and suitable for our needs. We told him that we enter this house portion as a tenant family unit very soon. The monthly rent is 3,500 rupees for it. This three-story house is very close to National Highway-16. Canossa English Medium School is a few steps away from this house. Anand can go there easily every day. Night we informed our house owners D S N Raju and Asha Bhanu about our decision to vacate their portion of house soon. They accepted it readily. Slept by 10:00.

14 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana started to Viswanadhapuram by 8:30 on our scooty. This morning her maternal aunt Madhavi and cousin Sushma came here from Hyderabad. She went there to spend with them. By 10:05 my father came to our abode from Peda Gummuluru. My mother sent 20 guavas and three mango fruit for me from there. We two went to Vijaya Cut Pieces cloth store in Tuni by 10:45. My father gave me 2,000 rupees asking me to buy clothes for me. I bought two shirt pieces and two trouser pieces spending 800 rupees in this store. My father bought two blankets in this store. We also bought a blanket, an umbrella and a purse at other stores in this area for him. He took a sharing auto rickshaw and left for Peda Gummuluru by 1:15. I gave my cloth pieces to a tailor by 1:30 for stitching. He is charging 280 rupees to stitch a shirt and a pair of trousers. Today I paid him 500 rupees towards advance stitching charges. Told him to stitch them whenever he can. He works in a small wooden unit beside road near Y Junction in isolation. He is an honest tailor. I have been observing him for the last six months. Today I typed up the content of February from my diary of 2012 on my computer. Slept by 10:00.

15 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana and I went to the rented abode of Sekhar in Court Street by 12:15. Today it is the fourth birthday of Ashish Varma, the second son of Sekhar and Revathi. Today they are holding a small function on this occasion. They invited us to this domestic celebration. We spent here from 12:30 to 8:45. About 20 familiar creatures attend this party. They prepared Prawn Biryani and Gulab Jamun for the invitees. They made the boy cut a cake by 7:15. They distributed biscuits, chocolates and soft drinks to all. Rama Sekhara Raju must have spent about 1,000 rupees for this occasion. Celebrating birthdays and anniversaries reflects the typical human desire for social bonds and passion for special recognition. We need not celebrate birthdays if we understand the futility of material life from the perspective of a spiritualist. Bodies are like perishable goods. They lose their form and charm according to their Karma. We should think and worry about the progress of our souls towards birthlessness instead of craving for possessions and attractions of our vulnerable and tangible bodies. Went to sleep by 10:00.

16 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 the maternal grandmother of Srijana, her maternal aunt Madhavi and her cousin Sushma came to our rented abode. Meanwhile my brother Sambha Murthy came here from Peda Gummuluru along with one of his friends. From 10:00 to 11:00 typed up a blog titled “Dear Sisir” on my computer. It’s my letter to Sisir Kiran Varma. I scheduled it to be posted on my blog site by 10:30 a.m. IST tomorrow. By 10:45 Sambha left for Tuni. By 11:30 my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy called me up. Recently he bought about six acres of mango farm near Tetagunta along with his brother-in-law Kolukuluri Krishnam Raju (Vaamana). Today they are getting this land registered in their names at the office of Sub Registrar in Tuni. My uncle invited me to this place casually. Went there by 12:30. Spent with them till 6:30 in this locality. The seller/owner of this land did not pay broker fee to the mediator of this deal. Paparao, the mediator of this process, is a close friend of my uncle in Tetagunta. They go to different places frequently as casual real estate agents and familiar farmers. They decided to tackle him differently later. It rained around 5:30. Roads turned muddy and slippery. I did not get a vehicle to reach my rented abode. Walked back home. Slept by 10:15.

17 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My second son Sisir Kiran Varma was born on this date one year ago. I don’t know where his soul is now. He left back a set of memories in us. I like his inspiring beauty. By 10:30 K S N Raju and I went to Panchayat office in Payakaraopeta. Its executive officer did not come to this office yet. From 11:00 to 1:00 got my Honda Activa scooty repaired by a familiar mechanic near this office. He changed rear wheel tube and bearing of the rear wheel. I spent about 400 rupees for this work. By 4:30 K S N Raju and I met the executive officer in the Panchayat office. He explained us the procedure to be followed by us to get a new second category electricity supply connection to a residential plot of land in Devi Nagar. We have to spend about 50,000 rupees for it. I cannot afford it now. I want single phase current to run my paper cup manufacturing machine. K S N Raju (retired drill master) told me to put it in his plot of land before their house. Night we checked the workplace of our familiar fellow near the house of K S N Raju. We will put our machine in it. Slept by 10:00.

18 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning I observed that a skin disorder affected my two eyelids, the left of my temple and upper right corner of my neck. Spent most of the day at home casually. By 4:30 went to the Ayurvedic treatment point (a thatched hut beside NH-16) of Kakarlapudi Satya Venkateshwara Raju, who is popularly known as Manthraala Raju, in this region. Most of his treatment is through herbal products and Ayurvedic medicines. He does not charge much for his medicines or treatment. He has been practicing this profession for the last 30 years. I like his command of subject and devotion towards his profession. He has no children now. His house and service abode are opposite Devi Nagar entrance gate. He chanted some mantras silently, moving a few twigs of margosa, around my infected parts of body. He gave me 10 Biogest tablets, 12 homemade tablets and a green lotion to apply on my infected parts of body. He charged 40 rupees for all this. By 5:45 went to the DTDC point at Balaji Complex in Tuni and collected an envelope sent by the folks of Sunshine International in New Delhi. It is a consignment note of Associated Road Carriers. Felt relieved. Went to sleep by 10:30.

19 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning and evening K S V Raju chanted mantras aiming at cure of my skin disorder. He used fresh margosa twigs for it. The swelling of my right eyelid started lessening by night. This is for the first time I am witnessing this skin disorder in my life. Srijana started providing tuition to a few students from the beginning of this month. They walk to our rented abode from their nearby houses. Most of them are school children. She is expecting about 200 rupees from each of these students towards monthly tuition fee. I think that one should have about 50 students for tuition a day. One should charge about 500 rupees for each student as tuition fee per month. Many students are misusing much money buying cigarettes, chewing tobacco products, consuming alcoholic drinks and throwing worthless parties to their shallow set of friends. They should not consider tuition as a cheaper pursuit against these dirty habits in their lives. Srijana is not as free as before now because of this imposed daily duty. I don’t like such duties. Went to sleep by 10:00.

20 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today it was cloudy, cool and refreshing. Today I spent most of my time with my portion mate Venkatapati Raju. He is working at the NH-16 Toll Plaza at Vempadu now. He notes down the numbers and names of vehicles before related fee collection. He is getting 6,000 rupees a month doing this casual job. He works during night shifts also. He is not happy about this job. Their daughter died a few weeks ago in their village Gurrajupeta due to snake bite. They are in depression recollecting this tragedy in their lives. I often tell him about the characteristics and schedules of souls to alleviate his sense of loss and pain. Materialists can find their lives bearable and enjoyable when they improve their spiritual knowledge. Afternoon my friend Sri Rama Raju checked the status of my life applying my date and time of birth into astrology software on his computer. He predicted that I cannot run my paper cup manufacturing unit as vigorously as imagined now from September onwards. I told him that I will subdue the impact of those astrological forces upon me with the power of my soul and the divine direction of Lord Krishna. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

21 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home. It was cool and refreshing today. Afternoon improved the look of the blog site of Sri Rama Raju. I created a blog site for him a few days ago. He is into astrology, Vaasthu and civil engineering. He has a few clients in Tuni, Payakaraopeta and Kakinada areas now. He is living in Vaibhav Township at Namavaram now with his wife and daughter. I often argue with him that the power of a soul is greater than the forces of nature and astrological elements. Man’s fears and doubts about various phenomena and occurrences in this world make him believe in astrology and such other shallow theories. Nobody can change the Karma of a creature. The date and place of birth of a human being do not have any impact on his life. A set of irrational beliefs become part of tradition and culture of a race in course of time. Such shallow blokes attribute more value to tradition than humanity and virtues. We are seeing a dirty world now because of these astrologers, palmists, fortunetellers and numerologists. They are helpless parasites. They mislead societies. Slept by 10:00.

22 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. The skin disorder on my face got cured completely. The Ayurvedic medicines and the treatment of K S V Raju did it for me. By 11:00 went to bus station in Tuni on my scooty. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju came here by a bus from Jaggampeta. Brought him to my abode on my scooty after buying two bamboo sticks in the Sunday cattle market at Payakaraopeta. He bought them for 200 rupees. He uses a strong and long bamboo stick as a supporting tool while walking. His right leg got crippled when he was a child due to his mischief and indiscipline. Spent all the day with him. During the last four days, it rained well in many parts of Andhra Pradesh. Farmers and ordinary people are happy about it. Indians don’t conserve rainwater. They walk kilometres during the seasons of scarcity of water. Even governments are not devoted much towards the conservation of natural resources and sustainable development of their regions. They are like unscrupulous merchants authorized by innocent and helpless voters through democracy. They are struggling and craving for political power and false prestige. They are sinners. Went to sleep by 10:00.

23 July (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home talking with my uncle Krishnam Raju and portion mate Venkatapati Raju. Evening my brother Sambha came here along with one of his friends. They spent here for 30 minutes talking with us casually. My friend Kanumuri Rajani Kumar Raju did not pay the 2,000 rupees for the 300 mangoes we sent him in the last month. He did not attend my calls though I tried many times. He is not a cheat or thief but one suffering from the disorder of chronic false prestige. His financial condition has been very bad for the last three years or so. He thinks that I don’t know about his state of life now. I am also in a very low financial condition now but I did not conceal this truth from others. Everybody cannot earn reliable friends and well-wishers through thoughts and acts of false prestige. I would not have punished Rajani if he had told me that he would pay it later. Lack of communication presents us as wrongdoers to others. We should let others understand us perfectly. If we love a society, we must be honest and grateful to it. Slept by 10:00.

24 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:08 my cousin Sirisha gave birth to a male baby in a private hospital at Kakinada. They performed a surgery for it. By 12:30 took my uncle Krishnam Raju to bus stand in Payakaraopeta. He took an ordinary bus for Jaggampeta. By 3:12 took an ordinary bus at Y Junction for Adduroad. Reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 4:00. I bought and brought 20 packs of snacks for my parents. They are made with rice flakes and jaggery. They soak paddy in water for a few hours. Then they process this wet and thick paddy to bring out light and white rice flakes from them. We call them Moramoralu in Telugu. They make them into rounds applying boiled jaggery liquid to them. I found them tasty. I am buying each pack of these sweet rounds for seven rupees at a wholesale store in Tuni. I think they are not harmful food items for anybody. My father and mother can have them now and then when they feel like eating something for no reason. I am introducing them to my familiar folks also. By 5:00 I knew that Vatsavai Konda Raju, the father of our house owner Datla Asha Bhanu, died at Y Junction in Payakaraopeta due to a minor road accident. He is 75. Went to sleep by 9:30.

25 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:00 witnessing spell of rain. Took a bus in Peda Gummuluru by 9:30 and reached Kota Uratla by 10:15. My brother Sambha and I reached the office of Sub Registrar by 11:00. The registration of his farmland to me was over by 12:20. He gave 2.12 acres of farmland, situated in survey number 164/3, at Kota Uratla, as a gift, to me. Earlier I paid seven lakh rupees to him towards the cost of this land. Returned home by 1:00 by bus. By 2:30 my mother, my brother Sambha, his friend Raghu and I reached the office of Sub Registrar in Nakkapalli. My mother transferred the legal right of paddy farm, measuring 1.69 acres, in survey number 357/2, at Peda Gummuluru, to Sambha, as part of property distribution by my parents to their three sons, decided earlier. This registration process was over by 5:30. Took a bus in Nakkapalli and reached my rented abode in Devi Nagar by 6:00. Evening the maternal grandparents of Anand celebrated his third birthday well in the agricultural farm of R V Rama Raju near Masanpalli. About 50 invitees attended it. He entered his fourth year today. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. For the last few days, I have been sensing a little pain on the left part of my chest. I don’t know if it is being caused due to any disorder in my heart. I decided to resolve this issue today itself. Cardiologist D M R Jagannada Raju is my favourite doctor to do it. Took an Express bus at Y Junction by 10:30. Reached bus station in Visakhapatnam by 1:20. Thence hired an auto rickshaw for 20 rupees and moved to Apollo Hospital by Waltair main road. Jagannada Raju advised me to take Treadmill Test. Paid 900 rupees for it and got it done in TMT room. It went on for nine minutes and 10 seconds. They gave me this test report by 3:10. Jagannada Raju left for his lunch by 3:00. Had a plate meal, in a hotel near this hospital, paying 35 rupees, by 3:30. Kept waiting for the doctor sitting in a chair opposite the consultation room of this doctor in the ground floor. He arrived by 7:00. He checked my cardiac stress test report and said that my heart is functioning very well. The frequent chest pain may be due to pressure on muscles there. He prescribed four Ultracet tablets for it. Took a bus by 7:30 and reached home by 11:00. By 5:00, this evening, Srijana went to Viswanadhapuram. Slept by 11:30.

27 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana returned from Viswanadhapuram by 1:00. Morning she performed Vara Lakshmi Pooja along with her maternal grandmother. They prepared special dishes on this occasion. My brother Sambha and his friend Raghu came here by 2:00 from Peda Gummuluru. They spent here for 20 minutes. My portion mate Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju and I started to Deccan Fine Chemicals unit at Kesavaram by 4:30 on his bike. Recently he quit his temporary job at the toll plaza near Vempadu. He did not like to work during night shifts. They have to breathe a lot of polluted air while working here. Various kinds of vehicles release poisonous smoke in this place when drivers stop and start them before and after toll payment at these counters. Security guards have to do a lot of brisk walk as part of their job here. We met my uncle Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju by 5:30. We spent talking for one hour. He explained Venkatapati Raju the nature of jobs available in this unit now. Most of these jobs involve hard physical work every day. They produce pesticides and export to countries like the USA, Japan and China. We returned home by 7:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

28 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 4:00. By 7:30 the packing of every household item was over in our abode. Srijana boiled cow milk by 8:35 in our new rented abode and started her domestic life. Its house number is 33-4. Ours is the ground level portion in this three-story building. Srijana paid 3,500 rupees to the owner of this house by 8:40 towards advance one month rent. We hired a vehicle to move our household items into our new rented abode in Devi Nagar. My brother-in-law Vamsy, my portion mate Venkatapati Raju, the vehicle owner, his associate and I moved our items into our new abode of living from 8:45 to 10:45. Paid 500 rupees to the vehicle owner towards transport charge for three trips. Revathi helped Srijana in arranging household items in different shelves of our new abode. She is an expert in the fields of cooking and housekeeping. She improved her skills over time on her own. She helps us with a smiling face. They arranged most of the items by 3:30. Vamsy helped us fitting two cots, iron swing and three ceiling fans. Srijana and I are happy renting in this two-bedroomed house portion. It is more spacious and comfortable than the ground level two-bedroomed house portion of Datla Satya Narayana Raju and Asha Bhanu, in which we lived till this morning. Went to sleep by 10:00.

29 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana arranged everything well in our new rented abode by 9:00. I like her skills in this field. By 9:30 we two went into our old rented abode in Devi Nagar. Srijana swept it all clean with a broom. We enjoyed our stay in this abode for a few months. We should return their house portion well. Venkatapati Raju is feeling bored to spend his time without doing any worthwhile work every day. He came to our abode by 4:00. We spent talking for a few minutes. Then we walked into the nearby 132/33 K V Substation to see the equipment and technology installed in it out of general interest. We spent talking with the available folks for a few minutes. They told us about the fatal dangers involved in the transmission of high voltage electricity. I wondered thinking about the intelligence of man in generating and utilizing electricity for his comfort and development for years. I felt respect for all those inventors and engineers. We reached the abode of Ayurvedic doctor K S V Raju by 5:00. We spent talking with him for one hour. He is living a humble and ideal life doing service to many, who believe in his abilities as a doctor. Slept by 10:00.

30 July (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day casually within Devi Nagar. There is power cut for about five hours every day in the morning and afternoon. Many entrepreneurs and industrialists are suffering a lot for the last few months due to these long power cuts every day. Villagers are observing power cuts throughout the day. The Government of Andhra Pradesh has neither money to buy electricity from other federal states nor capacity or vision to utilize the existing power generation units completely. All are waiting for heavy rains across the state to see reservoirs with full of water. Afternoon checked the quality of my old personal diaries and other records of my life put in three boxes. They are in a good condition. Srijana read part of the original copy of a letter, which I wrote earlier addressing Lahari. I sensed that she felt disturbed and depressed after reading it. She often calls me a dog because I told her about the girls I loved and admired before my marriage with her. Many expect 100% love and attachment from their life partners in India. Srijana believes that I cheated her because I loved many girls. It is typical human tendency. Honest and innocent people crave for pure love from others. Slept by 10:00.

31 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. From 10:30 to 11:00 Srijana and I spent in the office of Manappuram Finance at Tuni. We paid 2,100 rupees to them towards interest for the 1, 05, 000 rupees, which we borrowed from them earlier. They recently introduced interest rate cuts. They reduced our two-rupee interest to 150 paise per month for 100 rupees. We spent in the rented abode of Sekhar from 12:30 to 1:45. We had our lunch there. We saw the Telugu film “Ookodathaaraa Ulikkipadathaaraa” in cinema Gowtam from 2:30 to 5:00. It has a dull story. The director failed in making every bit of the film highly interesting and exciting as the name of the film suggests. The interests and expectations of worthless and shallow filmgoers changed a lot over time. They are going to cinemas with polluted minds. They make dirty comments about some artistes and scenes while the film is being showed on screen. They don’t understand the value of a film considering the hard work and creativity put into it by various creatures. I am disturbed thinking about the destiny of many films in the viewership of such brainless Indians. I feel like killing them in cinemas and throwing their dead bodies into the toilets there. Slept by 10:00.

1 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night Lakshmi appeared to me in my dream. She is suffering a lot recollecting her admiration for me. She wants to see and talk with me. She is scared of communicating with me. Society and tradition are blocking her physical access to me. I witnessed her sense of pain and loss due to her detachment from me years ago. It’s communication of souls through telepathy. Dreams express the pure desires and pains of others related to us directly or indirectly. Lakshmi does not behave so towards me in reality. She acts a different role for the sake of society, concealing her real notions and feelings for me. By 10:30 my mother, my sister-in-law Kranti, baby boy Anjaneya Raju and Janaki came to our rented abode from Peda Gummuluru. Janaki bought and brought sweets worth about 200 rupees for us. By 11:00 my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy also came from there. They spent here till 3:30. They came here to see our new rented abode and our existence in it. They found it more comfortable and spacious than the earlier one. They took an auto rickshaw by 4:00 at Y Junction for Peda Gummuluru. We enjoyed their presence. Slept by 10:00.

2 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 Srijana and Vamsy started to Visakhapatnam by a bus from the bus stand in Tuni. By 1:00 they reached the employment exchange at Kanchara Palem. Vamsy wants to register his academic qualifications in this exchange. They advised him to go to employment exchange in Kakinada considering his education in East Godavari district earlier. Thence they went to the abode of my brother Srinivas at Sujatha Nagar. Now my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani is suffering from abnormal gas levels in her stomach. She is using Ayurvedic medicines to get rid of it. She became weak and dull due to it. Srijana went there to comfort her with her affectionate presence and words. They started back by 6:00 and reached home by 9:30. Saw the Telugu film “Onamaalu” in cinema Surya Mahal from 2:30 to 5:15. It is a classic film directed by Kranti Madav. Dialogues and story are extraordinary. It portrayed the decline of Indian village culture against the forces of modern culture. The director stressed the need of revival of great Indian culture. I lost my Airtel cellphone in this cinema. After enquiry, they returned it to me. I gave 200 rupees to them for courtesy sake. Slept by 10:30.

3 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Went to Tuni railway station by 8:30. Mukesh got off Visakha Express. He came here from Hyderabad, representing Sunshine International of New Delhi, to fit my paper cup manufacturing machine and show its functioning system. He spent with me for four hours. He checked the machine and found that the 1HP motor in it got damaged in road transport. He showed the process of its functioning to Srijana and me. He got another new client in Rajahmundry to train today itself. Left him at Tuni railway station by 12:30. Paid him 7,000 rupees towards training fee. The idiots of Sunshine International sent me 1,000 sheets of paper needed for making paper cups. I have to cut each of these sheets into 24 pieces to make 24 paper cups out of them. I have to pack and send them to New Delhi. I have to find cardboard boxes to pack them. The trainer did not clarify matters about it. I am not happy about the standards of Sunshine International. Typed out a four-page letter, addressing the proprietor of this firm, on my computer, from 7:00 to 8:30. I pointed out their mistakes and demerits as a business unit. Slept by 10:00.

4 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today it was cloudy, rainy and cool. By 10:30 Srijana and I went to Tuni on our scooty to do some things related to paper cup manufacturing and packing. By 11:00 posted the four-page letter addressed to the proprietor of Sunshine International in New Delhi. I booked it for Speed Post, paying them 25 rupees. By 11:30 we went to the agency of wholesale dealer of ITC products. We found their empty cardboard boxes strong and suitable for packing and sending paper cups to New Delhi regularly. They are selling each box for 20 rupees. We talked with a printing press unit owner about cutting paper cup material for us regularly. He asked for 250 rupees to cut 1,000 sheets of paper into 24,000 square pieces. It’s very reasonable and justifiable. We have to pack 70 paper cups into a polythene cover. We found them in a shop. We had lunch in the abode of Revathi by 2:15. We returned home by 3:00. Sent the image of damaged 1HP motor to Muskan by email. She told me to send it back. Booked it at the office of VRL Logistics at the Market Yard in Tuni by 5:30. Paid 300 rupees for it. Today I felt frustrated and furious about the oral communication of Muskan. Her language and tone are aggressive and irrational. Went to sleep by 10:15.

5 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:30 brought five plant pots to our abode from the house of D S N Raju. We left them there when moving into this rented abode. There are five plants in these clay pots. Srijana keeps them in the premises of our living abode beside compound wall. Some of them bear little flowers. We have to water them frequently. I wonder about their simple and humble existence in these pots. They are meant for greenery and beauty in our residence. Man struggles for beauty and order in most of the things he does. Girls and women are more concerned about their physical and domestic beauty. Srijana seems like a typical Indian girl doing something to keep the residence and herself beautiful. Evening a few house owners of Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar and Devi Nagar assembled in a spot to discuss the issues related to these two colonies. I typed out a one-page letter addressing the executive officer of Panchayat office in Payakaraopeta. I wrote about the problems being faced by the residents in these two colonies. They decided to unite all residents and work together. Slept by 10:00.

6 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Morning it drizzled for two hours. It has been cool, rainy and pleasant for the last few days. By 10:30 Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju and I started to Gurrajupeta on his bike. He has three acres of coconut farm and one acre of paddy farm in this area. We went into his coconut farm by 11:30. He plucked about 20 sweet oranges from a young tree in this coconut farm. The soil turned wet and slippery due to rains. We sat in the small shed in this farm for 15 minutes breathing fresh air blowing down from these coconut trees. We returned to his house in Gurrajupeta by 1:00. His mother and the family of his elder sister are living in this house now. His sister prepared lunch for us. We had it by 1:45. We started back by 2:00. I held the equipment related to SUN DIRECT digital satellite MPEG4 receiver. Venkatapati Raju told us to use it. We reached Devi Nagar by 2:45. My cousin Narendra Varma got off an ordinary bus in Tuni by 3:15. He came here from Gollalagunta to spend with us for a few days. Brought him to our abode on my scooty. We two walked to the nearby railway track by 4:00. We sat beside it till 6:30 talking and observing trains passing by us. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning we opened a new sack of brown rice. It is one of the two sacks of rice, which I brought from Gollalagunta recently. It is good for health. By 11:30 a local cable TV technician fitted SUN DIRECT satellite TV set on the terrace of our three-story building. We paid 655 rupees online to get it recharged. Telecast of channels started immediately. Paid 300 rupees to the technician towards service fee. This is the SUN DIRECT equipment of Venkatapati Raju. I have to pay 1,500 rupees to him later for it. Srijana felt happy about the installation of this television service today in our abode. She watches television frequently. By 4:30 Venkatapati Raju, Narendra Varma and I walked to the nearby railway track. We sat beside it and spent talking till 6:00. I turn metaphysical, spiritual and dreamy hearing horn of train. I feel the truth that millions of souls are entering and deserting this material world continuously as part of their long journey. Humans love material bodies and attachments but they are perishable and transitory. Train is like this material world. We travel in it. It is not our property. Slept by 10:00.

8 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My cousin Narendra Varma and I went to Vijaya Cut Pieces cloth store in Tuni by 9:30 on my scooty. He bought two pant pieces, two shirt pieces, two white vests, one bed sheet and one towel for him. I bought four cloth items, for inner wear, worth about 260 rupees. Naren paid about 2,000 rupees for all these items. He is going to National Power Training Institute at Neyveli on the 15th of this month to join it. He is spending about 2, 30,000 rupees to do one year academic course here. Now he is making arrangements to move to Neyveli. He worked with Aditya Engineering College near Peddapuram as a lecturer for about two years after the completion of his B.Tech. course in this college. He has been a disciplined student and ideal teacher so far. He is inculcating good habits to grow as an individual. Afternoon Srijana prepared sweet milk porridge for us. By 6:45 Srijana, Narendra Varma and I reached Tuni railway station on our scooty. Vamsy took our scooty from me. We three bought a ticket for 12 rupees for Durgada Gate halt by 6:50. Visakhapatnam-Kakinada passenger train arrived by 7:45. We reached our destination by 8:30. Slept by 10:30.

