MY PERSONAL DIARY OF 2011

1 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:30. Many folks wished me today on the occasion of New Year’s Day. Today I felt sleepy and weak. Srijana started to the abode of her maternal aunt Madhavi at Ashok Nagar by 10:00. She will enjoy her time with her cousins there for some time. Took a bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 11:40 and reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 12:40. I scribbled 12 lines of poetry in Telugu when travelling in this bus for the birthday memento of Srijana. My friend Sriram and I spent talking at Rethifile Bus Station for 20 minutes. Gave my 2010 personal diary to him to type it up. He will do it slowly. Hired an auto rickshaw for 30 rupees and reached cinema Manju by 1:20. Got my Telugu poetry typed up and designed into an A 4 size memento by a fellow in a DTP center there near this cinema. He charged 80 rupees for it. Got two copies of it printed out on an A 3 size card at Balaji Graphics store opposite Manju for 20 rupees by 2:30. Took a bus at Rethifile and got off it near Ganesh Temple in Vanasthalipuram by 4:30. Thence walked a little and reached Venkateshwara Frames store by 4:35. Subbu decorated my piece of memento with a glass and frame in it by 5:00. He charged 110 rupees for it. This memento is to be presented to Srijana on the occasion of her birthday on the 9^th of this month. Reached my abode by 5:20. I am happy to enter 2011. I will continue my discipline and work as a person and writer in this year. Lord Krishna guides me. Went to sleep by 10:00.

2 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 11 May to 31 May on my computer. I did it for about six hours. Srijana spent at the abode of her maternal aunt Madhavi in Ashok Nagar even today. This morning my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma called me up from Durgada and told me about a prospective bride for my friend Veeranjaneyulu. Recently a fisherwoman came to their house to sell dry fish. She and my aunt exchanged casual words during this time. She has four daughters. She wants to get her eldest daughter married to a good fellow first. She is poor. She cannot search for great husbands for her daughters. My aunt remembered my friend Veeru when talking with her. Earlier I told her about my friend Veeru. He is looking for a beauty to marry. This fisherwoman told my aunt that her daughter is very fair and beautiful. I told my aunt to collect her photo from her mother and send it to me by post. I told my friend Veeru about it over phone. He felt happy. His mother and siblings are more concerned about his marriage than him. He did not concentrate much on the point of his marriage till now. He left that matter to his fate and time. For many orthodox Hindus, marriage is an essential part of human life. They pity unmarried ones. Marriage means safety, security and fulfillment in life for them. I like this culture of India. This is why there are many people in India now. Many humans mean many dramas to see and enjoy. My cousin Bala slept here this night. Went to sleep by 10:30.

3 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 1 June to 20 June. Srijana returned from Ashok Nagar by 11:00 by bus. She bought and brought two casual T-shirts from there for me. They cost her 300 rupees. I found them beautiful. Srijana and I went to Rythu Bazar in Vanasthalipuram by 5:15 on my bicycle. We bought vegetables worth 130 rupees. We could not buy pomegranates. Srijana wants to have them minding the health of the creature in her womb. They are selling one for 30 rupees. We can buy bananas only now. They are selling a dozen for 30 rupees. We two returned home by 6:00. It was a pleasant experience. Posted my one-page CV on naukri.com job portal by 8:20. Avoided putting one page of content from my previous two-page CV. This updated version does not carry description of my profile as a jobholder. It is brief and to the point. I stated in it that I am interested to do a job from the 20^th of this month. I remained jobless since 1 November, 2008. Srijana and I reached the clinic of Dr. Haripriya at NGO Colony by 8:45 on foot. Srijana met her by 9:30. She prescribed RAPPIN-DOM and FOLIMUST tablets and Zymer tonic for her. We avoided buying this tonic. Srijana is using two Amway products now. She decided to use RAPPIN-DOM tablets in exceptional cases of nausea only. Using more allopathic medicines is not good for the baby in her womb. She is smart. Went to sleep by 10:50.

4 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 21 June to 30 June. Power cut occurred around 12:50. I edited my diary depending on the power being supplied by my UPS for a few minutes. I closed my word file just a few seconds before the end of power supply by the UPS. When I checked it after the restoration of power supply, I found that the part of content, which I edited, till that point of time, was not saved. I am using the trial version of Microsoft Word 2010 now. I downloaded it from the portal of Microsoft one week ago. I did not understand why it failed to save it automatically. My computer system saved a temporary file of this word file in that folder. I could not open that file despite my efforts for about one hour. I felt much disturbed and disappointed about it. I edit content differently if I do the same work again. We do not think and edit a given piece of content in one manner only always. Our use of language changes time to time. I could somehow open that temporary file around 3:00. I felt blissful. Copied that edited content of eight days from it and pasted it in that part of my main word file. Got a phone call from the HR executive Lavanya of Shore Infotech at Madhapur by 12:35. She informed me to come for an interview in their office by 12:00 tomorrow for the position of content writer. I applied to them yesterday night through naukri.com job portal. Night Srijana and I did walking on road for 15 minutes for exercise. Went to sleep by 10:45.

5 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Got ready by 9:15. Went to NGO Colony bus stop by 9:20. Took two city buses and reached Madhapur by 11:45. Walked a little from the police station junction there and reached the office of Shore Infotech near Praanadha Hospital by 11:53. Their HR executive Lavanya took a copy of my CV from me. She talked with me for 30 seconds. She gave me three sheets of white paper, showed me a chair and told me to do a written test. The topics printed on the top of these three papers are: ‘Brief introduction about you, ‘the current state of the US and Indian economies’ and ‘education system in India now’. I did it from 12:03 to 12:38. I wrote about 300 words under each of these topics on three pages. I did not write anything on the other sides of these three papers. I wanted to keep them brief and to the point. I would have done it better if I they asked me to do it on a computer. I stopped writing much with my hand after the entry of computer into my sphere of editing and writing. My handwriting did not result well on these papers for this reason. I am a calligrapher. Winter is affecting my right hand also. She told me that they would call me for the final round of interview later if I did well in this written test. Returned home by 4:00. Srijana bought one litre of buffalo milk today for 80 rupees. She prepared cheese with a little of it today. I enjoyed eating it. Went to sleep by 10:00.

6 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 1 July to 20 July by 1:30. The folks of Reliance Communications came to NGO Colony bus stop. I told them to come there. Yesterday their customer service executive told me a lot to take their add-on SIM card with a great feature. I need not pay at all for any number of calls I make to this number from my present Reliance cellphone number for one year. They have been chasing me with these calls for the last three months. I told her to send them today. I went there carrying a photocopy of my PAN card, one passport size photo and 150 rupees to get it. They told me that I have to pay 99 rupees every month for this plan as monthly service charge. I told them to go back. I don’t like to further burden myself with it. I have to buy a handset to put this SIM card in it and then use it. I don’t talk for long with anybody, including Srijana. I cannot inculcate this bad habit to benefit from this offer. I could save 150 rupees today, not getting into this network of problems. The Government of India is going to implement its policy of number portability very soon across the nation. One can switch from one service provider to another without changing the present number as part of this facility. The best service providers only can survive and thrive in that atmosphere. The inefficient players are scared of this revolution. I welcome this great change. Night Srijana did walking on road from 8:15 to 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 21 July to 10 August by 10:45. Went to the main post office in Vanasthalipuram on my bicycle. Collected my book The Right Word at the Right Time from them paying them 1,154 rupees. It was published by the folks of Reader’s Digest. Its cost is 1099 rupees. The postal delivery charge is 55 rupees. I ordered it recently. There are 688 pages in it. I scanned it. It is a very useful book for all passionate English language learners in the world. Its paper and binding quality is good. It was printed in China. These folks do all things at low rates and export them to other countries. I like their discipline and hard work in this regard. I like this book a lot but I would not have bought it in this phase of my life if those folks did not chase me like sniffer dogs. The first mistake I committed was casually subscribing to their monthly English magazine Reader’s Digest. They lured me into their sweepstakes web thereafter. They kept on sending me their product promotion material. They made me think so that I am going to be the winner of one of their cash or other prizes only if I buy their products one after the other. Their personalized and very warm letters to me made me think that I would win all those prizes defeating other contestants. Their marketing strategies are aggressive and unethical. Today Srijana prepared cheese by 6:00. Surekha of Shore Infotech called me up and told me to attend an interview in their office by 11:00 on this Monday. Went to sleep by 10:15.

8 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. When I turned on the CPU of my computer by 9:30 to start editing my diary, it made a little sound thrice and avoided getting started. It reacted so for many times. I understood that there is some problem in it. Called Sai Sailendra. He is the eldest son of my house owner. He is pursuing MCA course now in an engineering college. He brought a screw driver from their portion and opened my CPU. There was a lot of dust in it. Srijana gave me an air pump to dust it. Actually it is meant for pumping air into the plastic bathtub of Anand. Vamsy bought it. It can be operated with our hands. I targeted it into every corner of my CPU and pressed air into it. Much dust came out this way. I played with it like a crazy kid. I enjoyed this game. I could remove almost all the dust from my CPU using this small air pump. I felt happy about it. Then we fitted it. When we started it, it functioned well. It requested me to dust it inside also making those little sounds in a rhythmic pattern. I don’t know if they made it that way. It is a DELL INSPIRON piece. Dust occupied many parts of India now. Air and dust are bosom friends in this nation. Nobody can separate them. We are breathing it daily. Our lungs clean it initially. Doctors declare us as dead when they stop working due to much burden of work on them. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 11 August to 20 August. Power cut occurred for 30 minutes. This time our electricity bill amounted to 67 rupees only. Paid it in the nearby E-seva centre by 2:03. Ironed my clothes for 20 minutes. Went to sleep by 9:30.  

9 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. I edited my diary of 2009 from 21 August to 10 September. Today it is the 20^th birthday of Srijana. She entered the 21^st year of her life today. She wore a new pair of Punjabi dress today on this occasion. She looked beautiful in it. She bought it for 280 rupees recently. Gave my Telugu poetry memento to her by 8:30. She liked it. Posted it on my blog site by 9:30. It is a token of my love for her. Today she prepared cheese with buffalo milk and jaggery. Bought 500 grams of grapes for 35 rupees for her by 3:30 by her choice. Today she spent most of her time watching television. Her friends and relatives wished her over phone on this occasion. We felt like going out to see a Telugu film in a cinema. We saw almost all the considerable Telugu films, which were released recently. Today she spent happily like a homemaker and beautiful girl at home. I enjoyed her presence throughout. This morning my brother Srinivas was admitted into Spa Central Hospital near NAD Kotha Road in Visakhapatnam. Part of his nervous system got affected near his backbone due to much pressure on his back for long. They performed a short operation on his back to set it right. They advised him to rest on bed in this hospital for five days. He should rest his back on bed without moving his body much. They tied blocks of weight to his legs to balance his posture of body. Today they put his medical bill at 8,000 rupees. Went to sleep by 10:00.

10 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took 127 K/V route bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 8:30 and got off it near the police station in Madhapur by 9:45. Thence walked a little and reached the office of Shore Infotech at Kavuri Hills by 9:55. My scheduled second round of interview with them is at 11:00 in this office for a position involving language editing and content writing. I spent in the cellar of this office building till 11:15 reading Eenadu and talking with the security staff member there. A beautiful lady of this firm interacted with me for two minutes in the first floor. Then an employee of this firm explained us the nature of work we are supposed to do here. The other candidate is also of the University of Hyderabad. He completed his M.A. in Mass Communication in 2010. We two did not like the nature of this job. We have to call up the IT consultants working in the USA and update the details of their current employment status on computer at our end during night shifts. Thereafter their HR executive told me to take a short written test on a computer there. I have to research into the websites of three given IT firms in the USA and type the designation and contact details of some of those folks into a Microsoft Excel sheet. I could collect those details of one IT firm only in about 20 minutes’ time. I did not like this work. I stopped it there. I told Lavanya that I am not interested in doing such night shift data entry jobs. I am a writer and editor. Returned home by 3:45. Srijana and her cousin Sunil took a bus at KPHB by 6:00 for Tuni. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

11 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 11 September to 30 September. Srijana and her cousin Sunil reached Tuni by 6:40 this morning. They travelled in a bus of Anjana Travels from Hyderabad. They went to Viswanadhapuram by 9:00 in an auto rickshaw. Srijana went there to celebrate Sankranti with her parents, maternal grandparents, relatives and our master Anand. She spends most of her time in Viswanadhapuram. It is her favourite spot. She said that she is not interested in going to our house in Peda Gummuluru. She is not happy with the attitude and communicative language of my father. She tries to adjust with my mother. The present-day girls don’t have patience and vision. They want to enjoy now according to their choices. It is a generation of vulnerable and unreliable youth. Evening my cousin Bala left for Gollalagunta by a bus from Hyderabad. He celebrates Sankranti with his familiar folks there. Recently my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma told me over phone that the fisherwoman did not express her interest in the bridegroom profile of my friend Veeranjaneyulu after knowing that he is about 35. Her daughter is 18 years old now. There is much age difference between these two creatures. They should not marry. Veeru must be 40 now. He should look for a girl of similar age to marry. Exceptional beauties are getting married within their social groups around 25. I don’t know when Veeru can marry an inspiring beauty. Went to sleep by 10:00.

12 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 1 October to 20 October. I did it from 9:30 to 6:00. Srijana and Anand are in Viswanadhapuram now. They are enjoying their time here. Paid 100 rupees to an agent by 11:00 towards the subscription charge of Telugu daily Andhra Jyothi for the last month. A paperboy delivered it to me every morning. They use bicycles for this morning duty. Mostly children below the age of 15 do it to earn a little money from it. I told them to stop supplying this newspaper in this month because I am not getting time to read it. I buy and read Telugu daily Eenadu every day. My favourite English daily is The Hindu. I scan it on Sundays only because I don’t get time to read it on other days. I should read it every day to improve my English language skills. They write about many things using Standard English. They set and follow great standards in what and how they write. Great people read it. Admirable persons write for it. It is a masterpiece. They work hard to write news stories and articles for these dailies but they don’t get much recognition and fame like writers. Journalists and editors are more intelligent, creative and dynamic people than writers and other artists. We sell newspapers and books according to their physical weight after scanning them casually. This is the value we accord to knowledge and wisdom in our lives. We keep gold and platinum with us treating them as very precious assets. It means that 90% of the people in this world are fools. They make this world restless and messy always. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:15. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 21 October to 31 October. By 2:34 my cousin Murali called me up and told me that he would come to Vanasthalipuram by 5:30 this evening. I stopped editing my diary at this point of time. I like spending my time with Murali. The sense of excitement, which started in me, after knowing about his arrival to this place soon, affected my level of concentration on my diary editing work. Every writer should edit his work with much focus on it. If he commits a mistake in finalizing his work, it tarnishes the image of that work. A writer is the best one to edit his work if he has considerable command of that language. Other editors do not think and use that language like him even if they happen to edit it later. Many writers have their distinct style of writing. Some editors spoil the beauty of their work before it goes for print. This is why many writers don’t like their works being edited by others. This morning I decided to edit the content of 20 days. It was my plan then. The arrival of Murali was an incident, which occurred beyond my plan. We can consider it as a work of nature or part of our Karma. We should change our plans according to our Karma. It may disturb or delight us but we should conform to it. I changed my plan today according to my Karma. Murali and I saw the Telugu film “Mirapakaay” of Ravi Teja in cinema Sampoorna from 7:00 to 9:45. Went to sleep by 11:00.

14 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. I had a nightmare between 11:30 and 2:30 yesterday night. I got up and slept again being shocked and frightened by it. Police were trying to arrest me because a girl complained against me saying that I loved her but refused to marry her. I had another dream between 3:00 and 5:30. Telugu film actor Akkineni Nagarjuna and I spent here and there like two bosom friends. He was drinking much alcohol. He was sad. He was craving for spending his time with me. He loves and admires me more than anything in this world. I experienced heavenly joy in his company in this dream. I enjoyed every moment of this dream. It is one of my classic dreams. I love and admire Nagarjuna in reality also. Telepathy is filling the communication gap between us through dreams. Today I spent all my time with my cousin Murali. We two spent talking from 11:30 to 12:30 sitting under a banyan tree by the pond at Saheb Nagar. The folks of the state government are developing this spot into an attractive place for all to come and enjoy here. Got a phone call from the HR executive Janakiram of APITCO Ltd. at Basheer Bagh by 12:00. He told me to come to their office by 3:00 this Monday for an interview for the position of content writer with them. I felt happy about it. Murali, Aishwarya and I spent talking in NGO Colony Park from 5:30 to 6:30. She is very busy preparing for her 10^th standard exams in this March. She enjoys our presence. Today it is Bhogi. Night Murali came to my abode to sleep. We watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 9:30.

15 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 7:00. Today I spent all the day with my cousin Murali. From 11:30 to 1:45, Murali, Aishwarya and I saw the Telugu film “Anaganagaa O Dheerudu” of Siddharth in cinema Vishnu. It’s a fantasy. It is interesting. Murali and I spent in Rajiv Gandhi Park from 5:00 to 6:00. Many were flying kites in the sky. Some folks celebrated listening to film songs at high volume on the terraces of their houses. It was all their endeavor to enjoy the spirit of Sankranti. Today I wore an old set of casual clothes. I did not feel like celebrating it specially. I wanted to edit the content of my diary of 2009 even on these festive days but I changed that idea considering the arrival of Murali to Vanasthalipuram to spend here. My Lord Krishna must have thought that I should spend this period of time with him taking a break from my diary editing work. God is like our kind and visionary teacher. He does not expect us to do our homework every day. We should enjoy the holidays given by Him out of love for us. By 7:30 Murali and I had our supper in my abode. He decided to sleep here this night. We watched television till 9:30. We spent talking about soul, ghosts, spiritual matters, circle of births and rebirths, God, universe, Maya, divine force, nature, salvation, human life, willpower, death and society till 11:00. The knowledge of Murali about these things is commendable. We two enjoyed this casual and insightful talk. Went to sleep by 11:20.

16 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:00. Typed and sent a long email to Telugu film director S S Rajamouli by 9:30. Recently I watched a program on HMTV Telugu television channel in which Rajamouli interviewed Jaya Prakash Narayana of Lok Satta. Rajamouli anchored this program well. They gave his email id in this program. He is a good person and talented film director. He directed eight Telugu feature films so far. He is a famous and costly director in the Telugu film industry now. I shared my sense of love and appreciation for him in this email. My cousin Murali left for Thumukunta by 12:30 by bus. Rested on cot for some time. Went to cinema Sushma by 2:30 on my bicycle. Bought a ticket for 50 rupees. Saw the Telugu film “Parama Veera Chakra” of Bala Krishna in it from 3:00 to 6:00. It is very interesting and exciting. I enjoyed watching it throughout. Dasari Narayana Rao directed it. He directed and produced many great films during the last 50 years.  He is an admirable director and actor. Many told me that this film is not good. I want to judge the quality of a film, after seeing it, based on my taste and parameters. Eighty percent of the viewers, who are going to cinemas now to see films, are worthless creatures in many respects. They criticize many good films just like that because they are bad people. Indian youth are involved in useless thoughts and worthless efforts now. They know how to criticize others but not how to be admired by others thinking deeply and doing great things on their own. Went to sleep by 10:00.

17 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:45. Washed my clothes by 11:30 and put them on our terrace by 11:40 to dry in the cool sun of winter. Had my lunch by 12:30. Took three city buses and reached Basheer Bagh by 2:00. Spent some time waiting by road there for my scheduled interview today in the office of APITCO Ltd. It is in the eighth floor of Parishrama Bhavan here. Reached this office by 2:45 through stairs. Their HR executive Janakiram talked with me by 2:50. He sent one of his staff members to me by 3:10. She took me to a place of computer, on my request, to do my written test. They gave me a pamphlet of one of their newsletters and told me to rewrite any portion of text printed on it. I did it on computer from 3:10 to 3:45. They kept me waiting till 5:10 after this test. Met Janakiram in his room by 5:15. He said that there would be another round of interview to me with a panel of experts towards the end of this week. Took two buses and returned home by 7:30. Typed out and sent a one-page email to Janakiram by 8:00. Informed him that I am not interested in the position of content writer with them anymore. I explained him why I am not interested in this job with five reasons. I am not happy about their long selection process, location of office, days of work and public transport facility to this place. I cannot enjoy the thought of this job. Had snacks and two bananas for my supper. Went to sleep by 10:30.

18 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 1 November to 15 November. Power cut occurred from 3:20 to 4:20. Srijana went to see my brother Srinivas in Visakhapatnam. She went there yesterday night from Tuni. She started back to K O Mallavaram by 1:00 this afternoon. My brother Srinivas returned home on the 13^th of this month from the hospital at NAD Kotha Road. His medical bill in this hospital amounted to 20,000 rupees. They paid it first. He can claim that money from the UCO Bank later submitting his medical bills. The doctor advised him to undergo professional physiotherapy for some days. He has no time for it in the morning or evening. He is daily commuting between Visakhapatnam and Devarapalli for his job. The road is bad in this route here and there. The jerks in his daily bus journey are affecting his body. He has about 10 kilos of excess body weight now. These two factors are contributing to his back pain. Now he is working as a clerk with the UCO Bank at Devarapalli. They pay him about 16,000 rupees a month. The doctor advised him to avoid regular bus journey on bad roads. He may try to get transferred to Visakhapatnam from Devarapalli considering the advice of doctor to him recently. He wants to buy and use Amway products to reduce his weight. This bank job made him into a machine. He is very happy about this job because it is comfortable and reliable. Morning my cousin Bala returned from Gollalagunta. Evening we talked about the things there. Went to sleep by 10:30.

19 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 16 November to 30 November. Evening ironed my clothes. Now winter is in its final stage in our region. This year it is very cold. I enjoy moderate winds of winter a lot. This season soothes my body and psyche. Many take precautionary measures in winter to protect the beauty of their bodies. They wear sweaters, use special soaps, apply lotions and creams on their bodies and faces, and consume suitable foods and drinks in this season. Modern girls and women are more interested in doing these things than boys and men. I bathed with lukewarm water to feel comfortable in this season. Srijana used some cream to beautify her skin. Winter makes our body and hair dry. Beauties do something in all seasons to maintain their physical beauty because it is their primary asset. I often think that my parents did not teach me how to keep myself attractive when I was a child. I became a careless fellow in this regard in course of time. Now people are more beauty conscious than those in the past. Corporate companies are creating and promoting such culture to earn more money with a little investment and work. I like inspiring female beauty. They are improving their physical beauty to attract all the fellows like me. I love natural beauty more than artificial beauty. Our nature and character establish and sustain such real beauty in us. Went to sleep by 10:30.

20 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. My friend Krishna Varma came here by 9:30. He travelled for about 10 hours to Hyderabad from Tuni by an APSRTC bus. He went to Ramayyapatnam four days ago to celebrate Sankranti with his parents and other familiar folks there. He said that he did not find it interesting. Many villages are dying slowly because many youth are going to towns and cities searching for employment. He saw Lakshmi in an auto rickshaw. She became fat. She is beautiful. She always remembers me. Childhood memories and admiration are precious and durable. He brought three kinds of dishes for me from Peda Gummuluru. My mother sent them for me. They are prepared in our house on the occasion of Sankranti. Krishna Varma left for village Rudraram by 3:20 by bus. Spent some time in the abode of my cousin Bala at Vaidehi Nagar talking with his mother Rajeshwari. They are looking for a suitable bride for Bala. By 4:00 received an envelope sent by the folks of Reader’s Digest. They sent me forms to be sent back to them to win their sweepstakes prizes in 2011 or 2012. They encouraged me to buy a book. I turned very angry after reading their letters and promotion material. I don’t know when they stop sending this material to me. Typed out a two-page letter addressing P Poonegar, their finance director. It is a powerful letter of satire and fury. It alerts them. Posted it on my blog site by 8:30. Today mobile number portability system was introduced in India. It is good for cellphone users across India. Went to sleep by 11:20.

21 January (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 1 December to 15 December. Posted my letter to Poonegar of Reader’s Digest by 10:00. I have no money to buy their books. I have no time to go through their promotion material and respond to them throughout the year. I thought that I would win one of their sweepstakes prizes. I don’t know when they hold these draws. They confused me through their letters to me. I am depending on their lottery to win some money. I should do a job to earn money. I did not do it being engaged in the editing work of my pieces of writing for two years. The folks of many banks called me up during these two years offering to make out personal loans to me. They want those, who are earning money, to make out loans and earn a little money that way. Some folks come to my abode expecting me to know about their products and buy them. I know what I need and what I can afford to buy. Marketing people are chasing all except beggars and psychic patients. I am disturbed about these policies and practices of companies now. They are encouraging people to buy many unnecessary things for the sake of fashion, false prestige and ego satisfaction. Disciplined and sensible people are being considered and treated as old-fashioned and eccentric creatures by brainless and shallow blokes due to this bad culture in India now. Srijana is also a victim of this culture. Went to sleep by 10:15.

22 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited my diary of 2009 from 16 December to 31 December and completed its final level editing. I took about 160 hours’ time to edit the content of this personal diary. By today, I completed editing my 15 personal diaries, which I wrote from 1995 to 2009. I felt blissful about this achievement. I am relieved of this psychic burden today. Others cannot edit my personal diaries like me. I did not use good English in these diaries. I improved the quality of language and the organization of content as part of this editing work because my English language and writing skills are better now than earlier. Readers can enjoy reading a book if the language is good in it. Grammatical and typographic errors damage the quality of a book. I added a little content here and there for the sake of clarity to readers. I too should enjoy reading these diaries in future as a reader. It would be possible only when I do my work well now as a writer and editor of these personal diaries. Our memory levels come down in course of time when we grow up towards old age. We must incorporate into our pieces of writing the facts we remember now to avoid confusion to our readers and us when we read them in future. By 4:45 paid 209 rupees in the nearby branch office of Muthoot Finance towards monthly interest for the gold loan I took out from them one month ago. Actually I should pay 160 rupees only as monthly interest for 16,000 rupees. They charged me 47 rupees as penalty for paying it one day late. Went to sleep by 10:30.

23 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:00. The bliss I am experiencing after the completion of editing of my 15 diaries awoke me earlier than necessary. By 10:30 finalized my 15 diaries in terms of their font and font size. I used Tahoma font. The font size is 9. The text is justified. Put my passport size color photo towards the end of every file. © 2011 Datla Chiranjeevi Raju is the last statement in all these diaries. Sent all these files from my email account of Windows Live to my email account of Yahoo Mail. Stored them in a folder titled “Personal Diaries” in these two accounts. From 10:45 to 4:30 typed out a blog titled “My Personal Diaries”. I did not have breakfast or lunch due to this work. I wrote a little about my 15 edited diaries in this blog. It is for my blog readers. There are about 5,000 words in it. Took a bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 5:15 and reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 6:15. Bought a platform ticket for three rupees and entered Secunderabad railway station by 6:30. Anantha Varma, the husband of my cousin Sirisha, already came here. We spent talking on platform 2 waiting for our creatures. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 8:05. It was 90 minutes late. Anantha Varma took his wife and baby to Beeramguda by bus. Srijana and I reached our abode by 9:30 by bus. Posted my blog on my blog site by 10:00 to introduce the essence of my 15 personal diaries to my blog readers. Went to sleep by 11:00.

24 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana brought sugarcanes, four kinds of homemade dishes, ginger and carrot pickles, Karrapendalam tubers, rice flour, Bengal gram kernel, a bottle gourd, onions and some other vegetables from the abodes of her parents and maternal grandparents. She bought a bottle of 60 tablets of Salmon Omega-3 for 1200 rupees from my friend Ramnadh in Tuni on my advice. These health supplements of Amway are good for her and the baby in her womb now. Polyunsaturated acids, which are known as Omega-3 fatty acids, are necessary for proper development of the nervous and brain systems in babies when they are in the wombs of their mothers. The folks of Amway extract these nutrients from Salmon fish grown in some cold and deep waters of ocean. I like their quality standards in manufacturing and packing these nutritional supplements. We want our second baby to be very intelligent, creative, healthy and beautiful. By 12:20 posted an envelope to my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju in Jaggampeta. Wrote a one-page letter to him explaining him the point of my 15 edited personal diaries. Also sent the prints of my blog titled “My Personal Diaries”, the letter written to the folks of Reader’s Digest, my one-page CV and my visiting cards. He likes my thoughts and life. I want to update him on my present state of life and pursuits this way. Written communication is more reliable and appreciable in human relations than oral communication. Today I spent casually at home. Srijana made our portion clean and orderly. Went to sleep by 10:00. 

  

25 January (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today Srijana started taking the Omega-3 supplements of Amway. She takes one every day after a meal. They are light and transparent supplements. Scanned the book WRITER’S HANDBOOK 2011 for one hour. I understood that there is nobody to provide financial assistance for a fellow like me. Sent an email to Pramod K Nayar. He has to yet make a comment about my book Stories of Love and Beauty. Checked the word files of my second book A Dreamer’s Love Story on my computer. Changed the font of these 65 files from Ariel to Tahoma. Sent my one-page CV, synopsis of this book, a write-up about the uniqueness of this work and three sample parts of this manuscript to the editorial folks of Roli Books and Random House in India by email by 3:00. It is my submission to them for consideration of publication of this book by them. Priya Kapoor of Roli Books rejected this work last year. I want to check if they changed a little during this time. By 7:00 Srijana and I went to Red Water Tank area on my bicycle. We bought a pair of flip-flops for 48 rupees for Anand in the BATA outlet here. Then we bought a pair of sandals for 130 rupees for him in Swadesh Foot Print outlet here. An anonymous local company manufactured them. The name of this brand of footwear is Spy Kids. I noticed a one hundred rupee note beside a car at this shop. Srijana picked it up on my advice. Went to sleep by 10:30.

26 January (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Wished the maternal grandmother of Srijana by 7:00 over phone on the occasion of her birthday today. She said that she does not celebrate it specially. It is the nature of people born before 1970. They live and work for others. Thereafter many started thinking and living for themselves. By 12:30 bought four pants for 156 rupees for Anand at a roadside outlet near Ganesh Temple. Srijana thought of going to Kothi or Dilsukh Nagar to buy more items of casual wear for him at low prices. I discouraged her from this idea. There is a lot of air pollution in twin cities. I don’t like walking through those places of dust and tumult. Srijana wanted to bring Anand to our abode in Vanasthalipuram from K O Mallavaram when she came here recently. He is not interested in Srijana or me now. He did not get ready to come here along with her. It seems he is more comfortable and happier there with his maternal grandparents than his parents here. He has more space and liberty there to play and enjoy than here. We miss him here. We should leave him there considering his happiness. I am disturbed to know that I don’t have money to buy a camera now. I am unable to take his photos and videos. I should record his childhood. I like to see them later. I failed in this regard. I regret it. My cousin Bala, Aishwarya and I spent talking and walking in Rajiv Gandhi Park from 4:15 to 5:00. Then we came to our abode. Srijana too joined our casual chat program. Winter is there observing us. Went to sleep by 10:00.

27 January (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana and I took a bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 10:15 and reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 11:00. We walked into the nearby railway reservation complex. We got a ticket reserved to Tuni from Secunderabad for Janmabhoomi Express for the 29^th of this month for Mantena Venkata Ramana Raju, the paternal grandfather of Srijana. This ticket cost me 111 rupees. He gets a concession of 30 rupees on it as a senior citizen. Srijana and I bought milk bread and three guavas for 15 rupees on our way to the other bus stop. Thence we took another bus by 11:20 for village Kandla Koya. We got off this bus by the main road here by 12:00. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw and reached the abode of Jagannadha Raju by 12:10. We took eight packs of sweet sesame rounds for the cousins of Srijana here. I bought them for 80 rupees in the wholesale store beside our rented abode in Self Finance Colony. They found them very tasty. Spent much time talking with Ramana Raju. He is not happy about the lifestyle and attitude of his eldest son Rama Raju. He is good at borrowing money from others time to time. He cannot repay it in time because his income resources and assets are very few. They cut the throat of a domestic fowl by 6:30 to prepare chicken curry for us. Enjoyed the presence of these people and this ambience. Winter is more natural and intense here than in main city. Went to sleep by 10:00.

28 January (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. It was very cold. I loved this spell of winter. They prepared puris for our breakfast. Srijana, her paternal grandfather Ramana Raju and I walked to village Kandla Koya by 8:20. Thence we three hired an auto rickshaw for 20 rupees and reached the main road by 8:25. We found many city buses bound to Secunderabad crowded. We took a bus by 8:50. We got off it in Secunderabad by 9:30. Thence we walked to Rethifile Bus Station through the short cut via Guru Dwara. We took a 1 V route bus by 9:00 and reached the Ganesh Temple bus stop in Vanasthalipuram by 9:50. We entered S V Mobile Shoppe in Rajeshwari Complex by 10:00. Srijana chose a SAMSUNG GURU 1081 handset for her grandfather in this shop. He too liked it. He paid 1300 rupees for it. He has a Vodafone SIM card. He recently sold his old handset for 600 rupees to a familiar poor fellow. He bought this new cellphone to keep in touch with his two sons, three daughters and close relatives. We hired an auto rickshaw for 20 rupees and reached our abode at Self Finance Colony by 10:45. He liked the atmosphere in and around my rented abode. We three went to the rented abode of my cousin Bala at Vaidehi Nagar by 3:00 on foot. We spent talking with Rajeshwari till 4:00. We talked about the deaths of many old people in Gollalagunta. The old Indian culture is dying in this village along with these old people. It is the death of a great India. Bala came to our abode by 7:45 and spent talking with Ramana Raju till 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

29 January (Saturday)

Woke up by 3:30. Srijana, her grandfather Ramana Raju and I took a 1 V route bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 5:00. We reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 5:40. We got into the reservation coach D-6 of Janmabhoomi Express on platform 1 in Secunderabad railway station by 6:00. Srijana and I spent talking with him and reading Eenadu till 7:05. This train started off by 7:10. He gets off this train around 6:00 in Tuni this evening. His son Rama Raju receives him. We sent four casual pants and two pairs of footwear for Anand along with him. Srijana prepared Vegetable Biryani for him to have in this train. We took a bus and reached the abode of my friend Veeranjaneyulu at Jubilee Hills by 8:00. Veeru is living in his abode of art at MLA Colony now. I reached there by 8:30 on the bike of his cousin Ramesh. Veeru spent about 10 lakh rupees to develop this site into an abode of art. He made it into a beautiful and enjoyable place for all. I found it refreshing. Spent all the day within this abode. Meher Murali is staying with him. I enjoy his presence. Veeru has a debt of 10 lakh rupees now. He wants to clear it in one year’s time. He is busy as an artist. He is looking for a beauty to marry. His mother is much disturbed about his remaining unmarried. Srijana spent here from 4:00 to 8:30. She liked this ambience. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju came here by 9:45. We spent talking till 11:30. Went to sleep by 12:00.

30 January (Sunday)

Woke up by 3:00. Last night I could not sleep well. The winds of winter entered the abode of art of Veeru and disturbed my sleep. Veeru and I spent talking from 5:30 to 6:00. I indirectly informed him that I wanted to borrow 5000 rupees from him. I realized that he cannot help me in his present financial condition. Rajani took me to the rented abode of Veeru by 6:20 on his bike. Srijana already got ready. He dropped us at a bus stop in Film Nagar by 6:40 on his bike. Thence we took a bus and reached Kothi by 7:15. Thence we took another bus and reached our abode by 8:00. Sent an email to Yerra Krishna Kishore in London by 9:00 requesting him to lend me 10,000 rupees. He is my good and reliable friend. Read today’s dailies for one hour. Priya of Roli Books emailed me recently stating that they cannot publish my book titled ‘A Dreamer’s Love Story’. They rejected it. Srijana and I reached cinema Sushma by 2:30 on my bicycle. We saw the Telugu film “Wanted” of Gopichand and Diksha Seth in it from 3:00 to 5:30. It is interesting and exciting. Enjoyed watching it throughout. We returned home by 6:00. Krishna Kishore replied to me. He transferred 5000 rupees online into my Axis Bank account. It may be credited to my account in one or two days. He would transfer 5000 rupees in two weeks’ time. He recently bought a piece of agricultural land near Kota Nanduru. He is clearing those debts now. He is short of money now due to it. Thanked him for his kind and timely help to me. Went to sleep by 10:45 for my dreams.

31 January (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I got ready for my journey tomorrow. Recently a cousin of my friend Veeru reserved two seats for me online for Janmabhoomi Express for my onward journey on 1 February and return journey on 7 February. I am going to Gollalagunta to get paddy husked in a rice mill there and send that rice for me in Hyderabad through Navata Road Transport service. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju grew paddy in my one acre of paddy farm in Gollalagunta in the recent crop season on casual contract with my father. My mother told me to get some of this paddy husked and take that rice for our domestic consumption in Hyderabad. If I have this rice, I need not buy it at shops here, spending 30 rupees for each kilo of rice. My personal economy is very bad now. I am depending on my father now for this reason. We stopped using highly polished white rice in our abode here because it is not good for our health. We are using brown rice. I want to get this paddy husked in such a manner that I get such kind of brown rice which we are using now. Today I bought four suitable sacks to bring that rice to Hyderabad from there. I like to bring 200 kilos of rice from there. We can use it for one year without depending on shops. Also bought four packs of boric acid powder for 185 rupees. We mix this powder in rice to protect it from insects for long in sacks. Went to sleep by 10:00.

1 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Srijana prepared Lemon Rice for me by 4:00. She packed it for me in two plastic containers. She prepared and poured one litre of lemon juice added sugar water in a plastic bottle and one litre of plain water in another plastic bottle. She put four bananas also for me in a bag. I have two items of luggage. I am taking TRENDY multi-purpose table fan in one bag for my son Anand. It would be used for him in the coming summer in K O Mallavaram. It is the advice of Srijana. I found it good. I have my luggage in one bag. Took a 1 V route bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 5:00 and reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 5:45. Got into reservation coach D-4 of Janmabhoomi Express in Secunderabad railway station by 5:50. My seat number is 43 in it. It’s a window seat. Bought a copy of Eenadu and scanned it for 40 minutes. Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi is getting ready to extend his political support to the weak Congress party government in Andhra Pradesh. Jagan Mohan Reddy is the villain to the present Congress government in this state. Chiranjeevi is their savior. He lost his good image as a politician long ago. He is appearing like a worthless fellow to all now because he started his political party once to fight against the corruption of Congress party in this state. This train started off by 7:10. Got off it at Samalkot by 5:22. Took a bus by 5:45 and reached Jaggampeta by 6:30. My cousin Narendra Varma and I reached Gollalagunta by 7:00 on his bike. Went to sleep by 10:45.

2 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day within Gollalagunta. Morning decided to buy four sacks of paddy from Tumpala Satya Narayana in village Kandregula. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju suggested me this idea. Many believe that old rice is better than new rice to cook and eat. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju would sell my share of new paddy to a native paddy merchant soon. My uncle Krishnam Raju and I hired an auto rickshaw for 40 rupees and reached Kandregula by 10:15. Satya Narayana talked with us for 20 minutes. He told his son to take us to another abode and give us four sacks of paddy. He gave us paddy weighing 300 kilos. It is one year old paddy. It cost us 4000 rupees. It is RJL type of paddy. We hired an auto rickshaw for 80 rupees and brought these sacks of paddy to a rice mill in Gollalagunta by 11:30. We will get this paddy husked tomorrow morning. They are supplying three phase electricity from 3:00 to 10:00 in the morning now. Rice mills need this capacity electricity to function. My uncle Krishnam Raju pays 4000 rupees to Satya Narayana soon collecting it from my uncle Rama Raju. Spent talking with my familiar folks Varahala Babu, Ramu and Phani from 11:40 to 2:30. They educated me on many things. I enjoyed this casual talk with them. Spent talking with my maternal aunt Satyavathi from 3:30 to 4:15 in their house. My maternal uncle Varma and I went to his empty rice farm near Chembudu Cheruvu by 4:30. He recently sowed sesame seeds in this farm. We spent here till 5:30. Enjoyed this time. We returned home by 7:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

3 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 3:00. My uncle Krishnam Raju and I went to the rice mill in Gollalagunta by 10:00. They started husking our four sacks of paddy by 10:30. It was over by 11:30. He husked about 295 kilos of paddy. It yielded about 190 kilos of rice. They charged 30 rupees for 75 kilos of paddy to husk. I found five percent of bad rice morsels in it. Hired an auto rickshaw for 40 rupees and brought this rice to the house of my maternal aunt Satyavathi. My maternal aunt Raja Kumari, Satyavathi, my cousin Anantha Lakshmi and another familiar Kshatriya woman of this village sieved this rice from 12:00 to 3:15. I wanted to get it done by two workers paying them 100 rupees. My folks did it for me. They separated about four kilos of broken morsels from this rice. My maternal uncle Varma and I mixed 60 grams of boric acid powder in about 180 kilos of rice and packed it into four sacks. My uncle stitched them carefully. My uncle Ramakrishnam Raju, Varma and I reached the branch office of Navata Road Transport in Jaggampeta by 4:40 in our hired auto rickshaw. Paid him 60 rupees for it. Booked my four sacks of rice at this office for Vanasthalipuram South. He charged 450 rupees for it. Ramakrishnam Raju and I took a bus in Jaggampeta by 5:10 for Adduroad. Gave my fan to my father-in-law Rama Raju in the bus stand at Tuni by 7:00. We reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 7:30. Went to sleep by 9:30.

4 February (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came here by 8:00. He said that he is interested in getting his daughter Ashwini married soon. They are considering a suitable boy for her. She is 18 now. She is in her first year B.Sc. course now at a private degree college in Kakinada. She is a disciplined and intelligent girl. Now many creatures in our community are resorting to love marriages going against the wishes of their conservative parents. Educated boys and girls are doing it more than others. My uncle must be concerned about this trend among Indian youth now. He is planning to get his daughter married early for this reason. I did not discourage him from this idea because he cannot think like me. My uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada and I reached K O Mallavaram by 12:15. We spent at the house of my father-in-law Rama Raju from 12:20 to 4:00. Anand is doing well. He came to me readily. He found me good. I took four packs of Britannia Good Day biscuits for him. He is happy with his maternal grandparents. He did not get ready to come with me to Hyderabad. Enjoyed his presence for three hours. We spent talking with these folks. They enjoyed the arrival of my uncle to their house. We took two vehicles and returned to Peda Gummuluru by 5:30. My uncle Chanti Babu and my aunt Surya Bhaskaramma left for Narsipatnam Road railway station by 6:30. Thence they took a passenger train for Durgada Gate halt. Spent talking with my mother from 7:00 to 10:00. Went to sleep by 10:15.

5 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 9:30 for NAD Kotha Road. Reached there by 11:00. My nephew Suhas came here to take me to their abode. We two took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Sujatha Nagar at China Mushidivada by 11:30. He charged 15 rupees for it. We reached the apartment of my brother Srinivas by 11:35. Had my lunch by 1:00. My father and my uncle Ramakrishnam Raju left for Collectorate by 2:30. The latter is suffering from knee joint pains. My father took him for the consultation of a very experienced doctor there. They took a passenger train by 6:00 at Marripalem halt for Narsipatnam Road. My brother Srinivas returned home by 6:30. He is working as a clerk at the UCO Bank in Devarapalli now. He wants to take out a loan of 12, 00,000 rupees from UCO Bank to pay for his apartment. They deduct part of his salary every month until this loan is cleared. I did not find the use of colors attractive in this apartment. They used different colors for roof, walls and floor. It causes visual disturbance to viewers. I found the space and maintenance good enough in it. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani is keeping this abode clean and beautiful always. My nephew Sujan returned from Ravindra Bharathi School at NAD Kotha Road by 9:30. His annual exams start from 24 March. He is preparing well for them. He is restless. Went to sleep by 10:00.

6 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent talking with my brother Srinivas for two hours. He said that I am wasting my time. I could not save even one rupee so far. I remained without doing a job for long. I chose to be a writer. It is not a reliable profession in the contemporary society. I made my father sell one acre of agricultural land for me. He remarked that I should not fail in my life. I found his words of caution good and relevant for me. He talked so out of his love for me. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani gave me 500 rupees by 9:00. Took a bus by 9:30 and reached Adduroad Junction by 11:00. Had my lunch in our house by 12:00. Spent talking with my parents for one hour. My brother Sambha and I went to our mango garden at hills by 3:00 on his bike. They sold the crop of this season to a local fellow for 50,000 rupees. Last year he did not get anything from it. My folks want to give him another chance this year. Trees are blossoming now. We spent at the abode of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy for 40 minutes. My paternal grandparents are living here now. They are old and weak. We returned home by 4:30. Spent talking with the family members of my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy at their abodes from 5:00 to 7:00. Had my supper by 7:30. My mother prepared chicken curry for me. She is treating me as a special guest. She is very possessive about me. Spent talking with her from 8:30 to 10:30. It was cold and pleasant outside. Went to sleep by 10:45.

7 February (Monday)

Woke up by 4:00. Got ready by 5:00. My sister-in-law Kranti and her mother Janaki prepared Lemon Rice for me to have in the train. My brother Sambha and I started to railway station in Tuni by 6:16 on his bike. We reached there by 6:54. Stood in the queue and bought a ticket to Secunderabad for 132 rupees for my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy. My father-in-law brought a bag of items from K O Mallavaram on his bike. There are vegetables, lemons, sugarcanes, Karrapendalam tubers and homemade snacks in it. It weighs about 30 kilos. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 8:00. Narasimha Murthy and I got into reservation coach D-1 of it. My seat number is 103 in it. My uncle sat in it till we crossed Guntur railway station. I stood by the exit door during this time. He gave me my seat after this station and he sat beside the exit door. A beautiful girl sat in the seat bearing number 102 in Vijayawada station. Her seat is also beside window like mine. She must be 20. She wore a Punjabi dress. I loved and enjoyed the presence of this beauty throughout. I felt like giving my visiting card to her. I struggled for about two hours without knowing how to initiate talk with her. I asked her if she reads blogs. She replied in the negative. I felt disappointed. I could not give my visiting card to her. This train reached Secunderabad by 7:30. Srijana came to receive us. Went to sleep by 11:00.

8 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. My uncle Narasimha Murthy, Srijana and I took a bus at NGO Colony bus stop and reached KPHB Colony by 12:00. Thence we took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Bachupally by 12:30. Thence we walked to the abode of the familiar folks of my uncle. He would spend with them today. Srijana and I reached the abode of Madhavi at Ashok Nagar by 3:00. We spent here till 5:15. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw for 30 rupees and reached the rented abode of my cousin Sirisha at Shirdi Sai Colony in Beeramguda by 5:30. Anantha Varma and I went out by 6:00. He enquired about the prices of apples and grapes. They are very high. I cannot afford them. He bought a dozen bananas for 16 rupees and two apples for 30 rupees. The prices of many fruits are beyond the purchasing ability of a common man now. They cannot buy them. The central and state governments are promoting tobacco products and alcoholic drinks in India instead of vegetables and fruits. This is the fate of Indians. Srijana likes apples. I cannot buy them for her now. My uncle Narasimha Murthy is suffering a lot now due to the nasty behavior of his wife Vimala with him. He is unable to withstand this domestic violence anymore. He is planning to go away from his wife and two sons soon to get rid of this hell. Vimala is a curse of his life. He has been bearing with her for the last 25 years. He can neither kill her nor live with her. He told me how she is torturing him every day with abusive words. I advised him to leave her forever. Went to sleep by 11:00.

9 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana and I took a sharing auto rickshaw by 8:30 at Beeramguda and reached KPHB by 9:20. Srijana took a bus by 9:40 for Dilsukh Nagar. My uncle Narasimha Murthy came here by 10:00 from the abode of his distant relative at Bachupally. We took a bus by 10:10 and reached NGO Colony bus stop by 12:10. We had lunch by 1:00. He rested on bed for two hours. We walked towards B N Reddy Nagar for pleasure sake. He found a suitable job for him in Hyderabad. He can get about 8000 rupees a month from this job. He wants to clear some pending things at his home and then come to Hyderabad to join this job. His wife Vimala is a psychopath. She is running after money. His younger son Shiva is a spoilt child. He failed as a student at school and as a child at home. He inculcated bad habits. He is not ready to change at all. This is the account of an unfortunate man. My uncle realized that he cannot live in such domestic atmosphere. He found Hyderabad as a place of relief for him. Afternoon chatted online with my M.A. English classmate Vijaya Krishna through Yahoo Messenger. He is in Chennai now. He married a girl recently out of love for her. He did so going against the wishes of his parents. I appreciated him for it. He is a good fellow. Felt happy knowing about him after a long time. I don’t know what his sister Lahari is doing now. Went to sleep by 10:00.

  

10 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 3:00. My uncle Narasimha Murthy and I got ready by 3:50. We reached NGO Colony bus stop by 4:10 on foot. I advised him to quit smoking. A 1 V ordinary bus arrived by 4:20. We took it and reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 4:55. Stood in a queue there and bought a ticket for him to Tuni for 132 rupees. Also bought a platform ticket for me for three rupees. Janmabhoomi Express was on platform 1. He could get a seat in a general coach of this train by 5:15. Most of the seats were already occupied by passengers in general coaches. We stood by this train talking till 5:30. I advised him to be in and around Tetagunta for two more months. His eldest son Srinivas has to take the annual exams of his B.Com. final year course soon. He was already disturbed due to the endless clashes between his mother and father at home. He gets more disturbed if his father goes away from them during this stage of his education. If he gets his B.Com. certificate, he can start searching for a job. My uncle found this idea good. Took leave of him by 5:33 and rushed back to Rethifile Bus Station. Took a 1 V route bus by 5:40 and returned home by 7:00. Vamsy came by 7:30. He is working with a mediocre private construction company near Bengaluru now. He came here to collect his certificate from the ITI at Musheerabad. Typed out a blog titled “Visiting Card” from 2:00 to 5:00 and posted it on my blog site. It was cold and pleasant outside. Went to sleep by 10:00.

11 February (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana and I washed our respective clothes simultaneously. It was over by 11:00. Then I took a head bath to feel refreshed. Rested on my iron cot from 11:30 to 1:00. Had my lunch by 1:30. Typed out a long letter addressing Bhanwar Lal from 1:45 to 3:15. He is the chief electoral officer of Andhra Pradesh now. I applied for a new photo voter identity card on 26 January through the website of Election Commission. They are supposed to issue me this card within a week’s time according to their press release then. They did not do anything till now in this regard. I ruthlessly criticized this rogue in this letter about it. Emailed it to him by 3:20. Also posted it on my blog site. Typed out a fictional interview between Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi and me from 4:00 to 6:00. He answers my questions in this interview. It is my satire on his present dirty and shameless life as a politician. He is a corrupt and immoral scoundrel now. He is joining the Congress party to get more political benefits from them. He is an opportunist and hypocrite. He cheated and misguided many people as a politician. I titled this blog “Boosi Jejanna”. Saved it on my blog site as a draft. It would be posted on it automatically by 11:00 tomorrow morning. Vamsy left for Bengaluru by a train from Kachiguda around 9:00 this night. He did not talk with me. Went to sleep by 10:00.

12 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:30. By 11:30 emailed the content of my second book A Dreamer’s Love Story to Sunil K Poolani. It is for his consideration for publication. I edited this content in 2010. These are emails, which I sent to Deepthi, in 2005. Recently Swarup Nanda emailed me some clarifications about my first book Stories of Love and Beauty. We can know something about its sales by the end of this April. I think about 50 copies of this book would have been sold. Swarup advised me to consider the idea of keeping this book in circulation for another three more years extending our contract to that extent. He gave me some examples to show the advantages of this plan. I found his suggestion good. My book must be available to readers at bookstores in India to buy and read. Now it is in about 80 bookstores across India according to the information they emailed me. Many don’t know about me or my book now. My blog site connects me with others to some extent. Now publishing firms are not interested in publishing the works of new writers. By 2:40 Srijana and I went to cinema Sushma on my bicycle. Bought two tickets for 100 rupees. We saw the Telugu film “Vasthaadu Naa Raaju” in it from 3:00 to 5:30. It is interesting. Enjoyed watching this film throughout. Received a letter from the folks of Reader’s Digest. They informed me that I should pay them a due of 699 rupees for a book they sent me earlier. Emailed them informing them why I need not pay them for this book. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Spent reading the dailies Eenadu, Sakshi and The Hindu for two hours. My cousin Bala, Aishwarya, Srijana and I reached cinema Vijaya Lakshmi at L B Nagar by 6:40 by bus. We saw the Telugu film “Gaganam” of Nagarjuna in it from 7:00 to 9:15 in the first show. It is very interesting and exciting. Nagarjuna looked very handsome in this film. Story is the hero of this film. Radha Mohan directed it well. I found its background score very interesting. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. We returned home by 9:45 by bus. Had my supper by 10:00. Vamsy is working with some company near Bengaluru now. He is not interested in talking with me. I decided not to advise him about anything. He wants to live according to his thoughts and choices. I should allow him to live his Karma. Every soul comes into this world with a schedule of work. Body is a means to fulfill that duty. Happiness and pain are part of this schedule. Many don’t change to our expectations. Their Karma makes and keeps them so. We should not advise others if they do not ask us for it. A soul can exercise its planned work if we accord liberty to it. Vamsy looks like an innocent and worthless bloke to me because I love him. Love means psychic attachment with others. It generates thoughts, desires and imaginations in us. Life won’t be interesting and engaging without love. Went to sleep by 11:30.

14 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. From 10:30 to 3:00 typed out a blog titled “I Love You” on my computer. Posted it on my blog site by 3:05. My friend Deepthi interviews me in a lovers’ park in Hyderabad on the occasion of Valentine’s Day. It is a work of fiction. I discussed love, lovers and India in it. It is my gift to my blog readers on this occasion. Srijana and I went to NGO Colony bus stop by 3:30. She took a bus for Dilsukh Nagar. Thence she took another bus for Ashok Nagar near Serilingampally. She reached the rented abode of her maternal aunt Madhavi by 6:15. She spends there for two or three days. Madhavi and her husband Subba Raju are going to village Kondayi Gudem near Manuguru in Khammam district to participate in a religious ceremony. Subba Raju contributed considerable amount of money for the construction of a temple of Lord Shiva in this village, where his parents are living now. They ceremoniously inaugurate this temple tomorrow night. This couple would be main participants in this program of temple inauguration. Srijana takes care of her cousins Sushma and Sunil until they come back. I am short of money now. I lent 20,000 rupees to my brother Srinivas about one year ago. He repaid about 8,000 rupees till now. I could not ask him for the remaining money because I don’t know about his real financial status now. I don’t like to disturb him asking for my money. I am waiting for a job. My one-page CV is active on naukri.com online job portal. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:20. By 12:30 sent two emails to Swarup Nanda of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai. He advised me to consider the idea of reducing the content of my second book. He informed me that readers are interested in reading shorter books rather than longer ones. The content of my second book amounts to about 450 pages in print if they publish it. I wrote to him that I don’t like to remove content from it to make it short. I wrote it from my heart. I like to uphold its originality and reality getting it published as it is. I should not mind commercial terms and kill its integrity. I love this book more than the money it may bring me through sales after publication. Deepthi is a good girl. This book is my gift to her. Swarup informed me that I have to contribute about 1, 30,000 rupees towards the costs of processing and publication of this book. Wrote to him that I would mobilize this money and send it to them as early as possible. I have to consult ideal and rich people for it. Typed out a short message and emailed it to the folks of Azim Premji Foundation in Bengaluru. Copied it to chairman@wipro.com also expecting it to reach Azim Premji. It bounced from this email id. It must be an invalid id. I got it searching for it on Google. Azim Premji is an achiever and gentleman as far as I know. An idealist should not depend on a rogue in ordinary conditions. Went to sleep by 10:00.

16 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Got ready by 9:00. My house owner Pandu Rangacharyulu also got ready to go to his office at Khairatabad. He told me to come along with him on his bike. His wife Bhagya Lakshmi offered two dosas for me when she knew that I did not have my breakfast by then. He dropped me at Khairatabad by 10:00. Crossed the main road and went to the office of Cyberabad Legal Services in the building named ‘Pavani Estates’. Spent my time in this office till 10:45. Thence walked a little down and reached the building named ‘Maruthi Plaza’. The office of Glads Media Consulting & Research Private Limited is in the second floor of this building near Shadan College. Chetanya Lakshmi of this firm called me up by 7:00 yesterday night and informed me to come here by 11:00 today for interview for the position of content writer. She interacted with me for 10 minutes. She wrote three sentences in English and told me to correct them. I did it well. Then I wrote about 500 words about the concept of religion. The head of this firm talked with me for 20 minutes. He explained me the nature of job I am supposed to do. Spent talking with advocate C S N Raju from 12:00 to 2:10 in his office. We discussed many things. Took a bus by 2:30 and reached home by 3:40. By 4:35 Chetanya Lakshmi called me up and informed me to join them tomorrow. They decided to pay me 27,000 rupees a month after thinking about it for long. Reached this news to my folks. They felt happy. Went to sleep by 9:30.