9 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana and I came to the house of my uncle Chanti Babu (Pakalapati Venkatapati Raju) in village Durgada to see the baby son of his daughter Sirisha (Parvati Devi). He was born on the 24th of last month. He is sleeping during daytime and remaining awake at night. My cousin turned sleepless and weak due to it. Morning took some photos of baby Shiva Sahithi with my digital camera. She did not pose for my casual shooting venture despite my orders to her to be steady. Adamant and mischievous kids are a puzzle to their parents. Anantha Varma, Srijana and I started walking to Durgada Gate halt by 2:35 to take Vijayawada-Rayagada passenger train. It had left before we reached there. Srijana and I took a sharing auto rickshaw by 2:50 and reached bus station in Kathipudi by 3:15. Thence we took a Kakinada-Tuni ordinary bus for Tuni. Vamsy brought our scooty for us. Srijana and I reached our rented abode in Devi Nagar on it by 4:30. Today Muskan received my four-page letter addressed to the proprietor of Sunshine International in New Delhi. I will be happy if they improve their standards after reading this letter. Went to sleep by 10:00.

10 August (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today it is the birthday of Lord Krishna. I did not celebrate it. Srijana did it. By 8:00 observed commotion near the dirty canal beside Canossa School. It is very near to our rented abode. I too went there. Many native folks gathered around a scared deer (Sambur-Cervus Hippelaphus). It must have come down from the nearby hills beyond railway track. They struggled to control it with a thick rope (tied to its horns) but it escaped soon from their collective grip. Meanwhile a police came here. He informed the folks of forest department about it. They allowed it to run back into hills crossing railway track. Many blokes desired to kill it for its meat. The entry of police into the scene made them withdraw from that cruel idea. They are worse than cannibals in deep forests. Morning ironed my clothes. Srijana went to train her familiar teacher on scooty riding at G V R Nagar Colony. She likes Srijana. Evening Venkatapati Raju and I went to the dairy unit of Chitturi Venkata Krishna Narasimha Rao, walking across empty residential plots of land from Devi Nagar. There are many cows and buffalos in it. There is no adequate hygiene in these cattle sheds. He is selling milk and ghee locally with the brand name of Madhura. He is an ideal farmer. Slept by 10:00.

11 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Read in Telugu daily Eenadu that the deer, about which I wrote yesterday, was killed yesterday by some cruel folks in the nearby village P Lakshmipuram. They wounded it using sticks and stones until it died. Where is kindness in Indians? They are living torturing and killing millions of creatures every day. This is what Manmohan Singh considers great development. Idiots and rogues are going to temples, churches and mosques to act the roles of idealists and devotees. They are killing animals and birds to exhibit their real nature. God is a witness of everything we do. We are responsible for our sins. If we are suffering a lot in this birth, it means that we committed many crimes and sins in the past. Our history chases us in our material and spiritual life. I am disturbed and hurt knowing about the death of this innocent and beautiful creature of God. Today I typed up the content of March, from my diary of 2012, on my computer, from 8:30 to 2:30. Srijana and I saw the Telugu film “Julaayi” in cinema Sai Mahal from 6:15 to 8:50. The story, dialogues, songs, music and dance are gripping. Slept by 10:30.

12 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of April from my diary of 2012 on my computer from 8:05 to 1:45. I took about 330 minutes’ time to type it up. By 4:00 went to the house of Tirumalaraju Narasimha Raju in Devi Nagar. The residents and house owners of Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar and Devi Nagar colonies assembled here by 4:30. They formed an association called “Lal Bahadur Sastri Welfare Association” to plan and work for the welfare of these two colonies. They elected the necessary members for it. We all filled our personal details in those membership forms. They talked about the objectives of this association and steps to be taken to develop these two colonies. They decided to register this association first, to give it legal status. About 15 folks attended this meeting. T N Raju provided tea, snacks and drinking water for these participants. It was over by 6:00. Recently Rajesh Bhale of Leadstart Publishing emailed me stating that about eight copies of my book Stories of Love and Beauty were sold in the market during the last one year. He sent this information after I asked for it over phone. This book is at many bookstores in India now. Slept by 10:00.

13 August (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of May from my diary of 2012 on my computer. I took about five hours’ time to do it. By 3:30 Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju and I started to the unit of Deccan Fine Chemicals Limited at Kesavaram on his bike. He is looking for a casual job in this unit. We met our relative Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju by 5:30. He has been working here for the last three years. Three of us came to village Kesavaram by 5:45. We sat in the premises of Mandal Parishad Upper Primary School talking about casual jobs in private sector. The managements, in unorganized sector, treat their labourers badly. Labour contractors are like vultures in this sector. They earn a lot of easy money depending on the hard work and helplessness of ignorant workers. K S N Raju told K V P Raju that the latter cannot do many jobs in this manufacturing plant. They involve hard physical work and night shifts. K V P Raju is not interested in such jobs, which have no weekly holidays and fixed working hours. The nature of his job should not disturb his family life and health. I advised him not to do any job. We returned to Devi Nagar by 8:45. Slept by 10:00.

14 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of June from my diary of 2012 on my computer. By 9:30 Srijana knew from her father, over phone, that Anand is not doing well in the agricultural farm near Nizam Sagar. His body turned hot. He took him to a doctor for consultation. The doctor said that Anand has no fever of considerable nature but that he must be experiencing grief thinking about somebody. Srijana thought that he must have become depressive thinking about her subconsciously. Her father told her to come there to take him back. Srijana asked for my opinion. I readily agreed for it. Her maternal uncle Sekhar booked a bus ticket for her today from Tuni to Hyderabad for 450 rupees. My cousin Vasu (Sagiraju Srinivasa Raju) booked a berth for her for East Coast Express for the 22nd of this month from Secunderabad to Tuni online. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and his associate Papa Rao came to our abode by 11:30. We spent talking till 2:00. Srijana prepared Upma for them. My uncle gave 500 rupees to Srijana asking her to buy a sari for her. Srijana and I bought a few things in Tuni by 3:30. She took a bus of Kaveri Travels by 8:45 in Tuni for Hyderabad. Slept by 10:15.

15 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of July from my diary of 2012 on my computer. I took about five hours’ time for it. Today Surya Kumari offered breakfast and curries for my lunch and supper. She is the eldest daughter-in-law of K S N Raju, the owner of the house, in which we are living now. I cooked rice in the morning for my lunch and supper. I can cook rice, wash used dishes and clothes and keep my abode of living clean. I don’t feel disturbed and frustrated to do domestic chores of this order. Women are doing them for us every day. They are not enjoying their lives like men in lower and middle class families. Only husbands can help them in this regard to make them feel relieved to some extent now and then. I agree readily if Srijana wants to go somewhere. Our living abode should not become a cage for her. She must enjoy her life like a bird of liberty even after marriage with me. Srijana reached the rented abode of her maternal aunt Madhavi at Ashok Nagar in Hyderabad by 8:00 this morning. She spent here for some time. She reached the abode of her parents at Nizam Sagar by 6:00. Slept by 10:30.

16 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana said that she is remembering Sisir Kiran while in the farmhouse in the agricultural farm along with her parents near Masanpalli. By this time, last year, she was spending with him in this place. She cried silently recollecting those moments with her baby son in this farmhouse. I could not say anything to relieve her from this pain. Anand talked about Sisir. He became weak due to sickness recently. By 1:30 Venkatapati Raju and I went to the Mandal Parishad office in Payakaraopeta. We read in Eenadu that they are selecting candidates for some jobs. They said that they are looking for youth only. He is looking for a job to kill his time. From 2:45 to 5:05 we two saw the Telugu film “Devudu Chesina Manusulu” in cinema Gowtham. Puri Jagannadh directed it. The meaning of this film is “Humans made by God”. It is a very sublime, religious and spiritual title for a feature film. Jagannadh did not insert a thoughtful and sublime concept or series of events into the body of this film. I heard viewers making silly comments about this film in this cinema. I enjoyed the beauty, dresses, look and role of Ileana in this film. It is an ordinary film without a serious set of events expected by viewers. Slept by 10:00.

17 August (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Now there are power cuts even at night. I am unable to sleep well during nighttime. By 2:45 my uncle Gottumukkala Ramakrishnam Raju came to Y Junction in an Express bus from Peda Gummuluru. He came there last Wednesday from Gollalagunta. Yesterday he met Saint Ramabrahmam in Kota Uratla. He considers him as a holy and divine human being with great spiritual powers. This saint gave two apples to my uncle asking him to take home. My uncle met Ravi Raju in village Vempadu for medicines for his knee joint pains. He prescribed 10 injections for 10 days. They are pain killers. We two met Mantrala Raju by 3:00 in his house. He checked the injections given by Ravi for my uncle. He said that they give him temporary relief only from his knee joint pains. He advised him to come for his Ayurvedic medicines and treatment after the completion of use of these allopathic injections. My uncle, Venkatapati Raju and I spent in our surrounding area from 3:45 to 6:30. We met our familiar folks in this locality. My uncle had his supper in the abode of Venkatapati Raju by 7:00. This afternoon my cousin Narendra Varma joined NPTI at Neyveli. Slept by 12:00.

18 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. My uncle Ramakrishnam Raju and I started to Tuni by 9:00 on my scooty. We met three of his relatives in their abodes from 9:30 to 10:45. I took him to Tuni railway station by 10:50. Bought a ticket for him for four rupees for Durgada Gate halt. I spent five rupees for my platform ticket and five rupees for my scooty parking. I spent more than the passenger. By 11:15 got a seat booked for my brother-in-law Vamsy for the 25th of this month for Janmabhoomi Express. He must be going there to look for a job. My uncle takes Visakhapatnam-Vijayawada passenger for Durgada. Today it was late. Went to the office of VRL Logistics at the market yard in Tuni by 11:45 to collect bundles of paper cup raw material sent by the folks of Sunshine International in New Delhi. They booked them there on the 6th of this month. There are four bundles containing 4,000 sheets of paper. They sent me the green consignor note by DTDC instead of the red consignee note. This agent told me that they don’t release any material without the red consignee note. Called up those folks and informed them to send it. I wondered about the rules of these folks. Slept by 10:30.

19 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day within Devi Nagar area casually. Srijana and Anand are in the abode of Madhavi now at Ashok Nagar in Hyderabad. Yesterday night they came here from Nizam Sagar area. Srijana is learning Photoshop from her cousin Sunil on his computer at home. Vamsy has to take his ITI apprenticeship examination soon in Hyderabad. He said that they are offering bribes to the folks of DRDL at Kanchan Bagh in Hyderabad to get through this examination. It is an established norm here. Each of them is paying 3,000 rupees for it. Last year one apprentice took this exam without offering bribe to them. They collectively made him fail in this exam. Vamsy also said that the present employees of central government firms like DRDL, BHEL, BHPV and steel plants are getting jobs for their sons and daughters in them immorally. He did not get hall tickets also to take some of these exams. Present employees only benefit from these Employment News ads and related jobs. Bribery and corruption are prevalent in these firms. Social reformer Anna Hazare believes that these filthy pigs change being educated by his public meetings and speeches! Slept by 10:30.

20 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus by 10:45 at Y Junction and reached Peda Gummuluru by 11:30. It’s a casual visit to see my folks. My sister-in-law Kranti offered cheese for me. By 1:00 my mother offered lunch for me. My father is suffering from fever now. They are drinking water drawn from our well. Fresh water entered it recently due to rains in monsoon. My mother filters it with a white cloth. She is able to remove visible dust particles this way. Many invisible bacteria and viruses still remain in such water. They are boiling water to further purify it. They don’t boil it well and store it in a hygienic container. Educated children find their uneducated parents as ignorant and innocent beings. My parents, relatives, friends and well-wishers are concerned about my financial condition now. I am more balanced and comfortable than them. Others are considering me as a monarch, who does not listen to others but does what he likes. They thought that I find and do a job for my survival but I am getting into a venture of self-employment. They are worried about the heavy delay in my pursuit to earn money. Took a bus by 4:30 at Adduroad Junction and reached home by 5:00. Slept by 10:00.

21 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Morning spent at home casually. By 3:30 Venkatapati Raju and I started to the nearby railway track. We can reach it within five minutes. We sit beside this track talking about many things. Today we visualized the probability of somebody throwing some money at us from a running train. It should be a bag with about 10 lakh rupees. We share this money equally between us. We can live happily depending on this money. We often hear about some folks throwing bundles of money somewhere fearing the rides of ACB or income tax department. It is very difficult to earn a lot of money in a short period of time through honesty and morality. Man can feel balanced and relieved contemplating wonders and fancies in his hard life. Everything is possible in imagination. God provided many ways to keep oneself happy always. We can compare our lives with those of other people and many creatures around us. Life means pain. We cannot live happily always. Every birth, as a creature, is a chance to the related soul to advance itself to next stage of evolution and reformation. We should reach God. Slept by 9:30.

22 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana and Anand took East Coast Express in Secunderabad railway station by 10:30. Spent most of the day at home watching television and reading books. By 6:30 my M.A. English classmate Narsaiah came to my abode casually. He is working as an English teacher at the government high school in Payakaraopeta now. My house owner K S N Raju worked as a physical education teacher in this school until his retirement two years ago. He knows Narsaiah. We three sat in chairs on the cement road near our house and spent talking till 8:30. I killed two black scorpions during this time when they were crossing the road by us. Narsaiah took a copy of my book Stories of Love and Beauty to read. He appreciated the look and quality of my book. He is a disciplined and sensitive guy. By 10:00 went to Tuni railway station on my scooty. Srijana and Anand were waiting for me. Brought them home by 10:15. Srijana said that seven guys spent most of their time with Anand today in this train. They were their co-passengers. They took his photo also on platform 2 when this train halted in Tuni. They must have covered her also. They admired her beauty. Went to sleep by 11:00.

23 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. I am unable to sleep well due to power cuts at night. Spent all the day at home casually. I wonder about my financial status so far. There had been breaks between my jobs. I could not save money. The present society values only such people, who earn a lot of money continuously. They are not concerned about how they are earning it. It means people are not practicing morality in whatever they are doing. Business firms are practicing unethical principles and strategies to earn money. Even individuals are doing the same in their small livelihood pursuits and business units. Farmers are using fertilizers and pesticides in their farmlands for high yield but not high quality food grains for their fellow Indians. Entrepreneurs are making and selling harmful products. Doctors are cheating patients. Lawyers are exploiting their innocent and helpless clients. If many are becoming rich and influential in a society fast, it means that they are strategic or cruel. They are earning money scaring or cheating others. They are accustomed to crimes and sins in their lives and professions. I am unable to change according to these social trends and shallow Indian culture. Slept by 9:00.

24 August (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually. Srijana and others are thinking about admitting Anand to a school. He should cross Nursery, LKG and UKG to step into first standard. I did not move through these stages of pre-primary education. I joined a government school when I was six or seven years old. I am not interested in sending Anand to school at all but the present society does not allow me to do so. I did not enjoy my 17 years of institutional learning. I had to concentrate on my subjects and marks in every academic year. I could not celebrate my liberty as a free human being. Institutional learning made my life mechanical, artificial and stressful. I observed that education did not reform Indians from savage beasts to ideal creatures. Most of the educated Indians are living like commercial machines and unethical rogues now. They are more devoted to their personal enjoyments and profitable growth than their social issues and development of their nation. Illiterate Indians are thinking and working better than them. Education turned majority Indians into selfish, crazy and narrow-minded blokes. We can realize this truth observing the lives of doctors, lawyers, teachers and NRIs. Farmers, drunkards, beggars, coolies and domestics are better than them. Slept by 10:00.

25 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 8:30 on our scooty. We reached there by 9:00. We took our used Pureit water purifier for my parents. We showed them how to use it. My mother is sensing pain on her back. My father decided to take her to government hospital at Nakkapalli this Monday. They said that a specialist would come here that day. By 12:00 we had lunch in our house. I got two full meal parcels packed at Kanaka Maha Lakshmi Hotel in Adduroad by 12:25 paying them 140 rupees. Kranti already packed homemade food for my brother Sambha. Srijana, Anand and I started to our mango garden at hills by 12:30 on our scooty with these packs of food. Sambha is getting strong bunds established in some parts of our mango garden to block the rainwater flowing away. Eight native workers are working on it. They are collecting rocks from the nearby groves and laying them in important locations. Sambha has been involved in this rainwater conservation work for the last 10 days. We saw my paternal grandparents living in the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy. We returned to Peda Gummuluru by 4:30 and to our abode at Payakaraopeta by 6:00. Slept by 9:30.

26 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning it rained for 30 minutes. Spent most of the day reading Eenadu and browsing Internet.  By 5:00 Srijana, Anand and I started to Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. We reached there by 6:00. Recently it rained well in this place. Nature turned green and pleasant. I feel relieved and refreshed while spending in this hamlet. It is away from air and sound pollution. Since very few families of Kshatriya community are living here, one can observe communal harmony and peace here every day and night. They are all relatives one way or the other. I always enjoy my stay here. It is like a resort for me. I savour the music and magic of nature here. I feel like living in these plants, trees and hills all alone. Now I am disturbed observing the thoughts, pursuits and lives of many people around me. I want to be totally detached from these beasts and the governments making them so. I think I have to wait another 10 years to reach that stage of life of tranquility, peace, sublimity and balance. Jagannadha Raju, the paternal grandfather of Srijana, got dementia recently. He has a poor memory. Yesterday they sold their buffalo. He is unable to attend to it every day. He goes to his lime farm frequently. I like his traditional lifestyle. I enjoy his presence. Slept by 10:00.

27 August (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I could sleep well. The forces of nature blessed me with a deep sleep. The green farms and hills around Viswanadhapuram make it a convenient place for dreamers and nature lovers to stay. Today Srijana involved herself in cooking two kinds of snacks. They are for Anand and her maternal grandfather to consume casually at home. I advise her frequently not to prepare any food item using highly boiled oil. Indian women like cooking in oil and beautifying themselves with gold. Spent two hours talking with Sai Rama Raju in his agricultural farm beside the road to Kodavatipudi. He gained a lot of experience and knowledge about businesses and labourers. He told me about the culture of daily wage earners now. Prostitutes are better than them. Evening Srijana and I cut the branches of Sampenga flower tree in the front yard of house of her maternal grandparents. Its branches and twigs are casting shadow on a mango plant near to it. It is not growing well due to it. I climbed up this flower tree to cut its branches with a knife. Srijana, Anand and I started back to Payakaraopeta by 5:20 on our scooty. Slept by 10:00.

28 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana and I are enjoying our time with Anand. He is attached to his mother more than me. He is scared of me considering my approach towards discipline expected from him. He acts good role sensing my presence about him. I am not happy about his physical growth. He is consuming foods well. He is playing well. He is looking thin. He is talking well. He is craving for the presence of his mother always. By 1:00 we three went to Tuni on our scooty. Srijana exchanged the black umbrella of my father at that shop for a new one. My father and I bought it there recently. Later my father found that it is a defective piece. Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Sudigaadu” in cinema Gowtham from 2:40 to 5:15. It has a weak and clumsy story. It is a comedy. I give 35 marks for 100 for this film. They must have struggled hard to fill comedy artificially into it. Monal Gajjar is a considerable beauty. Males enjoy her beauty in this film. Power cuts are still continuing in Andhra Pradesh. Some interest groups are staging protests in many parts of this state now. A lot of electricity is being misused in this state every day and night. Government failed to sensitize, warn and control people in this state. They are immoral, stupid and nasty rogues of India. Slept by 10:00.

29 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw by 8:15 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 8:45. My brother Sambha already started to Kota Uratla on his bike. I took an auto rickshaw and reached there by 9:45. Walked for 15 minutes from main road and reached my agricultural farm. Today Sambha is getting Sarugudu saplings planted in my 2.12 acres of farm here. He brought 15 workers from Ramayyapatnam for this plantation work. Five workers of this area joined them. Sambha bought and brought about 10,000 saplings from a nearby private nursery for this plantation. These workers worked for seven hours on this farm. It started raining from 3:45. Rain is desirable soon after this plantation. Lord Krishna delighted me with these black clouds and the following rain. Nature turned mesmerizing. This plantation work was over by 5:00. I bought two kilos of fresh groundnuts in Kota Uratla for 60 rupees. Sambha went to Peda Gummuluru. Took two vehicles and returned to Devi Nagar by 7:00. Today it is the birthday of my platonic friend Nagarjuna and my dear cousin Narendra Varma. I posted the photo of Nagarjuna and a few words (Like brilliance in dawn, Like snow in mountain, You and I are one, Walking miles alone. Our paths are different, But our junction is one. Our pursuits are dissimilar, But we keep moving together) on the banner of my blog site for him. Slept by 8:30.

30 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni by 10:30 on my scooty. Paid 1,620 rupees to them towards monthly interest for the 1, 05,000 rupees, which I borrowed earlier from them. The monthly interest for 100 rupees is 150 paise. Thence moved to the rented abode of Sekhar. Gave one kilo of fresh groundnuts to them. Brought my domestic HP gas cylinder from there with the help of a fellow. Gave 25 rupees and two oranges to him for it. Bought a bottle of Junior Horlicks (Stage 1) for Anand, for 190 rupees. I looked for a Stage 2 bottle but I did not get it. Had my lunch by 2:00 and rested for a while. Venkatapati Raju and I started our evening stroll by 3:30. We sat beside the railway track for 30 minutes. I talked with two boys in Hindi. They are working with Madhucon in the construction work of Polavaram Canal (associated with Indira Sagar irrigation project) as trainee poclain operators, getting 4,000 rupees a month. One of them is from Jammu and one is from Punjab. I enjoyed talking with them. Then we walked along this railway track up to level crossing near P Lakshmipuram. We knew that they opened it recently. Now there is no much traffic here. We spent talking with the on-duty gateman here for one hour. He is an ex-serviceman from Vizianagaram district. We two walked back to our respective rented abodes in Devi Nagar by 6:15. Slept by 10:15.

31 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana and Anand went to the abode of Sekhar at Court Street in Tuni by 11:00 on our scooty. They went there to enjoy spending with their familiar creatures. Meanwhile my M.A. English classmate Narsaiah came here from his rented room in Rajugari Beedu. I showed my two blog sites to him on my computer. We read two blogs on it. He appreciated my pursuits as a blogger and writer. We spent talking for some time. He left for lunch by 1:40. Rested for a while. By 3:45 Narsaiah, Venkatapati Raju and I started our evening stroll to the nearby hill. We crossed the railway track and walked to the Polavaram Canal construction site. We sat on a higher place in this hill viewing human habitations below. The folks of Madhucon are digging these beautiful hills with poclains to construct Polavaram Canal. They are processing concrete, cement and sand now to do this canal construction work. We heard little birds chirping from the hills here. I felt like going deeper into this setting of nature and living there forever. We walked down and sat beside the railway track for some time. We returned home by 6:15. Srijana and Anand came back by 7:15. Slept by 10:00.

1 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Paid 3,500 rupees to our house owner K S N Raju by 8:00 towards rent for our two-bedroomed portion for the last month. I asked him to take 500 rupees for the four days in July but he refused. He has been suffering from spondylitis for the last two weeks. Paid 620 rupees to the milk seller. We are buying half a litre of fresh buffalo milk every morning from him for 20 rupees. This payment is for the milk we bought from him last month. By 10:30 my friend Bojja Shankar Rao sent one litre of cow cheese milk for me from Adduroad. I asked him for it. He has a daily milk collection point of Heritage Milk in village Eti Koppaka. He likes me a lot. Afternoon a Reliance Communications executive called me up and asked me to pay my bill of about 1,100 rupees for the last two months. I told her that I would not pay it. I explained what made me think and decide so. If a writer starts playing with others, the game would be very exciting. By 6:00 went to the DTDC point at Balaji Complex in Tuni and collected the envelope sent by the folks of Sunshine International. They sent me the red consignee note required to collect my paper cup raw material from the office of VRL Logistics in Tuni. Today I typed up the content of August from my diary of 2012. Slept by 10:00.

2 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:30. Reached Tuni railway station by 5:00 on scooty. Alluru Satya Narayana Raju and his wife got off Visakha Express. Recently they went to Hyderabad to formally see a prospective bridegroom for their daughter. Then Srijana, Anand and I saw them off. We brought their scooty and kept it in our abode. This morning returned it to them. They moved to Viswanadhapuram on this scooty. I took to walking for physical exercise sake. Walked from railway station to my rented abode in Devi Nagar via the NH-16 over bridge covering about three kilometres. Enjoyed this pleasant morning walk. Spent reading Eenadu for two hours. Went to the office of VRL Logistics at market yard in Tuni by 11:00 on my scooty. Gave the red consignee note to the fellow here and collected the four bundles of paper cup raw material. Paid 100 rupees to him towards handling charge. A rickshaw puller brought these four bundles to the place of Ganni Printers in Post Office Street. Paid him 50 rupees for it. The folks of this print unit cut these 4,000 sheets of paper into suggested sizes. Paid 550 rupees to him as advance. Also bought 10 cardboard boxes for 200 rupees from the office of wholesale dealer of ITC products and put them in this printing press. Today Srijana trained her familiar teacher on scooty riding. Slept by 9:30.