17 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Got ready by 8:00. My house owner Pandu Rangacharyulu and I started on his bike by 8:30. He dropped me near my office at Khairatabad by 9:23. Chetanya Lakshmi opened our office by 9:45. She gave me an employee information sheet to be filled in by me. Did this work from 10:00 to 10:30. I found the questions on these two sheets of paper very interesting and professional. They seek to enquire into the personal and professional aspects of a candidate. They use those details when necessary. Chetanya Lakshmi is the HR manager of this firm. She must be 30. She married a Telugu guy out of love. She is from Uttaranchal. She told me to sit in a chair and keep reading content on some websites. She advised me to read content posted on the portal of afaqs.com. Visited this kind of websites. Kept reading this and that on Wikipedia and other websites throughout the day including that of Glads Media Consulting. Had a plate of rice at Golden Deluxe hotel by 1:50. It cost me 35 rupees. By 6:15 Chetanya took the photocopies of my educational and employment history certificates. Came out of this office by 6:20. My house owner and I reached our abode by 7:50 on his bike. There are dust, smoke and noise everywhere. I prefer public transport system to bike rides in cities with heavy flow of vehicles. I found my first day in this office good. Had my supper by 8:15. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

18 February (Friday)

Woke up by 3:00. I think my biological clock got disturbed. I am experiencing a sense of excitement and agitation subconsciously. This change occurred in my psyche after joining Glads Media. When I am sleeping, I am planning to wake up by 5:00 the following morning but it is happening even before that. It leads to insomnia if I cannot control it. I am new to the field of advertising where concepts and creativity always keep one’s brain working and restless. I am unable to keep the thoughts related to my job out of my life at home. I am wasting about 150 minutes’ time in my bus journey to and from my office. These factors are disturbing the balance and peace of my mind. This is the state of many private employees in India now. Took a 187 D/V bus by 7:45 at NGO Colony bus stop and reached our office at Khairatabad by 9:00. Morning our CEO Mahendra explained all of us the nature and scope of work we are supposed to do as part of this firm. He talked about his plans and vision to develop it. Had a plate of Dal Rice at a nearby Irani café by 2:00 for 16 rupees. Today I edited and rewrote part of the content meant for the catalogue of K K Home Mart, a spacious and luxurious furniture store to be opened by the folks of K K Homes at RTC Crossroads. This morning Srijana fainted and fell down at Ashok Nagar by main road when waiting to take a bus and come back to home. Her maternal aunt Madhavi nursed her. She reached Khairatabad by 6:10 by bus. Thence we two returned home by 7:45. Slept by 10:30.

19 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 3:00. My subconscious mind is affected with stress related to the working hours of Glads Media. I could not manage to sleep after this time. I am taking one hour’s time to write in one page of this diary every day. I take one hour’s time to refresh myself, scan Telugu daily Eenadu and have my breakfast. I can reach NGO Colony bus stop within four minutes’ time from my abode on foot. Time is very precious for me. When I realize it, my mind gets disturbed and affected. Srijana packed rice for me to have during my lunchtime at office. She mixed aubergine curry in a little rice and put it in a small steel box. She added curd to a little rice and put it in a small plastic dish. She put a little carrot pickle in a little bowl for me to have with curd rice. I like her thoughts and acts of traditional homemaker. Took two city buses and reached our office by 9:00. Today I wrote a little content for the catalogue of K K Home Mart. Devised a few titles and punch lines for the high breed pearl millet seeds of a company. Read a few articles on Wikipedia. Scanned the Indian edition of BBC Good Homes magazine. It’s a January 2011 issue. Also scanned a catalogue of Roca with the details, photos and prices of bathroom products they are selling. Understood the nature of this market meant for the rich. Took a bus by 6:45. Reached home by 8:00. Life got automated again. Went to sleep by 10:00.

20 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Scanned today’s dailies for 40 minutes. Srijana and I took a bus by 10:00 at NGO Colony bus stop and got off it at Chintal Basthi bus stop by 11:00. Thence we crossed the road and walked down the road. We crossed the railway gate near Khairatabad railway station and walked through those streets searching for house portions to let. We visited about eight abodes in this area by 1:00. There are portions ranging from 4500 to 8000 rupees as rent for a month. We found some of them old-fashioned and some beyond our budget. We saw the house of Danam Nagendra in this area. It is white and very beautiful. A native fellow told me that the mother and brothers of Nagendra are living in this building now. It may cost about five crore rupees. Nagendra is a politician. He is with the Congress party. He is a minister in the Congress government in Andhra Pradesh now. We finalized a one-bedroomed portion in a house behind Chintal Basthi bus stop by 2:00. They agreed to rent it out to us at a rate of 4500 rupees a month. It measures half of our present portion in Vanasthalipuram. I can reach my office within eight minutes from this abode on foot. I want to save my time this way. We want to enter it in the first week of this March. We returned home by 3:30 by bus. By 5:30 informed our present owner Bhagya Lakshmi that we would vacate this portion soon. We developed attachment with this place and people during these few months. We have to break it following the dictates of time. Spent talking with my cousin Bala for some time. Went to sleep by 9:30. 

21 February (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took a bus by 7:50 at NGO Colony bus stop for Gandhi Bhavan. It rained for a little time. Heavy flow of muddy rainwater blocked the traffic of vehicles on roads. I was struck in this traffic jam at Malakpet. This APSRTC bus could drop me at Nampally by 9:20 moving slowly on blocked roads. Hired an auto rickshaw for 50 rupees and reached Khairatabad by 9:40. Entered our office by 9:45, 15 minutes late. Today police imposed traffic restrictions around the Assembly building considering the declared attack of Telangana students on it as part of their movement for a separate Telangana state. It disturbed the normal course of lives of many common people and jobholders in twin cities today. Today I did not do much work in the office. From 5:30 to 6:00 Mahendra explained me the responsibilities of my role in Glads Media and the specifics of advertising carried out by this firm. From 7:30 to 8:00 a discussion took place. Our business development folks could impress and attract the attention of business entities TATA NANO, Reliance Digital and Pepsi. They explained me the kind of work I am supposed to do for the promotion of TATA NANO in Andhra Pradesh. I have to collect information about this car and its competitors in the market. Started back by 8:10 by bus. While in this bus, developed an idea to write story and dialogues for a film to promote TATA NANO. Slept by 10:30.

22 February (Tuesday)

Woke up by 7:30. Today our office remains closed due to the Telangana region wide strike declared by the activists of separate Telangana movement. APSRTC buses do not ply. Shops and cinemas remain closed. Banks and some firms are working under tight police protection. Many enjoy their free time today to this extent. Yesterday night Srijana consulted Dr. Haripriya in her clinic. She said that Srijana has no enough blood in her body. She advised her to consume almonds, cashew, pomegranates and fruits every day for generation of more blood in her body. She prescribed some medicines also for her. I have no money to buy these things also for her. I regret it. I advised her to sell a small gold ornament of hers to get about 9000 rupees. She refused to do so saying that her grandmother questions her about it later. Morning collected much information about TATA NANO car from Wikipedia and their company website. It’s my office work. My creative thoughts about a feature film in Telugu to promote TATA NANO continued even today in my brain. Had my lunch by 1:30. Rested on my iron cot from 1:45 to 3:30. I am much disturbed internally to miss my personal life after joining Glads Media. I am not happy with the long working hours and six-day work culture of Glads Media. I joined them because I want money to clear my present debts and look after my creatures. Lord Krishna is not kind to me. I want to enjoy my personal life living and working as a writer. I don’t like working in companies. Evening enjoyed my time with Srijana, Bala and Aishwarya. Went to sleep by 10:30.

23 February (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Got ready by 7:15. Stepped out of our abode by 7:30. Today also there is Telangana region wide strike by the activists of separate Telangana movement. APSRTC did not run their buses in this region minding the manmade damage to their buses. Agitators set fire to buses if they see them on roads. The primary objective of this strike is to disturb the normal course of lives of all people in this region and thus send a message to the folks of Congress government at centre. Reached Panama Godowns by 7:45 on foot. Thence took three sharing auto rickshaws and reached Khairatabad by 8:45. I spent 40 rupees for this travel. Entered our office by 9:35. Collected and organized content about the competitors of TATA NANO in an Excel sheet from 10:00 to 4:30. This information is to be used by Ramya Agasthi, my colleague. She is chief associate of our creative team. Typed out a few concepts for the BTL promotion of TATA NANO car in Andhra Pradesh. Thereafter typed out some catchy punch lines to be used in the catalogue of K K Home Mart in Hyderabad. Mahendra scanned the content of this catalogue and found it passive and informative. He told me to rewrite much of its content and make it journalistic and striking. Left the office by 6:45. Took four private vehicles and returned home by 8:00. Bought five pomegranates for 50 rupees at Kothi for Srijana. Had my supper by 8:30. Went to sleep by 9:30 for my dreams.

24 February (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Got ready by 7:30. Srijana and I took 187 D/V bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 7:45. We got off it at Chintal Basthi bus stop by 8:40. Thence we walked to the house bearing number 6-2-947, the one which we finalized recently to rent in for us. We told them again that we are interested in the one-bedroomed portion in the second floor of this house. Gopal told us to pay them 9,000 rupees as two-month rent advance to confirm it. Srijana told them that we would pay it in two days’ time and enter it on the 6^th of next month. By 9:30 she walked down to Khairatabad bus stop to take a city bus to NGO Colony bus stop. Entered our office by 9:35. Our business development manager Vijay and I reached Gumidelli Towers building at Begumpet by 10:30 on his bike. Our BDM Murali already reached there. The office of TATA Motors is in the 4^th floor of this building. Their territory sales manager Prasad briefed us about the characteristics of TATA NANO car and what we are supposed to do to promote it in Andhra Pradesh through BTL activities. We left this place by 11:30. Vijay and I met Venkat Shiva Nag in Chikoti Gardens area by 11:40. He is the editor of forthcoming English monthly magazine “Voice of Youth”. He asked me to write for it when I gave him my visiting card. Today we discussed the ideas and activities necessary to promote TATA NANO car. Took 187 D/V bus by 6:45 and reached home by 8:10. Today Srijana paid 215 rupees at the office of Muthoot Finance towards the monthly interest for the gold loan we took out from them earlier. Went to sleep by 9:30.

25 February (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Got ready by 7:30. Took 187 D/V bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 7:45 and reached Khairatabad by 8:45. Entered our office by 9:45. Morning revised a little content to be used in the catalogue of K K Home Mart. Afternoon an executive of ICICI Bank came to our office. The folks of Glads Media have their account with this bank. They credit the salaries of their employees to their accounts through this bank. They told me to bring the photocopies of some documents to create an account with this bank for this purpose. He did not find any of my documents as reliable proofs of my local address. He advised me to bring the ration card of my parents for address proof. Informed my brother Sambha to send it to me. I am a gypsy in India. The folks of banks do not consider me as a reliable fellow without address proofs. Banking systems torture ideal and sensitive people in India. They are in favour of cheats, politicians and celebrities. From 5:20 to 9:20 Murali, Ramya and I were engaged in preparing and finalizing a PPT on TATA NANO car. This is our strategy of brand promotion meant for this car. We have to present it to the territory sales manager of TATA Motors. Hired an auto rickshaw by 9:22 and returned home by 10:22. It cost me 210 rupees for this journey of 22 kilometers. I spend 15 rupees only for this distance if I travel by a bus of APSRTC. Went to sleep by 11:15.

26 February (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Took 187 D/V bus by 7:45 and reached Khairatabad by 8:45. Morning it rained for a few minutes. Resultant rainwater created pools of muddy water on low-lying roads. Pedestrians and two-wheeler users suffered on roads due to it. I witnessed these scenes of inconvenience to common people when travelling in this bus. Entered our office by 9:42. Subba Raju, the husband of Madhavi, the maternal aunt of Srijana, deposited 10,000 rupees in my Axis Bank account by 11:00. He lent me this amount of money to enable me to pay two-month advance rent to the owner of the house, into the portion of which we would move soon as tenant. From 12:45 to 1:15 Murali and Ramya presented our PPT to the territory sales manager Sarat in the office of TATA Motors in the building of Gumidelli Towers at Begumpet. I remained as a passive listener in this meeting. Sarat expressed his interest in six activities out of many we proposed to him to promote the brand image of TATA NANO car. He told us to come soon with complete details and budget of these concepts and activities. By 5:04 paid 9,000 rupees to the owner of house bearing number 6-2-947 towards two-month advance rent. Chintal Basthi will be our next place of residence. By 7:30 my colleagues Amarnadh, Naga Raju and I reached the abode of K K Home Mart at Musheerabad. We are doing a catalogue for these folks. Sandeep is a fellow here. He suggested a few changes in the company profile of this catalogue. Took a bus, an auto rickshaw and returned home by 11:30. Went to sleep by 12:00.

27 February (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:00. Scanned three dailies from 8:00 to 9:00. My house owner Pandu Rangacharyulu informed me to vacate our portion as early as possible. They want to perform the Upanayanam of their eldest son on the 6^th of next month. They are expecting us to vacate our portion on or before the 5^th of March. Their relatives start arriving from 4^th or so for this occasion. They want to provide accommodation to them in our portion if we vacate it early. They lost emotional attachment with us. We are like useless aliens to them now. My in-laws, wife and the party are interested in moving into our new rented portion at Chintal Basthi on the 6^th of March. It is an auspicious date according to Telugu calendar. I don’t like these ideas and sentiments related to auspicious dates. Every minute is good for an idealist and spiritualist. I am ready to move out on 3^rd itself. Ironed my clothes from 2:45 to 3:15. Today it was cool and pleasant. Srijana and I took 1 V bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 5:36 and reached Rethifile Bus Station in Secunderabad by 6:35. We entered Secunderabad railway station and sat on a bench on platform 2. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:35. We received my in-laws and Anand. We took two buses and returned home by 9:15. Anand did not grow physically. He could identify his parents and love them. He is close to his maternal grandparents. He turned much mischievous. My brother Sambha sent our ration card with these people. Went to sleep by 11:00.

28 February (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. My father-in-law brought two bottle gourds, lemons, Karrapendalam tubers, sugarcanes, a watermelon, red tubers and homemade snacks from K O Mallavaram for us. I am happy about his affection for us. Took 187 D/V bus by 7:45 at NGO Colony bus stop and reached Khairatabad by 8:44. Entered our office by 9:34. Today Santosh came to our office. He is our office boy. From 12:45 to 1:30 our CEO Mahendra, Murali, Ramya and I talked with a fellow about in-film branding. We want TATA NANO car to be featured in the Telugu film “Veera” of Ravi Teja. The shooting of this film is going on now. They are demanding a few lakhs of rupees for this in-film brand promotion. I wondered about it. Evening we discussed BTL activities necessary for the promotion of TATA NANO car in Andhra Pradesh. Today it is the last working day for Nagaraju in our office as a freelance designer. Mahendra hired him in the beginning of this month to do designing work for the catalogue of K K Home Mart. He is a friend of Amarnadh, our designer. He belongs to Miryala Guda. He is a good guy. I like his character. He is an honest and reliable Indian. He got a job with a company at Banjara Hills as a graphic designer. He wants to join it on a good day. I told him to be in touch with me. I love such people. They are assets of India. Left the office by 7:15. Returned home by 9:00. Today Srijana got the status of our domestic LPG connection transferred from Vanasthali Gas Service. Today they packed many household items in our abode. Went to sleep by 10:30.

1 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 2:00. I could not manage to sleep. Continuous current of thoughts kept me awake. Took 187 D/V bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 7:50 and reached Khairatabad by 8:50. Entered our office by 9:45. Today helped my colleagues Murali and Ramya in finalizing concepts for the promotion of TATA NANO car in Andhra Pradesh. We have to meet Sarat of TATA Motors at Begumpet soon with our PPT. In these casual meetings in our office, we realized that it is not easy to bring people to a given place to promote a product. They are more interested in celebrities and gifts than new products. Consumer is the king. Companies are struggling like anything to attract them and make them buy their products and services. By 4:30 a representative of ICICI Bank came to our office from the branch of this bank at Khairatabad. He took the photocopies of my PAN card, the ration card of my folks at Peda Gummuluru and my passport size photo. He asked my personal details and filled in an application form. He gave me an ICICI Bank Silver Privilege Welcome Kit. There are a cheque book, ATM card and related documents in it. My account number is 000801586131. He gave it to me because I am an employee of Glads Media now. Employees are respected more in India than thinkers, idealists and visionaries. Returned home by 9:15 by bus. Morning Srijana, her parents and Anand went to the abode of Jagannadha Raju at village Kandla Koya to see them. Went to sleep by 11:00.

2 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana, her parents and Anand returned from village Kandla Koya by 8:30. Srijana and I took Anand to the clinic of Dr. Raghavendra Deshmukh by 11:30 on foot. Anand is feeling itchy on his legs. This doctor advised us to apply coconut oil on his body and avoid using soaps and powders when getting him bathed. I told him that we are moving to Khairatabad soon from Vanasthalipuram. We miss him. Srijana bought Zincofer tonic, Orofer XT and Caca-Z tablets at a medical store for 320 rupees to use them for 15 days. Dr. Haripriya prescribed them for her recently. Now she is using Salmon Omega-3 supplements of Amway also. She is in her sixth month of pregnancy now. Went to cinema Sampoorna by 2:40 on my bicycle. Saw the Telugu film “Mangala” of Charmi in it from 3:00 to 5:10. It is very interesting, exciting and insightful. Osho Tulasiram directed it very well. The background score, songs and music are very good. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. They portrayed the elements of black magic, spiritualism and divinity in it. Srijana, Anand, Bala, Aishwarya, Anirudh and I spent together from 6:00 to 7:00. We sat in the nearby GHMC nursery for some time. Aishwarya is disturbed knowing that we are moving to Khairatabad soon. She enjoys spending with us beyond her restless school life. Today I packed the items of my DELL computer system. Srijana and her mother washed and packed many of our kitchen items today. They already packed many items in this rented abode. Today it is Maha Shiva Rathri. Glads Media observed a holiday today for this reason. Went to sleep by 10:30.

3 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. My in-laws, Srijana, Anand and I reached NGO Colony bus stop by 7:40 on foot. We took a 187 D/V bus and reached Khairatabad by 8:40. We went to our new rented portion in the second floor of house bearing number 6-2-947 opposite Radiance School at Chintal Basthi. We dusted the floor, ceiling, walls and shelves in this abode from 8:50 to 9:30. Srijana arranged newspapers in the shelves. Her mother cleaned the floor with a wet cloth. Anand enjoyed playing on this floor. We got this portion of house ready for our entry soon. We locked it and gave the key to the owner of this house. We walked out of Street No. 8. Reached our office by 9:35. Srijana and others walked down via our office. They stood in queue at Khairatabad railway station and got a seat reserved for Rama Raju for Janmabhoomi Express for the 9^th of this month. They took a bus for NGO Colony bus stop by 10:15. Today I did some work related to TATA NANO project. Evening our CEO Gollaputi Mahendra conducted a meeting in his room and explained the nature of work to be carried out by every employee in this firm. He discussed the growth plan of the firm with us and the idea of recruitment of more candidates to fill some gaps in the work process. It is a good exercise. Left the office by 6:34. Took a bus by 6:37 and returned home by 7:55. My in-laws came here to help us in packing our household items and move into our new rented abode. Went to sleep by 10:00.

4 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Got ready by 7:30. Reached NGO Colony bus stop by 7:40. Took a 187 D/V bus and reached Khairatabad by 8:42. Walked to the rented abode of my HCU friend Trinadh. It’s near NASR School. Spent talking with him for 30 minutes. He belongs to Vizianagaram district. He is living with his wife, daughter and mother-in-law now in a little abode. He is a theatre artiste. He is a gentleman. I enjoy his presence. Got into our office by 9:45. Today I collected content on branding from a US-based company website. We use it to gain insights on concepts and practices related to advertising. By 1:45 emailed a six-line poetic piece to the folks of Telugu daily Eenadu at Hyderabad from the Yahoo Mail id of my wife Srijana. They invited submissions from women to publish them on the 8^th of this month in their daily on the occasion of International Women’s Day. I wrote this piece in Telugu and submitted it on behalf of Srijana along with her passport size color photograph. There is a woman in my thoughts and imaginations. I portrayed her characteristics briefly in this six-line submission. Today I applied for a casual leave tomorrow. Mahendra readily granted it. I would have one casual leave in a month as an employee on probation. I would use this leave to peacefully move to Khairatabad from Vanasthalipuram. My colleague Amarnadh and I reached K K Home Mart store at Musheerabad by 7:00 in an auto rickshaw to finalize content related to their catalogue. We spent there till 9:00. Returned home by 10:00 by bus. Went to sleep by 10:30.  

5 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana, Anand, my in-laws and I got ready along with our belongings and packs by 10:00. The DCM van, which was booked by my father-in-law and Srijana, was brought to our abode by 10:40. All of us loaded our household items into this van from 10:45 to 12:00 keeping it just below our first floor. We took leave of my house owner, portion mates and neighbours before getting into this vehicle. We started here by 12:01 and reached our new rented abode at Chintal Basthi by 1:15. Police stopped this vehicle twice on the way. Its driver paid 100 rupees at the second point as fine. We unloaded our items into the ground portion of house bearing number 6-2-947 from this van by 1:40. This portion is vacant now. The driver too helped us in this work. Paid 1300 rupees to him. We moved our household items into our second floor from the ground portion from 1:45 to 4:30. We had homemade lunch by 3:30. My mother-in-law prepared rice, curry and turmeric soup for us in our old rented abode and brought it here. We could arrange our things in different places and shelves in our rented portion by 10:30. This portion has a bedroom, hall, kitchen, a toilet-cum-bathroom and a small front part to sit and glance across the road. It’s a compact portion. My association with the two-bedroomed portion in the house bearing number 6-5-33 at Self Finance Colony in Vanasthalipuram ended today. I enjoyed my life in this beautiful place. Went to sleep by 11:00. 

6 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night Anand got up around 3:00 and cried for some time. I was disturbed. I could not sleep for two hours. Turned angry at this bad habit of Anand. Walked down towards Khairatabad railway station by 8:30. Bought 2250 grams of jaggery, four shaving items, detergent cakes, onions, sweet potatoes, cabbage, tomatoes, bananas and two milk packets. They cost me about 300 rupees. Bought The Hindu, Eenadu and Sakshi when walking back to home. My mother-in-law observed the ceremony of ‘boiling milk’ on our stove by 9:30 because it is auspicious time to do it according to Telugu calendar. It is part of Hindu tradition. We start cooking food in a new abode of residence after this ceremony. She prepared sweet rice with jaggery, milk and cardamoms, boiling milk. Thus we formally entered this compact abode today. My in-laws and Anand took a 218 ordinary bus at Vidyut Soudha bus stop by 2:30 for Ashok Nagar near Serilingampally. They went to the abode of Madhavi, the maternal aunt of Srijana. Srijana and I took them to this bus stop. I cried for 10 minutes in our abode before this thinking about Anand. I often scold him for his mischief as a disciplinarian. I regret it later as a humanitarian thinking about his age and innocence. Srijana and I are missing him. He should enjoy our love and care for him. He is happy with his maternal grandparents. He is not much interested in Srijana or me. Night the marriage of Telugu film actor Allu Arjun took place at Madhapur in Hyderabad. Watched its live telecast on television. My friend Deepthi appeared. Went to sleep by 10:30. 

7 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:45. Started to the office of Glads Media by 9:20 on foot. I have to cross the road and go to the other side of it to reach our office. It’s a risky feat for me. I have to escape from the flow of vehicles observing them very carefully. Many are dying frequently in twin cities when crossing busy roads. I don’t like the idea of crossing these busy roads but God subjected me to it. There is an over-bridge near Khairatabad bus stop. I have to spend 10 minutes to use it and cross this road safely. I will finalize that option after checking this dangerous choice for a few days. My life is precious. God equipped me with a powerful brain. I should use it to live safely and die peacefully one day. Morning collected content from the website of Micro Arts Creative Agency. They posted great content on their website about branding and advertising. It is like a short reference book. Afternoon created the account of Glads Media on Google’s Blogger, LinkedIn and Facebook. Our CEO Mahendra told me to make our company website famous on the Internet also. Today I crossed the main road four times. I did it once to go to the office in the morning, to come for the lunch in the afternoon, go back to office after it and return home in the evening. Morning my in-laws and Anand returned from Ashok Nagar by 11:30 by bus. Night Srijana and I walked to a nearby medical store along with Anand and bought a 500-gram bottle of Junior Horlicks for him for 150 rupees. Slept by 10:00. 

8 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today it is International Women’s Day. Fitted different parts of my computer system by 8:45 in our bedroom beside our bed and started using it in this abode. My mother-in-law prepared Upma for our breakfast. Reached our office by 9:30. The six-line piece of poetry in Telugu, which I recently emailed to the folks of Telugu daily Eenadu, was not published in it today. They invited entries on the occasion of International Women’s Day. I emailed it from the email id of Srijana because only women can participate in it. They did not publish any piece of poetry in it today. They published related stories about women achievers in a different format. I wrote an insightful piece of poetry. I thought that they would publish it. They disappointed me. Today I typed out content to be posted on the website of Glads Media. Also created a template for the design of this website on a Microsoft Excel sheet. Returned home by 7:15. My in-laws got ready with their luggage to go back to their village tomorrow morning. They are taking back Anand also along with them. He is crying frequently without considerable cause. He got everything to eat and fill his stomach. He has time and space to play and enjoy at his level. His maternal grandparents are treating him like a prince. He has parents, relatives and resources to depend on. All these facilities and privileges made him so. I am not happy with this bitter truth. He is impatient and cowardly. I don’t like such kids as a disciplinarian. May God bless him. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, her parents, Anand and I hired an auto rickshaw for 80 rupees by 5:50 at Chintal Basthi bus stop and reached Secunderabad railway station by 6:20 via Necklace Road. Janmabhoomi Express was on platform 1. Srijana’s parents and Anand took their seats 106 and 107 in its reservation coach D-1 by 6:22. Bought a copy of Eenadu and scanned it for 20 minutes. We left the station by 7:00. Anand is enjoying his innocent, mischievous and carefree life in the company of his maternal grandparents in village K O Mallavaram. Srijana and I miss him here but we should allow him to live there where he is comfortable and happy. We took a 49 Z route bus up to Khairatabad bus stop and reached home by 7:30. Went to our office by 9:30. Our CEO Mahendra appreciated the unique content I wrote to be posted on our company website of Glads Media but said that he likes to keep the present content and website design as they are. He told me to edit and improve the content wherever necessary and add some features to its Home Page to make it more attractive and interactive. He wants to use less content and relevant and insightful images on every web page. He is possessive of the present version of colors and design of his company website. Afternoon worked in the direction shown by him revising the given website content and collecting insightful images from Google. Left the office by 7:00. Srijana’s parents and Anand reached K O Mallavaram by 8:30. Slept by 10:00.

10 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00 but continued on cot till 7:00. It’s my endeavor to rest and relax more than necessary. Went to our office by 9:30. Today I revised the present content posted on the company website of Glads Media and collected related images from Google. This work was over by 6:30. We use this content and these images when reshaping this website to give it a new and comprehensive look. Our CEO Mahendra had to prepare and email a report to the folks of Reliance Digital this night itself. They want us to do a set of promotional activities for them. They are opening a Reliance Digital store at Vidya Nagar on the 26^th of this month. We have to create enormous awareness about the launch of this store before and after it. I stayed back and typed up content related to it depending on the dictation of Mahendra. Walked back to home by 8:30. This morning a small family entered the ground level portion in this house. There is no suitable space to keep my bicycle here. We put it on the terrace of the little public library adjoining this building. There are no books or visitors for this library now. The folks of state government would have built it some 40 years ago. I love its antique look and compact size. I put two old clothes on this bicycle to protect its color and quality from the effects of sun and rain. It served me a lot when I was in Vanasthalipuram. Now I am not getting time to use it. It’s my great friend. Today the activists of TRS held “Million March” on Necklace Road demanding a separate Telangana state. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 March (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00 but remained on cot till 7:00. Went to our office by 9:30. Today I updated some content for the catalogue of K K Home Mart and the company website of Glads Media. Morning sent an enquiry to the folks of Punya Publications in Bengaluru through the online contact form on their company website. I asked them if they can publish my book. Afternoon somebody sent an SMS to my cellphone. I replied. We exchanged about six SMSes in 20 minutes’ time. I don’t know whether this living entity is a male or female creature. Toward the end of it, the SMS stated that it is Aryan from Warangal. He or she informed me that he is my new friend. The cellphone number of this entity is 9059345998. I did not call up to this number because he or she is not interested in that facet of direct communication with me. I must respect the choices and privacy preferences of such creatures. I like such messages and interactions from others with elements of mystery and suspense. Novelty and surprise add beauty and passion to our life. By 6:15 my colleague Amarnadh and I reached K K Home Mart at Musheerabad in an auto rickshaw. Lalit Patel and Sandeep are expecting more changes and content additions in their catalogue being designed by us. They would be free at night only to attend the work of their catalogue. Mahendra made us into daily coolies in attending the catalogue work of these blokes. Returned home by 10:20. Went to sleep by 11:00.

12 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. Went to our office by 9:30. Today I did a little work related to the catalogue of K K Home Mart and Sangam Dairy. Visited the website of Heritages, a dairy business unit in the United States of America. I enjoyed reading the history of this firm. I felt like working with them leaving my present job here. Milk improves the health of human beings. I like the people of dairy industry. Theirs is an ideal business. Going to the USA is not that easy. They don’t take me there to offer me job in their dairy unit. I emailed to them just to inform them that I am interested to work with them in some position. Today I posted two comments on the blog site of Ram Gopal Varma. He is a brave, honest and stately Indian film director. He is an impressive and insightful brand in the present Indian film industry. He sacrificed his personal and family life for the sake of his professional life. He earned and retained a unique identity for himself as a film personality. He is a self-made achiever and challenger. I like his life and character. Afternoon my cousin Murali informed me that our familiar folks came to the Ashram of Shri Ram Chandra Mission at Thumukunta from Gollalagunta to see their spiritual master. He told me to come there to see them. I have no time to enjoy my personal life now. Glads Media turned me into a machine. I became so to earn money for my survival. My colleague Amarnadh and I reached the shop space of K K Home Mart at Musheerabad by 6:30 in an auto rickshaw to do their catalogue related work. Returned home by 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:15.

13 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:00. Srijana, my colleague Amarnadh and I reached our office by 10:15. There was power cut till 11:00. We spent reading newspapers. I carried out some content related work to be used in the catalogue of K K Home Mart till 12:00. Amarnadh added more images to this catalogue. Srijana and I returned home by 12:15. We did not feel like going out because we have no money to spend. My HCU friend Vemali Trinadha Rao came to our abode by 4:45. Srijana, he and I spent talking among ourselves till 9:15. We discussed our domestic affairs and contemporary issues. My friend Krishna Kishore talked with me from 4:15 to 4:50 from London over phone. I advised him to get into dairy business or cultivation of medicinal plants in their agricultural land at Kota Nanduru. He is already into these ideas. I encouraged him to do it. He has to earn and save about 10 lakh rupees to do it. He has no reserves now. Trinadh left for his abode by 9:20. He is into theatre arts. My parents are interested in going to Tirupati to see Lord Venkateshwara as early as possible. They earlier promised to this God that they would visit Him along with all of us. My eldest brother Srinivas and I are jobholders. We don’t get many leaves at a time. Personally I am not interested in going to any temple to see and satisfy a god or goddess. Many practitioners of Hinduism are worse than devils now. I am not such a Hindu. I understood human life more than necessary. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

14 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Nanaji, a friend of Srijana, came here by 9:30 from Tandur by a passenger train. They are classmates at Government High School in K O Mallavaram in their 8^th, 9^th and 10^th standards. Now he is working in a factory at Tandur. He started back by 4:30 from Khairatabad railway station taking a passenger train. Srijana borrowed 6,000 rupees from him for our expenses. Went to our office by 9:45. Today I did not do much office related work. Sent a short message to Swagata Gupta through Facebook. I informed her that two married entities can admire each other. My dreams signify that she admires me a lot. She is concealing those truths in reality. This message is to let her know that I always admire her. I invited her to our abode along with her husband. She is working with Newswire 18 at Bengaluru now. Today I submitted the manuscript of my second book to the folks of Whitmore Publishing in the USA for consideration. Today got an email reply from the creatures of Punya Publications in Bengaluru. They wrote that they are not publishing stories now. I know about their standards and history as a publishing firm. I did not like to write back and educate them. Publishers are running after money and celebrities now but not quality works and distinguished writers. Returned home by 7:45. Srijana and I went out by 8:00 to buy a few things. Bought two bottles of ‘Rooh Afza’ for her. It is tasty and nutritious. The little creature in her body is growing well. She must consume good food items now. She got enough time to rest at home. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 7:00. Went to the abode of Trinadh at NASR School by 8:30 on my bicycle and collected a copy of media directory published by the folks of Yuva Kala Vahini in Hyderabad. It contains the photos, addresses and details of media creatures. Paid 100 rupees to him for it. On the way back, kept my bicycle in the cellar of building named ‘Maruthi Plaza’. Went to our office by 9:30. Today our designer Amarnadh started reshaping the look and content of the company website of Glads Media depending on the inputs provided by me and our CEO Mahendra. I guided him in this regard. By 5:00 an amount of 11,571 rupees was credited to my ICICI Bank account by the folks of Glads Media. It’s my salary for my 12 working days in February. Srijana and I felt relieved. The folks of this bank informed me about these things through automated SMSes to my cellphone. Returned home by 7:50. Srijana and I walked down to the ICICI Bank at Khairatabad by 8:30. Withdrew 3,500 rupees from the ATM Centre of ICICI Bank here. Morning a technician of Hathway installed a box near our television for cable TV channels. Srijana paid 2050 rupees to him for this service. We need not pay anything to them for one year. This cable TV subscription fee and contract is valid for one year. Morning Srijana consulted Dr. D Venkateshwarlu at Swetha Nursing Home in Chintal Basthi. He prescribed medical tests, which cost us 2500 rupees here. I advised Srijana to avoid many of them. Went to sleep by 10:30.

16 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:30. Now we are finalizing ‘100 Days Sprint’ program. Our business development managers have to meet about 250 prospective clients between 23 March and 30 June this year and generate net revenue of 45 lakh rupees. It is our business goal. They are recruiting more folks to achieve these things. Today I worked on this project. My endeavor to find a publisher for my second book is not getting successful. Leadstart Publishing seems to be the last option. I have to contribute about 1, 30,000 rupees to get it published by them. I cannot afford it now. I am looking for funding from others. There are many millionaires and billionaires in India. Most of them are spending huge amounts of money for fashion, functions, brutal sex with immoral celebrities, cricket and luxuries. They made India immoral and restless through their dirty lives and unethical businesses. I want to live and die as an idealist and thinker. I have to consult good people to get funding for my book. Writers and thinkers are not an attractive lot in India now for people but film and political celebrities. They want to play funny games instead of participating in a thought process or activity, which demands intelligence and idealism from them. They want to grow cheating and misguiding others. Majority Indians are opportunists and escapists in terms of social service and patriotism. I want to educate and reform such Indians as a writer. It’s my goal and dream. I am not happy with my life but I have to play a good role according to my Karma. Went to sleep by 10:00.

17 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Morning Srijana prepared Tamarind Rice (Pulihora in Telugu) for us to have for our breakfast, lunch and supper. It was very tasty. Went to our office by 9:30. Today I collected the details of hotels, restaurants, resorts, schools, colleges, coaching institutes, IMFL, cement companies, tour and travel operators and SSIs based in Hyderabad and Secunderabad. I wondered to know about the volume of business going on in these areas in Andhra Pradesh. Returned home by 7:45. By 11:00, this morning, Srijana went to the rented abode of her maternal aunt Madhavi at Ashok Nagar near Serilingampally by bus. She repaid 5000 rupees to her uncle Subba Raju on behalf of me. She spent there for about six hours and returned home by 6:30 by bus. Recently my brother Srinivas got nine tickets reserved for his family, my parents and the family of my brother Sambha for Tirumala Express for the 20^th of next month. I have to be in Tirupati by the morning of 21 April to join them there. My parents decided to see Lord Venkateshwara along with their three sons, daughters-in-law and grandchildren. They have been thinking about it for the last three years. We went to Tirupati about 25 years ago. I too decided to join them in this historical family pilgrimage tour. My wife Srijana does not come there with us because she is pregnant now. My son Anand is also excluded from this tour because he is not accustomed to and comfortable with me. My parents are happy about this tour. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 March (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Walked down to Khairatabad railway station by 8:10 and stood there in the reservation queue. Got a berth reserved for me for Narayanadri Express from Secunderabad to Tirupati for 20 April paying 284 rupees. Walked back to home by 8:50. Went to our office by 9:30. Morning collected details of some hotels and schools situated in twin cities. By 3:00 hired an auto rickshaw at our office and reached the shop space of K K Home Mart at Musheerabad by 3:20. Keshav reached there by 3:30. He is an orthodox Tamil Brahmin. He recently retired as a deputy general manager from a State Bank of India. He is a friend of Lalit Patel and Shanti Patel, the present owners of K K Home Mart. The age of their bond is about 25 years. Keshav must be about 60. His son and daughter are working in the USA now. He is a happy Indian. He loves English language and uses it frequently. He is improving the standard of content developed by me for the catalogue of K K Home Mart. Today also he did it manually for about two hours. I incorporated those changes on a computer. Hired an auto rickshaw by 6:30 and returned to our office by 7:00. My colleagues Ramya and Murali asked me if I am interested in coming to the “Entrepreneur Awards” ceremony being organized by the folks of Zee Telugu television channel. They sent an invitation card to our office folks. They are conducting it in a star hotel. It may be continued till late night hours. I replied in the negative. Morning Dr. Venkateshwarlu did a tetanus preventive injection to Srijana. She bought medicines prescribed by him. Went to sleep by 10:30.

19 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:30. Today it’s Holi. They declared today as a holiday earlier but made it into a working day because we did not work on a day recently due to the strike by the folks of TRS party. Morning revised the content to be posted on our company website. Added relevant keywords to the content, wherever possible, minding SEO. By 2:30 went into apartment bearing number 502 in the fifth floor of our building named ‘Maruthi Plaza’. Our office space will be this abode very soon. I found the space and furnishing good in this office. This is the office of C 41 Technologies. They are not using it now. Our folks buy these office items from him for our use. Evening collected some content from Wikipedia. This is knowledge base for all creative folks in our firm. Our CEO Gollaputi Mahendra advised me to research online frequently and collect relevant information for our company needs. Returned home by 7:20. This night super moon phenomenon is going to occur in the sky. Moon comes very closer to earth planet and so he appears bigger and brighter than he normally is. It happens once a decade or so. I like such wonders of this universe. I am very poor at things related to this earth planet, space and astronomy. God created me to live in His mysterious and wonderful creation like an innocent and dreamy entity. I did not use colors today to celebrate my little existence. Went to sleep by 11:00.

20 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Last night I glanced at the super moon in the sky around 12:40. I did not find him brighter and bigger as expected. Srijana and I got ready by 6:15. We reached Sudarshan Lodge at Narayana Guda by 7:20. My brother Srinivas was there along with his three colleagues of UCO Bank. They came here this morning by Godavari Express to attend a meeting of their employees union today. Srijana and I spent talking with my brother for 15 minutes about our domestic affairs. We gave him a dozen bananas and a pack of Cadbury Eclairs chocolates. I took the copy of my book Stories of Love and Beauty from him. I have to read it and send error report to the folks of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai for the rectification in the next print run of this book. My brother gave me 100 rupees asking me to buy fruits for Srijana. Srijana and I returned home by 8:00. A representative of BEAM Telecom came to our abode by 11:00. Paid 1000 rupees to him towards their B-Fast 400 data limit plan. They install their broadband connection to my computer soon. They collected 600 rupees as installation fee. Monthly rent is 400 rupees for it. The broadband speed is 2Mbps and usage limit is 2.2 GB per month. I need Internet at home as a writer and blogger. Today I read eight stories in my book, covering 132 pages, in about three hours’ time. Identified three grammatical errors in these pages. Walked to the vegetable market in Chintal Basthi by 5:30 and bought vegetables worth 100 rupees for our domestic use. My brother Srinivas took Godavari Express by 6:00, this evening, at Secunderabad railway station, to go back to his abode in Visakhapatnam. Went to sleep by 10:30.

21 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:30. All the office items related to our company were already moved into the apartment bearing number 502 in the fifth floor of building named ‘Maruthi Plaza’. Our systems administrator Satya Kishore and office boy Santosh worked like restless machines for it. There is dust everywhere in this abode now. Our fellows are making holes in the walls with an electrical drilling machine to install network and electricity wires into them. Our CEO Mahendra and CFO Akkineni Suresh decided to install AC machines in this space of our new office instead of wall and ceiling fans. Broadband access could be established by 12:00 to a few computer systems. By 2:00 my colleague Amarnadh and I started to the shop space of K K Home Mart at Musheerabad in an auto rickshaw to make necessary changes in the content of their catalogue. They kept us there rest of the day saying that this work must be finished today at any cost. About six folks are providing their inputs to improve the content of this catalogue. Thus they made it into a variety soup into which anybody may put anything at any time to spoil its taste to the maximum possible extent. Amarnadh and I are honorary cooks of this soup. We can merely witness how they are spoiling this soup in their kitchen. Their guests and customers would be real victims later. By 4:00, this afternoon, a representative of BEAM Telecom provided broadband connection to my computer system at home in the presence of Srijana. 

22 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 8:30. I remained at the shop space of K K Home Mart till 5:00 this morning along with Amarnadh and returned home by 5:30. It was an unexpected night duty for us. I cannot sleep well during daytime. By 10:30 created a blog site titled http://dcraju.blogspot.com. It stays along with my present blog site http://virahini.blogspot.com. The name of this blog site is Solitary Bird. I created it to post the content of my personal diaries on it. I should allow others to read my diaries online initially. They educate and entertain them to a great extent. I should not delay this process. I will get them published later, in the form of books, for all to read. My thoughts are for all. My dream is to see humanity as a race of universal fraternity and unconditional love. Today I posted the content of my diary of 1995 on this blog site. I owe a lot to the folks of Blogger and Google. They provided a lot of free online space for me to post my content there. It is a powerful medium to keep in touch with others across the world. The technology, being invented and used by Google, is bringing all closer and closer now. Went to our office by 11:30. Today also our systems administrator and office boy worked hard to put things in order in our new office. I felt sleepy and worn-out throughout the day. I spent casually for long in the office. Night helped my office folks a little in keeping computer systems, chairs and tables here and there. The intensity of summer is increasing day by day. Today we felt sultry in our office. Returned home by 8:00. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

23 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 7:00. Went to our office by 9:30. Today I did not do much work. Today our systems administrator Satya Kishore and office boy Santosh struggled a lot and brought a final look to it by the evening. We helped them to some extent. They got eight wall fans fitted to provide air to us. Evening collected some content from Wikipedia about a few types of advertising. It is for our database of subject knowledge for related creatures to read and understand. Returned home by 7:15. Today it is the marriage day of Srijana and me. We lived together for three years as married entities. I provided her with enough liberty to live and experience her life as a creature with self-respect and individuality. I often think that she is not growing psychologically to understand the contemporary social evils and thus develop a broader perspective about this world. She immediately turns moody and sad if I ever criticize her about her general knowledge and improvement in thinking. She is a beautiful, sensitive and reliable wife to me. I advised her to write her personal diary every day in Telugu. Thus I and others can understand her better. She is doing it. I enjoy her presence and innocence. My Lord Krishna presented her to me as a special gift. She is a guest to my life. Today we did not do anything to celebrate this day. I have no time beyond my office hours. She told me to take permission and come home one hour early to go to the Necklace Road but I did not like that idea. Went to sleep by 11:00.

24 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:35. Our CEO Mahendra was waiting for his subordinates to come to the office. Ramya and Murali decorated our office with flowers and green leaves. A priest came by 10:15. Today the management of our firm is entering this office space formally and ceremoniously. This priest chanted mantras on this occasion. Mahendra broke a pumpkin and a coconut at the entrance of this office by 10:30 under the guidance of this priest. Later he worshipped the photos of Hindu deities in the suggested manner. This ceremony was over by 11:00. I wonder at such Hindu ceremonies meant for getting the blessings of God. It is a useless and worthless formality. Human beings must grow psychologically and spiritually to be blessed by God. They should practice virtues at personal and social levels. God does not forgive and bless sinners and criminals. One’s Karma dictates and directs one’s course of life. Today I collected some content from Wikipedia. Evening Mahendra talked with me for 10 minutes privately. He said that he would fire me soon if he does not find me as suitable and useful to his expectations and needs. Returned home by 7:40. Morning Srijana went to Vanasthalipuram by bus. She paid 162 rupees in the office of Muthoot Finance there, towards monthly interest for 16000 rupees, which I borrowed from them earlier, pledging her two gold bangles. She also paid 330 rupees at the Reliance Communications store there near Ganesh Temple towards my monthly cellphone bill. She spent at the abodes of our familiar folks there for three hours. She returned home by 4:00 by a 187 D/V bus. Went to sleep by 11:00 for my dreams.

25 March (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:30. Today I wrote content in Telugu for the brochure of Seelin liquid. A distributor is introducing this liquid in Andhra Pradesh soon. We are designing this brochure for him in Telugu. This liquid is being imported from the USA for the Indian market. If it is pumped into the tires of light and heavy duty vehicles, it creates a protective layer in the tube or tubeless tires and protects them from punctures. It’s a revolutionary and very useful product for the users of vehicles in India, where roads are very bad. The folks of Glads Media have to develop and implement advertising material and promotional activities for this product. Evening our designer Amarnadh and I developed a tentative brochure design for it. Returned home by 7:45. Srijana went to Secunderabad railway station by 6:30 by bus to receive her father. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:10. They hired an auto rickshaw for 60 rupees and reached our rented abode by 8:15. My father-in-law is considering the idea of working as a supervisor in a large agricultural farm near Hyderabad on monthly salary basis. He came here to see that farm and talk with the owner of it about this job. He brought a watermelon, pickles, vegetables, coconuts, lemons, little raw mangoes and sweets for us. Morning Srijana applied a paste of herbal powder on my hair and moustache to turn a few strands of white hair into black color. I don’t like it. Went to sleep by 11:00.

26 March (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:30. Today I worked on the project of brochure development for Seelin liquid. By 1:00 my colleagues Suresh, Amarnadh and I started to Ramanthapur on two bikes. We three reached the office of Charan Chakra Solutions, beside Subham Gardens, by 2:00. They are going to promote, market and sell Seelin liquid in Telangana and Coastal Andhra regions. We talked with the main folks of this distribution agency for one hour about the ways and means to be followed to promote and sell Seelin liquid. We three reached Bawarchi Restaurant at RTC Crossroads by 3:00 via Vidya Nagar. We got into the second floor of this restaurant by 3:15. Suresh ordered two plates of Chicken Biryani for 240 rupees for three of us. It was hot, tasty and oily. Many modern Indians like to eat spicy and oily foods. Useless and harmful carbonated drinks are their favourite beverages in all seasons. For them, entertainment and fun means thoughtless eating and careless spending. Such worthless rogues frequent hotels and restaurants of this kind. They live badly and die sadly ruining the good culture and image of India. My colleague Suresh is one of such idiots of India. Had this tasty food sponsored by him. Returned home by 7:30. Morning Srijana and her father went to Bazar Ghat area and got my domestic HP LPG connection registered to our present residential address at Chintal Basthi. By 7:35, Jagannadha Raju, the paternal uncle of Srijana, came to our abode from village Kandla Koya. We all spent talking among ourselves for some time. Went to sleep by 11:00.

  

27 March (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Morning read dailies Eenadu, The Hindu and Sakshi for two hours. By 12:30 read a short message sent by Swagata Gupta to me through Facebook. Recently I sent two messages to her through Facebook. It is her first piece of communication to me. She sent me the following message: “You are a psychologically ill person. May you soon get some medical help”. I was shocked after reading this message from her. Somehow I developed admiration for her. It kept on growing over time. I did not know about her views about me. I understood her silence wrongly. Today she awoke me with this message. She should have done it in 2006 itself. I would not have written those short stories for her. I would not have dedicated my first book to her. Spent all the day recollecting my sense of admiration for her. I am hurt knowing that she developed such opinion about me. I will try to distance myself from her psychologically. I admired her for five years. I cannot erase her image from my psyche within five minutes. Typed out and posted a blog titled “Psychologically Ill Person” on my blog site by 2:30 discussing this matter. Evening my cousin Vasu reserved two berths for Srijana and her father online for East Coast Express for the 29^th of this month from Secunderabad to Tuni. Srijana wants to go to K O Mallavaram to see Anand. I cannot satisfy my personal life as long as I am an employee of a modern firm. I cannot go to see Anand. My life is mechanical now. Went to sleep by 10:50.

28 March (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:30. Morning I did not do much work. Afternoon our folks discussed the expectations of Seshachala Herbal Products Pvt. Ltd. They are introducing many herbal products into the market of Andhra Pradesh soon. We have to promote the brand image of this firm and their products. Meanwhile Uday of Charan Chakra Solutions came. He discussed the content of their brochure for 20 minutes. Today Mahendra told us that we have to stretch our working hours and work hard in the coming 100 days. We call it “Sprint 100”. We have to earn a set amount of revenue during this time meeting a given number of prospective clients. I felt disturbed after listening to his words of caution to all of us. He is expecting us to work like machines. He said that all business firms are working like this now. I am against such trends and culture in India. Development achieved at the cost of personal lives of employees leads to a restless and artificial society. Returned home by 8:00. Srinivas of ‘Eetharam’ section of Telugu daily Eenadu came to our abode by 9:00 from their head office at Somajiguda. Eetharam means this generation. They write about the trends, culture and achievements of contemporary youth in this exclusive section page every Saturday. I love this page and read it every Saturday with special interest. He asked me about my evolution and goals as a writer. I answered him in a vague and illogical manner. I think I know how to write but not how to portray my spirit of life as a writer and dreamer. He casually jotted down some points about me. I emailed a few files to him to understand me better at a later stage while in his office space. Went to sleep by 11:00.

29 March (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana, her father and I walked to the main road at the other end of our lane by 9:10. They hired an auto rickshaw for 30 rupees to Nampally railway station. It may be about two kilometres from this place. They took East Coast Express by 9:30. Entered our office by 9:35. Today I collected names to be used for the new products of Seshachala Herbal Products Private Limited. I did not find comprehensive information about the industry of herbal products in India. There are four or five major players in this industry in India. By 4:13, Padma of Telugu daily Eenadu came to Maruthi Plaza. She quickly took about eight photos of me with her digital camera and rushed away. Reporter Srinivas of ‘Eetharam’ desk of Telugu daily Eenadu sent her here. They use one of these photos to publish along with a brief report on me as an emerging English writer in India. They are likely to publish it this or next Saturday. I felt happy about being photographed by this photographer of Eenadu. It’s a classic Telugu daily with an admirable set of columnists, editors, contributors and correspondents. I will be happy to see a report in it about me with my photo. The folks of English dailies do not know about me. I did not spend money to promote my book or me. Publicity is a big business segment in India now. Srijana and her father got off East Coast Express at Tuni railway station by 9:30 this night. They reached K O Mallavaram by 10:00. Went to sleep by 10:30.

30 March (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:30. Every day I am crossing the road near Chintal Basthi bus stop escaping from vehicles. If I walk down and use the over-bridge, I need to invest 10 more minutes every time I cross this road. Many like to do things fast and save time. About 10,000 pedestrians cross roads at avoidable places in twin cities every day. Each of them thinks that nothing bad happens to him or her when crossing road. Hope guides the lives of ordinary people more than fear and vision. Today I did research and content writing work for the new products of Sechachala. By 1:50 had my lunch in the Golden Deluxe Mess along with my colleagues Amarnadh and Suresh. When Srijana is here, she adds curd and curry to rice and puts those two combinations in two small plastic tins. The curry combination is for energy and curd combination is for keeping my stomach cool. I eat them with a spoon. I need not go out from our office nor spend money for food in a hotel. Housewives make the hectic and tense lives of their husbands bearable and comfortable living and working like honorary servants in their homes. Now Srijana got a little relief from this regular domestic service to me. She is with her son and parents. I love her more when she is away from me than when with me. I miss her presence and service to me. I am a selfish person from this perspective. Night had two chapatis at hotel Krishna for 22 rupees. I am not feeling like cooking food for me at home. My office hours may be the reason for it. Summer is growing. Went to sleep by 10:45.

31 March (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:30. Today I did work related to Seshachala Herbal Products. Afternoon our HR manager Chetanya Lakshmi emailed a notice to all of us. She wrote about a new system of working hours and discipline in it, which we have to follow from tomorrow onwards in this firm. The new office timings are from 9:15 a.m. to 6:30 p.m. One can take two two-hour permissions in a month. There are some related terms and conditions. They are rigid and old-fashioned. They affect employee morale. Dealing with Mahendra is difficult. He knows how to criticize us when he expects us to work more than we can do. He thinks that employees work better if he often frightens and cautions them in different contexts in different ways. Akkineni Suresh remains calm, balanced and ideal in his behavior in this office. These two smoke cigarettes going out frequently. I don’t like doing a job in any company. I have to do it for the sake of money and survival. Returned home by 7:30. Had a plate of Set Dosa at hotel Krishna by 8:00. Today Srijana consulted Dr. C S Lakshmi at Talli Pilla Hospital in Tuni. She prescribed Betlex-Forte, Shelcal-250 and Orofer-XT tablets for her. She said that Srijana need not undergo ultrasound scan. She prescribed blood and urine tests only. I felt happy about her simple process of medical tests. She said that baby is growing well in Srijana’s womb. She is planning to come back to Hyderabad soon. Watched television from 8:30 to 10:00. Went to sleep by 11:00.

1 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:10 with four biscuit packs. Bought them for 20 rupees at a medical store. Had one of these packs for my breakfast. I have to spend about 40 rupees at a hotel to fill my stomach with those light and useless breakfast items there. I think biscuits are better than them.  Today I did creative and written works related to the company and herbal products of Seshachala. I did not celebrate April Fools’ Day today. I love the spirit of such unique days. Recently my father attracted the blame of my sister-in-law Kranti in Peda Gummuluru. He observed that she did not keep her house clean dusting every nook and corner of it with a broom. He cleaned part of it. She blamed him for it. We are not happy with the culture of Kranti and her mother Janaki in this regard. They don’t know how to keep their house clean and beautiful. If we ever criticize them about it, they fight back with us. Those, who don’t change, based on constructive criticism, from others, cannot grow as human beings. My mother did not like the attitude and behavior of Kranti towards my father in this regard. She decided not to go to their house and advised my father also to remain away from that house. My brother Sambha is also an undisciplined idiot in this regard. He is getting attracted towards dirty politics. He has no time for thinking about him and reforming his life. I think it’s his Karma. Paid 4,500 rupees to our house owner by 9:30 towards monthly rent for my portion for March. It’s my standard. Borrowed 2000 rupees from my friend Trinadh for it. Went to sleep by 10:00.

2 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I checked the websites of some advertising companies located in the USA, Greece, France, Germany, Canada and India. Typed up the URLs of about 12 websites. Our CEO Mahendra wants the website of our company to be designed uniquely. He is not happy with the design and look of our company website. These unique websites are for reference. Today all the folks in our company were engaged in discussing and watching World Cup. Many left the office by 2:00. Cricket became part of their life and culture. I am not happy among these shallow and dirty Indians. Our office boy Santosh, my colleague Ramya Agasthi and I left the office by 6:15. Santosh dropped me at Punjagutta Crossroads by 6:40 on his bike on his way back to home at Bora Banda. Thence took a city bus and reached Secunderabad railway station by 7:30. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:50. My maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma and my uncle Chanti Babu got off it with three items of luggage. We three took a 219 bus by 7:50 and reached Beeramguda bus stop by 8:50. Anantha Varma came here to receive us. We four reached his rented abode at Shirdi Sai Colony by 9:05 on foot. My cousin Sirisha served me supper by 10:30. Her daughter Shiva Sahithi is affected with pneumonia. Anantha Varma and she spent in a children’s hospital at Chanda Nagar for four days and nights getting her treated. They spent about 15,000 rupees for this treatment. My uncle and aunt came here to take care of their granddaughter in this tense situation. Felt happy talking with them. Went to sleep by 12:30.

3 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Took leave of my aunt, cousin and walked to Beeramguda bus stop. Took two city buses and reached Khairatabad bus stop by 8:00. Bought Eenadu, The Hindu and Sakshi dailies and reached my abode by 8:15. Turned sleepy and dim due to less sleep last night. I have no time to read newspapers completely. I am reading my book Stories of Love and Beauty whenever I am getting a little time beyond my office hours. There are some grammatical errors in this book. Sunil K Poolani of Leadstart Publishing ruined the quality of this book. He does many things at a time and so he does not do anything properly. He is interested in publishing many books for quantity sake but not language quality. He is a stupid and eccentric publisher. One language error is enough to tarnish the image of a book, publisher and writer. Thus he disturbed me deeply publishing my first book with many language errors. Today I read some stories in this book and marked a few errors in it. This is the work of a publisher to be done before printing a book. Since Sunil is an idiot, who does not get a manuscript edited thoroughly before getting it printed, I am doing this editing work now. I regret getting my book published by them. Publishers are not accepting the works of new writers. I ended up with Leadstart because they got ready to publish my book. This is not favorable time for good writers. Night watched television for three hours. It is hot. Went to sleep by 11:15.

4 April (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I read many stories in my book Stories of Love and Beauty and identified grammatical errors in it. I did it earlier also when I got time for it. By today I could complete my work in this regard. There are about 30 grammatical errors in it. Typed them up on a Microsoft Word file in a table format from 6:30 to 8:30 on my computer at home. Emailed it to Swarup Nanda of Leadstart Publishing by 8:40. I cautioned him not to repeat these errors in my book. I think they printed 300 copies of my book in the first print run. They incorporate these changes in my book before they go for second print run. The author of a book could find out many language errors in his or her book means the concerning publisher failed to get it edited properly. Poor language editing tarnishes the image of an author, a book or a publishing firm. Today it is the first day of the Telugu year Khara Naama, which Telugu people celebrate as Ugadi. Srijana and Anand celebrated it well in Viswanadhapuram along with their folks there. My brother-in-law Vamsy went there from Bengaluru. My in-laws come to Hyderabad soon along with their luggage. My father-in-law got a job as a supervisor in an agricultural farm near villages Aaredu and Masanpally in Medak district. He talked with its owner recently. He is unable to survive in K O Mallavaram without reliable income sources. They rent out their house to some familiar one in this village. Today I turned weak and dim due to continuous reading and useless food. Today many folks celebrated Ugadi grandly. Went to sleep by 11:00.

5 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected the website ids of some advertising agencies to be used as references when our firm’s would be redesigned. It’s casual and unproductive work. Got two emails from Swarup Nanda of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai. He wrote that he would get my suggested language corrections incorporated into my book before they go for its second print run. He advised me to get my second book published by some other publisher if I am not happy with their standards and work culture. I replied to him that I am choosing them because other publishers are not interested in publishing my book. He is disturbed after reading my criticism about their publishing firm and their standards of language editing. Many cannot accept and digest criticism as they can do it with appreciation. This is why Indians are not growing psychologically and culturally. They always crave for applause from others. Today about 800 creatures visited my two blog sites. I wondered at it. Usually about 40 folks visit it a day. I don’t know why that many folks visited them today. Returned home by 7:00. By 8:00 my personal diary of 2009 was posted on my blog site dcraju.blogspot.com. From 23 March onwards, I kept on posting the content of my personal diaries, every night, by 8:00 p.m. PDT, on this blog site, starting with my diary of 1996. I posted my diary of 1995 on 21 March. Now, my 15 personal diaries, from 1995 to 2009, are available on this blog site for all to read. Went to sleep by 10:30. 

6 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected information about some industries in India. Recently Srijana applied Henna to my hair on the head and moustache despite my dislike for it. It is to colour the white strands of hair on my head and in my moustache. She wants to beautify me this way. I felt cool when it was applied on my head. I washed it when bathing after half an hour. It is a herbal product. She bought it for me in Vanasthalipuram when we were there. I think there are about 100 white strands of hair on my head. My moustache has about 15 white strands of hair. I don’t like to shave my moustache off to get rid of this problem. White strands of hair on these parts of our body damage our overall beauty to some extent. Henna transformed my white strands of hair into grey color. It affected my black strands of hair also. It means an artificial product is damaging the beauty of a natural phenomenon. I think always. I have dreams while sleeping. Air pollution is high in twin cities. These factors contribute to hair loss to some extent. Many Indians are more conscious and worried about their physical look now than once. Many companies are manufacturing and selling health and beauty related products extensively. Beauty parlours are attracting women and men alike. All are mad after enhancing their external beauty but not internal beauty. This is an artificial and unreliable society. Many are acting roles to attract and cheat others. Hiding our true colors behind artificial ones is part of this game. I am also playing it helplessly. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

7 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did business proposal related work. We conceptualized four programs. We have to approach television channels with these innovative concepts. Mahendra Gollaputi and Ramya Agasthi devised these programs and wrote content for them. I have to polish and beautify them. By today the annual exams of 10^th standard of my nephew Sujan came to an end. He thinks that he may get about 530 marks for 600 in these exams. He lived like a machine in this academic year. The folks of his school Ravindra Bharathi subjected him to much pressure. Great percentage of marks is their goal. He struggled like anything for it. Private school education is like invited hell for students in Andhra Pradesh now. They are growing like machines and businessmen but not individuals and citizens of this nation. I pity this generation of students and their culture. Left our office by 7:10. Kishan Rao reached Chintal Basthi bus stop by 7:30 in his car. He is a brother-in-law of Gowravaram Srinivasa Rao, the head of Thoran Technologies, where I worked as a content writer earlier. These people belong to village Sardhana in Medak district. They are planning to renovate a temple in this village soon. They are getting a brochure made for this purpose to spread this message among their familiar and native villagers. Srinivas wrote content for this brochure in English. He asked me to improve and finalize it. Kishan Rao and I did it on my computer from 7:45 to 10:00. Felt happy about it. Went to sleep by 10:40.

8 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:20. Today I did proposal related work. Today I saw the photos of a girl. Her cousin emailed these photos from a village near Eluru. She is a friend of my colleague Ramya Agasthi. Recently I told Ramya to search for a beautiful girl for my friend Veeranjaneyulu to marry. We got the photos of this girl in this context. They said that she is a beautiful girl. Otherwise I would not have asked Ramya to collect the photos of this girl for my consideration also. This girl gets 30 marks for 100 for her physical beauty according to my assessment. I don’t know why that girl sent the photos of this entity considering her beautiful. Ramya argued with me illogically when I explained her what I mean by beauty. She said that we cannot define beauty. It is an abstract and worthless remark about beauty. We may not be able to define beauty but we can feel and experience the power of beauty when we see it. Left our office by 5:30 taking permission for one hour. Took a city bus and reached Secunderabad railway station by 6:30. Srijana, her mother, her paternal grandfather Ramana Raju and Anand already got off Janmabhoomi Express on platform 2. We hired an auto rickshaw for 100 rupees and reached our rented abode in Chintal Basthi by 7:20. Srijana brought 150 sapodillas, six coconuts, plantains, homemade pickles and lemons from K O Mallavaram. Kishan Rao, the brother-in-law of Gowravaram Srinivasa Rao, came to our abode by 9:00. This morning I translated the English version of their temple brochure content into Telugu. We two discussed it and made some changes in it by 10:00. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

9 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. My father-in-law got off an Anjana Travels bus at Chintal Basthi bus stop by 7:30. He took it by 8:00 yesterday night in Tuni. He brought his household items along with him. He rented out his house in K O Mallavaram to a familiar fellow in that village for a monthly rent of 500 rupees. They use some part of his house. He kept some of his household items in a portion of it. He sold his Jersey cow for 6000 rupees. Srijana told me that a fellow asked it for 8000 rupees. He is a local cattle merchant. He sends it to an abattoir. Humans are killing birds and animals for meat across the world. Many are fighting against this universal crime. My father-in-law milked this cow for a few months. It did service to him. I appreciate his concern for it. He received his bike by 10:00. They booked it yesterday night in Tuni for a bus of Danunjaya Travels. My in-laws, Srijana, her paternal grandfather Ramana Raju and Anand started to the agricultural farm near Masanpally by 12:15 in a truck arranged by the owner of that farm. They reached there by 3:30. My in-laws stay in a house in this farm hereafter. My father-in-law works as a supervisor of this farm on monthly salary basis. They paid him 10,000 rupees to move to this place as a family unit from K O Mallavaram towards transport expenses. Evening Srijana told me that the house in this farm is very good. She liked the facilities in this abode. Srijana is happy because her parents are near us now. Today I worked on business proposals in our office. Today it was cloudy and pleasant. Went to sleep by 10:00.

10 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. My friend Meher Murali came to Chintal Basthi bus stop by 8:40 on his bike at my request. We two reached Maanasija, the art abode of our friend Veeranjaneyulu, at MLA Colony, by 9:20. Scanned Eenadu, The Hindu and Sakshi for one hour. Veeru is growing green plants in the premises of his art abode for a beautiful and inspiring ambience. I enjoyed their beauty. Meher Murali is staying here. He prepares Lemon Tea very well. He cooks food items also. Veeru and he serve their guests together offering them something to eat or drink. They are endearing hosts. Film actor Nagendra Babu is coming to this place frequently to enjoy the serenity of this art abode. Veeru likes him a lot. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju came here by 11:30. He is trying to find a suitable bride for Veeru. He remarked that Veeru should avoid growing locks of hair and the look of a sage to be acceptable to the present-day girls. Veeru must be maintaining them for that distinct appearance as an artist. We all spent talking about the contemporary Indian politics, pervasive corruption and immorality for about two hours. Veeru gave me 2,500 grams of Shakti Malt powder and 500 grams of dates. He is deep in debts but he does not look agitated and tense about these negative factors of his life. He wants to work hard and clear them slowly. Every year they are mounting. He cannot control his expenditure in tune to his income. Meher Murali, Rajani and I saw the Telugu film “Shakthi” of Jr. NTR in cinema Sensation Sunshine at Khairatabad from 6:15 to 8:45. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 April (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I did not do much work in our office because there was no Internet access throughout the day. Mahendra assigned me a work by 6:00. I did it on my computer at home from 7:00 to 10:00. Morning Srijana and Anand returned home by 11:30 from the abode of their folks at Masanpally. They travelled for about 130 kilometres to reach here. She saw peacocks and wild pigs in the farm there. It is near Nizam Sagar. Many fishermen catch fish in this reservoir. My in-laws can buy vegetables, fish and milk at very affordable prices in this place. It is an agricultural farm of R V Rama Raju and his relatives. Srijana brought tomatoes and groundnuts from there. Many Kshatriyas bought many agricultural lands around Hyderabad during the last 40 years. The rates of these lands increased tremendously in course of time. Resultantly they became millionaires and influential people in the society. They look for poor and helpless folks in their community to employ as supervisors of their farms. They want loyal and reliable people for these positions. He pays 5,000 rupees to my father-in-law every month as salary. He is planning to buy a buffalo also for my in-laws for milk for domestic use. My in-laws are comfortable and happy with these facilities in this farm. They came here for their livelihood. Vamsy is working with some company near Bengaluru now. He is not in touch with me. He does not like to talk with me. Many achieve self-respect and ego after becoming financially independent. They cannot grow psychologically. I am happy about Vamsy. Went to sleep by 10:30.

12 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today it is Sri Rama Navami. It’s a holiday at our firm. We did not go to any temple on this occasion. I lost interest in these things. Every creature lives and dies according to its Karma. God does not interfere in it. Pain, suffering and tragedy are the inevitable characteristics of human life. My life is an example of it. I craved for the presence and love of a beauty. I married Srijana after running after many girls. Thereafter I did not get enough time or money to spend with her. I am going to office six days a week like an automated machine. Srijana and Anand are spending all the day within the home. They are not enjoying their lives because of me. I have to do a job for our survival. I am not happy about the habits of Anand. He wants to eat and drink everything he comes across. This habit is not good for his health. He gets up around 3:30 every night and cries for milk. Then his mother wakes up, boils milk and feeds him. I also wake up due to these sounds around me. I cannot sleep thereafter. I lose my vital night sleep of three hours during these early hours of a day when I generally sleep well. That day I have to struggle in our office with a sleepy mind and dim face. I think always. Dreams chase me at night. I am restless and agitated about my present life and the society around me. I am unable to come out of this trap. I am living in a bad world with good thoughts. Srijana, Anand and I spent in the NTR Garden by Necklace Road from 4:30 to 6:00 in the evening. It was our attempt to fill joy into our mechanical lives to some extent. I am disturbed about my present state of life. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 3:40. Anand got up by this time and started crying demanding milk. Srijana boiled milk and fed him. He slept again but I could not. Thoughts kept flowing in my mind. I turned serious about this habit of Anand. I scolded him. He got hurt and remained silent. Srijana got hurt about my anger at him. I told her to take him to the abode of her parents in the agricultural farm at Masanpally. I have to sleep well every night to work well in our company the following day. Anand cannot understand this inevitable responsibility of my present life. I took Srijana and Anand to the bus stop at Vidyut Soudha by 9:00 on foot. She took two buses and reached Sangareddy by 11:00 via Patan Cheru. Her father came here to receive Anand. He took Anand to the agricultural farm along with him by bus. Srijana returned from this place. She spent in the rented abode of my cousin Sirisha at Beeramguda from 12:30 to 2:30. She returned to our abode at Chintal Basthi by 4:00. She cried many times today remembering Anand and my treatment toward him. I love Anand but I am unable to express it to him in my present circumstances. Many can understand our words but not our heartstrings. I can spend more time with Anand if I need not do a job. Employees are the victims of modern culture. They live and work for money. They don’t have time to build and retain human relationships. I am also a victim of this culture now. Today I worked casually in our office. It’s sultry to sit in my chair here. Went to sleep by 10:00.

14 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana remained disturbed and moody yesterday and today because I sent Anand to the abode of her parents. She did not talk with me much. I believe Anand would be happier there than here. He has enough space and freedom there to play. We are living in a narrow abode here in the second floor of a house. This is not convenient for him. Children want more space, liberty and time to play and enjoy according to their choices. The maternal grandparents of Anand look after him more affectionately and caringly than us. As a father, I must spend a lot of time with him. I am unable to do it because I am spending about nine hours of my daytime in the office and eight hours of my nighttime for sleeping. I get enough time on Sundays and holidays but I am using most of that time to carry out my pending work. I am not a great father to Anand. I am expecting discipline and intelligence from him. He has to behave like an adult to meet my expectations from him. I am both an idealist and disciplinarian. When the disciplinarian is playing his role, the idealist goes away from there. I sent Anand to that agricultural farm as a ruthless disciplinarian but I am disturbed as a father because my idealism is not happy with that act of the disciplinarian. This internal struggle goes on throughout my life because I cannot be the best in everything I do. Human life is a result of our sins and misdeeds in our previous births. It does not allow us to be happy always. Pain and tragedy are its inherent characteristics. We rely on invisible and inaccessible God when our Karma is acting upon us intensely. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did work related to the company brochure of Aries Agro and annual celebration of SWAL Corporation. Evening it rained for about 40 minutes. Enjoyed the cool spell of this rain, feeling it from our office. A shower in summer is like an oasis in a desert for many Indians like me in this part of India. It made air cool and pleasant. Today I checked online about the IT refund to me for the financial year 2008-09. The management of Thoran Technologies deducted about 4,000 rupees from my salary in 2008 towards income tax (TDS). A fellow applied for its refund to me on my behalf in 2009. My online enquiry revealed that the cheque sent by the IT folks to my then given address was not received in December 2010. It means they took about 16 months’ time to send my IT refund. Old man Manmohan Singh often says that India is developing a lot. This is what he means by development. He is the grand sick man of India now. He is an orphan in the mental asylum of Sonia Gandhi. Rahul Gandhi is its manager. Night I contacted the folks of Thoran Technologies about this issue of IT refund. They agreed to provide me with relevant details of it soon. I am a serious enemy of income tax rogues in this corrupt nation. They are interested in collecting tax from everybody in this nation but not in repaying dues to tax payers in time. I allow somebody to commit a mistake in a deal related to me. Then I reform him in my style. I hate governments in India. Went to sleep by 10:30.

16 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana and I are consuming Shakti Malt porridge every morning. It’s nutritious and useful for our bodies. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I was preoccupied with the intense thoughts of my IT refund for 2008-09. I applied for it for this financial year but they did not add any information about it on their website. They put it as if I applied for it during 2009-10. I did not do any job during these two years. I don’t know about the assessing officer, who is dealing with my TDS refund. I could not find out those details through online research. There are about five income tax related offices in Hyderabad and Secunderabad. Many employees apply for their TDS refund through some fellows of a tax consultancy. They don’t keep in touch with us. I don’t have those receipts and proofs. Typed a two-page letter addressing the CMP branch of State Bank of India in Mumbai. Now they are dealing with IT refunds related to the Income Tax department of India. I wrote to them asking for another cheque for 4,000 rupees without informing me about the procedures and policies to be followed by me for getting it back. I booked this envelope at the DTDC point near our office paying them 60 rupees for it. He said that they send it by air. Returned home by 7:45. Posted this two-page letter on my blog site with the title “IT Refund in India”. Many employees are facing this kind of problems in India now. This letter is for them to read and understand India better. Antisocial elements are a result of corruption, immorality and anarchy in a nation. Went to sleep by 10:00.

17 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Srijana and I took a 187 D/V bus at Khairatabad bus stop by 8:15 and reached Vaidehi Nagar in Vanasthalipuram by 9:15. We walked a little and reached the rented abode of my cousin Bala in Street No. 9. Bala is in Vijayawada now. He went there to participate in a special training program being conducted by the management of his school Sri Chaitanya. We spent talking with his mother Rajeshwari till 10:00. Thence we walked to Self Finance Colony. We talked with Bhagya Lakshmi and Uma for about two hours in the house bearing number 6-5-33. Bhagya Lakshmi gave my subscription copy of Reader’s Digest and the related promotional material sent by these folks. My cousin Murali joined us by 1:15. Borrowed 13,000 rupees from him. Srijana, Aishwarya, Murali and I walked to the branch office of Muthoot Finance at NGO Colony by 1:30. Srijana contributed 3,126 rupees. Paid 16,126 rupees to them and took the gold necklace of Srijana back. Earlier I borrowed 16,000 rupees from them pledging this gold ornament. They opened it today also because they are going for public issue soon. I have to take leave from my office to come here on weekdays. This became an issue for me. I could resolve it today like this. Srijana, Aishwarya, Murali, Rajeshwari and I spent talking among ourselves in the rented abode of Bala from 2:00 to 4:15. Rajeshwari offered lunch and snacks to Srijana and me by 1:45 and 4:00 treating us as her guests. Srijana and I took a 187 D/V bus at NGO Colony bus stop by 5:00 and reached our abode at Chintal Basthi by 6:20. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 April (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I worked on a few pieces of writing work in our office. It was sultry throughout in my chair. I am not getting air from the wall fan near me. They did not fit another wall fan minding my needs. Left the office by 6:30. The folks of Glads Media credited an amount of 27,000 rupees to my ICICI Bank account by 8:06 towards my salary for the last month. Felt relieved and happy. Today I applied for leave for me for the 21^st , 22^nd and 23^rd of this month. Mahendra Gollaputi did not remark anything on it when I told him about it. I applied for these leaves minding our pilgrimage to Tirupati soon. I have one paid leave in this month. They deduct about 1,800 rupees from my monthly salary for these two leaves. I am not interested in going to Tirupati but for the sake of my parents and brothers. They think that Lord Venkateshwara blesses us only if we go to Him. I like if my relatives and friends come to my abode of residence to see me. This God must be thinking like me. He is waiting to see us. I am not getting time and opportunity to spend with my folks being busy doing job and writing. In the name of this God, we spend together for some time. We went to Tirupati about 25 years ago. This is an important pilgrimage for us from this perspective. Then our parents were young. Now we three brothers are young. Time influences all. My parents are ready for this great pilgrimage of our family. They arranged food items and clothes in their bags. I am not taking Srijana and Anand along with me on this pilgrimage. Pregnant women should not visit temples. Anand does not stay with me. Went to sleep by 10:00.

19 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to the abode of my friend Vemali Trinadha Rao near NASR School by 7:30 and repaid him 2,000 rupees. He gave me his book Naatakaalalo Mukhaanga Rachana – Oka Parisheelana. It is in Telugu. There are 123 pages in it. Its price is 100 rupees. It is the thesis of his M.Phil. course completed in 2006 from Potti Sri Ramulu Telugu University in Hyderabad. He got about 1000 copies of it published for distribution to university libraries and bookstores. He discussed the aspect of make-up in dramas in this book. I scanned it. There is great information in it about these aspects of art and artistes.  It’s an interesting book to read for everybody who likes fine arts. Went to our office by 9:15. Srijana came to the office of Manappuram Finance, above Himalaya Book World outlet, by 10:15. It’s very near to our office. I too went there by 10:20. I signed on the documents given by them. We borrowed 15,000 rupees from them pledging the 20-gram black beads gold chain of Srijana. They said that they can lend us an amount of 35,000 rupees based on the present market value of this gold ornament. I don’t like borrowing money largely from anybody. I have to pay 150 rupees every month to them as interest for this money. This interest rate is very fair and affordable for me. We borrowed this money to clear two debts. My cousin Murali came here by 6:45. Repaid him 13,000 rupees. He took a bus by 7:10 for NGO Colony. I am trying to clear debts due to my friends fast. Went to sleep by 10:30.

20 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana started to Sangareddy by 8:00 by bus. Her father brings Anand to this place from the agricultural farm by the time she reaches there. Went to our office by 9:15. My colleague Chintapalli Suresh lent me a Sony Cybershot digital camera. Our office boy Santosh gave me five rupees asking me to offer it to Lord Venkateshwara in Tirupati. Srijana brought Anand to our abode by 11:30. Got 6,000 rupees transferred to the bank account of Nooka Raju (Nanaji), a friend of Srijana, by 2:00, from the ICICI Bank account of my colleague Amarnadh. I recently borrowed this money from him. Repaid it today. Left our office by 4:10. Rushed to my abode. Took a head bath and got ready by 4:30. Gave 5,000 rupees to Srijana and told her to repay it to her uncle Subba Raju. Cleared this debt also. Hired an auto rickshaw for Secunderabad for 70 rupees by 4:35. Srijana and Anand left for Ashok Nagar by 4:40. They spend in the rented abode of her maternal aunt Madhavi there for two days during my time of pilgrimage in Tirupati. Got into Secunderabad railway station by 5:15. Took my berth 13 in the sleeper coach S-13 of Narayanadri Express by 5:50. This train pulled off from this station by 6:09. Anand Nair, my fellow passenger, requested me to offer my berth to him and take his berth 12 in S-8. I readily agreed for it. It is a window seat. Had Vegetable Biryani from 7:30 to 8:00. Srijana packed it this afternoon for me. Bought a bottle of Maaza mango drink for 32 rupees by 8:30. Lay on my berth by 9:20.

21 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. This train crossed Gudur railway station soon. The sun was getting up in the east. It was a beautiful early morning from my train window. Shot it with the Sony digital camera. My parents, brothers Srinivas and Sambha, Sandhya Rani, Kranti, Sujan and Suhas, Janaki and baby boy Anjaneya Raju got off Tirumala Express in Tirupati railway station by 6:00. My train reached here by 6:44. We all took an APSRTC bus by 7:15 and reached Tirumala by 8:00. We booked a room using a recommendation letter of minister Pasupuleti Bala Raju. My brother Sambha got it. We got into the room bearing number 14 in Narayana Giri Guesthouse-III by 9:00. We refreshed ourselves by 11:00. We entered the queue of Sarva Dharshanam by 11:22. We went into hall VQC-2 (19) by 11:35. They issued photometric cards to us by 1:05 and told us to come back to this place before 9:00 this night. We stood in the queue at S V Anna Dhaanam Canteen from 1:20 to 2:30. We had free food in it by 2:45. Knew that 100 pilgrims can sit and eat food at a time in this abode. We visited Sreevaari Paadhaalu, Rock Garden (Chakra Theerdham), the Temple of Venu Gopala Swami, Aakaasha Ganga and Paapa Vinaashanam from 3:00 to 5:30 hiring the Gypsy vehicle of Shiva for 800 rupees. It started pouring by 5:33 soon after we got back into our room. We entered VQC-2 (19) by 7:50 showing our photometric cards at entrance. They played the video of Telugu feature film “Srimadh Virat Veera Brahmendhra Swami Charithra” on big screen in this hall to entertain all. They allowed us into queue by 11:30. Had Dharshan of Lord Venkateshwara by 12:41.

22 April (Friday)

The clouds were thick and dark in the sky. It was a grand show of Lord Venkateshwara for me in this holy and beautiful place. I felt and celebrated His love for me expressed through this celestial phenomenon. I met Him in His native place after a long time. He greeted and treated me very well. I offered 55 rupees to Him through His gift collection box. We love each other. My brother Srinivas and nephew Sujan stood in a queue for 10 minutes and bought Laddus for us. We returned to our room by 1:42. Went to sleep by 2:15. Woke up by 6:00. We refreshed ourselves by 8:20. We locked this room and came down by 8:25. My brother Srinivas carried out the formalities of vacating a room like a patient army man. Meanwhile my nephew Suhas and I took some photos of us with our digital camera. We left Narayana Giri-III Guesthouse by 8:55. We took an APSRTC bus at Balaji Bus Station by 9:10 and got down from the seven hills by 9:45. My brothers Srinivas and Sambha, Sandhya Rani, Sujan and Suhas hired a Gypsy vehicle from Tirupati for 1000 rupees and left for Kanipakam by 10:00. I brought others, along with our 14 items of luggage, to hotel Sri Vijaya Swapna, hiring an auto rickshaw for 30 rupees. Booked the room bearing number 204 in it for 500 rupees for our stay in it till this evening. We had lunch in hotel Vijaya Bhavan by 12:30. It was very cloudy, cool and pleasant from the afternoon. My parents and Kranti visited the Temple of Govinda Rajulu in Tirupati by 3:30. My brothers and others visited the deities in Manga Patnam, Srinivasa Puram, Kanipakam and returned to this lodge by 3:45. My brother Srinivas, Sandhya Rani, Sujan, Suhas and I took Narayanadri Express by 6:00 in Tirupati railway station. Others took Tirumala Express by 8:10.

23 April (Saturday)

Narayanadri Express reached Secunderabad railway station by 7:30. Our berths are 41, 42, 43, 44 and 45 in its sleeper coach S-9. It was cool and pleasant throughout. I enjoyed this journey. We five took a 49-Z bus and reached my abode at Chintal Basthi by 8:15. I could not sleep well during the last two nights. My parents, brother Sambha, Kranti, Janaki and baby boy Anjaneya Raju got off Tirumala Express at Narsipatnam Road railway station by 9:40 this morning. They reached Peda Gummuluru by 10:00. Scanned Eenadu for 20 minutes. My brother Srinivas, Sandhya Rani, Sujan, Suhas and I reached cinema Sensation Sunshine by 1:30 in an auto rickshaw to see the Telugu film “Mr. Perfect” of Prabhas in it. They were selling tickets in the black. We walked back to Khairatabad bus stop. Srijana and Anand joined us here. We seven took a bus and reached Kothi by 2:15. They bought some items at the roadside shops here spending about 2,000 rupees. Srijana bought six pairs of clothes for 240 rupees for Anand. Their durability may be for three months. We took a bus and returned to our abode by 5:00. We hired an auto rickshaw for 50 rupees and reached Birla Temple by 6:00. Srijana sat near the footwear stand. Rest of us stood in the queue and had the Dharshan of Lord Venkateshwara by 7:20. I offered 100 rupees into the gift collection box of this God. I enjoyed looking at His status in this beautiful and rich abode of worship. Many devotees were there in the queue to see Him. We hired an auto rickshaw for 50 rupees and returned home by 7:50. Went to sleep by 10:15.

24 April (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Satya Sai Baba passed away this morning. Many worship him like a god. I believe that he died 10 days ago. The close associates of this man concealed this truth to take away most of the valuable assets of this cult. Baba could not change these folks. He got some magic skills. He could attract many over the years. He got a lot of money and assets from his followers through voluntary donations. He spent that money for public welfare. Scanned three dailies from 7:00 to 8:00. My brother Srinivas, Sandhya Rani, Srijana and Anand left for Charminar by 9:00. They bought a few items in the shops there and returned home by 12:00. My cousin Murali came here by 12:45. We asked for his advice regarding the selection of a college for my nephew Sujan after the completion of his 10^th standard. He advised us to admit him to Narayana Junior College at Asil Metta in Visakhapatnam for his Intermediate course and coaching for the JEE. My brother Srinivas wants his son to study at an IIT. Many parents are thinking like him now in Andhra Pradesh. They want to see their children as engineers or doctors. Children are not enjoying their childhood. They are leading mechanical lives as students with high levels of stress and strain. I pity Sujan. Murali left for Vanasthalipuram by 4:00. My brother Srinivas, Sandhya Rani, Sujan and Suhas left for Secunderabad railway station by 4:45 in an auto rickshaw. They took Ajanta Express for Nagarsol. They are going to see the temple of Sai Baba in Shirdi. Today I checked the corrections carried out in the text of my book Stories of Love and Beauty. They emailed me a PDF copy of it. Emailed them informing them to make three left out corrections. Went to sleep by 10:00. 

 

25 April (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. My colleague Ramya Agasthi thought that I would have a tonsured head. My father and brothers got their heads tonsured in Tirumala. They offered their hair to Lord Venkateshwara. Many devotees do it there and other temples in India. I don’t like this religious practice. God does not like hypocrites. These folks offer their hair to God for formality sake but they don’t change their attitudes and characters for society sake. I found the forest very inspiring and interesting in Tirumala. I felt like living in some corner of this forest forever without coming down. It has been a hectic and short tour. I did not see anything satisfactorily. My mother could not see such places where there are many steep steps downwards. I regretted it. I failed to see or photograph places satisfactorily. My father rested in the guesthouse instead of coming to the five places along with us. I did not buy many things here. I spent about 800 rupees during this time. My brothers spent about 8,000 rupees on this occasion. I wondered looking at the steep steps and road leading up to this temple complex. The bus drivers and others driving vehicles on these roads looked extraordinary to me. Lord Venkateshwara chose a great hill to stay on. He closed His eyes being unable to see the sinners in this age. The animals, birds and other creatures living in these seven hills are very lucky and blessed. They are living in a divine and magnetic part of Mother Nature. I am happy for seeing this place. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 April (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Jagannadha Raju, the paternal uncle of Srijana, came to our abode by 11:00. He brought his two sons Santosh and Shiva also from Kandla Koya. Srijana brought them to our office by 12:45. They took my bicycle from the cellar of Maruthi Plaza. Much dust settled on it during these few days. Jagannadha Raju quit his job with Appala Raju now. He worked with this millionaire for about 10 years as a supervisor of their Mahindra Tractors distribution business unit at Kompally, agricultural farm and warehouse construction work in this farm. Now they don’t have work to offer him. Recently he joined a warehouse at Ayodhya in its loading section. It is about one kilometre from their abode at Kandla Koya. They are paying 5,500 rupees as salary per month for this casual labor. He wants a bicycle to go to this warehouse and come back from there every day. I am unable to use my bicycle now. He asked me for it. I readily agreed to give it to him. It would be healthy and beautiful when being used by good folks. Jagannadha Raju and his eldest son Santosh took it riding up to Paradise Junction. Thence Santosh rode it up to Kandla Koya. I think he rode it continuously covering a distance of 30 kilometres. I wondered at his strength and innocence. Intelligent and lazy folks cannot do it. I love this bicycle a lot because it served me much when we were in Vanasthalipuram. I miss it. Shiva stayed back at our abode to spend with us for a few days. My boss Mahendra, my colleague Amarnadh and I spent in the office of SWAL Corporation, at Vikrampuri, from 5:30 to 7:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

27 April (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Srijana, Anand and Shiva took a bus at Chintal Basthi bus stop by 8:30 and reached Secunderabad railway station by 9:00. Ajanta Express arrived by 9:40. My brother Srinivas, sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, my nephews Sujan and Suhas came in it from Nagarsol. They happily completed their pilgrimage to the temple of Sai Baba at Shirdi. Srijana prepared and took Tamarind Rice for them to have in the train. They took East Coast Express by 10:00 for Visakhapatnam. Srijana brought Suhas to our abode. He enjoys his summer holidays here for some days. Today I offered a little amount of Tamarind Rice to my colleagues Ramya and Chetanya Lakshmi. They found it very tasty. Ramya is fond of this food item. By 4:00 Srijana took Suhas, Shiva and Anand to our nearby NTR Garden hiring an auto rickshaw for 25 rupees. They enjoyed there till 7:00. Suhas and Shiva enjoyed moving through Columbus. They played three games spending 60 rupees. They won a small chessboard worth 10 rupees and a toy gun worth 10 rupees in these games. Anand played a lot in the presence of these folks. They hired an auto rickshaw for 20 rupees and returned to the Khairatabad bus stop by 7:30. Brought them from this point crossing the over-bridge. Evening our HR manager Chetanya Lakshmi gave me my appointment letter. I am not getting air from the wall fan fitted near me. They did not resolve this problem till now. They are recruiting more candidates into our office. Went to sleep by 10:00.

28 April (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today also my colleague Amarnadh and I were engaged in the creative works related to the annual event of SWAL Corporation. By 11:30 Srijana, Suhas, Shiva and Anand started to Masanpally from our abode. They took a bus up to Serilingampally and a district service bus from there. They reached the abode of my in-laws by 3:00. They want to spend in that agricultural farm for a few days. They have inspiring natural beauty and ample space there to play and enjoy. Anand is continuing his mischief. He often switches on the UPS beside my DELL computer on the table. He does such things, which Srijana and I find as avoidable ones. When we try to correct him, he gets hurt and cries loudly. His hair needs a cut. I advised Srijana to do it for him. She cut a little of it with the pair of scissors in my shaving kit. I don’t like to make his hair short by getting it cut by a barber. Children and adults look attractive with more hair on their heads. Anand is not waking up in the early morning now for milk. He is having boiled buffalo milk with the powder of Junior Horlicks. He eats this powder frequently. He likes to bathe. He is very sensitive. He turns moody and gloomy with my angry words. I regret that I don’t have a digital camera to shoot and record this part of his childhood. Today our HR manager Chetanya Lakshmi gave me my company’s identity card. I have to hang it around my neck. Returned home by 7:15. Had a Sunnunda, a glass of curd and watermelon pieces for my supper. Copied our Tirupati Tour photos into a Sony DVD on my computer. Slept by 10:30.

29 April (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did not do much work in the office. It was sultry in my chair. They did not fit a wall fan near me. Read some blogs. Left the office by 6:30. Walked through the lanes around my abode searching for a shoe retail store. By 7:30 bought a pair of black shoes and two pairs of socks for 450 rupees at a roadside store by Street No. 7 near the vegetable market. He did not give a name to his outlet. The brand name of these shoes is Entry. It is a product of Shaan Footwear. He said that they are made in Agra. There are no standard product details on the carton. They are underdogs like me in India. He did not print the name of his store on the bill he gave me. These people do not pay sales tax to the government because they cannot afford it. I think their margins and profits are meager in this business. Customers bargain a lot with them. Many buy popular brand items without bargaining. Branding means a system of organized public cheating. Ad agencies create and develop this culture. One of the black shoes, which I am using now, failed badly. Its sole developed a crack across. I bought them beside road in Mumbai in 2009 for 200 rupees when I went there to meet Sunil K Poolani. They bore the name Reliance. They did extraordinary service to me for all these days. I am leaving them today because they became worn-out and old serving me for long. I love them. I miss them. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

30 April (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I wore my new pair of black shoes. Today I did not do much work in the office. It was hot and sultry in and out. I found that readers from about 12 countries are reading the content posted on my two blog sites now. I permitted all to comment on them. Anonymous entities left quite abusive comments on it recently. I feel disturbed and hurt reading such comments. I cannot trace their identity. We cannot reform insensitive creatures using good language online. We cannot become rogues to tackle scoundrels. They indulge in unethical and cruel online attacks on others hiding themselves behind shield of anonymity. The folks of Google don’t help us in identifying and punishing these creatures because it is impossible and worthless for them in many cases. They stated in their terms of service that they initiate an appropriate action against any blogger only if they receive a court order to that extent. I am allowing all to comment on my blog sites because I am an idealist. I can be accessible to both bad and good folks this way. Bad ones teach us lessons. Good ones encourage me to write more. I need both the experiences to understand human psychology. I am a very angry man when it comes to dealing with bad ones. God does not want me to be a coward in handling dirty rogues. Idealism does not mean passivity and goodness towards all. An idealist may be a ruthless killer also at times. The folks of Google accorded liberty to all through their Blogger. Some are misusing it. Went to sleep by 10:50.

1 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Scanned the dailies Eenadu and The Hindu from 6:30 to 7:30. Typed out a blog titled “My Personal Diaries-Her Interview” from 11:00 to 1:00 and posted it on my blog site. Sakshi O Juneja interviews me about my personal diaries in this blog. It’s a work of fiction. I discussed a few things related to my personal diaries in it. Morning my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma informed me about a suitable bride for Veeranjaneyulu in their village Durgada. She is a beautiful girl in a poor family. Told them to send her photo. By 4:30 my cousin Bala, his mother Rajeshwari and his father Satya Narayana Raju left for Kakinada in a truck from Vaidehi Nagar in Vanasthalipuram along with all their household items. Bala wants to work with a Sri Chaitanya School there as a biology teacher and live there in a rented abode. I enjoyed his presence and friendship a lot when living in Vanasthalipuram. I like his character. He is a sensitive, ideal and reliable boy. I am disturbed knowing that they are going away from Hyderabad. Morning my brother Srinivas went to Narayana Junior College at Asil Metta in Visakhapatnam and enquired them about the fee structure for first year Intermediate course for his son Sujan. They are collecting 35,000 rupees for it. He paid 1,000 rupees to them and reserved a place for Sujan. They may make concession in fee after considering the marks scored by Sujan in his 10^th standard exams. Saw the Telugu film “Mr. Perfect” in cinema Sensation Insomnia at Khairatabad from 6:00 to 8:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

2 May (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to the office by 9:20. Today I did not do much work in the office. Night lent 500 rupees to my colleague Amarnadh. The folks of Glads Media are paying salaries late every month. Employees face problems due to this payment system. My brother-in-law Vamsy came to my abode by 7:30 this morning. He returned from Bengaluru along with his luggage. He worked there as a casual worker in a construction project of Nagarjuna Constructions at a monthly salary of 4,500 rupees for about 10 months. He does not like to consult me for advice to grow as a human being. He went to Bengaluru to do this job. There are many such jobs in Hyderabad also. I advised him to do apprenticeship in a good firm soon after completing his ITI course. He did not do it. He is a foolish bloke. Such helpless and foolish fellows work in the unorganized sector for low salaries in poor working conditions. They misuse their formative age. Foolish people do many things without discipline, planning and vision. He came here on the advice of his father. The owner of the agricultural farm, in which my father-in-law is working now as a supervisor, has two printing press units in Hyderabad. He is offering a job to Vamsy in it. Morning advised Vamsy about the value of time. I don’t lose anything if he does not follow my proactive advice but he cannot be happy with his life as long as he thinks and lives like a fool. Evening he went to the abode of his parents at Masanpally. By 9:30 got four seats reserved for Srijana, her aunt Madhavi, her cousin Sushma and Suhas for Janmabhoomi Express online for the 9^th of this month. Slept by 11:00.

3 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today our designer Amarnadh and I spent most of our time carrying out the creative works for SWAL Corporation, our client. They are holding their annual conference soon at hotel Cidade De in Goa. Amarnadh and I went to TIN Facilitation & PAN Centre at Ameerpet on the bike of our office. I met S Srinivasa Reddy, an executive of this branch. I have been in touch with him for the last 10 days. I gave him my Form 16, which Gowravaram Srinivasa Rao of Thoran Technologies issued me in 2009. He talked with an income tax assessment officer and explained the details of my IT refund for the financial year 2009-10. He said that my due amount of IT refund money would be credited to my Axis Bank account soon through online transfer. Srinivasa Reddy seems to have good relationships with IT assessment officers at the income tax department in Hyderabad. He collected 500 rupees from me for this service. He said that he would pay 400 rupees to that assessment officer as bribe to resolve my IT refund issue immediately. I have to spend a lot of time on this work to get it done following their rules and regulations. They are taking this bribe to pay my IT refund beyond proper channel. Indians internalized the elements of immorality and corruption now. Srinivasa Reddy charged me 100 rupees for this service by him. He seems to be a gentleman. He likes me because my surname is Datla. He got some friends with this surname. Left our office by 7:40. Went to sleep by 12:00.

4 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today my colleague Amarnadh and I carried out the creative works related to the annual event of SWAL Corporation named ‘Aamantran’. Srijana, Vamsy, Suhas, Shiva and Anand reached Kukatpally by 11:00 from Masanpally. Thence Suhas and Shiva left for Kandla Koya. Shiva and Suhas became good friends during these few days. Suhas went there to spend with them for a few days. Srijana and Anand reached our abode by 12:00. Srijana told me that Suhas played cards during these few days with the folks of Mantena family there in the agricultural farm. He lost 400 rupees in these games with them. He requested Srijana not to disclose this news to his parents, me or others. She decided to return this money to him later. They are paying 5,000 rupees to my father-in-law every month as salary. They are giving money to him for buying petrol to use in his bike. They showed him a part of fertile land in their farm and advised him to grow some crop in it for getting some income that way for him. They are planning to buy a buffalo for him for milk. They provided him with a good farmhouse to live along with his family comfortably. They are going to buy a colour television soon for them for domestic entertainment. They need not provide all these facilities to him. They seem to be idealists. I am very happy thinking about their goodness in this regard. They are better idealists than me. They are representing Indian culture in showering love and showing respect towards their guest, who came here to work on their farm. Returned home by 9:00 from our office. Went to sleep by 10:30. 

5 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today Amarnadh and I were engaged in the creative works related to the annual event of SWAL Corporation. Our CEO Mahendra held a meeting of all our employees from 10:00 to 11:00. He talked with us about the current status of Glads Media and the goals to be achieved in this financial year. Recently Satya Sai Baba passed away. His death was confirmed and announced after many days after he was admitted to a hospital. I think they delayed the announcement of news of the death of this person. Thousands of people made this Baba God in their hearts and donated a lot of money and other assets to his charitable trust. They are doing many welfare activities through this trust. Many cults of this nature are there in India now. If they have more assets and irrational followers, across the world, they would be identified and applauded as great spiritual organizations. Many Indians admire and worship charlatans and hypocrites. They don’t believe in rationalists and spiritualists. Such millions of stupid, eccentric and foolish people allow a few liars to start and promote their cults. Satya Sai Baba could not change the mindsets of his trust members also. They are quarreling among themselves for authority on this trust and its assets. They are worthless idiots. This Baba identified and encouraged such rogues around him. I wonder observing that even idealists and scientists are worshipping people of this order. Religions and spiritual organizations are in a wrong direction in India now. Went to sleep by 10:00.

6 May (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did not do much work in our office. By 12:13 reporter Srinivas of the ‘Eetharam’ section of the Telugu daily Eenadu called me up and informed me that a brief report would be published tomorrow about me as a writer in this part of their daily. Felt happy. Came back to home by 6:45. Srijana and I took Anand to some stores in Chintal Basthi by 7:00 to buy a few clothes. Bought a few items for 600 rupees for Srijana and Anand. From 8:30 to 9:30 called up my familiar folks and informed them to read this report about me in Eenadu tomorrow. I love reading this Telugu daily every day. I am happy knowing that they are writing a little about me in their quality daily. The readership of this daily is about 60 lakh copies in India among regional dailies. I think some readers of this daily know about me this way. I want to see how much and what they write about me. Many think that a report is published about one in a famous daily means one is a considerable or famous creature. Print, electronic and Internet media are considerable sources of public awareness and brand promotion now. The temperatures are increasing in Andhra Pradesh now due to summer. Recently I started using our locally made Samrat air cooler to sleep well at nights. It consumes about 20 litres of water to function well for 10 hours continuously. It is functioning well. Summer tortures many in India. All Indians cannot afford to buy fans, air coolers and AC machines to withstand Indian summers. Many poor Indians sleep in the open for getting air in this season. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Bought three copies of Eenadu by 6:30. There is a brief note about me in the section of ‘Eetharam’ in it. They published my photo also. I did not find the quality of this photo good. There are about 100 words in this report about me as a writer. They published brief reports about two other writers in this section. It is a short feature about young writers in India. They wrote three lies about me in this report. Those lies promote me as a writer more than necessary. The life of a writer and idealist should not be promoted on the foundation of lies. My colleagues appreciated me about it. They asked for a party from me on this occasion. They don’t know that I am against this reactive party culture. I should feel it. They should not demand it from others. About eight creatures called me up after reading this report in Eenadu and congratulated me. Felt happy. This is the first report about me as a writer in a daily. I emailed them about eight months ago asking them to write about my book Stories of Love and Beauty in their daily. They did it now. Today more than 100 creatures visited my blog site. I think this is the effect of Eenadu. They mentioned about my blog site in this report. I would be happy if Lakshmi also reads it in Narsipatnam or Ramayyapatnam. Her beauty and admiration for me encouraged me to write initially. Srijana did not talk much about this report in Eenadu. Suhas returned to our abode by 4:00 from Kandla Koya. Went to sleep by 10:30.

8 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent reading Eenadu and The Hindu for two hours. Srijana washed our bed sheets and towels. She arranged the items in our kitchen well. This is all to facilitate comfortable and happy living for me in this abode when she is in Viswanadhapuram. By 4:30 bought a kilo of skinless broiler chicken for 110 rupees in a nearby store minding the arrival of the maternal aunt and cousin of Srijana to our abode this evening. Srijana prepared curry with it. My friend Veeranjaneyulu sent his old Maruti Gypsy van to Chintal Basthi bus stop by 6:30. His nephew Ramesh drove it. Srijana, Anand and I got into it by 6:45. We reached the art abode of Veeru in Banjara Hills by 7:10. The relatives of Veeru came here from Eluru to enjoy the summer holidays of their children. Saw them enjoying themselves playing in the open space of this abode. Anand too found this place encouraging to move around and play. Veeru created a beautiful abode for his art lovers to see, feel and enjoy. We went there to see Kuracha Srinivasa Rao and his wife. He married her recently. They are newly married couple. They are living in a rented abode at Kukatpally now. Veeru invited them for dinner this night in their abode. We waited for them till 7:45 and then started back. Kuracha does not arrive in time to any scheduled place of event. It is his nature. Some bear with him. Some avoid him altogether for this reason. Ramesh dropped us at Chintal Basthi by 8:15 brining us in the Gypsy of Veeru. We brought two kilos of Shakti Malt powder from the abode of Veeru. Went to sleep by 10:30.

9 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Anand, Madhavi, Vamsy, Sushma and Suhas hired an auto rickshaw by 6:15 for 100 rupees at Chintal Basthi bus stop for Secunderabad railway station. They have about eight items of luggage with them. They took Janmabhoomi Express by 6:40. Went to our office by 9:15. Today Amarnadh and I were engaged in the creative works related to the annual event of SWAL Corporation. Today our office boy Santosh fitted a portable wall fan near me. Felt happy. Depending on the natural air around it, I can get cool or hot air from it. It is better than suffocation. Santosh did a great job today for me. Returned home by 6:45. My creatures got off Janmabhoomi Express at Tuni railway station around this time except my nephew Suhas. He got off it at Samalkot station by 6:15. Thence he went to Molleru Mallavaram along with his maternal grandfather Satya Narayana Raju. He spends there for a few days enjoying his summer vacation. Srijana and others hired an auto rickshaw in Tuni and reached Viswanadhapuram by 7:45. Today it is hot. They must have found their train journey sultry and irritating. I gave 2,000 rupees to Srijana for her casual expenses. She is in her eighth month of pregnancy now. She wants to have her delivery in Tuni. Her maternal grandparents, maternal aunt and relatives are there. She finds her time enjoyable there in the company of her creatures and Anand. My brother Srinivas is in Chennai now. He would be there for nine days undergoing a training program of the UCO Bank. Went to sleep by 10:30.

10 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. By 11:30 our CEO Mahendra Gollaputi, Ramya, Amarnadh and I went to the office of SWAL Corporation at Vikrampuri in the car of the prior. Mr. Suresh Reddy, a business head of SWAL and we spent talking for one hour. The folks of Glads Media are doing creative works and organizing entertainment events for the annual meeting of SWAL, which would be held at hotel Cidade De in Goa, on the 16^th and 17^th of this month. We discussed the status of progress of these things with Suresh. We returned to our office by 1:00. Got an email from Swarup Nanda of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai. He informed me that he would send the details of royalty to me soon for my book Stories of Love and Beauty. I will be able to know how many copies of it were sold at bookstores in India and online. I think about 50 copies of it would have been sold. Many writers and books are there in India now. A new writer does not get much focus in this field. The editors of dailies and weeklies do not publish reviews about books written by less known folks. Publication of books is a business venture now. Many educated people have no time to read books now because of their busy schedules as persons and professionals. Many of my friends also did not read this book. Professor Pingali Sailaja, when I gave this book to her last year, remarked that she cannot find time to read every part of this book. It means that actually she is not interested in reading my book. Perhaps, for her, my book is not worth reading. Returned home by 8:15. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today Amarnadh and I carried out creative works related to SWAL. Today it was hot and sultry. Recently Srijana told me that Anand is eating sand secretly. She observed it when they were at the abode of her parents at Masanpally. She advised him not to eat it. He may do it again anywhere. I think he is suffering from calcium deficiency. He likes milk. He is drinking milk every day. He must be getting adequate calcium from it. When there are many good foods and drinks for children to have, I don’t know why they resort to such avoidable acts. The same is the case with adults also. They are running after tobacco and alcohol clearly knowing that they are harmful to their health. I think such self-destructive thoughts and tendencies develop in some humans due to their Karma. Pain and suffering are the results of our thoughts and acts. Anand likes coconuts, eggs, fruits and pulses. I like to spend with them but I cannot do it as an employee. This is how the modern parents are suffering without enough time to spend with their children. When family bonds get weakened, a society fails. Now all children are interested in the pursuits of earning and employment only. Their parents are training them so. They have no discipline, ethics and standards. Success is their goal. They want to achieve it struggling hard. In this hectic journey towards achievements, they are missing the beauty of their lives. Went to sleep by 10:00.

12 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today Amarnadh and I did the creative works related to SWAL. Srijana told me that Anand caught fever. There is about 10 hours of power cut in the villages of Andhra Pradesh now every day. They cannot be happy during daytime in the sultry air of summer. I started using our Samrat air cooler to sleep well during nighttime. I am grateful to the folks, who made it in Hyderabad, minding the financial status of creatures like me. Indian summer tortures people intensely for about 40 days and nights. Companies sell more number of air conditioners, air coolers and fans in this season than the other two seasons. They expect sun to shine radiantly and chase all into their shops to buy these items. Many products and services are being offered by the folks in the unorganized sector in India but they are unable to compete with the firms in the organized sector. Companies are spending a lot of money for their brand promotion and advertising. Even a branded air cooler cannot compete with my locally made one in terms of quality and service delivery but many prefer buying branded items only because they have warranty and guarantee. Indians cannot believe in the quality of a product and the reliability of a person readily because there are many criminals and cheats around them. Simple, honest and ideal people suffer much in such societies because they cannot compete with bad ones around them in starting and running their businesses. I don’t like such Indian culture. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today our designer Amarnadh and I were engaged in the creative works meant for the annual conference of SWAL. It was a hectic day throughout. Today Swati joined the HR section of Glads Media as an assistant manager. Currently Chetanya Lakshmi is heading this section. She is pregnant. She goes on a long leave soon minding her delivery time. Swati has to head this section in her absence. She is beautiful. I enjoy her presence in our office. I found her face and disposition attractive. Returned home by 10:50. I have no time even to have my supper. Had a glass of curd. Recently the special operation forces of the USA killed Osama Bin Laden in a house in Pakistan. The folks of USA celebrated his death as a great event in the history of world. They hated Laden because he plotted the air attack on the World Trade Centre in their country in 2001. I think these folks are concerned about their welfare and peace only always but not others. The foreign policies of the US government are unethical and prejudiced. They work hard to create burning issues in all those nations, which are not readily obeying their dictates. The USA is a dirty country now in reality because they are struggling to develop on the foundation of poverty and tragedy of other nations. They are spreading Christianity in every part of the world investing huge amounts of money. Laden is a gentleman in comparison to evil nations like USA. He is a victim of these bad times. Went to sleep by 11:50.

14 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today Amarnadh and I were engaged in finalizing and packing some items to send to Goa for the annual even of SWAL. Mahendra and Ramya left for the international airport at Shamshabad by 1:30. Thence they went to Goa. They coordinate some events in the annual conference of SWAL in Goa as the representatives of Glads Media. Today I got an email from Swarup Nanda of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai. He sent me details regarding the sale of copies of my book Stories of Love and Beauty during the last 10 months and the related royalty due to me. These figures disappointed me. By 3:30, 25,200 rupees were credited to my ICICI Bank account. It’s my salary for the month of April from Glads Media. They deducted 1,800 rupees for my two leaves. They are paying me 900 rupees every day in a month. Left the office by 4:45 and rushed to my abode. Took a bag and rushed out of my abode by 5:00. Got into a 218 D city bus at Vidyut Soudha bus stop by 5:10 and reached Patan Cheru by 6:15. There took a 101 district service bus and reached the new bus station in Sangareddy by 7:00. Kept waiting for a Narayana Khed bound Express bus in this bus station. One arrived by 8:30 but it was filled with passengers completely within two minutes. I did not like to get into it and travel uncomfortably. Another 1851 Narayana Khed Express bus arrived by 8:45. Got into it and found a seat for me. Got off it at Nizampet by 10:57. My father-in-law took me to his abode near Masanpally by 11:20 on his bike. Slept by 11:45.

15 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Had my breakfast by 7:30. Then my father-in-law took me through the agricultural farm of Rudraraju Venkata Rama Raju. He and his relatives have about 300 acres of agricultural farm here. They are growing eucalyptus and mango trees in it. They sell the wood of these eucalyptus trees to paper manufacturing factories after they gain considerable length and weight. Mangoes are for their domestic consumption and relatives. They are growing sugarcane also in a few acres of land here. They sell this crop to the nearby sugar factory at Nizam Sagar. This agricultural farm is near the waters of Nizam Sagar Project. We noticed in one part of this farm that about 20 eucalyptus trees were cut and taken away by some native folks. They did it last night. My father-in-law took Balayya and me to the Nizam Sagar Project on his bike by 9:00 via village Aaredu. I found it soothing and inspiring. Saw a few folks here catching fish with their small nets for fun or livelihood sake. There are a few monkeys also in this place. This is border area between Medak and Nizamabad districts. I found this vast expanse of water inviting. Balayya belongs to Aaredu. He is a subordinate of my father-in-law. We returned home by 10:00. Had rice with fish soup by 1:00. My father-in-law collected 54 raw mangoes from the trees here for me and arranged them well in my bag. They weigh about 30 kilograms. Took an 1852 Bichkunda-Hyderabad Express bus at Masanpally Junction by 2:25 and reached Patan Cheru by 5:25. Thence took a 218 route bus by 5:29 and reached Khairatabad by 6:50. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

16 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did not do any office related work. Typed out a six-page letter addressing Swarup Nanda of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai and emailed it to him by 4:00. It is my comprehensive report to them regarding my expectations and experiences so far in my relationship with them as an author. It’s my assessment of their firm. There is more constructive criticism in it than superficial appreciation. He proposed the idea of giving a few copies of my book to dignitaries in my knowledge and adding their words about my book in it to promote it better. I did not like this idea. My book should survive on its own. Readers should buy books out of their interest in them but not reading reviews about them in dailies and weeklies. They wrote to me that they sent about 40 copies of my book to different media outlets for promotion and review purpose. I did not appreciate this policy. We should not send our books to anybody for formality or courtesy sake. Books are for readers. They are not food items. Everybody cannot consume, digest and benefit from them. Those, who desire to improve psychologically, buy books and read them. If many are not buying books in a nation, it means that those people are not growing psychologically according to the demands of the time. Today I talked with K L N Swati in our office for 30 minutes. She joined Glads Media recently as an assistant HR manager. She got impressive features. She belongs to Akiveedu area in West Godavari district. By 4:40 deposited 10,000 rupees into the ICICI Bank account of my friend Krishna Kishore. Slept by 11:00.