3 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Morning Srijana prepared cheese with cow milk and jaggery. She kept cow milk in our refrigerator. She is preparing cheese now and then with this milk. From 2:30 to 5:00 Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Srimannaaraayana” of Bala Krishna in cinema Surya Mahal. It is an interesting and exciting film with a good story. We spent in the rented abode of Sekhar for one hour. My relative and well-wisher Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju often compares my paper cup making self-employment venture with the Telugu proverb Lanka Metha Godavari Eetha. It is taking a lot of time for the transport of items from New Delhi to Tuni. Initially the damage of 1HP motor, fitted in this machine, delayed it. I sent back this motor to them. They could not find out this small parcel of motor in the warehouse of VRL Logistics at Rama Road in New Delhi for one week. I invested 64,000 rupees into this venture till now. Two months of time lapsed after I deposited this money into their bank account. I have to make paper cups and send them to get money from them. Now I have a debt burden of about two lakh rupees. I have to clear it depending on the income earned through this venture. Sometimes our plans and hopes may look like stupidity and foolishness to others. Slept by 10:00.

4 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 6:15 D S N Raju called me up and told me to be ready to go to Anakapalle. Got ready within minutes. Both of us took an Express bus by 7:15 at Y Junction and reached Anakapalle by 8:50. Now he is working as an armed guard in the branch of Axis Bank here. He took me to the office of District Registrar by 9:15 on a bike. Today the registration of two colony welfare associations has to take place here. He asked me to coordinate this work at this office on behalf of him. The related five folks reached here by 12:30 in a car from Payakaraopeta. We got the two applications attested by a notary (advocate) by 1:15. Attender Lakshmi (in this office) guided us well in this regard. She took these two applications from us by 1:30. The names of these two associations are Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar Welfare Association and Vaibhav Township Welfare Association. I spent in the Axis Bank from 3:00 to 5:30. D S N Raju and I took the two registration certificates from Lakshmi in the office of District Registrar by 5:50. He has been working on this task for the last 50 days. He felt blissful looking at these certificates. We two took Visakhapatnam-Kakinada passenger train by 6:15 and reached home by 7:40. Morning Srijana brought the cut square shaped pieces of paper cup material from Ganni Printers, paying 800 rupees to them. Slept by 10:00.

5 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana sieved our brown rice for about five hours. There are broken stone pieces and other particles in it. They disturb our teeth while chewing rice. Today Anand is weak. He got a slight fever. It has been cool and rainy for the last five days. This is favourable time for bacteria and viruses. They attack and harm infants, children and old people. Anand vomited. Srijana took care of him. She is doing much service to him. I cannot give many marks for me for what I have done for him so far. He is not much interested in me. By 3:30 Venkatapati Raju and I started our evening stroll. We walked towards the plot of my brother Sambha in Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar. Two months ago, he bought 219 square yards of residential plot of land here for 5, 69, 400 rupees. It is a good piece of land. Often we sit in it in the evening. We two are like free birds now. God gave us more holidays than expected. By 7:00 my friend Ramanadha Raju came to our rented abode casually. He advised me to join Amway soon as a business owner to benefit using those high quality products for different needs. I trust the products and people associated with Amway. Many Indian companies are making and selling useless and harmful products now. Slept by 10:00.

6 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 7:30 I caught a cold. Cool and rainy weather must have facilitated it. Morning spent talking with my house owner K S N Raju and Venkatapati Raju sitting in the portion of the prior. K S N Raju knows a lot about the residential plots of land in Tuni and Payakaraopeta areas. Went to Tuni railway station by 1:30 on my scooty. Rajahmundry-Visakhapatnam passenger train arrived by 2:15. My uncle Chanti Babu took it from Durgada Gate. Brought him to our abode by 2:15. He wants to buy a plot of residential land in this locality for his son Hari. K S N Raju has a few plots beside NH-16 in temple town Annavaram. They have all provisions and permissions according to VUDA norms. My uncle did not like to buy one in this place on my advice. Kakarlapudi Narasimha Raju is our familiar real estate agent in this area. He showed, my uncle, a plot, measuring 180 square yards, in Devi Nagar area. My uncle liked it. The rate of a square yard is 2,600 rupees here. Hari has to spend about five lakh rupees to buy and get it registered in a month. My uncle decided to do it. K S N Raju, Venkatapati Raju, K N Raju, my uncle and I spent talking casually from 4:30 to 6:20. Took my uncle to Tuni railway station by 7:00 on my scooty. He takes Visakhapatnam-Kakinada passenger train for Durgada Gate by 7:20. Slept by 10:00.

7 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Pintu Singh of Sunshine International is supposed to come here with a new 1 HP motor to fit into my paper cup manufacturing machine. He should come by Link Express. I waited for his call till 11:30. Then I called up Muskan in New Delhi. She told me that Pintu would come here on the 10th of this month. This answer infuriated me. Asked her if they are trying to exhibit their intelligence before me this way. She called back within a few minutes. She said that Pintu would come here by tomorrow afternoon. They understood my seriousness. Thanked them for it. Morning Sekhar and a few familiar folks of Srijana went to Shankavaram near Kathipudi on bikes on a tour. They said that there are waterfalls to see and enjoy. It is a beautiful location. They invited us to join them. We did not join them considering the supposed arrival of Pintu by Link Express this morning. Evening my house owner K S N Raju and I went for a stroll across the empty plots of land in Devi Nagar area. We surveyed the present status and rates of these plots. Local real estate agents are increasing these rates for their percentage profits. They are earning more money than these plot owners. They are manipulative. Slept by 10:00.

8 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is my birthday today. I am entering the 37th year of my life today. I did not feel like celebrating it specially. I am dedicating it to my divine son Sisir Kiran. Went to Tuni railway station by 11:45 on my scooty. Hazrat Nizamuddin-Visakhapatnam (Link) Express arrived by 11:50. Rajesh Singh and Pintu Singh of Sunshine International got off it. They brought a new 1 HP motor from New Delhi. Brought them to my abode on my scooty. They fitted the new motor into my paper cup manufacturing machine by 1:00. They made it work. Srijana and I watched it and felt happy. They had lunch in my abode by 2:30. They wanted to go to Annavaram to see the God there. I decided to guide them. We three went to Tuni bus station by 3:30 on our scooty. Thence we took a bus for Annavaram. We reached the temple by 4:30. We had the Dharshan of Lord Veera Venkata Satya Narayana by 5:15. We bought 10 packs of Prasaadham for 120 rupees. It rained heavily for 30 minutes during this time. River Pampa is beautiful with a lot of water in it. The hills around it turned misty and mesmerizing during this time. It was a spectacular scenic beauty across temple view area. Lord Krishna decided and delighted me in this fashion. We three returned home by 7:00. Srijana prepared cheese for the guests. We all spent talking casually for one hour. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Rajesh Singh and Pintu Singh got ready by 6:30. Rajesh Singh took a copy of my book Stories of Love and Beauty to read. He gave 500 rupees for Anand asking me to buy something for him. I don’t like guests giving money for children. They expect something always from others after getting into this habit. Took Rajesh and Pintu to Tuni railway station by 6:55 on my scooty. They bought two tickets for Tadepalli Gudem station. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:45. They got into a general coach of it. They have got a paper cup machine repair assignment there. Tomorrow they take a train at Eluru station for New Delhi. By 11:00 my uncle Chanti Babu and the father-in-law of my cousin Hari came to our abode from Durgada and Pillavani Palem respectively. They want to buy a good residential plot of land in Tuni area for Hari and Padma. K S N Raju, Venkatapati Raju, these two folks and I checked some sites in Seshadri Nagar and Sri Nagar (house construction did not take place yet) colonies near Tuni. Ravi Raju is one of the managing partners of these residential layouts. We know him for long. He is an honest and reliable person. We found these sites and facilities good. My uncle and the other left for their homes by 6:00. Today it was cool and pleasant. I enjoyed it. Slept by 10:30.

10 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana performed worship to Lord Krishna and Lord Ganesh by 10:30 beside our paper cup making machine in the rented building of K Surya Narayana by NH-16. It is like a formal inauguration ceremony for us. Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju and Anand were our guests. We made paper cups on it from 10:35 to 11:00. Power cut occurred by this time. Again Srijana and I worked on it from 12:30 to 3:30. We could make 3,000 paper cups. Meanwhile the machine stopped working due to some problem in it. Datla Bangarraju, who is also called Anvesh, came here by 5:00, along with two familiar mechanics, from his workshop in Tuni. They repaired this machine by 7:00. We felt relieved. Srijana packed 100 paper cups into a polythene cover. Thus we packed 3,000 paper cups into 30 covers today. Srijana did this counting and packing work well. Venkatapati Raju helped us a little in the afternoon. Afternoon Anand slept on a sofa here when Srijana and I were working. I pray Lord Krishna to enable us to work well on this machine every day. I am financially very low now. I have to come out of this debt trap depending on this venture of self-employment. High level of visual concentration and patience are necessary for this work. Today it was cool and pleasant. Slept by 10:00.

11 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 11:00, Mantena Jagannadha Raju, the paternal uncle of Srijana, came here from our nearby village Penugollu Darmavaram. He brought his eldest sister Lakshmi and brother-in-law Datla Narasimha Raju along with him. Now they are living in village Kasireddi Palem. They are the parents of my primary school classmate Datla Srinivasa Raju. They came here to see us. We all spent talking for some time. Lakshmi and her husband took a bus by 1:00 for Narsipatnam. Jagannadha Raju spent with us for one hour when we were making paper cups on our machine. Today we worked on it for one hour only in the afternoon. We stopped working on it after observing that it turned slow. Engine oil is leaking from the pulley. We asked Sekhar to send a mechanic to repair this machine. He sent one by 4:00. He checked the oil holder and said that a new oil seal should be fitted there. He advised us to continue working on it for the time being. Srijana and I felt disturbed about the poor functioning of this machine and the related delay in making paper cups. Srijana, Jagannadha Raju, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Shirdi Sai” in cinema Sri Ramakrishna Chitra Mandir from 6:30 to 8:45. It is a great feature film. The acting of Akkineni Nagarjuna, his look, story, music, songs and dialogues are classic. Slept by 10:30.

12 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took Jagannadha Raju to Tuni bus station by 6:00 on my scooty. He wants to go to Annavaram to have the Dharshan of Lord Satya Narayana. Thence he goes to Gollalagunta. He takes out an agricultural loan from a bank pledging his paddy farm there. It is a subsidy crop loan meant for peasant farmers in this crop season. Many farmers are utilizing this loan facility provided by the state government. Today Srijana and I worked on the machine for about seven hours and made about 7,000 paper cups. I carefully put the square shaped sheets of paper between the two dyes. Srijana pulled the paper cups out, counted them and tied them after putting them in polythene covers. She worked more than me. It is a dangerous work. The two hot dyes press our fingers if we don’t concentrate our eyes on them every second. We should be very careful while working on it. Today Anand felt bored sitting near our machine throughout the day. He wants a lot of space and children of his age to play and enjoy his time. I am disturbed about him in this regard. Today Srijana worked a lot along with me. A sensitive admirer of beauty should not subject his innocent and tender beauty to such long and hard physical work. I am doing it now as a shameless fellow. It is the moral responsibility of every husband to love and look after his wife. I am writing about virtues but getting into vice helplessly. Went to sleep by 9:30.

13 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana and I started working on our paper cup machine by 8:40. My cousin Hari came to this place by 10:30 from Visakhapatnam. His actual name is Gottumukkala Appala Raju. Recently my father took him to a doctor in Visakhapatnam believing that the affected leg and hand of the latter can be treated and cured there. We told him that it is impossible. My father and mother believe in the words of their uneducated and ignorant friends and relatives. They like sweet lies more than logic and bitter truths. Hari spent with us for two hours. Now we don’t get time even to talk with our guests. Every second is important in the manufacturing process of paper cups. If we make four cups, we get one rupee from the folks of Sunshine International. When we are suffering without money for our survival, we need to get ready to do anything. Many innocent and helpless Indians are in this state of life now. They look like underdogs to other privileged people in India. Now I am one of them. Took Hari to Tuni bus station by 1:30 on my scooty. He takes a bus for Jaggampeta. Today Srijana and I made about 6,000 paper cups working on the machine for about six hours. Engine oil leaked from the pulley even today. It worked slowly. Slept by 9:30.

14 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father and my brother Sambha came here by 7:30 from Peda Gummuluru on the bike of the latter. My father brought five Punaasa mango fruit for us. Sambha brought a kilo dried up prawn for us. They add them in some curries for special flavour in this region. They bought these two items in the weekly market at Nakkapalli this morning. They saw the paper cups made by us till now. My father said that it involves difficult and hard physical work every day. They want to see me doing some good job, which does not involve much hard work like this. My father criticized this pursuit of involving Srijana in this outdoor physical work. I have to look for some daily labourer to do her part of work. They may ask for 100 rupees, at least, for every day. I cannot afford it now. Srijana is doing this physical work more efficiently than me. My father and brother watched us working on this machine for 15 minutes. They started back to Peda Gummuluru by 9:30. Today Srijana and I made 6,000 paper cups on this machine. The upper dye did not function well in the afternoon. It did not cut the square shaped sheets of paper into round cups well. Srijana did more manual work due to it. We could not repair it on our own. Engine oil did not stop leaking at pulley. We made 24,000 paper cups till today. Went to sleep by 9:00.

15 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana and I made 1,000 paper cups only on the machine. Engine oil is leaking from the pulley. Srijana went to Tuni by 10:00 to buy a new 40 20 7 oil seal. She could get one after going to 10 hardware item stores. She bought it for 20 rupees. A nearby lorry mechanic removed the old oil seal from the pulley and fitted the new one into it. Then we operated the machine and checked if the oil is still leaking from it. The upper dye is not cutting paper cup material well on a right corner of it. These two problems could not be rectified. We did not feel like working on it today. My brother Sambha and one of his familiar fellows came here by 10:30. He brought a loan application form of an agricultural cooperative society. He is applying for a subsidy crop loan on behalf of me. I signed this application form wherever necessary. Also gave my family photo to him. Recently the folks of civil supplies asked for it to issue new white ration card for us with our photo on it. Srijana, Anand and I started to Viswanadhapuram by 4:30 on our scooty and reached there by 5:00. Spent talking with Alluru Satya Narayana Raju from 5:10 to 7:10. He told me about doing farming in 50 acres of land. I like it. Went to sleep by 9:30.

16 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I started back to Payakaraopeta by 8:30 on our scooty. Srijana packed some vegetables, coconuts and fruits for our domestic consumption. We reached home by 9:00. Today Srijana and I repaired our machine and made it function well. Today we made 2,000 paper cups only on it. Alluru Satya Narayana Raju, his daughter Anupama and Alluru Lakshmi Narasimha Raju came here by 11:30 from Viswanadhapuram to see our paper cup machine and how it is working. I showed them this manufacturing and packing process. A S N Raju advised me to consider the option of local marketing of these paper cups for better profit from this venture. We talked about all the aspects of this self-employment venture. They spent with us till 4:30. This afternoon D S N Raju also came to see this machine. Srijana proposed the idea of going to see a Telugu film this evening. Surya Kumari, her sons Bharat Varma and Bhargav Varma, Srijana, Anand and I reached cinema Gautham in Payakaraopeta by 6:15 on our scooty. We saw the Telugu film “Life is Beautiful” in it from 6:45 to 9:45. It is a series of events and relationships in the lives of some poor and rich people living in a township at Hyderabad. One does not feel strong emotions while watching this film. Sekhar Kammula portrayed the nature of ordinary life in this film. We enjoyed watching it. Slept by 10:30.

17 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana and I made about 4,000 paper cups on our machine in the morning and afternoon. Power cut occurred by 3:00. We waited for more than one hour but it was not restored. Morning a daughter of Bhooloka Lakshmi came to our place of work to see how we are working on it. Lakshmi must be 55. She has been working as a domestic in the house of K S N Raju for the last 10 years or so. She has five daughters. She rears a flock of sheep also for their livelihood. Earlier I told her that I am looking for an assistant to work with me on my paper cup machine every day. I said I would pay 2,000 rupees per month for this work. She sent her widow daughter for this job. I explained her the long working hours and the danger involved in this work. She is not suitable for this job. She has two children. She has to take care of them every day. She is working as a domestic in some houses here. One has to work nine to ten hours every day along with me on this machine. There are no fixed holidays. Work cannot be done without electricity during times of power cut. Remuneration is nominal. I discouraged her from joining this job. She said she would bring one of her cousins for this work. Only poor, helpless and innocent folks can do hard work of this order. There are many such people in India now. Slept by 9:30.

18 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Morning Srijana and I made 200 paper cups only on machine. Srijana got headache. She could not work along with me. Morning a Reliance Communications executive called me up from Hyderabad and told me to pay my outstanding postpaid bill amount of money related to the last two months. Recently they terminated my outgoing call facility as a disciplinary action against me. Today this executive cautioned me saying that they would send a legal notice to me. I told her to do it. They don’t have my present address on record with them. They have my old Kshatriya Seva Samithi Hostel address of DD Colony in Hyderabad. They can get my present address through careful online search. I know how to respond to a legal notice. Most of Indian lawyers and judges are corrupt and unethical rogues. They interpret existing laws made by old blokes decades ago. I discuss such values and laws believed and practiced by ideal human beings for centuries. I will be delighted if these shallow folks give me an opportunity to deal with them legally. Superficial blokes like Anil Ambani can achieve nothing fighting with me through words of formality and legality but frustration and tension. Srijana, Anand and I reached Viswanadhapuram by 6:07 on our scooty. Spent talking with Sai Rama Raju and his daughter Mamata in their house from 7:30 to 9:30. Went to sleep by 10:30.

19 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is Vinayaka Chavithi today. I too had a bath and wore a fresh set of clothes by 7:30. Srijana and her maternal grandmother started making arrangements for this special Ganesh worship from yesterday evening. They collected different kinds of leaves, fruits and other related items for this purpose. Morning Revati prepared a few dishes to offer to Lord Ganesh. Lakshmi Bharathi, her husband Jagannadha Raju, Sekhar, Revati, their sons Aditya Varma and Ashish Varma, Srijana and Anand participated in this worship from 8:30 to 9:30. I too sat beside them for a little time. I took video of this collective worship for a few minutes with my Sony digital camera. Lord Ganesh looked beautiful with all His favourite items on and around Him. I have been staying away from formal worship for long. I see Indian culture in celebration of these festivals and such formal occasions. They struggle for satisfaction and happiness through celebration of these social, cultural and religious ceremonies. They make their lives colourful, vivacious and interesting this way. It is a regular universal drama. All players play some roles to make it appealing. I enjoyed the devotion and dedication of these people in celebrating this festival. Srijana read out the related Ganesh story in some houses here. I returned to Devi Nagar by 4:37 on my scooty. Slept by 9:30.

20 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Deepak Varma brought Srijana and Anand to our rented abode by 9:45 on a bike from Viswanadhapuram. Today Srijana and I made about 2,500 paper cups on our machine. The polythene covers, in each of which we pack 100 paper cups, came to an end. Today all shops were closed in this region due to the nationwide strike observed by many political parties protesting the policies and measures taken by the Congress led coalition government at the centre. It is an illegal and immoral strike organized by some lunatics and sinners in this nation. Opposition parties made the practice of strikes into a dirty game to scare governments in power. I appreciate if some of these leaders, related to opposition parties, commit suicides, to bring a positive change in India. They are blocking national highways, railway tracks, bus stations and indulging in many such stupid activities in the name of strike frequently. They are disturbing public life. They are damaging national property. Ordinary people get affected due to these strikes. Evening a boy came to our paper cup machine looking for a job. I showed him how we make paper cups on this machine. I explained terms and conditions of this casual job. I told him to think about it this night and come to work with me from tomorrow onwards. Today it was pleasant. Slept by 10:00.

21 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today the boy joined our work on paper cup machine. There was power cut from 10:00 to 2:08. Today the machine did not cut sheets of paper into cups well. I loosened the upper dye many times but we could not solve this problem. I was disappointed about it. Srijana and Anand came to this place by 5:00. Srijana did cup packing work. The boy took out paper cups from between the dyes. I inserted sheets of paper between the two dyes. Thus we worked fast till 8:00. Srijana speeded up this process of work with her active participation at the eleventh hour. We put this machine in a building bearing the signboard stating “Anjana Cement Kalyana Mandapam” beside NH-16. Now Dasari Bulli Venkata Raju of Tuni owns it. Kamu Surya Narayana rented in this building last May. Yamana Rama Krishna is his brother-in-law. He belongs to Molleru Mallavaram. These two persons like us. They make sofas in this building every day. They kindly allowed us to put our machine on a side of it. About five artisans keep working in it every day. They make sofas here and sell them to the folks of retail stores in this region. We can see the vehicles moving on NH-16 from this building. It is right beside the main road. Our rented abode is just a few steps away from this place. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

22 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana, my associate and I made 8,700 paper cups on the machine working on it for about nine hours. Even today the two dyes did not cut sheets of paper into cups well. Engine oil is leaking from the pulley. Called up Pintu Singh of Sunshine International in New Delhi by 10:30 and informed him about these two problems with the machine. He told me to take the photos of it and email them. I did so by 11:00. Thereafter there was no response from them. I regret getting into this venture of self-employment. I am in a financial crisis now. I have to do something to come out of it. Many native folks said that this paper cup machine does not cost more than 20,000 rupees considering the parts used to make it. They are charging 70,000 rupees for it. They make a profit of 50,000 rupees with sale of this machine itself. These are fraudulent business practices. About three workers should work for 10 hours continuously to make 10,000 paper cups on it. If we deduct all the expenses made for it, we don’t get much profit from it. Above all, it involves dangerous work every second. Two hot dyes keep pressing manually inserted sheets of paper into round cups. We should keep the square shaped sheets of paper perfectly between the dyes. They don’t accept disfigured and damaged cups. R P Shah is running Sunshine International in New Delhi. Slept by 9:30.

23 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Srinivas got off an Express bus at Y Junction by 10:15. Brought him to my rented abode on my scooty. He bought a few items like toilet soaps, detergent cakes, talcum powder and noodle packs at a CSD point in Visakhapatnam and brought for us. They value about 1,000 rupees. I did not give money to him for them. He knows about my present financial status. He spent talking with my house owner K S N Raju for 20 minutes. I took him to the site of my brother Sambha in Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar. Also showed him my paper cup machine and how I work on it. He took a bus for Peda Gummuluru by 11:00. Srijana proposed the idea of going to Peda Gummuluru and spending with them for a day casually. I decided not to work on our machine today. Srijana, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 11:50 on our scooty and reached there by 12:30. Srinivas spent with us till 3:20. He took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 3:30 for Visakhapatnam. Sambha and I went to our mango garden at hills by 4:45 on the bike of the prior. It has been raining well for the last one week in this locality surrounded by hills. The rock bunds, established by native workers, under the guidance of Sambha, recently, in parts of our mango garden, could block rainwater, as desired by him. Water moved into deeper layers of earth here for this reason. The farm turned green and beautiful. This scenery delighted me. Slept by 10:30.

24 September (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I started to Payakaraopeta by 8:15 on our scooty. We reached our rented abode by 9:00. Morning took Anand to a salon near our house in Peda Gummuluru and got his hair cut by our familiar barber. Anand sat like a gentleman in the chair during this time. I wondered about his discipline in my presence. By 6:45, this morning, the folks of Reliance Communications suspended the incoming call service also for my postpaid number. I used the number 93968 72652 for about seven years. They did not allow me to retain this number through Mobile Number Portability. Some folks may fail to communicate with me due to detachment of this number from me. I did not pay about 1,500 rupees to the rogues of Reliance. I told them that I would not pay this bill amount until one of them meets me and resolves my problems. They cannot resolve them. So, they suspended my service. My aversion for Reliance continues forever. I avoid buying their products and services. When we cannot remove poison from the body of a cobra, we should remain away from it. Snakes are harmful. We should not kill them nor allow them to bite us. Reliance idiots cannot provide reliable services. Now I am actively using my Airtel prepaid service number 95731 69823. My brother-in-law Vamsy got off Konark Express at Tuni railway station by 8:00. Srijana’s father sent fish, prawn, custard apples and corncobs for us from the farm near Masanpalli in Medak district. Slept by 9:30.

25 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Our second son Sisir died on this date one year ago in Hyderabad. Srijana suffered recollecting his last day with her. Material bodies cannot escape from the effects of pain and suffering. Today we did not make paper cups on the machine. We brought mechanic Prakash from Tuni to get it repaired. He changed the angle of the belt attached to the motor and pulley. The first belt got damaged due to its rotation in a wrong direction. He changed the position of the two dyes also. Still they are not cutting a little piece of paper correctly. The 1 HP motor is also not functioning well. Prakash removed it from the machine and checked it in his motor repair store in Tuni. Part of its internal wiring network melted and turned black. He said that new copper wire coil should be fitted in it removing the damaged wire. He said that idiots of Delhi make and sell low quality products to innocent blokes in parts of India, giving classified ads, stating that huge profits can be made from those ventures of self-employment. This 1 HP motor, which is heart of this machine, is also of low quality compared to other standard motors made and sold by noted private companies in India. R P Shah of Sunshine International is getting a profit of 50,000 rupees selling this machine for 70,000 rupees. His moral standards, as an entrepreneur, are low. Today Srijana and I felt frustrated and disappointed thinking about this venture. Slept by 10:00.