17 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did not do any office related work. There is nothing to do. Today I took three raw mangoes to our office. They are called Banginapalli in our region. They taste well in raw form also. Gave two of them to our HR manager Chetanya Lakshmi. She found them irresistible. They cut one into pieces and distributed to all in the office. K Lakshmi Naga Swati came late to the office. She must have missed it. An admirer of beauty must serve beauties more than others. Others interpret it as love or lust. Everybody cannot understand and practice admiration of beauty. Our designer Amarnadh went to his hometown Rajahmundry without informing me or our HR creatures. Our CEO Mahendra called me up from Goa by 11:00 and asked me about him. I am the immediate supervisor of Amarnadh. Mahendra advised me to keep him informed about things of this order wherever he is through SMS to his cellphone. Amarnadh works like an automated machine in Glads Media. Once Mahendra told us all that he considers us as his family members. Perhaps Amarnadh thought that family members need not follow formalities. I emailed a logo to Mahendra on behalf of Amarnadh from the computer of the latter. My friend Krishna Kishore emailed me from London stating that he received the 10,000 rupees into his account, which I deposited yesterday at the ICICI Bank in Khairatabad. He lent me this amount of money earlier. Evening sent a message to writer Arundhati Roy. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Vamsy came by 8:30. Srijana sent 30 lemons and 80 Jamun (Neredu in Telugu) fruit for me with him from Viswanadhapuram. Paid 158 rupees in the office of Manappuram Finance by 9:12 towards monthly interest for the 15,000 rupees, which I borrowed earlier from them pledging the black beads gold chain of Srijana. Entered our office by 9:16. Today I did not do any office related work. Spent browsing Internet. By 2:30 a courier fellow delivered an envelope to me. The folks of Leadstart Publishing sent it to me from Mumbai. There was a Bank of India cheque in it worth 5,706 rupees. It is towards interim royalty payout to me for my book Stories of Love and Beauty. According to the email report sent by Swarup Nanda, 11 copies of my book were sold in India, one copy by a foreigner online through payment of US dollars and 39 copies are estimated copies of sale. They paid me for 51 copies of my book. They did not get detailed book sale reports yet from the blokes of bookstores. This is interim courtesy royalty payment to me by them. They used 43 copies of my book for distribution to media outlets. Deposited this cheque in the ICICI Bank at Khairatabad by 3:00 to be credited to my account with them. By today, the 50 language errors, which I identified in this book and emailed to them, got corrected in it. They go for the second print run of this book soon with these improvements. By 5:30 ordered the book Broken Republic of Arundhati Roy through the portal of Penguin India for ‘Cash on Delivery’. She is one of the admirable creatures of India. This book contains three of her essays on contemporary issues. I want to read them. Went to sleep by 10:30.

19 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. The four creatures of Glads Media, who went to Goa, to participate in the annual event of SWAL Corporation Ltd., returned from there and came to the office today. I thought that Ramya would bring a few chocolates at least for us in the office. None of them did it. They said it went on well. Today I worked on the task of corporate film for SWAL for about four hours. There was power cut for one hour in this locality during afternoon hours. We folks kept talking among ourselves during this time. I thought that our CEO Mahendra would ask me what I did in the office during the last three days. I could not have answered him well if he asked me so because I did nothing during these three days. I enjoyed my time reading blogs and other online content casually. I felt relieved knowing that he did not touch that matter. Recently he said that he is paying for every minute I am spending in the office. In fact, he is paying to me for Sundays, holidays and casual leaves also. He expects all his employees to work well and contribute to the financial growth of this firm. I found that an employer cannot keep each of his employees engaged in official work always. It was my experience even in the three firms I worked earlier. It happens. Firms have to bear with this bitter truth. My brother Srinivas returned to Visakhapatnam yesterday night from Chennai completing his training in accounting and clerical aspects of online banking. He underwent this internal training for about 10 days in the regional office of UCO Bank at Chennai. Went to sleep by 10:30.

20 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I worked on the script of the corporate film meant for SWAL. By 11:00 applied for a new password through the website of ICICI Bank for my Internet banking. Whatever they provided to me initially did not work. They send new ids by post to our house in Peda Gummuluru. I have no time to go to all places physically and pay money to get things done. I can do it better through online payments using my bank’s debit card. By 1:00 inserted five 1000-rupee notes into the online banking machine in the ICICI Bank at Khairatabad so as to credit it to the ICICI Bank account of my cousin Vasu. I could do it within two minutes. I felt very happy about the technology being used in this machine. My cousin transferred 5,000 rupees into the ICICI Bank account of my colleague Amarnadh yesterday on my request. Amarnadh transferred it to the SBH account of Rama Sekhara Raju today. Sekhar gives this money to Srijana. It all happened through online banking transactions. I like these developments taking place in the banking sector of India. By 5:30 typed out and posted a blog titled “Identity Crisis in India” on my blog site. I discussed ‘Aadhaar’ card in this blog. The Government of India is issuing them to all the citizens of India. They can use it as a multi-purpose utility identity card across India. I could not get it so far because they made the process of getting it time-consuming and complex. Nandan Nilekani is the chairman of this program. I criticized him for the drawbacks of this program. Indians are after cigarettes, liquor, prostitutes and parties but not ‘Aadhaar’ card. Went to sleep by 10:30.

21 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. My domestic HP LPG cylinder got emptied up by 8:00. I started using it on 28 November, 2010. I use it frequently. I wonder at its extraordinary service to me for these many days. I am grateful to it. Srijana also often feels very happy about the service delivery of HP LPG cylinders in our abode. We write dates on them to assess the service quality of these silent fuel heroes in homes. I started using our new cylinder. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did not do much office work. By 11:30 the Government of Andhra Pradesh released the results of 10^th standard exams, which they conducted recently. I checked them online. My nephew Sujan got 532 marks for 600. He studied at Ravindra Bharathi School at NAD Kotha Road in Visakhapatnam. He got 68 marks only in English for 100. He expected more marks in it. My brother Srinivas is planning to apply to the Board of Secondary Education in Hyderabad for the re-evaluation of this paper. Marks, ranks and grades of students are deciding their status in the society now but not their characters. All are interested in profitable courses of study only. Teachers are giving marks liberally in all subjects. Unqualified and inexperienced folks are also valuing the answer papers of students. Many students are getting victimized due to this defective and unreliable educational system. Many poor parents don’t know about the re-evaluation and recounting facilities. Saw the Telugu film “Veera” of Ravi Teja in cinema Sensation Sunshine at Khairatabad from 9:00 to 11:30. Slept by 12:00.

22 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day within my abode. Read Eenadu and The Hindu for one hour. From 12:30 to 5:15 typed out and posted a blog titled “Samhita and I” on my blog site. Samhita is a character created by me to interview me. I discussed the sales record and some other related things about my first book Stories of Love and Beauty in this blog. Today I posted the photo of Telugu film actor Akkineni Nagarjuna on the banner of my blog site and congratulated him on a special occasion in his life. He completed 25 years of his life as an actor by today. I read about it in Eenadu. He often visits me in my dreams. I love him. Today I talked with the mother of my friend Aishwarya. I knew that she got 512 marks for 600 in her 10^th standard examinations. Her mother said that she did not concentrate well on her studies. Aishwarya is developing an individuality of her own. She is expressing her views to her parents. They are thinking that she has no respect and love for them. They always want to see her as a bright student. She expects them to treat her like a lovable daughter. They are imposing restrictions upon her considering her gender. I think we cannot improve the character of a person through restrictions and dictatorship but liberty and love. When teenagers don’t get enough love and care from their parents, they search for it in others. It leads to love affairs. Many teenagers are in this zone now in India due to weak family relationships. Today my cousin Hari came to Durgada from Chhattisgarh. He is working there with KVK Energy as a mechanical engineer. Went to sleep by 10:00.

23 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today there was power cut for two hours in the afternoon. My colleague Amarnadh and I went to Kothi by 3:30 on a bike. We enquired much and reached the bookstore of Vishalandhra Publishers by 5:00. It’s at Abids. We asked them if there is any book with comprehensive details about the various fairs and festivals that take place in different parts of Andhra Pradesh every year. Many know about major fairs and festivals, which take place in a few places in this state every year. In fact, many fairs take place at many towns and villages also in this state every year. Indians accord more value to blind beliefs and tradition than scientific outlook and rationality. They celebrate most of these fairs and festivals eating meat and drinking liquor. Akkineni Suresh of Glads Media wants to utilize these fairs as suitable occasions for marketing purpose and BTL activities. They said that there is no such book. Nobody documented the history of Andhra Pradesh from this perspective. We returned to our office by 6:00. Afternoon received the photo of the girl from village Durgada. My maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma and cousin Sirisha considered her beautiful and suitable bride for my friend Veeranjaneyulu. She is the daughter of a lower class working woman in this village. I give 30 marks for 100 for her physical beauty. Scolded my aunt and cousin for sending me such girl’s photo. Sent it back immediately. Evening Vamsy came to my abode. Went to sleep by 10:00.

24 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Vamsy started to the new Sangareddy bus station. His father brings two cardboard boxes of raw mangoes to this place from the agricultural farm near village Masanpally. One parcel is to be taken to Viswanadhapuram. Madhavi, the maternal aunt of Srijana, is going to this place. One parcel is for me. Vamsy is like a courier boy in this setting. This year mango crop is low in Visakhapatnam district. My father-in-law is sending mangoes for his daughter Srijana in Viswanadhapuram for this reason. These raw mangoes ripen in the cardboard boxes within five or six days if they are kept air-tight. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I was engaged in three kinds of creative works. Today I got an email reply from Renuka Chatterjee. She is chief editor at Westland and vice president of Osians, a literary agency based in New Delhi. Osians seeks to identify and promote the creative works of Indian writers in India and abroad. I knew about this woman reading an article written by Kanika Gupta on the website of Chilli Breeze. The folks of Oseans sell creative works of writers conducting open auctions among publishers. Thus they try to encourage writers, bringing publishers to this common literary platform, and making them notice a variety of creative works being produced by Indians. Yesterday I sent an email to this woman asking her if she can help me find a publisher for my second book A Dreamer’s Love Story. She informed me to email her synopsis of my book and a sample short story. Emailed the 40^th email and one-page synopsis written by me about this work earlier. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

25 May (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I researched online about the Top 10 FMCG companies in India and collected the available data. Returned home by 8:00. Today Srijana entered the 9^th month of her pregnancy. She is doing well. She is using the medicines prescribed by Dr. C S Lakshmi of Talli Pilla Hospital in Tuni. This doctor told Srijana that she does not need scanning. We don’t know whether it is going to be a male or female baby. I will be happy if it is a female creature. Srijana can enjoy herself decorating her daughter more than her son. Many Indian mothers enjoy the thoughts and presence of their daughters more than their sons. I too like the fatherhood in relation to a son and a daughter. Srijana decided to go for birth control operation after this delivery. I am 34 now. If I live up to 80 years, I can experience my role as a husband and father to my goddess Srijana and two children satisfactorily. My earlier desire of begetting eight children does not seem to be a justifiable idea in this setting. Srijana is eating mango fruit. It’s cool at Viswanadhapuram during evenings. She is able to sleep well at night. Her relatives are celebrating the summer vacation with their children. Srijana and Anand enjoy this environment. Evening Vamsy left for Bengaluru in a private travel bus from Lakdi Ka Pool. He is going there to collect his salary of 4,500 rupees from Navayuga Engineering for the previous month. He worked there for about six months after completing his ITI course. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 May (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:45. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I was engaged in three kinds of works. Gave four raw mangoes to Chetanya Lakshmi. She is fond of them. She asked me for them. There are three more female employees in our office. I did not give mangoes to them. It’s perhaps because they did not ask me for them. I think expressing our casual and simple desires to our relatives and friends is a good practice. Chetanya can buy mangoes in market spending her money. She asked me to bring them for her knowing that I have them in my abode here. She considered me as a good fellow. I am happy about it. We feel happy while offering than taking. I like dates, sweet grapes and apples. I don’t buy them in market frequently considering their prices or the fact that I need not take them as highly essential things for my life. If I have relatives or friends in Rajasthan, Hyderabad, Jammu & Kashmir and if they offer me these items, bringing them from their homes, I feel happier than when buying them in market for me. Thus they satisfy my dormant and neglected desire for these food items. We feel like doing a lot to express our sense of gratitude or affection to our beloved ones but we cannot satisfy many of those desires. We come across many poor and helpless people frequently but we don’t feel like offering them even a rupee coin but we buy valuable gifts for our familiar folks even when we know that they don’t care for them much. Modern human beings are more interested in following formalities than understanding realities and living accordingly. Returned home by 8:00. Went to sleep by 11:15.

27 May (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected health related questions and answers from a few online sources. Our CEO Mahendra is interested in conducting a quiz show for children on some Telugu television channel. Today I got an email from Renuka Chatterjee of Oseans literary agency. She wrote that she cannot publish my book A Dreamer’s Love Story. Today my father and mother went to Viswanadhapuram by 11:00 hiring an auto rickshaw from Adduroad. They went there to see Srijana and Anand. It’s a formal visit. They spent here for about three hours. Anand did not go to them considering them as unfamiliar creatures. He remained with Srijana only during their presence. Morning opened the cardboard box of mangoes sent by my father-in-law recently. Most of them turned ripe due to the temperature in this box. He kept two little packs of acetylene powder in this box to ripen them faster artificially. I did not like this practice by him. The heat generated by this chemical spoils the quality of mangoes. Many are selling such harmful fruits in market now. By 6:40 my cousin Bala and I came to my abode after my office hours. He came here this morning by Gautami Express train from Kakinada. He came here to get his domestic HP LPG connection transferred to Kakinada from Vanasthalipuram. He brought a postal parcel addressed to me from my previous address point in Self Finance Colony. Dr. Shankaraiah sent me a copy of his Telugu novel Padamati Kondalu reading about me in Telugu daily Eenadu recently. Went to sleep by 10:30.

28 May (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Vamsy came back from Bengaluru by 7:30. He received his salary from the office of Navayuga Engineering there for the last month. They pay salaries very late every month. It is one of the mediocre firms of India. My cousin Bala left for Thumukunta by 9:15. His brother Murali is there. Today I collected details about the positioning, leading brands, print ads and TVCs of Hindustan Unilever Limited. Evening prepared covering letters and subscription forms to send to five places on behalf of Glads Media. The management of this firm decided to subscribe to six magazines. They are Telugu agricultural monthly Anna Dhaatha and English magazines Business World, AGRICULTURE TODAY, afaqs! Reporter, 4Ps and WOW Hyderabad. The folks of Glads Media need to update their knowledge in the areas of advertising, media, consulting and agriculture. Subscribing to these magazines is to fulfill this need. Morning typed out one-page letter addressing writer Dr. Shankaraiah. This is to acknowledge the receipt of his Telugu novel Padamati Kondalu and document a few related notions. The font used for this letter is Cambria, font size 9 and font colour blue. Took a printout of it on a Royal Executive Bond paper at the NOR Printing Point opposite our office. Booked it at the DTDC point near our office by 1:15. This writer receives it on this Monday at his abode in Meerpet. Today Srijana went to Tuni on the bike of her maternal uncle Sekhar and consulted Dr. C S Lakshmi at Talli Pilla Hospital as part of her periodical checkup schedule. My cousin Murali, Vamsy and I reached the rented abode of the prior at Thumukunta by 9:00. Went to sleep by 11:00.

29 May (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night my cousin Murali, Bala, my brother-in-law Vamsy and I slept on the terrace of the rented abode of the prior. We sensed cool and clean air blowing from the surrounding empty agricultural farms. We heard film songs being played at the nearby Alankrita Resort. It’s a source of sound pollution in this area at nights during weekends. The folks of Shri Ram Chandra Mission have no time to get this issue resolved. They are hard-core materialists and opportunists wearing the masks of this cult. Murali and I cut a jack fruit open and took out the sweet items from it from 9:15 to 10:15. Earlier Murali bought it in Secunderabad for domestic consumption. We all spent talking for some time. Suraj, the male baby of Murali and Ramya, is seven months old now. He is healthy and cute. Took a bus at Thumukunta and reached Secunderabad by 3:45. Thence took another bus and reached my abode by 4:30. Reached cinema Sensation Sunshine at Khairatabad by 5:30 walking via Khairatabad railway station. Bought a ticket for 50 rupees. Saw the Telugu film “Dusshaashana” of Srikanth in it from 6:00 to 8:30. Posani Krishna Murali directed this film. It is a masterpiece. It discusses the contemporary social issues in India and suggests political solutions for them. I give 90 marks for 100 for it. Krishna Murali is a radical thinker, idealist, satirist and social reformer. I wondered at his admirable skills as a writer when watching this great film. About 50 Indians only came to see this film. Went to sleep by 10:30. 

30 May (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. By 1:15 went to post office at Khairatabad and posted five envelopes of Glads Media. They are subscriptions for five English magazines. They are Business World, 4Ps, WOW Hyderabad, afaqs! Reporter, and AGRICULTURE TODAY. Afternoon collected data about ITC and Nestle India related products as part of FMCG research work. Returned home by 8:00. Srijana is using three kinds of tablets now. They are FEFOL (ferrous sulphate with folic acid), ZEVIT (B Complex, C and Zinc sulphate) and BECOSULES (B Complex Forte with vitamin C). She could not get LIVINA syrup in Tuni. She is doing well in Viswanadhapuram with Anand and other children. Recently my mother asked me if I can contribute 5,000 rupees for buying silver for Anand. Some folks give money to children on their birthdays and such other occasions. My father is adding 5,000 rupees to the fund of Anand accumulated this way. They want to buy silver for my son. My mother said that the prices of gold and silver are increasing day by day. I told her that I cannot contribute money to this project. I don’t like this stupid mentality of Indians. They don’t know how to bring up their children, how to keep up their health and how to conduct themselves to remain as admirable citizens of India but how to buy gold. India remains backward as long as Indians run after gold and cricket. I know how to bring up Anand. I need not buy gold and silver for him. Children should enjoy their relationship with their parents and contemporary folks. Every Indian must be a great human being for this to happen. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

31 May (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today I am on a casual leave. Today I spent all the day in my abode reading the Telugu novel Padamati Kondalu written by Dr. Shankaraiah. There are 286 pages in this book. I took about eight hours’ time to completely read it. It is informative, insightful and absorbing. It’s an autobiographical novel. Though it is a third person narrative, one can easily identify the life of Venkat as that of Dr. Shankaraiah. He is a medical doctor. He goes to the United States of America to work there as a doctor after doing a related course there. He and his friend go there on business visas. Venkat struggles and suffers a lot in New York doing petty jobs as an illegal emigrant for about two years. He witnesses the scenario of crime and unrest in this magnificent city as a poor and helpless Indian doctor. Frustrated and pervert African Americans attack, rape and kill others for money or sadistic pleasure. There are many illegal emigrants in New York. They lead pitiable and insecure lives. They like the attractive US dollars. Sex and entertainment are widely available in New York. Marital bonds are weak and unreliable in this culture compared to that of India. Dr. Shankaraiah portrayed the miserable lives of illegal emigrants in this city. I felt as if I was personally experiencing these pathetic aspects of life while reading this novel. He commented on female beauty, human life, religion, western culture, destiny, poverty and Indian culture in this novel. It educates and entertains readers. Enjoyed reading it throughout. Went to sleep by 11:30. 

1 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Paid 4,500 rupees to my house portion owner by 8:00 towards rent for the last month. It’s my policy to pay rent on the first of every month to a house owner. This is how we can get a good impression from them. Many like or dislike us based on our behavior, attitude and language. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected data about the leading brands of Nestle India, Cadbury, Asian Paints and Dabur as part of my ongoing FMCG industry research. Today our CEO Mahendra and COO Akkineni Suresh conducted performance appraisals in our office. They decided to increase the salaries of all those, who worked here for more than six months. They gave them a feedback form. They have to write about their achievements, failures and salary expectations on it. They interacted with each employee individually. They talked with me for 20 minutes in the evening. They gave me a gift and an ICICI Bank cheque for 3333 rupees along with other senior staff members. They are their tokens of love for me. The gift is a glass wine bottle decorated with crystals all around. There may be 50 milliliters of old wine in it. They gave these bottles to all the employees as part of this formal performance appraisal. Left the office by 7:45. Forgot taking my key this morning along with me. Vamsy went out with one key. I did not like to break the lock. I bought this ‘Made in China’ lock when living at Karkhana. Called up Vamsy and told him to come back breaking his planned journey to the abode of his friend. He returned by 8:30 from ESI area. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju and I spent talking from 8:00 to 10:30. Went to sleep by 11:15.

2 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did three kinds of works. By 1:30 walked down to ICICI Bank at Khairatabad and deposited the gift cheque of Glads Media worth 3333 rupees into my account with it. My colleague Amarnadh told me that they issued these complimentary cheques to Ramya, him and me only appreciating our collective contribution to the creative works related to the annual event of SWAL Corporation. By 5:00 received the book BROKEN REPUBLIC of Arundhati Roy from a representative of Aramex paying 334 rupees to him for it. Earlier I booked it on uread.com. Penguin India published it. It costs 499 rupees at retail stores. The quality of this book is good. There are three essays in this book. Returned home by 6:45. Morning Vamsy went to MGBS, collected a cardboard box parcel of mangoes and delivered it to K Prakash Rao at Himayat Nagar. He is a UCO Bank Exmployees Union leader. My folks sent it from Adduroad through APSRTC-ANL parcel service at the request of my brother Srinivas, who is working with UCO Bank now at Devarapalli. Then Vamsy went to the ANL Parcel point at Nampally and brought my parcel of mangoes. My folks sent it from Adduroad for me. These are mangoes collected from the reserved trees in our mango garden by hills there. They sold the seasonal crop of this mango farm to a familiar fellow this year. It is the birthday of Maestro Ilayaraja today. Posted his photo on the banner of my blog site and wrote a few words appreciating him on this occasion. He is a classic and divine musician of India. Today Srijana slapped Anand while angry with him. She deeply regretted it later. Went to sleep by 10:30.

3 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected data about the leading brands of Britannia Industries and Marico as part of my ongoing FMCG industry research. Afternoon a representative of CRY came to our office. It’s a voluntary organization working for the welfare of poor and helpless children in India. She met our HR creatures Chetanya Lakshmi and Swati on my advice. She left the office within a few minutes. They told me that she said that they don’t accept donations less than 1,200 rupees. Every donation must be in the form of a cheque only. Our CEO Mahendra was not in the office during this time. She walked out without collecting even one rupee from the folks in our office. She is a trainee in the marketing field. She must be an MBA. She could not understand that in India charity does not take place through formal demands but humble requests and shameless begging. She is not interested in this job. Morning my brother Srinivas admitted his eldest son Sujan into Narayana Junior College at Asil Metta in Visakhapatnam for his first year Intermediate (MPC) course in English medium. They earlier asked for 40,000 rupees. Considering his marks and a few words of my cousin Murali, they finalized it for 30,000 rupees for this academic year. Sujan gets prepared for the JEE-2013 as part of this course. My friend Ramnadh came here by 9:30. He came by Janmabhoomi Express from Tuni. Today it was cloudy and cool. Went to sleep by 11:45.

4 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected print ads from afaqs.com for reference sake. Evening Mahendra and Akkineni Suresh conducted a meeting with our creative process and business development team members and clarified the roles to be played by each of us. Went into the baby care products store “Riviera Traders” by 7:45. It is opposite Maruthi Plaza building. Checked the quality of a cushion carry bed meant for babies. Mothers put their babies on this soft bed and travel. Babies enjoy the softness and coziness of this product. Srijana told me to enquire about it. We want to buy it for our second baby, who is yet to born. Its price is 275 rupees. Returned home by 8:00. Vamsy told me that he donated 300 millilitres of blood this morning in Chiranjeevi Blood Bank at Jubilee Hills. They collected platelets from his blood and sent that blood back into his body. He donated his blood seven times at this centre so far. He said that once he got photographed with Ram Charan Tej at this centre. I am happy about his sense of social service. I introduced him to Hyderabad and the act of blood donation. Today I gave 1,100 rupees to my friend Ramnadh and took a bottle of ‘daily’ supplements of Amway. He is an Amway business owner. There are about 13 essential nutrients in these organic supplements. I am not getting balanced diet now. These supplements are to save myself from those nutritional deficiencies. It is a great business firm. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju came to my abode by 9:30 on his bike. We took 12 mango fruit for his well-wisher and advocate Muralidhar at Narayana Guda. Night he slept in my abode. Went to sleep by 11:30.

5 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Scanned Eenadu and The Hindu for one hour. Read the first 30 pages of content in the book BROKEN REPUBLIC of Arundhati Roy for one hour. Uploaded a video of Anand into YouTube from my Google account. I shot it when he was about five months old. I made it public. Also uploaded a few photos of Anand into my blog site. I shot them recently in this abode at Khairatabad. My friend Ramnadh returned from Sri Nagar Colony by 2:30. He attended a Britt Worldwide summer conference there. He told me that I should join Amway as a business owner to earn money and reputation. I like using the products of Amway but I don’t like to get into it as a promoter and salesman of those products. I wish to be a writer. I don’t have time to do other things once deep into this pursuit. Ramnadh took Godavari Express at Nampally by 4:00 for Tuni. My friend Veeru took me to State Art Gallery at Madhapur by 5:00 in his old Maruti Gypsy vehicle along with two other creatures. An exhibition of the paintings of noted artist and Telugu film director Bapu is going on here now. We saw them from 5:10 to 5:50 in Chitramayi. They are wonderful creative pieces. Bapu created a distinct style of painting. He is an admirable representative and promoter of Telugu culture. I like the Telugu films directed by him. He is an idealist. We returned to Veeru’s art abode by 7:15 after visiting another art gallery on the way back. Rajani came here by 8:00. We had rice with fish soup. Rajani and I reached my abode by 9:45. He slept here. Went to sleep by 11:20.

6 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I prepared a 19-slide PPT on FMCG industry in India to present to our creative process and business development team members soon. Returned home by 7:00. Every day I am eating about eight mango fruit now. They are ripe and tasty. I gave about 10 fruit to the folks in our office till now. They felt happy. Gave about 22 fruit to my friend Rajani. He gave 12 of them to his well-wisher Muralidhar. My father-in-law and father supplied mangoes to me. Many say that human body cannot extract and utilize energy optimally if we eat or drink a food item or beverage excessively on any day. I don’t follow discipline in consuming mango fruit. We get them once a year. I am getting them freely every year from my folks. I am not buying costly fruit like apples in market. I buy bananas now and then because I can afford them. Humans have many desires in relation to foods, living abodes and sex. Food is for survival. Houses are for safe, secure and comfortable indoor life. Sex is a powerful basic instinct. Many are spending huge amounts of money for these three things in the world. Many are becoming immoral and illegal in acquiring and enjoying these things. Some are dying without food. Some have no houses to live in. Many are enjoying sex like animals. I think every gentleman is a victim of contemporary disorders and demerits of society. There are pain and suffering in every part of the world. Generous and visionary people suffer observing imbalances and unrest around them. Many phenomena and occurrences are beyond human knowledge and control. Went to sleep by 10:30.

7 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected public interest print ads and FMCG product related TVCs from afaqs.com. I found the public interest ads more appealing and insightful than other print ads. My eyes and ears got strained because of watching 95 TVCs continuously in the afternoon. Morning Vamsy brought his cousin Srinivas to my abode. He completed diploma in computer applications at Leela Krishna Bapuji Polytechnic at Ravulapalem. He came here to learn related technical skills doing a short term course at Ameerpet. He is the son of Venkata Ramana, the youngest paternal aunt of Srijana. They are living in village Peda Brahmadevam near Samarla Kota. They have a house and three acres of agricultural farm in this village. His father is a peasant farmer. For many parents, in India, educated sons means those supposed to do jobs but not agriculture. My colleague and systems administrator Satya Kishore advised Srinivas to do a hardware and networking course. Simultaneously he must work with an experienced person in this field to get hands-on work experience. Then he can get a job or start his computer repair unit in Samarla Kota. He seems to be a disciplined and cultured fellow. Returned home by 6:45. Paid 400 rupees to a collection executive of Beamtel Broadband by 7:30. Every month I am paying 400 rupees to them. Their charges are very fair and affordable. This time our domestic electricity bill amounted to 160 rupees. Srijana asked me to come to Viswanadhapuram to see her. I have one casual leave only. Went to sleep by 10:30.

8 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Last night it rained a little and made it cool. It’s the result of monsoon. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected about 100 TVCs related to FMCG industry from afaqs.com. Today we received the first subscription copy of afaqs! Reporter. Its look and quality are good. Started PPT presentation in the room of our CEO Mahendra by 5:40. It’s on FMCG industry in India. My colleagues Ramya Agasthi, Chintapalli Suresh, Amarnadh, Murali and Kodali Rambabu attended it. Our COO Akkineni Suresh convened it. I collected basic points about this industry. It’s my first PPT presentation. I am not good at it. Akkineni Suresh advised me on how to improve it. He has a lot of knowledge about FMCG industry. He explained every sentence I read out. If my presentation lasted for 20 minutes, his corresponding explanation lasted for 100 minutes. He digested and internalized that knowledge. We listened to him like disciplined and obedient school kids. The knowledge acquisition and retention levels of Indians are very low now. I don’t know even the names of famous writers in English literature. I read newspapers and books but forget those things very fast. Many Indians are suffering from short term memory loss now. They do many things every day but they forget all that within days. Very few are interested in knowledge and information now except for academic and competitive exam purpose. Many are interested in comedy, entertainment and spending time casually. In this shallow and superficial society, those with vast knowledge and patience command more respect from others. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

  9 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:40. Felt like sleeping more. The cooling effect of budding rainy season is making me so. I am enjoying sound sleep now and feeling relieved in the morning. It’s the spell of nature. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did three kinds of works. Returned home by 8:00. Today it was cool and refreshing. My father and mother are at the abode of my brother Srinivas now at Sujatha Nagar in Visakhapatnam. They went there for getting regular checkup and medicines at INS Kalyani Hospital in Schindia. My mother told me about the scenario of thefts, which took place recently in Peda Gummuluru. It is estimated that a gang of thieves entered this locality recently. They are entering houses and stealing valuable belongings of villagers like gold and money. Everybody is talking about this issue now in this area. Earlier my father and mother wanted to come here and spend with me for a few days. Now my father withdrew himself from this idea. He wants to stay back at home and keep vigil of it. My mother decided to come here soon along with my cousin Sirisha and my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma. I welcomed her decision. She is suffering from high blood pressure, diabetes and asthma. She does not take care of her health much. My father has more determination and discipline in keeping up his health than my mother. The mango and cashew crop season has almost come to an end in this area. Rainy season is on. Farmers are getting ready to plough their farms and get into paddy cultivation. Went to sleep by 10:30.

10 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:40. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I prepared a PPT on BTL activities spending about six hours’ time on it. My computer system hanged up for some reason. This effect ate 22 slides in my PPT. There are 10 slides only in it. I could not retrieve the lost slides. I did not save them soon after typing up that text on them. One mistake can lead to such disasters. I wrote some of that content in my words. I developed attachment with them. I felt much disturbed and frustrated at their loss. I did not feel like rebuilding that kingdom in the same order with the same passion. I started doing it differently depending on external sources completely. We cannot think and create things extraordinarily always. Exceptional creativity hits us like a thunder and disappears from us like lightning. We cannot capture every fragment of creativity we encounter in different stages, conditions and forces of our life. What we can make tangible from the treasure of huge creativity we have in us is just a little piece of it. I love this villainous game of God with humans. Today it was cloudy, cool and refreshing. It’s a game of God. Seasonal changes and natural effects impact the thought process, creative output and lifestyles of human beings. Returned home by 7:00. Anand is calling his familiar creatures in Viswanadhapuram with their names. He is disturbing Srijana after returning to her finishing his outdoor activities. She is beating him now and then to control him. He is eating mango fruit. He developed attachment with his mother. He does not allow others to do some things for him. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Our CEO Mahendra and COO Akkineni Suresh did not come to office today. They went to Rajahmundry on office work. Our folks found the office environment more enjoyable and liberal today due to it than that of the days with their presence here. Bosses create an ambience of authority, discipline, hierarchy and control in their offices. Today I carried out two kinds of works. Returned home by 6:45. My colleague Amarnadh, his two friends, my brother-in-law Vamsy and I saw the Telugu film “Badrinadh” of Allu Arjun in cinema Sensation Sunshine from 9:00 to 11:30. V V Vinayak directed it. It is a very exciting, interesting and inspiring film. Arjun did mesmerizing stunts and dances in it. The visual beauty of the film is excellent. Music is superb. We bought 40-rupee tickets for 60 rupees in the black for this film. The standards of people watching films now are very low. They are watching every feature film from the perspective of worthless critics and eccentric creatures. They criticize films casually and spread bad talk about them. They are undisciplined rogues and uncultured scoundrels. They talk a lot of rubbish about songs, music and such other aspects of film-making without knowing anything about them. Blind criticism is their habit. I hate viewers, who go out from a cinema, when a film is on. Such dirty Indians are damaging the spirit of taste and sensitivity in film artistes. Went to sleep by 12:15.

12 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:40. Scanned Eenadu and The Hindu for one hour. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju came here by 10:00. Offered two mango fruit to him. Both of us went to his rented abode by Road No. 12, in Banjara Hills, by 12:00, on his bike. He and his two familiar creatures prepared chicken curry and rice by 2:30. We had it by 3:00. Rajani and I reached the art abode of our friend Veeranjaneyulu at MLA Colony by 3:20. Meher Murali was also here. We spent here till 7:30. I told Veeru that he can never achieve zero debt personal economy status in his life. He spends money, for others, without control. He has unnecessary levels of goodness and kindness for his family members and friends. He does not know how and when to say “No” to others. He has a debt of about 12 lakh rupees now. The same is the case with Rajani also. He arranged high level loans for rich folks based on collateral. He has good relationships with high level folks of many banks. He gets commission in this business. About 10 rogues cheated him till now depending on his goodness for them. He arranged loans for them thinking that they are trustworthy. He said that he lost about 60 lakh rupees this way. He has to clear these debts on behalf of these criminals. He likes spending with girls and women on commercial terms. He often tells me about such girls and women, who are ready to sleep with others for money. He may be 40 now. He is not much interested in his marriage now considering his age. He wants to enjoy females on contract basis. Sex with life partner creates family and related lifelong responsibilities. Sex with immoral females and males is a choice for many in India now. Went to sleep by 11:15.

13 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:45. Went to our office by 9:15. There I realized that I forgot my cellphone at home. Rushed back and collected it from my abode. It happened so recently also. I prepare for the office very systematically every morning. I rest for a while before taking a bath. If that period of rest exceeds my intended schedule, I have to spend a little time only to do many things. In that hurry, I forget taking the key of my abode or my cellphone. I curse myself for such violations of punctuality and discipline. Today I collected information related to BTL activities from the portal of afaqs! and developed a PPT on this topic. Returned home by 7:10. Ironed my clothes for 30 minutes. In the Kshatriya community of Andhra Pradesh, many children address their father as ‘Baajjee’. Srijana trained Anand to address me so. I like it. I think this Telugu word originated from the Hindi word ‘Baapji’. Now many parents are mad for English. They want their children to address them as ‘Daddy’ and ‘Mammy’. I don’t like this psyche of cultural slavery in India. Many parents are encouraging and training their children to use English only and avoid Telugu. Now many Indians are living and working in other countries. They are role models for many Indians living in India. They are craving for more money and foreign tours. They are interested in English because it allows their children to go to the USA or the UK. They don’t have individualities. They live for money, comforts, luxuries and false prestige. Went to sleep by 11:00.

14 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:40. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I completed the preparation of PPT on BTL activities meant for presentation in our office to my colleagues. Also did the PPT and proposal works related to the BTL activity of Agri Gold. Glads Media is likely to conduct a VOW BTL activity to promote the newly launched products whole atta and refined sunflower oil of Agri Gold. Returned home by 7:15. Morning Srijana went to Tuni along with Anand. She consulted Dr. C S Lakshmi at Talli Pilla Hospital in Post Office Street. This doctor examined her and said that she is well. She prescribed three kinds of tablets for her. They are Gas Fev Plus, Polybion and Sandocal 500. She told her to come to Tuni from Viswanadhapuram in a week’s time considering her expected time of delivery. Srijana wants to have this delivery also in Tuni. The doctors in Hyderabad charge about 30,000 rupees for a normal delivery in somewhat good hospital or nursing home. They complicate the process at the eleventh hour and present it as a case of emergency. They pull baby out through unnecessary operation. This drama is to get more money from victim. I have no that much money and patience to bear with these criminals in twin cities. Srijana wants the presence and care of her mother and maternal grandmother during this time. Tuni is a familiar and convenient place for them. Srijana also likes this place. These factors made me send Srijana to this place for her delivery. I have still a debt burden of about 25,000 rupees. I lose 900 rupees for every leave beyond one casual leave in a month. I am helpless. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. By 11:30 typed out one-page letter addressing Dr. C S Lakshmi of Talli Pilla Hospital in Tuni. She is the present doctor of Srijana. I shared my views with her about the delivery and tubectomy of Srijana going to be attended by her soon in this hospital. I requested her to do tubectomy in such a way that it can be redone later if we want more children in future. I appreciated the profession of medicine. I advised her to improve the status of hygiene in their hospital. Letters inspire people more than spoken words now. Got this letter printed out on a Royal Executive Bond paper in color at a nearby Internet café paying 10 rupees for it. Booked it at the Professional Couriers service point near Pavani Plaza by 1:20 paying 25 rupees for its dispatch to Tuni. Today I typed up the English script of the latest corporate film of Dhanuka Agritech Limited listening to the audio part in it with headphones. My colleague Chintapalli Suresh gets the audio part of it presented in the four South Indian languages for them. We depend on original English script for these translations into regional languages. By 7:15 my cousin Murali and I met advocate C S N Raju in his office. Murali wants to write books for IIT oriented school students in association with two of his colleagues. He asked this lawyer how to do it. He advised him on how to start a firm and establish control and accountability in the system. Murali does not trust one of his business partners in this regard. Went to sleep by 10:15.

16 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night total lunar eclipse occurred in the sky from 10:54 to 4:30. They said that it occurs after 130 years again. It is such a wonder. The sky was cloudy during this time above Hyderabad. I did not remain awake to watch it. Last night I had a dream, which showed that I would beget a male baby again. I think it’s a message from nature. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I translated the original English script of the 10-minute corporate film of Dhanuka Agritech Limited into Telugu. I did it for seven hours. By 3:30 got my book Stories of Love and Beauty from a courier boy. It is a dummy copy of my book with language corrections I suggested. The folks of Repro India Pvt. Ltd. printed this sample copy for me. Its weight is less than the earlier one but quality is poor. I have to check it thoroughly and inform them to go ahead with its second print run. My colleague Krishna Mohan took it to scan it. He said that he would devise a marketing strategy for it after understanding its core strength. Evening got an email from Swarup Nanda of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai. He wrote that Sunil K Poolani passed away on 10 June due to cardiac arrest. I was shocked to know about it. I think smoking, alcoholism and high levels of stress as an editor and writer led him towards this early departure. I identify him as an intellectual, radical, idealist and workaholic. Returned home by 7:30. Vamsy and I had our supper by 8:00. Typed out a two-page blog titled “Sunil K Poolani” and posted it on my blog site by 9:45. It’s my tribute to dreamer Sunil. Went to sleep by 10:30.

17 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:45. Went to the office of Manappuram Finance by 8:50 and paid 152 rupees to them towards monthly interest for the 15,000 rupees, which I borrowed from them earlier pledging the gold necklace of Srijana. Walked down to Khairatabad market and ate four bananas buying them for 10 rupees from a pushcart seller. Entered our office by 9:10. Today I watched the corporate films of some firms on YouTube and downloaded some of them for reference. My colleague Chintapalli Suresh and I have to work on the project of making a corporate film for SWAL Corporation. Insights gained through observing other related works help us create better works to some extent. Returned home by 7:20. I write about my present daily routine. I buy half a litre of packed buffalo milk for 14 rupees walking a little from my abode. I put this milk and a little rice in our pressure cooker. I prepare curd with this milk. I take this rice to our office in a steel box for my lunch along with a little curd prepared yesterday. Afternoon I buy one pack of curry for eight rupees from Golden Deluxe Mess near our office to add to my homemade rice. Evening also I cook rice on most of the days and buy curry packs outside. I don’t have interest to cook curries at home. Some evenings I have chapatis or Vegetable Biryani at Hotel Krishna if I come back late from our office. I eat biscuits or milk bread for my breakfast. I wear one pair of clothes for three days and one for four days in a week. I wash my clothes twice a week. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 June (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:45. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I watched the corporate films of some companies on YouTube and made some changes in the content written for the corporate film of SWAL Corporation. Rina Golan of Israel left a long comment on my blog site reading my blog titled “Sunil K Poolani” on it. She wrote about her short metaphysical association with this idealist and the pain she is undergoing now knowing about his departure. Hers is the best comment on my blog site. Posted a reply to her great comment. Evening she sent a request to me through Facebook. I added her as my friend and posted a short comment on her profile appreciating her beauty. Returned home by 8:00. Saw the Telugu film “Vaadu-Veedu” of Vishal and Arya in cinema Sensation Insomnia from 9:00 to 11:30 along with my colleague Gedela Amarnadh and two of his friends. Bala directed it very well. It’s a very interesting film. The music of Yuvan Shankar Raja is wonderful. Vishal’s acting is admirable. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. A little more about my present daily routine. I feel exhausted by the time I return to my abode from our office. I watch Telugu television channels for some time. Talk with Srijana for a few minutes before sleeping. Anand also talks a little. I keep it short because children should not use cellphones. I take about 10 minutes’ time to wash one pair of my clothes. I wash two pairs every week. Iron them mostly on Mondays or other possible days. Wash our dishes neatly and keep our kitchen dry and tidy always. Have haircut once for two months. Shave my beard on every Monday and Thursday, the days on which I wear a fresh set of clothes. Went to sleep by 11:50.

19 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:45. Scanned Eenadu and The Hindu for one hour. Rested for one hour. Had two chapatis at hotel Sri Krishna Tiffins by 1:15. Rajani Kumar Raju came here by 1:45 along with one of his business associates. He brought two parcel packs of Biryani from Hotel Paradise in Secunderabad for their lunch. I too had part of it. This rice is long, white and thin. Rajani said that this rice is imported from Punjab. It contains oil. This rice is energetic. Many folks consider this Biryani at Paradise famous and crave for it. I think consumption of this Biryani leads to cholesterol increase and diabetes in human body. Rich and crazy folks are spending a lot on these items now in towns and cities. They are after wild lifestyles and unhealthy habits. Hoteliers are making spicy and oily food items to attract worthless Indians and earn more money fast. Money and profit are their primary concerns. Such dirty Indian culture is leading them towards more diseases, pains and deaths. Rajani left my abode by 3:45. Read the book BROKEN REPUBLIC from its page 31 to 88 from 4:30 to 7:00. Completed reading the preceding pages earlier. Arundhati Roy is arguing the case of tribes in India against the corrupt state and central governments. She is a great Indian. I identify Naxalites as an organized and radical group of patriots ferociously fighting against corrupt people and governments in India. By 8:00 got two tickets reserved for me for Super Luxury APSRTC buses online paying 799 rupees using my debit card of ICICI Bank. Slept by 10:00.

20 June (Monday)

Woke up by 5:45. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I translated the original English script of real estate firm ARK Builders into Telugu. They want their present corporate film in Telugu version also. Also improved the script meant for the corporate film of SWAL Corporation. Morning our CEO Mahendra Gollaputi Mahendra brought his son Naveen to our office. He may be two years old. He looked cute, healthy and smart. We enjoyed his presence. By 7:32 my ICICI Bank account was credited with 27,000 rupees. It’s my salary for the last month from Glads Media. My colleague Amarnadh and I went to the store of Bajaj Electronics near Telephone Bhavan at Lakdi Ka Pool in an auto rickshaw by 7:50. I bought a Sony Cyber-shot digital camera of DSC-H70 model paying them 13,300 rupees. It’s a red piece. Its main features are 16.1 mega pixels, 10X optical zoom, 25 mm wide-angle lens, 3.0 LCD screen, full HD 1080 video quality and a 4 GB memory card. Its retail price is 13,990 rupees. They gave me a discount of 690 rupees. I bought it to take photos and videos of my darling Srijana, honey Anand and our second baby. I like to capture and record the precious moments of my creatures. I cannot create yesterday today. So, I have to record the invaluable moments of today for tomorrow. A camera can do it better than me. I like the HD film feature in it. By 8:30 we reached Reviera children’s item store in Purni Plaza opposite Maruthi Plaza. Bought a baby carrying zipped cushion bed for 275 rupees and two pairs of baby socks for 64 rupees. The prior is titled ‘Mickey Worlds’ and the socks are of HELLOBABY Pvt. Ltd. These are for our second baby. Went to sleep by 10:30.

21 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night Telugu film actor Chiranjeevi appeared in my dream for long. He expressed pure love for me. I enjoyed it a lot. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected the images of various plants affected with different diseases as part of my work related to SWAL Corporation Limited. Vamsy brought his mother to my abode by 5:00. Returned home by 6:45. My father-in-law sent 10 ripe mangoes and 10 raw mangoes for me from the agricultural farm near Masanpally. These are the last ones of this season from the mango trees there. My mother-in-law made my living abode clean working on it for one hour. Dust settles everywhere in my abode flying from the surrounding roads. If I welcome air from outside, opening the windows in hall and kitchen, dust also comes in as an honorary invitee. Today my colleague Ramya Agasthi told me that I often misuse money without caring for the sound and beneficial advice from others. When I told her that I would buy a digital camera, yesterday evening, she advised me to buy it at Singapore centre in Kothi. They sell them at lower prices than many retail stores in twin cities. I neglected her advice and bought it in a nearby store. She said that I might have lost about 3,000 rupees buying it elsewhere. I have this bad habit. I don’t think or wait for better alternatives when buying a few things. I regret such purchases later. I am clearing my debts one after one now. Every rupee is very valuable for me now. I should have bought my digital camera in the store suggested by Ramya to save that money. I regret it. Went to sleep by 10:00. 

22 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:30. Stayed back on bed till 5:30. Vamsy and his mother left for Secunderabad railway station by 5:50. They take Janmabhoomi Express there for Tuni. My mother-in-law prepared Tamarind Rice for me and them to have in the train journey. The prices of food items are high in railway stations. They don’t maintain quality. Tea and coffee are of worst quality. They are like coloured water. Many blokes have them in trains because they are accustomed to them. Eighty percent of Indians have bad habits. Most of them die early with health problems due to these bad habits. Many companies sell such foods and drinks in India, which kill people faster. Idiotic and mentally retarted old man Manmohan Singh calls it development of India. He is a worthless and unethical slave of the Congress party. Sonia Gandhi made him into an automated machine. She uses his helplessness as a foundation to make her son Rahul Gandhi the prime minister of India. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I collected the images of weeds and prepared a PPT with BTL proposal to promote the product ‘Sweet Life’ meant for diabetic patients. Returned home by 6:50. Vamsy and his mother reached Viswanadhapuram by 8:30. My brother Srinivas underwent special training at the regional office of UCO Bank in Chennai from 13 to 18 this month. It would be useful for him when he gets promoted to the next level of position with the UCO Bank. Only he was selected from many, who attended another training program recently in Chennai, for this special training. They found him sharp and energetic in this job. Went to sleep by 10:00.

23 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:40. Went to our office by 9:15. Took the printouts of e-tickets for my onward and return bus journeys for the 24 and 26 of this month from my email id rajayogi@live.com. By 1:00 went to the ICICI Bank at Khairatabad to take new currency notes for 7,000 rupees. I wanted to take new 50-rupee notes for 5,000 rupees and new 20-rupee notes for 2,000 rupees. They did not have them. I took two bundles of 50-rupee and 20-rupee notes, which were already widely used by others, as the last resort. I found many soiled notes in them. Returned those bundles and took seventy 100-rupee notes. I found about 25 partially defaced notes in them. Returned to my office. My colleague Chintapalli Suresh got a few new 500-rupee notes on him. I gave the ugly 100-rupee notes to him and took four new 500-rupee notes from him. I want to give new currency notes to Srijana and my mother. Today I did not have much work to do in our office. Returned home by 7:00. Walked to the vegetable market area in Chintal Basthi and bought little gloves, caps, socks and pants for my second baby, spending 125 rupees. Also bought 12 packs of Britannia Good Day biscuits for 72 rupees for my first baby Anand. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju came to my abode by 9:45. Offered five mango fruit to him. He ate them very interestingly. Gave eight raw mangoes to him to take home. He left for Banjara Hills by 10:10. I put the items of my babies, one pair of clothes, digital camera and 7,000 rupees in my bag. I am ready for my journey. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

24 June (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15 along with my bag. Gave the key of my rented abode to the house owner and asked her to take care of it in my absence. Today I typed up the script of a video film of a SWAL product. Left the office by 4:50. Hired an auto rickshaw for 60 rupees and reached Mahatma Gandhi Bus Station by 5:24. Got into 3500 Hyderabad-Visakhapatnam Super Luxury bus by 5:30. Mine is window seat 11. This bus started off by 6:13. We reached Narkatpalli bus stand by 8:40. They stopped it here for supper. Had two chapatis at Athidhi Tiffins for 25 rupees. They were of low quality. They are exploiting bus passengers publicly. All are eating them silently. I bought a pack of fresh popcorn at the store here for 10 rupees. I found them very tasty. Went back to him and bought two more packs of it for 20 rupees. I appreciated him for the extraordinary taste of it. Told him that I got 100% satisfaction from his product. He felt happy. A businessman may desire to get profit of two rupees from the sale of a product worth eight rupees but many are cheating others getting 200% or 300% profit from the sale of worthless and harmful products like potato chips and cigarettes. Maximum profit is their goal but not the health or happiness of their customers. This is the culture of many corporate companies in India now. This bus left Narkatpalli by 9:00. Air was blowing in from outside. This bus was running slowly. Road expansion works are going on in this region now. I like travelling in the buses of APSRTC. They are patient and experienced drivers. I love their professionalism. 

25 June (Saturday)

This bus reached Tuni by 8:15. Bought a ticket for 20 rupees from Tuni to Adduroad. The bus fare from Hyderabad to Tuni is 401 rupees. Got off it at Adduroad Junction by 9:00. Walked to our house in Peda Gummuluru. Took a head bath by 9:30 and felt refreshed. My father is growing a few plants in the open land opposite our house for vegetables. He is rearing a buffalo. I found him comfortable and happy with his present state of life. He is going to our mango garden at hills on his old bicycle. His passion for land and money did not die. He is slim and healthy. He indulges in physical work every day. My mother is taking tablets to face high blood pressure and diabetes. Our guava tree has many guavas now. They are giving them to others. They rented out one portion of our house to a recently married young couple. Theirs is love marriage. They are paying 1,500 rupees for it. My mother is happy with the love of this girl for her husband. My brother Sambha and I started to Viswanadhapuram by 2:30 on his bike. We reached Kota Uratla by 3:00. My brother wanted to buy something for Srijana and Anand. They have everything in Viswanadhapuram. I bought a pack of snacks for 15 rupees for Anand for his satisfaction. We reached Viswanadhapuram by 4:00 via village Kodavatipudi. He left for Tangedu by 4:15. He came here to see Srijana and Anand. I gave everything to Srijana, which I brought from Hyderabad for her, Anand and our second baby. My mother-in-law prepared Vegetable Biryani for our supper. It was cloudy today. Watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 June (Sunday)

Woke up by 7:00. Spent all the day in and around the house of maternal grandparents of Srijana. Anand is not approaching me proactively. He is always looking for his mother. He is not eating food well. He is interested in snacks. Shot photos and videos for him and Srijana with my Sony digital camera. He played cricket with his mother on road. Enjoyed his sweet words and innocent presence. Srijana bought five pairs of clothes recently in Tuni for him spending 1,000 rupees. Srijana is unable to bear with his mischief now and then. She beats him to correct and control him in such circumstances. She is waiting for her normal delivery. She is tense about it. May Lord Krishna bless and guide her. Her maternal grandparents and mother are taking care of her affectionately. I am unable to spend with her and Anand because I have to do a job for my survival. Many employees are suffering like this in India now. A good husband must be with his wife when she is counting days for her delivery. I failed to be a good husband to Srijana in this regard. God is greater than mortals. He takes care of the innocent and the helpless. Srijana packed Vegetable Biryani and jack fruit items for me by 4:00. Srijana’s mother took Anand away from me when I was to start to Tuni. Vamsy and I reached Tuni by 4:42 on a bike. Bought a bottle of Junior Horlicks for 170 rupees for Anand. He likes eating it. My father brought a cardboard box of raw mangoes for me from Peda Gummuluru to the bus stand in Tuni by 5:10 by bus. Took window seat 17 in 2899 Tuni-Jeedimetla Super Luxury APSRTC bus by 5:20. It started off by 5:43.

27 June (Monday)

This bus was at Choutuppala by 6:15. It was cool and cloudy. Last night I would have slept for three or four hours. Got off it a little before MGBS by 7:45. The bus fare from Tuni to Hyderabad is 398 rupees. I got my onward and return journey tickets reserved online. The folks of APSRTC introduced online reservation system recently. I found it comfortable. Busy fellows can save time using the facility of online reservation system. Hired an auto rickshaw for 80 rupees and reached my abode at Chintal Basthi by 8:10. I had luggage of about 80 kilograms. I felt sleepy. I could not go to our mango garden also this time. My brother Sambha is getting bunds established in our mango garden now using the manpower provided by state government in association with central government. Earlier they called this program “Food for Work”. Now they are paying wages for the works done by native people. This program is meant for creation of employment to economically backward people across India. They work nominally in this government funded scheme. They spend most of this money for widely available liquor in this state. These governments give money to them with their left hands and take it back with their right hands. They allow farmers to develop their agricultural lands also as part of this scheme. My brother is utilizing this facility. Went to our office by 9:15. Morning wrote a proposal of BTL activities for Maxivision Eye Hospital at KPHB. Afternoon improved the script of SWAL corporate film. Went to sleep by 10:00.

28 June (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I had 1.2 litres of lemon juice added sugar water. I brought eight lemons, 20 Sunnundalu and 500 grams of homemade snacks from Viswanadhapuram. Today I collected demographic data and vendor details from my colleague Chintapalli Suresh and put them in different Excel sheets for convenient reference later. Evening we celebrated the birthday of our colleague Murali with cake, snacks and Sprite soft drink. Returned home by 7:20. Downloaded about 20 classic old Telugu film songs from online sources. Now my brother Sambha is in a cold war with three rich folks of village Tangedu in Kota Uratla Mandal. They are Raja Sagi Ramabhadra Raju, Seetha Babu and Datla Venkata Surya Narayana Raju. Their total assets may worth about 300 crore rupees. They accumulated this property through illegal and unethical businesses and dealings during the last 100 years. They are politically, financially and socially influential people in this locality. My brother complained against the assistant engineer at the APSEB substation in Kota Uratla because he did not care for the application submitted by my brother requesting for three phase electricity supply connection to his agricultural farm in Tangedu. B K Rao, the vigilance authority at Visakhapatnam, initiated serious disciplinary action against this engineer for his negligence in this regard. His job related growth and benefits are at risk now. He approached these rich criminals in Tangedu and begged them to save him from this case. They told my brother to withdraw himself from this complaint. They humiliated and threatened him using abusive language. I think the folks of every rich Kshatriya family in Tangedu must be killed brutally for social reformation. Went to sleep by 11:00.

29 June (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I prepared two BTL activity PPTs for banking and financial institutes and automobile companies. By 1:00 Srijana, Anand, Vamsy and his mother went to Tuni in an auto rickshaw from Viswanadhapuram. Srijana, Anand and my mother-in-law stay at the rented abode of Rama Sekhara Raju for a few days. Srijana entered her 10^th month of pregnancy on the 25^th of this month. Talli Pilla Hospital is about one kilometre from the abode of the maternal uncle of Srijana. Evening she went to this hospital and consulted Dr. C S Lakshmi. This doctor said that the baby is doing well in her. Srijana is expecting her delivery in a week’s time. Srijana’s mother handles the mischief of Anand. She is patient and affectionate in feeding and bringing up children. I chose Tuni as the place of birth of my second baby also for some reasons. Srijana and Anand were born here in Talli Pilla Hospital. The mother and maternal grandmother of Srijana find this place as convenient and comfortable for them. This doctor may not charge more than 10,000 rupees for the delivery and tubectomy of Srijana. The doctors in Hyderabad may charge about 40,000 rupees for them. Our relatives come to see the newborn baby in this hospital. It’s easily accessible to them. This place is familiar to Srijana. Lord Krishna is everywhere. I rely more upon Him than doctors and hospitals in guiding and caring for all the creatures in this world. He takes care of Srijana. Went to sleep by 10:45.

30 June (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I wrote and edited the content related to proposals for the BTL activities for our prospective clients. My colleague Krishna Mohan returned my book Stories of Love and Beauty today. He read three short stories in it. He said that he would devise a marketing strategy for it soon. Returned home by 7:30 buying two browned corn cobs for me. Bought them from a pushcart puller for 20 rupees. I found this price unjustifiable. He said that the prices of charcoal have been increased recently. He browns them on charcoal fire. He applies a little salt and lemon juice on this corn for spicy taste. I saw many 10-rupee notes in his hand when he was returning change. It means many creatures bought them from him at this price. I think farmers get one rupee per one corn cob at their farms. Even this pushcart puller turned into a dirty middleman in the production and distribution cycle of this product. The job of a middleman is to exploit the producers and end users of a product and thus easily get huge profits in a short period of time. These two corn cobs are for my supper today. By 9:30 posted a blog on my blog site with the list of grammatical errors I found in my book Stories of Love and Beauty, which were rectified by Rajesh Bhale of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai. This information is for my blog readers. Emailed to Swarup Nanda and Rajesh Bhale of Leadstart informing them to go for the second print run of this revised version of my book. Srijana is excited and worried about her ensuing delivery. I advised her not to concentrate her thoughts on this point. Went to sleep by 11:00.

1 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I created a blog site for Glads Media and did some work related to BTL activity proposal for the product Biozyme of Biostadt. Withdrew 4,500 rupees from the ATM Centre of ICICI Bank at Khairatabad by 7:15 and paid it to my house owner by 7:30. The mangoes packed by my father started ripening. Today I ate six of them in the morning and night. The name of these mangoes is Nalla Mogga in Telugu. They have sweet juice. They are irresistible for me. The marital bond between my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy Raju and his wife Vimala is at the worst stage now. Even his two sons turned into enemies to him. Their mother trained them so. My uncle is not going to his abode in village Tetagunta now. They are ready to attack him like villains. He is taking care of his six-acre coconut farm near village Gurrajupeta and spending his time in and around this place. Vimala is contemplating the idea of divorce from him. She likes money, gold ornaments and assets more than her husband, children and God. She thinks that her husband is unable to earn more and more in a fast pace like a few in her knowledge. She uses very abusive language addressing him. He lost love for her and his sons after witnessing their cruel behavior towards him for long. Vimala is one of the dirty Indian women living now. Such cruel women must be imprisoned and punished severely. The Indian judiciary accorded more protection and respect for women in India. Vimala does not belong to such good race of Indian women. Went to sleep by 11:00.

2 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. By 10:00 our office boy Santosh and I went to the Reliance Digital store at Himayat Nagar on a bike. Rain chased us. They are starting this store today ceremoniously. Glads Media is conducting a store promotion activity in this area for these folks. There are about six guys to do it. They tie promotional gadgets around them and walk along this main road for a few days. This is to create awareness in this area about the presence of this new retail store. We two returned to our office by 11:00. Today I prepared a PPT with BTL activity proposal for the promotion of Biozyme product of Biostadt. By 3:30 Anupama called me up from the branch office of Opulentus at Somajiguda. She told me about the emigration services they are providing for qualified, experienced and enthusiastic Indians desiring to go abroad for jobs. She informed me to email my updated CV. I did it at once. I will go abroad if I get a chance. I have no enough money to lead a balanced and peaceful life. In this material world, everybody should earn adequate money to live with self-respect and individuality. By 6:00 posted a blog titled “Ideal Work Culture” on my blog site. I wrote it on 17 February this year. I advocated the need of a five-day work week in this piece of writing. Today I felt like sharing it with my blog readers. By 6:30 our CEO Mahendra Gollaputi told me to search for another job. They have no such work orders from their clients now, which require many writing inputs. Felt a little disturbed for a few minutes. Activated my CV on naukri.com to be viewed by recruiters. Went to sleep by 11:20. 

3 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent reading Eenadu and The Hindu for one hour. Went to Khairatabad railway station by 9:15. My friend Sistla Srirama Sharma came here by an MMTS train. Both of us came to my abode by 10:30. He gave me the soft copy of the typed version of my personal diary of 2010 and the diary. He typed it up well. I have to edit it. Paid him 2,000 rupees for this typing work. Gave him the 2010 diary of Srijana for typing. She wrote it in Telugu on my advice. It’s a small diary. I want to see it in print. I like to read what and how she wrote it. We checked some Anu Telugu fonts. I told him to type it up in Anupama Thin font. Its typed version of text may amount to about 40 A 4 size pages. I agreed to pay him 3,000 rupees for this typing work. He said that he may complete typing it in about three months’ time. Gave him 10 mango fruit. He left for his rented abode at Sitafal Mandi by 12:00 by bus. From 3:30 to 5:30 saw the Hindi film “Bhuddah Hoga Terra Baap” in cinema Sensation Sunshine. Puri Jagannadh directed it to express his love and passion for Amitabh Bachchan. It’s an interesting film. Hema Malini is a classic beauty of India. Morning Srijana underwent ultrasound scan in a diagnostic lab in Tuni. Dr. C S Lakshmi checked this medical report. She said that the growth and health of the baby in her is very good. The delivery may take place around the 23^th of this month. She and Anand returned to Viswanadhapuram by 9:30 in a car of their familiar one. Went to sleep by 10:00.

4 July (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I wrote (typed out) a BTL activity proposal for the promotion of Freedom refined sunflower oil of GEF Pvt. Ltd. By 11:30 Anupama of Opulentus called me up and explained me the process of emigration I have to undergo to go abroad. Initially I have to pay them 1,000 rupees for an assessment of my skills and suitability to some labor markets abroad. Then they let me know about the job opportunities I have. She said that I may go to Quebec in Canada. I have to spend about two lakh rupees to go there aiming at permanent residency. I told her that I am not financially or psychologically prepared for it now. I have a debt of about 25,000 rupees now. I owe 10 lakh rupees to my father. I think I developed a deep psychological bond with the people and phenomena of India. I cannot live in other countries for long. Going abroad for a job may be my subconscious fancy. My soul took birth in this land out of love for it. I am not getting time to do many things I like because of being a jobholder. I must come out of this ditch. We cannot enter our desired path of life at will. Our Karma configures the course of our life. Happiness and pain are inseparable parts of life. The deep attachments, which we develop with this attractive world, make our life more passionate and complex. We take a little time to love people and things but lifetime to erase those memories from our psyche.  Life is a burden for every soul. Today it is Independence Day of the United States of America. It is like a huge magnet now. It is attracting millions of creatures towards it from the other parts of world. Went to sleep by 10:00.

5 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:00 our HR executive Swati called me up and informed me that it is a holiday today for Glads Media in view of the strike declared by the activists of separate Telangana movement. Spent all the day at home. Rested on cot for two hours. Many Indian private company employees take an unexpected holiday like this as an opportunity to rest and relax at home. Read the book BROKEN REPUBLIC of Arundhati Roy for about two hours from there, where I stopped it earlier. Finished reading the second article in it. Sent an email to Pramod K Nayar appreciating his article titled “An alternative history” published in the Literary Review section of the English daily The Hindu on last Sunday. I like the power of his vocabulary and writing skills. Changed the font and font size of content posted on my two blog sites, working on it for about three hours. The present font is Consolas. Its size is 12. Changed it to Gill Sans MT, font size 14. I made these changes in about 25 posts on http://virahini.blogspot.com and all the posts on http://dcraju.blogspot.com. If the font size is big enough, everybody can read it easily. Sent an email to my cousin Kolukuluri Raghupati in the USA. I asked him when he comes to India and starts a business unit. I want to join his firm as an employee and provide intellectual and visionary support for his sustainable growth and success. I heard that he is interested in starting a business unit in India coming back from the USA soon. I am not interested in doing these tense jobs in cities. I want to live in nature. Went to sleep by 10:00.

6 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Even today the crusaders of separate Telangana movement imposed strike on Telangana region. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did a little work only in the office. By 11:30 typed out and posted a blog titled “I love you master” on my blog site. I expressed my sense of affection and admiration for S P Bala Subrahmanyam in this blog. By 3:00 got an email from the HR executive Abha Pant of Dhanush Infotech at Abids in Hyderabad. They are looking for a content writer. Emailed my one-page CV. Also wrote to her that she need not reply to me if they are unable to complete their selection process within a day. She wrote back to me that they cannot do it in one day’s time. Indians are accustomed to wasting their and others’ time. Indian culture and educational system are like this for long. HR executives in India think that those looking for jobs must have a lot of respect for employers. They must attend their selection process for days together. They are changing the image of jobseekers to that of helpless beggars at temples in India through their nasty recruitment process. Google India tops the list of such dirty firms in India. I am not an actor, singer, dancer, magician, saint or clown but an ordinary content writer and language editor possessing very few skills useful to others. A capable person can assess my creative writing or editing skills in one or two hours’ time at the most. They are unable to do it in this fashion means they got a bunch of lunatics, who expect me to come to their office many times like an insensitive and irrational bloke. I hate such firms. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did not do much work. Evening did a little work related to the proposals of BTL works for the promotion of Biozyme of Biostadt and Freedom refined sunflower oil of GEF Pvt. Ltd. Returned home by 9:15. Morning read the email reply of my cousin Raghupati. He wrote that he would leave the USA in the early part of 2012. Then he starts working on his business venture. He is yet to finalize an idea. I found his thoughts and planning good enough to become a successful entrepreneur. Srijana is counting days waiting for her delivery. She is taking medicines prescribed by Dr. C S Lakshmi, consuming coconut water and available fruit juices. She is taking photos and videos of Anand with our Sony digital camera. When she is trying to shoot while he is playing, he is stopping it after noticing that she is shooting him. He is giving poses to camera. Srijana is bearing and enjoying his mischief. She is feeling the impact of my absence there. Recently I opened the suitcase and checked the quality of my personal diaries in it. The words are fading away slowly. The paper and text fell in love with each other. They are losing quality and visibility. I think it is because I put them in an air-tight box. Air is mystery. Its effects keep some things fresh and some spoilt. I am feeling lost. The original form of history of my life is slowly decaying and disappearing. The natural forces of time and my destiny are exerting their power on my vulnerable psyche. I am above nothing. Went to sleep by 10:00.

8 July (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I had very little work to do in the office. Edited the content of two BTL proposal templates. Got an email from the HR executive of Whish Works in Hyderabad. They are looking for a content writer. Replied to her specifying what kind of selection process I am expecting from them to join them. Honest and ideal employees look like unreliable and avoidable creatures to the folks of these firms now. They like hypocrites and actors. I want to check how these entities consider me. They think that a long and complex recruitment process means a solid and splendid HR policy. It is actually the drawback of HR creatures concerned. Inefficient and worthless folks cannot assess the value of a potential candidate faster and so they subject him to multiple rounds of selection process. This dirty HR culture is being practiced in many Indian firms now. I think Google is the pioneer in this field. I hate such shallow firms. Returned home by 7:45. My friend Sriram is typing the 2010 personal diary of my darling Srijana Devi faster than expected. I like to read what she wrote in her diary. We cannot understand a person completely spending with him or her for long or reading his or her personal diaries. Many idiots write their diaries in such a way that they project themselves as great folks. They don’t write about the darker and negative aspects of their lives and professions. Film, politics, sports and business related rogues commit such social crimes. Srijana’s world is very little. I want to see that world through her simple words in Telugu. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:15. Went to our office by 9:15. There was no reply from the HR executive of Whish Works. Today I did two kinds of works for five hours. I consider the decision of our CEO Mahendra Gollaputi right in sending my colleague Ramya Agasthi and me out with a notice period. He is paying 75,000 rupees every month to both of us as salaries. He is not getting income proportionately also from the work we are doing now for Glads Media. Start-ups cannot bear with unnecessary employees for long. I am not happy with the six-day work culture being practiced here. They are paying salaries late due to weak financial status of this firm now. Mahendra gave me an opportunity to go out of this mess. I did not tell Srijana, my brothers or parents about this decision of the firm towards me. They get disturbed. Earlier I suffered much in the process of searching for a job after leaving one. They have those fears about me. I like to move to another place from Khairatabad depending on the place of my new job. I have no time to go to and come back from an office in the process of daily travels. I must be able to reach my office in a few minutes on foot. I will be happy if Lord Krishna enables me to live without doing a job. I am not getting time to do my work as a writer when doing a job. Left our office by 6:35. Reached the abode of my cousin Sirisha in Shirdi Sai Colony near Beeramguda by 8:45. Anantha Varma, Sirisha and their baby Shiva Sahithi are doing well. Went to sleep by 11:00.

10 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Anantha Varma left for the unit of Biological E Limited at Patan Cheru by 8:00. He got work to do today also. He brought a copy of Eenadu for me before going to his office. Read it for one hour. Villagers constitute much of the population of towns and cities now. Anantha Varma and I are such villagers. Many rustics and illiterates change their lifestyles and culture after moving to cities. Anantha Varma and I did not change much. We look like old-fashioned guys to others. We are dependable and honest. My cousin Sirisha is happy with her husband and baby Shiva Sahithi. I took three Horlicks biscuit packets worth 20 rupees for Sahithi. She is not consuming food well. She is growing slowly. Anantha Varma took my book Stories of Love and Beauty to read. Sirisha offered idlies, milk, chicken curry, rice and a mango fruit to me today. Left their rented abode by 2:00. Took a sharing auto rickshaw on the main road and reached Ashok Nagar by 2:15. Walked a little and reached the rented abode of Madhavi, the maternal aunt of Srijana, by 2:17. Vamsy came here this morning from Viswanadhapuram by bus. He brought about 20 lemons for me. Madhavi offered a guava and tea for me. We spent talking about our domestic affairs for some time. They are moving into a nearby two-bedroomed apartment soon from the present one-bedroomed portion. They are paying 2,700 rupees as monthly rent for the present one. They pay 5,500 rupees for the new one. It is a newly constructed two-story building. They have been living in the present abode for the last 10 years or so. Took a bus by 3:45 and returned to my abode by 5:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

11 July (Monday)

Woke up by 6:15. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did office related work for one hour. By 3:00 received two copies of my book Stories of Love and Beauty. The folks of Repro India Pvt. Ltd. sent them to me by courier on the instructions of Leadstart Publishing. They are complimentary copies for me. They printed it on white paper. I found the quality and look of the book good with this paper. Emailed Swarup Nanda and Rajesh Bhale of Leadstart in Mumbai to go for the second print run of this book with these features. Today my colleague Chintapalli Suresh told me that he decided to quit Glads Media soon. He wants to work on Telugu serials for television channels. Earlier he worked as an assistant director in this field. He is working with high levels of stress and strain with Glads Media now in the areas of BTL activities, TV ad production and related creative and technical works. I asked him to take me with him into television and film industry. He remained neutral. He is yet to finalize his plans. I like his character. He is honest. He smokes and drinks. When I argue with him against such bad habits in life, he counters them with ironical and satirical remarks. He is from Ongole. He is searching for a girl to marry. He does not have a good photo also to show to the folks of prospective bride parties. He often consumes alcoholic drinks. Now he is staying with the family of his elder brother at KPHB. One can see the colors of honesty and innocence in his eyes. I like spending and working with such people to satisfy my psyche. Went to sleep by 10:40.

12 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I typed out a blog titled “Creativity” and posted it on the blog site of Glads Media. Spent about six hours’ time without doing any office work. Sent an email to the folks of Datla Constructions in Bengaluru enquiring about their interest to fund the publication of my second book A Dreamer’s Love Story. Today Srijana, her mother and Anand moved to Tuni from Viswanadhapuram. They stay at the rented abode of Rama Sekhara Raju. Srijana is counting days for her delivery. I wonder at the growth of a baby in the womb of a mother. I don’t like the scientific explanation of scientists about it. It happens as if somebody is guiding it. I cannot accept it as an automated and mechanical process of body. Even milk requires some favourable conditions to become curd when we add buttermilk to it. The evolution of a baby in a womb seems to be a great wonder. Mother moves a lot during the nine months of her pregnancy. The evolution of baby is not getting disturbed due to these movements. Body is creating artificial and real pains indicating the occurrence of delivery soon. The baby is changing its position before delivery. Millions of babies are doing it in this universe. Who taught them this discipline? Even highly educated and trained folks are unable to do their duties perfectly always but babies are doing it accurately, to help their mothers. I believe that there is divine intervention in the evolution of organisms and their inevitable departure from this material world. Action does not take place without instructions from director. God is that director. Went to sleep by 10:30.

13 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today it rained well. Today I checked the content posted on our new version of company website and suggested a few language corrections to Amarnadh to be incorporated into it. By 10:30 our HR manager Chetanya Lakshmi came to our office. She is on a three-month leave now to take care of her new-born baby. Now audit is going on in Glads Media. She came here to do a little of this work. By 3:30 sent my formal resignation letter to my superiors and HR folks by email stating that my last working day with this firm will be 30 July, 2011. I don’t like to join another firm without completing some works after leaving this firm. I consider this unexpected break as a blessing in disguise. My second baby is demanding more of my time for him like our first baby Anand. Chetanya Lakshmi, my colleague Swati, Usha, Bhavani and I reached the house of the prior at Budvel, Rajendra Nagar Mandal, by 4:15, in the car of Mahendra Gollaputi, driven by his present driver Venkatesh. It’s our formal visit to see the new-born baby boy of Chetanya Lakshmi. Their house number is 1-1-5/2/E. We spent here till 5:45. They offered snacks and a cool beverage for us. We returned to our office by 6:30. I wondered looking at the roads and flyovers in this area. Hyderabad is developing a lot beyond my knowledge. Left the office by 7:30. Had two browned corn cobs and a glass of curd for my supper. This afternoon Srijana met Dr. C S Lakshmi in her hospital. She did not prescribe medicines or medical tests for her. Went to sleep by 10:00.

14 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did the work related to the new website of Glads Media. Afternoon my colleague Chintapalli Suresh took the two DVDs containing the videos of my Upanayanam and marriage with Srijana. He was going to a video lab at Srinagar Colony to get some TVC dubbing work done. He said that he would get my select Telugu film songs added to these two discs deleting the present set of Telugu cine songs. I am not happy with the quality of video in these discs but I cannot create that time now. Content copied to a disc may lose its quality soon due to a few reasons. Suresh told me that a DVCAM tape is a better storage medium than a DVD. He got one used piece with him. He gets that content erased in his familiar lab and gets my content written to it. I gave him about 28 audio files of Telugu film songs to add to these two video parts of memorable occasions. There are a few errors in the Telugu text added to a disc specifying the details of Upanayanam and marriage. I have to get them edited later sitting with a fellow. Each of these two discs runs for one hour. Suresh told me that it all takes about three hours’ time to get this work done in a video lab. He is a good fellow. He is giving a longer life for these records of my life. The suggested Sony DVCAM tape costs about 1,500 rupees. They charge about 2,000 rupees if I get this work done myself in a lab. Suresh is saving about 4,000 rupees for me this way. I love him for this gesture of affection towards me. I will upload these videos to YouTube for all to see these occasions in my life. Went to sleep by 11:15.

15 July (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did the work related to the updated version of website of Glads Media. Yesterday night Vamsy went to Tuni from Hyderabad by a bus of Sindhu Travels. He recently applied for driving license at RTO in Narsipatnam. He is in the process of obtaining it going through the related driving test. He can use two wheelers and four wheelers. Now he is waiting for the call letter from the folks of DRDL in Hyderabad to join it as an apprentice. I believe that he is in love with a girl in Hyderabad. He talks with her daily over his cellphone. He thinks that I don’t know about it. I want him to be in that illusion. Love is not a crime. Persons with good characters can sustain and enjoy it for long. Srijana often scolds her brother about these matters. She did not fall in love or admiration with anybody. She got enough love and care from her maternal grandparents and parents. When she was at the exit of her teenage, I entered her life. There was no scope for her to fall in love with others because she had such childhood. I think Vamsy did not enjoy such happy childhood days like his sister. He developed the image of a spoilt child among his familiar folks also. He is craving for special attention and love from a girl now because he is a teenager now. Attraction between opposite genders is a powerful and evil force. Evening the birthday party of Ashish Varma was celebrated in Tuni. Srijana shot this event with our Sony digital camera. Slept by 10:45.

16 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Paid 147 rupees in the office of Manappuram Finance by 9:00 towards monthly interest for the 15,000 rupees, which I borrowed from them earlier pledging the black beads gold necklace of Srijana. Entered our office by 9:15. Today I did the work of new company website of Glads Media along with my colleague Amarnadh. By 10:30 typed out one-page letter addressing Dr. Shankaraiah, the author of the Telugu novel Padamati Kondalu. I wrote it to share my sense of appreciation with this author about this book. Amarnadh got it printed out on a card for the sake of beauty and quality of the letter to be given to this writer. The text is in blue color. The background is white. I am happy with the look and quality of this letter. Left the office by 6:30. Bought a beautiful file for 20 rupees to keep this letter in. Many read books but do not write to or speak with the author concerned. Writers feel happy when readers respond to them proactively. My English language and literature capabilities are poor. All readers need not be scholars and critics in a society to enjoy reading books. We can write to artists expressing our honest and simple remarks on their creative works. I made such effort writing this letter. By 7:30 called up Dr. Shankaraiah and asked him about his availability at his abode tomorrow. He has to attend a refresher course session of the Indian Medical Association from 10:00 to 5:00 tomorrow. I will meet him in the evening. He gave me instructions on how to reach his house by bus from Khairatabad. Went to sleep by 10:30.

17 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Scanned Eenadu and The Hindu for one hour. By 10:30 Revathi called me up from Tuni. Srijana had delivery by 10:15:30 this morning in Talli Pilla Hospital under the supervision of Dr. C S Lakshmi. She joined it this morning by 8:30 sensing body pains. It’s a normal delivery as desired by us. Srijana told me that the rooms in this hospital are more beautiful and hygienic now than it was in 2009. They improved its quality. I am 100% happy about her delivery in this hospital. Our new-born baby boy is healthy. Informed my folks, relatives and friends about it making about 10 calls. My folks went to see the baby and mother in this hospital. Today Anand got a brother. I desired for a female baby this time but God blessed me with a boy. I obey the dictates of nature. By 11:30 my friend Rajani Kumar Raju and I went to the art abode of my friend Veeru in MLA Colony. We spent here till 1:30. Then Rajani took me to a place in MLA Colony and a house in Ayyappa Society at Madhapur. He educated me about the rates of plots and houses in twin cities. He knows about many parts of the city. He daily moves from place to place as part of his profession. By 4:30 hired an auto rickshaw at Abids for Triveni Nagar for 100 rupees. Bought 500 grams of sweets at a sweet stall in Santosh Nagar for 100 rupees. Reached the house bearing number 312 in Triveni Nagar by 5:10 travelling via Balapur Crossroads, DRDO and MIDHANI. Spent talking with Dr. Shankaraiah, his wife and his younger son till 7:00. Gave my book and letter to him. Returned home by 8:15. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 July (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I did not do much work in the office. By 3:00 Srijana and our baby boy were discharged from Talli Pilla Hospital in Tuni. They paid about 7,500 rupees to Dr. C S Lakshmi. They administered a BCG vaccine to the baby. They reached Viswanadhapuram by 9:00 in the car of their relative. It is the first car journey of this fellow. Earlier I had a dream showing that I would beget a son. It happened. It is communication of souls. The weight of this baby is 3.5 kilograms. I think using Amway products contributed to healthy growth of this baby. Morning I decided the name Sisir Kiran Varma for our second baby. Srijana advised me to make it Amrut Sisir Varma. This is to ensure that his name resembles that of his brother (Anand Sagar Varma). Sisir means winter season in India. Sisir means Lord Vishnu, Lord Shiva and Sisira Ritu. Kiran means a ray of sun. Amrut means a divine substance, drinking which mortals can turn into immortals. Sisir Kiran means a ray of sun in winter in India. It symbolizes a ray of hope or beauty in a gloomy or ugly environment. Amrut Sisir means such winter, in which ambrosia falls on earth from sky like dew. We finalize one of these two names for him. Morning bought 12 Bar-One milk bars for 60 rupees and distributed them to my colleagues in Glads Media. I don’t like the idea of giving parties for every natural occurrence in human life. Morning my friend Sriram emailed me the typed version text of the personal diary of 2010 of Srijana. He completed this typing work faster than I expected. I have to edit it. By 7:30 he returned me this diary. Went to sleep by 10:00.

19 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. By 10:00 went to Khairatabad railway station and got a berth reserved for me for Nagavali Express for the 23^rd of this month from Secunderabad to Rajahmundry paying 212 rupees. Today I visited about 100 websites of advertising and media firms and checked their online promotion measures through cost-effective sources like LinkedIn and Facebook. Provided the related insights to Mahendra Gollaputi and Akkineni Suresh. They may promote the website of Glads Media accordingly. By 11:00 told Srijana that I am leaving Glads Media soon. She felt a little shocked to hear this news. She thinks that I may not get another job early. She developed such impression about me considering my job history. I take this break as a blessing in disguise. Srijana cannot perceive things from my perspective. Everybody is assessing the value of my time as a jobholder only but not as a writer. Returned home by 7:00. By 7:47 my ICICI Bank account was credited with an amount of 27,000 rupees. It’s my salary from Glads Media for the month of June. By 9:00 got three berths reserved online for Visakha Express for Srijana, her mother and me for 11 August from Tuni to Secunderabad. The naming ceremony of our second baby takes place on 6 August in Viswanadhapuram, on the 21^st day after his birth. I got this online reservation done using the HDFC Bank credit card of my cousin Vasu. He likes me a lot. I often use his online bank account for train berth reservations. Went to sleep by 10:00.

20 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I carried out three kinds of minor works. By 9:00 got 3,000 rupees deposited into the ICICI Bank account of my friend Sriram at the ICICI Bank in Khairatabad. It is towards service charge for the typing work of 2010 personal diary of Srijana, which he completed recently. I am paying 50 rupees for each page of text typed up by him. The present open market rate per page for this work is 40 rupees in Hyderabad. I offered to pay him more because money motivates people to work fast. This typed version of her diary amounted to 66 pages. I will pay him 300 rupees after he carries out the suggested language corrections in it. Evening requested Gollaputi Mahendra to grant me privilege leave from the 25^th of this month. He readily agreed for it. I should work till the 30^th of this month as per the resignation letter I submitted to them earlier. I should return to Hyderabad from Peda Gummuluru to work for the last six days as per this agreement. It’s clumsy and difficult for me going there and returning here this way. Employees on probation don’t have privilege leaves. He is paying 1,000 rupees to me per each working day. He allowed me to go home and do important things peacefully. He likes me for what I am. He gave me this special offer for this reason. Afternoon Srijana took our second baby to Talli Pilla Hospital in Tuni. He is affected with jaundice. Dr. Srimannarayana prescribed a liquid medicine for him. He also advised Srijana to keep the baby in morning sunshine for a few minutes for some days. His blood group is B⁺. They tested his blood today. Went to sleep by 10:00.

21 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today I created the accounts of Glads Media on YouTube and Twitter and did some other works. Morning Akkineni Suresh talked with me for one hour about the concept of content writing. He advised me to write such content from which different kinds of readers can infer different meanings based on their level of knowledge. Our content should not carry distinct and explicit meaning with it. He referred to the works of Ayn Rand in this context. He is a knowledgeable person. Yesterday morning some disorder developed in the left end corner of my mouth. I am feeling pain there due to it when moving my jaws. I don’t like to consult a dentist. They make me spend 200 rupees at least on it. I am short of money now. It may be there for a while and disappear voluntarily. It’s my bearable guest. Returned home by 7:00. The daughter of my house owner gave me an envelope. The folks of DRDL sent it from Kanchan Bagh. They invited my brother-in-law Venkata Sita Rama Raju to join them as an apprentice on or before the 27^th of this month with necessary documents. He has to obtain a conduct certificate from local police and medical fitness certificate from an authorized doctor. Informed Vamsy, his father and Srijana about the urgency of this matter. They felt happy about it. Vamsy applied to them last month. His ITI trade is Machinist (Composite). He will have a bright future if he does his apprenticeship in an entity of DRDO. Went to sleep by 11:00.

22 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to our office by 9:15. Today there was no much work for me in the office. By 10:00 my friend Sriram called me up and told me to delete two words from 6 September, 2009 part of my personal diary posted on my blog site http://dcraju.blogspot.com. I wrote the name of the firm he desired to start then. He does not like that name appearing there to all. I explained him the futility and stupidity of that idea. He insisted me on deleting it. I did it. I got infuriated thinking about his narrow-minded outlook. Emailed to him stating that I would not get the typing works of my writings done by him anymore. It cannot be an issue for him or me. I write about many people and things in my personal diaries. It’s not just about me. If everybody asks me like Sriram to delete parts of the content from these diaries, the integrity and originality of them get lost. I may write positively or negatively about my folks, others and me. I write truths. Nobody should fear truth. I am seeing a hypocrite and coward in Sriram now. I don’t enjoy the association of such people. I am deleting Sriram from the list of my considerable individuals. By 7:00 bought two pants in the Kumar Shirts store at Lakdi Ka Pool for me. I will match them with my two old shirts. By 8:00 got the typed version Telugu diary of Srijana printed out at a nearby computer centre. There are 66 pages in it. Got these pages bound in ‘Spiral Binding’ format. It all cost me 81 rupees only. Went to sleep by 11:00.

23 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Vamsy came here by 6:30. He took a bus from Tuni. Filled in the three agreement forms of DRDL for him. He brought his medical fitness certificate from Tuni. A doctor at government hospital in Tuni issued it to him taking 100 rupees for it. He has to get a conduct and character certificate from the local police station. Went to our office by 9:15. Morning typed out script for a work of SWAL Corporation in association with Ramya Agasthi. Afternoon typed out a blog titled “A Talk” and posted it on the blog site of Glads Media. Today it is my last working day with Glads Media. Returned my identity card to Swati by 5:30. They gave me a farewell party. They presented me a big painting, a pen pack and a box of sweets. This painting has “a beauty plucking grapes wearing a traditional dress”. It’s beautiful. Ramya Agasthi bought it for me representing Glads Media. We took group photos with a digital camera of Ramya. All of them signed on the back of this painting to remind me these days of my association with them in future. We had snacks and cool drinks. I don’t like parties. I developed aversion for parties in the process of understanding societies neglecting the real issues around them. I participated in this formal event not to hurt my colleagues. We develop relationships with different people and entities. Related memories continue in us. Took Nagavali Express in Secunderabad railway station by 10:13. My berth number is 18 in its sleeper coach S-7.

24 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. I could not sleep well in the train. Got off Nagavali Express by 7:15 at Rajahmundry railway station. This train runs between Nanded and Sambalpur twice a week with limited halts. It’s a pleasant journey. Walked into Hotel Viswa Shanti opposite the railway station to have breakfast. Told the fellow to bring me such item, which fills part of my stomach at least. He brought an Onion Dosa. It is as light as a sheet of paper. It did not fill even 10% of my stomach. They would have spent two rupees for the ingredients used in making this breakfast item. They charged me 16 rupees for it. When I asked them about it, they replied me neutrally. They said that it’s how Onion Dosa is prepared in every hotel. I did not burn down this hotel. This is happening in 90% of hotels in India now. I love Rajahmundry for its glorious history, not its present culture. There are hundreds of public cheats in this city now. Criminals and sinners are bathing in River Godavari to defile that water. Also had four bananas for 10 rupees. Scanned Eenadu and The Hindu for a few minutes sitting in the railway station. Ratnachal Express arrived by 8:36. It’s densely packed with passengers. Got into it. Bought 10 little samosas in this train when it halted at Samalkot station. They were oily and made of worthless ingredients. In trains, vendors cheat all passengers selling low quality items at high prices. IRCTC is a dangerous and poisonous entity of Indian Railways. Their core business philosophy is public cheating. Got off this train at Tuni railway station by 10:16. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Viswanadhapuram by 11:15. Saw my second baby by 11:30. Spent all the day within the home. Went to sleep by 9:30.

25 July (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. It’s the second birthday of Anand today. Earlier Srijana bought 35 5 Star milk bars and a pack of Marie Gold biscuits for this occasion. She also bought a shirt and short pants for 220 rupees for him. We spent about 400 rupees for his birthday. We did not celebrate it formally inviting others. The maternal grandmother and mother of Srijana took him to every house in this hamlet and distributed a chocolate bar and biscuits to them on the occasion of his birthday. I did not buy anything for him. Today he entered the third year of his life. I took some photos of him. It’s cloudy and cool today. By 4:00 reached Tuni on the bike of a familiar fellow to the Kshatriyas in Viswanadhapuram. Enjoyed this ride watching the beauty, greenery of hills and agricultural farms along this road. Rama Sekhara Raju and I went to E-seva Centre in Tuni. Filled in a form for the issuance of birth certificate for my second baby. They told us to go to municipal office in Tuni and get this application form stamped by them. When we went there to get it done, we found that the related fellow is on a long leave. He returns to this office on 2 August. I made Srijana understand the complications involved in giving similar names for our two sons. Both should not be D A S Varma. So, we finalized Sisir Kiran Varma for our second baby. Gave 13,500 rupees to Sekhar by 5:00 on the request of my father-in-law. The latter has to pay periodical interest to a moneylender here. Returned to Viswanadhapuram by 7:30. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 July (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within Viswanadhapuram. Spent in the agricultural farm of Gunturu Prasada Raju from 4:00 to 5:00. He is growing about eight kinds of crops and trees in his farm. He earns about three lakh rupees every year through agriculture. He buys vegetables and fruits from others in this hamlet and gets them sold in Tuni and Visakhapatnam through his workers. He is finding agriculture reliable and profitable because he is not allowing middlemen to exploit him. He has eight acres of agricultural farm in this hamlet near hills. He seldom uses pesticides and agrochemicals. He has two daughters. He is feeling the effects of lack of a son to help him in agriculture related activities every day. He is an ideal farmer in this hamlet. Sisir Kiran Varma is fairer than Anand now. Srijana got enough breast milk for Sisir. He is not consuming milk well. He is spending most of his time sleeping. A local woman is getting him bathed every morning after massaging his body with homemade health powder. The maternal grandmother of Srijana employed this woman because she is an expert in this work. The skin and bones of babies grow depending on the optimum massage they get externally. Sisir is not crying much. His voice is of low pitch. His features are attractive. His hair is black and beautiful. He is getting rid of jaundice slowly. Kissed him many times to express my sense of warmth for him. He is soiling clothes about 30 times a day. His maternal grandmother is washing those clothes. We took photos and videos of Sisir also with our Sony digital camera. Anand is kissing Sisir frequently out of love. Sisir is growing well under the supervision of his dear ones. Went to sleep by 10:00.

27 July (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana bathed for the first time after her delivery. Pails of hot water were sent from every house in this village. It is their tradition. A native washerwoman got her bathed formally with about 500 litres of lukewarm water. The maternal grandparents of Srijana employed a washerwoman and washerman to wash all washable items of clothes and cots in this house. It is a domestic purification process for them after the delivery of Srijana. A familiar priest came here by 10:00. He chanted some mantras and made Srijana perform special worship to Hindu deities. It went on for 15 minutes. I took its video completely. Srijana is eating food once a day now according to the advice of her maternal grandmother. She is eating black jaggery, drinking boiled rice water and milk as part of her special diet regimen. Sisir sleeps and wakes up irregularly. Srijana is unable to sleep well due to it. Srijana, Anand, Sisir and I reached the rented abode of Rama Sekhara Raju in Tuni by 12:30 in a car driven by Vijay of Viswanadhapuram. Srijana and Revathi took Sisir and Sagar to a hospital for vaccination. BCG was administered to Sisir and typhoid preventive vaccine to Anand. Srijana, Anand and Sisir left for Viswanadhapuram by 5:30 hiring an auto rickshaw for 110 rupees. Afternoon I beat Anand for his acts of mischief. Srijana got hurt due to my act. I am not happy with the behavior of Anand. He wants to live like a prince. I wish to see him growing up like a disciplined boy. Took a bus by 7:30 and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 8:10. Went to sleep by 10:00.

28 July (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. My uncle Narayana Murthy came here by 7:00 from the mango garden at hills. Spent talking with him for 20 minutes. My mother prepared chicken curry for my lunch and supper. There are guava, papaya and vegetable plants and trees in the open yard of our house. There are about five aloe vera plants also in the front yard. Advised my parents to extract its juice and have it frequently for good health. They are not doing it well. They are going to INS Kalyani Hospital at Schindia in Visakhapatnam once a month for checkup and medicines. They get these services free of cost as the parents of my brother Srinivas, who served in the Indian Army. My mother got high blood pressure, diabetes and asthma. She is not following the prescribed diet regimen perfectly. She does not drink adequate water every day. She uses her spectacles now and then. My father is taking care of his health perfectly. He is walking for three kilometres every early morning along the road passing through Peda Gummuluru. He is drinking three litres of water every day. He is rearing a buffalo to kill his time. He bought five acres of cashew garden in Ramayyapatnam for its seasonal crop for three consecutive years. He is buying and selling residential plots of land to get a little profit in this process. He is earning and living more confidently and happily than me. I live the life of a hopeless parasite as an employee in private sector. Spent talking with my friends Appala Raju and Ganga Raju for two hours in Adduroad. Today it was sunny and pleasant. Took photos and videos of baby boy Anjaneya Raju. Went to sleep by 10:30.

29 July (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha, his close associate Yesu Babu and I started to our mango garden at hills by 9:00 on the bike of the prior. Sambha recently bought three acres of cashew farm, in this region, for about 10 lakh rupees, borrowing money from his familiar ones. He got it ploughed and leveled. Thence we walked into our mango garden. He got bunds established in this farm by many native laborers funded by the state and central governments. It is a bad public welfare scheme of government. The native workers are earning easy money due to this scheme. They are earning a good amount of money working for three hours only in the morning. Our mango farm is looking green and beautiful after this work. We reached the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy by 9:30. Took the photos and videos of my paternal grandparents Thammi Raju and Lakshmi Narasayyamma. They are old and frail now. We returned home by 10:15 via village Ramayyapatnam. Sambha and I took a long journey taxi by 11:30 at Adduroad Junction and reached NAD Kotha Road Junction by 1:00. Paid 80 rupees to him for both of us. Thence we took a Pendurti bound city bus for Sujatha Nagar. We reached the apartment of my brother Srinivas by 1:45. His is G-3 in Sai Balaji Towers apartment block here. It is near Pendurti branch of Indian Bank. They started this bank branch recently in this locality. We three brothers spent talking among ourselves for some time. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

30 July (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day within the abode of my brother Srinivas. My brother Sambha left for Sitamma Dhara by 8:30. Today the case of assistant engineer of the substation at Kota Uratla, against whom this brother complained earlier, is going to be discussed and settled. The related folks are attending this official meeting. He did not withdraw himself from this complaint being scared of the warnings of rich Kshatriyas of village Tangedu. They said that they don’t allow him to do farming in his agricultural land in this village if he does not obey them in this regard. He told them that he does not allow them into their mango and cashew farms near Ramayyapatnam if they play dirty games against him in Tangedu area. My brother has about four acres of agricultural farm in Tangedu. They have about 200 acres of farms by hills near Ramayyapatnam. They understood that they cannot do anything in this region going against him. My brother Sambha gained popularity and fame in this locality guiding and helping people in times of distress. He is facing corrupt government employees bravely. He is busy now doing casual public service. I told him that truth and honesty empower people to face others daringly. Corrupt and unethical rogues cannot face others confidently. I am happy observing the brave and honest life of Sambha now. He left for Peda Gummuluru by 2:30 from NAD Kotha Road. My brother Srinivas returned from UCO Bank at Devarapalli by 3:45. Today I took some photos of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani. Night watched television for some time. It was hot and sultry today. Went to sleep by 11:00.

31 July (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. My nephew Sujan is in his first year Intermediate course now. He is studying at Narayana Junior College at Asil Metta in Visakhapatnam. His father Srinivas admitted him into this college because he wants to see him studying in an IIT. They treat students like automated machines in preparing them for competitive exams like JEE, AIEEE and EAMCET. Sujan is going to this college even on Sundays. He is busier than district collectors. This is the fate of many IIT aspirants in Andhra Pradesh now. My nephew Suhas is in his eighth standard now. He is studying at Ravindra Bharathi School at NAD Kotha Road. He is not as busier as his brother now. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani is an expert in cooking and domestic chores. She earned reputation in our familiar circle of people as an efficient, patient and ideal homemaker. My brother Srinivas is depending on bank loans to beautify his life. I am against such Indian culture. We should not celebrate today thinking that our future would be as bright as we imagine. Morning took video of the exterior and interior parts of the apartment of my brother. Also took photos of my brother, sister-in-law and Suhas. Sujan leaves for his college by 8:00 every morning and returns home around 9:00 at night. He is losing two hours’ time every day commuting by bus. Reached NAD Kotha Road by 2:30 by bus. Thence took another bus by 3:37 and reached Adduroad by 5:30. Took the video of our house in Peda Gummuluru when it was cloudy and dim around. Went to sleep by 10:00. 

 

1 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a Rajahmundry bound bus at Adduroad by 9:15 and reached Jaggampeta by 11:10. The National Highway 16 (NH 16) is wide and beautiful. The journey was pleasant and refreshing. The bus fare is 57 rupees. Reached the house of my teacher uncle K V Rama Raju by 11:30 on foot. Spent talking with him for two hours. He has diabetes. He is following a rigid diet regimen to keep up his health. Took an auto rickshaw and reached Gollalagunta by 1:50. Walked to the houses of my folks. The families of my maternal aunts Satyavathi and Raja Kumari and my maternal uncle Varma are here in these houses. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju is eating food in the house of my maternal aunt Raja Kumari. My cousin Narendra Varma is teaching a subject at Aditya Engineering College at Surampalem near Peddapuram. He earned reputation in this college as a lecturer. He is taking competitive exams. This time paddy crops failed in this area for lack of rains. The prices of paddy are very low now. Merchants and the government agencies are not buying paddy from farmers. The old people, whom I know, are dying one after one in this village. It is slowly losing its charm. Agricultural farms, owned and cultivated by peasant farmers, are not profitable for them. Many are growing paddy because they are associated with this crop for decades. The rates of agricultural and residential lands are increasing rapidly. Spent talking with my folks for long. Went to sleep by 10:30.

2 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Morning and afternoon took photos and videos of my aunts, uncles and cousins with my Sony digital camera. They felt very happy about it. Today it was cloudy and dim. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju is rearing two Jersey cows. Every day he is going into nearby sugarcane farms to bring green grass and feed his cows. He spends money very carefully. I enjoy his presence a lot. My maternal uncle Varma is not much engaged in agricultural activities now. He is leading a balanced and peaceful life. He loves me a lot. My cousin Hari of village Ramula Devapuram is rearing a few cows. He and his parents came to Gollalagunta four years ago. They got a house constructed here for them spending about six lakh rupees. Finding a bride for Hari became an issue for his parents now. His left hand got affected due to Polio. He is not doing a job. Kshatriya girls are not interested in such boys now. He is a gem of character. Now marriages are not taking place based on characters of individuals but earning potential and assets of shallow blokes. My cousin Anantha Lakshmi prepared thick bread in a pan by 4:30 with palm (Thaati Chettu in Telugu) fruit paste, jaggery and broken pieces of rice (Nookalu in Telugu) for me. My cousin Narendra Varma and I started to Kakinada by 6:00 on his bike. We reached the rented abode of our cousin Bala at Dwaraka Nagar by 7:30. He is living in a ground level portion in the house bearing number 65-17-1/B along with his mother. Now he is working as a biology teacher at Sri Chaitanya School here. We had supper by 9:00. Bala, Naren and I spent in the rented abode of Mantena Krishnam Raju at Sarpavaram from 9:20 to 10:00. Slept by 11:15 in the abode of Bala.

3 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Took leave of my cousin Bala and his mother Rajeshwari. My cousin Naren dropped me at bus station in Kakinada by 7:30 on his bike. Took a Visakhapatnam bound Express bus and reached Tuni by 9:15 travelling via Pithapuram, Kathipudi and Annavaram. It’s a pleasant and refreshing journey in a cloudy and cool morning. The bus fare is 46 rupees. Took the arranged auto rickshaw by 9:20 and reached Viswanadhapuram by 10:00. Yesterday night my father-in-law came here from Hyderabad for the formal naming ceremony of my second baby Sisir Kiran Varma. Srijana, her father, her maternal grandmother, Anand, Sisir and I started to Kota Uratla in a hired auto rickshaw by 11:30. We travelled via Kodavatipudi and Venkatapuram and reached the office of Sub Registrar there by 12:15. We went there to apply for the marriage certificate of Srijana and me. We submitted the required proofs to them. My father-in-law and maternal grandmother of Srijana signed the documents as witnesses. A document writer, working here, also signed them as the third witness. My father-in-law paid 1,000 rupees to a fellow here as bribe. He thinks that it is an inevitable formality to be followed at government offices to get things done faster. He educated me about corruption in India when I questioned him about his nasty act of paying bribe. We returned to Viswanadhapuram by 3:15 in the same auto rickshaw. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

4 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Reached Tuni by 10:00. My father-in-law, Srijana and Sisir Kiran Varma reached here by 10:30. They took Sisir to Dr. Srimannarayana at Talli Pilla Hospital for checkup. Srijana told him about the slight disorder she observed in the breathing pattern of Sisir. He advised for a chest X-ray in a medical lab. They got it done. He examined this medical report and told that the heart of the baby is to the right of his chest. He advised them to take him to a good hospital in Visakhapatnam for better diagnosis and consultation. Srijana, her father, her maternal uncle Rama Sekhara Raju, Sisir and I took Simhadri Express at Tuni railway station by 3:50 and reached Visakhapatnam by 5:52. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw and reached Apollo Hospital at Waltair by 6:15. Cardiologist D R M Jagannadha Raju came here by 7:45. My brother Srinivas and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani already reached here. We paid 900 rupees at the cash counter and got a form for the ECHO of Sisir. Jagannadha Raju is a cousin of Rama Sekhara Raju. He holds M.D. and D.M. in cardiology. He did ECHO for Sisir for about 50 minutes. He revealed shocking news about Sisir. He is suffering from multiple health disorders. His heart is to the right. He scribbled a reference letter and advised us to consult Dr. Sambha Murthy at Innova Hospital in Hyderabad as early as possible. Felt giddy for 10 minutes and recovered myself from this effect of shock. This doctor prescribed Furoped 30 ml. medicine for Sisir. It’s a rare medicine. We bought it at Pioneer medical store in Jagadamba Junction area. We took a bus by 10:00. Got off it at Adduroad Junction by 12:00 and walked to our house in Peda Gummuluru alone. Went to sleep by 12:20.

5 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father and brother Sambha met two of their familiar ones for money. They borrowed 25,000 rupees from them. Janaki, the mother-in-law of Sambha, gave 25,000 rupees. This money is for expenses, which may arise for medical tests for my second baby Sisir in Hyderabad. I have no money now to afford them. My mother, my sister-in-law Kranti and I started to Tuni by 2:00 from Adduroad. We reached the rented abode of Rama Sekhara Raju in Court Street by 3:00. My maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma and my uncle Chanti Babu came here from village Durgada to see Sisir. A sense of gloom spread among our relatives after hearing about the critical health condition of Sisir. They are getting ready to come for his formal naming ceremony, which was earlier scheduled to take place on the 6^th of this month. My mother burst into tears, after seeing his beautiful face, thinking about his health condition. I tried to console her talking about the advancements in medical and surgical care in India now. They left for Peda Gummuluru by 5:30 by bus. My in-laws, Srijana, her maternal grandmother, Anand, Sisir and I reached NH-16 by 7:30. We got into a Sindhu Travels bus by 8:30. I took Sisir into my lap for most of the time during this night bus journey and allowed him to sleep well. Lord Krishna sent me into this world to experience bliss and pain related to creatures. Sisir is my special guest. I love him a lot. Went to sleep by 3:30.

6 August (Saturday)

We got off this bus near Chintal Basthi bus stop by 7:15. We refreshed ourselves by 8:20. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju brought the TATA Sumo vehicle of my friend Veeranjaneyulu by 8:00. We took Sisir to Innova Children’s Heart Hospital at Tarnaka by 9:00. We paid 350 rupees at cash counter towards registration and consultation fees. We met Dr. Gouthami by 11:00. She checked the baby and told us to get ECHO and ECG done for Sisir. Paid 1,100 rupees at cash counter for these two medical tests. Sisir cried when they pasted the equipment of ECG on his body. They advised Srijana to wait until he sleeps. He slept by 12:00. They did these tests for Sisir by 1:30. We met Dr. Gouthami by 2:30 in her room. She told us that there are multiple disorders in the process of functioning of his heart. The condition of his heart is complicated. They must be corrected in a series of surgeries over a period of time. They are all high risk surgeries. He must be in regular medical care forever despite these surgeries. He may live for 50 years at the most if everything goes on as expected. Dr. K Sambha Murthy will decide the nature and cost of surgery after checking the medical reports and findings of this consultant. They told us to come back to this hospital by 5:30 p.m. on the 8^th of this month for the advice of Sambha Murthy. He would be busy on Saturdays and Sundays in conferences. We hired an auto rickshaw and returned home by 4:00. It rained during this time. Lord Krishna and Mother Nature blessed master Sisir. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. My cousin Sirisha, her husband Anantha Varma and their baby Shiva Sahithi came here by 12:30. Madhavi, the maternal aunt of Srijana, her two cousins Sunil and Sushma, came here by 1:00 from Ashok Nagar. Jagannadha Raju, the paternal uncle of Srijana, came here by 1:15, from village Kandla Koya, along with his mother-in-law. These people came here to see Sisir Kiran Varma. They spent here till 6:30. Now two kinds of medicines are being administered to Sisir. They are Furoped and Aldactone. Srijana is giving five drops of Furoped liquid to Sisir in the morning and evening amounting to about 10 ml. Each Aldactone tablet is being broken into eight pieces. Three pieces of it (one piece each time) are being given to Sisir in the morning, afternoon and evening. Sisir is not consuming breast milk satisfactorily. It might be because he got some disorders in his heart. I am depressed to know that Sisir got such complex disorders in his heart. The soul of this master failed to configure its body perfectly before entering this material world. Many souls take such births in this world depending on their Karmic schedules. Sisir chose Srijana and me as his parents. I love his beauty and innocent behavior. I believe that the congenital heart disorders of Sisir will be cured completely in course of time. May Lord Krishna bless him. No human being can change the fate of another creature but seek the blessings of deities. Went to sleep by 10:30.

8 August (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at home. By 3:30 typed out and posted a blog titled “My Second Baby” on my blog site explaining the heart condition of my second son Sisir Kiran Varma. Emailed the scanned copy of ECHO of Sisir to the folks of Satya Sai Super Specialty Hospital at Puttaparthi for their consideration and reply. Also got three sleeper class berths reserved for Srijana, my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani and me for Kacheguda-Yashwantpur Express for the 10^th of this month. If Dr. K Sambha Murthy of Innova Hospital informs us to go for surgery to Sisir, asking for a large amount of money, I want to take Sisir to Puttaparthi and get him diagnosed and treated there. My friend Veeranjaneyulu sent his TATA Sumo vehicle to our abode at Chintal Basthi by 4:30 getting it driven by his nephew Prasad. Srijana, her father, Sisir and I got into it and reached Innova Hospital by 5:15. They told us to wait for Dr. Sambha Murthy till 7:00. Meanwhile we rushed to Vanasthalipuram to meet Dr. Raghavendra Deshmukh and ask for his advice about the treatment for Sisir. He was not at his house. We rushed back to Innova Hospital at Tarnaka by 6:20. We met Dr. Sambha Murthy in his room by 8:00. He examined the ECHO, ECG and X-ray of Sisir and told us that there are disorders in the heart of the baby. He advised us to use Furoped liquid and Aldactone tablets for Sisir for three months and bring him back. We felt relieved to this extent. Reached this news to our familiar folks. We returned home by 9:15. Prasad drove TATA Sumo very well. Went to sleep by 10:30.

9 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My father-in-law and mother-in-law started to village Masanpalli near Nizam Sagar by 7:30 with four items of their luggage. They join back their jobs at the agricultural farm there. It’s about four-hour road travel from here. Srijana, her maternal grandmother, Anand, Sisir and I started to Ashok Nagar at Serilingampally by 8:30 in an auto rickshaw hired by me for 250 rupees. We reached the newly rented in abode of Madhavi, the maternal aunt of Srijana, by 9:45. I have to deposit 30,000 rupees into a bank account of my brother Sambha to enable him to repay part of the debt I created there recently. Morning repaid 15,000 rupees in the office of Manappuram Finance at Khairatabad and took back the black beads gold necklace of Srijana. Also paid 122 rupees as monthly interest for it. I am helpless and so spent 20,000 rupees out of the 50,000 rupees my father gave me. My folks don’t have money readily on them for resolving urgent problems like this. They run for borrowing money depending on the urgency of issues. I took two hours’ time to rush from bank to bank and get this money deposited into the bank account of Sambha. My cousin Vasu, who is working with a Vedanta firm at Jharsuguda now, transferred this money online through his ICICI Bank account into SBI account of my brother at village Penugollu. Had my lunch in the abode of Madhavi by 1:15. Took a bus by 2:30 and returned to my rented abode by 4:00. Read Eenadu and watched television for some time. Slept by 10:00.

10 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Saw the English film “THE RISE OF THE PLANET OF APES” in cinema Sensation Sunshine at Khairatabad from 3:00 to 5:00. The cost of the ticket is 55 rupees. Enjoyed watching this film. By 2:30 posted the letter of Dr. Sambha Murthy to Dr. D M R Jagannadha Raju at Apollo Hospital in Visakhapatnam through Registered Post at the post office in Khairatabad. When we knew about the disorders in the heart of Sisir and imagined that a costly surgery may be required to be performed immediately, my folks blamed me for not possessing an ‘Arogya Sri’ card. It is a welfare scheme of the Government of Andhra Pradesh meant for people of BPL (Below Poverty Line) status. The government pays for the costly medical and surgical needs of the patients under this scheme. I am not a poor Indian when they assess my financial status as a son of my father because he got some assets. I am an employee in private sector. I change jobs frequently. I am a vulnerable gypsy as an individual. I could not earn much so far to buy assets or maintain reliable bank balance. I desperately depend on my father for resolution of high risk financial problems. Many rich and privileged people of India are benefitting a lot from the welfare schemes of state and central governments, which are actually meant for the poor and the helpless. Honest and ideal Indians cannot live happily in India now. If the soul of Sisir is powerful and entered India with a great purpose, it must be able to continue its imposing journey extraordinarily. God guides him. I play my Karmic role in this play of God. Went to sleep by 10:30.

11 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Went to the art abode of Veeru by 4:00. He is growing flower and vegetable plants in the premises of his art abode. He is not going to his rented portion at Journalist Colony ‘A’ in Jubilee Hills much now. His folks are living there. He is attracting about 50 pigeons to his art abode every day in the morning and evening offering pearl millet to them. He is spending about 10,000 rupees a month for it. He is enjoying their liberal presence before him every day. A few friends of him always stay in his abode. He never goes out to see a film alone in a cinema. He enjoys the company of his good friends and relatives. We could not find a beauty till now for him to marry. His mother is crying visualizing his life ahead without a wife. Veeru never took the matter of his marriage seriously. He wants to live and die as an artist. He is an idealist. Meher Murali is angry with Veeru now for some reasons. He is staying outside. Veeru is not interested in consoling him. He said that Murali has much spiritual knowledge but he does not practice it in his real life. He has been observing his life closely for the last 12 years. Repaid 2,000 rupees to Veeru. Vamsy borrowed it from him about a year ago. I told my father-in-law about it and collected this money from him. Took 2,500 grams of Shakti Malt powder from Veeru. I have to pay 300 rupees to him for it. Returned home by 8:30. I want to go back to Peda Gummuluru along with my wife and sons. Went to sleep by 10:30.

12 August (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 my teacher uncle Venkata Rama Raju called me up from the rented portion of his son Kiran at Deeptisri Nagar. Took a city bus and reached there by 12:00. He took me to the abode of Kiran from the main road. Kiran and his wife Sindhu are living in an apartment here. The monthly rent for this apartment is 11,000 rupees. I found it very beautiful. The father-in-law of Kiran has a small plot of land near the municipal park here. They are getting a house constructed here for Kiran. My teacher uncle and I reached Ashok Nagar by 1:30. We walked to the rented abode of Madhavi. My uncle saw Sisir. We went to the rented abode of my cousin Sirisha at Shirdi Sai Colony at Beeramguda by 2:00. We spent there for 20 minutes. We returned to the abode of Madhavi by 2:30. He saw my babies Sagar and Sisir again. He took a city bus for Deeptisri Nagar by 2:50. I took a bus for Khairatabad by 3:00. Reached my abode by 4:30. Now my brother-in-law Vamsy is working as an apprentice at the DRDL in Kanchan Bagh. He joined it on the 26^th of last month. He has to work there for one year to get a certificate from them. They pay about 2,000 rupees a month as stipend to him during this time. Saturdays and Sundays are holidays. Daily he is commuting by MMTS trains and city buses. He applied to the folks of BDL also for apprenticeship opportunity. He wants to join it considering more stipend and facilities there. I advised him to be with DRDL. He is staying with his cousins of Viswanadhapuram. Went to sleep by 10:30.