26 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today we did not make paper cups on our machine because there was no motor in it. Prakash repaired it and brought it to our place of work by 6:30 in the evening. He changed the condenser also. He fitted new copper wire and a switch to operate the clutch in the motor separately. This is to avoid excess burden on the motor when it starts. The machine functioned well after fitting the motor and clutch switch to it. Paid 1,200 rupees to Prakash for this repair work and material used in it. Still part of upper or lower dye is not cutting sheets of paper perfectly into cups. R P Shah of Sunshine International brought such series of woes into my life selling this low quality machine to me. Many told me about the fraudulent business principles and practices of some folks in New Delhi. I hope Sunshine International does not belong to that category of firms. My intention in getting into this venture is to earn money through hard work and honesty. We cannot live in this world if we think that everybody around us is a cheat or criminal. Afternoon my brother Sambha, my sister-in-law Kranti and their baby son Anjaneya Raju started to Sri Kalahasti from Peda Gummuluru to see Lord Shiva there. They travel by trains. Sambha often goes to this temple. He is a devotee of Lord Shiva. Today there was power cut for about six hours. Slept by 9:30.

27 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus by 9:30 and reached Adduroad Junction by 10:00. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached the office of Primary Agricultural Cooperative Society in Koruprolu. By 11:30 they gave me a crop loan of 26,800 rupees. Earlier my brother Sambha applied for it on behalf of me. He pledged the documents of part of our mango garden at hills for it. They retained 3,200 rupees from my actual loan amount of 30,000 rupees as my share. I have to clear this loan in one year’s time. This is my first loan taken out from a financial institution funded by state government. By 12:30 took 22,300 rupees from them. This is the crop loan amount of Sambha. I collected it on behalf of him. Reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 1:00. Had my lunch by 1:30. Spent talking with Daraboina Ramanamma, standing beside road, for one hour. She is a resident of Ramayyapatnam. I know her for long. She knows Lakshmi. She said that she makes Lakshmi talk to me soon over phone. I felt blissful. When I was waiting to take a bus for Payakaraopeta, at Adduroad Junction, I saw an accident on the NH-16 road near me. Rushed to the spot of it. The back of his head got split and about 300 ml of blood came out. Yet he turned conscious within minutes. Called up the folks of 108 service. They advised me to take him to the nearby hospital because they cannot reach here fast. I gave him water from my bottle to wash his face and drink. Took him to the 30-bedded government hospital near Nakkapalli by 4:00. MNO Praveen stitched the split parts together. His brother and others reached here by 5:00 from Elamanchili. Returned home by 8:00. Today Srijana made 2,600 paper cups on the machine in my absence. Slept by 10:30.

28 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana, our associate Durga and I made about 5,000 paper cups on our machine. The two dyes are not cutting a corner of the cup well. We have to manually pull and tear it off from every cup carefully. It is delaying our work. Morning my familiar fellow (in Devi Nagar) Rayapureddy Raghavendra Rao tried to repair the problem in the dyes but it could not be resolved. I felt disturbed about it. The idiots of Sunshine International don’t come here to repair it. Today Srijana sieved our brown rice for about five hours. Evening my brother-in-law Vamsy brought some vegetables and custard apples from Viswanadhapuram for us. Morning my brother Sambha, sister-in-law Kranti and their son Anjaneya Raju returned from Sri Kalahasti by Tirumala Express. The name of the boy, who got injured yesterday evening, due to an accident at Adduroad Junction, is Pilla Srinivas. He may be 24. He is an electrician and plumber. He hit the opened front door of a car on the right of it when the driver opened it to start. The driver stopped his car in the middle of the highway to take casual passengers towards Rajahmundry for a charge. This boy was going that way on his bike. The driver rushed away observing the scene of fatal accident on road caused due to him. A fellow noted down this car number soon after the accident. Police trace him and collect compensation for it from him or the owner of the car. Srinivas is a strong and brave fellow. He became conscious soon after this fatal accident. I knew that he rides bikes carelessly on busy roads also. He met with many accidents earlier also. Slept by 12:00.

29 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana, our paid associate Durga and I made 10,000 paper cups on our machine. We worked on it from 8:00 to 6:00 with short breaks in between. By 12:30 Srijana paid 1,574 rupees in the office of Manappuram Finance at Tuni towards monthly interest for the 1, 05,000 rupees, which we borrowed earlier from them. She also paid 25,000 rupees to clear part of this loan. This is the state of a writer, dreamer and idealist in India now. I can live with self-respect depending on a venture of self-employment. By 6:00, in the evening, I went to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni on my scooty. I signed some documents there. They changed my loan scheme from one monthly interest plan to another. Hereafter I have to pay 125 paise per 100 rupees as monthly interest instead of 150 paise. My present loan amount with them is 80,000 rupees. They returned two gold rings. Now there are four gold ornaments with them. This afternoon Vamsy left for Hindupuram by Prashanti Express from Tuni. Recently he got a job with Wipro Infrastructure Engineering as a machinist. Initially they pay 8,000 rupees per month. He joins their industrial unit at Hindupuram. Afternoon the mother of Pilla Srinivas talked with me over phone from Elamanchili. She thanked me for saving the life of her son soon after that fatal accident. We all owe to God. Slept by 9:30.

30 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana, Durga and I made about 7,000 paper cups on our machine. Durga is the name of a boy. He may be 14 or so. He studied up to seventh standard in a government school and quit institutional learning. He is a dropout. He said that his father pulls a transport purpose rickshaw in Tuni area. Now this boy is staying with his maternal grandmother by NH-16 road in a house near the entrance gate of local noted goddess Talupulamma (Lova). I offered to pay him 2,000 rupees per month. Srijana or I insert the 6x6 sized sheets of paper between the two dyes. He takes out the cut round paper cups. We can make 22 paper cups in a minute on this machine. This boy is still a child. I should not subject him to imposed physical labour as per the labour laws in India now. His uncle Nanaji is working as a sofa maker in the unit of Kamu Surya Narayana near us. He said that this boy becomes lazy and unproductive if he is allowed to live freely every day. He should understand the value of hard work, honesty, money and time. He does not join me if he belongs to a rich family. I don’t make paper cups if I have a lot of easy money amassed through dishonest and illegal ways. I think only innocent, helpless and sensitive people choose to earn money through honesty and hard work. Others live cheating and scaring such sheep. Struggle for existence is an inevitable pursuit for many in this world. Slept by 9:30.

1 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today our work associate Durga did not come. Srijana and I made about 3,000 paper cups only. By today we made 75,500 paper cups. Srijana, Anand and I went to Talli Pilla Hospital in Tuni by 6:00. Shanti gave birth to a female baby by 5:39 this evening. Dr C S Lakshmi performed operation to bring the baby out. Shanti is the eldest daughter of Gunturu Prasada Raju of Viswanadhapuram. We saw the little baby. About five girls carried Shanti to the second floor from the first floor after the operation. There is no facility to move a sick person on a stretcher with wheels. The present hospital is looking better than the earlier one but the state of hygiene is still low. Villagers are spitting near these rooms. They spit more than others because they smoke and chew tobacco products. Many Indians spit in trains and other public places. They treat all places like dustbins except their homes. By 6:50 we went to the rented abode of my familiar fellow Ravi Raju at Bank Colony. Earlier he told me that he would show me a way to earn money. He advised me to invest about five lakh rupees in their real estate ventures in this region to earn considerable amount of money regularly. Spent talking with them for one hour. I know Ravi for the last 30 years. We returned home by 8:40. Paid 3,500 rupees to our house owner by 8:45 towards rent for our portion for the last month. Slept by 9:30.

2 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Paid 600 rupees to our milk seller by 7:30 for the 30 days in the last month. He brings half a litre of fresh buffalo milk to our abode every morning. He is taking 20 rupees for half a litre of milk. He must be adding a little water in the milk. Majority of Indians are dishonest and immoral now. They tell lies every day. By 9:30 dropped Srijana, Anand, Bharat Varma and Bhargav Varma at an auto rickshaw stand in Tuni on my scooty. They go to Viswanadhapuram in a sharing auto rickshaw. I moved to the rented abode of Prasada Raju in Bank Colony by 9:45. Both of us started to Viswanadhapuram by 10:30 on my scooty. It rained when we were travelling on it. I enjoyed getting wet in it. Human body must be subjected to moderate effects of sun, rain and winter. Nature should soothe and heal our body. For the last few days, it has been raining well due to monsoon and cyclone. The state of Andhra Pradesh witnessed adequate rainfall in many parts of it during the last 20 days. Today it was cool, rainy and delightful. I spent in the custard apple garden of Prasada Raju from 11:45 to 1:00. Today they plucked about 400 ripe custard apples from this garden. Afternoon spent much time talking with Sai Rama Raju in his agricultural farm. Bharat and Bhargav too enjoyed their time in this hamlet. Srijana returned home by 4:30 on our scooty along with these boys. I reached home by 7:30. Went to sleep by 9:30.

3 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana and I made 8,500 paper cups on our machine. Our work associate Durga did not come today. Now there is huge demand for farm workers and other labourers. They are not working hard in farmlands. They want to work less and earn more. They like easy money. Mahatma Gandhi Rural Employment Generation Scheme made them so. They are not doing constructive and useful work as part of this scheme. They do nominal work for formality sake. They get about 120 rupees for working casually for two or three hours. Growing paddy became very difficult for peasant farmers in this scenario. They are getting losses cultivating paddy every year. My brother Srinivas has five acres of paddy farm under the irrigation area of Dhora Cheruvu near village Gollalagunta. He has been trying to sell this farmland for the last two years. Very few are interested in buying it because paddy cultivation is not a profitable venture now. My brother wants to invest that money in some sites, which are profitable from the perspective of real estate business. Everybody wants profit and money now. Tradition and culture are negligible words and pursuits for many Indians now. They do anything for money. They go to any place to earn more money. Innocent, old-fashioned and helpless people are staying back with pursuits of agriculture. Others are moving into other profitable ventures. Slept by 9:30.

4 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today we did not make paper cups on our machine. When we called up the folks of our work associate Durga, they said that he is not interested in this work. He wants to play and enjoy his childhood. Srijana is sick due to cough and cold. She said she cannot work on the machine today. It became an inevitable holiday for us. I utilized this time for another important work. Typed up the content of September from my diary of 2012 on my computer for about six hours. Enjoyed much time talking with my house owner K S N Raju. Today it was cool, rainy and pleasant. Now an international conference is going on in Hyderabad to discuss the current state of biodiversity and measures to be taken to preserve it across the world. I consider it as a useless pursuit. Now entrepreneurs and industrialists are a strong force in many parts of the world. They do anything to remain as millionaires and billionaires. Financial and social status is more important for them than ethics and standards as human beings and businessmen. There are a limited number of idealists, scientists, social activists, environmentalists and utopians, who always struggle and dream of a great and beautiful world achieved through collective human contribution. They are sensitive and visionary individuals. Hundreds of these specialists are struggling to educate and reform millions of rogues, who always think and work for their personal comforts and fancies. Idealists cannot change brutes in this age. Slept by 10:30.

5 October (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning Srijana and I made 1,000 paper cups only on the machine. Srijana felt giddy smelling the lotions being used by sofa makers beside us. We worked on it from 9:00 to 10:00 only. Srijana, Anand and I went to Andhra Bank in Tuni by 10:30 on our scooty. Srijana got 1,000 rupees deposited into the account of her paternal uncle Jagannadha Raju through online money transfer system. Her paternal grandfather Venkata Ramana Raju is staying with his younger son Jagannadha Raju now at Kandla Koya in Hyderabad. He asked each of his two sons to give him 1,000 rupees every month for his medical and other expenses. Each of them is giving 1,000 rupees to him. He has one acre of paddy farm under the irrigation area of Chembudu Cheruvu in Gollalagunta. He sells this farm if his two sons don’t look after him well. He has three daughters. He does not like to depend on them. It is the custom of sons to look after their parents in their old age in this region. Afternoon Srijana went to Tuni again to buy some items for the birthday of baby boy Anjaneya Raju tomorrow. Kranti told her to do it. Srijana and I bought a pair of clothes for this boy for 130 rupees minding his birthday. Srijana, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 6:30 on our scooty and reached there by 7:15. Sambha invited us to the birthday celebration of their son Anjaneya Raju. Spent talking with my folks for some time. Slept by 9:30.

6 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha is wearing a black set of clothes now. He is a special devotee of Lord Ayyappa now. He worships this God specially for 40 days. It is a religious practice of Hindus. Shallow and selfish Hindu priests introduced it in this part of India. These devotees go to Sabarimala in Kerala towards the end of their religious practice in this fashion for a set period of days. It is one of the evil practices of Hindu religion. Man should regulate his mind and lead a pure life to be liked and blessed by God. Hindu religion is in the supervision of a bunch of lunatics, sinners and hypocrites now. They are concentrating on their material bodies to reform themselves instead of understanding and practicing eternal spiritual knowledge. Earlier my sister-in-law Kranti promised to Lord Ayyappa that her husband Sambha would worship Him specially. Sambha is fulfilling that responsibility now. The second birthday of baby boy Anjaneya Raju took place from 6:00 to 6:30 in the evening. Srijana and Sujan prepared the setting beautifully for this occasion. They distributed pieces of cake, biscuits and chocolates to all the invitees. They offered dinner to the guests between 6:30 and 9:00. Sambha would have spent about 3,000 rupees for this birthday celebration of his son. They invited very few folks only for this function. About 60 creatures attended it. I took the video of it. There was no adequate light for the camera to record it well. Slept by 10:30.

7 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:30 my father and I started to our mango garden on my scooty. My brother Srinivas and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani started there on another bike. We four spent at the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy for 30 minutes. We spent talking with my paternal grandparents for some time. They felt happy seeing us. We four walked into our mango garden by 10:00. We checked parts of it and found that the mango trees are getting ready for their crop in the coming summer season. I deeply enjoyed the silence and magnificence of this place. I am a product of nature. It is my natural habitat. I like to live and enjoy in it. It is a setting of God. I like this stage. I want to play my destined role in it silently. I am disturbed with my state of life amid sounds of vehicles and sins of humans. We four returned home by 10:30. Srinivas, Sandhya Rani and Sujan took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 1:45 for Visakhapatnam. Saw them off. Srijana, Anand and I started back to Payakaraopeta by 5:30 on our scooty. There are many paddy farms along this road. Sun was setting in the west. It is a delightful experience to move through such scenic beauty in the evening. We went to the abode of Sekhar in Court Street by 7:00. Revathi offered me supper by 8:30. We returned home by 9:00. Winter is beautifying nature slowly. Slept by 10:30.

8 October (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today there was power cut from 10:00 to 1:00. Afternoon Srijana and I made about 5,000 paper cups on our machine working on it for five hours. Anand spent his time playing around us. Morning took my folding iron cot to a mechanic at Y Junction and got it repaired. It remained disused for long. An iron rod rusted and broke off a few months ago. It supports the weight of the cot in the middle of it. We took an iron rod to the mechanic. He fitted it to this cot through gas welding. He took 40 rupees for this work. I bought this folding iron cot at Karkhana in Secunderabad in 2008 for about 700 rupees. It is light and flexible to carry to any place. I could not buy any item for our domestic use so far. I wonder realizing this truth. Now many folks are buying many appliances to keep their house comfortable and beautiful. Others are assessing our value looking at the variety and worth of the items we are using every day. I have no passion for appliances and gadgets. I like to live in a forest or garden away from other people. There is nothing to learn from Indians now. Most of them are living doing immoral and sinful activities. They don’t change for the better. This is favourable time for criminals and sinners. They are becoming rich and influential day by day. They want more money, social status and luxuries. I am not happy in this restless and corrupt Indian society. I have to imagine heaven living in hell. Slept by 10:00.

9 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father-in-law and mother-in-law came here by 6:30. Yesterday night they took a bus in Hyderabad. They spend here for a few days. Morning Srijana, her father and I made about 1,000 paper cups on our machine. The smaller wheel, below the rod of the lower dye, is not functioning well. The machine is stopping frequently due to this problem. We decided not to work on it until Prakash repairs it. Srijana, her parents, Anand and I reached cinema Surya Mahal in Payakaraopeta by 2:00. We borrowed the bike of my house owner K S N Raju. We saw the Telugu film “Rebel” of Prabhas in it from 2:30 to 5:00. Srijana told me that the operator cut parts of this film, which last for about 15 minutes. She saw it today for the second time. Raghava Lawrence presented the role of Prabhas very powerfully in this film. I enjoyed watching every bit of this film. It is a stylish and exciting film. Anand watched it with deep interest and great excitement. He curiously waited for the scene in which Prabhas walks stylishly smoking a cigarette before the gang of villain. By 6:30 a few relatives of my sister-in-law Kranti came here to see my paper cup machine. Told them about the problems I am facing ever since I got into this venture. I discouraged them from thinking about this idea of self-employment. Slept by 10:00.

10 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 8:30 Prakash came to repair our paper cup machine. He sharpened the lower dye and smaller wheel. He left by 9:15. The smaller wheel stopped rotating on the bigger wheel within 30 minutes. We stopped working on it. Srijana felt furious about my getting into this venture. This machine is creating many problems for us. I am very disturbed and frustrated about it. Muskan of Sunshine International sent me an email stating that our agreement gets cancelled because I did not send them finished goods within 20 days after getting their raw material. This is one of the conditions mentioned in their agreement. I signed it but they did not sign and send it back to me. I felt like killing R P Shah for recruiting such a brainless girl like Muskan. She is talking about rules and regulations after sending a useless machine to me. I am struggling every day after getting this machine. I cannot burn this machine because I spent about 75,000 rupees and 100 days’ time on it so far. Muskan and R P Shah don’t understand the problems I am facing with this machine because they are in Delhi. I got into this venture to earn money and come out of my complex debt trap. R P Shah pushed me into another set of problems selling this worthless machine to me. If I don’t trust anybody in India, I cannot live anywhere in India. I cannot go to other country for livelihood as I am an unwanted person there. Went to sleep by 10:00.

11 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 9:00 Srijana, her father and I took Anand to Canossa English Medium High School. It is a few steps away from our present rented abode. We enquired the principal about the fee for Nursery. They are collecting 6,000 rupees for Nursery per academic year. Since three months lapsed by now in this academic year, she told us to pay 1,000 rupees initially towards admission fee for Anand. I filled the admission form. Srijana paid 1,000 rupees. We have to pay 3,500 rupees by the end of this February. We allowed Anand to sit in the classroom of Nursery from 9:30 to 10:15. I am not interested in educating Anand through institutional learning. Schools are like prisons for children now. Sensitive kids are being burdened with books, exams, marks, ranks and grades. I don’t like Anand struggling and suffering in this mechanical and artificial environment. Srijana is not an idealist and dreamer like me. She wants Anand to study and do great jobs unlike me. I cannot change 90% of Indians of wrong attitude into 10% Indians of right attitude. Srijana told them that she would send Anand to school regularly from the end of coming Dasara holidays. I spent in Tuni from 1:00 to 5:00 getting the two dyes and smaller wheel repaired at Veerabhadra Engineering Works unit. Prakash guided me. He fitted the dyes and smaller wheel into our machine by 6:00. I spent 650 rupees for this repair. Slept by 10:00.

12 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. My father-in-law and I started working on our paper cup machine by 6:30. He pulled cut paper cups out for some time. Srijana joined me by 7:30. Her father left this work. He took Anand to Viswanadhapuram by 10:00 on a bike. Today Srijana and I made 10,000 paper cups on the machine working on it for about 10 hours. It is laborious work. I wonder about the quality of this machine. They fitted a low quality 1 HP motor in it. They used low quality bearings in the smaller wheel of this machine. They cost about 30 rupees for them. These bearings got broken due to heavy load on this wheel during lower dye movement. Yesterday I bought two 6203 ZZ TATA STEEL bearings for 200 rupees to fit into the smaller wheel. They made this machine into a worthless piece fitting low quality items in it. R P Shah is one of the dirty rogues of India. He is making the lives of many poor, innocent and helpless Indians complex, sad and poorer. We don’t get any profit from this venture of self-employment. R P Shah is running this business depending on the poverty of Indians and corruption of Indian government. Sunshine International is one of the fraudulent firms of India. There are many such bad companies in New Delhi. I am continuing this work because I am helpless. R P Shah is a sinner and criminal. He is playing with innocent folks like me. God punishes him for his sins. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana and I made about 5,000 paper cups on the machine. By today we made 1, 07,000 paper cups on this machine. My father-in-law packed them very well with jute threads. Now we want to send this material to the folks of Sunshine International in New Delhi through VRL Logistics. I prepared a format to paste on each of these cardboard boxes. This sheet of paper carries information regarding the consignor, consignee and number of paper cups packed in each box. Others may think as if we are sending currency notes in these boxes. We packed and decorated them in that fashion. I could not have made them so without the contribution of my father-in-law and Srijana. I jumped into a muddy pond to wash my body. They enabled me to swim in it. I could assess the quality of water only after swimming in it for a few days. R P Shah got this pond dug. He invites innocent Indians to swim in it through a short classified newspaper ad, which costs about 400 rupees for him. He says that there is pure and sweet water in his large pond. If we tell him that there is filthy and harmful water in it, he allows us to go away from it. We lose one lakh rupees if we leave the pond forever out of frustration and despair. Many continue swimming in it with the hope that the dirty pond may change into a beautiful lake one day. I also bought a ticket to swim in this pond. Slept by 10:30.

14 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. A transport rickshaw puller came to our abode by 10:00 along with his vehicle of survival. He and my father-in-law put my 15 cardboard boxes on it. I told him to take this material to the office of VRL Logistics at Market Yard in Tuni. I too reached there by 10:30 on my scooty. Naidu is the operations executive in this office. He likes me. Srinivas is the proprietor of this VRL transport branch unit. My father-in-law, Srijana and Anand came here by 10:45 on a bike. Srinivas spent talking with us for about half an hour about the ventures of self-employment and risks involved in road transport service. I paid 2,300 rupees to Naidu towards transport charges for these 15 cardboard boxes to New Delhi. Each of these boxes weighs about 12 kilograms. We packed 7,500 paper cups in each of six boxes, 7,000 paper cups in each of eight boxes and 6,000 paper cups in one box. Srijana and I made each of these paper cups with a lot of hard and focused physical work. I love them. They are going to New Delhi. I cannot see them again. I cannot see who use them. I cannot see how they disappear from this world after serving their purpose. We develop deep attachments with lifeless entities also. Only living things feel happiness and sorrow. Other phenomena help us live. These paper cups and cardboard boxes went away from me today. I am hurt about their permanent detachment from me. Saw Telugu film “Brothers” in cinema Sri Rama from 2:30 to 5:00 along with my folks. It’s very interesting. Slept by 11:00.

15 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to the post office in Tuni by 10:30 and posted an envelope to Sunshine International in New Delhi through Speed Post. It cost me 39 rupees. They increased these charges from the 1st of this month. Earlier it cost me about 25 rupees only. I inserted a covering letter and consignee note in this envelope. They cannot get my paper cup material from the office of VRL Logistics at Rama Road in New Delhi without submitting this consignee note. By 12:30 Muskan of Sunshine International called me up from New Delhi. She said that their technicians won’t come here anymore to repair my paper cup machine if there is any problem with it because I got it repaired by local mechanics. I explain it with an example. Muskan gave me a meal parcel saying that she bought and brought it from a seven star hotel. I paid 1,000 rupees for it believing that she gave extraordinary food packet for me. When I opened the parcel, I found stale and tasteless food in it. I questioned her about it. She said that the food turned so because I did not know how to open and eat it. I must have asked her to send their experts to open this parcel pack. Since I did not do so, our agreement of quality got cancelled. It is my mistake. Muskan talked like an immoral bitch today. His Excellency R P Shah must have trained her so. Today Srijana, her father and I made 6,100 paper cups. Slept by 10:00.

16 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana, her father and I worked on the machine for about five hours and made 4,400 paper cups. There was power cut from 10:00 to 1:00. By today we completed making paper cups using all the raw material sent by the folks of Sunshine International till now. We made about 1, 18,000 paper cups using the five bundles of raw material sent by them. I told Santosh of Sunshine International to send me eight bundles of raw material on the 8th of September. They sent two bundles of raw material on the 1st of October to the office of VRL Logistics in Visakhapatnam instead of my desired office in Tuni. This material reached Visakhapatnam on the 11th of this month. They are thinking that somebody takes it from there. It did not happen for five days. I realized all this when I typed out this consignment number on the website of VRL Logistics and tried to track its status. Initially I talked with an executive in VRL office at Dwaraka Nagar. He said that my material was sent to their branch office in Daba Gardens. I called them up and requested them to send it back to Tuni. The rogues of Sunshine International made me into a mad dog since the day I deposited 64,000 rupees in their account in July. They don’t have discipline or standards as human beings. R P Shah trained them into dishonest and stupid scoundrels. I worried about this issue from 9:00 to 12:00. A series of furious thoughts flooded me. Slept by 12:15.

17 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 10:30 the mother and maternal grandmother of Srijana came here from Rambilli. By 12:30 her maternal uncle Sekhar and Revathi came here from Tuni. Srijana spent happily throughout the day enjoying their presence. Morning my father-in-law Rama Raju went to an agricultural farm near Narsipatnam. He is considering the option of working as a supervisor in this farm. He may quit Masanpalli area job soon. R V Rama Raju is not attending his calls. He is disturbed about such negligence from his employer. Today I edited the content of January from my diary of 2012 on my computer. Today Vatsavai Raghu Rama Raju helped me doing some minor electrical works in my rented abode and at my paper cup machine. He is a brother of Asha Bhanu. He fitted suitable plugs for the machine. He changed a fuse in the front of my abode. I could not use my computer well until this fuse was changed. I could not work much on my computer today for this reason. Raghu is a cool and good fellow. I often consult him for help in electrical works. Now he is working as an electrician with the unit of Hetero Drugs near Nakkapalli. I don’t indulge in any electrical works because power is dangerous. I change bulbs only. Morning Muskan of Sunshine International asked me to send my bank account details to her. Evening I emailed the bank account details of Srijana to her. Slept by 10:30.