13 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Saw the Telugu film “Dhada” in cinema Sensation Sunshine from 11:00 to 1:30. Enjoyed watching it. Returned home by 1:45. Completed reading the chapter titled “Trickledown Revolution” in the book BROKEN REPUBLIC of Arundhati Roy by 5:00. This is the third and last chapter in this book. I read it in about three hours’ time. I enjoyed reading this book. There are three essays in it. They were earlier published in the English magazine Outlook. Arundhati discussed the issues of Naxalism and unethical policies of the Government of India in these essays. Naxalism is a result of oppression and exploitation of the poor by the rich and the influential in India for years. Since corrupt politicians and manipulative businessmen do not become good ones through pacifist ideologies and movements, they dream of establishing an ideal state through killing them. They are radical thinkers and activists. The present governments are devising such plans and policies, which benefit the rich ultimately. The poor are not getting the fruits of development in India. Arundhati criticizes this kind of dirty politics prevalent in India now. The governments are spending huge amounts of money to trace and kill Naxalites in every region instead of curbing corruption and immorality in India. This book awakes sleepy Indians and makes them think about the current state of India. Went to sleep by 11:00.

14 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home reading today’s dailies and watching television. By 2:30 Srijana, her maternal grandmother, Vamsy, Anand and Sisir reached the agricultural farm near Nizam Sagar in a car of R V Rama Raju. Srijana stays there with her parents for some days along with Sagar and Sisir. They get pure air, pure water and pure milk there. The purity and beauty of this green farmland is good for them. Srijana gets the guidance and help of her mother in caring for Sisir during this time. She likes the silent and divine power of Mother Nature there. She enjoys the presence and care of her parents there. I am happy and proud thinking about R V Rama Raju, the owner of this agricultural farm, in which my father-in-law is working as a supervisor. I heard that he is paying about 10,000 rupees a month as salary for them. There is a comfortable and beautiful house to live in. He advised my father-in-law to rear a buffalo for milk at home and grow vegetable plants for income. He would give money for them. My in-laws are able to live happily due to his kind and generous treatment towards them. They are happier there than at their house in K O Mallavaram. By 10:40 typed out and posted a blog titled “Contemporary India” on my blog site. I wrote about my impressions on the book BROKEN REPUBLIC of Arundhati Roy and present movement of Anna Hazare against corruption in India in this blog. Idealists and patriots fight for great causes of a nation. Criminals harass them. Went to sleep by 11:10.

15 August (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home. Srijana told me that Anand is more attached to her father. He is crying a lot if he does not appear to him even for a few minutes. Perhaps he is enjoying excessive liberty with him. Srijana is unable to bear his mischief now and then. Sisir is doing well. I am unable to spend with my two kids. A financially weak person like me cannot have enough time and create favourable atmosphere to spend with children. I think everybody entangled in the web of struggle for existence or desire for unlimited money and luxuries cannot spend enough time with children. Anand is not finding me interesting now because I am spending my time occasionally with him. Little children love those, who treat them as children. Disciplinarians desire to inculcate discipline in their children from their early stage of growth. Children consider such mothers and fathers as domestic villains and avoidable creatures. Adults use intelligence and vision to build up their lives carefully. Kids use innocence and intuition to live freely and carelessly. Adults cannot bring up their kids well understanding things from the perspectives of their little ones. I wonder at this imbalance of relationships between parents and children. I don’t observe this phenomenon in birds and animals. I am missing the presence of Srijana and kids. It’s the problem of many fathers in this world. They suffer silently and act decently. Went to sleep by 10:30.

16 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of January in the typed version diary of 2010 written by me. I took about eight hours’ time to do it. My eyes got deeply affected due to it. My friend Krishna Varma came here by 7:45 from village Rudraram. Recently I bought a bottle of PediaSure for 410 rupees for Anand in a medical store. It helps him grow well physically and mentally. I wondered reading the information given on it explaining how it facilitates the holistic growth of children. Anand is having it daily with lukewarm buffalo milk. He leaves a little amount of milk at the bottom of glass every time he drinks warm milk. It may be his style. Srijana and I got all necessary vaccines administered to him in time till now. He is not eating food well. His maternal grandmother is an expert in feeding and bringing up such children. Now he is attached to his maternal grandfather. He wants to go out with him on bike for outdoor enjoyment. He is crying madly if he does not appear to him for a little time. Srijana is getting disturbed due to his adamant and irrational behavior. I can make him into a disciplined and happy child if I spend all the time with him. I am unable to do it now. Parents should spend a lot of time with their kids at home and outside. If parents don’t do it, children cannot enjoy their formative age. I regret my present inability to be with my wife and sons. I am feeling lonely as a family member but such environment is necessary for me to do my diary editing work fast. Went to sleep by 10:30.

17 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I avoided editing my diary of 2010 to relieve my affected eyes and also to spend my time with my friend Krishna Varma. By 10:30 Vijay Krishna called me up from Mangalore. He was my colleague and team leader when I worked as a Sub Editor with the ICFAI University Press at Somajiguda in Hyderabad. He joined Corporation Bank as a Publicity Officer leaving ICFAI in 2005. He is still with it. I could recognize his voice instantly even after a gap of communication for five years. He read a post on my blog site and understood that my baby boy Sisir is affected with congenital heart disorders. Recently he read an article about a famous hospital in Bengaluru specifically dealing with congenital heart disorders. He told me to check the copies of the English daily The Times of India of the last three days for it. We updated ourselves on the events and developments in our lives during this time. Felt happy for talking with him after a long time. By 2:30 Krishna Varma and I went to branch library near the statue of PJR in Khairatabad. I think that article must have been published in the Sunday special edition pages of this English daily. I could not find those pages in it. Some reader would have taken them home considering the attractive look and content of these pages. Sisir was born one month ago on this date. Srijana decorated him with a new pair of clothes on this occasion. Went to sleep by 10:30.

18 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of February in my diary of 2010 on my computer for about seven hours. My friend Krishna Varma left for Rudraram by 8:30. He is working with Vijai Electricals plant at Rudraram. He can earn about 8,000 rupees a month as a casual worker here. His parents want to get him married soon. The parents of girls are not finding him interesting because his salary, job and financial background are negligible. I advised him to remain unmarried forever. An ordinary man cannot look after his wife and children in the present society. It is a network of responsibilities and pain throughout. Many Indians consider marriage as an essential part of human life. Wife and husband can live happily depending on each other till death with or without children. The conservative Indian society does not accord much value to bachelors and spinsters. They would be treated as unfortunate and pitiable creatures by others. The idea of marriage of Krishna Varma became a big issue to his parents now. My friend Amarnadh came to my abode by 7:30 from the office of Glads Media on his way back to home. He told me that the salaries of employees of Glads Media, for the month of July, were already credited to their bank accounts. They did not credit the salaries of those folks, who left it recently. They call it full and final settlement. It shows the standards of this firm. Mahendra should grow a lot as an entrepreneur. His employees should not be made to beg him for their salaries. Talked with Chetanya Lakshmi over phone about my salary. Went to sleep by 10:00.

19 August (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of March in my diary of 2010 for about six hours. My friend Trinadha Rao came to my abode by 5:00. He spent talking with me till 7:30 about various things he knows and experienced. He was like a hero in Andhra University from 1995 to 2000. He helped some students there during this time. He told me about the growth of Botsa Satya Narayana in Vijaya Nagaram district as a politician. Recently the folks of Potti Sriramulu Telugu University decided to fill up a vacancy of Project Assistant in its Department of Telugu. They tried to give this job to an ordinary student of Telangana region even if he is not qualified for this job. Trinadh got many degrees and is the right person for this job. He fought with them in this regard. He met politicians to frighten the authorities of this university. Eventually they cancelled recruitment for this position. He got ready to pay three lakh rupees to Botsa for getting this government job. Governments are establishing and sustaining corruption in many parts of India. Trinadh wants to live happily getting such cool job. He is becoming corrupt in this process because the systems of governance made him so. Trinadh told me about the nasty characters of actors and actresses in Telugu film and television industry. Female artistes are made, treated and exploited as prostitutes. They live and die for sex. They are worse than dogs and pigs. Film industry is horrible behind the screen. Went to sleep by 10:00.

20 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited my diary of 2010 for about six hours and completed editing the content of April in it. It rained for about 30 minutes in the afternoon. Power cut occurred for some time. Enjoyed the cooling effect of this rain. Anand is asking his maternal grandfather to buy a bicycle for him. He is improving rapidly in understanding different words and using them. He got a lot of space here to play and enjoy his time. Sisir is doing well. Srijana is happy here with her two babies and parents. Her maternal grandmother returned to the rented abode of her younger daughter Madhavi at Ashok Nagar three days ago. She goes back to Viswanadhapuram soon. My brother Srinivas got ready to sell his five acres of paddy farm near Dhora Cheruvu in Gollalagunta. He informed my maternal uncles Varma and Krishnam Raju to sell it to somebody soon. He is expecting about 6, 50,000 rupees for each acre of this land. They are not cultivating it in this crop season because there was no enough rainfall in this area in the beginning of this crop season. My brother is getting about 50,000 rupees a year from this farmland if everything is well. He is not happy with the income being generated by this agricultural farm. He wants to sell it and invest that money in real estate ventures to get more money. I am not happy with his decision. He did not ask for my opinion. Man cannot survive without food. Agricultural farms are like senior citizens in our families. We should love their association with us. We should not treat them as objects. Went to sleep by 10:30.

21 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent reading Eenadu and The Hindu for one hour. Today I edited the content of May in my diary of 2010. I did it for about seven hours. Now social activist Anna Hazare is on hunger strike at Ramlila Ground in New Delhi. He is doing it demanding an effective Jan Lokpal Bill. Every government employee, including judges and the prime minister of India, must be subjected to fair and fearless judicial enquiry of an independent legal agency established at central level. He thinks that corruption can be checked in India if there is a strong legally empowered mechanism. The rogues of the present UPA coalition government came up with Lokpal Bill to satisfy this gentleman. It is a useless bill. Anna Hazare disapproved it. Many Indians are supporting this agitation of Hazare across India. Indians are like sheep. They participate in demonstrations for formality and fun sake. They are essentially cowards, hypocrites and dullards. They don’t change at their level. They proactively offer bribes to get things done. They don’t have patriotism, virtues and self-respect. They are like chameleons. They change their attitudes and views according to opportunities at hand. They are highly selfish and narrow-minded blokes. They grow neglecting and suppressing the innocent and the helpless around them. Anna Hazare cannot change the culture of Indians through this bill and act. He cannot change India through Gandhian values. Went to sleep by 10:00.

22 August (Monday)

Woke up by 7:00. Today I edited the content of June in my diary of 2010. By 3:00 received 10 copies of revised version of my first book Stories of Love and Beauty from a delivery boy of Professional Couriers. The folks of Leadstart Publishing sent them to me from Mumbai on my request. Their actual cost is 4,500 rupees. They offered me a discount of 30% on them because I am the author of this book. I have to pay them 3,150 rupees. They allowed me to pay it whenever I can afford it. These books are looking more beautiful than the earlier ones. By 3:30 sent an email to Mahendra Gollaputi informing him to credit my salary for the last month into my ICICI Bank account early this week. When I talked with Chetanya Lakshmi about the delay in this regard, she told me that full and final settlement takes about two months’ time. I think she is a revolutionary in the sphere of HR policies in India. They must be consulting an advocate, chartered accountant and HR consultant to discuss and settle my account. It’s a matter of one month’s salary credit to my bank account. The standards of a firm can be understood observing how they are dealing with their departing employees. I did not do wonders in Glads Media because it does not happen in any firm by any employee unless it’s related to research and development. I did something as its employee. I worked with them because I wanted money. They sent me out because they would not have found me suitable for their work. Paying my last salary is their courtesy. Went to sleep by 10:30.

23 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of July in my diary of 2010 for about seven hours in the morning and afternoon on my DELL INSPIRON computer. Today it is Sri Krishna Janmaasthami, the birthday of Lord Krishna. Many Indians celebrated it today. I know very little about this God. I know Him as a great Avatar, who lived on the holy soil of India, centuries ago. I love and admire Him as a God. I believe that He is observing and guiding me always. He must be living in the form of a divine soul somewhere in this cosmos. He is beyond the reach of thinkers and scientists. Those, who attained great levels of spiritual growth, over a period of many births and rebirths, can understand the truths related to His present form of existence and influence on this creation. I consider the folks of ISKCON as great entities propagating the life and Leela of Lord Krishna. I like going to their temples and spending in that soothing and inspiring ambience filled with devotees of Krishna. There is difference between religion and spiritualism. Religion aims at salvation through worship of a deity. Spiritualism is concerned with the philosophy of understanding the nature and journey of souls towards salvation being advised and aided by special spiritual guides in every age. Spiritualism leads one from darkness to light. Religion leads one from fear to fearlessness. One can attain salvation through either of these paths. Went to sleep by 10:30.

24 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited the content of August in my diary of 2010 for about seven hours. It has been raining every day for the last few days due to depression over the Bay of Bengal and monsoon. The paddy farmers are happy with these rains in Andhra Pradesh. I am enjoying this spell of nature. My gums are bleeding for the last one year or so. It happens when I am brushing my teeth every morning. I don’t brush them at night though many dentists advise it for all. My gums are bleeding even when I exert pressure on my mouth. Production of saliva is also more in my mouth. It is more in early morning before waking up. It becomes normal after brushing my teeth. There are many dentists everywhere now. Many Indians are smoking and chewing tobacco products now. They are using many other related products also, which harm their gums and teeth every day. Many dentists are necessary for treating all these creatures with dental problems. I am not consulting private dentists because I don’t have money now to afford those medical tests and treatments. I have been sensing ‘Om’ like sound in my head for the last 20 years or so. I can feel it more when everything is absolutely silent around me. There must be a disorder in my ears. I have to consult an ENT fellow. There are many advanced medical facilities in India, in private hospitals, now. Millions of Indians fear to enter them because they don’t have money to afford those costs. Indians neglect their health. I like their courage. Went to sleep by 10:30. 

25 August (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of September in my diary of 2010. Recently my father-in-law talked very angrily with me. He said that I have no authority to talk badly about the Kshatriyas living in villages Viswanadhapuram and Tangedu. I criticized him for offering 1,000 rupees as bribe to a document writer at the office of Sub Registrar in Kota Uratla for getting the marriage certificate of Srijana and me. I criticized the folks of Viswanadhapuram because they have bad habits like smoking, drinking and cock fights. I know how the Kshatriyas of Tangedu became rich over the years. I heard that Indira Gandhi added the prefix Raja to the surname Sagi of Kshatriyas living in this village. Thereafter they must have remained as loyal dogs to Congress party. They amassed millions of rupees and assets for 60 years being with Congress party. They are controlling the systems of governance in this area using this money and political influence. My father-in-law is a typical underdog of India. He is a blind follower of Congress party because all types of fools and rogues would be respected and encouraged in this political party. He gets things done offering bribes to all because he learned this dirty culture from Congress party. I can kick him into hell if I apply my fury and intelligence but it is not the role of an idealist and dreamer. He is suffering from many problems. He does not grow as an individual because he is living in his pit of ignorance and self-pity. Slept by 10:30.

26 August (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited the content of October in my diary of 2010 for about seven hours. Last night I spent in a part of the USA. I visited it in my dream. Evening the folks of Suryavamsh Sangh Ganesh Welfare Association came to my abode and asked for my donation. They buy and worship a big statue of Lord Ganesh soon in our locality for nine days on the occasion of Vinayaka Chavithi. They worship and satisfy this God on behalf of society. I remember priests in Hindu temples and converted Christians in this regard. They too act as authorized mediators between devotees and God. This is the status of religions in India now. The relationship between God and humans became formal, artificial and commercial now. The nine-day celebration of Ganesh festival in twin cities reflects the degradation of Hindus. They compete with others in buying different sizes of statues and making noise in streets with songs and dance. Mostly foolish, stupid and irrational youth indulge in this public function. The folks of Khairatabad area make the biggest statue of Ganesh in twin cities every year on this occasion. A sweet shop owner from Tapeswaram is making and bringing a huge Laddu to Hyderabad for this gigantic Ganesh this time. These blokes made Hinduism into a big circus. I hate these perverted religious actors in India. Their moral and spiritual standards are very low. God does not enjoy the tricks of these buffoons. I gave 10 rupees to these shallow nuts as my donation for it. They treated me as a miser and sinner of India. Went to sleep by 10:30.

27 August (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of November in my diary of 2010. Morning my brother Srinivas came to Hyderabad by Godavari Express to participate in a two-day meeting meant for the office bearers of the UCO Bank Employees Union. He does not get time even to meet me. He is Joint Secretary in it now. He likes to come to Hyderabad and spend here for some time. Now the folks of Anti-Corruption Bureau are probing the corruption cases filed against Y S Jagan Mohan Reddy based on the orders of the High Court of Andhra Pradesh. The present Congress government is angry with him because he started a new political party going out of it. ACB seems to be a dirty wing of ruling party in every part of India. They raid those, who are against ruling government. The fact is that 90% of politicians are corrupt and immoral in India now. Their public and private lives are different. They act and tell beautiful lies publicly to misguide and exploit people. Many politicians and businessmen amassed billions of rupees and valuable assets in every part of India. They became the most powerful segment of society. They are suppressing or killing those, who are fighting against them. When rulers of a nation are cruel criminals, common people suffer silently. Democracy is an opportunity for the rich and the influential to torture and loot the poor and the natural resources. Jagan is a speck among thousands of criminals living in India now. Indian culture means corruption and immorality now. Slept by 10:30.

28 August (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I edited the content of December in my diary of 2010 and completed its first and final levels of editing. I spent about 84 hours’ time to edit the content of this diary. I edited it in a fast pace. There are about 1, 00,000 words in it. Posted it on my blog site http://dcraju.blogspot.com by 7:15 for my blog readers to read. Writing and editing content is a tedious work. Outsiders cannot understand this phenomenon. Human brain does not like doing works related to originality and thinking continuously for a long time. Brain works intensely for such works. It is not the case with pursuits related to playing and entertainment. Brain does not work much when we are watching films or playing games. It is a matter of understanding or applying known truths. Writing and editing require analytical thinking and a lot of patience. Artists and professionals cannot enjoy their personal lives. An artist has to do paintings throughout his life. A singer has to sing songs. A choreographer has to work on innovative and exciting ideas and acts of dance. Sometimes they feel like leaving their professions forever and going into a deep forest to live and die like a sage. Profession is a psychological burden imposed by one upon oneself intuitively or illogically. Nobody dies in this world even if writers, singers, dancers, sculptors, musicians, thinkers and dreamers stop pursuing their interests but that is not the case with scientists, farmers, doctors and soldiers. The lives of artists are pitiable and vulnerable from this perspective. I regret it. Went to sleep by 10:30.

29 August (Monday)

Woke up by 3:30. I could not sleep thereafter. From 6:00 to 11:00 I changed the font and font size of the blog posts on my blog site http://virahini.blogspot.com. Recently I got attracted towards the font Gill Sans MT. Today I changed the text of 100 blog posts to this font on this blog site from Courier New. The font size is 14. Now all blog posts on this site are in this font and size. My personal diaries from 1995 to 2010 posted on http://dcraju.blogspot.com are also in this font and size. I think my blog readers would be comfortable with this font and size to read. Now I am happy with the overall look and beauty of these two blog sites. Today it is the birthday of my platonic friend Akkineni Nagarjuna. Now he is busy acting for three Telugu films. I posted his photo on the banner of my blog site http://virahini.blogspot.com and attached the following words of wishes to it on this occasion. “You are rain. I am cloud. You are forest. I am frost. Two bodies with two souls. One journey like day and night”. I love him. Paid 443 rupees at the Reliance Communications outlet in Lakdi Ka Pool by 12:45 towards my postpaid bill for my cellphone for the last bill period. Took a 218-C city bus at Khairatabad by 1:30 and reached Patan Cheru by 2:45. Thence took a 102 Patan Cheru-Medak bus and got off it at the new bus station in Sangareddy by 3:30. Thence took a Hyderabad-Bichkunda Express bus by 4:45 and got off it by main road near village Aaredu by 6:48. My father-in-law took me to his farmhouse by 6:52 on his bike. Went to sleep by 10:00.

30 August (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:30. I am at the abode of my in-laws in the agricultural farm of Rudraraju Venkata Rama Raju near villages Aaredu and Masanpalli in Medak district. Recently he brought a double-cot wooden bed, mattresses, pillows, sofa, two wooden chairs into hall, a wooden dining table and four chairs, a refrigerator, a television and a few related household items into this house from Hyderabad. It is for comfortable stay of my in-laws in this farmhouse. He has two printing press units in Hyderabad. He is busy every day in those activities. He comes here once or twice a month from Hyderabad in his car. His two daughters are in the USA. He is helpful and affectionate towards my in-laws. Our baby boy Sisir Kiran is doing well. He grew up well since I saw him earlier. He is very handsome now. His face is glowing like a little moon. He is a beautiful creature. I think he is a special creation of Lord Krishna. Srijana is giving the two kinds of medicines to him thrice a day. He is breathing pure air here from the green plants and trees. Anand is enjoying his time in this beautiful piece of land. Today Srijana and I spent most of our time painting the parts of the iron cradle meant for Sisir. R V Rama Raju is getting a beautiful shelter constructed in the front yard of this house now spending about one lakh rupees. He brought many iron ore related items from Hyderabad for this purpose. It is his old stock. My father-in-law got a cradle and a specious iron cot made for us using a little of this excess old iron material. The making of iron cot is almost over by today. Today it was cloudy, cool and refreshing. Went to sleep by 10:30.

31 August (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Spent all the day at the farmhouse of R V Rama Raju. This agricultural farm is in the Grama Panchayat area of Masanpalli. Recently it rained a lot in this region. Nizam Sagar is full of water. They opened about four gates of it to let the excess water flow down from it. Its water entered the eucalyptus farm of R V Rama Raju. My in-laws are happy in this farm. This farmhouse is about half a kilometre from the main road. The nearby towns are Narayana Khed, Pitlam, Andol and Nizamabad. I am very happy in this place. I like to live in this kind of setting of Mother Nature. Jobs for educated folks are available in cities and towns only. A writer cannot get a job in a forest area after crossing certain age. I am not happy doing jobs in cities. A fellow like me should have reliable and regular sources of income to indulge in writing pursuit satisfactorily. I am looking for money every month doing or not doing a job. Folks, who are not earning enough money, have no value in the present society. I told my brother Sambha that I would come to that region forever if I don’t get a job by the end of September. They are not happy about my being in Hyderabad because I did not save even 1,000 rupees doing jobs here. I am unable to live happily as a jobholder. I am in a critical state of life now. I am not a criminal to loot a bank. I am not a saint to create money. I cannot be happy as a person or writer without money. Went to sleep by 10:30.

1 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:30. Spent all the day at the farmhouse of R V Rama Raju. Today it was cloudy, cool and pleasant. Today it is Vinayaka Chavithi. My mother-in-law prepared a sweet festive dish on this occasion. Srijana is disturbed about my present condition as an employee. I may go back to Peda Gummuluru, Tuni or Elamanchili if I don’t get a job by the end of this month. I cannot get a job there as a content writer. I may get a job as an English lecturer in some private junior college. They pay me 10,000 or 15,000 rupees only for it. I want 1, 30,000 rupees to get my second book published by the folks of Leadstart Publishing. When can I save this amount of money in these circumstances? Srijana needs the help of her mother every day in bringing up Sisir and Sagar now. The health condition of Sisir is another matter of concern for us. Anand developed much attachment for his maternal grandparents. Lack of money is the crux of all these issues. My folks have a bad impression about me as an employee. I am known for quitting jobs as a cobra leaves its old skin. I always wanted not to depend on my father. I owe 10, 00,000 rupees to him as an individual with self-respect. I am not getting time and peace of mind to pursue writing as a writer. Sisir has to live in a clean and green environment. His health condition demands pure air to breathe.  I have to live in a forest area for it. I am at a junction of multiple issues. Went to sleep by 11:00.

2 September (Friday)

Woke up by 6:30. My mother-in-law prepared fish soup by 10:00. Native fishermen catch fish regularly in the waters of Nizam Sagar. By 10:15 my father-in-law, Anand, Balanna and I went to Masanpalli on bike. I got the photos and videos transferred and written to a DVD in Manikanta Photo Studio here from my Sony digital camera. Srijana and I took these photos and videos during the last two weeks. Had my lunch by 1:00. My father-in-law dropped me by the main road opposite the filling station near village Aaredu by 1:05 on his bike. Took an 1852 Bichkunda-Hyderabad Express bus by 1:20. Bought a ticket for Patan Cheru paying 69 rupees. Got off it at Patan Cheru bus stand by 4:10. Took a 218-C Metro Express bus here and reached Khairatabad by 5:30. I spent with my in-laws, Srijana, Sagar and Sisir for four days. I am not happy with my role as the husband of Srijana and the father of Sagar and Sisir. I could not give even 100 rupees to Srijana for her casual expenses there. I did not buy even a pair of clothes for Sagar or Sisir. The balance in my ICICI Bank account is 500 rupees now. I am waiting for the salary of July to be credited to my bank account by the folks of Glads Media. Srijana is unable to sleep well because Sisir may get up at any time during day or night. He wants her care most of the time. My mother-in-law is doing great service for Sisir. My father-in-law is smoking cigarettes, consuming salty and spicy foods and neglecting the advice of doctors about his health. Anand is more attached to his maternal grandparents than Srijana and me. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

3 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:30. By 10:00 wrote a love letter in Telugu for my cousin Sagiraju Narendra Varma. Went to the office of KGN Xerox in Khairatabad by 10:30. Typist Lakshmi typed up this letter on a computer by 11:30. All this typed text disappeared when she was doing another work on this computer without closing this word file. I felt frustrated about it. There was nobody around to do this work. Typing Telugu is a neglected area of work now. I regret this development in Andhra Pradesh. Lakshmi typed up this letter again from the beginning. It was over by 12:30. Took two printouts of it on two sheets of Royal Executive Bond paper. The colour of text is blue. They charged 130 rupees for this typing and print work. It’s a one-page love letter. There may be 800 words in it. Posted it to Narendra Varma in the post office at Khairatabad by 1:00. It’s an ordinary post to Gollalagunta. Naren fell in love with his student Sagi Sindhu at Aditya Engineering College in Surampalem. She is in her second year course of Electrical and Electronics Engineering now. Now he is teaching the subject of FMHM to the second year batch of EEE students. Sindhu is an intelligent, beautiful and disciplined girl from the perspective of Naren. He wants to marry her if she is also interested in him. He gives this letter to her soon, before leaving this college. My cousin Murali and I reached his abode in the SRCM at Thumukunta by 6:30. Went to sleep by 12:00.

4 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. My cousin Murali left for Secunderabad by 8:30. Moved to the abode of his brother-in-law to spend my time. Gave them a copy of my book Stories of Love and Beauty. Had my lunch here by 2:00. Suraj, the baby son of Murali and Ramya, is growing well. Ramya is doing great service to him. She is not happy about the communicative language and treatment of Murali towards her. He often criticizes her casually. He takes them as casual words but she is finding them as insulting remarks. He is not spending enough time with her. He is not telling her about his job, salary or future plans. She is disturbed and hurt due to such attitude of Murali. She shared her heartstrings with me in the presence of Murali, expecting him to understand her views and change accordingly. I advised Murali to change and make her happy. Murali and I grew up in rough environments. Our parents did not teach good manners to us. We daily heard course language in our homes. We inherited this culture from them. Ramya and Srijana grew up in a different environment. Their parents brought them up through possessiveness, great care and love. What we learn in our formative age influences our life to a great extent. We are improving slowly as human beings. Self-reformation takes time. Frequent self-assessment and self-criticism are essential for our growth as individuals. Took two buses and returned to my rented abode by 6:00. It was cloudy and cool today. Read Eenadu for three hours. I decided to leave Hyderabad. Went to sleep by 10:00.

5 September (Monday)

Woke up by 6:30. Today I edited the content of January and February in the 2010 personal diary of Srijana. She wrote it in Telugu. Sriram typed it up on his computer at home. I am using a good pencil to edit it. Srijana has no time to edit it. I can edit it better than her. I am not good at Telugu or English but I can manage it. Saw the Telugu film “1947 – A Love Story” on screen 5 in Prasads IMAX from 2:30 to 5:10. It is a great film. Director Vijay created a masterpiece. Its music, songs, photography and screenplay are admirable. I bought a ticket spending 150 rupees to see this film. Now my bank balance is 351 rupees. I saw this film even in these circumstances because it is a wonder created by dedicated artistes and technicians to entertain folks like me. Morning my cousin Vasu reserved two seats for me online for Janmabhoomi Express for the 9^th and 14^th of this month. I will go to Peda Gummuluru to discuss things with my folks in view of my move to that place by the end of this month. I should decide in which abode to live and what to do there for my livelihood. Sisir needs pollution-free environment. I decided to leave Hyderabad for this reason. I informed the wife and daughter of late Jamalpur Laxmanji about my decision to vacate this abode. They started talking and behaving like bitches after getting this news. I am not useful for them anymore because I am vacating it soon. They will never be happy in their lives. It’s my wish for them. Went to sleep by 10:30.

6 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju dropped me at the art abode of Veeru in MLA Colony by 9:30 on his bike at my request. I am not feeling happy in this abode after knowing about the characters of the two women living in it. They love money but not human beings. Jamalpur Laxmanji would have died early being unable to bear the foolishness and eccentricity of his wife and daughter rather than his two sons. They are not in touch with the outer world. Today I edited the content of the personal diary of 2010 of Srijana from 1 March to 21 March. I realized that it is not the right way of editing it. There are many language errors in each page of it because Sriram could not understand the writing of Srijana well. She scribbled it fast casually every day. Sriram did a wonderful job typing it up well to that extent. I want to sit by Sriram and get it edited on a computer. Many pencil marks of manual editing disturb concentration of Sriram if he does it all alone. Again language errors remain in it. It will be a lengthy and frustrating work if we do it this way. Informed Sriram about my decision in this regard. He agreed to do it along with me soon. Today I spent happily in the art abode of Veeru. I am breathing somewhat pure air here enjoying the presence of boulders, plants and trees. Afternoon talked with Mantena Subba Raju for some time. This land, on which Veeru developed his beautiful art abode, belongs to his brother-in-law Dr. Viswanadha Raju. He is in the USA now. They like Veeru a lot. Went to sleep by 12:00 for my dreams.

7 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:30. Spent most of the day at the art abode of Veeranjaneyulu. By 10:00 the medical staff in the government hospital at Kalher administered DPT 1 vaccine, Hepatitis B vaccine 2 and oral polio drop for the second time to Sisir. He cried a lot after coming out from this hospital due to the pain caused by these vaccines. He is not happy spending outdoors. Srijana and her father took him to this hospital on a bike. Veeru is listening to old Telugu cine songs on his computer. He is searching for ways and means to improve his communicative English skills. He is planning to join a gym to do exercises every morning. He said that he is feeling weak frequently. He has many art related books. He has no time to read them. I advised him not to concentrate on theories of art but practice of it. Many like and buy his paintings because they represent exceptional beauty and reliable quality. Artists entertain and educate others through their art. Veeru is a dedicated artist. He should do more and more paintings. He is not searching for beauties to marry. His well-wishers are doing it partially. He is happy feeding pigeons and fish, growing lawn and plants in this art abode and spending his time in this inspiring and refreshing ambience. His folks are sending homemade foods to this place in MLA Colony from Journalist Colony ‘A’. He does Yoga. He consumes good and nutritious food items. He is very busy and content as an artist. Returned to my abode by 6:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

8 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. I could not sleep thereafter. Today it is my birthday. I am entering the 36^th year of my life today. Watched the Telugu feature film “Swaathi Muthyam” on Gemini television channel from 9:00 to 12:00 on this occasion. By 12:40 went to post office at Khairatabad and posted an envelope to income tax office in the Aykar Bhavan at Basheer Bagh. Srinivasa Reddy could not resolve the issue of IT refund to me for the financial year 2009-10 through his known ways. He got 500 rupees credited to my Axis Bank account. I gave it to him earlier to get this work done faster. He emailed me a form. He advised me to fill it up and send it to the concerning income tax officer in Hyderabad along with related photocopies of documents. It’s a two-page letter. I requested him to do it fast considering my present financial condition. Today I spent most of my time in my rented abode at Chintal Basthi. Now there are three strands of white hair on my chest. They hint me that I am growing physically. Physical growth is a common phenomenon in every part of the world. Many are not growing psychologically. Kindness, honesty, hard work, discipline and vision are important for humans to live as a good lot of creatures in this world. I am growing slowly in this direction. The journey of a life completely depends on the Karma of the soul concerned. God does not change it. Srijana, my cousin Bala and my cousin Narendra Varma wished me over phone on the occasion of my birthday today. Two friends wished me online. I am a devotee of Lord Krishna. He guides me kindly always. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 September (Friday)

Woke up by 4:00. Took a bus at Chintal Basthi bus stop by 6:10 and reached Secunderabad by 6:30. Bought a dozen bananas for 20 rupees. Took my seat 36 in the reservation coach D-4 of Janmabhoomi Express by 6:40. It started off by 7:21. I got four biscuit packs, a bread pack, bananas and three bottles of water with me. These arrangements are to avoid buying things in this train from vendors. They are selling all items at high prices. They are earning money easily exploiting helpless passengers in trains. I don’t like to encourage them buying things from them. Today I bought 10 little samosas only with 10 rupees from a vendor at Guntur railway station. They stopped it here for about two hours due to the derailment of a goods train near Tenali station. My friend Ramu Naidu is working in Guntur now. He could not come to meet me due to his busy work schedule as a railway employee. They ran this train via another route to Krishna Canal, avoiding Tenali route. They stopped it here for one hour. I met art director P V Raju in this journey. He, his wife and son sat before me up to Rajahmundry station. His wife read a few portions in my book Stories of Love and Beauty. Gave some of my visiting cards to her asking her to give them to her familiar Kshatriya creatures. Community based interactions and relationships are more in India. Got off this train at Tuni railway station by 9:00. Rama Sekhara Raju took me to his rented abode on a bike. Went to sleep by 10:00.

10 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Rama Sekhara Raju dropped me at bus stand in Payakaraopeta by 10:00. Took a bus and reached Adduroad Junction by 10:45. Reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 11:00 on foot. Had my lunch by 12:15. Went to the house of my uncle Srinu by 1:00. Spent talking with them for some time. Thence went to the rented abode of my friend Viswanadha Sharma. Asked him for an auspicious date to return to this place from Hyderabad. He scanned his Telugu almanac and decided two auspicious dates for this occasion. I have to start by 9:56 a.m. IST on the 28^th of this month from Hyderabad and enter my abode here by 4:49 p.m. IST on the 29^th of this month. Gave him 20 rupees for courtesy sake. Today I talked with my brother Sambha and paternal uncle Narayana Murthy about my intention to do business and earn money for my happy and comfortable life. They discouraged me from this idea. They said that every business requires a lot of money and involves many risks. An educated, honest and sensitive fellow like me cannot do business now. I wondered at this response from them. I don’t have money to do business. When we depend on others for money and advice to do something, they consider us as innocent and helpless blokes. I am not interested in doing a job. I am losing my personal life and peace of mind because of doing jobs in mediocre firms. This is what I observed in my life during the last eight years. It’s a life of slavery. Evening spent in Adduroad for three hours talking with my familiar folks. Went to sleep by 10:00.

11 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day in and around Peda Gummuluru. My brother Srinivas came here by 11:00 from Visakhapatnam. He spent here till 4:30. He advised me to look for a job. All my folks think that I am not the right person to do any business. My ideas are to start a coconut coir processing unit or a dairy farm. Both require a lot of money and management of human resources. I have no capital. I have to consult a bank manager for a business loan. They are not in favour of honest and unfamiliar people. They are looking for bribes. Many Indian banks don’t support growth of economy but corruption and malpractices. My financial condition is not encouraging now. Srijana advised me to join Sri Prakash Junior or Degree College at Payakaraopeta as an English lecturer for reliable monthly salary from them. She asked her relative Suresh of Viswanadhapuram to talk with the chairman of this educational institution about it. I know about the character of this fellow and the standards of his education business units. They pay low salaries, torture teaching faculty members with heavy burden of work and collect high fees from students. Many private educational institutions are being run by fraudsters in Andhra Pradesh now. There is an industrial unit of Kshatriyas in a place near Tuni. I knew that they are looking for a fellow to work in their HR department. I am coming to such part of India, where many live like selfish rogues and narrow-minded clowns. They don’t know the value of intellectuals and idealists. Went to sleep by 10:00.

12 September (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 10:00 my brother Sambha and I started to the place of Deccan Chemicals situated near villages Kesavaram and Raja Varam. We reached there travelling via Tuni on his bike. This industrial unit is owned and run by Kshatriya folks. They recruit Kshatriyas, more than others, into this firm. We met Jagannadha Raju, the eldest son-in-law of Subba Lakshmi, our relative in Gollalagunta. He is close to the managing director of this firm. Gave a copy of my CV to him. He helps me get a job here if there is a suitable vacancy. We returned to Tuni by 12:00. Sekhar and I went to E-seva centre by 12:30 on his bike. Paid 130 rupees and applied for four copies of birth certificate of my second son Sisir Kiran Varma. Sambha left for Peda Gummuluru by 1:00. Sekhar took me to his abode by 1:30. Had my lunch here by 2:00. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came to Tuni by 2:30 from Tetagunta on my request. He took me to a few places in Payakaraopeta. We searched for vacant portions for me to rent in. We went to Devi Nagar. This uncle has a plot of residential land in this area. He introduced me to his friend Datla Satya Narayana Raju. He is getting a beautiful house constructed here. It may be ready to enter by the end of this November. Now there are two stories in this building. They rent out the two-bedroomed portion in its ground floor to me. We also rented in a big room in a house in this area for me. I will keep my household items in this room for two months. I will pay 2,200 rupees to them as rent for this room for these two months. Returned home by 7:00 on the bike of a fellow. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Today I spent most of my time at home. Today it rained considerably. Mother Nature is welcoming me to Visakhapatnam district from Hyderabad. My Lord Krishna is blessing me. Yesterday night a young fellow brought me up to Adduroad Junction on his bike from Payakaraopeta. Now he is working with the Indian Railways. His bike riding and look impressed me. I gave a copy of my book Stories of Love and Beauty to him. He was going to Elamanchili from Tuni to the house of his in-laws. Invited him to be my friend. Yesterday evening the folks of Glads Media credited 20,000 rupees to my ICICI Bank account by 5:42. I got an SMS to my cellphone to this effect. This is my salary for the month of July. I thought that they pay me 27,000 rupees. I have been desperately waiting for this money for long. I don’t know why they avoided paying me the remaining 7,000 rupees. It’s a big amount of money for me now. It must be the work of Gollaputi Mahendra. God punishes him for this sin. HR executive Swati did not attend my calls today. Chetanya Lakshmi did not clarify things in this regard. Evening went to Adduroad to talk with the folks of transport vehicles to bring my household items from Hyderabad. I want a truck to bring my items to Payakaraopeta. I did not find even one desired vehicle in Adduroad. My brother Sambha has good contacts with these folks. He arranges a truck for me. Went to sleep by 10:00.

14 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Got ready by 5:30. My mother prepared Upma and a sweet dish for my breakfast at home and lunch in the train. My brother Sambha and I started to Tuni by 6:00 on his bike (Hero Honda-Passion Pro). He rides his bike carefully and slowly. I like his sense of discipline in this regard. We reached railway station in Tuni by 6:50. Sekhar brought three sacks by 7:10. The maternal grandmother of Srijana sent them for me from Viswanadhapuram. I use them to pack small household items when moving to Payakaraopeta from Hyderabad. My brother and I sat in the railway station for some time. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:48. I took my seat 60 in the reservation coach D-1 of it. This train reached Tenali station by 1:00. The mother and maternal aunt of Srijana and Anand are travelling to Tuni by Janmabhoomi Express from Hyderabad today. Our two trains were stopped side by side. I went into reservation coach D-7 of that train. Bought a pack of biscuits for 20 rupees for Anand. My train started by 1:33 from Tenali towards Secunderabad. It turned cloudy and started raining after crossing Piduguralla station. Our train was running like a hero on its path. Rain hugged it like a passionate heroine. I was blissful witnessing this magic of nature. Clouds and rain heal my disturbed psyche and inspire me deeply. Lord Krishna greeted me from the sky through this rain. I felt His warmth for me. This train reached Secunderabad by 7:45. Took a 49-A route ordinary bus by 7:58 for Khairatabad. It rained for 10 minutes welcoming me to Hyderabad. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 11:30 went to the office of Glads Media in the building named Maruthi Plaza. Went there to collect my formal documents like relieving order and payslips. I knew that HR executive Swati left it recently due to her health problems. Chetanya Lakshmi rejoins it soon. Talked with Mahendra Gollaputi for 10 minutes. He said that he would get my remaining amount of salary credited to my ICICI Bank account as early as possible. Now he is in more financial problems than me. He has to spend about four lakh rupees every month to run this firm. He is not getting income to this extent. He is losing 30 lakh rupees every year in this process. I felt grateful to him after realizing his goodness as an employer. He is struggling hard as an optimistic entrepreneur. He is a helpless gentleman now. Went to the office of income tax at Basheer Bagh by 12:00. Met IT officer P V R S Narasimha Rao in Ward-12 (4) in the second floor of this building by 12:05. Gave my IT refund request application, related to financial year 2009-10, to him. Requested him to credit my due IT refund to my Axis Bank account. He asked me to provide the MICR code of this bank branch. My friend Amarnadh checked it online, at my request over phone, and gave me this information within minutes. He said that he would get my due IT refund credited to my given bank account by this evening itself. I wondered at such response from a government employee. Went to sleep by 10:30.

16 September (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to the Reliance Communications store at Lakdi Ka Pool by 9:00. They opened it by 10:00. Paid 400 rupees towards my postpaid cellphone bill for the last month. Asked them about the price of a Reliance handset at the least to buy one for me giving them my present green and light piece. There is a handset for 850 rupees. They give it to me for 650 rupees taking my handset for 200 rupees. I am financially very vulnerable now. Avoided buying it after this realization. Walked back to Chintal Basthi by 10:45. Bought one litre tin of Oriental Hush-N paint for 212 rupees at a store. It’s of Asian Paints being identified with number 0747. It’s my choice. It would be used to color the iron cot being made at Masanpalli for Srijana. Her father is getting it made for her using the iron of R V Rama Raju. Took a 218-C bus and reached Ashok Nagar by 1:00. Walked to the rented abode of Madhavi. Had my lunch here by 1:30. Srijana, Sisir and I reached the main road by 2:00 on foot. We took a 218 route city bus by 2:30 and reached Khairatabad by 3:40. Paid 36 rupees for this 30-kilometre APSRTC bus journey for Srijana and me. Hired an auto rickshaw to my abode from Khairatabad bus stop. He took 30 rupees for this half a kilometer travel. This is the difference between APSRTC buses and private vehicles in Hyderabad. Sisir is well. He is growing substantially. Srijana and her mother are taking care of him a lot. Lord Krishna is directing him. Went to sleep by 10:30.

17 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. My cousin Narendra Varma came to our abode by 7:45. Yesterday night he took Godavari Express at Samalkot railway station. He has to take a competitive examination in Hyderabad. Today Srijana and I spent most of the day packing our household items. Srijana does it better than me. Today we packed many items into three sacks. Much dust settled on all items. I checked the quality of my personal diaries. They are not as worn-out as I thought once. I will take precautionary measures to keep up their quality. My brother Sambha told me that the truck fellows in and around Adduroad are asking for about 8,000 rupees to take my household items to Payakaraopeta from Hyderabad. They bring items like coconuts to Hyderabad. They take my items in their return journey from here. It’s a distance of about 650 kilometres. I cannot afford this much money now. I can spend about 4,000 rupees for this transport service. Told my maternal uncle Krishnam Raju to consult his familiar folks and check the probability of moving my household items at the lowest possible transport charge. Srijana informed her relative Namburi Sai Rama Raju in Viswanadhapuram to help us in this regard. His cousin got a truck. He often drives between these places. Today Sisir entered his third month of age. Morning Anand and his maternal grandmother went to Masanpalli from Ashok Nagar. Went to sleep by 11:00.

18 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. My cousin Narendra Varma took the examination of BHEL at a centre in Abids from 10:00 to 1:00. They are conducting this examination for recruitment of management trainees. He said that he did not do it well. By 11:30 paid 200 rupees to an executive of Beamtel towards broadband usage charge for this month. Told him that I won’t use it much this month and also that I am vacating this rented portion of house soon. Today Srijana and I packed some more household items into sacks. By 6:00 my friend Veeranjaneyulu sent his TATA SUMO vehicle to our abode. Srijana, Sisir and I reached his art abode at MLA Colony by 6:30. It rained for some time. This place looked more beautiful and soothing in this setting. The mother and relatives of Veeru came here to collect vegetables from the small farm here. They too saw Sisir. They said that Anand and Sisir look alike. Sisir is fairer than Anand. Veeru’s mother and others found a suitable girl for him to marry. I saw her photo. I give 55 marks for her beauty for 100. Veeru is not happy with her facial features and height. I told him to marry her to satisfy his mother, siblings, relatives and well-wishers. A classic beauty is not coming his way. He should marry an available beauty for the sake of others. He is not interested in this girl. Veeru’s mother gave 500 rupees asking Srijana to buy clothes for Sisir. Veeru’s cousin brought us back to our abode by 8:40 in TATA SUMO. Went to sleep by 10:50.

19 September (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day in and around my rented abode in Chintal Basthi packing our household items into sacks. Carried and sold some items to a waste material buyer in this locality. He paid me about 100 rupees for these items. There are used dailies, Sunday supplements, photos of Hindu deities, empty bottles and books. I wondered at this process. Everything becomes useless in course of time. This scientific and spiritual perspective is applicable to all objects, creatures and phenomena in this material world. Newspapers and books are treasures of knowledge and information. We read them once or twice and keep them aside. Later we sell them as worthless items. Gold, platinum and such other material do not contribute to the psychological and cultural growth of humanity. Millions of people are running after them madly in every age in many places. Income tax officer P V R S Narasimha Rao did not yet get my due IT refund credited to my Axis Bank account. I am disturbed and infuriated about it. By 6:30 typed out a blog titled “Leaving Hyderabad” on my computer. Spent in a nearby Internet café for one hour. This blog will be posted automatically on my blog site by 8:00 p.m. IST tomorrow. By 9:30 Sai Rama Raju of Viswanadhapuram informed us over phone that a truck of his relative is coming to Hyderabad tomorrow. We vacate this house portion tomorrow itself. Went to sleep by 12:00.

20 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home packing our household items into sacks and cardboard boxes. Vamsy came here by 7:30. My friend Trinadh came here by 11:30. He helped Srijana and Vamsy pack our refrigerator well. Talked with him for one hour. He is going to finish his Ph.D. course soon. I like his character. Today Srijana asked our house owner to repay 1,500 rupees to us because we are vacating our rented portion 10 days before the scheduled date. They refused to repay it. She talked seriously with the old woman and her daughter about this issue. They are eccentric and stupid. The supposed fellow did not bring his truck to our abode today as promised yesterday. He said that he would bring it tomorrow morning. The activists of separate Telangana movement are on indefinite strike across Telangana region. The state government is not running APSRTC buses. Coal is not being supplied to power generation units in this state. The situation is tense. By 1:30 Vamsy and I went to B S Enterprises at Bazar Ghat on a bike. Returned my domestic HP LPG cylinder and regulator to them. They repaid me 1,350 rupees and a transfer document addressed to Tuni. By 4:00 a Hathway executive paid me 300 rupees and collected our used Hathway cable telecast box. By 5:00 Vamsy cut our Beamtel broadband wire. By 5:30 Srijana and Sisir started to Ashok Nagar in an auto rickshaw hired by me for them. He charged 270 rupees for it. She packed everything well in our rented abode. I wondered at her skills and patience in this regard. Went to sleep by 10:00.

21 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 3:00. Vamsy and I packed a few remaining household items by 3:45. Dantuluri Shiva Rama Raju called me up by 4:40 from Jeedimetla before starting in his truck there. He advised us to bring down light household items before they reach here. Vamsy and I did it by 5:20. They brought a TATA EICHER truck to our rented abode in Chintal Basthi by 5:30. Initially we loaded our light items into it. We brought our iron wardrobe, refrigerator, computer table, television stand and television down by 6:00. We packed and loaded all our items into this vehicle by 6:20. Took a head bath by 6:25. We started off in this truck by 6:34. Vamsy left for Ameerpet. I vacated the second floor in the house bearing number 6-2-947/A/1. There are two persons in this truck other than me. They are Bellapukonda Bhadram Raju and his son-in-law Shiva Rama Raju. The latter is the driver of this truck now. Registration number of this truck is AP 23 W 6416. We had rice in Sri Venkata Sai Family Garden Restaurant at Chillakallu between 1:00 and 1:22. We reached Payakaraopeta by 10:45 at night. D S N Raju guided us to the house of Reddy. He sent his house watchman Mallesh to help us unload our household items from the truck. We put these items in a big room of Reddy between 11:30 and 12:02. Paid 50 rupees to Mallesh for his casual service. Gave 4,000 rupees to Shiva Rama Raju towards transport service charge for my household items from Hyderabad to Payakaraopeta. It is a road distance of 600 kilometers. Enjoyed their company and journey throughout. Slept in this truck by 12:30.

22 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:30. Shiva Rama Raju and Bhadram Raju also got up. We started in the truck by 4:40. They dropped me at Adduroad Junction by 5:20. Hired an auto rickshaw for 20 rupees and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 5:30. I knew that many are asking for about 10,000 rupees to bring my household items to Payakaraopeta from Hyderabad. I cannot afford it. This TATA EICHER truck belongs to a relative of Sai Rama Raju of Viswanadhapuram. I could bring my household items for 4,000 rupees because of their goodness for me. I spent about 400 rupees for their food during the journey. I could see people and places around sitting in the front of a truck beside driver. Shiva Rama Raju is a disciplined and talented driver. He drove it carefully throughout. We travelled through the districts of Nalgonda, Krishna, West Godavari and East Godavari. My maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma and her son Hari came here by 10:00. They went to Kota Uratla from Durgada to see the ‘Sage of Raapaka’ there. Hari is working as a senior engineer with a unit of KVK Energy near Bilaspur now. They are paying 30,000 rupees to him a month as salary. He is likely to be transferred to Cuttack soon. His parents are searching for a beautiful bride for him. He is tall, fair and handsome. They spent here till the evening. They left for Narsipatnam Road railway station by 6:30 in an auto rickshaw. They took a passenger train for Durgada Gate. Today I had four Punaasa mango fruit. They are mangoes of this season. Went to sleep by 9:00.

23 September (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day at home. By 2:30 went to the Kirana shop of my friend Appala Raju in Adduroad. Spent talking with them for one hour. Meanwhile my friend Ganga Raju came here. Now he is managing Sri Prajna Junior and Degree College in Adduroad along with four business partners. He will become a government secondary grade teacher soon. He is happy in all respects. He told me about the development of Adduroad area. They are selling an acre of prime residential land in the heart of it for five crore rupees. Many APSRTC buses are being run between Visakhapatnam and Adduroad. There are five private schools and three colleges. Residential plots of land are being sold and bought like hot cakes. Ganga Raju told me that intelligence without money is useless. I could not save money being in Hyderabad for eight years as a jobholder. I returned to this place like a helpless and insecure person in terms of money and private assets. I wanted to live without depending on my father. I am living in his house now. I am unable to give some money to my mother also. I am broken. I am not disturbed about my state of life now but I am not happy about my present financial status. I know that Karma leads our lives. Lord Krishna is directing my life. I am just an automated role player. Went to sleep by 10:00.

24 September (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Evening spent talking with my friends Dara Konda and Ganga Raju in Adduroad. Dara Konda is living in Peda Gummuluru now along with his wife and two kids. He is paying 600 rupees a month to be in this rented abode. He is working as an Economics lecturer in Sri Prajna Junior and Degree College at Adduroad for a salary of 6000 rupees a month. He is trying to become a government school teacher. Many told me that I can easily become a government teacher if I have B.Ed. degree. I never liked to pursue this course. They teach us such theories, which train us to become good teachers. The best teachers can prepare great students only if the contemporary society and educational system are ideal. Now private education is in the hands of businessmen. They are producing artificial students, who consider everything from the perspective of money and social status. Government educational institutions failed in this state. Government teachers are getting good salaries now but they are unable to prepare great students. Many students are interested in cellphones, video games, films and cricket now. They are studying for the sake of their parents and society. Knowledge and discipline cannot be injected into the brains and characters of learners. Their backgrounds and lifestyles decide what and how much they can learn and benefit from it. Teachers cannot play great roles in this corrupt and unethical society. They are doing jobs for their livelihood and comforts. I am not interested in these jobs. I may get into it if I am helpless. Went to sleep by 10:00.

25 September (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 10:30 Srijana called me up and informed me that Sisir was not breathing well. Srijana and her uncle Mandapati Subba Raju (husband of Madhavi) took him to Kiran-Swetha Children’s Hospital at Chanda Nagar by 10:45 on a bike. They checked his pulse and advised them to take him to Innova Hospital at Tarnaka. When they contacted the staff at Innova Hospital, they were advised to take Sisir to some other hospital. They managed to hire an ambulance fast and rushed to Narayana Hrudayalaya Mallareddy Hospital at Jeedimetla. They admitted him into ICU. They fitted many tubes on and into his body and struggled to improve his breathing pattern. It did not improve even after two hours. They advised them to take him to Neilofer Hospital. They rushed to this hospital by 3:00. Srijana pumped oxygen into his body as advised by the doctors here. They brought him out by 3:45. They put him in an ambulance with oxygen backup. He stopped breathing by 3:50 after vomiting a little. His body swelled a lot after the departure of soul from his body. Sisir left this material world. Vamsy, Srijana and the body of Sisir started to our house in Peda Gummuluru by 5:00 in a hired ambulance. My mother, Srijana, my close relatives and I cried about it. Sisir left us today.

26 September (Monday)

Srijana, Vamsy and Sisir reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 4:30 in an ambulance named Sri Shivaji, bearing number AP 9 AV 5634. It’s like TATA SUMO. Vamsy too drove it for about four hours to help its driver and reach here fast. My mother took the lifeless body of Sisir into her lap and sat in a chair in the front yard of our house, crying. His lips, tongue and face turned lifeless. My sweetheart Sisir Kiran Varma, who shone like a little moon for about 68 days, blessing our lives with bliss, remained like a silent and passive doll in our presence. I love him more than I love myself. I would have given my remaining age to him if Lord Krishna asked me for it. The departure of Sisir is one of the biggest losses in my life. This tragedy made the lives of Srijana and me affected forever. Datla Narayana Murthy Raju, my youngest paternal grandfather, took the lifeless body of Sisir to his shoulder and walked out from our house by 7:10. He took him to Kshatriya graveyard area in Peda Gummuluru via government high school. My father, my maternal uncle Varma and a few others followed him. Two native washermen dug a pit in this yard of Lord Shiva. They put the body of Sisir in this pit after removing everything on it. They put a little salt on his body. They filled it with dug clay. They poured a little milk on it. His body belonged to earth completely by 8:00. I remained at home like a helpless father leaving my little son alone in the graveyard. Congenital heart disorder bothered him and took him away from us. Sisir lived with us for a few days only. Lord Krishna directed it.

27 September (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha and I went to Adduroad Junction by 7:00. My in-laws and Anand got off a bus of Anjana Travels by 7:10. We brought them to our house by 7:15. Sambha and I went to State Bank of India in village Penugollu by 2:00 on his bike. Withdrew 4,000 rupees from the ATM box in this bank. Got 15,000 rupees credited to the SBI account of S R K Raju. He is a friend of Mandapati Subba Raju, the uncle of Srijana, living at Ashok Nagar in Hyderabad. Subba Raju spent about 20,000 rupees on the 25^th of this month for the emergency medical needs of Sisir. He spent about 7,500 rupees at three hospitals in Hyderabad. He arranged 12,500 rupees to pay to the driver of Sri Shivaji Ambulance. Srijana could give him 2,000 rupees. Today I repaid 15,000 rupees to him through this online bank credit. My father arranged most of this money. We returned home by 2:30. My friend Ganga Raju and I went to the Kshatriya graveyard area in Peda Gummuluru by 4:10 on his bike. I shot the video of ground and surroundings where the body of Sisir was interred. There are a plastic milk bottle, two towels and the cushion carry bed of Sisir in this place. Srijana and I wanted to bring them home and keep them in the box of items of Sisir. Our elders don’t approve it. There are a mango tree, big well, canal, paddy farms and green plants around Sisir here.

28 September (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:00. My parents, my sister-in-law Kranti, Srijana, Anand and I started to village Revu Polavaram in an auto rickshaw by 5:15. We reached there by 5:45. We all took a holy dip in the seawater here when the sun was rising in the east spreading his early rays of light across the sea. We went into the temple of Lakshmi Madhava Swami on the hillock here after bathing on seashore. We walked around this temple thrice. It’s a practice of Hindus (called Pradhakshina in Telugu) meant for seeking blessings of presiding deities in temples. We worshipped Goddess Lakshmi and God Madhava for a few minutes. We returned to our house in Peda Gummuluru by 8:00 in the same auto rickshaw. We paid 150 rupees to him. We hired this auto rickshaw to take us to Viswanadhapuram via Payakaraopeta for 300 rupees. My in-laws, Srijana and I started to Payakaraopeta in it by 8:45. We went into our luggage room in Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar by 9:15. Srijana took out some of her clothes from a sack in it. We reached Viswanadhapuram by 10:00. The relatives of Srijana came here and remembered the sad departure of Sisir from us. He spent here for some days. They brought Srijana and me here for formality after the mortal disappearance of Sisir. Vamsy started to Tuni by 6:30 on a bike along with his father. He took a private travel bus in Tuni for Hyderabad. He brought Sisir to Peda Gummuluru along with his sister. I owe him for it. Night Sai Rama Raju explained me the difficulties involved in doing a business now.

29 September (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at house of maternal grandparents of Srijana. They prepared Chalividi, Janthikalu, sweet dishes and a few other items for Srijana to take to our house in Peda Gummuluru. Srijana has to come to our house with Sisir carrying these items formally. By 3:30 it turned cloudy and rained a little. By 4:30 Srijana, Anand and I took an auto rickshaw and reached Payakaraopeta by 5:15. Gave him 100 rupees. Took an Express bus and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 6:00. My maternal aunt Raja Kumari came from Gollalagunta. The doctors of Narayana Hrudayalaya Hospital at Jeedimetla in Hyderabad got ready to perform surgery on Sisir and restore his breathing pattern but there was no improvement in his blood pressure. They said it costs us about four lakh rupees. They fitted pipes and clips on his body to somehow improve his breathing but nothing worked. Sisir would have suffered a lot due to it. I could not prevent it. They said it costs us 12 lakh rupees if they perform four kinds of surgeries to him to correct the multiple disorders in his heart and body. They could not collect blood from his body for medical tests. He said “Uggu Uggu” many times even during these painful moments in his vulnerable and delicate material life. Srijana suffered a lot witnessing this pain of Sisir. They could not trace the location of liver in his body. It must be somewhere in his body like a thief. Went to sleep by 10:00.

30 September (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day in and around Peda Gummuluru. When I was moving to Payakaraopeta from Hyderabad, I thought that I was moving minding the future of Sisir. I wanted to bring him up in a clean and green environment considering his health. Now I understood that Sisir planned for my future. He realized that I am not happy with my life in Hyderabad. He sent me to Payakaraopeta on the 21^st of this month. He went away from this material world on the 25^th of this month after making these arrangements for me. He was born in Tuni. He grew up in Viswanadhapuram, Masanpalli and Hyderabad. He came to Peda Gummuluru as a lifeless guest for his last mortal visit. As his parents, Srijana or I could not go to graveyard carrying his body but my paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju. Sisir is a special guest for Srijana and me. He planned his arrival and departure in such a way, which does not bother us much. We spent about 25,000 rupees for him. He did not make me spend more money because he knew that I cannot afford it. He developed attachment with Srijana. He always wanted her presence. He travelled for 12 hours from Hyderabad to our house in Peda Gummuluru along with Srijana. She kept his clothes and other items in a box. Sisir lived with us for a few days only as a special guest. His belongings are precious for us. His memories must be with us. I see him as an ambassador of Lord Krishna. He carried pain. He represented beauty. Went to sleep by 10:00.

1 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 2:30 my brother Sambha and I started to our mango garden at hills on his bike. We reached there by 2:50 travelling via Ramayyapatnam. We spent at the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy for 20 minutes. My paternal grandparents Thammi Raju and Lakshmi Narasayyamma are living in a portion of this house now. It is a 70-acre mango and cashew garden. It belongs to Raja Sagi Rama Bhadra Raju of Tangedu. Many Kshatriyas of this village became rich during the last 80 years being in politics. They earned many assets and millions of rupees exploiting public money. All such corrupt politicians and businessmen must be killed to reform India. Walked through our mango garden along with Sambha and his associate Yesu Babu for 15 minutes. My brother made it beautiful. Every year he spends about 50,000 rupees to get it ploughed well and keep it fertile. This year they sold seasonal crop of this garden to a familiar fellow in village China Gummuluru for 1, 50,000 rupees. They blossom from December onwards. I want to live in this garden or hills behind it. I want to breathe this pure air and live in this green environment. I am disturbed with air and sound pollution in cities, towns and villages. Lord Krishna did not bless me with such fortune till now. We returned home by 5:00. Went to sleep by 9:30.

2 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I started to Adduroad Junction by 8:00 from our house. My brother Sambha stopped a TATA EICHER truck for us to go to Visakhapatnam. We three got into it by 8:20. We reached NAD Kotha Road Junction by 10:00. Paid 80 rupees to him. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw and reached Sujatha Nagar by 10:15. We walked to the apartment of my brother Srinivas. The name of this block of apartments is Sai Balaji Towers. Its Door No. is 13-5. It is in Lakshmi Narasayyamma Nagar. The pin code of this area is 530 051. My brother is living in flat 3 in the first floor of this building. He bought it taking out a loan of 12 lakh rupees from UCO Bank. We are going to the abodes of our familiar ones as special guests. These are like consolation visits in the aftermath of departure of Sisir. I don’t like such practices of Indian tradition. Srijana is drawing and throwing away her breast milk after departure of Sisir. He never had it satisfactorily. Mother’s breast milk is the best food for babies. Many mothers don’t have it to feed their babies. Many remarked that Sisir is lucky in leaving this world early. His health is in a critical condition. He suffers with those internal problems. Srijana carried him and brought him up for some days. She cannot forget him. Many mothers are suffering like her in this world. Man cannot prevent disease and distress from his life. Went to sleep by 9:45.

3 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day in the abode of my brother Srinivas. Sujan is in his first year Intermediate course now. He is studying at Narayana Junior College in Asil Metta. He is preparing for IIT JEE-2013. They are teaching Mathematics, Physics and Chemistry only now. He said that they teach English and Sanskrit for two months only before the annual examinations. He is very busy as a student. I don’t like such education. Suhas is in his 8^th standard at Ravindra Bharathi School in NAD Kotha Road. He is not as busy as his brother. Students are not enjoying their lives now. By 1:00 went to the nearby Nidhi Internet café along with Suhas. Checked my emails and blog sites. Informed my friend Rajani Kumar Raju in Hyderabad to go and meet the income tax officer P V R S Narasimha Rao in the income tax building at Basheer Bagh. He did not yet get my due IT refund for FY 2009-10 credited to my Axis Bank account. I am desperately waiting for it. By 3:30 my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, Srijana, Anand and I went to Gopala Patnam in an auto rickshaw. I bought seven pairs of clothes at three shops for Anand spending 500 rupees. I like to spend 100 rupees only for a pair of clothes for Anand. I wondered observing the prices of clothes meant for children. They think that parents spend a lot of money for their kids. Slept by 10:15.

4 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day in the apartment of my brother Srinivas reading dailies and watching television. I believe that souls take births according to their choices. The soul of Sisir desired to be born and live as our baby son for some days only. Being born with those heart disorders is part of the decision of that soul. We can call it Karmic Cycle. He wanted to make Srijana and me experience the pain of loss. Many deaths are happening around us every day but we don’t feel much pain due to them. We experience pain more in our lives when we face tragedies in our lives. Sisir gave such experience to Srijana and me. I have the characteristics of a materialist and spiritualist. I suffer as a materialist due to my attachments with this material world. I console myself as a spiritualist realizing truths related to God and soul. Great souls don’t bother other creatures. Sisir’s is such a great soul. He did not like to trouble us more living with us for long with those critical congenital heart disorders. Every great soul makes complete arrangements for its arrival and departure. By 8:00 my brother Srinivas, my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani, Srijana, Anand and I went to the temple of Alivelu Manga Devi at Saptagiri Nagar in China Mushidivada. We spent here for 20 minutes. Today they decorated this Goddess as Dhana Lakshmi on the occasion of Dasara festival. Enjoyed this short tour to this temple on foot. Went to sleep by 10:00.

5 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 11:30 my brother Sambha, sister-in-law Kranti, Janaki, baby boy Anjaneya Raju and my mother came here from Peda Gummuluru. We are celebrating the first birthday of Anjaneya Raju in the abode of my brother Srinivas. They decided to do it very simply because of the departure of Sisir recently in our family. By 2:30 my brother Sambha and I started to Adavi Varam on the bike (Passion Pro of Hero Honda) of my brother Srinivas. We reached the house of T S N Raju by 3:00. We spent talking with them till 5:30 sitting under the green trees at their abode. I liked this green and cool place a lot. Simhachalam shrine is very near to this place. We went to the rented house of Bhaskaram by 5:35. She is a maternal aunt of Kranti. Swati and Revati are her daughters. We consider Revati as a suitable bride for our cousin Vasu. Sambha decided to bring them together through marriage. I motivated Vasu and his parents to this extent. By 6:15 Sambha and I went to Gopala Patnam. He bought four pairs of clothes in a roadside store for 535 rupees for his adopted baby son Anjaneya Raju. My sister-in-law Sandhya Rani gave me 300 rupees asking me to buy a pair of clothes for Anjaneya Raju on the occasion of his birthday.  I bought a white suit for 160 rupees spending this money. We returned to the abode of Srinivas by 7:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

6 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 went to the temple of Alivelu Manga Devi at Saptagiri Nagar along with my folks. We spent here for 15 minutes. Today it is Vijaya Dasami. Many start using their new vehicles today. My sisters-in-law Sandhya Rani and Kranti, Anand and I went to Gopala Patnam by 11:00 in an auto rickshaw. The clothes for Anjaneya Raju, which my brother Sambha bought yesterday in this place, are very loose for him. We returned them and selected other clothes for him. I bought a white suit for 160 rupees at Deepika Garments store for Anand. My brother Srinivas and sister-in-law Sandhya Rani sponsored it. Returned home by 12:00. My folks are the guests for the first birthday of Anjaneya Raju. My father came here by 5:30. He travelled by a passenger train from Narsipatnam Road railway station. They arranged birthday cake and balloons in hall by 6:30. They made Anjaneya Raju cut his birthday cake by 7:15. Anand too wore white suit on this occasion. I took photos and videos of this event with my Sony digital camera. There is no adequate light in this hall. This birthday function was over by 8:00. I could not buy anything for baby boy Anjaneya Raju. My brother Sambha would have spent about 1000 rupees for this celebration. It is cool here. My nephews Sujan and Suhas are playing cricket on holidays. They are going to NAD Kotha Road for it. Cricket is a fatal infection in India. Went to sleep by 10:00 for my dreams.

7 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night Deepthi visited me in my dream. She expressed her deepest sense of love and affection for me. By 7:00 my parents started to INS Kalyani Hospital at Schindia. They go there once for every two months for medical tests and medicines. My father could control growth of cholesterol in his body through daily physical exercise and suggested diet. My mother has no such discipline. Today she wore two round gold ornaments (Kadiyaalu in Telugu) on her legs above her feet. They cost about 50,000 rupees. Indians like gold and ornaments more than humans and God. They are eccentric, stupid and irrational in this regard. My parents belong to this shallow race of people in India. By 2:30 my parents, Janaki, Srijana, Anand, baby boy Anjaneya Raju, Kranti and I left the abode of my brother Srinivas. We hired an auto rickshaw for 70 rupees and reached NAD Kotha Road Junction by 2:50. Thence we took a Visakhapatnam-Adduroad bus by 3:15 and reached our destination by 5:15. The bus fare for six of us is 276 rupees. We enjoyed this journey. My brother Sambha came back on the bike of his familiar fellow. Anand got fever, cold and cough. Sambha took Srijana and Anand to a doctor in Adduroad. He prescribed three kinds of medicine for Anand. I am not happy with the environment in apartments. I like sleeping in the open under sky breathing natural air. Went to sleep by 9:00.

8 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came here from the mango garden at hills. He invited Srijana, Anand and me to his abode in mango garden to spend there for a few days as their guests. They think we are sad and depressed due to the departure of Sisir. We can forget those memories if we spend with our relatives for some days. This is their outlook. Told him that we are not interested in coming there now. I think it is their custom to treat us in this order. I don’t like this aspect of Hindu tradition. Happiness and pain occur in our lives based on our individual and collective Karma. Friends and relatives cannot remove it from the account of our soul. By 2:00 my cousin Anantha Lakshmi and I took an Adduroad-Narsipatnam bus for Kota Uratla. Bus fare is 10 rupees for one. We reached there by 2:30 via Darlapudi. We went to the house of Gavva Ramana. Our familiar Hindu saint Rama Brahmam is staying here. He is 71 now. Many treat him like God in this area. Many believe that Ramana earned a lot after Rama Brahmam started living in his house. Rama Brahmam looks like a decent Hindu saint. He smokes about 10 packs of costly Gold Flake cigarettes every day. He says that it is like burning incense sticks for God. His admirers put his legs on their laps and massage them gently out of reverence for him. He wears transparent and light white clothes. Now he is not going out much. My cousin massaged his feet for two hours out of affection, respect and reverence for him. We returned home by 7:00. Went to sleep by 9:00.

9 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. There was power cut for about 12 hours during daytime. It is due to the present strike in Telangana region by the activists of separate Telangana movement. The supply of coal to thermal power stations got affected due to this long strike by them. By 5:40 Srijana, Anand and Anantha Lakshmi took a car at our house. It belongs to a Kshatriya fellow of Gollalagunta. He was going to Gollalagunta from Visakhapatnam. He is a friend of my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju. He took my cousin Lakshmi to Gollalagunta in his car. Srijana and Anand got off it in Tuni by 6:15. Vamsy took them to the abode of Rama Sekhara Raju at Court Street. They stay here for this night. Vamsy came here recently to enjoy his Dasara holidays. My father does not like Srijana frequently going to the abodes of her folks. He believes that it is a bad habit. A married woman should be with her husband most of the time instead of travelling here and there frequently. I believe that married women also want liberty to celebrate their lives. Srijana would be happier at the abodes of her parents and maternal grandparents than at our house in Peda Gummuluru. She does not find much liberty in our house in her role as a daughter-in-law. Her parents and grandparents treat her with more love and affection than us. Went to sleep by 11:00.

10 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the time in Peda Gummuluru and Adduroad. I am waiting for the job in the HR department of Deccan Chemicals unit near Kesavaram. A familiar Kshatriya boy is working here in the position I am looking for. He is an MCA. He has been working here for long. I knew that he quits this job soon. My brother Sambha proposed me the idea of searching for a job at the plant of Maha Cement in Mulakalapalli. It is about five kilometres from our village Peda Gummuluru. My brother told me that one should meet U V Ramana Murthy Raju to get a job in this plant. He is the present MLA of Elamanchili constituency. He was a civil contractor before joining politics. He was known for dishonesty and cheating as a contractor. Many suffered a lot because of his dirty attitude. He earned a lot of money and assets as an MLA. He is careless and wicked. Now he is very proud as an MLA. He often uses abusive language. Political power made him so. This is the state of democracy in India now. I am supposed to consult such a fraudster and sinner to get a job in this cement plant. I can work as an English lecturer also but private colleges recruit them in the beginning of academic year. I have to wait till July 2012 for it. I am not interested in teaching English in private colleges. They pay less and burden us with excessive work. I am not a suitable person to live in this age. Low fever attacked me by 8:00 at night. Went to sleep by 12:00.

11 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night I could not sleep well. I have low fever, cough and phlegm now. I am feeling weak and dull due to these disorders. By 12:30 went to the charity medical centre in Peda Gummuluru on bicycle. It is being funded by Byrraju Foundation. I think they stopped funding it after the collapse of Satyam Computers. Dr. Surya Narayana Murthy is the doctor here. He is the resident doctor at Etikoppaka Cooperative Sugar Factory in Darlapudi. He checked my pulse. He prescribed three kinds of tablets for me. They are DUPACET, MERIMOX 500 and SETRIDE tablets. He prescribed 15 tablets of DUPACET and 10 tablets of each of the remaining two kinds of tablets. He advised me to take them for five days. The cost of these 35 tablets is about 100 rupees. They gave them to me freely. Paid 20 rupees to this doctor as honorary consultation fee. Gave 10 rupees to the female medical assistant towards service charge. This facility is meant for the poor. I went there as a poor fellow. By 1:30 started to our paddy farm near Raachcheruvu. Kurandasu Appa Rao and I went there. Spent here for one hour. Breathed fresh air blowing from the rice plants and pond. It rained a little when we were coming back. From 6:15 to 9:15 saw the Telugu film “Dhookudu” in cinema Venkatapathi Raju Mahal in Adduroad along with my friend Dara Konda. Slept by 10:00.

12 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Still there is low fever in me. Spent all the day at home. Srijana is practicing Yoga in Viswanadhapuram now. She is eating pieces of vegetables and such other natural food items as part of the related diet regimen suggested by Yoga experts. Yoga is good for body and mind. We can achieve psychological balance and physical health practicing Yoga regularly. I am happy to know that Srijana got attracted towards this great art. I have about four kilos of excess weight now. I could not start physical exercises to reduce it. Anand is doing well. He is not interested in me. He wants to spend more time with his mother. He is not eating food well. He is speaking many Telugu words. He has two toy vehicles. R V Rama Raju bought one for him. It has a little inbuilt audio system. It sings three English rhymes. Anand frequently presses that button with his finger when on this vehicle. His maternal grandfather bought one toy vehicle for him. It has no inbuilt audio system. It is in Hyderabad now. Anand is active in actions and reactions. He can forget familiar ones fast and live happily in unfamiliar environment. Often he is crying irrationally. It is his bad habit. I am not beating him now to change him in this respect. It is his spiritual program to cry. Karma of a soul influences the characteristics and behavior of a creature since its existence in the womb of its mother. I don’t like Anand crying irrationally but I am supposed to bear with his demerit. Went to sleep by 9:30.

13 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. Today I have low fever and phlegm. The tablets, prescribed by the doctor recently, must be working slowly inside me. I am not feeling much weak now. A few familiar folks came to our house on the 26^th of September. It is a formality. They came here on the occasion of departure of Sisir Kiran Varma. I saw them talking among themselves casually. I did not notice sorrow in their voice or eyes. My mother, Srijana, the maternal grandmother of Srijana and I cried seeing the innocent and lifeless Sisir in our presence. We felt the intensity of pain. They played a formal role. Many stopped crying now. Many are dying in India every day. Many accidents and natural calamities are occurring. There is no sense of universal fraternity in reality. Many are dying without food in this world. Others are not worried about this universal problem. They are enjoying and celebrating their lives. Happiness and pain are individual assets. We experience them according to our state of mind. Others feel them a little or just act formal roles. Srijana and I feel the intensity of loss of Sisir because we love him a lot. We have the characteristics of ordinary parents. Srijana spent much time with Sisir. He always craved for her presence. Others cannot understand and feel the intensity of their material bond. Went to sleep by 9:30.

14 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Low fever and phlegm are working on me. Took an ordinary bus in Adduroad by 12:30 and reached Elamanchili by 1:00. The bus fare is seven rupees. There are paddy, sugarcane and coconut farms on both sides of this road. I don’t find such pleasant journey and environment in cities. I love nature. I like to live in such environment where bright sunlight, cool water and soothing air inspire me to live creatively and lull to sleep every day. Went to the Kirana shop of my B.A. classmate Appa Rao. His mother was there. She told me that Appa Rao is working in a company at Achyuthapuram now. Walked to ATM centre at the State Bank of Hyderabad near cinema Tulasi Chitra Mandir. Withdrew 500 rupees from my ICICI Bank account. The balance is 4,000 rupees in it. This is my financial status now. Lord Krishna is my finance director. Reached Government Junior College by 2:45. None of my familiar lecturers is working here now. I felt lost sitting in this place for some time. Went to Sri Gurajada Appa Rao Government Degree College by 4:00. All my familiar folks left this college except attender Padmavati. She lives in Peda Gummuluru. Talked with her for 10 minutes. Time painted image of change on the canvas of Elamanchili. New business units came up. Development is taking place. People became more intelligent and cunning than earlier. Took an Express bus by 4:45 and returned to Adduroad by 5:15. The bus fare is 13 rupees. Went to sleep by 9:30.

15 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 1:00 bought three Horlicks biscuit packs at a shop in Adduroad for 45 rupees. My brother Sambha bought a new bicycle recently for his use and related physical exercise. He has about 15 kilos of excess weight. He is accustomed to riding his bike (Passion Pro of Hero Honda). So, he is not riding this bicycle much. I am riding it frequently for pleasure and exercise. Started to our mango garden at hills by 1:05. The sun was bright in the sky. I got low fever in me. I wanted to check my energy and capacity levels. Reached the thatched house of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy Raju by 1:30. I took 25 minutes’ time to complete a distance of six kilometres on bicycle. Felt happy. Sat under the big tamarind tree before their house and spent talking with my uncle and aunt. Kumari offered homemade snacks, buttermilk, tea and lemon juice added sugar water for me. My paternal grandfather Thammi Raju sat beside me for one hour. He could not recognize me. My paternal grandmother Lakshmi Narasayyamma is cooking rice for him and her now and then. Her memory and energy levels are better than his. Gave biscuits to them. Started back to home by 4:58. Went to the house of the parents of my friend Krishna Varma in Ramayyapatnam. They got this house constructed recently with partial financial support from the Government of Andhra Pradesh. Krishna Varma must have contributed about two lakh rupees for it. Went to sleep by 10:00.

16 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 1:00 went to Adduroad. Took a bus and reached Payakaraopeta by 1:35. Rama Sekhara Raju took me to a place in Tuni. Our distant relative ceremoniously entered his new apartment in an apartment block here this early morning. My folks came here from Gollalagunta on this occasion. Went there to see them. Knew that my maternal aunts Satyavathi and Raja Kumari had already left for Gollalagunta by bus. My maternal uncle Appala Narasimha Raju (Varma) and my cousin Anantha Lakshmi were there. Talked with my uncle for some time. Saw the new apartment of Radhika, a daughter of Gottumukkala Rama Raju and Subba Lakshmi of Gollalagunta. It’s a two-bedroomed apartment. They bought it for 13 lakh rupees. They borrowed 10 lakh rupees from a bank for this purpose. He is working in a pharmaceutical company near Nakkapalli. He has to repay this home loan in a span of 10 years or so. Now many are enjoying their present depending on the prosperity and reliability estimates of their future. I don’t like this culture. Future is uncertain. We cannot assess its impact on us. Hired a rickshaw for 30 rupees and reached Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 3:30. The construction of house of D S N Raju is in progress. He is planning to ceremoniously enter his new house soon. P Sri Rama Raju is supervising the construction of this house. Spent talking with him till 5:30. Waited for an APSRTC bus for long. Took an auto rickshaw and returned home by 7:50. Went to sleep by 9:30.

17 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today Srijana suffered remembering the birth date of Sisir. He enters his fourth month of age today. Reached Narsipatnam Road railway station by 11:40 in an auto rickshaw. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy already reached there. Visakhapatnam-Vijayawada passenger arrived by 11:45. We got into a general coach of this train. We reached Pithapuram by 12:45. We walked out of this station and waited for a bus for about 40 minutes. Then we took an auto rickshaw and reached the bus station area in Kakinada. He bought oranges and bananas for 50 rupees for his daughter Ashwini. We started walking towards Aditya Degree College for Women at Lakshmi Narayana Nagar by 3:00. We reached there by 3:15 and sat in the hall meant for the guests and parents of students. Ashwini met us by 3:40 after her classes. She bought two Fanta cool drinks for us. Took her photos with my digital camera. Her father decided to get her married soon. He wants the latest photos of his daughter to send to the folks of prospective bridegroom parties. We returned to the bus station by 5:00 in an auto rickshaw. We took a 3067 Kakinada-Palasa Express bus by 5:20. It started off by 5:30. By 6:14 an amount of 7,000 rupees was credited to my ICICI Bank account by the folks of Glads Media towards my remaining salary for the month of July. Reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 8:32. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 9:06 and reached Narsipatnam by 10:15. Walked to Solo Color Lab and Studio and ordered the print of 40 color photos. I shot these photos recently in Visakhapatnam and Kakinada with my Sony digital camera. Bought a ticket for 40 rupees at cinema Sri Kanya by 10:30. Saw the Telugu film “Oosaravelli” in it from 10:50 to 1:20. It is an interesting and exciting film. Enjoyed watching it throughout. The screen and sound qualities in this cinema are good. Collected 40 photos from the color lab and paid him 200 rupees for it. I did not find the quality of many of these photos good. The background and lighting effects are not good. Walked along the road for some time looking for a Reliance Communications store to pay my postpaid cellphone bill. Knew that there is no such facility in Narsipatnam. Reached bus station by 2:30. I did not see Lakshmi anywhere in this area. She is living in Narsipatnam with her husband and in-laws. Took a bus by 2:40 and reached Peda Gummuluru by 3:50. The bus fare from Narsipatnam to Adduroad is 18 rupees. The distance between Narsipatnam and Adduroad is 32 kilometres. There is inspiring natural beauty along the road between these two places. Today Srijana learned riding a scooty in Viswanadhapuram. She used the scooty of her relative for this purpose. Winter is entering this region slowly. I am enjoying its soothing effects in the early morning. Went to sleep by 9:30.

19 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha and I started to our mango garden at hills by 2:45 on his bike. We sat at the thatched hut of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy for some time. Then we three walked into the mango gardens there. My brother has three and half an acres of cashew garden here. He bought it recently. He also bought a nearby mango garden for its seasonal crop this year. There are many weeds in these mango and cashew gardens. I found their presence and smell healing and inspiring. They must possess medicinal value. My brother and I walked through our mango garden. The greenery of trees and tranquility of this place delighted me a lot. There is a hill above our old mango garden. The NTPC line of power transmission structures pass through these hills. There is a pond near our young mango garden. Now there is no water in it. These are all arid lands. Trees and plants wait for rains to quench their thirst and grow well. Air pollution must be very low or zero in this area. Man became a source of pollution now. We collected six custard apples from a tree in our old mango garden. We returned home by 4:30. I decided not to meet anybody asking for a job. I want to do writing and editing related works on my computer at home. I need Internet access for it in my abode at Payakaraopeta. Went to sleep by 9:30.

20 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent the day at home casually. Congenital disorders are a challenge to humanity. They can be detected in babies when they are in the wombs of their mothers. Doctors advise abortion in such cases. Termination of a foetus through medical procedures is a moral and spiritual crime. Some souls have to take births according to their Karmic Cycle. They enter and desert their chosen bodies at will. Many parents consider the death of their babies as a result of their sins and misfortune. It is not a regrettable matter. It is like giving an opportunity to a great soul to pass through its spiritual schedule. Srijana and I gave such an opportunity to the soul of Sisir Kiran Varma. Great souls do not bother their parents. The arrival and departure of Sisir seem like a highly planned spiritual journey to me. His soul is more powerful than mine. Spiritual knowledge of a man cannot save him from experiencing the results of Karma of his material life. Srijana or I cannot forget Sisir because we are materialists. Spiritual knowledge helps one lead one’s material life systematically. Doctors are exploiting parents of babies with fatal health disorders. Many Indians accord more value to life than their money and assets. They sacrifice many things for their sons and daughters than themselves. Indian family system is still strong to this extent. They struggle and earn a lot for their family members. Some are becoming sinners in this process. Went to sleep by 9:30.

21 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Last night Telugu film actor Krishnam Raju visited me in my dream. We two talked like two great friends. He expressed his deep sense of affection for me. I enjoyed his company. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy came here by 7:30 from his abode near the hills. We went to village Koruprolu on two bicycles by 8:00. We met our family priest Prakasham. My uncle asked him about the suitability of stars of his daughter Lakshmi Narasayyamma (Ashwini) and a prospective bridegroom candidate for marriage. He checked those details and advised him to go ahead. Lakshmi is 18 years old now. My uncle is getting ready to get her married off. He is afraid of his health and uncertainty of future. Indian parents take the marriage of their daughters as the biggest responsibility in their lives. The present culture of love marriages among youth is disturbing conservative parents. They are very interested in and attached to their community and religion. For them, marriage is a matter of prestige and tradition. Lakshmi is in her second year B.Sc. course now. She obeys her parents. She believes that her parents are more intelligent and visionary than anybody else in this world. I like the sense of purity and reliability in such relationships. Went to sleep by 9:30.

22 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Took a bus by 12:25 at Adduroad Junction and reached Payakaraopeta by 1:00. The sun was bright in the sky. Walked into an Internet café by post office street in Tuni. Spent browsing Internet from 1:21 to 2:21. Checked my emails and blog sites. Paid 15 rupees to him for it. Walked to the welding shop of Rama Sekhara Raju near Raja Ground. Srijana and Anand were coming to Tuni from Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw. Got into it by 2:40 and proceeded to the rented abode of Sekhar at Court Street. The younger maternal grandparents of Srijana came here to see her in the aftermath of departure of Sisir. Now they are living in Rambilli. We spent talking with them for one hour. Srijana, Anand and I reached the bus stand in Payakaraopeta by 4:15. We took a bus and reached Adduroad by 5:30. Thence we reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 5:35. Srijana brought six coconuts, 50 custard apples, 100 lemons, two papayas, eight plantains, 25 sweet oranges, four kilos of bitter gourds and three kilos of another vegetable item from Viswanadhapuram. She is trying to get a job for me through her relatives. I am not interested in working in offices like a bonded laborer. I am thoroughly disgusted and disappointed with such mechanical outdoor life. I want to work at home peacefully. It’s hot and sultry now. There is no considerable seasonal rainfall. Winter is working slowly at night. Went to sleep by 10:30.

23 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. Morning my father and my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy went to Gajuwaka. The eldest son of my late younger paternal grandfather Dharma Raju ceremoniously entered his newly constructed house. My folks went there for the formal celebration on this occasion. Such formal events help familiar people meet and share their sense of belongingness. Formal occasions are uniting friends and relatives now to some extent. I don’t know about many Kshatriyas living in our village Peda Gummuluru. I don’t like to initiate and continue relationships with many. My brother Sambha is disturbed about such relationships now. Many approach him for resolution of issues through his advice. Now he has no time to spend with his family members also. When a society is corrupt and unethical, one leader cannot change them through peaceful practices and ideal concepts. One’s primary responsibility is to take care of his parents and dependents. Many are failing in this aspect of life now. I don’t spend much time for unfamiliar people. Many accept and follow the aid and advice of their familiar people and sages only. Many know about the worth and power of virtues but most of them consult others for guidance and direction. It reflects the shallow and stupid attitudes of people in this world. Went to sleep by 9:30.

24 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 8:30 my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy and I started to village Gudivada on two bicycles. We reached there by 9:00 via Lakshmipathi Raju Peta. We stopped at a Kirana shop and bought two water packets and 10 groundnut packs for us. We went to his rice farm by 10:00. He has 2.66 acres of paddy farm here. He gave it to a familiar farmer for growing paddy in this season. He has to give 10 sacks of paddy to my uncle for each acre of land used by him. He wants to sell this agricultural land for the marriage of his daughter. We started back by 10:45. We spent in the State Bank of India at Gudivada for 30 minutes. He withdrew some money from his account. He started back to his abode at hills by 11:00. I proceeded to the coconut farm of my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy from here on bicycle. It is about two kilometres from village Gurrajupeta. He has six acres of coconut and cashew farm here. Today he picked up dry and useless branches of trees from his farm and burned them. He employed a native worker for 150 rupees to do this work. Afternoon my uncle killed a poisonous snake in this farm. Today I had about four litres of fresh coconut water from eight coconuts in this garden. This uncle is an expert farmer. He has a large network of friends and well-wishers in Tetagunta and other areas. He advises them in buying agricultural and residential lands, cattle and matters of profitable agriculture. His wife Vimala is the biggest villain in his life. Returned home by 5:45. Went to sleep by 9:30.

25 October (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at home. Today it was cool and cloudy due to depression over the Bay of Bengal. Enjoyed this refreshing weather. By 5:00 my friend Ganga Raju and I started to our mango garden at hills. Yesterday evening my uncle Narasimha Murthy bought edible oil, jaggery and green gram for his mother Lakshmi Narasayyamma. I took them to give them to her. She lost her gold chain (Mangala Soothram in Telugu) about one year ago when they were living in the house of my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy in Peda Gummuluru. Ganga Raju belongs to washerman community. Then his mother used to wash the clothes of my paternal grandparents. Lakshmi Narasayyamma suspects that the mother of Ganga Raju must have stolen her gold when she came to that house to collect their worn-out clothes for washing. Ganga Raju met my uncle and strongly condemned this accusation. Later she suspected that her son Narayana Murthy would have got it stolen from her by the mother of Ganga Raju. She also suspects that her grandson Ravindra Varma would have stolen it. Nobody knows who took it away from her considering the helplessness of her old age and lack of strong evidences in this regard. It costs about 50,000 rupees. She is deeply disturbed about the loss of this gold. Today they talked about this issue again seriously. We returned home by 6:30. Went to sleep by 9:00.

26 October (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home casually. It is Deepavali today. My mother prepared special dishes on this occasion. She fasted throughout the day. Today Srijana could not perform special worship to Goddess Lakshmi along with my mother because her menstrual cycle disturbed that plan. Went to Adduroad by 4:30 to buy firecrackers. My brother Sambha gave 200 rupees to buy them for us. I did not like to celebrate this festival. I bought a few items meant for children. My mother started her formal worship by 5:00. Srijana read out the story centered on this festival sitting a little away from her. The title of this small Telugu book is Kedhaareshwara Vratha Kalpam. I took the video of this occasion for eight minutes with my Sony digital camera. Srijana, Anand, Kranti and I lit lamps on the terraces of our two houses by 6:30. Afternoon my cousin Ashwini came to our house from the mango garden to spend with us for some time. She is looking weak and thin. I knew that good food is not being provided to them at Aditya Degree College for Women in Kakinada. They could not ask them for better food. If girls of that age cannot achieve what they want in a residential college, nobody can empower women in India. Deepavali disappeared like any other day for me. Srijana, Anand or I did not wear new clothes for Deepavali. I felt passive and inactive. Deepavali welcomes winter and Uttharayanam. Cold and dull days often make me realize the essence of life. It is tragic and painful for all. Went to sleep by 9:30.

27 October (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju got off a bus at Adduroad Junction by 11:00. My cousin Vasu came to Gollalagunta to celebrate Deepavali with his parents and brother Narendra Varma. He got some work at the port in Visakhapatnam to do as an employee of Vedanta firm in Jharsuguda. This morning he went to Visakhapatnam to do this work. He accompanied Krishnam Raju up to Adduroad on his way to Visakhapatnam. Brought my uncle to our house on bicycle. He came here to see Srijana and me in relation to the sadness caused to us after the departure of Sisir. He walks with the support of a long and strong wooden stick. He remained unmarried considering his physical deformity. My maternal aunt Raja Kumari is looking after him now. He is giving 10,000 rupees to them every year for it. He is interested in rearing high breed cocks, conducting cock fights, playing cards and spending with his close friends and relatives. He likes living in Gollalagunta because he got his familiar creatures there. He maintains a long and thick moustache. He smokes cigarettes. He is a man of self-respect, courage and honesty. I love him. By 6:00 Srijana, Anand and I took a bus at Adduroad Junction and reached Elamanchili by 6:30. Datla Ramesh came to bus stand and took us to his rented abode in Military Colony. Went to sleep by 11:30.

28 October (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Sravya played with Anand for some time and went to her school. Datla Ramesh is the brother-in-law of my brother Srinivas. His real name is Datla Venkata Satya Surya Narayana Raju. He belongs to village Rambilli. He buys coconuts in this area and exports them to some places in Orissa and West Bengal in hired trucks. I like him. He dropped us at cinema Sita Chitra Mandir by 10:45 on his bike. Srijana bought three tickets for 150 rupees. Sowjanya, Srijana, Anand and I saw the Telugu film “Seventh Sense” in it from 11:00 to 1:40. Surya, Sruthi Hassan and others acted very well in this film. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. Muruga Doss directed it. He proved as a master again with this film. This film discusses the power of genetic engineering. It highlights the greatness of Indian scientists and saints, who lived in India centuries ago and made India prosperous and famous, through their intelligence and achievements. I deeply enjoyed the story, narration, dialogues, music, songs, dance and photography in this film. I give 95 marks for 100 for this film. It educates and entertains viewers substantially. Anand slept till the intermission. We returned to the abode of Ramesh in Military Colony by 3:00 after visiting the houses of relatives of my sister-in-law Kranti near sugarcane collection centre. We had Vegetable Biryani by 3:30. Ramesh gave 500 rupees to Srijana asking her to buy a sari for her. We took a bus by 5:30 at the bus stand in Elamanchili and returned home by 6:15. Vasu came here by 9:45. Went to sleep by 10:30.

29 October (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Talked with my cousin Vasu for one hour. Now he is working as an Associate Officer in the finance department with a unit of Vedanta Resources at Jharsuguda in Orissa. He is dealing with import related customs. We are searching for an educated and beautiful bride for him. He is getting 25,000 rupees a month from this firm. He left for Gollalagunta by 9:30. By 1:30 Srijana, Anand and I took a bus at Adduroad Junction and reached Payakaraopeta by 2:00. We hired a rickshaw for 15 rupees and proceeded to our rented room in Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar. We put our blue trolley bag in it. The belongings of Sisir Kiran Varma are in it. It’s a precious asset for us. We reached the abode of D S N Raju in Devi Nagar by 2:30. His house is still under construction. He decided to ceremoniously enter this house on the 4^th of next month. He gives a lunch party to his invitees on the 5^th of this month on this occasion. He invited us to this function. He offered a cool drink for us. His wife Asha Bhanu came here by 6:00 to meet us. Now she is working as a secondary grade teacher and head mistress at the upper primary school in P Lakshmi Puram. We asked D S N Raju about the monthly rent he is expecting from us for the two-bedroomed portion in his house. He said that he would decide it after talking with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy. We returned home by 7:15. Went to sleep by 9:30.

30 October (Sunday)

Woke up by 4:30. It is Naagula Chavithi today. Many Hindus worship serpents today formally going to their anthills. My brother Sambha hired an auto rickshaw for our collective journey to our mango garden at hills. Sambha, Kranti, their baby son Anjaneya Raju, Janaki, Srijana, Anand, my mother, my paternal aunt Subhadra and I started here by 8:00. My father started on his old bicycle. We reached the abode of my uncle Narayana Murthy by 8:15. We collected some more cow milk from here. We walked to our mango garden and offered special food items to snakes in three anthills in the three parts of it. We offered six eggs also. Snakes are supposed to consume them, later, going into these decorated anthills. We had special food sitting under our big peepal tree (Raavi Chettu in Telugu). We walked back to the thatched abode of my uncle by 10:00. My maternal uncle Krishnam Raju and aunt Subhadra did not participate in this ceremony with us though they came along with us in the auto rickshaw. We spent at the house of my uncle for five hours. My aunt Kumari offered tea and a sweet festive dish (Aaridhi in Telugu) to all of us. My folks talked with my paternal grandparents for some time. It’s like a festival for them. Old and helpless people enjoy the presence of their young and healthy relatives. I enjoyed this day a lot in this serene and inspiring mango garden. I am getting deeply attracted by nature here. I like the presence of my folks. We returned home by 4:00 in an auto rickshaw. Today is a great day for me. Went to sleep by 10:00.

31 October (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. My brother Sambha, Kranti, baby boy Anjaneya Raju, Srijana, Anand and I took a bus at Adduroad Junction by 7:30 and reached Annavaram by 8:30. We hired an auto rickshaw and went up Ratnagiri Hill by 8:45. Recently they laid a second road to this hill. They are using it for upward journey. They are using the old road for downward journey. We got the head of baby Anjaneya Raju tonsured (clean shave for religious purposes) by 9:00. He cried rigorously during this time. We got him bathed by 9:10. They are providing warm water in this place. I don’t like the practice of Hindus offering hair on their heads to different Hindu deities on various occasions. God likes purity of mind but not decoration of body. Now many Hindus are trying to appear as holy beings wearing different colors of clothes. It signifies the shallowness and stupidity of Hindus. I consider them as public sinners with dirty uniforms. India remains as a restless and corrupt nation as long as Hindus act attractive roles in the name of religion. I saw many such people at this temple today. We avoided the Dharshan of Lord Satya Narayana considering the high flow of devotees today. Stood in the queue for 20 minutes and bought 10 packs of Prashaadham for 100 rupees for us. I like it a lot. We sat near this temple for 10 minutes for formality sake. I had one pack of it during this time. We returned home by 11:20. This morning my maternal uncle Krishnam Raju went back to Gollalagunta. Slept by 9:00.

1 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. It is Andhra Pradesh Formation Day today. Now the folks of Telangana region are fighting for a separate state. Many leaders and political parties are actively participating in this movement. The fates of people don’t change due to the birth of new states through changing boundaries of places. There are many backward regions in many parts of India. When leaders of a nation are corrupt and unethical, peace and sustainable development cannot be achieved there. Most of the Indians are dishonest and immoral now. They are not worried about their society, state or nation but the prosperity and future of their family members, relatives, friends and well-wishers. All are acting formal roles when they are comfortable and happy and looking for help from others when they are helpless and affected. Regrets and pain disturb people at some stage of their lives when they are narrow-minded and selfish. Indians are suffering from insecurity and unrest. The growth of beggars, gypsies and criminals reflects the ruin of India. When cheats and sinners become leaders, sensitive and virtuous people turn into beggars. Innocent and talented artists travel through different places for their survival. Impatient and helpless youth become criminals. In this scenario, nobody can be secure and happy. Separatism is a small problem in India. All must struggle for a nation of virtues. Went to sleep by 10:00.

2 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today, Kiran Kumar Reddy, the present chief minister of Andhra Pradesh, visited Jaggampeta and Elamanchili in East Godavari and Visakhapatnam districts as part of the state government’s program “Rachcha Banda”. Kiran seems to be a good politician to me. He is a polite and sensitive person. He must be loyal to Sonia Gandhi because the Congress party identifies and encourages only such folks, who are willing to sacrifice their self-respect and dignity of existence for becoming somebody in it over time. Kiran is a helpless man in this regard. Many superficial politicians are considering him as an inefficient chief minister because he is not a ruthless dictator like Raja Sekhara Reddy or an unscrupulous bloke like Jagan Mohan Reddy. Now many uneducated and shallow people are admiring corrupt rogues. They believe that earning more money means more intelligence and great social status. When majority people think and behave like worthless sheep, donkeys and dogs rule a state of democracy. Indians failed to utilize the systems of democracy. Local sheep were driven to Elamanchili in many vehicles to make this program a grand success. My brother Sambha went there to see Kiran and other politicians. He likes the status of politicians because many sheep flock to their meetings in public places. Night Ch. Hari talked with me over phone from the USA. He appreciated my blogs and online personal diaries. Went to sleep by 9:30.

3 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day at home. I am not happy with the attitude of my father and mother. They believe in many superstitions. They have no affection for their siblings or relatives. They assess the value of anything from the perspective of money. They use harsh and abusive language. They often advise me to get a job immediately and earn money. Being at home without earning money means wasting time for them. My father criticizes somebody every day. I observed such tendency in many parents towards their sons and daughters. They are training their children as money earning machines. Indians are not spending much time with their family members. This culture is more prevalent in rich families. Poor people work together and sleep together. My parents discourage me from going to the houses of our relatives. It’s waste of time and money for them. I think I inherited abusive language and bad manners from my parents to some extent. Srijana often criticizes me about it. I grew up without proper care and guidance from my parents and others. I want to improve a lot from my present state of life. It is possible through self-criticism and strong determination. God is a kind director of this universe. He likes and guides all creatures alike. Man must live with idealism and kindness to be blessed by God. Self-reformation is a great quality. Went to sleep by 10:00.

4 November (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. My paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy came here by 11:30 from Tetagunta. We went to Adduroad by 12:30. He bought a few items for his parents spending 150 rupees. We started to our mango garden at hills on two bicycles by 1:15. We spent there till 5:30. My two paternal uncles talked about the issue of caretaking of my old and frail paternal grandparents. Thammi Raju must be about 100 now. Lakshmi Narasayyamma may be 90. They need the care of others, most of the day and night, now. My uncle Narayana Murthy and aunt Kumari have been taking care of them for the last one year. He has to go to the sugar factory in Payakaraopeta soon for doing his job there during this sugarcane crushing season. Now it is the turn of my uncle Narasimha Murthy to take care of his parents. His wife Vimala refused to serve them considering their uselessness. She lives and dies for money. She has been torturing my uncle like a criminal for many years. My uncle is living with her considering the future of their two sons. My name is Thammi Raju though it does not appear in my educational certificates. I like the life of my paternal grandfather. He struggled hard to look after his wife and children. He planted mango and cashew saplings, near hills, in these arid lands of rich Kshatriyas of Tangedu. He grew them up working hard. He built a spacious thatched hut in this mango garden for living with his three sons and two daughters. He lived here for about 60 years. He has been an ideal son, husband, father and grandfather. He is a gentleman. We returned home by 6:00. Went to sleep by 9:30.

5 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I reached Adduroad Junction by 8:15 on foot. We took a Rajahmundry bound Express bus by 8:45 and reached Payakaraopeta by 9:15. Thence we walked to our rented room in Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar and checked the present status of our household items. We feared the attack of rats on our items but it did not happen. We walked to the house of Datla Satya Narayana Raju in Devi Nagar by 10:00. He ceremoniously entered his newly constructed house along with his wife and daughter under the guidance of a priest. This ceremony is known as “Gruha Pravesham” in Telugu. It took place by 10:00 yesterday night. Today they are giving a formal lunch party to their invited guests on this occasion. We had lunch here by 12:30. My uncle Narasimha Murthy is a distant relative of D S N Raju. He told him to take 3,000 rupees a month as rent from me for the two-bedroomed portion in the ground floor of this building. He readily agreed for it. Felt happy for his goodness towards us. They already introduced us to their relatives as their tenant. I wondered at their possessiveness towards us. Even my father did not express such warmth for us so far. The construction of this house is still going on. We will enter this portion of house in a few days. We left this place by 2:00 and reached our intended auto rickshaw stand in Tuni by 3:00. Thence we took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Viswanadhapuram by 4:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

6 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day in Viswanadhapuram. Evening Srijana, Anand and I went to the agricultural farm of Sai Rama Raju and spent there for one hour. He has a small poultry farm here. He is rearing a buffalo for milk. I enjoy his presence. Recently police caught my brother Sambha and five of his familiar ones on the charge of playing cards. They are special police. They came from Visakhapatnam to arrest these guys based on the complaint of a fellow from our village Peda Gummuluru. They took them to police station in Sarvasiddhi Rayavaram. They collected their bikes, cellphones and money. They presented them in the court at Elamanchili. The judge ordered the police to return their belongings after a set period of time. These folks have to pay fines before getting back their items from this police station. My brother is very angry with these police and judge in this regard. He said that they were not playing cards when the police approached them in a mango farm by hills near village Ramayyapatnam. These police threw cards before them and took their photos with a camera. My brother Sambha consulted an advocate in Visakhapatnam to argue for them in the court during final hearing. I don’t know whether they were playing cards or not during that time. Police and lawyers are unreliable in India. Most of them think and behave like criminals with innocent and helpless folks in their custody. They serve rich and influential folks like loyal and cowardly dogs and bitches. Went to sleep by 10:00.

7 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day within Viswanadhapuram. It’s cool, refreshing and inspiring here due to winter. Evening went to the nearby village China Boddepalli on a bike along with Alluru Satya Narayana Raju. The agricultural farms and hills around this road are enticing and influential. I felt like going and living in that setting of nature. He collected 106 kilograms of rice from the ration depot in this village. The Government of Andhra Pradesh is providing one kilo of rice for one rupee from this month onwards. It’s a welfare scheme meant for the poor. Sixty percent of the people utilizing this scheme are rich. Most of them are using this rice for their dogs and cattle. We returned home by 5:00. By 6:30 I went to the nearby village Raapaka on a TVS Streak scooty along with the farm laborer working in the agricultural farm of A S N Raju. Bought vegetables in this weekly village market for the domestic use of maternal grandparents of Srijana. The registration number of this scooty is AP 31 BG 2602. It’s an automatic switch start scooty. I rode a scooty after a long time. I enjoyed this ride a lot. It’s the scooty of A S N Raju. I rode it slowly and carefully like a disciplined learner. I enjoy riding scooty but I could not buy one so far due to financial problems. I need to practice bike riding for a month to do it well. I am not good at it now. Went to sleep by 12:00.

8 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 9:30 Srijana, Anand and I started to Tuni on the scooty of A S N Raju. I think it was for the first time I rode a scooty keeping my folks behind me. I am comfortable with automatic start scooties. I don’t like riding bikes with gears and sophisticated functioning. I was tense when many vehicles were behind or before me. I am a cowardly and inefficient bike rider now. I am not good at using vehicles remembering routes and talking with others strategically. The speed of this scooty was between 20 and 40 kilometres today per hour. This road has many curves and is in bad condition. I rode it carefully. Srijana too rode it for a few minutes. Srijana consulted Dr. Naga Lakshmi in Shanthi Hospital by 12:00. She is disturbed due to irregular periods. It might have occurred because she avoided breast-feeding after the departure of Sisir. It’s a result of hormonal changes in her body. This doctor prescribed NOVEX-DS, Lupical-250 and i-mate tablets for her. We returned home by 1:30 on the scooty. By 3:10 my cousin Sagiraju Narendra Varma talked with Sagi Sindhu in Aditya Engineering College at Surampalem and expressed his sense of admiration and desire for marriage to her. He handed the love letter (written by me for him for this purpose) to her. Both of them felt uneasy and nervous during this time. Naren informed me about it by 5:40. Now he is admiring Sindhu deeply. Hereafter he goes to this college for a few days only. He resigned from this college a few days ago. Went to sleep by 10:00.

9 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within Viswanadhapuram. By 11:30 Vijay Gopal Varma and I went to their farmhouse. We spent here till 2:00. It’s among many trees near hills. It’s refreshing and vitalizing there. Had my lunch by 2:30. By 3:00 Srijana, her maternal grandparents, Anand and I went to the lime farm of Dantuluri Rama Sekhara Raju. I helped them collect limes from these trees for some time. Anand sat under a tree watching us. They plucked ripe lemons from the trees. I too picked them from under trees. We collected about 1200 lemons today. They sell them for 400 rupees to their relative Gunturu Prasada Raju in this village. Collecting lemons from trees is a difficult work. Thorns hurt us frequently. They are plenty in and under these trees. Today about 10 thorns tried to attack me. Lakshmi Bharathi is 61 now. Her husband Dantuluri Jagannadha Raju is about 70. They often do this difficult farm work. The daily wages of laborers were drastically increased during the last few years. Now peasant farmers are unable to bear these labor costs. Middlemen are buying farm products at low prices from poor farmers and selling them at high prices in markets. Ordinary farmers are not developing in India due to this regressive environment. The governments are in favour of cheats and businessmen. Agriculture is not beautiful when seen from inside. Slept by 10:00.

10 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within Viswanadhapuram. From 10:00 to 2:00 helped Srijana pick out cashew from those cut nuts. Now the price of one kilo of cashew is about 500 rupees in market. The owners of cashew groves keep some cashew nuts at home for their domestic consumption. We should dry them up well in sun to store them for long. Today Srijana worked hard to pick out cashew from nuts. Anand is crying for every small reason. He is adamant and impatient. I am not happy with his behavior but I am not beating him now. A good father should not beat his little children. We should provide our children with an ideal and healthy environment to grow. Even then they may not grow up according to our desires and expectations. Their Karma decides the nature and journey path of their lives. Parents are merely like gardeners. The characteristics of a plant don’t change based on the intelligence or foolishness of a gardener. It’s enough if there are good air, good water, good soil, good nutrients and good atmosphere for a plant to grow well. Some plants grow well even in adverse conditions. We can compare self-made individuals with such plants and trees. They serve others with kindness and patience. We should not assess the characters of human beings based on their childhood behavior. They may change at any time in their lives. Anand is always craving for the presence of his mother. Went to sleep by 10:00.

11 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 11:00 Srijana, her maternal grandfather Jagannadha Raju, a few women of Viswanadhapuram and I started to Kota Uratla in a hired auto rickshaw. We reached there by 11:40 travelling via villages Kodavatipudi, Venkatapuram and Lingapuram. We spent in the premises of the buildings of Mandal Parishad till 6:00. Today the second phase of “Rachcha Banda” program took place in this area. It is a program meant for the resolution of public issues and distribution of welfare related documents to the poor and helpless people in all regions. The representatives of the present state government and ordinary people participate in this program. Srijana and I submitted an application for the issuance of a white ration card for us as a family unit. For others, who came with us, we filled in application forms for old age and PHC pensions. Payakaraopeta MLA Golla Babu Rao, Minister of Tribal Welfare Pasupuleti Bala Raju and local MLC D V Surya Narayana Raju came to this venue of meeting by 5:00. They talked about the welfare schemes being provided by the present state government and the greatness of Congress party. They distributed a few ration card sanction documents to beneficiaries on dais for formality sake. It was over by 6:00. We started back in our hired auto rickshaw by 6:15. The farms and hills around this road looked heavenly in moonlight. Went to sleep by 10:30.

12 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within Viswanadhapuram. From 12:30 to 4:30 spent at the abode of Gunturu Prasada Raju. He was collecting seasonal vegetables and fruits from these villagers and packing them. He gets them sold in Tuni and Visakhapatnam through his employees. He seems busy throughout the year. He is a patient and intelligent farmer in this village. He is a contributor to the welfare of India. He remarked that governments are encouraging dishonest and corrupt people in India. He often takes out agricultural loans from banks and repays them in time. Often government orders banks not to collect loan amounts of money or interests on them from farmers during droughts and such other unfavorable conditions for them. Defaulters, who intentionally do not repay loans, largely benefit from such welfare measures of governments. Honest farmers do not act like these defaulters. Many banks are in favour of corrupt entrepreneurs and politicians in India. Many bank officials take bribes from rich and influential blokes in society and serve them a lot. Banks don’t help ordinary and honest Indians grow. By 7:30 Srijana and I had our dinner in the house of Alluru Satya Narayana Raju. They affectionately invited us for it in their abode. His wife Aruna prepared and served delicious food items for us. Their son Vijay Gopal was also there. We all spent talking among ourselves till 10:15 after this dinner. They are planning to get their daughter Anupama married soon. Slept by 10:45.

13 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:30. Srijana, Anand and I started to the house of my father-in-law Rama Raju in K O Mallavaram by 10:00 on the TVS Streak scooty of A S N Raju. About six months ago they rented out some portions of it to a native Rajasthani sweet seller for 500 rupees per month. Now they vacated it. Rama Raju is renting it out to another native fellow on a condition. He borrows 40,000 rupees from this person. He allows him to live in his house for the interest he has to pay for this amount of money every month. He may ask him to vacate it whenever he repays the principal. Rama Raju is in a critical financial condition now. He is planning to repay one lakh rupees to native moneylender borrowing money from others. He mostly borrows money from somebody to repay others. He borrowed 30,000 rupees from me in 2008. Recently I asked him to pay back this money. He told me to wait for some more days. I knew that Rudraraju Rama Raju is paying 5,000 rupees only to him per month for working in their agricultural farm near Aaredu as supervisor. He is not as ideal as I thought once. Mantena Rama Raju went there for 5,000 rupees a month being unable to earn it in his native place here. He is trying to get monthly PHC pensions from the state government for his wife, son and him. He often remarks that I am not an efficient fellow in earning money. Went to sleep by 10:00.