18 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Edited the content of February and March in my diary of 2012 on my computer from 8:30 to 12:30. The folks of Sunshine International sent two bundles of paper cup raw material from New Delhi on the 1st of this month through VRL Logistics. This consignment reached Visakhapatnam on the 11th of this month instead of Tuni. Santosh told me that it happened so because it was the mistake of VRL folks at Rama Road in New Delhi. I asked for five bundles of raw material on 8 September. They sent two bundles only very late. I asked the VRL folks to send it to Tuni. I did not receive this material till now. These are the standards of VRL Logistics and Sunshine International. What should I do in this situation? R P Shah does not die early because he was born to torture some Indians at least through his disorderly and unethical business ventures. The idiots of VRL Logistics continue their unreliable logistics business. I have to strain and suffer silently like many civilized and cultured Indians in India now. I should not become a criminal to change a criminal. This is a land of virtues and saints. By 4:30 Srijana and her father started to Viswanadhapuram on two bikes along with the maternal grandparents of the prior. They dropped them there and returned home by 5:50. Srijana, her father, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Cameraman Gangatho Rambabu” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir from 9:30 to 12:15. It is a very interesting and insightful film. Slept by 1:00.

19 October (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day casually at home. By 5:00 my house owner K S N Raju and I started to Annavaram on my scooty. We reached there by 5:40. He showed me the residential plots of land in Devi Nagar area near NH-16. He and some of his familiar folks developed this land into residential plots about five years ago. Some of his managing partners cheated him leaving ordinary plots to him. They developed this layout of plots according to the VUDA norms. They left 40% of this land for common public facilities. There are 33-feet roads and space for parks. He got a few plots in this layout. He decided to sell them and come out of this complex situation. He wants to sell them just to get rid of them. He proposed to sell each square yard of land for 2,000 rupees. In fact, it must cost 5,000 rupees in this religiously and commercially important locality. They did not focus on beautifying these plots. Idiots and fools buy useless plots at high rates based on the manipulative words of real estate agents. Intelligent and visionary folks buy plots depending on their discretion and choice. K S N Raju is an honest and ideal person. Such idealists cannot earn much profit in real estate business. We reached bus station by 6:30. A few relatives and family members of K S N Raju are going to Srisailam from this station this night by bus. We wished them. We returned home by 7:30. Slept by 9:30.

20 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of April, May and June from my diary of 2012 on my computer. Morning my father-in-law, Srijana and Anand went to Tuni to buy cloth pieces for Anand. They bought six shirt pieces and four pant pieces for him at Vijaya Cut Pieces store spending 480 rupees. Yesterday they bought three night dresses for him for 300 rupees. I did not interfere in this matter. I simply commented about their quality and colours. Earlier my father told Srijana that there is a tailor in Peda Gummuluru, who stitches cloth pieces for children at low rates. My father-in-law, Srijana and Anand went to Peda Gummuluru by 1:00 on a bike. There the tailor asked for 500 rupees to stitch these cloth pieces for Anand. My folks struggled hard to make this tailor agree to stitch them at these charges. They returned home by 3:30. Went to the office of VRL Logistics in Tuni by 1:30. The two bundles of raw material, sent by the folks of Sunshine International, reached here today. One of these bundles got damaged partly during the road transport. Paid 200 rupees to him. A familiar transport rickshaw puller brought this material to Ganni Printers unit by 2:00 taking 50 rupees. Took my father-in-law to a private bus stop on NH-16 in Tuni by 7:30. He got into a bus of Sai Anjana Travels by 8:15. He is going to Hyderabad. The bus fare is 500 rupees. He is going there to settle matters talking with R V Rama Raju. Spent talking with K S N Raju from 8:30 to 9:50. Went to sleep by 10:30.

21 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. From 8:30 to 10:00 edited the content of July from my diary of 2012 on my computer. Srijana and I went to the rented abode of Gunturu Prasada Raju at Bank Colony in Tuni by 11:00 on my scooty. Her mother and Anand went to Viswanadhapuram in a sharing auto rickshaw by this time. By today, the female baby of Shanti, the elder daughter of Prasada Raju, reached the age of 21 days. Morning they held a religious and naming ceremony in a temple of Lord Shiva in Tuni on this occasion. I could not attend it. Afternoon they gave a lunch party on this occasion in a Satya Sai abode of music instruction in Tuni to a few invitees. Srijana and I participated in it from 12:00 to 3:00. Many relatives of Prasada Raju attended it from Viswanadhapuram. I reached this village by 3:30 along with Sai Rama Raju on his bike. Srijana and Geeta reached here by 5:00 on our scooty. Geeta is the wife of Sai Rama Raju, my dear friend. I spent in the agricultural farm of Sai Rama Raju talking with him from 4:30 to 5:30. I like his character and understanding about the contemporary Indian society. Evening there was birthday function of Dedeepya in this village. Earlier they invited us to this occasion. This function took place from 7:00 to 8:30 in the house of paternal grandparents of baby Dedeepya. It is her second birthday today. Today it is the birthday of Sekhar also. Went to sleep by 10:30.

 22 October (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:00 started to our rented abode in Payakaraopeta on the bike of Sekhar. He dropped me here by 9:30. Edited the content of August and September in my diary of 2012 from 10:30 to 1:30 on my computer. Spent talking with my house owner K S N Raju from 7:30 to 10:00. I enjoy spending and talking with him. His name is Kokkerlapati Satya Narayana Raju. He is about 63 now. His ancestral house and property are in village Bhimavarapu Kota. It is about 20 kilometres from Tuni. He often goes and spends there for some days. His mother and brother-in-law are living there. He told me about the transformation of this village during the last 30 years. The population of some communities decreased drastically against the rise of community of Scheduled Caste. He is witnessing disappearance of his familiar tradition and culture here. He had been a devoted farmer in his early days of youth. He got trained and became a physical education teacher (‘drill master’ in native jargon) on the advice of his well-wishers. He worked honestly in many government schools for about 30 years. He advised, guided and helped many of his relatives and familiar folks in different ways. He is trying to come out of those third party responsibilities slowly. He has three sons. Two of them are doing jobs in Hyderabad now. He is happy about his sons and their lives. He tells me about many things in his life when I talk with him. He is a sensitive and ideal Indian. He built his life with hard work and honesty. Slept by 10:30.

23 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Yesterday night I knew from Srijana that my mother has been suffering from diarrhea and vomiting disorder for the last three days. She became weak. Srijana and Anand returned from Viswanadhapuram by 10:30 on our scooty. She brought oranges, papayas and coconuts from there. I started to Peda Gummuluru by 12:40 by bus. I took 10 oranges, three papayas and two biscuit packs for my mother. Morning my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma came to our house from Ramayyapatnam. She and my uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada brought their daughter Sirisha to the house of their son-in-law Anantha Varma in Ramayyapatnam two days ago formally. Today my aunt nursed my mother. A doctor in Adduroad checked health condition of my mother and prescribed medicines for her. My sister-in-law Kranti and her mother Janaki did not come to see my mother. They are living in the house of my brother Sambha just opposite ours. My mother criticized Kranti a few days ago about something. She does not change on her own nor allow others to educate her. Janaki made her so. I often get infuriated about their behavior but do not express it. They cannot bear my fury. There is not even one dependable doctor in Adduroad now. I could not do anything for my mother. I regret my state of life. My parents don’t like spending their money for their health and happiness. Returned home by 6:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

24 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to Tuni railway station by 7:30 on my scooty. Kakinada-Visakhapatnam passenger train arrived by 7:35. My cousins Bala and Narendra Varma got off it. They took it this early morning at Kakinada Port station. Last Saturday Naren came to Gollalagunta on a weeklong Dasara vacation from NPTI at Neyveli in Tamil Nadu. Brought them to our abode by 7:15. We all enjoyed talking among ourselves. I took them to our paper cup machine and showed them how I work on it. They found my rented abode spacious and comfortable for us. We had lunch by 11:50. Bala, Naren and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 12:00 on my scooty. We reached there by 12:30. We spent talking with our familiar folks for one hour. We three started to our mango garden at hills by 2:30 on my scooty. We spent talking with my paternal grandparents in the thatched hut for some time. We enjoyed walking through our three parts of mango garden for 30 minutes. We took many photos with my Sony digital camera. We enjoyed this pursuit. The buyer of seasonal crop of this term got our mango garden ploughed well. It is looking clean and beautiful everywhere. I felt like sleeping under these trees feeling the sublimity of silence and hills around. We returned home by 4:30. Bala and Naren took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 5:30 for Kakinada. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy and I reached Payakaraopeta by 6:15 on my scooty. He left for Tetagunta from here. Slept by 10:00.

25 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana and Anand took an Express bus at Y Junction by 10:30 to go to Peda Gummuluru. Sent them to our house to take care of my sick mother there. Spent most of the day at home talking with K S N Raju. I write about the negative impact of Scheduled Caste community on the present Indian society in my knowledge. I give an example for it. Now a Scheduled Caste member is constructing a house at the entrance gate of Devi Nagar beside road. This land does not belong to him. It may be said to be public property. The folks of electricity issued domestic power supply connection to his abode. The plot owners, around his house, are concerned about his illegal and immoral presence here. The SC community can do anything in India now. The state and central governments authorized and empowered them to that extent. SC and ST atrocity cases are prevalent in many parts of India. Most of them are fake ones. The folks of other communities are considering SC community members like lepers in their hearts. It is better not to involve in their affairs at all. They are highly dangerous species on the soil of India. Police, lawyers and courts of law have to be in favour of them. Governments look after them from birth to death through multiple reservation systems and privileges. In course of time they turned into shameless parasites in Indian society. They want to achieve liberty, equality and respect depending on the statutes and statues of Dr B R Ambedkar and alms thrown by other castes but not hard work, honesty, intelligence, self-confidence, self-awareness and self-respect. Slept by 10:00.

26 October (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Viswanadhapuram by 12:30 on my scooty. Srijana informed me to bring her mother from Viswanadhapuram to Payakaraopeta. Had my lunch by 12:45. Spent talking with Jagannada Raju for some time. Started back to Payakaraopeta by 2:15 on my scooty along with my mother-in-law. Her mother prepared some sweets for her. She goes back to the agricultural farm near Masanpalli soon to join her husband. By 6:00 Srijana returned from Peda Gummuluru by bus along with Anand. I brought them home on my scooty from the Y Junction. My mother is recovering slowly from the weakness caused due to vomiting and diarrhea. Srijana nursed her. My mother consumed excessive ginger curry recently to get rid of phlegm. It resulted in these health disorders. Srijana said that many mosquitoes bit Anand and her last night. My parents do not wash their hands regularly as advised by doctors on many platforms. Most of Indians don’t do it. Millions of harmful bacteria and viruses live on them. Morning Anand is affected with diarrohea. He moved closely with my mother. He turned weak by this evening. His maternal grandmother offered an orange to him. He vomited it within seconds. We took him to Neocare clinic in Payakaraopeta by 7:30. Dr I N Murthy prescribed an injection, Walyte ORS and Vomigus for him. He recently opened this children’s clinic beside main road. He asked for my book Stories of Love and Beauty to read when I told him about me. We returned home by 8:00. Went to sleep by 10:45.

27 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually within Devi Nagar. Afternoon Srijana took her mother and Anand to the abodes of their familiar folks in Tuni on our scooty. They returned home by 5:00. Evening Srijana wore spectacles. She got her eyesight tested recently in a clinic. The doctor said that she has poor eyesight. He prescribed glasses for her. He advised her to use them for six months. I am a little hurt about her wearing glasses. I want to see every beauty with perfect health and happiness. Admirers of beauty are like sensitive and helpless gardeners. This world is like a beautiful garden for them. They admire all kinds of beauty. Only sensitive female beauties can respond to their sense of admiration for them. Natural beauty does not react to the words or feelings of admirers of beauty. Admirers suffer silently witnessing the phenomena of decay and destruction of beauty around them. Even today Anand remained sick, weak and dull. He is not consuming ORS easily. His tongue is in favour of sweet and spicy foods only. Spent talking with K V P Raju from 5:30 to 7:00 in his rented abode. They spent in Baroda (Vadodara) for nine days and reached this place yesterday night. His brother-in-law is working there in a company. They spent the Dasara holidays of their son Maurya Varma there. Slept by 10:00.

28 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Kolukuluri Venkatapati Raju and I started to Adduroad by 10:30 on his bike. We went to our house in Peda Gummuluru and enquired my mother about her health. She is recovering slowly from her weakness. We two reached Gurrajupeta by 11:15. We spent at his house for two hours. We had lunch here by 1:30. We went to his coconut farm by 2:00. We spent talking for one hour. Monkeys are damaging many crops in this region now. Many peasant farmers are concerned about the issue of acquisition of their fertile agricultural farms in this region by Government of India for the development of special petrochemical corridor from Kakinada to Visakhapatnam. The coastal region becomes highly polluted and congested due to this industrialization in near future. K V P Raju pulled five coconuts from a tree for my mother. We had tea in his house by 3:30. We reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 3:45. Kept the five coconuts here. Coconut water is good for sick people. It heals and energizes them. I felt happy bringing these coconuts for my mother from the coconut farm of K V P Raju. We spent talking with my parents for some time. My brother Sambha sat at a nearby tent house beside road. We spent talking with him for 30 minutes. The Sarugudu saplings, which we planted in my 2.5 acres of agricultural farm, at Kota Uratla, a few days ago, died due to excessive rainfall. Sambha is angry about the quality and productivity of this soil. We returned home by 5:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

29 October (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I am taking my mother-in-law to village Pedda Brahmadevam. By 9:40 she and I took a bus at Golla Appa Rao centre in Tuni. We got off it in Pithapuram by 11:10. Thence we took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Samarla Kota by 11:30. Bought a kilo Mysore Pak for 140 rupees at a store near the bus station. We took a Ravula Palem bound bus by 11:45 from the bus station. It started off by 12:06. We reached Pedda Brahmadevam by 12:30. Tirumalaraju Appala Raju received us. He is the husband of Venkata Ramana, the youngest paternal aunt of Srijana. He led us to his house. We walked for about five minutes after crossing the railway track. Venkata Ramana offered me lunch by 1:00 with fish soup. She felt very happy about my coming to their house for the first time. Appala Raju and I reached Pedda Brahmadevam passenger train halt by 1:45. Bought a ticket for me for 11 rupees to Tuni. Vijayawada-Visakhapatnam passenger train arrived by 2:23. Got into it and reached Tuni by 4:11. Srijana and Anand came to station to receive me. Reached home by 4:20. This morning Anand went to Canossa school. It is an auspicious day for Anand to go to this school today after Dasara vacation. Srijana decided it. He sat in Nursery section from 9:00 to 12:00. The teacher said that he cried from 11:30 onwards asking her to take him to our abode. By 9:00 my mother-in-law took Gauthami Express at Samalkot station for Secunderabad along with her cousin Srinivas of Pedda Brahmadevam. Slept by 10:00.

30 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within Devi Nagar casually. Took Anand to the Nursery section of Canossa school by 9:00. Went back by 11:50 to bring him home. I saw him lying on a rubber mat in the classroom there. The teacher said that he cried for his mother for some time. Later he slept on the mat. He felt relieved and happy after seeing me. This classroom is like a cage for him now. Some parents are admitting their kids into schools when they are three years old. I don’t like the educational system, which includes Nursery, Lower Kindergarten and Upper Kindergarten. Tender kids are being subjected to artificial lives in unhealthy environments. If parents have no time and interest to take care of their kids, teachers and schools act their roles for the sake of money. Actors cannot be parents. Anand is not going to school in the afternoon. My paper cup material reached the office of VRL Logistics in New Delhi on the 22nd of this month by 10:30 a.m. IST. The folks of Sunshine International did not collect it till now. Santosh said that the material did not reach the supposed branch office (at Rama Road) of VRL. They are trying to trace them. R P Shah must be hanged publicly for torturing people like this. He is a filthy pig. He is a shameless rogue. The folks of Ganni Printers unit did not cut paper cup raw material into square shaped pieces till today. I cannot criticize them. They are doing a favour for me doing this clumsy work. Today I searched online for opportunities to earn money. Went to sleep by 10:00.

31 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. My house owner K S N Raju and I started to Annavaram by 8:00 on his bike. Recently he sold a plot of land to a resident of Annavaram. It is in Devi Nagar layout. We reached there by 8:30. The buyer and his folks came here by 9:00. They measured their plot of land here. It was over by 10:00. We returned home by 10:30. I enjoyed this short casual tour with K S N Raju. Srijana, Anand and I went to the branch office of LIC in Tuni by 12:45. We enquired them about the details of Jeevan Ankur policy. Recently my father said that we should buy an insurance policy minding the future of Anand. These folks told us about this policy. I am not interested in it. We need not feel insecure about our future as long as we believe in God and our Karma. Insurance policies are not more powerful than these eternal forces. We saw the Telugu film “Dhenikaina Ready” in cinema Gautham from 2:30 to 5:00. It is an interesting film. We enjoyed watching it throughout. Now some Brahmin community members are protesting against the content of this film. Most of Brahmins are not practicing their essential Vedic culture in India now. They have no moral right to talk anything about their greatness as a community. They ruined Indian culture interpreting Hindu scriptures wrongly for their survival. Afternoon our familiar fellow brought our paper cup material from Ganni Printers unit in Tuni on our advice. Morning Anand spent in Canossa school for three hours. Slept by 9:30.

1 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today Srijana and I made 7,200 paper cups on our machine working on it for about seven hours in the morning and afternoon. Till now, the folks of Sunshine International did not locate the presence of my paper cup consignment, which reached New Delhi on the 22nd of last month. They asked me to do it on my own. It reflects their negligence as a worthless firm with a bunch of rogues. Muskan talks nonsense over phone but cannot compose a short email also perfectly. I depended on such people for my venture of self-employment. They make ordinary machines and sell them at extraordinary rates to innocent and helpless people of India. They don’t send adequate raw material in time. They don’t receive finished goods, sent by us, early. They don’t do anything perfectly. Thus they discourage us from working with them for long. This is how they cheat us. They are sinners of India, playing with the lives of poor Indians. Rich people don’t get into such risky business ventures. Evening checked the website of VRL Logistics and talked with some folks of it in New Delhi. My consignment is in their branch office at Keerthi Nagar. Informed Muskan about it. They have been playing with me since 2 July, 2012. Today Anand did not go to school. He wants his mother always. His mother is not sitting beside him in his classroom. Today it rained continually due to depression over Bay of Bengal. By 7:00 paid 3,500 rupees to our house owner towards rent for our double-bedroomed portion in ground floor for the last month. Slept by 9:30.

2 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today Srijana and I made about 7,000 paper cups on our machine in the morning and afternoon. Morning Anand spent in the school from 9:00 to 11:30. Srijana educated and persuaded him a lot before sending him to school. Today it rained due to cyclone. Now and then I watch 24-hour news channels like TV 9. They create news if they have no worthy news items for telecast. They focus a lot on quite unnecessary things also. They make ordinary news into extraordinary and sensational news at their will. I consider ETV 2 the best channel among the Telugu news television channels. Their standards are appreciable. They present facts in good version of Telugu language. I like the skills of their newsreaders and presenters. Their programs are very interesting, educative and insightful. This credit goes to Ramoji Rao. He is preparing great journalists through his journalism school at Hyderabad. I heard that many journalists are taking bribes from corrupt and unethical rogues in the society not to write and telecast about them negatively. They present villains also as heroes if they are paid well for it. Electronic and print media lost credibility now to a large extent. Television channels are sources of money and influence now for many businessmen. One can watch Sakshi television channel to know how a particular family can present itself as a unit of wonders. We can call them family band channels. Investigative journalists are the real stars of media now. I like their intelligence and strategies. Slept by 10:00.

3 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today Srijana did not like to work on the machine as she felt weak and uneasy. She and Anand went to the abode of Sekhar at Court Street in Tuni by 11:00 on our scooty. They spent there till 5:00 in the evening. Spent at home watching television. Today it rained heavily due to monsoon and cyclone. Today it is last date to use local call recharge balance on my Airtel cellphone according to a tariff plan. Srijana got it done for me a few days ago. By this morning, I have balance to talk for about two hours. Srijana inserted this SIM card in her cellphone and talked with many of her familiar creatures today. I too called up many folks and informed them about my new Airtel number. About 40 minutes of talk time balance remained by 9:00 at night. We could not utilize it. This balance talk time got terminated by 12:00 this night. We mostly desire to benefit highly from the opportunities provided by others. Profit and benefit are our choices in many things we do. Most of us don’t want to benefit from what is easily accessible and affordable for us. We neglect our neighbours and crave for celebrities. We appreciate the beauties in other families and neglect those in our houses. We travel to different temples to see various deities forgetting the God in us. We talked with many folks today to benefit much from the special offer provided by Airtel creatures. Slept by 10:00.

4 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night it rained heavily due to monsoon and depression over Bay of Bengal. My house owner K S N Raju and I started walking towards Thaandava Bridge by 8:30 to survey the areas affected by floodwater. Fresh and muddy rainwater entered some colonies in Tuni and Payakaraopeta. Water blocked roads and houses in low-lying localities. The Thaandava Canal flew touching the railway bridge near Tuni railway station. The folks of South Central Railway cancelled many trains on this route. I felt scared looking at volume and force of water flowing in Thaandava Canal. Many people occupied canal flow area over the years. We remembered the works and service of British government to India during that time. After independence to India, Indian rulers transformed many parts of India into huge dustbins. They defaced and damaged many classic achievements of British visionaries in colonial India. Afternoon also went to check the situation around the Thaandava Canal. Water flow level decreased considerably. Some government folks visited this place by 3:15 in a helicopter. They closely observed the intensity of water flow in Thaandava Canal, the affected railway bridge above this canal and the surrounding areas. Many enthusiasts watched Thaandava Canal throughout the day for its beauty and power with gigantic flow. Rainwater stagnated in all empty residential plots in Devi Nagar. It is festival of water for some and fury of flood for others. Nature can do both. Went to sleep by 9:45.

5 November (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I typed up the content of October from my diary of 2012 on my computer. I did it for about six hours. My father came to our abode by 11:30 from Peda Gummuluru. He brought the stitched clothes of Anand from there. He bought and brought a dozen yellow bananas for us. Srijana prepared sweet milk porridge for him. He came here to discuss the point of buying an insurance policy minding the future of Anand. He talked with an LIC agent in Adduroad about it. We have to pay about 24,000 rupees every year for about 15 years to get eight lakh rupees and bonus on it. I discouraged him from this idea. I don’t like such future plans, which make me accountable for years together. I may not be able to fulfill many responsibilities as an individual. I could not be a great husband to my wife till now according to her. I could not do anything for my maternal grandparents, who looked after me for five years, when I was studying at the school in Gollalagunta. I am doing nothing for my parents now. Future is uncertain. We should not do anything today depending on our imaginations, hopes and achievements to be realized tomorrow. God, Karma and nature guide the life of every creature. They are more powerful than me and insurance policies. Anand is also subject to them. I am a nominal facilitator of his life. My father started back to Peda Gummuluru by 3:00 in a sharing auto rickshaw. Slept by 10:00.

6 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. My uncle Datla Rama Raju came to our abode by 11:00. I completed editing content of October in my diary of 2012 by this time on my computer. Rama Raju is the son of my third paternal grandfather Krishna Murthy Raju. He died when I was 10 years old or so. Rama Raju is living in a village near Kakinada now with his family. He is working at a nearby shrimp development block of tanks now. He came here to check my self-employment venture. He wants to get into a venture of this kind soon to earn money instead of doing that difficult casual job. I showed him how I work on this machine and complexities I experienced in it till now. He found it as an unreliable and risky venture. By 2:45, my uncle Chanti Babu came to our abode from Durgada. Ravi Raju, who sold a plot of land to him recently, at Seshadri Nagar layout area in Tuni, advised him to take another nearby plot of land. My uncle came here to check it and decide on it. By 3:00, the maternal grandparents of Srijana came to our abode from Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw. Tomorrow, Lakshmi Bharathi goes to Palakollu along with her relatives to attend a marriage there. Jagannada Raju stays in our abode until they return from there. This arrangement is considering his dementia. Rama Raju left for the rented abode of his cousin Vani in Tuni by 5:10. K S N Raju, Chanti Babu and I checked the plots in Seshadri Nagar layout with Ravi by 5:30. Chanti Babu left for Durgada by 6:00. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

7 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. My father-in-law got off a private travel bus near Canossa School by 6:15. He came from Hyderabad to appear in the court at Tuni along with some other folks of K O Mallavaram. Earlier some folks complained that a person was killed by them. It was a fake case against them at police station in Tuni. The folks of Telugu Desam Party did it against the folks of Congress Party to retaliate during the time of election. The court dismissed this case in course of time because that person died due to excessive consumption of alcohol that day. He was a well-known drunkard. Later these folks moved to the same court through an advocate complaining that they tarnished their image in society through a false case against them. My father-in-law belongs to Congress Party. He worked actively for this political party when he lived in K O Mallavaram. Many join political parties in India to benefit from public welfare schemes and false prestige in their familiar society. My father-in-law is such a worthless fellow in this regard. We can see the worst kind of politics in villages now. They fight with others for their political parties and related egos but not sustainable development of their regions as a whole. In fact, they are blocking development of villages due to their political egos. My father-in-law brought about 100 custard apples from the agricultural farm of R V Rama Raju at Masanpalli. Today Srijana and I made 7,000 paper cups on the machine. Slept by 9:00.