14 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. Got ready by 8:30. Raja Babu of village Raapaka came to Viswanadhapuram in his auto rickshaw by 9:00. He often comes to this village to take these creatures to Tuni and other places in his vehicle. I like him. Got into his vehicle and reached Raapaka by 9:30. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw and reached Tuni by 10:00. Walked to bus station. Srijana informed me over phone that the pregnant buffalo of their maternal grandparents delivered a calf by 9:25 this morning. I waited for its delivery and related cheese for these few days in this village. It delivered after I had left this place. Srijana told me to come back to have sweet cheese for three days. I don’t go back after starting a journey. Took a Tirupati bound Express bus by 10:45 and reached Jaggampeta by 12:07. The bus fare is 47 rupees. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju came to the bus station by 12:20 on his bike from Gollalagunta. He went to weekly market in Jaggampeta and bought vegetables for their domestic consumption. Both of us reached Gollalagunta by 1:00 on his bike. Today a few Kshatriyas of this village organized garden party in this part (Ramachandra Puram) of Gollalagunta on the occasion of Kaartheeka Somavaaram. Each family unit contributed about 50 rupees and some cooking items for this party. My cousin Narendra Varma went to Durgada. Tomorrow morning my uncle Chanti Babu takes Janmabhoomi Express at Annavaram railway station to go to Hyderabad. Naren guides and helps him in this station while taking this train. Went to sleep by 10:00.

15 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day within Gollalagunta. My cousin Narendra Varma came by 10:20. He is not going to Aditya Engineering College now. He wants to prepare for the GATE in 2012. He took many competitive exams during the last two years. He did not get any job this way. Many public sector firms are offering jobs only to those candidates, who offer bribes in a big way. Intelligent, poor and honest Indian youth are the victims of this corrupt society. I knew that corruption and bribery are very high in the recruitment of jobs at the steel plant in Visakhapatnam. Many folks are paying lakhs of rupees to get various jobs in this public sector firm. By 2:30 went to the paddy farm of my maternal uncle Varma near Chembudu Cheruvu on bicycle along with him. Today he employed nine women to cut the ripe rice plants in his farm. They keep these cut plants in the open for about five days. Sun dries up paddy during this time. They harvest it soon. My uncle paid 100 rupees to each of these women today for doing this work. Paddy farming is not profitable to peasant farmers in Andhra Pradesh now. They have been cultivating this crop in their farms continuously for decades. Their psychic and cultural bond with this crop is very long and strong. We returned home by 5:00. Went to sleep by 10:30 for my dreams.

16 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within Gollalagunta. By 2:00 my uncle Varma and I started to our paddy farms near Dhora Cheruvu and Gopala Raju Cheruvu on bicycle. We put it in the village and started walking through the paddy farms. There are about 600 acres of paddy farms under the irrigation area of Dhora Cheruvu and 800 acres of paddy farms under Gopala Raju Cheruvu. Most of them are peasant farmers. Each of them has two or three acres of farmland only. They depend on these ponds for irrigation. I have one acre of paddy farm under Dhora Cheruvu. This year paddy crop is not well in this region due to low rainfall. Many farms got dried up in the middle of this crop season. My brother Srinivas decided to sell his paddy farm in this area due to low income from it in every crop season. My father decided to sell my paddy farm also. I enjoy spending in paddy farms. The greenery of these farms, the water flowing into them through canals, the trees, the ponds and the farmers moving through them make it all an inspiring scenery for me. Took videos of this scenery with my Sony digital camera. The sun was setting in the west throwing rays of beauty across Dhora Cheruvu. Fish were playing in this pond. We returned home by 6:00 walking through this beautiful setting of nature. Went to sleep by 10:00.

17 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 8:00 Narendra Varma and I started to Jaggampeta on his bike. We spent at a computer centre for one hour. I could not get some photos and videos written to a DVD because power cut occurred in the middle of the burning process. Internet cafes are rare in Jaggampeta. I misused a DVD and one hour’s time at this centre. We bought oranges for 30 rupees and sapodillas for 20 rupees. We started to Molleru Mallavaram by 10:00. We reached there by 10:30 travelling via Rajapudi and Mallisala. We spent in the house of maternal grandparents of my sister-in-law Sandhya Rani till 12:00. Lakshmi offered lunch to us with chicken curry. We gave the fruits to the maternal grandparents of Sandhya Rani. Thence we reached Ramuladeva Puram by 12:30. We went to the houses of our relatives in this village and talked with them. I came here to see them after a long time. I like the nature of people living in this village. They work hard and live honestly. They depend on their agricultural farms for their livelihood. They rear cows and buffalos for milk. There are no water and air pollution in this village. We went to the nearby reservoir by 4:00. This stored water is being sent to the steel plant in Visakhapatnam. We started back by 5:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day at the houses of my maternal aunt Raja Kumari and cousin Anantha Lakshmi. They prepared Simmili for me. It is sweet and energetic. By 2:00 my uncle Varma and I started to his paddy farm near Chembudu Cheruvu. We checked the quality of paddy of dry plants in his farm. It got dried up well in the sun during the last three days. We noticed that parrots are stealing branches of paddy plants from this farm. Many like them as beautiful birds with sweet voice but peasant farmers chase them from their agricultural farms. There is a sugarcane farm beside the paddy farm of my uncle. The peasant farmer of this farm is a familiar fellow to my uncle. We asked him for sugarcanes to consume. He readily gave three sugarcanes for us cutting them from a corner of it. We three sat here and had them happily. Enjoyed the sweetness of juice and the act of drawing it from the canes, chewing them. My uncle has two acres of paddy farm and two acres of arid land in this region. He can earn about 25,000 rupees every year from them if weather is favourable. We discussed the idea of making his agricultural practice comfortable and profitable. He has to arrange four acres of farm in one area and invest about one lakh rupees in it to achieve it. He is an intelligent and ideal farmer but he has no enough money to put his thoughts into action. I like his character. We returned home by 6:00 on foot. Went to sleep by 9:30.

19 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 1:00 Narendra Varma and I started to Jaggampeta on his bike. We saw the Telugu film “Mogudu” in cinema Sri Nageswara from 2:00 to 4:38. Our maternal uncle Krishnam Raju and a relative of us also saw this film along with us. I enjoyed watching this film throughout. Krishna Vamsy directed it. He tried to discuss the greatness of Indian Hindu marriage system in this film but failed. He highlighted unnecessary things more than main theme of the film. Viewers did not receive it well. He presented actress Tapsy well. She looked very beautiful in the wedding saree in a scene. She is a beautiful girl. We returned home by 5:00. My uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju and I went to the house of priest Viswanadham in Gollalagunta by 7:00. He lived in village Marripaka for long along with his parents. He got a house constructed in Gollalagunta near government high school and moved to this place recently. I asked him to decide an auspicious date for our formal entry into our rented portion of house at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta. He told us to do it anytime between 7:30 a.m. and 10:00 a.m. on the 11^th of next month. I am going to Hyderabad soon to take the examination for the position of Junior Lecturer in English in Andhra Pradesh. He decided this date remembering this fact. Went to sleep by 10:30.

20 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. My cousin Bala met me by 7:00. Yesterday night he came from Kakinada to attend a marriage in this village. Today there is the marriage of Suresh with Triveni in Kakinada. He is a grandson of Venkateshwara Raju in this village. Today I spent most of my time in the company of people associated with this occasion. I went to their house by 11:00. Had my lunch here by 12:00 along with other invitees. My uncle Varma and I served food items to guests here for about two hours. I saw a girl of 36 years here. She has a daughter of 20 years and a grandson of two years. I am also 36 but I have one son of two years. I felt envious of her. I married late. Many girls of my age became grandmothers by now. A boy should marry by 21 and a girl by 18 to enjoy life like a father and mother. Morning the folks of bridegroom party formally saw my cousin Ashwini in the apartment of my brother Srinivas in Visakhapatnam. They liked her beauty and qualities. My paternal uncle Narayana Murthy is also very happy with the look and qualities of the bridegroom and his family members. They decided to take this process further. I am happy about this development. By 5:30 my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju, my cousin Narendra Varma, a familiar Kshatriya fellow of this village and I started to Kakinada in the car of D V N A Varma. This night, the marriage of Suresh takes place here. We had dinner here and returned home by 9:10. Slept by 10:30.

21 November (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 11:00 my uncle Sagiraju Rama Raju and I started to Jaggampeta on bike. The place of Kshatriya Parishad of Jaggampeta region is by the Gokavaram Road in Jaggampeta. Today they are organizing garden party to celebrate the spirit of unity of Kshatriyas in this region. We reached there by 11:20. About 200 Kshatriyas attended this community function. They invited locally influential and rich folks to this event expecting donations from them. They got about 1, 50,000 rupees this way. The lunch program took place from 12:00 to 2:00. They distributed about 50 blankets to poor men and women in our community. They are of low quality and cost. Fakir Raju of Gollalagunta is heading this Kshatriya Parishad now. Many native Kshatriyas donated money and wood for the construction of necessary buildings in this place for this Parishad. They got one building constructed by now. Fakir Raju is a highly corrupt man in Gollalagunta. He cheated and troubled many to become rich and famous in this area. He is a hypocrite and sinner. I don’t like such rogues managing community organizations of this order. Many said that he used the money and other assets of this Parishad for his personal needs. We returned home by 3:00. I am enjoying my stay in Gollalagunta. I love this land and these people. Went to sleep by 11:10.

22 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 8:30 my aunt Satyavathi and my cousin Anantha Lakshmi prepared 50 Ravva Laddus for me. I bought one kilo wheat flour and one kilo sugar for it. They added ghee and cardamoms also to them. Srijana likes them. By 9:20 took a sharing auto rickshaw in Gollalagunta and reached Jaggampeta by 9:30. Took a Tuni bound ordinary bus at the bus station by 9:45 and reached Tuni by 11:35. The bus fare is 35 rupees. Morning Srijana, her father and Anand came to Tuni from Viswanadhapuram in an auto rickshaw. Recently my father-in-law sent an iron cot, an iron swing and a few other items to Tuni from Narayana Khed through Navata Road Transport service. He paid about 2,500 rupees for it. They collected these parcel items from this branch office in Tuni. I too got into this auto rickshaw by 11:40. We went to my rented room in Chakka Surya Narayana Nagar and put the items of iron cot in it. It is a gift of my father-in-law to his daughter. The related iron belongs to R V Rama Raju. We went to the house of D S N Raju in Devi Nagar and checked the quality and progress of the construction of the portion in the ground floor of it. I told the supervisor here that we would formally enter it on the 11^th of next month. They should make it ready by this date. We reached Viswanadhapuram by 1:00 in the auto rickshaw. By 2:30 my father-in-law, Srijana, Anand and I reached K O Mallavaram on a bike to see the annual village fair here. Slept by 10:00.

23 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Spent all the day within Viswanadhapuram. My father-in-law came here from village Masanpalli in Medak district to do a few things. He is collecting money from some and repaying it to his moneylenders. He has high blood pressure and diabetes but he did not stop consuming heavy amount of polished rice and salty food items. He snores heavily while sleeping. Others cannot sleep around him due to this high noise. He developed a big belly eating all kinds of fat foods. He smokes about 12 cigarettes every day. I don’t like his habits and lifestyle but I need to accept him as a familiar fellow because he is the father of Srijana. Today I had cheese thrice. Srijana kept related milk in a fridge for me to prepare it. By 12:45 my cousin Vasu booked a reservation ticket for me online. I will go to Secunderabad on the 30^th of this month from Tuni by Janmabhoomi Express. I have the Junior Lecturer exam on 3 December in Hyderabad. I am not preparing for it at all. One needs one year’s time to prepare for this examination completely. I write because I like writing. I teach because I can earn money as a lecturer in a government or private college. I am taking this exam just like that depending on luck factor completely. It’s like a game of gambling for me. I enjoy playing this game more than success in it. I am an automated machine in the industry of Lord Krishna. Went to sleep by 10:00.

24 November (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 2:00 took an auto rickshaw and started to Tuni. Srijana put two papayas, 20 sapodillas, two oranges and 10 lemons in a bag for me to take to Peda Gummuluru. Reached Tuni by 3:00. Hired a rickshaw from the national highway and moved to bus stand in Payakaraopeta. Meanwhile Rama Sekhara Raju came here. Went to a nearby Internet café to download three documents. Downloaded the two train reservation tickets related to me and my father-in-law. Gave the printout of the latter to Sekhar. My father-in-law is going back to Hyderabad tomorrow by Janmabhoomi Express. Also downloaded the hall ticket related to my Junior Lecturer exam in Hyderabad. The venue of this examination is Narayana Junior College at Attapur. I never concentrated on competitive exams because I am not good at mathematics. I developed aversion for this subject after my 10^th standard. There is no competitive exam without arithmetic section. Corruption is pervasive in recruitment of jobs in public and private sectors. Frauds are high in public sector. I did not like to subject myself to stress and strain in this regard. Many prepare for these exams like warriors in a battlefield. The parents of girls are interested in boys with government jobs because these jobs are safe and secure for them. They get more dowries if they have government jobs. Many boys are trying hard for these jobs minding these contemporary social and cultural trends. Reached our house by 6:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

25 November (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day in and around Peda Gummuluru. Today I saw an ad of the Department of Public Libraries in Hyderabad. They invited books from publishers and authors under a scheme of bulk purchase. Each publisher may submit 15 titles for consideration. Informed Chapa Manohar of Leadstart Publishing in Mumbai about it. He too saw it in Telugu daily Eenadu there. Told him to send a copy of my book Stories of Love and Beauty to these folks in Hyderabad for consideration. They get these entries scrutinized by experts and choose quality books for bulk purchase. Manohar educated me about the folks of libraries. They don’t do it honestly. They buy books from publishers and authors based on recommendations from politically and financially influential people. They put hundreds of such books in storerooms for years together. They never see the light of the day. They perish with dust and neglect in course of time. This is the fate of many books submitted to different media firms for review. When publishers and authors think like worthless beggars, media rogues behave like scoundrels towards them. I don’t like to promote my book through such mean ways consulting unscrupulous blokes in media industry. My book should stand on its own. There are many great books in public libraries and bookstores. Readers should buy books out of passion for them. Went to sleep by 10:00.

26 November (Saturday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day within Peda Gummuluru and Adduroad. Evening talked with my paternal uncle Narasimha Murthy for 30 minutes. His wife Vimala is torturing him every day. He recently told her to go away from his abode in Tetagunta. She did not do it. She addresses her husband with abusive words. Earlier he beat her many times to correct her but she did not change. She does not care anybody. Others are not interfering in this case because she scolds anybody just like that. They are living in one abode but not on talking terms. Now he is cooking food on his own. He decided to vacate this abode soon. She cannot live there without him. She does not know about his worth as her husband. Money is all for her. Her mother Varahaalamma and other relatives are encouraging her against him. He has been bearing with her domestic violence for the last 30 years. A woman can act better than a man before society and prove her innocence. Vimala is a stupid, eccentric and mad woman. She is more dangerous than a criminal. I think that a woman of such character should be hanged publicly. Many outsiders think that Indian women are soft and kind. In fact, many of them are dirty bitches and silent killers. Historians and writers did not study and record the cruelty of Indian women as they did with that of men. Vimala is such a bad woman of India. Lawyers cannot see intensity of domestic violence caused by women because they are great actresses in their homes. God punishes Vimala. Went to sleep by 9:30.

27 November (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. By 8:45 took a Narsipatnam bound bus in Peda Gummuluru for Peda Boddepalli. Reached there by 9:45. Thence took a sharing auto rickshaw and moved to the specified mango garden by main road in village Chettupalli. The members of Kshatriya Parishad of Narsipatnam are organizing a garden party in this place today for the promotion of unity and happiness among Kshatriyas of this region. They invited Kshatriyas from Narsipatnam, Giduthuru, Tangedu, Kota Uratla, Viswanadhapuram, Peda Gummuluru, Darlapudi, Raja Venkata Nagaram, Gurrajupeta, Gudivada and other nearby places. About 500 men, women and children attended this function. They provided breakfast, lunch and evening snacks for all. They conducted games like Tug of War, Throw Ball, Anthyaakshari, Musical Chair and Tambola. They distributed gifts to winners in the evening. Srijana won two gifts in Tug of War and Throw Ball. Anand always demanded her presence. He irritated me in this regard. I did not participate in any game. Enjoyed this celebration like a silent observer. Served food items to males for one hour during lunchtime. I did not take photos and videos of this occasion because it was shadowy in this garden throughout. They collected about two lakh rupees from volunteers to develop this Parishad. I have no money to contribute to it now. Returned home by 7:00 by bus. Went to sleep by 1:30.

28 November (Monday)

Woke up by 5:00. Spent all the day in Peda Gummuluru and Adduroad. By 4:00 met a cousin of Polisetty Penta Lakshmi of village Ramayyapatnam in Adduroad. I brought him to a place of privacy by main road. Told him about my deep and long admiration for Lakshmi. Asked him to somehow get the photo of Lakshmi for me. He readily agreed for it considering my appreciable character. Felt happy. He said that he would bring a photo album of their family members. There are some photos of Lakshmi in it. I can shoot them with my digital camera and keep them with me. He told me to keep it as a top secret forever. Anybody should not know that he reached her photos to me this way. The present manipulative society creates many problems for virtuous folks. Now bad men and women are the leaders of societies. I could not get her photo till now though I tried for it in some ways. I often feel like seeing and talking with her but it is not possible. She often visits me in my dreams. I experience bliss while witnessing them. She became a distant dream for me after her marriage on 20 April, 1996. I cannot go to her abodes of stay in Ramayyapatnam or Narsipatnam to see her. A married woman has many restrictions in orthodox Indian societies. Many interpret admiration also as an immoral and objectionable facet of human relationship in bad societies. An admirer should not bother his beloved knowingly. Lakshmi is like a goddess for me. I always enjoy her thoughts and memories. Went to sleep by 9:00.

29 November (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent all the day in Peda Gummuluru and Adduroad. Currently the folks of Ideal Resources Pvt. Ltd. are in the process of construction of a ferro alloys unit in their site near Peda Gummuluru. They bought about 50 acres of land in this area for this purpose. Today a big meeting took place in this locality. It is meant for resolving issues raised by native people and other interest groups. The folks of CPI and CPM are running a public awareness campaign against the activities of this firm in this region. They say that this ferro alloys manufacturing unit causes air pollution and leads to depletion of ground water resources in this region. It is also an employment generation facility for the people here. Firms of this nature cause air and water pollution unless they take precautionary measures completely. Many firms violate these norms related to environmental protection craving for more money and development through these industries. Innocent and stupid victims of industrialization wake up at the eleventh hour. Many parts of India are polluted now. Corrupt and cruel politicians and entrepreneurs are making India so. I did not go to this site of agitation today because I don’t like the presence of stupid blokes. They go there for fun and entertainment. Their standards and values are very low like these politicians and industrialists. Went to sleep by 9:00.

30 November (Wednesday)

Woke up by 4:30. Got ready by 5:30. My brother Sambha and I started to Tuni by 6:00 on his bike. We reached the railway station in Tuni by 6:30. Janmabhoomi Express arrived by 7:45. Took my window seat 36 in the reservation coach D-2 of it. I always prefer a window seat. We can see the beauty and vitality of nature from the window. I did not find even one beauty in our coach. I regretted it. I like train journey a lot. Trains carry many passengers every day and night to different parts of a nation. I wonder about the network and efficiency of Indian Railways. The number of passenger and goods trains is increasing every year but they are not laying new lines accordingly. About 100 trains must be running on the upward and downward tracks in 24 hours’ time. The greatness of different departments lies in running that many trains as per schedule. Indian trains are backward in terms of their speed, internal hygiene and maintenance compared to those in countries like China, Japan and some European countries. Money is in the hands of corrupt politicians and businessmen in India. Even the central and state governments are being run by such dirty rogues. They have no money and interest to develop Indian Railways fast. This train reached Secunderabad by 7:26. My cousin Murali and I took a bus and reached his rented abode in the ashram of SRCM at Thumukunta by 9:00. Went to sleep by 11:10.

1 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 10:30 went to Deccan Pen Stores at Abids and bought an Eagle 2012 diary for 136 rupees for me. I did not find a suitable diary for Srijana here. Bought one at another store. Its paper quality is low. Moved to the income tax office at Basheer Bagh by 11:00. Met P V R S Narasimha Rao in the second floor of it and asked him about the credit of my IT refund to my bank account. He did not do it earlier as promised. Got it done in my presence itself. It’s 4, 360 rupees related to FY 2009-10. Walked out of it by 11:15 and sat on pavement before an office building here. Scribbled 16 short lines in Telugu on a sheet of white paper for the birthday memento for Srijana for 2012. I wrote more about Sisir Kiran in it. Moved to Khairatabad by 11:40. Got this handwritten script typed up and designed by a fellow here. He charged 200 rupees for it. Got it printed out at KGN Xerox store. He charged 50 rupees for two A 3 size prints on card. Got it framed at Classic Glass Photo Frame Work store here. He charged 200 rupees for it. By 5:30 collected my two pending documents from the HR manager Chetanya Lakshmi in the office of Glads Media. They are Relieving Order and Experience Certificate. Today they are celebrating Glads Media Formation Day. Mahendra talked with me casually for a few seconds. Took a city bus and reached Secunderabad by 7:30. My cousin Murali joined me here. We two took a bus and reached his rented abode in SRCM ashram by 9:30. Went to sleep by 11:15.

2 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. My cousin Murali and I took a city bus and reached Secunderabad by 9:30. Thence took another bus and reached the art abode of Veeru at MLA Colony by 11:00. Attapur is nearer to this place than Thumukunta. By 11:11 I knew that Vamsy was suffering from stomachache caused due to appendicitis. Srijana and her father called me up and asked me if I could go to him and guide him in this regard. I replied in the negative considering my Junior Lecturer exam tomorrow morning. From 12:00 to 5:00 scanned two model test papers in Eenadu and objective type general awareness questions and answers in the second edition of PEARSON’s publication Concise Objective General Knowledge composed by Edgar Thorpe and Showick Thorpe. I borrowed this book from my cousin Murali. This is my intensive preparation for the JL exam tomorrow. I don’t like preparing for any competitive exam like a warrior. I am not bothered about becoming an English lecturer in a government junior college. It’s a casual attempt by me to honor my M.A. English certificate. There are very few job vacancies. Many are fighting for them. I want to be a participant in this exciting regional game. I found the English literature model test paper, prepared by Rama Bhaskara Raju, which was published in Eenadu recently, complicated and disturbing. I am not in touch with literature. It’s an ocean. I am a drop of water in it. Evening Vamsy underwent appendectomy in Mamata Hospital at Kukatpally to get rid of his appendix. Went to sleep by 11:30.

3 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 4:00. Last night I could sleep for three hours only due to cold environment and noise in the art abode of Veeru. My friend Rajani Kumar Raju dropped me at Narayana Junior College in Attapur by 9:20 on his bike. Thence I rushed to the nearby Narayana Junior Mahila Kalasala. My exam room number is 5 in the third floor of this building. I took my allotted seat by 9:40. An invigilator distributed the question papers and answer sheets to all the candidates in time. I did the General Studies exam well from 10:00 to 12:30. There are 150 objective type questions in this part of the Junior Lecturer exam. Each question carries one mark. The lunch break is from 12:30 to 2:00. Had a Masala Dosa for 12 rupees at a nearby eatery and three bananas for five rupees at a pushcart for my lunch during this time. Did the English Literature part of the exam well from 2:00 to 4:30 in the same place. The 150 objective type questions carry 300 marks. My roll number is 90103024. I may get this state government job if the folks of APPSC conduct this recruitment process honestly. Returned to the abode of Veeru by 5:30. Rajani and I went to his rented abode in Banjara Hills by 7:30 on his bike. His portion is the second one in the house bearing number 26 by Road No. 12. We had homemade food by 8:00. We saw the Telugu film “O My Friend” in cinema Sandhya 35 MM from 9:00 to 11:00. It’s an interesting and insightful film. Went to sleep by 11:45.

4 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:00. Rajani prepared Upma for our breakfast. Washed five items of my clothes by 9:30. This rented abode of Rajani is spacious, hygienic and beautiful. He maintains it well. He is not concentrating on the point of his marriage. High scarcity of girls in Kshatriya community may be one of the reasons for it. Hired an auto rickshaw by 10:45 and moved to Tilak Nagar. It cost me 76 rupees. Anirudh Varma took me to their rented abode from the main road here. Spent talking with Aishwarya and Anirudh for one hour. Took a bus by 12:10 and reached Kukatpally by 1:40. Walked to Mamata Hospital. Vamsy is in the fifth floor of it. It is meant for ‘Arogyasri’ scheme related patients. His parents are here to assist him. He is recovering from the weakness caused due to appendectomy. My mother-in-law and I reached the rented abode of Madhavi at Ashok Nagar by 3:45. Spent here till 4:00. Took an auto rickshaw and reached the rented abode of my cousin Sirisha at Shirdi Sai Colony in Beeramguda by 4:30. They are living in a one-bedroomed portion in the house bearing number 263 here. Today it is the second birthday of their baby Shiva Sahithi. They are celebrating it simply. Anantha Varma and I went out by 5:00. We brought birthday cake, chocolates, biscuits, candles and balloons for this occasion. The birthday celebration took place from 7:00 to 8:00. Took photos and videos of it with my digital camera. They spent about 2,000 rupees for this occasion. Went to sleep by 11:00.

5 December (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent most of the day in the abode of my cousin Sirisha reading Eenadu and Sakshi dailies. By 3:30 Sirisha, her baby Shiva Sahithi and I went to Monday Market at Jaya Lakshmi Nagar on foot. She bought vegetables and fruits in this weekly market. I enjoyed the noise of buyers and sellers here. I like the presence of fellow humans. By 5:15 Anantha Varma returned from Biological E Limited at Patan Cheru. Now he is working as an Executive in its Production Division. He gets about 15,000 rupees a month as salary. I like his character and lifestyle. Sirisha is lucky in getting such husband. She does not feel so because his salary is low and he did not inherit assets from his parents. Anantha Varma and I reached cinema Sridevi at Chanda Nagar by 6:10 in an auto rickshaw. He bought two tickets for 100 rupees for us. We saw the Telugu film “Sri Raama Raajyam” in it from 6:30 to 9:15. Bala Krishna and Nayana Tara played the roles of Lord Rama and Goddess Sita Devi respectively in this film. Bapu directed it. Ilayaraja is the music director. Enjoyed watching every bit of this film. The settings, songs, music and narration are mesmerizing. Sensations of bliss flew through my body while listening to background score, songs and watching many scenes in it. Bapu made it into a great film. One must watch it in a good cinema to feel the beauty and excellence of it. We returned home by 9:45. Went to sleep by 11:00.

6 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day in the abode of my cousin Sirisha. Took photos and videos for Sirisha, Shiva Sahithi and Anantha Varma in the afternoon and evening. They felt happy. Shiva Sahithi is an exceptional beauty. She is not consuming hard foods. They are feeding warm buffalo milk frequently. She does not believe in strangers. I am not happy about the housekeeping standards of my cousin. She is wasting food items, electricity and water. I advised her to change to the better. She is worried about their financial status and future. She assesses the worth of her husband from the perspective of money he is earning now and the immovable property he has. Life partners should love the character of the other more than their material wealth and other artificial attractions. Mutual love and service are worthier than assets and money in an ideal human relationship. Anantha Varma is a great son, brother, husband and individual. There is a lot for Sirisha to learn from her virtuous husband. Anantha Varma and I reached the main road by 6:30 on foot. He treats his guests well. He accompanied me up to bus stop for courtesy sake. Took an AC bus and reached Khairatabad by 8:00. Thence hired an auto rickshaw and reached Road No. 12 in Banjara Hills. Walked to the rented abode of my friend Rajani Kumar Raju. He cooked rice and prepared tomato curry for both of us. We watched television for some time. Went to sleep by 11:15.

7 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Washed my clothes and took a bath by 9:00. Rajani dropped me at the art abode of Veeru by 10:00. Spent my time here till 9:30. Veeru is undergoing stress and strain as an artist. He gets many orders throughout the year. He is unable to deliver them in time due to excessive work burden. He earns well as an artist but he cannot save it. I think idealists cannot save money. They spend more for others than themselves. He is not getting time to enjoy his personal life. He thinks and works as an artist day and night. He sleeps for five or six hours only at night. He has many books to read, feature film DVDs to watch on his computer, Internet connectivity, interest to see the beauty of India and do original paintings to create his image as a distinguished artist but no time to do them. He is doing reproductions for survival. The same is the case with my friend Rajani also. He helps others in getting bank loans and buying and selling mortgaged property. He gets commission in these projects. I am not happy about the standards of time management of Veeru or Rajani. They do many things for others but fail to plan well and satisfy their clients delivering things in time. I am better than them in this regard. I don’t allow others to play with my time but utilize it according to my schedules. Rajani and I returned to his rented abode at Banjara Hills by 10:00. Went to sleep by 11:00.

8 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 4:00. Got ready by 5:30. Took leave of Rajani and stepped out of his abode by 6:00. Took a taxi and reached Secunderabad railway station by 6:20. Bought a dozen bananas for 30 rupees. Took my seat 73, a window seat in reservation coach D-4, by 6:35. Janmabhoomi Express has been my favourite train for long. Most of its journey is during daytime between Secunderabad and Visakhapatnam. One can spend one’s time watching out from windows. This train started off by 7:15. There was no even one beauty around my seat. Regretted it. The presence of female beauty delights me. Unfamiliar and inaccessible beauty attracts humans more than familiar and accessible beauty. This is why we tend to love and admire others more than our life partners, siblings, friends and relatives. Bought a pack of Vegetable Biryani from a vendor in this train by 12:00 at Guntur railway station. Its quality and taste are less for 40 rupees. Somehow I had it. I have no authority to kill these immoral vendors or the cabinet minister heading Indian Railways. They made passengers into helpless victims in trains. A considerable Muslim beauty sat beside me along with her little son at Samalkot railway station. I could not see at her face comfortably due to excessive sense of courtesy for her. Enjoyed her presence for one hour. Got off this train at Tuni railway station by 6:40. Reached the bus stand in Payakaraopeta by 7:00 in a rickshaw. Took a bus and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 8:00. Went to sleep by 9:00.

9 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:00. Spent all the day at home. My brother Sambha told me that I should offer bribe to the folks of APPSC in Hyderabad to get the post of junior lecturer in a government college. Somebody advised him about it in this village. He said that we should pay about 5, 00,000 rupees for this job. I told him that I am not interested in getting any job through bribe. He criticized my attitude towards my life. It is true that almost every government employee is depending on bribes in India to grow financially faster. They don’t change unless capital punishment is implemented rigorously in every part of India. Politicians, policymakers, lawyers, judges, teachers, priests, police and many common people are also corrupt. So, such regulatory systems don’t take place in India. Government job means safety and security to many in India now. My brother thinks that I can live happily if I get this government job. I am crossing 34 years of age according to my educational certificates. I won’t be eligible to take government exams anymore. This is my last chance to become a government employee. I believe that Lord Krishna empowered me to live as an honest man always. I should not insult Him living like a shameless beggar under His divine guidance. I am born with a schedule. My life moves according to it. My soul is commanding and intrepid. Went to sleep by 10:00.

10 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:00. By 12:30 started to our mango garden at hills on the bicycle of my brother Sambha along with my paternal uncle Narayana Murthy. It’s a 30-minute ride. Spent talking with this uncle and aunt for about three hours. Went into our mango garden by 4:30 and walked through it for 10 minutes. The trees are getting ready for this seasonal crop. Talked with my paternal grandparents for a few minutes. The way to our mango garden from village Ramayyapatnam was not good until Sambha took initiative to get it developed through public funding. He closely moved with the local government employees and got this road developed. Electricity line was also established subsequently. Now cars and trucks can also travel on this road. The Kshatriyas of village Tangedu have about 200 acres of mango and cashew groves around our mango farm here. They never tried to improve the transport facility to this area by hills. They are better known for corruption and selfishness than social service and bravery. I don’t like the rich Kshatriyas of Tangedu because they grew financially looting public money and natural resources over the years. They have the qualities of thieves and criminals. They earned reputation in this locality like the British did in India once. I consider them as rich beggars in the Indian society. They are continuing colonial culture in their regions of control. Returned home by 5:30. Went to sleep by 9:30.

11 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 11:00 my uncle Narayana Murthy and I reached the mango garden of Mandapati Ayyapa Raju Gajapati Varma near Ramayyapatnam. Today the former and present Kshatriya residents of this village are conducting a biennial meeting for the community members. I too attended it as a guest. Gajapati talked for about half an hour explaining the state of present societies and Kshatriyas. I found his speech educative and insightful. He proposed the idea of setting up an old age home for the Kshatriyas in this village. He said that he would donate part of his agricultural land here for this purpose. Took the video of his speech for some time. About 200 Kshatriyas attended this function. Lunch took place from 1:30 onwards. Many Kshatriya families lived in this village till 1970. Thereafter many moved away from this place searching for better livelihood opportunities. Now there are four or five Kshatriya families only in this village. I felt nostalgic and disturbed while spending among these folks. Communities and religions are the beauty of Indian culture. We are losing the beauty of this diversity slowly. We can be liberal, secular and patriotic being part of our communities and religions also. We need not shun our surnames to be considered as great Indians. My uncle Narasimha Murthy and I spent in village Linga Raju Palem from 4:00 to 6:30. Returned home by 7:00. Went to sleep by 10:00.

12 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 7:00 my uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada called me up and told me that we should go to see a prospective bride for their son Hari in a village near Raavi Kamatham. Informed Srijana about it. My uncle reached Tuni by 9:00 by bus. I too reached here by this time. We took a Narsipatnam bound bus by 9:05. Srijana and Anand got into this bus at village Gindy by 9:20. Her cousin Gopal brought her here on a scooty from Viswanadhapuram. We four reached Narsipatnam by 10:20. We took a Madugula bound bus by 10:30 from bus station and reached Raavi Kamatham by 11:30. Thence we hired an auto rickshaw for 60 rupees and moved to the house of Vatsavayi Jagannadha Raju in village Pillavanipalem. Srijana and Anand spent their time with the prospective bride Padma and we spent talking with the father of bride and their relatives. They offered water, soft drink, tea and snacks for us. My uncle and I glanced at the bride candidate for a few seconds. I give 35 marks for 100 for her physical beauty. My cousin Hari gets 70 marks for 100 for his handsomeness. We exchanged the photos of the bride and bridegroom. We took a bus in Raavi Kamatham by 2:45 and reached Narsipatnam by 4:00. Thence Srijana and Anand took a bus for Tuni. My uncle and I took a bus for Adduroad Junction. We reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 5:00. My uncle, aunt and cousin Hari have to decide about the suitability of this girl for them. I am just an observer and advisor. Went to sleep by 10:00.

13 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 took a sharing auto rickshaw and went to Eti Koppaka. Bought wooden items (Paalavelli Budlu) for 150 rupees. Srijana told me to buy them. She ties them to a special wooden item in the Pooja room in our new rented abode. They have significance in Hindu tradition. I felt like buying other wooden toys in the store of Kondayya Shetty but for lack of money. Took a sharing auto rickshaw and returned to Peda Gummuluru by 12:00. Spent at the house of my youngest paternal grandfather Narayana Murthy Raju from 1:30 to 3:30. My parents and brothers think that financially I am very low now. I am not doing any job continuously. For them, a reliable job means one, for which one daily goes to an office. Told them that I can earn money working at home on my computer with Internet. I did not earn money well so far. They think that writing personal diaries and trying to live as a writer are the qualities of a stupid and innocent person. Only those, who can earn a lot of money, doing something, in a short period of time, are being considered as winners and achievers in the present Indian society. I could not do well in this direction. I think God likes the standards and characters of humans but not their physical attractions and material wealth. Since money makes many things, I should earn more money as a materialist. Went to sleep by 9:00.

14 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. My brother Sambha and I started to Payakaraopeta by 6:30 on his bike. We reached the house of Datla Satya Narayana Raju in Devi Nagar by 7:00. Srijana, her maternal grandmother, Anand, my maternal aunt Surya Bhaskaramma and my uncle Chanti Babu reached here by 7:10. We used two auto rickshaws to move our household items from the nearby room into our rented abode. We did it from 7:30 to 8:30. Revathi came here to help Srijana. The formal occasion of ‘Boiling Milk on Stove’ (Paalu Ponginchadam in Telugu) took place by 9:07. Meanwhile my brother Sambha and I went to Sitarama HP Gas agency at Bank Colony in Tuni. Paid 2,000 rupees to them. They gave me a used regulator, a customer service number and a filled domestic LPG cylinder. My folks arranged most of our household items in suitable parts of our rented abode by the evening. My uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada decided to get his son P V S Raju (Hari) married to Padma of village Pillavanipalem. She is not a suitable girl for my cousin Hari in terms of physical beauty. About 10 boys are competing for one girl for marriage in our Kshatriya community now. Many boys are remaining unmarried forever due to scarcity of girls. My uncle decided this way for these reasons. Hari understood the complexity of this situation. He is a good son. He always obeys his parents. By 9:00 our guests left our rented abode. Srijana, Anand and I live in this house portion hereafter. Went to sleep by 10:30.

15 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 6:00. Borrowed the bicycle of a construction worker here and went to Tuni by 10:30. Talked with the folks of Reliance Netconnect broadband service. They told me about the available wireless broadband packages. Gave my UPS to them for installation of a new battery in it. Bought two lungies for 130 rupees in a cloth store for me. Returned home by 12:00. Srijana and I arranged many cooking related items and dishes in our kitchen from 2:00 to 6:00. Also fixed my computer system. I don’t use it without UPS. Frequent power cuts are a daily threat here. There are two bedrooms, two toilet-cum-bathrooms, a hall, a kitchen and a Pooja room in our portion of house. I waited for the completion of construction of this portion for about 80 days. Construction of houses is still going on in Devi Nagar. There are more residential plots of land here than houses. Internal roads are in a bad shape producing dust. Rains disfigure them more. When development is taking place in an area, we need to wait for facilities. Air is plenty here. We are buying and using packaged drinking water. The water being provided in this house is not sweet and suitable enough to drink. We can see passing vehicles on NH-16 from our abode. Tuni railway station is about three kilometres from here. The monthly rent for this portion is 3,000 rupees. Went to sleep by 10:00.

16 December (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day at home. Srijana spent most of her time in the portion of our house owner Asha Bhanu helping her arrange their household items in appropriate places. They moved their items into this abode on the 9^th of this month. I am happy about coming into this abode as a tenant. This is spacious and beautiful for us. Recently my folks proposed me the idea of constructing a house for me in the plot of land beside the house of my brother Sambha in Peda Gummuluru. My father bought this piece of land for me. They want to sell the one acre of my paddy farm in Gollalagunta for about six lakh rupees for this purpose. My father distributed this agricultural land to me as part of his initial property distribution to his three sons. I objected to their decision of house construction for me. I am like a gypsy now. I move from place to place according to the direction of my Lord Krishna. I am happy with this state of my life now. My idea of a house is much different from that of many contemporary fellows. I want about five acres of fertile land in a tranquil and hilly region to build an abode for me according to my plan and choice. I cannot afford it now. I wait for 10 or 20 years to fulfill this objective. I will be comfortable with rented abodes till that time. I am in easy access to many now. Internet and cellphone made it possible. God is everywhere. Our life is an opportunity provided by God. Went to sleep by 9:30.

17 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 11:00 Sri Rama Raju and I went to Sandil Enterprises at Gaddi Market in Yanamala Shopping Complex in Tuni. They did not yet get a suitable battery to fit in my UPS unit. Thence we went to Airtel and BSNL service points to enquire about the broadband services they are offering in this area. They said that Airtel wireless broadband accessibility is still very low here. BSNL folks are yet to start this service in this locality. Reliance Netconnect seems to be the only choice for me. We returned home by 12:30 on bike. Now there is power cut for about 10 hours every day in Payakaraopeta. Today Srijana arranged some items in suitable places in our house portion. She arranged books, toys and mementos also as part of this internal decoration. She is good at beautification and packing household items. She rendered an orderly and beautiful look to our abode applying her housekeeping skills. We are buying one litre of fresh buffalo milk every morning from a nearby cattle keeper. He is selling it for 30 rupees. Subscribed to Telugu daily Eenadu. A paperboy is delivering it every morning. I read it every day to keep in touch with the contemporary society. Paid 3,000 rupees to the owner of the room, in which I kept my household items for about 80 days before moving into this portion. I slowly know about this area. Went to sleep by 10:00.

18 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 5:30. Today there was power cut for 10 hours during daytime. Spent all the day at home. Today I subscribed to the Telugu agricultural monthly magazine Anna Dhaatha. Paid 140 rupees to the local Eenadu agent T Krishna towards this annual subscription. He gave me a diary initially. It contains a lot of information useful for farmers in Andhra Pradesh. Scanned it for some time. I like agriculture. One, associated with agricultural land and cattle, lives longer and happier than those related to jobs, professions and businesses. However, agriculture turned into a fatal choice for many peasant farmers in Andhra Pradesh now due to manipulative middlemen and corrupt politicians. The availability of efficient and reliable farm workers became a big issue for peasant farmers. Many are looking for easy money. They are not interested in agricultural work. Also subscribed to Telugu film weekly Sitara. I love feature films. I enjoy reading news related to film industry. Also bought a Telugu book titled Madhumeham – Mana Dheham for 100 rupees from Krishna. This book carries informative and insightful articles on diabetes. My mother is suffering from this disorder. High blood pressure, heart problems and diabetes are major threats to Indians now. I like the business ventures and publications of Ramoji Group. I admire Ramoji Rao for what he is doing for Indians. I am benefitting from his exemplary services. Went to sleep by 9:30.

19 December (Monday)

Woke up by 5:30. By 10:30 my brother Sambha and my uncle Narayana Murthy came here from Peda Gummuluru on the bike of the prior. My uncle is getting ready for the marriage of his daughter Lakshmi Narasayyamma (Ashwini). He is planning to sell part of his immovable property for this purpose. My brother and I went to Sitarama HP Gas agency at Bank Colony in Tuni by 2:30 on his bike. Earlier they gave us a defective regulator. Gas is leaking from it. He made us wait for 90 minutes. I felt serious about it. He gave us a new regulator. I want to complain against them about their negligence in this regard. We returned home by 4:30. My uncle is working in the sugar factory at Payakaraopeta. He started to this place by 5:00. My brother started back to Peda Gummuluru by 5:20. Today the bride party folks formally saw my cousin Hari in their house in village Durgada. They found him to be very handsome and suitable for their girl Padma. They finalize the date of their marriage soon. Padma is lucky in getting Hari as her husband. He is handsome, virtuous and reliable. My uncle and aunt compromised about the beauty of Padma. She is not compatible to Hari in this regard. Padma has a younger brother. They are offering some marriage related gifts to the bridegroom. My uncle is happy about these assets and allowances. Money and assets play a big role in traditional Indian marriages. Slept by 10:00.

20 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Spent all the day casually. My financial situation deteriorated during the last one month. The expenditure increased but there is no income at all ever since I left Glads Media in Hyderabad. I bought my present Reliance LG handset for about 1200 rupees in 2008. It is still functioning well but I want to change it. Srijana’s Nokia handset is also about three years old. I must buy a new piece for her. There is no dining table in our abode. I have to buy one for us. I don’t have a bicycle also now. I have to buy a bicycle and bike for us. We somehow fitted the 6x6^1/2 iron cot in our master bedroom. We set a mosquito net on it. My friend Veeranjaneyulu presented it to me. In fact, my father-in-law got this iron cot made according to the size of this big mosquito net. Four to five creatures can sleep on it. I have to buy a mattress and pillows for it. I have to buy clothes for Srijana, Anand and me. Expenses of this nature can be considered as avoidable and manageable. Electricity, LPG, vegetables, milk and fruits are inevitable. We have to regularly spend money for the items of this order. My folks are treating me as a poor fellow because I did not buy even a little bit of land, gold or other assets so far. Honest and ideal persons need a lot of time to become self-reliant. I have to concentrate on earning money now because I neglected this facet of life for long. Went to sleep by 10:00.

21 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. My uncle Chanti Babu of Durgada called me up by 6:00 and informed me to be ready to go to Pillavanipalem. They are going to the house of bride Padma to attend the formal engagement program there. He invited me. They hired a taxi in Durgada for 1600 rupees. They reached Tuni by 7:30. I too got into it. We bought apples, oranges, bananas and flowers in Narsipatnam by 8:30. We reached the house of Vatsavayi Jagannadha Raju at Pillavanipalem by 9:40. Engagement program was over by 11:30. Formal lunch was over by 12:50. About 30 people participated in this program representing the bridegroom and bride parties. My uncle presented a silk saree and a gold ring to bride on this occasion. They gave one lakh rupees to my uncle for the formality of this occasion. They are mutually willing to the marriage of Hari and Padma. We started back by 1:00. We travelled via Kannooru Palem, Thaalla Palem and Elamanchili in the return journey. My maternal uncle Varma and I got off this taxi at Adduroad Junction by 2:15. I saw my goddess Lakshmi of Ramayyapatnam in this place. She wore a sari. She looked slim and beautiful. I don’t know whether she noticed me or not. My uncle bought five oranges for my mother. I spent at our house for two hours. Took a bus by 4:15 and reached Payakaraopeta by 5:00. Slept by 10:00.

22 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. My maternal uncle Varma came here by 10:00 from Peda Gummuluru. By 11:30 started using my Reliance Netconnect service with modem. It is wireless broadband with speed up to 3.1 Mbps. I paid 1500 rupees for it. The broadband signals are very low in this locality. Their tower is in Tuni. It is about three kilometres from this place. I am not happy about the service standards of Reliance folks. They promise a lot and serve a little. They don’t practice ethics in their businesses. Today I searched on Google for online freelance editing and writing works. I need to do much research to finalize some works. My uncle took a lorry by 3:15 at Y Junction in Payakaraopeta to go to Jaggampeta. He does not spend for long in the abodes of others. He is a bird of Gollalagunta. Evening spent with Sri Rama Raju for about three hours. We went to Tuni on his bike. Later D S N Raju took me on his bike. Bought a Super Hit electronic mosquito trap for 160 rupees. It’s like a badminton bat. It is made in China to kill mosquitos in India. Often mosquitos enter our abode to bite us. We use this weapon to kill them mercilessly. The modern Indian is living killing many creatures every day. Killing mosquitos is also a sin. I think Jains practice nonviolence better than Hindus. I heard about their rigid norms against all kinds of violence in human life. Night spent some time browsing Internet on my computer. Went to sleep by 11:00.

23 December (Friday)

Woke up by 5:30. Srijana, Anand and I reached cinema Gautham in Payakaraopeta by 2:10. We saw the Telugu film “Raajanna” in it from 2:30 to 4:40. Nagarjuna played the title role. It is an interesting and insightful film. Enjoyed watching it throughout. My sweetheart Nagarjuna produced this film. We hired a rickshaw for 15 rupees and returned home by 5:00. My house owner D S N Raju brought an intex rechargeable battery for me by 8:00. Now he is working as an armed guard at a branch of Axis Bank in Kakinada. He daily commutes from and to Tuni. Earlier he served in the CRPF for 20 years. He is a helpful and jovial person. My psychic attachment with Lakshmi is going on. She often visits me in my dreams. I experience bliss while feeling her presence in my dreams. Feelings of admiration are hard to explain in plain words. Many Indians think that one should not continue one’s attachment with a creature of opposite gender after one’s marriage with another creature. I consider it right to a great extent. Physically and psychologically we should belong to our life partners only. This is the norm in Hinduism. It is not possible for shallow Indians in reality. The attractions in this world disturb their psyches deeply. They become unethical. I am also a sinner from this perspective because I admire girls. Slept by 10:00.

24 December (Saturday)

Woke up by 5:30. Spent most of the day at home. There was power cut for about 10 hours. Afternoon spent some time with Sri Rama Raju. He is a freelance astrologer, civil engineer and house construction consultant. He is living in his house in Vaibhav Township at Naamavaram near Payakaraopeta. I often go out on his bike along with him. Evening Srijana bought a cloth piece for 320 rupees for getting a Punjabi dress stitched for her. She wears it on the occasion of her birthday soon. I have no money to buy anything for her. Frequent power cuts and low Internet speed are issues for me now. I am unable to earn money immediately through online works. Night typed out a blog titled “Departure” on my computer. I wrote about the departure of my divine son Sisir Kiran Varma in this blog. I got it scheduled to be posted automatically on my blog site by 8:00 tomorrow morning. The Blogger of Google is a powerful and reliable online platform for me to keep in touch with the world. Many are reading my blogs from about 15 countries. I am happy about it. I owe a lot to the folks of Google and Blogger. Night Srijana gave the cellphone number of Padma to my cousin Hari in Chchattishgarh. They two marry on 26 February, 2012. We experience thrill and excitement while talking with our fiancé or fiancée over phone before marriage. Hari and Padma enjoy this state of life until their marriage. Went to sleep by 10:00.

25 December (Sunday)

Woke up by 6:00. My brother Sambha and my mother came here by 10:30 from Peda Gummuluru. My mother brought two papayas and four guavas from our house for us. My mother is concerned about my poor financial status now. She advised me to start working online immediately and earning money considering my inevitable expenses now. I enjoyed their presence here. They started back by 4:30. A few familiar folks of Viswanadhapuram came here by 3:00. They are living in Tuni as tenants for the sake of education of their children in good schools and colleges here. They spent here till 4:45. Afternoon sent an online complaint to the customer service executives of Reliance Communications at Mumbai against Buchchi Raju of Sandil Enterprises in Tuni. He sold me a Reliance Netconnect⁺ wireless broadband device saying that it gives me 3 Mbps speed of Internet access but I am getting 100 Kbps only. I talked with him about it but he responded carelessly over phone using abusive language. I want to correct him in time. I should not allow a dirty rogue to cheat and insult people in this area. Many business associates in India think that most of their customers are brainless, helpless and cowardly. It is true to much extent. Ninety victims out of 100 don’t question criminals in society. Indians are slow learners. Went to sleep by 10:30.

26 December (Monday)

Woke up by 6:00. Went to Tuni by 11:00 on the bike of Sri Rama Raju. Spent in the office of Sriram Chits for one hour. Paid annual insurance for the bike of D S N Raju to the related executive here. I think insurance firms benefit a lot from vehicle insurance business segment. Most of the vehicle users run them carefully minding their safety on road. Accidents and related deaths occur rarely. Insurance firms pay back to very few of these vehicle owners. I saw some used vehicles in this office. They collected them from their undisciplined customers. Now many are buying bikes and cars depending on attractive finance schemes of public and private firms. They cannot repay their dues in time. They try to appear as rich and stylish blokes in society based on this false prestige. Now many banks and finance firms are favourable to immoral and illegal rogues in India. They lend a lot of money to such criminals. Poor and honest people are the victims of Indian banking sector. Collected four birthday certificates of Sisir Kiran Varma from the E-seva centre in Tuni by 12:30. Many casually say that we should not remember and retain the memories of those, who left us after spending with us for a little time only. I am against this notion. Events of pain and loss reform us more than experiences of achievements and happiness. Sisir taught me a lesson related to pain and loss. Went to sleep by 10:00.

27 December (Tuesday)

Woke up by 6:00. Spent all the day casually. One of my intensions in coming back to Visakhapatnam district is to be in touch with my parents, brothers and relatives. I am disturbed about the health disorders and habits of my parents and my brother Sambha. My father takes care of his health through daily brisk walking, physical exercises, proper lifestyle and disciplined medication. My mother is suffering from diabetes, high blood pressure and asthma. She is taking tablets every day. She does not take care of her health according to the advice of doctors. She worships Lord Shiva. She fasts frequently. Diabetes and high blood pressure are risky health problems. We should check our health condition regularly consulting doctors and undergoing necessary medical tests. Innocent and ignorant persons like my mother don’t face their health disorders in this manner. My brother Sambha did not stop consuming alcohol and chewing tobacco products despite our advice to him to avoid them. He is not ready to change. I want to see these folks frequently. I want to educate and alert them about their health. I love them. I like to see them as healthy and happy human beings. I know that Karma guides the lives of all creatures but as a materialist I often suffer about these things. Went to sleep by 10:00.

28 December (Wednesday)

Woke up by 5:00. Srijana, Anand and I took a bus by 8:00 and reached our house in Peda Gummuluru by 8:45. My brother Sambha told us to come here to attend the work of ‘Aadhaar’ cards for us. He knew that this program is currently going on in village Rajayya Peta in Nakkapalli Mandal. We got three residence proof documents attested by village revenue officer in Panchayat office at Peda Gummuluru. These are meant for Srijana, Anand and me. We hired an auto rickshaw by 2:40 for 100 rupees and started to Rajayya Peta from Adduroad. Sambha accompanied us. The activity of collection of details meant for the issuance of ‘Aadhaar’ cards is going on in a temple in this village. They collected our details by 3:30 due to our special request. They should not do so as per the terms and conditions of this program. We behaved immorally and illegally in this regard. I offered 100 rupees to the supervisor here as bribe for favoring us in this process. When governments are bad, even good people have to behave like bad ones now and then. One must be able to register one’s details for ‘Aadhaar’ card in many places throughout the year. Srijana, Anand and I may get these identity cards in one or two years’ time. We returned home by 4:15. My mother packed papayas and guavas for us. Srijana, Anand and I took a bus by 5:30 and returned to our abode at Devi Nagar in Payakaraopeta by 6:30. Went to sleep by 9:30.

29 December (Thursday)

Woke up by 5:30. Recently I created my account as a contractor on the portal of oDesk Corporation. It’s a reliable online space for freelance writers and editors to find works regularly and earn money. They posted great content on their portal explaining their policies and methods. Many professionals created their profiles on this portal. Many post their work requirements with estimated budgets. Freelancers bid them. We can work on hourly basis or for a fixed price for each of these projects. They pay in US dollars. oDesk provided different payment options to contractors. I opted for direct bank credit. They charge 10% as service fee for every payment we get from an employer. I wondered scanning the nature of works posted here. Erotic stories, blogs, BMR articles, reviews, rewriting, ghost writers and so on. There are many varieties of works to choose from based on our skills and available time to work on them. oDesk created different tests and policies to keep the reliability of their firm at high level. Many contractors bid for all works related to their field. There is competition among all these contractors in getting these freelance works. I am eligible to apply for 15 jobs a week now. I took some online tests on it to qualify for this quota of work. I want to work through this medium. Went to sleep by 10:00.

30 December (Friday)

Woke up by 6:00. My value as an earner kept decreasing over the last four years. I did not do jobs regularly. I could not earn money in other ways. I often depended on my father, friends and others to borrow money in critical conditions. I consider myself as an inefficient and worthless bloke in earning money and keeping my familiar folks happy this way. I am not happy with the idea of doing jobs daily going to the offices of mediocre firms. Most of the firms treat their employees as automated machines and bonded laborers in India. Employees shun their sense of self-respect and individuality while entering their offices to work. Ninety percent of the companies practice illegal and unethical procedures and policies in India. Indian entrepreneurs get ready to do anything to earn more money and reputation in a short period of time. I am deeply disturbed to witness this dirty corporate culture in India. Self-employment seems to be the only remaining option for me in this scenario. When most of the people are corrupt and immoral in a society, a righteous person cannot earn money as an idealist for long. For many Indians, earning money means cheating others directly or indirectly. I have to cheat others through my work related to self-employment. Lord Krishna gave me everything except money. I remained as a buffoon in India for this reason. Slept by 10:00.

31 December (Saturday)

 Woke up by 6:00. Today it was cool and cloudy. By 2:30 Sri Rama Raju took me to the office of Manappuram Finance in Tuni on his bike. I took out a loan of 25,000 rupees from it pledging the black beads gold necklace of Srijana. The monthly interest is one rupee for 100 rupees. I like the speed and less burden of formalities at private finance firms like Manappuram. Banks test our patience levels in this regard. I borrowed this money from this firm to face my inevitable expenses. Bought vegetables in the daily market in Tuni spending about 100 rupees. Night listened to my favourite Telugu film songs on my computer from 7:30 to 11:45. Asha Bhanu and Srijana decorated the entrance of our abode with designs made with white powder and other colors welcoming new English year 2012. Asha cut a cake by 12:00 in their house portion celebrating the arrival of New Year. I remained as a passive participant in this celebration initiated and run by Asha Bhanu. Today Srijana painted our big iron cot white using a brush. She gave it a second coat. Earlier they painted it once at Masanpalli. This year is disappearing from me like a saint. It blessed me with bliss related to my exceptional son Sisir Kiran Varma. He left us as part of his inevitable Karmic schedule. Went to sleep by 12:30.

© 2012 Datla Chiranjeevi Raju