8 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took Anand to Canossa School by 9:00. He felt sad when I was coming back from his classroom. His maternal grandfather bought a good schoolbag for him for 350 rupees in Hyderabad. He is carrying a slate, a box with snacks and a water bottle to school. He is possessive of his belongings in the classroom. He does not give his place on the bench or his items to others. He likes his mother taking him to school and bringing back from there every day. He is not comfortable with my attitude of discipline. He is going to school in the morning hours only. He is not interested in going to school. Srijana is somehow motivating him to that extent. Today Srijana and I made 4,000 paper cups on our machine. Her maternal grandfather and father sat beside us for some time. Anand regularly comes to this place along with us. He sits or sleeps on a mat beside us listening to the rhythmic sound of this machine. Two days ago my father-in-law sold his house in K O Mallavaram to a fellow for 3, 65,000 rupees. Today his familiar fellow asked it for four lakh rupees. He realized the actual worth of this house after knowing that there is a competitor to buy it. My father-in-law may sell it to this fellow considering the profit. He must be selling this house to clear his debts. By 7:30, he took a bus in Tuni for Hyderabad. R V Rama Raju retained him in his agricultural farm near Masanpalli. They understood each other. Went to sleep by 9:00.

9 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today Srijana and I made 5,000 paper cups on the machine. Today it is the birthday of Revathi. Srijana and I wished her on this occasion. Today Anand spent in Canossa School from 9:00 to 12:00. By 3:00, the maternal grandparents of Srijana left for Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw. From yesterday evening, the bone in my right sole started aching. I am unable to put my right foot completely on earth due to this pain. I cannot go to an orthopedist for consultation. He prescribes scanning tests, medicines and bed rest. I cannot follow these formalities now. When we don’t consult a doctor, we are doctors for ourselves. We do what we can do to get our health disorder cured. Most of ordinary Indians don’t go to a doctor for medical guidance fearing medical bills and related expenses. They allow diseases and disorders to live with them for some days. It is their way of struggle for existence. They patiently bear the effects of their illness. Indians don’t follow preventive medical care. They believe in God and Karma. They resort to doctors at the eleventh hour. They think that investment in their health is a useless pursuit and unproductive expenditure. Educated and rich Indians are more concerned about their health than poor ones. I think this is the trend now in many countries. Poor people invite death honestly, bravely and early. Death is more comfortable and blissful for them than life. Slept by 10:00.

10 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today Srijana and I made 10,000 paper cups on the machine. Anand spent his time around us. Now government employees are in the process of assessing the particulars of loss caused to lives and property of people because of the recent cyclone and flood. It is a source of income for them. If the government sanctions 100 rupees, the government representatives, at some levels of bureaucracy, take about 40 rupees from it. Even the remaining fund, meant for relief and compensation, does not reach the actual victims of natural calamity perfectly. I believe that 80% of government employees are corrupt and immoral in many parts of India. Now many Indians are accustomed to seeking pleasure from loss and destruction of others. Natural calamities are sources of money for politicians and bureaucrats. Police ask victims for money to resolve their problems. Lawyers and judges manipulate their clients. Corporate hospitals and specialist doctors exploit patients with fatal health disorders. Private schools, colleges and universities extract huge amounts of money from the parents of students. Most of Indians are trying to become rich and influential through exploiting and scaring others but not helping or guiding them. When all systems are wrong in a nation, we cannot depend on anybody expecting justice for us. Indian judiciary is one of the worst systems in India. Millions of cases are pending at various courts of India. Indians don’t depend on police and judges for justice but their invisible God. Slept by 10:00.

11 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today Srijana and I made about 7,000 paper cups on our machine from 8:30 to 2:30. By today we used all the raw material sent by the folks of Sunshine International recently. We packed 54,100 paper cups in nine cardboard boxes. We packed 7,000 paper cups in each of four boxes, 6,000 paper cups in one box, 5,100 paper cups in one box and 5,000 paper cups in each of three boxes. Pasted information sheets on each of them. Prepared a letter to give to the folks of VRL Logistics. It is a letter of statement specifying that this consignment does not contain goods with commercial value. The truck drivers of VRL Logistics show these letters to the folks of commercial tax during inspection now and then. In fact, these goods have commercial value. R P Shah is torturing about 100 persons doing this business from New Delhi. He is more intelligent than Sonia Gandhi and Manmohan Singh. He is doing much business without showing his face also to his esteemed clients. He is such a shameless royal figure living in the capital of India. Noted private business schools should benefit from his guest lectures as an honorary professor. His symbol of success is paper cup. His secret life and achievements can be a case study for pickpockets and thieves to read and inspire. Muskan writes his biography. Santosh edits it. By 5:30, I got my consignment of nine boxes ready to be sent to New Delhi. Yet we have to tie them tightly with jute threads. Went to sleep by 9:30.

12 November (Monday)

Woke up by 4:30. We kept two windows open in our master bedroom to let open air in. Winter sent cold wind in throughout the night. It caused me about 10 sneezes. I delivered them continuously one after one. I sneeze with heavy sound. I have been getting more sneezes after rhinoplasty to my nose. I think part of internal structure of my nose got affected during this surgery earlier. Little children and unfamiliar people get shocked hearing the sound of my sneezes suddenly. Srijana and Anand got accustomed to my sneezes. Srijana said that I am snoring now and then. I talk while sleeping, now and then. My father-in-law snores with heavy sound every night. Others cannot sleep around him. By 6:00, Vamsy got off a bus by NH-16 near our rented abode. He brought two items of heavy weight from Hyderabad. Brought them home. Recently he fell at a place in Hindupuram. Part of his right leg got fractured due to it. He took one month’s sick leave from Wipro Infrastructure Engineering unit here. He recently took ITI apprenticeship exam in Hyderabad. He came here to celebrate Deepavali with his familiar folks in Viswanadhapuram. He left for this hamlet by 7:30 by bus. Srijana and I packed the nine cardboard boxes with jute and nylon threads by 10:00. We booked them at the office of VRL Logistics in Tuni by 12:00. Paid 945 rupees for their dispatch to Keerthi Nagar in New Delhi. Sent the related consignment note by Speed Post. Srijana made parts of our abode clean by 3:00. Srijana, Anand and I reached Peda Gummuluru by 4:50 on our scooty. Slept by 9:00.

13 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. It is Deepavali today for Hindus. My mother and Srijana prepared special dishes by 9:30 on this occasion. They are Boorelu, Gaarelu, Pulagam and Paramaannam. They performed Kedhaareshwara Vratham by 10:30. Srijana read the related mantras and the story from the book. They wore new saris for this formal worship. My mother felt happy about our presence. Kranti performed this worship in their house by 11:00 under the guidance of a priest. My mother, Srijana, Anand and I too attended it. Spent talking with my friends Madhava and Ganga Raju from 11:00 to 1:00. Ganga Raju is working as a secondary grade teacher at the primary school in village Kaapula Vaathaada now. He said that there are 16 students in this school now. There is another teacher in this school. Ganga Raju married a girl recently in Annavaram. He married a teacher. It is love marriage. Felt happy about it. Madhava took Group II test and interview. He is likely to become a government employee soon. He is ready to offer bribe to get this lucrative job. He has to pay 10 to 25 lakhs depending on the kind of job he gets. He told me about the volume and intensity of corruption prevalent at Secretariat in Hyderabad. He started an orphanage in Visakhapatnam recently. His D.Ed. college may be started from 2014 in Visakhapatnam. He asked me to be its principal. I wondered about his respect and affection for me. He said that ordinary people cannot understand me. Night we burst crackers celebrating the spirit of Deepavali. Anand stayed away from them being scared of those sounds and smoke. Slept by 9:30.

14 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today it is Viru Mudi day for my brother Sambha. My parents, Srijana and Anand got ready early and went there. There are 12 swamis including Sambha. They assembled in the house of a familiar Kshatriya fellow in Peda Gummuluru by 6:30. I reached there by 7:30. A native Guru Swami conducted this ceremony till 11:00. Many relatives of these swamis attended this ceremony. The swamis worshipped Lord Ayyappa collectively calling His multiple names. They almost danced in this setting. My friend Viswanadha Sharma solemnized it chanting some Vedic mantras towards the end of this ceremony. Spent talking with him from 10:00 to 11:00 in this place. He told me that he got invitation from spiritual forces to become an Aghora. He has to fulfill his responsibilities as a father and husband before entering this divine sphere of earthly existence. He has to go to the temple of Kali at Ujjain to initiate himself into this high level of spiritual life under the supervision of those masters. Aghoras may appear like mad men to shallow materialists but they are equal to Lord Shiva. They can do anything at will. They can regulate the forces of nature. They don’t crave for physical beauty and material possessions. My brother and other swamis took Dhanbad-Alleppy Express at Narsipatnam Road railway station by 12:00. Saw them off with other folks. By 2:00, Srijana and I went to Etikoppaka on our scooty and bought a few wooden items (Lakka Bommalu in Telugu) spending 340 rupees. We present them to my friend Samanta Sahu on the occasion of his marriage this December. We returned to Devi Nagar by 4:30. Slept by 10:00.

15 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I took Anand to Canossa School by 9:00. He sat in Nursery section till 11:50. I brought him back. The teacher said that he cried for us during interval. He is not interested in going to school. This time our domestic electricity bill amounted to 380 rupees. They are collecting 148 rupees of it as FSA. This is fixed surcharge on the electricity consumed by somebody else that lived in this portion of house about two years ago. This FSA system is against the interests of tenants. They move from house to house frequently. If house owners don’t pay it, they have to pay it. They cannot vacate their present rented portions just due to this issue. Even house owners have to pay FSA for their respective portions. They cannot bear the burden of all their tenants. For rich people, this may not be a big issue but for poor people, it would be a burning issue. The folks of electricity department decided to collect FSA for many months to come. I have no bad habits like smoking, drinking and debauchery. I play cards or on dice desks once a year or so. What about others, who have bad habits? They spend any amount of money for their bad habits but not electricity. They think that central or state government should bear this burden also. Who can awake, educate and console them? Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Thupaaki” in cinema Surya Mahal from 2:20 to 5:20. Muruga Das made it into a wonderful film. I like his admirable skills as a film director. Slept by 9:30.

16 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to the office of VRL Logistics at Market Yard in Tuni by 10:00 on my scooty. The folks of Sunshine International booked three bundles of paper cup raw material for me at Rama Road in New Delhi. Yesterday this material reached this office. They booked it on the 8th of this month. Paid 100 rupees to Naidu towards handling charges. My familiar rickshaw puller Ramana brought these three bundles of material to unit of Ganni Printers in Post Office Street by 10:30. Paid 60 rupees to Ramana. Srijana, Anand and I reached Peda Gummuluru by 1:50 on our scooty. We came here to celebrate Naagula Chavithi with my parents. Srijana cooked Janthikalu in our house from 2:00 to 4:30. These are for our domestic consumption. My mother provided material for it. For the last one month, a few sisters of Brahma Kumari cult have been preaching about Lord Shiva in our nearby abodes. My mother and some other women are listening to their religious discourse regularly. I too attended this gathering one day. I found her speech educative, insightful and spiritual. I don’t believe that Indians change listening to religious discourses and reading scriptures. Indians like lands, gold and their children more than God. Most of Indians are superstitious and sentimental. Religion is a formality for them. There are more temples in India than schools and hospitals. Millions of Indians are into bad habits. They quarrel among themselves for trivial things also. They don’t love their country. They are unreliable blokes. I am seeing such Indians every day everywhere. Slept by 9:15.

17 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Today it is Naagula Chavithi, the Hindu day meant for the worship of snakes in anthills. My mother and Srijana prepared the necessary items for it by 7:30. My father and I started to our mango garden at hills on the bike of Satish by 8:00 along with him. Srijana, Kranti and baby boy Anjaneya Raju started on our scooty. We collected fresh cow milk and some other items from the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy. We seven creatures poured cow milk, eggs and other items into three anthills in the three sections of our mango garden from 8:30 to 9:15. Satish is living in a portion of our house as a tenant now with his wife and baby boy. He belongs to a village near Palani in Tamil Nadu. He is into micro finance business. We all returned home by 10:45. By 11:20 Muskan of Sunshine International informed me, over phone, that they deducted all money towards the remaining cost of our paper cup machine from whatever they have to pay us for the 1,07,000 paper cups we sent them last month. I got infuriated. Srijana prepared Chalividi for us by 12:00 with rice flour and jaggery. Srijana, Anand and I returned to Devi Nagar by 3:15. Srijana and Anand left for Viswanadhapuram by 3:30 on our scooty. By 3:45 emailed Muskan informing that I take appropriate civil and criminal action through a court of law against them for cheating me. Typed out a long report titled “Sunshine International – A Fraud” from 4:00 to 7:30 on my computer and posted it on my blog site by 7:45. I want to shock and treat R P Shah and his team of sinners at Sunshine International in New Delhi. Slept by 10:00.

18 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually being obsessed with serious thoughts against the folks of Sunshine International. By 9:30 informed the folks of Ganni Printers in Tuni not to cut the three bundles of paper cup material into square shaped pieces. I decided not to do paper cup making work anymore on the machine. By 10:30 sent three word files to the folks of delhiadvocates.tripod.com by email. When I searched online for free legal service firms, I got this address, as one of those first few results on Google. I emailed “Sunshine International – A Fraud”, “Letter to R P Shah” and my one-page CV to them. I wrote them that I should get 10 lakh rupees from R P Shah for the fraud he committed and the mental torture I underwent for all these days. By 4:00 my word file titled “Letter to R P Shah” got posted on my blog site virahini.blogspot.in. Yesterday night I scheduled it so. My image as an earner further got tarnished due to this issue. I underwent severe mental torture in 2002 due to M S Raju of M S R International, who promised to send me to Alaska for fish packing job. This time it is the turn of R P Shah to cheat me. One cheated me from the capital of Andhra Pradesh then and one cheated me from the capital of India now. It happened twice when I wanted to live honestly doing hard work. Yesterday and today I called up my familiar lawyer C S N Raju about 10 times. He did not receive my call. He did not call me back. He is scared of unfamiliar phone calls. He is a senior lawyer in Hyderabad. Slept by 10:00.

19 November (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today Anand spent in the school from 9:00 to 12:00. Spent all the day thinking on how to treat the chronic psychological disorders of R P Shah. He played with me from 2 July, 2012 to 17 November, 2012. I took this much time to understand the true nature of the business of Sunshine International. By 4:00 Srijana, Anand and I went to Tuni to meet a noted advocate in Bank Colony. He is a Kshatriya fellow. He was not at home. Meanwhile we came across my friend Ramanadha Raju in Court Street. He told me about another famous Kshatriya lawyer living in a house near the timber depot here. He was not at home. Then he took me to the house of his friend and young advocate Barla Ravi Kumar at Gandhi Nagar in Tuni. We spent talking about this issue of fraud from 6:00 to 7:15 in his office room. He said that we cannot do anything without agreement signed by both the parties and proof documents showing that he did not fulfill the terms and conditions laid out in agreement. He told that many such fraudulent firms keep cheating innocent people from cities like Mumbai, Kolkata and New Delhi. He explained us how his relative was cheated earlier. He said that I can treat R P Shah through the political influence of familiar central ministers like Pallam Raju. I emailed my reports to Delhi police, Secretariat of Rashtrapati Bhawan and the office of Prime Minister. It bounced when I sent them to the folks of ACB in Delhi. They have such email ids! Slept by 10:00.

20 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. My brother Sambha reached Peda Gummuluru by 9:30. Yesterday night, he took Tirumala Express in Tirupati along with his Ayyappa Swami Maala associates. Went to Ganni Printers unit at Post Office Street in Tuni by 10:00. My familiar rickshaw puller Ramana and I collected the three bundles of paper cup raw material from this unit. Ramana brought them to my abode taking 100 rupees. By 10:30 my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to my abode from Tetagunta. We spent talking for two hours. He said that I am not suitable for doing business or agriculture. I should do a job. My uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada came to Tuni by 2:00 by a passenger train. We two went to Seshadri Nagar layout in Tuni area by 2:15. Ravi Raju showed another plot of land to us. He advised us to buy this one instead of the one we decided to buy earlier. We told him that we decide on it soon. We reached my abode on my scooty by 3:00. My house owner K S N Raju, K V P Raju, Chanti Babu and I spent talking among ourselves from 3:30 to 6:00. We felt that upper caste Hindus are unable to live well due to the changes in the contemporary Indian society. The central and state governments are treating the folks of Other Castes as rich and influential ones by birth. In fact, there are many paupers and beggars from these communities, now, in India. Chanti Babu left for Durgada by 6:00 from our abode. Today I informed the folks of ICICI Bank at Janakpuri in New Delhi about the fraud of Sunshine International and to block all transactions of their current account with them. Slept by 10:00.

21 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Morning applied for some jobs online through the email ids on craigslist sections of Hyderabad, Delhi and Bengaluru. I found some suitable freelance work assignments in the writing and editing segments. Most of them are unreliable ads. When I checked the Creative segment, there are photos and contact details of some prostitutes. By 11:00 posted a comment on an online platform (http://www.complaints-india.com) about the fraudulent nature of the firm Sunshine International. There anybody can post complaints about frauds by persons and firms. Evening emailed the reports related to this fraud to my friend and well-wisher Datla Krishna Varma in Jaggampeta. I asked him to guide me in this regard. There was no reply from the folks of delhiadvocates.tripod.com or any other source to whom I complained earlier. Two online trade promotion portals removed the ad of Sunshine International from their online space within hours after my complaints to them about this firm. Sudhir, in Hyderabad, kept his cellphone switched off. I got into this business venture depending on his words because he said that he has been working well with those folks for the last eight months or so. I don’t understand what made him switch off his cellphone. I got one of my friends call up to the cellphone number of Muskan at Sunshine International to check the status at their end. She took that call and answered his questions well. He told her that he wants to buy five machines from them. She noted down his contact details. I don’t know what’s going on there. Slept by 10:00.

22 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Called up Sudhir in Hyderabad by 11:40. He said that he recently got a legal notice issued to R P Shah of Sunshine International in New Delhi demanding compensation of three lakh rupees. They did not do well with him also recently. Santosh informed him that they would resolve this issue soon in Hyderabad out of court. I felt relieved to this extent. I got an email from the folks of ICICI Bank. They asked me to complain about the current account of R P Shah at a nearby ICICI Bank branch. They often state that they are creating a world of paperless bank transactions for all. This is the value they accord to the online complaint of a writer. They must be thinking that a ghost made that online complaint to them. They can consider me as a human being only if I present myself in their bank with my tangible material body. My friend Narsaiah and I spent talking at our abode from 6:30 to 7:50. I told him about the unreliable business practices of Sunshine International with me from 2 July, 2012 to 17 November, 2012. Gave him the printouts of the two reports, in which I wrote about Sunshine International. I told him to read them to partly understand Indian society. He is an English teacher in a government high school. He does not interact with the external society much. Muskan called me up at 7:49 and 7:50. I did not receive those calls from her. She talked with Srijana from 8:03 for 31 minutes and 6 seconds. She asked for the final settlement of this issue out of court. By 9:00 I prepared a table specifying the details of investment spent by us so far for this fraudulent business venture with them and emailed it. According to this table and statement by me, they must pay me 1, 82,000 rupees to resolve this issue. Slept by 10:00.

23 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I reached Tuni railway station by 9:00 on our scooty. Srijana bought two tickets for us to Samalkot. We took Visakhapatnam-Guntur Simhadri Express by 9:02. We got off it at Samalkot station by 10:00. The relatives of Srijana took this train at Anakapalle and Elamanchili. There are about six adults and four children in this batch. We all waited for the arrival of Srinivas from village Pedda Brahmadevam. He is the son of Venkata Ramana, the youngest paternal aunt of Srijana. We all took a Ravulapalem bound ordinary bus from the bus station in Samarla Kota and got off it at Bikkavolu by 11:15. Thence we took an auto rickshaw and reached village Ranga Puram by 11:40. Sridevi is the daughter of Venkata Ramana. We came here on her invitation to attend a function. Her in-laws are ceremoniously entering their newly constructed house this night in Ranga Puram. We are all invited relatives for this occasion. Spent all the day in the company of my primary school associate Datla Srinivasa Raju (son of the eldest paternal aunt of Srijana) and Chintalapati Chiranjeevi Raju (husband of Satyavati, the second paternal aunt of Srijana). Srijana has three paternal aunts. They are living at Kasireddi Palem (Ravi Kamatam Mandal), Dharmavaram (S Rayavaram Mandal) and Pedda Brahmadevam (Samarla Kota Mandal) respectively. We three spent talking with Sagiraju Krishnam Raju, in his agricultural farm, from 3:30 to 5:50, in this village. He is cultivating coconut and cocoa in this farm. He told us about his experiences as a VRO for about 30 years and the development of his nephew Krishnam Raju (known as BJP Krishna now) in Tetagunta. I gained useful insights from his words. Slept by 10:00.

24 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 1:30. Freshened up myself by 2:00 along with my two familiar folks. We three walked to the newly constructed house of Mulakapati Padmanabha Raju and Venkata Subhadrayyamma by 2:15. They are the parents of Satish, the husband of Sridevi, a cousin of Srijana. The formal ceremony of “Gruha Pravesham” took place in this house from 1:00 to 5:00 this morning. I took the video of part of this ceremony for 10 minutes. This is the dream house of Padmanabha Raju and Satish. They must have spent about 20 lakh rupees for the construction and beautification of this house. They have about 10 acres of fertile paddy farmland, two tractors and paddy business. They buy paddy from farmers during the two crop seasons in this locality and sell those loads of paddy to a nearby paddy miller. They work hard every year as peasant farmers and paddy traders. Padmanabha Raju told me about the ideal culture of people living in this village. They trust each other and live harmoniously. There are about 50 Kshatriya families in this village now. They live with mutual love and respect. They share responsibilities during family functions. I enjoyed the convivial atmosphere in this part of the village for these few hours. We had traditional lunch in the house of Padmanabha Raju by 11:00. We took an auto rickshaw by 12:15 and reached Bikkavolu by 12:40. Thence we took a bus and reached Samarla Kota by 1:20. We all waited for Simhadri Express in this railway station from 1:30 to 3:40. Srijana, Anand and I got off it by 4:35 at Tuni. We reached our rented abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 4:47 on our scooty. Slept by 10:00.

25 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. My father came to our abode by 10:00 from Peda Gummuluru. He spent with us till 1:00. He felt happy knowing that the folks of Sunshine International agreed to pay compensation to us for the loss incurred by us due to their unreliable business venture with us. Muskan told us that they would resolve this issue by 10 December, 2012. I sent an email to her from the id of Srijana. She stopped talking smartly with us after knowing that we too can do it. They should pay 1, 82,000 rupees to us to get rid of this problem. R P Shah and Santosh make Muskan talk with their clients about critical issues like this. She talks irrationally and illogically. My father advised me to live in a portion of our house in Peda Gummuluru instead of in this rented abode paying 3,500 rupees every month as rent. Srijana liked this idea. Everybody started considering me as an inefficient earner and helpless fellow. My history has been so from August 2002 to November 2012. They don’t believe that I can become a great earner in future. My father-in-law is deeply disturbed about his getting his daughter Srijana married to me in 2008. They think that I am a foolish and stupid fellow. Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Dhamarukam” in cinema Gautham from 6:22 to 9:00. We enjoyed watching this film. It is not an extraordinary film as my platonic friend Akkineni Nagarjuna thinks about it. They could not sustain burning anxiety in viewers from scene to scene. They should have focused on Lord Shiva more, avoiding duets. Slept by 10:00.

26 November (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. My brother Sambha and my mother came to our abode by 10:30 on a bike along with baby boy Anjaneya Raju. They spent here till 3:30. We brought Anand back from the school by 11:00. He is crying every day to go to school. I am not happy about it. Anand and Anjaneya Raju played well in our abode. My father sent 10,000 rupees with Sambha. I asked him for it. It is the money of Anand. My father made it depending on the money Anand got as gifts on his birthday and otherwise earlier. I am using it for my inevitable expenses now. I have to repay it to my father soon. Sambha and I have to think and decide on what I should do for my survival now. We two went to Tuni by 2:15 on his bike. He got a hook and a new rear tyre fitted to his bike by a mechanic there. I bought a folding cot cloth at a cloth store in Tuni for 200 rupees. This is for use in our house at Peda Gummuluru. My mother is concerned about my financial condition now. She advised me to vacate this rented abode and come to our house in Peda Gummuluru to stay there. Thus I can save 3,500 rupees every month. I refused to do so. They left for Peda Gummuluru by 3:35. Recently I got about three calls from two fellows in New Delhi. They must be the legal associates of an advocate representing Reliance Communications at a court of law. Reliance folks took this legal action against me as I did not pay them bill earlier. He told me about consequences. I could partly understand his Hindi. I told him that they are wrong. I will answer them in court. Went to sleep by 10:00.

27 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home casually. Afternoon emailed the synopsis of my work “A Dreamer’s Love Story” to the folks of Unicorn Books in New Delhi. I want to check if they can publish it. Today Anand spent in Canossa School from 9:00 to 11:50. He is not interested in this pursuit. He wants to spend with his mother always. He is crying before going to school. For the last one month, I have been trying to find one to pluck the coconuts from the tree of Anasuyamma of Viswanadhapuram near the abode of K S N Raju in Devi Nagar. It is a long and thin tree. There may be about 20 coconuts in this tree now suitable to be plucked and used. They may cost about 100 rupees in the open market now. Evening talked with Rambabu about it. He got a small plot of land beside NH-16 near the high tension electric structure of NTPC. He is growing plants here. He can climb coconut trees. I asked him to pluck the coconuts this evening. He said he cannot do it today. He is very busy forming a fence around his land with wooden and bamboo sticks. I enjoyed watching his hard work here for 10 minutes. This small plot of land is very precious and important for him. I knew that a monkey can pluck coconuts from about 500 trees in Kerala. They are trained monkeys. They must be rendering great service to coconut farmers in Kerala. The farmers of Andhra Pradesh also need such trained monkeys to pluck coconuts in their farms. Srijana, Anand and I reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 7:30. Slept by 10:00.

28 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. It is Kaartheeka Pournami today. Srijana came here to worship Lord Shiva traditionally along with my mother. They took holy bath with cold water in the early morning. They worshipped Lord Shiva by 6:30 in our house. Then they went to temple of Lord Shiva near the pond in Peda Gummuluru. Many devotees worshipped Lord Shiva in this temple under the supervision of a priest. My brother Sambha and I started to our mango garden at hills by 8:00 on his bike. We spent talking with our paternal uncle Narayana Murthy Raju for one hour sitting under the big tamarind tree before their thatched hut. They strongly advised me to join Sri Prakash College in Payakaraopeta as an English faculty member for my livelihood. I have no money to start a business. I already failed in a business venture. Every business involves risk. Educated and sensitive folks should depend on jobs only to earn money and live comfortably in the present complex society of exploitation and manipulation. They educated me more than necessary. We spent in our mango garden for 20 minutes. We spent in the agricultural farm of our familiar Kshatriya fellow Rama Raju, here, for one hour. He is cultivating coconut, guava, sapodilla, mango, cashew and some seasonal crops in this farm. It is a land of six acres. He belongs to village Koruprolu. We returned home by 12:30. Had my lunch. Srijana and Anand got ready by 1:00. We three took a bus at Adduroad by 1:20 and reached our rented abode at Devi Nagar by 2:00. Paid 1,070 rupees in the office of Manappuram Finance at Tuni by 4:00 towards interest for 80,000 rupees for 32 days. From 6:30 to 7:00, Srijana worshipped Lord Shiva in our abode formally. Slept by 10:00.

29 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. My uncle Datla Rama Raju came to our abode by 9:00 from Peda Gummuluru. He came there yesterday from Golla Palem near Kakinada to see his familiar folks. He is the son of my younger paternal grandfather Krishna Murthy Raju. Now he is working at a shrimp development point near Golla Palem. He is getting 6,000 rupees from this job every month. It involves hard physical work every day. He and his folks are living in a house constructed by his in-laws. They have no much respect for him because his earning potential is low and he did not inherit any assets from his parents. He grew up in poverty as a child. His father died when he was about 15. His mother is leading a poor and helpless life in village Gurrajupeta now. He wants to come to this place and do something for his survival. He wants to keep up his self-respect this way going away from the house of his in-laws at Golla Palem. We had lunch by 1:00. We took a truck and reached Tetagunta by 2:30. We spent talking with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy till 3:15. Then he left for Golla Palem. My uncle took me to his mango farm by 4:00. We went there on two bicycles. He got this farmland ploughed and leveled to beautify it. I enjoyed this ambience. I saw his residential plot of land by 5:15. He wants to build a house in this place soon. He brought me to the NH-16 by 5:40 on his bicycle. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Devi Nagar by 6:30. It’s cold due to winter. Went to sleep by 9:30.

30 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Two days ago, our familiar fellow, plucked 22 coconuts from the tree of Anasuyamma. Today another fellow removed the skin of these coconuts for me. He is using part of the plot of land of Anasuyamma as his buffalo shed now. I am thinking and working to pull and process these coconuts not to leave them in the tree. I don’t get any profit from this venture. Many peasant farmers are leading such lives in our state now. They cannot leave their agricultural farms empty, worrying about their profit from the cultivation of different crops. Srijana, Anand and I saw Telugu film “Krishnam Vandhe Jagadhgurum” in cinema Sai Mahal from 2:30 to 5:00. We enjoyed watching this film. However, the director failed to portray the power of God or rich tradition of Telugu drama in this film. Great Telugu lyricist Sirivennela Sita Rama Sastri wrote a long Telugu song depicting Dhashaavathaaraas of God for this film. This song is not presented well in this film. The director blended points of coal mine mafia, media, God and Telugu drama in this film and made it into a cocktail. He did not focus on any one element perfectly. There is difference between a casual party and traditional worship of God. The duets made it into a casual party. Jagarlamudi Radha Krishna gave a sublime title to this film but its content could not represent the beauty and divinity of those transcendental words. Spent talking with my friend Narsaiah from 6:30 to 8:30 at our abode. His real name is Majji Shiva Kumar. Enjoyed talking with him. Slept by 10:00.

1 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Paid 3,500 rupees to my house owner by 8:00 towards rent for the last month. Srijana paid 480 rupees to our milk seller by 8:10 for the 12 litres of buffalo milk we bought from him for 24 days in the last month. Today I typed up the content of November from my diary of 2012 on my computer. I did it for about six hours in the morning, afternoon and night. Now there is scheduled power cut in this locality from 9:00 to 12:00 and 3:00 to 6:00 every day. Went to the office of Kshatriya Seva Samithi at Bank Colony in Tuni by 11:30 on my scooty. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy joined me at the government hospital here. He came from Tetagunta for this function. Today they are holding a formal lunch and general body meeting in this place. They invited all the local Kshatriya folks to this annual event. General body meeting took place till 1:30. They elected new members for the committee. They distributed philanthropic fund to some poor Kshatriya students, women and men on this occasion. Felt sad knowing about the financial status of this Samithi and many Kshatriyas in this region. Had lunch by 1:40. Returned home by 2:00. Today the folks of Sunshine International collected my second and last consignment of paper cups from the office of VRL Logistics at Keerti Nagar in New Delhi. I got an email alert from VRL system to this extent. My in-laws left the agricultural farm of Rudraraju Venkata Rama Raju by Nizam Sagar at Masanpalli by 9:00 this morning. They quit it. Today Srijana prepared special snacks for Anand with the assistance of Surya Kumari. Slept by 10:30.

2 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:40. Srijana, Anand and I got ready by 7:00. We reached the rented abode of Sekhar at Court Street by 7:15 on our scooty. Thence we moved to Babu Enclave apartment block in a nearby colony in Tuni. Today a few Kshatriya folks are going to Dhaara Matham for pleasure. Sekhar is one of those organizers of this event. He invited us to this casual and collective community celebration. They arranged a small van also to go to this place. Many used their cars and bikes for this journey. I sat in the van along with eight children. This minivan driver and owner is Chitturi Laxman of Payakaraopeta. We started here by 8:30. We reached Dhaara Matham by 11:00 travelling via Kota Nanduru, Narsipatnam and Golugonda. There is a temple of Umaadhaara Malleswara Smami here. Brooks of cold water and hills make this place beautiful and captivating. There are no human habitations in this place. I saw some folks dabbling in the brooks on rocks near this temple. Our creatures chose the nearby teak plantation for their celebration here. Men formed into three groups and played cards. Women played some games and awarded small gifts among themselves. Children celebrated their time playing some games and drenching themselves in the brook. I enjoyed this time watching these creatures. Lunch took place from 1:30 to 2:45. They brought food and snacks from Narsipatnam. The state government may develop this place into a tourist point. This scenic beauty delighted me. I could not see this beauty much being a fellow in a team of 60 creatures. We started back by 5:05 and reached Tuni by 7:30. We reached our abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 7:50 on our scooty. Slept by 9:30.

3 December (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Edited the content of November in my diary of 2012 from 7:30 to 8:45 on my computer. Srijana, Anand and I started to Peda Gummuluru by 9:30 on our scooty. We gave the 22 coconuts to my parents. We got them from the tree of Anasuyamma in Devi Nagar. We got the pants of Anand tightened by a tailor in this village. Srijana bought a pair of shoes and socks for Anand in Style footwear store in Adduroad by 11:00 spending 120 rupees. These are Vintex Sports shoes of Junior collection in white and blue colour. Anand felt happy wearing this pair of shoes for the first time. We had lunch in our house by 12:00. We returned to Devi Nagar by 12:30. Srijana brought my cousin Sirisha from Tuni railway station by 2:15. She bought a dress for her baby Shiva Sahithi in Tuni minding her third birthday tomorrow. Anand and Sahithi played well. Sirisha and Sahithi left for Durgada by 6:00. Srijana packed my first book, a wooden pen, a little wooden box, two little wooden birds and a wooden clock for my friend Samanta Sahu by 7:00. These are my gifts for him on the occasion of his marriage. We packed our clothes and other items into two bags. Today Santosh of Sunshine International talked with me twice over phone. He tried to argue and prove that they did not do anything wrong. I don’t like hypocrites talking with me about virtues. Even Muskan talked smartly with Srijana. She is a professional liar. Emailed them stating that I proceed legally against them if they don’t pay me 1, 82,000 rupees on or before 10 December, 2012, demanding 10 lakh rupees as compensation. Slept by 10:00.

4 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Anand and I got ready by 11:30. Srijana packed rotis, curry, lemon water, water, browned groundnuts and sweet oranges for us to have in the train journey. We three took a sharing auto rickshaw, along with our two bags, by 11:50 and reached Tuni railway station by 12:05. Bought two Express tickets for 66 rupees to Visakhapatnam. We kept waiting on platform 2 for our train. Many monkeys are there in this station. They are moving across tracks looking for food items. Passengers are scared of their presence and tricks. Alappuzha-Dhanbad Express arrived by 1:15. We got into S-5 coach of it. This train reached Visakhapatnam by 3:15. Our reserved berths are 3 and 4 in this sleeper coach from Visakhapatnam to Rayagada. This train started off by 3:35. We reached Rayagada station by 7:00 travelling via Simhachalam, Kotha Valasa, Vizianagaram, Bobbili and Parvati Puram. I did not travel this route, beyond Visakhapatnam, earlier, by train. Even Srijana did not travel this way. Enjoyed seeing the scenery in this region. We three had rotis in sleeper class waiting hall from 7:10 to 7:40 in Rayagada station. We sat in this place till 8:15. Then we moved to the chairs on platform 1. Koraput-Rourkela Express arrived by 9:15 on platform 1. Our reserved berths are 44 and 45 in the sleeper coach S-2 of this train from Rayagada to Bargarh Road. About six girls had their berths around ours. They were talking in Odiya. I felt like a shy moon among a few little stars of Odisha. Some of them are considerable beauties. Their beauty and behavior impressed me throughout. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

5 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 1:50. Srijana alerted me to check the coming station. Cold wind and snow were there around the train. We three got off Koraput-Rourkela Express at Bargarh Road railway station by 2:20. It was all cold around. We allowed Anand to rest on an iron bench near Exit point covering him with two blankets. We observed two pigeons cooing above our heads. I felt happy visualizing their long association with this station. Sanjay Sahu and his cousin came to this station by 5:00 in a big Mahindra vehicle to take us. We reached hotel Maha Raja near government bus station in Bargarh by 5:15. We got into room 1027 in the third floor of this hotel by 5:20. We had four potato parotas by 11:30 for our brunch. We tried to sleep in this room from 12:00 to 2:00. We reached the house of my friend Samanta Sahu (we two lived together in room 106 of Men’s Hostel ‘A’ in the University of Hyderabad as roommates during 2000-2002) in village Kurla by 4:40 in a vehicle arranged by them. We gave our set of small gifts to Samanta Sahu by 5:30. He looked handsome in his wedding suit. Marriage related procession took place in Kurla from 6:30 to 7:30. Srijana, Anand and I too moved among them enjoying that music and dance. We reached hotel Maa in Bargarh by 8:00. We had snacks here. The procession of bridegroom party took place from here up to the house of bride between 9:00 and 9:30. We had dinner by 10:00 in decorated space near the house of Panchanan Pradhan in Subhash Nagar. He is father of Rojalin, the bride of the occasion. The marriage ceremony of Samanta Sahu and Rojalin was started by 10:00 by a priest in the house of bride. I sat at this place watching it.

6 December (Thursday)

The traditional marriage ceremony of Samanta Sahu and Rojalin was over by 3:20. We reached hotel Maha Raja in Bargarh by 3:40. We rested for some time and got up by 7:15. We vacated this hotel by 9:30. We took the rickshaw of Manboth and reached a bus stop by 9:40. Paid him 20 rupees. We took a private bus by 9:45. Its registration number is OR 17 J 6263. It started off by 9:55. The bus fare is 35 rupees for one to Sambalpur. We reached this place by 11:10. We got into another private bus here by 11:12 to go to Jharsuguda. Its registration number is OR 23 C 9681. It started off by 11:30. Enjoyed watching the people and scenery in this region sitting by a window. We reached bus stand in Jharsuguda by 12:40. My cousin Sagiraju Srinivasa Raju (Vasu) came here to receive us. He and his colleague Ajay Kumar Sharma bought a TATA INDIGO CS white car in October 2010 to make some money renting it out. Now there is no demand for this car in this Vedanta firm to carry company officials from place to place on hire. We got into this vehicle by 12:43. Its registration number is OR 23 D 6524. Vasu drove it into the nearby Vedanta firm. He is the first one to own and drive a car from the families related to my paternal and maternal grandparents. I felt happy sitting in this car being driven by my cousin. Srijana and Anand too enjoyed this experience. We had lunch by 1:30 in bachelor stay abodes of Vasu and his friends in the Vedanta Township. We saw the temple, children’s play areas and swimming pools in this township from 2:00 to 4:00. It is a beautiful township. Night Srijana, Vasu and I played cards for some time for pleasure. We slept by 10:45.

7 December (Friday)

Woke up by 7:00. Srijana, Anand, my cousin Vasu and I moved out of Vedanta Township by 9:00 in car. We had breakfast in Radha Krishna sweet store in Jharsuguda by 9:30. Vasu collected the latest insurance papers of their car from an agent here by 10:15. We moved to Hirakud Reservoir by 11:30. We took some photos with my Sony digital camera at Sason Canal. By 12:30 we stopped at administrative office of this project and saw the beauty of this place. I wondered looking at the vast expanse of this project and its service to the people of Odisha through irrigation, power generation and protection from floods. We started to Kurla by 12:40 via Hirakud. We had rotis in Bikash Dhaba beside NH-6 by 1:40. We reached the house of Samanta Sahu in Kurla by 2:00. Srijana and Anand went into their house to spend with their familiar female creatures. Vasu and I walked to see the agricultural farms, temples, ponds and people of this village. Took some photos of it with my digital camera. The reception of the day was started by 6:00. They organized a dance and song party on this occasion at their house. Samanta Sahu and Rojalin sat in two decorated chairs in the venue of dinner near the house of the prior. Their friends, relatives and well-wishers greeted them. Photographers and videographers captured these moments with cameras. We had dinner by 8:00. Basanta, a cousin of Samanta Sahu, decorated Srijana like a north Indian girl, applying her sari in that fashion. Srijana looked gorgeous. We watched dance for 20 minutes. We started back by 8:30 in car. We reached Vedanta Township by 12:00. Slept by 12:20.

8 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 7:00. Today we spent all the day within Vedanta Township in Jharsuguda. My cousin Vasu, Srijana and I played cards for some time to spend our time. The bet was 10 rupees for each game. Morning Srijana washed our clothes in the washing machine of Vasu and his roommates. They are living in rooms 203 and 204 of SO block of apartments and room 202 of SN block now. There are two power generation units of Vedanta firm near this township. Coal is being transported to these units every day in trucks and wagons. Black dust particles are defacing the beauty of this township to some extent. The residents of this township are enjoying many facilities now. They have continuous power supply to their residences and offices. Srijana and I did not buy anything in Sambalpur, Bargarh or Jharsuguda because our financial condition is very low now. The mother of my friend Samanta Sahu presented a Sambalpuri sari for Srijana, a pant piece and a shirt piece for me, a pant and shirt for Anand and some festive sweets for us. We are grateful to their affection, respect and care for us during this time. Vasu, Srijana, Anand, a roommate of Vasu and I reached Jharsuguda railway station by 8:40 in the car of the prior. Ajay Kumar Sharma took this car back. Dhanbad-Alappuzha Express arrived by 9:30. Vasu, Srijana, Anand and I got into sleeper coach S-2 of it. Our reservation is from Sambalpur station. A special squad fellow collected 328 rupees from Vasu in fine. Slept by 10:30.

9 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:00. Our train was at Rayagada station by this time. This train reached Visakhapatnam by 9:30. My cousin Vasu went to ticket counter and bought tickets for us. He bought a ticket for him to Samalkot and for Srijana and me for Tuni. We decided to travel in the same reservation coach up to our destinations with general tickets. I consider TTEs and squad teams of Indian Railways as filthy rogues of India. TTEs take bribes and sell unreserved berths and seats to intelligent and educated passengers. Ordinary and illiterate passengers run to general compartments fearing the attitudes of many TTEs and rules of Indian Railways. Squad members fine honest and helpless passengers. Many employees and worthless blokes travel in sleeper class coaches with season tickets and general tickets. Vendors and beggars move freely in every coach. TTEs have no control on them. They follow rules depending on their moods. They don’t fine groups of passengers if they are collective and aggressive. Transvestites demand money from passengers. I consider ASMs, train drivers, guards, gatemen, trackmen and signaling staff as the best employees in Indian Railways. All other staff members, including railway ministers, are worse than robbers and bitches. They exploit passengers or the system of Indian Railways directly or indirectly. Srijana, Anand and I got off this train at Tuni railway station by 1:10 and reached our abode by 1:37. By 10:30, my father-in-law got off a truck on NH-16 near our rented abode. He brought some of their belongings from Hyderabad in this truck of his familiar Kshatriya fellow. Went to sleep by 11:00.

10 December (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 7:30, Srijana talked with her cousin Alluru Suresh Kumar Raju in Hyderabad. She asked him to talk with a fellow of SPACES Degree College about my job. He did it immediately. He told us to meet Kosireddy Veer Raju, the principal of this college. Srijana and I met this principal in this college by 11:00. SPACES Degree College is part of Sri Prakash Educational Institutions. This college is beside NH-16 in Payakaraopeta, a few metres away from our present rented abode in Devi Nagar. Veer Raju was a classmate of Suresh at school once. I told Veer Raju that I am looking for an opportunity to work as an English lecturer in this degree college. He told me to email my CV to him for consideration. He said that I may be considered for this position for the coming academic year. By 1:30, emailed my CV to him and also gave a hard copy of it to him in his office. My parents, brothers, relatives and well-wishers want to see me as an English lecturer in some college because it does not involve investment and risk. I started my endeavor in this direction. Srijana, her father and her relatives are happy about my decision in this regard. Our familiar circle of people, circumstances and contemporary social trends decide and direct our lives mostly. By 7:30, my father-in-law brought my mother-in-law from Tuni railway station on my scooty. Srijana’s mother, her maternal grandparents and Vamsy got off Janmabhoomi Express by 6:30 at Tuni. Morning they took it in Hyderabad. My in-laws stay here for some days. Went to sleep by 10:00.

11 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually. Today Srijana gave the Sambalpuri sari to her mother. She said that this sari is not suitable for her to wear. I gave my shirt and pant pieces to a tailor in Payakaraopeta for stitching. We should not present the gifts, given by our beloved ones, to others. Gifts are tokens of love and respect. I enjoyed my short stay in Odisha recently. There are differences between their culture and ours in Andhra Pradesh. I heard the mantras, uttered by their priest, during the marriage ceremony of my friend Samanta Sahu and Rojalin. I did not find their mantras inspiring and sublime. They sounded like ordinary words. Their practices of marriage ceremony are impressive. An old man blew a conch during their marriage ceremony. I found that sound more divine and traditional than the sound of drums in our region. Their women are prostrating before their familiar elders to express their sense of respect and devotion for them. Their elders are not reacting to them in the same manner of tradition. I did not like it. I did not get pure curd in their dinners. They are consuming more sweets than us. I found their houses different from ours. I saw some folks playing cards in the premises of white temple in Kurla. Many creatures do it in our state also. I believe that every Indian has one or the other bad habit. We can understand the concept of ‘unity in diversity’ of India from this perspective better. I saw very little of India till now. I should see many places and people as a dreamer. Slept by 10:00.

12 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to Tuni railway station by 6:45 on my scooty. My uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada got off Kakinada-Visakhapatnam passenger train by 7:12. Brought him to my rented abode by 7:20. His brother-in-law Vatsavai Rama Chandra Raju reached Golla Appa Rao Centre in Tuni by 11:30. He came from Pillavani Palem. My uncle and I went there by 11:45 on my scooty. Meanwhile our familiar real estate fellow Ravi Raju joined us. We four proceeded to Seshadri Nagar layout near Tuni by 12:00. Ravi Raju measured the plot 6 in his layout (survey number 223) here for our personal observation of it and related satisfaction. These folks are buying this plot of land for my cousin Hari and Padma. Its measurements are 50x33. They are buying each square yard of this land for 3,650 rupees from them. By 12:40 we four went to the rented abode of Ravi at Bank Colony in Tuni. The father-in-law of Hari gave two lakh rupees to Ravi. Earlier my uncle gave him one lakh rupees towards partial payment for this land. They pay the remaining amount of money soon to Ravi and go for its registration. The father of Padma is contributing about three lakh rupees for buying this plot. We three came to our abode by 1:30. We had lunch. By 2:15, the father of Padma took a bus for Narsipatnam. By 3:30, Sekhar, his father Jagannadha Raju and my father-in-law left for Visakhapatnam by Simhadri Express train from Tuni. The memory of Jagannadha Raju is decreasing day by day. They took him there for diagnosis and consultation. Spent talking with my uncle Chanti Babu from 3:00 to 6:00. He told me about the power of truth, honesty and standards in human life. He left for Durgada by 6:20 from our abode. Slept by 10:00.

13 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. The folks of Sunshine International refused to pay compensation to me. Santosh argued with me trying to prove that I am the wrongdoer in this issue. I dealt with them peacefully till now. I will deal with them illegally, immorally and cruelly hereafter. The Secretariat of Rashtrapati Bhavan, the office of Prime Minister and the Delhi police did not do anything worthwhile for me in this regard so far. They are sinners of India. I should not depend on them anymore. I am very angry about the idiots of Sunshine International and corrupt bodies of the Government of India. Today I spent all the day feeling fury against those associated with Sunshine International. I felt like killing Muskan, R P Shah and Santosh for the frauds they are committing and the mental torture they are causing me. Went to the rented abode of K V P Raju by 1:30. He joined Chitturi Agro and Lactating Foods Pvt. Ltd. about 20 days ago as a bulk milk dispatch and cash collection executive. They are paying him 5,500 rupees a month as salary for this casual job. I spent with him till 6:00 checking his Madhura milk sale points and cash collection process. From 6:30 to 8:45 Sri Rama Raju and I saw the Telugu film “Dhevaraaya” in cinema Sri Rama Krishna Chitra Mandir. Srikanth played his role well. Some obscene dialogues, two unnecessary songs and Chakri damaged the beauty of this film. The second part is better than the first one. Afternoon Anand suffered a minor injury on his face because of hitting our Divan cot. Slept by 10:00.

14 December (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Got ready by 11:30 to go to Gollalagunta. Started from my rented abode by 11:38. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Golla Appa Rao Centre in Tuni by 12:10. Took a Rajahmundry bound ordinary bus. It started off by 12:12. The bus fare to Jaggampeta is 38 rupees. Got off it by 1:56 at bus stand in Jaggampeta. Waited for my cousin Vasu. He reached here by 2:28 from Rajahmundry. Both of us went to the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju in Teachers Colony by 2:35 on the bike of Vasu. We spent talking with my aunt Subba Lakshmi for some time. My uncle came to his abode by 3:15. We spent talking with him till 5:00. I told him about my recent bitter experiences with the rogues of Sunshine International. He advised me not to believe in the promises made by others through classified ads in dailies. Most of them are frauds. We also discussed the current state of politics in India, corruption in all systems of governments and anarchy in this nation. He remarked that citizens are doing the work of governments and governments are doing the work of citizens now in India. It is a risky sphere of people and rulers wherein both the sections struggle to cheat the other and benefit somehow. Both are selfish and cruel in this game. Vasu and I reached Gollalagunta by 5:20. By 6:30 all these folks assembled at the house of my maternal aunt Raja Kumari. I distributed biscuits and butter candies to them casually. By 7:00, this morning, my cousin Hari of Durgada, begot a baby son. Slept by 10:00.

15 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at the house of my folks in Gollalagunta. I have special love and attachment for this place and for these people because I studied here for five years in my childhood. This is like a centre of relief and relaxation for me. My brothers Srinivas and Sambha come here for particular works and occasions. They stay here for one or two days only. They are guests only in those roles but not relatives. I mostly come here with a bag. I bring a few pairs of clothes, my personal diary, and other necessary belongings to this place for a considerably long stay. Childhood memories live longer in us. In childhood, we develop our relationships and attachments with people, places and other entities out of our innocence and pure affection for them rather than our intelligence, rationality, selfishness or vision. We enjoy childhood memories because then we lived like natural humans. In course of time, we grow into intelligent, selfish and visionary creatures. We become actors and actresses. We can attract and retain such friends, relatives and well-wishers only. They tell lies. They value us based on our present physical and financial status. I am seeing many such Indians now in all regions. People are not interested in our characters but material possessions and attractions. Night my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju told me about his childhood days. He has five maternal uncles and three maternal aunts. He lived in Mukkollu, Samarla Kota and Tirupati then. I enjoyed listening to his narration about those days. Slept by 10:00.

16 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to Jaggampeta by 9:30 in an auto rickshaw. My friend Kapavarapu Venkata Raju came here by 9:40. We two met at the bus stand after 15 years. He was my classmate from 3 to 7 standards at the upper primary school in Gollalagunta. He belongs to village Marripaka. He told me about our other classmates. They are living in Gurrampalem, Gollalagunta, Kandregula and Marripaka now. Our classmate Dwarampudi Venkata Krishna Reddy came here by 10:00. He is working with Markfed at Kakinada now. Datla Krishna Varma came to Sahithi Public School by 11:00. I spent talking with him till 1:30 in his office room. I gave him the reports related to the case of Sunshine International. He said that police, lawyers, government agencies, criminals or media don’t resolve this issue. Even politicians don’t attend issues of this magnitude. They want money to do anything. A victim gets further victimized in this process. R P Shah is an experienced fraudster in New Delhi. He may not yield early to our threats and demands. Krishna Varma said that he would try to solve this problem somehow through his network of resource persons and well-wishers. Vasu and I returned to Gollalagunta by 3:00 on bike. My uncle Varma and I reached cinema Krishna Veni in Jaggampeta by 5:45 on the bike of Vasu. We saw the Telugu film “Eto Vellipoindhi Manasu” in it from 6:00 to 8:30. Nani and Samanta appeared and acted well in this film. The music of Ilayaraja is the soul of this feature film. Gautham Vasudev Menon narrated a sensitive and ordinary love story without many dramatic effects. Slept by 10:00.

17 December (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Reached Jaggampeta by 9:15 in an auto rickshaw. My friend Kapavarapu Venkata Raju already reached here from Marripaka. My uncle Datla Rama Raju also came here from Gollapalem near Kakinada. Venkata Raju has a problem. Krishna Varma talked with him and assured him of resolving that problem. My uncle is looking for a casual job. He is not comfortable with his present job. It involves hard physical work every day. I told Krishna Varma about the present situation of Rama Raju. Krishna Varma has about five acres of agricultural farm near village Ramavaram. He is looking for a supervisor to stay in this farm. By 12:30 we started to his farm near Ramavaram. He showed this farm and explained the duties to be carried out by a supervisor. Rama Raju saw this farm and the nature of work being done here by the present supervisor. He wants to talk to his in-laws, wife and children before taking a decision in this regard. We three returned to Jaggampeta by 1:30 on the bike of Krishna Varma. My cousin Vasu reached Gollalagunta Road by this time. He went to Rajahmundry this morning on his bike to take an ICWA exam. We reached Gollalagunta by 1:45. Rama Raju left for Kakinada by bus. My uncle Varma, Vasu and I went to the agricultural farm of the prior near Chembudu Cheruvu by 4:30 on foot. By 4:50 Veer Raju of SPACES Degree College informed me to meet him in his office by 9:30 tomorrow morning. Vasu dropped me at the bus stand in Jaggampeta by 6:10 on his bike. Took an Express bus and reached home by 8:15. Slept by 10:00.

18 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana and I went to Sri Prakash block of educational institutions beside NH-16 in Payakaraopeta by 9:40 on our scooty. We met Veer Raju, the principal of SPACES Degree College. He gave me a biodata form. I filled it up. Met M V V S Murthy, the senior principal of schools section of Sri Prakash educational institutions, by 10:30, in the block of admissions. He interviewed me for the position of English teacher. Also casually talked with one of their present English teachers here. She explained me the responsibilities of an English teacher here. One has to take about six classes on every working day. The salaries are from 5,000 to 12,000 rupees for these teachers. Their English resource person talked with me for 15 minutes. We kept waiting for Murthy from 11:30 to 1:00. He asked for my opinion. Told him that I am not interested in the position of an English teacher here. I want to work as an English lecturer in their SPACES Degree College. He told me that they would call me if any vacancy arises in that section in near future. Veer Raju told me that salaries for degree college lecturers are from 10,000 to 12,000 rupees per month. I should sell tea and coffee beside NH-16 or rear buffalos instead of working in such these shallow schools and worthless colleges as an English teacher or lecturer. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came to our abode by 2:00. Today he formally joined his seasonal job with Thaandava Cooperative Sugar Factory in Payakaraopeta for this sugarcane processing season. We reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 3:00. Thence went to his thatched hut in the mango garden on his bicycle. Slept by 10:00.

19 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. I enjoyed the night stay in this mango garden. By 12:30 my father and my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came here. My paternal grandparents are unable to live on their own now. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy and aunt Kumari have been taking care of them for the last three years. Narasimha Murthy and Vimala looked after them for four months only during the marriage season of Ashwini. Now it is the turn of Narasimha Murthy and Vimala to look after them. Vimala refused to look after them. She wants money, gold and assets only but not useless human beings. Now Narayana Murthy is going to the cooperative sugar factory in Payakaraopeta. My aunt Kumari cannot look after them now. Today a casual discussion took place among us on how to resolve this burning issue in our family. We considered the idea of employing a male or female associate to help them. He or she should be with them always. If sons have no time and interest to personally look after their helpless and frail parents, others may do it for money. They don’t serve them kindly and generously. My paternal grandparents earned immovable property worth about one crore rupees (its value in the present market). Now they cannot spend even 1,000 rupees without the permission and cooperation of their sons. We are kings and queens as long as we can move comfortably using our limbs. When our legs and hands stop functioning well, we turn into pitiable dependents. My brother Sambha and I came to our house in Peda Gummuluru by 4:00 on his bike. Spent my time happily with baby boy Anjaneya Raju and others here. Slept by 9:00.

20 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. My father and I started to Payakaraopeta by 10:00 in a sharing auto rickshaw from Adduroad. He is sensing a little pain in the left of his throat. He is walking a distance of four kilometres every morning for the sake of physical exercise. Winter mornings and evenings are convenient times for bacteria and viruses to play with their fellow creatures. He must have got a slight infection. We reached my rented abode at Devi Nagar by 10:40. By 1:30, my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy got off Dhanbad-Alappuzha Express at Tuni railway station. He is often commuting by trains to do his seasonal (sugarcane crushing season) job at cooperative sugar factory in Payakaraopeta. He commutes between Narsipatnam Road and Tuni. Today he asked me to accompany him to buy clothes in Tuni for him. We did not find affordable and suitable clothes for him. We went to Vijaya Cut Pieces store by 1:45. He bought two pant and two shirt pieces in this store for 660 rupees. He wears them as casual clothes while doing duty in the sugar factory. We reached my abode by 2:10 on my scooty. My father-in-law, my father and this uncle spent talking for two hours. Dropped this uncle near the sugar factory by 5:30 on my scooty. By 6:30 Srijana took my father to the ENT clinic of D Rama Krishnam Raju in Tuni near Raja Ground. He checked the throat of my father and prescribed some tablets for him. He left for Peda Gummuluru by 7:15 from Payakaraopeta. By 9:50 we unloaded some household items of my in-laws from a truck at the entrance gate of Devi Nagar beside NH-16. It is a truck of our familiar Kshatriya fellow. They brought these items from Hyderabad. Slept by 11:00.

21 December (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana, her mother and Anand took a bus near sugar factory in Payakaraopeta by 7:30 for D Yerra Varam. Srijana’s paternal grandfather Venkata Ramana Raju and I started to this place by 8:00 on my scooty. We reached village D Yerra Varam by 9:10. My father-in-law quit his casual job in the agricultural farm of Rudraraju Venkata Rama Raju near Nizam Sagar a few weeks ago. He joined another agricultural farm here as a supervisor. It is about 45 acres of farmland near hamlet Marripalem. The owner of this farmland is D S N Raju. He rented in the upper portion of a house in D Yerra Varam for my in-laws. They live in this portion until the new house is constructed in the agricultural farm of D S N Raju. They pay 8,000 rupees to my father-in-law a month as salary. By 10:40, Srijana and her mother boiled milk and entered their new abode of living formally. By 10:45, my father-in-law and I went to the agricultural farm of D S N Raju on my scooty via Thaandava Junction, Papampeta and Marripalem. Now they are leveling, designing and improving this farmland for teak plantation. D S N Raju and his younger son are here now. We spent in this farmland till 1:30. This location is beautiful and soothing. We returned to D Yerra Varam on my scooty by 1:45. Srijana and her mother arranged household items in the rented portion systematically by 4:30. Srijana, Anand and I started to Payakaraopeta by 4:40 on our scooty. We travelled via Kota Nanduru and Gandi and reached home by 5:45. Went to sleep by 10:00.

22 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana and I decided to go to the abode of my brother Srinivas in Visakhapatnam by 7:30. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy called me up by 8:00 and informed me about a matter we discussed recently. He said that the folks of a prospective bride, for my cousin Vasu, are going to the house of my maternal aunt Raja Kumari in Gollalagunta, tomorrow morning, to initiate talks in this regard. I have to contribute to the related arrangements to some extent. Withdrew from the idea of going to Visakhapatnam due to this reason. Srijana got disappointed about it. Went to a nearby Internet café in Payakaraopeta and got the matrimonial profile of Vasu printed out on three pages. Each page can be given to one party of prospective bride. I prepared it earlier for my cousin Vasu. Thence went to Sai Surya Digital Colour Lab and Studio in Tuni and got 10 photos of Vasu printed out. Took a Rajahmundry bound Express bus in Tuni Bus Depot by 2:52 and reached Jaggampeta by 4:20. I brought 30 kilos of wheat grains for my cousin Anantha Lakshmi along with me. Recently Srijana bought them from the civil supplies ration depot at China Boddepalli for 300 rupees. Anantha Lakshmi gave me 300 rupees earlier for it. Today I delivered this promised material to my cousin. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju came to bus stand by 5:30. He bought five apples and some other items for the prospective bride party, which comes tomorrow morning to their house formally. We reached Gollalagunta by 6:00 on bike. Night we discussed formalities to be followed tomorrow while talking with the prospective bride party agents. Slept by 10:00.

23 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:50. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy called me up by 4:54 and told me that the prospective bride party folks are not coming to Gollalagunta today as decided earlier. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju and aunt Raja Kumari got disappointed about it. By 12:00 this uncle dropped me at the house of Datla Krishna Varma in Gurrampalem on his bike. Krishna Varma and I reached Sahithi Public School in Jaggampeta by 12:15 in his HYUNDAI i20 white car. His friend and dentist Sai Krishna joined us by 12:30. We three started to Kakinada by 1:20 in this car. Sai Krishna drove it. They dropped me near the old bus stand in Kakinada by 2:00. My uncle Datla Rama Raju came here by 2:10 from Gollapalem. We two went to the house of Datla Rama Krishnam Raju near dairy farm by 2:40. I know him and his four elder brothers since my school days in Gollalagunta. He is managing about 25 long trucks now. We two spent talking with him till 5:00. My cousin Bala took us two to his rented abode at Venkat Nagar by 5:20 on his Honda Shine bike. Rama Raju had his dinner by 6:30 here and left for his abode at Gollapalem. Bala bought this bike recently. We two went to Sri Kalyani Book Centre at Bhanugudi Junction by 8:00 on his bike. I bought an Eagle 2013 diary for 139 rupees for me and another Eagle diary for 50 rupees for Srijana in this store. Mine is Tourist Guide version and hers is an Olive diary. Spent talking with Bala, his father Satya Narayana Raju and his mother Rajeshwari till 9:30. Slept by 10:30.

24 December (Monday)

Woke up by 3:00. Last night I could sleep for about three hours only. Kolukuluri Satya Narayana Raju, the father of Bala (Krishnam Raju) and I started walking to Kakinada Town railway station by 3:30. We bought two tickets for Tuni by 4:00. Kakinada-Visakhapatnam passenger arrived by 4:38. We got into it. I spotted a cute girl in our coach. She may be four years old. She is with her mother. I took this baby into my lap, sitting on a window seat. I enjoyed her presence up to my destination. She said that her name is Guduri Raaga Vaanishree. Put my visiting card in her sweater and wrote my cellphone number on her two palms, asking her to call me later. Got off this train at Tuni by 7:17. Bala is living in the first floor of the house numbered 2-60-A/5 at Venkat Nagar in Kakinada now as a tenant with his mother. His father K S N Raju goes there frequently from Tuni to see them. He left for Deccan Fine Chemicals unit at Kesavaram. Srijana and Anand came to railway station on our scooty to receive me. We reached home by 7:30. My friend Pericharla Sri Rama Raju and I saw the Hindi film “Thalaash” in cinema Sri Srinivasa from 11:00 to 1:30. It is an interesting, insightful and emotive film throughout. It portrays the predicament of prostitutes in India, blending the elements of ghosts (souls of dead persons) and communication of souls after death through mediators. I found Reema Kagti as an admirable artist watching this film. The story is narrated attractively with poignant dialogues and moving music. Highly educated, cultured and sensitive Indians can enjoy watching it more than ordinary viewers. By 5:00 brought my paper cup machine to my rented abode from the nearby building beside NH-16. Now it turned into an unwanted burden for them and me. Slept by 10:00 for my dreams.

25 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day casually at home. Spent with my friend K V P Raju from 3:00 to 5:00. Went along with him to the inner places of Payakaraopeta and Tuni. He collects money from Madhura milk pack buyers every evening as part of his present casual job. I enjoyed my time observing his job work. Today Christians celebrated Christmas in this region. Christianity entered every part of India. I don’t like going to churches and reading the Bible to prove that I am an idealist and secular fellow. I am happy with Lord Krishna and His compassion for me. I have nothing to learn from scriptures and religions. I know about me. Even Lord Krishna knows about me more than me. If I have to blame many Christians for what they are doing in India now, I have to blame many Hindus and Muslims also. Religions are not misleading people but religious fanatics are damaging the original systems and spirit of religions. Many are practicing their religions according to their convenience and comfort levels but not as per the original dictates of those faiths. There are cheats, criminals and sinners in all religions. There are idealists, thinkers and virtuous achievers in all religions. I think we should grow as humanitarians and individuals before reforming ourselves according to our religions. God knows about our true characters and deeds but most of us don’t know about the true existence and power of God. We are committing sins every day. Slept by 10:00.

26 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. From 9:30 to 10:30, Srijana took some photos of me and Anand with our Sony digital camera in our rented abode. From 2:30 to 5:00 Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Gaja Raju” in cinema Gautham. Enjoyed watching this film throughout. Prabhu Solomon directed the original Tamil version of this film. They shot most of this feature film in beautiful hilly and countryside locations. It is an interesting love story. Lakshmi Menon looked and acted well. Her tribal look, innocent face and modest acting skills impressed me. The director narrated a simple love story, with a few characters, capturing the inspiring beauty of forests and tribal life. I give 80 marks for 100 for this film. By 5:45 my friend Sri Rama Raju invited me to come to see a film. I readily accept such invitations. I like to see 300 feature films every year. Films are creative wonders of admirable artists and talented professionals. From 6:30 to 8:50 saw the Telugu film “Saarochchaaru” in cinema Sai Mahal along with this friend. Parasu Ram directed this feature film well. Ravi Teja and Kajal Agarwal looked and performed beautifully. Parasu Ram portrayed and discussed the concepts of love, human relationships and marriage in this film very well. He visualized some trends of present Indian society. Dialogues, music, songs, dance, locations, fights and narration are good in this film. I give 90 marks for 100 for this film. It’s a visual wonder. From 9:30 to 10:30 uploaded some of my photos into my blog site. Morning Srijana shot them. I like them. Went to sleep by 10:50.

27 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to the rented abode of my friend K V P Raju by 1:00. Spent talking with him till 2:30. Then we went into Tuni and Payakaraopeta to collect money from bulk Madhura milk buyers. We returned home by 6:30. It’s a local pleasure tour for me. I have time. I am finding ways to spend it. The prospective bride party of my cousin Vasu did not come to talk with his parents as decided earlier. They are not interested in my cousin. His present salary is 30,000 rupees with the Vedanta firm at Jharsuguda. Their old house and two residential plots of land may value about 20 lakh rupees now. The parents of this girl did not find these financial aspects of my cousin attractive. This girl completed standard 10. Her father is a truck driver. They have no considerable assets. They are looking for a boy with more salary and family assets than my cousin Vasu. They have no passion for the look and character of a boy but his overall worth as a financial entity. I pity the psychology of most of parents of girls in Andhra Pradesh now. They are thinking like intelligent traders but not appreciable individuals. They must realize that happiness is more important in married life than comforts and assets. We cannot earn and retain comforts and assets always to maintain a particular status only in our familiar society. If we have good habits and appreciable character, we can maintain happiness always. A girl should not desire to live like a prostitute with more comforts and assets but a woman practicing virtues. Slept by 10:00.

28 December (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually. Morning called up my brother Sambha and told him about my present financial condition. Earlier my parents and brothers advised me to join some school or college as an English teacher or lecturer. I did not like to do it knowing about the treatment of private school managements towards teachers. They pay low salaries and burden them with unbearable work. All graduates and postgraduates cannot get government jobs. Many join private educational institutions for the sake of survival. They live like helpless parasites and shameless beggars in private schools and colleges. I saw the lives of many such victims. I did not like to become one of such teachers. My parents and teachers don’t understand me from this perspective. My brothers consider me as a nut because I am not following their advice. My financial condition deteriorated day by day this year. Srijana, my parents, and my father-in-law funded my life this year spending about one lakh rupees directly or indirectly. The folks of Sunshine International further hurt my life with their fraudulent business activities. People have no time and interest to listen to the stories of victims and failures. Governments have no time to regulate fraudsters and scams because they are running their governments depending on them. I want money to live. Still I could not decide how to earn money honestly. Evening sent an email to my friend Kalyana Varma asking him to lend me 10,000 rupees. I like him as a good fellow. I rely on him. Slept by 10:00.

29 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night I could sleep for about four hours only. Srijana kept coughing for two hours. She neglected taking medicines continuously and properly to get rid of it. By 8:30 Srijana and Anand started to village D Yerra Varam on our scooty. She left Anand with her parents there. She took her paternal grandfather Venkata Ramana Raju to village Dharmavaram near Adduroad on our scooty from there. Her second paternal aunt Satyavati and uncle Chiranjeevi are living there. Ramana Raju wants to stay there for some days. Srijana returned to our abode at Devi Nagar by 3:15 on our scooty. Typed up the content of December, from 1 to 28, from my diary of 2012, on my computer. Did it from 6:00 to 9:00 in the morning and from 12:00 to 3:00 in the afternoon. Now the scheduled power cut timings in this region are from 9:00 to 12:00 in the morning and from 3:00 to 6:00 in the afternoon. By 5:00 reached Thaandava cooperative sugar factory in Payakaraopeta. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy is working at the sugarcane weighing machine in this factory now, where trucks and tractors are weighed with their loads of sugarcane before getting unloaded. I chewed two sugarcanes standing in the dusty environment here. By 6:05 this uncle and I took a truck on NH-16 and got off it at Yerra Varam Junction by 7:00. Thence we took a bus up to Eleswaram bus depot. Thence we walked to a nearby junction and took a sharing auto rickshaw bound to Adda Theegala. We got off it at the house of Datla Rama Raju in hamlet Parimi Tadika. We had supper by 9:30.

30 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Datla Rama Raju is our distant relative. Today they are holding a function at their house in hamlet Parimi Tadika. It is a half sari wearing occasion of their granddaughter. They invited many of their relatives to this traditional function. I came here on their invitation. This function took place from 10:00 to 12:00. About 100 creatures attended it. I had lunch by 11:00 among many familiar folks. My brother Srinivas and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani too attended this function. I could see many of my relatives due to this occasion. My uncle Narayana Murthy and I took an ordinary bus by 1:00 and reached Eleswaram by 1:30. Thence we took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached NH-16 at Yerra Varam Junction by 1:45. Thence we took a truck and reached Payakaraopeta by 2:45. Reached my abode by 3:00. My brother Sambha called me up by 3:29 and told me to come to the temporary abode of my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy in Tetagunta along with Narayana Murthy. We two took a truck and reached this place by 4:00. My youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy, my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju and Sambha were here. We all assembled here to discuss a burning issue. Vimala, the wife of Narasimha Murthy, is scolding my paternal grandparents because they are staying here now. This uncle has to take his old and frail parents away from this abode now to get rid of her daily verbal abuse. Where to take them? How to look after them? We discussed it till 7:00 and left this place for our respective destinations. Sambha dropped me near my rented abode in Devi Nagar by 7:30 on his way back to Peda Gummuluru along with my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju. Went to sleep by 10:00.

31 December (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. My uncle Chanti Babu came to our abode by 8:00 from Durgada. Srijana and Anand came here by 8:30 from Viswanadhapuram on our scooty. She brought vegetables, fruits and sugarcanes from there for us. My uncle and I saw some residential plots of land in Tuni from 10:00 to 11:00 moving on the bike of a real estate agent. My uncle wants to buy a plot in Tuni area for his son-in-law Anantha Varma also. We went to the rented abode of Ravi Raju at Bank Colony in Tuni by 11:30. My uncle paid  2,13,000 rupees to him towards the cost of plot 6 in survey number 223 in Seshadri Nagar layout near Tuni for 183.33 square yards. The cost of each square yard is 3,650 rupees. Yet my uncle has to pay 56,000 rupees to Ravi for this plot. This plot of land was registered in the name of Pakalapati Venkata  Surya Satya Narayana Raju (my cousin Hari of Durgada, the son of this uncle) by 4:50 in the office of Sub Registrar at Tuni. My uncle spent 14,500 rupees for this registration. He spent at our abode from 5:00 to 6:15 and then left for Tuni railway station (to go to Durgada). From 7:00 to 9:00, typed up the content of December, from 29 to 30, from my diary of 2012, on my computer, and edited the content from 1 to 30 in this month. By 7:45 my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came to our abode to sleep here this night. By 4:30, this afternoon, my friend Pakalapati Kalyana Varma credited 10,000 rupees into the SBI savings account of Srijana through online transfer from his computer. All my six bank accounts must be ‘dormant’ now. Kalyan is my last savior in 2012. He is the son of the eldest paternal uncle of my cousin Hari of Durgada. Now he is with CISCO at Banjara Hills in Hyderabad as Business Development Manager. Srijana and Surya Kumari beautified the road in the front of our abode from 9:00 to 10:30 with colorful designs, welcoming 2013. I too stayed awake.                                                     
              
© 2013 Datla Chiranjeevi Raju    

4 comments:

Marutrao said...

Even in Satara municipality once the authorities once killed dogs and threw them in dustbins and in gutters.

Datla Chiranjeevi Raju said...

Dear Marut Rao,

I could not understand in what context you posted this comment on my blog site. I don't remember if I wrote about ill-treatment to dogs in any part of this diary and if this is related remark from you in that context.

In case, you wanted to share this information for general awareness sake, thank you for it. I got the point.

The most loyal and reliable creatures, in this world, are being treated badly in many parts of India also now.

When there are many cruel and inhuman beings around us and when they are committing sins of this order regularly, we can feel the pain of it and regret it but cannot change the world order easily just by our choice or empathy. This is the tragedy of human life.

We know about the disorders and demerits taking place around us daily but we remain helpless in many cases.

Anonymous said...

It is pleasing to know that you too teach children. Today India needs people like you.

Datla Chiranjeevi Raju said...

Dear ...

It is difficult to address somebody when we don't know about the other person anything. I request everybody to mention your name partly at least while leaving comments here.

Sorry for sharing this general information.

I felt very happy reading this comment. School is the foundation for growth of children as morally and physically appreciable entities in future. Unfortunately, in Andhra Pradesh, there are many private and government schools, where facilities are very low and the standards of teachers are equally pathetic. What a learner learns from standard 1 to 10 mostly configures the status and progress of his latter life as an individual. When businessmen start considering little children as machines and impose a lot of work burden on them, they cannot grow into healthy and ideal human beings. There are thousands of such schools in Andhra Pradesh now.

Salaries are very low for teachers at many private schools in Andhra Pradesh. This is partly reason why many educated and intelligent candidates are remaining away from private schools in our state. The passion of parents to get their children educated at English medium schools only became a big issue in our state. Consequently, many are unable to learn their mother tongue or English well. When teachers are not capable folks, their students become dullards and useless blokes in future. This is happening in our state now rapidly. Sri Chaitanya and Narayana schools introduced a dirty culture in our state and ruined the lives of many little learners in the process.

I like teaching at schools like Rishi Valley in Madanapalli. They have many conditions to take one as a teacher. I have been an editor and writer for some years and nothing to show on my CV as a teacher. I never desired to do B.Ed. because it is a useless course in our state, as I understood it. Many do not consider others as teachers if they don't have degrees like B.Ed. and M.Ed. These systems of education often keep me away from schools and colleges. I always wanted to teach in such schools and colleges, the managements of which do not conduct written tests and demonstration classes before recruitment. Can we assess the skills and worth of a teacher in one or two hours? Let them get feedback from their students after one or two months. This is my policy but who listens.

I am unable to be a teacher for these reasons.